#let them pain

[suicideandcheese]

Stillside & Neverwell

By the grace of goddamn, only the lonely, Your god on a pedestal, mine on my only. Beyond the whispers, kitten joys, tears Of how and if I could fuck the anomaly We universe. If we could lose a verse, Saints on the other line, hanging them For calling, oh we're calling. In bliss'd Hells there are to earn, your fire On a weekday, come a year, blur The all-time, crime the slaver, you're Another halo to rustify the damned They kiss, oh they will kiss to heavens You, on an email end, hot drink in hand. Grifted, the grifted grift and grift theirs. Under the church, beside the military. Underchurch, bedside military, Stillsighs, afterlies, streams of everflow, The damnings we dare, still not a share. Paintings on the halls of always, colorless And white. Oh so fucking white. And the Oscars and the white, And affordables, tissue paper, oh so For the white. Your ass. White your ass. This blvck chvrch ceiling has cvnted in. Better to die among the greens, And mold into the meadows Than slur another word into the masses Like it's sacred, text, pressed yesterday, Told to fly, it's told to fly, you never fly, Baby, it's another well, just be well. Deeply, down into the well. Oh you fucking will. Fucking, you well.

#poetry #poem #writing #free verse #poets #writers on tumblr #rage #silence #spilled ink #let them in #let them pain #let them die

[niko-sasaki-dbd]

Dead Boy Detectives Agency + Random Posts.

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#now let me make fun of them a little. #dead boy detectives #dead boy detectives agency #dead boy detective netflix #edwin payne #charles rowland #edwin paine #crystal palace #crystal palace surname von hoverkraft #niko sasaki #payneland #charles and edwin #paineland #paynland #chedwin #netflix #sprites

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[khytal]

and there was only one bed (oh my god there was only one bed)

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#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #khyt.art #I love putting stupid spins on tropes :] #this is specifically 98 because trimax ww would not do this sndhsndhs #and also bc I believe trimax vw are a lot more hesitant with touch. and it takes them a lot longer #but we are not here for pain and longing we are here for *looks under the read more* not that #anyway. enjoy day 5 (only 1 bed) lmao #I think the most impressive thing about this week so far is that I haven’t had to draw vash’s coat once #it would’ve been yesterday but I was busy/needed to let my hand rest x)

[petricorah]

scenes i loved from Real Enough to Get Me Through by @marriedzukka <333 [ids in alt]

#zukka #zukka fanart #sokka #sokka fanart #zuko #zuko fanart #atla #atla fanart #avatar the last airbender #zukka fic rec #myart #yall. yall. dani. this FIC #first off it made me cry twice. not like 'oh im crying' internet speak no. like. eyes are too blurry to read let me stop this for a sec #it is SO GOOD #your prose? amazing #your insights on grief? life changing #THEM??? THEM their relationship and trust #'zuko looked at him and his world shifted on its axis' #ive been thinking about that line for WEEKS STRAIGHT #i can't tell you how many passages i screenshot just because of how beautiful or cute they were #the moment of seeing the painting of sokka's mom? how did you manage to make it so telling character wise--so sweet so PAINful AND so #cute with their relationship?!!?! #'oh so you think i'm beautiful too' #GOD #i had so many scenes i wanted to draw it was crazy #also #'Our loved ones leave impressions on us that can still impact our decisions and feelings even after they're gone' #fuck. had me crying AGAIN #seriously this fic is so wonderful and not just through a zukka lens. truly life changing you're an AMAZING writer #the fandom is so lucky to have you and i can't Believe it took me so long to get around to reading this masterpiece

[yearning-gay]

this is my love letter to doms who get off on hurting their subs, that shit's hot you're hot and not evil nor fucked up for having a thing for that stuff i love you and you can hurt my pussy any time btw

#jack.txt #giving in to my little pain play fantasies rn #and like hey maybe if i come across the right sadistic dom some day i could let them go a little apeshit on me fr too hee hoo

[starlight-archer]

The Cat King: I'll stop playing nice! You hear me? I will stop fucking playing nice!

Also The Cat King: "Edwin has been through more pain than you or I could ever imagine"

*gets beaten to death with a stick for warning Edwin about the trap*

"Hey! Keep your paws off of him!"

*proceeds to give Crystal and Niko info that will help them rescue Edwin*

#dead boy detectives #the cat king #thomas the cat king #edwin payne #edwin paine #Crystal palace #niko sasaki #He's not fooling anyone #The way he was acting out and then proceeded to do literally nothing #Like a cat that hisses at you but then still lets you pet them #I do like that he was more sincere at the end of the series though #Seemed to be a little more softhearted than he would like to let on

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment. #I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again). #Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him. #This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse. #It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship- #-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care. #And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you. #You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged. #I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated. #People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away. #I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'. #And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media. #We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May. #Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.

[wistfullywaiting2]

The biggest misconception in the bsd fandom ever to me is people constantly portraying Atsushi as someone who trauma dumps excessively when he canonically barely talks about it at all.

The entire point is that Atsushi does not talk about his trauma he’s just constantly thinking about/reliving it. He can’t escape the memories of his past so he tries not to acknowledge them.

He only mentions it when asked, either directly or when someone asks him to explain himself.

Atsushi doesn’t even give a cohesive explanation for what he saw while under Dogra Magra, he just apologizes to Haruno and Naomi.

If Lucy hadn’t had her whole “you’ve never suffered the way I have” spiel then I doubt even the audience would’ve gotten to find out about his scars

If Akutagawa never asked him how it felt for the orphanage headmaster to die Atsushi would have never told him that he’s been hallucinating.

In the omake where Kyoka asks him why his hair is like that it’s clear he wouldn’t have told her that unless she had asked.

In 55 minutes Atsushi very briefly mentions sleeping on a dirty floor somewhere to Kunikida because he was trying to explain and justify his behavior.

And the thing is that there are scenes that implies that the other characters see Atsushi behaving strangely and are visibly confused because they do not understand what’s wrong with him.

Remember, we as an audience get to see things about characters that the main cast doesn’t. Just because we see into Atsushi’s mind doesn’t mean the other characters know what’s going on in there.

Also little footnote here that I think this is a reference to the moon over the mountain but I digress

#bsd #atsushi nakajima #bsd atsushi #nakajima atsushi #idk #on the floor wallowing in pain as we speak #bungou stray dogs #tagging is hard and i’m lazy #I love the Atsushi trauma dumping for no reason headcanon too #but I have to complain about it not being canon accurate #just don’t put it in fanfiction ok that’s all I ask #Guys let atsushi be painstakingly vague about his past in peace stop ruining it #atsushi #Atsushi hated pain #but pain had been an intimate- dies #anybody have fanfic recs with this concept or do I have to write them myself #idk guys you’ll just never catch me writing anything where the other characters truly understand Atsushi #sorry #Kunikida will never be written to know what the fuck is wrong with him for as long as I live #He just gives up #at some point

[solomiracle]

mc dies and everyone's sad and stuff meanwhile solomon is looking absolutely giddy. everyone's like "solomon wtf is wrong with you" but he's just like "nah it'll be fineee just give me like 3 hours" and giggles as he wipes away the dust on his necromancy books

#solomon is so......... yummy to me #on one hand he doesn't want to doom mc to immortality bc he knows the pain that comes with it #and on the other hand #he's connecting with someone on such a deep level for the first time in definitely centuries #and he's obsessed so i doubt he'll just let them die #maybe at least just extend their lifespan #for sillies #from me #obey me #imagines #obey me imagines #obey me solomon #sol #solomon x mc #x mc #obey me solomon x mc

[raepliica]

protecting each other

#trigun #cw blood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash the stampede #vashwood #my art #hurt/comfort #i needed to draw them covered in blood #nothing more romantic than going ape shit when your buddy is injured<3 #and then lovingly tending to his wounds and staying by his side to comfort him<3<3 #they both would blame themselves sm for letting the other be wounded #ww wouldnt try to argue with vash that its no use for him to feel guilty and would just be there until his mood is better #while vash would try to understate his pain to try and reassure ww but he would totally see through his bs #THEY NEED TO COMMUNICATE PROPERLY IT MAKES ME GO CRAZY #vashwood nose nuzzle heals my soul #raepliica_art

[sysig]

Chewtoy (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Squeeze him - he makes a squeaky toy noise #Everyone needs to bite Gaster! He doesn't yield like flesh so it probably doesn't even hurt right? Yeahhhh he'll be fiiiine #There is something very funny to me about him just sitting there and taking it tho lol - feeds into his martyr play ♪ #As if I don't already have a favourite martyr hmmm don't worry about it lol #What was he even doing why is he just letting 2-P bite him lol #Socialization? That's not a good thing to just let him do! He's still got a young mind! Boundaries are important #He does offer a way out - hehe ♫ - but he doesn't enforce it! You're setting them up for failure #Hehehehe #The bone gift was fun to doodle hehe ♪ He leaves it with him and it goes completely untouched while his arm is covered in teeth-marks pfft #Even with Papyrus a bit more unruly I still like to imagine he acts mean in largely harmless ways haha #Like yeah he's being naughty and biting when he knows better and offered other options - Gaster. Gentle enforcement - but he's not Hurting #He's not using his entire bite force - probably lol or he's just got weak little baby bites (though those can be quite painful!) #Sans on the other hand would absolutely go 100% full power - and still only do 1HP lol what an unfortunate design quirk for him #If only he had a jaw he could open! He'd bite the heck outta Gaster! Alas #I do like to imagine Fellplates!Sans has just fast-tracked to classic's conclusion of ''You suck and I hate you. Die'' about Gaster lol #Even the possibility of not being mean to him is so alien! What do you /mean/ not hurt you?? Do you know who you're talking to?? #He'll find another way to mess with him in good time haha

[your-fave-is-being-blended]

Ibuprofen from Real Life is being blended!!

You cannot save it.

#(take the ibuprofen) #(do it) #your fave is being blended #you cannot save them #blend requests #ibuprofen #pain medication #lets take ibuprofen together

[emblazons]

"I don't want things to change."

MIKE WHEELER & WILL BYERS IN S03E08 - The Battle of Starcourt

#byler #plot twist: not even one episode later...they did change. And its all Mike 'Panic!at the Airport' Wheeler's fault LMAOOOO #I have no reason for this other than to cause myself pain lmao. BUT ALSO: LET THEM HUG (PROPERLY) AGAIN J F C #mike wheeler #will byers #my gifs #byleredit #bylerdaily #dailystrangerthings #strangerthingsedit #strangersource #tvstrangerthings #strangerthingscentral #tuserrae #stranger things #the me tag #tuseremilia #userelz #tusermaddy

[minhosblr]

T.leeknowsaurus first insta live aka. Minho not being satisfied with instagram's filters for 18 minutes straight

#bystay #createskz #linosource #stray kids #lee know #*m.gif #*minho #analook #kpopccc #malegroupsnet #stays kept telling him stuff would happen if he did thumbs up and he called them scammers when nothing happened #someone asked him why he touched jeongin's whole face during s-class and he was like “why? can't I touch what is mine? Is there a problem?” #he also said he had his hair cut really short for their break and the stylists told him not to cut his hair anymore and he debated #on ignoring them and doing it anyway #the pain it brings me to know he wants short hair when i'm a loyal long-haired minho stan :( #he also couldn't figure out how to see the comments cause the comments only showed who followed him lol #he said the filters were boring and pretended to end the live because of it #there was a cat filter but it was a wineglass and not a cat and he wasn't satisfied #stays were annoying and told him not to do filters as always stays let him have his fun!! >:(

[beanghostprincess]

There's just something so inherently beautiful about the way Luffy loves Sanji. Because his perception of Sanji, at the end of the day, is always "he's a good person". Plain. Simple. Easy like that. "You're just like that" is what Luffy tells him. He's just, basically, a kindhearted soul. And he could quite literally list all of his qualities, but he doesn't because he doesn't need to. Why would he do that when the best description for his cook is just saying he has a good heart? The way Luffy perceives Sanji is just so beautiful to me because, while Sanji sees himself as somebody unworthy of love and easily dispensable, Luffy sees him as the representation of kindness itself. For Luffy, food is the epitome of happiness and love. Hunger means wanting something. Eating means taking something you want. And food as a concept means being full. Hunger itself is a need your body asks for, and Luffy has never been shy about it and he takes and takes and enjoys himself until he's completely full. Sanji has been hungry his whole life but has never, not even once, thought about eating out of pleasure, but only need. His job is to cook and to serve and not to eat. And Luffy sees that as the most selfless act of kindness. To create and give food to the ones who need it and want it. Sanji makes others happy, and Luffy can't understand why he keeps depriving himself of the food (happiness) he makes. He does these things out of plain, simple kindness and without expecting anything in return, and Luffy sees that. Luffy sees Sanji's heart served on a silver platter because that's what Sanji offers him every time. And Luffy doesn't want Sanji's heart or selfless acts of kindness. He wants Sanji to be kind without harming himself in the process and actually take what he wants for once (eating). Luffy doesn't get why he keeps torturing himself and giving his everything to others when he could just share it. Sanji has so much frustration and rage and pain and sadness he won't let himself feel, and Luffy is quite literally the definition of "If you need to be mean, be mean to me" (from the song 'I don't smoke' by Mitski) and "If you gave me all the anger you can't swallow I would eat it gladly for you, just don't choke" (I just thought about this thing I'm such a poet).

#the lusan feelingssss #i am very sad editing wci #'why do you keep making lusan edits if they make you so sad' i like suffering and pain next question #i don't talk enough about lusan and it's probably one of my favorite ships #sometimes i wonder if i like zolu or lusan better and i remember i ship the three of them together + usopp and i smile #also this whole thing is a metaphor for eds and i think it's obvious but yeah let me project my mental health on sanji #one piece #black leg sanji #monkey d. luffy #lusan #sanlu