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Here he is looking pathetically scrungled after his bath btw

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My Dungeon Meshi Modern AU Thoughts Instead of Writing My Economics Research Paper lmao

Ughhhh,,,, okay have been thinking about them all day and if one person manages to make it through the void and hear me out and talk about them with me then I’ll be happy lol.

WARNING: this is stupidly long, like I spent an absurd time writing every single little detail down. With that being said here we go:

cw//mentions and minor graphic descriptions of death, bullying, discrimination, injury, abuse, trauma, mental health issues, and abandonment

• Laios

- currently 26 and living with his sister Falin

- studying zoology part-time at the local college

- mostly does night classes since he works 1-2 jobs during the day to help pay for his and Falin’s tuition and apartment

- he and Fallin took their dog Muimui when they moved out, they also feed the local stray cats

- lived on a farm with his sister and parents when he was a kid, and is where his love of animals comes from

- however did not have the best of childhoods, as he was a frequent target for bullying due to having undiagnosed autism, and his father was very much a “nothing is wrong with you, toughen up the world isn’t going to coddle you” kind of person

- this was further cemented when he cried going hunting with his dad for the first time and refused to eat any of the deer or rabbit they had caught

- his mom had her own mental health problems that she was never diagnosed for, so often she fell into the same mindset as her husband when it came to Laios’ and Fallin’s behaviour, only she was more erratic due to her fear of one or both of her kids becoming like her

- never forgave his father after he sent Fallin off to a private middle/high school far away from their home, little did he know it was because the severe bullying Fallin was receiving was too much for her, and he wanted to send her away before she got hurt or worse

- nearly tried to run away at 16, however was caught by the police almost immediately and returned home

- completed his high school diploma and took off with Muimui without even saying goodbye to his parents, Fallin nearly joined him in the city but since she was still under guardianship of her parents, she couldn’t leave until she became an adult

- once graduated, she reunited with Laios in his apartment where they now live

- works nearly full-time at Senshi’s restaurant and works part-time as a janitor at their local zoo (he wants to be close to the animals lol)

- very busy but he makes it work, Marcille and Kabru have no idea how he does it without any meds or caffeine

- either has a worn out picture of him and Falin with their old dogs, or has a hand-made drawing of his theoretical strongest monster in his pocket that he looks at whenever he needs inspiration

- both him and Falin live wayyy out of the city center since rent is fucking abysmal downtown

- insists on taking the bus or walking everywhere since taxis and buying a bike costs too much, even if the commute is like 2 hours with 3 transfers

- despite this, he still has a drivers license

- the kind of guy you would expect to be eating leafy green tofu bowls from your local hipster vegan bistro, but is actually the kind of guy who eats the dubious $4 ground beef chubs and off-brand deli ham from walmart

- socks and slides with free college club t-shirts and cargo pants from the gap that come with like 50 pockets so he can carry all his stuff (the stuff mostly being dog treats and loose bird feed) bro has no drip aside from one outfit put together by Marcille

- uses the same highlighter blue and yellow adidas backpack he’s had since middle school, carries literally everything in there

- doesn’t listen to music, but if he does it’s rain/nature sounds with the $2 headphones you get from the dollarstore

- not much of a gym freak and usually just goes casually, prefers sports to working out (will have a protein shake but does not invest in creatine or other pre-workout supplements)

- either uses the same recyclable water bottle with the label torn off from a pack of 50 he got 3 years ago, or just uses one of his protein shake bottles I can’t decide

- hangs out with Marcille and Falin the most often (since Marcille constantly makes excuses to study with Falin at their apartment), sometimes gets smoothies or juice with Kabru if they run into each other

- hangs out with Senshi and Chilchuck less often, their time spent together is usually limited to having a beer after closing the restaurant or meeting together with everyone else to have dinner every couple months

- goal is to become a wildlife biologist when he graduates

- more to add if I think of it

• Fallin

- currently 23 and lives with Laios

- in her second year of studying veterinary medicine at their city’s main university

- grew up with Laios and her parents on their farm, also developed a deep love and appreciation for animals early on, but while Laios was more interested in the study of their behaviour, she was more interested in healing them

- also has undiagnosed autism like her brother, only when it came to her behaviours, she stood out a lot more and was subsequently bullied heavily for stimming, having major sensitivities to light and sound, self-isolating, talking to inanimate objects or “ghosts”, having a special interest in things like bugs or plants, and having a very specific schedule that adults had to help her with

- never really understood why adults or other children treated her differently, as she thought it was normal for everyone, however was still affected by having no friends aside from her brother during her younger years

- the bullying got so bad that kids began physically tormenting her, and since she never told Laios (who was in middle school and couldn’t always be with her), there was essentially no one to defend her

- very sadly culminates in an incident where she was intentionally locked in a graveyard overnight, and although she didn’t sustain any injuries she was fairly traumatized by the event, it was the final straw for her father to send her away to a private school at 12 years old to finish her education

- moved to a different city the next year where she stayed in dormitories, had her own room due to enrolling late

- also initially had a hard time making friends, and often cried since she couldn’t be with Laios, however no one bullied her for her autism and most often ignored her or gossiped

- had Marcille as a “buddy” to help her get acclimated to school life, however their relationship was quite awkward initially as Marcille thought she was unnerving and frankly a little stupid, however was completely shocked at Fallin’s nearly perfect grades

- school policy at that time stipulated that students had to return to the main hall for dinner at a certain time, however when Fallin doesn’t show up, Marcille has to look for her

- she finds Fallin at her secret hangout spot, similar to her dungeon in the anime, a corner with a group of trees and thick bushes that opened up into a grassy nook and a little pond, there they talk about what she does there and why she skips

- also similar to the anime, a fox (rather than a slime) catches them by surprise, but as Marcille tries to get it to run away by throwing rocks at it, Fallin stops her and explains it never comes closer than the tree line, she then points out that hurting while it’s already injured (has a slight limp) will cause it to die, allowing for the prey animals like squirrels and rabbits to eat away at most of the fauna surrounding the school, basically emphasizing the importance of all animals in an ecosystem and how it’s wrong to try and shift the ecosystem solely for our comfort or benefit (cheesy I know but it’s for the plot)

- she then offers Marcille the raspberries that grow on some of the bushes, and soon after Marcille asks if she would like to be friends

- they remain as friends in school only for another year, as Marcille graduates early and leaves Fallin behind much to her heartbreak, however does promise that she’ll visit and reunite with her soon

- by the time she graduates, she moves in with Laios and begins attending the same university as Marcille, there their friendship is reaffirmed, and they both start to develop feelings for one another

- full-time student but does work a few shifts at one of her university’s coffee shops whenever she can (tends to feel guilty about Laios helping her out with tuition on top of taking care of everything at home)

- in the honours program, and although she gets good grades her commitment is often questioned due to her habit of skipping

- reason for skipping is because she often does volunteer work at a nearby veterinary clinic

- unlike Laios, Fallin likes to bike to and from her classes

- it’s her main source of exercise, though she also does go to the gym if she has time, girl is absolutely built and is much stronger than she appears

- lives off of daily sweet treats and fried bologna sandwiches or tomato soup made by Laios

- frequently raids the raspberry bush growing outside hers and Laios’ apartment building, as well as the crabapple tree that technically belongs to the house next door but has its branches growing over the fence separating them

- also does not rely on excessive caffeine, but she does enjoy tea and coffee unlike Laios

- has a fjällräven backpack that Marcille gifted her for her birthday, mostly full of her textbooks but she does use it to carry rocks or sticks she finds interesting

- water bottle is a very dented bright pink hydro flask (also gifted to her by Marcille)

- has the jean shorts, tucked in t-shirt, and long cardigan look on lockdown, also wears hiking boots or converse, rarely is she seen in flipflops

- no make-up either, Marcille had to practically beg her to at least start using a clear lipgloss

- isn’t picky about music and usually just listens to whatever Marcille or Laios plays, sometimes she indulges in some lofi hiphop beats if she’s studying

- obviously best friends with Marcille but does not know she has a crush on Marcille, and thinks that her intense feelings of love and happiness are just normal girl friendship feelings (oh you poor thing)

- only vaguely knows of Senshi through the leftover food Laios sometimes brings home after his shifts, with Chilchuck she is more familiar since she sometimes visits him with Marcille on the weekends

- favourite thing is when her, Laios, Marcille, Izutsumi, Chilchuck, and Senshi all gather to get dinner together

- when it comes to her parents, she still maintains contact unlike Laios, though her messages tend to be generalized or cordial (not necessarily her intention it’s just she isn’t sure what to talk about in regards to her life beyond school)

- goal is to become a travelling wildlife vet

- more to add when I think of it

• Marcille

- is currently 26 and lives by herself (due to it being a modern au I’m imagining all races have the same lifespan of around 70-80 years)

- had probably the most normal upbringing and early adulthood out of all of the characters, both of her parents were very loving and attentive, always encouraging her and supporting her keen intellect through her hobbies

- however, they weren’t always around due to being very busy as government lawyers and often working late, she has very distinct memories of winning math and science awards as a child, looking out towards the crowd only to see her parents weren’t there

- was generally quite lonely during her childhood since she had no siblings or cousins to play with, a similar situation at school where most kids considered her stuck up or bossy when in reality she was just smart and was blunt about telling people when they were wrong about something

- is very close with Chilchuck, having known him and his family since she was little, although them all getting together was fairly rare, some of her fondest memories have been when they’d go on family trips together and she would get to play with Chilchuck’s daughters

- lost touch with him from ages 9-15 but reunited with him at 16 while he crashed at their place after his work injury and during his divorce, became very close with him during this time and developed a deep familial fondness for him despite all his teasing

- at 19 years old, she suffered a great deal of mental anguish as Chilchuck began to lose contact with her, Fallin was considering moving to a different city for university, and her father died due to a very sudden and unexpected stroke, she felt as though everyone in her life was slipping through her grasp and as a result, developed severe depression that would last until she completed her masters

- luckily, she had a good support system during that time and she was able to make it through the worst of it, however she still does struggle with motivation over simple tasks such as doing her hair or brushing her teeth

- her mood and outlook is much better though, having mostly returned to the same bubbly and dramatic personality that she once had

- is best friends with Fallin, and met her while at private school, mostly explained above, but her initial reaction of Fallin was quite negative before switching around after she realized that her way of thinking isn’t always the right one, even if the facts are right, her perspective and way of interpreting them isn’t always going to be sound

- this new perspective is what caused Marcille to become so enamoured with Fallin, eventually becoming a stupid crush that sticks with her to this day

- has her own studio apartment downtown, brand new building and everything (both parents are government lawyers so you can imagine the kind of money she has lmao)

- has a fawn floppy-eared bunny named Ambrosia

- despite her wealth, she doesn’t look down on her friends whatsoever, if anything she buys them expensive gifts as an act of kindness rather than an act of arrogance or condescension

- in the middle of attaining her phd in microbiology while doing independent research specializing in the study of telomere function

- attends the same university as Fallin

- graduated from high school at 16 and was done with her undergraduate by 19 and her masters by 21, a lot of people tend to think she’s full of herself but she often disregards them as people who don’t try hard enough

- born to carry her baby blue apple ecosystem in a cute tote bag, forced to haul her 7 biology textbooks in an ugly ass dark purple swissgear backpack she picked out when she was 12

- she has an unhealthy addiction to coffee and diet coke, literally cannot function without at least one per day

- cannot cook to save her life, lives exclusively off of pre-made grocery store meals or the sandwiches her university’s grab-n-go store sells, the kitchen aid mixer in her kitchen is practically a decoration at this point

- is actually the kind of person to be eating the leafy green tofu bowl from the local hipster vegan bistro

- has her own car and license, but lives close enough to her university to walk, Laios cannot fathom why she pays insurance every month for it but hardly uses or let anyone else use it

- I personally think she likes to rollerblade too

- jogging is her main form of exercise, but will also do yoga or calisthenics occasionally, probably the type of person to fall for a juice cleanse scam until Laios or Chilchuck scolds her for not eating enough

- I feel like she would be an intense swiftie (sorry :3) other than that, she likes the typical pop radio stuff that is played constantly

- at least she’s not a Stanley cup girl, she will use her scuffed gallon water bottle with the printed times of day until she dies

- very fashionable and loves to wear makeup, like wide leg pants or pleated skirts with penny loafers and cutesy blouses, a firm believer that any Korean makeup brand is far superior than anything Sephora could offer

- practically attached to the hip with Fallin, girl will find any excuse to study with her (the most pathetic sapphic ever someone put her out of her misery)

- otherwise, she’s buddy-buddy with Laios and Kabru but that’s about the extent of it, she’s known Chilchuck since she was little so he’s like an uncle to her

- she is quite friendly with Senshi and enjoys his cooking but hasn’t known him for a long time like the others, Izutsumi she treats like a little sister/niece and is always buying her things

- more to add when I think of it

• Chilchuck (you can tell he’s my fav because he has one of longest backstories lmao)

- currently 49 and living with Senshi and Izutsumi

- owns a two bedroom bungalow outside of downtown but still within the city, saved up for it after his divorce

- used to live in the suburbs with his ex-wife and daughters, but before that it was a shitty apartment close to where Laios lives now

- teen father, had Mayjack when he and his wife were 17 and had to graduate early so they could move out, they had Fullertom soon after and then Puckpatty by the time they were both 20, they got married at 22

- since neither could afford university at the time, Chilchuck went straight into a locksmithing trades program so he could have a decent income, his father had instilled a deep sense of responsibility and honour towards being a provider so he threw himself into his work which caused his and his wife’s initial frustration with one another

- when he was done apprenticing and when the kids were old enough to go to school, his wife went to university to begin studying teaching so she could become a professor, despite having to be home more often, Chilchuck still remained somewhat emotionally detached from his family

- by the time his daughters entered middle school, they had bought a house in the suburbs and his wife became qualified to teach

- feeling pressured by the mortgage, debt, and having to save for his daughter’s college, he began drinking more and taking a lot more hours at work, if he wasn’t working he was at the bar with his coworkers, he often didn’t come home until it was very late

- the final straw for his wife was when he showed up to work severely hungover and exhausted, then proceeded to nearly die in a home renovation project (passed out standing up and fell of a 20ft scaffolding, broke his hip and pelvis pretty badly as well as his humerus and quite a few of his ribs, also had a life-threatening brain bleed due to a skull fracture)

- at that point, all three of his daughters were already in university or trade school so his wife moved out and sold their house while Chilchuck was recovering in the hospital, she moved into a townhouse closer to the city’s main university where she still lives now with Fullertom

- having basically nothing in his savings, he crashed at Marcille’s parent’s place until he could save up a bit and get an apartment or townhouse (he and Marcille’s dad were friends in high school), essentially lived on their couch for about two years

- during this time, he became known as “Uncle Chil” by 16 year old Marcille and he developed a close uncle/niece relationship with her

- teased her as much as any uncle would, but also took her out shopping every couple of months, could never afford the stuff she wanted but he always got her lunch

- eventually, he saved up enough for the down payment of the two bedroom bungalow he lives in now and moved in, initially lost touch with Marcille but started being there for her more after her dad died, even began getting in touch with his daughters again at Marcille’s suggestion

- from then on, he took his work life more easily and tried to make time for himself in between shifts so that he didn’t feel he needs to drink himself stupid every time he came home, tried to pick up multiple hobbies and eventually settled on pottery making and brewing his own alcohol (that he sells…. mostly lol)

- meets Senshi at 42 when he is called in to install the locks and security system of the new restaurant Senshi is building, initially they had not been super friendly with each other, as Chilchuck found it infuriating how Senshi kept on wanting changes to be made to his security system, and how he was basically a walking construction accident waiting to happen

- once everything was finished however, Senshi offered Chilchuck a free dinner at his place as an apology for being stubborn, and unable to say no to free food (and alcohol) Chilchuck agrees

- they become friends after the dinner, however proceed to dance around each other for another 4 years until Marcille threatens to tell Senshi about Chilchuck’s feelings if he doesn’t confess himself

- Chilchuck does eventually confess (during a very charged “guy’s trip” to a resort in Mexico) and they start dating, after the trip, Senshi and Izutsumi move into Chilchuck’s place where they still currently live

- thanks to living with Senshi, Chilchuck adopts a more healthy lifestyle where he stops smoking, eats more, and drinks less, in return, he helps Senshi manage Izutsumi during her teen years as well as help out around his restaurant when he has time

- is generally living comfortably now, with a nice salary and more free time to commit to his hobbies, despite this he still deeply cares about his work and is a union man at heart who is always willing to rally behind his coworkers and organize when something happens

- mostly listens to 80s dad rock and some 90s grunge, is very proud of his CD collection

- dresses similar to Laios, however ditches the college club t-shirt and cargo shorts for polos shirts and chino shorts or dress shirts and casual slacks, also wears tacky boomer sandals for his feet or his construction boots

- drives a land rover defender that he bought in high school, cares for it deeply but isn’t a car guy by any means, he does the bare minimum maintenance to keep it safe and functional

- carries his minimal stuff in a sling bag and lunch cooler, but he also has a survival backpack in the back of his land rover for emergencies

- is a Stanley cup owner, has two, one from the 70s that his dad gave to him, and another white modern one from Marcille, his older one is covered in princess stickers from when his daughters were young

- pretentious black coffee drinker, makes fun of Izutsumi all the time for the amount of simple syrup and cream she puts into her iced coffee

- is okay at cooking, but is definitely more of a grill master, never ask him to deep fry anything though

- is also surprisingly handy thanks to the skills his dad passed onto him, speaking of his family, he isn’t very close to his mother and siblings since they all moved back to their home continent after Chilchuck graduated, he still sometimes travels alone on special holidays or on the anniversary of his father’s death but only if he can afford it

- is now a supervisor of his own crew, initially he wanted to own his own locksmith company, but he also wants to retire soon so he needs to save up as much as he can

- has two main friend groups, one he refers to as “the freaks” which includes Laios, Marcille, Fallin, Kabru, Izutsumi, and Senshi, and the other he refers to as “work” which includes Namari, Mickbell, Kuro, and Dandan

- is closest to Senshi and Marcille, seeing them as his family, however is a bit more distant with Izutsumi since he doesn’t want to automatically take on a “step-dad” role in her life, the reasoning mainly stems from his respect of her and her decisions on who she gets to let in her life, but is also because he wants to avoid things becoming awkward between them

- is, if not begrudgingly, friendly with Laios and Fallin, deep down he cares about them more than he lets on, is mostly cordial with Kabru

- is surprisingly close to Namari, however they keep their relationship strictly within their workplace and the bar they sometimes hit up afterwards

- is closer to his ex-wife and daughters now, having dinner once a month at his ex-wife’s house, they still haven’t really reconciled but they’ve allowed each other to move on

- more to add when I think of it

• Senshi (also super long please forgive me)

- is currently 52 and living with Chilchuck and his adopted daughter Izutsumi

- lives in Chilchuck’s house, but used to own a condo near the restaurant he used to work for

- when he was a child, he lived on an entirely separate continent in the remote far north, the village he grew up in was known for its mining industry, most of the community including his parents were miners, however an accident killed his father and cancer killed his mother when he was a baby, so his father’s friend Gillin took Senshi in when he was 2

- due to the mining culture surrounding the village, it was expected that Senshi also become a miner when he grew up, this coupled with the hyper-masculine ideas of honouring his late father and carrying on the bloodline, made Senshi not really put in much effort into school since he believed it had no use for him, a decision that would later hinder his career and degree options greatly

- once graduated from high school, Gillin immediately had Senshi take his safety courses and get his certification so he could get a job as soon as possible, with some references from Gillin himself, Senshi was able to land a beginner’s position within the company Gillin was in

- worked 7 years mining coal until the mine ran dry and he had to look for work elsewhere, jumped positions between 3-4 companies over another 8 years mining iron and copper until he landed a 2 year contract at a remote but booming silver mine

- was put into a 6 man team composed of himself, Gillin, Brigan, Invar, Totan, and Noor, where they would descend into a highly unregulated and dangerous mountain mine and extract the massive veins of silver, they all were paid well, but the conditions were next to abysmal

- 1 year and 9 months into the contract, a rockslide on the south side of the mountain caused a cheap tunnel support to collapse over the only exit leading out of the stope they were mining in, effectively trapping them indefinitely

- luckily they had a ventilation shaft, but none of them could fit inside and escape or yell for attention since they were trapped over 200ft deep and 500ft in the mountain, so their only option was to ration their food and wait for help to arrive

- they do try to escape in other ways, such as mining through the collapsed support, however this only leads to injury among the group, and as much as Senshi wanted to help, he was under strict instruction by Gillin not to over-exert himself, even though he wasn’t a kid anymore, he still had the most strength and wits among them all, this also results in him receiving the most food much to Brigan’s rage

- in an attempt to be useful, Senshi started drawing up the maps of the mine to see if there was a tunnel close by they could mine into

- as more time passes and they realized no one would be coming to help them, their escape attempts become much more desperate, one attempt to blow up the collapsed tunnel entrance with their remaining explosives leads to the death of Totan, another attempt to start mining over the collapsed tunnel entrance leads to the death of Noor, one last attempt to remove the panelling lining the ventilation shaft so they could be able to fit through leads to the death of Invar, leaving only Brigan, Gillin, and Senshi left

- after six weeks of being trapped under ground, Brigan mentally snaps and tries to cannibalize Senshi so they could eat his flesh, this leads to a physical altercation between Gillin and Brigan which ends in an unstable overhang of rock to collapse and crush Brigan and for Gillin to succumb to his wounds and exhaustion

- alone and starving, Senshi realizes he is now skinny enough to fit through the ventilation shafts and crawl his way out, he uses a combination of ropes and support spikes to help aid him, but soon quickly realizes he mostly has to navigate in the dark

- for two more weeks, Senshi follows the map he memorized and the feeling of airflow to make his way out, only surviving off of his remaining water, in the end he managed to crawl out of a shaft just outside the mining camp

- relived and also deeply saddened, Senshi remains near the shaft until some workers doing a perimeter check find him in the morning, he is promptly taken into the hospital to treat his injuries

- after explaining the situation to the police and his boss, his boss offers him a $30,000 payout to keep quiet and say nothing, the officers say it is possible to take his boss and the company to court, however it would likely put him into massive debt trying to find a good lawyer, in the end Senshi takes the money and leaves the camp for his village

- what’s left to him by Gillin is another $50,000 in savings and property assets, the rest is given to his remaining family, the first thing Senshi buys with the money is his adamantine pot and mythril knife, using both to make a soup Gillin would often feed him, and leaving five bowls of it outside of the collapsed silver mine before moving out of his village for good at aged 35

- he moves to the continent and city where all the other characters are currently living, buying his condo and deciding to enter into 4 year culinary school program

- during these 4 years, Senshi comes to realize that cooking is his true passion, finding it immensely rewarding and fulfilling, and even though he didn’t make many friends due to his unorthodox taste and recipes, it was still the most happy he’s ever been

- about 1 year after graduating and getting a job as the main line cook for a high end restaurant, Senshi meets and adopts 5 year old Izutsumi

- he initially sees her wandering around the green belt outside and behind the restaurant, kicking rocks and occasionally running and hiding in trees, he was always worried she was homeless, however would always see she was gone by the time he was done his shifts

- around five months of this, Izutsumi notices and begins to approach Senshi, as if she had wanted food, Senshi would usually offer some of his packed lunches or leftovers and she would always accept and sit next to him while they ate

- Izutsumi usually never spoke but was always ravenous, Senshi often worried that she was being abused, but whenever he would ask she would always say no, and since she was a healthy weight and never had any bruises or welts, Senshi reluctantly believed her, after that though he began packing more food

- eventually, a woman (Maizuru) approaches Senshi after one of his shifts and bluntly asked if he would like to take care of Izutsumi from then on, baffled he asked who she was and why she knew he was feeding Izutsumi, and she explained that she is her caretaker

- she also explained that since Izutsumi seemed to trust and respect Senshi the most, that he would be the best person to give her a chance at a normal life and raise her into an adjusted adult, due to the fact that she has no regard or interest or respect in her or the rest of her foster family, she then conceded that her question was rather sudden, but still implored Senshi to take her into his care or otherwise she would be forced into an orphanage

- thinking of Gillin, and with the wound of his crew’s death still in his mind Senshi, perhaps impulsively, agrees to take Izutsumi in, much to Maizuru’s delight and thankfulness

- the next day, she returns with Izutsumi and her things and tells Senshi that she will handle most of the legal paperwork aside from the few forms that he will have to sign

- from that point onward, he took care of Izutsumi and made sure she got through school, although she wasn’t completely responsive and obedient, he was still very patient and understanding with her, except for the first few times she would keep on running away from school to join him for his lunch breaks

- they have a very trusting relationship with one another, and Senshi is the only one Izutsumi will open up to, Senshi often encouraged her talent of athleticism by signing her up for various sports, he was and still is very attentive towards her needs and is always feeding her the things she likes (and dislikes)

- Senshi works at the restaurant for another 9 years, simultaneously saving up for his own restaurant and saving for Izutsumi’s college, at age 45 he meets Chilchuck during the construction of his restaurant and they form a close friendship

- subsequently, he is introduced to Marcille, Fallin, Laios, and even Kabru, but still mostly interacts with Chilchuck and Itsuzumi

- however he is quite close with Laios since he works as a server at his restaurant and is very enthusiastic about his cooking technique, flavour pallet, and types of dishes he serves

- at age 49, he officially opens his restaurant and starts dating Chilchuck, the three of them all move in together and become a household unit

- is now very happy with where he is at in life, works and manages his restaurant while still making time for Izutsumi and her hobbies, is very close with Chilchuck and becomes the first person he opens up to about his past and what he went through, generally the grossest and most sappiest old couple you will ever meet

- made a Senshi-sized hole deep into the fabric of Chilchuck’s home, converting his backyard into a full vegetable and flower garden that he maintains, is super proud about it and often leaves the prettiest flowers on Chilchuck’s side of the bed or in a vase on Izutsumi’s bedside table

- head-chef and owner of his restaurant, his favourite part is being able to cook what he wants for a very specific audience (people like Laios)

- his food is not super high-end but also not like a family diner either, a healthy mix of both, like kid friendly while still being classy and opulent enough to take someone out on a date there

- drives his beloved suzuki carry to and from work every day, does a good job maintaining it on his own despite it being boring according to him

- I honestly don’t really know what Senshi would listen to, I feel like the most in character for him would be folk music from his home country or bossa nova i can’t really decide

- coffee with lots of sugar but no cream or milk, prefers drinking black tea with milk and honey if he has a choice

- bag is a basic backpack with minimal items like wallet, keys, lipbalm, mints, etc… always has a change of clothes in case his gets dirty at work, also has extra hair and beard nets, some stuff for Izutsumi is in there too

- water bottle is also a vintage stanley cup, but his is wayyy more dented than Chilchuck’s and older (from like the 50s) refuses to buy anything else until it is unusable, has had the same piece of duct tape sealing a leak near the bottom for the past 20 years

- also can’t decide if he’s a t-shirt or Hawaiian shirt kind of guy, probably a healthy mix of both, also mostly wears shorts or a kilt-like garment native to his home country, lives exclusively in sandals you will never find him in close-toed shoes unless he’s working

- funny story deriving from this fact, the first impression Chilchuck ever had of Senshi (aside from “damn he’s kinda hot”) was “oh my god how the fuck is this guy not dead” due to the fact that Senshi showed up to the construction sight with flip flops, no safety helmet, and no safety vest on whatsoever

- more to add when I think of it

• Izutsumi (still a cat-girl in this universe)

- currently 17 and living with Senshi and Chilchuck

- used to live with the Nakamoto’s as a foster child, however hated living there due to the unfamiliarity and attempts at sweeping her past trauma under the rug and refusing to treat her for it

- life before the Nakamoto’s is fuzzy, it’s implied by her councillor and confirmed by Maizuru later on that she was raised by her mother until she died or abandoned her at 3 years old, was then placed into the care of another foster home who physically and verbally abused her, keeping her chained up in the basement most of the day and hardly feeding her, if not forgetting about her all together

- she was taken in by the Nakamoto’s at aged 4, and had a very hard time managing her due to her stunted social skills, anger issues, and delayed language development manifesting itself in avoidance behaviours such as running away and lashing out violently

- had frequent nightmares during this time, resulting in her becoming very clingy during the night

- would often run away to the green belt close to her house, the same green belt that was connected to Senshi’s restaurant

- initially only approached him because of the smell of food, her prior abuse and malnutrition resulted in an early form of binge eating, so she often sought any sight, smell, or taste food as a way of safety and comfort

- unlike all her previous caretakers, she found Senshi to not be malicious or uncaring towards her, especially after he started sharing and bringing food for her, her ease around him didn’t go unnoticed by Maizuru who then offered Senshi the deal to take care of her

- initially hated living in Senshi’s condo since the small space reminded her of the basement she was kept in, but soon found it to be much more comfortable if she could smell the food Senshi would make

- Received counselling for her trauma and slowly began to get better, however she would still frequently act out or skip school as a coping mechanism, however, Senshi helped her regulate her energy and emotions through signing her up for various sports, she did volleyball, hockey, wrestling, swimming, etc… until she settled on gymnastics and Muay Thai

- has somewhat of a complex towards love and attachment, in that she doesn’t fully believe an individual cares for her or loves her so will often do whatever she likes both because she doesn’t think it affects the other person that much and because it will prevent people from wanting to get close to her and have a meaningful relationship, a complex that stems from her past abuse

- is now in a much better headspace than she was in, as she has two caretakers who are patient and understanding with her, but are also willing to discipline her and prepare her for the outside world, she also has a good external support system and even a friend at school whom she often hangs out with

- she is currently in her junior year of high school, with decent grades, but only because Senshi and Chilchuck want her to do well so she has more options for university

- her best subjects are science, phsy ed., english, has a hard time with social studies and math

- her one friend her age is Tade as they both are frequently sent to the after-school homework program to help improve their grades, Izutsumi is usually good at shouldering off her homework to her in exchange for ice cream or food, but she’s usually caught and forced to do double the work

- Tade is also a foster kid of the Nakamoto’s, in fact she was the one Izutsumi would usually go to sleep with if she had a nightmare, so they never hang out at her house and either stay at Izutsumi’s house or hang out at the local park/mall

- is very talented athletically, and has won multiple awards at gymnastics and Muay Thai competitions

- still a ravenous eater, but with a crazy fast metabolism so she gains almost no weight, still picky with vegetables and mushrooms but will still eat them as long as their hidden in her food well enough

- coffee flavoured milk drinker, if there’s even a hint of bitterness in her coffee she’s throwing it out

- is into most old alternative or indie rock, appreciates Chilchuck’s taste in music immensely, she’s been learning how to play the bass recently

- has been learning basic recipes from Senshi and can manage a few dishes on her own, is much better at baking overall, never leave her alone with the blowtorch or barbecue though

- aside from sports, she enjoys playing video games and sleeping, she likes mostly storytelling or competitive console games like Skyrim, God of War, and Call of Duty

- bag is a simple black backpack that has all of her papers and textbooks haphazardly shoved in with no regard for neatness or organization, on a good day a pencil will be in there too

- water bottle is non-existent, she uses drinks from the school water fountain as an excuse to get out of class and wander around for a bit

- is old enough to drive and has her license, but doesn’t have her own car yet and still has to catch the bus, if she does drive it’s Senshi’s suzuki, Chilchuck let her drive his land rover once and she backed into a pole

- lives in crop tops and shorts, is actually quite fashionable but doesn’t have the energy or motivation to pull anything off, either wears converse, slides, crocs, or doc martens as footwear, most would describe her style as grunge-ish

- makeup is hit or miss, sometimes she can muster some concealer and eyeliner, but for the most part she just washes her face and nothing else, she is big into jewelry though and likes to wear lots of accessories

- has been allowed to pierce her ears quite extensively, as well as her nose, however both Senshi and Chilchuck have drawn the line at any other face piercings until she’s an adult, much to her dismay

- outside of Senshi, Chilchuck, and Tade, she is probably the most friendly with Marcille and Fallin as they frequently visit and interact with her, Marcille especially loves to spoil Izutsumi with treats and gifts since she never had a little cousin growing up

- Izutsumi likes Fallin for her quietness and ability to keep out of her business, however saw first hand how weird she can be when she held up a massive rhinoceros beetle without even flinching, also when she kept on excusing herself to their backyard to go snack on their strawberry plants

- Laios and Kabru she knows of, also finds Laios to be very weird but is less friendly about it than she is with Fallin, his lack of understanding of social cues also confuses her

- more to add when I think of it

AND THATS IT!!! This was stupidly long, I hope I didn’t bore you to death lol. I’ll probably do another one of these so I can include Chilchuck’s daughters, Kabru, Namari, etc… maybe with some additions to the main cast, but yeah that’s about the extend of it, hope you enjoyed :3

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #laios touden #falin touden #chilchuck tims #senshi of izganda #izutsumi #marcille donato #modern au #farcille #chilshi #labru if you squint #dungeon meshi minor characters #this took me forever I am so exhausted #I kinda wanna make a fic out of this but I have no idea what plot line or what character I should even focus on lmaooo #hooray for hyper-specific character interpretations!!

[shiyorin]

What do you think it would be like if primarchs used social media?

Lion El'Jonson:

Private account, doesn't accept follower requests

Rarely posts, usually just sunset or forest photos

Uses emojis sarcastically in replies

Has 20 followers but thinks it's way too many

Fulgrim:

Aesthetic pictures pose artfully depict exotic hobbies and runway couture 

Filters all photos to perfection  

Constantly debates high art vs pop culture 

Thirst traps cause monthly massacres

"Like for a follow back 🔥" 

Perturabo:

Photos are exclusively poorly-lit fortress blueprints 

Bio is 25000 character treatise on siege tactics

Follows exactly 12 history scholars 

Hates everyone and everything on the site 

Actually ran some incisive political commentary bots before being banned

Jaghatai Khan: 

Only posts the sickest motocross and extreme sports clips

Videos have insane views but no captions 

Fans think he's a cryptid until rare livestreams 

Hijacks Fulgrim's comments to hype rad stunts

Leman Russ:

Changed his name to 'Wolf Daddy 🐺'

Shirtless hunting/drinking photos get 10K likes

Roasts everyone in comments but they love it  

Followers think he's a viking hipster meme page

Follows biker gangs, sled dog accts, scholars of old Terra 

Rogal Dorn:

Only posts are architectural blueprints and records of fortifications

Gets into epic debates about structural principles in comments  

No one knows if he actually loads new content or just archives old

Somehow gains tons of followers thirsting for DILF

Konrad Curze:

Pure darkness and screams in hazy JPEGs 

3 followers and they're all bots

Posts disturbing ‘prophecies’ and murder puzzles

Under investigation for doxxing

Sanguinius: 

Angelic selfies bring all the followers to his page    

Flowing locks and golden abs get 20K likes instantly   

Quotes poetry in every reply but no one understands 

Only follows animal shelter and children's hospital accounts

Ferrus Manus:

Only follows engineering/robotics pages

Posts heavily filtered machine shop mini-documentaries 

Photos of custom machines that make engineers weep

Comments are unintelligible techno-babble  

Somehow gains huge gym bro following thirsting for muscle

Angron:

Gets banned monthly for graphic content and abuse

Posts angry rants about society in broken caps

Got suspended after sending death threats to Guilliman

Only follower is Khârn who comments 'THIS' on everything  

Roboute Guilliman:

Shares updates on the latest Codexes 

Only follows serious history/philosophy lecture pages

Posts long analyses of governance strategies 

Constantly lectures others in comments

Has blocked half his followers for trolling

Mortarion:

Aesthetic is grimy gas mask selfies in back alleys

ONLY reposts plague doctor memes from 2003

Bio is endless copypasta about essential oils

Gains cult following of goths, metal heads and preppers

Magnus:

Endless livestreams talking about theoretical magic at 3AM with 2 viewers. 

Tries making TikToks explaining sorcery but the videos are an hour long each.

Overexplains memes and emojis in long-winded threads

Memes and facts threads blow up as the most esoteric

Horus Lupercal:

Selfies showing off abs get him 50K followers in a week

Posts stunning photos from across the Imperium with #blessed captions

Fan club is half the mankind 

DMs from people asking for selfies blow up his notifications  

Lorgar Aurelian:

Aesthetic is dark robes and candlelit monasteries

Constantly reposting zealot sermons out of context

Accidentally starts wars of faith whenever he livestreams

Got suspended for uploading hardcore Slaneeshi hymns

Still has 10 alt accounts all named Brother [REDACTED]

Vulkan:

Only follows puppy accounts and craft bloggers

Posts Happy Holiday baking tutorials and dad jokes

Likes and comments positivity on everyone's posts

Followers think he's the nicest DILF ever online

Secretly the biggest wholesome meme page

Corvus Corax:

Only darkness, shadow puppets and cryptic poems

No one knows if he's real or a myth on the deep web

Internet detectives can’t trace his true identity  

Only sends encrypted coordinates in mysterious DMs  

No one has any idea what he's trying to say  

1 follower is Alpharius who only replies 'No, I'm Alpharius'

Alpharius/Omegon:

Constantly pretending to be other online  

No one knows their true forms or agenda 

Takeovers of government sites spark conspiracies

Leaves clues implicating everyone else’s schemes

#warhammer 40k #wh40crack #primarch #lol #warhammer 40000

[chaifootsteps]

I think there's an argument to be made in favor of showing the reality of what Angel deals with on the day to day, both on the gear he wears and the SA he faces from Val.

but these kinds of scenes can very easily be exploitative; used for cheap shock value & end up fetishizing that abuse by presenting it as titillating. it's long happened to female characters where the violence becomes an excuse to show them brutalized or with their clothes ripped off and given how often Angel is sexualized it can just as easily happen to him.

Addict managed to communicate a whole history of sexual abuse committed by Valentino with just a forced kiss and a hard cut to Angel having a breakdown in his room. The scene focused on Angel's emotional distress rather than the act itself, so it avoided objectifying him further and was still effective

this is part of a wider pattern already established by Helluva Boss, where abuse is treated in the least sensitive, most sledgehammer blunt and cartoony way possible.

going by HB, abusers are:

always obvious and easy to spot,

they're complete monsters devoid of any life or interests of their own,

they have no inner lives whatsoever because they only exist to hurt the victim (Stella stays around the house despite not liking Stolas, Crimson wants to force Moxxie into a gay marriage despite being homophobic - to the guy who put his son in prison in the first place!!) - they're inconsistent and unknowable,

they abuse their victim openly in front of others everyone goes along with and tacitly approves of it (Stella's friends happily laugh at her jokes disparaging a demon prince who could kill them all despite knowing he's in earshot)

they cannot be easily stopped even when they have far less power, either in magic or social standing, than the person they're abusing (Stolas and Stella, again)

they hang around long past when they should despite the cast having ample reason to proactively do something to stop them (everyone leaves Crimson alive despite killing all his minions, Stolas knows Stella has ordered a hit on him but probably still lets Octavia spend weekends with her??)

they are fundamentally Bad People. None of the 'good' characters can every be called out for being abusive, what they do is funny - because they are fundamentally Good People. It doesn't matter how many traits Stolas and Stella have in common, he is Good and she is Bad. It also doesn't matter that Stolas sexually coerced someone for a season and a half, neglected his daughter and abused his servants, and barely feels bad about his own infidelity. He is Good so anything he does can be excused. Same with Loona - beating people is bad, but it's OK for her to give her dad a black eye and beat his head in with a picture frame, because she's one of the Good Guys. Same with Blitzo demeaning Moxxie constantly in the workplace - it's funny when he calls Moxxie fat, it's abuse when Mammon does it to Fizz

Abusers are fundamentally Other from Us, and we never need to examine our own behaviors as long as we know we are fundamentally Good.

like how is any of this making the world a better place? or advancing the understanding of abuse? it's an embarassingly dated and in places actively harmful depiction of what abuse is or isn't (I don't even want to get into the bad takes I've seen surrounding Stol/tz and what coercion is or isn't, but you can probably add that to the list too)

if the Angel scenes are as brutal as they sound then the rating should be an 18. I don't entirely blame Viv for that, I know sometimes ratings boards have a weird habit of treating works that have LGBT content as somehow 'more adult' than movies with straight up rape and SA scenes in them (though HH is both, so idk how literal bondage gear didn't up the rating), but I hope against hope there's some kind of trigger warning for this somewhere, and it isn't just dropped on the viewer's lap in order to shock them further with the world's bluntest and most graphic animated scene of SA it can

This. All of this, every word.

#Anonymous #viv stuff #hazbin hotel critical #actual blog post

[best-underrated-anime]

Best Underrated Anime Group H Round 2: #H7 vs #H3

#H7: Isekai subversion, now with more women and good writing.

#H3: Two guys time-travel through photos. Depression ensues.

Details and poll under the cut!

#H7: The Executioner and Her Way of Life (Shokei Shoujo no Virgin Road)

Summary:

Average student Mitsuki Mutou suddenly finds himself transported to another realm. Summoned by the king of this world for the remarkable power he is supposed to possess, Mitsuki is thrown out when it appears that he lacks a Special Concept. Moping about, he encounters a priestess named Menou who explains that Japanese people like him are known as Lost Ones, and such individuals never fail to have Special Concepts.

Menou elaborates that she is part of a church that helps abandoned Lost Ones integrate into society. She invites him to spend the night at her church, where the two can probe the nature of his ability. Eventually, they discover that Mitsuki's Special Concept is actually incredibly powerful and dangerous.

But is Menou's true goal to assist Lost Ones—or the opposite?

Propaganda 1:

An isekai that forgoes the usual tropes and exceedingly dull, whitebread protagonist in favor of a cast consisting more or less exclusively of varying flavors of deranged lesbians.

As a bonus, a certain scene halfway through the first episode made a lot of the worst parts of the anime community SO mad, and I feel like that’s worth something in and of itself.

Propaganda 2:

An isekai subversion that doesn’t feel like it’s subversive for the sake of being trendy! All of its unique parts have lore to explain them, and the world building of the series is super intriguing. The power mechanics are well-thought-out, and the fighting is unique and beautifully animated! Another strong part is the character relationships; I love the various dynamics between the main cast, and I love how none of them are reduced to mere tropes, as anime loves to do with its women. It’s also very funny, and the protagonist is one of my favorites <3333

Trigger Warnings: Child Abuse, Graphic Depictions of Cruelty/Violence/Gore, Suicide. Suicide is basically a deuteragonist’s goal, but it isn’t shown.

#H3: Link Click (Shiguang Dailiren)

Summary:

Best friends, roommates, and business partners Cheng Xiaoshi and Lu Guang run a photo studio, developing pictures and the like. But that’s not all they do. The Shiguang Photo Studio has a secret extra service—they can deliver messages you never got to send and find information you never got to learn, so long as you bring a photograph, or maybe several.

Their method? A clap of the hands, and Cheng Xiaoshi dives into the past and into the body of the photographer. Guided by Lu Guang, he has twelve hours to achieve his goal, whether that is finding a secret, saying goodbye, or winning a fight.

Assisted by their friend and landlady Qiao Ling, the duo navigates a gallery of corporate lies, interpersonal drama, old regrets, and crime. In the second season, threads that began in the first episode of season one continues, showcasing the same level of brilliant writing and even higher stakes for our beloved characters.

Propaganda:

“Past or future, just let them be” is a message that is repeated throughout the show. At first, you’d think it’s just a matter of course, but after enough times of hearing it, it becomes depressing.

How can Cheng Xiaoshi be indifferent when he can feel the emotions of the person he’s possessing? When their pain becomes his pain as well? And so what if the person before him is already dead? At this moment, their hands feel so warm and alive.

This is where Lu Guang comes in. While Cheng Xiaoshi is the empathic and reckless type, Lu Guang is the cold and rational type. They balance each other out, and when they have conflicts, they face it maturely. They also care for each other so so much that the moment the other is in danger, all their principles get thrown out the window just to ensure the other person’s safety.

In s1, we watch them take on their clients’ orders. Through this, the show’s beauty is revealed: Simplicity and Sincerity.

Simplicity, because for a time-travel show, you’d expect the tasks to involve the fate of the world or something, but no. All the people Cheng Xiaoshi have dived into have been your everyday person—an office woman who gets harassed at work, a restaurant owner who’s grown estranged from her best friend, a man who wants to gain the approval of his girlfriend’s family, etc. Even when the stakes go high in s2, the core of the conflicts still lie in the character’s personal problems—which may seem small in the grand scheme of things, but they are not any less important. And I think this is nice. It’s hard to relate to grand plots, but it’s easy to relate to the day-to-day struggles that humans face.

Then Sincerity, because every single character is treated with care. Even characters you’ll never see again past their arcs manage to be impactful and unforgettable. They’ll claw their way into your heart and just stay there. I’ve rewatched s1 three times, but I still cry every time it reaches the basketball arc 😭. Then in s2, even the antagonists will grab for their share of your tears.

And you begin to question—Should they really just let the past or future be? If changing the past could save someone, is it really that bad?

The answer revealed in the s2 finale was so shocking that #link click trended for the first time ever on Tumblr after the episode aired, which is a feat in itself, considering how small the fandom is.

It has great animation, too. I especially love the 360° shots in some key scenes in s2 for they really amped up the tension. The fight scenes are also well-choreographed.

And all the music are bangers! S1 opening makes you wanna learn finger tutting, while the s2 opening is a masterpiece that leaves you in awe. (The s2 second chorus is just the first chorus played in reverse, making it sound like time is being rewinded. Fucking genius!)

If you still don’t watch Link Click after reading this, then you’ll be missing out in one of the greatest animated shows of all time. Just do yourself a favor and watch it already.

Trigger Warnings:

S1: Flashing lights in the opening, attempted and implied sexual harassment, slight panic attack, death, kidnapping, drugging, suicide, blood. Complete list of TW’s for s1 can be found here (it may be spoilery)

S2: Fast-changing images in the opening, domestic abuse, child abuse, emotional abuse, violence, blood, murder.

When reblogging and adding your own propaganda, please tag me @best-underrated-anime so that I’ll be sure to see it.

If you want to criticize one of the shows above to give the one you’re rooting for an advantage, then do so constructively. I do not tolerate groundless hate or slander on this blog. If I catch you doing such a thing in the notes, be it in the tags or reblogs, I will block you.

Know one of the shows above and not satisfied with how it’s presented in this tournament? Just fill up this form, where you can submit revisions for taglines, propaganda, trigger warnings, and/or video.

#anime #donghua #best underrated anime #polls #poll tournament #tournament #anime tournament #animation #group stage #group stage round 2 #tournament polls #group h #the executioner and her way of life #teahwol #shokei shoujo no virgin road #link click #shiguang dailiren #时光代理人 #shi guang dai li ren

[desudog]

I kinda feel like the people who add "don't tag this with trigger warnings for the sake of visability" and stuff like that on their dono posts or "I hate people with ocd" style cyber activism don't really understand. That like. Many times trigger warnings aren't optional. It won't help with visibility either because I know when I even start to see something triggering I will immediately skip the whole post and sometimes block the poster. It feels a little entitled to go "trigger yourself which depending on who you are could be putting your life in danger to read my problem, blogger who most likely doesn't have a cent to give." Like people genuinely seem to have forgotten triggers kill people. For a lot of people, at best they ~just~ have a panic attack. As a schizophrenic person I'm far too aware of the amount of people who kill themselves after being triggered into an episode. If you ask me to not tag something for insanely common triggers especially posts containing graphic images or in depth descriptions of abuse, I am not reblogging it. How's that for visibility? No, I will not be putting pictures of injured animals, dead bodies or open wounds untagged on my fucking blog. Fuck you.

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

Do you support proshippers, cause if so then 😬.

People generally do not take this as an answer but I do want to say it because some people do care.

But I don't. Because I do not support either side and assigning me to either side does not reflect my views.

I actively oppose the conversation and the way is formatted and I intentionally do not engage.

I am neither a ProShipper or an Antishipper. And describing me as either would be describing me wrong. Why?

Because it's not a cut and dry issue.

It's not like Pro-life and Pro-choice where the question is simply 'Should abortion be legal'?

The shipping argument is asking if a RANGE of topics ranging from abusive relationships or negative depictions of mental illness to literal CP are okay - all under one question.

Asking me this is like asking "Hey do you support people that age up Damien Wayne in fics *cough*(and also people who write horribly dangerous things like graphic sexual assault for their own dark amusement..those people too)*cough*"

Like...the question to begin with is flawed.

With a question formatted like that - there is absolutely no way to have a healthier clear conversation that makes sense or accurately displays anyone's views.

The conversation itself is to vague and too broad to offer any type of fruitful conversation whatsoever. And I stand on that.

Like, I'd say at least half of the takes I see from either side I think are wrong, ridiculous, or based on vague arguments that just don't make sense.

I'm Not a Pro-Shipper cause there is some weird shit out there I'm not attaching myself to. Because some people out there are deranged, and malicious, and this is the internet.

I'm NOT an Anti-Shipper because there are a LOT of fucked up things that do wind up in media that tell a specific story - and there's also shit in the conversation that just doesn't fucking matter.

If you're writing about a character who went through CSA and your goal is to show a story about someone who lives with that trauma? Great. I'm for that so long as you do your research and do it respectfully

If you're writing out the SCENES???? AT LENGTH?? Go somewhere. Preferably a jail cell but somewhere that's not here.

If you're aging up a character and headcanon-ing what they'd be like in the future for shipping purposes - or you're shipping characters with no in-universe confirmed age. I couldn't care less.

If I don't wanna read it, I won't support it. I won't give it kudos or views. It's got nothing to do with me.

If you're writing things that are openly racist or openly sexualizing a character you are clearly writing as a child - absolutely fucking not. Anime men I'm looking at you.

And if you write black characters involved in raceplay count your mfing days.

It's not a cut and dry issue, so to ask me to define myself in one word on a topic of dozens of different genres isn't going to give you a clear picture of my views.

You are more likely to get a more clearer answer if you ask me about that specific genre and topic.

I am vocally and clearly on neither side and opposed to a conversation that is narrow and often ends in miscommunication.

There's always going to be a Pro-Shipper or Anti-Shipper out there that I deeply disagree with.

I refuse to engage and support a conversation that lumps together very serious issues with very asinine things and then expects me to answer in one word at threat of harassment (not you in specific, but very realistically in general).

I am a person of complex opinions. You see my blog. You really expect me of all people to be able to describe myself in one word?

Maybe in the terms of "Pro-Life" vs Pro-Choice (I'm Pro-Choice obviously) But in this conversation I cannot do it. I am very firmly neither.

I hope that answer your question, and since I feel like this should be said - especially with the fandom we're in - I'm happy to answer your question.

Like I said, a lot of people just won't take this as an answer. And that's fine. But I said what I said.

If you engage in this conversation and you think I agree you, you're wrong. If you engage and you think I disagree with you, you're wrong. Cause I am simply sitting here in silence, writing my silly little analysis and looking pretty, and will continue to do so.

Now if you'll excuse me, there's a photo of Hobie that I need to stare at.

Bye.

#I do not engage and I mean that #proship #antiship #somebody was bound to ask #but yeah thats why i dont talk about it cause that conversation is structured dumb as fuck from the ground up are kidding me #the question in itself is rigged for an argument regardless of what you say #so I say - Fuck that shit Im here being a hot girl fuck you gonna do stop me??

[ofliterarynature]

2023 Reading Wrap Up: Favorites from the First Half

Not to sound like a broken record, but I can't believe we're already halfway through the year! (and even further, given how late I'm posting this lol). I've read an ungodly amount of books already, and while I try my best to shout out my favorites as I go or in my monthly wrap-ups, I don't always succeed. So Here I Am, to do a little more shouting about the 10 most memorable books or series I've read so far in 2023!

The God of Endings by Jaqueline Holland

The Spear Cuts Through Water by Simon Jimenez

Sword Stone Table ed by Jenn Northington & Swapna Krishna

Sea Hearts (The Brides of Rollrock Island) by Margo Lanagan

Spill Zone by Scott Westerfeld & Alex Puvilland

Will Darling/Lilywhite Boys by K.J. Charles

Lord Peter Wimsey by Dorothy L Sayers

The Anthropocene Reviewed by John Green

84 Charing Cross Road by Helene Hanff

Range: Why Generalists Triumph in a Specialized World by David Epstein

More discussion below the cut!

The God of Endings by Jaqueline Holland had me entirely engrossed. It's slow and moving and dark, with it's own take on vampirism, with any number of the associated content warnings. All the content warnings actually (but harm to animals, harm to children, and domestic abuse are some of the big ones. Does the Nazi murder make up for it?). Best described as The Historian meets everything I wanted from The Invisible Life of Addie Larue but didn't get.

The Spear Cuts Through Water by Simon Jimenez I have, in fact, already yelled about a bit. It was so good! Think A:TLA meets The Raven Tower and The Hundred Thousand Kindgoms, and queer! The thing that really blew my mind was the second-person narration, which is always a swing, and I think this nailed it! I loved how it worked with the story and frame narrative, and let me tell you, on audiobook parts of the story felt positively haunted. I won't say it's the perfect novel (I'm a little eh about the last third), but that in no way dampens my enthusiasm. cw for ritual cannibalism.

Sword Stone Table ed by Jenn Northington & Swapna Krishna is an anthology of Arthurian re-imaginings with about a 1-in-3 success rate (for me anyways. is that good for an anthology?) that snuck onto this list purely on the strength of Mayday by Maria Dahvana Headley. I just yelled about my love for unusual narrative structures, so when I tell you that this is a retelling of the Arthurian family drama set in late 19th century America, told only through found objects, newspaper clippings, and manuscript exerpts? I had *such* a great time trying to puzzle things out with my half-remembered memories of the lore (heavily corrupted by the show Merlin, lol). Additional shout-out to Spear by Nicola Griffith, which didn't make it into the collection due to length but was also amazing!

Sea Hearts (aka The Brides of Rollrock Island) by Margo Lanagan was an absolute surprise, for several reasons. For one, I own both a physical and digital copy under different titles and didn't realize it until I was cleaning up my goodreads account! And second, the Brides cover is an absolute travesty and is entirely the wrong vibe - this may be YA (technically?) but it doesn't read like it! Sea Hearts is the story of a small island community with a history of summoning wives from the sea, a tradition only whispered about until an outcast young woman revives the practices to sow discord and revenge among the community members we follow. Incredibly moving and sorrowful, this is for fans of literary, historical, and speculative fiction.

Spill Zone by Scott Westerfeld & Alex Puvilland. This graphic novel is about a city hit by an unknown disaster that has killed or mutated everything and everyone who wasn't able to evacuate in time. Our main character sneaks back in to take pictures to support herself and her little sister, and while I have some reservations about the larger plot, the art of the Zone is GORGEOUS. Sketchy, eerie, hauntingly beautiful, I loved it, enough that I have no regrets. I could see this making a great comic series or animated show instead.

Major, heartfelt shout-out to K.J. Charles, who absolutely saved my sanity for a few months there. My brain was in a weird spot for a few months and I burned through a good chunk of her backlist, so it's absolutely necessary to name drop a few of my favorites. The Will Darling series, a 1920's spy adventure/gay romance, did not immediately win me over, but exposure makes the heart grow fonder? I don't think they say that, actually, but I love a competent dumbass, and when I finally picked up on the crossover with Charles' England duo, I absolutely cackled. I can't wait to reread these! Any Old Diamonds of the Lilywhite Boys series did catch me immediately, even if I managed to read it out of order with one of it's prequel series. Jewel thieves, a heist, revenge, family drama, what's not to love? I loved every single book and novella in this series.

Lord Peter Wimsey (series) by Dorothy L Sayers. This has been a work in progress since 2022 and has consistently made my favorites lists, but truly, she saved the best for last! Murder Must Advertise was stellar, but everyone who said the Harriet Vane novels were the best is absolutely correct. I don't know why I love them, other than that they're wonderfully complex mysteries, but I do. I definitely need to find another long mystery series for my mental health or else I'm going to start these from the beginning again (I still need to read the short stories after all).

The Anthropocene Reviewed by John Green. I'll be honest, I didn't write a review for this at the time, and my memory for non-fiction is terrible. But I loved this book, I love John Green, and this was fantastic on audio. Thank you John for putting hope and goodness and beauty into the world.

84 Charing Cross Road by Helene Hanff was a beautiful little book for the book lover. It's a collection of letters between the American author and a used-book seller (and family and associates) in London in the 50s and 60s. Its funny, it's friendly, it's lovely, but there's also an underlying tension that builds throughout from the repeated invitations to the author to come visit, and the book copy saying that THEY NEVER MEET. It about killed me, and did make me cry. For further reading you can also check out the author's related memoirs, The Duchess of Bloomsbury Street and Q's Legacy.

Range: Why Generalists Triumph in a Specialized World by David Epstein. Frankly, I'm impressed by my nonfiction choices so far this year. This one is what it says and it HURT. SO. MUCH. I am absolutely a generalist and it's made life frustrating, so reading this was both extremely comforting but also enraging, because society doesn't need another reason to suck. Alas.

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⚠️⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️⚠️

-Andrew's trauma

-Banana fish

-Nothing graphic or explicit, but mentioned and very emotionally heavy

Less friendly idea re: The Foxes watching anime

I could see Andrew watching banana fish. I think he would notice Neil's interest in the sports animes and decide to see if there are ones that he might be interested in.

I think he would know what he was getting into before he watched it, and frankly I think he would bring it up with Bee before he did. Bee would most likely caution him to watch only one episode at a time, make a plan for if he gets triggered, and make sure he's in an okay headspace to engage with that kind of media. I also assume this is likely several years after TKM and he's made a lot of progress in therapy.

When people dissociate very heavily and disconnect with extremely traumatic events it is quite literally not even safe for them to visit those memories. Even talking about it could send someone into fight or flight, which is useless when you are trying to PROCESS trauma after it's over. It can even be more traumatic. However, there's a decent amount of evidence to show that engaging with it through media can be almost a stepping stone. A safe way to engage with those topics and emotions but from a distance that makes it bearable to do so.

All this is to say I think Andrew would really relate to Ash Lynx and while sometimes it would really hurt to watch this show, ultimately it would be really cathartic for him to have this way of saying "this is how I feel" without having to actually say it. He might show specific parts to Bee to explain complicated thoughts he can't verbalize without help yet and Bee would help him find a way to use that to talk about himself. Inch by inch.

I wouldn't be surprised if he showed some scenes to Neil as well. The part where Ash breaks down to Eiji and cries even though he refuses to be anything but strong almost anywhere else. He's showing this to Neil and Neil just nods and tells Andrew, "I understand. You don't have to say it." And asks if Andrew wants to put his head on Neil's shoulder. Do I think he's going to break down and cry? No, but it's enough. The way they care for each other is enough.

Other scenes I think Andrew would specifically relate to:

-When Max? I think it was? Burns the folder of pictures of Ash from when he was abused. I think for Andrew that's Neil having Proust killed. Knowing that his past can't come back to hurt him anymore, that it can't be used against him. (I think Aaron killing Drake might also resonate here but it's more about the emotional manipulation of knowing someone has EVIDENCE of the worst moments of your life)

-Andrew shows Bee the scene where Ash is being held captive and stops eating, then has that sort of shock induced manic episode where he's laughing really hard.

-Takes him a moment to speak after that, a full minute or two, but he tells Bee that's how he felt on the meds sometimes and how he felt after what happened with Drake in TRK

-Eiji getting shot. Baltimore. I think that one is pretty clear cut. I don't think he would show anyone this to explain a feeling because everyone already knows. I think he might just really you know "go through it" a little while watching it.

-Ash going to prison but not the really awful parts. I just think he would find it funny that this other blonde guy that he really relates to also went to prison. He'd send Neil a picture of Ash in a jumpsuit captioned "mood" or something

-Knife fight, Andrew is terrifyed for Ash and also finds it funny that Ash is good with knives

-That scene where Ash (post being SAed) is sitting down on the box and he's shaking really hard and screams "don't touch me," and stops shaking when Eiji holds him. I don't have a specific parallel for this necessarily, but I think about how hard Andrew was shaking after Aaron killed Drake and how the only thing he cared about was making sure Aaron was alright. I know it's not exactly the same dynamic and situation, but both of those moments feel very similar to me in the sense that this awful thing has happened, and everyone is coming off of adreniline, and the primary concern is "make sure my people are safe and not injured"

- When Yut-Lung hands Ash a gun and tells him "pull the trigger and I won't lay a finger on Eiji" and Ash doesn't even blink. When he realizes it's empty he says "No bullets? Give me a bullet." Protective of their people and don't give a shit about their own safety in the process.

-When Ash is institutionalized and tortured. I think the situation is a lot different but forced drugging? Abuse? Held against your will in a hospital? Andrew draws some uncomfortable parallels there.

-Dino falling to his death in episode 24: Andrew is watching this alone in his room, headphones on. Neil and Kevin are in the living room watching exy and the rest of the Foxes are who knows where but mostly in their dorms. Out of absolutely fucking nowhere they hear Andrew let out the most absolutely swear filled stream of "fuck you, you piece of shit, rot in fucking hell, thank FUCK get WRECKED you absolute pediculous fucking scumbag, mother fucking quisquilian bag of dicks, take that you fucking bastard..." Etc etc etc for a solid 30 seconds.

-Neil and Kevin burst in thinking Andrew's LOST IT to find him sitting at the desk half out of his chair cursing at a computer screen and flipping it off with both hands. By the time the other Foxes get there Neil and Kevin are laughing, so they all kind of just stand there awkwardly trying to figure out what's going on.

-"Andrew's watching the last episode of an anime"

-Collective sighs of relief, mild confusion, a couple of laughs.

-"Was it good?"

-"No, I hated it. Bastard's finally dead and I am celebrating." Andrew tells them.

-they all assume Andrew hated it and the protagonist died, Andrew means Dino and that he hates it because it made him feel understood (he's going to rewatch it and it's a matter of when not if)

-When they all sort of shrug and go back to whatever they were doing before, Neil breaks out into a grin and looks at Andrew. He's the only one who knows what show it is, and the only one who has any idea of who any of the characters are. "He's dead?! Fuck yeah!"

-Neil goes back to his exy game and twenty minutes later Andrew shuffles out of the room.

-"I chose to believe it was an ambiguous ending. Killing off the fucking main character who does that?"

[-Kevin looks into the camera like he's on the office, looks at Neil, then back into the camera. Looks at Andrew, then back into the camera, absolutely deadpan. Points to the chess piece on his face and holds up his bad hand.

-"We all lived, Kevin. Not ambiguous."

-Andrew mutters "Could have fooled me for a minute there. Yikes."]

-Absolutely NO ONE mentions it when Andrew starts wearing red converse instead of black ones because the first person who tried got a glare so harsh Andrew might as well have returned to his old habit of holding people at knife point.

There is so much more I can say about this, so many more scenes I think Andrew would relate to, and so many more characters that I think could have really interesting parallels to each other but I digress.

Additionally, I think if Ash and Neil ever met they would get into a fight comparing the gang/mafia related parts of their stories and would need a lot of red string and a powerpoint night to make it all make sense to each other.

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Inescapable Delusions | Ch. 14 | Explicit 21+

The circus has been shut down and those who were not arrested are trying to adjust to civilization once again. Some are thriving while others are hanging off the tightrope. Will a strange visitor shake things up and bring the House of Cards back to life?

*This is an explicit story. Minors do not interact*

{Summary:} Enter the House of Cards for an evening of countless wonders and jaw-dropping spectacles. While you become entranced in the various acts, take caution not to fall victim to the illusions or you may end up facing inescapable delusions.

{Main Pairings:} Animal Tamer Jeon Jungkook/ Original Female Character

{Rating:} 21+ Explicit Caution: Read Warnings

{Genre:} Alternate Universe - Crime Circus

{Warnings:} Circus (no clowns), Smut, Abuse, Gaslighting, Rough Sex, Bondage, Rape/Non-con - Freeform, Angst, BDSM, Blood and Violence, Knifeplay, Crimes & Criminals, Sex Trafficking, Death Threats, Nudity, Stockholm Syndrome, Explicit Language, Manipulation, Possessive Behavior, Praise Kink, Abusive Relationships, Unhealthy Relationships, Secrets, Sexual Slavery, Prostitution, Tigers, Elephants, Animal Attack, Virginity, Bad Decisions, Banter, Manhandling, Graphic Depictions of Violence, Degradation, Coercion, BDSM Elements, Whips, Throat Fucking, Unprotected Sex

Life outside the House of Cards seemed dull and bland as Sophie adjusted to resuming a semi-normal life outside of the performances she had grown accustomed to. Working as a barista seemed hardly the comparison versus balancing on top of Mambo and having an adoring crowd cheering you on. Instead of perfecting tricks, she was attempting to perfect the process of making a variety of drinks, hardly keeping up with the rushed orders and managing to remember each individualized recipe. 

She sank down onto her couch, groaning at the thought of having to return to the stressful job the following day. Her eyes traveled around her old apartment, glancing at the ghost of who she used to be in the small trinkets and decor choices of her small living space. She remembered her life long before the months she spent at the circus, laughing at the thought of how fragile and afraid she was of everything. 

Her eyes grazed over her small side table, noticing a picture of herself and Anna smiling together. Just beside the frame was a small stack of notes left by her friend after many attempts to reach out. There was a small pit of guilt as she realized Anna had done a far better job of trying to check on her than Sophie reciprocated. She gently chewed on her bottom lip, cringing at the awkwardness that now existed between the best friends. How was she supposed to express to Anna that she surprisingly missed her time at the House of Cards? While she was glad to be rid of Taehyung’s tyrannical ways, she found herself missing Jungkook despite his overly possessive tendencies. 

She contemplated making a call on her rotary phone, attempting to reach out in the same manner as Anna. She knew all her friend wanted was to make sure she was okay, but truthfully, Sophie felt lost. All of her time was consumed with taking care of Mambo and Jungkook’s needs, she forgot how to be her own person. She sighed as she turned away from the painful reminder of a life she nearly erased for one man. She wondered that maybe she would be up for it after a long shower.

Sophie’s eyes wandered around her living room once again, stopping on a small magenta-colored figurine she purchased on a girls' trip in college. She studied it carefully, the color reminding her of the vibrant locks of Jungkook pounding into her nightly, reminding her why she was his and only his for the taking. How could she possibly move on from such an alluring man? How could any other man ever compare to the whiplash of pleasure and pain Jungkook forced her to endure? 

A sudden knock at the door awoke her from her internal spiraling as she hesitantly stood from the plush material. Who could possibly be at her door? Could it be Anna?

Sophie shuffled her feet across her apartment tile, moving quickly to peek out of the small peephole of the front door. She was surprised to see nothing but darkness on the other end as if someone was holding their hand in front of it to prevent her from seeing. Her mind screamed at her to keep it shut and pretend she wasn't home, yet a part of her was curious to know who would feel the need to hide themselves in order for her to open the door. Despite her delusional fantasies, she secretly hoped it was Jungkook coming back for her. 

She took a deep breath in before twisting the door handle and pulling open the large structure, her jaw dropping open at the sight of a man in a jacket tossed over his frame, and a hat over his head to camouflage his appearance. Sophie narrowed her eyes as she noticed the familiar features of Hoseok grinning mischievously from under the shadows cast by his hat. Shouldn’t he have been arrested with the rest of the men of the House of Cards? Did he manage to escape? More importantly, why was he seeking her out? 

Sophie’s irises exposed the fear she so desperately tried to suppress as Hoseok pushed past her, inviting himself in as Sophie stumbled to the side. She tried to keep up with how quickly he entered and closed the door behind him, eager to be in a secure location. “What are you doing here?” Sophie’s tone had a little more bite than she intended, watching as Hoseok peeled off his hat and jacket before tossing it onto the small entryway table beside her apartment door. 

“And here I thought you’d be happy to see me.” He spoke sarcastically, knowing his presence was most likely a huge surprise to the dainty doe-eyed woman. 

“I thought everyone got arrested?” Sophie countered, her voice far more subtle and submissive now that Hoseok was towering over her. 

“Only those who got caught.” He added with a cocky demeanor. While the chaos of the raid was underway, Hoseok managed to slither his way out the back of the circus, disappearing into the shadows in hopes that he’d be the one chance they'd have to resume operations per usual. Now that he was free and the attention shifted away from the House of Cards, he had every intention of releasing his teammates and starting a new show, one where he would be the ringmaster in charge. “I need your help, pet.” Hoseok’s tone was slightly degrading as he recalled just what she was to Jungkook. 

Sophie stared at him dumbfounded, wondering how exactly she could be of service to him. “With what exactly?” 

Hoseok’s grin stretched wider across his features as he paced around her apartment, watching as Sophie followed like a moth to a flame. “You know, it’s a shame Jungkook was taken.” He tested on his tongue as he watched Sophie's eyes shift to the ground in longingness. “I bet he misses you just as much.” He added, knowing he had her right where he wanted her when her eyes eagerly found his. 

“The trials are in two days.” He added, knowing that if he could convince her to help him at the trials, he’d be able to regain his teammates. 

Sophie remembered being invited to the trails. She was going to help Anna speak against the circus for their crimes against her and other women. Part of her wanted to skip it all, knowing that the moment she saw Jungkook, she’d be a complete mess. “I know.” She whispered, watching as Hoseok turned to walk closer to her. 

“Testify in favor of their release.” He spoke plainly, watching her eyes widen at the thought of helping them get away with their treatment of others. She went to protest but Hoseok placed a finger over her lips to shut her up. “Help me get Jungkook back and I’ll make sure you can continue being his dutiful little pet.” He offered, dangling the thought in front of her as if a juicy steak to a salivating dog. 

“I…I can’t…” Her voice was shaking from the thought of allowing the men that raped her best friend to walk free. It would surely ruin her friendship for good. “I can’t forget what you did.”

Hoseok gently shushed her, knowing this was his last opportunity to sell her on the idea before she tried to get him arrested as well. “Taehyung was the mastermind behind the operations of the show.” He complained, knowing that if he could get Taehyung to take the blame for everything, he’d be cleared to take his place. “He’s the one pulling the strings.” He added before stepping closer to hover his face over hers. “Help me lock him up…” His voice was harsh as if the thought of Taehyung upset him. “And help me get our men back. Help me get our animals back.” He added to sweeten the deal, knowing that since the raid, their animals had also been confiscated. 

Sophie took in a sharp breath. She knew Taehyung was primarily the cause of it all. He pulled the ropes of his circus. Maybe things would be different if Hoseok was in charge. Most of the women enjoyed being there in the first place. The thought of seeing Jungkook again and getting his animals back seemed to sell her on the idea, her mind submitted to the thought as she gently nodded beneath his stare. 

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[lokisprettygirl]

Build me Up, Break me Down (Loki x Female Reader)

Read chapter 15 here // Series Masterlist

Chapter 16

Summary : He protects you from everyone but he hurts you himself. Why did you even entertain the notion that you could ever hold his attention for long?

Warning : Sex but nothing graphic, mentions of past abuse, loki is toxic very toxic, loki is going to crush our little hearts,

As Loki took you to the kitchen since you have not had anything to eat since morning, Steve approached you two. You looked at Loki and then you looked at Steve hoping he wouldn't come talk to you but that's exactly what he intended to do

"Y/n how are you?"

"She's fine, you don't have to concern yourself" Loki spoke without even looking in the direction of you two, he was pretending to read the labels on the cereal box he was holding.

"I'm okay" you mumbled and Steve nodded

"I just wanted to apologise for not standing up for you out there"

"It's fine I didn't expect you to" that was the truth, you didn't expect him to take your side, you didn't expect anything from anyone, not even Loki.

Steve didn't think he was in the position to say much so he left soon after and you walked over to Loki

"Let's eat this, whatever this is" you smiled as you took the box from him, you poured the cereal out in two bowls, took the milk out of the fridge and added the sufficient amount of it

"Let me know if you'd want more, I don't like too much milk in my cereal"

"Milk? Like, is it human milk?" He raised his eyebrow and you looked at him horrified

"Do you ..want it to be human milk?"

"Nooooo no..I am asking you, for knowledge"

"I'm sure it's cow's milk"

"An animal?" He asked you

"Yes"

"Okay"

"Just so you know on earth, human milk is consumed by human babies only..as long as they are babies"

"Huh..so cow milk should be consumed by cow babies, why are you mortals drinking it?" He said while chugging a spoon full of cereal that contained the milk. He had a point but you didn't have an answer

"Not everyone does, it's a choice"

"Mortals are weird"

You had so many questions about gods and how they are fed as babies but you kept them all to yourself to not make this conversation go from weird to downright creepy.

Once you both were done eating, he was called in for a meeting so he dropped you back to the room and asked you to not go anywhere without his knowledge. You turned the tv on and they were broadcasting his speech on every channel, then they were debating over your involvement in hydra, you couldn't believe this shit. It was weird seeing yourself on tv like that, god you didn't look good, that reminded you that you had to request Loki so he would buy some makeup products.

You turned the tv off as soon as he came back, you didn't want to upset him anymore.

"What is that? They gave you a phone?" You walked over to him and he handed it to you,

"I'm supposed to use it for communication" you opened the camera and clicked his picture, then you showed it to him

"You're so photogenic"

"It can take a photo too?"

"A video as well, record sounds, play music, you can watch anything, research anything but if you need any help just ask me" you swayed your body left to right as you said that. It wasn't your phone but it excited you

"Well you can use it to do all that if you want darling" your eyes twinkled, you would love to listen to music

He took the phone from you and tapped on the camera icon

"Smile for me" you smiled as he said that and he clicked a picture of you,

"Beautiful"

Butterflies in your belly had a field trip after that.

That night you both laid down on your separate beds of course, that's usually the plan. He was tired from the sleep so he fell asleep pretty quickly, you took a little longer but sleep did come for you. However, your subconscious mind wasn't so kind to you tonight, you had a nightmare. You saw your ex in the bedroom, the bed you shared currently with Loki, he had you tied on your bed while he was fucking some other woman, a memory from your past was playing out in front of you as he taunted and insulted you, as he humiliated you that you would never be a woman who could please a man like she did.

He was cruel and the nightmare intensified when he was swapped and Loki took his place, when he insulted you the same way as he fucked another woman right in front of you. He could have anyone, why would he want you?

Loki noticed you whimpering in your sleep and he knew what it was. He quickly got up and turned the lights on, he magically put his clothes on as he didn't want to scare you then he sat down on the edge of your bed as he tried to wake you up

"Darling wake up" he mumbled softly as he caressed your head, he called out to you two more times and when you opened your eyes you looked around and took a deep breath. Just a nightmare, it was just a nightmare.

"Sorry did I wake you?" You sobbed and he shook his head, he got next to you and wrapped you tightly in his arms to comfort you

"You're safe darling I promise you" you held onto him tightly as he said that. He turned the lights off and the darkness consumed you both, he peppered soft kisses on your forehead as he tried to lull you back to sleep. Just a nightmare, loki could never be so cruel with you, not anymore, that's not who he is.

"When did you put the clothes on?" You tugged on his shirt. He always slept naked

"Just now"

He did it for you, you knew that, he did that so you won't be scared. He didn't need to but the thought warmed your heart, nobody has ever been so thoughtful for you. You placed your hand under his shirt so you could feel his skin and your head between the crook of his neck, inhaling his sweet comforting scent all night, you didn't have a nightmare again.

Next morning you woke up before him for a change, you showered, changed and instantly went to the kitchen to make something for him. Pancakes, eggs, his cup of tea, you prepared it all and as soon as you stepped inside you were met with his angry face

"Are you out of your mind?" Maybe you shouldn't have left without informing him first

"I just wanted to prepare the breakfast" you mumbled meekly as you placed it down on the dresser

"I'm trying to protect you from people out there, but you just love getting yourself in trouble don't you?" He walked closer to you, you instinctively took a few steps back as his angry form scared you a little

"I just wanted to make breakfast" your eyes teared up and he walked closer to you

"Well then I hope you're capable of saving your own fucking ass next time" he walked past you and went straight to the bathroom.

You just wanted to do something nice, maybe you should have informed him, he feels responsible for you

As soon as he got under the shower, he punched the wall in front of him in frustration, that's why he can't be the man or whatever you want him to be, he's too temperamental to treat you right. He can only fulfill one need of yours and that's physical, anyone can do that, he will find a man who will fulfill all your needs. Who'd treat you so tenderly you'd never have to flinch again. Who'd love every little piece of you because you deserve it more than anyone else he has ever known, his life wasn't easy but he was privileged, your life has been a curse until now and he was going to change that.

When he didn't find you next to him he was scared, he thought they took you away and he slept through it, he felt as if he had failed you again. He just wanted to protect you and keep you safe. When he stepped out he found you bundled up on your bed, sniffling. His eyes glanced at the tray of food and he felt immense guilt as he noticed how much effort you have put into it, you just wanted to feed him.

So he grabbed the tray and walked over to you then he placed it on the bedside drawer. What was he supposed to do now? He had no fucking clue

"It's all cold now I'll go warm it up" you sat up on the bed and he sat down

"No need of that..I can use magic" you looked at him as you realised he was being serious, he placed his finger on every plate and it was all warm again, you could even see the smoke coming out of the tea cup

"That's awesome" you smiled and the corner of his mouth curved into a smile

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled, I..I was worried, I thought they took you"

He tucked your hair away from your face and behind your ear as he spoke

"I should have informed you, I am sorry too" you mumbled as you passed him his plate

"Did I scare you?"

"No" he didn't scare you, you knew he'd never hurt you, not after everything he knows about your past

"Did I hurt you?"

"A little" you mumbled so he nodded

"How do I fix that?" He asked you and it made you smile, his clueless expression made him look so adorable

"You can compliment the breakfast" you told him as you took a bite of the pancakes you made

"It's good, it's scrumptious, you are good at this thing, cooking I mean" you smiled as he said that. You made your first pancake all by yourself at the age of 7. Then you made it for 4 people without any help and didn't even get to eat any

"Thank you"

After breakfast he gave you his phone so you could teach him how the device works, you taught him how to save contacts, make notes, and how to Google search for every information. He seemed confused at times but he was smart enough to get the hang of it

"You can use it to entertain yourself darling" he gave you the Phone and he could see how your face lit up

In evening Thor knocked on the door, and when you opened the door he had his eyes closed, he was scarred by the previous incident it seems

"Ummm Mr Thor?" You called out to him and he opened one of his eyes then he opened them both

"Oh thank the norns, I keep getting images of my brother's bare buttocks in my head, that incident shall never occur again and hence this precaution" he smiled as he finished his sentence and you invited him in

"Did you find something else?" Loki asked him and he shook his head

"Stark is having another party, he wanted me to inform you so you'd be present on time" Loki rolled his eyes and groaned

"How many celebrations does this man have in a week?"

"At Least two but that's just my experience, get ready on time" Thor patted on his shoulder and he was about to leave but he remembered something

"Oh lady y/n you are invited too, Natasha asked me to tell you that if you needed help with anything you can contact her" he told you before he left. You are invited? On the top of it black widow wants to help you get ready? What was happening?

You decided that you didn't need any help and just picked a dress you had in the closet already.

Parties meant models and models meant Loki was going to have sex with atleast one of them. The thought burned you with jealousy, and you could feel your insides churning, it already made you feel nauseous. As you two stepped out to head towards the lounge, you saw Natasha walking towards you two, she looked amazing in the black dress she was wearing. How did she have such a stressful job and still managed to have the most flawless skin?

"We need to fix your face, come with me" she told you and then she looked at Loki

"She won't go anywhere without me, I do not trust anyone here to keep her safe, besides I think she looks fine"

Natasha huffed as she glared at him and they both just stood there glaring at each other

"Fine ten minutes and I'm staying outside the door" the three of you walked towards her bedroom, and then she took you inside,

"Just yell for me if you need me alright?" He told you and you nodded.

You did feel intimidated by her, she haven't exactly been friendly to you since you came here, she did get you all these clothes though so that was nice of her

"Well I don't have your shade but we can do your eyes and lips at least" she told you and you nodded

"I'm sorry I hope I'm not being a nuisance Miss Romanoff". You mumbled and she shook her head

"You have attractive eyes" Did black widow just give you a compliment? You felt your face flushing, compliments always felt better when it came from a girl for some reason

"Thank you so much"

"So what's going on between you and Loki?" She asked you and you shrugged

"Nothing absolutely nothing" you gulped as you said that, but wasn't that the truth? There was nothing going on between you two

"You have got the notorious God of Mischief on the door waiting for you so there must be something" she smiled as she finished with your eyes and then she gave you a lipstick to apply, dark blood red, not something you would have chosen but it went with the dress

"He's just being protective that's it" you looked at yourself in the mirror and for a change you felt good about yourself, she did a smoky eyes for you.

As you stepped out Loki's eyes widened as he looked at you, you didn't need that stuff for it to make you look pretty but it accentuated your natural beauty and he didn't mind that either, how would he keep his hands off you tonight? Well He knew exactly how, he just needed to find a distraction

"So umm this looks okay?" You asked him as you two walked towards the lounge,

"Yes" you wanted to hear more than just yes but that's alright.

As you stepped inside the venue, it was already blitzing and blasting with music, drinks were flowing all around.

"Stay close" he told you and you nodded, he was dragged away by Tony stark but he kept his eyes on you, Loki realized that he can't be around you all the time and that give him an idea, he had to create a charm for you, a protection charm, something that would protect you if someone is trying to hurt you, he could think about that later, he directed his focus on the woman in front of him, she was a beautiful tall brunette and very much interested in him.

Your eyes teared up as you looked at him, he had his hand around her waist, fingers running slowly on her sides, you tried to look away but you couldn't, you liked hurting yourself it seems.

He looked at you and he noticed your sad face, he clearly told you that you and him can not happen, he can't be feeling awful about you getting all mopey as soon as he have another woman by his side,

He needed to cut you off, he needs to stop sleeping with you and he definitely needed to stop filling your head with a possibility of you and him

He walked over to you and you stood up from the couch

"Look alive mortal, why are you staring at me like that?" He asked you and you looked at the woman he was with just a minute ago, she smiled and waved at you so you returned the smile otherwise it would have been rude

"I just.. "

"I'm taking her back to the room with me, but I want you safe, so can you just stay in the bathroom while I'm with her?" He said it nonchalantly as if he was making a business deal, did he not realize how hurtful and humiliating it was for you? You perceived him to be more thoughtful than that

"Whatever you want"

"Follow me"

You followed him and then he grabbed the girl's arm as he walked her towards the bedroom

"Hi I am Penny" she turned around to introduce herself

"Hello" you smiled at her, you couldn't help it, she was being nice to you what were you supposed to do?

As you all reached the bedroom, you excused yourself to the bathroom and they were onto each other as soon as you were out of sight

"So ummm oooh okay" she giggled as she took his clothes off and he undressed her

"What's with the girl? What's happening there?" She asked him and he was taken aback, she was the first one to enquire about you, normally they didn't care that he had another woman hiding in the bathroom

"Do you not watch the news? He asked her as laid her down on his bed

"I do actually, and I need to know if I'm wrecking something, that's not who I am"

He was surprised again.

"She's under my protection, we are not together" he mumbled hurriedly as he just wanted to be done with it

"Okay, since I do watch the news I just want to tell you that I'm really sorry about whatever happened to you" he was surprised again.

As he fucked her, it was different from the women he have fornicated with before, he felt something, something he haven't felt for any of them, except you

"That was amazing" she told him as she dressed herself up

"I'd like to see you again but I can tell you don't want that" she told him and he sighed

"I'm not what you're looking for darling" he told her as he buttoned his shirt

"How do you know what I'm looking for?"

He smiled as she said that.

He took her and you back to the party, you didn't want to cry and ruin the effort of Miss Romanoff but watching him with her, you just knew it was different, he never seemed interested in any of the women he was fucking before but you could tell she intrigued him.

And that broke your heart, because you could never compete with her, not for his heart because it never belonged to you.

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#loki #loki x female reader #loki x reader angst #loki x reader fluff #loki x reader insert #loki x reader fic #loki x you #avengers loki

[britts-galaxy-brain]

Slight correction: multiple artists Lily specifically favorited have been arrested for using CSEM as references for their 3D work. Kaneda used her toddler son as reference material, including having someone have intercural sex with him for that material. Masked is in prison for using a child of a family he was friends with for reference material and he had sex with the boy in question multiple times, even though he was able to dodge charges regarding that due to oral sex not being provable in a court of law. Amri, one of two animators who made the Spike rape animation Lily faved, was convicted of violating an Estonian law that prohibits adults having kids engage in sexual activity with them, adults putting children into prostitution, and adults using children for pornographic purposes.

If you look at screenshots from Sankaku, where thumbnails flagged for review for possibly being made with CSEM are framed in yellow, there are over a dozen images flagged in every. single. account's. favorites. That's how prolific the problem is on there. You can't avoid it even if you try if you look into the loli or shota tags. The fact that they have a flagging system because this keeps happening is in and of itself really alarming.

I get that not every person who makes NSFW of a character who's underage references real minors, and a lot of horny teens make art of teen characters they like, but while I respect anon's attempts to assume good faith and assume innocence rather than guilt... on Sankaku, CSEM and NSFW are genuinely, honestly interchangeable terms a lot of the time. Three artists in one year alone who abused children aside, any site that hosts 3D, photorealistic art is going to have art made from CSEM references because artists who use CSEM as reference material can blend in and hide behind those who don't.

That's why survivors hate that site. It's not "doing survivors a disservice" to refer to that shit as CSEM because 1. a large chunk of it is 2. a lot of users looking at it are looking for CSEM they won't get in legal trouble for and 3. even the 3D renders that aren't CSEM would still look like CSEM to anyone who's not a 3D artist who can pick out all the anatomy flaws in it.

As a survivor I get why anon wants to distinguish between art and exploitation of children because yeah, some 16 year old being horny for a 15 year old character isn't CSEM but that's just not what we're discussing when it's Sankaku.

Point in case: my abuser took a picture he had where he'd came on my face and had a 3D artist make a render of it with his brother's face instead of mine. It's still on Sankaku because even when they take it down, people reupload it. It's been in circulation for six years.

Sorry for dumping this in your inbox, this kind of thing just makes me see red. I'm not a bad survivor for hating Sankaku or for calling it CSEM and neither are you.

I realize the descriptions in this are graphic, but I'm sharing it with trigger warnings because YALL NEED TO REALIZE HOW GRAPHIC THE SHIT LILY IS LOOKING AT IS!

This isn't a joke!

This isn't "anti vs pro" ship bullshit!

This isn't "Oh but it's fictional so it's not the same"!

LILY ORCHARD IS A VIOLENT PEDOPHILE!!

If seeing this offends you, instead of getting mad and indignant at the people spreading awareness about it, TARGET THAT SHIT AT THE PERSON USING HER PLATFORM TO ACCESS MINORS AND OTHER VULNERABLE PEOPLE!

#tw csem #tw child abuse #tw csa mention #tw graphic #lily orchard #lily orchard is a predator

[crackinwise]

Pinocchio production meeting:

"How do you want to design the stop-motion figures, sir?"

Guillermo del Toro: "As if Gollum peeled off people's faces and wore them himself."

"Ah...ha. And Pinocchio?"

Guillermo del Toro: "Picture if the tree from Poltergeist and the pumpkin man from Return To Oz had a baby!"

[shaking] "....Mmhmm. Uh, and... and the story elements?"

Guillermo del Toro: "Nazis! Literal bombs! Graphic animal and child abuse!"

[cold sweat] "The ending, may I ask?"

Guillermo del Toro: "Unending loss! Give the audience existential depression!"

"ok"

#wtf did i just watch #guillermo del toro #pinocchio netflix #pinocchio spoilers #disclaimer i'm not saying it's bad i'm saying it's my nightmare fuel

[babyjakes]

forever and a day | 51. jenny.

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summary | a story in which america’s favorite captain gives a new life and family to a five-year-old girl who has suffered well beyond her years at the hands of hydra.

characters | dad!steve rogers, girl/willa rogers (original character)

warnings | AU similar enough to OU to include spoilers to many Marvel movies (Age of Ultron and beyond). action and fight scenes with violence and killing. injuries/mild gore. mature themes related to and semi-graphic depictions of child abuse/neglect, past CSA and CSM, and their aftermath (emaciation, wounds, scarring, etc). medical abuse (including sterilization) and experimentation. ptsd/trauma symptoms in a child (developmental discrepancies, de-humanized behavior, detachment, extreme fears). medical treatment of CSM and other aftermath of abuse.trauma-informed therapeutic treatment of ECT. minor mentions of disordered eating. themes relating to abuse of power/authority and immoral interrogation tactics including SA (with brief depictions.) evil!Tony Stark.

[Jenny]

"Hi there, Willa. My name is Dr. Brighton, but you can just call me Jenny if you'd like. I'm a friend of Dr. Banner's; it's very nice to meet you," I say mildly to the small child sitting on the floor in front of me as I stand in the doorway to her room, adjusting the uncomfortable strap of my backpack slightly on my shoulder. My first impression of Willa is that she's small, incredibly small. Her wide green eyes seem to fill most of her pale face that sits surrounded by wavy wisps of medium brown hair, tucked back messily at the ears. She wears a plain white shirt with a small set of flowers running across the front, along with a pair of dark purple pants and ruffled white socks. In her hands, she holds a wooden piece to a puzzle, the rest set out in a pile in front of her.

She eyes me warily up and down, an unintentional pout making its way onto her face as she tilts her head slightly, seeming unsure how to respond. "I just spoke with your dad for a while out in the kitchen, and now I'd like to meet with you, if that's okay. May I come in?" I ask carefully, not wanting to make any advancements towards the young child until she expresses clear permission.

Willa gives a small, single nod as a response, her expression of uncertainty not changing in the slightest. Sending her a kind smile, I step into the room, crouching down and joining her as she sits quietly on the floor in front of her crates of toys. Her timid gaze doesn't leave me as I set my backpack down beside me, sliding it off my shoulder and crossing my legs in front of me. "I see you're working on a puzzle," I observe, eyeing the small amount of progress she's made on the activity so far. "Do you know what kind of picture it makes? I can't quite tell yet from what you've got started there."

"F-farm," she tells me quietly. "Aminals."

"Animals," I gasp softly, my smile widening at the way the child says the word. "That's fun. What kind of animals will there be?"

"Cow," she responds shyly, then adding, "cow goes 'moo.'"

"That's right; they do," I agree. "Would you like some help working on your puzzle as we talk? I would love to see how the picture turns out when it's put together," I offer, hoping that engaging in some play might help the little girl warm up to me. She nods silently, beginning to sort through the pile of untouched pieces as I lean over a bit closer, getting started as well. "So your dad told me lots about you," I tell her, "but I would love to get to know you in person, as well. Do you think you could tell me a little bit about yourself?" I ask, not wanting to dig too deeply right off the bat.

"Hm," she hums, her eyes staying lowered as she sorts through the puzzle pieces. "I'm Willa," she begins. "I'm five." Finding one of the corners, she puts it in place and takes a deep breath. "Sorry," she mumbles. "Don't know what else t'say."

"That's alright," I tell her reassuringly as I connect an edge to her corner. "How about I ask you some easy questions about you, would that be okay? I know it must be strange meeting someone new like this." She nods, seeming fine with the idea. "Okay. We can start real simple. What’s your favorite color?”

“I like pink,” she tells me, her little fingers moving to set another piece carefully in its place. By the way the child moves it’s starkly evident that she’s developed overly cautious tendencies, unsurprising considering all she’s been through. It’s saddening to see, though; even with something as simple as a puzzle, she seems to be afraid to make any movement that might be too big or noticeable. “Yellow, too. And blue, ‘cause Daddy likes blue.”

“I see,” I nod as I watch the small girl’s eyes scan carefully over the remaining pieces. “Those are all nice colors. What do you like to do, Willa? How do you like to spend your time?”

Thinking for a moment, she blinks a few times before offering an answer. “Like to… to play. And spend time with Daddy, and my f’iends.”

“That sounds very fun,” I say with a smile. “You’ve mentioned your daddy a few times, Willa; can you tell me a little bit about your family? Or whoever you feel is closest to you?" I ask, understanding that the concept of 'family' might be a little bit complicated in this situation.

The girl's brow furrows slightly as she thinks for a moment, shrugging. "My family is... me, and Daddy. Daddy's name is Steve," she explains.

"Hmm, okay," I go along as we continue to work on the puzzle, more and more of the picture slowly coming together between the two of us. "What's your daddy like? I know I just met with him, as I said, but I would like to hear what you think of him as well."

"Daddy is... the best daddy in the world," Willa says lovingly, her words so soft I almost have to lean in to hear them. Her statement makes me smile, and I don't have a single doubt that she means it with all of her heart. "He's nice and- and sweet, and funny and sm-smart and-… and he doesn't get mad at me or hurt me, even when I'm really scared he will."

"That's very good to hear," I tell her gladly. "He does seem like a really great daddy, then. Do you remember how you and your daddy met?" I ask gently, wanting to tread lightly into this new territory. Willa blinks, the expression on her face shifting slightly from warmth and affection to more of a solemn look. 

"He- I-... I used to live in a lab," she discloses honestly. "D-Daddy, he-... he and his f'iends came and rescued me."

"I see," I say sadly. "I'm sorry you had to live in a lab. That seems really scary; I'm glad you were rescued by good people who could help you."

"Me too," she agrees, not seeming very comfortable with sharing much more about the topic. 

"Who else are you close with?" I ask, hoping to shift the conversation towards something more light-hearted. "Your daddy told me you've made lots of friends since being rescued."

"Peter," she responds almost instantly. "He's my b-best f'iend." I nod, already well aware of the boy's important role in Willa's life thanks to Bruce and Steve. 

"Peter, I've heard about him," I nod. "What do you and Peter like to do?"

"Lots of things," the little girl tells me. "Watch Paw Patrol and play and h-have movie marathons with Thor. He's nice too. Daddy says he's from another planet. Guess that makes him a… think it’s called a alien."

"Wow, an alien," I enthuse as we fit the last few of the puzzle pieces together before us. "That's really something else, huh?"

"Yeah. He's weird. But I like him... he's funny," she tells me, popping the very last piece into its place.

"Great job on the puzzle," I smile, taking a moment to look over the picture. "You're really good at those, huh?" She nods shyly, breaking the image back up and shuffling the pieces away into their box. "Well, sweetheart, I bet you're probably a little bit confused about who I am and why I'm here, so how about I tell you a little bit about myself and what I'm here for?" Willa nods in agreement to this, closing up the box to her puzzle and looking over at me warily, signaling she's ready to listen.

"Like I said before, my name is Dr. Brighton, and I'm a colleague of Dr. Banner’s. I'm a child psychologist, which is a fancy word for a doctor who helps kids with their emotional health, and I'm also a licensed therapist with a specialty in treating victims of severe trauma, which means I help people who have gone through really scary and hurtful things heal from their pasts and adjust to their new realities. I'm here because Dr. Banner has shared with me some of what you've gone through, and I'd really like to help you work through some of your feelings and fears as you navigate your new life. Your daddy told me some more things about you, too, things that you might need some help with, and I think that if we all work together, we can really get you feeling better and safer here. How does that sound to you?" I ask the child, hoping that my lengthy introduction made at least some sense to her.

Willa swallows hard, the look on her face leading me to believe she's feeling more cautious than flat-out confused. "I- you-... you want to help me?" she asks quietly. I nod.

"That's right, sweetie. Dr. Banner has been helping you with your physical injuries, but a lot of what you went through hurt you on an emotional level, as well, so that's the kind of doctor that I am; I'd like to help you work through your feelings."

"My feelings…” her voice trails off as she takes a moment to think. “I feel fine," she mumbles, not seeming to quite understand the point I'm making.

"That's good, I'm glad to hear that," I tell her. "But remember when you were telling me about your daddy, about how wonderful and nice he is, and you said that sometimes you get really scared that he might get angry with you or hurt you?" At this, the little girl tenses, nodding hesitantly. "Those are the kinds of fears I'd like to help you work through. I bet it's very difficult going through life when you're afraid that at any moment, you might get really hurt, isn't it?" Willa nods again. "You went through some really difficult things, sweetheart, things you never should've had to experience. Because of that, your brain had to change itself in order to protect you. But now you're safe; you have a daddy who keeps you safe and you live in a house where no one hurts you, right?" 

"Daddy p'otects me," the child tells me.

"Yes he does, so now you can start healing from all the hurt you went through. Does that make sense, sweetie? I know this must be a lot to take in." The girl nods, and I can only hope that she truly means it. "Good. And it'll take time, I'm sure, but I really think we can get you feeling better and stronger and braver, Willa. You have all those things inside of you. We just have to find them."

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#faad #faad: jenny #eun's writing #steve rogers #steve rogers fanfiction #steve rogers series #steve rogers au #steve rogers angst #steve rogers fluff #hurt/comfort #steve rogers x child!oc #dad!steve rogers #the avengers #avengers fanfiction #mcu #mcu fanfiction #captain america #captain america fanfiction #chris evans #chris evans fanfiction

[rhysintherain]

humans can only clothe themselves with animal organs! dogs are only socially fulfilled by humans! im very smart!

You don't appear to be, but I guess everyone's entitled to their (idiot) opinions...

Anyway, this gives me a good excuse to summarise why I have a problem with animal rights movements, namely the fact that they have absolutely no respect for humans.

You clowns feel like it's morally correct to troll people on the internet because we disagree with you (you obviously know it's not, otherwise why hide your username?) You think bullying, marginalising, and threatening violence against people is okay if it means you prove your point, even in the face of mountains of evidence that demonstrates how wrong you are.

The people who advocate for an end to all forms of animal 'exploitation', by and large, aren't people who interact with animals on a daily basis. They're not people who are directly involved in the care of farm animals, the protection of wildlife, or the training and breeding of pets. They're not people who have ever hunted grouse, butchered a pig, or tanned a moose hide. That level of removal from interspecies relationships leads to a lot of unrealistic and absolutely false beliefs about animals and how we engage with them.

Take the people who claim you grind up bees to get honey, or who believe shearing a sheep and skinning a sheep are the same thing (with wasn't a fringe idea, that was put forward by PETA). It's easy to prove these extreme examples false, but lots of people still believe them. How many other things do you not understand about animals because you've never been close enough to them to learn? How many more lies is your cause selling you to gain support, that you don't know better than to believe?

And what's the best way to drum up unquestioning support from people who don't know better? You make them angry.

That unjustified rage, fuelled by pictures of cute baby animals and graphic gore, is usually directed at people who are already marginalised.

I've heard animal rights extremists suggest that independent farmers (my family included) should be sentenced to life in prison for owning and managing livestock.

I've read articles flippantly suggesting that Inuit communities above the arctic circle, living below the poverty line, should be forced to ship vegetables thousands of kilometers (using fossil fuels) at great expense, because their health and ability to afford basic necessities is less important than the lives of a few sustainably hunted seals.

I've watched protesters screaming slurs hold signs that called for Indigenous people to be hunted for sport over a legal, humanely undertaken, and culturally vital whale hunt. That hunt was postponed several times, because extremists (who claimed they were there to preserve life) tried to capsize sea canoes full of people.

It takes almost nothing to push the animal rights movement to violent racism, class warfare, and abuses of human rights. Where does that hatred come from? How can you care about any kind of life when you meet the concerns of human beings who tell you you're hurting them with dehumanising mental gymnastics and vicious attacks?

So why should I indulge this bullshit? Why would I trust the opinions of people who who have no experience with animals over my own lived experience? Why would I care what your lot think, when you'd happily let people I care about die to uphold your faulty belief that humans are somehow better than nature and can opt out of our relationships with other species on a whim?

If anyone wants sources they can ask for them off anon. Otherwise google it like a big kid. It takes literally 30 seconds to verify that animal rights extremists do more harm (to people and animals) than good.

#animal rights #or you know an excuse to treat humans you dont like as trash #because they both shake out to the same thing #if animals could talk theyd also tell you peta is bullshit #racism #violence #indigenous peoples #indigenous rights #any indigenous group working on conservation projects is probably doing more for animal welfare #than all the vegans yelling about how honey exploits the labor of bees #any group youre targetting with this shit has a system figured out to take care of the species they utilise #the vegans are at it again #gimme a soapbox motherfucker ive always got a speech prepared #ask #anons who think theyre making a point