#so fucking depressive

[moonlightmagical]

the “pressure is kind of my thing” quote from riz being a reply to his mother as he tries to keep a smile on his face as his mom explains their bleak financial situation and how a perfect gpa still probably won’t be enough to get into higher education in the face of a world in which knowledge is paywalled is another type of heartbreaking

#this season is making me so fucking sad and it’s only the second episode #i’m getting episode 2ed but in the most depressing way possible #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fh #fhjy #d20 #riz gukgak

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

The funny thing about the PJO cabin system is that everyone's always all 'oh the twelve' this and 'the twelve' that but that's absolutely not even remotely accurate. To start, right off the bat it's thirteen, not twelve, because they don't count Hades. But not really because before Percy, there were no big three kids, so we're down to ten active cabins already but it's actually eight because Artemis and Hera don't make demigods.

And of those eight, Mr. D is stuck at camp (thus not really making new demigods all that often) and his only two kids don't even sleep in a cabin, they sleep in the Big House with him.

So, pre-Percy, there are seven active cabins at Camp Half-Blood:

Glee club, the Jocks, the Nerds, the Geeks, the Farmers, the 'Sketchy Kids' and the Popular Kids.

Or, in other words, the Apollo, Ares, Athena, Hephaestus, Demeter, Hermes (and the unclaimed kids) and Aphrodite cabins.

What's cool is that you can already see the cabin dynamics in the show. For example, the Athena cabin allies with the Hermes cabin for the numbers. The Hermes kids plus all the unclaimed kids? It's the biggest cabin in the camp by far. It's a battle strategy. Luke and Annabeth's close relationship is just the cherry on top for Annabeth. It'll be really cool to see how the show develops the differences in the cabins during the series.

#pjo tv show #pjo series #if i remember correctly it's the Hermes cabin then Ares and Apollo in terms of numbers. Aphrodite would probably be next. #but the Athena Hephaestus and Demeter cabins were always under twelve kids. #they state exact numbers in one book... and if you don't want spoilers turn back now #but after the war theres only three Hephaestus kids left so like.... the numbers go real fucking low #the entire camp population plummeta #iactually really fucking depressing watching this camp filled with small tiny children knowing that only a very small fraction of themlive

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[im-nothing-and-n0body]

I’m fucking miserable and I have no fucking idea how to fix it cause everything feels impossible

#mentally fucked #tw depressing stuff #mental illness #sorry for being depressing #i’m so tired

[witchering10123]

hakoda: you need to stay here and protect your sister

13 year old sokka, whose only point of reference for "protecting his sister" is literally his mother sacrificing herself in katara's place: ok 😃

#not shaming on hakoda here #well... #little shaming on hakoda here #but poor poor sokka #katara and sokka #please grant them therapy so they might move on from their codependency #yo kyas sacrifice #aside from fucking sokka up cause you know thats his mum #also fucked sokka up when he believed that everyone decided that katara was far more important than him #and thus him sacrificing his world for her was not only the right thing to do #it was also expected of him #anyhoo #dont we love how depression fucks over this child #hakoda and kya and sokka and katara #my fav disfunctional fam

[insignificantfailure]

Why the fuck am I the way I am

#i want to use all the insults i know on myself #im so tired #vent #venting #i'm sad #depressing shit #vent blog #mentally fucked #mentally tired #tw depressing thoughts #actually mentally ill #suixide #su!cidal #angry #self h@te #tw selfhate #i hate my self #anger issues #mentally drained #mental illness

[nessproblem]

i think the solution to my problems is to just kms

#tw sucidal ideation #tw selfhate #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #anxitey #i hate me so much #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #mental health #tw depressing stuff #please let me die #you’re losing me #what is wrong with my brain #tw sui vent #tw self h4rm #mentally fucked #so fucking exhausted #what is wrong with me #bpd vent #bpd thoughts

[koheletgirl]

israeli fascists have been blocking the aid trucks to gaza for weeks now. no one is doing anything to stop them. but now when an israeli group tries to get food into gaza they're blocked by the police and the idf

#this is. so fucking depressing #israel

[noname-404s-blog]

#im tryin so hard #im trying #im sad as fuck #im useless #im crying #and heartbreak image #heartbreak #depressing quotes #tw depressing stuff #depressing shit #sadcore #depressing life #sad thoughts #im tryin my best #want you back #come back to me #tell me #everything is fine #sad aesthetic #sad af #i need therapy #i need heeeeelp #life is unfair #life suuuuucks #life sukcs

[kaibacorpintern]

yugioh isn't "good" i.e. its hardly a cowboy bebop or NGE or FLCL or mushishi but if anyone was like "it's bad" i'd be like be quiet. kaiba's about to summon obelisk out of the fucking ground

#millennium world sucks in so many ways. virtual world resists sense-making #battle city suffers from the wildly uneven relative power of the character motivations #the ceremonial duel is thematically indecisive and contradictory #and. of course. JOHJI #but yugioh is great. i fucking love yugioh #intern memo #edit: NGE is on this post because it's a masterpiece and rightfully described as one of the best anime of all time #a gripping and unflinching portrait of depression and alienation and the struggles of intimacy and loneliness

[strawbie-doodle]

havent drawn all of them in a WHILE ✸

#critical role #bells hells #critrole #ashton greymoore #orym of the air ashari #imogen temult #chetney pock o'pea #fearne calloway #laudna #fresh cut grass #bell's hells #art #my art #almost gave up on this so many times #but that chet wolf and side profile ashton were just too good to give up on #and as always fearne looks so good #really proud of the imogen here too i think she looks so cute #i had to redraw her so many times im so bad at drawing her :[ #ANYWAY HI I FINALLY MAKE ART AND POST IT #been having the worst art block ever :( #its made me so depressed and then i got even more depressed cuz i wasnt being productive but i couldnt do anything cuz i was depressed #:((( why does my hobby make me sad and want to quit #um anyways did you guys watch that new dungmeshi episode #the tonal whiplash was fucking crazy i loved it

[endlessmidnights]

I hate that everywhere I go and everything I see, involves me thinking of a way to kill myself

#tw self destructive behavior #tw sucidal ideation #tw self destruction #tw selfhate #tw self destructive thoughts #tw depressing thoughts #tw relaspe #tw depression #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #mentally drained #anxitey #sorry for being depressing #i hate me so much #depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #please let me die #you’re losing me #please help #please let me kms #ready to kms #i wanna kms #might kms #i should kms #i want to kms #mental problems #ready to die #born to die

[barghest-land]

drew arthur with a little friend. they're talking about life and death

#rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #barghestland #arthur morgan #art #artists on tumblr #this week life was so fucking horrible i'm on the edge of having a little breakdown #and when im sad and stressed and done with life i just draw arthur #cuz his depressed ass would understand #u know.. yeah :( #i hope whoever reads it is having a better time #if u want u can tell me smth nice in tags or anywhere really<3 #like tell me silly names of ur pets or facts about ur favorite bugs #i'd be happy to hear that

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage... #...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them... #...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent... #...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us... #...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long... #...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage' #i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

[mercymaker]

me, coming to this website every single day: don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look at the like/reblog ratio don't look-

#life #like every single fucken time!!! #i scroll through my dash and see gifs or art and stuff #and my hand is just gliding to the notes #it's fucking depressing honestly #and if i do that to my own posts it's fucking over #like i've been trying my best to focus on just making stuff for my own enjoyment and artistic expression #but that well is running dry ngl #people here take so much shit for granted everything is fucking content to be consumed #so many blogs just hoard posts in their likes like a little board in their room where they pin posts #it's exhausting honestly

[prayingfordemise]

Can’t wait for this shit to end

#depressing life #depressing shit #i want to diiieeee #i want to disappear #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #tw sui ideation #end it already #suic1de #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #kill my thoughts #mental exhaustion #venting #vent #i’m so tired #i’m done