#myself and my surroundings

[littlecutiexox]

Got to hang out with my best friend from high school today after not seeing them for 5 years and I’m so emotional and happy

#this is the only pal i made while i was in high school and its super nice that every time i see him no time has past #its the kind of friendship where i havent spoken to him in years but when i see him I can tell him anything snd everything #hes a friend for life #and it makes my heart all melty and warm #he said its nice to see me grow and develop as a person more and he was so happy ive been putting in the time and effort into working on #myself and my surroundings #my heart just 💓💓💓💓 #im really happy #ive been so stressy all week this was so needed #therapy next week too #best friend in 2 weeks #and tattoos in 3 weeks #good things are coming and i cannot wait

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[ultimateinferno]

Brennan Lee Mulligan MinMaxing yet another PC that will very likely make me cry while also bodying his opponents.

#dimension 20 #d20 #brennan lee mulligan #dnd #dungeons and dragons #d&d #acofaf #a court of fey and flowers #the ravening war #trw #misfits and magic #kp hob #evan kelmp #bishop raphaniel charlock #this is my style of character building as well #i originally made this photo to describe myself actually #i always start with a character thar is fun and powerful and explain the minmax with backstory #for example i dumped charisma hard on one of my PCs in favor of pumping his physical stats #then i wrote his entire conflict surrounding his crippling loneliness and longing for companionship #that is constantly sabotaged by his inability to communicate #i demanded my DM to give me charisma rolls #hands down my favorite PC i every made

[mxxnlightwriting]

reminder that more often than not, it's important to take breaks from writing instead of forcing yourself through it. listen to your body and intuition.

i say this as someone who writes almost every day. sometimes, that isn't sustainable. sometimes, you need to take breaks from your projects because you're tired from working on them. i have to admit that understanding when to stop and take a break is a skill in itself, but with time, you will master it. you've got this. if not today, then tomorrow.

today, you rest. tomorrow, if you feel like writing, great! if not, rest a bit more. you know yourself better than anyone else. so trust yourself to know when to get back into writing. and don't punish yourself for not doing it.

#writing community #writers on tumblr #writing advice #writing positivity #writers of tumblr #writeblr community #writeblr #this post is from me to me #i have been working on the same wip for 40 days straight and need a bit of a break #i am still writing but have decided to take a step back and not force myself through things #it's obvious i am tired and my surroundings (and this time of the year) are draining me #so i prefer to go slowly instead of trying to get it all done at once #because i don't want to burn myself out #so i will be strategic like a mushroom

[curi0us-cherry]

Dreaming about cock while my lesbian flag hangs over my bed 💖🤍🧡

#orientation play #lgetsd #fucked str8 #dykebreaking #dyke breaking #I have a ton of pride stuff in my room like the lesbian flag and a purple labrys flag #I have a double Venus symbol poster and a big sign that says ‘dyke’ that a friend made me #not to mention the countless rainbows everywhere #it is an EXCESSIVELY gay room #which is why it feels so hot/naughty when I touch myself to cock while surrounded by all of it #and the thought of actually taking a real cock in this dykey ass room turns me on an UNBELIEVABLE amount #the shame I feel only makes me wetter #🍒

[magurosnacks]

@glass--beach your music has changed my life for the last 4 years thank u for putting on such an amazing show in denver tonight 💞🏳️‍⚧️

#already mentioned this on my twitter but #something about being at this concert surrounded by other queer and trans people like me #made me realize that like #being trans has been buried in my identity for a few years #and actually i fuckjng love being trans #i love other trans people #i love myself for being trans #im happy #thank you glass beach <3 #glass beach #glass beach tour #concert

[azuresquirrel]

Dungeon Meshi manga is ending THIS WEEK the weekend is going to be a time for fucking coping, my dudes

#Dunmeshi #Dungeon Meshi #my stupid lesbian brain asking Ryoko Kui to ignore every thematic thread she has set up #and let Falin live #not even to ship - just let her be happy!!! #let her eat monsters with her equally autistic brother!!! is that too much!!!! #surrounding myself with the bottles of hubris

[soulmvtes]

me when i realise i'm actually so much happier when i stop isolating myself and instead surround myself with people that i love

#2022 was a year of many many breakthroughs for me but this has gotta be one of the top ones #ive spent my life isolating myself when shit hits the fan and being so afraid of people knowing me and i feel so much more comfortable w #being vulnerable and surrounded by loved ones now which is so lovely :) #diary

[mayhemspreadingguy]

“I need a father. I need a mother. I need some older, wiser being to cry to. I talk to God, but the sky is empty.” ― Sylvia Plath

#The Chosen One #anakin #anakin skywalker art #anakin skywalker #anakin skywalker fanart #sw #star wars #star wars art #mayhem art #my thanks to magnusbae for helping me choose the perfect quote to fit with the art <3 #also this time I feel like saying a word or two about what I was going for with this one #lately I find myself gravitating toward the ideas of Anakin in religious context #this one was inspired by statues and stained windows of praying saints and it is the beginning of my religion themed sw art #some other wips are in the owen already so hopefully i will finish baking those someday :) #but more about this one #I wanted to capture the immense burden that was put onto Anakin's shoulders by being labeled as the chosen one by the Jedi #he was made into a symbol representing the hope of the prophecy #he stands surrounded by people. people with expectations. people who lay their hopes in his hands. who gaze upon him. who celebrate him #yet he stands isolated. lost. #deified. pushed towards his own downfall #he's searching for his path. he's searching for guidance #for a shoulder to lean on. to cry on. after the loss he has suffered and for the torments that are yet to come #he's exeptionally strong yet so fragile and vulnerable

[numbuh424]

the lighting of this is kicking my ass so hard rn 🚶

#tw blood #this started as a scene redraw sort of but I got carried away so now it's just inspired by that scene #where light has members of the spk killed in front of near and he's just surrounded by dead members of his team. yeah. #death note #death note near #nate river #fanart #wip #work in progress #elle draws #I don't usually like sharing wips but I do it when I am starting to lose steam #cause now people know it exists and I must hold myself accountable for finishing it #I wanna finish it by my birthday so I have like 5 days to lock tf in #early hbd to me here's a character I love soaking in blood

[gideonisms]

THE number one most irritating thing about life is deciding when you're meant to speak or make eye contact and when you're not, and for how long and how many phrases you're meant to say at a time

#i know i make this post every week. i know this #but it's just constant! #all my other problems are either solvable or no one has ever solved them in the history of humanity you just have to live with them #but this one is soooo omnipresent and it takes up 80% of my brain space at almost all times #and it's not like i can really condition myself out of it because consciously Not thinking about it is the same as thinking about it! #try to think about my surroundings but people are a part of the surroundings! #how i avoided this level of constant decision making as a child is i just didn't speak to people besides my family unless i had to #i've read people's experiences who were like 'you need to decide when to put on your normal face and how to present yourself' #'being able to choose will give you more autonomy' and like! yeah! guess why i'm able to support myself and live an independent life #that doesn't mean making those choices every second of the day is enjoyable!! or really sustainable over decades and decades!! #rhghghgjhhbhhhhghghhhhghh #hisses like a cat going to the vet

[fluent-in-lesbianism]

I did a home visit with a client who had 3 pit bulls locked in the backyard and after I told her her kids had to go to relatives (meth labs in the house are a big no no) she literally opened her back gate to let her dogs out, but I was so focused on my phone calls arranging relative placements and writing up a safety plan that when I saw the dogs coming at me I just went, “hey babies! hey babies! are you good babies? you’re good babies! you’re all very good babies!’ and they all stopped at my feet and let me pet them so I continued doing my work not even realizing she fucking let them out on purpose I guess in the hopes they would maul me to death or whatever, the cops told me what she did after I was packing up to leave 😂 I was like ‘she did WHAT?!?!?’ I was so shocked lmao like wtf???

#thumbs down 👎 to this client in particular #she really risked her dogs’ lives like they were nothing #if I didn’t like dogs #and had run away leading those dogs to chase me #they would’ve been shot and killed by the cops #but also those cops didn’t warn me or try to stop the dogs either so 👀 #nobody had my back there except me myself and my unawareness of my surroundings #this is the 2nd time in 2 weeks someone’s released the hounds on me 😂😂

[chasingthe2000s]

I turn 21 today :)

#bro i feel like i was 15 just yeaterday #i have this fear of wasting my twenties #bc i definitely wasted my teen years #i will do my best to live my life to the fullest #i will draw creepypasta stories #and sew fursuits #and surround myself with loved ones #i got 9 more years lets make em count #shitpost #cottagedragon #art #digitalart #jeffthekiller #I WANT THAT CAKE AURRRRGH

[oddzo]

I’m excited to finally be able to share my drawing of my favorite Camp Camp X Gravity Falls crossover idea! :D

A long string of my thoughts regarding the crossover under the pics, you have been warned lol

It’s crazy to me that despite all the jokes that Harrison looks like a human Bill Cipher there is absolutely no fanart (that I have found) of him interacting with any of the Pines.

Yeah there’s art of him with Bill, but the Pine’s family are the ones that have trauma from him and therefore would have the best reaction.

Just imagine them meeting the one kid that not only looks like someone possessed by Bill but also does real honest to god magic and has an affinity for fire!

With how much shit the Pine’s have dealt with it wouldn’t be a stretch for them that Bill came back as a kid. They’d probably assume Harrison was being possessed or something.

Harrison especially looks like Bipper so I’d imagine he’d be especially unsettling to Dipper and Mabel. (Probably gonna draw him and Mabel interacting next)

Dipper immediately being super suspicious of Harrison and doing that stalking thing he does to try and figure him out. Dipper seeing Harrison make a mistake with his magic that makes him not look great and Dipper just freaking out more.

Mabel being uncomfortable with Harrison but trying her hardest to be nice to him because he hasn’t actually done anything yet. Becoming friends when she realizes that Harrison is just a kid and not anything like Bill personality and morality wise.

Harrison enjoyed coloring in that one episode so she could probably get him to do art with her. They’d have so much fun with him showing her his magic tricks, he’d be so happy someone is genuinely interested. His magic would probably improve with the encouragement she would give him.

Mabel being reminded of Bipper whenever Harrison gets a bit arrogant. The thought goes away pretty quickly though cause he usually gets humbled really quickly and just accepts it lol

Ford also immediately being suspicious of Harrison but not doing anything rash yet until he can test him. Losing his shit the first time Harrison does magic in front of him.

Someone on here posted a mini fic thing where they said Ford almost dropkicked Harrison the first time he does magic and I love that (I’ll look for the post later and tag it here) Edit: here’s the link! https://www.tumblr.com/the-sprog/659871894550577153/i-just-had-an-idea-could-you-imagine-a-crossover

Stan giving Harrison the benefit of the doubt but keeping a close eye on him whenever he interacts with one of the twins. Not outright hostile to him but not exactly kind either.

Stan somehow finding out about how Harrison accidentally made his brother disappear and immediately noticing the similarities to what happened with him and Ford. He probably gains a bit of a soft spot for Harrison after and gives him pointers on random things, probably a few pep talks.

Oh also I know it’s just a difference in the two art styles but CC characters tend to have more yellow sclera and oval pupils/irises and it really doesn’t help Harrison’s case lmao

I can keep going but this post is already really long so I’ll stop for now haha 😅

#camp camp #camp camp harrison #cc harrison #art #camp camp gravity falls crossover #gravity falls #gravity falls crossover #camp camp crossover #dipper pines #bill cipher #you don’t understand how much I need a genuine fic surrounding this idea #I’d do it myself but I don’t like writing much #also scared to mess up characters cause it’s easier to do that in writing #I see so many people mistake Harrison for Bill Cipher it’s so funny #I can and will go on and on about this #need to organize my thoughts first though #camp camp fanart #gravity falls fanart #please other people make content of this I neeed ittt #my art #I swear if I catch any mistakes in my drawing after I post this #holy shit I just remembered the new cc episode comes out today #yippie #i hate drawing backgrounds

[kitofawriter]

Reblog for sample size I guess?

#ninjago #lego ninjago #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #autism #autistic #Lego #ninjago poll #polls #autistic poll #maybe I’ve just surrounded myself with the ND fans #but honestly what neurotypical person watches a show about plastic ninja? #I mean this with every ounce of love in my heart #because honestly this fandom is lovely

[uncanny-tranny]

I've been thinking about modesty from a specifically trans lense lately. I was taught that modesty indicates shame, that modesty means you're simultaneously ashamed of being human and having a human body, but also that you are "purer" because you adhere to a hegemonic idea of modesty. Frankly, I just don't agree with this, and it was very much steeped in the idea of specifically christian ideas of modesty.

Before I transitioned, I felt very unprotective of my body because it never felt like mine to begin with. I didn't really care what happened to it, and while I was modest by other people's standards, I certainly didn't feel it. Once I actually started transitioning (and especially on testosterone), I've found that I'm so much more "modest" because I've become protective of my body. There's this stereotype that trans people start "showing themselves off" after transitioning, but I honestly feel the opposite. I'm possessive over my body and exactly how it acts and appears because I actually like my body, and it finally feels like mine. I'm honestly kind of selfish about it, and I think I've earned the right to be.

I made this post because I think this is an interesting topic, and I think it's interesting the ways in which we internalize the influences that be. It's also a reminder that no matter how you feel about things like modesty, you should adhere to what makes the most sense to you and what you are most comfortable with. There are pressures to be modest in this way or that way, but what truly matters is what you decide with your body and yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #modesty #like i was looking into swim pants to wear under my swim trunks because i don't want people to be able to see my legs for example #like... they're MY legs not yours. get your own legs dammit 😡 (joking) #and i found i have no shame about myself since being more 'modest' because i do it out of self-admiration #and personally i have no ties to the hegemonic christian sense of modesty and what i was taught living in a *heavily* christian area #that's not to say i have an issue with christians and what they feel is modest but it's more specifically the shame surrounding modesty #the idea that being modest indicates that you're a 'better person' than those who sin (wearing short shorts or swearing) #that's not inherent to the religion from what i understand but i don't agree with it personally #and i do not believe that modesty (or lack thereof) is an indication of ANYTHING about a person #it doesn't tell you anything about their personality or their interests or what they think #it only tells you how they feel most comfortable existing or behaving and even then you often won't know the complexities of that comfort #i have an issue with the ideas about modesty but i use the word because it is easily understood and it is the language i have available #if there's a better term or word for sure let me know but i haven't been made aware of it 👍 #ANYWAY. i just think it's interesting #and if you're experiences are different from mine i genuinely respect you for it and platonically love you #and i hope you feel beautiful/gorgeous/handsome/cool and i hope you are comfortable <3