#what if I’ve forgotten how

[writtenbyevie]

do you ever not write for so long that you’re almost afraid to? like what if I’m dumb now

#what if I’ve forgotten how #better procrastinate and make it worse!! #writeblogging #writer’s block #writeblr #writers on tumblr #writing memes #ao3 memes #fanfic memes #ao3 #fanfic #evie’s jeevies

[whathellandfuck]

the writers really said fuck it gay people get everything they want this season like…. literally Guillermo has a boyfriend, nandor had malewives, nandor thinks about Guillermo every time he uses his new big dick, nadja and laszlo matching red streaks, nandermo homoerotic fight scene 2!, laszlor real in private school, ally supreme sean, guidja matching gay little outfits in the montage, the baron is back in peak form and wearing fun dresses and fucking everyone, the guide is in love with marwa???, AND marwa is kissing Guillermo after she starts liking everything nandor likes. and musical theater!

#i love everything #thank you paul and stefani my bestest friends ever #and like I’m even sure I’ve forgotten something that’s how gay this season is #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #wwdits spoilers

[eddies-ashtray]

Tenderness

***

All day you’d felt worn out. The moment you woke up you felt heavy, like a weight was placed on your chest. You were tired and your heart ached for reasons you couldn’t quite place. The dark storm clouds that loomed in the Hawkins sky the entire afternoon, swollen with rain, reflected your blue mood.

And so you lazed around the trailer all day, not doing much else besides staring out the window and watching thick rain drops assault the asphalt, the sparse grass out front overflowing with muddy water by late afternoon.

Though it was spring and the sun had begun to set later in the evening, its welcome glow was absent today—hidden behind stubborn stone grey clouds—as the clock's hands aligned vertically on the 12 and the six. Despite this, a little peak of brightness enters the space as the front door to the trailer creaks open. Eddie.

You watch silently from the couch with your chin resting in your palm as he sheds his jacket to reveal his frizzy, damp curls beneath his hood. He shakes them out, almost like a dog, before his eyes land on you and instinctually, a warm smile graces his lips. Just like that, the clouds open up and sunlight bursts into the room. The weight on your chest—though still present—feels lighter as Eddie moves deeper into the space.

“Hey,” he greets warmly. And for some reason, the sound of his voice makes your lip wobble.

Eddie’s smile falters slightly then, but before he can ask you what’s wrong or move toward you, you stand from the couch, finding you know exactly what you need; deep in your heart you know this will cure your ills.

When you reach him, you still don’t speak a single word, but pull your arms around his middle and lay your head against his warm chest. He smells of fresh rain and underneath that, something distinctly Eddie; a lovely familiar scent.

Beneath the soft cotton of his shirt, you can hear the steady, sure beat of his heart. Eddie doesn’t hesitate to put his arms around you then. Still doesn’t ask why. Just accepts this is what you need. Trusts that you will tell him everything if there is anything to tell.

You both stay there just like that for quite some time; not talking, just holding each other. A sweet silhouette of everything tender and kind. It’s warm and simple and everything you could ever need. Slowly, the weight lifts from your chest completely. Like his simple embrace has made you miraculously sprout wings and soar.

Nothing beyond this exists. It is just this. Just you. Just him. Just this all-consuming warmth which makes you feel entirely whole.

#eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x gn reader #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson hurt/comfort #had a really vivid dream last night #about being held by someone #and it was so tender and devestating #so here’s this #I hope it captures even a third of what the dream felt like #but also I feel like I’ve forgotten how to write #so if this is shit I am so sorry!! it’s been a while

[happyheidi]

Just wanted y’all to know that this is Moffe and I. Sure, Moffe is now a sheep and I’m a tiny little blonde, but yeah.

the only HappyHeidi face reveal that matters

#I can’t get over how insanely cute she is!! and the sheep! I mean.. Moffe.. so adorable !! #I remember someone mentioned her name and that it’s from Poland (?) but I’ve forgotten so pls if u know let me know what u know #lol #I need info on this cutie! #gotta make gifs!! #happyheidi #cottagecore #cute #cartoon #nostalgia #probably? #nostalgiacore #sheep #lambs #nature #naturecore #flowers #flowercore #animals #me

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

Thinking about poor, doomed Young Griff and how it’s not even important if he is or isn’t Rhaegar’s real son. Because what makes him a fake goes beyond blood - it’s really down to intent and experience. He’s a poor rich man’s Aegon V, but like without the organic hero’s journey.

He’s a lab experiment pretty much. However well intentioned he is, there isn’t much indication that his journey has been authentic. Varys and Illyrio are trying to recreate Aegon V with a fake...literally down to the “let’s hide his hair” scheme. They even gave the boy Aegon’s freaking name (it’s a king’s name after all so I can’t blame them). But they missed like the biggest, most important lesson of all. Aegon V CHOSE to go out. HE made himself, no one else did. His journey was organic as it was derived out of his own autonomous decisions, not manufactured down to the smallest detail (does YG really know what it means to starve and be homeless and hunted?). And there was no promise of a reward (I.e., kingship). Egg didn’t know that he’d be king and even after his dad rose to the throne, there were a ton of people ahead of him. FFS he’s called Aegon the Unlikely. Bro just woke up one day and was like “ay wouldn’t it be nice to actually experience this realm from the perspective of a disenfranchised person?”

Meanwhile, our poor Young Griff is being made to go through all this with the expectation that it’s all going to pay off when he becomes king. BUT (big but!), who’s to say that he actually gets it? Like does he really get why he needs to see how this horrible feudalistic society preys on the smallfolk and makes corpses out of them? Wait, does he even know or recognize that the system needs changing? Like did Varys and Illyrio just tell him “people poor” and leave it at that? Why are they poor Young Griff? How did they get there?! Do Varys and Illyrio even get it? Do they understand that Aegon V was a radical change maker?

How hollow is it that it’s not Young Griff making the conscious decision to actually try and see how his subjects live. He’s not making the conscious decision to be a change maker, no matter what Varys and Illyrio say. People in this fandom will talk about how Young Griff will be the perfect king but…perfect for whom? In what way? In a series that critiques this entire system, what about YG screams that he’s going to actually tackle some of the systemic issues that need tackling - the systemic issues that Aegon V tried to tackle after organically going through his own journey?

WELLLLL….isn’t it cool that Jon and Dany are the true heirs to Aegon V’s legacy not because of blood, but because they actually get to the heart of Aegon V’s journey? Say what you want about them but they are radical as it gets (Jon at the Wall and Dany all over Slaver’s Bay). No one manufactured them. No one told them they had to care about people. No one told them they had to do this lab experiment to become king/queen. They actually did their own thing, while themselves being disenfranchised (GRRM identifies both as outsiders). And without the expectation of a reward (like Jon is literally told that his entire life will basically amount to nothing).

And it’s even better that they were unlikely. Young Griff is meant to happen - well someone is pulling the strings to make sure he works. He’s taking the role of someone who was always meant to be king - for Rhaegar’s son was meant to be king. But Jon and Dany are actually following the Aegon V blueprint because they weren’t meant to happen. Jon is a second son who is presumably a bastard with a contentious claim, and Dany is a daughter who was never meant to survive being sold off to slavery let alone rise to queenship. Neither one of them was meant to be on the throne. No one told them to do the things they did. No one took them and placed them in the positions they’re in. They rose to the occasion by themselves and made changes by their own volition - just as it was with Aegon V. And what makes it even better is that just as Aegon V was chosen to be king, so were Jon and Dany (Jon was literally elected into office and basically won over the wildlings while Dany was dubbed “mhysa” because of her actions in Slaver’s Bay).

#asoiaf #jon snow #daenerys targaryen #young griff #aegon v targaryen #varys #illyrio mopatis #valyrianscrolls #my stuff #like they took an imposter and were like let’s recreate this cool king from decades ago #wasn’t it nice how he cared about people and stuff? #how we actually journeyed among the smallfolk and lived among them and directly experienced what it means to be disenfranchised? #yeahhhh let’s do that…..but we won’t do it organically #meanwhile prince in hiding jon snow doesn’t even know he’s a prince in hiding #he gains power and is just like yeah isn’t it cool to be nice to people and give them basic human decency?! let’s do that from now on #and he has zero expectation for a reward - like he KNOWS that the only reward he’ll get is at best being forgotten at worse infamy and death #dany literally sees people being slaves and is like that sucks ☹️ lemme do something about it #and she DID #she freaking did #like I’ve always felt that we’re not going to get on page confirmation that Aegon is a fake #because it’s not about that #it’s about a boy whose been forced to wear boots that don’t fit #so he’s tap dancin and tap dancin until he can’t anymore and dies #Dany doesn’t need to be YG’s undoing #YG all be his own undoing and that’s more interesting from a character level #the lesson isn’t ohh he’s not the hero because he doesn’t have the right blood #y’all I could go on and on like!!!

[alastyr-not-alastair]

Lonely prince

#Alux rising #alux favremysabre #favremysabre #favremysabreart #suddenly I’ve forgotten how to tag so uh #have the Sofia the first theme song #I was a girl in the village doing alright #then I became a princess overnight #now I gotta figure out how to do it right #so much to learn and see #up in the castle with my new family #in a school that’s just for royalty #a whole enchanted world is waiting for me #I’m so excited to be Sofia the first #I’m finding out what being royals all about #making my way it’s an adventure every day #it’s gonna be my time #to show them all that immm Sofia the firrrrst! #WHY DO I STILL KNOW THIS #I HAVENT WATCHED THIS SHOW IN LIKE TEN YEARS?? #anyway watch Alux rising there’s potentially gay people #it’s mildly enjoyable #at least as enjoyable as a Minecraft rp can get #it’s silly

[ki1ldeer]

Last one I swear 🙏

#I got on some kind of kick #I haven’t even watched mlp since I was 12 idk what’s going on #I’ve also forgotten how to draw my bread and butter humans #digital art #procreate #my ocs #my art #digital illustration #original art #artists on tumblr #doodle #original character #illustration #my little pony original character #my little pony #artwork #art #drawing #character design #original character art

[mkorpse13]

having art block so here are some images to describe how I feel currently

#I finally think I settled on what I’ll decide to draw today #I swear I’ve been trying to figure out which art piece to continue today #I finally have free time and I don’t even know what to do #not to mention I had forgotten how to draw the artstyle #ed edd n eddy #eene #ed edd eddy fanart #artists on tumblr #artist struggles #I swear I’ll get something out soon

[dontjudgemethatsgodsjob]

As a kid I always associated Liu with scarecrows for some reason. Not the least fitting comparison at least

#liu woods #homicidal liu #creepypasta #panzart #digital art #desperately trying to remember how to draw again #this ain’t bad tho #always wondered why the stitches got left in tho #like did he escape from the hospital early or? #was it ever explained somewhere that I’ve forgotten? #anyway that’s what im choosing to believe #hence the still growing in hair

[strawbubbysugar]

Ough as the end draws near I’m seeing more and more comments that are making me nervous that the ending won’t live up to all the hype & expectations aaaa aa

#ask #for example #there’s a few notes I’ve forgotten about that we’re gonna be important but now make no sense in the story #so I’ve gotta figure out how to work them in #without it feeling forced #and at the same time #continuing with the idea I’ve been married to for a few weeks about what the ending is gonna be #but now I’m so nervous that people won’t like the ending #and I’ll have ruined this fic #sobs #ik most of you will hopefully enjoy it!! but even seeing a few be like ‘aw :( I hoped something else would happen’ is gonna be ROUGH #but honestly #thank you all for the amazing experience you’ve given me writing this #I never realized just how much I enjoy writing until I started writing this fic #and all the love has been so sos o life changing #so thank you all <3 #one person specifically said I was ‘stalling’ but like :( I’m drawing out the tension. if I do things too quickly it won’t have any umph. #I just haven’t been able to stop thinking abt that comment sigh #personal

[pois0ncandy]

life is boring and meaningless i should just kms

#what is there to live for? #absolutely nothing #everyone keeps saying that “it’ll get better” #“this won’t last forever and then years go by and it’s still exactly the same #the world is going to shit #i don’t make enough to survive on my own #and finding a new job is practically impossible these days #i have no one to even talk to #i don’t want to talk to anyone anyways #like what’s the point? #i’ve been holding out for so long and for nothing #fruitless endeavors #empty promises #forgotten dreams #any hope i had is gone #can’t believe i stayed alive this long all for some dipshit who doesn’t even live in my country and has forgotten my existence #like why have i put myself through this #there is no point #pathetic #i hate everything #i just don’t think living is for me #and it never has been #and i’ve always known this but tried so so hard to change how i feel to find some meaning in life and it was all for nothing

[melonfell]

quick Jiang Yanli sketch <3

#jiang yanli #mdzs #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mdzs fanart #funny story: I’ve been trying to draw stuff on art fight this whole month but have had zero motivation #I’ve had one piece that I’ve been working on for HOURS and I keep having to redo it because somehow it feels like everything is off #in that weird state where you’re drawing but it’s like you’ve forgotten how to draw. like. at all. #then Jiang Yanli pops into my head and this quick warmup sketch takes like 40 mins #what is happening to me??? #also my phone keeps autocorrecting her name into mine lmao because they’re one letter off #well… the pinyin at least. different characters are used in Chinese lol

[purble-gaymer]

episode 48 was the first chapter i wrote, so in honor of its publishing i dug through my sketchbooks for some early concepts and other doodles from may ‘22 (a couple of which have appeared, and more i’m not sharing because spoilers)

#kirby right back at ya #meta knight #sword knight #blade knight #wwtmk #rhyn's art #halfway through this book i got infected with forgotten land disease #but i think my first draft was done by that point #i blew through it cause i had basically nothing to do all month #fastest i’ve ever written that much #still kind of impressed with myself #anyway you can tell how much i've improved in drawing these guys :sob: #what the fixation does to a man

[lavampira]

it’s wild how impatient some people get over pixels. tbh.

#encountered the most rancid sage in the 89 trial tonight #with a condescending ‘i’m not your mom but i guess i have to raise you’ macro #and saying things like ‘apparently others [have forgotten mechs] too’ and ‘what IS the actual problem here’ in chat #like buddy i’ve also had a shitty day and i should be in snorkmimi land! but i’m not having a fit! #because it was one (1) wipe. and it’s a game. it’s pixels. #anyway the tank gave a refresher for mechs without attitude and then it was over easily. amazing how that happens. #and now i’m getting back in my bed where i should’ve stayed after watching some fmab lolol hoo boy. #dani plays ffxiv

[messyhairdiaz]

In the year of our lord 2k24 can people stop acting like Kristin Reidel had some kind of homophobic agenda lmfao

#I believe the exact words of the post I’m subtweeting here was heteronormative agenda #but it’s all much the same and I’ve seen her specifically described as being homophobic #you know as showrunner of the highly queer friendly show #that in just the last season alone featured a beautiful episode centered around the show’s lesbian couple #the show that gave Michael a wonderful gay send off in season 5 despite Rockmond’s fuckery #the show that includes lots of queer people on their calls #and—something I think should not be forgotten especially #a show that has had god knows what kind of bullshit going on behind the scenes that could’ve tied her hands in who knows how many ways #you don’t have to like her #you don’t even have to think she’s a good showrunner #but stop fucking acting like any and every buddie crumb we’ve gotten in the last two seasons has been somehow snuck under her nose

[mifhortunach]

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#i’m a little drunk so forgive me please but #idk if it’s like.. bc i’ve been kinda down/moody anyway recently or if it’s bc i was gone for a week or bc i’ve finally picked up on it or #what - but i feel like legit kinda isolated now in work.. not in like some awful everyone deffo hates me way but in that bs olivia laing way #like it’s taken me way too long to notice that i’m not doing a good enough job making fuckn work-friends or whatever the fuck #& it’s so hard to say if that’s like. a me issue or if that’s bc fuckin almost all the people i work w are guys so i’m not a real person t #*to them!! probs fuckin both lbr - but it’s rly not helping shit yk #bc as soon as u go in knowing that ppl are talking 2 u for politeness then ur quieter so u look worse so there’s less talking etc etc etc #great fuckin stuff - ANYWAY remembered what i actually wanted to say #which was that i went to get some drinks w a friend earlier this week and god i wish i could like. this week just do ANYTHING #get properly pissed! see people & shit properly again; i miss having a proper social life and i’ve litch never had one #this is best left to be forgotten #so let’s not tag it lol - but anyway; anyone know how to make proper friends as an adult as a compulsive nonsharer & someone w/o interests!