#bc it was working in photo mode but not video mode

[katiesbowlcut]

hiii i saw u needed requests to blurbs/ headcanons so here i am 🤭 could u write julien x reader where julien has a crush on a random youtuber (that like talks about books and stuff) and phoebe and lucy makes fun of julien bc she wasn’t this type of person before and then one day this bookworm youtuber says that she’s going to a boygenius show and julien tries everything to meet reader?

pls and thank u

i hope this isn’t too long

julien baker x yt!crush ღ

format: blurb

warnings: none!

a/n: i literally fell in love with this the second i saw it omg it’s so cute<3 been working on some anxiety comfort ideas but can’t choose a member of muna or boygenius to do first so if there’s one anyone would like to be first please do request it!! thank you so much for all the likes on my stuff it means the world 💞

okay so, the boys are on tour but tonight is a very special night for them becauseeeee… they have a night off!! they go out, have some nice dinner then decide to just chill in the tour bus for the rest of the night because they don’t need to wake up extra early to go to their next tour destination

so julien is in her lil bunk (pls i can just imagine how snuggled up she is) and she is so beyond bored

so what do you do when you’re bored? you browse tiktok until you fry your brain!!

she’s scrolling on her fyp not really bothering to actually watch through any of the tiktoks she's starting, that is until she sees…you

she mutters a barely audible “woah”

within a minute she’s followed you and is now stalking your whole account

cut to around 20 minutes later and she’s holding her phone sideways (pretty close to her face but not that close that she can’t see) watching one of your youtube videos.

this spiral continues until she is that exhausted she physically can’t keep her eyes open anymore

for the next few weeks this is her new routine: getting ready for shows watching your videos, buying your favourite books online and reading them on her phone when she gets the chance. she never falls asleep without watching at least one of your videos & a few tiktoks

one time she’s watching your newest video after having to wait a whole excruciatingly long day, she’s got headphones in, she’s never been so relaxed until…

you say you HATE people who read books online

“just buy the real book? why can’t people put down their screens anymore” and you’re clearly not being serious as you laugh and continue to joke about how all millennials are just taller ipad kids

but julien? it is no joke to her. in an instant she has removed her online books and has planned to go to the nearest bookstore when she’s next free and buy them all ‘for real’

i feel like the moment phoebe and lucy find out is SO FUNNY like i can picture them all sat together before a show, lucy just talking about the most recent book she’s been reading when julien chimes in with “oh yeah i just finished reading that, so good”

silence fills the entire room… phoebe and lucy share a look of horror

“where’s julien and what have you done with her??” phoebe would joke absolutely cackling with lucy about it

this is where the ‘bullying’ starts and never ends!

somehow they manage to convince julien to give them your name so now all of boygenius + katie gavin follow you on tiktok AND instagram

after seeing this you obviously have to make a tiktok about it. your favourite band members of all time just followed you back! you continue to rant and rave about it in your tiktok, also choosing to mention that you are seeing boygenius the following week and how crazyyy it is that they have followed you for a reason unbeknownst to you

this causes julien to go into panic mode. she was going to be performing to you NEXT WEEK

jump forward a week to the show, it’s going great! julien spent the whole day checking your instagram to see where you were at and when you’d be arriving. there’s barely and service in the venue, so unfortunately, her last update was a photo of you in the queue (she definitely took a screenshot because you look amazing)

so, they’re around 5 songs into the show, then she spots you. you’re standing only one row back from the barrier. julien can’t help but stare because you look beautiful

phoebe and lucy take notice of this but play it off cool. they share a menacing look before phoebe leans into the mic and says, “so, anyone got a crush right now?”

julien swears she nearly puked the second she heard that.

the conversation drags on for what feels like hours to julien when in reality it was only really around 5 minutes, majority of it being taken up by the crowd screaming in response to their several questions about crushes

it goes quiet for a second

“jb has a crush… she’s actually here tonight” the crowd starts SCREAMINGGG. people literally praying it’s them (so real)

julien has now sat on the floor of the stage with her face completely buried in her knees, lucy is still standing in front of her microphone dying with laughter over how embarrassed julien is getting.

little did she know though, it was about to get so much worse!!

lucy had dmed you the night before and basically just told you that julien had like changed her whole personality because of her crush on you. she also very sneakily organised for you to come backstage after the show and meet for the first time ever!

PLEASEEE imagine LUCY DACUS messaging you randomly and telling you that JULIEN MF BAKER HAS A CRUSH ON YOU.

lil time skip to that but imagine julien stood there fiddling with her fingers while she waits for you because she’s so nervous

you asking her the best books she’s read because of you<33

i can perfectly picture lucy and phoebe just stood there like ‘😁’ before having an “oh shit” moment and realising they’re intruding LMAO

your first date is to your favourite bookstore btw

I LOVE SOFT MASCS. (i am one)

a/n: this is my first blurb ever 😮 i’m so sorry i didn’t see this until now! hope you liked it :) again please feel free to send any other requests you have i love munagenius 🫶

#julien baker #julien baker x reader #boygenius #boygenius x reader #live laugh love julien baker #I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHH #not proofread

[judeswhore]

No but going to an event with Jude and running into your celebrity crush?? Or even better, you go without him because he had a game and couldn’t make it and there’s photos of you and your crush everywhere and he’s called you a million times that night but your phone was in your purse and you fall asleep early because it was such a long night out and you just wake up to him banging on your hotel door and you open the door in some lingerie kinda sleepwear, your makeup smudged because you were so drunk you couldn’t bother to take it off, and he’s just barging in, not sure if he wants to yell or cry, because he trusts you but this is looking like his worst nightmare. And he can’t even bring himself to look at you much less properly ask you so he just is starting questions he can’t finish. He’s storming around your hotel room looking for someone or some kind of evidence that’s going to save him the trouble and he’s working himself up near tears.

You’re still hungover and you’re just rubbing your eyes and go “last night would’ve been much better if you were there” and he stops in his tracks right in front of you and you can see his eyes watering and he’s realizing how crazy he’s acting and he’s like “yeah?” you just nod and laugh and are like “Yeah. Though this crazy jealous boyfriend thing is kind of cute too”

the pictures of u seem a little too cosy for jude’s liking. ur sat next to each other and are giggling and talking constantly and from the pictures and videos it’s clear how much fun ur having and just seeing that makes jude jealous bc he wants to be there and he wants to be the only one who makes u laugh like that. he’s tried calling u constantly but ur not answering, he’s texted a thousand times but u haven’t opened any of them and now the worst possible thoughts are running through his head. like he trusts u so much but there’s a part of him that’s panicking that maybe he isn’t enough for u. but in reality u were so drunk and tired u crashed the minute u got back to ur hotel (maybe u even tried to send a text to jude but it didn’t go through for whatever reason) and u had no idea he’d been trying to get in touch with u. so he literally turns up at ur hotel, furious and upset and worried bc even through his anger he’s wondering if something bad has happened to u. opening the door to him in this skimpy little night dress that was gifted to u for the event (u look hot and jude can’t even bring himself to appreciate it), make up a complete mess to the point it looks the way it does when he’s fucked u good and now he’s in full blown panic mode wondering if all his biggest fears have come true.

he’s demanding to know wtf happened, going crazy looking around the room and into the bathroom as though someone might just pop out and ur standing in the doorway completely confused. hungover but feeling happy that he’d come all the way to see u but also baffled as to why bc u knew he had a late match the night before. he’s throwing all these half questions at u abt what happened the night before and u know he’s seconds away from a meltdown when he starts asking abt the guy, abt where he went and if u went for drinks w him or brought him back and suddenly the confusion is gone and u realise exactly what he’s thinking and u know the whole thing is sparked from jealousy so ur walking to him, palm settling on his arm so u can rub his skin soothingly telling him “i went for drinks with a few girls i met. it was fun actually, they were lovely but it wld’ve been so much better if you’d have come with me” and he’s finally meeting ur gaze and u can tell he’s already been crying and it just breaks ur heart. cupping his cheek and brushing ur thumb over his skin and he’s all “yeah?” and ur like “yeah u idiot. i wanted u there w me the whole night, stuff like this is boring when ur not w me to be judgy” and u can practically see his shoulders sag w relief but he just has to ask abt the guy and ur shaking ur head and leaning up to kiss him so softly telling him “he’s lovely yeah, and we had a great night but he’s not u. doesn’t matter if i used to fancy him or not, he’ll never be u and i’d never want him over u” and u just know he needs a little reassurance so ur pressing soft kisses over his face repeatedly while reminding him how much u love him and that it’ll always be him no matter what

#hey jude :)

[hollywoodsargeant]

What are your favorite Logan and/or Loscar pics?

++ do you have any where Logan is actually smiling with his teeth? I love his smile so much but everytime he sees a camera he does exactly this face :)

i love getting these asks. yes i want to talk about logan for an unnecessary amount of time. yes i will show you pictures of him. this is the greatest day of my life. ik you did not ask for commentary you just asked for pictures but the commentary is included for free thanks for coming

i have so many logan pics… easy answer is they’re all my favorite which is real but i won’t be annoying. also applies to loscar. let’s go. i will give both logan and loscar pics and YES i definitely have some where he's smiling with his teeth i will include (+ if you have not seen my thesis yet i have some real insanity about his smiling tendencies)

anyways. here u go

okay first is this picture bc it's been in my favorites album forever and i think. this is the third time i've been asked for my favorite logan pictures and i always include this one. great merch shoot all around i owe my life to whoever decided it was a good idea to put him in a sleeveless shirt

something about this fucking polo shirt man... i remember seeing a video clip of him walking into the paddock and being like omg the fucking polo shirt. and i took some really horrible quality screenshots. so the actual photo of him is great for my business... and this is monaco fyi

bahrain press con loscar... there r many images from this press conference that i enjoy but here's the two of them gayly staring at each other. and thank god for oscar piastri in shorts great for my business (i want to bite his thighs)

my friend described this once as "the picture where oscar has fully given up" (implied on acting straight) and i think about that a lot

more recent loscar. spectacular work. i love this picture so much it's my banner or whatever on here... and it includes some logan smiling with his teeth. more oscar giving up. really good all around thank you whoever decided mclaren and williams should be paired up here again there are other images from this fanzone thing that i love but this one is my fav

kyle... logan kyle... my favorite florida boys... another one that i'm like. i can't not include it. this one is my banner on twitter (NOT X) and i still love it to tiny little pieces. even if logan is in ultimate Smiling For The Camera Mode i just think he is neat. hockey guy. also hearing kyle talk about this night amuses me bc he called logan a superstar

so. yeah i don't know. something something hometown boy... florida man... special helmet et cetera. he clearly just got a haircut before miami and it's really apparent in all of these shoot photos ANYWAYS this is my favorite picture from his helmet shoot. this or the one of him and benny and benny's wife that is not from the shoot actually it was just on benny's instagram but it makes me smile

his suit does him well. Next

h. for one he looks very impeccably like a ken doll in the first one then the second angle where he's smiling with teeth... very important. i love him so very much i will put him in my pocket goodbye forever

more of him laughing w alex for Reasons. his tendency to touch with the back of his hand... especially while laughing... let's not get into that. bonus austin 2022 bc i am still amused by the fact that alex was against logan in that head2head for some inexplicable reason. it was never acknowledged. latifi just was not there

I JUST THINK HE'S CUTE.

peak logan smile. he's so perfect. Goodnight. actually here's a bunch of random shit i like:

i hit the image limit. thanks man

#ask #BIG FAN OF LOGAN SARGEANT. #that's my man. et cetera #i def have more loscar pics but i got distracted my bad #but i do not have 3k+ logan pics on my phone for nothing #i am here for. a reason #logan #that is the reason #i love logan #xoxo #logan sargeant

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

would u ever explain the circley levels of hell chapter/plot/theme structure bc i am very curious 👀👀👀

WELL NOW THAT I'VE FINISHED MY DEGREE!! yes absolutely!

I'll make a video explaining this too since it might be helpful to hear me explain it with... my face, but this circular story structure is something I'm calling orbital plot structure. Luckily for all of us, I wrote up a detailed memo for my workshop which I'll share below (with lots of expansion)!

Disclaimer: The following is all my original writing theory AKA I came up with all of this myself AKA this method is in early development. You're welcome to share it/use it wherever, just link back to me! This also means when I think more, there may be more to say, LOL.

TL;DR: the orbital plot structure consists of two elements: the thematic satellite and the "scene" rings that orbit the satellite. I've shared two versions (the original and the modified version) below!

Orbital plot structure

The orbital plot structure consists of two essential components: the thematic satellite and the scene rings. We have a core theme (the “satellite”) that every single scene “orbits” around. Every scene links back to the theme.

Plot progression/movement comes from the rings rippling outward (indicated by the outward pointing arrows). However, this movement is still deeply connected to the theme (indicated by the unfilled arrows pointed inward—we are pushed out by the theme like an exhale but naturally brought back toward the theme like an inhale). The amount of rings will differ for each work.

This plot structure may work well for theme-driven stories and chapters between 1500-3500 words.

Example:

Below is an example of the classic orbital plot structure for the first chapter of my novella, BODY BACK (chapter update HERE!). That chapter is called "Living Pictures."

The theme for this chapter of course is "life as a living picture." Every single scene is necessitated by this theme and therefore precipitates the next scene that is also necessitated by the theme.

Here is a breakdown of how each scene links back to that theme:

Scene 1:

Harrison floats fully-clothed in a pool that belongs to a wealthy couple. He is jaded and also thinking about God

Explanation: This scene quite literally IS a living picture. Harrison feels unreal/otherworldly and not like an actual human person.

Scene 2:

Harrison describes the couple who own the house/pool. The man is a realtor, and the woman stays at home mostly, but walks dogs on the side.

Explanation: Harrison projects the couple who owns this home into "living picture" mode. He doesn't see them as people, but merely as The Realtor and The Dog-Walker.

Scene 3:

Harrison contemplates his “easy” Las Vegas life since moving in with his mother, Suzanna.

Explanation: Harrison explains how HIS actual life in Las Vegas has felt like a living picture (he also resists this idea at the end).

Scene 4:

Flashback: Harrison recalls drawing his new sort-of boyfriend, Jeremiah.

Explanation: This flashback with Jeremiah is ALSO a living picture. Heightened language. Dreamy imagery. He doesn't feel present, but like a snapshot in a moment.

Scene 5:

Harrison describes his vices (smoking and his ex, Lonan lmao, comparable) which trickles into a recurring dream/nightmare of Lonan.

Explanation: This scene is AGAIN a living picture--more dreamy language (it's quite literally a dream too). Lonan is captured in this memory, even though this moment was once real and not a photo.

Scene 6:

Distracted by the dream, Harrison is caught by the couple. The man seems unimpressed by him, though the woman (Sadie), perhaps realizing how young he is, invites him inside for tea.

Explanation: We SHATTER the living picture (LP) here. Harrison isn't living in a dream state, he's actually very much in the real world where breaking into a stranger's pool is NOT okay. LOL.

Scene 7:

Harrison observes the couple’s “catalogue” home while Sadie makes tea.

Explanation: Sadie and her husband live in a home that is also picturesque. BUT, he quickly notices something is amiss--she doesn't actually seem to genuinely exist in its pristineness and niceties, just like Harrison doesn't exist in the niceties of his "new" life in Las Vegas. This is why I ended the chapter here--he's addressed the theme.

You'll notice I didn't include the arrows in the above diagram--I've only included those for demonstration purposes to show how movement in this type of structure works. You know how water ripples in a circular pattern when you drop a stone into it? That's how this story structure progresses--every scene revolves around that stone in the centre.

^^ A visual for you!

Typically, in western storytelling, we think of structure like this:

This diagram is known as Freytag's triangle/pyramid, and it's a useful way to understand stories (though... not my favourite for many reasons, but a great place to brainstorm your own writing theory). In diagrams like this, it's easier to see the movement of a story, since the line naturally moves left to right.

You could ABSOLUTELY map "Living Pictures" on the above structure, but I personally prefer the orbital plot structure for this particular series of books (Moth Work x Feeding Habits x BODY BACK) because of how deeply thematic they are. Because those projects are very internal and driven by complicated emotional exploration into central themes, it only made sense to map my own story structure that was reflective of that.

To clarify, I don't mean that other structures can't contain theme. Of course they can! But this plot structure is specifically built for thematically-driven work (this would NOT work if your work was not thematically-driven).

Funnily, the orbital plot structure is what my brain "sees" as I write chapters in this series (I don't follow this structure for every project). So while some people outline, brainstorm, etc, in advance of drafting, I start drafting with this in mind. Usually I don't figure out the theme until I'm through the first scene, or sometimes until I'm done the first draft, but when that theme is identified, it's very easy for me to either mould the rest of the chapter around the theme, or revise it around that theme.

If I'm stuck while drafting a chapter, it's usually because something about the theme isn't clear--consciously or subconsciously--to me.

Also: because of the nature of this structure being quite specific to a theme, this is probably not the best fit for very long works/chapters. But I'm sure you could try!

Speaking of longer works...

Orbital plot structure (modified)

The modified orbital plot structure follows the same principles of the orbital plot structure with two essential components: the thematic satellite and the scene rings. Scenes continue to orbit the “satellite.” However, a new element—fossae/dips—are introduced in the case of longer word counts (3500+).

The amount of rings and dips will differ depending on the project (there can be more or less than what is pictured above). These dips serve as scenes that may not be as closely related to the theme but that still move the work toward another thematic scene/“bump.”

Plot progression/movement comes from the rings rippling outward (indicated by the outward pointing arrows). However, this movement is still deeply connected to the theme (indicated by the unfilled arrows pointed inward—we are pushed out by the theme like an exhale but naturally brought back toward the theme like an inhale).

I'm not going to include a physical example of this because that would be... a teeny cumbersome, LOL, but this is just an option for people who like the orbital plot structure idea but don't feel like they want to write scenes that are extremely thematic every single time (or their work wouldn't fit that original model).

To note: The dips/bumps don't need to be uniform. Two dips can follow each other, just as three bumps could follow each other. This will depend on you and the work.

But good writers don't gatekeep <3 so here's a written version of chapter six of Feeding Habits that follows this structure quite nicely. For the sake of clarity, I'm going to call the fossae/dip scenes "dips" and the thematic scenes "bumps."

CW: Dead animals, blood, violence

THEME: Indissoluble bonds

Scene A:

DIP: Harrison gets back to the NYC apartment he shares with his mother after running errands to ward off either the spirit that haunts their walls or to rescue whatever is stuck in them. His mother preps for a dinner as Harrison has invited his old pal Reeve over.

Explanation: This scene MUST happen to get us to the following "bump," and that's because we get some critical exposition here: Harrison has had to go to a hardware store for supplies to cut open the drywall in his apartment as he and his mother can hear something in the walls, AND, Reeve is coming over for dinner at Harrison's request. We're not sure why.

Scene B:

BUMP: Harrison removes a litter of kittens from behind the drywall. One of the kittens is dead. Strangely, a German Shepherd puppy is also in the litter.

Explanation: What does it mean for Harrison to find a single dead kitten in a litter of live kittens? Does that kitten have a bond to its litter, despite now being gone?

Scene C:

DIP: Reeve appears in a glamorous blur and makes an interesting first impression on Suz who seems slightly stunned and endeared by her.

Explanation: We need this scene to get us to the next bump--this is Reeve's intro and also introduces the "bond" she'll later form with Suz. The entire chapter title, "Blood Sister," comes from the women's bond. What does it mean to feel connected to someone as if you had actually done a blood pact? And is that similar to the bond between the kittens? ...And the bond between Lonan and Harrison...?

Scene D:

BUMP (subtler): At dinner Reeve confronts Harrison about his “straight-edge” lifestyle since moving to NYC and he realizes her judgements about his life being monotonous are very true–he lacks purpose.

Explanation: This scene gets us to an important realization for Harrison: he feels like something is missing in his life. I wonder WHAT (the answer is Lonan lol).

Scene E:

BUMP: Harrison and his mother clear the dishes and Suzanna confronts him on the fact that he hasn’t told her that Reeve is in fact Lonan’s sister. Suz knows the boys’ relationship is complicated, and plays Devil’s advocate by outright asking Reeve how her brother is. Reeve, who hasn’t seen Lonan longer than Harrison, has assumed Lonan lives with them or is close by, and feels semi-betrayed that Harrison has kept his whereabouts a secret.

Explanation: This one is more explicit of a bump. Why hasn't Harrison told his mother Reeve's true identity? Is it because he's not ready to even think about Lonan who he still feels inextricably connected to??? Yes!

Scene F:

DIP & BUMP: Reeve and Harrison drive to a garden and he’s reminded of the event that lead to him and his mother’s return to the east. Harrison meets Winona outside a convenience store, the same woman Lonan meets in ch.6 of Moth Work. She takes him to her mansion where she’s hosting a party and introduces him to her husband. Harrison makes multiple bad decisions which you can probably figure out for yourself!

Explanation: This scene almost serves as both a dip AND bump as we slowly "dip" into exposition. But the relevance and "bump" of this scene becomes abundantly clear when we realize the woman Harrison follows home is the SAME woman Lonan follows him in Moth Work. Indissoluble bonds driving you to do the same thing?? LMAO I love them <3

Scene G:

BUMP: Harrison wakes up in Winona’s house and is confused to see her and her husband standing over his leather jacket. If we remember what happened in ch. 6 of Moth Work, Lonan gets beat up by Winona’s husband and has Harrison’s jacket & angel chain stolen. We can assume from this scene that Winona has a) recognized the jacket and b) chosen him to come back to her house for the purpose of also beating him up (which happens).

Explanation: Again, why do Harrison and Lonan make the SAME decisions and have the SAME thing happen to them? Is this because they have an indissoluble bond? That theme is actually dropped explicitly in this scene. (Also a tangent: in the MW version of this scene, Lonan loses the fight--black eye art is the aftermath of that--and therefore loses the jacket, but in FH, Harrison stumbles out of there with his jacket HAHA so he won. Lonan is a loser. <3)

Scene H:

BUMP: Reeve and Harrison jump a fence into a garden to give the dead kitten an unorthodox “water burial” in the garden’s fountain. Reeve confronts him on why no one has seemed to care about her whereabouts for the last year, and also suggests the only reason he wanted to see her now is because he misses Lonan. Harrison miserably drinks too much wine.

Explanation: In this scene, Harrison contemplates the indissoluble bond between the dead kitten and its litter--it's gone now, but was still a part of that collective, just like Lonan is gone now from his life but is still part of his collective. Harrison accepts that yes, he indeed still feels connected to Lonan, and actually, deeply misses Lonan (like the kittens--do they miss their sibling now that its gone?). He literally writes out Lonan's name in the snow as an expression of admittance to that truth (THAT'S GAY AS FUCK HARRISON, GAY AS FUCK).

Alright, I couldn't help myself, here's an illustration to show what that chapter looks like according to this structure. You can see I only used one ring because I don't have that many scenes. Now that I think of it, for this modified structure, a single ring would work well for one story/chapter (whereas in the original structure, one ring equals a scene), unless you have 60 million scenes (or you use act breaks within chapters). *High five!* we've made a development as I wrote this post.

A hint about orbital structures: some crime TV shows use this structure IMO, ESPECIALLY episodes that follow crimes that are geared at revealing something about one of the central characters. Look at many of the Criminal Minds specials OR at any Hannibal episode and you won't be able to unsee it LOL.

Let me know if you have any questions! For writers who have very visual brains like me (or writers who've described their processes as "sculpting" words like myself), I hope this is useful!

#asks #writing #amwriting #writerblr #writeblr #this was FUN!!! #I love writing theory <3 #not when it's written purposefully to be only accessible to academics tho <3 #that writing theory can... go away LOL #so I'm HOPING this makes sense! #also anon I'm 100% stealing “circley levels of hell” and calling this that from now on <3 #that's exactly what it is <3 #also it's lowkey a crime that i so badly don't want to get my mfa due to the exclusivity of academia because #wouldn't i be slaying the literary world with all this CREATIVE and DETAILED writing theory #rip all the students i'll never have LMAO #BUT SIKE I HAVE ALL OF YOU <3

[piizunn]

it hides in the light by Dion Smith-Dokkie

The Bows, April 5th - June 22nd, 2024

it hides in the light presents a new body of experimental mixed-media works by artist Dion Smith-Dokkie that attend to embodiment, interface, information, and infrastructure.

Inkjet-printed stills taken from video works, satellite images of bodies of water, images of daily life, and select found images are broken down into ‘particles’. Using water, the particles are transferred onto paper, creating a collage. In this process, the images are liquefied and lose their discernibility: they synthesize and coalesce. The resulting compositions are further developed with watercolor, gouache, and ink.

The result is an indistinct, luminous work that straddles the line between non-representation and concrete location, videographic and painterly modes. The formal and conceptual tools utilized—mediation and translation via contact, transfer, diffusion, and mutation—become tactics of deliberately sensual and nebulous erotic self-representation. They extrapolate a diffused and empathic praxis of embodiment, self-location, and co-relation.

Dion Smith-Dokkie (he, they) resides uninvited on Musqueam, Squamish, and Tsleil-Waututh homelands and territories. He was born in Fort St. John and grew up in the Peace River region of northeast BC and northwest Alberta. Dion locates themselves as a gay, mixed-race European-Indigenous man who lives with mental illness. He is a member of West Moberly First Nations, a Treaty 8 First Nation. They hold a BA in Women’s Studies from the University of Victoria (2015), a BFA in Painting and Drawing from Concordia University (2019), and an MFA in Visual Arts from the University of British Columbia (2021).

(Photos belong to me and the description and bio are courtesy The Bows’ website)

#i neeeeeeed to go back and see this again #contemporary art #indigenous art #fine art #inkjet #printing #sculpture #curation #my picks #< new tag for the art of others that i post #idk calling myself a curator feels to formal for this but i have curated exhibitions in the past #treaty 7 #treaty 8 #art #art gallery #artist run centre #visual art #traditional art #queer art #gay #artists #cree #dunne-za

[znzn06]

(my sgtb reference spreadsheet + apple beer) (it doesn't look like this anymore bc i added a lot more things)

february was packed with so many things - chinese new year + tasks at work + deadlines + touching grass... it was tiring but a pretty fruitful and fun month. as usual, more pictures under the cut:

at the start of the month, i attended the VG Side Event at Pokémon Regional League. i was a spectator all along for VG, but after watching a lot of cybertronvgc videos, i decided to step out of my comfort zone and actually participate. it was incredibly nerve-wrecking for an introvert like me, but i'm glad i did - i had a lot of fun with archaludon and pelipper!!

chocolate sgtb i drew on a hotcake for valentine's day (really!!)

i also got the oreos and this pack had all my starters in it :)

my grandmother folded this and gave it to me during chinese new year eve when i went over to have hotpot. she jokingly said she wanted to charge me for the paper cost and workmanship.

it's so cute...

i also went to the safari with a friend! i visit this place quite often (to see the jaguars) (no pictures here, but please have these)

i am considering getting a visit pass (lol)

here is a wip of one of my favorite illustrations from the book. i'm drawing slowly and enjoying the process of it, but also really can't wait to see the end result!

i've also been listening to a lot of sidem thanks to my friends, especially cafe parade. i think i'm a asselin-P, but i also enjoy legenders, shinsoku ikkon and drastars. i'm watching the anime slowly starting from idolmasters, and can't wait to see more!

pokemas casting nanami hiroki as geeta was 100/100 of course i had to roll... i'm a Fan...

has anyone played with the photo mode? it's insane. this looks like a doujinshi cover. i got too excited.

...i hope march is good to me too!

#znzn06 #diary

[sicjimin]

I saw jimins Dior appearance and I thought mpreg where jimin gets mobbed and doesn't like it at all and feels 10x more irked with having too many people around him.

The overwhelming scents of people put him off and he throws up in the car and craves for his alphas scent so he gets extremely clingy after he comes back. His alpha doesn't know the exact reason but when he sees the video where jimin is getting mobbed and he looks like he's going to be sick he tells him that he's never travelling without him again.

I got too into it, I'm sorry if it is too specific

— Baby's Fashion Show Experience —

a.n ; thank you for requesting, anon ! i'm sorry if this comes out too rusty, it's a little bit challenging to pick up everything but i hope you like it and can deliver what you wanted ! i'm sorry i didn't use the abo terms bc i never write one .. so i just write is like how i usually do :)

tw : mpreg

Jimin huffs, wiping his hand up and down then patting it over his thighs as the driver and his guard telling him that they have arrived. He can faintly hear the screams, camera shutter, and murmurs outside, but he didn't have an idea how "big" the crowd will be.

Well, this is the first time that he's being invited to a fashion show. His forte is music—maybe he would be less nervous if that's the case. And on top of that, he's alone today. Hoseok is there too, but he will comes later. So he had no choice but dives into this crowd alone.

He opens his eyes after 5 more minutes of pep talk, swiping his gaze through the black tinted window—almost pressing his forehead to it as he wants a clearer view. But he held himself. "Wow, that's a lot of people ..", he chuckles nervously. Sometimes it doesn't feel real how big his name is.

"You're the main event today, Jimin-ssi", his guard politely answers with a grin, "We're still waiting for the command from inside, i will escort you after this"

Jimin nods stiffly, gulping down tale of nerves that starts spreading all over his body. He takes a deep breathe, hands quietly moving to cup his middle, to an addition of guest tonight, that he hides under the coat—"Baby .. let's make this work, okay? Just few hours", he mumbles to himself in hopes of getting a calmness, "Just few hours"

"Jimin-ssi, we can get out now. Are you ready?", his guard suddenly announces, startling him.

Jimin nods, taking another deep breathe before his guards open the door. The loud noises start to hit him like a wave right at his face. The flash, the shouts .. There are so many people, it almost gets overwhelming. He tries not to panic, even though he feels like his heart is going to burst. But he has an obligation to fulfill. So he braces himself, making himself close to his guard as much as possible, and walks forward, following them through the swarm.

He manages to get through the red carpet, somehow, it went well—defeating his earlier worries that it might be a chaos there. He sighs, one thing is done. Now he only need to get in and swift himself through the motion of event. He takes another breath, feeling the familiar tugging sensation when entering the venue where the fashion show was held. It's not a bad feeling, exactly. He's used to it for years since he's been doing his daily life. It's just... Jimin shakes his head, clearing the distracting thoughts. He doesn't have much of a choice but to focus on getting himself through the afternoon safely.

He exhales deeply again.

Turns out, it's not the red carpet outside that he should fear. But the red carpet inside.

There's no some kind of cross-line border here, every reporters and interviewer from magazine or television are free to swarm around. Jimin barely can see what's inside as the moment his guards open the door, cameras and mics swarm toward him like bees attracted to honey. Jimin balled his fist, and like his brain work in automatic mode, his arms circled around his middle.

"Park Jimin! Can we get a photo of you?"

"Park Jimin! Can you stand a little bit to the right?"

"Jimin!"

"Park Jimin! What do you think—"

Jimin sucked a deep breath, feeling his space closed to him as everyone trying to move forward. His guard has been circling around his front, back, and side, helping him taking a little step forward to his seat. He tries his best to control his expression—there's a lot of camera facing him, he can't let himself slip. But .. it's hard, with the questions, flashes, and .. scents. A mixed of lots of scents engulf him. The scent of sweat, perfume, hair, body spray, and... just everything. It starts to make his head spin. But he manages to keep his cool, breathing slowly, keeping his eyes straight.

His guards are doing great, keeping him steady as they were trying to keep him away from cameras. Their steps were fast, they tried to stay away from cameras as Jimin started to feel queasy. He closes his eyes, willing himself to calm down, breathing deeply.

He almost cries in relief when he sees his seat, already imagining that he can at least enjoy the event and give his body a rest—also maybe all of these reporters gonna find a new target, away from him. But much to his dismay, it even get worse.

They're all surrounding the chair, he can't escape. They start talking loudly, asking questions and taking picture which to some of it he agrees to—prior to his briefing in the hotel. Jimin applauds himself to manage to do that while he feels his heart clenching and his stomach curling at his insides.

He starts to make a peace-treaty with himself in the back of his mind as he entertains everyone that seems eager to interact with him—that apparently, this is how the event goes. He just has to suck it up for few hours, and he will be done. It will be over.

And Hoseok will be here too. Hoseok will be here—he chants it over and over again, to get some kind of comfort.

**

Jimin can't do this any longer. It's been like an hour since he's here—the fashion show is already halfway begin. And he swears, he tries his best to enjoy the event. Watching all the clothes and models presenting it perfectly. But .. it's too much.

"Hobi hyung ..", Jimin leans to the older, nudging him so he can get his attention as he seems enjoying the show so much.

"Mhm?"

"I don't feel good", Jimin murmurs, covering his mouth as he muffled a hiccup, this time it brought with it a burp that coated his tongue in a slimy layer of saliva. “I'm sorry .. can we get out of here?", he asks again, quieter this time as he also wasn’t sure how to get out of here without attracting attention. But he also certain that his stomach would not last long before sending up his breakfast.

"What?", Now Hoseok is completely looking at him through his black shades. "You feel sick?"

Jimin nods, fingers still hovering over his lips as his baby seems to swirl around his inside. Thick saliva filled his mouth faster than he dared swallow it, and he's certain if he opened his mouth more than necessary, vomit wouldn't be far behind. "Can we?"

Hoseok visibly shocked—not expecting this. He sucked a deep breath before gazing around to call for their guards. He waves a little, enough to catch the guards attention but not for the other guests.

Jimin is grateful that they all working fast, as 5 minutes later, he and Hoseok already in his car—coat already tossed in the back seat as Jimin panted through the bag. "Hyung .. i'm sorry", he croakes out, squeezing his eyes shut as nausea washed over him. He shivered, then give a hollow croaking noise from deep in his throat—tighten his grip on Hoseok's hands. Nothing emerged from his mouth but a trickle of drool, that only makes him even more nauseous.

"Gosh ..", Jimin moans, feeling hot all over. "I'm sorry, can you turn on the ai—", he gasps, lurching forward as A series of small burps worked its way up his throat, before it morph into a true gag that lifted his tongue. Jimin makes a noise halfway between a belch and a retch, and a brief splash of liquid went onto the bag.

"Aigooo, Jimin-ah", Hoseok coos beside him, scooting closer so he can cuddles the younger close even though the car seat a little bit blocking them. He rubs his hand attentively over the singer arched back. Feeling it tenses under his touch. "The baby is troubling you, hm?"

Jimin gasps and shuddered with an even stronger heave, and this time globs of half-digested food pattered onto the bag. He didn't get to breathe, before a deep, rasping retch built low in his chest and expelled an even thicker flow of vomit.

Hoseok pats his back, rubbing circles soothingly. "It's okay Jimin-ie, let it out"

Jimin coughs weakly as a response, feeling dizzy due to the lack of oxygen. It took quite some time before he ran out of vomit to bring up. Jimin pants and drooled onto the bag, trying not to look at the slimy result of his sickness, as he wrenched his aching throat with a few minutes of dry heaves before it was completely over.

"Done?", Hoseok asks, wiping the tears of his cheeks with his sleeve. Jimin looks up, giving him a weak nod. He smiles softly and wipes the remnants of vomit away with his thumb. "I'm sorry hyung ... it was nasty", he rasps out, sagging to his seat as he gives no fight when Hoseok takes the soiled bag and gives it to their guards to dispose.

Hoseok chuckles, handing him a bottle of water, "Why are you sorry .. this baby right here—", he bent to coos at Jimin's covered bump, making funny noise that makes Jimin giggles as well, "That should be sorry to me, hm? You make your uncle and appa walk out of the show early!"

"My baby doesn't like the fame, it seems", Jimin chuckles, rubbing his bump as it starts to settles down. "I'm lucky you're here and can get me out of there. I can't imagine being there alone, hyung"

"It was scary being there alone", Hoseok hums, "And i will be there again tomorrow"

"Again?"

"Mhm, they just sent me an invite", Hoseok scoots to the front, "You won't get back inside, right? Let's go back to the hotel, and eat lunch? I'm starving"

***

It seems like his baby completely reject the stress of being in hectic event, as it rebels on Jimin all day.

"Aigoo, Jimin-ah .. let's just ask manager to get you home tomorrow, hm? When's your flight?", Hoseok asks as he sadly rubs the younger back while he tossed his dinner that he just took few minutes ago to the toilet.

Jimin clutched his stomach as he doubling over with a loud, gurgling retch that sent a thick torrent of vomit into the bowl—letting his baby emphatically rejected his dinner, maybe even lunch earlier as he can see flecks of sandwich he ate there.

"Day after tomorrow ..", Jimin managed to lift his head a bit, sit back on his heels with both arms wrapped around his stomach.

"Just go home tomorrow, i will talk to our manager", Hoseok hums, brushing his dampen hair back so it doesn't stick uncomfortably on his face. Jimin shut his eyes, humming lowly in agreement before he gulped suddenly and lurched back over the bowl.  A strong retch forced his mouth open, and he burped another stream of puke forth.

Hoseok sighs, standing up from his seat. He went to the sink near the bathroom and grabbed a wet cloth, then wiped the younger's mouth and face with it, watching him groan as he seems like finished his session. "Done?"

Jimin nods, sniffling, then flushed the toilet before resting his head on the seat. Throwing up always making him feels so weak. "There goes my dinner hyung ..", he murmurs tiredly.

"I'm sorry, Jiminie .. let's go back to bed, i will pack your belongings and our manager to book your flight tomorrow", Hoseok says to him. His tone gives no space to argue, but he still asks, "Is that okay? Or do you want to rest for a day here?"

His kind Hoseok hyung.

"No .. it's okay. I think i need to go home", Jimin says weakly. "I'm really sorry hyung you have to take care of me here .. instead of enjoying your time"

Hoseok's eyes widen as Jimin suddenly burst into tears after saying that. "What? Wait wait .. Hey .. Jimin-ah .. why are you crying", Hoseok chuckles nervously. "What are you saying? Everything is fine .. Are you still feeling sick? Something's hurt?"

Jimin just shakes his head as he dives to Hoseok's shoulder when the older pull him to a hug, lowly cursing his pregnancy hormone that makes him suddenly sad and explodes like this. "No .. i'm sorry", he hiccups after awhile, chuckling as he wipes his tears, "I'm a mess .. everything just overwhelming"

Hoseok sighs, ruffling his hair as he helps him stand up, "You scare me .. you really need Yoongi"

***

Yoongi frowns when he heard his apartment bell rings. It's still 7 AM—too early for people to actually be knocking on his door. So who in the hell would come at this hour of the morning?

Not even bothering to check the intercom, Yoongi quickly paces to the door, "Holly, step aside a bit", he murmurs to the dog that has been standing in front of it, wagging his tail in excitement—like he knows who's on the other side of the door. "Yeah? Who—"

He didn't get to finish his sentences as someone lunged to him, wrapped his arms around his shoulder and cling there. Making himself comfortable. Yoongi chuckles once he realized who's the culprit—he wraps his arms around him—hugs him tightly without hesitating even one second. "You're home ..", Yoongi mumbles, taking in his husband scents as he kicks the door close and guides them to the couch.

"I am", Jimin hums against Yoongi's neck, nuzzling his soft skin in adoration, "Hyung, i missed you"

"I missed you too", Yoongi whispers, pressing a soft kiss on his temple before he pulls back, cupping the other's cheek and kisses him slowly, "You say that your flight will be tomorrow? Why don't you tell me that you're going home early? I can pick you up!", he grumbles lightly. He lets Jimin snuggle into his chest—his question remained unaswered as Jimin looks sleepy, content on his chest. Yoongi strokes the latter's hair affectionately, knowing that it might be tiring for him. All the trip and the show.

He sit on the couch, squeezed, between his husband and Holly—that apparently want to join the cuddlepile— for awhile, until he half heartedly usher Jimin to clean up, before he could fully dozing off. Jimin answers with a whine, but comply otherwise, as Yoongi prepares light breakfast for both of them.

"I don't think i can eat", Jimin mumbles as he sits on the counter, staring at the plate of freshly prepared breakfast. His hand moving to rub at his belly—trying to alleviate the swirls that hasn't left even he already got off the plane for few hours.

"Why? Have you eat anything in the plane?", Yoongi chides.

"Not yet .. but i still feel queasy after the ride. You know me", he shrugs, picking up a fork and poking his breakfast. The food didn't look appetizing though, which is understandable considering how he felt.

Yoongi sighs, "Okay .. but please try to eat in an hour? Our baby would be hungry if you don't eat", he tries to bargain. "Or do you want me to make something lighter? Smoothie?"

"No .. later. Let's sleep now, i'm tired", Jimin states, pulling a strand of loose hairs behind his ear as he stands up, wobbling a bit.

"I just wake up, Jimin-ah", Yoongi laughs, endeared, "You can sleep with Holly. He's ready to hug you, look at him"

Jimin turns to the dog who's waiting on his side. The dog lifts his butt, wagging his tail happily as if anticipating Jimin's arrival. "Hyungg ..", he whines, "Come on .. i want to sleep"

Yoongi chuckled softly as he watch him. "Why are you so clingy today, hm?"

Jimin just shrugs, happily dragging the older to their room, and cuddled up with him. It didn't take long for him to fall asleep, the trip really take a toll on him—as Yoongi stay still, can't really move with Jimin resting over his chest and left arm. He scrolls through his phone as he waits for the latter to wake up. He hasn't caught up with news lately, too busy with photoshoot and others stuff as he also preparing for his fashion show invites in a week.

Yoongi frowns when he stumbled across a video. His timeline is full of Jimin—and Hoseok, of course. But this one video caught him by surprise. To other person, it might seem like a usual occurence where Jimin got pictured and interviewed in the event. Everyone was making a crowd in front of the younger—in the video shown. He smiles a little at how graceful his Jimin is. Still as polite, smiling, and bowing at every questions and flashes that thrown to him.

But Yoongi knows differently. He knows how overwhelming and suffocating it was. A lot of people crowding you and especially ... Yoongi turn his gaze to the younger's bump—sighing.

"Jimin-ah ..", Yoongi shakes the other a bit, trying to rouse him from sleep.

"Mhm..?", Jimin sleepily stirs. Ever since he's pregnant, he becomes a light sleeper—"What?"

"Are you okay?", Yoongi asks worriedly as he stares at his boyfriend's features.

"Huh?"

"Are you okay? Is our baby okay?", Yoongi repeats his question, worry laced in his tone as he cups Jimin's warm cheeks, caressing them gently.

"Huh? What are you saying hyung .. we're fine?", Jimin rubs his eyes, trying to fasten his brain to process his husband sudden questions. That requires him to wake up from his little nap. "Ah ..", he hums after seeing the light from Yoongi's phone. He takes it, scrolling through it. "I look pretty here, i'm glad"

Yoongi stares at him, before tugging him close and let Jimin babbles. "But it was hard hyung .. it's crowded. Too many people .. and i don't know", Jimin murmurs quietly. His hand moving to his stomach as he bites on his lower lip.

Yoongi grabs Jimin's hand, holding it tight, "It gets overwhelming. I managed until half of the show and then i just feel sick. Then i throw up on and off all day ..", he chuckles, but it comes out a little bitter. Jimin sucks a deep breathe as he curls closer to the older, "I don't think our baby loves the fame .. that's why Hobi hyung tell me to go home early, it was hard without you"

Jimin blinks a couple times as his eyes begin to water again. He doesn't bother to wipe away his tears. Yoongi just continues to hold his hand, stroking it soothingly. "You're doing great, our baby too", he finally replies with a small smile, leaning forward to press a kiss on Jimin's lips.

They let silent washes over them for a moment, until Yoongi breaks it. "I might fuck around and tell the company to let you come for the show next week"

"Yoongi!"

#bts sickfic #bts emeto #tw emeto #tw vomit #sick!jimin #caretaker!yoongi #caretaker!hoseok #and again another mpreg fic

[churuai]

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𝙂𝙐𝙄𝘿𝙀 𝙈𝘼𝘿𝙀 𝘽𝙔 @/𝙍𝙐𝙎𝙈𝙄𝙄. 𝘿𝙊 𝙉𝙊𝙏 𝙎𝙏𝙀𝘼𝙇

honestly, the only major tip i have to give to everyone is to develop the creative skill—a lot of people seem to struggle with freely constructing a theme in their heads, and when they attempt to put it together, they're not satisfied with it.

I'm in the same boat, but once I've got my eyes set on a theme, I just go for it, which comes to my second tip: think outside the box. most of the time, themes are just a concept. if you want to make it happen, you're gonna have to put it together piece by piece. consider everything like:

fonts

color

images/photos

gifs/videos

symbols/emojis

you're not going to get everything from the same place, no matter how hard you search. you'd have to download different apps, look up different websites and make tons of trial and error.

which comes to my third tip: PRIVATE your pinned post as you're making your themes. do not make a new one [unless you want to, but i find privating it makes it easier to tell I'm making a theme change], and do not work on your themes while it's unprivated, as there could be ppl watching the entire process 😭.

with those big three tips out of the way, how should you format/do the layouts? well answer is, trust the process.

"but runi!!! i can't!—" girl😭 yes u can. you just don't trust yourself to not mess up, and making errors in your themes are supposed to happen. don't let the fear of it not being pretty enough stop you from making it. the more you trial and error your themes, the more experience you're getting at it.

and sooner than later, you'll be damn near just winging it without a single thought or concept in mind.

now, what to do about inspos? here are some tips:

always ask for permission to use their themes as inspo if you're being heavily influenced by their themes.

if they say no, DONT, use them as inspo, find someone else or create something on your own.

unless they state you can use them as inspo as long as you credit them, I'd advise you to just create your own themes.

if this made sense, hip hip horray!

mkmkmk. here's some things you absolutely need to know while making your themes.

your themes are never original [despite me saying so]. there's always someone out there who either has something similar or have done the concept already.

when doing colored fonts on html, some fonts aren't able to do gradient text fonts because the system can't code it correctly; however solid colors work fine so if you're using a specific font, use solid colors only unless you're using the default font.

colors that match are the best to use. because it is pleasing to the eyes.

images/photos/gifs that are compatible with your theme colors are also the best choice.

TAKE ADVANTAGE OF EVERYTHING TUMBLR HAS TO OFFER YOU!

bullet points

numbers

indents

<--> arrows

bigger

I wouldn't recommend using:::

quote

biggest

chat

Lucille

simply bc it doesn't look pleasing to the eye, especially if you're going for the aesthetics.

also take advantage of symbols/emoji combos ! anyways heres a simple example I made, please credit me if u use this as inspo!

SIMPLE [without fonts/colors] taken on phone—DARK MODE

[synonymouswithanonymous]

Awww they're moving in together! Look at how happy he looks, and how happy they look together! they both just look sweet to me.

Reposting pics bc they're cute together. I like how relaxed they look with each other while people are just flashing cameras at them, capturing their moment. Granted that's what the press is there for to capture the post show moments, but it must still be a little weird that they're there and all they want to do is kiss/hug/congratulate, and have a moment. Lol but they handled it very well.

And he's got a new movie filmed! I wonder what project he filmed in Scotland last year? Now Spain?

He's worked several times throughout the last couple of years, his voice over work for an animated film, nightwatch 2, 2 tv shows filmed and aired ( call me dad is now out in Australia) two unknown projects one in Scotland and one in Spain. So it's not like he's been lumping around idle without work lol.

To be honest I'm glad he's not been sucked into the crappy recycled junk that is most Hollywood films these days. I'm glad he's made enough money to be selective with projects, so that he as an artist can grow and be part of good projects. Scandinavian and European tv/films are making great stuff. Why would he leave such a market? Plus he's been to a couple of countries with Gate to Nature and the Red Cross. He's been quite busy.

She's had lots of work too. Tv shows and musicals. I think they're both hardworking, talented people. They come across to me as an awesome mutually supportive couple that love each other. I don't think either one of them comes off as "fame hungry" lol. If they were we'd see way more than we have. I've said it before but we really don't see too much of them. It's not like they're posting every day, multiple times a day. Lol. They're very private imo.

I'll use this as an example of my perspective on their privacy, bc none of us know them and their definition of privacy. 😊 considering I took over 100 pics of my guy this weekend, in muddy camping mode, and then shared probably 8 of them on my socials (we had fun!). That's not a lot imo, just a few pics to sum up 2 days or 48 hours. And I think of all the moments in between not captured on camera.

So I'm gonna go ahead and say they probably have tons of photos together, tons of videos that they choose not to share. Because they value their privacy, even though they are public figures.

Anyway I wish I could get one of those blue champagne bottles special made for Askepot! 😊 they were cool and pretty.

#alex høgh andersen #johanne milland #lovely couple #gingers rule

[serpentiana]

⚠️ TW ed & suic*de talk

It includes just a faceless photo of me, the tw is for the text underneath.

I screenshotted myself in this video bc this is straight motivation for me, this was me last May working at a Galleria which is the 2nd time I went back to orthorexia. Truly an experience to shape shift all extremes of weight.

It's not a fun time. Because I thought I was getting better after my breakup relatively fast, the thoughts stopped, probably for the first time in my entire life. But then I moved back home for college, and it's clear that I've relapsed on multiple behaviors. I was on my own for half a year, the 3rd time in my life, and I did all I could not to go back home - to make it on my own. A life that my parents could only see me at my best. So they could enjoy their years without me stressing them out anymore..

My parents are old fashioned. They don't realize what they say, do, or their lifestyle affects my recovery. And it's starting to agonize me that I'm so affected by my own parents. I feel like an ungrateful brat. I really am thankful for what I have. I didn't always have things and I didn't have a home for a while. They love me. Even if it hurts me, it's really my fault. I'm a perfectionist with all things and most of the time it's never enough.

My weight will never be enough. I feel so alone. My 5 year relationship has been over since last March. The survival mode in me is starting to cease and the thoughts are getting louder. I haven't eaten more than 1,000 calories total in 5 days. And I haven't stayed in the positive, the net stays zero. I quit smoking weed, I quit habits, and I stopped letting people take advantage of me. I embraced the discomfort of being alone with having 0 friends or relationships holding me back from being happy.

..sometimes I just feel like it doesn't matter anymore. I've seen success and done my best and fallen and did it again. When you go through this process you end up realizing how tired you really are. And the suicidal thoughts come back without a plan but rather an impulse. I just feel in my gut one more devastation, one more physical/verbal abuse event, or loss - I'll lose the ability to control myself and do it.

I didn't know there was ever a gun in my reach and I wish I never found out. I got a taste of what it was like to be fulfilled and happy, even when I lost everything last year. Now it's like a dream that I ever had a mind that forgot about calories and purging and starving and trauma memories.

I remember going on a hike by myself one of those days and stopping just to look up at the trees.. I thanked God for keeping me alive... In that moment I forgot what it felt like to have suffered through my suicidal voices. Tears just filled my eyes and instead of falling they remained still. I was happy.

#v's ed log #tw ed thoughts

[despair-edits]

hey hello there!! may i request a kin assignment for genshin impact, danganronpa, revue starlight and project sekai if it's okay? i hope the info i provide below suffices!

i'm an intp 5w6 and a sagittarius. i try to come off as a laid-back and chill person, but ultimately i always end up being really hyper and Loud especially when i'm with my friends,, despite being all talkative most of the time i'm actually not very good at social situations. a lot of people get surprised when i say im an introvert and not an extrovert AHSJJDFHSHD. but the truth is i'm Super awkward when i'm with people i dont know very well, and honestly i'm not one start a conversation. i get overwhelmed easily when theres too many people around, and i generally feel more comfortable being alone.

i have super super low self esteem. to the point where i even feel guilty or uncomfortable taking compliments? i don't know where this stemmed from or why im like that, but its just how it is

my interests include writing and drawing, mostly!! i love making stories and reading them as well (though im a very heavy procrastinator, i also often start new projects while leaving my previous ones hanging) ^^ i'm a bit hesitant to show anyone my work, just bc of the fear of being made fun of or criticized hehe... yeah i don't do well with criticism. i also enjoy any sort of media in the psychological thriller genre, i find em very intriguing :0!! i also Love taking pictures. whenever im with my friends i feel the need to take a photo or a video of them in like 40 different angles its actually concerning /lh

i despise any sort of conflict. whenever theres a fight going on in my friend group i automatically switch into parent mode™ and try to resolve it as quick as possible. also i am Horrible at keeping promises

i kinda just threw some random facts there at the end BUT I HOPE THIS IS ALRIHJT

hello! I'm really sorry for the delay! all the info is alright, don't worry!

so... without further ado, I'll match you with:

Fischl

I saw your description and Fischl quickly came to mind. I mean, she seems really hyper and talkative but she’s actually an introvert and likes her alone time with her books. and yeah, she loves writing stories and reading them! and she isn’t the biggest fan of conflict either, I think.

Chiaki Nanami

From the array of characters from the 2 games I've played so far, you remind me of Chiaki a bunch. She's awkward with new people, doesn't start conversations, tries to appear chill, finds comfort in being alone, is a procrastinator and absolutely hates conflict!

Notes: Perhaps there's a character in the other danganronpa games that resembles you better than her. Maybe Rantaro idk. I haven't finished drv3 yet, so take this with a grain of salt.

Yuyuko Tanaka

I hope you don't mind me assigning you a character that's exclusively from the game/ stage plays. I think Yuyuko would be a good match. She's awkward with new people (and in social interactions in general), but she gets rather enthusiastic when talking with her friends. She also doesn't deal well with criticism, to the point of not really showing her emotions and interests to others out of fear of being made fun of. And did I mention she's a big procrastinator? And the disliking for conflict is also there!

Notes: If I were to assign you somebody from Seisho (aka. from the anime itself), I'd go for Hikari, since she is no good with social interactions and is only a bit hyper when talking with her closest friends.

Mizuki Akiyama

I think I'll go with Mizuki here. They're pretty hyper when with the rest of niigo and are talkative most of the time, yet they still come off as chill and laid back. Their self esteem is pretty low too and they desire to be able to be themselves without others making fun of them. Plus, they tend to try to resolve conflict as quick as possible when it appears, so I'd say they don't like it either.

[and that's it! I hope these are enough! seriously, sorry for the delay on this one. my motivation hasn't been that great lately. anyway, obviously, you know yourself best and who you're kin with. I hope you're having a nice day!]

- Mod Peko

#mod peko #kin assignment #kin matchup

[gradling]

Oh yeah and since it's good to make a habit of posting positive things here, I finished giving feedback on drafts! And then my roommate and I promptly stayed up until 2 AM working on two random items from my alma mater's annual scavenger hunt. Behold, our unholy creation (the item we did that doesn't have my face in it): a reverse Panera Bread Bowl. The soup is the bowl, the bread is...inside the bowl.

#it's ice we literally froze a bowl of chicken soup #and then were exceptionally proud of ourselves about it #scav #The other item was me asking my sister to do a quick animation of Pride from FMA's shadow things #and then roommate and I built a homemade projector out of a magnifying glass i have and a box #and spent like two hours trying to calibrate it and get screenshare to work on a phone #so that we could stop and start the animation from a laptop #and then we spent like another hour trying to figure out how to get our phones to pick up the projection in the dark #bc it was working in photo mode but not video mode #and then we realized that we could use a screenrecorder to record the photo thing while also recording voices #and it worked perfectly #and now im very sleepy and need to work on my research lol #jam posts

[pastelpaperplanes]

Big Ol Ask Post Pt. 3 I think

I haven’t drawn anything other than cursed or plain technical stuff w him 😔😔 have these for now but expect more soon!

anon a way back asked what he’d look like next to Overlord being already so big compared to Megs, that’s why you see Lordie if you’re wondering why he’s thrown in that line up!

by the way I have a voice claim for the big purple simp— Jenner from NIMH, he’s so awful but that suave baritone oh it fits too well >:] it’s the ‘humble servant’ line that got to me

Yep! Pharma is absolutely in this AU—as well as the CFau and Crack one too—and in all, he’s still an estranged medic long since booted from any legal work back on Cybertron.

He lost his credibility and more all those years ago when he found himself willing to do his fair share of cutting corners and hastily concealed malpractice to expedite his dream of getting his name down in the medical books—ultimately impressing his dear Mentor Ratchet, finally, in perfecting long-since banned risky experiments and surgeries—not to mention cruel and unusual temperament with the (supposedly) taboo practice of non-medicinal mnemosurgery.

His ambitions and aggression always got the bet of him, this hasn’t changed since he found himself working in freelance outposts. Light years away from Cybertron, he’s made a name for himself as a Good Doctor—but to his under-the-table black market part-dealing clients, he’s just about as bad as a Crooked Medic can get.

Bounty hunters and Arms Dealers like him for his business, a certain DJD member likes him for the occasional berth company and seemingly never ending supply of fresh T-Cogs—but no one actually likes him for his nasty temperamental personality, save for a young and naive Ratchet once upon a time.

Pharma is a roamer, as of recent he’s been a hard to reach mech—seems as if he’s found a little project to keep himself pretty occupied in the last few decades—something about a breakthrough for aiding the Decepticon Energon Crisis :] him and a small, horrifyingly cheerful surgeon are well on their way to completing their first trial batches, it’s safe to say that their little synthetic mixture will have it’s users sated and compliant.

they’ve got that amazing ‘new car smell’ those first few weeks, and instead of chittering like an Insecticons or vibrating their wings like a seeker—they beep and squeak, sometimes even honk a horn depending on the baseline altmode coding, to get their Creators’ attention before their vocalizer truly starts to kick online

It’s cute, but loud

Much like a seeker sparkling, they have to reach a certain ‘age’ (upgrade) to be able to transform completely, in between then they’re still able to rev those engines as a warning should they need it, as well as spin their wheels should they need a getaway HEELIES IF THEYRE LUCKY WOOHOOOOO—for seekers they can hover on their thrusters!

Crusade is actually pretty formal with Megatron. But yeah as a kid, Megs was always known as Carrier, but as Sadie got older and more aware of their surroundings—they definitely came to learn the true weight of that title and the fact that they were the progeny of the faction leader, a fact they should have really held onto with more pride. Not wanting to draw more attention to the already blatant favoritism (and nepotism) Crusade made a switch to addressing Megatron as Sir, My Lord, Lord Megatron, —ect. to better fit in with their fellow troops.

It bothers Megatron more than than he lets on. Crusade shouldn’t have to hide their high ranking as his child, the heir to the faction. Megs is their Carrier and can only order them around for so long, as their Leader however—pulling rank may just allow for their infuriatingly stubborn sparkling to listen to them should a day come where even a Carrier’s plea is dismissed.

Crusade does slip up every now and then and a ‘Carrier’ will slip—often hushed and annoyed though as Megs does like to tease every now and then, gotta remind them that they’re still his baby every once in a while :’)

Optimus however—whenever him and Crusade should truly reunite, will never be called Sire by Crusade, which they so heatedly established early on—Crusade never needed one and they don’t need one now, better to not let the title trigger those long-suppressed emotions. Sure enough though Optimus will get his moment.

actually no lmfao so you’re good! Eh, I haven’t mentioned much plot w them outside of them and Megs, plus bits of potential interactions with Optimus—so the rest of Team Prime is free game :D

For what I (hopefully will have) planned, their interactions with team Prime will be eh,,,interesting to each their own to say the least. Some more stressful than others BUT let’s not get into that until I’ve worked it out—for now I’ll just mention what they’re dynamics would be like when the drama of Oh Shit Boss Bot You’ve Been Hiding a Kid For HOW LONG has died down.

A usually touch-wary Crusade actually is the one to initiate a hug with Bulkhead, he’s the biggest and warmest and somehow is always happy to see them. Plus he tells cool recaps of Earth films and gifts them strange blobish paintings every now and then, all of which Crusade doesn’t exactly understand, but at least the colors are pretty.

Bee is annoying,,,which is what Crusade would say if confronted if they actually liked all the shenanigans Bee suggest they pull together, prank wars to the max, sparring for fun, video games?, DOUGHNUTS and RACES in the fortress halls??? Ahem. they are a super serious soldier, not a hooligan. But honestly, Bee is the one they seek out the most should they need an adventure, they missed out on a lot of this ‘fun’ growing up on the Nemesis—Bee seems to know how to balance a day of soldiering and dumbassery. sometimes.

Ratchet reminds them a bit too much of their Carrier than they’d care to admit. The medic is an old soul to his very core, perpetually tired but quick to snap into work mode, and sweet if you reallllllly squint. Sadie has been taught from day one to always respect medics, Ratchet obviously takes the cake on I’ve Seen Some Shit and for that alone Crusade both fears and admires Ratchet. Again, growing up on the Nemesis they didn’t have too many bots willing to talk much with them—but Ratchet (after he’s gone through his own lot of therapy, him AND Arcee. good lord) has a never ending pile of stories to share with them. Ratchet may throw in a few more colorful curses than necessary—which is SURPRISING bc Crusade thought they’d heard them all back home, but he’s entertaining and tells Crusade how it is, no sugarcoating. For that Crusade is grateful, there’s been too many half-truths thrown about to them in their recent years :’)

Ghost Prowl freaks them out—why does he deliberately have to be so sneaky?? Crusade has only met Prowl a fleeting handful of times (visits from the Allspark come with meaning, you know) and each time Crusade has been given nothing but odd riddles and poetic nonsense. Kidding. Prowl does like his wordplay’s but his given advice is always well meaning—the most firm and direct message Crusade has been passed though was probably most definitely “ Get those two cowards for mecha you call your Creator’s to stop fooling around with each other and SPEAK—at this rate it’s physically paining me that they haven’t begun Ritus and they’re not getting any younger”

Team Prime adores Sadie, they ask Megatron to see their sparkling photos every chance they catch him. And Crusade. hates it.

:) have

We’ve been here before, haven’t we?

#my art #cybertron’s legacy au #transformers #megop #lots to unpack #tarn is big and purple and very much a sip for megatron this has been established #simp* #also he’s HUUGE #Pharma has a nice role in this au but mostly it’s some other rouge cons #mostly dear Trepan and his big bully of a husband >:3 #WE GOT SOME HOMAGE TO TFP HELL YEAHHHHHHHH GET READY. it’s gonna be darker for sure but ohohoohohooo can’t wait #Sadie is to OLD to call their mom Carrier UGH. #very sad and very much not true #but the title is still there and every now and then a ‘Carrier’ will be thrown out #team prime all would love Sadie #it would take a min for Sadie to warm up but they’ll fit right in :) little band of misfits #and finally #a re draw of one of my fav megop peices ive done #look how far they’ve come 😭😭 #tfa tarn #tfa Pharma #tfa trepan #tfa megop #transformers animated #tfa optimus prime #tfa megatron

[straykidsreactions]

Reaction To: S/O in Little Space

S T R A Y   K I D S  R E A C T I O N   T O : You, their S/O, in little space. 

Genre: Fluff + mildly suggestive

Disclaimer: Little space is not an inherently nsfw or suggestive topic-- it’s only marked as such in the directory as a preface for those who may be unfamiliar since the dialogue contains some mature themes. xo

Chan: 

His instinctive caretaker mode would sense the shift in your demeanor without you having to say a word. If the two of you were alone he would’ve scooped you up into his arms without hesitation, but being in the van with the other members made things difficult. He’d find a balance between making sure you knew he was there for you while still maintaining a level of professionalism. The other members were taking photos to post on the group instagram later that night and he didn’t want to interrupt their fun, but he’d first and foremost make sure you were comfortable and felt safe. 

*watching you with soft eyes as you curled up in your seat across from him and pulled your knees close to your chest, only turning away from you when Jisung tapped him on the shoulder to take a picture of him for social media*

“Hyung, pose!” He’d make a peace sign with one hand and face the younger member for the photo, all the while his free hand was out of shot placed firmly on your thigh, squeezing you lightly as reassurance that he’d take you somewhere quieter as soon as he could. 

*turning away form the camera and leanig in to whisper in your ear*

“You’re being such a good (girl/boy) for Daddy, just wait a little bit longer and we can go home, ok?”

Minho: 

Minho may not come across as the warmest person on the outside, but your little space had a way of bringing out the softest and most adoring side of him, he couldn’t help but to smile around you and you can bet that when you’re in little space he’s giving you everything you want-- is definitely a pushover when it comes to enforcing rules.

*smiling brightly and laughing as he watched you stack up pillows from the couch to build a fort on the floor*

“Yahh, baby we need those to sit on!”

*his laughter growing louder as you teased him, playfully hitting him with a pillow and whining*

“Daddyyyy,I wanna make a fort, please?”

*smiling brightly as he placed a hand gently on the top of your head, patting your hair and giggling at how sweet you looked*

“Aish...you’re too cute to say no to, promise Daddy you’ll help me put them back after, ok?”

Changbin: at an mv shoot and he notices you pouting bc ur sleepy

He could tell the moment you waddled up to him on set and rubbed your eyes that something was different, and as soon as he made eye contact with you he could tell you were in your little space. He’d immediately soften his expression, looking around to see if there was anywhere quiet he could have you stay until he was finished working for the night, worried that the music video set would be too hectic for you.

*staring at you sweetly as he stepped closer to you, knowing that proximity to him made you feel safer especially when you were in a little headspace*

“Is my baby sleepy?”

*nodding as you fiddled with the strings of his hoodie that you’d slipped on over your clothes, watching as your boyfriend rubbed his chin with the pad of his thumb in thought*

“Aishh... how about this, let me finish filming my shots and then I’ll take you home right now, ok honey? Can you wait for Daddy for 15 more minutes?”

Hyunjin: 

He wouldn’t notice right away that you’d become more quiet, curling up on the floor of the dance studio against your boyfriend’s duffle bag as he continued to rehearse with the other members. After they’d finished a run-through of the dance, however, he’d look over and immediately pick up on your shift into little space. he’d immediately become worried and flustered, not wanting to over-exert you physically or mentally.

*crouching down onto the floor and giving you a pouty stare as he made sure you were ok*

“Baby (girl/boy)-- what’re you doing down here, hm? Do you need anything, is it too loud in here?”

*nodding softly as you perked your head up a little, sucking absentmindedly on one of your fingers as Hyunjin nodding in understanding*

“There’s some snacks in my bag for you, why don’t you eat something and put some earbuds in, I promise I’ll be done soon, ok?”

Jisung: 

When you started falling asleep with your head against the table as your boyfriend worked on lyrics for the upcoming album across from you, he woudn’t notice at first that you’d slipped into little space. As soon as he looked up from his computer, however, he’d realize and wouldn’t hesitate to shift into his sweet caretaker role. 

*taking your hand in his gently and pulling you up so that you were sitting up*

“Baby I know you wanna sleep but our dinner is on the way and you need to eat, ok? You need to stay awake for me sweet pea.”

*whining softly as you rubbed your eyes*

“D-daddy I’m tired...”

*flashing you a small smile as he began making cute gestures in hopes of making you smile, squeezing your cheeks and then doing the same to his own as you giggled*

“Should we do something then, baby? So you can stay awake? Or maybe just laugh at daddy’s funny faces, hmm?”

Felix:

The environment at the company dinner and was filled with boisterous laughter and chatter, so when you padded up to Felix with your gaze locked on the floor he wouldn’tt be surprised by your obvious shift into little space. He’d do his best to be there for you while still speaking quietly so that his members around him didn’t hear the two of you talking-- not wanting to embarrass you.

“What is it baby, are you ok?”

*shaking your head softly as Felix stared up at you from his seat attentively, his hand finding the hem of your shorts and playing with it absentmindedly*

“I-I left m-my stuffy in the car...”

*his expression serious as he took in what you were saying, never belittling or teasing you when you were in little space; the playful and teasing side of your relationship would completely shift into pure doting and adoration in these moments*

“You left your stuffy in the car baby? No no no, here take my hand, I’ll get the keys from manager hyung and we can walk down there together, ok?”

Seungmin: 

The two of you are on your way to watch a late night movie and going back and forth trying to decide on what you wanted to watch. The instant that he suggested a recently released thriller movie that he’d been interested in he saw your face shift into one of fear and nervousness as you shook your head-- and he quickly caught on to your shift. He’d smile brightly as a way of reassuring you that he’d never let you watch something that made you uncomfortable, despite his playful remarks.

*raising his hands up and barring his teeth cutely as he mimicked a monster*

“Awww, my baby’s scared? Do you think there’ll be monsters that’ll jump out at us?” 

*chuckling as you shook your head rapidly, sticking your tongue out at him as he giggled and pulled you closer towards him*

“I’m teasing baby, when we get there you can pick a movie you wanna watch, ok? No extra candies though, y/n, I don’t want my pretty (girl/boy)’s teeth to rot.”

Jeongin: 

He was always pretty perceptive when it came to your shifts, so when you sat down on his lap while he was working with tears bubbling up in your eyes he could tell you were coping with a long and difficult day. He wouldn’t ask you to talk much about it, he knew more than anything you needed someone to take care of you and brighten your spirits. 

*smiling softly as he leaned closer to you and wiped the small tears from your cheeks before adjusting the beanie on his head and fiddling with the strings on his hoodie to distract you*

“baby, look-- do I look cute like this, hm?

*sniffling as you nodded, smiling slightly*

“Don’t cry baby...I’ve got you, should we go get you something to eat? I bet that’ll make you smile.”

#stray kids reactions #stray kids scenarios #stray kids imagines #stray kids little space #stray kids x reader #bang chan #lee know #lee minho #seo changbin #hwang hyunjin #han jisung #lee felix #kim seungmin #yang jeongin #i.n. #kpop reactions #stray kids x y/n #stray kids x gn!reader #gender neutral reader #stray kids x male reader #stray kids x female reader

[miki-snake]

The haikyuu boys when they’re lonely

✥ Thoughts on how your boyfriend acts or feels, when you and him are apart for a longer time.

➴ post timeskip haikyuu boys x reader

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✥ Daichi Sawamura

Coming home to an empty apartment was always like a slap in his face. He’d always call out “Tadaima” and expect to hear an “Okaeri” as an answer. When nothing comes to greet him his shoulders slump a bit. He goes on with his chores and everything but he constantly reminds you through texts to take care of yourself. Work keeps him busy but it’s when he drinks his morning coffee that he misses you the most. He’s so used to the taste it has when you make it and is convinced that it doesn’t taste that great if it’s not made by you.

✥ Sugawara Koushi

Watching the kids and the parents picking them up from school reminds him of you and your possible future. When you’re not home though, the thoughts of having a family with you were more apparent in his mind. When you’re gone he looks through everything you normally use and checks if he needs to restock anything, so when you come back everything will be ready for you. He’d tell you over text that he misses you, not whining but just reminders of how much he really loves you.

 ✥ Asahi Azumane

It’s the mornings that he misses you the most. Not waking up with you in his arms (or he in yours bcs he likes being the “little spoon” from time to time) always makes him feel the loneliest. At work he draws some outfits he thinks would look good on you which he always did but during those times he’d do it more often. Develops the habit of spraying a bit of your perfume on the sleeve of his shirt so he can smell “your” scent if he wants to. Nothing is better than your natural scent though. 

✥ Tsukishima Kei

You and him weren’t the typical lovey dovey couple and honestly he couldn’t stand to watch those people being in full on couple mode. So when you’re gone he can’t take it at all, like, the sight was already obnoxious enough but knowing that he couldn’t even be like that if he wanted to because you’re not by his side? Just annoying. When you ask him if he misses you he just scoffs and denies it but he still texts you daily to tell you to “look after yourself, idiot”. He packs his “i miss you” in something like “why did we get a bed that big again”. When he’s sleepy and you two talk over phone his true feelings slip and he starts to blush but you just tell him that you miss him too. 

✥ Bokuto Koutaro

When you’re gone during one of his games he’s especially down because you wouldn’t be there to cheer him on and his team has a hard time cheering him up (the first few times they had to call Akaashi and ask for help. When you’re not home he sleeps on your side of the bed to be enveloped by the smell of yours nearly cries when it fades. If he’s out with his friends he can push back the sad thoughts but in the silence of the night they come back. He has some audios of you talking that he sometimes plays so he can fall asleep. 

✥ Akaashi Keiji

Never forgets to at least text you good morning and goodnight. Sometimes if he’s able to he even squeezes in a good morning call, not because he had to play the alarm for you but because he loves your voice right after you woke up, still tired and confused. He always asks about your day and continues your habit of buying fresh flowers for the living room everyday and sends you an image of the flower of the day. During those times he writes more often on paper and not with his laptop, so he can use the personalized Parker pen you gifted him.

✥ Kuroo Tetsurou

He’d miss your bright smile and sparkling eyes the most and so you and him try to video call each other every night if it’s possible. He asks Kenma, Yaku and his other friends more often to meet up so he wouldn’t feel that alone anymore. He plays it off when you tease him about it but when you tell him that you miss him too, he can’t help the slight sad glint in his eyes and the soft smile forming on his lips. Sends you stupid science jokes which throws you back to your highschool times and the start of you two dating and it never fails to make you smile.

✥ Kenma Kozume

His viewers ask him about his girlfriend and he had to repeatedly tell them that you’re not there with him. So after the streams he’s reminded of your absence the most. He’d get messages from you throughout the day and during those times his responses are a bit longer than usual. He was so used to you cuddling up to him that he misses the warmth next to him. That’s why on one side the blanket is bundled up, mimicking the feeling of someone being next to him with the one side being warmer than his other.

✥ Oikawa Tooru

He misses your gentle voice that would always laugh at his jokes and the teasing between the two of you. He loves to scroll through the pictures of the two of you, reminiscing in the memories you’ve made. Because he feels lonely, he wanted you to also express that you miss him. So he bombards you with photos of him eating, playing volleyball, lying in bed, changing. Also every time you call he whines and asks when you’re coming back and how you could be away that long without him.

✥ Semi Eita

He plays your favorite songs in the background while doing the chores. Most of the time he misses your voice so you can expect many calls or he’ll demand some voice messages. One time you heard how he talked about it to his friends and you surprised him with a recording of you talking about how much you love him and what exactly you love about him. The recording gets played frequently when you’re gone. He also spends more time in the studio, working on songs which you knew so you always text him to remind him to take a break.

✥ Ushijima Wakatoshi

Coming back from practice he misses your soft cuddles and welcome home kisses. You two sometimes try to time your dinner, so you two could video call while eating and talking about your day, well you mostly talk about your day. When you were gone over a Sunday, he’d feel your absence the most. It’s normally the only day in the week he has complete free time and not hearing your laughter echoing through the room and your bright smile in front of him made him feel lonely and he just bluntly tells you that he wants you home soon because he wants to see you. 

✥ Atsumu Miya

He misses your laugh and how you’d laugh full-heartedly at his jokes, even if no one else would. During those times he often goes to “Onigiri Miya”, visiting his brother and talking about how you’re still not home yet. Coming home from practice he always walks past your favorite bakery and sometimes he thinks about getting your favorite cake and snapping a pic to make you “jealous”. At home he mostly sits in the living room, the bedroom making him too lonely without you next to him on the bed.

✥ Osamu Miya

Normally you would go to the restaurant to help him right before closing time so you two can walk back together and when you’re gone he sometimes forgets and still watches the door to see if you're the one who walks through it. 

Always checks up on you if you’ve already eaten and not only junk food but also healthy stuff. Thinks about what to prepare for you on the day you come back and be ready to have a cute little candlelight dinner date at home with homemade cooking that tastes better than in the restaurant.

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu #daichi x reader #sugawara x reader #haikyuu!! #kuroo x reader #tsukishima x reader #haikyuu headcanons #atsumu x reader #oikawa x reader #osamu x reader #ushijima x reader

[iraprince]

i was wondering, where do you find good references for your art? especially for complicated poses like.. almost everything dearly does. i dont know if im just bad at image searching or what, but i can never seem to find what i need online (and i cant really take my own ref photos for poses that require a lot of flexibility ...or more than one person)

for really extreme poses i get specific -- like for those drawings of dearly i searched stuff like “gymnastics poses” and “yoga flexibility poses” (i tried “contortionist poses” too but i found that stuff was less clear/helpful). i don’t think you’re bad at image searching though, it IS really hard to find good reference and sometimes i really am sitting here for ages trying to find the right thing; and a lot of times even what you can find is kind of stiff and awkward bc stock photos and stuff are usually just kind of odd. (i saw on twitter that apparently, hilariously enough, adding “kpop” to the end of searches can get you more natural-looking/appealing refs; bc like, if you search “person eating lollipop” you get a bunch of awkward stock photos of someone making bug eyes at the camera while unhinging their jaw to lick a cartoonishly-sized rainbow candy but if you search “eating lollipop kpop” you get softly lit glamour shots of some music artist looking really cute while eating candy or whatever. i haven’t tried it myself but it genuinely sounds solid lmao.)

a lot of general figure drawing poses are pretty extreme too (i like using the class mode on this site) and i find that the more experience you have drawing really active/unusual poses, the more confidence you can have in kind of fudging it when a reference isn’t exactly perfect or when you can’t find what you need. (this also allows you to push/exaggerate poses or stylize realistic anatomy to better suit your art style, while still having things “look right.”) my personal goal for myself re: reference has always been to work towards a level of technical skill + confidence where the reference works as a flexible tool for me that makes my life easier, instead of me being chained to my computer for an hour looking for the Absolute Perfect Photo before i can even start; transitioning from the latter to the former comes from familiarizing yourself w anatomy and practicing a shitload and storing up enough Body Information in your brain that the way you draw becomes more, like.... modular, if that makes sense? and u can change things or edit things from reference -> drawing without too much stress.

for group/couple poses and also just general ref, especially re: characters holding things or sitting certain ways -- you probably already know about senshistock on deviantart, but i often go there when i’m in a pinch. i find the gallery a little hard to navigate just bc of the sheer size of it, so it might not make it Faster to find anything, but it’s a great resource with a lot of material that was made specifically with artists in mind.

you can also search up videos on youtube and stuff and pause them to try to find interesting frames of what you’re trying to draw! i don’t use this method much bc it’s definitely still not much easier or faster than any other kind of ref hunting, but it’s an option, especially for really niche stuff.

#tutorials #resources