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[so-long-soldier-writes]

Bloodlust

kai parker x reader

part of you knew it was wishful thinking to believe vampires couldn't sense period blood. your heretic best friend proves that true when he comes over to see you. in fact, to him, it smells even sweeter than the blood you normally offer, and he practically begs you for a taste. (heretic!kai) (virgin!kai)

tags: period sex, oral sex, blood drinking, blood sharing, loss of virginity

word count: ~3.5k

As soon as you get back from the bathroom, your phone gets a new message. Checking it, you see it’s your best friend. 

Kai: hi princess, are you free tonight? i miss you. movie night?

You bite your lip, fighting the urge to say ‘yes’. The two of you haven’t had a night to yourselves in awhile, and a movie night sounds like heaven. Only one thing - your period has come three days early, and Kai’s a recently turned heretic. You don’t know if vampires can sense that type of blood the same way they can with venous blood, but if they can, that’ll lead to a pretty embarrassing situation that you don’t think you can handle. Not that Kai won’t be a gentleman, because you know he always is with you, but just the thought of explaining that to your best friend sounds less than appealing. Besides, periods tend to make you way more needy than usual, and that crush you’ve been harboring does not need to be revealed. 

Sighing, you type a reply. 

Y/N: i’m not feeling great today. another day?

The minute you hit send, you know you chose the wrong words. Kai answers immediately.

Kai: you okay?? anything i can help with? if you’re sad, i don’t want you alone :( 

Fuck, why’d you tell him that?

Y/N: no, i’m okay, i promise. just a stomach bug. i don’t want you to catch it

Kai: i can’t get sick, i’m a heretic now. plz let me help you

Kai: i’ll get you some soup from the grill and we can watch your favorite movie

Y/N: idk i just don’t think it’s a good time rn

Kai: oh, okay

Kai: i didn’t do anything wrong, did i?

Y/N: no! pumpkin, you did nothing wrong, i just don’t feel good

Kai: okay

Kai: you sure i can’t help? i miss you sm

Y/N: i know, and i miss you, too

Kai: do u want me to find jo and ask her your symptoms? she might be able to help

Y/N: no you don’t have to do that! i know what it is, i’m okay. it just hurts

Kai: wait, what is it?

Y/N: nothing serious, just a lil bug

Kai: i don’t like knowing you’re hurting alone

Kai: i promise i won’t talk too much, just let me come comfort you

It’s a losing battle with Kai. It always is. He’s always so adamant about keeping you company, especially at times you don’t feel well, and most of the time, you’ve given into his convincing. But in the past, he’d only been a witch. His vampirism is an unfortunate game-changer. 

Kai: y/n, please, i’m worried

Kai: take a nap if u want, just let me come and make sure you’re okay

Kai: you can use me as a pillow again :)

The needy part of your mind takes over, and you answer without thinking twice. 

Y/N: alright, but i might go to bed really early

Kai: that’s okay :)) i’ll be there in 2

Great job, Y/N. Now you’ve fucked up. How are you going to explain this??

In the two minutes that you have to spare, you burn some sage, hoping that smell will overpower the more obvious one. Your fingers are crossed that maybe vampires can’t detect periods, but you have a feeling that’s wishful thinking. The knock on your door comes sooner than anticipated. 

Despite your worries, you can’t help the happiness that consumes you when you see Kai at your door. “Hi!” You exclaim, rushing forward to hug him. 

The boy hugs you back with one arm, the other full of soup and snacks, then grins at you when you separate. “I know you aren’t feeling well, so I’ll keep my voice down and try to talk less. I just don’t want you alone when you’re sick, y’know?”

“I know,” you nod, leading him to the kitchen to open the takeout boxes. “Thank you for caring.”

“I’ll always care about you. Mhm, is that sage?”

“Yeah, sorry. I was hoping it would make me feel better.”

“It should. I mean, it’ll at least help. Is there anything else I can do?”

“Hmm, all I need is you, this soup, and a good movie, and I’ll feel okay eventually, m’kay?”

He’s unsure about the truth in your statement, but agrees anyway.

The two of you sit on your couch, soups in hand, sharing a blanket across your lap. You decided on a stupid movie that’ll make you both laugh, and try not to think too much about the cramping in your abdomen. As the movie goes on and Kai begins to get lost in it, you start to feel a little more comfortable. Maybe your sage trick worked, or maybe it is undetectable to vampires. Either way, you let yourself curl into his side, enjoying your closeness. You don’t miss him putting an arm around you to pull you closer, and the gesture makes your heart flutter. 

About an hour later, the midol you took is finally kicking in, and the pain is lessening more and more. Sighing in relief, you stretch your legs out for a second, easing those cramps, before tucking them back under you. In that moment, though, you forget that movements like those might trigger blood flow, which may then trigger the heretic’s bloodlust. And if he can smell period blood, that most certainly did it.  

With a glance up to Kai, you almost see the gears turning in his head. Fuck. 

“Hey, Y/N?”

“Mhm?”

“Do you smell blood?”

“Um, no. Why?”

Yes. Yes, you do. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. 

“I don’t know, but out of nowhere, I do.”

“Maybe I got a cut from this plastic lid?” You refer to the container you’ve been, thankfully, playing with for the last half hour.

Kai immediately grabs your hands to check. “No, no cuts.”

“Maybe it’s the neighbor?”

“Too close to be the neighbor. You sure you aren’t bleeding anywhere?”

“I’m okay, I promise. I’m not hurt.” It’s not a total lie. You aren’t hurt, you said. You hadn’t confirmed nor denied if you were actually bleeding. 

“Can I check?”

“What?”

“Check for blood? Just to be sure.”

Panic courses through your body. “No,” you blurt out. You even move a little away from him without realizing, but then immediately regret it. 

Kai tenses, “okay. I’m sorry.”

“Wait. Fuck, okay. Kai?”

“Yes?”

“Chill, Y/N, it’ll be fine.” You tell yourself out loud, concerning him even more. “Okay, I actually am bleeding, but it’s nothing you need to worry about.”

“Wait, what do you mean?”

“It’s natural, supposed to happen, but I can’t control it.”

“Please explain, Y/N. What is it? Does it hurt?”

“Okay. It’s a period, women get them every month, and like I said, it’s totally normal. They cause a lot of stomach cramping and such, which is why I was in pain earlier, but I took something for it and I’m okay now. But basically, in simple terms, when women don’t get pregnant, their body gets mad and retaliates by shedding the lining of the uterus. This results in the lining, and tissues, and blood, and some other things to be drained from the body via…” you gesture to the lower half of your body. “So no, I can’t control it, but I can stop it from leaking with pads and tampons, whatever’s on hand. But right now, the cramps and pain are gone, but the blood doesn’t stop.”

As you explain it, you see his eyes darken. The veins underneath turn to a purple-ish, black, and you think you know exactly what’s happening. 

“Can I… can I taste it?”

“What?”

“The blood.”

Hell yes, please, you want to say. But at the same time, that’s a step too far into intimacy that you haven’t taken. “Um, I don’t know.”

“It smells so good, I need it.”

You try to swallow the butterflies swarming in your stomach. “Kai, I’m sorry. You can feed from my neck or wrist, but we can’t-... I can’t-” you don’t know how to finish that sentence. 

Slowly, he nods, the bloodlust taking over. 

“Okay,” you lift your wrist up to his mouth, “drink, baby.” It’s a pet name you use for him all the time, but this time, both of you can feel something more. 

Kai licks the spot where he plans to bite, then in one quick motion, sinks his teeth into your skin. You gasp for a second, but then start to enjoy the feeling. He’s fed off you more times than you can count and it always delivers the same pleasure. 

Kai drinks for a few seconds, but detaches way too soon. There’s no way he’s full from that. 

Though, you get your answer in the form of a desperate plea, “Y/N, I need it. There’s something different about it. I can smell it, it’s so good.”

“Kai… c’mon, drink.” You lift your wrist up again, but the stubborn boy literally refuses to latch. “What about here?” You offer your neck, even tracing your hand along your jugular. 

“Just a taste, please, Y/N.”

Once again, a losing battle. His determination plus your increasing arousal at the thought of it all betrays you, and before you know it, you’re laying back on the couch, his fingertips at the waistband of your leggings. 

“We shouldn’t be doing this.”

“Do you want me to stop?” He offers the option, even though you know he’s silently begging you to say ‘no’. 

“No,” you admit.

He looks at you with lust-filled eyes - an expression you’ve never seen before on him. “If you change your mind, I will.”

“Okay. Hey, can you put something down on the couch? I don’t want to bleed on it and have a big, embarrassing stain.”

The heretic nods, fetching a towel, then continues. He puts it under you as soon as your leggings and panties are gone, then for a minute, just stares. No blood is visible, but he can smell it. It’s strong, and mixed with the intoxicatingly sweet smell of your arousal. His heartbeat quickens, pants tighten, and he looks at you for one more consent. 

“Go ahead. I trust you.”

Kai doesn’t know whether to use his mouth or a finger first. One thing he’s never told you: he’s a virgin. Yet the need for this blood is too strong to dive into that right now, and he fights with himself before making a decision. 

“Kai, please do something,” you whine, wondering what has him waiting. The cool air on your body causes you to shiver; his gaze makes you wet. 

In a split second, he chooses to feel you first. His index finger traces your clit ever so lightly. It travels between your folds, then dips into them in such a slow motion, you could explode. You fight the urge to moan his name again, but maybe that will snap him out of whatever trance he seems to have entered. 

He’s still going gentle, much too gentle, as he feels around your walls. Seemingly exploring, as if it’s his first time. Though the idea doesn’t cross your mind that it may be, because you’re too needy to think coherently. 

“Please,” you can’t help but beg. The need for his fingers, tongue, anything, to taste you is overwhelming. 

Kai finally goes deeper. One finger is inside you, down to the knuckle. Wetness begins to coat his finger, whether it’s arousal or blood, you’re unsure. Please let it be blood, you think, and then his vampirism will take over and he’ll be consumed by it, and I’ll get some pleasure out of this. And then you immediately feel bad for thinking that. He’s exploring your body for the first time, give him a break. For all you know, the crush is mutual. 

After a minute of swirling his finger around you, he pulls it out and brings it to his lips. There’s a bit of blood, but most of it is the clear, creamy substance you know all too well. 

Kai’s afraid to ask what exactly it is - afraid to reveal he doesn’t know what he’s doing; afraid you’ll regret letting him do this. If she knows I’m inexperienced, she won’t ever want me, a voice in his mind tells him. Speaking of which, you better get your shit together. He sucks your juices off his finger, and his eyes roll back in his head. Fuck, that’s heavenly. Need more, and need more blood. The second time, he’s less slow. Two fingers enter you, they move about, coating them evenly, and then he sucks them off again. This time, there was more blood. His eyes start to turn black again, and he knows he needs better access. 

You sign in relief when Kai moves his body down, mouth making its way towards your heat. Him eating you out has been a dream of yours for months, and with the added sensitivity of your period, you know this is about to be perfect. Not even the vampirism scares you, because you love the feeling of him feeding on you, so why would this be any different?

“Need you,” you moan, bucking up your hips slightly. The action causes a little bit of blood to dribble out onto the towel, and Kai’s veins reappear.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Yes, please, Kai.” In your state, you speak without considering your words. “I love the feeling of you feeding on me. It’s euphoric, it makes me wet. This’ll be ten times better.”

The confession drives him, finally, to indulge. His first few licks are still slow as he gets used to the sensation, but then the taste of blood overwhelms him. It’s better than the blood from your neck, if that's even possible. It’s coated in the same sweet wetness that covered his finger, and seems to gush more with every flick of his tongue. The taste soon has him humming into your heat, causing you to cry out and grab his hair. You’re pulling him into you, bucking your hips against his face, panting heavily. Kai grabs onto your hips to keep you steady, helping him to maintain some control. 

“Fuck,” you hear him mutter. The vibration goes straight into your core. “You taste like heaven.” The praise makes you grip him harder. And with every tug of his hair, he delves his tongue deeper.

For a second, he begins to nibble on your clit. At first, it feels good, but then you realize he might actually bite you there. 

You giggle, “don’t bite me, Kai! Not there!”

He stops for a minute, confused. You look at him, now equally confused. Why does this seem so new to him?

“Bite here,” you poke your inner thigh. “Or here,” your lower stomach. “Or really anywhere, just not right there.”

“Okay.” Immediately, the heretic’s teeth sink into your thigh. Blood from your period has dried onto the area from his messy feeding, and now fresh blood joins with it. 

“Holy fuck,” you squeeze your eyes shut from pleasure and pain. When you open them again, his fangs are covered in your blood, dark red. His eyes and veins are still black, but there’s a pinkish tint to his cheeks. 

“You’re so beautiful,” you gush up at him. “Kiss me.”

Unlike before, there’s no hesitancy as he obeys your command. Blood from his lips seeps into your mouth, giving you a chance to taste yourself, quite literally. As the metallic taste drips down your throat, you find yourself moaning again. Kai’s lips curl into a smile. 

Then, moments later, his head is dipping back down, tongue re-entering your heat. He seems to have gotten more confidence now, alternating between slurping blood from your entrance, and sucking at your clit. His left hand covers the open wound on your thigh, preventing too much blood loss. Though you both know you have to tend to it soon. 

“I’m so close, Kai.”

He keeps pace. At times he’s on your clit, two fingers enter you, feeling your walls, and bringing you closer to orgasm. He hums again, sending more vibrations through you that are better than any vibrator you’ve ever used. Repetition takes you to your high, finally, as white spots cloud your vision. You cry out so loud that you hope the neighbors can’t hear you while your orgasm rips through your entire body.

Kai laps up your blood until you’ve finished. The second you feel yourself go weak from the overwhelming pleasure, he sits up and bites into his own wrist, bringing it up to your lips for you to feed. You take it gladly, feeling a bit dizzy, and can’t help but admire him as he watches you. Eyes, turning back to blue, but intense. Hair, a mess from you tugging on it. Mouth, stained red from the copious amounts of your blood he drank. It’s a sight that would scare most, but you’ve never been more attracted to him. 

“You okay?” His voice snaps you out of your thoughts. “I didn’t go too far, did I?”

His blood begins to heal the wound on your thigh and return your body to its normal state. “No, Kai, you’re perfect. That was amazing.”

“To be honest, I could’ve kept going.  I could drown in your blood. But I could never hurt you, so I had to stop. Plus, I didn’t want to overstimulate you too much, and I think you started to feel that way when you came.”

“Just the perfect amount of overstimulation. Like I said, you were perfect.”

He swallows, as if debating what to say next. “Um, thank you. For both, letting me feed, and letting me taste you.”

You smile, “so… you liked it?”

“What do you mean? Of course I liked it.”

“I know, but I mean… the intimacy of it.” It’s a risk, but you have to know. “I know we blood-share all the time, but never like this. Never with my… y’know.”

“The intimacy… you mean, sex?” 

His bluntness makes you blush. The sociopath’s limited emotions lead to a lot of bluntness, you’ve learned.

“Um, yeah.”

“Yeah, I liked it a lot. I mean, I’ve always wanted to go that far with you, but I was afraid you’d reject me, and then we’d stop being friends. Right now, I’m thanking whoever gave women periods and Lily Salvatore right now for these stars aligning.”

If it’s possible, you’re blushing even harder. “I wouldn’t have rejected you, Kai. I wanted you, too. More than you could know.”

“I know… I mean, I figured. Because I’ve been able to sense your heart rate getting faster when I’m near you, and even before turning, I could see your cheeks reddening and you’d stutter sometimes. But I couldn’t risk losing you because you’re the only person to ever care about me.”

“Well worry not, because I’m not going anywhere, pumpkin.”

“I think I…” he licks his lips, “oh, fuck it, I do love you.”

You had looked down because of your blushing, but his confession snaps your eyes back up to face him. “Oh my god, I love you, too.”

For a second, the two of you just stare at each other. Then, out of nowhere, he grabs your shoulders and pulls you into a hug. You squeal, let out a laugh, and turn to kiss him. He’s gentle, yet hungry for you, and the combination drives you insane. When you separate, he looks nervous again.

“Kai…?”

“Can I ask you something?”

“Of course.”

“Are you sure I was okay?”

“What do you mean?”

“The sex, or at least, what of it we did.”

“What?! Are you crazy? I’m dead serious, Kai, that was the best I’ve ever experienced.”

“Okay. Good. Because, uh…”

You duck your head, waiting for him to continue.

“You’re, uh, my first.”

“Wait, what?” 

“Um-”

“You’re joking?”

“No.”

“There is no way.”

“Is that okay? I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner.”

“Malachai-”

“Ew, don’t call me that.”

“-Parker.”

He bites his lip, looking anywhere but at your face.

“There’s no fucking way you’ve never done this before.”

“I mean, I’ve touched myself in the prison world plenty of times.” The sociopathic bluntness returns. Coincidentally, your blush also returns. 

“But you’ve never touched, eaten out, anything with a woman?”

“Not until you.”

“You’re mine,” you look him in the eye. He meets your gaze, not expecting the possessiveness. It’s usually him being overly protective of you. “You’re mine, and no one else’s, you fucking sex god.”

It’s his turn to blush, and he does so a deep red. It matches the blood staining his teeth, Your blood. “I don’t want anyone else but you.”

“Good. Now kiss me, and let’s watch this movie until you get hungry again.”

“I will not argue with that.”

#malachai parker x reader #kai parker x reader #kai parker #heretic kai parker #virgin kai parker #the vampire diaries #tvd fics #bloodlust #this is kinky im sorry

[bramblewoodsims]

Open-Call for Sims!

Deadline: ASAP, but rolling deadline; I'm itching to work on this story but will always consider working new sims in as they are submitted!

I'm writing a Sims story (A Stranger In Moonwood Mill) about werewolf secrets, angsty slow-burn romance, the literal ghosts of a tragic past, unconventional family structures, found family, and community. It will also go into the in-game lore of Moonwood Mill. It will eventually turn into a generational gameplay. One of my favorite parts of simblr has always been collaborative-style gameplay (like Bachelor Challenges), so I want to open the opportunity to have other ppls sims feature as characters in this story!

DETAILS & HOW TO GET INVOLVED:

Human and werewolf sims only plz! CC allowed, nothing too super realistic ("alpha") though

Be following me if you're gonna submit ofc

Please reblog this too because I'm a relatively new simblr so I'd like to find more ppl :)

Sims can be any age, gender, personality, etc

Feel free to give me as much lore as you want, I'd love some direction on how you'd like me to write this character! However, be aware that I may need to tweak lore at times to fit the story.

To the above point, your submitted sim will not be immune to having sad/bad things happen to them, so keep that in mind.

Read up on what I've posted of the story so far to get a feel for it (tagged /moonwoodlegacy on my blog)

I have lore planned out for the first generation, but plan to play this save for several generations afterward, so any sims you submit very well may develop lives of their own!

You can make multiple sims!!!

Feel free to work them into Moonwood Mill townie lore too

CHARACTERS I'M LOOKING FOR:

ex-romantic partner (any gender) of the main character, who becomes a best friend. this ex-partner grew up in Moonwood Mill.

2-4 friends of ex-partner, fun laid back people for the most part

3-4 sims to be ghosts of a werewolf's past mistakes-- whether that was losing control and being violent, or not being able to save them from illness or another werewolf, or something else

or come up with your own character with unique lore! bonus points for being connected to the history of moonwood mill or its inhabitants

I thiiiink that's all the relevant information, but if you have any questions, plz message me and I'll be happy to answer them! Just make sure you follow, reblog this, and tag me when you post your sim(s) for submission :)

#I really really hope ppl engage w this lol #ts4 #moonwood mill #ts4 werewolves #submit sims #moonwoodlegacy

[gay-mooshrooms]

Pinned Post Time!!!

Call me Moosh!! Minor, queer/trans and aroace, any pronouns(including neos I really do not care) primarily use he/they/she

-Multifandom but mainly dsmp, cc! and c!

-Mainly post about sbi, crimeboys, beeduo, and their respective members

-Some other fandoms are starkid and other musicals, hunger games, community, hearstopper, tlou, lotr, generation loss, good omens, ofmd and a wide variety of others, so ask if you're curious!

-I love conversation so feel free to message me or send me asks about whatever!! (As long as I know you, so followers and mutuals only please :)

-I do NOT support cc!dteam or cc!wilbur and if you do you will be blocked

-My moots only blog is @1000mooshrooms

-My main tags are #moosh sploosh #moosh asks #moosh rambles #save #note to self #moosh writes #moosh art #moosh irl

-I have an ao3! gay_mooshrooms

-I also have a discord but please ask me for it(moots only plz)

-If you need anything tagged feel free to ask!

(header credit is SAD-ist on youtube, the Dawn of the 16th animatic)

#pinned post #intro post #been on here over a year i figured it was time

[forbelobog]

get to know the author behind the blog! repost, do not reblog plz

BASICS.

name: ayla age: i'm a vampire (30s) pronouns: she/they years of writing: collectively, i've been writing since i was in elementary school, but rp? like...like 15, 16 years.

REFLECTION.

why did you pick up writing? when i was in elementary school, there was this program thru the library where, if you wrote a certain amount of pages on this little packet they gave you, you could get your book "published." which basically meant getting the pages you wrote and drew on glued between a small hardcover, no bigger than a regular hallmark card. but they let you do this as many times as you wanted and you would even get extra credit for writing 5+ in a grading period. i started writing about anything and everything. a leaf who didn't know how to fly with the wind. a pig who wanted to find a hat. even a turkey who found a family on thanksgiving who loved him and didn't eat him. fastforward to the internet, i would write stories about horses (i am a reformed horse girl, sorry) in blank notepads. i remember my best friend telling me saddle wasn't spelled with t's, but d's. then, i found message boards in sites like neopets and gogaia, and i really kind of let my imagination go. i picked up writing even before i knew why, i kind of always just wanted to. my mom used to read me and my brother the hobbit as a bedtime story and it was very imaginative, i think that's where the whole fantasy/world building curiosity started. i like making and telling stories. when i found out you could do that with other people, it was game over for me.  do you have any writing routines? i used to, back when i rped a lot more frequently and consistently, but not so much anymore. writing has always been something i enjoy doing and rp is just a hobby; as i got older/more "adult" with "adult responsibilities", i realized i never wanted to stress about rp. i write when i feel like it and never before. tho, when i do sit down to write, i tend to do so in silence/with ambient white noise. i can't focus if i have any outside factors. what's your favorite part about writing? invoking emotion. whether it's happy or sad or angry or confused. i like to be able to reach other people with words. i find writing to be theraputic, in a way. for instance i've been writing a nonfiction about my grandmother for awhile, which i started before she passed based around her dementia and sundowners. it was hard to deal with for me but writing became a way to cope in a healthy way.

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOUR WRITING.

i. uuuuhhh i guess my scene setting is pretty good? i tend to spend a lot of time with openers making sure there is a reason for why the character is there, what the purpose will be moving forward, and where they are going to currently. i hate it sometimes because i feel like i go on and on about like, a room, but i like to think it helps my partners in the long run. ii. alliteration is my favorite literary tool and i like to think i'm pretty good at it by now. stringing together a good collection of sounds is very fun. iii. idk man this is hard. uuhhhhh i...usually always try to give my partners something to respond to? it's something i had to work on when i first started rping, but not only is your response to whatever the other muse is doing important, but giving THEM something to respond to in a reply is equally important, or else everything kind of falls flat. idk partner feel free to tell me i still suck at it but i have worked on it a lot in the past.

A QUESTION FOR THE NEXT PERSON.

when you find it difficult to write what are some things you might do to help get back into it? if i'm looking to get back in to writing a specific character, i tend to reread old threads regarding that character i've done before, or visit things that make me think of the muse. like a playlist, or watch some cutscenes, or fanart. if i'm just looking to writ something in general but can't find the muse, i put on music that inspires me. john darnielle/the mountain goats is a go-to for me, darnielle is one of, if not my favorite writier, and his songs are so descriptive it makes me jealous. QUESTION: what was the first character you ever picked up to start rping? why did you gravitate to them?

tagged by: @dupliciti tagging: @cloudhymn @wingspiked @spadilled @eteing @ofinflorescence @resolutepath and YOU!!! if you steal this from me please tag me i'd love to read.

#( ( ooc #thx for the tag #thinking of 3 things i like #about my writing was #harder than it shoulder have been #whoops

[bastetwastaken]

Thanks for replying back to my message~ I do prefer private massages a bit more to start though I'm not opposed to sharing with people and collaborating things ⭐

Just to give perspective, I'm okay face to face in person with people but online I get a bit (sometimes a lotta bit) nervous, partly cause the delay time between messages can give my head time to tear apart words and color things in shades of worries.

The other issue, I have exactly 0 Puzzleshipping friends and I've not been an active part of a group for a fandom by myself ether which adds pressure, especially with those who's work I admire and really wish I could connect with. Sometimes I feel like I'm outside of group dynamics and get really self conscious but I don't want to cause someone to feel like they -have- to do something.

I used to just hang around a close friend and follow them though whatever they were into but that was years ago and I also went through some life changes. Now I'd like to be part of a community that aligns with my interests and not just stuck in my corner hoping for "some day". I came back to my very first ship here and have been delighted to see how it's evolved~ ❤️💜✨ but I also have still been in that corner, despite trying to comment. It might just me me tho, I've always been by myself in fandoms : /

It's a different kind of feeling to be inside of and participate rather than be impersonally idling and spectating as I have before. You can get sad and disheartened when you repeatedly try and feel like you can't reach ppl and yet see how easily others seem to do it. It can feel like there's something wrong with you even though you know ppl are different and things take time, but that want grows hungry when care catches and latches and can eat you instead.

I just wanted someone to understand the page that I'm on, to know why I might be awkward or missing somethings and need a gentle hand til I grow in those flight feathers, NEEDS EXP PLZ HELP LVL UP 🐦 I want to contribute worthwhile things to whether it's conversing or finally popping out art so I'll keep working attit and I appreciate you being here 🤍🌿

I hope I can give encouragement to you too~ we all need a little kindness and connection, you can come to me too if you need things🌿 You mentioned experiencing a bout of loneliness, I wouldn't mind listening, I like knowing what's going on and we have our rain and shine 🤍🤍 I'm gonna quietly hit up your inbox unless you want to communicate another way = )

I know people use discord, I've seen it but I've never been invited to use it soooo, idk entirely what to do there, you'd have to baby me on that (and I won't always be this long =P)

But thanks again for taking time with me 🌌

We can talk privately friend, that's not an issue ^.^ Feel free to slide into my dms any time!

I understand how you feel, online can be harder than irl because you don't have visual confirmation that the person is free to talk right that second, tone can be lost through just text and timezones, man, timezones. I'm in the UK, so I'm currently on GMT and at the time of responding it's 10:35am. I get you, I have friends in America who are five hours behind me, friends in Europe an hour ahead and a friend in Australia who's just plain living in the future. So finding time to talk can be hard, but we make it work ^^

I think the most important thing is to just keep those time differences in mind, and once you get to know someone better you'll likely realise patterns in when they're around, when they respond faster and when they might be sleeping. It's all a learning experience ^^

I can introduce you to a puzzleshipping server on discord full of lovely people if you like. It's a big server, I won't lie sometimes I get overwhelmed by how big it is, but you can sit quietly in there and just see what people are saying or you can be more active, there's no obligation either way. I know that sometimes we all just need someone to take us to those places where likeminded people are, and just hold our hand a little. We'll sort it in dms <3

My friend, I understand exactly how you feel and you're very much not alone. You're doing something amazing talking about how you feel because that shit is hard. So fucking hard, but look at you, doing it anyway. I've tried to interact with other people, sometimes those interactions just don't go the way I'd like. I've been ignored, talked over and made to feel like I don't belong and believe me when I say that we're not the only ones. It's easy to let those interactions prevent you from trying again, but you're trying again right now and I hope that this time it'll be different for you.

In regards to your other ask- Loneliness can be felt whether you're surrounded by people or not. You could have 100 friends and still feel lonely. You could get 1000's of likes on a post and still feel lonely. Loneliness is not exclusive to any particular set of circumstances, so you're not being ungrateful, you're being honest in how you feel and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.

I'll wait for your message <3 <3

[sonisis]

TL;DR gotta trauma dump at 26 lmao

Hello World! This is a message to anyone whom cares~

Without completely trauma dumping//completely- I’ve become a Med student. During my adventures to find myself I’ve discovered 2 things:

Art is strictly a hobby. My coping mechanism. I should never have made my coping mechanism my job.

I want to help heal people... properly and responsibly. Which is why I’m on track for a degree in Pharmacology. It is gonna take A LOT of effort, but I’m thankful for my support network.

Now onto the trauma dump, feel free to DIP lmaooooo: Ill try to keep it short. and without Typos.

“The world forgot about me, treated me like I was dead, and tried to use my corpse.”- Harsh words I know but these are my healing words.

I’m pissed at the people I once called ‘friend’, when the sad sad reality was that they were wolves in sheep clothing.

My real friends somehow, almost like telepathically/spiritually(Maybe even divine intervention) came out of the woodworks to catch up. aND this all happened during a time I had to be hospitalized after a rough school semester.

I am sadly not as physically or mentally inclined as I would hope... and Covid did not help.

Again related to the medical emergency I had... I was finally traveling and having fun with my family. Healing from the world... Blissful litol ol me didn’t recognize the signs of Heat Exhaustion I think and unfortunately neither did my Local Hospital.

(Little lore drop: my local hospital is sadly notorious for sucking balls. Everyone has an exhausting story and it’s even more terrifying that as recently as 4 months Patients are STILL being sent there for emergency services and STILL suffering the same issues since I was last admitted AGES ago. It sounds like my insurance is taking my claims seriously. Gathered my home-slices to “Review bomb”. SADLY we’re powerless, but maybe SOMEONE will take notice!!)

lAST LORE DUMP: my home town is an enigma.// I told my family+friends in the area to never mention me or my husband to anyone plz. They respect because we all agree hometown still sucks.)

FINAL THOUGHTS UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-

Stay Hydrated this summer. Eat Ice cream during Icecream eating hours. Enjoy AC/ pools where you can find them.

-Future Doctor OUT!

#196 #LIFE DUMP #READING STRICTLY VOLUNTARY

[alectoperdita]

Since you've touched on the topic of noncon in fics before if you're comfortable answering I wanted to ask something.

Or if you'd rather answer privately feel free to vague post and I can DM or like the post or something so you can dm if your messages are closed.

Ok, the question: In any verse be it canon or au, if Seto had been too late to stop something like that from happening to Jou, or even if he was forced to watch, how would they both deal with that? Would Jou close up emotionally? Would Seto be angry at himself? Etc. Just how do you think the aftermath would go

Sure, I have no problem talking about that here as this is an ask made in good faith. If I'm willing to publicly post fic about it, I'm okay talking about what goes into constructing that fictional scenario.

Answered under the cut cuz cw: noncon, standard "don't like, don't read; i trust you're a mature adult who curates their online experience plz" rules on my blog

So I don't think much about noncon except in specific AUs. Cuz honestly, doing something like that to either of my faves makes me kinda sad when it's their canon(-adjacent) selves.

But Lure and all its myriads of little terrible spinoffs? That's where I like to stow the rest of my darkfic writing inclinations anyway.

Soooo there is a noncon story idea for Lure which is tentatively set late in Year 2, so months after Tributary and Fill me with sweetness and cream. The setup is that Jounouchi is kidnapped and used as a hostage to extort money from Kaiba. Kaiba receives both photos and videos of Jounouchi being beaten and raped. It is also a revenge ploy against both of them executed by Hirutani crawling out of the woodwork.

The main focus of the story is on what happens afterward, though, after Jounouchi has been rescued. Now, this is a universe where Jounouchi understands himself as mainly having value to Kaiba in sexual terms. Yeah, they have a weird twisted affection growing between them like fungus at this point (trauma bonding yay), but Jounouchi is still Kaiba's pet first and foremost. While he was kidnapped, he was pretty sure he wasn't even going to be rescued.

And now? His worth is devalued in a way. What if Kaiba no longer wants him after this? Considers him broken? Kicks him to the street? Jounouchi is worried about how this can impact his material future because he is still dependent on Kaiba for housing and food. Yes, there's also the messy emotional stuff in the background, hitting some old fears about being abandoned and discarded.

Kaiba is enraged with the situation. But in this case, he also has specific culprits to blame and punish, which will become the main target of his rage. (Hirutani not gonna have a good time to put it lightly lol). Surprisingly, he's not mad at Jounouchi, though. He understands Jounouchi as having resisted and fought back to the best of his abilities.

But as for how he acts toward Jounouchi? A little brisk at time, but no more than before. He is careful not to touch Jounouchi, and mostly leaves Jounouchi alone to recover in his room. Because that's what he should do in this case??? Lure!Kaiba trying to reach for some compassion here and executing clumsily. Because in his view, whatever shit he may have dubconed Jounouchi into in the past, he never raped-raped Jounouchi. He's not going to force himself on an injured person. He's not a complete monster, kthnx.

Hilariously (or not so hilariously), Kaiba's clumsy attempts at compassion make Jounouchi feel worse. Because Kaiba doesn't seek him out as much or touch him, does that mean he no longer wants Jounouchi? It sharpens Jounouchi's desperation. He's not horny or aroused per se, but he is looking for signs that Kaiba still intends to keep him around. Because if Kaiba won't have sex with him, what worth does he still have to him?

Not to mention the cognitive dissonance of "what is wrong with me? I literally got raped last week but I'm losing my mind wishing someone, well Kaiba, forces himself on me but in a way that I like."

Obviously, this is untenable in the long run. They're individually so emotionally volatile for their own reasons. Eventually, Kaiba does want to fuck Jounouchi rabid because he's a possessive bastard (Jounouchi is his dammit!), and ironically that's probably what will give Jounouchi the most peace of mind in this moment (reinforces he still has "value").

So part of the reason neither of them has made any move on the other is because they've been waiting for the results of Jounouchi's STD tests, which can take up to 2-4 weeks for the most major concerns. They have literally never gone that long without sex since they first started. So once Jounouchi's results finally come back clean, he gets it into his head that he needs to just rip off the band-aid and seduce Kaiba. If Kaiba's willing to fuck him, then maybe he's still good. If he won't, well, then he knows his days are numbered.

Kaiba has been waiting on the results for another reason. Because it's going to affect how he makes Hirutani suffer for what he did.

Ultimately, Kaiba will also offer Jounouchi a chance to take some revenge for himself. Hand him the knife, if you will.

And that's all I'm going to say about this one in case I ever do write this one in full.

Like I said, this is a scenario very specific to their characterization in this AU. But I tend to think Kaiba, even canon-wise, is quite capable of some murderous tendencies when presented with the proper motive.

#replies #anonymous #cw: noncon #series: Lure

[redheadkittys]

Merry Christmas

...to all of my followers and friends...i hope you all have great peaceful and cozy days full of laughter with the ppl you love the most so eat delicious food and make great memories...this will be the first christmas without my mom but I know she's here with us bc she's in our hearts and memories...i only wanted you all to know that i am thankful to met such wonderful ppl here❤️...

🎄your redheadkittys🎄

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...i wish I could tag more of you but tumblr is such a *peeeeeep* and don't let me...but plz know that I mean every single one of you...

Happy holidays

#...and I hope nobody must be alone on these days... #...if you feel sad plz feel free to message me... #Personal #...merry Christmas...

[atrirose]

hi! <3 can i request enha hcs w/ an s/o that loves to baby them? like you're always calling them oddly endearing nicknames and being affectionate, like feeding them and running your hands through their hair, giving scalp massages... you just enjoy taking care of them and checking up on them

Title : enhypen with s/o that likes to baby them

Type : headcannons

Genre : fluff

Warning: none; not proof read

An. Srsly the request got all swamped up but I don't want to close the request also plz feel free to talk to me anytime. Ps I just noticed I have been spelling heeseung wrong :) rip im sorry my phone has its own mind

Heeseung : finds it amusing no really he would be smirking whenever you try to baby like "yeah right 😏" shit eating grinning :). Don't really care infact thanks heavens for such a caring s/o who feeds him ramen 🙄. I did mention he love shoulder rubs in my previous post and I'm gonna say it again, he finds himself super close to you when you do that. Sits with a straight and scary trying to foucs on work but as soon as you go "baby" he melts, will ignore everything.

Jay : has the funniest face when you call him pet names. Like sure he knows you like them and to a extent he doesn't mind but there are times when he just goes blank. You go "muffin what do you want to eat" and he stands there stiff face 😐😐 muffin was that supposed to be me (plz safe jay). Sometimes you do that on purpose "my sweet buttercup how was your day?". "Stop y/n I'm- WHAT DO YOU MEAN BUTTERCUP HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION THAT." then you bust out laughing knowing you did that on purpose to tease you sweet baby.

Sunghoon : love hate relationship with your pet names. Loves when you call him ice prince but why did you call him penguin like why :( but still gets antsy if you don't call him penguin kinda messed up but you gotta deal with it😤😤. Scalp message, running your hands through his hair, applying oil or sampoo, literally anything with his hair he loves it, makes you do it, would like if your hands never left his hair alone, prefers it that way.

Jake : a puppy x200 times, baby him and you get the most bubbly and innocent smile ever. Eyes goes big and sparkling, "you think i did good🥺🥺 thanks ily" also goes feral for your pet names, the weirder the better, snuggles into you when you pet him. Likes to BE A SMALL SPOON. Puffy cheeks when you feed him.talks about how much he likes it when you pet him and kiss his cheeks when he is on your lap to the boys only to get eyerolls :( gets sad but you always cheer him up with your presence

Sunoo : can I even begin with this man, you baby him, he does it too, you call him pet names nah he gotta do it too and at some point it did become a competition for both of you to see who can do more. You don't know when it started or when it ended but it was still a petty phase for you both. He loves skin care but he loves it more when you do it for him. Stares at your face when you apply the face mask on him like literally looks at you with doe eyes, he is a hopeless romantic :(. Also loves it when you rant or talk about while doing his skin care routine on him , makes you melt at the way he looks at you with admiring eyes like he can't love nobody but you.

Jungwon : 🤫don't tell this to anyone but he likes it when you baby him. Being the young leader and a responsible kid. he might come as a mature boy despite being the younger one in his family, so it is a surprise that our leader here likes to be baby for you. Purrs like a cat when you brush your hands in his hair, huge goofy smiles when you squeeze his face, not a fan of pet names but doesn't mind it either. I mean you could be like "how is my little widdle pumpkin spice cupcake" and he will be like "oh,OH nah I'm fine what about you" like he just didn't get called pumpkin spice cupcake. SHOW SOME REACTION,,will actually give you messages and likes when you press your cold hands on his cheeks

Niki : is a baby which makes your inner caring side kick in no matter who it is. But if you do try to baby him he will tackle you, doesn't care will flip you off the bed, tackle you on the sofa, its not that he doesn't like it he just is awkward and shy and likes to express thinks in this way. Glares at you when you call him petnames also refuses to call you noona (or senpai/j) but he likes the shoulder massage you give him srsly so relaxed he sleeps in between. Thanks you the next day tho cuz he got manners.

#enhypen #enhypen imagines #enhypen fluff #enhypen x reader #enhypenwriters #jungwon imagines #jungwon x reader #niki x reader #kim sunoo #heeseung x reader #heeseung imagines #park jay x reader #sim jake imagines #sunoo imagines #sunghoon imagines #sunghoon x reader #sunoo x reader #niki imagines #riki nishimura #enhypen scenarios #jungwon scenarios #enhypen reactions #niki scenarios #sunoo fluff #sunoo scenarios #jake imagines #enhypen heeseung #heeseung scenarios

[skzfairies]

highlights of yuri at the seoul concert 2022!

note: uhhhhh i make quite a few lesbian jokes in this (i am lesbian) , lots of cursing ???? mentions of kissing ‼️‼️mentions of feelings unloved (only mentioned) , yuri makes a sad speech and cries :((

taglist: @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @shinyddeonghwa @m00niesk7 @srkuv @hyuncore

day 1

sooooo many of yuri’s friends and ateez’s friends were there that day omg

her favorite girl in the world yuqi was there!! as well as minnie!!!

all of C4 was there, and nako and yeonjun of txt too!! (@chaerincore) !!! some seventeen (mingyu, dk, seungkwan, and dino), some twice members were there (chaeyoung, nayeon, mina). purple kiss’ chaein yuki and ireh was there, somi and nayoung were there. so was 3RACHA and blaise!!! just so many people omg oh and pentagons yanan, yuto and yeo one were also there !!!!

honorable mention: sapphire!!! all of sapphire was there and people WERE SCREAMING because yuri and jae ‼️‼️ everyone’s fav siblings <333

jae was throughly scandalized because HE SAW HIS LITTLE SISTER LITERALLY HIP THRUSTINF ???? his life literally FLASHED BEFORE HIS MF EYES 😭

also clarification: the oldest member and leader of sapphire, jae, is yuri’s older brother !

continuing !! feel free to ask me any questions about that !!

WHEN YURI FIGURED OUT THAT THE SEO CHANGBIN WAS AT THEIR CONCERT SHE FUCKING FLIPPED OMG

hyewon of C4 literally texted her like 10 mins before the concert and was like “...i brought someone special👀👀” AND THEN SHE SENT A SELFIE OF HER AND CHANGBIN AND YURI FREAKED OUT

SHE DEADASS DROPPED JER PHONE AND SCREAMED 😭😭😭😭

she was like “oh my god oh my god oh my god” AND SHE COULDNT SAY ANYTHING SO SHE JUST SHOWED RHE BOYS THE SELFIE AND DID A HAPPY DANCW PLEASEEEE

ateez was like “you’ve literally been friends with him for months...AND you technically debuted before him 💀💀💀SO WHY ARE YOU ACTINF LIKE THIS🚶‍♂️🚶‍♂️”

LET YURI FANGIRL OKAY LEAVE HER ALONEEEE

yuri biggest changbin supporter YUP YUP YUP plz changbin finds it adorable of how much yuri admires him 😭😭

yuri kept waving at them during the concert and she kept sending hearts and smiles to all of her friends during the concert, especially yuqi!!! she ended up mentioning all of the groups friends who ended up coming and gave yuqi a sweet message :(( everyone was freaking out because !!!! songmi !!! the nations cutest best friends (😳)

ireh, chaein and yuki were holding up a banner with yuri’s face on it and it said “yuri it girl !” and yuri loved it so much omg :((( she pulled all of the members over to see it omg 😭😭 she adores her girls sm <333

AND YUQI HAD SO MUCH ATEEZ MERCH ON PLEASEEE SHE WAS ONE PROUD GIRLFRIEND 🤞🤞🤞

there was so many interactions between c4 yuri, yunho, and seonghwa FANS WERE LIVING FOR ITT

south korea’s sweethearts yunkura IN THE HOUSE ‼️‼️‼️

please yuri was giggling so much when yunho saw sakura holding up a yunho banner BECAUSE MAN WAS BLUSHING SO MF HARD PLZZZZX

yuri also suprised everyone with her blonde hair but now it is BLACK!!!! she looks so hot ON GOD

miss girl gave it her ALL during all of the days, you could tell that she was so so excited to be there and she was ready to tour !!!

she was also kinda emotional because this was her first ever concert in seoul since she missed the one in 2020 :(( this is be mentioned again later so remember that !!

ATINIES GOT SO MUCH HONGRI AND WOORI CONTENT THIS DAY OMG

wooyoung literally was poking yuri’s cheeks every chance he got 😭😭 everytime he did it yuri just side - eyed him 😭😭😭 SHE WAS STARTING TO GET FED UP

but she got him back by running up to him randomly and tickling him when he was about to sing his part in wave heheh yuri villian era moment 😍

and hongjoong and yuri were absolutely VINBINGGGG TOGETHER

they were definitely feeling themselves that night 🥰🥰

and hongjoong would also come up and check up on her when he could and it was subtle things but atiny still caught it !!!

you could see hongjoong mouthing ‘are you okay’ and he held her hand during a lot of the intermissions !!! he was just really worried for her since this was her first seoul concert and she had been really anxious about the upcoming tour so :((( he just wanted to make sure she was alright

which she was !!! 100% !!!! she was so so excited and she was so ready ! she did amazing !!!

please yuri and yunho had so much fun during wave, they kept on goofing around together it was ADORABLE 😭

she did the little wave dance with him :( PRECIOUS

also yuri looked GORGEOUS in the white outfits LIKE YES MAAM ‼️

plz san yuri and yunho were giggling so much because they kept on tapping each other’s butts randomly 😭😭 CHILDERN i tell you CHILDERN

OMG YURI HIT SEONGHWA’S BUTT SO RANDOMLY AND HE LITERALLY LOOKED SO SCANDALIZED PLEASEEEE yuri was LOOSING IT

yuri wooyoung and yeosang all showed off their abs during deja vu I AM GOING INSANE I AM SO WHIPPED HELLO

omg mingi yunho and yuri were being the cutest trio ever during better IM SOBBING THEIR FRIENDSHIP IS SO CUTE

the three of them just kept dancing together IT WAS ADORBALEEEE

YURI WAS SO CLOSE TO CRYING DURING DECLARATION MISS GIRL WAS HOLDING IN HER TEARS THE WHOLE NIGHT

when she got into postion she was getting CHILLS SHE WAS SO EXCITED OMG

yiu couldn’t see it but yuri had such a proud smile on her face as woosan danced :((( SHE LOVES HER BIYS SM

after the third outfit change IT WAS LIKE SOMETHING CAME ALIVE IN YURI SNSJSJS SHES ATTACKING US ALLLL

um so she totally didnt do MANY body rolls during to the beat NOPE NOPE IDK WHAT UR SAYINF SHE TOTALLT DIDNT AND THEN TOTALLY DIDNT WINK AND SMIRK AFTER COUGH COUGH

she also hip thrusted like ONCE during the leaders PLZ YURI PLZ LET US LIVE PLZ LET US LIVE

did she make eye contact with yuqi when she hip thrusted?? SHE MOST DEF DID HELLO WHO DO YOU THINK WE ARE TALKING ABOUT 🙄🙄

they were performing her favorite songs SO OFC SHES GONNA GO FULL OUT

omg san yeosang and yuri were PARTYING IT UP DURING GOOD LITTLE BOY

THEY KEPT RUNNING PAST EACH ORHER AND GAVE EACH OTHER HIGHFIVES PLZ THEYVWERE SO HAPPT

yeosang even ran around the stage with yuri on his back THEY WERE HAVING SO MUCH FUN OMG

HELLO THE TRANSITION FROM GOOD LITTLE BOT TO THE LEADERS HELLO YESSS SNSNSNSN THATS IMMACULATE

YURI JUMPED SO HIGH WHEN THE BEAT DROPPED AND SHE LANDED ON BEAT TOO PLZ LEGEND THINGS ME THINKS

THE LEADERS YURI IS A DIFFERENT YURI OMG

GIRL WAS SJSJSISJSJS

SHE WAS KILLING IT

SHE WAS STRUTTING HERSELF AS SHE MF SHOULDDDD

no bcuz if you didn’t survive the leaders yuri YOU WOULD NOT SURVIVE THANXX YURI HELLO

YURI WAS HAVING THE TIME OF HER MF LIFE DURING ROCKY OH MY FOD HELLO SOMEONE CONTROL THIS WOMENNBB

SHE WAS SO HOT OMG IM SCREAMING

SHE WAS FEELING HERSELFFF

no because she KEPT SMIRKING AND SHE WAS SO COCKY PLEASE IM IN LOVE WITH COCKT YURI

ALSO SHE LITERALLY GROWLEDDDDD “SAY MY NAME” THERE WAS SO MANY SCREAMS AFTER THAT 😭 (yuqi included 😭😭)

she also chereographed rocky !!! WHAT IS IT WITH THIS GIRL AND HIP THRUSTS OMG

i think this is her indirect way of saying she’s a lesbian ??? 😭😭😭 (ifykyk)

also IF YOU THINK YURI DIDNT GO FULL FULL OUT FOR ROCKY THEN YOU ARE SOOOOO WRONG

MISS GIRL WAS LOKE A MF DEMON

MINGI TOSSED THE CHAMPIONS BELT TO YURI FOR HER PART AND SHE HELP IT UP WITH SUCH A COCKY SMIRK HELLO THIS WOMEN IS INSANEEEEEE

yuri was OWNING the stage

and omg when the intermisson came yuri was literallt being so adorable LIKE SHE WASNT JUST HIP THRUSTING FIVE MINUTES AHO HELLO

omg yuri was center for the gayo intto (intros to the real) AND SNSJSJSNSN SHE DID IT SO WELL OMG

yuri isnt half of the industries types for nothing 🙄🙄

okay guys we are switching gears ‼️‼️‼️‼️ ETERNAL SUNSHINE TIME BABY

SHE HAS HER HAIR IN LITTLE PIGTSILS AND SHE WAS WEARING THE BLANKET SOME OF THE FUYSBHAD AROUND HER NECK LIKE A CAPE IM FREAKING SOBBING

OH OH OH STORY TIME STORY TIKE so originally yuri just had the blanket draped over her, but seonghwa had came over and he was like UR SO CUTE STOP IT he ended up fixing her pigtails because they were lopsided from her literally bouncing around SHES A CHILD

and yuri literally kept dropping her blanket so seonghwa ended up tying it around like a cape IT WAS SO ADORABLE HWARI FATHER AND DAUGHTER MOMENT ME THINKS

AND THEN THEY LOOPED THEIR ARMS TOGETHER AND JUST SKIPPED AROUND THE STGE IM NOT CEYING YOU ARE

and she kept on running around to pop to bubbles it was ADORABLE and you could see jongho giggling at her omg jongri ARE THE CUTEST

jongho ended up running over to her and gave her a back hug and lifted her up IM SOBBING ETERNAL SUNSHINE YURI IS THE CUTEST YURI

yuri was so suprised she was like wHO TF IS LIFTING ME

but her and jongho danced with each other for the rest of eternal sunshine they are literally the cutest duo IM CRYING

wooyoung also recorded yuri popping the bubbles and yeosang joined her a little bit im crying he was smiling SO HARD everyone adores yuri sm omg

good thing yuri only has one part in eternal sunshine or else she prolly would have forgotten to sing because she was having so much fun 😭

during dancing like butterfly wings yuri ran off the stage and made a little circle running around omg HOW DOES SHE HAVE SO MUCH ENERGY

um so um .... as soon as star 1117 started playing YURI WAS IN TEARS ALREADY AND NO ONE SANG YET

she wasnt sobbing yet DW DW

but as she was looking around the stadium she just realized how loved she was, she was loved by her many friends that came, ateez, atiny, her family (both blood and non blood), and she ended up making eye contact with yuqi and that just made her tears come FASTER

because all through out her life yuri has struggled and struggled to find happiness and to feel like she was actually loved, and she has finally felt happiness and joy and that she was genuinely loved, and as she was looking the crowd she just kinda had a moment where reality had came rushing to her yk ?

she thought of everything that had happened for her to be in that exact moment, and even though alot of the memories were painful, it was so so worth it to her because she met some of the greatest people ever in her journey

she was happy to be there, to be living, to be smiling and to be healed, and she was so proud of herself. she had finally achieved what she wanted to achieve for years, and that was happiness and peace. while things may not perfect, she knows that if a trouble were to arise, she knew she would be okay in the end:(

around mid song was when yuri started to sob, and hongjoong and wooyoung both had their arms around her because :((( yuri had been through so much and even though yuri didn’t tell them the reason, they knew ;(

and the three of them just kept swaying back and forth while all of them cried :(( they all were hugging each other’s waist and looking at the audience :((( i’m not crying you are

but at the end of star1117 when everyone got the chance to talk, that made yuri cry even harder 😭, she wanted to speak but she wasn’t really coherent because of how hard she was crying :(((

she ended up having to take a breather and calm herself down before she was able to speak THE WHOLE CROWD WAS CHEERING FOR HER AND THAT MADE HER SMILE SO :(((

i’m gonna kinda draft what yuri said ??? so don’t hate me if it’s crap okay

“these past few years have been so hard for me, with facing hardships with my personal life and with my mental health, it had been a rough few years. all my life i have been chasing and chasing the dream of being happy and living life at peace. when i was younger, i thought happiness was only a dream. i thought that i would never be able to overcome all the hardships that i had to face to get here. but as i look back at all of my memories, both bad and good, it feels like it was worth it. because if i didn’t have any of those hardships, then i wouldn’t be standing here and be the person i am today. it took me awhile to get to where i am now, but i am finally happy. i’m finally proud of myself and i’m at peace at where i am today. and i couldnt do it without any of you. i couldn’t do it without atiny, my members, my friends...yuqi. my lovely yuqi is here tonight, and so are many of my friends and ateez’s friends too. yuqi was always there for me...i think she’s the person i’m most grateful to. yuqi, i love you!!!!”

miss girl was literally having the BIGGEST URGE to run over to yuqi and giving her the biggest kiss but YKKKK she’ll save thay for another time 👀👀

YURI HAD SO MUCH FUN THOUGH OMG !!!

she didn’t want the concert to end but :((( it did sadly 💔

yuri is so so excited to continue to tour though !!! it’s her favorite thing ever <33

BACKSTAGE TIMEEE

the moment yuri had got off stage and was able to greet all of the friends and family that had came for the concert, yuri had RAN to see yuqi, and as soon as she reached the girl, she picked her up and placed a big, loving and passionate kiss on the girls lips, one yuqi happily returned, infront of half of the staff and all of ateez’s friends and family 😭

both of them were in their own world , they didn’t even realize that everyone was watching them until woosan had started applauding 😭😭

ateez’s family members were like 😧😧 THEY ARE DATING ??? HOW COME NONE OF YOU FOOLS TOLD ME YURI HAD A GIRLFRIEND ???

ateez had gotten a scolding from their parents for not telling them 😭😭 and songmi had gotten MANY congratulations from ateez’s family members and many comments on how cute they were aftet that 😭😭

SONGMI WAS A BLUSHING MESS 😭😭

but the girls held hands while yuri went around and said hello to everyone :((( MY LOVES <333

jae may have or may have not scolded her for hip thrusting and body rolling so many times 😭😭

“so what you’re telling me is that i’m not hot? WOW, WOWWW, i thought you were my brother? THIS IS SO RUDE I CANT BELIEVE YOU 🙄🙄”

jae literally CANT BREATHE 😭😭😭

he was just standing there like 😧😧 when yuri was being overdramatic 😭😭 she ended up flipping her hair in his face and walked away 😭😭😭but after she screamed ‘i love you!!!’ to him before walking over to C4 😭😭 jae ended up following her the rest of the night and kept purposely annoying her 😭😭

c4 was like 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️ are we about to witness some murder right now ??

sakura MOST DEFINITELY TEASED THE LIVING HELL OUT OF YURI FOR KISSING YUQI INFRONT OF EVERYONE PLZ 😭😭

yuri was literally like “don’t act like you wouldn’t have done the same thing with yunho 🙄🙄✋✋”

oH MY GOD WHEN CHANGBIN CAME UP TO HER SHE WAS ABOUT TO LOOSE IT ENDJSJ

changbin complimented her on her performance that night and said that she did really well, AND YURI WAS ABOUT TO LOOSE ITTTT SHE WAS THIS 🤏 CLOSE TO PASSING OUT

she STUTTERED SM WHEN SHE THANKED CHANGBIN PLZ

jae and yuqi were clowning her SO HARD once changbin walked away 😭😭 miss girl was IN TEARS

and omg yuri and jae got so many hugs from ateez’s mom’s that night :((( because they all literally adopted yuri and jae 😭😭 they adore them two so much

AND ATEEZ’S PARENTS KEPT LOOKING BACK AND FORTH FROM YURI AND YUQI 😭😭😭 THE GIRLS WERE GETTING SO SHY PLZ

idk what days ateez parents came to so uhhhh if this is inaccurate lemme know

mingi’s mom pulled yuri to the side before all of the. left and was like “you better marry that girl, and you better invite me🥰” AND YURI WAS LITERALLY LIKE 😧😧 THE WOMAN WAS TOO STUNNED TO SPEAK

whos gonna tell her that yuri may or may not have been thinking about how she would propose to yuqi before she goes to sleep at night 👀👀

AND OH MY GOD

WHEN WOOYOUNG AND YURI WENT TO SAY HI TO SEVENTEEN

IT WAS SO CHAOTIC PLEASEEEE

SVT AND WOOYOUNG LITERALLY TEASED YURI SO MUCH FOR KISSING YUQI LMAOOO

YURI WILL NEVER LIVE THIS DOWN 😭😭

and omg :((( yuri and purple kiss IM CRYING they had such a cute interaction omg

purple kiss asked her to sign their fever part three albums as well as the rest of ateez, yURI WAS CRYING HER LOVES <3333

i realize i didn’t include every interaction with everyone who came but .... there was a interaction my brain is refusing to come up w anything so 😭😭😭 yuri was happy to see everyone and said hi to everyone and gave out lots and lots of hugs !!!

yuri will for sure cherish this night forever <3 when the night ended she posted selcas with all her friends that came and as well as a couple mirror selfie’s so !!!! atiny were well fed !!!

outfits:

the last outfit she was wearing a white long - sleeved ateez tour shirt with it tied like jennies shirt in the picture.

a/n: just realized that this is me screaming abt the concert i am so sorry but i’m really not 🙄

#aesocnet. #deluxeocnet #mochiocnet #kpop extra member #ateez 9th member #ateez extra member #kpop au #ateez #ateez oc member #ateez 9th memeber au #ateez fluff #ateez fanfic #ateez oc #ateez ninth member au #ateez ninth member #ateez female additon #ateez female oc #ateez female member #ateez girl oc #ateez girl member #ateez addition

[precious-potter]

Harry Potter (Draco/Hermione) Fan fic recs... I know Draco/Hermione is sometimes controversial but this is MY Tumblr account so mind ur business. Jk, feel free to message me to try and convince me why im evil for liking this OR message me your fic recs! Either works. Rated 1-10 based off many things but mostly memorable-ness and feels they made me feel.

Manacled (370515 words) by senlinyu OBVIOUSLY Im going to recommend this one... Arguably a famous fic amongst the Harry Potter fandom... I recommend this if you are emotionally stable enough to handle uh horrible horrible things. Very very dark and sad but honestly just amazing, better than most published books. Senlinyu is a great writer and ive read their other works and am always amazed. Harrys dead, kind of a handmaids tale au? that's how some describe it. Voldemort wants to repopulate the earth with more wizards and is using prisoners of war (the girls mainly) to do it. LOTS of dark stuff srsly read the tags before you read this. That being said, one of my favorite fan fictions, would recommend. Explicit. Rate: 9.5/10 BECAUSE ugh idk I don't want to rate smth 10/10... I haven't read everything yet so who knows! Also because this is a very serious fic and I like a little bit of fluff sometimes.

All You Want (172650 words) by senlinyu Give me ALL the omega verse fan fictions plz... Hermione stumbles into being an Omega when really she just wanted a quiet 8th year. P much all the alphas want her but only one is not actively chasing her, until he is. tbh they deserve to be together in my opinion! Its not really like a werewolf AU, more of like a secondary gender type thing. Some smut... kind of a lot but still some good plot. Explicit. Rate:8/10 I did read this a long time ago so im forgetting some key points however, I am bias and love a/b/o and pining!Draco so sue me... also well written smut, did not make me cringe at any point lol.

Unwritten (28891 words) by Maloreiy Veela!Draco.. yas... I guess I just love creature fics idk. Basically, Veela!Draco, Mates r a thing kind of, Hermione is his mate, but obvi he can't just tell her cuz they hate each other. No-war AU which I honestly always really enjoy. Feels like a very long fic when you read it but only almost 30,000 words... I don't have much to say other than I really liked it. General Audiences. Rate:7/10 because it is not very memorable but still cute. Also, I like how they are written.

The Auction (325702 words) by LovesBitca8 Possibly also a famous fan fiction amongst the Harry Potter fandom.. I often confuse this fic with Manacled when reflecting on it and remembering it however, they are very different. This fic is more light hearted (not by much) but still has very dark moments... dark themes, dark imagery, but no dark Draco really. He's KIND of dark... well ok he's pretty dark but I am unfortunately a dark Draco apologist. Essentially, Harry is dead, Hermione and everyone else is being sold off at an auction (hence, the title lol) to death eaters. This is kind of spoilers... sort of, but Hermione ends up in the "care" of Draco. Its honest an amazing fic and there's some badass girl characters/moments. Especially towards the end we get BAMF Hermione kind of. This fic is long as shit and also has some dark stuff so read the tags for your own mental well being. Loved the ending tho even if it took me like 5 days to get to it. Would 100% recommend this. Favorite fic probably. Explicit. Rate:10/10 I know I said I was saving it but.... this is a good fic! idk maybe its not a 10/10 and im crazy but this was a good read! very memorable very emotional, all dat stuff. Also, smutty? a little? romantic? a little? idk read this fic and send me your opinions plz, do that w/ all these fics I need to know how other people feel abt these!

Bring Him to His Knees (246526 words) by Musyc BDSM uh stuff...post-war, auror Draco, Friends w/Hermione... the author tags it as "idiots to lovers" so I think that's funny. Murder is happening and its linked to a local BDSM club and he needs to go undercover w/Hermione (just cuz) in order to access the BDSM club and find the murderer... they cross some lines and end up uh in a different sort of relationship... Awkward Hermione and confident but horny Draco. Good fic, I was in my BDSM era when I read this so there's a good amount of smutty stuff but it takes a while to get to, very drawn out (in a good way) but some ppl don't like slow burns. Explicit. Rate:7/10 cuz its very long but also really good and I do love the ending a lot.

Love is Madness (24589 words) by Canttouchthis, LeilahMoon DARK!Hermione... like seriously fucked up... this is a fucked up fan fiction tbh like its seriously messed up... Idk what else to say about it. Hermione is obsessed w/ Draco and takes advantage of his emotional troubles and practically kidnaps him and does some... immoral things... Idek what to say abt this honestly and I wouldn't recommend smth like this usually but its realllyyyy well written. I usually don't like dark!Hermione but its just really well done.. idk im warning you its weird as fuck and dark but its good! Explicit. Rate: 7/10 superrrr memorable and well written but the... content is disturbing... I still read it and liked it obviously but its just sort of off putting a little. Good luck...

The Troublesome Thing About Time (38914 words) by LadyKenz347 Okay so first of all... I do have daddy issues so maybe thats why I like this fic but... its good! Draco and Hermione are co-workers kind of when somehow Older!Draco (like 40 or 50) is sent back in time and finds Hermione and claims they are married in the future and he needs her help.. yes he is a DILF for real... without the father part idk. Smut happens and it is uh controversial to present Draco but its ok dw abt it. The plot is actually really original and interesting and the smut is well written, double trouble. Mature. Rate:7/10 Good fic honestly but not super memorable, maybe cuz it ends really sweetly.

A Thing With[out] Feathers (18253 words) by senlinyu Honestly.. slay. Veela!Hermione? (kind of Veela!Hermione idk) r u joking? Love it. Romantic comedy? hell yeah baby. Good fic. Hermione works at the ministry and gets sent out to deal w/ a Veela divorce when things go.. wrong and Draco helps her out. The author tags it with "idiots in love" so thats adorable. I love idiots. Not much to say without spoiling it since it is kind of a short fic but I do love a good creature fic. Explicit. Rate:8/10 just a good fic idk no explanation for the rating other than bc I said so.

Honorary mention:

Love In A Time Of The Zombie Apocalypse (355727 words) by rizzlewrites I have been meaning to read this and I WILL give me time... it looks really good. Basically, Voldemort's defeated but then a zombie apocalypse? whaaaat? crazy. Hermione and Draco team up to survive and search for a cure, I think? not sure, I'll get back to you but! it looks so good so I had to recommend it. Explicit. Rate:?/10 idk haven't read it but it looks interesting! but I am scared of zombies so it might give me nightmares. EDIT: I finished it…. This actually might possibly be my favorite fic….. took me a week to read and it was so worth it, the best relationship dynamic and such an original plot with so many original characters…. literally amazing, Rate:10/10 amazing i have no words to describe my love for this fic! would recommend a million times over.

Thats all for now.. send me ur opinions and ur personal recs!

#dramione #draco x hermione #harry potter #fanfiction #fanfic rec #mine

[duskandstarlight]

HI QUEEN

I just finished reading chapter 33 thank you so much for updating - my night is made!! also you’re an WHOLE COMEDIAN where are you getting these quippy one liners I love them so much omfg your brain is elite>>>>>> sometimes my brain gets E&L mixed up with ACOSF but then I remember Miss Mass is not doing the ✨fan service✨ like you hehehe thanks for indulging us queen🤪 ALSO I love that Cassian has a personality in your story because it makes me so so sad that Janet😡 just forgot about him :(( I loved him in books 2 and 3 but then I feel like she just forgot about him argh😩

I also just wanted to say thank you so so much for writing E&L🥺🥰. I read the first three books in 2017 and hadn’t read them since, but about a month ago I discovered this GEM and i was (and still am) in awe! you made me fall in love with this series again and I finally read ACOFAS and ACOSF and I’m so so glad I did :’))

I graduated from high school last year and I think it completely drained me. I lost my love for reading after middle school was over because I didn’t think there was any enjoyment to be found from reading outside of English class and textbooks. but then I found E&L and it made me feel a joy from reading I never thought I would feel again! your writing is so intelligent and magical and you truly have a gift🥺 thank you for giving me the push I needed to get back into reading!

I just wanted to let you know that your work is incredible and important, and that you’re so so valued. as an author but also as a person💛. i’m convinced you’re the funniest person ever the Nessian is IMPECCABLE😌. please don’t let anyone pressure you or make you feel bad about posting every weekend! we recognise that life gets in the way and that you’re a human too! if anything, you’re doing all of us a FAVOUR miss gurl you don’t owe anyone anything plz I cannot believe that you’re letting us read for free😭.

in conclusion you are a queen we love you and thank you so much💛🥺

Hiiii!!! Yehhh I’m so glad you liked it ☺️☺️ I was so happy because I got to write some banters/angry Nessian scenes which means taunting cocky Cassian comes out in full force 😂 Writing Cassian is my absolute fave.

You are more than welcome—I love writing E&L and having such lovely readers. I count myself very lucky!

Do you know what, I lost my love of reading during uni. I spent my entire time studying English and reading stuff I didn’t really enjoy and I’d say it took discovering some great YA and fantasy to get me out of my rut! So I am BEYOND flattered that E&L got you out of yours ❤️❤️

I’m not sure I can claim being funny 😂 But I’ll take it! No backsies!

Thank YOU for this lovely message ❤️❤️

#acosf #acotar #nessian #nesta x cassian #cassian #nessianfic #embersandlightfic #acomaf #nesta archeron #acowar #duskandstarlightwrites #acotarfanfic

[levinneheart]

Never loved you

Shinsou Hitoshi x Reader (College AU)

Warning/s: Characters are 20+; slight IzuOcha ship; Fluff; Angst; implied Depression; may or may not been based on experience

And yes, the title is a Song by Evie Clair. You’re quirk is smth to do w/ Empath and it’s not hero material by norms.

You never expect to encounter him. Out of all the people you could’ve met, you didn’t believe you that you could met him online out of all the places.

It started when you became friends with a group of talented singers and musicians as you also joined into the fun – abeit not as talented as them, you tried your best and put your all into it. Not long after that, you began knowing the group which consists of all the previous students of Class 1-A and some other students of UA and soon, Mina invited you to join their group as an “honorary member” as you lived in another country which you gladly accepted.

Sometimes, you would join the voice call and be overwhelmed by the amount of voices blasting in your earphone. Sometimes, you would listen silently as everyone talked over each other while Bakugou screamed and make small explosions that literally makes everyone deaf. Rip earphone users. You loved and treasured these moments with them, although you didn’t know what they looked like.

It wasn’t until he joined that made you the happiest. You were currently teasing Midoriya and Uraraka, saying they were cute crushing on each other, much to Uraraka’s denial and Midoriya’s stuttering. Chuckling, you continue with your impromptu storytelling of their love blossoming until both of them are beyond speechless. You decided to stop when Bakugou joined the conversation.

“Yo, Mina invited other damn extra!” he informed in his usual loud voice.

“Kaachan, you shouldn’t talk to Shinsou like that! He’s listening you know!” Midoriya scolded softly.

You checked and someone was listening in, they had a cat picture as a profile pic and you couldn’t helped but smack yourself in embarrassment as you didn’t noticed earlier while Bakugou and Midoriya beefed it out in the voice chat. You muted them, not wanting to hear they’re yelling of being the no. 1 hero.

“I agree with you btw.” chatted the one with cat pic. “It’s so obvious, it makes me roll my eyes that they remain oblivious to each other’s feelings.”

“IKR!” You typed back, forgetting your embarrassment.

“You’re not from UA, are you?”

“No. Actually, I’m just an honorary member as Mina says since I live miles away haha.”

“I see. I’m Shinsou, Shinsou Hitoshi btw.”

“(l/n) (f/n)! Nice to meet’cha!”

You didn’t know how it happened but you felt an instant connection to him and you two hitted it off from then. You two would always chat in your private message and it quickly became unnoticed by the others, they even started to ship is and make an official name for the ship. You played oblivious as did he, although both of you already know about it.

After two weeks, he called you bb and you couldn’t helped but blush before awkwardly telling him: you really really liked him. At first, he didn’t say anything so you were half-expecting him to reject you and that’ll be it. But surprised, he told you: he liked you back. However you both decided that it’s too early for a relationship so you two now have a peace of mind that at least the other feels the same way.

It was fun, interacting with him, sending him uwus and heart memes, etc. You learned that he’s working as a pro hero while you studied in university. You learned he’s a gamer who sings, plays the guitar and ukulele ngl i can honesty see this as canon. And he plays basketball and soccer just pretend sksksksksk.

You two would schedule voice calls as you both were busy, it would always play out as – you would come home late and wait for him to get out of work as you two chatted away before actually getting in the call once he’s home. You would usually ask about he’s day and about his job and he’d reply with his usual deep tired voice that you’ve grown to love curses my deep voice kink.

This went for two months. Until one night while you were staying up late studying, he chatted your name. This was the first time he called you by your real name, usually he would call you by your username or “bb” as usual so this sudden change set butterflies in your stomach.

“Yes, Toshi?” you replied before teasingly sent, “This is the 1st time you called me by my name haha.”

“I wanted to tell you something important so I thought it’d catch your attention.”

“Well, what is it?”

“I love you.”

Without thinking you typed, “I love you too.” and sent it before realizing what he meant. “Do you meant that as a friend?” You immediately sent.

“Do you want me to say that?”

You blushed hard, you can imagine him chuckling at your stupid question. “Uhhh no??? Idk??? You’re not joking, right??”

“I wouldn’t have said it, if I didn’t mean it.”

“Really?” You couldn’t believe it so you just had to ask.

“Yes.”

“Tell it to me again plz 🥺👉👈.”

“I love you, (y/n).”

“I love you too, Toshi.”

“In advance, I’m so sorry for being a weirdo.”

“But you’re my weirdo.”

Cue squealing. But after that, it went spiraling down. A month and a week went by without communication from him; no updates, no greetings, no nothing. You decided to confront him about your concerns. You understand that he’s busy at work and you were always supportive and understanding at his job were his top priority.

But couldn’t he at least spare you a few minutes of his free time, maybe when he woke up or during his breaks. You didn’t ask for more so you were slightly disappointed with him as it worried you that he worked 6am-2am everday without holiday breaks besides Nov.1-2.

You voiced those concerns to him, he apologized and you forgave him. But this behavior of his continued on and this made you sad, other would say you’re depressed but you were too occupied with thoughts of him; his voice; the feeling he gave you, etc.

For another month and three days, you confront him again but this time he left your pm and blocked you. You panicked as negative thoughts flooding your mind.

Did you do anything wrong? You weren’t too clingy, right? Your chat wasn’t too honest, right?

You somehow managed to calm your mind after a couple of minutes and through logical evaluation and elimination, you concluded that you didn’t do anything wrong. But the questions remain: Why did he leave? Why did he blocked you?

For the longest time, you couldn’t answer that. You spend your time drifting off from reality and to your memories with Toshi while day-by-by you lessen your interactions with your online friends, seemingly just vanishing from thin air.

You felt empty, a void of loneliness filled you as you went your way through your own life, not knowing what to do with yourself or even feel. Why did it come to this? Everything went fine, you two were happy so why? Why did he suddenly leave you all alone like that?

———————————————————————

Today was the reunion of UA batch [number]. Shinsou stood in the far corner of the Gym Gamma, his back leaning against the wall as he observed everyone and everything. He noticed an unfamiliar yet familiar (h/c) locks, he watch as you talked with Sero, Tokoyami, Shouji, and Ojirou. You were especially close to Ojirou, you practically by his side with your arm linked with his.

He didn’t know why he was growing irritated and angry at sight of you being in someone else’s arms when he damn well know that you deserve to move on after what he’d done to you after all those three years but still… He had hoped that you actually waited for him.

You were suddenly called by Kirishima as you leaned towards Ojirou and whispered a soft ‘see you’ before walking towards to him.

“(Y/n)-chan! I want you to meet someone!” He said as he dragged you towards where a lone lavender haired man stood before running away. You opened your mouth to objects but it was already too late, he was gone. You looked at the stranger and felt that same connection when you met him, you knew. Although not having to see his face, you just knew that it was him: Shinsou.

“(L/n) (f/n)! Nice to meet’cha!” You cheered brightly, just like when you first introduced yourself to him.

“I know.” he replied. “I’m Shinsou Hitoshi.” God, why I am so lame. He thought.

“Oh! Nice to finally and officially meet you, Shinsou-san!” You smiled as you raised your glass towards him.

Why did you have to call him like a stranger? And not the usual ‘Toshi’ you would always call him?

He clicked his glass with yours and took a sip as his eyes spotted a shiny accessory on your ring finger, making his heart froze. That’s why. You were engaged. Of course, why wouldn’t you be? You were ever so patient, understanding and supportive. It didn’t even surprise him.

When you finished you glass, you excused yourself as Jirou announces the last song for tonight that is written by the guess before she yelled out your name and you climbed up the stage.

“Love do you know?

We've been growing apart

And you should know

That for me that's hard

Darling I'm scared if I let you go, oh

This will be goodbye for good

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

‘I never loved you’

And I won't say

That I knew it from the start

So you can say

That we weren't torn apart

'Cause for me, oh it's easier to bleed, oh

When I know you can sleep so I keep telling myself

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

I feel numb when the drums slow down

Oh, leave me dumb so I can't tell myself

Myself, oh

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

I already know that it just isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

‘I never loved you’.”

Part 2, maybe???

#mha shinsou #mha x reader #mha imagines #mha midoriya #mha urakaka #mha bakugou #mha mina #shinsou x reader #mha sero #mha tokoyami #mha shoji #mha ojiro #ojiro x reader #angst #fluff #izuocha #shipping #college au #fic recs #mha scenarios #mha au #mha fluff #mha angst #levinne.writes #mha.scenarios #shinsou.scenarios

[ameliyaahn3]

🖇 (1/2) Good day ☺! Haikyuu and KnB matchup? Straight female, 5'0ft, 20yrs old, long black hair & olive skin! I like being knowledgeable of diff topics/interest, cause it's a great conversation starter & a great way to know different people! I love everything chocolate; whether it's ice cream, cake or milk! Then, I'm scared of lizards:( People often find me intimidating, cause of my rb face. But, once they know me, I'm actually very clumsy & teasable person, cause I'm an easygoinh person.

A/n : I don't know what to say but that I was in a strange state of mind when I wrote that like... I was unable to write headcanons.

Haikyuu >>>>

I match you with...

Time skip!Kawanishi Taichi

Would look like a one shot but hey ! Hear me out this how you two I think matched :

You meet him for the first time at his work place, (he works as a barman.)

And asked for a non-alchool cocktail, as he quickly gives your command cause the bar isn't full of people yet, you question him suddenly about the meaning of your glass : the name echoed like foreigner and you already heard that somes drinks hides beautiful signification and history.

Who need to know something so useless and random ? Kawanishi didn't have a lot to respond to you but as he was intrigued and bored he tried despite that at first glance he didn't thought of you like a very open minded person.

Conversation last in like 3 minutes but was quite interesting and long enough for you to notice the barman beauty and, for him to lost his stereotypes on you.

You tried to make a move on him but your flirt attemp fail as you accidentaly spill your drink cause of your clumsiness.

Embarassed, thinking about how stupid you may have looked to him, Kawanishi wasn't reassuring as he was silently –but definitely mocking you.

Pretty weird girl he probably thought.

His introverted ass indicate you the toilet direction as he was cleaning your mess.

At your return, he allowed himself to smirk and joke about you're clumsiness with a lot of calm but playfully for sure : Your initial plan was to back home but after that ? You wont let him get away like this ! You're an easygoin person but... teased that much by a stranger ?

You two started to talk a lot more, with your friendly nature as a big help, you showed him somes of your tongue tricks and he teased you about the accident earlier and related that to the fact you're left-handed Goosh so much fuckboi vibes!! Then the two of you introduced and exchanged numbers before you had to leave.

Your conversation on socials medias and phone messages were pretty funny : Once he knew your fears for lizards this bastard started to send you pictures of them when you were a "nuisance". But one time, Tendou usurpated Taichi identity and outrageously flirt with you.

So you remind him at every occasion he thinks he has the advantage and even send the screenshots.

Beside that you didin't stop but luckily meet him in town.

Kawanishi then awkwardly invites you to comes to the bar again, there propose you to date without saying it like how it was supposed to sound.

You didn't hold back and obviously teased him, he fainted to be annoyed.

Since you two are not strangers anymore, you know a lot about each others and you talked about your sporty high school years.

Kawanishi thinks he's a better basket-ball player than you just because of his height, plz proove him wrong.

It ended in a chill street-basket match.

The loser had to pay for anything that can contains chocolate to the winner.

Obviously, Kawinishi would pay despite the result, wouldn't even be serious during the game, he walks, he's so soft when it comes to spend time with you besides all the teasing and stuff.

Hugs master, is not into pda but gives them in public despite being a lot more shy.

Loves that you're kind of a nerd, ask sometimes for your random knowledge.

This height difference is just so cute !!

Others potential matchs :

Sugawara Koushi, Akaashi Keiji.

Kuroko no basket >>>

I match you with...

Aged up! Himuro Tatsuya

Like Kawanishi here I go for a whole love story :

Idk where you live but in this anime AU you're in USA, and one of your friends invited you to a NBA match cause she get offerred free tickets.

Through, she didin't know much about basket-ball, she wanted to bet to makes easy money.

So she asked for your advice as you were in a counter waiting for the food you commanded and on the sport bets application.

" Hey do you know who's that Murasakibara Atsushi ? Sounds pretty japanesse like name."

Unfortunately, it didn't ring a bell in your mind at all but peoples besides you were talking about a new giant from college.

" Hmm...If that guy who just come from college already play as a starter then I shouldn't bet on that team." said your friend quite sceptical, more curious you didn't share their opinion and was waiting for more elements but he or she was already prepared to risk their money.

" We should ask for advice to peoples more informated than us." You said.

"But who ?" The tall and handsome guy– Himuro- was standing behind you, hearing the conversation with a smile since less than one minute. He can't help himself but talk.

" I wouldn't bet on a team who has Atsushi as opponent if I was you, ladies." Himuro said.

Love at first sight.

" Please explain why." Your smile convinced him to talk more.

And as he see that you're really curious, find that trait of yours pretty funny.

" I did basketball when I was in High school but you seem to know much more than me, would it bother you too much to watch the match with us..? If you don't have compagny obvi—

And you tripped, almost making your food drop but Himuro caught you before. You feel your face warmer cause of embarassement but smile as you know how clumsy you're generally but that you don't mind really.

Himuro lightheartly laugh at you and accept your offer.

Your friend believed that she was burden as you two were talking a lot and not only about basketball but student life too.

Himuro unlike Atsushi still a player in his college team even if somes pro-team are interested by him.

Takes you on a date after your 1st meeting and gives you his number.

Likes that you know a lot about different things and loves when you bring your knowledge, awkward or not in conversation.

Spoil you with chocolate whenever he feels that you're sad.

Protects you from lizards.

Finds your tongue tricks funny but won't ask you to makes them often as he isn't an innocent guy...

He's happy that you have played basketball during highschool years so you two can talk about it without that he feel guilty about you don't know what he's even talking about.

Thinks of your left-handness as a cute distinction.

Others potential matchs :

Izuki Shun, Midorima Shintarou.

#knb #haikyuu!! #matchup #matchups #kawanishi taichi #himuro tatsuya

[harryforvogue]

Hey ily ❤️ just wanted to explain from a reader’s POV, I understand and appreciate the effort and energy that you put into your writing and I can see how draining it is when people don’t care after you put in all the energy and please know that I love every single thing that you’ve ever posted because it’s clear that you give a shit and actually want it to come out good. Not posting just to get it out there or to please other people. That’s honestly why I love what you write but I wanted (1/?)

To say that sometimes when I ask when a certain fic or blurb will be posted it’s mostly because I legit just wanna know when so I can set a reminder or have something to look forward to. Especially these days when my life is basically trash and all I have to look forward to is your blog at the end of a long ass day. Like if you say for example “I’m posting on Wednesday” I’ll wake up that week and think “just gotta get through it til Wednesday and then my reward will be (2/?)

So it makes me sad when writers who are so genuinely good and talented and whose work gets this kind of attention feel pressured or find the questions difficult because I think it’s out of excitement and enthusiasm that folks ask. And, of course, if people don’t respect your decision to not post so often or take time for yourself which you so obviously deserve, they can fuck off. You should never feel the need to please everyone or write (4/?)

Stuff that you are not excited about just to make your followers/ readers happy but idk I feel like people asking is more a form of flattery than anything and I’d hate for it to come off as anything negative because we all really do appreciate what you do for us and we know you’re not obligated to do it at all. We’re grateful to have such a well constructed beautiful fictional world to hide inside and enjoy but plz don’t take it negatively :( love you (6/6)

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First of all, I’m a little concerned by the number of posts you intended to send, and how many posts actually went through because you went from 2 to 4, and then 6/6 LOL, so I’m sorry if tumblr ate your messages. I really don’t have them in my inbox.

Secondly, I really really understand where you’re coming from. I understand that asking for more writing is a form of flattery because it tells me that you want more of what you’ve seen, and that gets me hyped up! It shows me you’re excited for more and I love that. However, there is a time and place for that. Sending me a message asking for another fic and when it will be posted after I’ve just posted another fic is really disappointing because as a writer, I think I haven’t given you enough. I feel as if I haven’t satisfied you, and that’s not what I want at all. My main problem with getting messages asking me to write over and over is that 1) I already write so much, and I write very quickly. I don’t want to burn out just trying to keep up with everything. Yes, it’s flattering that you want more, but if that’s the only thing you’re saying, I feel like a machine and people only come to me when they want me to produce something. I feel like I’m mass producing already. 2) I need that energy to transfer over to when I actually post the fic that everyone asks about. I have gotten SO MANY messages asking me when I’ll post Mia/Harry blurbs, and even that recent Fleur/Harry blurb, and if you go over and check on how many reblogs I have... where did all that enthusiasm go? 146 likes and 24 reblogs in which four of those are just me. That’s where your support needs to come through. 

You have to carry out. If you’re going to bombard me with messages about when I’m posting and you’re also going to give me “flattery” by asking me to post more, the least you can do is give me a reblog. I don’t know any other way to say it, but if you want your favorite creators to keep creating, you need to support them, and the number one way you can do that is reblogging. I do this for free. This isn’t my job. I make time out of my day to keep this blog. I literally do not ask ANYTHING of you, except a reblog. I’m not asking for money. I tried that and I hated it. I just want this to be fun. Easy. I need this to work both ways because if my readers and I are in a relationship right now, I feel as if I’m putting in way more effort than they are, and how do those type of relationships work out? Badly, right?

There used to be a time where I’d write just for notes to kick my blog off the ground, but I was younger and I just wanted some recognition. And now, I don’t care about the notes, I just want my likes and reblog ratio to be leveled out. It can be 15:10. It cannot be 15:1. How is that supposed to help me write?

So yes, I understand that asking for more writing is very kind and it makes me happy when you want more, but most times, I feel like a factory just producing writing after writing and having it just sit around on my blog. Most times, I just assume you like my fics because of how many times you ask for “part two” or etc, and I have my regular anons and mutuals who give me feedback, however in comparison to how many followers I have on this blog? It’s not enough. That’s simply it. It’s nowhere near enough.

#keep #this isn't be being angry #me* #i'm rarely angry on here #just a lot of frustration #Anonymous

[yukiobeyme]

Heya Leviathanismyweakness here 💜 Can I request this prompt from your 200 prompt list? 16. “I’m sorry, but…I don’t remember you.” With Mammon and a gender neutral MC plz 🥺 ty

Hey @leviathanismyweakness ! This one came to me instantly, I managed to hurt my own feelings though. This is angsty and semi-happy ending. Thank you so much for the request, I hope it lived up to your expectations!

“I’m sorry, but…I don’t remember you.” Mammon X Gender Neutral MC

It has been a month since RAD exchange program ended, a month that your room in the House of Lamentation has been empty and most importantly a month since Mammon had seen you. He missed you to the point he was sick. He finally broke and pleaded with Lucifer to let him go to Earth to see you. Lucifer said no at first, so Mammon kept asking. He had tried contacting you on your DDD but you never replied, he even left voicemails and there was no response. Lucifer broke after two weeks.

Mammon was excited, he packed a small backpack, figuring he could crash with you. IT was easy to figure out where your permanent resident was on Earth and he was ready. What he didn’t expect was when he knocked on your door, you would open it and ask what he needed. He thought you were joking at first.

“Very Funny MC cut the joke,” Mammon said almost annoyed that you wanted to play this game with him. He missed you like crazy, he thought you would have missed you too.

“Seriously, who are you?” You asked you were getting nervous, that this strange man at your door was so assertive that you need each other.

“It’s Mammon, how could you forget the GREAT Mammon!” He finally answers, he exclaimed it, hoping you were about to give up this charade.

“I’m sorry, but… I don’t remember you,” that’s when it clicked with Mammon, his heart dropped into his stomach when he saw how generally confused you were.

“You don’t? You spent the whole of last year with me and my brothers.” He said it desperately hoping it would trigger something.

“I don’t remember the last year of my life, it’s kind of a blur,” You admitted to the man. Your heart clenched when you saw his face dropped. A part of you wished what he was saying was true. Maybe he could help you remember what happened in the last year of your life.

“Why don’t you come in for tea?” You asked nervously, not knowing what overcame you, but you felt like you could trust him, that felt familiar.

Mammon nodded and you let him in. He looked around your apartment, appreciating the decorations and your style choice.

“The kitchen is this way,” you led Mammon to the kitchen and gestured towards one of your island stools. You watched as he pulled a strange purple device out of his pocket.

“I have one of those! What is it?” You found a device like that in your backpack, it reminded you of a cellphone, but you didn’t know what it was.

“It’s my DDD, its basically a cellphone,” Mammon commented. “You should have one, we gave it to you when you first came to live with us.” He continued after a while.

You hummed and brought over tea, sugar, and creamer for him to fix his tea as he pleased. You talked about mundane things for a bit before he left. You couldn’t stop the guilt you felt when Mammon left with his head hanging low.

Once Mammon was back in Devildom, he was livid and immediately went to find Lucifer. He was with Diavolo at Diavolo’s castle, but Mammon immediately went there are barged in.

“You knew and you didn’t tell me!” Mammon screamed when he found Lucifer. Diavolo, Lucifer, and Barbatos stopped and looked at him.

“You knew they had forgotten about their time here and you still let me go without a warning,” Mammon was shaking and couldn’t get himself to calm down. He didn’t know he was in his demon form until Lucifer changed too and stepped in front of Diavolo. Mammon’s knee gave out and couldn’t stop the sobs that escaped his lips.

“I love them so much, and they’ve forgotten me and you knew and you didn’t tell me,” Mammon couldn’t stop the tears. He was beyond hurt, he continued to sob on his knees in front of his oldest brother, the future king and the loyal butler. Lucifer couldn’t help but feel sorry for his brother, it pained him to see him like this.

“There was a chance, I didn’t know if I should have warned you or not, I’m sorry Mammon. I really am,” Lucifer said it gently. Lucifer felt awkward seeing such a strong display of emotions from his younger brother. It tugged at his heart; he couldn’t keep Mammon safe from this or fix it.

“Why not invite them back?” Diavolo spoke, stepping out from behind Lucifer. “If they fell in love with you once, I bet they could do it again,” Diavolo said it with so much confidence that Mammon wanted to believe them.

“You have my permission to offer their room back to them, the house has been too quiet without them anyways,” Lucifer said taking a few steps forward and offering Mammon his hand. Mammon accepted it and was surprised that he was pulled into a quick hug. “Tell any of the others I did that, and I will deny it,” Lucifer said as he let go.

Within a week Mammon was back at your apartment. You were surprised and then it immediately turned into nerve when you heard his proposition. Come back to his house with him, where you supposedly spent the last year of your life, the year that was missing from you.

When you seemed hesitant, Mammon pulled out his DDD and showed you conversations and pictures of you both smiling at the camera. That’s when you realized he must be right; you must know him but honestly can’t remember.

You asked him to help you pack a few bags before you headed out together. You were confused when Mammon found a portal and made that known.

“You really don’t remember, I am from Devildom, come on let’s go,” he grasped your hand as he led you through the portal.

When you saw the sky and area around you, you couldn’t help but have an at-home feeling, but nothing came back to you. Even the walk to the house was familiar, once instead you were able to lead Mammon to your room but didn’t know how and you tried to figure out why.

“You seem to remember somethings,” Mammon commented as he welcomed himself to your bed.

“I don’t know why,” you replied and sat beside him but made sure there was plenty of distance between you.

“I let you settle before dinner, you’ll see, or I guess to meet the rest of my brothers then,” Mammon said with a pained nod before leaving. Which left you to unpack and organize your room.

You found the dining room with ease and the food smelt familiar and even tasted familiar, but nothing came to you. You were introduced to all the brothers, but their eyes held sadness and pain.

“I guess I’ve met you too?” You finally asked in a small voice, guilt consuming you.

“You lived with us for a full year, I guess once you left all your memories left you as well,” it was Satan, you think, that said it. You nodded and went back to your food.

Mammon excused himself but asked if he could talk to Lucifer soon, leaving you with his brothers. Mammon asked Lucifer if he could meet with Diavolo in private. Lucifer agreed but made him swear he wasn’t going to do any funny business.

“Wouldn’t dream of it,” Mammon said as he left to head towards the castle. It was a chiller night but Mammon simply stuffed his hands in his pocket and walked briskly to the castle where Barbatos welcomed him.

“Lord Diavolo is in his study, he is expecting you,” Barbatos said with a small smile.

“Thank you,” with a small nod Mammon was off toward Diavolo’s study. He knocked and waited to be granted entry from Diavolo himself.

“Good Evening, Mammon how can I help you?” Diavolo asked sitting down his pen and looking up from his work.

“Is there any way to make MC remember? Remember anything not even just me, just anything? Please? I’ll do anything for them to remember something,” Mammon started frantically, he was desperate to have you remember something. He felt the tears threatening to spill again. “Please I’m begging you,”.

Diavolo sighed, “I don’t think so Mammon. Human’s are fragile if we did anything, we run the risk of hurting them,” the pitiful look Diavolo gave him, broke Mammon. He stayed with Diavolo for a bit, accepting tea and trying to relax and breathe.

When Diavolo’s DDD went off Mammon looked up, “It’s your brother, he wants you to come back soon,” Diavolo said. With a nodded Mammon slowly stood and thanked them both before leaving.

Mammon had told you; you were welcomed to stay as long as you would like, and you did. A few days turned into weeks and weeks turned into a month. All the brothers had a familiar pull to them, but it seemed Mammon kept his distance.

It was a movie night, something the brothers and you did a lot when you were here. When you walked in you noticed a free seat beside him and like a magnet you immediately felt attracted to that spot. During the movie, you slowly started to cuddle closer to him. First it was your head on his shoulder then him wrapping his arm around you and then you snuggled up against him.

He felt safe and warm, his smell was familiar and calming and most importantly he felt like home. It still frustrated you that you didn’t know why, and it was frustrating that you had DDD messages and pictures together that you couldn’t recall. You finally read through them and realized that it was possible that Mammon and you were in love at some point and the thought made butterflies. He was attractive and had a nice laugh and knew how to make you smile when he talked to you.

After the movie, you asked him quietly to come to your room. Once you were there you locked the door and turned to him. “Will you stay the night?” you asked innocently. You wanted to stay close to him for a little longer. Mammon flushed and seemed to stutter and spew words before he finally managed a yes.

When you got in bed together, you laid down with your ear over his heart and you could feel and hear how fast it was beating. You laid in silence for a bit, not knowing what to stay or what was happening.

“Mammon…,” you finally started, “I might not remember you, but I want to get to know you again,” you said quietly, looking up at him with hope.

“I’d like that MC,” he said looking down at you with hopeful eyes. Before you decided against it you pressed a kiss on the corner on his mouth before cuddling on his chest again. Ravishing in how the kiss left your lips tingling and your stomach flipping, something felt right here, and you were going to continue to explore it.

Even if your memories never came back to you, you stayed in Devildom for a while. Getting to know the brothers again. Going on adventures, learning about what you have done here before and most importantly you fell in love with Mammon. Something he would later admit that you had fallen in love before you left Devildom for the first time. You reassured him, you had no plans of leaving Devildom again, you didn’t want to risk losing your memory again, losing your friends here, and most importantly losing the Demon that fell in love with twice.

Mammon would later talk with Lucifer, Diavolo, and Barbatos again, saying that maybe he believes in soulmates because you admitted that you felt a connection to him but couldn’t understand it and that you managed to fall back in love with him all over again. Though the love wasn’t exactly the same, it felt stronger and Mammon wouldn’t have it any other way.

#obey me mammon #mammon obey me #obey me fanfic #200 prompt drabbles #yuki writes #hurting my own feelings