I refer to my wigs as the character they're for so I just had a very serious conversation with Aloe's cat telling her to leave Nico alone
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a smol sibling.,
w/ xiao, kaeya, & venti
â ⢠request from anon : being the trioâs younger sibling! (separately)
xiao p1 || kaeya p1 || gn ! sibling ! reader || headcanon format ||Â 1.5k words
; masterlist.,
; a / n - iâve done xiao and kaeya before, but i had some more ideas so iâm making some more! links above if youâd like to read the others <3
xiao .,
⢠the other hcs i made for him where general, but here anon specified a younger sibling, so iâll do that!
⢠heâs that sibling whoâll pretend ur the most annoying thing on the planet but would do anything for u so much as you ask
â˘Â âxiao when u come back could i have some glaze liliesâ âget them yourself im the vigilant yaksha not a flower pickerđâ mhm then why did u literally wipe out qingce villageâs flower population hm xiao đ¤¨
⢠teaches u how to fight!! but heâs not teaching heâs âhelping you discover things yourself so you can be a functional personâ
⢠it takes way too much effort to get this man to admit he loves you but you know it as much as he does so itâs okay <3
⢠cloud retainer has so much dirt on him itâs crazy. if you ever need some blackmail material head over to hers. also you can find some embarassing pictures sheâs got a heckton
⢠verr goldet takes care of u a lot too, xiaoâs a great brother and all but he lacks in this department called self care
â˘Â idk if youâre mortal or adeptus or half adeptus but if you need to eat and do basic body functions he does not got u covered
⢠mans would try to raise u on almond tofu until verr goldet bought out a food pyramid and explained about these things called nutrientsÂ
⢠he also doesnât understand how important sleep is so,,, âxiao iâm gonna stay upâ âyeah sure whateverâ passing out two days later ây/N WHATâS WRONG-â
⢠yeah verr goldet and the innkeeper guy give him a guide to basic survival talk and all through it heâs glaring at you like why did you never tell me you needed human things to live >:(Â
⢠now that he knows you need sleep, he makes u sleep at 8 pm every night like a grandpa!! good luck trying to get him to stop!!
⢠are these getting too guardian-like and less sibling-like??? đ but thatâs the vibes he gives yk!! ur over protective adeptus parent-brother who has no clue how u work but wants to try to understand a little
⢠in the game u can tell how much more open he gets wit the traveller as friendship levels progress, and if youâve maxed it out heâd basically do anything for you and would want you to trouble him than yourself
⢠and heâll probably be closer with you than heâll ever be with traveller since youâre siblings and whatnot, so it would make sense that he looks out for you more than your typical older brother yk
⢠plays the flute for you!! if he hears u humming a tune under your breath heâll find it and learn it to play for uÂ
⢠he may not fully understand how relationships work but heâs trying his best for u <3
 kaeya .,
â˘Â my other kaeya hcs were in relation to you being close / living with diluc, but these will be more general and central towards kaeya!
⢠kaeya fits literally every older brother trope that exists. the brother whoâs always got ur back? you got it. the brother who keeps secrets you donât know about from you? heck yeah. the annoying brother who makes u do his chores for him? maybe a little too much.
⢠pls he (lovingly) shoves all of his small tasks onto u itâs infuriating but you canât even say no bc then he gets all dramaticÂ
⢠ây/n đŠ youâre abandonning your dear brother like this đŠ how could you đŠ i didnât know you were so cruel đŠâ sir shut up <3
⢠since heâs a people person everyone knows u very well too, heck all the senior citizens probably voted u as second best in law after him or smth idk manÂ
⢠hanging out with best boy bennett!! he canonically sees kaeya as an older brother too so yâall def go on little adventures together <3
⢠ur one of the only people who have ever looked under his eyepatch, diluc and crepus being the only other two
⢠sometimes he forgets to take it off when he goes to bed and it leaves a bruise bc itâs pretty tight, so he letâs you change it for himÂ
â˘Â âi can do this myself, you knowâ well he can but you both know he likes it better when youâre there
⢠does not allow your closet to be anything less than exquisite, youâve got a bunch of scarfs like his whether you like it for not
⢠makes u buy his wine from diluc for him bc every time he goes to the tavern diluc raises the price tenfold just for him
⢠heâs that sibling who will rile you up on purpose just for the fun of it. i have a cousin who used to do that when he was younger and it was annoying but he still adores me sm so i donât mind <3
⢠besides even if he does get on ur nerves amberâs got ur back- you can rant to her about him for hours on end and sheâll add with her experiences with kaeyaâs bullying
⢠what are siblings if not for sibling rivalry, yes he picks on u constantly but he also picks u up when youâre feeling low <3
venti .,
⢠oh my gods he would be sO FUN
⢠the two of you are the bane of dilucâs existence, venti loops u into his winery pilfering plans a lotÂ
⢠venti pulls the archon card if the two of you get caught by him idk what excuse youâve got but it better be good đ
⢠no way the god of wind and songâs sibling doesnât love music- even if youâre tone deaf, or hard of hearing, music is about the pleasure it brings and heâll bring it to you
⢠you guys go wind gliding a lot of the time too!! yâall donât even need gliders youâve got the power of anemo đ
⢠heâs that cool brother whoâs only rule is that you do whatever you want to do, life is too short for regrets so live in the moment and be spontaneous!
⢠even though heâs older he seems much younger than you at heart đ will wine if you donât do something for him itâs hilarious
⢠youâve got other things to do and heâs just âbut hanging out!!!â and ur like âbut work!!!âÂ
⢠itâs very hard to be productive with him around, he will distract u with something as mundane as an apple- itâs not his fault tho bb just has a poor attention span đÂ
⢠heâs very clingy, if youâre together heâll link your elbows like everyone did in sixth grade, and in turn u can kick him in the kneecaps when he does stupid things
⢠heâs the ceo of stupid things so u get to kick him a lot, itâs a mutal symbiotic relationship we love to see it <33
⢠my brain is dead and i canât english rn but. his vibes yk heâs so fun to be around, he gives out surprisingly killer advice too
⢠i have this manâs teapot lines plastered on my wall bc they help me deal with stuff, so if youâre ever down you can always, always, always go to him and heâll have the exact things to say
⢠if itâs words, he has them, if itâs silence you need heâll lend you his shoulder; but there was never an instance he doesnât leave you better than before
⢠you havenât seen his archon side a lot, since he doesnât show it all that much, but itâs so far from venti itâs a little scary; but in a sort of admiring way yk
⢠you guys visit zhongli sometimes, and itâs a free real estate for blackmail material bc of how terrified venti is of him
⢠zhongli is like that long lost uncle who visits once a year, and youâre his favorite child so he gives you candy and picks on venti for not taking good enough care of you
â˘Â âiâm their sibling not their parentâ âyouâre older have some responsibility >:(â
⢠if you ever get drunk he will hear about it and will come all the way from liyue to i will have order ventiâs head, regardless of whether he was the cause of you being drunk or not
⢠that about wraps it up! im sure i could think of more but my brain is sorta dead rn so this will have to suffice đ i canât think of a closing statement sO i hope u enjoyed!! bye bye!! <3
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So...what kind of horror movie would you write featuring the Hargrove/ Mayfield family? (That you haven't written already lol)
oh boy, u may regret asking me this bc i am indecisive af and i canât pick just one!
two that i'm actually writing are max as (g is for) ghostface killer in the abcs of neilâs death and also the max + tory nichols werewolf movie fic outlined here. also some more misc gorror junk bc iâm a demon and esp horny for susan wearing blood splatter. but more ideas commence below:
horror movie #1: another creature feature! awhile back @lucdarling sent me an ask abt max + billy hiding smth from susan and her like, playing along, pretending she doesn't know, and one of the scenarios that popped in my head was them keeping a baby bat as a pet. max finds it and sheâs only like six or seven, and she thinks itâs going to turn into a vampire. so here is that scenario except horror edition: baby bat is actually a vampire type creature. not rly a vampire like, whatâs prolly popping into ur head, like an undead human like dracula or smth, but like a bat monster that sucks blood.
billy being a lil older doesnât actually think the bat is going to turn into a vampire. he makes fun of max for believing this, but he helps her take care of it anyway bc he thinks itâs cool. susan, like in the non-horror version, knows abt the bat but plays dumb bc sheâs feeling a lot of guilt abt maxâs difficulty adjusting to the blended fam (as of rn tho, neil has yet to reveal his abusive nature. the red flags are not yet red, more of a brownish maroon, and he is on his best behavior almost all the time, showering susan + max with affection and keeping the swears out of his mouth when he scolds billy in front of them) and knows the lil furry baby makes her happy. she tacitly cleans up after the bat whenever the kids miss a spot (bats poop a lot, dude) and distracts neil, deterring him from discovering it whenever he gets close.
baby bat gets rly big rly fast. and the older it gets, the more it starts to look monstrous. it still has bat features but itâs just like, different. its fangs grow suspiciously long, its hooks grow suspiciously long. its feet are elongated. a dorsal ridge emerges from its spine, spikes at first just flesh but soft fur rather like peach fuzz eventually sprouting. billy catches on that smth is strange abt this animal when it's as long as his forearm after two wks and still growing. he nearly shits a brick when the bat is clinging to his sweater one day and he steps in front of a mirror and only his reflection looks back at himâ no bat.
max laughs at him all like, âstupid brother, ofc thereâs no reflection. nosferatu is a vampire, vampires donât have reflections.â đ
susan catches a glimpse of the thing when nosferatu crawls out of the home max built it in her closet the same wk billy realizes it doesnât have a reflection, and also almost shits a brick. she doesnât know what it is, but itâs NOT a fucking bat. not a normal one, anyway! cue a comedy scene where sheâs chasing it around the house with a butterfly net and itâs always one flap *ba dum tss* ahead of her, flying just out of reach. she suddenly regrets not getting rid of it sooner, scolding herself for ever allowing her daughter to keep a wild animal.
she canât catch it. max comes home, susan tells her she needs to get rid of it. max cries, flips her the bird, refuses. billy thoâŚbilly has mixed feelings. he loves nosferatu but heâs worried itâs going to get dangerous. he loves his dad and his dad is dangerous too. heâs stressed out enough, always on edge, knowing that one way or the other, neil is going to hurt him again. heâs already waiting for his dad to hurt him, he doesnât need the added stress of waiting for nosferatu to hurt him too. and while max is 100% nosferatuâs favorite, it likes billy too. billyâs been handling it since it could fit in the palm of his hand, it trusts him much more than it trusts susan and doesnât know any different when billy takes it out of the closet when max isnât around.
billy frees nosferatu at an abandoned farm. there are always bats flying out of the old silo adjacent to the dilapidated barn. while he knows nosferatu isnât a *normal* bat, itâs still bat like enough that he thinks it might make friends and be happy hereâŚ
yeah, that doesnât stick. before long, nosferatu is feasting on that colony. leeches the blood out of a couple bats nightly. the number of bats increases with nosferatuâs size. meanwhile, max mourns her missing friend. sheâs sullen af and wonât speak to susan at all. she thinks susan is the one who got rid of nosferatu. billy never fesses up and susan doesnât contradict maxâs assumption bc she wants the step-siblings to get along.
neil, meanwhile, is getting more comfortable. those maroon flags are slowly but surely brightening to scarlet. he starts sabotaging susanâs plans with her friends, trying to keep her around the house more and more, quietly but steadily eroding her relationships with other people. heâs getting more visibly aggressive when he disciplines billy. he curses him out with a virulent venom that dunks susanâs stomach in ice water and scares max so badly, she runs to susan and hides behind her even though sheâs still so mad that susan got rid of her beloved baby vampire.
nosferatuâs appetite surpasses what the bat colony can offer. itâs like the size of a ten yr old human child now. fuckerâs big. it doesnât just have fangs on top, but tusks on bottom. it canât go out in the sunlight anymore, the sun sears its flesh. it misses max a lot and before, it wasnât strong enough to fly back to her house. but now it is. itâs extremely strong, actually.
so bc it's hungry, nosferatu grabs a snack along the way. some nameless rando, it swoops down and sucks dry. nourished and much happier, nosferatu makes its way back home. patiently waits outside of maxâs bedroom in the moonlight, tapping its hook against the window until she wakes up. initially max is a lil startledâ nosferatu looks so different, thereâs a beat before she recognizes itâ him?? yk, ig itâs male, the og nosferatu was a guy. sure, why not, nosferatu is a boy now.
once she realizes who it is, she is so! happy! max opens the window and embraces her friend. she isnât freaked out by the blood on its fangs. sheâs always known nosferatu is a vampire, albeit, she was thinking heâd look more like dracula than this bat-monster-thingy.
nosferatu moves back into maxâs closet. it hangs upside-down from her rod by its weird, elongated feet. we get more shots of nosferatu sucking rando ppl dry at night, tho he remains gentle with max. when max drags billy in to show her he came back, nosferatu is less friendly with him. heâs not aggressive with billy, but he is standoffish. nosferatuâs thought process is somewhere between human and animal. he doesnât quite cognitively understand that billy took him to the farm with the intent of getting rid of him, but he does understand that the last time he clung to billy, billy left him alone and never came back. max puts two and two together, and realizes it was billy who âstoleâ her friend. she yells at him a lot, he yells back, she then ices him out.
billy acts out bc heâs upset. runs away, thinks heâs going to find his momâŚthe cops find him first and call neil. neil is rly embarrassed and pissed abt the whole thing. he breaks down and beats billy in front of the mayfields for the first time. nosferatu smells the blood and itâs time for the main event! we love dead!neil, yes, we do.
nosferatu flies out the closet and right into the living room where billyâs bleeding and teary but biting his lip so they donât actually fall. susanâs covering maxâs eyes but so shocked and tbh, FRIGHTENED, she doesnât move a muscle beyond that. neilâs got the belt raised, preparing to bring it down again, and nosferatu smashes right into him. neil stumbles, turns back to see this freaky monster looking thing. proceeds to whip the belt at nosferatu. tries to fight him off with the belt and it doesnât accomplish much beyond pissing him off moreâ nosferatu, like most classic vampire types, has a healing factor!
max rips her momâs hands off her face in time to see her pet sink its fangs into her stepdadâs throat. nosferatu sucks neil dry. billyâs a little dazed, not quite frightened. susan is just dead ass frozen, too scared to scream, even. nosferatu crawls over to billy and nudges at him, making sure heâs in once piece and forgiving him in the same go. max darts over and that snaps susan out of her stupor, but she isnât as fast as our blood-sucking bat monster.
nosferatu stretches his wings out and with a truly impressive wingspan, hugs both of the kids. <3
horror movie #2: a haunting! this one opens with a bang. itâs a tragic horror, beware. weâre in hawkins post s3. billy died at starcourt mall. neilâs obvi had a longstanding abusive mindset and abusive behavior, but he rly takes his grief out on susan and max. mostly susan. she does her best to protect max however she can, whether that means shielding her w her body, sending her out of the house, getting neilâs goat to inspire his ire in maxâs place, etc. but sue simply isnât around all the time and when she isnât, but max is, well. yk.
one day neil comes home early (bc he lost his job for a violent outburst, tbh) and discovers susan packing a suitcase.
sue fights hard. she rly does. but neil is bigger, heavier, crueler, and to boot, he caught her completely unawares. he kills her. and no, no itâs not some accidental thing where neil makes one bad move rage-blind. he strangles her with his belt. sheâs clawing at his arms and making these horrible choked, trapped animal noises. thrashes and twists her body with everything she has trying to get him off but heâs so strong, his grip is unrelenting, and she's growing weaker, lightheaded with the lack of oxygen. strangulation can induce incontinence and when susan blacks out, her piss streams to the hardwoodâ neil hears that as much as he felt the clawing and heard the noises, even now he could stop, but he doesnât. he just. doesnât think his wife has the right to leave him, esp not after his son just did.
neil burns the body and the suitcase in the woods while max is at school. max has been spending as much time as she can (and often with sueâs prompting) outside of the house, so it actually takes her about two days to realize her mother isnât around. neil tells a pretty convincing story about how susan abandoned them, voice saturated with apology and sorrow. he takes her out for a fancy dinner and promises heâs going to be a better father-- that being a better father is the least he can do now that her mother abandoned her and they are alone in their grief.
max doesnât know what to think. sheâs been preoccupied with her own grief and pain. she finds it hard to believe her mother would just leave her to neilâs wrath. she has a lot of hangups with susan and anger toward her for marrying neil and not getting them out sooner, but sheâs also old enough to realize there would be risks involved with that. itâs hard to reconcile the memory of her mother just last wk pinning max to the wall to protect her from neilâs blows with her own bod just abruptly taking off without a word in the middle of the night. but hey, maybe thatâs why susan left. maybe she got sick of protecting her, maybe the pain got to be too much and she turned tail.
but alsoâŚitâs early october now, abt three months after billyâs death but still fairly warm outside. yet neil is wearing long sleeves. neil never used to button his collared shirts all the way up, and yet. every collar is buttoned. also, momâs car is still here. why would mom leave without her car?
that ceramic pelican she loved so much is still here too, on the mantle in the living room. it doesnât seem like the kind of thing she would leave behind, she's had it since max was a baby.
max almost wants to believe neil because sheâd rather her mother abandoned her than be dead somewhere, rotting in a storage locker or a hole in the ground. under the earth with the worms, just like billy. max has the worst feeling low in the pit of her gut. she thinks she knows the truth. she thinks abt going to hopper and hesitates bc sheâs not sure she could handle it if he actually found smth. or what would happen to her if he did, where she would be sent, who she would end up with.
this movie would be more on the ambiguous end of things. an arthouse horror, if u will.
the days turn into wks and neil is crawling in his skin. the viewer isnât sure if the shadows heâs seeing, always, always susan-shaped shadows, are of a ghostly nature or if heâs just hallucinating out of guilt. but the signs gradually point to the formerâ that smth paranormal is indeed going on. bc those scratches and bite marks susan left in his skin?
they do not heal. they do not get infected. they do not become necrotic. but they do not heal, either. days turn into wks and the wounds still look fresh, like she just left them moments ago. neil canât wear light colors anymore because his wounds weep red into the fabric. he isnât just seeing susanâs shadows either, heâs smelling her.
he washes his sheets and pillowcases a dozen times and the scent of her shampoo, her lotion, itâs like itâs woven into the fibers. he walks into the hallway and chokes on the aroma of susanâs perfume. he wonders if max is screwing with him, if max figured it out and sheâs trying to torture him into a confession. one day he stomps off to max's bedroom, furious, adamant on confronting her. he grabs her doorknob, prepared to yank it open and then lets out a yelp, jerking his hand back with a sudden sharp pain.
it feels like a bee sting (which would be esp bad for this fucker in anything i write, bc i headcanon him as being allergic). but thereâs no stinger. no injury. nothing. neil is freaked out enough that he backs down.
max, on the other hand, is getting gentler signs. when she turns the radio dial in the camaro, itâs somehow always her momâs favorite songs that come thru the speakers. when she goes to pull clothes out of her drawers in the morning, she discovers that the things sheâd just shoved inside in wrinkled balls are perfectly folded, neat as a pin, exactly like how susan always folded. susan was always fond of cardinals and suddenly max is seeing cardinals, pretty red cardinals, in just abt erry tree and shrub.
neil wakes up one night to his wifeâs voice whispering âbooâ right in his ear. he throws the covers off and discovers ashes in the bed. he doesnât smell susanâs shampoo or lotion anymore, he smells the kerosine heâd poured all over her body.
his wounds still wonât heal. whenever he looks in the mirror, he catches a glimpse of susan walking past behind him, peering at him from her peripheral. he whips around, heart hammering, but thereâs never any tangible person there.
max is almost certain her mother is dead at this point. neilâs been so bizarrely nice to her lately. she never believed in ghosts but her experiences with the upside-down broadened her perception of reality. she doesnât know how else to explain the songs, the cardinals, the folded clothes. the way that these days, whenever she does feel fear toward neil, it just fades away. her fear melts like popsicles in the sun, immediately replaced by the sensation of a warm, maternal hug, as if arms she canât see are trying to reassure her she truly doesnât need to be afraid of him anymore.
in fact, max feels so unafraid of neil and brave, that one night she calls him out on it. heâs grizzled and unshaven in his recliner, beer in hand. she steps in front of the television heâs vacantly fixated on and folds her arms across her chest.
âyou killed my mom, didnât you?â
quick as a flash, neil leaps to his feet. he brings his arm back like heâs going to strike her and susanâs ceramic pelican on the mantle explodes into shards. the lights flicker, the television program cuts to snow with a static roar. every other knickknack on the mantle rattles and framed photos tumble off the wall.
neil very wisely lowers his hand. he slumps, boneless. he doesnât say a word. max sees the answer in his eyes. itâs the dead of night and she snatches the camaro keys off the hook, marching out of the house, slamming the door behind her. itâs the dead of night and she doesnât care. sheâs going to blow past every stop sign and pound on the chiefâs door until he opens up. and fuck, i just realized if this is post s3 heâs supposed to be in russia. shit. i donât watch this show, but i know abt russia bc i DID watch the clips of that demogorgon that i rly hope isnât stuck in captivity!! okay, but letâs pretend that didnât happen?
itâs an au?? i mean, errything i write is always technically an au anyway, bc when i write stuff susan has an actual personality and billy isnât *completely* abhorrent. okay, so itâs an au and mr. hopper didnât blow up and un-blow up in russia. heâs still here. so max drives to his house.
she pounds on the door so hard this guy snaps outta bed, thinking someoneâs trying to bust it down. she tells him neil confessed to killing her mom. it isnât true, exactly, but he didnât have to. so itâs a helluva grim drive back to cherry lane, this time in the cop car.
but when they go inside, chief prepared to arrest neil, no need. neilâs hanging from the belt he strangled susan with, shirtless for the first time since that night, erry seemingly fresh furrow and bite mark on full display. below his dangling feet is a map, the area he burned susanâs corpse in circled in red marker. did he kill himself or did the ghost do it?
up to u, we soundlessly cut to credits without a concrete answer to that question.
horror movie #3: crossover special! stranger things meets the chilling adventures of sabrina. sequel to that fic i wrote where susan makes out with lilith, queen of hell, and lilith kills neil for her. sue officially joins the church of lilith. bc in this âverse the church of lilith actually happens after caos s2 instead of the nonsense that was s3 and the inconceivably godawful migraine-inducing shit-fest that was s4.
killing neil was lilithâs only freebee. susan isnât a witch, sheâs a mortal, so in order to reap the other rewards of worshipping the one and only mother of demons, she has to fornicate with the witches and participate in the sacrifices!!!
this is, uh, well. itâs p much a porno, dude, sorry. đ
this is just an excuse for susan to have sex with lilith, zelda, marie, hilda, big witch orgies + susan. witches bathing in the blood of their sacrifices, susan so nervous and timid but unable to deny her desire. the witchâs dressing her in their gothic garb.
how does the rest of the fam get it on this?
max joins the church too. she has more age-appropriate conduct with sabrina and the weird sisters, and what have you. just smooches and over-the-clothes groping, and whatnot, even tho the weird sisters, at least, would be interested in going further if given the opportunity.
billy dies in starcourt again, so he gets revived in the cain pit! hilda is the one who goes to him after bc sheâs been in the cain pit many a time (i am still BIG side-eyeing zelda for repeatedly murdering her sister since childhood). hilda understands how jarring it can be to come back. suddenly alive!billy is freaking tf out but she brings him inside the mortuary, wraps him up in a big blanket burrito and they have a talk. hilda explains that heâs going to be okay and rubs his back while he tentatively sips the hot chocolate she made.
after billyâs calmed down, she brings max and susan in. max and susan canât do as much magic as the caos witchesâ theyâre mortals, after all, itâs not in their nature âbut theyâve gained some abilities thru being in the church, following the rituals, and being carnally involved with the immortal witches. max happily shows him some of her new magic tricks.
horror movie #4: another crossover with caos. heavily inspired by creepshow episode s2e1, model kid (which i already v blatantly referenced in the last axe snafu update and iâm not ashamed, bc itâs a good series i love v much).
billy picks max up from the byersâ place rly late one night. itâs dark and the weather is bad and okay, yeh, he might be a little high. and a little concussed. he pissed neil off pretty bad the other day and okay, actually heâs defo concussed bc he doesnât even remember what he did wrong!
needless to say, they take a wrong turn somewhere. they end up in greendale. at first max is pissed. she yells at him a lot! yells so loud hilda can hear them thru the walls of dr. cerberusâs comic shop/diner. she goes outside to see what all the fuss is abt, hilda never rly ignores youth in need. we love hilda, she deserved so much betterâŚiâm getting distracted, okay, back to the story.
hilda ushers them inside. max is like, âooh, comics? horror junk and comics? nvm, iâm not mad anymore.â she pats billyâs arm and wanders away to go check stuff out! hilda makes billy sit down. caos canon established that sheâs psychic, at least when she wants to be. she smells the weed but she also sees his life, his trauma. billy doesnât remember what he did to piss neil off or the abuse that followed, but hilda sees it clear as day.
heâs rude and cranky w her when she probes a little too much for his liking. hilda gently but firmly reprimands him and gets him a milkshake on this house. then she goes to check on max. she steers max to a v particular section of the shop, the one that sells model kits. now, max isnât *huge* into model kits BUT they are p neat and she enjoys them well enough. more so when the weather is nasty and she canât go outside. or when she needs smth to do with her hands (a trait she shares w susan) to distract herself and ease some of the anxiety when she hears her brother being beaten or her mother being shouted at.
max is actually rly impressed by the array of models. vintage ones and newer ones. monsters, slashers, final girls, tiny accessories like knives and bloodied heads. but when she gets to the paint-your-own shelf, her jaw drops to the floor.
thereâs one that looks just like neil. unpainted, plain gray vinyl, but undoubtedly her stepdad. the expression on the five inch figurine is one frozen in fear.
âi think that oneâs calling to you,â hilda prompts her, with the softest smile.
max blinks away her bewilderment altho she still canât speak. she turns to hilda and turns her empty pockets inside out. hilda just waves her hand. she tells her itâs on the house. that it wouldnât be fair if she gave billy smth on the house, but not max.
speaking of billy, when he finishes his milkshake, heâs suddenly totally sober and healed!! no more high buzzing in his blood. no more pounding headache or concussion fogging his mind. he doesnât feel his bruises anymore, rolls his sleeve up, and realizes they simply arenât there anymore. like they dissolved off his skin.
albeit itâs muttered under his breath, but billy does thank hilda. then he and max are on their way. max shows him the suspiciously familiar figurine in the box. this night cannot get weirder.
max knows what to do with the model kit. she does. she isnât sure how she knows, but she does. she grapples with it for a long time. neilâs the closest thing she has to a dad these days. and things arenât bad all the time, ofc.
sometimes neil gives max a ride when mom and billy arenât available. sometimes he brings her ice cream entirely unprompted. neilâs the one who picks max up off the sidewalk when she wipes out super bad on her skateboard, carries her inside and then later to the car when her cut doesnât stop bleeding and she ends up needing stitches.
but most of the time he sucks. she canât rly be herself around him. he's indifferent to her interest at best, scornful at worst. he would hate all her friends. he scares the shit out of her when heâs angry. he doesnât have a problem belittling her mother in front of her, tearing susan to shreds and making her out like sheâs lower than dirt, the most worthless person on the planet. doesnât have a problem beating billy in front of her or glaring at her with the promise that sheâll be next if she dares to voice her dissent.
max doesnât always want to do what she knows sheâs meant to do with the model. bc she's kind at heart and bc on the good days, she genuinely does have mixed feelings toward neil. never enough to hope he'll be better, he's proven he won't...but maybe enough to hope he won't get worse, either.
then comes the night neil breaks ribs. bad, like weâre talking, a-sharp-spear-of-broken-rib-punctures-billyâs-lung-and-heâs-coughing-up-blood-bad. thatâs a trip to the emergency room. in the days that follow, at her next dnd meeting w the party, max places the fully and attentively painted model of her stepdad on the table. normally her pals would protest her derailing the intended game, but they can sense it, yk, that smth is different.
max takes over as dungeon master to the protest of no one, all other mouths sealed as if bewitched and spellbound. she narrators a scene where the demogorgon devours neil and uses the demogorgon piece and the model for demonstration.
when max returns home, neil is strewn across the house in gory chunks and torn wallpaper curls around massive claw marks.
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Remember the Rain
praying this is the final part of âSunrise, Sunsetâ by the time iâm done omg ,, lamar finally talks it out with frank. i was tryna keep the titles consistent with a sky theme? wasnât sure what to name this one at first, but i settled on naming it after a i song that i felt was sorta fitting lol ,, also lamarâs dramatic when drunk, thatâs jus how itâs gonna be
oh and i included one last convo w/ that psychic lady bc each character got three opportunities to speak to her lol
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The night Franklin and him fought was the third night in a row Lamar couldnât sleep right. Then it became four. Then five. Six. He had hoped after the first couple days of Franklin being mad, that itâd all blow over and things would go back to normal. That he wouldnât ever have to say anything about what he felt deep down. Even though he told himself he had to, he wouldnât. He waited it out, and still hoped it would all just fucking blow over. That wasnât what happened of course.
An overcast sky was spread over LS, light rain tapping against Lamarâs window. As cheesy as it was, it reflected how he felt. Another day had passed. Franklin wasnât picking up, not even reading his texts, nothing. He called a couple times at first when the fourth day of the silent treatment occurred, then tried a few more times to contact him in the following days. It had grown into a long and sad string of texts.
franklin.
dog
plz
pick up
answer me
plz?
câmon frank i told you i have nothin goin on with yo auntie
i wanna talk things out with you.
u ainât let me finish explaining
text me when u read this. plz bro
He sighed. This was hopeless. He set his phone aside, still laying awake. A buzz came right after. Fucking finally, something.
fuck you
we got nothin to discuss
He didnât know how to feel. This was fucking him up and he couldnât think straight. He tried calling him once more, the ringing as he waited for a pick up mocking him. Voicemail yet again. How many messages had he tried leaving at this point?
for fucks sake frank pick up
u ainât doin this to me rn
jus let me explain myself
He stared at the ceiling yet again, like it would have all the answers sprawled out for him. As he did, he focused on how the rain had picked up, coming down harder. Then he felt his phone buzz.
no
now stop blowing my phone up
iâm tryna sleep
Lamar was never one to be sensitive, but he felt so crushed right now that all he could do was cry silently to himself. He didnât even have Chop around anymore to comfort him like he normally would whenever Lamar was going through something. Would he even see him again? He lived over at Frankâs now. Fuck. Did this mean theyâd have to share custody now? If he wasnât so upset, he most likely wouldâve laughed at the idea of it. He was letting bad thoughts consume him, turning to a last minute resort of drinking to try stopping it. This kind of thing rarely happened to him, these kind of feelings werenât common. He knew no other method of trying to stuff bad feelings down, working through a 6 pack of beer on his own, followed by a bottle of some type of random liquor. Anything to stifle the pain in his chest, although it didnât accomplish much other than making him feel even more queasy. He left one last voicemail, choking back a sob. Or what he had thought would be the last one. He lost count.
âFranklin. Please jusâ talk to me already man. You- you believinâ what you wanna believe right now, you ainât even givinâ me a chance. You my best fuckinâ friend, donât that mean shit to you anymore? We.. homies n shit.â He sniffled, cringing to himself when he said the words âbest friendâ. Franklin was so much more than that to him.
âIon⌠Ion think I can live without you in my life. You canât hate me man that shit.. thatâs fucked. This is fucked. Iâm fucked.â
A strong feeling of humiliation hung around him for many reasons, one being that he was fully crying now, over the phone. He couldnât get any lower.
âYou jusâ mad right now. But you.. you wonât be, eventually. Right? Please get back to me soon. Please. Iâd rather fuckinâ.. die or sumâ than have you hatinâ me n shit. At this point I might as well.â
After hanging up, he decided to visit that site one last time. His tears blurred his vision, making it harder to type. The shit in his system didnât help either.
lady
i fuckef up
thsi is yo faukt
What now? Why are you back?
frankljn hates me
He does? Thatâs not right.
damn straighy it fuckign isnt
No, I mean thatâs not correct.
Thereâs no way that he could, even if it seems like it right now.
jus fuckin tell me whst to do
Thatâs out of my hands.
is not u fuckin wirch
*withc
*witch
Look, I really donât know how else to help you. I donât have any other visions to offer. Youâre on your own.
They do say though, that dreams are visions themselves.
dont fukcin speak in riddles rn
Precognition, Lamar. Just have faith
prewhatnow
n yeah. faith. bc that helps so fuckn much
All I can say to you is good luck - itâs all coming together. Just wait.
th fuck does that mean?
It means that youâre stressing too much - you better sleep it off. Farewell Lamar. Youâre gonna have a killer hangover you knowâŚ
SERVICE UNAVAILABLE. PLEASE TRY AGAIN LATER.
The notification did nothing but make him more upset. He calmed down eventually, the crying and alcohol tiring him out. He blacked out soon after, not remembering when he fell asleep.
For the first time in a while, he dreamt about the two of them. The start of the dream showed a radiant sight before them, the sky lit up in a million shades. Chop was laying beside Franklin, head on his thigh. All three of them sat on a grassy knoll, a soft breeze blowing through each blade. Franklin turned, Lamar not taking his eyes off him since the dream started. He only noticed the skyâs wide color palette because the intensity struck Franklinâs face just right. He looked right into Lamarâs eyes, speaking softly.
âWhy didnât you tell me sooner?â
âWhat?â
âYou had so many opportunities. So many times, I thought that you would. I got my hopes up, you know. I waited. When Tanisha left.. I only had you.â
âTanisha..â
âI still love her. I.. I think apart of me always will, but I love you just the same. Even if you drive me up a Goddamn wall sometimes. You both mean the world to me.â
Franklin looked back at the view ahead. A heavenly indigo replaced the vivid hues from before.
âBut sheâs gone now. Shit ainât the same. All I know is you stayed when she didnât. Even when she got pulled outta the hood and made some kinda new life for herself, you never left my side. Never changed yo loyalties.â
He turned back to face Lamar again. His eyes were glassy, the glow of the midnight sky reflecting in them.
âSo why didnât you say somethinâ sooner?â
âFranklin.. I ainât deduce that shit âtil now.â
âYou really didnât know?â
Even in the dream he could feel that previous frustration occur in his mind. Was he hiding in a glass closet or something? He could only let out a wry laugh.
âYeah man. I was a fuckinâ fool, jusâ like you always said.â
âDamn straight.â He chuckled, and Lamar came to the conclusion that he could listen to that laugh forever. Franklinâs face then fell solemn.
âYâknow I really thought that.. I really thought that you jusâ got with someone else. Not even jusâ my Aunt. I saw how you wanted to get away from me, and I thoughtâŚâ He stopped himself, petting Chopâs head.
âI.. wanted to be happy if you was, but the thought of that at all bothered me.â
âWhy?â
âCuz you were all I had, dog. Mike n Trevor, they have their own lives, their own history n shit. I canât always rely on them. Denise donât give a fuck what happen to me. You my lifeline dog, Iâve known you for years. I didnât want you to forget me over a chick or sumâ. That day you acted all different n shit, it worried me.â
âHey man, yâknow I ainât ever gon pull that shit on you. Iâm with you for life.â
âThen donât pull other kinda stupid shit on me.â
âWhatchu mean?â
âYou canât ever die on me bro. That ainât how this shit works.â
âAy man, I donât plan on dying jusâ yet. Not unless yo ass by my side. Not âtil I tell you IâŚâ He couldnât finish the sentence.
Franklin got closer to his face, cupping his cheek. His eyes shone as the stars around them fell from the sky, akin to raindrops, hitting them. Everything about him was flooding Lamarâs senses, and it felt surreal, between his aroma and all the other things he loved about Franklin. Golden flecks covered them both, and the stars continued to crash down. The sky was growing darker than before.
âJust say the words Lamar. Say them and this shitâll be over.â
âHow?â
âWell first you need to wake yo ass up.â
âHuh?â
âI said wake up, fool!â
Lamarâs blissful dream had been interrupted by an unknown figure shaking him, literal raindrops hitting his face. He was still bleary eyed, only seeing a vague silhouette in front of him. A wet slap to the face rattled his brain around, the hangover settling in. Shit, was he still drunk? What time was it?
âLamar! Get up!â
âOh.. Thâfuck? Who- who that is?â He grunted out.
âItâs me you fuckinâ clown!â
âFrank?â
âWho the fuck else?â
âWhy are you-â
He was abruptly yanked out of bed, thudding to the floor with a small âoofâ.
âGet up you punk bitch!â
âFranklin what the fuck-â
He was grabbed again, tossed back onto his bed. Franklin straddled him, shaking Lamar by the collar.
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you?!â He said, Lamar getting another slap to the face.
âWhat in the fresh fuck is you talkinâ-â Another slap.
â15 fuckinâ missed phone calls! 15! Are you fuckinâ nuts?!â
Lamarâs eyes practically popped out of his head. 15? What the fuck did he say to him?
âI did what-â
Franklin shook him even harder by his shirt, stretching the material out. He was straining his voice now.
âYou had me worried like fuckinâ crazy! I thought you was in some sorta fuckinâ trouble again! You blew my phone up when I told yo ass not to, and then didnât fuckinâ pick up after I heard the first couple special messages you left me!â
Oh God. This was it. He told Franklin everything, didnât he? The color drained from his face.
âOh fuck me..â He mumbled, putting a hand over his eyes.
âWhat?!â Franklin yelled, shaking him again. Lamarâs head was pounding.
âFranklin.. what.. what I say on there? I barely remember a thing, let alone callinâ yo ass.â
âYou seriously donât fuckinâ remember?!â
âYeah. Seriously, man.â
Franklin slid off of him, putting a palm to his face. He breathed through his nose hard, trying to calm down. Lamar realized he was drenched from the small downpour outside. Pellets of rain thumped against the window as a reminder that the storm never went away.
âYou.. fuck, man. You started sayinâ all this shit about how bad a fuckinâ friend you was. That you, you was hidinâ all this shit and couldnât live another day without tellinâ me.â
Okay. Good. He didnât tell him the truth.
âYou told me you wanted to die dog. Didnât realize yo dumbass was safe n sound asleep in yo fuckinâ bed.â
âOh.â
ââŚâOhâ? Is that really all you have to say?!â
âF, I was jusâ drunk. It was dumb of me, I know, but I.. Itâs nothing, okay?â
âDonât do this shit to me man! Iâve already dealt with enough of yo fuckinâ schemes n shit-â
âFrank.â
âItâs 3 am! You had Chop barkinâ his Goddamn head off the whole night!â
âFranklin.â
âThen I race my ass over here to find yo drunkass self passed out in bed-â
âFranklin.â
âWhat! What?! You finally gonna put yo two cents in for once?â
âStop yelling. My head hurts like a bitch right now.â
âGood! Iâm fuckinâ glad because I know mine does as well you fuckinâ asshole!â
Lamar looked pathetically up at him. This was getting out of hand. He let it go on for too long.
âWhy did you come here then?â He croaked.
âBecause you were fuckinâ sobbinâ into the phone! All I heard was you cryinâ like mad fuckinâ crazy and it scared me. You donât ever do that shit, not even when you fucked up.â
âHow much I say?â
âI got the first message pretty fuckinâ clear, the rest was jusâ incoherent bullshit. I barely got through the second one before speedinâ on over. You sounded hurt n shit, I thought something happened. I thought you was a goner.â
âNo weird shit though right? I ainât say nothinâ bad?â
âWhat? Lamar, what the fuck are you on about? I just told you what yo ass cried out to me! I couldnât even understand any of the other messages!â
âOkay, okay. Thatâs.. good I guess.â
âThatâs good? Fuckinâ hell, why did I come here? You- ugh!â
âFranklin. Can you jusâ sit down before you pop a fuckinâ blood vessel? You stressinâ for nothinâ.â
If anything, Lamar should be the one stressing right now. He had been so close to confessing without knowing. Franklin sat next to him, arms crossed.
âFranklin.â
âWhat.â
âIâm sorry that I scared you. I didnât mean to.â
âWell good fuckinâ job, you accomplished that real well didnât you.â He said, sarcastically applauding him.
âI thought you were cutting me off for good homie. You think I was gonâ let that happen?â
âLamar, that still ainât a good reason to freak me out like that in the middle of the night.â
âItâs only cuz you hadnât been listeninâ to me bro. Iâve been wanting to tell you somethinâ so badly lately and I never.. got the chance.â
âThen do pray fuckinâ tell LD, what the fuck is so important that you had to do this shit to me at 3 AM!â
âFranklin man, câmon-â
âNo! Donât start!â
Franklin stood, heading for the door as he spoke. He stopped in the threshold.
âTell me what the fuck is goinâ on with you, or Iâm leavinâ yo sad ass here to wallow. I mean it L.â
âDonât be like that. Please man. I want to, but I-â
âJusâ fuckinâ tell me! Why wonât you tell me?!â
âFrank-â
âI dragged my ass all the way over here for nothinâ didnât I? You ainât dead, you ainât sayinâ shit, you jusâ beinâ so- ugh! Fuck!â He threw his hands up, exiting Lamarâs bedroom.
âIâm done man, fuck this.â
âFranklin wait- donât go-â He pleaded.
Franklin did nothing but leave him stranded again, thunder rolling far in the distance. Lamar ran after him as he walked out the door, hearing the rain heavily hit the pavement. His mind was racing far ahead of him. Franklin was leaving, he was leaving for good, and he couldnât. He canât. Thatâs not how itâs supposed to work. Franklin canât do that, he canât-
His mind had gone so far away, that he didnât even realize that he had tackled Franklin to the ground. The two of them fell to the ground with a loud splat, followed by sounds of pain.
âLamar what the fuck?!â
âDonât go! Fuckinâ hell, I gotta chase yo ass and for what?!â
âGet off me dog!â
âNo!â Franklin was pinned beneath him. The raindrops that rolled off of Lamar hit him in the face.
It reminded Lamar of when they were younger, playing football or whatever sport they could outside even as the deluge soaked them both to the bone. The roles had been reversed, with Franklin constantly knocking him down onto the grassy sludge. They got quite an earful from Lamarâs mom as they tracked mud in the house upon returning. It was a memory amongst many that stuck with him like glue. Those memories couldnât go away. Franklin couldnât go away.
Tears mixed in with the rain as he yelled out to him.
âYou fuckinâ idiot! Why you makinâ this shit so hard for me?! You keep leavinâ before I can even finish!â
Franklin struggled to break free from Lamarâs grip on his wrists, huffing as he looked away.
âLook at me!â Lamar shouted, grabbing his face with a free hand.
âI didnât wanna fuckinâ tell you like this, but Jesus Christ! For fucks sake you stubborn asshole-â
He was doing it. He bit the fucking bullet.
âYou know how we got into that fuckinâ argument last week? When I told you that I was dealinâ with that whole love thing, I wasnât talkinâ about yo Aunt, a hoe, nobody else! I was talkinâ about you!â
Lamar threw himself off of him, stumbling backwards. Franklin propped himself onto his elbows. He finally said it. He said it, and he was far from finished.
âBut you didnât wanna fuckinâ listen! And now Iâve fucked our friendship over for a second time! All because of you! This whole thing has been drivinâ me fuckinâ insane lately, and I couldnât do shit about it! I tried so, so hard to avoid this, but nothinâ ever goes my way, huh?! Every time I think a plan of mineâll work, it doesnât! You know why?!â
Opening his arms wide, he spoke loud and clear, finishing his rant.
âLemme remind you: Iâm Lamar fuckinâ Davis! The biggest fuckinâ fool, fuckinâ clown, fuckinâ whatever you wanna call me! Lamar Davis, the most naĂŻve bitch on the planet! Fuck me for thinking that this would ever go well!â
Now it was his turn to leave. But he didnât go back into his house. His legs moved for him, walking in no particular direction. He just needed to get away from Franklin, not caring about how damp his clothes were now. He was shaking, and he didnât know if it was from the rain or the range of emotions he was flying through.
He could hear a pair of sneakers squishing behind him. Franklin was running, and he was catching up fast.
âAy Lamar! Get back here!â
Oh fuck. He was chasing after him now. Thatâs not good. Lamar started running himself, not caring about possibly slipping and falling on his ass. Only a few hours ago, he had told himself he couldnât be without Franklin. Now all he wanted to do was run away.
âLamar!â
Fuck fuck fuck.
He wasnât fast enough. The second time they hit the ground, Lamar had the wind knocked right out of him, the duo splashing right into a puddle. Hands gripped his shoulders, flipping him around.
âLamar!â
There were only a few instances in his life where Lamar felt small. Heâd always been big in character, big in height, and according to him, big in other ways. But this was one of those moments where he couldnât help but flinch, wanting to collapse in on himself. He was so tired.
âIf you gonâ beat my ass or somethinâ jusâ get it over with.â He sighed, shutting his eyes tight.
When he felt nothing but raindrops touch his face, he opened his eyes slowly. His heart sank when he did. Franklin was visibly upset, guilt in his eyes.
âLamar. Why didnât you tell me sooner?â
A wave of dĂŠjĂ vu washed over him. Oh. So thatâs what precognition meant. Motherfucking psychic lady.
âYou shouldâve jusâ told me man.â
âI tried dog. You wouldnât hear me out.â
âCuz I.. I thought you got with someone. I didnât wanna hear it straight from yo mouth if you was.â
He shifted up, Frank sitting in his lap.
âYâknow I always thought that.. Part of me jusâ kinda thought that itâd always be the two of us. Iâm never gonna get Tanisha back.. but you..â
Franklin looked away.
âYou a crazy ass loyal motherfucker man. You stuck by my side no matter what, and some dumbass part of me was convinced that you⌠I mean fuck, so many times I thought you would jusâ flat out say something. Somethinâ so I could stop waiting for the one other person I had known forever to just say that they fuckinâ loved me like that.â
Lamar blinked, rainwater getting into his eyes. It wasnât quite as serene as his dream had been, nor was it verbatim, but Lamar didnât care. There was something about the way the water droplets sat along Franklinâs face, highlighted by a streetlight behind him that made him look angelic.
âWhen you started actinâ all weird it jusâ.. made me so fuckinâ mad man. I thought you was gonâ pick someone else over me. Jusâ like Tanisha did.â
âFranklin..â
âSo why didnât you jusâ say somethinâ sooner? I waited. Hell, I donât even know why I did at first.â
âFranklin.â
âBut now Iâm realizinâ you must not have even noticed yoself what you was feelinâ, when I fuckinâ did. I noticed and you didnât and-â
Lamar grabbed him by the face, grip surprisingly strong after being in the rain.
âHow many times do I gotta say yo name for you to hear me?â
The rain kept falling, never slowing for either one of them. Yet, it felt like time stopped. Lamar chuckled lightly.
âFranklin Clinton and Lamar Davis. Two of the dumbest motherfuckers in LS. Homies for life.â
âYeah. Homies for life.â
His hands never left Franklinâs face. He pressed their foreheads together, lowering his voice.
âI love you, bum ass bitch.â
âYeah yeah. I love you too.â
He kissed the top of his head, moving his hands down to embrace him in a tight hug. When was the last time they did this? As he thought it over, he could hear Franklinâs voice muffled against his chest.
âDonât scare me like that again. Next time save us both the trouble n jusâ spill yo heart out. Dramatic motherfucker.â
The words had no malice in them, Lamar feeling him smile as he said it. He kissed him once more, and they just sat in the rain, feeling it bathe them in fond memories.
//plz listen to remember the rain by 21st century itâs so good đđ anyway ya i decided to end it on a sorta happy note !!!!! franklin is a stubborn guy smh,, sorry for any typos lol also i rlly had no idea where i wanted to go with this so sorry if itâs weird or whatever
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The Apartment: part 5
âŞď¸for parts 1-4, click here
pairing: Kuroo Tetsurou x fem! reader
rating/warnings: swearing, angst (?)
synopsis: You knew that living with your three best friends, Kuroo, Oikawa, and Bokuto, would be a wild ride. Itâs never a dull moment with those three. Letâs just hope you can keep your huge crush on Kuroo a secret when he is only a room away.
a/n: hi friendsâ¨i hope you all are doing well:)) just a friendly reminder to eat something today and stay hydrated đ as always, my inbox is open for anything and everything so feel free to reach out:) and the taglist for this fic is still open if youâd like to join⨠okay, enjoy xx
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Five: best friends
âOkay do you have all your bags?â You asked. Bokuto nodded, holding a backpack and small suitcase.
âYes Y/N.â
âAnd your phone? And your pillow, because I know you hate hotel ones. And-â
âY/N calm down youâre going into âmom modeâ,â said Kuroo. You rolled your eyes.
âI just wanna make sure he has a good trip.â
âAkaashi will take care of him, don't worry,â smiled Kuroo.
âDo you not want me to have a good trip?â pouted Oikawa. You put your arm around him and smiled.
âOikawa, I wouldnât mind if you didnât come back.â You joked.
âI fucking hate you,â he growled, pushing you away. You laughed and ruffled his hair.
âI love you both okay, now get out of here, Iwa and Akaashi are probably already outside,â you smiled. The four of you gathered for a group hug. Oikawa was off to his mini getaway with Iwa and Bokuto was joining Akaashi for his writers conference. The apartment would be just you and Kuroo.
âHey, Y/N,â called Bokuto. He pulled you aside and whispered something in your ear.
âRemember what I told you.â
You sighed, remembering well what Bokuto had told you those days ago. You nodded.
âFarewell my lovely apartment! You two better not burn the place down while Iâm gone,â said Oikawa.
âNo promises,â smiled Kuroo. He pushed Oikawa out the door as Bokuto followed.
âBye you two, we love you!â You cheered. Kuroo shut the door behind Oikawa and Bokuto, leaving you alone with him.
âYou act like theyâre never coming back,â laughed Kuroo.
âNot my fault Iâll miss them. I donât remember the last time I went more than a week without them,â you explained. Kuroo nodded.
âWanna grab some food after class?â Asked Kuroo. Your face felt warm.
âUh yeah that sounds good.â You and Kuroo both had a lecture together today for your marketing course.
âJust give me 10 minutes and we can head to class,â you said. Kuroo nodded. You went inside your room and saw that Oikawa had left something on your bed. You picked it up and it read: âI suggest you use this before it expiresâ. You turned the card over, and saw that it was a coupon for 10% off a purchase at Party City. You groaned and threw the card away.
âDickhead,â you mumbled.
âWho, me?â said Kuroo. You jumped.
âKuroo oh my god you have to stop sneaking up on me like that,â you ordered. Kuroo laughed and sat down on your bed.
âHurry up I donât wanna be late.â You sighed and grabbed your jacket and shoes from your closet and slipped them on.
âFine then letâs go.â
~
You and Kuroo walked a couple blocks to campus. Your lecture hall wasnât too far away.
âA 3 hour lecture never gets easier,â you sighed. Kuroo patted your shoulder.
âCome on Y/N, donât you just love getting all that knowledge thrown at you.â You rolled your eyes.
âMarketing is boring, even a nerd like you could agree,â you joked.
âOkay fair,â smiled Kuroo. The two of you reached the lecture hall and took a seat next to each other.
âHi Kuroo! Mind if I sit here?â a voice said. You turned to see a girl standing next to Kuroo.
âOh Calie, hi, yeah sure,â said Kuroo. The girl joyfully sat down next to Kuroo, causing you to clench your fists.
âUh Calie, this is my friend Y/N, Y/N this is Calie, we have organic chemistry together,â explained Kuroo. The girl flashed you a dazzling smile. Great, she's pretty and smart. You shook her hand firmly.
âWait arenât you guys roommates too? That must be so fun living with someone like Kuroo,â giggled Calie. You gave her a sarcastic smile. I already hate this bitch.
âYeah weâve been friends forever so I definitely get my fair share of Kuroo.â
âWell youâre probably so sick of him, mind if I borrow him after the lecture?â She asked. Calie wrapped her hand around Kurooâs bicep. You had to stop yourself from beating the shit out of her.
âWell actually-â you began.
âSure that sounds fun. You donât mind right, Y/N?â said Kuroo. Is he being serious right now?
âSo Iâm supposed to grab dinner by myself?â You whispered, without thinking. Kurooâs eyes widened. Calie gasped.
âYou can come with us! Iâd hate to leave you all alone,â She smiled.
âYeah come with us,â said Kuroo.
âNo no itâs fine, you two have fun. Iâd rather be alone anyway,â you muttered. Before Kuroo could reply, your professor had walked in and began his lecture.
~
Your lecture felt longer than normal. Probably because all you could focus on was Calieâs giggles as she whispered with Kuroo throughout the whole 3 hours. Kuroo was always good with the ladies. His confident nature caused girls to be drawn towards him. Yes, you liked him too but you liked all of him, not just the surface level of Kuroo.
You tried to contain your annoyance with Calie and Kuroo. It was obvious she was flirting with him.
âSee you next week,â said your professor as he wrapped up his lecture. You got up from your seat and began packing up your things. You didnât look at Kuroo and headed right out the door.
You began walking back to your apartment when you heard Kuroo call after you.
âWait Y/N-chan!â You turned around to face him.
âAre you sure you donât want to hang with me and Calie? Sheâs really nice once you get to know her,â he said. You almost rolled your eyes.
âNo itâs fine. I promised Iâd FaceTime Oikawa now anyway,â you lied. Kuroo raised an eyebrow.
âWell if you say so. Iâll grab dinner with you tomorrow, okay?â
âYeah sure. Make sure you have your key to the apartment or else Iâm locking you out,â you said. Kuroo laughed and nodded.
âBye Y/N!â cheered Calie. You gave her a wave and watched as Kuroo ran back towards her.
-
You walked back to your apartment, upset. Kuroo had every right to hang out with other girls but that didnât mean it didnât hurt. It was just another reminder that Kuroo might not share the same feelings as you.
The apartment felt weird being so empty. All dark and quiet. You threw your keys on the counter and plopped onto the couch. You checked your phone and saw a plethora of texts from Oikawa.
i've been in the car FOREVER -sent 5:35pm
my legs are cramping -sent 5:40pm
do you think if i asked Iwa to stop for a bathroom break he would be mad? -sent 5:41pm
bc we just stopped 30 minutes ago and i said i didnât need to go -sent 5:43pm
but now i do -sent 5:47pm
update: he stopped for me𤊠-sent 6:01pm
y/n answer me -sent 6:37pm
im bored -sent 6:38pm
you better be buying that maid costume -sent 6:40pm
that coupon expires soon -sent 6:41pm
btw bokuto forgot his pillow but he told me not to tell you -sent 6:52pm
oops -sent 6:52pm
wyd -sent 7:03pm
You laughed at your phone. Good to see you werenât the only one missing your friends.
well im currently sitting alone in the apartment as kuroo ditched me for some girl -sent 7:15pm
HE DID WHAT -sent 7:18pm
maybe im being dramatic but heâs kinda on a date with some girl from his organic chemistry class -sent 7:19pm
i bet sheâs ugly -sent 7:19pm
no sheâs gorgeous -sent 7:20pm
fuck
well
im gonna beat his ass
how dare he -sent 7:20pm
itâs fine
maybe itâs better im alone rn anyway
gives me time to get over him -sent 7:21pm
come on hun
donât say that
donât give up -sent 7:25pm
idk toru
i feel like itâs never gonna happen
especially when he could have someone like her -sent 7:27pm
bokuto said it best: kuroo would be stupid not to like you -sent 7:28pm
i guess heâs stupid then -sent 7:30pm
:(((
okay Iwa and I got to our hotel but Iâll talk to you later okay love? -sent 7:33pm
okay
bye shittykawa -sent 7:34pm
why do you hurt me? -sent 7:35
You set your phone down and checked in the kitchen for anything worth eating. You werenât in the mood to go out anymore.
Rice. We have rice. Well, rice it is.
You took out the rice cooker and began to prepare your sad dinner.
Why didnât I just go with them?
As the rice cooked, you sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. You put on âGilmore Girlsâ, wishing your friends were there to watch it with you.
~
It was late. Close to 11pm. Kuroo still wasnât home. You laid on the couch, basking in your loneliness. A little dramatic yes but you hated being without your friends. It was a weird concept that they had friends beside you.
You heard keys jingle outside the door and you felt a wave of comfort come over you, knowing it had to be Kuroo. You got up from the couch and peaked at the door.
âI was starting to wonder what happened to youâŚâ your voice trailed off when you saw that Kuroo wasnât alone.
âHey Y/N! Oh my gosh your apartment is so cute!â said Calie. Your jaw dropped and you looked over at Kuroo.
Your expression had to be screaming: âare you fucking kidding me right now!?â
âOh uh thanks,â you muttered.
âIs it cool if Calie stays for a bit? Her roommates are having people over and she doesnât know them too well,â explained Kuroo. Hmm I wonder what thatâs like.
âYou donât have to ask me, itâs your apartment too,â you said plainly. Kuroo raised a brow.
âJust checkingâŚâ
Calie walked around your small apartment, admiring all the decorations that you had up.
âAw isnât this the cutest photo!â She said. She picked up a picture of you and Kuroo. It was when you had gotten dressed up together to take graduation pictures. Your smile was the brightest itâs ever been. Holding your diploma as Kuroo wrapped his arm around you. In the background of the photo you could see a faint image of Oikawa and Bokuto.
âYeah I love that picture,â Kuroo smiled. Kuroo took the photo from Calieâs hand and looked at it.
âBest friends, right?â He looked at you. Your heart sank.
âYup, best friends,â you whispered with a dull smile. Kuroo smiled and showed Calie to his room. You tried not to react. You walked over to your room, locked the door, and curled up onto your bed.
Is best friends all we are ever gonna be?
â˘
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Old and New | Pt I
Blaise Zabini x muggle!reader
word count: 1971
summary: y/n is new to France on a study abroad trip. Blaise is visiting France post-Hogwarts. rags to riches story of an unfortunate muggle falling for a complicated, ridiculously wealthy person who just so happens to also be a powerful Wizard.
a/n: this started with an idea, became a moodboard, then became an entire fleshed out fic! I thought it would be short but my brain had other ideas. enjoy! note: I did write this from my personal perspective in life. as a result it is not very inclusive. I plan to change that with my next fics, Iâve just been having a really hard time lately and have been writing a lot of comfort fics and/or self-inserts to escape from irl bc irl is rly shitty for me rn
Itâs a brand-new start, in a brand-new apartment, in a brand-new city, in a brand-new country... an ocean away from home. I can bring Tacoma to France, right? At least, thatâs what Iâm trying to tell myself. Study abroad is fucking... scary. I kinda regret it. Itâs a good opportunity and for someone who doesnât travel, it should be a fun experience. But Iâm currently having an anxiety attack over taking out the garbage, so Iâm not sure my positive self-talk is working.
I look out the window of my top floor apartment, wait until someone finally finishes walking down the stairs, and run out my door - I nearly trip about five times going down the spiral of death, my arms feel like jelly thanks to perpetually pushing my garbage deeper in to avoid this trip, and I swing with all my might to hurl my garbage bag into the trash compacting dumpster - only it hits the bottom lip and falls to the ground, splitting open.
âGreat!â I say, sarcastically, âFirst they send my luggage to the wrong location, then they try to say my passport isnât valid because my apartment was a temporary address, then Iâm greeted with a fridge full of rotting food and no power, then Iâm bitten up by fleas and now - I just- fuck. Why canât I just- do anything- right-â I cut myself off when I hear a screen door slide and blink a couple times to erase the threat of tears that had been creeping up on me while I ranted.
When I look up, I see a tall, dark-skinned guy about my age - handsome. Heâs wearing a suit, and expensive jewelry. Combine that with the fact heâs living in the apartment building next to me, which is worth more than my life just for one month of rent, and I put together that heâs probably rich beyond belief. I quickly look away, not wanting to stare. I silently pick up my garbage, piece by piece. As I work, I feel eyes drilling holes in the back of my head. I ignore it. It continues, and I still ignore it as I finally shove my ripped garbage bag in the compactor and slam the door shut. I hear a slight jump up above, and chuckle to myself.
I zoom back up the stairs and almost make it to the top, but I trip 5 stairs away from my door - and fall, hard. Body laid out flat hard. Cheek scraped and stinging from the metal grating on the stairs, hard. Lost the goddamned slide that caught on the stair, and can see it gradually falling, bouncing and rolling down the stairs, hard. I lift my head and see blood on the stair. I feel it running down my face. All I can think is that this really fucking hurts. The tears come, a combination of pain and frustration, and I pick myself up and stumble my way into my apartment, completely forgetting about the attractive rich boy who just watched me be a danger and inconvenience to myself.
I rush to the kitchen and grab a roll of paper towels, and run to the bathroom, I see the markings in the mirror and can tell it will leave a sizeable scar. Do I need stitches? I donât know. Anyway, I start dabbing at everything and blood is still oozing out of every nook and cranny, to my displeasure. Iâm about to start bandaging my face when I hear a knock on my door. âFucking Christ!â I mutter to myself as I slap a wad of paper towels on my face and sulkily go to fling open my door.
Iâm not sure who Iâm expecting, but to see the same rich guy on my doorstep, slide in hand, probably wasnât it. âHey, um, I saw what happened, and I thought you might want your shoe back.â His accent sounds very British - I was expecting it to sound more like a snooty Frenchmanâs.
âOh. Um. Thanks.â I say flatly.
As my muscles twitch to begin closing the door, he says, âWould you like some help cleaning that up? I have certifications to give medical aid... and stitches. My nameâs Blaise, by the way.â
Doctor, maybe? Probably. âSure,â I say, opening the door wider and standing back so the blood doesnât drip on his suit. âIâm y/n.â
A few minutes later weâre in my bathroom, me sitting on the toilet, him sitting on the bathtub as he helps me fix my face. âSo, Mademoiselle y/n,â He asks, âDo you find yourself in these predicaments very often?â
âWhich one? Poverty, flea bitten, or bloody?â I say.
âI suppose whichever youâd like to think I was referring to.â
âWell, in *that* case - Iâm usually caught unawares in all kinds of predicaments - though Iâd say self-injury due to clumsiness is an uncommon one. And do you usually find yourself in predicaments requiring you to treat someoneâs wounds?â
âI used to, though now itâs only on the occasion.â
âSounds like an improvement,â I note. âI wonât guarantee it, but I think Iâll get the hang of walking up the stairs soon enough, so you donât have to worry about me.â
âI wouldnât necessarily mind it if I did worry about you once or twice more. Why were you running? It seemed like you wanted to get away from something. Does your garbage compactor smell that disturbing?â
âIt doesnât smell great,â I admit, âBut truth be told, Iâm not a fan of human interaction. Itâs scary. Especially when everything is new to me.â
âHow long have you been In France?â
âA few days, just enough to get myself physically settled.â
âI see. And you are from America?â
âMhm. Let me guess, my accent gave it away.â
âAnd the slang, Iâve yet to hear someone from France use certain terms that you seem to favor.â
âOh, most of my slang is specific to my city, not just my country.â
âYour city?â
âYea, Tacoma. Itâs near Seattle, if you know where that is. Tacomaâs better, though.â
âIâve heard of it, but Iâve never been there. My mother is a fashion designer, but she only travels where thereâs inspiration or a business deal.â So thatâs how he gets the expensive clothes. The rest of the money too, probably.
âMust be nice, having a handmade closet.â I muse. âNot that I care for having any more clothes than I brought. Theyâre pretty reliable, if I do say so myself.â
He laughs. âYes, well, if the blood stains donât come out of your jumpsuit you might need a new one. They shouldnât be too difficult to remove, though.â
âYea, Iâll just dump a bucket of Oxi-Clean on it and call it a day. That is, if any stores nearby have it.â I frown, realizing I have no clue if France carries any of the products I usually get. This is gonna suck. Hopefully the internet has some answers so I donât have to ask anyone for help.
âWhy donât I take your jumpsuit back with me? Save you the trip. Believe it or not, I used to have chronic nosebleeds, so I know a thing or two about stain removal.â Blaise offers.
I smile, only just. âWell, if you insist. But I love this jumpsuit practically more than myself, so I expect it back right away!â
He returns the smile. âA fan of fashion? You ought to meet my mother.â
I chuckle. âIâm sure your mom would despise me - I only own seven jumpsuits and some athleisure for going on runs.â I pause, then tack on: âOh, and some fuzzy pajamas for when Iâm sick.â
Blaise cocks a brow at me. âAnd when youâre not sick?â
âDonât worry about it.â I grin mischievously.
A wave of recognition graces his eyes, and he very quickly looks away, I assume for being flustered.
âYou Americans, always so scandalous.â He tsks in mock scorn.
âThatâs what weâre known for, is it not?â I say cheekily, âBeer, boobs and gun barrels. And all the other problems that come with that, but thatâs a can of worms I am not looking to open today.â
He ties off his handiwork, and says, âIt looks like my job is finished, other than stealing your jumpsuit off your back to fix it. I can wait in the other room, if youâd like?â
âUm, yea, that works. Lemme just, grab my next jumpsuit. Gonna have to do laundry early, I suppose-â
âI can wash your jumpsuit for you. Iâm pretty good at reading labels, if I do say so myself.â He jokes.
âOh?â I say, âThen you must be a real genius! Who taught you, Einstein?â
âNo, but it was another white-haired, eccentric man, so youâre not that far off.â
âWhen all teachers are like that itâs kind of impossible not to hit relatively close to the mark.â I remark, then change clothes as quickly as I can, tossing the dirty outfit into a trusty plastic bag and tying it shut.
When I walk out to the living room, Blaise is toying with one of my sculptures. Heâs definitely been meandering and lurking around. âEnjoying yourself?â I ask, at which he jumps. âYouâre rather skittish, Blaise.â
âAnd youâre rather quiet on your feet, y/n.â He observes. âBut yes, I quite like your eclectic style. If only you had an apartment that let your customization shine. Something more minimalist.â
âYes, well, itâs something Iâll forever dream of and likely never accomplish. I donât suspect Iâm going to be someone leaving the income level I was born into.â I say, just a little bit cynical.
âAnd why is that?â He asks.
âBecause most people donât, and the ones who do are the ones who make money. My career isnât going to make me money.â I reply.
âSo why did you pick it?â
I sigh. âBecause somebody has to care about the people like me. The politicians donât, the middle class donât, and the rich are hell bent on keeping us there so they can have factory workers and have people going straight to prison after they graduate because weâre all desperate and miserable.â
He frowns. âThatâs terrible.â
âItâs reality. And I donât want to be like the people who get rich and stop caring because all they see is the wage difference and pretend itâs justified so they donât have to feel complicit in the system.â I look him in the eye, my face grim. âNot all luck is by chance. Most of it is by design.â
He nods. âI understand, in a way.â
âEveryone does.â I say. âBut understanding in a way and caring enough to do something about it are two different things.â I look away from him when I see his posture change. âIâm not trying to be rude, but itâs impossible not to notice the wealth gap between us when youâre wearing designer clothes and living in what looks like a mansion and Iâm living in a building made in like 1900 with no elevator. Itâs just the way things are, though.â
âI know.â He says quietly, thoughtfully. âIâd better get going. Your clothes?â He reaches out tentatively for the bag Iâm still holding.
âOh. Right.â I say, handing it to him. Our fingers brush against each other slightly, and it sends chills down my spine. He heads to the door while Iâm rooted to the spot, collecting myself.
âI look forward to seeing you again, y/n.â He nods, meeting my eyes with a rather changed expression.
âIâll see you soon, then?â I ask, not quite sure which answer Iâm expecting.
He smiles, only just. âAs soon as I am able.â Seconds later, heâs out the door, and Iâm alone in my dingy ass apartment. How in the fuck did any of that just happen?
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I had another super realistic dream-
Just like the dream wife dream, it felt like that was my real life, like I was actually there.Â
Sadly this is one of the dreams I donât remember as well as other but what basically happened was two things. I made friends with this dude and his friends and found out I had a crazy stalker.
the dream will be under the cut and also I made some pictures for it too! ^^
So I was living in this apartment that was basically just one room and a closet ((I mean but I liked it so what'evs i guess. also it was literally just the computer room we had in Oklahoma that I felt was very nice some days and very scary other days.))
there are a couple bits I remember better than others, one that I somehow befriended this guy (who I very specifically thinking in my head in the dream as I was looking at him that His hair was Neapolitan colored and it made me laugh, and so I called him Neapolitan and Neo' from then on.) I donât remember how we met or what we were talking about before it happened (maybe I was at a party???) but I remember we hadnât known each other that long but I asked him to walk me home bc I had been getting a creepy feeling all day and he was like "hmmm aight'"Â
and I held out my hand and he was likeÂ
"????what???"Â
so I dead ass super serious was likeÂ
"You gotta hold my hand, it's a sign of trust in my culture, and is good luck."Â
lmaooo I mean in my dream the culture thing was true but I also remember thinking that it would help me tell if he decided to pull out a knife for some reason. ((Like this dude wasnât even a badie, I was just super suspish of everyone that day))
Anyway we're walking outside in a park or somin and we approach this building. you know how at beaches or public pools they have a building that are like a bathroom for girls and guys but separated by side?
Like this
Well dudes likeÂ
"hey, I need to pee, you okay if we stop for a sec?"Â
and I was likeÂ
"hhhhhhhhhdshghjgs yeahiguess."Â
obviously only more scared since we left. and he's likeÂ
"look if you're really so worried then just come into the bathroom with me and stand outside the stall, that way Iâm right there if something happens and you can look out for trouble for me."Â
and so obvi Iâm likeÂ
"//gasp// I canât go in THERE! Thatâs the boys room!"Â
so neos likeÂ
"It's like 12 at night, Literally no one's around to care, you'll be fine. You know unless we arenât actually alone muahaha"Â
and Iâm likeÂ
"shuuut your shit up, Iâm big scared okay... fine, just hurry up"Â
and we walk in
And Iâm just realizing now that even though it was the boys room that is literally was just a girls bathroom with just stall and no urinals lmaooo
it looked a lot like this
i remember it very specifically being really dimly lit and the colors were very blue grey, and dark green
i also remember looking down to see if anyone was in one of the stalls but we were in the clear
Anyway as he peed i was getting really nervous and had a daydream thing like I used to get sometimes in Oklahoma where I very vividly imagined something happening. it was of this figure phasing through the wall and running at me really fast
the figure looked like this at first
Its head was covered in this thick tough flesh that made me thing of those rubber masks they make for Halloween, but really thick, once it reached me its face changed into a mans face, but I donât remember what it looked like, just that he was smiling
I got really scared when I snapped out of it and started hearing a really loud breathing coming from the the stall closest to the exit
as well as this low humming tone that kept getting louder and closer. I saw the latch to the stall start sliding so I screamed to Neapolitan that we need to run right now
and neo busts through the stall I was guarding and grabs my hand and we zoom tf out of that place all the way back to my apartment. like I dead ass was so exhausted that I was actually panting and trying to catch my breath in my dream. like never in my life have I felt like that while in a dream, it was wild.
he was likeÂ
"whoa, that was scare as fuck, what the shit???? Do you like,,,,, want me to stay over tonight and make sure nothing happens?"Â
and I'm likeÂ
"KJDFLKADGFALKGFALKDHJ YESPLEASE"Â
like sobbing but also dying from running so literally nothing I said was anything close to comprehensible, but he got what I meant.
I only got the pullout couch and offered him to sleep on top while I sleep under it ((it's what I do okay, that's not even my weird ass dream logic thats my real ass what I do irl logic))
 and he was like,Â
"nah that's okay you got a pretty comfy chair, i'll just chill in this and keep watch okay?"Â
and I like got choked up again bc I was literally so thankful. like even rn even though it was a dream I still feel really thankful???? i just normally never speak to people in my dreams really so it's like more important to me?? Idk
but I remember waking up (in my dream) and seeing him like passed out in the chair arms crossed and it was super funny, but I wake him up and I'm likeÂ
"hey thanks for being so cool man, let me buy you breakfast."Â
and he's likeÂ
"Oh man, that sounds great, thanks!"
I vaguely remember that we ate from my apartments like bed and breakfast buffet thing but I donât remember it that well, but I do remember that some stuff happened after that that had to do with hallways and that going back to my apartment the land lord was standing in front of my door and he was like,Â
"hey uhhh, I got some bad news for you..."Â
and I'm likeÂ
"uhhhhhhhhh whaaaaat???"
so I remember the landlord sitting in my chair and telling me about how someone broke into my apartment but I wasnt really listening bc there was a storage box on the floor and hanging off of it were a couple of necklaces. ((necklaces I have in real life btw)) but one very specifically that I wore like every day in middle school and the beginning of high school that I had lost not to long after moving into the apartment ((this was true irl and the dream))
the necklace was a thin gold chain with a bunch of miss matched charms on it
I was fixated on it because literally how could it be here right now and why does it look different????
i pick it up and it has a bunch of copper pennies attached to it
it was SCARY vivid, like I was strapped into this dream like it was real life and even my dream self was looking at it like it was crazy real
I remember how the pennies were copper and pretty clean and how they werenât just added to the ends but mixed into the other charms so whoever did this took the time to take off all the charms and place them back on a certain way with the pennies, I remember the weight of it in my hands when I picked it up and the specific weight at the bottom of the chain from all the pennies and charms
oh man I remember the chinkling sound it made and when i picked it up and I got that panic attack hot cold and nauseous feeling all over. Because I specifically wore that necklace because of the sound it made when I wore it. I liked the clinking sound it made, and who ever took it KNEW THAT
Sometime later im chillin with the dude and his friends, ((it's two other girls)) and I dont remember exactly what we were talking about but this one girl with pokey straight black hair saysÂ
"Oh for sure!"Â
confirming that she agreed with some sort of sentiment. she was just a bold person. not loud and obnoxious and not mean. she just had a up front opinion is all, and I thought she was really cool.
oh and we're all chilling on this deck thing but it's like indoors
we got a bunch of books and magazines and stuff
and neo is layin across me, like not in a funky way, but in a chill friend way and everything is chill and he moves closer to my face as he's asking me something and im in the middle of answering him when I get really tense bc I suddenly realize he's really close to my face and that I could totally smooch him if I wanted to. which like I did but I donât deal with that kinda stuff well so I probably would have just laid there awkwardly not saying anything while I screamed internally until he's like "uhm you okay?" but my alarm woke me up so I'll never know what dream me would have done. Lmaooooo
any stressor like that dead ass makes my head go "brain function .exe has stopped working, please close out and try again later" so maybe that lmaooo
anyway, that was pretty much all I remembered, but just like the dream wife dream it was CRAZY real.
I hope that wasnt to boring to read or to hard to understand! ^^;
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Left Behind
Hey so this is gunna be kinda me self projecting bc today I was hanging out with a group of friends that Iâve known for 6 years and we stopped to get a drink and I literally gave one friend the drink they asked for and then went back inside to get my own and they just... left. Like they all just left without me. And nobody noticed I was gone. And I just walked to dinner and all of them where sitting there talking, seats taken and I had to sit on the end and they even had the audacity to say âwhere were you?â In almost an angry voice and it just hurt so much bc I had to play it off bc Iâm supposed to be the funny, dumb, care free one of the group and it just... hurt. It hurt so freaking much. And when I write these fics I usually tend to self project a bit on some of them (I guess thatâs why I write them and why they come it pretty good) but this ones going to be a lot bc I just need an outlet rn so Iâm just going to apologize in advance that this might be a little ranty. So sorry. Anyways, here the Langsty Fic
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The 5 Paladins of Voltron ran through the Galra base. It was the main headquarters, Zarkons own ship. They were on an important mission, one that had to be executed perfectly or it would all be for nothing and they would be doomed. They all had their own parts to play and some of it required splitting up. So, split up they did.
The two tech wizards, Hunk and Pidge, went together to hack into databases and any rogue sentires in order to allow others access to different parts of the ship. The two fighters and pilots, Shiro and Keith, went together to take down some large equipment and destroy one of Zarkons major weapons he had been working on. And Lance, well, Lance was sent off alone to fight from the side lines and keep sentries from getting near the others. He didnât have a big plan or mission, he was the least important part in it all. It was nothing new. Lance was used to being the outsider, the one left without a real job. Probably because he had no real, useful qualities. He was easily the worst and least important Paladin of the team.
His only job was to be a look out so he sat crouched in a small room that was about the size of a broom closet with his gun ready to fire. Everything was going smooth for the most part. There had been a couple problems but nothing major enough to ruin the entire mission. Pidge and Shiro where on the coms talking to each other about where they needed to go with Keith and Hunk occasionally chiming in. Lance stayed quiet. He didnât want anyone to know where he was. Plus, he had nothing important to say. He didnât want to take up the comms if he wasnât going to be useful.
Usually he would make a joke every now and then but earlier he had made a joke and everyone quickly snapped at him to shut up and get serious so Lance decided not to bother trying to lighten the mood up. Over the comms Lance heard them arguing a bit about where to go and what to do. Thatâs when an alarm went off.
âGet out of there! Someoneâs going to come in any second!â Pidge yelled to Keith and Shiro. Clearly they had triggered some sort of alarm.
âWait, we have to finish, weâre so close!â Keith yelled back. Lance grimaced. There was no way this was going to end well. There were sounds of footsteps and alarms blaring through the comms. He heard a bang and a gunfire. A large scream went through his ears. Someone had been hit and it sounded pretty bad.
âKeithâs down! Heâs been hit. Everyone back to the green lion immediately!â Shiro ordered as he hefted Keith up and started to head down to the Green Lion. Everyone agreed. There were sounds of heavy breathing and nervous footsteps as everyone raced off to where they had left Green.
Lance slowly stood and looked out the crack of his door making sure no one was around. He didnât want to run straight into someone and get hit. He looked down the empty hallway. The coast seemed clear. He walked quietly out to the hallway. He heard quick footsteps getting closer to him. At first he was worried it was the Galra but as he ran down the hallway he saw flashes of different colors and he realized it was the rest of the team. They were too far to notice Lance in the hallway. He was about to call out to them but saw sentries gaining on them as they ran past.
Lance stayed quiet but continued to follow them down the other hallway. He heard the others in his ears again.
âHowâs Keith? How bad was the hit?â Pidge asked.
âNot great. It got him pretty good. We need to get him back to the castle and into a cryopod immediately.â Shiro answered.
âGreen should be just around the corner,â Hunk huffed back, the running making him low on air.
Lance was about to yell to them on the comm, tell them he was almost there, that he was right behind them, but he felt a cold chill behind him and all the hairs on his neck stood up. He stopped dead in his tracks and turned around. It was her. The witch. It was Haggar. There, right in front of him with her cloak billowing around her. A cold smile sneaked across her face.
Lance stood petrified, his mouth wide open in shock and terror. He raised his gun at her but one swift movement of her hand and his gun was tossed across the room. Lance was going to scream for help but Haggars hand suddenly flew upward. She squeezed her hand and Lance felt like something invisible was gripping at his throat, barely allowing him to breathe let alone talk.
In his helmet the sounds of footsteps and doors rang through. He could here them getting into Green. âGo! Go!â Shiro shouted doing his best to put pressure on Keithâs wound and stop the blood. Pidge jumped in the pilot seat and took off. Lance could hear the engines go and the lion roar.
They were leaving without him.
Haggars face twisted into a cruel smile. She knew. Somehow she knew. Lance fell to his knees. They had left. They had been so worried about Keith and his injury and getting him back to the castle they had forgotten about him. Not once had they checked for him or to see where he was or how he was doing. They were too wrapped up in their own thing and in each other to make sure the fifth and final Paladin of Voltron was okay.
All it had done was confirm Lanceâs thoughts. They didnât need him, they never did. And they never actually cared about him. He was expendable, he could be easily replaced. He wasnât important enough to the team, to them, for them to remember him at such a necessary time. He always knew that but now it was confirmed. It was true and nothing Lance could do would deny that fact. He was the fifth wheel, the outsider, the one left out.
Lance sunk down to the floor, eyes watering, his throat still being choked by Haggars powers. Haggar inched closer and closer to him, her smile getting creepier with each step. Lance knew this was the end. Haggar had him in her clutches and no one was coming back for him. No one even bothered to stay for him.
Lance let his body lurch forward, barely keeping himself from flopping on the ground with his shakey arms. He sat on all fours as tears flowed out of his eyes. There was no point in trying to hold it in anymore. He had given up. He had given up on hope that they would always be there for him. He had given up on hope that they would come back or that they would never let anything bad happen to him. He had even given up on the idea of life because once Haggar had him, he knew it was the end. But most importantly, he had given up on hope that he mattered.
After all, if he did matter, they wouldnât have left him behind.
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My relationship with my crush is a little complicated lol she's the softes bean ever and has a lot of problems she doesn't wants to talk about and I'm the only one who's there for her but last year everything just went down because i needed a friend to be there for me but she treated me like shit so i turned to another friend and we started dating. While i was in this relationship my crush got a boyfriend (who treats her like shit) After 6 month of dating my gf me and my crush became best friends again and i spent a lot of time with her. I broke up with my gf last week because i had to realise we only dated because we were both lonely. Now I'm back at pining over the smallest cutest girl in the whole world while i have to take care of her or she would probably die dnkdks i actually got her to watch httyd with me as her bf was being an ass and she loved it even tho she usuall hates animation movies lolÂ
youâre right this is complicated lmao so sheâs still with her bf ??? even though sheâs cute and has her own problems you donât deserve to be treated like shit so i hope you cleared up whatever that was,,, i suggest you take a little time to enjoy being single before you start thinking about dating this crush now because iâve seen people date for the sake of not being lonely and it usually isnât good in the long term but good luck!! and i donât know how bad her bf is but she should dump him
He's not texting since 3 days ago (our first date)... I think i don't like him any more đđ we've been friends for 5 years...
:â( either he treats you better or you drop him bc you deserve better than that âĄ
I think im a little strange, there's a guy that i like(a lot) he is really cool, funny and smart, but i think he is gay. Rather than i'm being sad or something alike, i ship him with his friend, but i still liking him. I'm getting crazy :')
ohhhh does he actually like his friend though or do you just ship them because you think heâs gay ?
aaa, so i've liked this guy for almost 3 months and i did the Thing where i told him (which never happens, because i'm usually way too shy and i tend to want to tamp my feelings back to nothing). that night, we spent hrs walking blocks and blocks and he told me he doesn't like anyone atm, which i understood 100%. after that, it really wasn't bad and we actually hung out at a lookout point for a few more hrs into the morning before he took me home. he's the first person in a while that made me feel so nervous, excited, fluttery, good about myself in a long time. i think (i hope) that i'll be over him soon - at the end of it all, he's still a good friend. the butterflies haven't left yet though - my lil heart won't stop hoping and he's not gonna stop being cute and gosh darn attractive and lovely anytime soon đŤ (ty for letting me rant through this! you're one of my favorite blogs đ)Â
THIS IS SO CUTE ahh im glad you went for it!! even though he told you he didnât like anybody itâs better that you know and donât spend all this time being hung up on him and wondering about What Ifs so iâm happy for you ⥠he sounds like such a nice friend though so iâm glad you have a person like him in your life and hope that you get over him asap (and thank you !! youâre so sweet đ)
My crush is an asshole who played push and pull with me for 3 years and recently decided to declare that he likes me, but he's still not sure about us. He said, i quote: 'what if i ask you out and then change my mind' . So we're at square one againđ he is such an attractive guy, i can't give up on himđ
NO no matter how cute he is you should get rid of him omg what an asshole-ish thing to say,,, trust me even if itâs hard at first youâll be way happier when youâre over him !! he doesnât deserve you!!!! âĄ
My crush is actually in Korea for the summer (no lie, he's an exchange student at my school). He's so adorable and sweet, but we almost never talk or hang out, and whenever we do I'm always the one to initiate :c Just trying to be optimistic and open about everything rn :s
optimism is good!! hopefully it isnât because he isnât interested or already has someone but i guess the best way to find out is always to hint at it or outright ask about his love life ??
Does it count if my crush and I recently married? lol because even though he is my husband not a day goes by that my heart does not flutter with something he does. Wether it be hugging, hand holding or even a smile directed my way, I still get butterflies like crazy. He is the most kind caring and thoughtful person I have had the pleasure of meeting. He is silly and loves laughing. He has the most beautiful eyes and smile I have ever seen. But maybe I'm just being biased lol I love my crush đ
AWWW CONGRATS ON YOUR MARRIAGE this is so nice â¨â¨â¨ i love this n hope youâre happy together for As Long As You Both Shall Live
The last time I had an actual full blown crush on someone it was in seventh grade and Jesus Christ let me tell you I was so dramatic over it?? The dude's initials are M.J and I once burst into tears cause I saw the letters on my tv once and we had these letter stickers back then so I put M and J together next to the Pc and whenever someone asked about it I was like it's Michael scofield bc that was back when prison break was ongoing. God I cringe so much now when I look back at it lmaoooo
you burst into tears when you saw his initials fjngjnfjgfn Â
Okay so my crush is a girl and omfg, she's so pretty?? Her hair falls just above her shoulders and she has brown hair & brown eyes and I take most of my classes with her, but we have the most fun in German, Economics & Managment and Organisation. So she has a lot of... character (idk lol). She is hella stubborn and takes shit from no one but so do I so we banter and insult each other A LOT, but it's always playful so we never feel insulted. But the thing is that i'm a girl too And I didn't even know I liked girls too until I met her lol (so now i'm a closet bi girl). But the thing that gives me hope is that we low key flirt? We send each other snaps stating how much we love each other and always call each other bae/babe etc. I know girl friends do this but it's different I don't even act that way with my best friend and neither is she? And she once confessed to me that she kissed a girl when she was really drunk, but didn't feel anything with it And once we were hanging out with friends, she was drunk and this guy was lying on top of her (a friend who gets real touchy when drunk, but it was all good no harassment of some sorts) she like kept calling me to help, nothing real big. But she also got jealous once when I send a snapchat to her best friend (she was with her @ the time) & she was like why didn't you snap me? So i'm really confused and idk if she likes me too? Sorry for the ramble :(
i relate to this so much lmao i found out i was bi through my first gf too so this all sounds AWFULLY familiar,, iâll just say if you joke about being in a r/s all the time itâs a sign that you should level it up to a real one but from what youâre telling me i have a good feeling about this!! i hope she really is into you and that you end up dating ⤠(and that you keep me updated whoops)
so im in marching band and there's this one guy in color guard who's really good and the way he can move his body is just like impossible to look away from? and he's really attractive like the other day he was wearing a shirt that had kind of a low neckline and his collarbone was really prominent and i just ahhh??? im not sure if he knows i exist but he's just really attractive help
I LOVE IT I HOPE HE NOTICES YOU AND ITâS LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT
im crushing on this guy for over 3 years. he is a meanie but i like him a lot :') this past week he confessed and said he liked me. but he is not sure if he wants a relationship. we even went out on something like a date :D im very confused rn ahahaha
you need to be clear with this kind of stuff in a r/s so just ask him!! trust your gut though, no matter how much you like him i think that if you donât think youâll be happy dating him then just donât do it :â( âĄ
Hey it's the anon that may or may not be gay who has a crush on the girl named Ramona. So.... I think I fucked up. A few friends of mine threw this huge party this weekend and I made sure to tell Ramona so she'd go (I mean goody2shoes at a party come on how cute is that?) So about an hour or 2 into the party she shows up with some friends and I hang around her most of the night, and when I'm not WITH her I made sure I knew where she was. See the part where I messed up is that Im not the best with alcohol... And I drank a bit much. Now I remember kissing Ramona. And that's it. However according to some friends I kissed her she slapped me I pushed her... into the pool and she left crying. Now its Monday and she wont look me in the eye (it's lunch rn and English is next) what do I do?!? I'm an obvious drunk asshole, BUT THATS THE THING! I was DRUNK! I mean I wanna apologize but I can't even get close to her with her friends there
NOOOOO oh my god you really did fuck up ;; canât you text her asking if you guys can talk ?? tell a friend what happened and hope sheâll understand and let you explain?? honestly i have no idea but i hope you sort it out and let her know how sorry you are but also donât beat yourself up too much!! accidents happen even if they are bad, itâs ok in the end as long as you apologise,,,,, good luck ⥠and donât drink around her again ;;
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Never Fade Away, part v
BEFORE WE BEGIN: some thoughts.
-im really stressing out bc weâre scheduling classes fr next year and i decided to take ap spanish a year earlier than i was planning n now i CANT TAKE ART MY FAVORITE CLASS WITH MY FAVORITE TEACHER AND FAVORITE ENVIRONMENT n iâve got a feeling iâm going to fail it but its oaky i guess u kno wat ever
-my hair is hella soft and shiny rn its RL noice thx u morrocan argan oil conditioner
-my writing is getting shittier and shittier i apologize u guys deserve better. hOWever if youâve got something in mind for me to write hit me up bc im on a block rn with this other request iâve had for a while now and i need to get dat creativity flowin
-a terrible boy who aint worth my time is once again ruining my life, please send help i cant keep forgiving him and being the one who ends up apologizing when ive done nothing wrong ugh fuck me
-enjoy por favor
It turned out that the event that Jerome had been so looking forward to was a charity ball for Gothamâs Childrenâs Hospital. About three hours before it was scheduled to begin, you were once again handed over to Barbara and Tabitha to be dolled up again. âMake sure she looks perfect,â Jerome instructed, âBut not like she stands out or anything. Canât have those GCPD bozos trying to take her away from me.â The two women voiced their understanding and kicked him out of the room, but not before he winked at you as you sat on the other side. You were sitting in the same spot you had been in the first time the two women had used you as a life-sized barbie doll. Once they got started, the entire event of getting you ready for the gala went by in a flash. Barbara did your makeup again, however this time it was much less natural-looking. Your eyeshadow was a dark pink to light pink fade, and your cheekbones were lightly contoured. Tabitha was doing your hair again as well, instead this time she kept your hair down; from what you could see in the mirror she was going for a wavy style. The dress hanging on the closet door across the room was crushed pink velvet with spaghetti straps, straight, and ball gown length. Once your face and hair was to their liking, they had you put the dress on behind a divider.
âHang on,â Barbara said, rummaging through a drawer on the other side of the divider. She handed you something over the top; when you took it you saw it was a black choker. âWear that. Iâll get ginger in here so we can go.â
Seconds later, she reentered the room with Jerome, whose eyes were being covered by Barbaraâs hand. Youâd already stepped out from the divider. She let her hand fall and his eyes landed immediately on you. âWow,â he said in a low voice, âYou look absolutely stunning, babygirl. Spectacular.â
âThank you,â you whispered. He walked over to you, taking your hands in his. He was considerably taller than you, even despite the fact that Barbara and Tabitha had given you a pair of strappy, matte, black heels.
âWe can have so much fun when we get back.â He shot his signature evil grin at you, before leading you out the door. âAbsolutely not,â you thought to yourself. âWeâll cross that bridge when we get to it.â The car ride to the event was relatively civil. You didnât talk, which wasnât unusual, and as much as you pushed yourself into the car door to keep distance, Jerome still managed to keep a hand on your leg the whole time. You couldnât let it distract you, however. You were too busy formulating an escape plan in your head. âHow will I get away from them all? Do I go straight to the police right after, do I lay low for a while instead?â
The events of the night mustâve been entertaining, you were sure, but you were too busy looking around every two seconds in search of an escape route. While Jerome and Barbera were preparing their act backstage, you were kept by Tabithaâs side the whole time. The only thing keeping you from running at every chance was the expertly hidden pocket knife she kept at your side all night. You kept silently praying someone in the crowd would recognize you and say something, but then, what would thatâve meant for the knife at your side? Escaping wasnât going to be easy, but you would be damned if you knew you had let the opportunity for freedom pass because of a piece of metal with a point. Before the show started, Tabitha had dragged you along with her to a dark corner in an unoccupied hallway. She stood facing you and moved the pocketknife away. âListen,â she started, âI donât want to have to keep you locked up after tonight. Theo has something planned tonight, and I want to help you get away when itâs all over.â
Your jaw just about dropped to the floor. You were dumbstruck! âI- I donât understandâŚâ you stammered.
âLook, just- just hear me out.â You nodded. âIf I let you escape, you have to promise you wonât tell the cops about the rest of us. Just tell them that when Jerome had you, he was alone. No accomplices. No roommates. None of us. Just him. The police tells the news what you told them, and youâll be fine. Theo wonât try to come after you if he thinks you got him off the hook. Got it?â
âYes.â
âGood. Youâre a good kid, (y/n). You deserve to move past all this. You didnât deserve any of it. So can I trust you not to run your mouth?â
âOf course. Thank you, Tabitha.â You meant it. You had no hard feelings towards her, or even Barbara for that matter. They were nice to you the whole time, whatâs the difference if they were both a little whack? They werenât the ones who kidnapped you or held you hostage. Tabitha was literally helping you escape. You would always be grateful for that.
She smiled. âI still have to keep this on you though,â she motioned to the knife. âFor the sake of convincing Theo Iâm not planning anything.â You could understand that. Once you reached your table. You did your best to hide your face from the rest of the crowd. You didnât want someone spotting you now and ruining your whole plan, that would just end badly.
The events of the night flew by, up until when Jerome highjacked the magicianâs bit and started killing people. Some in the crowd had escaped, but the majority of them, like you, were not as fortunate. Then, of course, there were the bits where GCPD detective, Jim Gordon, tried to intervene (if only for a minute or so), and when Jerome tried to kill Bruce Wayne, but none of that was as shocking as what happened next.
Theo Galavan, his mentor and leader, betrayed his trust and murdered him on the stage. You couldnât help but react a bit shocked- despite what he had put you through, a stab to the throat seemed to be a very unleasant way to go. As soon as the knife was lodged in his neck and Barbara had escaped, everyone at the gala immediately fled, seemingly afraid that something worse was coming if they stayed there any longer. Tabitha did her best to guide you away from Theoâs view, pushing you into the crowd so you could blend in. You turned around and your sight of her was lost; maybe in order to help you gain some escape time against her brother.
When the cool, refreshing night air hit your face, you cried. You immediately started searching for the police when a strong hand came down on your shoulder. Your head snapped around to find the source, and you found yourself in front of a man wearing a GCPD badge. âOh my God. (y/n) (y/ln)?â The man asked you.
As much as you had been crying before, you were full out sobbing now. âYes,â you choked out, nodding your head. You werenât sure how to respond to the situation at hand. Your captor was dead, you were free, standing next to one of the only people who had any control over the madness of that God-forsaken city, and you were alive. You barely knew what to say next, so you said the first thing you thought of. âI wanna go home,â you cried.
The ride back to the GCPD precinct was quiet, but you didnât mind. The detective, who actually ended up being the infamous Jim Gordon, had given you a blanket before putting you in the car and calling your family to let them know that youâd been found, and you were alive and unharmed. Before being allowed to go back home, you had to be taken in to give an official statement. When you arrived, you had been given a change of clothes- a t-shirt and some sweatpants- and a big mug of coffee, your blanket still hanging around your shoulders. You were sat down on the other side of Gordonâs desk when the official recording started. âJust say what happened.â
âUm, well Jerome, he- I was walking home from school on the day that I was taken and he kidnapped me then- it was just him, I never saw anyone else. And he kept me locked up-he never did anything to me, just talked, but I think he mustâve had an obsession.â
Gordon interrupted. âWhy do you say that?â
âHe- he always kept talking about how he thought I was âhisâ like he- like he owned me, or something⌠he liked pet names a lot. And then tonight, he brought me to the gala, he said he wanted to âshow me offâ, or something dumb like that. The only reason I didnât run during was because he said if I tried anything, heâd kill my family, that he had them tied up somewhere. So I stayed where I was until that man killed him. Then I ran.â
He switched off the tape recorder. âThanks for cooperating. Your family is on their way.â He stood up to go finish his work. âAnd, (y/n)-â he stopped to face you. âIâm really sorry about what happened to you. You seem like a good kid. You didnât deserve any of that. I'll have one of the guys escort you and your family home. And-... I'd recommend group therapy... or something like that. To help you cope.â
âThank you. For everything. And... I'm sure my parents will be on board with that. â
The reunion with your family was full of tears and hugs. Your parents had bags under their eyes, they looked like that hadnât slept in weeks. You embraced each other in the steps of the precinct, falling to your knees. You couldn't tell how long you all had been like that, but eventually you were led back to your home by one of the officers. The night was indescribably emotional and full of tears.
Your story was on the news for a week or so, and afterwards, it faded into the background. The only reason it was such a popular story was because of the fact that Jerome was involved. There were hundreds of kidnappings every week in Gotham, and most of them went unnoticed by the media. But they had a field day with you. Apparently during his raid of the GCPD, he mentioned how he was the one who had taken you, and that's why the police were in such a hurry to find you.
Your parents signed you into a hospital 3 weeks later. You had been mostly back to normal since you had been recovered, so they weren't expecting your sudden mental breakdown at all. The full weight of your trauma hadn't hit until then, and then suddenly it came crashing all at once. It started with you having random outbursts or crying here and there, but then your handle over the situation deteriorated. Next, you stopped eating. You couldn't risk it without being sick. Then, you stopped leaving your room. This went on for a few weeks until one day, you passed out on the stairs.
You had never really been a depressed kid before, so this was alarming to your family. Your time spent in theater had molded you into an extroverted, generally happy, and energetic person. When the light disappeared from your eyes and smile and were replaced by hollow, sunken cheeks and dark circles around your eyes, you all knew something was wrong. The doctors diagnosed PTSD and recommended 2 weeks in the hospital for your recovery.
You had lots of visitors, and that made you happy, but you could no longer express that happiness. You were put on mild medication, which helped, and you started feeling better as time went by. Most of your visitors were friends and family, but sometimes other people would come. Most of the time, they were Jerome fanatics. There must've been a cult of them or something, because every time it was a different person or group of people. They idolized him, and, by association, you. They saw Jerome as a messiah and you as his 'chosen one'. They always tried to get you to tell them about him, and at first you did.
"Well, he's... extravagant, for sure," you'd say. "He never hurt me, necessarily, but I mean, he killed people. He was a bad dude. I'm glad he's gone." This, of course, upset them. They were convinced he was just a rebel against authority and believed he could do no wrong, which is why you requested they stop being allowed to visit. This didn't mean the cult stopped keeping tabs on you, however. It just meant they had to keep their distance in order to keep you in their plans to resurrect Jerome and reunite him with you.
-THat was a shit cut off point i know and i'm sorry, im just tired and this took a long time
-j man will be back in the next installment of this series so don't worry ya lil brains
-PLEASE REQUEST STFF IM SO BORED AND NEVER BUSY AT ALL AND I NEED TO START BEING CREATIVE AND WRITING AGAIN
-my art class sketchbook is looking killer im so proud of her she's beautiful and if u want to see any of the works in here let me know i want to share ehr with you all
-my depression has been pretty subsided lately and that makes me super happy!! i mean like i still never do shit anyways but like at least im starting to be less sad about it i guess
WELL THERE U HAVE IT THATS AL L FOR TONIGHT FRIENDS
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