#cheeko

[the-writing-avocado]

Oh, How The Pain Lingers... And it is so bittersweet

Oh, how the pain lingers...

I cannot go to sleep at night.

Before, with him there to say "night night"

I could at least force myself to stop scrolling,

stop pacing, stop typing. Just stop.

Because it was late. And he was watching from the perch

and it was Ten O'clock and if I did not need sleep

He did. So, I would get up and he'd scramble to his favourite perch---

The highest one, where he could watch over everyone,

and as I turned off the TV

and as I switched the light off

In the dark I'd hear him

"Night Night"

"Night Night Cheeko"

"Night Night"

All the way up the stair with his voice to guide me like an angel.

Mummy hurts the most though.

During the day he rested on her shoulder, her knee, her leg

And chattered, or slept, or let her tickle his head.

The silence is not death, but it is the echo

It is the void filled with tears and love and despair.

And regret. It is a demon that threatens to consume me---

It had me in a chokehold and I am torn between succumbing to the suffering

or fighting for my life.

Is it selfish to cry and mourn?

Or selfish to move on?

I am stuck, staring at where his cage used to be

Is it selfish to be glad of the extra space?

Is it foolish to keep the cage up---a constant knife to reopen the wound?

Daddy does not cry, though he mourns all the same.

"Cheeko would want you to be happy-- He wouldn't want you to punish yourself crying."

he says, voice breaking.

We'd barely known him and he died,

he'd already taken our hearts

and did not even do the injustice of abandoning them to bleed.

He went to his death, and so did we.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts.

I can't scream, I can't cry enough, I can't breathe.

Is this what it's like to be buried alive?

and guilt is a monster, and hope is its greatest weapon.

did we do something wrong?

we had a balanced diet, and we gave him extra calcium.

We gave him extra calcium---

If I had been there, instead of galivanting off on holiday

Would he be okay now?

If mum had gone an hour earlier, would it have been alright?

If she had seen the foreshadowing in more than hindsight.

So many ifs and unknowns. To many opportunities to blame ourselves.

Months in our care and he was dead.

But he had been so, so happy. If you had only seen him-

It was not our fault---what if it was our fault.

And then there is that villainous hope. The belief that everything happens for a reason.

You see, he came to us deficient in calcium.

It was a heart attack that killed him

because we took him to the vet

because he was very low on calcium

And maybe it was our fault.

But he came to us always sleeping, never flying, forever loving.

We assumed that was just how he was---the bird with the sweetest temperament my family had ever known

and mum had grown up rescuing and loving birds of all sorts.

So maybe it wasn't.

Maybe it was fate and he was always dying

because in his last few months he was happy

he was loved

and he was loved so much---my sister held him as he died

and in the morning he always came and sat on my bed rail

i could stroke his head for hours and sing with him in the shower

and mum spent almost every hour with him

and dad always played silly games with him and he'd get all fluffy and flirty

or when we ever did exercise, he ran around the top of his cage

singing and whistling, feathers flying.

He was loved.

and maybe, maybe, maybe

he was always dying

and something brought him to us so that he could die happy

Is it selfish to be afraid of the alternative?

Is it arrogant to hope that it's the case?

Mum said now he is free to fly where ever he wants

And I suppose, however I look at it

whatever I believe in the moment

His freedom---whatever form it takes---is irrefutable

I pray he is peaceful, though I have long forsaken believing in any God

I pray with each gasping breath that though my pain lingers, his has eased.

Oh, how the pain lingers

Oh, how I wish it would not

Oh, how I wish it would

Love and pain are kindred spirits

and it is so bittersweet

#poetry #poem #grief #poets #poet #writing #words #tears #crying #tw death #death mention #tw grieving #suffering #spilled ink #spilled tears #wriblr #dead poets society #my poetry #my poem #cheeko #love #love and loss #death #im sorry #I could write a thousand things about him #but I cannot preserve him in writing #there is too much #words can describe love #can make it strong and unyeilding #but i have not the power to write him as beautifully as he lived

[underground-hip-hop-affiliated]

(DJ Muggs)

#SoundCloud #music #DJ Muggs #Mach-Hommy #Big Cheeko

[enbyexotics]

Getting Cheeko to go to bed when his girlfriend is over can be difficult, but after 30 minutes of waiting, we have success! 🥱

[id: A photo of a singular green-bodied and red-tailed (Greencheek Conure) parakeet sitting on my shoulder and tucked into my neck, cosy and content]

#parrot #green cheek conure #sleepy boy #sleepy baby #cheeko chicken #bird dad

[omartistic]

#audio #2022 #2020s #SoundCloud #big cheeko

[chawsl]

#cheeko pek

[cheeko-greencheek]

"The missile is very upset at the fact you are still alive and breathing"

Cheeko was very upset with me (Hayden) yesterday, much preferring his other dads (Jordan) presence much more than mine... I guess I'll just go then 😂

#green cheek conure #conure #parrots #parrot #the missile is very upset #birb #birbs of tumblr #enbyexotics

[elendsessor]

these tags on my ukanlos posts are right so

this is a callout post

fuck you akantor your design cannot save you as good as it may be

-asshole

-hits too hard with wonky hitboxes especially the further back you go (his silly dead stare does not excuse him (oh dear god why is his hitbox so big when he resurfaces))

-abandoned his tetsucabra children when they were tadpoles

-has lied about his race in all 10 games he’s been in

-bane of everyone in universe not even ukanlos or odibatorasu have been that bad and one of them isn’t even confirmed canon but is shown killing monsters in his own trailer how is akantor worse than that when we’ve never seen him do anything but sit on his fat butt in a lava sauna

-will not stop yelling and i want him to shut up

-has beaten many male, female, gender nonconforming, young, elderly, and neurodivergent individuals to death (he doesn’t discriminate but it’s still morally wrong) (also traumatized a certain palico in cheeko sands)

-nobody likes defense down

-sucks in g rank especially it should be illegal for him to hit that hard while also lowering defense and having a yell that keeps going and going only tigrex has the roar excuse

i hope he never escapes old school may he be banished to capcom’s basement for forever and ever and ever

#also how come he’s been in more games than ukanlos #he was even in frontier not even ukanlos was allowed in there’s such a massive bias here #both are cool from a lore standpoint and ost standpoint but that’s it i do not like fighting them #shantien rambles #monster hunter

[thelensofyashunews]

Mach-Hommy Explores Diasporic Duality on New Album #RICHAXXHAITIAN

Mach-Hommy–the acclaimed and prolific artist who keeps his government name unpublished, maintains no social media presence, and covers his face with a bandana of the Haitian flag–releases #RICHAXXHAITIAN, his first solo studio album since 2021, out now on all platforms. Released in time for Haitian Flag Day (May 18th), #RICHAXXHAITIAN channels the troubled political evolution of Haiti, as well as its rich cultural inheritance. Galvanized by the country's turbulent past, Mach-Hommy presents a beacon towards a better future.

#RICHAXXHAITIAN is the fourth album in a tetralogy of albums that examine Mach-Hommy's relationship with his homeland and provide a wide-ranging account of how its issues intersect with problems facing the world at large. While the first album in the series, H.B.O. (Haitian Body Odor), reclaimed an ugly stereotype, and his two acclaimed 2021 albums, Pray For Haiti and Balens Cho (Hot Candles), chronicled hardship and recovery, #RICHAXXHAITIAN is a small musical panacea for his homeland amidst poverty and political strife, combating the public's negative images of Haiti by focusing on the greatness and prosperity of the country's diaspora. Over the course of the album, Mach-Hommy emphasizes the country's potential, strategizing ways that his troubled homeland could become an exemplar of Black cultural and economic excellence.

#RICHAXXHAITIAN draws from a variety of musical styles, welcoming producers like Grammy-winning producer Conductor Williams, along with Multi-Grammy-winning producer KAYTRANADA, Grammy-nominated producer Quelle Chris, longtime associate Sadhu Gold, and others, to indulge their most creative impulses. The album progresses from vintage samples from the pre-rock era to futuristic electronic, jazz, and soul music, sketching a potential path for Haiti to evolve from developing nation to Afro-Futurist paradise.

Last week's single, "#RICHAXXHAITIAN," a collaboration with KAYTRANADA and L.A. legend 03 Greedo, exemplifies Mach in the latter mode, using a house-inflected instrumental and an interpolation of Afrobeat legend Odion Iruoje's "Ikebe" to provide a luxurious platform for both emcees to flex their hard-earned wealth. Focus track "COPY COLD," produced by Quelle Chris, draws from the other end of the spectrum. The song features a guest verse from Black Thought, who has long praised Mach-Hommy and called him one of his favorite emcees, as both emcees unfurl some of their densest verses to date. Originally recorded as a demo during a difficult period of Mach's life, nearly ten years ago, Mach was inspired to dust off the old tape with the hopes of collaborating with an emcee of Black Thought's caliber on the track. Over Quelle Chris's rippling piano instrumental, the two rappers beat against the current mode of label-driven rap beef, instead elevating the art of the emcee with kindred spirit collaboration.

03 Greedo and Black Thought lead a long list of collaborators that make #RICHAXXHAITIAN one of Mach-Hommy's most ambitious albums to date. Mach connects with R&B/jazz luminary HEPHZIBAH on "SONJE," an Afro-Futurist and psychedelic highlight that approaches the dissonant highs of 70s jazz fusion. Buffalo-based activist/singer/songwriter Drea D'Nur graces "POLITickle" with her luminous vocals, putting a button on a song that directly comments on how global capitalism tramples culture and fosters poverty. Mach rolls out the red carpet for Roc Marciano on the brief, but brilliant "ANTONOMASIA," as the two underground heroes trade verses over big band jazz samples and tribal drums. Mach feels right at home when rapping with frequent collaborators like Your Old Droog, Tha God Fahim, and Big Cheeko, providing a familiar anchor for longtime fans and ice cold bars for anyone who might not be familiar with their chemistry.

Born in Newark and raised in Port-Au-Prince amongst the elders of his culture, Mach-Hommy has always strongly identified with his home country's struggle, and his people's resilience. Haiti was the world's first Black republic formed as the result of a successful slave revolt. The Caribbean nation's very existence was a thumb in the nose of white supremacy, heralding the gleaming potential of Black self-government in the new world. Of course, the colonial powers could not let this stand: shortly after Haiti won independence, its former colonial overlord France levied a punitive tax, designed to cripple the young nation's economy and prevent it from growing into a power in the Caribbean. Still, despite the various man-made and natural disasters that have plagued the island nation over the centuries, the people of Haiti have grown strong, developing an influential cultural tradition and a vibrant diaspora, of which Mach-Hommy is a proud member. 

Attempting to transform our modern dystopia into a utopia using only his rhymes and force of will, Mach-Hommy invites us all, from his most loyal investors to his freshest fans, to imagine a brand new world. With #RICHAXXHAITIAN, that seemingly impossible dream creeps ever closer.

“I’ve always wanted to rep for Haiti and the cultural and intellectual richness we’ve provided the world,” Mach-Hommy says. “From our musical styles like kontradans  that have influenced world music, our natural resources which provide so much raw  material for so many important advancements in technology, our thinkers that  pioneered philosophical movements and Black pride, and our spiritual leaders who  kept the religious traditions of Guinea alive and intact, the religious traditions of Ayiti….” 

Buy #RICHAXXHATIAN on vinyl, CD, and cassette at Zotanica

#mach hommy #richaxxhaitian #spotify #youtube #music #artist #musician #soundcloud #culture #rapper #art #rap #griselda #real music #rap culture #newark #jersey #jersey rappers #new jersey #new jersey rapper #westside gunn #haiti #haitian rapper #haitian artist #haitian #haitians #free haiti #haiti crisis #Spotify

[resaresa]

I think I weekend in Cheeko Sands or Cathar would fix me

[smrrkinqueen]

#gofundme #cheekothecat #furever love #donate if you can

[mrscorpio]

Another MR. SCORPIO'S HOUSE FIRE is UP! Mixcloud: http://bit.ly/Mixcloud299 D/L: http://bit.ly/DL-HF299 Shows: http://bit.ly/ScorpioPodcasts 50 Hubert Street (Original Mix)/Freestyle Man/Night In Motion Success (Nebraska Remix)/Byron the Aquarius/The Round Up Pt. 9 Sudan (Extended Mix)/Riveron/Afrospherical, Vol. 6 I LOVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND (LONG MIX)/Omar S,Alister Fawnwoda,John FM/I LOVE YOUR GIRLFRIEND Real Love (Original Mix)/Yamil, Thimble/Real Love We gonna get ya/Shaka/Four Flowers ep Soul Farmer (Ghetto 25 Vocal)/Jeff The Fool/I'm Not Jeff Jump On It (Original Mix)/ЮНОТУС, Younotus/Bunny Tiger Summer Sampler, Vol. 5 Feel the Love (feat. John Newman) (Rudimental VIP)/Rudimental/Home (10th Anniversary Edition) Matig Modern/Lennard Ypma/Rave Invaders, Vol. II Werq. Feel. Gruv. Vogue./Demuir/Heist Classics Vol. 01 VIBRATE/Louis VI/EARTHLING 10 Toes Down (feat. MyGuyMars)/Futuristiks: Mike & Keys, Casey Veggies, Kay Franklin/Ten Toes Down - EP Table Manners feat. Nejma Nefertiti/Napoleon Da Legend & D-Styles/Invincibl Rap Mislz (Extended) Eventide/Atmosphere/So Many Other Realities Exist Simultaneously Baltimore To Tokyo Interlude feat. DJ TMB/Budamunk x Ill Conscious/Sakanoue EP I Would Never/El Michels Affair & Black Thought/Glorious Game L.F.O. (feat. Sampha & George Riley)/SBTRKT/The Rat Road Talkin' to Me/Illa J & Harleighblu/Second Record Aquired Taste/Tino & Marrrtin/La Pie Bavarde Szechuan Capital feat. Action Bronson/Madlib, Meyhem Lauren & DJ Muggs/Champagne for Breakfast Kings Wear White Minks feat. Big Cheeko/Ru$h & Tha God Fahim/Luxury Art Ion Wanna feat. Traxx Sanders & Courtney Bell/Royce Da 5'9"/The Heaven Experience EP The Gist/Alfa Mist/Variables Neon Nightmares/ChasBeats/Neon City Dreams Love Brings Happiness/Adrian Younge & Ali Shaheed Muhammad/Lonnie Liston Smith JID017

#MrScorpio's House Fire #Electronica/House/Hip-Hop/Beats #InvaderFM

[the-writing-avocado]

I'm Tired

losing somone is torture.

the most beloved are always the most cruel.

in the clutches of sleep you see their face

arising from the death:

warm, solid, bright. And a joy so strong

surges through you until you can't breath.

and your grip on reality falters--

I thought in would be over once we buried him;

put the frozen body beneath the ground and said goodbye for good.

I had a place to go sit and talk to him

where the rabbits would hop close and nuzzle my hands as I chatted

to the green dragon placed to rest over him.

For a day the pain did stop and I was once more relieved.

I could tell myself, at least, that I was satisfied

and that burying him was closure.

But then as I slept, one a summer's day

smothered in sunlight and peace and fatigue.

And I saw him again.

He was dead and cold, but still soft

Like he'd been when I held him last---his feathers were always so soft.

I could breath then.

but then he warmed

he breathed

his claws curled to hold by finger

and I was amazed, shoked, frighted.

I thought my heart might burst.

And then I woke.

Whilst I lay with my eyes closed, I fought to figure out

which reality was mine. And whether I was in hell.

Hell it was.

He was still dead. I had seen him alive. He was dead.

I lost him again. And now downstairs it is quiet.

and he is not resting underground, suffocating.

He cannot speak to me He is dead.

I cannot sleep, cannot think, cannot feel without knowing keenly what I have lost.

I cannot go one without fearing that I am the one to blame.

That in putting him in the ground, we have snuffed the light completely

If I'd watched him decay on the table could I let him go them?

Or will I always search for a way to wonder if he is alive?

Reality is hell and I am alone.

I am tired of being haunted by love

#by bird died #cheeko died #at least he was happy #so so happy #but he died #and I was on holiday #and I only saw him right before we buried him #but his feathers were so so soft #and I fear he never actually died because I never saw it #and then that dream... #I don't think i could bury someone again #or cremate them #without fearing there was a chance that they could come back #and I am taking it away #poetry #poem #grief #loss #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #tears #spilled tears #my writing #my poem #poems and poetry #original poetry #poet #word #words #my words

[cheeekopon]

HEY-YA, EVERYONE!

Hello everybody, i’m cheeko, 29, he/him, currently deep into the ST trashcan, and i’m a complete steddie / stonathan brainrot 

While i was lurking in the fandom during the past months, i thought maybe a bit of presentation would be good to try to find some mutuals and good fellas’ blogs to follow- 

-and i feel awkward typing this, because i think i’m a bit too old to come back to tumblr in searching of good fandom contents *cough cough*

I will gladly follow blogs involving:

Steddie

Stonathan

Steddiethan

Ronance

Byclair

Elmax

Elumax

Jeddie

Steve Harrington

Jonathan Byers

Robin Buckley

Nancy Wheeler

Stobin (only Platonic Soulmates with Capital P)

Whatever rarepair you like, wether it’s wlw, mlm or wlm

I will offer posts mostly about:

Steddie

Stonathan

Steddiethan

Ronance

platonic Stobin

Steve Harrington

I write fanfictions, sometimes i do graphic / moodboard / aesthetic contents involving shipping, and cosplay (steddie, stonathan and platonics stobin photoshoot mostly)

More specifically i would love to follow: people who post about their personal hcs and their vision about shipping, fanfiction writer or people who do fic-recs and various media artists.

If you ship non-platonic Stobin or if you’re a minor, please, don’t interact. And btw, sorry for my poor english ;)

#steddie #stonathan #ronance #elmax #elumax #byclair #steve harrington

[enbyexotics]

We've had a few Gotchadays recently! Autumn, our Kenyan Sand Boa, has been with us for 2 years -

And Cheeko, who's been with us for 3 years 🥰

#reptile #reptiles #snake #critters #animal #exotic animals #green cheek conure #parrot #parrots #gotcha day

[goldenboygate]

cheeko perez

#f1 #sergio perez #checo perez

[noloveforned]

my yo la tengo triple-header drew to a close last night, just in time to get ready for my show tonight on wlur from 8pm to midnight. tune in live or check out last week's show at your convenience!

no love for ned on wlur – march 10th, 2023 from 8-10pm

artist // track // album // label the replacements // god damn job // for sale- live at maxwell's, 1986 // rhino the tubs // illusion, part two // dead meat // trouble in mind rizzo // spin this // phoning it in // sympathy for the record industry mhaol // bored of men // attachment styles // tulle qinqs // edgar allan poe // qinqs 7" ep // goodbye boozy yo la tengo // outsmartener // today is the day ep // matador carambolage // fußgängerzone // carambolage // tapete new bloods // oh, deadly nightshade! // the secret life // kill rock stars peter ivers // terminal love // terminal love // warner bros. gina birch // i am rage // i play my bass loud // third man ono // i wonder why // kate cincinnati // american dreams mogwai // take me somewhere nice // rock action // matador mess esque // liminal space // armour your amor 7" // (self-released) zander raymond // park // separate in space // (self-released) lucy 22 and lawrence lui // formosa // formosa digital single // (self-released) sun ra and walt dickerson // space dance // visions // steeplechase malcolm jiyane tree-o // umkhumbi kama // umdali // mushroom hour half hour theo croker featuring ego ella may and jeff parker // somethin' (extended take) // by the way ep // sony masterworks julius brockington // in the back of the churchyard // the united chair // barely breaking even mach-hommy featuring left lane didon and big cheeko // wellness cheques // notorious dump legends, volume two // (self-released) maxo featuring keiyaa // one day at a time // even god has a sense of humor // def jam u.s. girls // just space for light // bless this mess // 4ad free love // all the same to me // inside // lost map kate fagan // come over // i don't wanna be too cool (expanded edition) // captured tracks dot dash // lonesome sound // madman in the rain // the beautiful music the reds, pinks and purples // ghosts again // heaven's dreaming ep // (self-released) screen prints // words can't really say // european jeans // fastcut

#wlur #radio shows