#this is who i am i cant hide my true colors

[peoplesprincessgeorge]

txt posts + f1 = true 3.0

#help i am addicted #going three for three with the lance slander but idk i'll stand by it by now #this is who i am i cant hide my true colors #but eyh this one has seb and sewis:) #also landoscar version coming tomorrow and then probably a brocedes one and then a nortrell one trying to space it out but i am addicted #lewis hamilton #sebastian vettel #charles leclerc #max verstappen #nico rosberg #cl16 #lh44 #sv5 #mv33 #formula 1 #f1 #f1 memes #incorrect f1 quotes #my txt posts #f1 + text posts #sewis

[randomperson0k]

the evil thoughts got me fucked up and shit

OH forgot to mention: top 2 images are the final 'redesign', 2 images below are concept sketches i made for the 'redesigns'

tgs jekyll and hyde but they got evaporated by my evil headcanon beam and stitched back together by somebody who has no experience with using a needle and thread to the point where theyre more just like a seperate character

im sorry for my sins

PLEASE HEAR ME OUT BEFORE BITING A CHUNK OUT OF MY ARM. if anybody wants to read about my evil headcanon world all the stuff is below. wasnt really exaggerating when i said i ripped their character apart and stitched them back together though.

i do have a google doc full of everything i headcanon for tgs but some of that is embarrassing as hell so im just slapping the important stuff here

most of these 'headcanons' are here more because they make me happy than to actually make any sense. as a warning.

smokes fat blunt puffs it in your face anyways uh trans henry jekyll yeah (gets shot) ty person from the j&h community i was messaging that dragged me to the dark side and introduced me to the world of embracing my j&h trans headcanons. a true angel.

i really like more book inspired takes on j&h than the musical ones soo uhh.. yeah theyre the same person fully no j&h arguing thing. im soooorrrrryyy its just my preference for adaptations and i find it a lot more fun to play with story wise. also some other reasons but i wont get into those

polyamorous and bisexual (bi because... obvious reasons. poly because of that one couple they meet up with in the comic every now and then. my favourite ... ship (i think thats the right term?) in the comic. i love them.)

gas mask because it looks cool + chemical shenanigans ("oh but those didnt exist" shh. shhhhh.")

speaking of chemicals! they are much more into science. mostly does science-y stuff when theyre hyde though. they like to break into lodgers rooms and contribute to experiments.

facial hair. thats it. no further reasoning will be given

tried making jekyll in the concept redesign of him look older. failed SO bad im sorry i know its horrible.

hyde has pointy ears + pointer teeth (and green tongue because potion goop) + slit pupils because i am incapable of designing a human hyde. i have no idea why but i just cant.

earrings because 1: i have a bad habit of giving designs earrings and 2: i remember seeing a few headcanons of j&h with earrings and they were so tasty to look at so i had to do my own

bandage scarf thing from the beta tgs hyde design + newer tgs design that only shows up in the mind... world.... thing.

added the uhhh goggles from the old design too.

red and green hat because i couldnt decide if i wanted hyde to have the red hat from the old design of tgs hyde or the green hat from the current design. ripped it in half and chose both. great decision making i know

chunks of brown hair in hydes because why not. also red ring around one eye as like a weird variant of half heterchomia.

hyde has weird patches of green colored skin idk it just looked cool when i was fiddling with colors so i kept it

hyde has red scales in certain spots of the design. no further explanation

gave hyde black gloves to contrast jekylls white gloves + cmon. hyde probably touches the most gross revolting shit with the places they go to. they deserve some gloves.

changed their body type a litttttle bit just a smudge

i was going to give jekyll a cravat around the neck (a really bad designing habit of mine is to give characters cravats. not my fault they look so cool) both as a fancy thing + to hide lack of a adams apple buuttt the design felt way too clumped so im scrapping that. ignore the cravat in the drawing. grrr bARKBAKRABK

actually does sparkle visually/not just as a non-existent visual effect and people can actually see it. lanyon always swats them away because the sparkles get in his face.

hyde is more shorter than shown in the comic, more like book hydes height. like a foot or more shorter than jekyll. jekyll stays around the same height though. hydes probably the shortest one in the society.

permanent eyebags. does not sleep but cmon we all already knew that

hyde has a strong scottish accent instead of the other accent he fakes in the comic that i always forget the name of

has a cane like the og book. its a sword cane.... yeah i have a addiction, im sorry. (like half my own personal characters have sword canes)

i suck so bad at drawing shoes so hydes shoes look like ass but theyre supposed to be big boots since this guy probably walks through yucky mucky areas and stuff

i would totally write some oneshots or something like that of these guys going on adventures doing experiments and stuff yknow . (stuff like lodgers content and interactions, lanyon and hyde interactions because i enjoy secret identity and person said secret identity personal knows outside of their secret identity interactions, that one couple i talked about before interactions with jekyll/hyde and just in general random oneshots that make no sense) if i actually had any literacy skill

anyways im done my ramble. now you guys can shoot me

#the glass scientists #but like #i ruined it #sorry guys i sneezed on tgs j&h theyre trans and neurodivergent now #embracing my cringe #tgs hyde #tgs jekyll #but extremely torn apart #not literally torn apart i mean figuaritytuibjvbvkvj #posting this knowing its gonna get me on atleast 7 different peoples hitlists #ok im gonna go snore mimimi now #my tgs headcanon world

[eclipsewarrior101]

The Truest gift

a one shot for my The Last Lord in Black au i am working on.

Basically Wiggly loses his brothers to PEIP and the CCRP and he goes on a rampage and rules Hatchetfield plunging it in an apocalypse. after 3 years of this Hannah and some unlikely allies will try to discover the truth of this madness

thank you to @starpirateee for the help on this

Warning: this will contain mention of blood and death. talk about mourning and unhealthy mental states after loss and violence.

The black was darker than Hannah thought it was. Webby had told her of this place. Of how it once had many echos of colors and laughter. But this….all you saw was a dim green lights and the echos of gloom. She looked around trying to find the master of this madness. As she moved around she heard the sounds of giggles and saw the wiggly dolls moving around and watching her. They were keeping an eye on her as she walked deeper in the black. 

Then she heard a voice grow out “ WHO IS HERE” she jumps and she looks up to see an imposing sight. Sitting on a throne of stone and covered in tentacles and fur was the all powerful Wiggly. He sat tall with a cruel expression on his face, but no playful smile. That spark he had once was long gone. He wore his usual green but it had been altered to look more scary. His new green robe that looked like the violent ocean was covered with a green moving tentacles that acted like ocean waves for him and moved around. Each had a hue of blood on them. His face was scarred with old wounds but he refused to pet them ever bring him down. His crown had different gems on them that were the colors of pink, purple, yellow and blue. He watches Hannah with a look of disdain and anger. Who the hell was she to come here.  The whole room was surrounded by violent moving tentacles waiting to strike. They reflected their masters mood. 

“ what do you want….girl” his once childlike voice was long dead. It was replaced with a true hatred for humanity. A spark that died. Hannah hoped it wasn’t truly dead.

Hannah spoke, no fear in her voice. 

“ I…I’ve come to talk to you. What your doing isn’t right. What happened wasn’t-“ 

He interrupted her with a loud voice full of pure rage

“ IM GIVING THIS FUCKING TOWN THE PUNISHMENT THEY DESERVE. DON'T YOU DARE ACT ALL HIGH AND MIGHTY”

His eyes glowed with a very dark green hue. His tentacles moved around like the ocean was angry. Hannah should be afraid….but she wasn’t. She knew he was just acting out. 

“ I know your angry. I know  what it’s like to lose someone close- ”

Immediately wigglys eyes narrowed as he stood and with the speed of light was infront of her anf threw his tentacles at Hannah and slammed her into the ground a few feet away from him, growling with hatred and rage. 

“ HOW DARE YOU. YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME OR MY FEELINGS YOU STUID GIRL!!!!!” He said with a rage no ones ever seen before. But behind that rage Hannah knew in his eyes he was fighting to hide his emotions. He was trying to hide his sadness with wrath, wrath that was honestly valid. 

“Go home human…leave or die”

He was about to turn around to go back to sitting down when he heard a voice say 

“No. you've been alone for long enough” 

he turned to see Hannah getting up with a determined look in her eyes that even unnerved him, but he hid it under his frown as she stood up and said with a voice that boomed despite being a human

“ Your gonna listen to me and listen good.  I know why your doing this. I know your hurting. I cant say that i understand your pain but i can say that your feelings are valid. What happened to you wasn't fair.  For as evil as you and your brothers were….no one deserves to see their family die. No one deserves to feel helpless to save those they care about. And i know im just a mere human….but i am sorry. You didn't deserve to suffer the way you did. And neither did your brothers.”

Wiggly listened and his eyes widened…he…why was he shaking. He tried to hide it and get angry and attack her again, but her words hurt him, because they were true. He had no idea he had been crying until he felt the wet tears start to fall. He hated it. 

“s-Stop….SHUT UP’ he says trying to hide his tears as he fights to forget the memories of that horrible day. But he cant stop the screams in his head, the images of them…dead, bloody and broken from the torture. He starts to hyperventilate as hes fighting his head and heart to stop the memories. 

“ SHUT UP!!!!!! Stop stop stop. Don't want to remember, don't want to remember. Shut up shut up. GET OUT!!!!! I WILL KILL YOU” he screams in anger as his tentacles attack hannah but she dodges and doesn't fight back. This is what Wiggly needed. He needed to truly let all his emotions out.  He attacks everything around him and in his frustrations he misses Hannah every time. He just goes on a frenzy and after this he falls to his knees in a ruined room and he starts to break. After she knows its safe Hannah walks up and drop a bag at his feet only saying 

“These belong to you. I cant stop you from ruling Hatchetfield….but i can at least give you some form of closure”

He looks at her funny and opens the bag and his heart stops. No….how..was this. Inside was a items he hadn't seen in 5 years. Tinkys box, Blinkys glasses, Pokey’s mask and Nibbly’s hat. No…it couldnt be. He had lost these when those wretched humans killed them…how did she.

“They were locked away in the labs archives. I know their bodies cant be brought home, but They deserved to be brought back to the black. At leat you and the black have a piece of them back” Hannah says with a voice of sympathy and compassion.

Wiggly was shaking and tears had began to fall again. He began to laugh in a bitter psychotic laugh but it soon became sobs of mourning. The memories came back to him as the black felt a little brighter. The items seem to bring a long longing light back to the black. Hannah let Wiggly cry. His wiggly dolls came out from the black and huddled around their master and hugged him. The tentacles became less long and more calm. Hannah smiled. She knows this wont stop wiggly from ruling Hatchetfield. No that wasn't her goal. She wanted to give Wiggly the one thing no human bothered to….

A chance to truly mourn and a chance to be at peace.

#starkid wiggly #starkid hannah #yah wiggly has issues #tw: mourning death #starkid last lord in black #starkid last lord in black au

[bananacat76]

a hahahah what if everyone i loved and cared about secretly hated me and all the interactions they’ve had with me are forced because i insist on bonding with them and they don’t want anything to do with me and i’m just a suck up dummy head and don’t deserve a badnything in life and exertions thinks so and i should just die

it’s happened begore. they probably just want. to use me for everything i have. maybe i’m selfish or annoying for acting like this . i’m dcared. everyone i look up to. i’m scared they’re as horrible as the others i’ve seen. what if my partners don’t actuaolye love me or eachother and i’m just being used again. what if what if what’s isf. i’m scare again. why am i scared again. what am i savred..

nobody seems to care about me. i know i have plenty of people online that live me but i need people in the real world who care. it just seems like they don’t. it just seems like aim a failure to them. i’m scared. what if they end up like the other people who’ve hurt me. the other people that milked me for my kindness, my skill, my endrgetic happiness.

i tell myself i’m ok and i’m daing great! but i don’t think i can keep it up. i don’t want them to worry. i can’t force it on the,. it feels like they wornt care anywya. i’ve had too many many a susbxube it’s shjsns

i don’t want to harm myself i don’t want to kill myself but i’m just so SCRAED!

i look at everything i’ve ever loved and think “do i deserve this?” because no i don’t.

i cant cry. i can’t be sad. i can’t let them see me in such a weak state. what if they release their true colors and prove they’ve hated me all this time. i don’t want them to hate me but i don’t want to hide in a shell. i don’t want them to hate me because i already have that covered don’t i? haha.. whay is wrong with me.

i feel like a joke, henstly. i feel selfish, i feel stupid, i feel like i shouldn’t have let this out at all. seeing people suffer makes me suffer and i don’t want to feel that suffer because people will see me suffer and im scared they’ll suffer because im suffering.

i can’t hug anything. i can’t hug anyone. i can just be alone and hope the stress goes away. i feel separated from my former self. no longer free and careless. worrying what everyone thinks of me. what everyone feels about me. what if they see what lies beyond the surface. what if they see the mask behind the perfect creative happy energetic little fusi.

i’m sorry. i don’t want to burden anyone. i cant keep it in. it just feels so.. so HORRIBLE to keep these feelings in. (though letting them out doesn’t feel all that better too.. haha- )

i really really hope i don’t come off as selfish or annoying or attention seeking by saying this. i just wanted to say something about what’s been on my mind

#vent #tw vent #really big vent.. #ignore if you wnat. #this was only to get it out of my head :p

[aleeyenn]

hi um . that other person encouraged me to also gush abt ur designs but i also find a lot of myself in ur pin design .... as an also plus sized woman of color i find so much of myself in your design . i love baking and i love indulging in feminine things in the sense of like "yes i am a woman . yes i love to scream to very hard and fast paced songs . yes i have bigender swag ." even tho i do like feel myself as pretty masc aligning (it fluctuates a lot) i love ur design and see so much of myself in it . as well as that other person ive always felt i cant sorta be into alt stuff but recently ive sorta dabbled in it (i got the fingerless gloves ive always wanted so bad like a month ago !!!! and it was so exciting :-))) and just seeing ur pin design made me realize i can do whatever i want and i dont have to conform to my parents or my friends or my school's or anyone's expectations for my presentation of gender identity and femininity . i can wear nice frilly dresses with puffs and ribbons and have those fake vampire teeth and skeleton fingerless gloves and black clunky boots with a bright pastel pink bow in my hair if i so please . so um thank you a lot i love ur pin design and um bye bye have a nice day !!!!!!! also also rq i have to say erm if you have like literally any more gijinkas / humanizations ever pleaaseeee post them .love your art a lot ive been following you for a bit and uh apologies for bizexual ranting im just a little crazy /lh ok bye have a nice day i hope very good things come to you

YOU G UYYSS ARE GONNA MAKE ME CRY😢😢😢😢😢HAPPY TEARS OF COURSE BUTGAAHH HH H I NEVER KNEW MY ART WOULD HAVE SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE EVEN THO ITS WHAT IVE WANTED FOREVER😢😢😢 im so so so so grateful SO GRATEFUL YOU DONT GRT IT I REALLY TRULY MEAN IT pleasepleaseplease to you anon and the other anon and anyone else who needs to hear it BEEE YOURSELFFFF!!! don’t worry about what any community, family, friends, peers, ANYONE wants you to be because what’s the fun in that? not being able to express yourself the way you want to is so boring and doesn’t allow you to be what you want and not being what you want is neither gratifying or truthful! you don’t have to be true to anyone else besides yourself be TRUE to yourself and let yourself be the person you are!!! i’m sure you wouldn’t wanna hold anyone back so don’t let anyone hold YOU back!!! im gonna embarrass myself here but it’s for the sake of this talk But in elementary—early middle school i was a FREAAAKING wolf kid i wore ears and tails and everything but what stopped me???weird glances or rude comments? Nope! NOTHING!!! because being the person i was at the time felt amazing! and looking back at it sure it’s a bit humiliating but i still love that part of myself because i was so free in being me!!! and i look up to me being that person to this day and i won’t stop being myself! i won’t mask or dress a certain way that people want me to or hide parts of myself that make myself me because that’s who i am!!! and i heavily encourage ALL OF YOU to follow my footsteps and be the person you are!!! trust me if everyone in the world behaved and looked and did whatever the same the world would be sooo boring so be the spark of someone’s day and BE YOURSELF!!! who knows maybe you’ll be the person that breaks someone out of their shell to become what they wanna be too! do what makes you happy and follow your heart, don’t let anyone EVER block you from achieving that, never hold yourself against any standard or forum and do what you need to do to be your best self… so to you anon and everyone who needs it Go get some fishnets go get some cute bows go get lacy dresses go get cool looking belts go get ANYTHING THAT CALLS YOUR NAME! find yourself!!! even if it’s a pair of wolf ears and a tail, go for it! i believe in you!!!💗

#i love you all #so much

[lorillee]

i present you the question of when during aa4-1 would phoenix have had the time to forge the evidence having been in police custody and unable to contact his daughter… plus half that case is parallels to spoilers so

real quick i would like to preface this with a comment on spoilers/implied spoilers: PLEASEEEEE do not spoil me 😭🙏 the fun of liveblogging is knowing like nothing and going in completely blind and the wording of this aggressively implies phoenix did not forge the evidence. to be clear im not mad at you or anything but if i am under a grossly wrong misconception. and im mad about it. please let me be grossly wrong and mad so i can be embarrassed about it later in the liveblog 😭😭😭 especially if that misconception is clearly something the game wants me to be under 😔🙏 like something like this is fine

because it doesnt tell me anything about how im wrong or in what direction and ive already gone on record saying theyd better give me some sort of a reason for why he is the way he is. and if this ask had come from somebody who i knew hadnt played the game then id be like "well thats a valid question let me think about it for a minute" but this is very clearly "he didnt forge the evidence bestie 💀💀💀" it... its definitely a spoiler 😭😭😭 all i ask is that yall use a little bit of discretion and let me figure it out for myself (even if the text has to walk me through it personally. never forget my aa3 liveblog to my friend where i figured out godot was mias "dead" boyfriend as soon as diego showed up and did not piece together that he was mistys real murderer until phoenix literally said the thing about there only being some things you could see in the dark. and even then i was in denial about it 💀🙏)

to be fair. at the later point it was almost 4:30 am and my brain had completely shut off and the amount of critical thought happening here was in the negatives. but still. actually wait since we're here i want to share my most favorite bit of dramatic irony from the entire liveblog

to be honest my aa3 liveblog slayed and my biggest regret is not subjecting everybody here to it. REGARDLESS. since you have posed this question i do, in fact, have an answer >:]

consider, for a moment, phoenix's canonical messing with the crime scene. it doesnt take a terrible amount of creativity to figure out how he feasibly couldve forged evidence - he looks around, and with the added knowledge of the removeable bookcase and the fact that nobody else was in the room or has come up or down the stairs he's been in front of the whole time, figures that whoever killed the victim did it from the position of the secret entrance. he looks at the table for any signs of a struggle or blood and notices that one of the cards has been switched out. considering the drama that just occurred and the fact that he is a renowned poker player, he recalls exactly the cards that were there before and realizes that the criminal took that particular ace with him.

he checks the replaced card and notices that the back color is different - this is incredibly importance evidence incriminating the true murderer (somebody who is colorblind and/or was not present for the game in any capacity), so its critical that this remains as is. guessing the stolen ace had blood on it, he procures another copy of that exact card (you cannot tell me they only had two decks in the entire bar), gets a cloth or gloves or something and takes the murder weapon and presses it to the wound to get blood on it so that he can drip it onto the card. knowing that his time is running thin, phoenix hides the forged evidence somewhere in the bar so trucy can come back and get it for him. phoenix is taken in by the police for being the prime suspect.

like any good daughter, trucy comes to visit him in the detention center. phoenix tells her to go get something for him at where he's hidden the card in the bar (you cannot tell me that he cant do this because the guard would be paying attention to what he's saying - our clients have said all sorts of crap and never faced any sort of consequences for it) and asks her to give it to apollo during the trial. seems pretty cut and dry to me tbh

#ask #anon #lorillee liveblogs aa4 #FOR REAL THOUGH im not like mad at you or anything i promise but i really would appreciate a bit of discretion being used before sending me #wink wink nudge nudge kind of asks 😭🙏 thats all

[crossover-enthusiast]

Eyes. Haven't mentioned them much yet, but they're pretty plotimportant. The goal of the cult is to release Eyes upon the earth, causing the apocalypse. And, surprisingly, Eyes doesnt want that to happen. So they do what they can to at least warn people.

Skid's magic protected him from Eyes's powers, Ross's powers were kickstarted by it, and Roy wasnt a valid target for help because of his parents. Kevin was also less affected due to being resurrected- it grants you magic resistance usually. Who does that leave?

Robert and Pump.

In this AU, Rob is largely the same as in canon (save for a couple cosmetic differences). He's mostly just... much more worried and anxious after the Eyes incident. He has a really good danger sense now, and can tell that something is very, VERY wrong with this town.

Pump is the same way, but much less worried/anxious. The only people hes genuinely concerned about are Skid (and Lila), Susie, the Hatzgang and Kevin (who they eventually befriend, I cant let them be enemies :[).

For the most part, everything is normal for the two despite it all.

Until the dreams start.

Swirling voids of green-blue stars. Blurry figures and colors forming from the nothingness. The sleeping forms of their friends barely visible in the distance - and, much closer, they can see eachother. The magic aura is palpable.

Figures become clear and recognizable. Scenes play out in front of them, visions of times yet to come. Roy, lying bloodied in an alleyway. Killers dressed like demons. A golden glow as Jaune revives a victim. Ross, surrounded by a silver aura, looking about ready to kill whoever's made him THAT mad. A desperate Ross not realizing the magic around him as he attempts to save Mothra. Skid, cowering, hiding a figure in a red cloak. Susie, halfway melting into a drippy black puddle of ink, panicked. A desperate cry in their own voices, bright glowing flashes if silver and gold, they died, they're going to die soon, so soon-

At exactly 3:00 AM, they both wake up in a cold sweat.

:)

OH MY G O D

First off- heroic/good Eyes!! Yesyes!!

I have had. Multiple ideas related to Eyes giving prophetic dreams or in general dream shenanigans -- surprisingly didn't think of it for this AU, but it's something I keep coming back too and it works wonderfully here

Now, Robert and Pump - these poor kids. They're given so much so fast, so much of it concerning if not outright terrifying. Because it's important, it's obviously important, but how are they suppose to handle all that information?? Especially when it starts to happen, when the things in these dreams start coming true and they both realize they're on a clock ticking towards the end.

Pump worms his way into Susie's bed that night, and Robert spends the early morning hours doing anything but falling back asleep.

#Spooky Month #Robert #Pump #AU #AAHHHHH

[tears-of-boredom]

ok finished life is strange true colors. probably gonna be spoilers in this. so, i dont know if its because i was expecting to not like the ending, but i didnt like it. ended up really angry at the ending. tbh the whole vibe of the story was weird. my vibes didnt match its vibes. reminds me a lot of tell me why in a sense. with the siblings being reunited after both were separated when young and so the foster care system fucked them up even worse. and they can only begin to heal once they get out of it. and they investigate a family member's death. and the character models never seem to actually be touching anything around them. kind of like trying to get your barbie to hold something that didnt have that small finger ring. but the difference is that i like tell me why. maybe its just because the emotions matched mine more. idk. i wish we got to meet izzy. oh and yeah im not gonna even do the bisexual thing.

idk just left me angry and feeling shitty. but ig something happened outside of the game at the same time so that might contribute to my mood too. but man. i didnt even get to cry. and no one even went after someone in a fit of unbridled rage.... i mean,, of their own choosing you know? i wanted alex to walk into the black horse and just charge jed with a knife. and it is so fucking annoying because everytime i saw jed, i was thinking about how happy i am that for once the old man who the community trusts didnt do some horrible shit. like oh my god, i wasnt even fucking surprised when he pulled the gun, i was just so disappointed. i fucking hate that trope. so much. let old people be fucking good people for once, who arent trying to hide their past at all costs. like oh my god, let a main character actually get a father figure into their lives without them being a liar and a coward. and sorry but why the fuck did the game even give you an option on whether or not to forgive him?? like, yeah i could've fucking forgave him for being a bit too proud and making a horrible mistake because of that, but who the fuck fucking is forgiving him for all the shit he did to keep the secret. he didnt intentionally kill those miners, but by creating this lie about being a hero, and putting everything on keeping it up, he killed someone. and to be honest, i would not be surprised if there were more. and why the fuck did they make alex see herself in him? whatever her "gift" canonically is, she did not choose it. the monster she is ashamed of was something she did not choose. but jed made a decision. he hates himself because of a choice he made. neither of those things are less real or,, anything. they are just different. pretty fundamentally. hating yourself for something you cant change, and hating yourself over something you can change. oh my god i hated the ending. and hated how unlike me alex was. despite there being so many similarities between us. that flashback about the guitar, when shes imagining gabe and her at the orphanage. it hit me quite hard. i wonder how many kids have thought that. because i sure have. i wasnt even there for that long. but everynight, when i wasn't allowed to do anything but lay in my bed,, i think i thought "they cannot be so stupid to do this to me with sincere intentions." but,, i wasnt stupid myself. i knew that they were genuinely trying to help with all the restrictions. so eventually i concluded that they're stupid as fuck and know nothing. but they think they know better. the worst fucking combination ever. impossible to argue against people like that. usually they are like cops too. if you make them question the rules, they just fall back on "well thats still how it is (and there's no changing that)". adults love to obey authority and not question anything. and i would understand that if it was just a choice for an individual, but they affect a lot of other people by being like this. young people. but thats just how it is right. adults fuck up kids because they dont want to challenge anything, and then those kids grow up to be afraid of challenges too.

im really tired. i cant really tell if im even making sense. im gonna shut of my pc now.

#venting

[slimmestslime]

I didnt even know that vrchat can be used with just a pc. I am gonna check it out.

Anything I should know or something you would recommend?

gonna be real i thought vrchat was vr exclusive aswell until one of my friends laid a bombshell on me that it was indeed desktop compatible so. :fistbump:

heres some general advice/tips tho (under the cut)

1: the absolute second you're able to exit the tutorial world, go to Prismic's Avatar Search. ignore everything goddamn else infront of you and go there. grab yourself a good collection of avatars you know you'll use. genuinely nothing sucks more than walking into a world and feeling awkward about what your avatar is and having nothing else to change into

also i highly recommend going into a friends/invite only instance because not only will it negate social anxiety, but you wont have That One Guy blasting music or sitting next to the world's loudest industrial fan while you're surfing through the avatar catalogue

+ fair warning though, there is no filter against suggestive/triggering stuff so you'll just have to wade with caution. though its usually easy to tell if its Suspicious or not

2: you see that little icon in the esc menu? the one that says "change shield level"? i personally toggled mine completely off, and the standard setting is fine imo. no issues there, but if you wanna experiment and see true chaos, turn that off !!! also, if you're getting lagged to Shit by someone's avatar and/or uncomfortable due to them, you can hide their avatar via either selecting them in the launchpad, or finding them in the in-room list and doing it that way OR just. walking up to them (you will see the loading tip for hiding people's avatars probably a million times, but it is useful)

3: if you view the details on an avatar, you might see a little colored circle and then something like "good" or "poor" next to it. thats the performance indicator, and its this weird thing that vaguely gauges how laggy an avatar is / if they're viewable by default on quest i believe poor/very poor are hidden by default on quest, but i cant confirm that since >guess who doesnt have one

here's a shoddy infographic on the indicators anyway

as for stuff i recommend, the first three worlds i visited in public were pretty good for looking at a sample of the community. i think - Freddy's Custom Pizzaria (I HAD TO OKAY) by Fraca - VR Chess by NoLife1942 - 1's Optimized Box by 1 (also The Black Cat by spookyghostboo is good, but go there once you're comfortable. i can say the same for the optimized box but here especially)

thats about it/all i can say rn. most of my experience is really just two days of playtime and watching videos from the jameskii era. but this really is just roblox but less Cancer so i can safely guess-timate on some things here

#sorry for the wall #but yeah theres a bunch of stuff. just go out there and have fun #get comfortable at your own pace and go insane trying to figure out which avatar to use #<- i do that every single time i get into a world #slimslime talks #ty for the ask and hope you enjoy vrchat^^ #dont be afraid to ask more questions btw

[mean-hare]

third fuckin chapter of my diary lifestory (mhwnbcb)

achtung: boring, whinning, bullshit, stoopidness, mistakes of non-englisher. every character is real, everything is true, wtf

july, 1 nothing to eat but plently of coffee to drink. perfect. i started to drink more coffee. i started to even like it

july, 2 i wonder how many calories extreme sweating burns. i hate to wake up in such wet clothes under that hot sun rays

july, 3 my mom gets a kitten. i suggested to name him ronald. its tiny orange and white creature with blueish eyes and too loud voice. mom is happy but i am already overwhelmed

july, 4 asked mom to buy icecream and choko bar. thats the only things i ate today. all the day i watched long unhappy movies. dont want anything

july, 5 too many caffeine and once again million thoughs rushing my head at once, winding out my already poor powers. i thought i need to eat but when i ate i realised its not a hunger pain. i made bracelet of horse hair i found at the village field few weeks ago and my fingers tired. kitten walks on dark corridor, meows awfully loudly, annoying. i killed a moth attracted by the light of my phone.

july, 6 today i liked what i saw in the mirror and i thought maybe i am not fat and my weight is just a muscle weight. but then i decide i was wrong and that "muscle weight" is just an excuse for me to eat more and gain. so i declined this thought

july, 7 absolutely messed up with pancakes

july, 8 i started to do some little workouts. idk maybe its uncouscious wish to be good for my friend who is going to gym. i dont want to have muscles, i dont want to be strong, my body goal is more like live bjd doll. but he says that i am really very strong, one of strongest guys he know already. maybe i shouldnt waste this

july, 9 i binging to celebrate birthday of my dearest friend who probably doesnt like me and doesnt want to talk with me

july, 10 i pretended and considered about random shit and ideas and one idea was clown energy drink with eyestrain design and cursed pics on can and with weird tastes (like strawberry and seaweed or milk soup or meat icecream or peach buckwheat or what) and it also should be bright colored. and of course it should be zero kcals. i think i am gone abnormal and need more fucked up stimulation for all my senses

july, 11 bags and napkins and cans and bottles all around my room for few days long and i have no will and no powers to clean it up so i sleep in trash once again

july, 12 i tried to not hold the grudge for everyone who doesnt care about me, how everyone forget about me. i ate sweet bullshit to hold myself in better mood but it makes everything worse as always. at least i have no energy for crying and psych around. i am so ugly. as always. i think about sleeping in clothes like my dear danny does. clothes can hide my bodys ugliness from my eyes

july, 13 everything so pointless and maybe i should stop and doing nothing. everything i tried fails and i cant even die no matter how i want to. now all i can is just sleep, eat and watch something just to kill time not spended in sleep.

july, 14 i crush bodies of insects with my own bare hands. im living in dirt and dont take a bath or shower so it doesnt make difference

july, 15 i felt asleep at 2 am. i woke up at 4:55 am because of fuckin air alarm sound. you better leave me under their bombs but let me sleep, заїбали

july, 16 stuck in binge and cant purge bc this can make my severe headache become more severe

july, 17 i found girl online who lives in same city and we met irl. we both have tatoos and scars. she also has blueish hair, collar with chains and glitter makeup. . we sat in park and listened free music show of not really good bands. we may be friends. or not. i think i look and behave as an idiot. if only she is so lonely that shed like to have any friend, even miserable ones like me. and also i am too shy

july, 18 i didnt realise how touch starved and deprived i am until i took ride on tram. there stood very handsome man near me. he had long hair and shirt with dragon and hieroglyphs. all the time i thought about him. why that man? i dont know. but i was desperately wanting to embrase him, to lean to his chest. pet his skin etc, i was almost shaking, i dont even know, i felt something like this only when met danny at first time but we knew each other before, i think i never felt something like this to a stranger never seen before and may be never seen after and i am not horny, i didnt wanted sex, i just wanted touch. i so desperately wanted it and never get. i had an panic attack(i think it may be it) that night. danny was online and he tried to calm me. i asked him to stay with me online and we chatted a little, i cried and whinned to him and then exhaustingly felt asleep

july, 19 my face looks unfamiliar. something wrong. my eyes, my face look different. it also looks thinner but im sure that i lose no weight

july, 20 i send mails for 3 people and appeared in a group chat. and nobody answered

july, 21 success day. i stayed on my limit. goin to slaap. wantin cookies

july, 22 i bought and ate cookies. and chips. and choc. oh shit what have i done

july, 23 i ate so much (bag of spicy chips, 7 pieces of toasts with cheese, milky way bar) drank so much caffeine drinks (can of cold coffee, 0,5 l of energy drink, 2 l of pepsi black, many cups of tea)and i didnt sleep. i actually didnt sleep yesterday, i couldnt. i am home alone today. i walked my dog in hot concrete suburbs and then it the thunderstorm came. i singed for 3 hours and send, recorded this and sent records for dani bc he loves my voice.

july, 24 i didnt sleep so it wasnt hard to walk my dog at the morning. i was already awake and we walked in fields. fields looked very weirdcorey at the morning but after 30 minutes nature started to irritate me. we went back. i bought pack of cookies. then i drank a few cups of tea and coffee and started to feel nauseous because of too much of it.i slept a little on a couch at 12. then i wake up but was still tired so i slept few more hours. and then again. woke up at 16-17 completely and go to market and bought few more energy cans, 1 pack of chips and 1 pack of milk. then i walked with dog again. i ate and drunk so much but i hope that my long walks burned all of it. i am really so fuckin tired.

july, 25 toys are so expencive. i spent money on overpriced but so cute plastic horse. maybe i looked stoopid. brutal metalhead in black clothes with spikey bracelets that buy pink girlish toy. but i glad that i did it. i also bought some snacks and zero drinks. i sat on a bench, drank an energy drink, looked at the sunset and felt myself the coolest guy at the playground

july, 26 people joking about night crawing, night overeating etc but when else i should feel this crawings if i usually go to sleep at 6 am and waking up at 17 pm? how fucked my daily shedule is. but i have no regrets about it.

july, 27 no limit overtake bc theres no eadible (for me) food in house

july, 28 classical gross feeling after food. the guy writing this is Stupid

july, 29 i almost didnt eat, i cried almost all day and all night. i cried and cried. my parents was in same room sometimes and they didnt noticed bc i cried silently, i dont want them to see it. i miss my friend dani. he doesnt talk with me and i do not understand why.i miss him and i tried to be a good friend but nobody wants me now. i cried about my loneliness stopless guy from the shyzo chat calm me down finally. he likes me, i even dont know why but it is soo good. he sees something unique in me

july, 30 i trought that i tried everything and got hella bored but then i found a market with many snax and drinx to try. i missed new experiences

july, 31 i bought and drank so much caffeinated sugarless cheap drinx that i suffered all night… it becomes my bedtime routine lmao

#mhwnbcb #mental disorder #male ed #ed bllog #ed life #disorder #disorder eating #bpd #binging #purge #pain #whining #stupid

[wingekprincessproffssor]

Hi Queen!👑 I hope your doing great❤️

I was wondering if I could request a deku x reader? One where he finally gets the courage to ask the reader out? Maybe he's been crushing on her for a really long time and finally has enough of watching her get hurt by boys that don't deserve her when she gets stood up by her date?

Thanks in advance!

Hı darling, and yes i would love to take your request! And i really like your story! İts so good✨💙here you go

Deku has been crushing on you for a very long time and ever since then, he watched every guy break your heart and he was sick. Of it, he didn't understand how these guys broke your heart, were They blind? Cant, They see how beautiful you are or how sweet and amazing you are Deku would give them a pair of glasses if he could, and not to mention that they made you cry and heartbroken but when he was sitting at the coffee shop's table he see this guy who was just yelling at you cus you dropped your coffee on his jacket you jeep saying sorry but it only made him furious and as Deku watched the scene the angry filled his vein b

as he broke his coffee cup in a half and go over your table and shouted to the guy who has has been a jerk to you and said with a our voice that give shivers to guy" hey! How dare you to treat her like this!? HOW DARE YOU you don't even desvere her! And she devsers better! So leave her alone or am gonna break you one by one" Deku grind his teeth and the guy was prey much was sacred the hell of deku and just immediately ran away leaving his purse and his coffee then you looked at him with thankful eyes and said" thanks Deku that was amazing " as you said making him blush"come on y/n let's go to some park and talk everything there ok?" Which you nodded your head giving him agreeing sign as you both walk away from the coffee shop and when you both finally come to the park you sit down with Deku and he looked at you with concerned eyes "why was this guy treating you horrible back there?" He asks raising an eyebrow "that guy was my boyfriend well not anymore, he was treathing me like this ever since our frist date, he allways get so mad over little things when i frist met him i thought he was a nice guy but when we stared dating he showed his true colors" you sigh as you finished your

Expelling to him after you told everything to him he looked you and hold your hand with a soft blush appearing on his cheeks" y/n, you desvere Better guys than him and the others ,you are a very kind hearthed person and amazing and not to mentoin Really pretty" he said with a soft smile which made you smile too and cause him to blush even more you couldn't take his cute little face so. you kissed him on his cheeks leaving hiım hearth eyed With a deep blush "y/n, I know this may be sudden but I love you, and ever since you dated guys like them I hate it and they made me very furious the way they treated you and I was holding back but today I I lost control cus of that guy and I don't think I can't control my self when those guys treating you like this, love you and if I was your boyfriend I would treat you way better than them, i know i don't have any chance dating you " Deku said as his palms getting sweaty after his confession you realized what a fool you been how can you not see it before? Perhaps it cus of you didn't saw it coming Deku's feelings are real and they are from the heart and he seems to hold back his feelings very well and succeed to hide them from you now you looking at deku with red cheeks and you are also feeling that your heartbeat was getting more intense " Deku, I been blind this whole time how can I not see you all the guys that I dated before wasn't real and i was ignoring you if I realized this before I would have broken up them before and start dating now that your words made me realize that i feelings for you" you said holding his hand whic cuase him to smile"so do you wanna date with me? " He said with a nervous smile "of course! Dummy" you said along with your laugh after your response to him he give yu a Kiss on Your cheeks and said "shall we have date then?" You of course said yes and give hım little giggles after this you and deku become a couple, he treated you like princess and never was like the guys you date before long story short he loved you with every inch his heart and soul

I hope you like this❤, sorry for making it so late

#deku midoriya #deku x reader #yandere deku x reader #deku x you #deku x fem!reader #midoriya izuku #mha deku #deku x y/n #deku #request #deku xyn

[kaepopsicle]

nct dream reaction to finding out their crush likes them back

omg tea ... this should be fun... btw you’re the crush in this

nct dream reaction. their crush liking them back.

一 mark

finds out from his friend, completely panics like a five year old when they find out they’re going to Disney; “what do I do?” “What do I do????” probably falls or passes out bc he didn’t think they would actually like him back;

“Johnny hyung what do I do??” John gets up, grabs him a suit, and throws it at him “just wear this” “I don’t know, I don’t feel like it’s me..” he rubs his arm before grabbing a hoodie and beanie; “how do I look hyung?” He had a big smile on his face. John gives him a thumbs up “go get them tiger” he smiles before scurrying out of the room, he runs to the hallway and ends up running into you. “oh my god dude hey, I- hey- iheardthatyoulikemeandilikeyoutooandand.” he stops and stares at the ground “iwaswonderingdoyouwanttouhmaybego-“ you grab his face so he would actually look at you. “yes of course” you say before he even finished. “I would love to go on a date with you mark lee”

一 renjun

jeno tells him while they were hanging out, “THEY WHAT!?” he screams as he ends up jumping up and running out the room, running into the door frame on the way out. runs away to your place in his pajamas. not caring what time it was or who sees him.

gets to your place and knocks on the door, you open it half asleep as it was late at night, “hey” he walks in before you even realize who it was. “I- uh won’t you come in?” you rub your eyes as he walks by “you like me? you like me? Like actually ??? it isn’t a prank??” You walk over still half asleep. “renjun can we talk about this later? It’s 4 am” you look over at the time, 5 past 4. “No this cANT.” He turns to you. “I’ve liked you for so long and just to find out you like me in return I’m- speechless!” “I- renjun.” You stop and look into his brown sparkly eyes, almost as if he was about to shed a tear. A smile pulls at your cheeks. “Yes yes, I like you how can I not?” He pulls you into a hug and ends up crying into your shoulder.

一 jeno

freezes when jaems told him after hanging with you the other day, “they what?” “I’m sorry what-“ jaemin rollls his eyes. “cmon jeno it’s not like they proposed to you they just like you back, now go talk to them.” jeno just stares at the ground, until jaemin decides to push him to your place...

*knock knock* you get up from your gray sofa and walk over to the door, unexpecting company, you see jeno still frozen in fear and jaemin hiding from behind his arms at his back as if he was pushing him down the hallway (which he was) “alright have fun you two” he lets go and walks down the hall, he ends up turning the corner and bringing his phone out to record. “Oh hey !” Jeno finally says as he snaps back into reality, “hi? Jeno..” you say rubbing your arm, a little nervous bc it’s the first time seeing him since you shared your feelings for him. “Is it true?” He asked , his brown eyes melting into your eyes,, you blush and look down. “Ye-“ you’re stopped by his embrace hugging around you. “I like you too.”

一 haechan

finds out from mark, “they what?? of course they do haha, took them long enough to admit it.” he smirks before running out of the practice room to go find you and tease you for it (even though he clearly likes you back)

“Y/N” he runs into the room next door , which you were relaxing on your phone, you look up startled thinking you were in trouble. “what’s wrong?” you look up at him, his brown eyes stare into your soul, they were almost burning with passion. He reaches a hand down to help you stand up, you accept and he spins you around until your chests are touching. “a little birdie told me, you like someone, someone who’s handsome, talented, funny” the realization hits you. you roll your eyes and walk away. “I don’t know what you’re talking about dongyuck. I’ve never met anyone like that.” He frowns before coming up from behind you, his breath pricking your skin. “I know you like me y/n, no need to hide, I like you too..” he smirks, you turn and look up to him with sparkles in your eyes “really??” he smiles before letting you go, “HAHA NO WHY WOULD I LIKE YOU, YOU UGLY” he rubs the top of your head, messing up your hair, and runs out of the room, cackling; before stopping at the door, “dinner; you, me, tomorrow night” he grins and skips out of the room. leaving you speechless.

一 jaemin

almost chokes to death on his coffee, “THEY WHAT- hold on hold on hold on, how do I look? I need to go talk to them!” He stands up almost immediately after watching tv with renjun. renjun looks up at him “bro cmon we have like 10 mins left let’s finish this.” jaemin looks down at him and back up “no I must confess my love for them now!” an intense scene comes on the screen “okay I’ll confess my love to them after this part”

the part is finished and he fixes his hair in the bathroom, he walks out of the room before he runs into you, “OMG Y/N.. I was just looking for you!” He smiles, you look at him, something about him was different; his eyes soft but intense. he was about to say something big you could just feel it. “so I was wondering, if you wanted to go out sometime?” He smiles and winks. You just look at him. “Sure like for dinner? Or like boba?” You not fully understanding by what he meant, you didn’t think he had any alternate motives bc it’s na jaemin, he would never like you. right? he sighs before spinning you around and gently pinning you against the hallway wall. “No, I’m asking you out, do you want to go on a date with me y/n?” you blush at his sudden reaction, you’ve never seen him so passionate about something before. “I- sure. Yes of course” he smiles “good :) see you tonight at 7”

一 chenle

at first he doesn’t really care, he’s like “ah they like me? cool” until he realized he himself had the same feelings. he quickly texts (not mark bc he doesn’t know anything) but johnny bc he would know how to talk to people better. “hyung what should I do?” johnny smiles, “flowers my little dude, flowers” chenle grins before going to the store to get the biggest bouquet of flowers he could find, he puts on a suit and gets to their house.

he knocks and fixes his tie, quickly smells himself just to double check; you open the door in pajamas and messy hair. “chenle- hi..” you say surprised of his presence and the state he was in. “was there a special occasion I missed?” you smile as you see his outfit, you lean against the door frame and look him up and down, your eyes trace to the flowers in his hand. “omg are those for me?” your heart throbbed, you liked this boy. a lot. but you didn’t want to give the satisfaction to him that easily, “I- yes these are for you” he smiles before handing them to you. “the colors match your eyes :D” you giggle. “so you think you can buy my love with flowers ??” he freezes “I no- I just-“ you chuckle at his flusteredness. “I’m just messing with you, thank you chenle.. I love them” he sighs “why would you do that to me, I got so scared” you laugh and freeze when his eyes were tracing your facial features. “w-was there a reason for you coming here? or did you just want to give me flowers?” he rubs his arm. “I just wanted to say I like you..” your cheeks pull at the sides of your mouth. hearing him say it made you warm and melt from the inside out. you sensed he was nervous and walk to him, placing your arm at his face. “you heard correctly, I like you too.” he smiles before giving you a big hug.

一 jisung

completely in shock. “:o they like me back?” Is confused bc he’s always so shy and awkward around you, he was sure that he made a fool of himself around you, but hearing from chenle that you said with your own lips you like him, he might pass out then and there

chenle ends up shoving him to the room you were in, you had your headphones in and working on your laptop, jisung fidgets with his hands before getting scared and almost backing out, luckily chenle was there and pushed him even closer to you. you don’t notice until he falls in front of you after a little too hard of a push from chenle. “omg jisung are you okay?” you quickly take off your headphones and help him up, he pulls his hand away speedily and makes little hand gestures. “yes yes I’m fine thank you.” he stares at the ground, too nervous to make eye contact. he turns and looks at chenle who gave him a “go for it” notion. he turns back to you and blushes, “so I was w-wondering if you maybe wanted to uh, to uh,” he ends up getting too shy and runs out of the room. chenle looking at you before running up to jisung, you softly blush, thinking of what he might have asked. “I can’t do it ahh” jisung says to chenle in the hallway pressing against the wall, “bro you got this! she likes you! just ask her out! she won’t bite” you come walking out which startles the two boys. “oh- sorry am I interrupting?” you ask softly. “No no you aren’t actually, we are finished.” chenle smiles before tapping jisungs shoulder and walking away. you say your byes to chenle and walk over to jisung. “hey are you okay? you seemed so nervous in there” you ask looking into his gentle eyes, he blushes before messing up his hair. you think to yourself, maybe you should be the one to ask him out. so you manage up enough courage yourself, “jisung would you like to get boba with me?” You smile and blush before realizing what you said.. “omg I’m so sorry.” You turn to walk away. “No no wait, I would love to. It’s actually what I was going to ask you.” you turn back to him and smile “really? Well okay then! It’s a date! Tomorrow at 2?” You smile, he matches your smiles and blushes “yes...” your smile was so big your eyes were gone, you skip away while jisung smiles proudly of himself and runs to go tell his hyungs.

#so no one ask why jisung and chenles are so long #I got carried away #THEY JUST GET LONGER THE FURTHER DOWN YOU SCROLL LMAO #anyway I hope you like this #and I’m still on break haha I was just getting this out since I was already almost finished with it #nct fluff #nct dream fluff #mark fluff #renjun fluff #jeno fluff #haechan fluff #jaemin fluff #chenle fluff #jisung fluff #nct reactions #nct dream reactions #nct requests #nct dream requests #mark #renjun #jeno #haechan #jaemin #chenle #jisung #:)

[xxwritemeastoryxx]

Wrong Move

Author: xxwritemeastoryxx

Pairings: Elijah Mikaelson x reader

Word Count: 1500

Warnings: Kidnapping, slight mentions of drug and physicall abuse (If you squint, but lets just be cautious, shall we?)

Author’s Note: I am once again killing two birds with one stone. This was submitted by the lovely @emmice9 for my 1500 follower challenge. And I’ll be using this for @hellotvshowtrash ​‘s #february2021promptchallenge. I would also like to say that this is A BRIEF LOOK into a new series that will be coming later on in this year. All because my brain cant keep ideas to one shots. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy. 

Feedback gives me life and motivation for future things. 

The world has changed drastically over the centuries. The world people used to know had changed when the creatures that roamed the darkness had come out of hiding. Vampires became the superior species, creating a completely different hierarchy within the world. Those that came from money were free from the torment and slavery of the Vampires. Werewolves and witches were far and few between. And when they emerged they were a force to be reckoned with that the vampires let them be. So long as they weren't attacked, they never retaliated and stuck to their own.

For the L/N family, they had come from money. Their wealth bought their freedom from the vampires. For the two children in the family they'd never have to fear being human. For the eldest, Alexander, he wished to continue their bloodline to ensure there was a truce between the vampires and the humans of their family. But for the youngest, Y/N, she wished to become a vampire and when she was younger, her parents made a deal with the Mikaelsons to ensure her status would carry over as a Vampire.

While most girls in her age dreamed of becoming something of themselves in the world that was created around them, Y/N wanted nothing more than to be a vampire. One that wanted to change things for the better. And the way the L/Ns had it, their children were going to mend bridges.

Unfortunately, the matriarchs of the L/Ns were killed in an accident that left them as orphans. Alexander being the eldest was given the burden of being the head of household and he uncovered his parents' secrets. Before their death, his parents made a deal with another Vampire. And with their death, it broke the deal between them. It left them on the verge of bankruptcy and being tossed in with the other humans.

Y/N stood outside the double wooden doors as she listened to the muffled sounds of her brother arguing with a vampire. Alexander was in there for more than an hour speaking with the vampire that held the deal with their parents. Seeing as it was a matter for the head of house, Y/N couldn’t be in the room. But where she stood she could pick up on her fair share of things.

Most of it had been about money, or the lack thereof. Being in debt to a vampire left any human feeling unease and Alexander was no different. Especially as he looked across the table at Tristan De Martel. If there was one thing they learned, the De Martels were the downgrades of the Mikaelsons. Where the Mikaelsons held their deals in good faith, the De Martels could find a loophole within the contract to work in their favor. And that was what happened with their parents.

Y/N’s heart dropped when she heard her name being brought up in the conversation. While She couldn’t hear what was being said, she knew it had upset her brother. His voice had raised while the vampire’s remained calm. The longer her brother yelled, the more worry filled her. And the words she picked up on hadn’t made anything easier.

When the doors opened, a chill ran through Y/N as she looked over at her brother, attempting to ignore the way Tristan had gazed at her as he walked passed. The look on her brother’s face had told her this wasn’t the end of things. That the conversation he just had wasn’t an easy one and he was left with hardly any choices.

“Were you able to come to an agreement?” She asked as soon as she knew Tristian would be out of earshot, even for a vampire.

Alexander nodded as he ran his hand over his face. “One that I do not fully agree on.”

“Well?” She asked after a moment of her brother not saying anything. While she may have been able to pick up on bits and pieces of the conversation, it wasn’t everything she needed to know. And when her brother hesitated once more fear filled her.

“What did you promise the De Martels?” She asked as she took a step towards him. He didn’t know how to answer her. Not when it had to do with her. But the guilt she saw written on his face had told her everything, causing her to shake her head. “No.”

“I’m sorry Y/N.” He said as he kept his eyes on hers, even as they filled with tears.

Y/N took a step back in disbelief. “No.” She repeated. “Please tell me you didn’t.”

“I had no other choice.” He said as he watched the tears form in her eyes.

“I have a deal with the Mikaelsons, you can’t just go and make a deal with the De Martels to hand me over.”

“If it means keeping our family name in good standing, I’ll do what is needed.” He regretted the words the moment they left his mouth. But they had been true. Tristan had offered a deal and Alexander jumped on it. Tristan would clear the family’s debt and void out his parents contract if he got Y/N in return.

“You’ve sentenced me to die.” Anger began building within her. “Tristian’s humans never last.”

“You were going to die anyway.” He responded quickly, earning a hard slap across his face.

“On my terms!” She yelled. “Not by the hands of a vampire that keeps his own psychotic sister locked up! When Elijah finds out-”

“Your ties with Elijah no longer matter. Yes he gave our parents his word that you would join them. Your infatuation with each other sealing that deal. But this decision can’t be easily taken back and you know that.”

While they both know going against either families was a risk. But with the De Martels, there was a deadline that was fast approaching them. Y/N ran her hand along her face and shook her head as she turned away from her brother. She couldn’t handle this.

“Elijah might know how to get-” Before Y/N could even finish her sentence, her brother knocked her over the head with the nearest object he could reach, leaving her unconscious.

"I'm sorry, Y/N." He said as he crouched down beside her. "But I refuse to become one of them."

_____

The De Martels knew what Y/N would ment to the Mikaelsons. She was to be their saving grace. A chance to mend the world with siblings as a Vampire and her Human brother. She was also Elijah’s soon to be wife. Tristan knew he was playing a dangerous game. And because he knew her worth, he kept her hidden, away from any prying eyes that could possibly leak where she was.

Much like the other humans in De Martel's care, she had been drugged, used and abused by those within Tristan's circle. As she laid in the dark damp cell, all she wanted was to die. Her colorful dreams of the future faded to black and white wishes of death and peace as time passed.

Anger had filled Elijah the moment he stopped by to see Y/N and Alexander told him what happened. While furious with her brother he knew he'd always keep his word to Y/N to not ever harm him. It took him over a month to find Y/N's whereabouts. The moment he had her location there was no stopping him.

Elijah stormed through the De Martel home. Anyone that dared to stand against him had their hearts ripped out in a split of a second. Bodies and hearts had been left in his wake as he made his way through. Each one brought him closer to finding Y/N.

When the door keeping her in was forced open, Y/N whimpered in fear at the sound, unable to see who walked in from her position. She hadn't even begun to heal from the last time that door opened. But even as the footsteps neared, she couldn't get herself to move, her body too weak to try. Panic filled her as the footsteps ceased right next to her.

"Shh, shh," Elijah began, trying to keep Y/N calm. "It's me."

As he did, it wasn't hard to see how beaten and bruised she had been. Bite marks covered her body in several places. He had never felt so much anger before at seeing her injuries.

"'Lijah." It had been a whisper, but he heard it loud and clear.

"I got you. I promise I'm going to take care of you, okay?" He had every intention of never letting her leave his sight. He even made the promise to himself that he'd kill the De Martels with his own two hands.

But before the comfort and relief of being free set in, Y/N was rudely awakened by the sound of the door opening and shutting by the unwelcome guest.

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[jojotichakorn]

theres just something about seanwhite thats so beautiful, especially in todays episode. they both are hiding things but they almost see through that and its just very nice!! they were very warm and soft in this episode and i hope they continue to be!!

i do however hate (/lh) sean for doing a trust fall ON THE EDGE OF A BUILDING like oh my god my heart stopped. it was an interesting choice though because white catching him there makes his point that hes living for his cause and for white all the more true. ( i do think its really unhealthy to tell people youre living for them especially in the context of a romantic relationship but i think this will be fine? idk we shall find out if its brought up again)

danyok continue to be the queer people who have met once and now know each other deeply and i love that for them!! im interested to see dans arc since hes fully admitted hes unhappy being a cop and he disagrees with what they do. hopefully we get him resigning and also maybe rethinking nfts… (someone get pran and pat on the phone we need eco friendly solutions) oh!! im also super excited to see yoks art in color and everything!! the portrayal of art in this show has been so stunning and i cant wait to see yok express his opinions on art more <3

and finally, in honor of the new episode, heres my playlist (please let that link work jdjdjsjdjdjd) at the moment, its mostly political songs (admittedly us centric) but im planning/hoping to add some romantic songs as well!! i had a hard time with this playlist because when you think of anticapitalist, antifascist, etc music, the first genre that comes to mind is punk (and folk). i did however, start the playlist with songs that are decidedly Not punk or folk so i wanted to keep the flow of it!

- lost anon

ps. my bad buddy playlist is in my “show playlists <3” folder if anyones interested as well :D

heyy, dearest lost anon!!

seanwhite were truly incredible today. but as for the whole "living for a person" thing, i think... relationships are complex, you know? it's not like sean was giving white some sort of an ultimatum, i don't think it was said in a sense of "i am only alive because you are around" but more like what white is helping sean understand is changing him and making him want to live? if that makes sense?

yokdan absolutely blew me away as well. i had to pause to take a breath every three fucking seconds. they are just so!! i have no words. i think we will all love seeing dan's arc, they are setting it up beautifully.

as for your playlist, honestly, when i first read what you said about punk and folk i was like 🧍‍♂️ because my favorite genres are literally post-punk and indie folk, but i am currently listening to it and i am very much enjoying it, despite you going in the opposite direction of those genres. i have also been thinking of blood // water by grandson as a not me song for weeks now, so i got you ;) really recommend everyone listens to the playlist!! it's really good!!

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[ochabestgirl]

I have so many good ideas and prompts for fanfiction, and I HAVE tried my had at writing, but it never turns out how I’m wanting it to. I would love for an experienced fanfic writer who loves kachako, to maybe feel inspired to write a specific prompt that has been in my head for years.

So the story starts out with an established Katsuki and Ochako relationship.

Ochako hasn’t been feeling her best, with fatigue and weakness, wt loss, easily getting winded which has been putting a dent in her hero training. Ochako has never wanted to be a burden on anyone, so she keeps how she’s been feeling to herself, brushing off any concerns from her friends and teachers, saying she’s just been overworking herself as an excuse.

Things then take a turn for the worst when she passes out after giving blood at the yearly blood drive that pops up at UA every November. Nobody really thinks anything of it, since it is a normal reaction to donating blood. She wakes up in recovery girls office 4 hours later with a passed out Katsuki in the chair next to her bed. He wakes up and is worried but she eases his worries and sends him back to his dorm room after recovery girl comes in to check up on her. Once their alone, she informs her that after running a few tests on some of the blood she had donated, they discovered that her labs showed an increased in the number of leukocytes which point to one think, leukemia.

Recovery girl wants her to run more tests and have a bone marrow biopsy to confirm and come up with a treatment plan but Ochako is in denial. She can’t possibly accept the fact that all her hard work the last two years at UA could all be for nothing, so she goes harder than ever and does her best to hide it from everyone, including Katsuki.

After getting pared up with Kirishema for a class hero project, Ochako starts having worse symptoms, like bleeding gums and nose bleeds. Recovery girl says that this is a sign of worsening leukemia so she gives her an ultimatum, she either go’s to get her biopsy done or she was going to tell Her teachers, HIPAA be damned.

Reluctantly she agrees, but on the days following, Kirishema notices that she’s been slacking and feels frustrated to be the only one doing the work. On the day of her biopsy, she dips out of training early. Kirishema, having had enough, confronts her saying it wasn’t fair to him if she wasn’t going to take their assignment seriously. Ochako ends up having a compleat meltdown saying, “ you wanna know what’s not fair, I have cancer!” Kirishema in shock tries to respond but she cuts him off “ I’m going to my first bone biopsy today, that’s why I had to leave early, I’m going through this alone, but I’m sorry if all of this is an inconvenience to you!” Tears rolling down her face she turns on her heals and walks away, leaving Kirishema standing there speechless.

After a few moment he takes off to recovery girl desperately looking for answers, now extremely worried about his friend. He grills her for answers. Recovery girl, not able to give him much information, tells him what she can. That Ochako isn’t wanting to tell anyone or be compliant, and where her biopsy is taking place.

Ochako is on the table and they are about to start but before they even take out the needle a nurse walks in and whispers something to the dr. He nods his head and the nurse leaves. She doesn’t thank anything about it, until the door opens and Kirishema walks in. She is confused. “I couldn’t let you go through this alone.” He says shrugging his shoulders with a wary look on his face and tears in his eyes.

He sits by her side holding her hand and brushing his fingers through her hair as she gasps and cries in pain. Tears both running down their faces.

* I don’t have much in between this part and the next. Mostly just Katsuki  worrying to death, seeing the bruising on Ochako body and the amount of weight she has lost, not to mention her lethargic behavior, and Kirishema wanting to tell him what’s been going on but not being able to because it wasn’t his place. Ochako swearing him to secrecy, wanting to be the one to tell him but not feeling ready, so she keep putting it off.*

Kirishema has enough when Ochako passes out during breakfast, right in the middle of eating. Katsuki beside himself with anxiety and worry, urging her to take it easy. Ochako looks at Kirishema, noticing the terrified look on his face and excuses herself to go to her dorm room, but not without giving her boyfriend a calming kiss saying she was going to take a nap. Katsuki watch’s her disappear through the elevator doors, with a hopeless look on his face. Kirishema has made up his mind and sneaks off after breakfast to confront Ochako.

They end up getting into an argument and Kirishema says that she has to the end of the week to tell Katsuki or he was going to and storms out of her room, leaving Ochako sitting on her bed staring off into space completely spent with the day already.

Katsuki comes up after cleaning up the dining area to find Ochako passed out rather uncomfortable looking on her bed. He adjusts her to where her head is on her pillow and draws the covers up over her shoulders. She is shivering so he looks for another blanket in her dresser drawers only to find a large plastic bag full of an assortment of colorful pills. (Ochako put them in a plastic bag so she could hide them better.)

Completely shook, thinking that Ochako has a drug problem, he takes the pills and leaves, and in typical Katsuki fashion with no warning or tact, confronts Ochako in the common room after dinner in front of all his classmates. Completely consumed with worry, frustration, anger, concern and sadness, he doesn’t even think that he probably shouldn’t have approached it the way he did, but he was too desperate to care.

He throws the bag of pills out on the coffee table in front of Ochako. “Care to explain why I found a bag of pills in your dresser?” He asks with so much tension he is shaking a little bit. “I should have noticed sooner, it makes so much since now.” He says to no one in particular.

“Katsuki it’s not what you think, let me explain, I….”

“Don’t even fucking lie Ochako, you’ve been lying to me for weeks, I’m sick of it damnit!” He is shaking uncontrollably now. “I’m telling Aizawa, and we’re getting you into the first rehabilitation facility we can find that has an opening!” He’s so unhinged that he doesn’t even notice the stunned looks of concern on his classmates faces.

“Ochako, is it true?” Mina asked with both hands cradled to her chest. “ If it is, we all love you and want to help you.”

At this point Ochako is slumped over with her face in her hands, trying to make herself as small as possible.

She had been sitting between Deku and Iida, who are now rubbing her back with worried looks on their faces. “Ochako we will get you help, everything will be okay.” Deku says with tears in his eyes and voice thick with emotion.

Ochako springs off the couch so fast it startles everyone. She’s pacing around the room, and the color looks to be drained out of her face. She’s breathing heavy with tears in her eyes, borderline panic attack mode. Katsuki’s face softens and he approaches her, arms lifting like he was going to try to calm her down.

Kirishema then decides to speak up “ Chako, I think now is the right time to tell him.”

Katsukis head snaps up and his eye meet the ones of his best friend. “What the hell are you talking about, you knew what was going on this whole fucking time, and kept it from me?!”

“It wasn’t my place to say anything bro.” Kirishema responded with regret.

Small explosions leave katsukis palms as he leaps over the couch grabbing onto Kirishema’s shirt getting a few punches in before Deku and Sero pull them apart. Katsukis is still thrashing trying to get out of Dekus grip.

“I have leukemia!” Ochako screams loud enough for everyone in the building to hear. She then falls to the ground curling into herself sobbing.

Everyone and everything just stops and everyone freezes, Kirishema is laying on the floor rubbing his face while katsukis just stands there, with a blank look on his face directed at Ochako.

“Leuko-what now??” Kaminari asks from his place beside Kirishema.

“But that’s” Deku starts “ That’s cancer right?”

A strangled gasp is heard from Tsyu, who is trying not to cry.

“How can this be? Your so young, you have your whole life ahead of you.” Iida says like he hasn’t processed the information yet.

This comment causes katsuki to spring to life, “ w-why the fuck are you still here then, we need to get you to a hospital! Som-someone go get recovery girl! Why are you all looking at me like I’m crazy! She needs to go to a fucking hospital!” He’s not pausing for breath and in a half second, he is crouching down next to Ochako, ready to pick her up and bolt to the closets hospital himself. “ W-whatever, I’m going to get Aizawa myself!”

“You can’t!” Ochako desperately clings to katsukis arm, both trying to ground herself and to stop him from leaving. “You cant tell anyone! N-none of you all can tell anyone.” She looks like a cornered animal.

Katsuki looks at her like she has grown a second head. “what the hell are you talking about?! Do you even get how serious this is?! You could fucking die Ochako!” He’s panicking now “ That is not a risk I am willing to take!”

Anger boiling up inside her she yanks her hands away and stands up, causing katsuki to fall over.

“This isn’t your decision ‘Bakugou!’” She seethes. “I have worked so hard and I have come so far! I can’t give all that up! I won’t!” She is standing so still, fist clenched and shaking slightly.

“Chako, you have to-“ Kirishema is silenced by Ochakos loud “No!”

“I don’t Have to do anything! This is my decision!” Ochako starts backing away, eyes darting around the room, obviously looking for an escape. “It’s my decision…” she whispers once more before she bolts to the door leading to the outside, having jumped over the couch in the process. By the time anyone had realized what had happened, she had already disappeared through the doors vanishing into the night.

The class explodes into a frenzy.

“What is going on down here.” Came the calm voice of their teacher from the elevator doors.

“Mr Aizawa…” Kirishema takes it upon himself to explain everything that had happened, all the while katsuki curls more and more into himself. He is still on the floor, head between his legs and hands in his hair.

Deku is close by, trying to talk to him but it is lost on def ears, he can barely make out the panic in his voice.

Trying to get control over his breathing he starts in though is nose and out through his mouth. He is filled with so many emotions he doesn’t know which one to focus on. Angry tears well up in his eyes, threatening to spill over.

He is aware of Kirishema’s face replacing Deku’s, and the ringing in his ears has stopped enough to hear him say that Aizawa, Mina, and , Tsyu have went after her.

He doesn’t remember when or how he winds up on the couch, and he doesn’t even care. He feels hands push him down so he is laying down with his feet propped up, and a cold washcloth is placed on his head.

By the time he starts to breath normally, he’s not sure how much time has passed. When he opens his eyes, he sees that some people were still lingering. Kirishema was sitting in a chair next to him with his head in his hands. Deku, Iida, and Todoroki were hovering by the door, looking for any sign of their return. Sero and kaminari sat on the love seat across from katsuki with sad, forlorn expressions on their faces.

When he slowly sits up, Kirishema lifts his head. Looking him dead in the eyes, katsuki asked, “Did all of that really happened? Is this really happening?” Katsuki hates how his voice cracks.

“ I’m afraid so.” Kirishema says gaze lowering to the floor. “ listen man, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. It wasn’t my place.”

“ I understand why you didn’t. It’s okay.” Kirishema looked like he wanted to say something to that but suddenly the door opened.

Katsuki shoots up from his seat on the couch and faces the door.

Tucked underneath Mr. Aizawa’s arm was a rather small looking Ochako. Face puffy from crying, and bags under her eyes from exhaustion, she looked like the walking dead. Beside her with her arm locked with hers was Mina, face also a little read and puffy, Tysu bringing in the rear holding Ochakos shoes, despair written all over her face.

Ochako refused to look at anyone, even the remaining members of the so called “Deku squad.”

Katsuki makes a move to meet them at the door but one look from Mina makes him stop in his tracks. She shakes her head and mouths ‘not now,’ so not knowing what else to do he just stands there and dumbly watches them make their way to the elevator.

Katsuki tries to sleep that night, but can’t, his mind too full with visions of Ochako dying. Giving up he goes to his desk and opens up his laptop. He spends the next 3 hours researching leukemia, the survival rate, symptoms, causes, treatments, reactions to the medication, by the time the third hours came to a close it’s 2 am and katsuki has had enough. Without second guessing himself, he makes his way out the door, down the hall to Ochakos room and knocks.

It takes a few minutes before the door opens revealing a wide awake but an extremely exhausting looking girl he calls his girlfriend.

Her face contorts in pain and her eyes well up with tears when she sees him. “I’m so sorry katsuki” she sobs.

Without saying anything katsuki grabs her face with both of his hands and kisses her with the power of every emotion he had felt and is still feeling. Pushing her back into her room, he kicks the door shut. She’s on him in seconds, tears still leaking from her eyes as he kisses them away.

“I love you. I love you so fucking much cheeks.” It’s comes out as a choked whisper, like a plea for her to live. He’s got a lump in his throat but he pushes it down. She doesn’t need him breaking down too.

Ochako steps back for only a second to remove her shirt, then she leaps and wraps her legs around katsukis waist, opening up a whole other can of worms.

Not having any control at this point, he pushes her against the door, devouring her mouth like it was his only lifeline. “ I love you too! So much, I’m so sorry.” He silences her words with a Searing kiss. He moves them over to the bed and gently places her down. then settles himself on top of her. “Are you okay? I’m not hurting you am I?” He’s so afraid now.

“You could never hurt me.” She says with such certainty.

That night they gave themselves to each other in every way they could think of.

Him needing to feel her, to know that she was still alive and whole in his arms.

Her needing to feel alive and needing reassurance that she wasn’t alone in this, needing to feel close to the one she loves.

*So that is all I have so far. I do have some thoughts about her treatment and how katsuki struggles with watching her suffer. I would like the story to include weather or not Ochako makes it. But I’ll leave that up to whoever wants to take this story on. Also feel free to write smut if you want. I’m just not good at that, so I didn’t include it.

Please let me know what you all think and if you can make this fic come to life.

Disclaimer: Art is not mine! I got it off of google search. All credit goes to the artists.

#bakugou katsuki #izuku mydoria #kachako #katsuki x ochako #ochako uraraka #my hero academia #kirishima eijirou #mina ashido #kirimina #my hero fanfic #sad fanfiction #leukemia #my hero academy fanfiction #kachaan #deku x ochako #friendship #kirichako #brotp inspo

[senyuuno]

Bloomed Color: Oikawa Torū

A/N: Yaku's fic is here. 

          Tsukishima is here. 

           Osamu’s here.

  Enjoy reading.

Y/FF- Your favorite flower

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Being called by Oikawa at the back of the gym seems like a dream for his fans. However, is it even possible that you are in front of him now?

"Yahoo, YN-chan!" He beamed a smile at you. Your eyebrows shot up.

"Yes, you called for me?" You asked and he chuckled. You refrain yourself not to smile at his sudden reaction.

"Do you need me for something, Oikawa-san?" You seriously asked him. Well, you are a student council member and you just excused your self for a bit because it's a special request from Oikawa.

He stopped chuckling and gave you another smile-"This is hard," he sighed.

"Okay. I...like you, " he almost whispered looking away from you. Stunned, you do not know how to answer.

"I'm sorry, what?"

"I like you." He stared at you. Your mouth agape- Wait. It's impossible right? Is he playing with me? Yes. After all, the Great King is popular with girls and he wasn't able to find a girlfriend so that's why he's trying to get you. Thoughts like that flooded your mind.

"Oikawa-san, I know that you're busy with volleyball and you must be frustrated, however I don't have time to play with you," you said and gave him a little bow.

"I'm not playing though. " You looked upwards to him.

It stung your heart when you saw his hurt expression. It was just for a moment until he scratched his nape-"So?"

Your throat begins to burn. Now what? You do know that he's lying. Then, you felt it. The feeling of your head almost spinning, a little taste of blood after gulping and the soft petal of sakura inside your throat.

"Sorry. Please excuse-" you did not finished your sentence and rushed to the comfort room.

Inside, you keep coughing until three petals was coming out. You stared at your handkerchief already stained. Three minutes had passed and you bitterly smiled. See? He did not even come to check up on you.

Yes. You are in love with that popular guy. It started when you saw him training alone during the first half of your third year, after that, you attended all of his matches. However, having such kind of illness makes you clutch your heart. When you found out about it, you were happy at first, until you realised that you got no chance to him that's why you chose to hide it.

And just a while ago, he joked about liking you.

"Seriously? How shitty of you, Oikawa-san." You bit your lip and tilt your head upwards in order for you not to cry.

The next day.

"Is Y/N-chan here?" Your eyes went round when you see Oikawa standing in front of your classroom's door as girls started to circle around him, giving him snacks and bentos.

He just gave them a smile and when he spotted you, he raised his hands up and waved at you-"Y/N-chan~". You immediately received glared from the girls and questioning looks.

That is when Iwaizumi came and smack his head-"You're in the way, crapykawa."

"That hurts, Iwa-chan," he pouted.

After Iwaizumi gave you little greetings, he went inside the classroom as Oikawa trailed at the back of him. The girls started to rumble and still try to get his attention when Iwa gave them-"The fuck's with this annoying crowd?" In an instant, the girls went to their seats still stealing glances to this beautiful setter who's infront of you now.

"Ne, ne, you left me yesterday. Something came up?" His voice whispered.

"Ah, yes. I'm sorry about that," you gave him an apologetic look.

He placed his hand on your desk and had his other hand on his chin. Shit, that face. An amusing smile drawn to his face.

"I'm not pushing you but would you date me?" Again, he whispered. Only the two of you is capable of hearing it. You gave him a puzzled look-"I already gave my answer yesterday." With you answer, he sighed.

"Y/N-chan, I..."

"Oye. The teacher will be here soon," Iwaizumi stated, urging Oikawa to get back to his classroom.

The next days...

"Y/N-chan, good morning!"

"Have lunch with me?"

"Y/N-chan, watch me play today!"

"Let's get some soda during break."

And today...

"Won't your answer change?" He asked you while you are organizing the files for the sports festival that will be held next week.

"No." You answered, trying to keep your self busy. His presence is enough to disturb you. See, your heart's beating fast.

"Why?"

"I told you to stop playing already."

"I'm not playing."

"Yeah yeah." You just hummed.

"Y/N, I like you. "

"Please stop." You gave him a stern reaction and turned your back at him. Again, you left him there.

When you're far enough, you looked back to see if he went out with you. You firmly hold the files when no one's coming out.

"See? You're just toying with me." You whispered in thin air.

Three days had passed since your last talk with Oikawa, since then, you haven't been bugged nor seen him inside the school campus. This day, it was unusual for Iwaizumi to be late.

The teacher and Iwa was outside and it seems that they were having a serious conversation. You thought that Iwa was coming in but after bowing to the teacher and meets your eye, he walks away.

Does it have something to do with Oikawa?

After your class, you went to the student council meeting when-"Have you heard?"

"Yeah. Was he injured? I heard from Iwaizumi that Oikawa-kun won't be participating in the sports fest."

[7:30, evening. Chi*ka Hospital]

"Have you decided on the Doctor's proposal?"

"Iwa-chan, I'm happy that you got to stay by my side at the very end. This is bad, I want to cry badly but it's unmanly." A slight laugh covered the whole room.

"Tell the club that I'll miss them-Ouch! You're hurting me more than I am already!" Iwaizumi cuts him by smacking his head again.

"Don't say it in the way you're like dying, bastard!" He threw the paperbag to the bed where Oikawa's currently lying.

"From the team, " Iwa uttered as he took a seat.

"Oh, do they know?" Said Oikawa who started to drink the lemonade inside the paper bag.

"Only the four of us know."

"Thinking you're so popular but the only girl you liked rejected you. Hah, being weak, huh?"

"Stop it! Why are you rubbing it always on my face?"

"Shithead. If you confessed your feelings during our second year, then it must not have come to this. You, catching hanahaki is almost impossible. Tch." A long line coming from Iwaizumi.

"But I thought that it was nothing at first! And confessing is hard, you know?" He pouted.

"You really are a trash. Annoying."

"You see, I thought Y/N-chan liked me back. I got ahead of myself when I think I got a chance since I always saw her at our every match and her hot glances towards me."

"Pervert."

"Wan'na here something more perverted? The first time I got to look at Y/N-chan closer and when she congratulated me, I went home as fast as possible to-"

"That's disgusting! Don't continue or I'll kill you before you die." Iwa warned him, throwing eye-daggers to Oikawa.

"Tee-hee~"

Iwa released a long sigh-"When are you coming to school?"

"Eh? We're not talking about volleyball?"

"Shit! You really piss me off! I'm going home!" Iwa stands up and grab his bag.

"Already? I'll be lonely." He whined.

After opening the door, Iwa glanced at Oikawa-"That Y/FF, throw it all up until it's gone. And don't die, Oikawa. "

You froze up when Iwa said those lines. Yes. You were there the whole time. Of course, you came together with Iwaizumi when you said tou wanted to visit him, since you thought that he was really injured, but he told you to wait for a bit as they started their conversation.

His tall height looms in front of you, an eye contact with Oikawa's childhood best friend. You were clutching your throat when he speak up again.

"I agreed for you to come visit him since the both of you are pure idiots. I cant stand seeing the both of you not expressing your true feelings and stagnant. And you don't have to be afraid, he...likes you so much it's annoying that he skipped practice ro confess ro you. " Iwa muttered. There's no more secrets. Oikawa's hanahaki disease that he's been enduring for almost two whole years and yours for barely 5 months.

"The color of that flower inside you, it was his favorite."

"T-Thank you, Iwaizumi-kun."

He averted his gaze-"Now go inside. He'll really die if you don't see him soon." Even though its just meant to be a joke, you clutch your chest.

You relaxed yourself before opening the door.

"Did you forget some-" as he turns to your direction whom he thought was his bestfriend.

His eyes went round after seeing you again-"Y/N?"

You went closer to him-directly at his bed. No more holding back, no more shyness, no more secrets. You just let it all out-hugged him tight while burrowing your head at his chest.

"E-eh? W-wait, Y-Y/N. This is..."

"Can I hear it one more time? Please?"

"W-what is it?"

"Your feelings?" You felt him tense up at your request.

"I like the girl who gave me another inspiration not to quit volleyball, the one one who congratulated me during our match with the monkeys, her name is Y/N. I like you, Y/N." You hugged him tighter, feeling your chest wells up in happiness.

"I like you too. Sorry for pushing you." You whispered.

You were about to let go when you felt him pulled you closer, his arms encircling your uncomfortable form as you heard small sobs.

"Really?" His voice hitched.

"Yes. "

"No turning back? You're mine now?" It was as if he can't believe it, after all the pursuing he's done with you.

"Mhm." You answered.

"Y/N-chan, you're serious?"

It's funny to think that it has reverted. It seems like he can't believe your words as you were to him at first. The flowers that slowly filling his lungs, almost suffocating him, and yours that just started to be one-slowly vanishing.

Oikawa clutched his abdomen, still having you in his arms. He felt it.

"Oikawa-san, are you okay? " You forced yourself to pull away as you noticed his actions.

"Is it still there?" You asked him concerned. You held his hands-"Should I call the doctor?"

His eyes fixated on you, gaze following your whole movements.

"Tell me I'm not dreaming." You stopped on your tracks upon hearing him, and smiled afterwards.

"Oikawa-san, can I kiss you?" You said closing the gap between the both of you .

"French?" You widen your eyes and due to shock you accidentally hit his abdomen making him groan.

"Is that something you'd do after confessing?"

"You...you..." You can't continue those lines with that reddish face.

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