#or since i started really

[folansstuff]

Dungeon Meshi Thoughts

Mostly about Laios tbh (Spoiler-y for Anime watchers btw)

also this is gonna be super personal and rambly so uhhhhhh, yeah!

So during my read through of Dungeon Meshi, I couldn't stop thinking about how much I related to Laios. Initially I chocked it up to being a guy with a particular and intense interest and some kind of mutual undiagnosed Autism, plus the stellar writing and art of Ryoko Kui just making me really vibe with the guy

And then I get fucking hit with this in Chapter 88:

(Also that's not the full panel this manga has INCREDIBLE panel work, like seriously.)

Laios notes more than once that he doesn't get other people, he spent most of his early years with either his sister or with pets and his attempts to go out into the world were met with him feeling out of place with other people, all of which seemed like they got something that he didn't, forcing him to drift from place to place until he became an adventurer. He says he would simply be happier as a monster, or at least surrounded by them. After all, a monster doesn't need to worry about looking like an idiot, or accidentally insulting his friends, or being too into stuff. He sees his sister turn into a half-dragon and while he is worried about her, and he openly says he wishes it was him. And while that's played off for comedy, finding out that, yeah, Laios was alienated and was ostracized and would probably find solace in the idea of not being human anymore makes it all make way more sense.

And sans the "Destroy humanity" stuff, I totally get it! Every character I've ever latched on to, every character I've ever invented (even Atticus to some extent) has had the caveat on not being 100% a person. I've been doing that since I was a kid, imaging characters that are just that little but inhuman.

I have, and frequently do, feel alienated in the ways Laios talks about being in the manga! I have also been in positions where I realize I know nothing about the people I'm meant to be friends with, or that I have been making a fool of myself in front of the ones I do have! That if I simply wasn't a person, then I wouldn't have to feel alienated, or stressed, or lonely, or whatever ever again. There have been plenty of times that I had thoughts exactly like Laios', and there's something really weird about having that instinct reflected back at me.

And Laios doesn't get "better". He never stops being kinda absent-minded, never stops being either too close or too distant, never stops being obsessed with the thing he's obsessed with. (to both tragic and hilarious effect come the ending of the manga) He rejects the idea of becoming a monster, thanks to his friends and the experience of sharing meals with others, but that instinct and mental thing never goes away.

He doesn't stop being weird.

And my point is that it feels weird and kinda nice? To see a character who thinks and feels similarly to me, and not have him be some kind of sociopath. And maybe I'm misinterpreting him, but that's what he means to me, I guess.

Anyway read Dungeon Meshi

#folansstuff rambles #im going to tag this as a #vent post #tho i wouldnt really call it that #is this too much for my blog? #maybe #but i have not stopped thinking about it all day #or since i started really #dungeon meshi #dunmesh #laios touden

[hinamie]

surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

#my art #yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #yoi #fanart #katsuki yuuri #victor nikiforov #victuuri #yoi fanart #this was the secret 4th thing that lost the poll jdsfgsdfjj #id been thinking about doing a tribute since getting that one ask but i didn't anticipate how Into it i would get once i started #the way i flew through this piece .. just over 1 day??? insane #yuri is /that/ ingrained in my muscle memory #I was looking at refs and ?? id forgotten how wild this show was #we just got all of that?? a pole dance a proposal a kiss a pair skate....and it was ALL canon? incredible #AND YEAH UNPROMPTED HISTORY MAKER PLAYS IN MY YT MIX #dean fujioka jumpscare #also looking back at my old yoi pieces was so wild. that ws really 8 years ago huh. #little bit of an ego boost looking at how far ive come #but also im just grateful idk sry 2 b sappy on main #i hope 16 year old me is happy that i did this bc im happy i did this #edit bc i forgot a bunch of white outline i am a fraud

[fungalnebula]

What I love most about Gandalf big naturals is how much it eases my chest dysphoria. I can sleep without a shirt on now because of Gandalf Big Naturals. Knowing that the artist made the original image while recovering from top surgery and said the image was like a final parting gift from their boobs makes me feel even better about the image's effect on me. Men with big naturals makes me feel much more good about my body than those old posts on here that were like "trans men! Some men have pecs!!! So don't feel dysphoric <3". It's much more meaningful to see a hairy, bearded man with a huge H cup rack not letting his tits get in the way of his masculinity.

Most of all, Gandalf Big Naturals helped me love my body the way it is instead of hating something that's a part of me. Of course I still want top surgery but the fact that I can live with my own big naturals until then without wanting to guillotine them off is really important.

#losers lament #gandalf big naturals #I queued a drawing of Gandalf big naturals where he has a hairy chest and that one's my favorite #since I started t I've been growing chest hair and I really like how my cleavage looks with the hair #so when I saw that picture i knew that I would be able to keep the love for hairy big naturals #instead of losing them forever when my own hairy big naturals get removed #and it's like I'm giving them to him #I love the way gender expression has progressed on this webbed sight

[egophiliac]

(almost) four years in, and I finally had time to draw something for the anniversary! woo! 🎉🎉🎉

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #because i need to talk for a minute about how the plot of the anniversary story so far is literally just #crowley jumpscares us in our living room to demand we make him lunch and yuu is just like 'i need to start locking the door' #oh twst you always know just how to get me #the qol updates though! CONVERTING SINGLE KEYS INTO 10-SETS YES THANK YOU OH MY GOD #SKIP LESSON TICKETS!!!! #3X BATTLE SPEED!!!!!!!!!!!! #SAVE TEAM BUILDS AND SUPPORT CARDS FINALLY AHHHHH #oh and some other stuff too but look i NEEDED these things #also master chef grim! he's so precious! #though he's not going to get a little sporty uniform after all? #grim canonically flies in the nude i guess #no it's okay chef grim is ADORABLE #if you zoom in on his card you can see little smoodges from his inexpert cake decoration 😭 #which on the one hand is cute but on the other hand i'd been convinced he'd just slapped some frosting and candles on an actual can of tuna #anyway happy (a few days until the) fourth anniversary everybody! #i've been here since the beginning (preregistered during the dorm reveals babyyyy) and it REALLY doesn't feel like it's been four years #you know what they say: time flies when you're watching anime characters have emotional problems

[kuraijen]

Jump in the cadillac, princess

One more month!

#tears of the kingdom #totk #zelda #legend of zelda #link totk #zelda art #tears of the kingdom spoilers #SO HOW ABOUT THAT TRAILER HUH #man they really just dumped rehydrated ganondorf on us like that #ALSO I KNOW ITS THE WRONG WAY I STARTED THIS AND WAS NOT PAYING ATTENTION #also also for people who care: ik the tulin design isnt accurate the character art hadnt released yet #its been like almost a month since release yall: i made this after the third trailer came out #yunobo is there in spirit ok 😭

[ultravioletness]

gay knights and dames collages part two

#gay knights #knightcore #knight x knight #arthurian legend #medievalcore #john william waterhouse #edmund blair leighton #lesbian dames #pre raphaelite #decidedly less so this time around #uuh what tags did I use last time #the other post really blew up this will be its less successful cousin #although there are some real gems in here not to brag lmao #anyways I was feeling so many knight feelings that I started historical fencing #again I did this on my tiny phone at work so be nice i know they’re wonky #the hardest part is finding head rotations that actually work #also since people mentioned a lack of lady knights nothing is stopping the ones in armor from being lesbians be creative

[diamondsheep]

East Blue Crew ✨ !!!

#today is my 1 year anniversary since i started watching OP 😄❤ !!! #i wanted to draw something special for this occasion !! and since it is almost the release date of OPLA ! #I drew the east blue crew cuz they mean a lot to me💛💚❤💙🧡 #i wanna thank One Piece for being the anime that gave me back my motivation of being an artist when i was really sad #and for becoming my favorite anime ever 💖💖 #THANK U !! u funny funky pirates 👒❤ !! i wanna add that i'm happy that i joined the OP tumblr community cuz everyone is so nice <3 !! #opla #one piece #one piece liveaction #usopp #zoro #roronoa zoro #luffy #monkey d. luffy #monkey d luffy #nami #sanji #black leg sanji #one piece fanart #my drawings #diamondsheep art #one piece live action

[dailyeohkakyoin]

the crusaders do have a healer.

they don't like to talk about it.

#jjba #kakyoin noriaki #kujo jotaro #joseph joestar #muhammad avdol #daily #((bet you thought i abandoned this blog. well jokes on YOU. i havent stopped thinking about it ONCE since i started it.)) #((the guilt is killing me. but not really. anyway this is 100% canon to my blog's continuity and you may quote me on that.)) #((i cannot guarantee regular updates going forward but i am at the very least trying to get back on track!)) #((regardless! hope you enjoy this silly joke. i spent a long time on it and i definitely had more to say about it but i forgot.)) #((peace and love💚))

[alexassanart]

favourite scenes from pacific rim 3 💙

#please don't look at me i spent WAY too much time on these...... #also really hoping i don't accidentally give anyone false hope since tragically pacrim 3 only exists in my head #you can definitely tell which scenes were drawn first lmao #because it started as just a fun exercise before spiraling out of control #anyway. enjoy i guess. don't look too closely #maybe you'll even be able to extract my post-uprising-fic-tropes-greatest-hits plot from these #pacific rim #newton geiszler #hermann gottlieb #newmann #my art #fanart

[the-meme-monarch]

been rewatching hlvrai and drawing along :]

edit i fixed the last one (drew his gun on the wrong arm and it Ate At Me (yes i just flipped the drawing what are you a cop))

#the art gallery #hlvrai #blood #ask to tag #i really wanted the draw the first one just bc in the scene coomer is Standing on gordon’s chest/shoulders lookin down at him #and i thought that was a funny image #also it’s a little bit funny that the last time i drew the science team And Others i drew gordom with pupils #and then immediately dropped it when i started these #fun fact that was bc since i like to make their irises the color of their text #i decided gordon’s should just be the white shine #bc i already draw g-man with white irises and No Doubles #which technically i Should be drawing gman with black irises if I’m doing Text Color=Eye Color but i though the white eyes looked cool #maybe I’ll change that next time i draw him we’ll see

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

Obsessed with their new looks

#the owl house #the owl house fanart #toh #toh fanart #for the future #toh for the future #for the future spoilers #toh spoilers #the owl house spoilers #the owl house for the future #eda the owl lady #eda clawthorne #lilith clawthorne #I haven't drawn them since they leaked the start of season two #people thinking I'm a really fast artist as if I haven't had this queued since the leak like the criminal I am 💀 #cate's scribbles #scribbles

[neveromininart]

⚔ An immortal is dead and you're holding the murder weapon. ⚔

Sunset Phoenix is an action/mystery comic about an immortal kingpin and her criminal spy who were framed for the murder of a rival, and are trying to find the real killer before time runs out and the city succumbs to war.

Also I made it and worked hard on it and I think you should check it out because it's cool :)

#bro I worked on this for MONTHS #sunset phoenix #webtoon #anime #indie anime #animation #indie animation #comic #manga #If you think it's cool I would really TRULY greatly appreciate it if you could share #The series has been in the negative numbers-wise since the start and I've been fighting really hard to get them up #Reviews are really positive #I just hope people see it!

[endermagpieart]

What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]

Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!

@thatsthat24

#sanders sides #janus sanders #ts janus #thomas sanders #sanders sides fanart #my hoard #I’ve returned! #the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it #so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since #it is nice to actually finish something again tho #I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment! #so not much time to really sit down and draw #and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything #I want to get better about posting stuff on here #(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot) #even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish #I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again #I forgot how nice it is #anyways if you’ve read this far thanks #have a cookie :] 🍪

[latenightsundayblues]

How bout that hoffman? How about THEM apples?

#spent so much time making this lmfao #its really messy bc its been years since my last flipaclip animation pls be nice to me or i WILL cry #picked this audio over “OCD? you mean obesity” #moooooooooooom the girlfail and the manwhore are fighting again #saw #saw hoffman #saw amanda #amanda young #mark hoffman #saw fanart #saw franchise #really shouldve looked up references of cars before starting on it #latenightsundayblues art tag

[bbq-potato-chip]

get loved idiot

#my art #saiki k #tdlosk #saiki no psi nan #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki kusou #saiki kusou no psi nan #its been exactly one year since i've started saikiposting... i'm feeling sentimental lol #anyway i feel really proud of how this turned out #1k

[dreamsy990]

you know i used to think it was weird how sora and roxas have such different personalities for supposedly being 'the same person' but after playing a few games i sort of realized that they do have similar personalities, because roxas acts how sora does when he's under extreme stress.

compare roxas to sora in, say, kh1. that's where a lot of peoples idea of sora's personality comes from. sora is generally very upbeat and optimistic in that game. not very similar to roxas, right?

but let's switch the game and talk about a game where sora is ABSOLUTELY GOING THROUGH IT. chain of memories.

sora's resting state is melancholy in com. he only ever cheers up in short bursts, usually when he's joking around with friends. just like roxas.

he's quick to anger, and tends to lash out at the organization members. best example of this is when larxene makes him 'remember' namine, and he swings at her repeatedly, even after she's gone. he only stops when jiminy is able to snap him out of it.

you know what scene that resembles?

sora, while a bit more on the angry side and less sad, continues to act like this in kh2 when he's in stressful situations. (he also has a tendancy to insult people which, while it's not very related to the point, is very funny and sora saying 'gonna cry?' to xigbar is great.) i cant comment any further than that about kh2 off the top of my head.

so, roxas acts like sora does when he's stressed, right? but why is roxas always acting like that? to which i say, he isnt!

he only ever acts like that when he's also in fucked up and stressful situations, which happens to be a CONSTANT in his life. but when he's hanging out with axel and xion, a decidedly NOT stressful situation, he's a lot more like sora. he's teasing his friends and insulting his coworkers and joking around and acting like a normal kid. not really important, but unless i misremembered some sora lines which is VERY possible, both roxas and sora respond to friendly insults with "oh thanks!" a lot. just a funny little detail that felt relevant.

the biggest differences between roxas and sora boil down to environment and... i dont know how to put it besides volume? roxas is very quiet and tends to keep most of his thoughts to himself, while sora is very loud and expressive in comparison.

there is one other huge difference i noticed, which is less character based and more story. sora wanted to get off destiny islands and explore with his friends, but roxas just wanted routine. sora wants adventure, and roxas wants things to stay the same, for days where he gets off work and eats ice cream with his friends to last forever, to keep having conversations about nothing and watching the sunset. roxas wants normalcy, sora wants excitement. it's just interesting seeing their contrast.

not sure if this is very well said or anything i just wanted to talk about my boys

#random thoughts #its been a while since i got to use that tag eheheh #i bet theres a few people following me who didnt even know i did analysis posts #the fact that sora and roxas grew up in very different environments is pretty important btw #roxas was already a bit quiet and being in a cult where any expression of emotion is immediately shut down probably didnt help #we'll probably never get a good idea of how roxas would be if he was in a normal situation #id say some of the twilight town stuff might be a close estimate but even that doesnt really fit considering all the shit going down #even from the very start hes being accused of theft hes Not doing the best #anyways. sora and roxas are different obviously #but theyre a lot more similar than people really talk about #kingdom hearts #roxas #sora #not rereading this so it might be a little weird and hard to read sorry