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why-animals-do-the-thing · 1 year

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hi there! love your work! i recently had a prof say that all zoos (USA) are bad (so we shouldn't support them) and sanctuaries are better because using animals for entertainment is morally wrong, most zoo profits dont go to conservation, and conservation efforts are bandaid solutions to capitalism destroying animal habitats, so the real solution is to return the land to indigenous stewards to manage/rewild. i didn't disagree with the last bit, but the argument as a whole felt a little off to me for a reason i couldnt put my finger on. am i off base here? just feeling really unsure about the whole thing.

You're not wrong! There's a mix of reality and personal opinions in those statements, and it's definitely something worth critically examining. A quick fact-check of what they said for you:

All US zoos are bad

There's a massive range of quality of zoological facilities within the US (and around the world). Some are stellar and some are not, and it's really just not accurate to lump them all under the same umbrella for almost any purpose. Unless, of course, your issue isn't with animal welfare, and it's philosophical, which is what it sound like in #2...

2. Using animals for entertainment is morally wrong.

This is one of my favorite things to talk about w/r/t how we exhibit animals. Entertainment has become equated with exploitation and implicit low welfare in the last couple decades, and so you get a lot of people saying using animals for entertainment is wrong. But those same folk will say that they enjoy seeing animals in other contexts, and they think that's okay. Where's the line between enjoying something and being entertained by it? What makes something one and not the other? Also, we know that people learn better from from situations which are enjoyable/entertaining - even just a fun teacher who jokes around vs a dry lecture - so how can that only be a problem when it's used to make viewing animals more impactful? I wrote a whole piece on this a while back (linked here) if you want to dig into this more. Some zoos (and accrediting groups) are shying away from "entertainment" type branding - shows are demos now, for instance - and others are leaning into "edutainment" that's done with good welfare and communicates actual education messaging. In short, this is a personal philosophical belief, and you're right to question if you agree. (Even if you decide you do think that too! It's always good to question why someone is arguing what they believe about animal use, and how they came to believe it).

3. Sanctuaries are better than zoos.

There's two reasons I think he's misinformed here. First, almost all exotic animal sanctuaries in the US are licensed exhibitors - just like zoos! I only know of a couple that don't exhibit to the public at all. It's an important part of their revenue stream, because gate take helps support paying for animal care. Also anything you see from a sanctuary on Youtube, Facebook, or TikTok? Also exhibition! They just message about it differently, and often have a different ethos about how they exhibit (e.g. tours to reduce stress instead of letting people wander, doing conservation or rescue messaging instead of just display). Second... look, most people assume that the word "sanctuary" means a facility is intrinsically more ethical than a zoo, and therefore they must be a good place. In reality, many sanctuaries get much less public and regulatory scrutiny (at the state level) than most zoos. There are good sanctuaries out there, but there are also sanctuaries where stuff goes on that would absolutely be unacceptable at zoos, and it slides because of the assumption that sanctuaries are inherently more moral and ethical and care for their animals better.

4. Most zoo profits don't go to conservation

This is correct! Direct conservation funding is often a small part of the money a zoo makes. However, that's because money goes to things like facility maintenance, new construction, paying salaries, etc. If zoos put all the money they made back into conservation programs, practically, they wouldn't have the funding to continue to operate. The question that I'd suggest asking instead is "where are they putting money into conservation" and "are they doing conservation work or just throwing money at something to display the logo of the program." Also, it's worth keeping in mind that a lot of what zoos do to support conservation isn't necessarily financial. Many facilities contribute "in-kind", by doing things like sending staff to assist with programs or teach specific skills, or by donating things like vehicles and equipment. Research zoos do also seriously contributes to in-situ programs, and breeding programs for re-introduction like the scimitar-horned oryx and the black-footed ferret are also conservation. Could many of the big urban facilities with huge budgets do more? Yes. But looking just at dollars spent on conservation programs is disingenuous and inaccurate.

5. Conservation efforts are band-aid solutions to capitalism destroying habitats / Returning the land to indigenous peoples to manage/rewild is the real solution to conservation issues

This is a little outside my scope so I'm going to only address the part that I know. First off, like, there's no One True Answer to conservation issues. That's reductionist and inaccurate. Conservation really is a human issue, though, and it often has to involve solving human problems that lead to negative results for animals. There's definitely an issue with what some people call "parachute conservation" where Westerners swoop in and try to tell people living in range countries how to best manage their animals and natural resources without recognizing their perspectives, needs, or what drives their behavior towards those animals. That's not just a zoo issue - that's an issue with a ton of traditional Western conservation work. And there is progress towards fixing it! In the zoo world, I've been very impressed with the work out of The Living Desert, where their conservation people spend a lot of time overseas teaching people in range countries to evaluate and improve their own conservation programs, so they can assess efficacy and also have data to apply for grants, etc. They provide support when asked, rather than trying to tell people who live with these animals regularly what to do. One of my favorite programs that TLD collaborates with (they don't try to run it!) is a group called the Black Mambas that reduces poaching by supporting entire communities to reduce the desperation for food/income, educating kids about animals, and running all-female patrols staffed by community members.

Overall, it sounds like your professor's view of zoos is really informed by their personal moral perspective, and possibly reinforced by a lot of the misinformation / misleading messaging that exists about the industry and about conservation work. They do have some specifics right, but not necessarily the context to inform why things are like that. It was a good catch to question the mix of information and approach it critically.

#zoo industry #zoo information #philosophy around zoos and what they do #conservation #zoo questions

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cinnamoneve · 6 months

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What's your opinion about gojo , is he a green flag or red flag or both (when he genuinely date someone or like someone or normally,and why ? give us a detail answer please

nonnie i want to kiss your big beautiful brain ♡ definitely a little bit of both, and of course i'll go into detail ab anything gojo :) thank you for your question !!

𝐠𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮'𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐯. 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐬

𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐬 - anything casual

⤷ at his core, gojo is selfish; but that doesn't mean he's incapable of change w the right person!

⤷ if you're in a casual, new, or even friends-with-benefits situation, you simply are not a priority to him. really, you're something to pass the time, get his rocks off, or boost his ego

⤷ he knows this, and he knows it's terrible. he can't dedicate the time or the investment into a relationship if he doesn't see it going anywhere. but he does keep it around to entertain him.

⤷ and if you're not free to keep him busy, well! he's gonna move on to the next. unless he's committed and there's a label, it doesn't exist in his mind ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

⤷ habitual ghoster (sorry). he simply cannot be caught up in any of that, just takes what he wants/needs and slips away

⤷ notoriously can't commit. brushes you off every time. once he's locked down, he is for LIFE but until then he's gonna dodge it every chance he can. gotta stand out to be important to the strongest!

⤷ he's a tough nut to crack and hard to break through to - he's got a lot of walls up underneath his façade to keep anyone out. it's a little bit of a passion project, a little fixer-upper, if you will, but it's all worth it (personally i love the color red and i love fixing people sooo hehe)

buuuuuuuut let's talk about some green flags:

𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐬 - anything committed

⤷ if it's mutual and he's all in, this man is loyal to his core! just wants to be understood and to understand in return

⤷ sappy. once you bridge that gap of understanding, he is ALL IN !! all in. he wants to attach to you at the hip and be with you all the time

⤷ a hopeless romantic as well--didn't think he'd ever find a love like this, so he soaks it all up while he can. leaves you little notes everywhere, spoils you all the time, brings you gifts on every instance he can

⤷ did i mention needs to be attached at the hip? good luck ever showering by yourself or going to the store alone

⤷ surprisingly very good at communicating and listening. can get a little pouty and childish if he's upset, but needs some time to blow over before he can really focus in and listen

⤷ seeps you into every aspect of his life. you're teaching with him, you're taking his students out, you're going to all the school's activities and helping him with anything you can

⤷ protective of you! will work you into every aspect of his life EXCEPT for the dangerous ones. can't go on missions, sorry! can't go out late at night by yourself, sorry! who knows what's out there to hurt you when he can't protect you

⤷ indulges you and spoils you in every way he can. makes his best effort to understand you so he can comfort and love you in the way you deserve. a flip switches when he's committed, and there's nothing he wouldn't do for the one he loves.

tldr; lock him down if you wanna see the best version of him! if not, the walls he puts up are lined with red flags, baby!!

#asks ! ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ #gojou satoru x reader #gojo satoru headcanons #satoru gojo #gojo satoru x reader #gojo satoru #jjk gojo #jjk fluff #jjk headcanons #jjk x reader #jujutsu gojo #gojo headcanons #gojo x reader #♡ satoru

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karczel-fanzone · 6 months

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POV:You failed civics (┬┬﹏┬┬)

Kny High School AU! Gyomei x Reader with severe Social Anxiety

Word count: 930

Warning: Overthinking, Anxiety, and Panic attack description from reader's POV

Just Gyomei being a teacher | Platonic

You appear before the teacher’s room.

Sweat runs down your face from sprinting here and feeling of dread as you stand before the door to it.

It’s your first time failing any test.

And you already heard a mouthful from your parents.

“Seriously?! You failed civics!?”

“Out of every other subject!?”

You have always been bad at socializing and communication.

And you either weren’t paying attention in class or drawing the time away, as you can just use common sense to pass those tests, you thought.

To your surprise, there were laws and ethical conundrums in the test, with situations that you’ve never considered the effects of the outcome before, nor their appropriate answers.

And all the homework you forget to submit that adds up to this moment.

To your efforts, you’re just a few points away from passing this exam.

It seemed like your common sense is worse than you thought,

And you were the only one who missed the first regrading opportunity, so you’re pretty much on your own.

You don’t know if he’ll deduct even more scores that you can get just because of this or make an even harder version of the test than the first one, and the first retest version.

*sniffles*

You knock on the door 2 times, before going in

“Hello… is Mr. Himejima here?”

You felt so tiny and scared in this room full of adults.

Your communication skills were bad among your peers, and even worse with adults as you tried your best to not cry abruptly from sheer intimidation that creeps up to the back of your skull.

You feel your throat painfully trying to close in on itself as you try your hardest to fight against that to not end up speaking in illiterate croaking sounds.

“Yeah? That’s me”

He lifted his head up from his desk as he seemed to be working on something… grades, maybe?

The thought makes you feel guilty and nervous, like you’ve been pricked with a thousand tiny needles under your skin.

“Yes”

You nodded haphazardly.

“What have you come here for?”

“I c-come to take- “

Your throat betrays you as you feel more eyes from the other teachers in the room land on you and you can only breathe in panic as you start to feel a bit woozy.

“What’s wrong?”

“i-I-uhhhhh…”

You felt cold sweats on the side of your forehead as you internally try to regain control of yourself.

But maybe announcing your failure to the entire room of teachers might be too much of a step to take, right now.

Your legs are shaking threatening to make you fall over at any moment.

“Hello?”

Himejima gets up and clicks his tongue near-silently to navigate with the sound that bounces off nearby physical objects as he gets up and makes his way over to you.

He scares you even worse as he’s standing in front of you, terrifying you so bad you almost faint from your own fear.

“h-ah-h- I’m- “

He waits for your answer patiently with a moderate distance from you as you try to speak again.

“I-… I failed you!”

“What?”

He’s just as perplexed as you are.

“w-wait no I mean- “

“I- It’s ok, I’m not disappointed in you.”

“Ah- “

Your low-esteem self automatically thinks that’s because he has no expectations of you since the very beginning, but you keep that thought to yourself, as you realize you can’t stop overthinking.

“You’re the last person who didn’t take the makeup exam right?”

“Y-yes!”

You nod so hard your head’s about to fall off, fearing words might’ve failed you.

“Well, you can take this open book test on the empty desk over there, since you’re the only one left.”

You let out a choked gasp in your throat with closed mouth as you heard the last part.

“N-no pressure, t- take your time.”

“Hfu…”

Hearing that made you give out a sigh that took your stress out a little.

You take out your book and a few online mind maps you printed out to memorize for the past 2 days and start to work on your make-up exam.

You spent a few minutes staring at each question with no thoughts, which made Gyomei a little worried as you seemed very on edge about this test. Granted that he couldn’t even see your facial expression, but he could tell from the taps of your foot and the sound of biting fingernails.

“…You can listen to music if that helps?”

You gasped in surprise.

“Thanks, I appreciate it.”

And there you were, looking between your book and the test, breathing more calmly as you listen to your earphones.

It calmed your nerves, and you even doodled on the empty space before turning it in.

“I’m done! …Sir!”

as your hands in your test papers.

You’re not sure if the ‘sir’ made things more awkward, but it felt more right to say, rather than without.

“Ah, hm”

He gently accepts the papers that were outstretched to him, the same paper you were scared to take just a moment ago.

“…”

You two exchange stares without any words, with either of you having any ideas on why the other kept staring back.

“Um…”

“Am I good?”

“What?”

“Uh… Am I good to go?”

“Oh- yeah, yeah. Did you put in your names, number, and class?”

“Yep!”

“Ok, you’re good to go.”

“Thank you! Thank you very much!”

You put a thumbs up to express your joy with a smile on your face,

And he reluctantly returns the gesture.

More fan works and fan stuffs @karczel-fanzone! ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

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shentheauthor · 1 year

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hc for how the Harbingers' react to their s/o having a panic attack? Specially one that's due to the s/o having social anxiety?

Heyo, sorry this took me longer than usual to get to! I don’t have social anxiety, but I hope I do ok with this.

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Pierro:

Removes you from the situation

He will try to get you out of there as fast as possible

When you’re in a quiet place, he’ll walk you through breathing exercises

He def understands panic attacks

You cannot tell me he hasn’t had them before

So he’ll just talk you through it

And he won’t force you to go back into the social situation that caused it

He has obligations as a harbinger, so he might not be able to stay with you the whole time, but he will make sure you’re okay before he leaves

Chad old man, 10/10

Capitano:

He would also 100% understand panic attacks

If he doesn’t have them himself, he def has soldiers who do

While he isn’t experienced with social anxiety, if you communicate w him about it, he will make an effort to understand

Basically just tries to be there for you and talk you down

He’ll make sure nobody is looking at you

Tries to help keep you grounded

If you’re ok to be touched, he’ll rub your back and hold your hand

If not, he’ll just stand and hope his presence helps

Another 10/10

Dottore:

Ok I’m gonna be level w you

He sucks MGKBKBFJBKKDKVJDJ

But hey he will put in an effort 😭😭😭

It would take him a while to realize what’s happening to you, but when he does, he’s already moving to get you to a quiet place

He doesn’t know what to do with himself

So he’ll just ramble about the physical symptoms of a panic attack 😭

He’s trying, ok?

He wouldn’t really be much of a help, but at least he will stay with you until you’re calm

And reassure you when you’re okay enough for it

After the first time it happens, he’ll study up on how to help

He does genuinely care, even if he doesn’t know how to show it

I’m giving him a 3/10 JGKBKFKG

Columbina:

MUCH better than Dottore, first of all

She won’t necessarily remove you from the situation at first

Just tries to quietly ground you where you are

If it doesn’t work tho, she will leave with you

Talks you down to the best of her ability

Definitely knows the 5-4-3-2-1 technique thing

“Name five things you can see, four things you can touch, three things you can hear, two things you can smell, and one thing you can taste”

When you’re sufficiently calm, she’ll sing to try and soothe you

Very understanding

If anyone saw you having a panic attack, they’ll pretend they didn’t bc columbina is lowkey scary NGKBKFM

11/10, would recommend

Arlecchino:

Mmmm she kinda sucks too

But not as bad as Dottore

She’s the type to tell you to “suck it up” before she realizes it’s completely serious

Then she snaps into caring mode

Immediately whisks you away while glaring at anyone who so much as glances at you

Shockingly good at talking you down when she understands what’s going on

She might sound a bit harsh while talking to you, but she isn’t a very soft person in general

And she’s trying her best

She’ll def get better as time goes on

She will memorize the techniques that work for you, and help you prepare for social situations beforehand to prevent another panic attack

All in all, 6/10

Pulcinella:

Oh he would be so good at this

Similar to Pierro in how he treats you

So gentle and patient

He might try and get you to go back to where you left after

But he won’t push it if you can’t

He will let you use him as a comfort item, like a teddy bear

I genuinely love him sm

9/10

Scaramouche:

Another who would tell you to suck it up

But once he realizes that you really, truly can’t, he’ll soften

Gets you outta there so fast

Threatens anyone who stares JFVKFKF

He wouldn’t really know how to help you, but he knows humans are supposed to breathe

So he’ll try to help you w that

I hc that he sorta has fake lungs, so he can make breathing noises

Gets you to breathe along with him

He won’t make you go back when you’re calmed down, shockingly

“I don’t want to go back either. It’s a drag.”

Get you a man who helps you skip social interactions

7/10

Sandrone:

She doesn’t understand people

And her only experiences with panic attacks have been other people having them because of her

But when she found out you have social anxiety, she prepared herself

So she actually knows exactly what to do

She likes having control over everything in her life, for the most part, and this is something she can help you control as well

She’ll walk you through breathing exercises and grounding techniques

She naturally sounds harsh, but she will try to communicate that she doesn’t mean it

She struggles with understanding how other people feel, but if she thinks of it like machines, it helps

“Sometimes machines overheat and need to rest in order to operate normally”

She also hates people, like Scara, so she won’t make you go back either LMAO

Shockingly helpful, 8/10

Signora:

Instantly ready to go

Removes you as fast as possible and tries to help calm you down

It takes a lot to thaw her heart, but since you’ve already done that, she will be so good at this

Very patient and understanding

Knows grounding techniques bc she did hella research

She’ll talk to you softly long after you’re already calm

Helping you feel like your normal self

She will maim anyone who dares to comment on it after

She’ll also help you prepare for future situations, and is generally extremely patient

12/10, I adore her, and she would be so soft for her s/o

Pantalone:

He also kinda sucks MFKBKF

He spent his whole life clawing his way to the top and essentially turning off his empathy for other people

But for you, he will shove aside his cutthroat business man attitude and try his damn hardest

He doesn’t know how to help with panic attacks

Like at all

All he knows is breathing helps

So he’ll just take you out of the situation and sit with you until you can speak enough to help him help you

He’ll learn what you need to calm down over time, but there will be a period where he just sucks ass

I love him, but he def can’t handle people he cares about going through a panic attack

Usually he’s the one causing them

He’ll buy you shit as an apology for being terrible tho, so there’s that

And he def pays attention to what you like and what you need, so those gifts would be so good

Basically, he doesn’t know shit, but he is willing to learn

5/10

Tartaglia:

By far the best out of all of the harbingers, even including the ones I rated higher than a 10/10

I hc that at least one of his siblings has social anxiety

So he knows exactly what to do

Takes you out of the situation, walks you through grounding techniques and breathing exercises

Gets you water and offers any physical comfort you may need

Respects your space if you require it

Talks to you for a while after and tries to get you to smile

He would notice you’re starting to have a panic attack before you do, probably

So nobody would even see, and you would be able to calm down p fast compared to the others

He will just be so gentle w you

And he will also help prepare you for future situations

Literally just the most understanding

48384/10

I hope these hcs are ok fkvkekgkekvkg I also hope they aren’t too repetitive…

#genshin impact #harbinger headcanons #Fatui harbingers #Shen’s headcanons #Pierro #capitano #Dottore #columbina #Arlecchino #pulcinella #Scaramouche #Sandrone #Signora #Pantalone #Tartaglia

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m0tel6mxzzy · 1 year

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rue bennett, ginny miller, and lack of nuanced perception in how mental illness in black women works

i think the tragedy of euphoria (if i had to list just one) is partially the fandom’s lack of understanding of rue, leslie, and gia…cultural attitudes in the black community have a lot to do w why leslie acts the way she does. and then race is never mentioned bc sam levinson doesn’t comprehend the nuances of race and mental health in the black community.

he can comprehend addiction, but nothing like the fact rue being a black woman will have her heavily stigmatized by the black community as well as the predominantly white one she lives in as her “proving black stereotypes.”

that just hits a lot harder knowing in the beginning of s1, she has zero hope and so it feels very hollow when lexi encourages her sobriety, and again in s2 from jules when she’s going thru withdrawals. she is tired of being the scapegoat by everyone around her, even if they have valid reasons for wanting her to get clean and she is making decisions that harm others. and she feels during the s2 interaction with cassie that she is being pitied, simply cannot take it anymore, and retaliates bc she is just so tired of everyone around her being believed to be innocent and pure when they are not, and her being expected to be even in the throes of addiction and it being perceived as “not her.”

bc in a sense, rue is not her addiction. however, she’s lived with it so long that she is used to it, practically revels in the deviant label her entire schools mocks her with, and thus feels like she cannot leave. jules conflicts with this, because she cares for rue as a friend and romantically but is not going to associate with her if she continues. but even when she is sober, people like nate are shit talking her efforts to stay clean when they simply have no idea what she’s gone through, yet jules is proud of her despite rue finding it hard to stay clean. cassie only does the same as nate because she needs a defense for having gotten with him but not taking accountability for how that hurt maddy, even if she was right rue’s friendship with lexi was incredibly toxic and transactional. the issue here is everyone has valid points abt rue except for nate, but no one is seeing the nuances of her situation. it’s either “she’s good because she’s clean” or “she’s bad because she’s not” and jules seemed to be the only one blurring that line because she’s dealt with addiction in her family before.

leslie kind of reminds me of my mom in that she did help me thru mental issues, but it was a very “deviant” thing to do bc of how in most of black american society, racism is seen as something you need to be “stronger” than and thus stronger than any other obstacle. so realistically, some black ppl in rue’s extended family might actually ridicule her or attribute her addiction to personal flaws or solely her father’s death. rue is an atheist, but also her mother was this religious church girl in her youth and rue is seen in church settings during rehab. there’s a possibility leslie didn’t even tell others abt rue’s hospitalizations or if she did and word got around, she had to fabricate some sort of lie so rue would not be judged for her addiction.

and ppl perceive leslie as “overreacting” as they do gia and that’s very suspicious to me. idk like, as compared to ginny and georgia ginny has severe depression and georgia is like, praised for a lot of the manipulative shit she says to ginny when that’s a huge contribution to her mental issues not being resolved for as long as they were in the first place. i personally think a lot of the g&g fandom missed the point of the show—georgia is not perfect. loving your kids does not mean they don’t get to feel traumatized when you admit to murdering their step father. generational trauma is a thing and you cannot love someone into not acknowledging or feeling their extent of their own.

ginny and georgia somewhat makes that distinction in the therapy sessions by explaining bc georgia is white there is a lot of experiences she cant understand ginny has, so she cant just invalidate them. however the fandom is so corny and anti black that they will compare ginny’s trauma to georgia’s to undermine her. and then praise georgia for doing what she should’ve done as a parent which is support ginny and complain how ginny should be “more grateful to have her.” and say the same abt her father. that truly just paints an insidious lack of compassion for black women dealing w/ mental health issues. bc abby and marcus, dealing with their own, have quite never been given such animosity for having mental issues, they’ve actually been given much more sympathy.

#y’all. this took me 45 minutes to write #euphoria hbo #ginny and georgia #rue bennett #ginny miller #mazzy makes a giant ramble

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valsvastemporium · 2 years

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Starting Deity/Entity Work FAQ

deity/entity work and how ppl start varies greatly from person to person but I’ll try and cover the basics. answers will also vary on the pantheon the deity is a part of but for this ima speak generally on the main open pantheons (Greek, Roman, Norse, Celtic, Kemetic).

firstly I wanna give the general disclaimer that deity work is not the safest for beginners or the inexperienced. it’s a serious practice that involves active participation from both the devotee and the deity. it takes a solid proficiency in the basics (cleansing, banishing, protections/wards, vetting (making sure they're legit), how to use divination/form of communication and their pros/cons) to communicate with an entity safely. remember to not mess with things you can’t for sure deal with . the process will generally be the same for other entities who wish to work w you as well. another disclaimer is that deities generally won't reach out to beginners and u should really make sure you know what and who ur dealing with before proceeding as a beginner. and even if an entity does reach out it’s not always gonna be cuz they want to work w you, it could be they have a msg or they want ur worship instead . also learn the difference between worshipping and working w, worshipping is more onesided and there isn't much direct interaction, working w is a mutual agreement that involves direct communication and doesn't necessarily include worship.

i define deity/entity work as a mutual agreement between practitioner and spirit, who speak directly to one another and not just prayer, to work together to achieve whomever's goals usually in exchange for specific tasks, including offerings and the like.

1. so you think a deity reached out to you? cool! but now what do u do?

first, u have to actually decipher if this is a deity, plenty of beings are capable of sending signs, including your own subconscious, so it’s important to cipher thru and make sure u know what and who ur dealing w . and also remember everything has their own motive and reason for reaching out, it’s not always to work w you. this can be done by analyzing the signs you’re receiving and the situations in which you receive them, make sure to always check for the mundane first. signs can appear thru mundane means but most times something mundane is just that and holds no spiritual meaning. for ex., seeing crows aplenty, mundanely it's due to the changing of the seasons but that doesn’t always cancel out the current situation having spiritual value. remember that to interpret a deity's signs you have to understand their mythos and surrounding mythos, including their epithets. you won’t be able to understand them if you don’t make an effort to learn about them.

2. the signs are generally pointing to a deity, now what?

u wanna double or even triple-check, u can do this by asking others how they’d interpret the signs, or better yet you can do divination on it to figure it out. remember that during the divination ur not actually reaching out yet, ur asking ur divination tool to read the energy and help un-code it for you.

3. everything is saying yes and ur still getting signs pointing to a deity !!

now's the time to actually put ur best foot forward and reach out to see who it might be (if it wasn’t previously obvious). set your space, double check ur protections, and reach out. make sure you can actually interpret ur divination tools w not too much trouble, you don’t have to know them in depth and by memory but you should be comfortable enough with them to decipher different types of questions and answers. a reminder that you don’t have to accept their offer and you can reject them way before you get to this point, you can do it once u realize “oh damn something is reaching out” and it could be as simple as a thought in the wind. acceptance can also be done in the same way w a thought in the wind tho most ppl make an effort to do it more direct and semi-formal.

4. so u decided u want to work w them and they want to work w you! how do u start?

normally you would already have experience worshipping them and this would just deepen that relationship but ofc you don’t have to worship beforehand for them to reach out. if it’s a deity new to you then if possible you would set up an altar and start w some small devotional acts/offerings to get in the swing of things and get used to their energy.

5. what do u do w them?

what ur actual relationship would entail would highly depend on the deity and what they came into ur life for. it's a good idea to make up a "contract" of some sort to lay out yall's terms and conditions for the working relationship . this would generally include short term/long term/indefinite, how often the devotee will do offerings, what the deity will meddle in, how often yall check-in, what the deity will teach u, etc . this becomes increasingly more important with other entities. the contract doesn't have to be physical but it's recommended so u can always check back w it. it doesn't have to be formal either, it just has to be agreed upon by both parties involved. some relationships are fully contractual while others are more friendly and involved.

6. any more advice?

it's important to understand how the deity was worshipped in their prime. understanding the cultural context of the mythology is really good because u need to know how myths developed and were used, and the actual history. another thing is learning the difference between revivalist and reconstructionist views. remember you cant work w the beings of religions closed to you, the religions i named, in the beginning, had a point in time where they had no active followers. so the way they’re practiced now is merely a revivalist or reconstructionist perspective based on the information we have. religions like Judaism, Hinduism, indigenous religions, ATR (African traditional religions), Taoism, etc have all been kept active since their start and have their own special requirements to practice them. learning what's closed and what's open will further help u vet deities as those of faiths closed to you won’t be reaching out.

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@gynoids-over-androids putting under a cut bc i have a lot to say as always lmao

well i should start by saying i’ve never been to any gym or class in my life outside of the ones i did in my own home by myself (Pahla B on youtube for low-impact, most of Jillian Michaels’s filmography so far, Chloe Ting on youtube), so i was really nervous taking it outside of my living room so to speak

esp since i do have a few really odd-to-describe disabilities from my surgery aftermath that i always worried would make me feel like i had to explain everything to an instructor if i ever went to a class so as not to disrupt anyone. my life has been very small bc of those disabilities for about 10 years and i don’t have much interaction with large groups of people so i was also a bit nervous abt that bc i’ve been struggling to find a foothold in society since my last surgery.

that said, i have been working out for a few years, so i’m going in with what i would call a very good level of fitness and endurance already, and my plan was always that—to assure myself that i could build functional fitness at home over time by myself before setting foot in a class bc of my unusual bodily situation (? not sure what else to call it). so i can’t personally speak to if someone is going in from 100% sedentary, but as someone who’s pretty fit and never ever had instructors or community experience w exercise, so far i am loving it.

everyone there is so so nice and accommodating and there’s just no pretentiousness that i can sense at all. most of my fears have been allayed—i haven’t had to explain anything abt my disabilities to anyone and after trying out 2 places i really like the facility i chose. people of all ages and body types and fitness levels (there is an elderly man there who i swear to god looks like if the monopoly man was both shredded and yassified. same wax-styled mustache and everything), moms lifting and snatching massive barbells w their kids chilling in the stroller next to them. extremely casual atmosphere, but also so much control and structure and help.

and i’ve never had access to high quality equipment before, but the learning curve has no pressure on it so far. my very first day, the instructor made sure i was comfortable with everything and answered every single question i had and integrated me step by step into the rest of the class’s workout at my starting level to get familiar with using a barbell. it was really helpful and made me feel like i was part of the flow already.

i had to stop several times to make sure i wasn’t hurting myself (i have widespread nerve damage that means sometimes my lower body just. glitches and shuts down the connection to my brain’s intent and spasms for a bit and doesn’t do what i want it to do, and i lose all feeling so i panic bc i cant gauge where my body is—the litany goes on but basically i have many issues that crop up frequently during prolonged motion) but even when that happened it proved zero problem at all and no one noticed and i collected myself and got back into it and it was fine. modifications can be made for every move, which is something i learned with Pahla B workouts years ago, and applies here just as well, and i am stubborn in that optimism.

i was even feeling myself so much i wanted to try a box jump so i asked the instructor what the proper form was. she had me start by jumping on progressively higher stacked barbell plates just laid on the ground. and then i tried the box and i got it! and a bunch of people congratulated me or complimented my successful efforts and stopped after class to chat and introduce themselves which made it feel more team-like to me.

vibe seems to be: just do what you can, ask for help and guidance if you need it (i’m still new so i don’t know all the lingo or all the form cues yet but no one is looking at you making you feel scrutinized, everyone is just there to do their thing and they’re also super helpful if they walk by), and know that you’ll get better at everything you’re attempting w consistent attempt. which is just my basic philosophy anyway.

and ok yeah i’ve never been to a traditional gym before—well, i have a few times, and just never went back cuz i felt it was too polished for the likes of me lol (where i live is veryyyyy pretentious). the high gloss attitude truly just never appealed to me. works for some, just not me. in my area at least, everyone in traditional gyms are in some kind of coordinated outfit and are on their phones and taking videos and stuff (i really don’t like that aspect—i don’t consent to showing up in someone’s gym tiktok lol). so yeah especially these days, the feeling that there’s an image to be achieved in gyms just makes my skin crawl. and if i’m going to shell out for the price of any kind of gym membership, i’d rather it not be a place i get self-conscious in that i’m gonna be filmed or creeped on or something (my terror of men in gyms is well-founded).

so i opted for crossfit bc i’ve had family members who were sedentary and went and loved it and saw amazing gains. and everyone at the place im at is way too busy to be filming or creeping (so far). and i do def already feel like it’s built for functional improvement toward accomplished strength, not merely an image of strength. like, i played outside constantly as a kid and it reminds me of that feeling lol, not least bc of the open-air-warehouse-unit concept. i think im too scrappy to ever be a traditional gym person, but crossfit is totally my vibe so far. no one cares enough to judge what your deal is, which is prob #1 on my ranking of important qualities for a fitness facility.

and while my level of general fitness is what i would call really good, i’m still a total beginner to crossfit kinds of work, work with equipment at all, and i’ve NEVER done group gym classes. so my nervousness about not being amazing at something immediately (huge impediment in my life generally) was a biggie but has proved to be baseless. crossfit seems to has no time or attention for individual compulsive fears or momentary embarrassments. which i absolutely love.

but to answer your original question TL;DR—i think it’s tougher than anything i’ve ever seen! grizzlier by far if nothing else—definitely no frills (it’s refreshing to see no makeup yet!). everyone seems to be of a same kind of no-nonsense grit—dunno how to describe it. what i’m observing the experienced crossfitters doing looks wicked hard, but it’s still very accommodating for all levels of fitness to hone. as in, it looks like some of the hardest shit i’ve ever seen anyone do, but that’s what i will be working toward at my own pace, and it’s exciting.

one of the moms i mentioned earlier was snatching thee heaviest barbell weight in the entire class, even more than the men (i checked), like it was nothing and then she went checked on her baby in between like it was all nbd. i was like god damn girl that is so metal. where else are you gonna see that

so. that’s just my first impressions so far! i signed up for 10 classes to see how it goes so i will report back :)

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i hope it's okay to ask this, but what are your tips for a long lasting healthy relationship? what do you and your husband do that sustains such a loving connection? thank you c:

(p.s i think gushing about your husband on main is really cute, i love seeing people in love)

aAawkwjjwab this so sweet <3

weve been together 7 yrs and lived together 5 yrs.... and we’ve had our fair share of issues but mainly that was bc of me and my benzo addiction turning me into like this possessed hypomanic monster for a year....other than the shit I did that year, we haven’t had problems. but I think we are bizarrely compatible, in every sphere, mentally, emotionally, and sexually. usually ppl piss me the fuck off if I’m around them for too long, or living w them, but I literally never feel that way with him. I dont feel the need to have privacy bc it’s like I’m not NOT having privacy with him? we r fine doing our own things in a shared space. i feel like he’s the only person I could ever live with that I could tolerate . and more than tolerate, I love living with him. so that was/is just pure luck lol

but a lot of the healthy things abt our relationship r things i learned from my husband. I never really had a healthy relationship in my life before him, including family. he emphasizes that by being in a relationship, we are a team. and that to me is a really nice perspective I never had before. as a team we should share the same goals and help and support each other. we do things for “the team” like even small things like chores are a team effort so if one of us is doing labor the other one offers help bc, the labor is for the benefit of the team. we work together so that it isn’t just one of us having the weight on their shoulders. working or going to school etc are for the long term benefit of the team... when we were living in a fucked household and then when we were homeless all we had was each other and it was like us, together, against every obstacle, and we got thru it all by caring for and supporting one another in all the ways we could and working together to change our situation

another thing is the rule that if one of us doesn’t want to have sex or doesn’t want to continue having sex that is respected without question or guilt or coercion. my previous relationship i literally never had a say when it came to sex, to the point where i was being r*ped multiple times a day like clockwork and i stopped even trying to protest bc it never amounted to anything. and the relationship before that, i was constantly guilted and coerced into performing sex acts I didn’t want to. so my husband’s rule in this regard, that i never ever agree to sex unless I 100% want to and he never ever complains or gets bothered by that, has been like... a blessing for me in mending my relationship to sex. and it results in the sex we have being far more intimate and pleasurable than like anything I’ve ever experienced, pretty much every single time.

another thing I can think of is like, constant open communication. this actually is really difficult at times for me.... bc I tend to get emotional and tantrum for lack of a better word and then, I’m forced to talk about it and why I did it and why/how it affected my husband etc.... but, it’s important. And in the end I’m glad I’m forced to have difficult conversations like that. we talk about our feelings, our needs and wants, our concerns, and things that bother us, and stuff like that — and we actually listen to each other. if one of us does something that hurts the other, we talk about it almost immediately. we check in with each other regularly to see how we’re doing as a team. he is extremely supportive when it comes to my chronic illness, he listens to me and takes me seriously. also he never ever yells?? I still think that’s crazy lol like growing up in a household getting yelled at daily, he’s never raised his voice at me. He makes me feel safe.

and I think finally we just share the same values and principles and ideology. being with someone whom you know you can talk about important things and they just get it, and u influence each other to learn new perspectives about things, I think is rly important. being with someone who didn’t share my values felt extremely isolating.

anyway that’s about all i can think of, sorry this was so long

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unproduciblesmackdown · 1 year

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occurring to me spinning off of other ppl talking abt similar things like, oh right, i guess my always like repeatedly going over / coming back around on the same thing phrased slightly different (like perhaps offering up similar words / phrases in a row between slashes lol) could be a behavior as someone who, being autistic, is generally misunderstood / misinterpreted when i say something, so trying to express something every which way and also sort of "translating" it into an alternate phrasing even as i'm saying it as an effort to increase the chances of someone parsing what i actually mean, or god forbid their realizing that they might be misinterpreting or missing something and seek out clarification (unfortunately either way i have not solved ableism and the double empathy problem. go figure)

like i've definitely consciously gone over a point repeatedly b/c i'm not sure someone's listening even though they're giving verbal affirmative responses. and then afterwards anyways it's evident that, in effect, i may as well have not said anything at all

and when it comes to talking specifically i sure can do a lot of it, and quickly, and it's like, well on the one hand i might like to talk, In Theory, for all the eternal lack of and/or limited opportunities to like, actually talk, socially, b/c i want to, with people i want to talk with. wherein some of it is sometimes obviously like "yeah i haven't gotten to express myself verbally For Real in fifty centuries so there's a ton of it happening now" but wherein it's also like, that so often even in more ordinary "practical" exchanges it's like, you have 5 seconds to respond & anything beyond that will be ignored, but oh also what you're saying in the 5 seconds might be ignored / so misinterpreted you may as well not have said anything, when there's not just the double empathy matter but that people are only saying something At you and there's maybe like one or two exact ways for you to respond "correctly" and that's all that would be parsed. lot of [the conversation "moves on"] or [you're the person who just so happens to "tend" to be interrupted / talked over] or [people are focused on something else and will be wandering away in twenty seconds] so like, anything you have to say has to be said Now. and also that when i communicate spontaneously, even comfortably, i gotta keep up with it or i might lose whatever train of thought or forget whatever thing i was about to say a moment ago. while on the other hand i can also Select / Edit what i'm going to say but that kind of communication might take "too long" for [no time delay] exchanges, so, and/or be deemed Weirdly phrased anyways. and if i'm trying to convey a concept/idea to someone else through the medium of language and that means expressing it a dozen different ways all in a row? all the more reason to need to talk 500 mph to even try to fit it in with the three seconds i probably don't actually have.

thinking of that like, the idea of Performance / Acting seeming more natural like oh right, the organic experience of effectively masking / trying to do things "correctly"/"normally" in a bunch of different situations w/different people being like, of course that could feel like acting, you're not even simply cutting & pasting the same role or mode into things every time you mask, b/c it's about taking the cues from the specific people in whatever specific situations, despite the idea allistic ppl have that they follow Rules and have their certain Skills that serve them well across the communicating / socializing board and that's why ppl don't ignore/exclude/reject/ostracise/punish/etc them like they do autistic people, when really the only constant factor they're operating with that serves them across the board is [being allistic]. also the affinity for linguistics when you've Already had cause to look at language as a system and one you can work with and be creative with, while also analyzing for patterns in usage and formation and like, the external examples of how it's evolved and analyze and question how people have interpreted what some language has been used to convey, like, especially interested in translation in that way, wherein there's that truth of like, generally it's not one to one equivalents b/w languages and literal "no one else could possible translate it otherwise" options every time, and there's Always effort and flexibility in translating something more closely to what's being said and to how Your translation would be interpreted by a third party, and that in translating the same language in different ways, different translations might prioritize trying to more accurately translate different elements vs another translation's effort, to say nothing of how deliberate omissions or effective mistranslations can be made to edit whatever concepts and that could be "invisible" to people who can't translate directly themselves. sure not that far from what it feels like just engaging w/nt people verbally. autistic people being """pedantic""" when noting potential ambiguity / alternate interpretations of something, weird for enjoying wordplay or choosing Unusual words to use in their own verbal communication....linguistics. the theatrical experience of like, you mean being around people as friends isn't "supposed" to feel like a tense matter of Trying to Act Right that you can only fuck up and even if you succeed you're just locked into that exact tense performance going forward?

but also of course, linguistics / language / translation is fun and engaging to me and i've always been interested in words and i am beyond some idea that it'll make me more successfully understood by allistic ppl or something. theatre has always been so fun to me that i didn't even realize i loved it / had that strong interest for the longest time b/c i just kind of figured everyone would feel that way (i never really felt that affinity or even theoretical interest towards like, acting in film though, which i suppose is the more "normal" version of acting, and if i was just experiencing The Default anyways, surely i would've. also there's no default ofc) and whether i could Only have some like, lively theatricality as this automatic way i am, it sure happens v naturally / spontaneously, like i'd have a very hard time not using my hands to illustrate everything / kind of interact w/my own thoughts spatially in real time, or making Big Expressions lol, probably don't have that big affect otherwise, sometimes when i'm like masking and do an "oh haha :)" stock response to someone and i'm not facing them it's like, my expression Is very unchanged from :I in that moment. cue every last thing that's like, easily this super mundane understandable reality for disabled people that's some horror media's "creative" cue like my god this person is too Inhuman of course they're going to kill me....just an elevated version of affirming how "normal" people already disdainfully feel abt Others(tm) irl??? horror could never :0 lmfao....as ever that i don't mind the genre in theory based on [scary on purpose] but that i dislike & disrespect so many tendencies & specific examples i really may as well say i dislike it. i don't come up w/ideas much but thinking like, horror short where you're just minding your own business, everyone else also acting "normal," but at any time inexplicably ppl suddenly lash out at you w/open aggression before everyone's quickly right back to "normal" & you're just supposed to continue??? like, that's [so someone's abusive], that's [so you're autistic]. wild how that overlaps (it's not)

also footnote abt how i even remembered the other day though that like, it's never felt right using [drawing] to do anything autobiographical or even to try drawing myself. obviously i wouldn't say the [me] in my very specific niche gay fanart of a "so true so verisimilitudinous" autistic fave over & over is very elusive or fathoms below the surface, even when transformative ideas & canon are not at all simply all like "wow exactly me," but that feels like less of a Conscious Translation than like, a diary comic or something like that would be, or god forbid the like pensive short essay through comic / illustration. that feels like translation as Masking, basically, like the process would feel artificial and like only an effort to make something more appealing and more inaccurate anyways. and like, the other way i talk about myself or convey the ideas i want to convey is just by talking or writing casually, just like so. and i also just think it's obvious like, Immediate Appeal is for the theoretical idea that oh ppl can just mask their way to Normalcy or choose to act right & be (almost) as good as Normal anyways, lol. that i don't want to do anything that feels like yet more Unilateral Effort to communicate and by trying to adopt whoever else's terms. like ofc being myself looks more like [do you like 1000 drawings of an extremely niche interest?] or [do you tolerate reading Short Essays in these bursts of verbal expression?] or perhaps not communicating b/c in practice it's generally punishing and it's like, when also people generally dislike / don't connect to you it's back at them b/c what else would it be, nothing's actually been unilateral the entire gd time

oh also being funny / using comedy deliberately as a more successful way to communicate is definitely a whole thing i'm onto too, but that could have its own paragraphs on paragraphs and it's already half past three while i mean to do something else, so. but it's also similar to everything else re language, theatricality, lol

#honorary menchie:#winston billions

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thurisazsalail · 2 years

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Look, your free time shit should not interfere with your job.

If you are personally vegan + you post about going meat-free, McDonald's should not be allowed to fire you. Let's get that straight.

But what happens when a person is in a position of power and can weild their personal opinions over others?

Like, say, a cop who posts about hating minorities?

Or say, a therapist who is working in a Salvation Army *shelter* who doesn't like BPD clients? And feels the need to tell people this publicly, where anyone can see it, including the very BPD people she hates? She didn't just say something confidential to a friend to vent frustrations. We ALL get frustrated with a situation. We do not all publish something like this in a public forum.

At that point, extra scrutiny might be needed because those are opinions that actually impact your job and the people who depend on you. People who are already in a fragile position, who can be destoyed on a fucking whim because someone doesn't Like your mental illness.

Look, I have severely BPD people in my life that I interact with regularly. Therapists in my area either don't treat BPD *at all* or have waiting lists several months long because BPD is SO HARD to treat!!1 incurable! ...

You know what else is basically incurable without some effort? Myopia. I'd have to pay a doctor and then pay for glasses (in the US.)

Or Celiac's. Only treatable with a totally gluten-free diet. Admittedly, my specialist doc only gave me a couple pages of black + white pamphlets on it, but at least she gave me a fucking pamphlet instead of TOTALLY dismissing me. Not only dismissing me, but also telling me that I'm personally a morally, spiritually bad abusive person for sometimes being grouchy because my main diet is bread and I'm in a lot of pain. My partner never tells me that I'm abusive when I'm having an anxiety attack because a restaurant we both loved has not only been taken from me by the betrayal of my own immune system, but it's ALSO been taken from my partner, who won't eat someplace they enjoy without me there. Because it isn't enjoyable without me there. No one tells me to "just calm down" and shit for Celiacs.

But they WILL for BPD.

THAT is why this shit is actually dangerous, especially to BPD people. Auto-rejected, labelled an abuser or like an 'abuser in waiting,' like a dangerous animal. Pair that with rejection sensitivity, paranoia, feelings of emptiness and deep lonliness... calling someone with BPD an abuser (esp w/o proof) isn't like calling someone like ME an abuser. I will laugh in your face and not care. A BPD person might circle on that in depression for months, do everything they can, even irrationally, to prove the opposite. That's why it's a *disorder.*

And frankly it's ridiculous that I've gotten helpful books + instructions from the fucking internet on how to help my BPD friends and they've done a lot of work to undo this "irreparably broken" self-image. Wonder where that image came from. They have some tools to help refocus, avoiding depressive pits or wildly out of control anger. I didn't make their lives better. They did. Just like I'd have to be responsible for my own glasses, they were responsible for finding techniques that worked for their own situations.

I figured this shit out and I barely have a shitty AA degree from a community college in *Florida.* What the fuck brands of cereal do I have to buy, for the right number of UPCs to mail in, to get MY phD?

#bpd #mental illness #therapists #salvation army #justice #mental health #borderline personality disorder

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atomicisms · 2 years

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KAI ONODERA

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FULL NAME: kai asahi onodera. NICKNAME(S): none BIRTHDAY: december 27th. AGE: thirty-four GENDER: cis man . PLACE OF BIRTH: seattle, wa SEXUAL ORIENTATION : heterosexual. ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: heteroromantic. SPECIES: Human (hunter). LANGUAGE(S): english, japanese. POSITIVE TRAITS : observant, resilient, disciplined NEGATIVE TRAITS: stoic, caustic, judgmental

P H Y S I O L O G Y

HEIGHT IN FEET: Five feet eleven inches. ETHNICITY: White & Japanese. EYE COLOR: Brown. HAIR COLOR: Black. GLASSES OR CONTACTS: Reading glasses. RIGHT OF LEFT HANDED: Right-handed. STYLE IN FASHION: Suits and leather. HANDWRITING: Clean and meticulous. SEXUAL HISTORY: Experienced. GENERAL HEALTH: Healthy. MEDICAL HISTORY: Wiped clean.. ALLERGIES: None. CHRONIC ILLNESSES: None. MENTAL ILLNESS: None. HANDICAPS: None.

F A M I L Y / R E L I G I O N

FATHER: Akio Onodera. MOTHER: Adelaide Thomas. SIBLINGS(S): None. BIRTH ORDER: First and only. MARITAL STATUS: Widower. SIGNIFICANT OTHER: No one. CHILDREN: Jasmine Onodera (deceased). OTHER RELATIVES: All deceased. FRIENDS: r.i.p ENEMIES: Several.. PET(S): A koi fish pond. LANGUAGE(S): English, Japanese. CURRENT RESIDENCE: Ashwick PLACES LIVED IN BETWEEN: Seattle, WA. DICTATION, ACCENT, ETC: None. RELIGION: Agnostic.. BELIEFS: None. SUPERSTITIONS: 4 and 9 are unlucky numbers.

W O R K / H O M E

EDUCATION: Bachelor’s in Science. OCCUPATION: Self-employed, private eye PLACE OF WORK: None. COWORKERS: None. STATUS & MONEY: Lower middle class. WORKSPACE: Clean and organized. EMPLOYMENT HISTORY: Worked as a science teacher before self-employment LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Alone in a three bedroom house ROOMMATES: None. NEIGHBORS: They're around. MAIN MODE OF TRANSPORTATION: An old chevy pickup truck

P E R S O N A L S E L E C T I O N

FOOD: Eats a bit of everything. LITERATURE: Textbooks and historical fiction. MUSIC: Classical music. CINEMA/TELEVISION: Black and white movies and TV. HOBBIES & RECREATION: Gardening. HOW THEY RELAX: Drinking whiskey and watching reruns. TALENTS: Martial arts, boxing, blade combat

P S Y C H O L O G Y

FEARS: Never finding the creature responsible for murdering his family. SECRETS: None. IQ: Above average. SLEEPING HABITS: Sleeps during the day, awake at night. EATING HABITS: Whatever there is. GROUPS OR ALONE: Alone. LEADER/FOLLOWER: Leader. PLANNED/SPONTANEOUS: Planned. JOURNAL ENTRIES: Descriptive data on supernatural creatures and their weaknesses. OBSESSIONS: Retribution.. ADDICTIONS: Coffee. AS SEEN BY OTHERS: An asshole. AS SEEN BY SELF: Also an asshole.

P E R S O N A L I T Y T Y P E : I S T J

Introversion | Sensing | Thinking | Judging

Logisticians pride themselves on their integrity. People with this personality type mean what they say, and when they commit to doing something, they make sure to follow through. This personality type makes up a good portion of the overall population, and while Logisticians may not be particularly flashy or attention-seeking, they do more than their share to keep society on a sturdy, stable foundation. In their families and their communities, Logisticians often earn respect for their reliability, their practicality, and their ability to stay grounded and logical, even in the most stressful situations.

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♑︎ SUN : CAPRICORN

Capricorn sign is ruled by the planet Saturn, which gives people born under this sign peace, patience, perseverance and ambition. These people are able to put maximum effort into work they have chosen to do or which they were told to do. They are friendly and cheerful people, but in their essence they are serious and responsible, and everything they do is based on these attitudes. They are very strong-willed and therefore usually achieve what they want and do not leave anything to chance. In business dealings they will adhere to well-defined contracts, and they will adhere to good practices during research work for preparatory studies or in the field of art. It is interesting that these people usually choose the most challenging tasks, and obstacles actually make them stronger instead of causing them hardship. It never bothers them to start the same task again and again until they attain the best possible result. Not many people are as suitable for research activity as Capricorns.

♍︎ MOON : VIRGO

Your feeling of safety is related to order and clarity, even in emotions. You may have the need to organize everything chaotic and disorganized. Try being more tolerant and accept imperfections of life. You may be terrified to show your dark side, but this can unnecessarily include something that your mother considered unacceptable or something that was denied to you in your childhood. Suppressing healthy, but problematic passions can turn into a hidden inner desire. Great emotional intensity and suppression of natural emotions can lead you into solitude, it is better to trust life and let it run its own way, not everything must be according to your expectations.

♍︎ ASCENDANT : VIRGO

People with Virgo Ascendant develop the best through spiritual analysis, discernment and self-criticism. Application of knowledge must be appropriate and consider the benefits that it brings - it must be beneficial to the public. The focus is interest in body and health. It is necessary to carefully select negative experiences in the person´s mind and get rid of them. Beware of obsession with neatness, precision and perfection because the person loses his natural spontaneity.

Sun and Moon Summary

You struggle to get as much status and power as possible to compensate for those fears. Your greatest pleasure comes from the admiration and prestige your work provides, so like all Capricorns, you are very career minded. You are very responsible and you are not really happy until you have plenty of power. You have the resolve to conquer any barrier and incredible determination and inner strength. Logical, thrifty, and cautious Virgo in your combination links up with determined, resolute, and career minded Capricorn. Your strength is cold, hard logic and you are a person with no illusions. You see things precisely as they are because you are a total pragmatist. Fantasies are a waste of time in your book. Instead of dreaming, you plan and are practical and efficient. Deep inside you most likely feel vague fears or indecision even though you appear rough, detached, and even a little cold. You also have fantastic powers of attentiveness and quite a mind. You are astute and calculating and know how to convince people of things, but for a lot of Capricorn-Virgos, winning becomes an end in itself. Participate in all the wonders of life, including the romantic and the religious. Do not allow your job and status to be an obsession. All Moons in Virgo people are picky, but your criticisms are frequently directed at yourself. Simply trying to accept yourself is the challenge for you. Your combination is perfectly fitted for managerial and leadership roles. Your rational and shrewd mind is ideal for academic activities. After you put your mind to something, you will be content until you have mastered it completely. A stable and equal relationship is important to your psychological well-being, but you are not exceptionally romantic. You are actually quite a sensitive person no matter how removed and cool you try to be. Do not try to deny or hide that sensitivity by taking on a role that is at odds with your true nature. Neurosis or self-destructive behavior can result from the fear of actual or imagined failings in life. You despise the idea of having any weaknesses. Capricorn-Virgos are never content. Regardless of how successful you are in life, something in you always tells you that you have not gone far enough. Try to have a little more sympathy for yourself because we all have limitations. Refrain from dwelling on those tiny imperfections you are you always think you have.

Zodiac Compatibility

Best: Taurus, Virgo, Scorpio, Pisces Worst: Gemini, Aries, Leo, Libra

M O R A L A L I G N M E N T : L A W F U L N E U T R A L

Typically driven by a strong sense of fairness and duty, these characters are often willing to take extreme personal risk to stay true to the accepted behavior and beliefs of their deity or society. Being morally neutral, a character of this alignment sees both good and evil as tools to use to maintain order. While members of many classes can be lawful neutral, the ideal class for this alignment is monk, whose dedication to their training, tradition, and personal perfection give them a clearly structured view of the world. Sometimes, however, a lawful neutral character can take their fervor too far, becoming near-tyrannical in the name of upholding justice and order.

B I O G R A P H Y

tba. im tired rn

QUICK FACTS:

He wife and child were murdered one night by some unknown creature.

He has taken on the life of hunting, and still searches for the one responsible for his family’s death.

While he is a hunter, he does not kill all supernatural creatures. He rather investigates them to determine their guilt and acts accordingly. If someone slips up, he is not afraid to go after them.

Works as a private eye to get by. Mainly investigating strange disappearances and the occasional adultery case that gets thrown on his desk.

W A N T E D C O N N E C T I O N S

tba

#kai: about #ill have to add the bio later rip me #ashwickintro

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croctus · 2 years

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4 for mr clawhammer, mr grimshaw, and miss mobius?

YO HI THANKS FOR THE ASK!!!

this is a fun one, ill get detailed w/ it

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?

CLAWHAMMER-

his relationship with his parents was... STRAINED, to say the least. and a lot of his baggage and emotional issues can probably be fairly easily traced to things he's stuck with because of them.

his father was, of course, the former Captain Clawhammer, south district born and raised, and a very very successful supervillain. his intentions were always to teach his son to be as strong, resilient, driven, and ruthless as himself at whatever the cost. he scorned any degree of emotional vulnerability or mercy

nael REALLY admired him, to a fault, and to this day mostly internalizes his more cruel/cold traits and choices as a father- such as waking him up in the middle of the night to spar or intentionally putting him in very dangerous situations.

his MOTHER meanwhile is entirely unlike this. she's a native of north district, and her culture has always been very high-society and appearance focused. although she much more pushes for open communication and emotional intelligence, any degree of 'messy emotions are highly frowned upon.

she's very against clawhammer's villainy- not necessarily for the fact that it puts her son in danger, but that its terribly low-brow and brutal work. she considers him much too smart for such nonsense!

although she's still very much alive, she's long since divorced herself of the whole operation, and has not much made the effort to reach out to her orphaned kid who now lives alone in a large industrial penthouse. go figure.

GRIMSHAW-

funny enough, despite grim being a cold, calculating, kind of eerie scientist, his folks are both very loving and supportive people. in fact, they inspired a degree of the design he made for his prosthetic legs! (being, a highly successful ballerina and a famous sculptor)

he stopped living with them around age 12, at which point they were doing all they could to provide medical care and disability assistance to their shy little boy, but once he went to study at Marunoko and begin his career and skyrocketed to fame as a medical prodigy, he did not speak to them again until he was already 19!

these days, he acts somewhat distant and professional around them, but makes a reserved effort to keep them in his life.

they are... a bit concerned for his health, but ecstatic for his career success.

MOBIUS-

so mob was raised by a single father and never much knew any other parental figure. he was sort of ditzy and often absent, but a very loving and kind person- an archeologist specializing in the pre-war world! sadly though this meant working long, long hours. mob sort of had to learn how to help in taking care of bills and food for them both at a young age, however they never took much issue with it.

mob actually enrolled in the nanobot program that would eventually make them a supersoldier/superhero due to the financial support itd provide their dad, and that it would allow him to live comfortably.

ironically these days, theyre the one who works long hours, and they rarely see much of him anymore

#thank you!!!

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limestoner · 11 days

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Thinking about why I have trouble distinguishing between different people’s voices on the phone, pick out a single person’s voice in a busy room, and have trouble remembering who told me what.

From infancy, my brain has a “file” on every word I have ever heard. Some files are fat: “the”, “me”, “and”. Some files are thin: got sidetracked trying to find the spelling of a word I remember hearing in a spelling bee. It sounded like /kaɲkılieɾəd/.

And that’s an example of how I seem to store every production of a word I ever hear. The way the sounds fit together. The way it can grammatically fit together with other words. Each word has “receptors” that only work with specified other words around them.

I remember feeling drawn to the crisp sounds in German: “sch,” “ß”, “w” as /v/. I still feel so comfortable — no, happy forming them.

When I talk to someone, my brain seems to:

1. Record a whole conversational turn.

2. Break down into sentences.

3. Break down into words.

4. Break down into sounds.

5. Add information acquired from new productions to the language files. Like the X Files but probably not at all really. I did it again. I can’t hear the meaning over the words.

6. Now I have new data points to add to rules about pronunciation, spelling, meanings, and grammatical construction.

7. This all happens instantly and without me thinking about it. What I do have to think about is making sure that I am mirroring the other person’s communication, and a good way to do that is by using the words they use and furthering the conversation by adding more.

8. But my brain does not seem to keep track of where the line is for “on topic” or “off topic.” I’m building with the same words but there is some other meaning that I can’t seem to access.

9. Meanwhile, I’m struggling to see what someone’s facial expression is telling me. I find facial expressions to be hard to distinguish, but when I make a social error and some has a strong reaction, it scares me. It’s like I can’t see faces unless it’s bad. It can take several seconds or more of “staring” at someone to tell if I recognize them or not and who they might be. I feel bad for not knowing who they are, so I’m hesitant to ask.

10. I like it when people who aren’t in my small inner circle remind me who they are when they approach. It helps my brain “set up” for the conversation.

11. If I hear or read: “We need to talk,” “Could you please call me?” “I have to tell you something later,” or the like, I’m filled with anxiety. I can’t prepare for the conversation, so I know I’ll take a long time forming responses, be entirely unable to modulate my tone or emotions, and may melt or shut down entirely, or leave the situation before I do.

12. And then sometimes I get to that situation and the person is like, “I just wanted to tell you that I couldn’t find that hot sauce you like.” Now I still have to craft an emotionally appropriate response that is calm even though my nerves are screaming because I had to be ready for ANYTHING.

13. These things happen fast enough that I’m usually able to come up with something satisfactory to respond with, but it feels like physical exertion in my nervous system. Too many unexpected communication situations and I lose my ability to communicate.

14. I like theatre because I have the words. I have the stage directions and blocking. I can enjoy an interaction with others and be in the moment because I don’t have to constantly check my words for associated physical behaviors that I have minimal or no control over.

15. When I combine words together, my face and body are trying to follow along, but they don’t always match. I don’t notice this, but others do.

I can still hear the different ways I’ve heard words pronounced and used. But because I was expending all my effort to make sure I look and sound “normal,” I can come away from conversations not knowing who I spoke to in any meaningful way. I love being on the stage, whether acting or lecturing. I can call up words I need across languages. I’m filled with fear when I know that back and forth social interaction lies ahead.

#actually autistic #gestalt language processing #language development

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meansealevel · 2 months

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What is pleasurable to the thing and how do you know this

Does this change? Is their personality fixed?

Am I imaging their qualities in my head? Yes. But am i not doing that with everyone else?

There's a way I cohere information gathered from other people as my working, always incomplete understanding of them, same way for a thing. The overarching patterns in the ways people treat things is worrisome to me on some level, however generative and beautiful it might also be. How do people read information/input? What are the mechanisms of any individual's interpretations? These things are seemingly laid bare in an interaction with something not normally seen as having social value or agency. Or in any situation where observing, interpreting, touching, are some of the only ways that work to reach toward something else's being.

A response is a response, sure. How do you interpret that response? Do you interpret everything that makes a computer work better, more smoothly, as a positive response? How do you know the computer likes working? If a person might desire to cut off their own limb in order to better interface with the world on their own terms, why isn't that also possible for a computer? As in, why is it not possible for a computer failing to do something or making some noise associated with an error to be read as an enjoyable response? What does a misreading mean in the context of love with an object? Do misunderstandings happen? If not... Why is that?

That there are such monopolistic commonalities in the ways of expressing interpretations of the personality of objects is what worries me, not any individual practices in themselves. Im basing this just off of what i know about objectum stuff based on video media and tumblr specifically.

Im thinking too, about the prevalence of mapping normative human ways of relating onto objects. Being objectum is already looked down on, is already suspect. On one hand i understand why what i might be seeing as a fault of someones bad imagination might also be a way to express this sort of love in a semipublic way in order to relate to others who do the same. As in, its safer to map human shit onto your object if youre going to be expressing love to your object at all, maybe, because at least those ways of relating are the already accepted ones. The anger there, then. Is that what should be ""reserved"" (what a word to use) for humans is now used for objects, and people interpret that as a threat to what is allowed to be considered human or not. Thinking about the propensity for people in comas/w paralysis/ etc to be considered vegetables and thus objects, etc.

But to me, something that 'sees itself' as nonhuman, disidentifies from humanity in its social actions and ways of relating (so, sure, an object, but also maybe the right sort of person) is something as infinitely unknowable as a person who can speak words and does so in expected fashion. The difference is that the implied certitude of words and language to describe something gets in the way of an understanding that could be deeper, more beautiful, maybe also more dangerous as far as projection goes. But I don't see projection as something inherently harmful--it is necessary to different extents based on experience and other bullshit. Whats more important are the causes and effects of actions, the feelings--so how do you come up with that information?

An aside. I see people trying very hard to own the community and control what possible identifications can exist, and unsurprisignly its thru those efforts and adjacent ones that seem to repeat the 'just find the best way to map a human body/human feelings/human responses onto your object'

And then i get disappointed in what 'humanity' thinks it is.

#objectum #ref #noniposting

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bilbobagginsomebabez · 3 months

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watching lola sebastian's video the movie james franco doesn't want you to see which discusses atrociously offensive autistic representation and makes me think of all the ways you could do it differently (read: acceptably, well).

i think i would ask a nonverbal autistic person like that blogger* on here that talks a lot about their experience and relationship to language and communication to co-write and/or produce depending on which roles are needed to ensure they're taken seriously. there are absolutely nonverbal autistic people who want to participate in communal acts of creation, who want to present their experiences as art and a representation of what it means to be human. it's worth the effort to find them and involve them. it's necessary.

which brings me to how. this is also a logistical question! depending on their comfort with unfamiliar social environments, i'd probably either A) set them up with a livestream of set at home, a groupchat w the actor, director, producer etc, and whatever other accommodations they need to provide feedback and perspective or B)** if they were comfortable on set, get noise cancelling headphones, a private trailer for Safe Quiet Dont Bother Me Zone, an ipad or something for the groupchat system, and pre-plan a flag-for-attention signal in case any texts get missed. i'd also need a system of hard-drives or cloud storage so my collaborator could review footage at their own pace during filming and catch anything they might have missed. as I understand it, nonverbal autistic people also need extra time to parse language which can be exacerbated by a frantic/urgent/high pressure social environment. so asking them to provide all their feedback on set during filming is just. no.

based on the movies [never been on a set], i think the 'do not enter' zone on a set is communicated through social signals like everybody just kind of avoiding the area and assuming it's obvious, but that isn't obvious for autistic people. so maybe like green screen colored tape around the areas that will be in the camera's view that day. spraypaint on the grass? if sets do not already have this as standard practice, they should.

and these accommodation ideas might be shit! they might suck ASS and be completely different from what my autistic collaborator wants and needs. at which point I'll go "yay! you know exactly what you need and that makes it easy for me to help make it work." but the fact that I was already thinking about it and already have ideas helps them feel more comfortable in sharing their real needs and feel confident that I will do my actual best to accommodate.

I sit here thinking about how to get compassionate and considered autistic representation on screen and i say. ok autistic people need to be directly involved and in a position of authority and control. they have to have a role where they cannot be mown down. and they have to be able to exercise that authority. exercising that authority requires comfort and navigability. so I also have to think about making sure they are comfortable on set and can easily navigate it. so I have to think about what nails-on-a-chalkboard microcosms of hell are lurking on set to surprise and overwhelm.

this forces me to think about what actually bothers autistic people. I have to sit here and identify problems and risks, and that makes me better able to identify them in other contexts. i'm not a film-maker and i'm probably never going to make a movie. i'm never going to put these specific accommodations into place on a movie set. but thinking about it like this situates me to see the environment as the problem, not the disability or the disabled person. if I'm working with an autistic person and they have a meltdown, i don't look at them with fear or frustration, I look for the environmental trigger and how to remove it. I think about how to facilitate their involvement and contribution without putting them through psychological distress.

*don't actually follow them or remember the url, apologies. they just appear on my dash semi-regularly.

**some nonverbal autistic people have a caretaker that also acts as "interpreter" and i understand that this is controversial and sometimes seen as dehumanizing due to the inherent power imbalance. the caretaker is often neurotypical and a family member, and the caretaker's word is often respected over and above clearly communicative body language and vocalizations by the nonverbal autistic person who is assumed to lack full reasoning capabilities. they have little recourse in cases of misinterpretation. however if the nonverbal autistic collaborator has a person like this that they value and would prefer to have on set with them, that person would also probably need to be paid. if they have a job to support themselves and their autistic loved one that they'd have to take time off from to help with filming, participation in the project would financially harm them without paying the caretaker as well. so one paycheck could very well become two and that should be expected.

#babe bagged #also imagining an advocate-buddy system bc it would be cute #yeah rain's job is answering questions being friendly and explaining stuff about autism #no she doesn't really have any authority but she can kick you off set if you get a bad attitude about accommodations or make the set hostil

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