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Unwanted: Chapter 27, Unhinged - Pt. 2

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader

Summary: When your FWB relationship with your best friend Bucky Barnes turns into something more, you couldn’t be happier. That is, however, until a new Avenger sets her sights on your super soldier and he inadvertently breaks your heart. You take on a mission you might not be prepared for to put some distance between the two of you and open yourself up to past traumas. Too bad the only one who can help you heal is the one person you can no longer trust.

Warnings: (For this part only; see Story Masterlist for general Warnings) Language, gratuitous Hamlet 2 reference, mention of masturbation, descriptions of violence, death, full on crazy.

Word Count: 1.4k

Previously On...: Nat sent you and Bucky some Hydra security footage she was able to get from her old KGB contacts. You're in for a wild ride.

A/N: THE MADNESS!

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There was no real rhyme or reason to the footage, no overarching narrative that tied the clips together. They were just short, interspersed segments, with no sound, from different camera angles within the Hydra base. The base was probably operating underground; the harsh fluorescent lights acting as the only source of illumination, which made it impossible to determine time of day.

Most of the clips were mundane– shots of a younger version of Jade Carthage training in weapons and combat, eating with the base’s other operatives, sitting in some sort of school room and seemingly being made to recite information. One thing was clear– the girl was not the tortured prisoner she’d led Nick Fury to believe.

You and Bucky watched clips as Jade got older, her training more intense. The scientists at the base put her through extensive endurance testing but, upon completing them, she always looked happy, as though glad to have pleased her keepers with her results. Periodically, an older man in a suit would be seen in the footage. He appeared to be a higher up in Hydra’s hierarchy– the other occupants of the base deferred to him as though he was someone of importance.

“I know that guy,” Bucky said the first time the footage showed a clear image of the man’s face. “Not his name or anything like that, but I remember seeing him with Alexander Pierce.”

You reached up to hold the hand that Bucky still kept on your shoulder, squeezing it in support. “You okay to go on with this?” you asked, knowing that Pierce, as the man who had commanded him to kill Tony’s parents, among others, was a shadow that still loomed large over Bucky’s psyche.

He swallowed. “Yeah. I’m good.”

The two of you kept watching as Suit Man came to observe Carthage, bringing her gifts and acting almost… parental toward the girl. It was disconcerting to watch him gently stroke her hair or offer her a hug, knowing the kind of man he must be, if he was working so high up within Hydra.

“What’s that?” you asked, rewinding the clip and enlarging it over a folder that Suit Man had handed to Carthage. “Holy shit,” you said, once you’d made out the face on the photo attached to the front of the file. “Buck, that’s you.”

Bucky leaned forward, squinting at your screen. “How can you tell, doll?” he asked. “It just looks like a bunch of pixels.”

You rolled your eyes at him. “I’ve stared at your face long and hard enough to recognize it anywhere, Barnes,” you told him. “Whatever’s in that file, it’s about you.”

Bucky gave you a look you couldn’t quite unpack. “Keep playing it,” he said after a moment.

You zoomed out and resumed the footage. Over time, Suit Man would bring Carthage more files. She would continue her training, follow her same routine. You were nearly nodding off with the monotony of it when something changed. A new camera angle appeared in the footage, this one seeming to be of Carthage’s quarters within the base, and you were surprised by just how… normal they were. She had a four poster bed, a vanity, bookshelves– it was a typical room for a young woman. The only thing that looked remotely out of place were the photos on the walls. Once again, you paused the video so you could enlarge the image.

The walls were covered in seemingly hundreds of photos of Bucky.

“Holy shit,” you whispered.

“Are those… are those all me?” Bucky asked as you dragged the image around your screen, wanting to see every available corner of her space.

“Yes,” you said. “They… these all look like surveillance shots. Why do you look like Jesus in this picture?” you asked him, squinting as you pointed to one where he was wearing robes and standing by a river, his long hair tied half-up in the back of his head.

“Shit, that’s from when I was in Wakanda,” Bucky exhaled. “How the fuck would Hydra get shots of me there?”

You leaned back. “Well. Rock me, rock me, rock me, sexy Jesus,” you said under your breath.

“We just discovered that Hydra somehow found a way to spy on me in the most technologically secretive nation on the planet, and that’s your takeaway?” Bucky asked.

“I’m neither blind, nor a nun, Barnes,” you replied before zooming out and starting the footage once again. “Though, with a Savior that looked like that, I’d gladly devote the rest of my life to serving the Faith.”

“Pretty sure that’s blasphemy,” he said, though you could hear the shy smile in his voice, and you just knew he was blushing at the compliment. “I don’t understand, though. If I’m her target, why’s she hanging my pictures on her wall?”

You squinted your eyes as the Carthage in the footage drew a heart around one of Bucky’s headshots with what appeared to be lipstick. “I think…” you began, an idea coming to you, “I think they’re manufacturing infatuation.” You bit your lip in consideration. “If there’s one thing on this planet with more obsessive, singular focus on a target than a Hydra-trained assassin, it’s a teenage girl with a crush. They’re making sure she’s got the concentration of both.” You watched with sick fascination as Carthage took the photo she’d drawn the heart on, and bringing it over to her bed, appeared to be talking to it as she crawled under the covers.

“Oh, shit,” you said with realization. “We should skip over this part.”

“Why?” Bucky asked, clueless to what you knew was coming. “What’s going on?”

“If I am not mistaken,” you said, as Carthage held the photo to her chest before slipping a hand under her blanket, “she’s about to start masturbating to that photo of you.”

“Jesus fuck!” Bucky exclaimed. “Fast forward, Pocket! Fast forward!”

You skipped the video to the next time stamp, trying and failing to control your laughter. It wasn’t that you were laughing at Carthage– this was a gross violation of a private moment, and no one, not even her, deserved that; no, you were laughing at how horrifically uncomfortable it seemed to make Bucky.

“Come on, Barnes,” you said, getting yourself together, “you’ve already fucked the girl twice. Now you’re suddenly shy about watching her cum?”

You felt Bucky stiffen behind you, and you felt bad… momentarily, but he didn’t acknowledge your comment, so you kept watching the footage, until there were only a few minutes left. Suit Man returned and after a few moments, said something to Carthage that had her jumping for what appeared to be joy and throwing her arms around the man.

“Something’s about to happen,” you muttered, eyes glued to the screen. And then… shit hit the fan.

You and Bucky watched in horror as Suit Man handed Carthage a pair of guns, and the two moved systematically through the base, with Carthage slaughtering every operative in their path.

“What the hell?” Bucky whispered.

“No other survivors,” you said, recalling the words from her bio sheet all those months ago. “They’re selling her story. Making it look like she escaped. Jesus Christ. She lived with these people for years. She’s fucking insane.”

Carthage was pumping so many bullets into the agents at the base that she quickly ran out. From there, it was like she just snapped– beating the others to death with anything she could get her hands on. And if there was nothing readily available, she used her bare hands. “Fuck,” you muttered, feeling the urge to vomit. You turned your head, burying it into Bucky’s stomach as he stood behind you. “I can’t watch anymore. Tell me when it’s done,” you begged.

Bucky’s hand came up and rubbed comforting circles on your back. “Yeah, sweets,” he said, voice hollow, “I’ll let you know.”

After what seemed like absolutely far too long, you heard Bucky swallow, and he tapped you on your shoulder, indicating it was safe for you to look again. Turning back to the screen, you were disgusted to see Carthage absolutely covered in blood. The only thing you could think of was Carrie at the prom, but Carthage looked delighted with herself, the whites of her eyes and her blazing smile sitting in stark contrast to the dark lifeblood that coated her face. Together, she and Suit Man walked casually out of the last camera frame, as though she hadn’t just committed mass murder.

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sysmedsaresexist · 1 month

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Sunflowers

#did #CDDs first #osdd #actuallydid #actually did #actually dissociative #actuallyosdd #actually osdd #actually traumatized #actually traumagenic #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #i tried really hard to find a source for this but couldn't #if anyone knows a source please let me know

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boombaux · 1 month

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#this is based on a cosplay that i cant find the source for #if anyone knows please let me know so i can credit #boombaux art #fanart #art #deadpool #spiderman #wade wilson #peter parker #marvel comics #spideypool

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transparentstickers · 4 months

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A puffy sticker featuring a charater proclaiming themselves as "The Mad Muncher", a pink humanoid wearing a large orange cookie jar, with yellow eyes peering from the the slightly lifted lid. They have black boots and orange gloves, and are holding a Hydrox cookie in their right hand.

Below them are the logos for Sunshine and Hydrox.

This sticker was supposedly released in 1986, possibly related to the release of Hydrox Doubles which came out the same year.

#transparent #stickers #food #Only place I can find this sticker is a flikr image linked in the source #If anyone has any info relating to this please let me know

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anne-bsd-bibliophile · 1 year

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#I saw this meme once and was never able to find it again #so I recreated it as accurately as I could #If anyone knows the original source please let me know #mxtx #mdzs #tgcf #svsss #hua chang #wei wuxian #lou binghe

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sleepoutro · 1 year

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Cancer, Riot Fest

#guys.#mcr #gerard way #i just saw this video for the first time oh my god. oh my god #i couldn't find the original anywhere so i put the mcrchive source in the link i'm sorry but i had to post these #if anyone finds the actual video please let me know #*

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esteemed-excellency · 10 months

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Handsome Townhouse vibes

#sorry if there's no sources I saved pics for reference and didn't keep track of the links #if anyone finds or knows some sources and would prefer to have them listed please let me know and I'll edit the post #this is just to spam some vibes I love to look at interior design #fallen london #fallen london aesthetic #victorian aesthetic #victorian interior #victorian moodboard #victorian vibes #xix century #antique interior #victorian home #moodboard #hiram moodboard #my posts

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 5 months

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forgive my northern attitude, I was raised on little light (December 2023)

Fall Out Boy // u.k. // Anne Carson // Church of the Exaltation of the Cross // u.k. // Fall Out Boy's announcement for So Much (For) Stardust // u.k. // Dante Alighieri // Ingeborg Bachmann // Ada Limón // Clarice Lispector // Virginia Woolf // Federico García Lorca // Rita Dove // Jenny Holzer // June Jordan // Heidi Priebe // u.k.

#Lu rambles #web weaving #something something growing up........ a childhood that's died. that's the corpse being carried around #it isn't a soul/body thing it's who you are and who you used to be. do you understand?#I wish I knew where that first painting is from if anyone knows please shoot me an ask or something so I can add a source #let the future begin....

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ceaseless-rambler · 9 months

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Okay in regards to this poll I'm going to do some Doc Carmilla analysis because I don't like having back and forth conversations in tags. This is long, I couldn't really find a way to cut it down

The biggest thing that fucks me up about her is Brian's morality switch. The concept of a morality switch at all is horrifying to me, taking that control away from someone. Brian's about page on the mechanisms website says the reasoning was because Doctor Carmilla found it "amusing" which. Makes me hate it even more. @x-ca1iber pointed out the fact that Jonny is an unreliable narrator, which is a good point. However, I doubt Jonny wrote everyone's bio and I don't think either morality mode would really let Brian lie about it, lying is wrong and I can't come up with ends that would justify it. Brian could be wrong about reasoning, of course, but I'm not sure why he would be. Because a lot of that second half is speculation, *please* let me know if there's anything to agree or disagree with any of it.

The two other things that make me not willing to chalk all of anti-Doctor Carmilla sentiment up to unreliable narration and character misinterpretation are the end of this video and near the end of Lashings. The first video shows Jonny cut the music and, sounding somewhat frantic, ask Carmilla what she's going to do about being thrown out the airlock. When she doesn't respond, he backs away and accuses her of planning something. This is something that isn't attributable to unreliable narration because the premise there isn't that it's a retelling but an actual event occurring. Also, the way Jonny is on edge, expecting her to do something but not knowing what/when and having to just kind of act like it's fine really makes me read it as a bad relationship for him. The end of the Lashings performance shows Nastya stressed about various other things and Doctor Carmilla coming up behind her and hugging her. Nastya visibly tenses and remains as such for the entire interaction. I've seen people argue that this was due to the aforementioned various other things, and it could very much be that! This is definitely my least compelling piece of evidence. But it's worth noting that Doctor Carmilla doesn't back off from the hug and remains sort of in Nastya's face until Nastya steps away. The situation is either Nastya being generally uncomfortable with physical contact at that moment (or in general) and Carmilla not caring, or Nastya being distrustful of her in general. Either way doesn't reflect well on their relationship.

None of this is to say that I think she's trying to cause them harm. She does see them as her kids, in her own way. The only other close relationship she had that I'm aware of is Lorelai (please let me know if you have any more information on this! I'm always open to corrections) and that wasn't exactly healthy. She could very well not know any other way to treat them, and I really do think she meant well. The problem with meaning well is that is doesn't change the ramifications of your actions. The best of intentions don't change the fact that you hurt people. This is, in my opinion, especially prominent in parental figures, which she is.

That is all about her as a person, though. As a character? She's fantastic. Trans lesbian vampire scientist with dubious ethics? Great!!! And all of the things I just talked about that make me dislike her as a person make me love her as a character. That disparity is what makes it really hard to answer the poll I linked at the beginning, because holy fuck morality switch but I love her as a character

Tags that inspired this under the cut

#the mechanisms #doctor carmilla #if anyone has other sources or corrections to anything i said please let me know!!#and if you agree or disagree i would love to hear it!#unfortunately those tags read like an email. and also like I'm assigning you a discussion board for an english 102 class. forgive me

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hollowsart · 21 days

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I see pics of happy sloths and I think "acedia"

Her👇

I know the photo is fake as no sloth looks like that, there's something very uncanny and off about it, but it's such a gentle expression..

It's also very Acedia. Happy Acedia is a good Acedia!!!

Sloths always look like they're up to something or just utterly zooted/zonked. And, of course, they always look 24/7 big sleepy. it's so silly and cute, and relatable, too!

#spidersona #sloth #//long post #If anyone knows the actual original source of the image please let me know cuz I am very curious.#and all I get is p!nterest and reposts with no links or sources in the results of me trying to find it myself :(#I need a 100% confirmation on this.

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yugocar · 10 months

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Serbian Folk Religion in 100 Terms // Narodna Religija Srba u 100 Pojmova (1991) - Dušan Bandić

"Dr. Dušan Bandić (1938-2004) was a professor of ethnology at the Faculty of Philosophy in Belgrade and for a time the head of the Department of National Ethnology and Anthropology.'' - in my attempt to make more sources on ex-yu culture accessible, i've begun to scan and share some of the good material i've read! due to some expressed interest, here is a segment on vampires and watermills (which are connected to vampires)! - for folks who can read serbo-croatian and cyrillic, you can read the direct scans from the book here and for those of you who can't, i've translated the pages into english myself and you can read them here. hope some of you enjoy reading about vampires before they were sexy! if you are interested in reading any of the other segments, you can find a table of contents here and let me know which you'd like to see first. (note: while im fluent in english and put a lot of effort into these translations, i'm by no means a professional translator. my primary focus was that the facts were translated correctly and relayed what people believed)

#its here finally i did it!!!!#i think i'll start tagging all my archiving and information sharing attempts with #basil archives #really hope somebody enjoys this!#i've read the whole book myself and can confirm that its a lovely source of reliable information #written before the onslaught of nationalism #just a genuine account of some folkloric beliefs #balkan youth have always outlived evil times #myposts #also this books talks about the beliefs of serbs from all over bosnia croatia and motenegro as well #and as we know the beliefs of a village didnt split across ethnic lines before uh modern times #so its not exclusively serbian beliefs #neither of the texts are large btw!#vampires a 5/6 pages watermill like 2 or 3 #btw if anyone notices any mistakes please let me know! english or serbian #also if google drive is for whichever reasons not working also let me know!

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ladysansa · 1 year

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Dr. Colin Murray Parkes, Bereavement: Studies of Grief in Adult Life // WandaVision, 1x08, dir. Matt Shakman // Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov // Jaime Anderson

#been thinking a lot about grief lately and how it all just stems from love—it fucks me up very much #also if anyone has a source for the jaime anderson quote please let me know because I could not find one concrete answer #grief #love #web weaving #colin murray parkes #wandavision #marvel #fyodor dostoyevsky #the brothers karamazov #jaime anderson #post*

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legardes · 9 months

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#suigintou #darkthrone #rozen maiden #black metal #no one knows how much I love this #if anyone knows the artist source please let me know #*upload

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paimonial-rage · 1 year

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alhaitham analysis

When you first meet Alhaitham, he comes across as someone that has a negative EQ. He's curt, rude, and critical. And yet the truth is surprising? Like looking at his character quest and how he basically emotionally manipulated the whole hive into revolting, this man is very emotionally intelligent. You can honestly see it in a lot of his lines too. When he speaks about people, yes, he may sound like he's simplifying or trivializing things too much, but he's not wrong. He understands people. He knows how they work. It's just that he views emotional labor as too much of a hassle majority of the time.

Spoilers below the cut

You can gather a lot about Alhaitham through Kaveh's character stories. Like while it may not seem like it, Alhaitham is genuinely trying to help Kaveh. He points out to Kaveh that the source of his problems isn't luck, but his sense of impractical idealism and inescapable guilt. Some may say Alhaitham lacked tact when saying this, but it was kindness on Alhaitham's part. Once someone can acknowledge the truth, no matter how hurtful, they can then make the needed changes for the better. When they met up again years later, Alhaitham asked him, "How has realizing your ideals gone for you?" This wasn't done out of a sense of pettiness, but to solidify the truth once more. It was to help.

I think if you don't know someone that operates in this way, Alhaitham's love language may be difficult to decipher. His words may seem cruel. It may seem like he's trivializing your problems. But to speak truth is to show that you're not a lost cause. He has proven he won't abandon you along the way. After all, to speak truth, no matter how hurtful, is to show love.

#genshin impact #alhaitham #character analyses #i was going to reblog someone else's post and reply to it but like...#i got worried i was disagreeing with parts of their post so i decided to make a completely new one haha;;;#i will word this better later #but as someone that functions the same way as alhaitham like...#i've been called cruel and mean #i've been accused of picking fights with people #people that don't know me well think i say things out of malicious intent #i say things because i dislike seeing people suffer and i want them to get better #because usually the source of people's problems are themselves not outside factors #i do want to write a further relationship analysis (aka alhaitham in a relationship) but 3.6 just came out and i wanna play HAHA #so if you're interested please let me know #i say this because when i leave things to sit i lose motivation veeerrryyyy quickly #tl;dr his relationship with kaveh proves that he would not work with just anyone haha #he won't change just because he loves you

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