#especially grief

[ingo-ingoing-ingone]

New Tags!

Hi hello I am finally off mobile so I can make this little announcement! :D

I will be adding THREE NEW TAGS to my lineup!

#SUBMAS POSITIVITY will be used for any post involving non-angsty content of the boys. Certain things like “Ingo takes care of Emmet with a cold” will still go in here, just no actual angst

#REUNION will be used to tag just that: post-PLA reunion content! Now this one is pretty positive but! Some people may want to block the tag due to the fact that it’s all noncanon and that makes them sad. Or whitelist it. Either way! Reunions will be tagged!

#PLA ERA will be for any and all content during the separation. Either Ingo or Emmet or anyone else. Ingo in Hisui content will all get this tag!

I did not end up going with a hurt/comfort tag because that definition is SO subjective, and it’s just.... what should be tagged as angst? what should be tagged as hurt/comfort? what if it’s MOSTLY COMFORT?? So I’m going to continue tagging angst liberally as I have been, and hope that works.

I cannot go back and tag everything I reblogged, I am genuinely sorry. But this would kill the man, and the man is me.

Silly shitposty things and asks and whatnot will not all get tags. Some will just get me being silly in tags lol.

If I forget to tag something, shoot me an ask! Or DM me! I do not bite and neither do all these joltik.

#submas #new tag alert! #i hope this helps i sincerely do #listen i've been here for a month and a half. that's it. #i came for the brotherly relationship #and bc the character designs fuckin slap #not the angst (even if I do love quite a bit of it) #i never wanna be that new fan who makes the old ones feel unwelcome #Personally i produce angsty content to work through my own feelings #especially grief #and then offer a resolution at the end most irl people will never get #(ie coming back to life bc sci-fi/fantasy) #but i also love making funny silly content bc it makes my heart happy #and from the bottom of that heart #i hope people have been enjoying what i've done here <3

[somnimagus]

My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.

[id in alt text]

#legend of zelda #loz #twilight princess #loz tp #i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it #it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy #but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble: #i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way #to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present #link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face #and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up #you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way #the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually? #fan art #my art #project stuff #and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!! #especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them #a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt #i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile. #This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature. #But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly' #My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out. #Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth. #I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity- #-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly. #Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose. #You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards. #Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever. #To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss. #Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'. #described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

[brighteuphony]

Some reunions, like Naruto and Lee, are filled with happy hugs and warm welcomes.

Others...not so much.

Ino and Sakura's reunion...yeah it doesn't go great.

Sakura had been invited back into her mother's estranged family after her accident, but on the way through Tea Country, the caravan had been attacked by bandits/dissidents and Sakura ended up jumping into a river to save herself.

Her body was never found, and she was considered dead. She has an empty grave right beside her mother's and father's in Konoha.

Ino, Naruto and Lee were devastated. Ino, in particular, was inconsolable. She'd just made up with her friend and they'd been struggling to find footing after Sakura's accident, so to get the news of her death crushed Ino.

She'd felt so guilty, fighting over stupid things like boys, all the dumb insults they'd leveled at each other, and her helplessness at Sakura's condition ate at her for a long time. Ino threw herself into the job and she left flowers at Sakura's grave every Sunday for a year (and her parents did it for her when she was on missions) before finally beginning to heal.

To learn that Sakura was alive the entire time, that she didn't care enough to send Ino a single letter...that she just let Ino go through all that heart-wrenching grief is a betrayal that Ino can't suffer. It's like having that wound, only just now scarring over, be torn open and salted.

She spent a year mired in grief, and the next three trying to mend the hole Sakura's death left in her life. And to have all of that history, friendship and grief disrespected... Ino doesn't talk to Sakura for almost 7 months.

As for Sakura, she was in such a depression after her accident, she managed to convince herself that she didn't matter to any of her old friends (especially because it was so awkward and difficult to find common footing with everyone after being honorably discharged). So she made the mistake of assuming no one cared, almost as a method of protecting herself from the consequences of her own decisions.

This bites her in the ass, ofc.

Eventually, they enter a 'cold but civil' relationship when Sakura makes a sincere, heartfelt (and groveling) apology. After that, the walls come down, but their friendship won't ever take the same form as it did before, but maybe that's for the better.

Their new friendship is much stronger.

Once again, thank you so much to everyone for all the amazing asks and the incredibly kind words about this AU!

@evaregia

#naruto #haruno sakura #ino #ino yamanaka #coven!sakura #as if a simple apology is going to erase the YEARS of grief sakura come on girlie #youd be shocked at how people dont like being lied to #especially about things like...u know...ur DEATH #Sakura did have her head up her own ass here for a bit #and absolutely deserved to get rocked for it #also i made the skip 4 years because no one can stop me

[trans-axolotl]

content note: discussion of suicide.

this next monday will be the six year anniversary of losing one of my friends to suicide.

when he died, my high school barely mentioned his death, even though for other students who died by things like car crashes or illness, there were so many public expressions of grief. they believed that having any memorials for a student who died by suicide would encourage other people to die the same way. in their rush to erase the circumstances of his death, they erased the memory of his life.

there are so many things i am angry at that high school about in terms of how they treated mental health (mandatory reporting and collaborating with cops, their refusal to recognize the ways in which that system led to peer-to-peer crisis support, their refusal to recognize the ways that trying to keep each other alive through trial and error was scary and exhausting, carceral disciplinary policies, etc etc etc). but i think one of the things i am still angriest about is the way they enforced shame around his death. it felt like they were retroactively blaming him for the constellation of circumstances that made suicide an option in his life. it felt like they were blaming those of us who missed him and cared about him and wanted to grieve him. it made those of us still there who were actively suicidal feel even more scared about the reaction if we did reach out for help from one of those mythical safe adults.

as an adult now involved in psych abolition/mad liberation work, it makes me so fucking mad to see the ways in which he was discarded by people in authority positions. and the older i get, the more options i have found in my life for making sense of the world and finding healing and community and support which were never available to him because he died when he was 16 and the only things offered to him were a carceral psychiatric system that blamed him for his own fucking death. it feels so incredibly unfair.

i miss him and i think i always will; i can't remember his laugh or the sound of his voice or his favorite color any more and that aches. this grief is so heavy and it feels harder in a new way each year, when i become older than he will ever be. sometimes meeting new comrades or seeing new anticarceral suicide support models hurts because i wish so fucking bad that we had that back then. i remember how close we came to losing even more people that year and i know it is simple fucking luck that i'm still here when he's not.

i remember another letter (never sent) that i wrote to a friend while they were in an ICU bed after a suicide attempt when i didn't know if they would live or not. i have spent so much time in the past 10 years begging for anything to keep me and my friends alive, but even in that letter i knew that there is so much fucking violence that is hidden beneath psychiatric logics of cure and safety that promise a "solution" to suicide. I knew that institutionalization, coercion, and shame would not have helped build a life more liveable for him or **** or any of the people i've loved and lost since.

there needs to be more fucking options for care and support that aren't so incredibly cruel to suicidal people. i know so many people doing incredible work in alternatives, peer respite, a million different frameworks for healing and liberation. but it makes me so mad every day i have to live in a world where there are still people restrained, locked up in psych wards, having all autonomy and personhood taken away from them. knowing there are dozens of people every day getting blamed for their deaths the same way he was blamed for his.

i miss him. i cared so fucking much for him. and he died by suicide, and all of those things are true. he has been dead for 6 years and he lived before that and the people who loved him want to remember all of him; our celebrations of his life should not require hiding the way that he died.

Image description: [1000 origami cranes in all different colors and patterns that are tied together in strings of 25]

(these were the 1000 cranes we made to give to his parents, in memorial and recognition of how much he meant to us.)

#personal #suicide tw #suicide mention tw #psych abuse tw #psych ward tw #ok to reblog if u want #psych abolition #mad liberation #psych survivor #it's a lot of grief hours over here and will be for a while all week i think #lots of grief so many ways this year for so many people #but this week. his memory . my grief for him #is hitting especially hard. i think partially because of all the transitions in my life. i'm graduating college. he will never become an ad #adult. #i think i might ask my roommates if they will go do something to remember him with me. maybe making origami cranes and sending them off in #the river. or writing things down and burning them #idk. grief is hard #six years in grief is different. but hard

[taiistired]

i need you more than anything

#taevi.png #life series #scott smajor #jimmy solidarity #solidarity gaming #flower husbands #dangthatsalongname #trafficshipping #so guess who watched scott's and jimmy's 3rd life and is now insane about jimmy's death and the impact it had on scott #it's so interesting about scott's grief in 3l especially in the moments when he learns jimmy is dead and how he chooses to express it #i'm still thinking about that afterlife scene and how it's so deeply intergal to scott's character #everyone say thank you to bree for getting me into fh i will never view them the same again #taevi have a consistent scott design challenge instant fail #blood tw #blood cw

[barghest-land]

таится чудо в любом пустяке я раньше не видел такого тумана здесь даже деревья растут как-то странно и птицы поют на чужом языке

#. #life is so strange rn #so quiet and so loud at the same time #there is so much grief. so much loss. winter is taking everything over. taking away. covering is snow. silencing tears and screams #grief is in the family and everywhere #but now there's also so much love idk how that happened #so strange to feel that way. especially during winter. especially with grief being there. so present #but the other thing is brighter #i think i'm gonna be okay #:( #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #horses #it's just a little study btw im working my ass off rn so i can't draw much rn sorry

[upsidedog]

god the scene in season one where jonathan comes home to joyce and lonnie on the couch drinking together is harrowing. it makes me want to cry just thinking about it, your brother is dead, your mom is horrible mental state and is now also introducing your abusive father back into your house. what a fucking nightmare.

#i think it’s unproductive to try to determine whether joyce is a fully ‘good’ or ‘bad’ mother especially without acknowledging the #intricacies of grief or abuse or how victims go back to their abusers or how your son is stuck in a hell dimension but i think it’s obvious #she was at least being a bad parent to jonathan all of season one he was absolutely put through the ringer and joyce even temporarily #letting lonnie back in is just the cherry on top #anyway season one is sooooooo damn good it’s so fucking good it’s actually a good show in season one #i adore the funeral scene where dustin goes ‘wait till will hears jennifer hayes cried at his funeral!’ so cute so funny #and nancy. NANCY. the angels wept! #the scene where steve tries to get her to go to the movies vs the first ep… she is not a frivolous high school girl anymore. that can’t be #her life

[secretmellowblog]

Before writing Les Mis, Hugo’s beloved 19-year-old daughter Leopoldine tragically drowned. As a result Les Mis is full of drowning imagery— drowning as a a symbol of impossible grief and loss, drowning as a symbol of being left behind by a society that doesn’t care about protecting your life, drowning as a method of suicide.

The les mis letters chapter today is the first chapter where Hugo highlights the drowning imagery that becomes central to the rest of the novel. The horrible symbolic death Valjean suffers as a result of being entirely isolated and forgotten by a society that doesn’t value his life is also foreshadowing of Javert’s eventual death.

Throughout the novel, Eponine also frequently talks about her desire to drown herself in the Seine; Thenardier monologues about how “the river is the true grave” and when bodies fall in it “justice makes no inquiries;” later Valjean escapes prison by faking his death by drowning, and so on and so on. There’s this emphasis that drowning doesn’t just mean death, it means erasing yourself from existence. It means you’re forgotten.

One of the saddest references to the death of Leopoldine is the way Valjean and Javert learn about the other’s death (or “death.”)

Hugo learned about his daughter’s death not from a family member/friend, but by reading about it in a newspaper. He was on vacation away from his family at the time. He was reading the news in a cafe and happened to stumble on an article about Leopoldine’s horrible tragic drowning, which was how he first learned that she was dead.

When Javert learns about Valjean’s “death” in prison (when Valjean pretends to drown in order to escape), he learns about it by reading it in the newspaper. When Valjean learns about Javert’s death by drowning, he learns about it by reading it in the newspaper.

So…yeah :(. Les Mis is full of all these agonized metaphors around drowning (as a metaphor for death/grief/being entirely forgotten by the people around you) and part of that comes from Hugo’s own deep personal trauma around the death of death of his daughter.

#les mis #les mis letters #lm 1.2.8 #Victor Hugo #death cw #: (((((((((((((( #but yeah #I think pilferingapples was the person who first made me aware of this and :;((( #Hugo’s grief over Leopoldine also obviously shows up in the way he writes Valjeans relationship with cosette #and it is very :( #….. #Les mis spoilers #spoilers #it feels very weird to tag this novel with spoilers #especially about stuff like ‘the symbolic meaning of drowning’ #but i guess I do talk about plot details so?

[multifandombullshitbabes]

have we ever thought abt the fact that zuko is literally azula's older brother. like she's his little sister. that's his little sister. throughout a big, big part of atla plot, he was actively running away, scared of his little sister killing him because he KNEW she would/could. can you imagine that? your little sibling, wanting more your father's approval than your companionship to the point of death? every time they fought, zuko was fighting his baby sister. azula was fighting her big brother. this is making me so sick. they were 16 and 14 years old.

#avatar the last airbender #atla #atla zuko #atla azula #zuko #azula #hey look i posted a thing #the absolute maddening grief of it all. like what do u mean??? thats his lil baby sister!!! what the fuck!!! #when she was a bby he was probably so protective and they were so small n they must have loved each other then #before the responsibilities ozai put on them. before all that. they were siblings. they loved each other. #until they were taught that did not matter. zuko learned that it did again #despite all the pain of it #azula actively ran away from learning it from feeling that pain #because she would rather be hated and feared and powerful than to ever be weak ever #this is so heartbreaking #i think this hits especially hard cuz me n my sis are like 2/3 years apart in age. like. i could not imagine having to fight her to the dea #i just couldnt. i rly rly couldnt

[crave-mp3]

I LOVE BEING ARO SO MUCH!!!!!! I WILL NEVER FEEL ROMANTIC ATTRACTION AND THATS BEAUTIFUL AND NATURAL AND SOMETHING I WILL WIELD AS A WEAPON AND A SHIELD AGAINST ANYONE WHO WOULD CHANGE ME OR ERASE ME!!!!!! REALIZING I AM ARO WAS ONE OF THE MOST JOYFUL AND FREEING AND ILLUMINATING EXPERIENCES OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY EXUBERANCE AT LIVING WITHOUT THE NARROW SOCIETAL IDEA OF "LOVE" KNOWS NO BOUNDS AND I SEE BEAUTY IN EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!! MY LIFE OVERFLOWS WITH JOYFUL ABUNDANCE!!!!!!!! I AM BURSTING FOR AFFECTION WITH EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER BE "ALONE" (I WILL NEVER BE LONELY) BECAUSE I WILL MAKE FOR MYSELF A LIFE THAT SINGS AND SHINES!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE LIVING A LOVELESS LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THE SELF RELIANCE OF MY HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM INFINITE AND BOUNDLESS AND DEFY DESCRIPTION OR CATEGORIZATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM AROMANTIC!!!!!!!! ALL IS JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL IS LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i see a lot of posts about aro grief and ive been there. believe me ive so been there. #BUT!!!!!! we need to talk about aro joy too!!!!!! #living a joyful life regardless of expectations is THE most important thing we can do!!!! both for the aro community and for ourselves #as complete and whole people!!!!!! #+ by expectations i mean both amatonormativity and the weird sort of...... defeatist mentality i see a lot of ppl in the community voicing #our lives are a triump!!!!! a rebellion of joy!!!!!!! living the happiest life you can is your victory!!!!! #and you show others (especially young others + aro or not) that you don't need romance to be completed or happy!!!!!! #aro joy as a mission aro joy as a mantra aro joy as reaching out #this is deffo ok 2 rb but just before anyone starts being all 'not every aro on the face of planet feels the exact same way u do' #i wrote this about ME. ok? #i would love it if ppl wanna rb/add tho bc like i said. we need more aro joy!!!!! #vic.txt #aro #aromantic #arospec #aspec #alloaro #aroallo #aroace #lovequeer #amatopunk

[berrydoodleoo]

i am the emissary and i shall never die

#ffxiv #ff14 #elidibus #themis #venat #emet selch #lahabrea #hermes #i think the parallels between themis and venat are really interesting #their physical similarities and everything else #i really liked the new raids and new i had to make something with themis in this room it's honestly just an amazing space #i tried to capture the moments before the sundering #when the convocation resolved to sacrifice the life on the planet and venat stood up against them #the timeline is a bit mushy of course #especially after the flashback scene in ew #but eh creative liberties i guess #i wanted to capture a mix of grief and resolve #and i tried to make it look painterly #it's something i've been experimenting with but this is the first time i pulled it off in a way i like #click to see the full res version! #ffxiv 6.4 spoilers

[canisalbus]

(im sorry)

Vasco would change after Machete's death, I think. He'd always be a good, kind man, and in time his smile would return, but never with its old radiance. Sorrow would age him prematurely, and white would creep over his muzzle like clouds blocking the sun.

But perhaps he'd look in the mirror some nights, and run his fingers across the white fur with fondness, remembering the white fur that used to press against him once upon a time. A last reminder of his love, forever on his lips.

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#let out such a pained exhale at that ending jeez #yes I agree #Vasco always came across very youthful and resistant to wear and tear #especially compared to Machete who looked sort of prematurely aged by health issues stressful lifestyle and general gauntness #but I think he started greying soon after Machete's death #from grief and sudden lowered quality of life #eventually he'd mend and go on to live a long life mostly free from further heartbreak I think #but he'd never be the same as before #answered #anonymous #loving the 'I'm sorry' preface #death #cw death #you scroundel you romanticized grey muzzles #Vaschete scenarios

[agentark]

do you ever think about how in the literal very first scene with Rebecca, we learn that Unit Bravo had no idea she even had a kid

she chose UB and The Agency over the detective so consistently, so frequently, that her team didn't even consider that she had some kind of life outside of them, with someone waiting for her at home

#twc #Rebecca I am obsessed with your brain #like N and F especially are so moved by the ideas of family and normalcy and having a home to return to #i just want UB to really sit with the idea of what the detective missed bc their mom chose to be their handler #twc rebecca #the wayhaven chronicles #wayhaven #Rebecca's grief and fear and sense of duty melding into one giant nightmare creature of work-life imbalance #I've been contemplating what a rebecca & mc relationship would look like if rook hadn't died #much to consider #the rebecca lore is making me insane the more i think about it #like if anyone was going to have any inkling of Rebecca's personal life it'd be UB and theyre like 'child?? dead husband??' #she trusted agency sitters enough to watch the detective but never let even hinted her own team that she had a kid !!! #idk im rambling now

[luminouslotuses]

q!jaiden and the bittersweet cycle of losing and loving

light by which i read by eric pankey // @sunrisepaintings // bobby fields qsmp wiki page // @keirawantstocry // jaiden updates on twitter // SAVING THE EGGS youtube stream // @keirawantstocry // MATANDO O CELLBIT PRA FICAR SEM VIDA NENHUMA twitch stream (reposted here) // @cubitozinc // petal by musubu hagi // @keirawantstocry // screenshots from 1/2/24 (reposted here) // wade by clairo // @sunrisepaintings // marshmallow by victoria hannan // musubu hagi on instagram // wade by clairo // @keirawantstocry

#i think i went through the stages of grief backwards because what do you mean guys. qjaiden is alive and well with her new daughter #ANYWAYS this was fun to actually finish especially since i’ve never done a ww with an au as the concept before :o #this couldn’t have been possible without my mutual jay so again THANK YOU SO MUCH🫶🫶🫶 #qsmp #q!jaiden #qsmp empanada #qsmp bobby #web weaving #kaleidoscope

[rrat-king]

“I think before a certain point, I don’t remember us having names like you all have these days, but there was always mother, brother, sister, neighbor. So even if we didn’t have some hoity-toity moniker, we knew who we were to one another, and that was the important part.”

-Erika Ishii, Burrows End

#ava as a character is so often so goofy but god this made me cry #especially in its relation to grief i just. god and the way the family is so concerned by the lack of individuality in last bast #and something about the inclusion of neihbor really gets me too #it’s not just family it’s also everyone else it’s those who you are surpriunded with cuz we are the relationships we create #even tho they said it jokingly there are several different grammas becuase relationships differ #just like tula is a mother but also a sister but also a child #i just. god this got me fucking christ #d20 #burrows end