#aspd shit

[flashy-mf]

#flashy ✨ memes #aspd #actually aspd #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #aspd shit #aspd memes #aspd feels #low empathy #no empathy #cluster b #actually cluster b #cluster b safe #cluster b memes

[thattreeistoobig]

my aspd ass experiencing genuine attachment to someone for the first time and now expecting them to hurt and betray me every second of my life because it's been reinforced that people are unreliable and will hurt you when it's more convenient for them than not hurting you

#aspd shit #actually aspd #aspd

[system-of-a-feather]

Dude I missed the opportunity to fucking crack open a Tesla who left their dog in the car WITHOUT DOG MODE ON IN 100F WEATHER because Riku was in the front, I wasn't really tuned in for the day, and Riku was fucking hungry.

Like I am mad about the dog and animal abuse there and the negligence, but I'm also so fucking full of piss and shit and chronically want to throw down that I'm honestly more so upset I missed the opportunity to bash open a Tesla and possibly throw down with a little bitch who was nonchalant and like "what I was just in for a minute" and be in the objective right

My probable ASPD ass is salty. I literally live and breath for the opportunity to do legal and morally correct violence onto this world this fucking sucks. /hj for legal reasons/ I'm mad. Like legit mad.

To make it worse

We still don't have a FUCKING PUNCHING BAG here

-XIV

#alter: xiv #animal abuse #animal abuse tw #neglect tw #animal neglect tw #tesla tw #violence tw #aspd #aspd shit

[willows-woes]

something i've realised is bpd is almost seen as a "victim disorder" and npd is seen as an "abusive disorder." the fucking ableism in that oh my lord. they're both cluster b personality disorders, and both have extremely high correlation with childhood trauma. they're BOTH ""victims."" people treating pwNPD like horrible people for just Existing and then turning around and treating pwBPD like Poor, Hurt Souls needs to fucking stop.

#bpd #npd #cluster b #hi. im not diagnosed with either of these. but i know from research i have a few traits of them both. #so this is just commentary on stigma from a teenage psychology nerd. i just like researching this shit #childhood trauma #stigma #bpd safe #npd safe #i know i didnt mention aspd but that DOESN'T mean i hate pwASPD either. they're fine. #no pd deserves the stigma associated with them ngl #like yeah SOMETIMES you'll see bpd stigma about how they're manipulative shits. and it's awful because they aren't #but GENERALLY if you just search up npd what do you see?? how to TORTURE a narcissist. how to GET AWAY from a narcissist. #things about how everyone with npd is evil and im fucking tired of it

[thehealingsystem]

just a psa if you support borderlines but dont support those with narcissistic or antisocial or histrionic personality disorder then we dont want your support <3 ty

#we borderlines get a lot of shit but the disregard for other pds is baffling #our cluster b siblings deserve a lot better #yes this includes using terms like narcissist and narc abuse #also 'bpd abuse' DIE #bpd #borderline personality disorder #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #aspd #antisocial personality disorder #hpd #histrionic personality disorder

[ohara-n-brown]

I feel like people don't want to accept personality disorders as neurodivergencies because doing so would make us face the fact that they deserve accomodations too.

People with PDs need Accomodations too!!!

Like, yes. People with BPD do legitimately have a different style, context, and understanding of socialization. Just like Autism.

And just like Autism, PWBPD deserve relationship accomodations and their unique socialization style respected.

They may need more attention, or more verbal assurance. Thats accomodation!!

Some people with BPD cannot read nonverbal affection or affirmation. They need it said to them. And being extra clear with them - is accomdation.

Yes, people with NPD may need support, or affirmation, or for you to be clear with your approval, or acknowledge their accomplishments instead of acting like their behavior is expected.

THAT'S ACCOMODATION!!

Like we can understand that Autism and ADHD comes with different patterns of socialization that makes our relationships look different than those of neurotypicals-

So why wouldn't that be the same with them????

I feel like denying people with BPD or NPD or people who are Bipolar their neurodivergency denies them the accomodations they so desperately need.

People with PDs get punished and scrutinized for the way they communicate and their needs in relationships - JUST LIKE AUTISM AND ADHD

Instead of trying to get them to 100% conform to the idea and image of neurotypical relationships can we realize that the people around them will have to meet them halfway in understanding their CURRENT communication style

And that these people are NOT a burden because they require so.

The same as us. Coming to understand an autistic family member or friend means understanding you may need to be clearer, or more direct than with others.

Coming to understand a family member with BPD for instance means understanding you need to direct with affection, motives, and your feelings.

The same is true for all of Cluster B including Antisocial Personality Disorder.

Call them neurodivergent - so we can accommodate them. That way they aren't forced to use coping mechanisms when others around them refuse to acknowledge their needs.

For the love of god stop expecting them to conform 24/7. Stop expecting them to understand everyone else's communication skills when no one does the same for them STOP

GOSH

Like.... Can we give them accomodations now. Can we.

#actually autism #The shit people with PDs get put through #neurodivergent #actually autistic #audhd #autism #bpd #neurodivergency #neurodiversity #actually adhd #actually audhd #it's SO TIRING #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #borderline #actually npd #npd safe #npd positivity #cluster b #aspd #aspd safe #hpd safe #hpd #hpd positivity #aspd positivity

[spilleddeath]

#d3pression #su1c1dal #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #kinda depressing #suicudal #tw depressing stuff #cvtt1ng #deppresion #depressing post #depresszió #depressing memes #this is depressing #anxeity #anxitey #npd safe #aspd memes #aspd things #bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd yandere #bpd problems #actually bpd #bpd life #bpd favorite person #anxious #anxi4ty

[impunkster-syndrome]

I find it really funny when people imply I need to be nice to them if they appear to be supporting bigotry. I am not interested in your respectability politics of "Mean (minority) called me out in a way I don't like and is therefore not worthy of being listened to!"

No, I'm not going to play by your shitty rules. Even the minorities that kill people and are bigots deserve to not experience oppression. If you think "Only the ones that are nice to me" do, you've got some fascism to deconstruct.

#madpunk #cripplepunk #transandrophobia #Like come on buddy I have ASPD and your social rules are bullshit do you think I give a shit about the expectation to be nice

[vulgarcunt]

Maybe YOU aren’t the bitch with aspd/npd/bpd that’s a bad person but I am

#i hate people with pds that wanna appeal to neurotypicals so badly #‘look at me i have this pd and i am good!!! give me a sticker!!!’ #🙄 get over urself get off your high horse bitch #if you even sneeze wrong those people u wanna be liked by so badly would lynch u #im a bitch with many pds and i have no morality and no desire to conform #and apparently if i am im contributing to the stigma #like I really don’t give a shit #let ppl with pds that are labeled as evil be evil #no my pds do not make me a bad person either im just a bad person with said pds #the empaths would have a stroke if they met me #cluster b #aspd #npd #bpd

[flashy-mf]

Trauma’s no longer traumatic enough, I need something stronger

#flashy ✨ thoughts #cluster b #actually cluster b #bored #boredom #apathy #aspd shit #aspd thoughts #recklessness #adrenaline #thrill seeking #adrenaline rush

[thattreeistoobig]

Fuck having ASPD honestly. Hate that my default state is "nobody's gonna take care of me so I gotta do it myself" and "nobody will want to keep me and I will always be alone". Hate that someone who does want to keep me is not an Exception and kinda irritates me even though I love her, but my actual main Exception does not really want to keep me at all

Like how bullshit is it that I find someone who I actually care deeply about, feel bad about lying to purely because I lied to them and nothing else, and want to be around a lot, and they probably won't keep me. It's bullshit that I want them to keep me and they probably won't. It's bullshit that I don't even know if that's legit how they think because my personality is so disordered I can't conceptualize anyone wanting someone in their lives past their convenience

Why the hell do I gotta go my entire life unable to form attachments but when I do feel such rage at the concept of abandonment that I feel like a child throwing a tantrum because daddy doesn't wanna talk to me and mommy thinks I'm evil

Honestly I'm so torn between enjoying that I'm attached to this person and being enraged that I'm attached to anyone at all

#actually aspd #aspd shit #swallow the valley whole #self portrait: max #yeah im aware these are disordered thoughts im not stupid #gotta talk about them so i dont do anything about them though

[system-of-a-feather]

Really glad XIV has found something he likes so much just for the sake of liking it, it's a wonderful feeling. - Green from @reimeichan

For REAL though.

Like I literally can count the things I experience regular positive affect for on my hand, actually I'll go ahead and do it now 1) The system, specifically Riku who is the yin to my yang 2) Martial arts and violence 3) The guitar / guitar music 4) Communism and 5) chewing things.

1, 2, and 4 inherently tie to trauma, 2,3 and 5 are solely because they are the easiest sensory de-escalators. #3 I think I'd still like even if I didn't need something to quickly calm me / defuse me / give me a non-destructive outlet; but I really really don't think I'd love it even remotely as much if it didn't serve as one of the few relatively reliable things that can take me out of an aggressive fit and/or fight response.

And like honestly? Beyond that, that's it. I have a good relationship with our fiance, but my attachment is fucked and my feelings towards relationships as a result are a lot more transactional than not. I like his presence, and I like him and what he brings into our life, but as it is I don't think I could in true honesty say that I like him for the sake that I like him. Kinda shitty thing to say, but he's aware on how this be for me and its a work in progress.

But to actually have this mysterious thing I love and get positive emotions and care for.... for little more than it being an aesthetic and a mood and honestly just having a great character design / combat design / sound design?? Just for all those arbitrary reasons??? It's pretty nice honestly and like, I am definitely "overplaying" / leaning far far into the joy this gives me, I could easily like disengage from it because I really don't get caught up naturally in positive emotions most of the time; but like no joke its a major sign of healing for me that I **can** experience this affect so I see absolutely no reason that I should mute it at all.

Plus anyways, I live hard by the rule in life that I exist to enjoy and live happy with myself and live my most genuine life as myself that I can and anyone who has an issue with that can get the fuck out and leave since I quite frankly don't have time for people that want to stifle me or make me change for them. I intend to get better and I intend to fix a lot of my toxic and antisocial issues, but that is for myself. If they can't see the vision of where I'm going in life and/or see it and don't like it, that's up to them.

If me never shutting the fuck up about Vergil and Bury the Light is something that would drive someone away, then good riddance, saves me time on a waste of skin, space, and breath.

But I digress, I can experience a consistent unadultered positive feeling towards something that isn't transaction / function driven and so I'm gonna sit here and make Riku scream about Vergil being around every corner cause the algorithms on everything know what I want to see.

It's a good time for me and its a funny time for them. Anyone upset with that can suck it to be quite frank

-XIV

#alter: xiv #vergil posting #vergil #vulgar tw #ask #asks #aspd shit #aspd tendencies

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

haha hey remember that whole speech izaya gave to masaomi about how his guilt over getting saki hurt "will be [his] god" and how it mirrors izaya's role in shinra's stabbing and how he STILL has nakura under his thumb because of it, partly because of his own guilt in the matter. haha did you know that if youre unaccustomed to feeling guilt for whatever reason- either you repress it constantly or just straight up can't feel guilt- when you DO end up feeling it full-force, you have absolutely no coping skills in place to deal with it because.... well... when have you ever? when could you have learned? haha did you know that this can lead you to repressing guilt even further because of how distressing the act of Feeling It is?

haha do you ever think about izaya- not the person himself but his name, a different reading of "rinya," named after the biblical isaiah, his father a Christian, growing up in a religion that heralded guilt as not only an absolver of oneself but as a necessity to eternal life? do you ever think about how growing up seemingly unable to feel guilt would do to someone in this environment? this horrible feeling as you realize you lack the inate ability to feel something so crucial to life, to the afterlife? to being remembered? to continuing on? and what happened the first time he ever felt guilt over something? he was just a child, dealing with an emotion he'd never felt before- did he repress it? it seems like he did. imagine trying to repress guilt then feeling more guilt over your repression of it, because not being able to feel it is one thing but actively turning away from it is another, but god, it hurt, and you have sisters to feed and a life to live and hurt compounding in on itself and you know human beings have limits and you can't go on feeling guilt and reach yours. you have sisters and they need you and you know you would never shed your cowardice long enough to kill yourself, so whatever hell you were in, you'd be stuck there, so best not make it worse.

you can go through your life thinking that your lack of guilt was because you don't really do anything that necessitates guilt- you don't do much of anything at all, really, you just watch, but then you meet a boy and you do things and you do more things and a floodgate opens and things get riskier and riskier and your only friend gets stabbed and that, that necessitates guilt and it comes in droves- overwhelming, horrible, and you're completely unequipped to deal with it.

you know you're rotten, now, but there's nothing you can really do about it. so you continue on being rotten and repressing any guilt you feel because the thrill of doing what you do outweighs the guilt anyway, and it's not like you can stop- not like you want to stop, more like, because you're in control of everything. and most of all, you're in control of yourself. and all the while that guilt lingers behind you.

watching.

judging.

you may have become an athiest but you've created your own god, ready to condemn you to your own Hell.

isn't that funny?

#durarara #izaya orihara #orihara izaya #waposts #literally was just sitting here thinking 'hrmmm i havent done a meta in a while' then wrote one lmao #this is like.... 3x the length i thought itd be #anyway. izaya and guilt. no this does not contradict the aspd headcanon YOU CAN FEEL GUILT AND REMORSE AND JUST REPRESS OR JUSTIFY IT #THIS IS IN THE DSM #ITS IN THE DSM!!!!! #SO DONT TRY SHIT #aaaaaand post! teehee

[clusterbconfessional]

Would love a petition for the American Psychiatric Association to revamp the current diagnostic criteria for individuals with PDs in order to remove the stigmatizing language and focus on the effects the condition has on the patient rather than the potential social consequences. Would love that. Let me know when it happens.

#a diagnosis is intended to HELP the patient not condemn them #why diagnose someone with a condition just to shun them and refuse to treat them? #I don’t give a shit what the quote on quote studies suggest #all personality disorders can be treated and helped if only we were respected and treated like the patients we are #patients suffering from TRUAMAGENIC or NEURODIVERGENT DISORDERS #most individuals suffering from PDs and their close friends can vouch for this #NOBODY is unloveable #EVERYONE is worth a try #okay rant over #cluster b #npd safe #cluster b positivity #bpd safe #cluster b confession #npd #aspd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #hpd safe #cluster a #cluster c #hey cluster baddies

[maybe-an-aspd-angel]

#aspd thoughts #aspd feels #aspd things #actually aspd #aspd traits #psychology #life quote #quotes #mental health #quoteoftheday #kinda depressing #depressing shit #bipolar girl #bpd tag #bpd blog #borderline personality problems #living with borderline

[cluster-b-culture-is]

cluster b culture is nodding while listening to your online friends dreams of meeting up knowing damn well they'd stop being friends if they actually met you

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#cluster b culture is #cluster b #bpd #npd #hpd #aspd #mod saltwater #anonymous #holy shit this is my biggest fear