#and feeling miserable

[byler-alarmist]

#oh look #they're doing the same thing #mutual piniing #mutual frustration #one is getting up because they care about el #the other is getting the wrong idea #and feeling miserable #byler #byler parallels #will byers #mike wheeler

[thethoriumreactor]

human alastor

(With a bonus baby al)

(Ignore whatever tf I did with the microphones idk how they work I’m sorry)

#I love the fact that he’s half French creole cause I am too we’re twinsies #(Im not a serial killer I promise) #I’m still sick and feeling miserable #He’s my emotional support serial killer #alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin art #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin hotel alastor #radio demon #thorium.art #hazbin hotel 2024 #hazbin #hazbin hotel art #vivziepop #human alastor #the radio demon #cw blood #sorry i forgot

[hexadonis]

some turnabout succession dialogue i rlly liked

#everyone talk to me in tags how r we feeling bcos i loooved this freak ass miserable exchange #my art #ace attorney fanart #ace attorney #aa4 spoilers #apollo justice #klavier gavin #klapollo #trucy wright #kristoph gavin

[wolfythewitch]

hello sailor

#i dont think im using that phrase right but he IS kind of a sailor so #tagamemnon #art #digital art #odysseus #odyssey #the odyssey #greek mythology #i am a Sick so heres an ody that looks as miserable as i feel

[suntails]

toot toot!

#breaking my streak of dramatic af captions bc look at this. look at it. wtf was i supposed to call it. he's tootin whaddya want from me #he go TOOT TOOT on his lil trumpet i fuckgjn LOVE HIM im maxing this card im serious #lvl 60 10/10 no expense is too much for my precious boy #i found a new brush that has this rly soft charcoal vibe and i used it on this whole thing and it was SEXY it was HEAVEN #it was fun for coloring too!!! and the outfit colors are fun to color OUGHH everything made just for me <3 feeling SILLY #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #his bunny outfit sweeps like im sorry but its the best card of the event and its not even fucking close #suntails #i did one 10-pull bc i wanted the paint bonus from epel's card even tho i HATE that card #and i instead got SUPER lucky and got deuce and NO epel!!! i couldnt be fucking happier #then my job interview today never called and i was miserable again but it was an internal issue and im now rescheduled for next week #so please dear god pls guys pray i get this job. i want it sooooo bad

[ailurophilerebeccaexists]

Touched starved and touch repulsed

#bpd safe #bpd vent #bpd feels #bpd culture is #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #tw mental health #tw depressing stuff #hell is a teenage girl #tw depressing thoughts #i’m miserable #i hate everything

[vvanini]

the gang & butters post covid evolution + hair versions

#south park #stan marsh #kyle broflovski #eric cartman #kenny mccormick #butters stotch #sp fanart #south park fanart #sp post covid #south park post covid #victor chaos #my art #i actually enjoyed doing this a lot #also stan looks so miserable i feel bad for him bruh #butters looks so cute i wanna hug him #he's so little 😭🥹🥺 #i like drawing kenny unhooded so that will be the default for him #VICTOR CHAOS IS SO HANDSOME

[yuyonyu]

Gogol’s unrequited love

#i died when he put fyodor’s arm NEXT TO HIS FACE #it’s kind of sad how nikolai’s feeling is one sided #he’s a widow now #congrats on joining the dead husband club #except that fyodor’s probably not dead💀 #skk lived too it’s not soukokover #the old man yaoi made me so miserable #bsd #bungou stray dogs #fyodor dostoevsky #nikolai gogol #gogol #fyolai #fanart #bsd fanart #art #fyodor really went KA BOOM BOOM

[neonbuck]

you have to love people for real. and that means loving them as people who have flaws, and will annoy you or get on your nerves some times. treating them like a toy or product you can throw away when you get bored or upset is not acceptable. it's what we've been conditioned to do, but it makes the world worse.

#.txt #i didnt always know this and i dont pretend i did. #i'm just glad i've learned it now at least #i went straight from a cult-like group into tumblrs 'its ok to kick any one out of your life for any reason' environment in my early 20s #it made my life turbulent lonely and miserable #thinking on the older adults who should have known better leading sheltered young queer people astray back then makes me feel so bitter.

[theallegedbird]

get ushankaed losers

#id in alt #cheil my new otp #trying so hard not to get my hopes up that is actually them or some alt version of them #failing miserably #when i tell you i screamed when i heard their voices.. #drew this all just with the lasso tool so i could feel something #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers #tmagp fanart #tma #the magnus archives #tma fanart #the magnus protocol fanart #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #fanart #avery draws #cw eyestrain #cw bright colours #1k #2k

[devasdiary]

fashionistas cosette and courfeyrac and their sad little loser boyfriend marius <3

#cosette fauchelevent #courfeyrac #marius pontmercy #courfius #marisette #marius x cosette #les mis fanart #les miserables #marius feels overwhelmed by all those puffy clothes #don't worry marius soon you'll have cute outfits too #my art #here's a proof i don't only draw hot yaoi base #JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO DRAW MARIUS'S FRECKLES NOOO

[animemoses]

uh, so my name is ofelia. i just got back from my mom's after being released from the hospital. if you could me out me so i can recover in peace and make my life a little bit easier i'm currently 200 dollars over drawn right now would really like some help.

pp / vn / ca

#ofelia.txt #sigh i feel so stupid making this post #but im miserable

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho... #'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this..... #(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

[theshadowrealmitself]

I prefer the theory that Miles has a B in Spanish because the Spanish they teach in schools is different than the Spanish he speaks at home more than the theory that he’s just bad at Spanish

Also, I’m getting tired of how people keep portraying Miles as more and more terrible at Spanish, like even if he’s not better at home, a B is still good!!

I know it’s mostly just jokes, but I swear it’s gonna cause a ton of people to just believe that Miles is just horrible at Spanish and refuse to give up that characterization, we’re gonna be watching in real time as a fanon version of a character gets popular and unavoidable

#miles morales #Spider-Man #spiderman #spider man #I feel like a bitter old miser shaking my fist at people from my lawn #but I just know it’s gonna get too popular

[crushing-on-nico-di-angelo]

love is what defines us

cosmos, carl sagan // humanity as told by uquiz free text answers, @judas-redeemed // @cheruib // the good place, gif by @trueloveistreacherous // rien ne va plus, margarita karapanou (tr. by karen emmerich) // everything everywhere all at once, gif by @rosalie-starfall // les misérables, victor hugo // unknown

#sorry guys feeling really hopeful and sappy #radical hope #love #carl sagan #uquiz #parallel #web weaving #text weaving #the good place #chidi anagonye #gif #poetry #margarita karapanou #everything everywhere all at once #quotes #les mis #les miserables #hugo #500+ #1000+ #2000+

[wyllsravengard]

there's a lot of discussion and speculation about the fact john doesn't speak of arthur in rdr1. logistically it's not hard to understand that rdr1 just came out years before rdr2 and thats why but . But.

but when you think of rdr1 with the additional context two, there is something quite... in line with john trying to forget arthur. wanting to. or burying him. not just in metaphor or in soil but in his memories and in some way failing to do it but in another succeeding

you think of john and his commitment to his son and wife and you think of his willingness to do anything for them. moral or not. righteous or not. and you think of the fact that john didn't know at the time the sort of man arthur believed him to be, but he perhaps modeled himself in the image of his older brother. near incidental. he has so little in common with arthur really. john's broody and lacking remorse and at twenty-six he's inconsiderate entirely in a way arthur never was.

but time is a thief and one day, he turns 38. he's older than arthur when he dies. and john doesn't remember well what he looks like, and all he can feel when he thinks of arthur is grief. grief that never ends. thats the thing about all of it, you'll realize - is that john knows arthur best in the retroactive.

the sort of complicated, odd man arthur was revealed to him in the creases of pages and keepsakes. in the carving of his guns that john finds after arthur is gone. in the ring of the woman arthur loved long ago. in the confessionals to his son isaac and the regret in the letters he wrote to their psuedo father. you realize john knows more of arthurs stagnant ghost that can't guide john into manhood the way he so desperately needs. and it's all he has to go by to make a man of himself.

john never finds out what kind of man arthur believed him to be and he has to infer the real good man arthur was. in grief there is love. john loved arthur enough to want to be like him. and in burying the living, breathing man arthur was he's forced to cling to his spirit. has to piece together the kindness of his older brother through memories and diary entries and secondhand stories. and that's how he models himself in rdr1 to me. where arthur is moral john becomes dutiful and where arthur is kind, john is helpful. he becomes the shadow of arthurs best qualities. he can never be arthur. no one could ever be arthur, even if arthur had given them the page by page instructions of how to do so. this is all he has. all he knows. all he can do.

john misses his brother. so he tries to embody him. but he can't really in the same way he can't grieve him. so he makes a home for arthurs ghost to return to in himself. john never mentions arthur because it dregs up painful what-ifs, but they share so many mannerisms and bastardized qualities. john has fashioned himself based on those loose memories.

one day, a stranger meets john and says. "why would you remember me, friend? you've forgotten far more important people than me" and john will remember all the ghosts he's ever loved briefly. there will be a blurry face and a forgiving voice and it will sound like a memory and it will linger in johns ribcage like a moth. and john won't remember. he won't. he can't. he buried his brother without ever doing it.

john says a lot of things. feels a lot of things. he shoots his gun to the stranger who calls his memory into question and the thing jams and the bastard roams free. john will taste blood in his mouth. he'll feel a cough in his lungs and well, he won't remember his brother still. buried men must stay buried.

of course. of course john never mentions arthur. he can't remember him, even though he's inherited so much of his manner. to speak it of him would be admitting to his existence. its admitting: i miss you. im sorry. it was my fault.

of course john never mentions arthur. he's made all this effort in forgetting him that even when his body and his gesture and his character betray the fact he's forgotten - his mind will soothe the pain and blur out his face.

and instead of remembering in life even once, he'll die the same way arthur did. alone. protective. contented. redeemed. john loves arthur like most brothers do - with muscle memory.

even if john cuts the necrosis of arthurs memory off of him, his body will twitch at the phantom feeling of his existence. john remembers even when he can't. arthur his only brother. the most important man he's ever forgotten.

#z.gen #arthur morgan #john marston #rdr1 #rdr2 #rdr1 spoilers #rdr2 spoilers #im feeling soooooo miserable about them you wouldnt believe