#sorry this is a very self serving rant

[sophsicle]

not to be obnoxious. but i really like the jily in choices. and now you're thinking, bitch i should hope so, you wrote it. WHICH, yeah, fair point. but, it's super overwhelming to receive a lot of negative feedback on something, especially when that negative feedback is like "you're a morally corrupt person writing horribly morally corrupt characters blah blah blah die" y'know? so like, there are a lot of parts of that story that, in my head, have been a bit warped, by having people repeatedly tell me how awful they are. but sometimes i'll read bits of it and im like "wait. no. this is actually good (grammar mistakes aside - im sorry, i know it's bad, i had school and work and my brain was clearly mush or something idk)." like. chapter 55 jily. i just love it. i love when lily tells james he's putting on an act in therapy. i love when she tells him that now, when she looks back, all these memories she thought were about them, have regulus's fingerprints all over them. and he tells her he thinks regulus felt the same way and that he's sorry. because he never wanted either of them to feel like they meant less than everything to him. because they never meant less than everything. i like when she tells james that regulus wasn't a good person. and when james says "i know. but he wanted to be, and doesn't that matter?" and lily thinks it probably doesn't but regulus is dead and so she lets him have that. LIKE i just. yeah it's fucking messy. and it will never not be messy. nothing about their relationship will ever be simple. but i love that. like i love that so much. and i've had people tell me they think it was a copout, having james love them both. but i just, i disagree. james being torn apart by how much he loves people. like that's it. that's the story i want to tell. that's the character i want to write. ANYWAY. there's not really a point to this other than like, sometimes i forget that i really like choices a lot. that i wrote it for myself and i wrote the characters and the relationships that i wanted. and that it isn't some horrible ugly terrible thing that should be hidden from innocent eyes and like, stuffed in a cannon and fired into the sun, y'knowwwww?????

#sorry this is a very self serving rant #that i might delete #but technically this is like my fanfic blog #so if i can ramble on about my fanfic anywhere surely it's here???? #i don't know #choices #soph rambles

[roobylavender]

do you believe Bruce is emotionally abusive? ik fans prioritise physical abuse and ultimately ignore emotional abuse tactics like parentification etc because it’s not “that bad”. I don’t believe Dick ever resents Bruce for letting him be robin (he’s grateful for it) , but in ntt he mostly resents him for being emotionally closed off, and rejecting him as a partner. Bruce worries for his kids safety so he pushes the whole “if you’re not perfect you’re dead” mentality onto Dick which ultimately is harmful to him. He’ll never regret being a hero but the rift between the two isn’t just a “we want different things” scenario but more that they’re incapable of giving the other what they want.

bruce being emotionally closed off from dick is what’s revisionist about that version of canon though. i think bruce can be bad at communicating sometimes esp when he’s deeply pained (like in knightfall, for example) but for the most part he and dick are shown to have great communication for decades before new teen titans and the adjacent post crisis starlin canon starts to rewrite that dynamic into something else entirely. per that version of canon i do believe he’s emotionally abusive but it’s not a version of canon i particularly appreciate bc it requires overriding the dynamic they had previously where they could certainly be prone to disagree at times but bruce was nonetheless willing to have an open and understanding conversation with dick about whatever the disagreement was. even the whole idea that bruce is responsible for dick believing that he has to be perfect or he has to be dead is one that new teen titans cements (or that issue of batman where bruce makes dick quit and jason is introduced thereafter)

i get that it’s easy to take new teen titans as gospel bc it is in essence the textbook source for dick but i think there should be some awareness too of how it twists that relationship between them and not necessarily for the better. i’m not opposed to bruce having faults he has to answer for. i absolutely agree he’s not cognizant enough of the complexes dick develops as a result of wanting to be seen as an equal, and thereby can’t realize the effect it has on dick for him to still be protective and fearful even if it’s ultimately out of goodwill and love. and there’s also the fact that even if he gives dick the space he desires to lead his own life it doesn’t mean he should be hesitant to reach out bc he’s afraid he’ll overstep by doing so, as a parent he should reaffirm his love for dick regularly regardless of knowing he might get some pushback bc dick is growing into his own (again, knightfall is a really superb example of this). but i also think those are tensions you can wholeheartedly explore without rendering bruce into a controlling and abusive figure, and i’m not sure who it benefits to write bruce as such in the long run

some of dick’s problems have to be his own, and he’ll never escape bruce’s shadow if the only source point of issues in his life is his relationship with bruce. that’s something i would actually apply to the robins at large. hardly any of them are allowed to explore problems entirely unique to themselves and i think that’s in large part bc writers simultaneously portray a mildly to explicitly abusive bruce at their leisure while refusing to ever actually address the elephant in the room that is literally of their own creation. a lot of people believe the bruce shouldn’t be an abuser argument is framed entirely as a resistance to bruce’s character assassination and for me i can admit that’s part of it, but a more pertinent part of it should also be the fact that bruce being written as an abuser is what truly chains his children to him forever to the point that they can never grow beyond that abuse bc writers refuse to allow them to. imagine the problems the robins could be addressing individually in their lives if not everything came down to them being fucked up bc that’s the way bruce raised them or failed to thereby. there’s a lot about the robins as individuals that’s deeply interesting and i think it’s not just a disservice to bruce but to them as well to write the relationships this way bc it obscures their own agency and ability to be explored for more than a haunted legacy narrative

#sry this is so very long. please know it is not me venting at you i simply have many thoughts 😭 #but yeah like i think something that gets lost in translation is like. i absolutely do think those portrayals of bruce are abusive #i simply don’t think he should have been portrayed as such to begin with #starlin era bruce is very bewildering for me in all honesty i dislike it deeply #the issue where dick meets jason is one of my least favorite for the way it portrays bruce it feels so out of character for me #considering bruce was more than happy for dick to go off to college or to find his own place with the titans #and even with that famous issue where dick meets bruce after learning jason has died the writing is quite odd to me #i think bruce is very much someone who directs blame and frustration inward as opposed to outward #he’ll let himself get dog walked if he thinks he deserves it. which i think knightfall illustrates fabulously #the beginning of no man’s land as well #what i don’t think he would ever do is lash out at others when he knows the blame lies with himself. bruce is very self critical #so honestly that whole scene in the cave with him and dick. doesn’t exist to me i would literally rewrite it 😭 #and i think it is very significant that wolfman chose to recreate that slap three times if memory serves while every other write in bat #editorial at the time straight up ignored it and acted like it never happened. like idk that plus the way bruce was characterized during #knightfall to me says a lot about how that was not supposed to be the status quo at all #anyway. sorry this has devolved into a whole other rant please do not mind me 😔 #outbox

[bonesrbleaching]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

#lolaa.txt #what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!' #'i wouldnt lie to you!' #okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time. #its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa #also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!' #yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up. #i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men #and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man #so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up. #and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face #that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense. #shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin #you dont have to worry about anyone else. #im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to #never really have #im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are #if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box #then when would you have any space for self discovery #youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats #and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that. #and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names #and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy #and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares. #and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look? #then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness. #SORRY RANT OVER. #im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric. #tw homophobia #tw transphobes

[thebirdandhersong]

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#at the point where i am mostly like. what is the point. WHAT IS THE POINT!!! #i'm doing terrible at my job and can hardly keep up with schoolwork #and all i want to do in the future (concretely know that i want to do) is write but WOW my writing needs so much work if i ever want to pu #publish #and the world is so large. so large and full of things to do and people and places and just so LARGE #and i am so small and silly and for twenty one rather slow and confused #i can hardly handle my own life. i can hardly even manage to do morning prayer every morning or stick to writing regularly #or even control things in my life like food and exercise which is like. basic self maintenance #i don't know what's going on half the time! i don't know! i don't know why i try so hard half the time either! #it is so SO hard to remain joyful and optimistic and hopeful and i am TRYING hard at it i really am #it is just so much of a struggle all the time and i don't know WHY i'm suddenly unable to function properly like a human being #it is so HARD to resist being unkind and selfish and self-serving and withdrawn and cold nowadays #i just want everything to be put on pause for a little while and that's basically impossible #sorry this is another rant i just have no idea what to do #and i am at the end of my tether once again. seriously this is the closest to rock bottom i've gotten since lockdown #if i were a drinking person. but i am not and thankfully have enough aversions to drink and other substances that i am firmly Not going #to go to extremes. but suffice it to say. multiple mental breakdowns this month multiple 3-5hour nights #many many days in a row of just. having zero energy zero motivation zero ability to do the things #i have a very high sense of Shame and Guilt and also Following Rules and so i wouldn't say i've lost the will to live #because even at the Worst of the worst times things like self harm and suicide have never been an option in my mind #but i am as close to it as i can be i guess. i am just SO tired and very scared #like. God help me. what is my worth if i can't write good stories? what is my worth if i can't be loving and kind and gentle 100% of the ti #time? what is my worth if i can't put 200% into everything and do ALL the things for everyone? what is my worth if i'm not doing My Best? #why can't i just be Normal and Well Adjusted and have SOME of the things figured out for once?? #i can't even EAT PROPERLY how can i enter the workforce or raise a family?

[ineffectualdemon]

Hi...if you don't mind, can I ask something from SVSSS? What do you think are Shang Qinghua and Mobei-Jun’s greatest personality strengths and weaknesses? Why? What do you love about their dynamic? Sorry if you've answered these questions before.....Thanks.

Sorry for the delay! I first read this half asleep and was waiting to answer when I was more awake and then forgot but I really wanted to answer this

Shang Qinghua's biggest weakness is his self loathing

You get more perspective on that when you know Bingge was a self insert power fantasy and that Shen Qingqiu was meant to be very like Bingge as well.

The dude hates himself because of trauma and doesn't see anyway to change his miserable life partly because deep down he doesn't think he deserves a good one. That's why he's fundamentally unable to change the book on his own.

He hides his self loathing under a mask of not caring and only caring about himself (similar to a certain OG scum villian) because that's the only way he can live with what he did to survive and the people he hurt and his own hurt. By diminishing it

His greatest strength is he is actually extremely loyal. Like Binghe if you pour the slightest kindness on him he blossoms. Even when Mobei Jun was beating him three times a day he also protected him. And let's be fair how much did writing about Mobei save him in his first life? The only thing he created for himself.

The second greatest strength is his adaptability/flexibility. He can adapt and change to new circumstances like lightening (ha!). It served him well as an author who relied on his novel to eat and as Peak Lord of An Ding and surviving Cucumber's affect on the plot

Mobei Jun's biggest weakness by contrast is lack of adaptability. Yes he can adapt quickly in battle by using his shadows but he doesn't bother to learn about human customs until almost too late. He demands and doesn't know what to do when his demands aren't met.bHe is used to getting his way and just stone walls until he gets it. He's spoiled (by airplane) and it shows. He just moves in a metaphorical straight line and makes Shang Qinghua move shit out of his way

His greatest strength however much like Shang Qinghua is his unwavering loyalty. Once he is loyal he is loyal until you betray him. He is utterly devoted to Shang Qinghua and has been for decades. Unwilling to let anything happen to him.

His second biggest strength is well he is slow to adapt on his own he does pay attention and listen. He listens to Shang Qinghua tell Binghe that the way to a man's heart is being pathetic. He listens to his rant even as he yells back at the Ascension. He even picked up what Shang Qinghua was muttering to himself. He doesn't always understand or agree with Shang Qinghua but he listens to him.

What I love about their dynamic is the fact that it has the intensity that you would expect of a god and a king who have sworn undying loyalty to each other. But also has idiot to idiot communication AND old married couple vibes

They are intense but they have been together for decades but they were on completely different pages for most of it while also kinda being on the same page. They are the most unhealthy dynamic in the book and the most well adjusted ship in the book. They are such layered contradictions and I love how on the surface it's kinda fucked up because the power imbalance in that Mobei is a powerful demon king and Shang Qinghua is his servant BUT Shang Qinghua is literally this world's creator and made Mobei Jun specially as his ideal man so that kinda flips it

I also like that at the end of the Airplane extras you see Mobei Jun trying to be softer and kinder and give back to Shang Qinghua and you see Shang Qinghua being more confident and happy and asking for things. it shows how their dynamic can improve

They're just so interesting

This was fun :)

#svsss #moshang #shang qinghua #mobei jun #i got an ask!

[behindthescenesoftaylor]

You might be a girl, but you’re my girl.

Cartman X Reader

Summary: you and cartman have a secret relationship and he has a weird way of trying to hide it.

600 words

Here we were again.

You sat down with the girls, a lunch tray sitting infront of you. Today you were being served sloppy joes, but you didn’t eat that, just the delicious fruit served on the side.

From the side of your eye, you could see the boys, Stan, Kenny, Kyle, butters. Eric.

You but your lip anxiously while side-eyeing him. Right now he was going on about something, something you couldn’t hear because of all the chatter around you.

You looked back down at the sloppy-joes that sat untouched, i mean, it shouldn’t go to waste

Eric stopped his normal ranting when he saw you approaching, a light blush settling on his chubby cheeks. We're you about to expose you guys?! What would the boys say, what would they think of him- suddenly a plate was gently placed onto the table infront of him.

“Here, cartman, I’m not eating it so i figured you would want it!”

His normal smirk dropped into a line. He was trying his best to look like his annoyed, normal self.

“You sure he needs more?” Kyle snickered, a few other laughs erupted.

“AYE.” Cartman yelled, looking from the tray to the ginger boy.

You awkwardly pursed your lips and rocked back and forth on your feet.

“Are you sure you didn’t plant any of your girl-cooties in this?” He questioned, a small, fake laugh erupting from his throat. Though, despite his fake play he was putting on for the boys, he couldn’t help but look up to you, still a light blush on his cheeks.

“Cooties aren’t real, Eric.” You crossed your arms. Oh shit- you called him Eric. “I- i mean cartman.” You coughed.

“Of course a girl would say that.” He teased.

“Look, do you want the sloppy Joe or not!?” You asked, fed up.

He just scoffed and slid the tray further towards him. With that you smiled and walked back to the girls table, a couple of confused faces meeting you.

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After the bell you began to walk towards class when a meaty arm pulled you inside of the janitors closet.

“That was very reckless of you, we could of got caught!” Cartman freaked, his hand still gripping your arm, but not enough to hurt.

“I just gave you a sandwich, cartman” you smiled, wrapping your arms around his neck. You then smiled, deciding to tease him to get revenge from earlier. You leaned into a kiss before quickly pulling back before your lips could meet.

“Oh wait- i have cooties! I cant kiss you!” You dramatically gasped, the back of your hand touched your forehead and you made that dramatic motion that people make. “I’m so sorry for touching you with my cooties!”

“Babbeeeee” he whined, sloppily grabbing onto your waist. You tried to pull back but his grip got tighter, he backed you up onto the wall before kissing your exposed neck. Let’s just say your v line was helping very much.

“Eric- we can’t- i don’t want to spread my cooties!” You said, your lips turning upwards into a small smile. He continued to kiss upwards, a kis on your neck, jawline, cheek, and then he stopped right before the lips.

“You might be a disgusting girl, but you're my disgusting girl.” He muttered, before finally connecting his needy lips with yours. One hand was on your waist and the other was tangled up with your hair as you both continued with the passionate makeout session.

Suddenly the door rattled and quickly opened. The two of you quickly disconnected, drool was still connecting you two though.

Kyle stood there with a shocked expression, his mouth agape.

“What- the fuck.”

#southpark reader #south park #sp eric #fluff #eric cartman #cartman x reader #sp cartman #south park cartman #kyle brovlofski #south park oneshots #female reader #afab reader #secret dating #c

[moononastring]

↠ SJM Fanfic Masterlist

Below you will find all my SJM fanfic linked! Thanks for reading and enjoy :) | PLEASE NOTE: All fanfic has been updated and uploaded to @lucienarcheron my main blog!

🌹 A Court of Thorns and Roses

🦊🌸 Elain Archeron x Lucien Vanserra [ Elucien ]

Bouquet Full of Loathing Rated SFW | Fluff & Humor Flower Shop Modern AU - Person A owns a flower shop and person B comes storming in one day, slaps 20 bucks on the counter and says, “How do I passive-aggressively say fuck you in flower?” | 

Bouquet Full of Love Rated SFW | Fluff & Humor Elain visits Lucien at work, new bouquet in hand.

The Sun Rated SFW | Fluff/Angst Elain has a nightmare and turns to her mate for soothing.

No Place I'd Rather Be Rated SFW |  Fluff with a smidge of angst. Elain's visions giving her nightmares that can only be soothed by one person.

 A Light Against the Darkness   Rated SFW | Angst/fluff Lucien battles his own nightmares with Elain there to soothe him.

Forget Me Not Rated SFW | Fluff Drunk Elain and her shenanigans.

Boys Night Out Rated SFW | Humor & fluff Drunk Lucien and his shenanigans. – companion to Forget Me Not. 

Sleeping Beauty Rated NSFW-ish | Fluff ‘Wake me up’ kisses because foxboy and flower girl can't help themselves.

A Fox and a Flower Crown Rated NSFW-ish | Fluff + Humor Elain has a vision and it, uh, has her feeling all types of ways.

Tales of the Fox & the Fawn A series of short snippets to fill my Elucien heart.

Around the World - Part 1 | Part 2 | Bonus Rated NSFW |  Prostitute/Client AU for laughs.

An Unexpected Visit Rated SFW | Fluff Drunk Lucien visits Elain at an inappropriate hour.

Quiet Thunder - Part 1 | Part 2 Rated SFW | Angst | Lucien expresses his frustrations to Elain. Elain follows up.

Morning Pranks Rated SFW | Fluff.

First Kisses Rated SFW | Fluff.

Instincts - Part 1 | Part 2 Rated SFW Lucien follows his instincts when it comes to Elain. It's the start of something new.

Frenzy Rated NSFW Elain and Lucien like to spend their yearly mating anniversary fully wrapped in each other, sinking into a frenzy.

A Simple Request Rated NSFW-ish. A still shy Elain finds a different way to tell her mate what she wants.

Inspiration Rated NSFW | Modern AU Aspiring writer Elain Archeron is looking for some inspiration for her new novel when she happens to meet the perfect man for the job.

Oh, What a Night (Elucien + Nessian)Rated SFW | Fluff Nesta and Elain’s first Starfall, the two celebrating it in different ways.

Drabbles

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🍂 Eris Vanserra

Spirit Meets the Bones Rated M | Eris x Iris (OC) | Drama & Romance An arranged marriage brought them together and beneath all the hate, the two are more alike than they’d like to be.

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✨🖌Feyre Archeron x Rhysand [ Feysand ]

Big Baby Rated SFW | Humor & fluff | Modern AU Rhys gets drunk at the bar and calls Feyre to rant about how much he loves her. 

All It Takes is A Wingman Rated SFW | Humor & Fluff | Modern AU ‘Hey I’m sorry to bother you but I’m trying to convince my friends I’m a sex god so can you please write a fake number on this napkin for me real quick’

Do the Do Rated SFW | Rhysand x Reader (but really it’s Feyre) | Fluff & Humor Rhysand taking care of your ridiculously drunk self.

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⚔️🔥 Nesta Archeron x Cassian [ Nessian ]

Bouquet Full of Lust (ft. Elucien) Rated SFW | Fluff & Humor Nesta gets a little taste of sisterly revenge. | Read after Bouquet Full of Love and Bouquet Full of Love

Oh, What a Night (Nessian + Elucien) Rated SFW | Fluff Nesta and Elain’s first Starfall, the two celebrating it in different ways.

Banned by the Boss Rated SFW | Fluff & Humor  Nesta pulls a mama bear move and bans both mating bonds of her sisters.  

Till the Darkness Dies Rated SFW | Angst and fluff Nesta’s battle against her inner demons.

Butter My Muffin Rated SFW | Fluff Nesta being a very soft girlfriend in private with Cassian combined with how I picture Drunk!Nesta.

Protect & Serve Rated SFW | Fluff Nesta has a nightmare and just wants to make sure Cassian is okay.

My Remedy Rated SFW | Fluff Cassian helps Nesta overcome her fear of the bathtub.

Change of Pace Rated Steamy | Modern AU “I chickened out of sex ages ago and you haven’t brought it up since but now I really want it, but I'm terrible at communication, so let me just strip shirtless/model lingerie for you until you snap”

Weakness Rated SFW | Steamy fluff Cassian does love his mate.

My Curse to Bear Rated SFW | Steamy fluff | Modern AU Based on the prompt “Matching couple shirts that say “bearer of the curse” on one of them and, “the curse” on the other”

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⚫️ Azriel

Choices - [ Gwynriel ] Rated NSFW-ish. Gwyn makes choices for her happiness.

An Ember Among the Shadows Rated PG-13/M | Azriel x Lucy (OC)  | Drama and romance  A sibling reunion, new friendships forged, and a possible attempt at finding love. A story about our favorite Shadowsinger. | DISCONTINUED.

A Not So Secret Affair Rated SFW | Azriel x Reader | Azriel slipping up about his not-so-secret love.

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💥Crackship: Feyrhycien (Feyre x Rhys x Lucien)

 Ice Cream Delights Rated: SFW | Modern AU “God damnit, now all I can think about right now is you licking my cock like it’s that ice cream cone.”

 Barbie & Her Two Kens Rated SFW | Modern AU Bored/Drunk Feyre bothering her boys 

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👑 Throne of Glass

Boner for You - Elide & Lorcan [ Elorcan ] Rated SFW | Humor & fluff  Fake Dating AU where Lorcan just wants Elide to be his girlfriend for a party and Elide wants to pretend she isn’t thrilled about it.

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✨ Tumblr Prompts ( ACOTAR & TOG )

Masterlist

#elucien #feysand #nessian #gwynriel #elain archeron #feyre archeron #nesta archeron #cassian #rhysand #azriel #acotar fanfics #elide lochan #lorcan salvaterre #elorcan #elucien fanfics #feysand fanfics #nessian fanfics #tog fanfic #myfic #updated masterlist. #wanted to post a new one to pin it!

[9mothsinspace]

Okay! Rant (and spoilers) ahead! It's been some time since I read Dragons of Fate now and I need to put down my thoughts about it. My obsessive bookmarking of scenes must be put to some use! Really, hoarding scenes it my one true dragon trait.

Now. Critique comes first. For one:

Inconsistency problems. I ranted about some of them in other posts as well, but here a few in short: 1. Raistlin is too well-informed about Immolatus. He may have figured out that he's a dragon at some point after Brothers in Arms, but even then, he couldn't have detailed knowledge about his hunting habits from the short encounters he had with him. 2. The Green dragon in the orb is named Viper, not Cyan 3. In the very first scene a gnome appears he finishes a sentence. The a-gnome-never-finishes-a-sentence rule has been broken before but still.

Then. The repetetive and tedious explainations of time travelling. Okay, so the book starts with a chapter that basically retells the last chapter of the previous book to explain where things left off. So far so good, it's a bit unnecessary that the time travelling is spelled out to the reader in such detail and that Sturm is used as the 'ignorant character' device that needs everything explained to him. But then we switch scenes and the same discussion takes place with Dalamar and Justarius. And then again with Tanis (again the ignorant character device) and Astinus! Yes, every character has to be up to date, but the process doesn't have to be described every time. It just feels like the reader isn't trusted to keep up and I would actually welcome some ambiguity here. But maybe that's just personal preference.

Destina. I was actually on bord with the entire Destina plotline in the first book, but in the second one it feels like she has simply been erased, now that the heroes of the lance have entered the stage. And the plot with her love interest... uff. I read somewhere that Dragonlance has a problem with writing love stories and I agree. There is no real distinction between initial attraction and supposed deeper feelings? At least not in this case. There was no time for these two to fall in love and it feels like a plot device.

Raistlin. Now. This REALLY is personal preference but he felt... out of character a bit? How do explain it better than 'he isn't evil enough'? Yes he is still sarcastic and snarky, but it also just set on fixing the river of time without ever even contemplating an outcome that doesn't end with him dead? Of course his memories of his failed atttempt of godhood could have taught him better, but are you really telling me that RAISTLIN MAJERE doesn't have any ambition or shred of selfishness left in him? Especially after he says he doesn't really regret his actions? And I loved the scene in the beginning where he tells Tasslehoff that he is sorry that Mary was never real but it also just felt off.

Now, I ranted a lot about things I didn't like. So here the things i absolutely did (especially in the third half of the book that made up for a lot of the previous bugs I think):

Gnomes!! They were hilarious! Like, in every scene and every dialogue they were what I expected gnomes to be. Chaotic bureaucracy, exploding shit, little self-preservation, that's just awesome.

Magius. I had my issues with his and Raistlin's dynamic at first because it felt like they were set up for being friends just because it serves the plot and Raistlin was more dragged along than making decisions on his own... but the death scene really had me with a lump in my throat. And Magius handing over the staff and declaring that it will be Raistlin's now and in the future - that was actually a mindblowing moment!

The Immolatus and Takhisis dynamic. Now, this was an intriguing and ambiguous relationship. We know that she favours him, gifts him a powerful artifact and makes him a commander of her army, even recruits him again in Brothers in Arms, but he just hates her guts. Why? We got just enough bits to be interested but not enough to make it flat. Nice!

Raistlin and Sturm. Sue me, i ship them and I loved every bit of interaction.

Kitiara and siblings in the dragon army. This... I mean-!!! Again, this is subjective, but I was just always absolutely in love with Kitiara and Raistlin as a team and understood but was saddened when they tried to kill each other half the time. To see them now on the same side in this alternative present and with Caramon at that... this is everything I wanted for them. I know, I know, that's just me, but i'm all in for team evil Majere / uth Matar siblings.

So much from me :) Plz tell me you thoughts if you agree or disagree with any of this.

#Dragonlance #Dragons of fate #Dragons of fate spoilers #Raistlin majere #Kitiara uth matar

[sweetums0kitty]

The Cure for What Ails You

BTAA!Riddler x Reader

Summary: You love your brilliant, pedantic, loser of a husband. But when Eddie gets hit with writer's block he gets it bad.

Warnings: None except a Riddler temper tantrum.

He got like this sometimes. Your brilliant Edward would spend hours toiling away with a mismatched box of technological doo-dads and thingamabobs attempting to invoke the spirit of innovation to bless him with a plot to foil that knuckle dragging barbarian Batman once and for all. When she was feeling kind, inspiration would flow from his finger tips like the music of a grand sonata. But when she was absent and the well ran dry Eddie was a near inconsolable wreck.

“Trite! Done to death, basic! Wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG!” Eddie wailed chucking his latest box of odds and ends across the room before promptly dropping himself face down onto the grimy floor of his workshop. He released a muffled screech of rage and you knew it was time to intervene. “Eddie..?” Calling out to your husband as you took a few gingerly steps towards his prone from. He made no acknowledgment of your call instead choosing to continue to groan pathetically. Sighing you fully strode into the workshop and sat down next to him. Giving Eddie the space to choose to accept your comfort or not. He of course… choose to ignore you. In favor of his “tortured artist routine.” “Leave me be! I’m not fit to be seen!” Whining into the floor, his voice muted by the concrete. Sighing gently you reached out a hand and began to stroke your poor, beleaguered love’s tired skull. Edward groaned, jerking himself out of your touch before childishly rolling a few feet away from you. Flopping like a dead fish, back turned to you. “Be gone! I wish to soak in my complete and utter failure in solitude!” Lamenting his sorry state as you rolled your eyes.

You could tell he was crossing his arms by the way his boney elbows poked uncomfortably from the depths of the sage green button-up he wore. Scooting over to where Eddie had squirmed you sat on your knees gazing down at him with a quite sort of acceptance. One he had so very rarely experienced, the warmth melted his icy tantrum just a smidge before he steeled himself in his snit. “Go away.” Glowering at you as he sulked in self pity. “No.” Came your simple response gently grasping his shoulder you turned Edward so he was properly facing you. Eyes softening as you took in the dejected expression of your love. Brushing a few of the dark curls that framed his face out of the way you bent down to place a soft kiss on his forehead. Edward sighed heavily through his nose looking up at you with tired green eyes and pitiful pout on his lips. “Darling” cooing gently as you continued to stroke his hair gently coaxing your Riddler to place his head in your lap. You legs had unbound from their kneeling position and you were gently nudging Eddie into your grasp. “I don’t deserve this! I’m unfit for your love, I’ve failed you l, I’ve failed myself! Inspiration has besmirched me!” He shrilly cried hands dragging down his face in despair. Tutting as you gently lifted nimble hands away from your husbands face. Separating them as you let them drop to his sides. “Edward, you know that isn’t true.” In a calm tone which was quickly interrupted by Eddie’s rant. “Oh it is! I’ve been through that container of bric-a-brac over dozen times and yet!” Flinging his arms wildly as to gesture angrily at the discarded pile of junk “I sit here with nothing to show for it! Zip, zilch, nada! Nothing, zero!” Squarely crossing his arms over his chest Edward continued to stew in his frustration.

“You’re being so extra Eddie… just call up your guy and get a new box of parts. It’s like not hard at all.” Miss Tuesday interjected turning the comforting energy you hoped to covey sour. Edward sprung up with an offended gasp laying on his elbows, glaring harshly at his teen assistant. You knew the coming spat would only serve as fuel to the fire on your husband’s already enormous temper tantrum so before he could retort you turned your attention to the girl. “Tuesday, honey!” Smiling with a pleasant tone in your voice. “Why don’t you take the rest of the day off, you haven’t been out with Autumn recently have you?” Placing a hand on Eddie’s chest to try and calm the incandescent rage bubbling in his chest.

The teen briefly looked up from her phone, narrowed her eyes but shrugged noncommittally. “Yeah, I mean I haven’t . I don’t know why you care now though. It’s not like you guys ever give me any days off…” Rolling her eyes at your comments. But still she got up, grabbed her coat and left you and Edward sitting on the floor of his laboratory in solitude.

As you watched her leave you breathed a sigh of relief and quickly turned your attentions back to the fuming Edward. He had gotten up while you were talking to Tuesday and was now ignoring your existence, sitting at his desk angrily hunched over a blueprint. Grumbling about insubordination. You swore you could also hear him mentioning being “unappreciated in his time” Snorting as you sling your arms around his deceptively muscular neck. Planting gentle kisses into Eddie’s throbbing temple and nuzzling your face into his stubbly cheek feeling him finally relax into your touch. Edward pretended to ignore your affections but you could feel the grin beginning to form as you kissed the corner of his lips. “You’re distracting me, mi querido. He crooned leaning further into the warm embrace. Giggling as you gently spun his chair a few times before placing yourself delicately into your husbands lap. “Oh I am? I thought you couldn’t come up with anything, has the Riddler, the Artist of Crime” laying a wrist dramatically over your forehead. “THE most feared and wonderful puzzle maker in all of Gotham- nay! The world. Been cured of his writers block by.. moi?” Lifting your wrist to uncover one eye you saw Eddie looking at you with loving mirth. Smiling softly in that way he did when he felt like you were the only person who truly saw him. Eddie Nygma. Not just the Riddler, not a bad rip off of the joker or A-B-C- Whatever list villain in the Bat’s rouges gallery. But as Edward, your Edward!

He chuckled, gently plucking your wrist from upon your brow and set about peppering your skin with quick pecks, leading all the way up to your lips. He kissed you warmly as you warped your arms a little firmer around his neck happily kissing him back. Pulling away Eddie leaned his forehead on yours whispering as if you were in a crowd of thousands and not safely tucked away together in the confines of his lair. “No, I’m afraid not. But you’re a lovely distraction none the less my dear.”

You giggled and kissed him again, content in the fact that you had gotten your husband to relax for a moment. That was enough for him and it was enough for you.

#my writings #the riddler #batman the audio adventures #BTAA!Riddler #btaa #btaa riddler #the riddler x y/n #the riddler x reader #the riddler imagine #edward nygma #edward nygma x you #edward nygma x reader #edward nashton x y/n #edward nashton x reader #edward nashton x you #fluff x reader #miss tuesday #BTAA Miss Tuesday #Batman the audio adventures fanfic #BTAA! Imagine

[theabyssgazesalsointoyou]

📖 but with songs :3

📖: If you had to remove one book from the series, which would you choose?

i am so so sorry for this possibly controversial insanely long rant but. dywh. it is so unfair to both chloe and jeremy it drives me insane i wish the scene never existed and maybe the fandom would be a much more peaceful place. rant under the cut

i genuinely hate dywh so much you have no idea. it literally serves no purpose to the story. if it was intended to be a metaphor for how men can be sexually assaulted because they often are not allowed to deny sexual advances, then it should've actually addressed how it affected jeremy instead of just brushing everything off and 'redeeming' chloe in vimh. don't get me wrong, it is very important to raise awareness about that, but it doesn't work in be more chill because the entire message of the musical is that people- especially teenagers- aren't who they seem because external and internal factors influence how they act. that they can make bad choices but they can also learn from their mistakes and change for the better. if chloe didn't end up being redeemed and the musical wanted people to dislike her then fine, whatever. it's still highly debatable considering how jeremy's trauma was never properly addressed but at least it makes sense for the scene to be included in order to really drive it home that she's an awful person. but she did end up being redeemed and they're trying to tell the audience even she's forgivable. and guess what! a lot of people don't agree with this because of course the audience is going to have a hard time buying that when the severity of chloe's 'mistakes' stick out like a sore thumb.

because if you think about it, all that the plot required was that the couples (aka upstage and puppy love) break up. and god there were better ways to do that. even if they had to include a scene like dywh they could've played it off in a tame way like chloe drunkenly attempting to 'seduce' jeremy (aka just a weird vaguely suggestive dance, nothing else involved). just asking him and backing off when he says no, because there is no reason for chloe to actually try to force jeremy to do anything. jeremy was not her concern, she doesn't even like him, it was brooke and jake. she couldn't give less shits about jeremy, all that mattered was that brooke thought he cheated on her and jake thought chloe had sex with someone else in his parents' room. like hell if they'd know what was going on behind closed doors?? all she had to do was just stay in the room with him for like half an hour then later subtly drop something about fucking him. is that not more in character for her? she's manipulative. she lies.

or they could've just stayed true to the book and made it 'consensual' (as 'consensual' as it can be while under the influence, that is) and nothing about the plot would've changed. brooke would still have thought jeremy cheated on her and jake would still have gotten mad at them for invading the sanctity of his parents' room and chloe would absolutely have still twisted the situation to her advantage because that's who she is. it's not out of character for her at all to rub it in jake's face- why turn down such an opportunity to hurt him? or for her to claim jeremy kissed her first? because she always puts the blame on someone else and manipulates brooke.

i would like to make it clear that i do think she should be held accountable for those actions, because 1) whatever her intentions were doesn't matter, the fact that it made jeremy feel uncomfortable & threatened does and 2) her entire reason for doing that was so incredibly selfish and cruel. she wanted to crush her best friend's self-esteem knowing brooke had already been cheated on and she wanted to hurt her ex-boyfriend in the worst way possible by tainting his memory of his parents who abandoned him. all that and jeremy was nothing to her. she didn't care what he thought, he was just a pawn. that is incredibly fucked up.

BUT. i am also saying that this scene was so not necessary. above all it's offensive that jeremy's trauma is never seriously taken and he's just expected to get over it in literal seconds after the scene takes place. but also- bitchy mean girl characters are already hated enough. a lot of people wouldn't have sympathized with chloe even without dywh in the picture. by literally making up that scene- it wasn't part of the source material, remember- the musical chose to put her on full blast. now we can't discuss her character without feeing like stepping on a landmine because dywh is a serious subject that some people are righteously triggered by. and the slight differences in how the actors of each production deliver that performance and how people interpret that scene is the root of all controversy.

#orca answers #bmc #be more chill #chloe valentine #very tempted to make this one unrebloggable. we'll see

[floralewrites]

Hi. How would Levi comfort his crying crush? She has been overwhelmed by family problems and bullying from other cadets and doesn't really know how to stand up for herself so people push her around and treat her like a punching bag. Headcanons please. Thank you.

🌹 He would most definitely offer you support when you’re having a rough time.

🌹 If he catches wind of your bullies it will be a sorry day for them. Gives those said cadets extra work as punishment, or roughs them up himself depending on the degree of bullying they served.

🌹 When you cry it absolutely pains him. He can’t stand it. He’s panicked and so desperate to make you smile again. He will gently wipe away your tears and offer to make you some tea. You can stay with him in his office until you’re feeling better.

🌹 Allows you to vent. He won’t really offer much verbal input or feedback unless you ask. Pretty much just lends you an ear and a safe space to rant. He’s not the type to be vocal unless required, but if all you need is someone to listen, he’s here for you.

🌹 If you do ask for advice, he will offer you realistic and practical advice.

🌹 He’s really not built for the pep talks and the coddling so if you were expecting to be babied, he’s really not that type. Levi’s advice will be sensible and forthright. A trait of his that might disappoint you or sting a tad if you are overly sensitive and were in search for something more sugar coated. But he can’t and won’t sugar coat things, he just doesn’t have it in him.

🌹 Though the fact that you chose Levi should mean you know this about him and that his honest opinion is welcome.

🌹His advice will be very matter of fact and he will suggest something along the lines of trying to adapt to the environment you’ve chosen to be in. The life of a soldier is tough so you’re going to have to grow a thick skin. He might give you extra self defence training, he wants to help you toughen up somehow, give you the tools to build your mentality the armour it requires. ( You might have a tougher skin than you thought if you’ve managed to win the affections of the Captain anyway, so chin up.)

🌹 It might sound like a lecture and not something you want to hear, but know it is truly coming from a place of concern for you. He just cares. His advice consists of practical solutions to fix problems. So if you go to him for advice he won’t be the sort that reassures you with words, he will offer ways to fix the problem. Personalities like Armin or Historia might be better if what you’re looking for is verbal reassurance.

🌹 He does his best to reassure you in other ways though. He will accompany you to places if you’re feeling too anxious to be by yourself, or if he’s busy he will assign a trusted survey corps member to escort you places.

🌹 He places a hand on your knee when you’re nervous. He will stroke your hair until you fall asleep if you are having trouble sleeping. He might even give you a few days off your busy schedule if you need a mental health break.

🌹 It’s the little things with him. He wants you to feel as safe as possible. It absolutely destroys him to see you crying, so he wants to protect you and be your shield. A cloak you can find refuge under when the vicious glances and whispers become too loud.

#headcanons #levi ackerman #attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin #shingeki no kyojin #levi ackerman x reader #levi x reader #levi ackerman x fem!reader #levi ackerman x female reader #comfort #angst #imagines #shingeki no kyoujin imagines #shingeki no kyoujin headcanons #attack on titan headcanons #levi x you #levi ackerman x you #aot #snk #anonymous

[slumber-lexifer]

Yandere demon x reader

.slight gore curses

You live in a old mansion, with a roomate named dave,is a short nerdy guy shady but you needed a roomate, Dave are you gonna pay the rent you keep chanting "Sorry y/n l been busy doing my research" Like that fake stuff l don't believe in it. Dave a hand over her chest gasps

"l said what l said"you put your hands up defenceivly he grab your wrist taking you upstairs in hurry

"what got you so excited" you say light heartily,follow behind forceful by the wrist,

They swing open, there room dragging you, in with them they grab there supplies, of there table holding the ancient book, in hand presents it, proudly "This my research y/n my most valuable Thing l found lm not going into detail fine you win l stole from a cult" You nod quizzically "It just a book" Dave gasp again beginning a rant "not just old book y/n this is ancient it contact to the under world it real the supernatural is real l prove it" They open it and sighs "problem l don't know what language it is but lm still getting ready the ritual just sit on the bed" You sit on the bed as Dave pulls  up the rug "DAVE DID YOU PAINT A SATANIC SYMBOL ON THE WOOD FLOOR BORADS DUDE YOUR DEAD THE LAND LADY FINDS OUT!" You yell out frustrated.

"sorry but it worth it l make up to you lm promise" He say in meek voice, look down but quickly gets back to work "okay ready can you read this book you study a bit of different languages right"  She kneeling lighting up the candles looking up "Didn't you study in demonology and the occult" You pinch your nose bridge sighe "Fine l do it hand me the book" they do you open a page "l can't really make out ok ehem" you cough to warm up your vocal cords you ,read out but very badly "ᓰ Suᘻᘻom ᖴᖇom ᖶᕼᘿ  deᕵᖶᕼ ᓍᖴ  ᖶᕼᘿ ᕲᗩᖇk ᖇᘿᗩᒪᘻ  ᘻᓍᕲᘿᓍ᙭ to Sᘿᖇᐺᘿ me ᘺeᒪᒪ. I  ᓰ ᘜᓰᐺᘿ ᘻᖻ iᘻᘻoᖇtᗩᒪ Sᓍᑘᒪ" I look around as lm done nothing happen "see Dave nothing to worry about see l even bleed l scrape my scab to see" You pick at you scabe, till it bleed drop of your blood,on your finger rub on the floor you look back at Dave "See nothing" They look sad now "this meant a lot to you l bye us pizza"  You pat his shoulder, rubbing there back for comfort, you friend as you walk towards the door,

there a loud cracking you bothe turn around immediately, the floor rumbles a crack, open the room,crack in the wall, the satanic symbol split, opens the wood burning, it edges chorcle the wood around, the cycle of the satanic, symbol black flames, smoking up the room, morphing into a figure, seven feet tall Dave, grabbing my arm shaking, in excitement and fear, the fire dies down,as the figure moves, off the cycle, the floor chard black cycle, in the middle,of Dave cracked room, the figure shaking off the ash,falls on the floor dust,it self off with its four arms, look down at us it sniffs, how does do with no nose, it's very shadowy dark skin naked, with white swells that glow, a tale with two fin like skin, at the hoves look up it has bracelets, at each wrist, and it face three black eyes, two white dots in two bottom eyes, vertical eye in its forehead, white cycle with a black pupil,  has horns that point to the side, ear like those Egyptian dogs, its mouth were it supposed to be, and reach to middle of its face.

it walk towards staring down upon Dave, and l it lunge upon Dave, violent the creature with four arms, grab each limb, of Dave pickings him up, then rips Dave apart, till his torso hit the floor with a thud, still alive crying in pain, you freeze up in fear in shock, as creature soaks from Dave body, as it bite into Dave body, leaving blisters and burns, where it's mouth met Dave skin, Dave goes limp dead its look up to you crawling, to you as you fall, to your back to the door, behind you, holding your arms to brace yourself, for its claws instead it, pats your head "Your blood was very little not enough with one droplet of blood to reach my full potential to serve you my master" You still stare into its face eyes darting around terrified eyes land on the book, you dart to it you grab it, and open it pointing to its direction "What fuck are ya doing lm confused" It say stepping over Dave corpse "get back in the book l don't want you here go" it looks around "what... but you summoned me modeox you can't just get rid of me just like that l just got here" you shout at it again "and now lm telling you to leave" it smiles "so you order me shit well l guess l do own your soul now" "what no l didn't what is happening" you say confused it smiles

"well if you give me a order it signs the contract and l get your precious soul my dear and a warning you may get a burn in the back of your neck to from our contract" you don't feel anything till you fall to knees feeling like a hot metal branding was on you neck modeox run to you side somehow seeing you hurt didn't feel good with them "lm sorry but it's necessary l can lick it my tongue is cold not my mouth tho it burns please let me cool your neck down" the pain is trobbing "it hurts fix it" it opens its mouth you yank your head away "what go grab some ice or something" it pick you up stepping over the Dave corpse it gets to the kitchen with you in hand

"ok now put me down" it places you down ontop of the Island "l didn't know were so l thought l just bring you downstairs with me master" it said "frist of stop calling me master its y/n call me y/n" you sit cross legged on the Island "so we're the ice y/n" "on the right bottom of the fridge pull the handle" you point say pained still your neck still throbbing blisters forming "just hurry it hurts alot" modeox got worried, they then rips off the door handle, then grab the ice, in its bottom hand ran too placing it on your neck gently "ouch it hurts it stings" you grunt "hay l can l do anything to make it up to you y/n l make tea" it grabs a pink apron with its top right hand as it left top hand had the ice on your neck right the top eye looked for it body not moving to it next to it anyway two eyes still focused on you it two bottom arms putting the apron on then pat your head turning to make you tea "l thought demons are cruel" you say "who says lm not you don't know me or anything in my realm l have killed dozens and ended bloodlines driving people to madness to eat their loved ones alive"

Silence well you didn't believe in supernatural until now "so how does our contract work" it still as electric jug boils the only sound in the background "well eveytime you order the more your soul is damned and l own but don't worry till you die l take good care of please give me more order l want merge my soul with yours please" you scoffed "no so how do l end this contract" you say it sighs "well an angel but there useless ever since God died when they made humanity there cracked under the pressure some care for humanity" you think to yourself so how do l find a angel.

the kettle flicks off, modeox turns to pour you tea, as its two bottom arm, are moving as it talks "y/n your tea is done don't worry l know what allergies are l have been watching in the shadows your roomate done to many dark rituals so your place was haunted but l ate those souls and chased the other demons away no thanks to me lm glad that you open to my page we are destined together now lm in a physical form" it turn to you, placing the tea next to you "drink up l know the amount of sugars you like".

#my art #oc #yandere #yandere blurb #my artwork #yandere x reader #yandere oc #yandere x you #yandere x y/n #yandere insert #yandere demon #tw: yandere #yandere teratophilia #oc modeox

[tiktokitssinoclock]

Comforting you after a Breakup- The Valorant Guys (p.I)

For the past few months, I've been talking to a close friend over Snapchat about a guy I like and found out last night she showed him everything I said. He handled it very well and rejected me so sweetly, so I'm not even terribly upset on that front. I'm just really sad someone I trusted would betray me like that. This is very self-serving so my apologies, but writing it has made me feel eons better <3

SFW // Minors and ageless blogs, DNI // You will be blocked

Sova

The poor man thought for sure someone you loved had died

He noticed how every time you left your room, you'd look like a zombie

Hair messy, dark circles to the max, eyes still red and puffy from crying, etc.

When he asks around the protocol to try and figure out what happened, most of the guy agents seemed just as clueless as he was

Your closer lady friends, though, like Jett and Raze, just kinda shook their heads and told him to give you some space

He wasn't a fan of that approach, though, because in his opinion, no one should have to grieve alone

Sova decided to go to your room with a box of tissues and planned to talk to you about it, perhaps also remind you that you're allowed to take a short leave for bereavement if necessary

Although it took some major convincing, you finally let him into your room, the messy state of your usually clean space alarming him

Once you were both seated on the foot of your bed, he offered you the box

“I know dealing with loss is never easy, but you don’t have to hole up alone. We’re always here to listen.”

You blinked in surprise before giving him a watery laugh

You were touched by the gesture but explain that no, no one passed away, you just got broken up with

“Oh. Oh, I thought- I’m so sorry.”

“I still think this was very sweet of you, Sasha. Everything just... kinda sucks right now, you know?”

While he was relieved no one was dead, it still bothered him to see you so upset

He decided right then and there that he was going to help you feel better, starting first by cleaning your room

You initially protested as he walked about with your trash can in tow, picking up the trash he found here and there

By the time he started hanging up the laundry you neglected to even fold, though, you accepted you weren’t shaking him that easily and begrudgingly helped him clean

Afterwards, he had you put on your favorite show and hung out with you, letting you lean into his shoulder when you got a little teary-eyed and stroking his hand soothingly over your hair

Quality time was just what you needed to pull yourself together, and he was willing to give it to you as long as you needed

Yoru

You thought you were doing well at hiding how upset you really were, which was quite the feat

Especially since getting dumped over text really fucking blows

But the other agents weren't clueless, especially Yoru

He noticed how your usual spark seemed to dim- you weren't kicking your feet while sitting in your chair, you weren't animatedly talking to everyone about this and that, the usual banter between him and you during missions had all but dried up

Something was off

He really didn't like that

One night before you could run off to your room right after you finished training, he caught up with you in the hallway

He practically demanded that you spill the beans on whatever was going on, and after a few minutes of pressing, you finally did

You showed him the texts and he scrolled through them, his eyes rolling as he skimmed over the exchange

"Being a dick myself, I can truly say that was a dick move."

“It’s really not that big of a deal, I’ll be fine- hey!”

He steered you both into the common area and plopped you down on the couch, where he wouldn't let you leave until you actually got it all out of your system

It didn’t take long for you to finally cave and do just that

You ended up ranting to him for an ungodly amount of time, going back and forth between being really pissed and really upset

Admittedly though, being able to release all those bottled up emotions felt really good

For the next few weeks, he took to inviting you to the gym at late hours to rough up a punching bag or two

Whether or not you felt the need to speak, he was always there to help you wrap your fists before starting and perfect your technique

Although the outlet seemed to help you get back to your usual self, he still couldn’t shake the growing anger he harbored towards your ex

With each powerful punch you sent into the bag he held steady for you, he had to refrain from taking your ex’s number to Killjoy and getting their exact location

Chamber

No one on the protocol could figure out why, but out of nowhere one night, you took to baking until early in the morning

Not in a peaceful manner, either

You would practically slam dough flat with the rolling pin, ignore the cacophony that the pans and pots made when you were searching through them for a pie tin, fume in an unspoken rage that drained the life out of the kitchen

You weren't one to get mad and, not wanting to piss you off any further, the agents largely tried to stay out of it

Not Chamber, though

Especially when your antics were keeping him awake

He walked into the kitchen when you were being especially noisy one night, finding you trying to scrape burnt cookies off a tray while you cursed under your breath

He pinched his nose and sighed

"What are you doing?"

"Not anything right, that's for sure. First I added too much baking powder, and then I burnt the fucking cookies, and... and..."

You fell silent, your movements slowly growing still

"Dammit. That bastard fucking cheated on me."

His eyes widened at the confession as you finally abandoned the pan in the sink, sitting down at the dining table so you could bury your face in your hands

There were a lot of things going through his mind, namely ‘Who?’, ‘Why?’, and ‘Could Cypher wipe my name from a warrant registry?’ but first and foremost, he pulled up a chair beside you

He got the feeling you didn’t really want to talk about it, at least not yet, so he offered the next best thing

"Do you know how to make madeleines?"

"... Madeleines?"

"I'll show you, if you want. Come."

He spent the rest of the night showing you how to bake the small pastries, helping you take it slow and steady

He even managed to earn a few laughs from you after a mishap with the flour left his glasses coated

He was careful not to breathe a word about your situation, proving to be a welcome, calming distraction you needed as you processed everything you were feeling

The anger pumping in your veins was gradually purged out with the help of his gentle company and after about four days, you finally felt like talking it out

He didn’t once judge you or give any smart remarks, he simply listened and offered advice you actually found useful

The creative insults he sent your ex’s way certainly soothed the burn, too

#valorant imagines #valorant headcanons #valorant sova #sova x reader #valorant yoru #yoru x reader #valorant chamber #chamber x reader

[vongola-renaissance]

for the ask game:

📕Which languages would you learn to become one step closer to Varia Quality?

🌈Who's your favourite Arcobaleno?

thank you 🌺

Uhhhhhhhh listen I speak English, Spanish and Portuguese (kinda rusty in the one) and half a year ago I started to study Chinese. So for me, Italian of course, Chinese and Japanese. Those are some of the main languages of the characters involved with the Vongolas. I have some basics in Latin too (very basics).

If I'm being a nerd, I'd study in detail the Italian dialects. I find it more important to be able to communicate with anyone from Italy to a point I feel trustworthy to them.

LA MIRCH. I don't care, I'm making her count.

She was the person originally picked for the rain pacifier! She freaking taught Colonello! She's so relevant to the story and her design is so cool !!!! Lal Mirch is my favorite KHR female character.

Although I think KHR is flawed in terms of female character depiction (typical problem in shonens), I think the story still allows women to be real in a sense that doesn't feel fabricated. She's not a "boss" or the type of "empowered" character that some writers go for nowdays.

She's stubborn and cold and loyal and loving. She serves a cause and although she's powerful (again she was selected as the rain arcobaleno c'mon!!) she has no problem following orders or working for others. We know that her romantic devotion is a trait she shares with Colonello, because he did sacrifice himself in her place and she wanted so badly to take revenge on his name and—

It doesn't feel like she's being used to further Colonello as a character. In fact, he feels like part of her backstory. Colonello started existing in the story when he became Lal Mirch's studentz but she was already involved with the Vongola. His relevance comes from taking her place. She kept him alive in the narrative by fighting for him in the Future arc. That's insane.

I think the story should have allowed her to teach the girls (Haru and Kyoko) some self-defense. Nothing extreme, but I think they deserved to know and to do more than staying on the sideline, cooking for the rest as they trained.

Sorry about the Lal Mirch rant. She's just really really my fav KHR girl <3

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Sunny was the first to react. Steel rasped over steel  as she darted to stand protectively between Adam and the manic naked man who had just decked him. With the butt end of her spear, she rammed the stranger back into the wall, before flipping her spear around to lay the blade point end at the base of his throat. 

The stranger huffed loudly as he was thrown back against the wall, wind knocked partially from his lungs, but when he finally regained his breath, instead of speaking, protesting or otherwise, he simply began to laugh.. The laugh was long, loud and rather manic leaving Sunny a bit unsettled.

She snarled, pressing the speartip hard against his throat, cutting off the laugh. Her eyes darted to Krill’s lifeless body which lay dangling under one of the man’s arms, “IS he dead?”

The man giggled.

Sunny snarled, “You better think of your next words very carefully, or I’m going to run you through like a kebab.”

Behind her on the floor, Adam was just beginning to regain his senses.

The punch hadn’t been strong enough to knock him out, but he flexed his jaw experimentally as he sat up, a woozy hand to his head.

“WAIT!”

Some of the pressure eased up on Sunny’s spear, and she drew back slightly, turning her head only far enough to be able to see to the end of the hallway, while still being able to keep an eye on their attacker.

She was certainly surprised  to find Dr. Katie dressed in full surgical scrubs come puffing up the hallway, followed closely by Celex and Conn in similar states of dress. Katie held out a hand, “Don’t hurt him.”

Sunny frowned, glanced down at Krill’s limp body and then back at them.

It took her a few seconds to weigh their friendship, determine how much she trusted them before stepping back and lowering her spear. The man relaxed somewhat, breathing hard as his head fell forward. She had nicked the skin of his neck a bit, causing a gentle ruby to begin forming against his russet skin.

Slowly, the man reached up, passing a hand over his neck before drawing his hand away to examine the blood now staining his fingers.  Instead of being fearful like she might have assumed, he was almost gleeful.

Sunny turned towards the end of the hall, the question plain on every line of her face.

Who was this madman? For a moment she assumed it was a crew member who had had some sort of psychotic break due to the anesthesia. She wasn’t sure if that was possible, but it was plausible enough to keep hr from murdering him just on principal.

Adam was still holding a hand to his face when the stranger’s expression finally began to resolve itself away from manic .

In the space of a moment, the stranger went very still,  the manic light in his eyes died away, replaced by something that was unnervingly like cold calculation.  He turned his expression back to Adam, who still sat on the floor looking back and forth between the stranger and the surgical team  searching for answers that were not forthcoming 

“You have no idea how long I have waited to do that.” Adam frowned and Sunny frowned with him. Somehow that voice seemed, familiar,  vocal tone, or cadence or something that she couldn’t place.

The familiarity of the voice only served to deepen Adam’s confusion.

“I’m sorry have we-”

The stranger didn’t bother to answer the question, but kept going, “For all the stupid, idiotic, dangerous, numb skulled bullshit that you have put me through over the years.” The stranger was gaining some momentum, slow deliberate words devolving rapidly into a no holds barred rant that echoed up and down the hallway, “For all the cuts, burns, poisonings, gunshots, electrocutions, stabbings, abrasions lacerations, contusions and concussions because you are the dumbest, most foolhardy, self sacrificing  dumbass with the world's most rotund savior complex,  and all the time you are leaving me there to sit and worry,  and twiddle my antenna on principal-”

“Krill!” 

Adam got it a second before Sunny, whose mouth dropped open in a stupor of shock and confusion.

Bruised jaw forgotten for the moment, Adam scrambled to his feet eyes wide as he stared at the man…. At krill , who glowered up at him, and now that she knew, sunny wondered how she had missed it before.

She couldn’t have explained it, but this man.

Couldn’t have been anyone else.

The facial expressions, the way he spoke, the way he moved, the defiant jut of his chin. She almost felt stupid for not seeing it before.

Adam inched forward leaning in to examine Krill like he was a specimen in a jar, “Woah.”

Krill tried to bat Adam’s hand aside, but Adam caught him easily by the wrist, “You got one free shot on me,  but that’s it.” He turned to look at the others, Katie, Celex, and Conn standing at the end of the hall and shuffling their feet like naughty grade schoolers, “I think someone needs to explain to me what’s going on.” 

***

Twenty minutes later, they reconvened. Celex had tried to instruct Krill on the fine art of manifesting clothing to go with his Anima shape, but that hadn’t really worked out, so instead he had borrowed a pair of scrubs and an old white lab coat from medical storage.

As soon as the coat was pulled on over his shoulders, everyone could feel as the missing piece clicked right into place. It was almost as if those clothes had been made specifically for this form.  

Together, they all sat or stood in various stages of shock and confusion inside the medical wing. Krill’s non-anima body lay lifeless on one of the med bay cots, though Katie had determined, with some relief, that the body wasn’t dead, but in something like a persistent vegetative state.

Dr Katie herself sat rather sheepishly on one of the nearby beds. She had taken off her surgical gown and hairnet, allowing her long, dark hair to fall in gentlewaves around her shoulders. Celex stood a few feet away from her with an expression of amusement rather than sheepishness. 

Conn almost seemed bored. 

At the far end of the room, Krill stood in his new clothing staring down at his very human hands, flexing them slowly open and then closed, watching as the tendons on the back of his hand moved and rolled beneath the skin

It was hard to tell the perceived age of Krill’s Anima body , but after some deliberation Adam might have said late thirties or early forties. Were it not for the subtle lines around the eyes, he might have said late twenties. It was however, the subtle dash of silver in Krill’s reddish hair that convinced him, though makers know Adam wasn’t one to judge a man’s age by the amount of grey he had  From head to toe Krill still wasn’t very tall,, though he wasn’t that short either, maybe 5’9 at most. His skin was a dark russet with visible undertones of red which either matched or clashed with his dark reddish orange hair, sticking up around his skull in an untidy mess.

Like celex, Only his eyes marked him as inhuman, the irises themselves a rather disconcerting shade of orange not possible on any other human.

“So,.... you did an animectomy…. On a vrul?” Adam said, turning to look at Katie who still sat shuffling her feet at the edge of the cot.

“He insisted….” Katie said feebly 

Adam rubbed the back of his head, “I’d call you reckless if I weren’t so impressed.” he shot a glance at krill, “Even he hasn’t attempted a surgery that hard.” Krill frowned at him, and gave him the finger, a gesture that seemed to delight him immensely.

Adam snorted,  “What possessed you to…. Do this?”

This time the question was directed at Krill, who finally looked up from playing with his newly acquired hands.

Bruises were already beginning to develop over the back of his knuckles, a surprising turn of events considering the body was his anima. Every Animectomy they had done  had resulted in different outcomes for everyone. Adam and Sunny had been given the ability to communicate telepathically and occasionally use the power of the anima. Maverick, it seemed, had regained all her memories and thus was able to use her powers in full, though she hadn’t been able to disconnect herself from her body, and now there was krill, who seemed disconnected from his body but also tethered.

So far, his human form had shown no signs of overt anima power.

Krill himself hypothesized that all of the anima energy was being used to maintain the human form he now held. 

He couldn’t read minds.

And he wasn’t indestructible.

Krill  reached up and ran a searching hand through his hair, blinking his eyes at them, “It’s so…. Strange…. The way you see things its… precise.”

“Krill-” Adam prodded.

Krill frowned at him, taking full advantage of his new human face to make the expression, “I was sick and tired of being useless.”

This time it was Adam’s turn to frown, ‘Who said you were useless/’

“No one.” Another voice announced to the doorway,and the group of them turned to see Riss scuttle into the room. He paused for a moment to look krill up and down, having made the connection more rapidly than the rest of them. His expression was vaguely thoughtful, “He has a complex, thinks helping only matters if it's on the front lines. Apparently saving lives and helping people isn’t good enough.” he turned his gaze to krill studying him with a critical expression, “You’re short.” He said finally.

Krill frowned at him again, an expression that was going to start leaving lines on his face if he did it anymore, walked over and picked Riss up, like he was picking up a toddler.

Riss seemed surprised and krill seem rather pleased with himself, “I wouldn’t sass me anymore.” He smiled showing off two rows of perfectly straight, white teeth,.

Riss simply patted his cheek, “yes yes, of course.” He said in a bored voice.

Annoyed, Krill set him back down, turning his head in slow circles, then closing his eyes, “It feels so…. Strange.” He muttered 

The rest of the room exchanged looks. Then turned to Celex who was the only one in the room who had any sort of experience in this matter.

He waved a hand, “Becoming human can be…. disconcerting . I imagine its even worse for Krill. All of a sudden the way you see things changes, sharpens out. Your hearing becomes better, and so does your vision, when a gust of air rushes past you its like…. Feeling particles against your skin. You can hear….. everything , and when your body moves it's almost, narcotic, the pull and push of muscles and tendons.” He frowned again, “And then there is this, feeling, a subtle need to move, to run….” He paused, “I don’t know if that’s just me though. Being human….. Its addictive.”

Krill hummed, similarly to how he might have hummed in pleasure as a vrul but the sound was strangely inhuman.

And watching Krill, they all had to admit it was almost like he was high. His eyes were closed and he rocked gently from one foot to the other as if swaying to music only he could hear. 

Of course it was to all of their surprise when parts of Krill’s body began to flake away and evaporate into sudden starbursts of light.

Adam rose from his seat, and so did Katie, but by that time Krill’s body had winked out of existence, and the body lying on the cot jolted suddenly awake, shooting upward in an attempted movement that was far too human to work on a vrul body.

Vrul Krill groaned.

They all hurried to cluster over next to him.

When he finally began to focus, Adam thought his expression might have been mildly

Disappointed.

[bluelockednyx]

Hey!! I loved your Rinsagi metas and posts. FINALLY someone in the fandom who doesn't infantilize Isagi and sees canon him. Yes Isagi is nice but not like.. nanase level friendly and nice. He's polite but a lil withdrawn and appreciates people's talents but absolutely will not let anyone walk over him. Also,exactly what u said, sadist Dom. Yes please.

And Rin, so many people reduce him to this one-dimensional character who's issues people treat like a joke. When that's not the case? Bachira at least knows his prblms, Rin has no idea at all. Like how horrible does your repression and mental state have to be that the guy that is literally suicidal tells you that you're in a worse place than him. Rin gives off high key depressed vibes.

It's a lot like Post WC kunigami which draws...interesting parallels esp when you look at pre WC kunigami and at how Rin seems a lot happier before the fight. I saw someone make that comparison.

What do you think? How do you think Rin would've been like if Sae had actually bothered explaining instead of what we got?

Also, any opinions on the Itoshi parents? We've only seen half their faces and nothing from them abt their kids's relationship. I mean, it kinda bothers me how we've seen the views of Isagi, Bachira, Chigiri, even Hiori's parents when he's not a main character, Yet we got no input from the Itoshis. Do they just not notice? Are they a bit neglectful esp since they let a 13 yr old Sae go to another country alone? Do they let their kids do whatever they want including fighting for a year? Who knows? I'll love to know your thoughts tho.

Again, thank you for the lovely metas which made me feel a little less alone in the fandom. Have a great day :)

Isagi stans, please rise up and help characterise him properly lmao

Stupid long response under the cut, as always.

Rant about my issues with the general fandom characterisation about Isagi. Sorry anon if this isn't what you wanted, I have a lot of Thoughts and Salt where Isagi is concerned, and I am Fandom Old who is growing incredibly sad with how divisive current fandom is over a whole host of things. Skip to Itoshi if you don't wanna read about Isagi + fandom musings. Skip to parents if you wanna read about my thoughts on the family dynamics.

Isagi is, for better or worse, the stock shonen MC. He's enough of a regular guy for the target readers, which are teenage boys, to identify with. As he's the MC, the story overall serves to validate and support him, so long as he fits the themes the author is working on, which for Blue Lock, is the concept of being the best at what you're doing, while also bringing out the best in others, and then working together successfully to achieve goals (i.e. the World Cup).

But, Kaneshiro-sensei's also a strategic writer. Isagi, because he's such a bland self-insert for the most part, combined with how he has a very weird form of Power of Heart, has wound up being an especially attractive character for those who like harem, or reverse-harem series. Which then, for better or worse, brings all the fujoshi fangirls around (the curse of so many attractive characters). But most especially the fujoshi fangirls who are a fan of all x MC ships. I am emphasizing all x MC here, because east Asian/gen Asian fandom, have grown incredibly restrictive and rigid about top x bottom dynamics, which is a whole host of other things and issues to talk about.

Look up any popular shonen jump title, you'll find that these shippers generally have the same tastes, and move around the same fandom circles. You'll usually find them shipping all x MC ships, from Izuku to Tanjirou to Yuuji to Naruto etc. Overall, how they characterise them never deviates all that much. It's the nice, 'innocent', naive, guy who is a bit of a pushover, and who has all the other hot characters wanting to get in their pants. That's where Isagi falls into as well, for these shippers. The more thorny and less 'nice guy' parts of his characterisation gets sanded down, though YMMV whether this is a skill issue by fandom or simply a cultural readership interpretation difference altogether.

On the Itoshi bros:

Yep, Rin has a lot of repression issues. I wouldn't go so far as to say that Rin has no idea at all about his issues (how else would he pick out Bachira's loneliness so quickly lol, also there's some hints from official guidebook), but he definitely lacks self-awareness. I also agree that he and Nagi seem to be on different areas at the spectrum of depression (Nagi being apathetic, Rin being hostile).

If there's anything to parallel Rin and Kunigami, I'd say that it's the 'loss of a dream' and 'loss of companions'. In the manga proper, Rin does seem happier before the fight with Sae, like how Kunigami looked happier pre-WC. However, the light novel shows that Rin was already repressing both himself and his style of football to imitate Sae long before then due to external pressures by his teammates and coach, and even more severely than Isagi, who also didn't have much of a relationship with his own teammates from Ichinan.

If Sae had tried to explain more than that one line about 'the world being vast', they wouldn't have such a strained relationship right now, honestly. While I don't think that Rin would have fully understood what Sae was trying to say because he lacked the experience and perspective, I do think he would have been more supportive, which would have been better overall, for the both of them. They were both idiots that night, lmao, though I do view Sae as having been punished by the narrative when he pushed his dream onto Rin.

About the Itoshi parents:

We know that Rin and Sae presumably used to share a room and a double bed as kids (albeit a fairly spacious one, from the looks of it), which makes me think that they're more likely to be middle class than upper class. Young Rin also accompanied Sae to his soccer practice games, rather than going off for other classes like say, art, which implies that his parents might not have been able to afford it. Sae also walked home with Rin, which further implies that they're parents are busy, though its more of a norm in JP. Possibly a double income household, to fund Sae, and later, Rin's coaching fees and time with the youth football squad. Also a household that seems to have no qualms about Sae, and later, Rin's rudeness and hostility, although they may tone it down around their parents. Sae must have picked his attitude up from somewhere.

I'm reluctant to call the Itoshi parents sending Sae to Madrid at 13 as intentionally neglectful, because there are cultural nuances there. I think the best parallel I can draw is parents from less-developed nations sending their children overseas from an early age to secure eventual permanent residency and establish a life in a more developed nation. Sometimes, home just isn’t good enough. And this is one of Blue Lock’s main story themes: that Japan’s football, as it is, isn’t good enough. They have neither the organizational structure, infrastructure, nor support to get the World Cup that Sae, Anri and possibly Ego, covets.

Sae's dream, and talent, is in football. He's been scouted by perhaps the most successful team in the Blue Lock world, with a world-class program for youths, and has been given the best chance possible, for any kid in his shoes, to fulfill his dream to be the best striker in the world. He's being sponsored, and he also left with a manager who would presumably, help take care of him whilst he was there. Sae isn't going there like say, Ashito from Aoi Ashi, who needed to go through a trial to even be considered for acceptance into the youth squad. He's going there as the equivalent of a golden scholarship student scouted for a potential future work placement, with the likely backing of the JFA.

What alternatives could his parents offer him if he stayed in Japan? His own speech to Sendou pre-blue lock vs U20 match encapsulates what could have been for him (Sendou is very much a foil to Sae, especially now that we know they're both redheads lmao). Being the best in Japan, a middle-of-the-road striker in the world, retiring with an average, albeit decent life. Sae's too egoistic, too talented, too greedy to be content with a life like that. I wouldn't be surprised if Sae had also begged his parents hard to let him go, since it's pretty much all he wanted as a kid.

That's without even taking into account the other problems his parents would face if they immigrated with Sae. How to take care of Rin and his education there, for starters. Rent and housing, finding jobs in Madrid where they likely can't speak the language, and face discrimination.

I think we don't get their parents faces because Rin and Sae's story, and their relationship with their parents, are simply emotionally distant. I don't think they have much parental control over Rin or Sae either.  Sae's been more or less looking after himself/being taken care of by Real Madrid + his manager in Spain since 13, and Rin has been strongly implied to be in much the same shoes since Sae left, to a lesser extent. I doubt they know the more minute details about Rin and Sae’s school life and team experience, both within and out of Japan. I even doubt that they know that Rin and Sae had a fight, honestly, though I can also see them being the kind of parents who will let their kids sort things out between themselves.

Overall: Itoshi parents takes care of them physically (buys them material things, makes sure they have a home to stay in, have a physical caretaker in their place), but emotionally? Rin and Sae seem to be pretty much left on their own. No wonder their relationship with each other broke down, and what little relationships they have with others seem like such a convoluted mess.

Thanks for sending the ask! I love hearing from people what they think about the latest chapters, characters, relationships etc. I hope you have a great day too!

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