#it’s called taking care of yourself

[cemeterything]

New road sign just dropped (courtesy of my unconscious mind)

this is a road sign that i would extend my commute to drive by

#very jenny holzeresque i like it #i appreciate that you could interpret it from multiple angles as well. it could be an interrogation of hypervigilance. #or a call to pay attention to your surroundings and take better care of yourself. #or a reminder that you bear a shared responsibility to build a safer community. #or just a mildly unsettling road sign!

[glacierruler]

I am so sick of the phrase 'delulu is the solulu'

Like, do you not know that delusions are a bad thing? They are a thing that I don't want but do have. They do not make my life easier.

#glacier rambles #bipolar disorder #delusions #actually delusional #fuck off #it takes me having to talk myself through something thirty times to even register that there is no one coming to kill me #fuck off with your wanna be canon #it's called fanon and fanfiction for a fucking reason #stop calling yourself delulu because you want your blorbos to be nice to each other for once #my manic delusions led to me deciding that i'd take a nine hour walk because no one cared about me #let me tell you that was not fun #so stop with the fucking phrase #delulu is not the solulu #being delulu causes half of my fucking problems!!! #>:(

[mamawasatesttube]

What are ur fav timkon tropes?

god i don't even know... basically anything might get me if it satisfies like two point five requirements:

they actually like each other (incredibly low bar, and yet!)

they both have real personalities (INCREDIBLY LOW BAR.......... AND YET!)

BONUS: one or both of them goes off the shits to protect and care for the other

which i guess is to say it's about the best friends to lovers of it all. the bone-deep familiarity with each other. laughing over stupid jokes and being completely at ease in each other's spaces. little things that remind them of each other. shenanigans. but also DEEP deep devotion. this is all not really tropes but augh i don't know i like forgot every single trope on the planet the moment i saw this ask

#it's just important to me that they are in fact BEST FRIENDS #it's about the ''meeting each other's eyes during a serious meeting while someone else is talking and both having to try not to giggle'' #the ''have you ever thought about how human shrek had hair in shrek 2'' ''GO TO BED'' texts at 3am of it all #the ''hey im at your house having dinner with your brother. where are you'' of it all #AND the ''i will drop EVERYTHING and run to you the second you call me.'' of it all. #the ''i know you can take care of yourself but i still want to protect you.'' #it's about devotion and humor both as intimacy. what's love if not making your beloveds laugh all the time #timkon #answers

[bluest-planet]

Having emotions over the fact that Kingdom Hearts as a series is probably the closest thing in mainstream media (to me, there of course might be more out there but like it different because its a product of major IPs) to like, aromantic and asexual themes and queerness being so intertwined with its 'friendship prevails' and 'forging connections' messaging.

Like. Yeah, theres the disney couples, and whatever the hell might be implied between characters like Kairi and Sora or Namine and Riku, or even Riku and Sora. But that's the thing, its not confirmed.

Like, sure, its enough for normies to maybe connect the "boy and girl therefore couple" despite how little there is to fall in line with that expectation because it takes so little for allos to believe in romantic love, that just a girl and a boy who care about one another yet barely speak is enough to confirm it.

But theres also, so, so much evidence against it too, if you just look to the side for a second.

Like, there's no big confession, there's no kiss or proposal of some kind (i mean theres the paopu but, im pretty sure they both have two separate fruits rather than one,) they have more characters in their lives to care about then just themselves, and maybe its the aro in me but they have like. Barely any chemistry and feel more like far away friends, where they left impact on one another but have an awkwardness/unfamiliarity between them.

And like, yeah, I think reading Riku as gay on his own- or both he and Sora having romantic feelings for one another is totally valid, esp considering how much is centered between their relationship.

But... It also... Warms my heart to just know they love and care about one another... Intertwined... But it could be entirely platonic. Not strictly as Brothers or Lovers but something else, be it best friends or queerplatonic partners or something entirely else that drifts between all of those labels.

They just care. And that's enough, thats valid, and its celebrated.

But what gets me the most, even if its not explored a lot, is Sora and his connection with everyone and his other heartmates (Xion, Roxas, Vanitas, Ventus). He has cute friendships in every world! He's friends with so many different people who are always happy to see him and invite him to comeback, always happy to help him if he needs it while he visits so long as it was within their power (the various disney characters) as if he has a home everywhere he goes, he's not actually bound to any one place.

Which yeah, that might seem sad to people. The idea that Sora might not have a definitive home because hes been changed so much on his journey, so much hardship.

But that's kind of mean to think, isn't it? Sometimes people loose their childhood homes, but that doesn't mean you can't build an even better one elsewhere. That doesn't mean you should be bound to any one place, maybe his home is just his friends, any and all of them- wherever he is, so long as he's with anyone he cares about it'll be home. And if his friends aren't there?

He'll make more, not because he's replacing them, but because he just has so much space and so much love for the world around him. He's willing to keep expanding his horizons and making more connections, more homes so he'll never be homeless again. Does that make sense?

It might be hard in 4, whatever will happen to him in Quadratum, but thats what its about; how he'll recover in his darkest hour while relying on what he's learned and being himself but improved.

The fact that Sora has gone to so many worlds and made so many friends- something Ventus wanted to do so bad, and yet. He carried Ven and took him along for the ride while he was resting. To me its heartwarming, Ven may be asleep, but he's not being abandoned, he's right along with him enjoying it in his dreams. Sora's not alone with his companion even if he doesn't realize it.

I always define my gender as "We as in Me but upside down" or "the sum of conversations and experiences shared with others, including myself" because i usually use "we" to refer to myself (not here for simplicity's sake) I dont need romance or desire to be a person, or to enjoy life. I'm never alone, even if theres no one in the room. I get that from Sora, y'know?

How Xion and Roxas spawn from him, I'd wish we got more between them. But just knowing how much he wanted to save Roxas, Ventus, Aqua, Xion, Vanitas- he helps the people who both are and aren't him, or make up who he is or reflect- he care about them. And its because he cares about them, that he cares about the people they care about.

Sure, if he didn't have some connection to Ven and therefore Aqua- he'd still try and save her because that's just how he is. He cares. But at the same time, it means more because he knows how Ven feels, thats his friend, and therefore, Sora's friend. He doesn't care if he's ever met her he just jumps at the chance to save Aqua and hold onto the small thread tied between them. Same with Xion.

I'm sorry, I'm not making much sense, am I? I'm not good at articulating my thoughts. But the fact that he uses any small connection as an excuse to get closer to someone who means a lot to someone he cares a lot- it makes my heart flutter! I wished all the people i cared about got along and were friends with each other too. I wish I could visit and rely on people from all across the world too, because i would never want to settle in any one place if i realistic could. I'd keep my loved ones safe in my heart if they needed it, if i could, and carry them wherever I go, hoping to share all the same pleasant experiences. Or I'd be fine splitting pieces of myself, just to keep me company to know what I must look like outside of my own perspective, to know how else i could inevitably change into another person entirely to meet up and compare lives later, enjoying the differences.

I wish I could offer a chance at something better to the same face, to say; i see your anger and your path refuse to think its okay to be self-destructive, now come home. And my brighter, happier self, to get the happy ending i deserve by saving myself while also being a friend to myself. Waking up from the bad dream at last, to enjoy an awakened life full of connections.

But I cant, and thats okay, my life is one I enjoy regardless, but Kingdom Hearts... Is in many ways- the ultimate aromantic and asexual fantasy for me. And maybe even a few others.

#kh #kingdom hearts #asexuality #aromantic #kh sora #kh analysis #ig #blue speaks #is this anything? sorry im putting myself out there.... #of course being aroace is super varied and what im saying here doesn't apply to all aroaces #and hey id love to celebrate other aroace readings of kh! #ik mine is very heavily centered on what counts as the “self” and what i call “self company” #for a long time ive imagined not other people or personaities exactly.... #but closer to imaginary friends or facets of myself to talk to since ive been on my own a lot #its transformed as ive grown into a type of gender identity mixed with my aroace part #so the heart hotel is just such a lart of that #on that note. ik roxas and xion and ven and van are all their own people and that people find comfort knowing they're allowed to be #but when you have a gender like my own.... they're they're one people but they're also one... does that make sense? #if you could be friends with yourself. keep you safe. take care of you. have fun toegether.... and experience the same event differently... #idk theres feels about that #didn't get into it but yeah. sora leaves the islands that are his home and friends home in other people #and he wants to explore but it's different from why riku wants to leave #Riku leaves to explore learn and experience more things and discover the unknown #but Sora never 'leaves' the islands for good. He expands his definition of home. building a bigger house with materials he's given #idk if that makes ense again.... my bad LOL #edit: im tired and riddled with a shit tone of grammar and word mistakes about so excuse the incoherency lol

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

fem dust hugs? I failed my tests I need comfort from emo wife

-lili

sorry about that lili!! :( hope this could cheer you up muah muah<333

#ask #dust #fem!dust #ash #emo wife is the best thing anyone has ever called her HHH #seriously tho i hope you're doing well!! take care of yourself you little bean muah muah kissing you on your forehead<333

[lifesshort-imshorter]

My Sunday PSA for ADHD:

I am *constantly* seeing people talk about accidentally doubling up on their meds because they can't remember already taking them - or skipping them altogether just in case they did take them.

Seriously, guys, please think about getting the timer caps for your pill bottles. This has been a lifesaver for me when I grab my bottle to take my meds, remember I need to do something, set it down, and then when I see the pill bottle again I can't remember if I even opened the damn thing. This has happened enough that I can't count the times, and even if I could I wouldn't tell you because really, brain? C'mon.

This thing tells you exactly how long it's been since you opened the bottle and helps to keep you on track. These come in multiple sizes to fit virtually any pill bottle you already have, but they also come with their own bottles (and labels!) on the off chance they don't - and you can find them online easy enough.

Best part is these things can work for multiple people for different reasons. Got a forgetful parent or grandparent and want to make sure they're safe with their meds? Great gift. Have a teen in the home but you smoke weed and want to keep an eye on it? Perfect nug jar. Just curious about how long your adhd meds last before productivity goes down? Perfect timer.

Have teen children and worried they're going to access your Vicodin from that dentist appointment? Have a high fever and can't remember how long it's been since you took your last Tylenol? On day three of a depression streak and can't remember doing anything but staring at the wall? Can't remember how long it's been since your last birth control pill? Great purchase.

Just keep them in an area you are frequently and stop worrying (I keep my adhd meds right next to my computer, and my morning meds next to the sink in the bathroom). Get rid of the am/pm pill containers that no one remembers to fill anyways. Trust me, it is worth it.

In case I've inspired anyone, these are the ones I have, but there are other brands and styles out there from different sites if you don't support Amazon.

Even if it's not for you, please share so that other people see.

#this has been a psa #please share #keep poison control off your call logs #take your pills #but safely #the more you know #please reblog #take care of yourself #take your meds #long post #sorry #spread the word #stay safe #oops im rambling #everybody look at my mental health problems #accidentally showing my card deck of issues #i was probably too honest #i swear I'm not an ad #seriously #adhd #adhd things #psa #adhd problems #adhd brain #neurodivergent #neurodivergency #neurodiverse stuff #mental health struggles #mental health #mental health support

[hexlorde]

“Oh, I have the day at home and this movie I need to return to the library soon. I’ll grab some breakfast and watch it now-“

Two hours later:

Yeah, I was not prepared. It was a wonderful movie, with characters that I instantly got invested in and some visual choices I love, but whew was it a heartwrencher. Just… the combination of Otto’s attempts with how everyone was rallying behind him, and then seeing him slowly start to live again… I started crying about 30 minutes in and never really stopped.

#tw suicide #a quick note: Otto attempts to take his own life many times throughout the movie #it gets into some heavy stuff so be aware and take care of yourself #a man called otto #hearth rambles

[crumbleclub]

What if Michael met ghost Mike?

I feel your confusion, but hear me out.

There's no time travel involved. A part of Michael died with his brother, and that concept is taken literally.

A result of trauma? Penance? A supernatural fluke? You decide.

Michael Afton's life continues. He gets older, he starts trying to figure out his father's crimes, he gets involved with trying to save the souls that are trapped.

He never questions the crying he sometimes hears, never questions the cold hand he's felt on his wrist when his life was in danger. It could have been anyone. One of the kids didn't quite leave, maybe, or his brother or sister came around from time to time. He grew accustomed to it.

Once, though, in the mirror, he sees another version of himself standing nearby. That sort of thing is hard to write off.

#this is the direct opposite to dire's paradoxical reaper au btw #not quite intentionally but there are hella parallels #idk whether i'd scoop michael or not for this either #i feel like this is an au where the end goal is some degree of healing but i also want wild trauma exploration yk yk #might be weird to say abt my own thing but im. obsessed w this concept? maybe it's just dissociative disorder shit but like #*shaking the mikes by the shoulders* #YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER #YOU HAVE TO HEAL BOTH PARTS OF YOU #WHEN NOBODY ELSE IS THERE YOU HAVE TO LOVE YOURSELF #i am literalizing the concept of inner child healing lmfao #mike's stuff #fnaf #michael afton #mike's actual writing #idk what to call this #fox and kit ghost au #i guess #fnaf fox and kit ghost au

[atsr-studios]

Halloween Omega where he is grim reaper-esque.

#this idea came from someone on mmxd #dnekndkwndisnskjsiw thank you thank you #mega man zero #omega #we’ll call the person #um #‘devil’ #thank you so much devil you make me happy whenever I see u on mmxd :) #please take care of yourself

[vainvex]

as a transmasc, i do think it's important to talk abt transphobia we experience, but honestly, the moment a post about it is tagged w trans/ndroph/bia (and especially transmis/ndry) i just roll my eyes and scroll away. it is transphobia. it isn't oppression for being a man, it's for not being what we were coercively assigned as, and frequently those who claim it IS because they're men are also blatant and vocal transmisogynists. it isn't a coincidence that a significant number of the posts i've seen tagged as that also tend to make a point that boils down to "how DARE trans women talk primarily about their OWN experiences first, dont they know I, A MAN, have it WORSE?" and it's like....

why is your response to transfems talking about their own oppression, to make a big fuss about how that doesn't matter because bad things also happen to you for being trans? it has nothing to do with them. you can talk about the transphobia you experience without making it clear that you think what transfems experience is inherently less important or terrible, or somehow an attack on YOU when they talk about it. if you feel so called out when they discuss transmisogyny, then maybe analyse why that is and fix your fucking hearts.

#vv.txt #transmisogyny #while im sure not every transmasc who uses that term is a transmisogynist it is such a large trend that it makes me distrustful of its use #you can be a transmasc and discuss transmasc experiences without aligning yourself with transmisogynists #it actually isnt that hard to care about women without being one. and yet #so often people act like transfems are somehow uniquely harmful for talking abt transmisogyny and calling it out when they experience it #evidently the expectation is that they lay down and take it instead of standing up for themselves #and that is just not an acceptable way to treat people. especially those who are marginalised even within trans communities #im leaving rbs on for right now but the moment anyone is a dick those privileges are being revoked

[byanyan]

good evening, i am thinking about byan growing up and having all the worst things happen to them and not understanding why no one ever seemed to notice or care. no one ever stepped in to take them out of terrible situations. no one made a big fuss about it even when notice was taken. no one ever protected them. a lot of the time, no one would even believe them if they tried to say something. sometimes, they were the one blamed for what was happening to them.

thinking about how this fuelled a great deal of anger at people and the world, but also how it instilled this idea that they weren't worth the help or the protection or even a sliver of care. about how both of those feelings fed in to the self destructive tendencies they developed, like they were trying to see just how badly they had to destroy themself for someone to give a shit. like they were doing it in part to see, if they tore themself apart severely enough, if anyone would finally come and save them. a lot of people would still pass them by the same way they would a dying stray dog on the side of the road (an inevitability, nothing we can do about it), but every now and then someone would stop and give them that little bit of hope that maybe they were worth saving... although, of course, it was fleeting. they'd simply end up in the hospital or back in the group home to be dealt with by someone else; the person who found them would be able to feel like they did something good and then forget about them, and byan would be right back where they started. lower than where they started, even.

thinking about how this then too led to them taking things into their own hands. if no one else would do anything about the injustices being done by them, then fine, they'd do it themself. they'd burn that bully of a teacher's house down, send that kid who'd been harassing them for almost a year to the hospital, stab the guy who thought he could get away with anything— they stopped waiting for someone else to save them, only to have all the attention turned to the terrible things they were doing. they were the problem. they were always the problem.

#when u go from not being important enough to bother with to being The Problem #and being told more than ever before that you're basically asking for all these awful things to happen to you by being such a problem #when ur so angry and distressed bc no one cares no one CARES until suddenly it's your own damn fault #so then you embrace it... if they want to call you a problem you'll BE a problem... #at least this way you get to take your anger out on someone other than yourself for once... #i'm just having a lot of feelings about it today but i couldn't tell u where it's come from #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made.

[zeb-z]

“Even if it’s not my fault, it’s still my accident, it’s still my mess. It’s still something that - exists, because I do” oh. and he just doesn’t know another way to help, either, because all his life has been screwing up without helpful direction in order to meet impossible standards, and so there is no other way than to bleed himself dry. for the cause, for a friend in need, for anyone he doesn’t know. especially for the problems that he himself creates, because to him his pure existence has always been the problem, because the elders were fucked as hell and traumatized him to no end - so even causing problems is a sin. a single mistake is a sin. it always has been. and it’s rough trying to learn anything other than that mindset - but Jay and Chip won’t let him struggle alone.

and it’s like - that’s what comes with being raised the way he was. punished for imperfection, but there’s no guidebook, no definition of perfect. and so perfect is never good enough anyway. it’s a trap and there is no winning, so there’s nothing else to do but take the blame and bear it, and internalize it. and it makes actual failure and actual mistakes that much more painful. of course responsibility needs to be taken for your actions - but when you’ve been taking responsibility for everything, up to and including the literal fate of the world, all of your life, every outcome is your fault. and guilt only builds, and resentment only festers. of course he hates the elders for how they treated him. of course he hates himself.

he’s grabbing his own destiny and making his own choices - but the thing about making your own choices is that there are so many of them. there’s no destiny to blame anymore. and all you can do is the best you can. and it’s not always going to be good enough. he’s learned plenty about failure, but with Jay and Chip around, maybe he’ll learn about second chances, and self forgiveness. maybe he’ll learn that accidents aren’t always met with extremes. and that he’s not the only one left to deal with a mess if he slips up and breaks something.

#after their talk and their big spar part 2 and everything I’m choosing to hope for the up and up #I just. I dunno. again. y’all ever think about how he never lays on hands to heal himself? because I do #I’m calling it what it is tw for the tags here but #passive suicidality. and it’s scary and tough to deal with especially under these conditions he’s under and it’s like #he’s someone who can be seen as bigger than life almost a moral role model. a hero of sorts. and still he thinks he’ll never be good enough #abuse will do that to a mf #but like. idk jay shot him and he forgave her. and chip can be a downright bastard and he still cares for him. as much as his own #morals and nature have rubbed off on the other captains they’ve also rubbed off on him. I mean sarcasm? pranks? #chip is valuing others more and more. and so maybe gillion will value himself more and more. yknow? #after every mistake he’s made and the others have made they’re still crew. family. and ain’t that somethin? #I dunno. taking responsibility isn’t just bleeding yourself out as retribution. there has to be a balance. and for gillion (and chip tbh) #that’s difficult. and something I am hoping they will continue improving on #idk. I have many thoughts without full articulation I’m just kinda spinning them all in my brain yknow #jrwi riptide 86 #jrwi #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #character analysis #z speaks

[lazlolullaby]

Starmora is still canon, stop sinking your own ship

I'm not sure why people are mad or sad about the way Gunn "ended" the Starmora relationship? It's not over, it just went through a natural resting point after all of the stuff that happened in the plot???

Because even if the characters don't share a screen anymore, that doesn't mean it's over. That doesn't mean that love can't happen twice. Gunn has laid the groundwork - you can see it if you're looking at the characters.

Gamora has always been subtle. but she commits. She puts her whole traumatized heart into something if she believes that it's the right thing. She was raised by Freaking Thanos - she was (kinda) fine with him killing half the population but when Ronan wanted All of Xandar killed she Bolted. Betrayed Ronan and by proxy Thanos and Nebula.

After Endgame, she knows how to reach the Guardians if she wanted to. Heck, she's been talking with Nebula who respects that enough to only bring her on a mission that could kill a Guardian and end their found family.

About 75% of Gamora's lines are her denying that she's the same person. She's clearly pissed as hell that Peter is trying to "bring her back" when it's clear to her that she's fine without the Guardians.

At the end of the movie, if she wanted to be on the same team as Peter, she would have stayed on Knowhere. If she never wanted to see Peter again, she wouldn't have said anything.

By saying "I bet we were fun" its a signal to both Peter AND the audience that she is fine to stay in contact. That she acknowledges that her love with Peter could happen again.

As for Peter...

Peter loves HARD. He's never been subtle about it. He's never been subtle about feelings; happy, sad, angry, romantic - he boosts them up and uses them as a distraction, makes others think he's not sharp as an arrow.

He values Gamora's choices. We see him flirting at Knowhere, she pulls a knife on him and he doesn't directly flirt again for a while. You see that in Vol 2 when he's patient about her having feelings. He SHOT HER in Infinity War because she told him to. She's dead but she knows - she knows that's love.

We know he respects her choices in all situations...except in Vol 3. He's more childish and clingy especially compared to the other Guardians - they don't try as hard as Peter does to get her back. I feel like this is justified; he's already heavily traumatized from Infinity War and as acknowledged in the movie(!) Peter is dependent on Gamora in a way that the other Guardians aren't.

And with Vol 3, he's lost that part of him. He just wants "his Gamora" back. And it's cringy and sad and messed up.

You can parallel it to Thanos, who just saw "his little one", a daughter he trained to be a weapon and didn't acknowledge as a person. You can parallel it to the High Evolutionary, who wants his creations "perfect" and only sees Rocket as a failure that needs to be utterly destroyed.

(yeah it's a theme, its kickass writing, it's *chefs kiss* thank you mr. Gunn for tying this all up with a big fancy bow)

Peter is stronger than both of them. Able to move past what he thinks he needs and see Gamora as she is now instead of as he wants her to be.

"Like you wouldn't believe." He finally has something in his past that is complicated but at the end of the day, he can smile about it. An ending he can be at peace with.

Both of them know that they are not the same people that met on Xandar outside the pawn broker's shop. Fighting over their ticket out from under Yondu and Thanos.

But they know they could be good to each other again. It's just going to take some time apart.

#Starmora #gamora #Peter quill #star lord #Gotg vol 3 #gotg vol 3 spoilers #gotg 3 spoilers #Spoilers #lazlo's lulls #Ok you can call me Peter Quill for this post because I freaking love Gamora #also gotg 3 was peter quill at his worst his technically darkest #and he still was giving Gamora a choice to stay #but goddamn Gamora's line about what is wrong with yourself that I need to be someone else? HURTS #if more people thought of relationships that way - or checked in with that view every so often #dude there's a lot of healing and changing to be had if that happened #thanks mr gunn for the blorbos i'll take good care of them #and guys if you really want to write happy starmora without as much baggage #there's always exploring the 4 year gap inbetween vol 2 and Infinity War

[idk-bruh-20]

Irondad fic ideas #56

Tony makes that joke to Peter where he's basically asking the kid to not scare him so much, the one where he says, "You know I have a heart condition." Fic where this statement really freaks Peter out. He gets fixated on worrying that something will go wrong with Tony's heart. Maybe he even starts to go over there more, always looking for ways to surreptitiously listen to Tony's heartbeat and check that it's still strong.

Eventually, the situation reaches a breaking point. Maybe Peter has a nightmare or a panic attack, maybe Tony doesn't answer a text and Peter's separation anxiety goes through the roof, maybe Tony really does get a little hurt on a mission and Peter is disproportionately terrified. One way or another, the truth comes to light, and LOTS of comfort ensues.

#tony: I promise to take better care of myself if YOU promise to take better care of YOURSELF #peter: did you just... did you just UNO reverse my legitimate concerns #tony: my concerns are also legitimate #remember that time yesterday where you got shot #irondad fic ideas #irondad fic idea #I feel like this fic could also include peter worrying about tony's caffeine and or sleep habits because of the impact on the heart #irondad and spiderson #iron dad and spider son #tony stark #peter parker #fic idea #fic ideas #OH WAIT SOMEBODY PLEASE WRITE THIS FIC AND CALL IT PROOF THAT TONY STARK HAS A HEART

[featherymainffins]

Now this might be because I have issues but is it just me or does Slay The Princess feel like an allegory for a relationship?

#like i dont even mean the actual textual stuff like the two gods loving each other i mean like #while the narrator himself does say that he is not the protagonist at all the voices do in fact count him as one of them and #both the narrator and the voices are described as shattered glass pieces on the floor #and im saying that just to contextualise what im about to say because i feel like the narrator is an echo of someone who was in #a relationship with another person and is trying to 'slay' the memory of this person and defeat death not only literally but #on a metaphorical level (as in the death of a relationship). if you do slay her you destroy her memory and in that way you do not know her #at all nor do you care to #and the routes would be the perspectives held by different parts of you. shes literally a being that changes based on who perceives her #but metaphorically thats just how people work isnt it? relationships are complicated and there is a part of you who sees someone as a razor #and there is a part of you who sees them as a damsel and another who sees them as a god etc etc #its like youre a person who is trying to make sense of the situation and; which is why the construct of the princess is made up of #several vessels called perspectives. you understand the whole of what you think only when you take apart all your perspectives; #and theres a you who isnt you anymore who doesnt want to do this. hes telling you to just destroy it. it was wholly wretched and wholly bad #and it changed which is a crime in itself. theres an echo of you. and theres you; built by this echo because thats how the self works #we are each our own god and we build ourselves. the different voices are like different parts of you #much like the vessels are the equivalent of the voices. theyre the finite confined perspectives; aspects of a whole person #and slaying her in this context would obviously mean literally just destroying the memory and deciding that change and all it brings #is an awful thing. though im not yet sure what the difference between leaving with the whole and between separating yourself #and leaving with just an aspect would be. #thats probably like the only thing thats kinda ruining this interpretation lol #oh and obviously a lot of the routes have like very strong relationship symbolism. specifically a lot of them feel like #scenes from a relationship that is falling apart. for example in the adversary and then the fury when you run away the dialogue #basically mimics a partner running away from a conflict and the other one destroying themselves because of it #witch and the thorn are both heavily Esop-coded and the text itself says that its about two people hurting each other even though they love #each other but both are afraid of the other one and of being vulnerable. thorn is about finding forgiveness in one another #and deciding to be better and love each other despite the hurt youve caused each other due to your problems #etc etc #like am i insane am i mental am i projecting?

[shredsandpatches]

tfw you are semi-seriously considering asking your supervisor to write a note to your mother assuring her that he's not going to fire you for missing a whole week with covid

#he was like 'you need to take care of yourself and i need to not give my elderly mother-in-law covid' #my mother called me at like 7 am all 'do you think you can go in tomorrow?'