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Cigarettes out the window

Alhaitham x gn reader

cw: mentions of alcohol/being drunk, lots of smoking, brief mention of drugs, heavy makeout

note - reader wears mascara, chunky heels, and lip gloss, but no pronouns used

“Cigarettes out the Window” by TV Girl was kinda my inspiration for this, so i recommend you give it a listen before you read so you get the whole vibe i was going for (also hi yes its me mumspice i’m back after a year!!! happy 2023 little cherubs)

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Smoke curls past your lips, floating up into the hazy air of the room as you exhale softly. You gaze at him through your lashes, thick with clumpy mascara from drunken tears shed hours earlier, now dried and streaky on your cheeks. Your shoes are long gone, chunky heels tossed off somewhere that you’d tiredly search for the next morning, hungover and delirious. But as it was, you were taking another long drag from your cigarette, an old vice that clung to you like a flies to a carcass. You blow another wave of acrid smoke from your lungs.

“What are you doing here, ‘haitham?” You murmur, and his heart pangs at the nickname. He shifts his weight and leans back into the cushions that smell like a combination of weed, sweat, and incense.

“I heard there was a party. Felt like checking it out,” He replies casually. You scoff loudly, the alcohol in your veins dulling your usual social filters.

“Don’t lie to me. You never go to shit like this,” You were right. He usually was either too busy with his studies or never cared enough to attend parties. He felt like they were a waste of time and energy.

“Why are you here? Really?” You ask, probing for the answer you both already know, but that you are infinitely scared to hear. He slides his gaze to meet yours, and his breath imperceptibly catches in his throat. Tears pearl in your eyes, ones that are not from the thick fumes wafting through the house. Your jaw is tense, and your lips are shiny with a gloss that surely isn’t yours. He doesn’t respond, instead gazing at you with his half-lidded eyes.

“Answer me, ‘haitham,” Your voice wavers, and you lean forward, fingers gripping the carpet. The music is a rhythmic thumping accompanied by lively voices, cheering and clapping and singing along drunkenly to old pop songs. A forgotten phone illuminates, displaying an incoming text message and the time, 3:24 am.

He knows he’s the last person you want to see. After he left you to pursue his academic dream, you never really forgave him. He knows it by the dent in your brow that appears when you see him, or the fake way you speak, like everything couldn’t be better for you, in your happy little world. He especially knows it by the scent of your clothes, thick with the stench of the cigarettes that you swore you’d never smoke again. Yet here you are, drunk at some birthday party smoking cigarettes at night like you used to, sitting across the floor from your ex who had broken your heart terribly. Your ex who was maddeningly attractive in the clouded atmosphere of the forgotten bedroom lit with tacky purple LED strips that were barely sticking to the ceiling.

He breathes, and leans forward, his face coming infinitesimally close to yours. His eyes slip down to your lips, then back up to your watery gaze. You’re frozen, eyes wide and lips parted in shock and anticipation. He brings a hand up to your face and rubs his coarse thumb along your cheekbone. His breath is sweet as he exhales.

“I missed you,” he whispers, and before you know it his lips are pressed against yours, slotting together like they’d never parted. The tears that had risen start to stream down your cheeks, following their previous trails. You kiss him fervently, mouths barely parting to breathe before diving back together forcefully. He slides his fingers between yours and slowly slips the cigarette suspended between your fingers out of your grip, and grinds it onto the ashtray by your feet. Your hands rise and tangle in his gray hair, pressing him closer and closer.

“I’m sorry,” he murmurs, and he continues to kiss you feverishly, moving from your mouth to the crook of your jaw, where you bite your lip and grip his hair even tighter. The feeling of having you back in his arms is too euphoric to stop, and his arms snake around your waist to pull you into his lap.

What he really didn’t anticipate when he left was how much he needed you. How he missed the way your body curled into his side at night, how he’d find his soundproof earpieces resting comfortably on your head when he needed them most, how you’d always make him sort the laundry with you because it was too boring to do by yourself. How you’d pressed yourself into his heart and left an absence that he only realized when he was a nation away. The Akademiya challenged him in a lot of ways, but one of the hardest was your absence. Not waking up to your figure on the balcony in the middle of the night, smoking cigarettes when you couldn’t sleep. Those moonlit nights in his new house in Sumeru always felt strangely lonely, even when his roommate spent many nights working vigorously on a new architecture project.

He never planned to return to Fontaine, assuming that you hated him enough that you’d never want to see him again. And yet here he was, making out with you in a stranger’s bedroom at 3 am, and it was like he was back in your little apartment, kissing you back to sleep after your late-night smokes, tasting toothpaste and cigarettes on your lips. Alhaitham’s vice was much more addictive than smoking, drugs, or alcohol. It was you, and he didn’t intend to quit anytime soon.

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#alhaitham #alhaitham x reader #alhaitham genshin impact #tv girl #cigarettes out the window #starsoirees #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact modern au #modern au #cigarettes #im back after a year goddamn

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starsoirees · 2 years

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HIS NEW SUIT 🤭🤭😍😍😍🤭😍😍😍

#reblog #diluc ragnvindr #THE PONYTAIL FINALLY

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starsoirees · 2 years

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rad yearbook pt2…. dateables and luke ver (raph, mephi and thirteen might be ooc.. but theres not enough content of them so i shall shove some down your throats /lovingly) also sorry for the dia favoritism he’s my baby mwah

simeon, luke, raphael, solomon, and thirteen under the cut <3

i can see diavolo kind of disliking picture day, in a way. he has to shove away sunshiny, golden retriever ‘dia’ and become calm, collected, firm ‘lord diavolo, prince of the devildom’. he hates it :(( he’s constantly uptight and he can’t seem to relax. he probably isn’t smiling in his photo although he should be.. because he’s gotta keep his noble attitude and such. i feel like he has a whole spread dedicated to him in the yearbook. all those candid shots of him hosting balls (hehe) and at student council meetings (mephi had the time of his LIFE sitting in on that meeting. he was constantly snickering and taking photos at random times to catch people off guard. lucifer was pissed but couldn’t do anything bc he was “on official newspaper club business” in reality he just needed references for princess dia and prince lucifer stickers) dia will laugh heartily when he sees the look of displeasure on your face when you see his picture. he thinks its funny that you think his face looks so stiff and weird. no one’s ever said that to him before. he’ll fucking BEAM at you if you say he looks so much cuter when he smiles and that you would rather have a happy smiling prince than a dull one. ur so cute he loves you sm.

barbatos probably spends more time worrying about diavolo than himself. he’s got to press dia’s uniform, shine his shoes, help him shave, pluck his eyebrows, literally full spa treatment. barb still looks clean crisp and professional in his photo though. idk i don’t feel like there’s much to say about him and the yearbook. it’s just another day of the week for him. he probably does quality control on the yearbooks before they come out?? idk how to explain this but i feel like he’s the most reliable person to do it, lucifer is too busy, and the other brothers would seize the chance to do something malicious or just not care enough to be thorough about it. he supervises and reads the little blurbs in the yearbook and makes sure mephistopheles hasn’t done anything. is wearing his gloves in every picture. if you ask him why he’ll probably just say that it’s become a habit at this point (his butlerness is bleeding into his soul). if you say you like his hands gloveless he’ll chuckle and offer a sly “is that so…” while making a mental note of it in his head.

mephistopheles and the yearbook… where to start… ive talked about him so much already i think we all know that that yearbook season is a field day for this man. he cooks up sinister mischievous plots all year in preparation.. i swear he has a notebook where he writes new ideas he comes up with to sabotage prank the yearbook and all the students!!! now, listen idk much ab this man, but from the bare minimum ive seen, i think he holds a slight grudge against dia (ex-friend?? how does that happen..) anyways i think mephi is a spiteful bitch and that’s why he does all of his shit to ruin lucifer n dias rep??? IDK IVE LITERALLY JUST WATCHED HIS INTRO VID BUT IT MAKES SENSE RIGHT? anyways he always kind of resents the yearbook a lil bit bc if that maybe.. he def interviews you for the yearbook and asks u a ton of personal questions ab the brothers and dia hoping to get dirt on everyone, but ur answers are so cute and genuine and it shows that u care a lot ab all of them he just finds himself thinking ur rlly pretty and he wants u to talk about him like that he was supposed to hate u what the hell happened anyways u have a cute little interview in the yearbook now he couldnt bring himself to ruin it (HAHAHAHS WHAT A SIMP)

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#self reblog #obey me x reader #obey me!

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starsoirees · 2 years

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rad yearbook pt2.... dateables and luke ver (raph, mephi and thirteen might be ooc.. but theres not enough content of them so i shall shove some down your throats /lovingly) also sorry for the dia favoritism he's my baby mwah

simeon, luke, raphael, solomon, and thirteen under the cut <3

mephistopheles and the yearbook... where to start... ive talked about him so much already i think we all know that that yearbook season is a field day for this man. he cooks up sinister mischievous plots all year in preparation.. i swear he has a notebook where he writes new ideas he comes up with to sabotage prank the yearbook and all the students!!! now, listen idk much ab this man, but from the bare minimum ive seen, i think he holds a slight grudge against lucifer.. (ex-friend of dia?? LMAO LUCIFER TOOK HIS SPOT..) anyways i think mephi is a spiteful bitch and that's why he does all of his shit to ruin lucifers rep??? IDK IVE LITERALLY JUST WATCHED HIS INTRO VID BUT IT MAKES SENSE RIGHT? anyways he always kind of resents the yearbook a lil bit bc if that maybe.. he def interviews you for the yearbook and asks u a ton of personal questions ab the brothers and dia hoping to get dirt on everyone, but ur answers are so cute and genuine and it shows that u care a lot ab all of them he just finds himself thinking ur rlly pretty and he wants u to talk about him like that he was supposed to hate u what the hell happened anyways u have a cute little interview in the yearbook now he couldnt bring himself to ruin it (HAHAHAHS WHAT A SIMP)

simeon finds the yearbook extremely interesting. he doesn't care so much about his own picture, but he LOVES looking at everyone else's. it gives him good ideas for new characters!! u and him would literally sit and make up dramatic backstories and personalities for different demons based on their pics HAHS itd turn into a whole storyline and simeon is literally making mental notes. in his yearbook photo, he just has his usual serene smile. he doesn't do anything special, although i think luke would wanna help him comb his hair or fix his slutty outfit :} (ok but fr why are the demons so covered up and raph and sim are literally walking around in exposing outfits like hello raph has his tits all the way out and asmo has a scarf, jacket AND a shirt underneath???) i feel like simeon would also send a picture of his yearbook pic to micheal and tell him about the whole process idk i feel it in my bones. if you tell him about yearbook signing he will ask everyone for their notes and signatures to commemorate his time in the devildom (he'll read your little note over and over when ur away... he cant help it ur so cute and he misses u sm)

i think luke is really nervous about the yearbook but the moment u ask him about it he's like "im not nervous quit treating me like a child!! >:((" simeon silently nods in your direction to confirm that yes luke is very nervous. he just wants to make a good impression!! its his first yearbook, he's gotta let everyone know that he's a capable, mature angel, worthy of micheal's praise! (he just wants micheal to be proud of him shh dont tell him i said that). when hes getting ready to have his picture taken, he takes extra care to fix his jaunty little hat, smooth his coat, brush his hair, etc. i think he tries to do a serious smile but he just comes out looking so cute that when u see his pic u unconsciously let out an 'awwww' and he pouts and tells u he is NOT cute and he is NOT a chihuahua that joke is DEAD. *pointedly glares at mammon* anyways his yearbook pic is really cute just dont tell him that hehe u and simeon can gush ab it later

raphael doesn't give two shits ab the yearbook i think. and he absolutely doesn't understand when u ask if theyre actually letting him wear his outfit hes just like "....yes? why would they not?" and still doesnt understand when you tell him that its kinda inappropriate but u still think its rlly hot. well. u can't see all of his abs in the pic but u can see most of em so ur sufficiently fed. (AHAHA IM SORRY) ahem. anyways they dont allow him to bring his spear or take a picture with him which kinda pisses him off a little bit. he also doesn't really care a lot about the yearbook itself either but if u sign it and then smile at him and tell him you'll miss him lots his cheeks will freaking flush sm but he'll be like "i will miss u as well. mc. thank you." whilst inside hes screaming omg. def looks at ur yearbook pic w a lil smile on his face and then micheal is like "ohoho? what r u looking at?" and raph is like "/////-///// nothing." micheal knows what hes looking at he just wants to tease him LMAO

solomon is kinda excited!! i think its one of the human things he's never really gotten to do so he's kinda pumped ab it :)) i think he just has a cute little smile on his face the whole day this is a new experience for him <33 he asks u all about yearbooks and picture day in preparation. he feels more connected to his humanity!!! i think after meeting u he just kinda realized that he missed being an average human, so he's been romanticizing every second of ur time together AWWWW altho sometimes hes a little mf shit >:[ will request to meet up w u in the human world to go through ur old yearbooks togther!! he thinks little u is so cute!! (and has a ball reading the senior quotes ehehe) all in all i think he really likes the yearbook :} esp because it has u in it <33

thirteen my wife is erm not thrilled ab picture day haha... she thinks its fucking dumb and she doesn't wanna at all. i think she even complains to dia about it n he tells her its her duty as a student at RAD and she just scowls and mutters profanities the rest of the day. i think if u mention to her how u are looking forward to seeing her picture and being able to look at it up in the human world she'll be like "FINE i'll do picture day i guess... itll be less of a drag if ur there" all while blushing a lil and looking the other way hehehe. DEFINITELY HAS A MENACING SMILE IN THE PIC. like the other beings are just :) and shes like >>>>:} literally what a freak lmao... also doesnt wear her freaking uniform and it pisses lucifer off a little bit but he doesn't wanna deal with her shes such a pain HAHA. when yearbooks are given out she probaby tosses it somewhere and then promptly forgets about it. she will 100% tease solo ab his picture though hehe

bonus: all of the exchange students have to take a pic together and it slowly turns in to a fight over who gets to stand next to u... thirteen and raph are close to having an all out brawl, solo and sim are glaring at each other, and luke is clinging onto ur leg with a pout. the poor photographer... eventually its kinda resolved when dia is like "oh ill just stand by mc! hahah!" he knows exactly what hes doing. no one can say no because hes literally the prince but they glower the rest of the day because dia has his arm around u and is basically blocking the rest of them HAHA. literally the same thing happens when the HOL/student council have to take a pic together oml

hiii babies!! some characters may be a lil ooc but idgaf <3 have a good day mwah

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starsoirees · 2 years

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pt2 posted hehe

thinking ab the RAD yearbook… how when yearbook photos are taken, you’d barely been in the devildom for a month but lucifer is fussing over you making sure you make a good impression, as to not ruin the school’s (diavolo’s) image. He fixes your tie, presses hairs into place (frowns when they dont stick), smooths your coat, etc. he forces the brothers to polish their shoes and press their uniforms the night prior, and anyone who isn’t up to dress code has a harsh punishment coming their way. he always looks perfect, so the most he does is press his uniform and perhaps take a little more time for his hair in the morning. photo is positively radiant (the brothers try to mess up his picture every year… they’ve tried everything.. hair dye instead of shampoo, hexed face wash, ruining his clothes, nothing works. its very frustrating). lucifer the beautiful fallen angel.. you’re pretty sure he has a dedicated fan club that practically die from excitement every time the yearbook is released

mammon is the bane of lucifer’s existence. this little bitch can never wear his uniform correctly he just can’t figure out how to tie his tie goddamnit. he also complains endlessly about yearbook photos. how “it’s such a fuckin hassle” and “the stick up lucifer’s ass is shoved up even farther on picture day.” he is a model though, so he knows the right angles, and which side of his face is best, etc. so his pictures always come out looking absolutely gorgeous ur so jealous. just before he’s about to take his picture, if you run up to him, ruffle his hair, kiss his cheek, and tell him he looks cute he’ll have the goofiest lovestruck grin immortalized in the yearbook forever. If mephistopheles were to edit the yearbook photos to embarrass people, he literally wouldn’t touch mammons lol he thinks it’s so funny as is. mams is already so embarrassed. literally if anyone brings up the cute little blush on his cheeks it’s on sight.

leviathan is just. there. this is like one of the only times he’s actually at school (other than student council meetings) because he mostly does online classes. probably complains about missing an episode of The New Girl Next Door Leaves Every Night at 1AM So I Decide To Follow Her And It Turns Out She’s A Thousand Year Old Vampire Who Is Madly In Love With My Older Brother And Wants to Have His Babies or something like that. is kinda used to causal comfy clothes, so having to wear his uniform correctly makes him whiny and uncomfortable. he really likes loose things and the uniform is so crisp and tight and he swears his tie is cutting off blood flow to his head. probably has more of a grimace than a smile in the photo because of his discomfort. hates looking through the yearbook when it comes out. he has two brothers that are literally models and he looks like some creepy otaku :(( is very down on himself, and really self-critical, please give him some huggies and tell him u think he looks cute as hell in the picture. he’ll deny it and then cry into ur shoulder. help.

satan doesn’t do much. fixes his bowtie (his bowtie is so cute and goofy i love him) and combs his hair through. probably the most normal and the least amount of a headache for lucifer (much to his dismay). maybe his camera smile looks a little menacing, but you know his true smile is sweet and soft. doesn’t really care much about the yearbook, but will deface lucifer’s photo (its a yearly tradition, thinks up new designs the whole year in preparation. will be overjoyed if u ask to brainstorm with him). overall satan is a cute ass dork and u love him for it.

asmodeus obviously takes yearbook photos very seriously, and engages in an intense spa day before hand. hair masks, face masks, nail masks, foot masks, everything. frets over his hair for ages, lucifer has to come and practically drag him away from his mirror because they’re going to be late. would be the type to ask the photographer to retake a picture a billion times because he tilted his head in a weird direction, or his tie wasn’t even, or his lashes aren’t curled enough, or the lighting was a little too dark… always goes last. will force you to let him do your makeup and hair. ur just so cute he can’t help himself. once yearbooks come out he’ll gush about how cute you look and literally kiss ur tiny little paper face.

beelzebub is literally a pain in the ass. like, i love him, but his uniform probably has food stains and crumbs everywhere. lucifer has given up at this point. beebs doesn’t even smile. he’s just sitting stoically. literally just :| want food. it kinda works for him tho hes like hot intimidating beefcake who hardly ever smiles while u know hes the sweetest gentle giant towards u. like his genuine smile is so cute and aaaa omg i want to squish his cute little cheeks. but like literally crumbs everywhere lucifer can’t get him to be crumbless they’re everywhere. beel gives 0 shits tho he literally couldn’t care less about the yearbook. mephi could literally photoshop a naked feminine body on to him and he’d just be like. “ok. *nom nom nom*” will literally glow if u tell him he looks cute in his yearbook pic though.

belphegor is annoying but just because he is #2tired2care. his uniform is messed up because he napped in it waiting for his turn and not his hair is messed up and his tie is crumpled. would literally be late for his picture because he fell asleep somewhere waiting. probably has half-lidded, sleepy eyes and a drowsy smile OR just a sly smirk. definitely leaves immediately afterward to the hol and naps the rest of the day. also doesn’t give a shit ab the yearbook v2. he’s got better things to do than care about a single yearbook pic. he’s got hundreds more.

hi. this is crack. pt2?

#self reblog #obey me x reader #obey me x you

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starsoirees · 2 years

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thinking ab the RAD yearbook... how when yearbook photos are taken, you'd barely been in the devildom for a month but lucifer is fussing over you making sure you make a good impression, as to not ruin the school's (diavolo's) image. He fixes your tie, presses hairs into place (frowns when they dont stick), smooths your coat, etc. he forces the brothers to polish their shoes and press their uniforms the night prior, and anyone who isn't up to dress code has a harsh punishment coming their way. he always looks perfect, so the most he does is press his uniform and perhaps take a little more time for his hair in the morning. photo is positively radiant (the brothers try to mess up his picture every year... they've tried everything.. hair dye instead of shampoo, hexed face wash, ruining his clothes, nothing works. its very frustrating). lucifer the beautiful fallen angel.. you're pretty sure he has a dedicated fan club that practically die from excitement every time the yearbook is released

leviathan is just. there. this is like one of the only times he’s actually at school (other than student council meetings) because he mostly does online classes. probably complains about missing an episode of The New Girl Next Door Leaves Every Night at 1AM So I Decide To Follow Her And It Turns Out She’s A Thousand Year Old Vampire Who Is Madly In Love With My Older Brother And Wants to Have His Babies or something like that. is kinda used to causal comfy clothes, so having to wear his uniform correctly makes him whiny and uncomfortable. he really likes loose things and the uniform is so crisp and tight and he swears his tie is cutting off blood flow to his head. probably has more of a grimace than a smile in the photo because of his discomfort. hates looking through the yearbook when it comes out. he has two brothers that are literally models and he looks like some creepy otaku :(( is very down on himself, and really self-critical, please give him some hugs and tell him u think he looks cute as hell in the picture. he’ll deny it and then cry into ur shoulder. help.

satan doesn't do much. fixes his bowtie (his bowtie is so cute and goofy i love him) and combs his hair through. probably the most normal and the least amount of a headache for lucifer (much to his dismay). maybe his camera smile looks a little menacing, but you know his true smile is sweet and soft. doesn't really care much about the yearbook, but will deface lucifer's photo (its a yearly tradition, thinks up new designs the whole year in preparation. will be overjoyed if u ask to brainstorm with him). overall satan is a cute ass dork and u love him for it.

asmodeus obviously takes yearbook photos very seriously, and engages in an intense spa day before hand. hair masks, face masks, nail masks, foot masks, everything. frets over his hair for ages, lucifer has to come and practically drag him away from his mirror because they're going to be late. would be the type to ask the photographer to retake a picture a billion times because he tilted his head in a weird direction, or his tie wasn't even, or his lashes aren't curled enough, or the lighting was a little too dark... always goes last. will force you to let him do your makeup and hair. ur just so cute he can’t help himself. once yearbooks come out he’ll gush about how cute you look and literally kiss ur tiny little paper face.

beelzebub is literally a pain in the ass. like, i love him, but his uniform probably has food stains and crumbs everywhere. lucifer has given up at this point. beebs doesn’t even smile. he’s just sitting stoically. literally just :| want food. it kinda works for him tho hes like hot intimidating beefcake who hardly ever smiles while u know hes the sweetest gentle giant towards u. like his genuine smile is so cute and aaaa omg i want to squish his cute little cheeks. but like literally crumbs everywhere lucifer can’t get him to be crumbless they're everywhere. beel gives 0 shits tho he literally couldn’t care less about the yearbook. mephi could literally photoshop a naked feminine body on to him and he’d just be like. “ok. *nom nom nom*” will literally glow if u tell him he looks cute in his yearbook pic though.

belphegor is annoying but just because he is #2tired2care. his uniform is messed up because he napped in it waiting for his turn and now his hair is messed up and his tie is crumpled. would literally be late for his picture because he fell asleep somewhere waiting. probably has half-lidded, sleepy eyes and a drowsy smile OR just a sly smirk. definitely leaves immediately afterward to the hol and naps the rest of the day. also doesn't give a shit ab the yearbook v2. he’s got better things to do than care about a single yearbook pic. he’s got hundreds more.

hi. this is crack. pt2 posted here

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starsoirees · 2 years

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change is a good thing.

change is a good thing, you say, when the first tear streaks down your flushed cheeks, rosy from the heat of frustration and exhaustion. when your throat burns from overuse, but your mind is too clouded with a combination of rage and hurt to think about the soreness you’ll feel in the morning, one that you’ll inevitably neglect due to the soreness of your heart. when you look at them, and see a face you’ve loved dearly, but whose eyes have lost that joyous sparkle they had when you first met, now replaced with a crumbling mask that they wear for you, not because they love you, but because they once did. truth be told, you knew this would happen. you knew that eventually, the relationship you had built on childish desires and a burning need for something new would fizzle out into something cold, desolate, and broken.

change is a good thing, you say, when, months later, your insides still feel raw and tender, and your eyes well when you find an old photo, one where you’re young and happy, and full of meaningless hope. you stare at your past self, unshed tears threatening to spill as you gaze at your arms looped lazily around their waist, grinning brightly at the camera while their gaze is fixed solely on you. when you wonder if they still lose themselves in the memories of you, as if you don’t know that they’ve moved on by now. that they don’t gaze at your picture fondly, fingers leaving marks on the shimmering finish as a watery smile creeps onto their face as they think of what could’ve been. no, they don’t. because they stopped loving you long ago, but you don’t know if you’ve ever stopped loving them.

ALBEDO, beidou, DILUC, eula, KAEYA, sara, CHILDE, thoma, xiao, TRAVELER, ZHONGLI

feeling contemplative today :) things are happening for me, big things. i’m scared. but i really do think change is a good thing. at the very least, it brings something new.

#self reblog #i really like this piece hehe

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starsoirees · 2 years

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change is a good thing.

ALBEDO, beidou, DILUC, eula, KAEYA, sara, CHILDE, thoma, xiao, TRAVELER, ZHONGLI

feeling contemplative today :) things are happening for me, big things. i’m scared. but i really do think change is a good thing. at the very least, it brings something new.

#albedo x reader #beidou x reader #diluc ragnivindr x reader #eula x reader #kaeya x reader #sara x reader #sara kujou x reader #childe x reader #thoma x reader #xiao x reader #traveler x reader #aether x reader #lumine x reader #zhongli x reader #genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact angst #hurt no comfort

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starsoirees · 2 years

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A smile of million years

#so cute omg omg #♡#THE STARS IN THEIR HAIR IM

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starsoirees · 2 years

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special anniversary | genshin x gn!reader

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ YOU HAVE RECEIVED A LETTER, LET’S SEE WHAT’S INSIDE! ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

salutations. how they celebrate your anniversary (w/ gn!reader)

addressed. diluc, kaeya, albedo, jean, lisa, eula, venti, zhongli, tartaglia, xiao, ganyu, ningguang, beidou, kaedehara kazuha, thoma, gorou, arataki itto, yae miko, and raiden shogun

content. fluff/small-angst, spoilers to inazuma archon quest act 3, spoilers to into the perilous labyrinth of fog event, not proof-read (apologies in advance if there's any errors in this fic!!)

sypnosis. short hcs on how they celebrate your first anniversary

penpals. @scaraslover @saving-for-xiao @dawgimsohot @kazu-topia @chiruru @aqualesha @renamichii

links. teyvat's penpal service

post-script. i decided to make a special post dedicated to my one year anniversary of my blog (january 26, 2021) soo here it is ! hope you guys enjoy this <<3

TAKES YOU OUT TO EAT - zhongli, lisa, ningguang, arataki itto, yae miko, gorou

ZHONGLI would take you out to have a nice dinner in third-round knockout, thinking that the best way to celebrate each other's anniversary is to retrace the memory of how the both of you met and the memory of your first date. unlike most of the dates you've went to with this man, this one was more intimate and romantic.

the staff of the restaurant was happy enough to make things more romantic by making someone play an instrument as the iron-tongue tian tells many stories in the background. it was really nice, you admit. it felt like it all happened yesterday when you first met zhongli at the same spot and same time.

later on after eating, the both of you would start strolling around the harbor together as the stars shines above you, causing you to be busy looking at them to not notice how your lover looks at you with love-eyes, thinking about how he's glad to meet someone like you. it honestly felt like deja-vu throughout the whole date, because it felt like he fell in love with you all over again.

LISA will take a day off to spend her day with you. the first thing the both of you did is have a tea session together, talking about whatever comes into your minds for hours on end. it really lightens the whole atmosphere to hear the two of you laughing over your conversations.

the both of you will also spend time taking a stroll around mondstadt and shop together, with lisa willing to dress up for you and you the same. it's a sweet sight for people passing by to see the humble librarian of the knights of favonius spending time together with her lover - it felt like windblume festival already returned with all the romance between you.

afterwards, the both of you will spend time eating dinner in good hunter eating each other's favorite foods. when sara found out about your anniversary, she immediately cooked another food that's on the house, much to you and lisa's delight. by the end of the day, you two lay on your bed in each other's arms, thinking about the future that lies ahead the both of you.

NINGGUANG will wear the most beautiful dress made with the finest clothing the city harbor could offer to their tianquan, wondering what the special occasion is that made the woman dress up so nicely. to her three secretaries, they know full well enough that their superior will be meeting the special someone in her abode.

obviously, the special someone is you.

given her status and reputation, ningguang made sure to pull every string she has so that no one can know about you and the fact that you're her spouse – mainly because she didn't want any person in her city to look badly on you and the dangers that could be brought to you for being with someone like ningguang.

hence why she decided to celebrate her anniversary with you by letting her staff take a day off outside of the jade chamber and immediately take you in, her eyes brightening at the sight of you arriving her home in your best outfit that you manage to get and buy.

it was a quiet evening to say the least, but it was peaceful enough for you and ningguang to enjoy your date together. she knows you long enough to know what food you like the most, knowing that it puts a smile on your face when you see the wondrous sight of your favorite food plastered over the table, so when she sees how you're so happy eating, it makes her happy as well.

however, what took her by surprise is your response when she asks you about your opinion about the food.

"it makes me happy, of course." you said with a smile. "though, not as much as spending time with the one i'm in love with."

she immediately covers her face with her fan, trying not to smile too much from your response. but you know her long enough to know that she's flustered from your words, causing you to laugh a little at the sight of the flustered tianquan.

deep inside, it does make ningguang happy that she gets to spend time with you without any interruptions from her duties. despite having all the luxury she has that now resides in her new jade chamber, none of them compares to the luxury of happiness that she feels when she spends time with you.

when ARATAKI ITTO finds out that today's your anniversary, he'll immediately invite you to go out with him and eat together in a ramen restaurant. oh, you don't have to worry about the money, a certain fox lady owes him free ramen after a competition many moons ago.

although the place he chose for you is something that isn't something worth in awe for, your lover makes it up by the atmosphere and the pleasant conversation the both of you have. with itto, it's like the both of you can talk about any topic you want and he'll make it fun.

and what's better than spending time with your lover in the best ramen restaurant in town? giving your lover the best beetle of course!

by the time the both of you are finished with your meals, itto will immediately surprise you with a rather large box that turns out to be a special gift from your man. you expected something like a jewelry, a matching hairbrush, or even a trinket that he got from a kid who lost to him, but never a giant looking beetle sleeping. of course, your reaction is up to you – either way, you'll hear your lover laugh.

YAE MIKO will be all too happy to show you just how much she loves you more than any human known in this world during your anniversary. you're not sure why but she seems to be more affectionate when it comes to special occasions – which you don't mind of course.

to start the day, she’ll smother you with so much kisses on your face when the both of you meet up just to see your flustered state. could you blame her? you’re just so cute that she just had to kiss you!

she'll give you a special light novel that hasn't been established in her store yet along with a charm that'll surely give you luck and prosperity as a gift (or rather, gifts). she'll be more delighted if you too give her a gift even if it's less special than hers.

she'll then take you to a nice restaurant where the both of you can be alone and enjoy the meals you share. it'll only take a while before the woman decides to sit next to you and offer to feed you with her chopsticks, laughing in amusement from your flustered state.

"oh but i insist on feeding you!" she said when you tried to protest her request. "this is what couples do sometimes is it not? now open your mouth and say "ah" hehe"

it feels strange to be in narukami island despite visiting there multiple times, GOROU would admit. however, if it's for you, then he's all too willing to come over and spend time with you. especially during an occasion as important as an anniversary.

the two of you decided to spend time together by going to a restaurant and introduce gorou to many dishes that he had missed back when he was busy with his duties, alongside letting him eat his favorite dessert after not being able to eat them for so long.

however, gorou then insisted in trying out a new dish that he'd like to share with you alongside his desserts, not knowing what's in store for him as he excitedly tries the food with you.

the food stored onions.

the moment gorou took his first bite, he instantly froze like a deer caught in the headlights, realizing his mistake as he feels the contents of his food rising up his throat.

"gorou? what–"

"i'm sorry y/n, i can't hold it!" he exclaims, rushing out from the door and towards the bathroom that's beside your reservation room before he pukes his guts out on the toilet.

later after that, gorou swears to always ask merchants if there's onions in the food as you try to make it up to your lover with sweets.

SPEND TIME WITH FRIENDS AND/OR FAMILY - tartaglia, beidou, venti, ganyu, jean

TARTAGLIA will spend the anniversary with you by inviting you to come to snezhnaya with him and meet his family, who are all too willing and excited to meet the person who has stolen his heart and has been mentioned in many letters written by yours truly.

he values his family more than anything alongside you, so seeing you and the people he shares the same blood with getting along makes him happy - especially if they approve your relationship and you as a person overall.

expect them to ask you many questions about yourself and what you think about your lover, who watches the whole thing with a genuine smile on his face – until he spots his mother sneakily bringing out a very familiar photobook that he intends to hide from you in fear of embarrassment, that's when his smile will drop 6 feet underground and try to stop her from showing you many pictures of childe as a kid.

not to worry though, because his smile will easily return when he overhears a conversation between you and his mother while he’s cleaning up the table, listening to you two talking about how his mom is happy that childe has someone as special as you to be his spouse. his smile could only widen more when you confess to her about something that'll change your lives for the better.

BEIDOU was very enthusiastic when she finds out that you're okay with celebrating your anniversary together with her crew, who are all more than happy to help their captain plan the occasion alongside xinyan and xiangling. spending time with the crux honestly feels like you're in a wedding reception with you and beidou being the newly-wed couple, which you admit, does make you feel a bit flustered to think about.

the whole night, your lover always has her arm wrapped around your shoulder or is beside you, the both of you leaning on each other for warmth and comfort as you celebrate your first anniversary with the people your lover considers as family.

while xinyan takes her cue to start preparing for her performance, beidou takes her cue to take you far away from where her crewmates are, her palms begins to sweat from her nervousness as you follow her without any clue of her intentions.

it wasn't until the woman slowly pulls out a small box and opens it for you to see the inside, causing your eyes to widen at the sight of two shiny rings.

"it's a matching promise ring," she said, smiling. "i uh, i found this on display while doing some errands around the harbor, so i thought it would be great if you and i can have matching rings. think of it as a charm that you and i can take whenever one of us is away from the other, haha.."

if only your lover knew that you too have a small box that has a ring, a ring that represents your willingness to spend your whole life together with her by the sea and her crew.

VENTI is more than happy to take you out from the city of freedom and explore around the nation with the help of his dearest friend, dvalin. given that it's the first time meeting the dragon that people feared long ago, you honestly were nervous on how your encounter will turn out.

"so you're the human that my friend has been chatting about for ages," dvalin spoke in an amused tone, causing you to get spooked because of the fact that the creature can talk. "it's pleasant to meet you."

without letting you reply, he instantly starts flapping his wings together, causing strong winds to come at you and venti. "come, i shall take you around and show what mondstadt can offer."

windwail highland, brightcrown mountains, starfell valley, and galesong hill – you name it. dvalin took you and venti everywhere as you hold onto your lover in fear of how high the both of you are, paying no mind to how venti starts laughing at the sight of your scared form.

by the time dvalin lands in windrise – the last stop – the first thing that caught your eye was a blanket that sprawled foods near the statue. although this was an endearing sight, you could only wonder how on earth venti managed to make sara from good hunter make so much food.

“silly y/n,” venti said with a giggle, helping you come down from dvalin’s back. “who said i bought these?”

for your anniversary, you and GANYU agreed to take a two-day break from your duties in the qixing and celebrate. to your relief, your request for your break has been approved and assured by the tianquan herself, who immediately gifted you a gift for your anniversary much to you and your lover's delight.

the first thing you and ganyu did during your anniversary is to visit cloud retainer's abode to pay respects and let ganyu introduce the adeptus to you, who has never met an adeptus in person until now (besides your lover, that is). however, your nervous and doubts have all washed away when cloud retainer expresses how she approves your relationship.

it didn't take long before the adeptus started telling you embarrassing stories about ganyu in her childhood when your lover decides to drag you away from mt. aocang and send farewell to the adeptus, who swore to you that she'll tell more of her stories, as the both of you head back to wangshu inn, where you'll be staying for the next two nights together.

unlike most of the characters, you and JEAN weren't able to spend the whole day together thanks to her busy duties as the acting grandmaster. the woman felt guilty when she told you she won't be able to spend the day because of the overwhelming amount of work to do – but you reassured her that it's alright and that there's always next time to celebrate.

it wasn't alright, you admit deep inside, but you're aware that there's nothing you can do to stop your lover from protecting your homeland with everything she can.

you were too sad to notice how a lot of knights of favonius members often came in and out from angel's share with questionable boxes and party supplies, and how sara from good hunter seems to be giving you a reassuring smile when you told her that you're just spending time finding a gift for your lover as an anniversary gift.

however, when you came to angel's share to buy some wine, the first thing you saw when you opened the door was your dearest friends screaming "SURPRISE" at you, causing you to open your mouth agape in shock.

you were about to ask what was happening, until jean walk towards you and give you a comforting hug with a smile on her face. "i apologize for lying to you. i was spending the afternoon preparing the party for you and wanted to make it a surprise." she explains, kissing your temple.

"wait, i don't understand.." you mumbled, staring at your lover with wide eyes.

you looked at the people behind jean, who're all smiling and waiting for your lover's cue to start the party.

jean then holds out her hand to you.

"let me make up for the times we've missed."

ALONE TOGETHER - raiden shogun, diluc, albedo

as someone who's been in plane of euthymia for so long, EI prefers being alone rather than in a crowded place, hence why she decides to invite you to her palace and spend time with her eating desserts and your choice of food. the archon was honestly relieved that she has yae miko, because if it weren't for her, ei couldn't imagine what she would do to celebrate your anniversary together.

it didn't help that she feels.. nervous for the first time in centuries. since when was the last time she felt like this? the things you do to her are so different, yet... not so bad. still, it felt strange to be so nervous about giving you a gift that yae miko helped her come up with, and she certainly hopes that you wouldn't notice it.

if you didn't notice, then the people watching by did.

it was a surprise sight for people who work in the tenshukaku to see their beloved archon acting like a high-school girl in front of you, a mere commoner mortal who managed to capture ei's heart with unknown reasons. but were they complaining? nope.

when ei decided to push her nervousness aside and give you your gift, you stopped talking for a moment and stare down at the wrapped box in confusion.

"you're supposed to.. open it." she clarifies, gesturing the gift.

you chuckled from her words before doing what she said, the first thing you saw is a kamera.

"...happy anniversary, y/n." she spoke with a small smile. "it may… not be much to you but i heard from traveler and his companion that this item makes a visual record of you at this very moment in time, so it makes a great souvenir. i-i was thinking that this may be good for you and i whenever we spend time together."

your eyes brightens from her explanation, an idea instantly came in mind. “why not take a picture of us together right now as our first picture?”

DILUC decides to spend your anniversary together with him by letting all his staff take the day off and let you stay in dawn winery with him.

whether it’d be picking up berries together in his vineyard, chase each other around the field, cook meals together, or even chill in front of the fireplace — you name it. as long as diluc gets to spend time with you, he’s satisfied with whatever you want to do.

with you, he felt like he’s truly at home for the first time in years. the atmosphere have never felt so.. bright and comforting and the place was filled with laughter and happiness shared. not to mention the fact that he actually starts smiling even if it was just small — and you can guarantee that he doesn’t want this day to end.

which is why he starts to think about the next phase of your relationship as the both of you lay on his bed with you sleeping soundly in his arms. would you say yes if he finally invites you to move in with him?

ALBEDO finds it comforting to spend your anniversary together in the cold embrace of dragonspine with just the two of you in his labratory beside one another. expect him to make a painting of you with his best ability as you pose for him with a grin on your face. it didn't take long before you jokingly whine about why it was taking so long, causing albedo to chuckle.

"stand still, dear. i just want to make sure this painting captures your beauty and features that i love." he said, your cheeks feeling warmer than the campfire nearby from his words.

after a long hour of painting you, albedo will then summon a nice table with dining utensils for you to eat and insists on cooking for you – only for you to protest and want to help him out with cooking your meals.

despite wanting you to just sit back and relax, albedo would admit that it was more... enjoyable to cook with you rather than cooking by himself. your hand brushing against his as the both of you lend each other items or ingredients never fails to make his heart (does he even have a heart?) beat so fast.

by the time the both of you finished cooking and serving the food down on the table, he'll immediately pull his and your chair next to each other, letting you sit down first before he does.

as you compliment his cooking and eat your meal happily, albedo could only smile in response and eat his salad, thinking about how it does taste better than any salad he had ever tried in his life.

perhaps eating with the ones you love makes food better is true, albedo thought to himself, humming in satisfaction.

"happy anniversary, y/n."

STAR-GAZING - kazuha, thoma, xiao, kaeya, eula

KAZUHA spends your anniversary by taking you to the highest spot of guyun stone forest, where the both of you can watch the stars together as you bask in each other's presence.

expect him to pull out a small poem that he worked hard for before reciting it to you, who did not expect the poem to be all about you until your name was mentioned along the lines. if only you knew how much poems he wrote about you that are all hidden in the alcor where no one can find them.

you may not have written a poem for your man, but you do know some of the stars that are shining as always. while you point out some of the stars and explain about it happily, kazuha could simply watch you and listen to you for hours with a loving look on his face.

it won't take long before beidou calls out for you two, telling you that you should come down with your lover and celebrate your anniversary with the crux, who has a feast waiting for you to eat, reminding you and kazuha that you're no longer as alone as you were back then in inazuma.

instead of staying in komore's teahouse or explore around inazuma city together, THOMA wanted to change things up a little and take you somewhere far away from the city, which is the amakane island, where the two of you not only will get to star-gaze together but will also get to see a fireworks show prepared by yoimiya.

the chief retainer could spend years gushing about how amazing you look in your outfit that he hasn’t seen you use until now, his words stumbling because of how breathtaking you look much to your amusement and embarrassment.

it was a cute sight to see you two like a high-school couple, and merchants did not hesitate to tease thoma right at the spot whenever the two of you stop by to buy something, causing the housekeeper to laugh and ignore the way his face turns even more red. even some of the merchants gave you and thoma a huge discount after finding out that the two of you are celebrating your anniversary toegther.

not to mention the fact that thoma actually bought himself matching kitsune masks for the both of you to wear – he'll absolutely gush more about this moment too!!

by the time the both of you found a spot to watch the stars and the fireworks alike, you immediately intertwine your fingers with his, leaning against him with a content sigh as he wraps his arm around you with a grin.

"did you enjoy it?" you asked him, still staring at the sky.

"of course," he replied, pulling you closer to him. "why wouldn't i be when i'm with you?"

coincidentally, your anniversary with XIAO is on the day the lantern rite releases its lanterns and mingxiao lantern, so you decided to take this opportunity to take your lover out from wangshu inn and spend the night watching together.

if it were any other person, xiao wouldn't hesitate to refuse. however, since it's you, xiao won't mind coming out to spend time with you.

you decided to make it up to your lover by treating him to dinner in wangshu inn, insisting to your lover that you don't want to watch the lanterns rise with an empty stomach as verr goldet and the rest of the wangshu inn staff watch you both from time to time in adoration, thinking that the both of you look so cute together (xiao knows you and him are being watched, but he won't say anything due to his embarrassment).

by the time the both of you finished, you decided to go to liyue harbor with the help of your lover's teleportation abilities. you were too busy from preparing yourself to notice the way his face has a light pink shade on his cheeks from how close the both of you are.

of course, knowing that his karma debt could affect those in liyue harbor, you decided to watch the lanterns with the yaksha at the same area as where you and him watched the previous lanterns together, which is near the entrance to liyue harbor.

while waiting for the lanterns to rise, you decided to pick up the lanterns that you made with the help of traveler, thinking that it'd be great for xiao to experience wishing in the lantern and let it fly to the sky.

it was as beautiful as it was before, you admit. watching the lanterns along with yours rise along with the mingxiao lantern as it lights up the starry night was indeed a memorable sight, but not as much as the way your lover's eyes brightens at the sight of his lantern floating high above to the sky in awe.

there's nothing more romantic than mondstadt’s most famous spot that's perfect for couples to hang out in: the starsnatch cliff. call KAEYA cheesy, but he honestly likes the idea of star-gazing with his love while dining delicious foods and drinking wine instead of spending the night in angel's share – which isn't an ideal date for an anniversary, if you ask him.

but then again, star-gazing isn't just enough for kaeya, so he decided to plan a scavenger hunt for you to find him and your anniversary spot.

at first, you found it romantic and a bit cliche – but then you realized just how far you might have to go from the city to wherever the hell kaeya is. maybe it wasn't a good idea to let kaeya plan your anniversary.

by the time you arrived, kaeya was standing not too far away from where you are with a smirk. "how was the scavenger hunt, sweetheart?" he asked.

"terrible, not recommended." you replied in a monotone. "you better have food up there or i'm leaving."

he chuckles. "leaving so soon? won't you at least stay for the surprise?'

by the end of the night, kaeya's surprise turned out to be a very expensive wine that you had never seen in your life.

oh, and a very special ring that made kaeya go from being your boyfriend to your fiance.

given that you're the first person EULA has dated, it's safe to say that the woman doesn't know what to do to celebrate her first anniversary with you, so you have to be the one to take the lead on this and guide her.

you made sure that your date isn't somewhere in the city or anywhere that has people, not wanting eula to get another backlash from others on the day of your anniversary, so you chose a spot that's a nice and quiet area around windwail highland that can show you the view of the city of freedom, with springvale not being too far from where you are – it's a perfect area for a picnic with your lover.

when you and eula meet up in your "secret" spot, expect her to give you a gift – which is a home-made special dish made by yours truly alongside a brooch that matches your usual outfit – however, she won't expect you to give her anything in return, so if you too got her a gift, she'll be surprised and happy.

the two of you then eat each other's dishes with your choice of drink, enjoying the quiet atmosphere around your surroundings.

and what else would be great other than amazing meals? dancing with your lover without a care of the world of course !!!

eula will pretty much invite you to dance with her once she deems that it's enough for your stomachs to rest from eating so much food, and despite your protests that you don't know how, she'll simply insist and pull you away from the picnic blanket.

"shouldn't we be using music?" you asked, laughing nervously as your lover holds both of your hands.

"who says we have to use music?" she said with an amused smile. "there's nothing to worry about – just hold onto me and i'll lead the way."

BONUS - scaramouche

celebrating without SCARAMOUCHE honestly made you sad, but you understood why he has to go away. just thinking about the things the fatui would do when they find out that the traitor who hasn't returned the electro gnosis to the tsaritsa has a spouse made you shudder in fear.

you sat alone by the dining table staring at the untouched foods that you made by yourself, wishing that your lover was sitting beside you celebrating this memorable occasion, but alas, fate is too cruel for the both of you to get what you want.

you wondered what he was doing. is he celebrating alone as well in a hideout? is he safe from the fatui chasing him? you could only sigh, knowing you'll never get to know the answer until then.

"happy anniversary to you, kunikuzushi." you whispered, smiling in sadness. "please come back here safe and sound someday."

unnoticed to you, a lone figure stood a few feet away in your cottage, staring at the window where he can see you eating your food alone, which caused his stomach to twist from the sad sight of his lover. there's nothing more scaramouche desires than to enter the place he considers home and have you in his arms, but he knows it'll only risk your safety.

"...happy anniversary to you too, n/n." he mumbles, covering his face with his hat before walking away, never knowing when will the day come that he'll go back to your waiting arms.

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HEH OKAY

first main: rosaria <3

current main: raiden !!

weakest main: noelle D:

fav main: raiden :D (ei is so sweet and my first 5 star!! luv that lady :3)

future main: raiden/YAE MIKOOOO MY FAV GFS

tagging anyone >:)

I wanted to do that one genshin post thing but I can't draw so...

First main: Bennett

Current main: Raiden Shogun

Strongest main: Yanfei

Weakest main: Childe/Bennett

Favourite main: Childe/Bennett

Future main: Dainsleif

This could be a tag game? I think?

Tagging: @altair-ation @myluvkeiji @yuezhong @favonius-captain

#genshin impact main #↠｡*ﾟmumspice #genshin impact #genshin #yae miko #raiden shogun

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Expanse

drabble/concept ??

warnings - mentions of physical violence, bullying

pre sumeru/natlan release! lets see how much is accurate... also mona studies in sumeru in this instead of fontaine, and speculation on celestia r included!

“the stars. the stars are what guide us. we come from the stars, and to the stars we will return,” this was spoken to you, preached and ingrained into your mind throughout childhood. it gave you comfort and solace, especially when there was no one else to offer it to you.

you spent many nights outside, resting on the soft ground, gazing up at the sky, tracing patterns with your small hands. the infinite sky, draped in it’s glittering robes, skin shimmering with the light of a thousand stars, entranced you. lulled you into a state of dreamlike wonder, wondering how something so utterly breathtaking could exist in this world. you spent hours pouring over fairytales and stories of the sky, something that pulled you away from the cruel ground, from the harsh reality that was sticks and stones and pain, from the insults that cut too deep, and the choking grip of loneliness. after all, how could you be lonely when there were a million stars keeping you company?

your infatuation with the stars soon turned into somewhat of a lifestyle. as a child, you learned all you could about the stars. their positions, what they meant, and how to use them. of course, in Natlan, anything that wasn’t fighting or combat related was shunned. you were a demure, quiet child, and you never participated in the small fight tournaments the other children had, instead preferring to stay inside, reading books. due to this, the other kids called you odd, freakish, and often used physical violence, because, that was simply all they knew. it wasn’t until night, when they were asleep, could you venture out of your tent safely, without the fear of bullies.

when you were finally old enough, you moved to Sumeru at the first chance you got. You found an old astrologist to study under there. the woman was nice enough, and you and her other apprentice became fast friends. her apprentice loved astrology, although was a very impulsive spender, leaving her to make rash decisions that you often had to cover for out of your own pocket.

you two would spend hours in the observatory, marking the positions of the stars, testing out the odd gadgets she bought, and writing down your thoughts and research. the difference between you and her though, was that she was interested in uses of the stars, lie detecting, personality observing, etc. You, on the other hand, were interested in the how the stars existed, why they were there, and the deeper understanding of how it worked. you scoured the shelves in the library, flipping through every astrology, history, even magic book available. anything that might aid you in your search for answers was on the table. the farthest you got was a book you had stolen from the restricted archives of the library, which contained an excerpt that mentioned celestia, not as the hall of the gods, but as a mysterious being, one who had immense power, and possibly was the creator of teyvat.

it wasn’t enough for you though. that was the most you had gotten. it was frustrating. no record of any speculation abut how the sky and stars were created except for a page in a book hidden from the eyes of the public. Sumeru was known for it’s bountiful wisdom, so the void of information left you with the understanding that the knowledge you sought went against the leaders of your society, and perhaps, the archons themselves. due to this, you kept your pursuit of celestia hidden, only sneaking out to further your search when you had a spare moment, away from the prying eyes of your master.

you did allow one soul in on your research, though. the other apprentice, your closest friend, provided you with theories, inquiries, and used her vision of hydro all to aid you. she knew how important this was to you, so when the sumerian guards appeared at the house you shared with her and your master to take you away, you didn’t expect her to simply do nothing.

to stand there, stone-faced and silent when they restrained you, and accused you of betrayal of Sumeru and the dendro archon. to not react when your master backhanded you across the face, and ended your apprenticeship, telling you that you were a stain upon her reputation. to not respond when you turned to the apprentice, fat tears cascading over your red cheek, and screamed, words of hurt and anger and pain flowing past your lips, all directed at her.

nor did you notice her eyes widen when a bright blue glow shone through the room, spikes of ice shooting up from around you when you pulled away from the guards, their grip slackened from shock as you grabbed the gleaming cryo vision. the glowing blue orb shone through your fingertips, illuminating your skin and reflecting in your glassy eyes.

you wasted no time in dashing to the study and freezing the door shut behind you. by the time the guards had managed to break the door down, you were too far away to see the tear that slipped down the now only apprentice’s cheek, and the small smile on her lips when she saw that your research papers and books were gone, along with you. unable to her the soft whisper that left her lips.

i’m sorry

screaming ive had this as a draft for so long, and i had more written but i forgot to save im too butthurt to write more but i really like this premise sndhdjnd im so excited to continue ot so THERE WILL B MORE IM JUST CALLING THIS A 'teaser' for now muehehehe

i think this’ll be a dainsleif? scaramouche? mona? aether? all? idk...

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just a little psa bc i see this so much

here's what butterfly kisses mean:

"he pressed butterfly kisses to their neck"

me: envisioning someone shoving their face in someone else's neck and blinking rlly hard

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character analysis: kaeya alberich

Alright, I am BY NO MEANS a professional so…take what I say with a grain of salt. A pinch. A handful, a whole Havria. I am only a human and I am my own benchmark to evaluate other people so I will inevitably project [but I’ll keep it to a minimum]. I also have no template for this, so I’m basically just spitting words out. And also kind of bullshitting a literature essay. A key part of my writing process is to first take a character apart by analyzing their current behavior, linking it to their childhood [or what I guess to be their childhood] and then predicting what they would do in certain social situations. This is also written inconsistently—at times, I assume you have basic knowledge of Kaeya’s character. At other times, I assume you’re a complete dumbass. But you don’t wanna hear about all that even though this part can be ignored so without further ado, here is my analysis of Kaeya. Feel free to correct me anywhere. Also, note that this analysis is written with the reader in mind. This is essentially to help you better capture Kaeya’s essence in your daydreams or when you shift. Yeah. Have fun.

One thing people often forget about Kaeya is that he is, canonically, highly intelligent. Quoted from his story, “When Death After Noon is out of season due to lack of supply, the number of reported incidents inside and outside the city show a drastic decrease, and this remains the case until Death After Noon returns to the market...” Death After Noon is Kaeya’s favorite drink. Before this paragraph in his story, it is stated that Kaeya “battles” threats to Mondstadt “not only with his sword, but also with his smarts and his wit”. This proves the correlation between the falling crime rate along with Death After Noon being out of season, and Kaeya. Now, one cannot claim that they’re unrelated because MiHoYo has clearly worded it to be this way.

Now, what about his intelligence? He’s not smart in the same way Albedo [book smart] is. He has, in my opinion, the rarest and best kind of smart—common sense. This allows him to analyze situations and make the best decision. Hell, in his case, he fucking manipulates the situation so that the best decision possible in all variations of said situation can be made.

Some fans say that he gives off the vibe of having common sense, but choosing instead not to use it. He purposely went to Diluc that night to have Diluc kill him in a fight. [We know this because Kaeya is a very deliberate man. His entire fucking being is calculated for optimal…well, you’ll see later.] This is as stated in his character story, Vision. He knew Diluc was upset, and purposely set it up so that he could die guilt-free at the hands of his sworn brother, whom he loved dearly. [I say guilt-free because he’s been hiding the fact that he’s a spy for Khaenri’ah this whole time. He also felt relief when Crepus died because he gave Kaeya love that he felt he didn’t deserve.] This man LITERALLY tried to commit suicide in one of the most roundabout ways ever. He utilized his intricate understanding of people and their emotions to essentially manipulate Diluc into killing him. And then he failed, not on account of his lack of planning, but because probably no one in Teyvat would even factor gaining a Vision in as some situation to contingency plan for anyway.

Thankfully for you [and me and potentially not him], Kaeya lived because he gained a Cryo Vision that night.

There is also a certain aspect that has bothered me for quite a while now. He is likely to know that hiding behind lies will bite him in the ass one day [it’s just common sense, and I’ve proven that he has a lot of it]. He’s lied, hiding the truth from Diluc and Crepus for years and living with the burden of guilt for just as long, and when Crepus died, he decided, “Okay, I won’t live like the pathological liar that I am anymore.” He came clean to Diluc that night he received his Vision.

AND GUESS FUCKING WHAT. Put yourself in his shoes. You’ve just shrugged your burden off and realized, hey, it can be removed. It is possible to live without having to suffer all this crap every single day. Then, after your suicide attempt fails, you PUT THE GODDAMN BURDEN RIGHT BACK ONTO YOUR SHOULDERS LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED.

Why is that? It’s because Kaeya is afraid. He’s already made a reputation for himself. Quoting his character story number 5, “Many citizens still remember the two most eye-catching young gentlemen in all of Mondstadt a few years ago.” Here, Kaeya has already established a good image of himself and [if you put yourself in his position] would hate for that to be torn down. So instead of being the crackhead he truly is, he swaddles himself in a fluffy blanket that says “TOTALLY NOT A BABY” and turns his back to the rest of society.

I think that the reason Kaeya won’t be transparent with others is because his birth father, who is obviously not a very good father, has somehow driven into his head the idea that he will not be loved unless he’s this and that and yada yada. [I say this as a kid who shows symptoms of CPTSD. It seems to me that all, or most, humans are driven by the desire to be loved.] In other words, he has abandonment issues. He’s been abandoned, like, thrice. Once by his birth father, another time by his sworn brother’s father [through death, if that counts], and finally by Diluc himself, who rejected Kaeya after learning the truth behind him. See, now it makes sense why Kaeya lies so much.

Oh, and the reason why he gets a kick out of lying is because his brain decided it was a good way to cope with lying better. He knows lying is bad and all, but he makes up the excuse that it’s “fun” to make the process easier so that in the end, he will be loved. [by idiots like me who know he’s a manipulating, gaslighting little bitch. uwu.]

Oh, and there’s also this part from his character story 5.

"’Even someone like Master Crepus would submit to such a dangerous and evil power...’

Sinister thoughts flashed through Kaeya's mind, and he simply smirked—

‘This world is truly... fascinating.’"

I could do a close reading of this short excerpt but that’s not the point.

TELL ME, WHAT KIND OF NORMAL PERSON LOOKS AT THEIR DEAD ADOPTIVE FATHER AND GOES “oh hey that’s pretty interesting”?!

Kaeya’s childhood back in Khaenri’ah or the Abyss or whatever has yet to be revealed, especially elaboration on his relationship with his birth father, but CLEARLY SOMETHING HAPPENED THERE.

Now, how does all that—his intelligence, his pathological tendency to lie, his fears, and his apparent fucked-up-ness—tie into a relationship with the reader?

Just check out my goddamn masterlist. No? Fine. I’ll give you a summary.

He is not likely to open up to you. And it’s likely that, the more you press, the more determined he will be not to open up. Cause he’s a prideful bitch like that. If you want him to open up at all, the method to do so will be quite counterintuitive. Wait. Wait so long that your ass hurts from sitting so long. And when he does finally open up, do not coax him. Thank him instead for trusting you with this information (because seriously he’s so bad at trusting that you need to treat him like a kindergartener at the dentist) and let him know it’s safe to continue doing so with your actions, not your words. He, of all people, knows that words can be fake.

That about sums communication, the most important aspect of a relationship, up. Of course, there will be times [though rare] when he will be transparent with you, and there will be times [way more often] where he might outright lie to you so that you hear what you want to hear and will love him more. [And then he’ll tell you the ugly truth and make it seem like he’s toxic. He is, actually, but not on purpose. He’s just fucking dumb sometimes.]

In conclusion: Kaeya Alberich is just a scared person hiding behind lies in such an unfortunate manner that he becomes toxic in relationships. Also, he would never choose to go to therapy. Not unless someone intervenes. Even then, therapy would be painful for him, because he’d have to question his entire belief system before he can rebuild himself.

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