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queerstake · 2 months

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As a queer drawn to the faith and trying to deal with the messiness of entering into everything, I've been trying hard to read more of the Book of Mormon because I only have a very vague understanding of it's Whole Deal, but executive dysfunction, ADHD, and honestly, a million other excuses are making it very difficult. Are there any good resources for walking through the fundamentals? Childish but I feel like I'm disappointing the Lord if I'm not more on top of this.

Hi anon! I totally get it and yes, I can think of a few ideas!

If you're looking for ways to understand the BoM (or even just general doctrine) from more of a bird's eye view:

I hope you don't find this silly, but when I was a kid, the church published an illustrated children's version of the BoM that's obviously way quicker to flip through. It might be harder for you to find those exact editions I read as a kid if you don't have ready access to a church library, BUT I found this!! It's (almost) the ENTIRE BoM illustrated and summarized and it's online!

Looks like they put out videos too that summarize the BoM beginning to end. Here's a link to the video series. I haven't seen these, so I can't vouch for them, but they might be helpful! Similarly, there's a BoM in 60 seconds video you might find helpful.

If you'd benefit from a schedule, the church is currently studying the BoM in sunday school! The past few years, we've been using a study guide called Come Follow Me with weekly assigned reading chapters. I've actually been working on posts about CFM as they relate to queer mormon theology, but I haven't had much posted yet since I've been having a rocky start to 2024. As things improve, I'll be able to hopefully even establish a schedule on this blog!

I'm not sure if missionary lessons is something you're interested in at this point, and it's definitely not something you ever need to do, but the missionary lessons themselves are a pretty good doctrine intro if you're looking for just Mormonism 101 in a digestible way. The missionaries teach out a book called Preach My Gospel, which is available right here. You'll be interested in the lessons, which are found in Chapter 3. If you just scroll down, you'll see some of the links are labeled Lesson instead of Chapter--just click on those bad boys. And if you have any doctrinal questions, I'm always MORE than happy to talk about the church! You'll probably get a faster answer DMing me personally at @logans-mormon-blog, but I'll always answer asks here as soon as time permits.

If you're looking for easier ways to finish the BoM from beginning to end:

The BoM on tape. The church has an audiobook version available on the Gospel Library app and other audio apps like Spotify.

The Reader's Edition. If you can get your hand on a reader's edition, a lot of people find this is an easier way to plow through the BoM. What's special about this one is that it's formatted not like scripture but like prose, and it really does change the reading experience!

I don't know if this helps any, but I struggle with some of the same issues as you and I'm always bitterly disappointed when I'm not able to move mountains. If I had my way, I'd be the most well-read scriptorian of all time and this blog would be updated constantly. But life often doesn't shake out that way. I spend way more time than I want to with my brain entirely burned out of my head. So you're not alone, if that's any comfort. I think God gets it--he made our brains, after all, and knows how hard it is to wrestle with. It's easier said than done, but don't beat yourself up. God loves the both of us and he's the most perfectly patient person who's ever lived. He's not frustrated or disappointed with our efforts. Religion exists, in my opinion, to help improve and enrich our lives, not make them more challenging OR even to make them perfect if we only could just run fast enough. I too wish I could be more diligent and on it, but shit happens, right? And we're not on earth to be perfect, we're here to be happy and to learn. When Joseph Smith was translating the BoM, God told him "Do not run faster or labor more than you have strength and means provided to enable you to translate; but be diligent unto the end." D&C 10:4. We're doing our damndest, and that's all God even wants from us.

If anyone else has more resource ideas, please let us know!

-Logan

#queerstake #tumblrstake #lds #mormon

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americas1suiteheart · 8 months

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Here's that Dad! Lemon x Reader, I hope you don't mind it being put into the form of headcannons and it being a Fem reader, but its all my brain can really do, aka; I've been getting a little lazy and headcannons and a fem reader are easiest and quicker.

Lemon As A Dad

[Dad! Lemon x Fem! Reader]

[Tumblr ruined the quality of my gif again🙄]

[Notes; This is the only Fem reader i'll probably make only because it was easier to do so.. For the sake of all of my bullet train fics of the twins, let's pretend that Tan is still alive because I don’t need reminders that he died🤭]

[Warnings; None, just more fluff. •❅──────✧❅✦❅✧──────❅•

When you both find out you're pregnant, he's a whole mess of emotions. He's happy and ecstatic, he's scared, he's freaking out but totally calm all at the same time.

He immediately calls Tangerine to tell him and I can imagine he's just fumbling over his words and such due to the excitement. Tan is trying to calm him over the phone so he can form coherent words and its just not working so you take the phone and talk to him about it so that way Tan doesn't start to yell at him due to his short fuse.

Tan is extremely happy for you two, he probably would take you guys a basket of sorts. Just things to get everything started off.

I think Tan and maybe your parents and siblings if you have them would be the only ones to know. You two being assassins and all doesn't really mean you get to have friends outside of your job. Maybe if you're cool with ladybug, he might know, but apart from that it just stays inside of family.

He's already thinking of names and such, making an entire list of them in fact. You find it so cute how excited he is.

You have no choice or say so when it comes to the nursery, because you just know its gonna be Thomas and Friends decorated no matter what you say.

I think he'd be very protective. Making sure no one in public is overwhelming you when your bump is visible.

He will punch someone if he has to, no joke.

He is such a boy dad. Say you see what gender the baby is and it turns out to be a boy hes just beaming with joy. I'm not saying he wouldn't like having a girl, but he seems like such a boy dad, y'know what I mean?

He would 100% constantly be talking to your belly. Making you watch Thomas and friends with him too as if the kid could see it with you two.

"How are you doing in there little man," "Not much longer until your out of mummy's belly, kiddo. I'm so excited to meet you."

He's freaking out the entire time you're going through labor.

You're like, screaming absolute pain, then he's screaming too.

"WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING, LEM?!" "SORRY!"

You truly love Lemon but he's not much help for you as he's loud and probably more scared than you. He'd have a panic attack.💀

After the kiddo's out and he holds him in his arms, he's full on crying tears of joy it's incredible. He loves him so much.

When it comes to naming the kid though💀

"You two have a name in mind for him?" The nurse asks, smiling.

Lemon looks at you with a pleading look as you're holding your newborn in your arms.

"We're not naming him after a fuckin' Thomas and Friends character." You say sternly.

"We need some time to think about it," Lemon says looking back at the Nurse.

Eventually you give in and decide on Edward. I feel it would either have been between Edward or Percy.

Oh man just wait until Tangerine finds out about the kid being named after a Thomas and Friends character.

He's not upset about it because its not his kid or something he can control, but he's just a little bit disappointed you gave in to Lemon.

"Alright love, you can go on in, I'll get Edward alright," Lemon says, opening the car door for you and helping you out.

You had just been allowed to be discharged from the hospital, and you and Lemon planned to immediately head home and have Tangerine over to meet Edward.

You smile at him in response and head on inside of your shared home.

You go inside of your bedroom and change out of your current clothes into some comfier ones.

Once you finish, you walk into the nursery where Lemon was putting Edward into a Thomas and Friends onsie, grinning widely.

"Lookin' dashing kiddo! Let's go and show mummy now," Lemon says, picking him up carefully, making sure to hold is little head up.

He turns around with Edward in his arms and smiles even wider when he sees you standing at the doorway.

"Look at him, love. Doesn't he just look adorable in this," Lemon says excitingly.

"You can relax on the couch with Edward while I clean up darling, don't worry," He says, carefully handing you Edward and guiding you to sit on the couch.

"He looks great, Lem. Let's get the living area situated though, Tan should be coming over soon." You say, laughing warmly at the sight of the two boys.

You tear up a little looking at them, Lemon's already such a great dad.

You would protest but it would be no use, as it would only lead to Lemon forcing you to relax no matter what.

You we're grateful for that. You knew that some dad's would have their wives do all the work whilst taking care of the child sometimes, just sitting on their arse and being a useless piece of shit. You were glad that Lemon was the complete opposite. Stubborn, even.

Lemon cleans the living area as you sit down on the couch with Edward, admiring how much he looks like Lemon.

*Knock, knock, knock*

"That must be Tangerine," You say, looking up at the door as Lemon looks through the peephole, confirming.

"Hey Y/n, how are you doing?" Tangerine asks, sitting next to you on the side where you were holding Edward.

He opens the door to let Tangerine in, greeting him.

Tangerine thanks Lemon and immediately walks towards you and Edward, a large grin on his face.

"I'm doing better now, just a little tired but Lemon has been a great help," You reply.

"Thats great, how's the little one been doing so far?"

"He's been doing good. He's 7 pounds and healthy, there were no complications other than Lemon freaking out at the hospital while I was in labor." You and Tangerine snicker.

Lemon glares at you from the kitchen as he stocked the cupboards with baby bottles.

"Whats his name,"

You give a look towards Lemon and look down at Edward who was currently sleeping.

"I swear to fuckin' god if you two named him after a Thomas and Friends character," He says as he looks at Lemon.

"Its Edward," Lemon says, clearing his throat afterwards.

"Fucks sake you two are unbelievable, this poor kid," Tangerine scoffs jokingly.

Honestly though, Tangerine is such a good uncle. When I tell you its almost like he's there constantly.

When Tangerine isn't busy and you and Lemon just want a day to yourselves as a break, he's more than happy to take care of him.

Tangerine would 100% buy him a matching West Ham Football Jersey.

During football season, Tangerine is holding Edward and when the team makes a goal he's just running around with Edward in his arms in the living area as it fills with the sounds of Edward's giggling and Tangerine's cheering.

Tangerine genuinely loves him so much and would probably do anything for him.

When you go back to work and Lemon or Tangerine aren't available to babysit then Ladybug would definitely be down to do so.

Lemon is very obviously against the idea at first but seeing as you have no one else to do so that you trust, he finally gives in to the idea.

I feel Ladybug would just be great with kids too man, know what I'm saying?

Lemon would probably cry when the kid starts going to school and you know it.

Like, he's tearing up trying not to let any tears fall as Edward is hugging him, and he finally breaks when he hears the little "Bye, daddy!"

You have to calm him down the whole ride back.

He immediately wants another kid because the thought of his kid growing up scares him so much.

Lemon is just such a genuinely good dad though. Growing up without parents in the orphanage he wants to give his kid a better childhood than he had.

He would totally kill anyone if the kid ended up getting hurt or is in danger no hesitation at all.

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This was a little shorter than I would've liked but I think it was still decent. I just really needed to put some writing content out and get my drafts cleaned up. Hope you enjoyed reading it though!

Send in your requests for stories! Look at my introduction to see if anything you like is something I'll write, and DM me for further questions!

#lemon bullet train #lemon #lemon bullet train x reader #lemon x reader #brian tyree henry #brian tyree henry x reader #bullet train #bullet train 2022 #lemon and tangerine #tangerine bullet train #fem reader

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cripplecharacters · 1 year

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any tips on writing an intellectually disabled character?

how might “forced to learn a second language” affect her?

Hi!

For vague tips I will recommend another ask I answered (link) about writing intellectually disabled characters in general. If you're looking for something more specific feel free to send a second ask I'll try to answer the best I can.

Now for your second part of the ask, I'll probably give a very unsatisfying answer but: it depends. (Here I'm going to assume that the character isn't nonverbal or semiverbal because the asker didn't specify that) A lot of people with intellectual disability have a low tolerance for frustration and stress, so we get both of these very easily.

If she's having a hard time with learning a language then she might feel very easily frustrated with both the language and whoever is forcing her into learning it. She might find it extremely tiring mentally. But she could also find it helpful if she's having trouble with her native language or if she just likes languages (but still it would probably take her longer than most people to get good at it).

For being forced as in learning in class at school, it might be anywhere from a nightmare to a pleasant experience for her. I learned English as my second language in school and I generally prefer it over my native one because the sentence structure and word conjugation is much easier, so I can communicate better. So how the character feels about it could also do with how hard the language is to them.

However, if your character actively despises it or finds it way too confusing then she might have heavy emotional responses to anything to do with learning it (anger issues, crying, melting down etc.) which is very tiring to the person if they experience them constantly. This isn't exclusive to intellectually disabled people, but a lot of us have lower stress and frustration tolerance so these things happen quicker and more often. Long term stress can affect people with ID the same way as everyone else (both physically and mental health wise).

Sorry if it wasn't the most helpful answer, but I tried to give you a few perspectives on how she might feel about it. The rest just comes to you figuring out what applies to your character and what doesn't because there is a lot of diversity among intellectually disabled people. If other people with ID want to share their own experiences with second language learning feel free to share in the replies or reblog with it 😃 (smile emoji)

mod sasza

#anonymous #mod sasza #writing intellectually disabled characters #cure trope #intellectual disability representation

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midnight-omega · 7 months

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Alpha hc

I'm back with some general hcs about my alphas :)) pls bear in mind these kind of things vary from person to person and their world they're building !

Some of these are nsfw also ! proceed with caution

🍃 Characterized by the instinct to provide for and protect their loved ones/pack

🍃 Alphas are rather possessive creatures! Not in a toxic way (at least not all the time), but in a caring sort of way. Being a little wary and overprotective is the way most alphas show love

🍃 Alphas tend to be a little skittish around other alphas they don’t know. Alphas can be buddies! But it takes a little bit of awkward leeriness to get there

🍃 Not all alphas are aggressive douchebags. Their protective natures make them quicker to jump into “defend” their loved ones giving them the reputation of being overly aggressive and ready to fight 24/7

🍃 Alphas do tend to have a shorter temper, though

🍃 Alphas have the longest and sharpest canines out of the dynamics

🍃 Building muscle mass is easier for alphas and many find working out to be a great way to blow off steam and relieve stress! But just because its easier for them doesn’t mean they’re all buff and that they all enjoy a workout

🍃 Alphas are typically taller and more muscular, but that’s not always true. Alphas can be short and chubby too! Though it may be a bit rarer for them to have these kinds of builds

🍃 A group of alpha friends are like a group of dude bros (the positive himbo kind of dude bros!)

🍃 All alphas experience ruts and all alphas knot (I’ll make a more detailed rut/heat post later probably!)

🍃 Female alphas cannot conceive. They have a vagina, but lack the functioning uterus as a whole the same way male omegas are born with a penis but lack the function to create viable sperm

🍃 Female alphas can enjoy penetrative sex, but it’s dependent on the person and not typically common.

🍃 Vaginismus is very very common in female alphas, so most tend to avoid penetration

🍃 Female alphas do have boobies ! They can lactate in very rare circumstances but its uncommon

🍃 Lone alphas (an alpha without a pack) are considered rather dangerous. In the past lone alphas would sort of infiltrate packs and cause chaos with their unwanted scents and ruts. Sometimes these infiltrations would end in murder or sexual assault. It’s generally believed that without a pack or loved ones to take their protective instincts out on they devolve into baser more aggressive instincts

🍃 Alphas have a lot of pent up stress. It’s not really manly/alpha-ly to express these healthily so often times their well intentioned worrying about their loved ones (are their pups safe at school? Is their mate doing well in that job interview? Are their mom and their aunt still fighting?) Turns into anger and the same aggression seen in lone alphas.

🍃 Its really important for alphas to find a way to relieve this stress and worry. If they can’t manage to express it or talk about it, that is (some can overcome toxic mindsets!)

🍃 That’s why a lot of alphas like physical activity like I mentioned earlier! Working out, sparring in various martial arts, and sports are popular options, though there are also alphas who take refuge in creative fields too

🍃 Alphas who are a little less active, perhaps not as tall or not as masculine coded do tend to be bullied a bit for it

🍃 Alphas are pretty carnivorous. They looove meat and red meat especially and have a hard time cutting it out of their diet

🍃 Alphas never really grow out of teething. Not to say they’re like sharks constantly growing new teeth, nah, but they always hold onto the teething instinct to gnaw and chew for relief

🍃 Fidget toys that are made for chewing are super popular and an excellent way for alphas to stim

🍃 On the more kinky side of things you ought to try giving your alpha a bit even if they’re not into pony play their c h o m p instinct will trigger

🍃 Speaking of kinky shit say it with me not all alphas are doms! Collar them and tell them they’re a good boy/girl fr

🍃 Body worship is a really popular kink among alphas whether they prefer to be on the giving or receiving end

🍃 Most alphas are also total sluts for praise fr compliment ones body and tell them they make you feel safe and they’re yours for the taking

🍃 Alphas are typically expected to join the workforce, the same as betas. They can typically enter any school and any field they please

🍃 If an alpha is the head of their pack or the packs second in command they may forgo work to take care of pack issues especially if the pack is large. Managing a large pack is a full time job within itself

🍃 Alphas are generally expected to mate but there won’t be too much pushback if they decide not to (though it depends on the family)

🍃 Alphas are not good with finances, do not trust them with pack credit cards fr

🍃 Alphas are typically in charge of obtaining housing for their mate and family and take a lot of pride in making their house a home (this is the denning instinct at work)

#a/b/o #omegaverse #alpha beta omega #a/b/o dynamics #a/b/o verse #alpha #worldbuilding #alpha/beta/omega verse

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snootlestheangel · 3 months

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So I'm gonna do a thing

I got a bunch of books for Christmas that are either encyclopedias or just field guides to different animals.

I want to go through all these books and learn about all the things but it's been hard to find time/motivation for that.

But I had an idea.

For example, the one I'm starting with is an encyclopedia on all the shark species around the world. I was thinking I could do the note-taking, reading, and learning about one species at a time BUT THEN share it as a "Shark of the Day" thing

I love learning, I really do and I always have. But I love learning just as much as I love sharing what I've learned. It's why my family gets constantly bombarded with random facts I know. So that's why I want to do it this way. Dedicating the time to learning about one thing so I can share it will give me the motivation to do this. And only doing like one species at a time makes it a quicker, less time consuming process, meaning it'd be easier for me to do this after work every day.

I'm gonna make a separate blog for this, and I'll let yall know what it is in case you're curious

Anyways just thought I'd share that

#certified snootles moment #snootles loves learning

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silverspleen · 11 months

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I have an OC question that I'm asking here because why not: Does Jake work out? and if he does, does it like.... DO anything? can he still build muscle?

Ok BIG longpost answer because I have thoughts about this.

Yes! Jake does work out, but No. He can't build any more muscle.

I always imagine that while behaviorally he's a zombie, physically he works more like an immortal. Something happened to him where his body basically became programmed to actively always keep him at the same(ish) state he was in when he died, so basically a fit twenty-something guy with the injuries sustained when he died (the ear nick, no nose, and rib gouge hole).

Like Jack Harkness powered by magical biology and not time magic, or Wolverine but a cannibal.

But also he is very much still physically dead.

He can technically regrow limbs and dead tissue as long as he eats ethically sourced human jerky and meat smoothies and gets some sort of liquid, but it's far easier to just slap the old limb on and everything will grow back together since his body wants to be that way. Idk about the teeth and nasty nails, think those are postmortem weird magic biology things to maim and dig with better.

He's super uncanny strong because he's doing the "humans can use adrenaline to life a car" thing unconsciously a lot so it doesn't matter if he tears his muscles or ligaments because his body will just heal since it's programmed to.

The problem with actively destroying your body all the time is that he needs lots of fuel to fix all the damage existing is doing to him, hence his brain constantly in overdrive to kill and eat things. It's mostly suppressed by his personality until he triggers, or starves or gets massive damage done to him. He could survive significant trauma to his brain as long as his spine was mostly ok, he would just be a classic completely stupid slow zombie husk.

Same would go if you starved him, he'd eventually get nasty and physically damaged because parts would dry up and twist wrong and not heal as well and he'd go feral crazy because his body would be in overdrive to eat as much as possible as quickly as possible. That's also why he's afraid of bugs, they could infest him and he would literally just be eaten forever, since he could "heal" the dead tissue but it would still be dead so bugs would still eat it and he'd basally have an infestation. Bad-end feral zombie Jake would just be constantly full of maggots, eating people to heal himself but not have enough intelligence to find a way to get rid of the problem of maggots eating him in the first place, so it would just be a cycle of consumption as he shambles around forever eating and being eaten.

Jake mostly works out because he likes to, it's a holdover from being alive as exercise = happy and fit, a true jock motto, but mechanically it is getting nutrients out to his dead tissue quicker, so it actually does help heal him a little faster. Behaviorally since his brain is set to "fast zombie" it also helps him get out energy, like a big dog. Couch potato Jake would be more likely to attack people since he'd have pent up "RUN RUN KILL CONSUME" energy. Right now he's only triggered into being feral by fresh meat and obvious "prey" behavior (running away from him while screaming).

Him being a not-quite-conventional zombie is how I justify him not turning people when he bites them. I feel like the bootleg BPRD would never let him loose if he could just zombify people willy nilly, I think his thing is just a Him thing and he's proven that he is so responsible with not eating people that they let him go to Ska concerts as long as he has a handler and a fake nose and doesn't show anyone his weird rib hole for snacks.

#dragoons big dumb ocs #zombie #idk what that Something was #I feel like it was a freak accident involving science a little bit of magic and being at the right (?) place at the right (?) time #no one knows how to replicate it no matter how many samples they take #long post #oops

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noelle-holi-gay · 2 years

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Good day Hazel! Just wanted to ask ya how on earth are you so consistent in writing? Whats your process like? I know you for Dare To Dream and im honestly fuckn impressed how you wrote 25k in... a month? I could barely manage 11k in two months! Admittedly I havent read a bunch of your other Suselle and Kriselle fics, but I'm still impressed how consistent you are, even with the recent concert one I'm surpised how fast you were.

Life kinda gets in the way sometimes, I haven't written in like 7 months because I've been absolutely hammered out with irl happenings, and I wanna know how you manage your schedule and momentum when writing.

Hey! Sorry I didn't answer this sooner, the past few days have been actually insane as I'm sure you can guess KDSJHGFSDHFGSDF

So, I don't know, this is kind of always a hard question to answer because process is always so personal, you know? But I do have a few tricks I use to make it as painless as possible, so that when I sit down to write I actually get words on the page. First, though, don't knock your pace, friend; 11K in two months isn't bad at all. Sometimes you can do a lot more with a lot less, anyway.

Primarily, I have outlines, and I outline constantly in my head. I don't always write down my outlines explicitly, but I think about my stories allll the time when I'm walking places, in the bathroom/shower, doing chores--whatever occupies my body and not my mind, I'm usually thinking about my stories. Sometimes down to the details; I've blocked out entire conversations between characters in my head before while in the shower or something, including which versions of 'said' i use for which lines and where I cut the dialog with actions, and all that shit. If you've already got it in your head, then when you have free time to actually write, it often just dumps out of you onto the page.

If I don't have a really strong idea for a scene already loaded, though, it can be a bit harder to jump that first sentence hurdle; but it gets a lot easier over time. I have had to start so so many scenes over the years that at this point I just run through a bunch of different potential starts--starting with fast-paced action, starting with dialog, starting with a character's internal thoughts, starting with a description of the setting, starting with sensory imagery that the POV character is feeling--and then find one that works and write it down before I can second-guess myself, just so I can get over that initial hump. It becomes quicker and quicker with practice. And once I break that hump, the rest of the scene usually flows pretty easily.

If I'm REALLY struggling with how a scene should go, thuogh, that usually means there's something missing from it structurally--its too boring, or its too convoluted, or something like that. In that case, I'll really think about what I'm trying to accomplish with the scene, what the best way to get there is, and if there's any sub-conflict I can leverage within the scene to chug it along. Oftentimes in scenes, you want there to be two parallel 'conflicts' happening that can bounce of of one another (though I use 'conflict' pretty loosely here). For example, maybe Kris and Noelle are having an emotional conversation about their childhood; but at the same time, maybe they're walking down the street. The 'walking down the street' part may sound horribly insignificant, but keeping things in motion like that is very useful for breaking up the conversation: maybe Noelle looks away to admire the scenery before going on, or Kris trips after hearing something particularly unexpected, or they both stop walking for a minute, even though they're going to be late for class, because they've realized this is more important--the secondary 'conflict' in the scene gives you something to bounce the primary conflict off of. If I'm having a lot of trouble getting invested in a scene, in my experience, it's usually because I need to give it a secondary conflict.

From a logistic standpoint, too, a lot of my productivity literally just comes from having google docs on my phone, because if I'm in like for two minutes at the grocery store, well, that's two minutes of writing I can accomplish. The little things add up, especially since I don't bring my computer everywhere -- if I were limited to just writing on my computer instead of when im walking places, eating lunch, running errands, etc, my fics would never ever get done. It's at least 30-40% of my writing time these days.

Hope some of that was helpful and/or interesting! Hope you have a good one.

#answers #not deltarune

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minimalism-fox · 4 months

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Minimalism and Disability: A Personal Study

Ooooh a title! This one must be more thought out!

Okay, so, the TL;DR of it is this: I'm trying to make a bullet points post of why minimalism helps me manage my disabilities. Bullet points are quicker and easy to read than a word-vomit post that's actually an essay.

What I am not doing is telling other disabled people that this is the only way to manage disability. It's very much not feasible or desirable for a lot of people. And that's fine! I want you to find what works for you! Managing disability is a very personal and unique experience for every single one of us. What works for some won't work for others.

Less things to clean means less fatigue. I don't have to move or lift as much, and it's a lot quicker. Less exertion is less fatigue, and less exertion is fewer migraines.

Easier to wipe away dust. Dust, for me, is more than an allergy trigger. It's a fucking migraine trigger, too.

Less visual clutter. I'm autistic and ADHD. Visual clutter means I have to spend more time looking for things, and if I can't find things quickly I experience a lot of "I'll do it later." So things never get done.

Less self loathing because I'm not being like my mother (the root of all my therapy needs). She's a hoarder. She's also always had insect infestations that are really hard to manage when they have more hiding places.

Compliments. Yeah, it feels nice when people say "Oh wow, it's so clean. It's really peaceful." I got yelled at a lot for messes despite constantly cleaning right up until I moved away from my mother. It's not the healthiest reason, but neither is the previous point.

More visual light. I have a small apartment The windows are nice but face the parking lot on the ground level, and I really don't like people looking inside my bedroom. Less stuff means less shadows, means easier to light with less sources. We still rarely use the overhead, mostly while cleaning, cooking, or in the otherwise unlit office, but there's less really dark places with less stuff.

Wanting another robot vacuum. I really loved my dearly departed Toby, but I often had to pick up so he wouldn't eat my stuff. I'm the messy one, not my fiance, so that's entirely on me. If I don't have so much stuff it overflows onto the floor, I won't have to pick up for the vacuum. So, if I get another in the future, it can wander almost anywhere with no risk of devouring things it shouldn't.

Physical accessibility. I was in a wheelchair. I'm not counting on never being in wheelchair again. I want to be able to physically access the spaces in my home. I want to not trip over things with a cane, or stumble over things when I'm too out of it to do more than shuffle my feet. I want to be able to reach in to a cabinet without having to rummage and find things when I'm clumsy as hell, and other such access issues.

Being able to actually be finished. "I still have to--" is a massive source of stress, and while truly cleaning is an always task, being able to say "I'm done" for a day or two without the place being unbearable is so nice.

I've recently seen more hate on minimalism, which I do understand as some parents have been subjecting their whole families to the "sad beige" for the Aesthetic(tm) and it makes everyone else very unhappy, my fiance likes that I've been doing this because it means it's easier to clean, looks 'nice' and I'm a lot more relaxed. He sees these as all good things.

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parentplus · 7 months

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GETTING PICK EATERS TO EAT (At home and School)

It's the beginning of the week again and my pickey little eater has school. For me that means waking up early, making breakfast and packing his lunch box. There is only one problem with this, I'm not a morning person, waking up early isn't as appealing to me as it may be to other people. As much as I love my little guy and I would do anything for him I don't always look foreward to this, especially now that i'm carrying baby number 2. I am a single mother so I don't have a significant other to pick up the slack when i'm feeling to sick or tired and i'm having a difficult time rolling out of bed. Due to that fact, I have to get creative and find ways to make his special meals easier and quicker to make in the morning. In this article I am going cover some things i've found that have made my mornings a little bit easier and get my son to eat better.

My son is a very pickey eater and I don't care what shape, color or picture the food comes in he would rather starve than eat something substantial. Here's an example for everyone when it comes to that: I know hes a pickey eater and has texture issues but I didn't think that he would actually starve himself. He's 5 1/2 now but last year he was in preschool and I really thought he was eating at school and they thought he was eating here at home, we were both giving him food. After a while I noticed he was losing alot of weight, he wasn't gaining anything. He is naturally very tall and skinny and has always been somewhat underweight. It's hard to tell sometimes with kids who are naturally that skinny when it's just beginning to become a problem. I'm a very attentive mother but I do get busy and i'm not perfect, I thought it might be another growth spurt making him look extra skinny. One day he started telling me his tummy hurt and was constantly pushing on it so I took him to see his doctor. The doctor told me that he had lost alot of weight since the last time he saw him and gave me some techiques and such to help him with his weight gain and to help his stomach issues get better. I talked to the school and they said he wouldn't eat anything they gave him. Nobody told me that he was refusing to eat anything at all. This year is different though, I have learned from my mistake and created ways to get him to eat at home and at school.

First thing I did was get a copy of the schools breakfast and lunch menu so I know the days he's going to refuse everything and I could see when and what he was and wasn't eating. Next, I thought since he basically just picks at everything he eats that if he got both the school lunch and a packed lunch that he could just pick at both and he would be getting a meal and not even noticing it. I communicated with the school about it and have them give him both, that worked better than I thought it was going to. Sometimes parents just get lucky with some of the ways we improvise to try and keep our kids healthy and well cared for.

BENTO BOXES:

Putting together special meals every morning is kind of a task in itself but it doesn't have to be difficult or time consuming, so I put together bento boxes. I can put a variety of food in there so he has a larger choice of what he might eat (well, pick at I guess). You can make them ahead of time and freeze them if you want but I don't freeze mine, I make and put them together in the morning. Since I do it this way the cooking and packing of these meals has to be quick and easy, I dont want to spend 30 minutes or more cooking in the morning while at the same time getting my son ready for school and fighting morning sickness. I have an article coming out about bento boxes you can check out, on how to put them together and what I put in my sons. I also make sure he eats at least some breakfast here at home (even if it's only a few bites) before going to school so i can be sure he has at least a little bit of food in him, just in case he refuses school breakfast.

BRIBERY:

There is no shame in bribing a picky eater to eat, whatever works is whatever i'll be happy I tried... lol... If you know there is something that your kid will do almost anything for than by all means mama work your magick. When it comes to my son it works about 80% of the time. With some things he would rather give up everything he loves in life than to even take one bite of it. He acts as if i'm trying to poison him and death is surely to befall him if he even looks at it. I think he's an extreme case of picky little monster though and very dramatic at times but that just means I need to get more creative and improvise better.

MENU PLANNING:

Planning a menu for kids who refuse to eat anything new or substantial is extremely important. It doesn't have to be a chore though. Just because special conciderations have to be taken for some children doesn't mean it has to be difficult. At the beginning of each week I will post my picky eater menu (I coordinate it with the school menu) and please feel free to use it as needed. Remember everything can and most times has to be tailored to fit a childs specific needs. Communicating with your childs nutritionist or doctor is also never a bad idea. It's not an embarassing one either, you don't have to feel ashamed or like your failing as a parent just because you need a little extra help or advice. When I had to take my son to the doctor over his eating and weight issues I felt terrible and like I hurt and failed my baby by getting to busy and not noticing his special care needs earlier. I'm here to let you know that noone is perfect and even though a special care handbook would be nice for picky eaters every child is unique so there isn't one. Hopefully this is helpful and useful for you so you can avoid making the same mistakes I have. If you have made the same ones than you can see how I was able to recover from them. Trial and error was a big part of this, and I'm not in any way an expert on nutrition I just know what I can and can't get my little guy to eat.

PREPERATION IS KEY:

In order to get your child to eat at school the preperation has to start at home. Trying to send your kid to school with something new probably isn't going to work. You have to introduce it at home first and make sure they will at least eat some of it if they get hungry. You can again take a look at the school menu and introduce some of those items more frequently so that eventually if they aquire a taste for it you may not have to pack a lunch on those days. I coordinate my lunches with the schools because some of the stuff they serve I know he will at least pick at. Like hamburgers and french fries, he will eat the fries but not the hamburger (he's not real big on any meat that isn't chicken). In that case I buy the chicken patties that he likes and add that to his lunch box on those days. There are a couple days during the week that I get a break from packing a whole entire lunch for him because every wednesday they have pizza day and who doesn't like pizza. My saving grace on that one though is they serve either pepperoni or cheese pizza. My son will only eat cheese pizza, like I said, hes not big on meat.

CUT OUT SNACKS:

I had a difficult time with this at first and couldn't do it so I basically just switched up the kind of snacks, amount and changed what time of day I gave them to him. I give him things like a cereal bar sometimes, but not to close to mealtime as this is very filling for him. More along the lines of if I know dinner will probably be a little later than he usually eats. Depending on how late dinner might be you could always just give your kid part of one to hold them over just a little longer and put the rest in a sandwich bag for later or to add to their lunch box. I also give him cereal bars in the morning sometimes because I know he will eat those and sometimes thats all the energy I have You could also do this if you woke up late, they are a good meal replacement and have alot of nutrition in them. I also do things like slices of apples, grapes or a banana for snacks. If your kid isn't big on fruits, like mine isn't, I found out that if they are hungry enough for a snack then they will at least take a bite or two. This was difficult for me as well because denying my son (who already doesn't like to eat) any food or snack made me feel like a terrible mom and like I was starving him during the only time he decided he was hungry.

EASY AND QUICK MORNING MEALS:

At the beginning of this I mentioned that I am not a morning person, well i'm not. My child is an extremely picky eater and the meals I have to make in the morning consist of breakfast and school lunch. I also hate clean up so what I make requires very little to almost no clean up as well. When I do it this way school mornings don't have to start as early and I can still get everything done quickly. Buying things like instant rice for his lunch and hard boiling eggs the night before or even a few nights ahead helps me out alot. Instant rice takes a total of a few minutes to boil water then about 5 minutes to make, so it's super fast and there is virtually no clean up. When it comes to breakfast I buy pancake mix, hashbrown patties and stuff like that. If your kid has no problem with eating sausage they also have precoooked links, those and the patties can be cooked in the microwave and I use a small egg pan to make a pancake for him because the frozen ones taste funny to us. Buying those frozen pancakes works to and will speed the morning process, I make my own because my son just doesn't really like those. This is also a small amount of clean up, it really only consists of the bowl, pan, plate and silverware. You also have the option to premake your own pancakes or waffles and freeze those if you'd like, it's much cheaper than buying the premade frozen ones, even less clean up and probably taste better than them to. Mornings don't have to be a big rush and even if you're not a morning person they can still be enjoyable and a good way to start out your day. Another plus on this is you get to spend that morning enjoying it with your kids. No rushing, fighting or yelling, just having a morning breakfast together and enjoying each others company. Sounds to good to be true but I believe it's very possible and extremely benificial to the parent child relationship.

With all of that being said I do have a weekly picky eater menu coming out, bento box ideas and creative ways I help my son eat healthier. He's an overactive child so he will probably always be tall and skinny but at least doing things like this he's a healthy, tall, skinny, overactive child... If your able to contact one, a licensed nutritionist can be very helpful also. They have excellent techniques and little tricks they can provide you and your family with. Nutrition is very importand but with children it can become harder than it has to be. Children have their own personalities, likes and dislikes just like adult do (I personally can't stand fish) but unfortunately they don't understand that it's important to get the right nutrients into your body so you can grow up big and strong. If you enjoyed this or it was helpful in any way remember to like, share and follow for more.

#pickyeaters #Parenting #Mama #Food #singleparenting #kids

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wolves0nmars · 10 months

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performativity theory thoughts

I hate the whole "gender performance thing" so much but also its such a hard mindset to escape. Like a couple weeks ago I had a mullet and my grandma kept misgendering me, and I felt like it was because I had longer hair. So I cut it shorter. And I still don't pass, but at least I'm doing everything in my ability to pass the best I can. But like. She still kept misgendering me. I've corrected her again and again and she misgenders me again and again. But now it doesn't feel as bad. Before I felt like it was my fault but now I feel like it's hers. I feel like I have deniability

I feel like I have this instinct to perform my gender as best as possible so if any cissy looks at me and says "how do these trnansgednerds expect people to respect their silly little pronouns" I can point to all ways I'm actually trying really, really hard to pass. Don't worry, I'm ashamed enough by this that I don't think I'll ever externalize it onto other trans people, but I still feel this way about myself.

This whole mindset is pretty easy to disprove. with FACTS and LGOIC. Because you can point to a cis man doing whatever he wants. Wearing dresses, doing drag, constantly crying, screaming, and generally being very weak and submissive like a little bitch and its like. That's still a man. He's such man. And the same could be said about a cis woman. She could cut her hair, stomp around in her combat boots and be constantly enraged with carnal desire and she is still very much a woman. And I mean obviously this same logic does not work in their favor if you consider sometimes cis people are actually. not. But it's just generally true that when you're cis you'll typically pass as your AGAB even if you aren't. Optimally porferming thine gneder.

And what's even worse is that when a man wears a dress, cis liberals are like "wow this is so brave and provocative" but if a transmasc did it... it's like... "are you even trying?" And it's the same if a cis woman got an undercut and wore combat boots versus if a transfemme did that.

But if someone says something like "are you even really trans" you can say well if I were a cis man and dressed like this would you say I'm a trans woman? And like. That's true. But also. Is it?

Cause there's a difference between identity and expression. If you're androgynous nobody will instantly tell you go transitioN!!!!! Because being trans is a lot of work. And if you're already trans and you're already putting the work in to get people to use different pronouns, sitting on 19 year waiting lists for healthcare, people will be quicker to convince you that's not necessary and you're not really trans ur just gay or something.

Part of me is reading all this shit im writing and thinking. fuck those cissies. Who cares if you aren't palatable enough to the centrists. It doesn't matter if some random person on the internet talks shit about something they know nothing about. Just do your own thing, who cares.

But the other part of me thinks, real life exists, too. And sometimes you just really really want to perform your gender the best you can to your relatives, and your coworkers, and your classmates, and your boss and that little bitch boy at the store that ma'ams you everytime you come in. or sirs you if thats more relatable to your situation.

I guess that's why the internet is just so great. Cause it's easier to find niche little spaces where everyone thinks the way you do and you don't have to explain anything to anyone. Even if occasionally you run into somebody you disagree with, it just doesn't really matter. You don't have to engage with them. But in real life, it's harder to find like-minded people who get it. And it's easier to stumble upon a confused centrist.

And I think that's part of the reason medical transition can be so good. Because your body actually looks like what you want. So it's kind of like being a cis person and having that same reassurance. When you don't pass "anatomically" you have to compensate by perfformsaijngagender whatever. But when you do, there's less to "compensate" for.

if only i could actually get it haha ha. ha.

Conclusion:

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#performativity theory #gender performance #trans #transgender thoughts #<3

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sweetsouldhavernas · 3 years

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Hey friends! This tutorial is going to take you through the steps to make a very simple gif. I won’t be touching on sharpening, colourings, texts etc. but if you want a tutorial on those, I am more than happy to make them :D

Just a few things before we start: - I am not the best at explaining things and tend to ramble so please stick with this - Please like/reblog if you found this useful at all - If you have any questions about anything in here, or anything else, please send an ask or a DM, I’m always happy to help out and answer any questions that you have

I’m putting the rest under the cut so I don’t clog you dashes, enjoy!

So just a bit of housekeeping before we start: - I’m using Photoshop 2020 (I can send a link if you need one) - I use the KM Player (again I can send a link if you need one) - Try to get your episodes in 1080p or 720p, the higher the better because yay we love quality! (I can help you find links if you need them)

1. Open your Photoshop, KM player and capture folder.

I like to have my KM player open over my capture folder so I can see the screens captures as they happen but that’s just me :’) lol look at all the tiva gifs I’m still spiralling y’all anyway

2. Open the file that you want on the KM player.

Click on the open file option and find the one you want, then press open! Find the scene you want and pause it there (hehe look at happy tiva on their moped wow blissfully happy fools)

3. Setting up your frame extraction. While on your KM player, press “ctrl + G” to open up this dialogue box. These are the settings you are going to want to use (they will stay the same every time you open it so you don’t need to keep changing them every time).

For the extract to box, choose your capture folder that you already have open. Image format, and size to extract, make sure they are on those settings, they are the defaults anyway. Numbers to extract set it to continuously so we can get all those pretty pretty frames. Now your frames to extract, your gifs will look the prettiest if you have it set to capture every frame, you can do every second frame but I wouldn’t recommend it.

4. Let’s get those frames! The frame extraction box will stay open unless you click the x but seeing as we want it open, let’s keep it :D so we are on the scene that we want (I normally put it back a few seconds so I can start my capture at the point I want my gif to start at) that sentence didn’t make sense but stay with me for this.

Press play on your scene and when it gets to that part that you want to gif, press start on your frame extraction box and you should see the frames coming up in your capture folder (why I like to have it open lol there is a method to my madness). Then when you have reached the end of the part you would like in your gif, just press the stop button and you frames will stop being captured. (Depending on how many frames you are capturing, you might get a delay on your KM player, now this part is important, the frames that it captures are from what you can see on the screen (which will be lagged from the audio that you can hear) so keep capturing the frames you want from what you can see not what you can hear. But this will only happen when you are capturing a lot of frames so it shouldn’t really be a problem, it could just be my KM player who knows.)

I’ve stopped my KM player capture and have got all my frames that I have just captured (yayayay frammmeeesssss)

5. Sorting your frames. Okay so I know we have just gone through a lot to get those frames however there are way too many of them (and some at the end which I definitely don’t need in my gif lol what even is that a computer?? no thanks). For my gifs, I generally have between 30-40 frames. Anything more, to me, feels long and doesn’t...flow? Idk how to explain this one but you get a feel for when your gif should end, but I’ll come to that more later. Anything less than 30 is perfectly fine too, I think the lowest I’ve ever gone is 16/17 but it honestly depends on you and your preferences :)

This part is pretty easy, so I click on the first capture so it opens in a new window. I then scroll through with my arrow key to see how the frames look together, then delete from both ends for the parts I don’t want. This step will help a lot before we put it into Photoshop as the more frames that you load into it, the harder PS has to work, the poor baby :(

Now I’ve only got the frames that I want which will make my gif! (you can delete frames later in PS so don’t worry if you’re an indecisive fool like me who sometimes ends up with 50 and sulks because I want them all but tough Liv you can’t have them all, make a decision for once in your life)

6. Let’s get those delicious looking frames into Photoshop :D

On your PS, go to file > scripts > load files into stack. This should then open this dialogue box.

Go ahead and click that browse button and find your capture folder with all your lovely frames in it.

Select all of them and press okay.

They will pop into your load layers box and just click okay on that one too.

Just give it a few seconds and they will appear in your PS like this (wooooo we’re doing it, we’re really doing it!!!)

7. Frames to layers. When will the technical terms stop, captures to frames to layers WHY PS WHY :’( I’ve actually had to remind myself how to do this step because I have an action that does it for me because I am hella lazy oops

Let’s go ahead and click that lovely looking button that says “create frame animation”. Yours should now look like this with the timeline at the bottom instead.

If you don’t have that, go to window > timeline. Make sure that it has a tick next to it and it should come up.

Next click on the super sexy little three lines which opens this wonderful options box, and click on the “make frames from layers” option. (ha omg i’ve just realised you can see my action in there which I’m following oooopppppsssssss, I really can’t remember these steps because I haven’t done them in so long ANYWAY)

We’re starting to look like a gif YAYAYAYAY but we’ve still got more to do.

For whatever reason, when we put our frames to layers they are backwards (wtf ps???) but no worries, we can sort it! Get back to those sexy three lines and click on the “reverse frames” option and hopefully we will be in the right order.

If you want to, have a little press of your play button now and your gif should be MOVING AHHHHHHHHHHHH

BUT WE STILL HAVE MORE STEPS TO DO GAAAHHHHHHH (actions people, get yourself some actions!!) I can do a tutorial on those too because wow I forgot how long this all took wow *wipes sweat from brow*

ONWARDS FELLOW GIFFERS.

Those three sexy lines are back again but this times let’s go to the “flatten frames to layers” option.

Over on the right, your frames should look something like this, depending on how many frames you had got. If you scroll down in this section, you can delete all the frames which have you episode names on them by using the little dustbin icon, we only need to keep the ones labelled “frame 1, frame 2, frame 3″ etc.

Scroll back up to the top of that section and click on your highest layer (just leave it highlighted because it’s our top layer and we want to keep that one highlighted so that anything we do to our gif will all be affected) again terrible sentence but just click on the top one. Also, make sure you are on the first frame in the frame animation tab too.

8. Frame delay. So our gif is looking pretty good right now but our delay isn’t.

Let’s click those sexy three lines again (seriously what are they so beautiful for) and click on the “select all frames” option.

With all your frames now highlighted, click at the bottom of any of the frames where it says “0 sec.”, which opens up the little dialogue box and there are options there for you to choose from but give the “other” a click.

Which should open this lovely looking box! Now, your frame delay is completely up to you and your personal preference. I like to use 0.07 but that is by no means the only option. Anywhere between 0.05 and 0.1 are all fine to use, it really depends on what you like. I would suggest playing around and seeing what feels right for you. Just click okay when you’ve decided.

9. Resize your gif. Tumblr has very specific dimensions that we need to follow otherwise it messes up our gifs.

These are for the width of your gif. The height can be anything you choose. Please make sure you follow them otherwise tumblr will ruin all your hard work. I’m going to use 268px for this tutorial.

Head on over to your image > image size.

And it should open this hella sexy beast of a dialogue box. In this PLEASE make sure the little chain symbol is highlighted because it’s keeps your gif correlated(?) idk it keeps it looking fab.

Pop your 268 into the width box and it should automatically adjust the height box to keep your gif looking correct(?) (I’ve lost all words today but it keeps it looking how we want it to). Then click the okay button.

Your gif will looks like it’s “shrunk” and it has because we have changed the size to a smaller one, but just press “ctrl and the + symbol” on your keyboard to zoom it back in. (ctrl and the - symbol zooms back out)

The gif has a nice “feel” to it, it flows well so I’m keeping all the frames I used before. You can delete frames as necessary.

NOW OUR GIF IS THE RIGHT SIZE SO LET’S SAVE THAT BAD BOY WOOOOOOO!!!!

10. Save your psd file.

Go to your file > save as, then choose your folder to save your file in. You can name it whatever you want to, I normally just go with 1, 2, 3, 4 etc because I’m basic and lazy but everything is neatly in their own folders lolol

Your psd file should be sitting nicely in your folder now.

11. Save for web. We’ve got our psd file, so now we need our gif file.

Head on up to your file > export > save for web.

And this sexy beast of a dialogue box should open. These are the settings I use, and I know there are other options out there but these are the ones that work for me at the moment.

A few things to point out here: - Perceptual and pattern. I like these so that’s what I use but there are other tutorials out there which use others so shop around to see what is best for you. - Leave your colours as 256. - Make sure your looping options are set to forever because we don’t want our gif to stop playing at any point.

This bit here. Tumblr has a limit on gifs of 5M. This gif is just under 1M so we are completely fine to use it. If your gif is over 5M then it won’t play when it’s uploaded. If you make a gif over 5M, take some frames out and it should bring the size down. Only 540px gifs should be reaching towards the 5M, our 268px gif shouldn’t get close to it.

Then click your save button and it should open yet another dialogue box. Find your folder with your psd file in it and save it in there because we like to be organised ;D

And we’re done yayayay!!! Upload your gif to tumblr, tag your heart away and stare at your amazing gif because YOU made that!!!

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mintmatcha · 3 years

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addressing issues - kyotani kentarou

well! here's part two to this drabble ! special thanks to Amy (@saetyrn9) for helping me out!

tw: hurt comfort, discussion of relationship issue

The pancakes are raw in the middle. You try to pick around the batter, stabbing only the burnt bits with your fork, but it's a bit of a hopeless task. The gluey texture sticks to your tongue and the tingle of baking soda fills your mouth with each bite.

"Don't eat that." Kyotani tosses the spatula into the sink with a sigh. The smell of burnt sugar clings to the air, even though all of the windows in the apartment are propped open. He's still in his pajama pants, loose things now splattered with batter, but he's pulled on a sweatshirt- one that he stole from your closet months ago. "I ordered food. It'll be here in 20."

You place the fork down. "Thank you for cooking."

He slinks over, shoulders slack with defeat, and plops himself at the table. Tiredness weighs on his features; neither of you slept very well last night, but he was out of bed long before you even woke. "Don't thank me- I fucked it up."

He expects anger. Maybe discipline. Sometimes you wonder if that’s all he’s ever known.

Stretching across the table, your hand finds his cheek and cups it. Morning stubble prickles along your palm as you give him a little squeeze. He's frozen in your touch, neither pulling away nor leaning in, but his eyes close.

"Thank you." you repeat, firm.

He turns to kisses your palm and his lips linger. They’re soft and waxy- he’s been using that chapstick you gave him. "Anything for you."

You two stay like this, connected by only your touch, for a long time, much longer than justifiable. Just as the moment feels infinite, Kyotani breaks away.

"We're avoiding it." he says. He takes your hand into his, placing two more quick kisses before setting you down. As he pulls away, you tighten your grasp and interlace your fingers with his. There's a flicker of surprise, the slight raise of his brows, but he settles into the contact, drumming his fingers along your knuckles.

"I know." you sigh. "We…. don't have to talk about this if you don't want to. We could just… move on."

He takes a deep, stabilizing breath. "That's not healthy."

The clock chimes. It rings through the kitchen, filling the space where your response should be. He raps in your knuckles with his finger tips, tapping patterns you can’t quite follow.

"Okay."

"Okay." he repeats. Kentarou digs into the hoodie's pocket and reveals a crumpled ball of paper. As he unfurls it, you can catch a couple words scribbled in the margins.

"Did you… take notes?" you ask. He flushes immediately, aggressively trying to smooth wrinkles down. He's scowling at the mess of graphite smeared across the page. The tips of his ears are scarlet, bright against his blonde.

"I … I'm not good with all this. This makes it easier." He shoots you a quick glance. "Is...that okay?"

"I just didn't expect it."

The sink's dripping again. It's a random droplet that collects at the faucets' rim before falling into the collection of dirty dishes below with a tiny plink. It catches your eye, the way it gathers slowly; maybe you could ask the landlord-

Ken's right. You are avoiding it.

"I don't like it when you yell." It feels good to state the obvious. The bounce of your calf shakes the table, jostling your joined hands, but it barely registers. "It makes me feel shitty. Really shitty."

There's still a weight of something upsetting you; it itches in the back of your throat. "And… and it scared me."

He clutches your hand tighter. There’s a slight tremble in his throat, the miniscule shake of his adam’s apple, as he swallows, but he doesn’t let anything reach his face. The firm hold of his brow is stoic, controlled, even as his body betrays him.

"I’m sorry.” his voice is firm. He opens his mouth to say something else, but only draws in a breath. His tongue flicks over his bottom lip, running over the chapped edges slowly as he contemplates in silence. “I... I’m sorry.”

“I know. I know you are.”

“I.. I just…” Kyotani’s unusually frazzled as his eyes flick down to the page in front of him. If you strain, you can make out some of the scribblings, but he adjusts away from you, covering the writing. “It's dumb, but…” he traces over his writing with his finger as he reads. “Sometimes, I feel some type-a way and… it, it comes out wrong. It’s easier for me to get angry than admit that I’m hurt. It’s not fair to you. It’s not an excuse.” he looks up at you. “I’ll work on expressing myself better.”

There’s a sincerity in his voice, a gentle truth that you want to cling on to, but that itch under your skin hasn’t gone away. The situation’s still bothering you, still begging to be addressed. As you turn over it all, the squeeze of his hand no longer feels comforting- it feels overbearing.

“Kentarou, I don’t even know what I /did/.” you try and pull away, but he’s holding too tightly. Exacerbation boils in your chest, bubbling over quicker than you can control. “One minute, we’re having a good time with your friends. The next minute you’re yelling at me and storming off! I don't understand what I even did!"

"But-"

The waver in your voice rings through the room as you give a final tug. “I can’t live like this, constantly hoping that I don’t push your buttons. It makes me feel like I’m living in a minefield.” Reluctantly, he releases you, hand still dangling over the ruined breakfast. His steady look has finally broken into one more recognizable, with downturned mouth and a glassy sheen to his eyes. It’s blinked away quickly with a sniff, replaced with his usual sternness, but it was there. “It can’t happen again, Kenta.”

“I understand. “ he says immediately.

The sink drips again. It’s all you can look at, that little shine in the corner of your eye. The uncomfortable squirm building in your stomach begs you to keep watching it, to focus on it until nothing matters. You’re only brought back to the conversation when his chair squeaks across the tile as he pushes away from the table. In a few strides, he’s at the faucet, wiggling the handle with just the delicate touch of his ring finger. “I’ll fix that tomorrow.”

Of course he will. He’s always clanking around your apartment, burying himself into a new task wordlessly. Wordlessly, without request, he strives to make your life better.

“I don’t even know what I did.” you repeat. The blonde leans over the sink, hunching over his elbows with a sigh.

"It's a dumb reason."

"If it matters to you, it's not dumb."

He says it without looking at you. "I don't like it when you call me maddog." he states firmly. "It hurts. Really fucking bad."

Your anger deflates, suffocated by the sudden weight of guilt. "I didn't know that."

He shrugs. It says all he needs to.

“I- your friends call you mad dog though."

“I don’t like it when they do it either.”

“But you don’t yell at them.”

"They call me mad dog because they think I'm mean. Feral." he shoves his hands into the sweatshirt's pocket and kicks at the tile. His sock, a pink polka-dotted thing he must have fished out of your drawer, skids across the tile. It doesn't match his other sock- a Kentarou staple."I don't care if that's what they think of me."

Kyotani gives you a half smile. "But I care how you see me."

You stand and slink over, reaching for the drawstrings on his hood. He straightens at your presence, but doesn't reach, instead just letting you fiddle with the frayed cloth. Neither of you can meet each other's gaze, instead just staring at the floor between you. It's not until now you realize that you are wearing the other pink sock. Sliding your foot in between his completes the set. "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too." The weight of him suddenly leaning against you, relaxing into you, almost knocks off your balance, but there's a comforting warmth to him.

"Still love me?" he rests his forehead against yours as he talks, his fingers are trailing over your sides and gathering up the hem of your shirt.

"Of course." you tug the strings, tightening the hood around his neck, "Still love me?"

He grips your hips and pulls you flush against him as a smile pulls at the corners of his mouth. "Always will."

His lips trail lower until they are almost aligned with yours, breath warm and sweet. You rise up ever so slightly to close the gap. The first kiss is fleeting, just a test of the waters, but the next one takes its time.The drag of his lips, the taste of mint on his breath, the hum building in his throat: it suddenly hits you how much you've missed him. As your hands slide into his hoodie, your hoodie, pocket, dragging him closer, Kentarou changes the pace and showers your face with a barrage of pecks. It's quick and needy, leaving you no time to even breathe.

"You know-" you manage to as you dodge his mouth, arching your back away from him to catch your breath. He grunts out something adjacent to a whine and dips with you to press against your forehead."I don't think you're mean."

"You don't? Even after all this?" As he continues tracing kisses down your face and neck, tickling you with his stubble, you laugh and squirm, but he's holding you steady.

"I think you're a big softy." you giggle.

"Hey now. Don't go around saying I'm soft." he nips at your neck with a warning growl, but you can feel the curve of his smile. "It's only for you."

#kyotani #kyotani kentarou x reader #hurt comfort #mint's musings

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needs-to-stop-looking-at-yigas · 3 years

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Okay you mentioned Kohga having the hots for king Rhoam. I'm sorry, but can we see something with that???

I make ONE fucking joke, and Ya'll take it to the next level. Fuck you, let's get this over with.

"Kingie! Long time no see big guy!"

Kohga was planning on just hanging out at the hideout today, when he was given a summon by the king. Not that Kohga minded a trip to the castle, he was always fed pretty well. He dove in for a high five with the king, but from the way he glared, he could tell he was NOT in the mood. Even the blade master he brought with him had to cringe at the rejection. Sooga joined him too, but seemed unfazed by the rather cold attitude.

"I'm glad you came at such short notice. I have something very important to discuss with you."

"Oh is it about the fact that we're buying up all the bananas? Look, we still gotta do SOMETHING evil to-"

"It's NOT."

His voice was steely, firm. Someone was NOT happy. His glare was so menacing, his boys took a step forward, as if the king was about to try to beat his ass. Kohga patted their shoulders, making them ease up a bit.

"Easy boys, easy. Look, you two wait out here, imma have a chat with Kingy here."

Sooga of course held protests, but Kohga held his hand up, silencing him.

"Trust me. You two hunks can dash in and protect me at any time. Not that I need it. Though I DO like the attention."

His men bowed, keeping their place. Kohga followed King Rhoam, right to his secret study, in the library, beyond the metal book case. He hated royals, but he had to hand it to Rhoam, there were so many sneaky spaces to hide and explore (and coming from the chief of the Yiga clan, that was high praise). Rhoam shut it behind them both, and Kohga took a look around. This was way different from the main rooms in the castle. Much more personal, snuggly even. A few crates of supplies, a desk full of scattered books, a few chairs, and even a few weapons hung on the wall besides them.

"Nice spot. How many people know about this little place?"

"The ones who built it, and my daughter."

"Well, aren’t I special?"

Kohga chuckled, pulling up a seat and helping himself to the surprisingly comfy chair. He might steal this, honestly. King Rhoam took a seat in front of him, clearing his throat.

"I suppose you're wondering why I summoned you?"

"If it's not about the bananas, then no not at all."

Kohga was already kinda bored, and he started to hum, playing with his hands. He found it easier than just sitting there and looking someone in the face.

"It's about my daughter, Zelda. She complained about you."

Kohga stopped, finally looking at his face. He was about to ask if he was serious, and apparently he was.

"Whaaaat? ME? What did I do?"

He sighed, before folding his arms across his chest.

"She is growing tired of your men. Apparently you give them permission to try to court her."

Kohga wanted to argue with that, but then he thought about it. He was kinda at fault, getting whatever clan member interested to hit on her. Flowers, treats, poetry, even just getting a few smooth talkers to try their hands at getting her attention. He just shipped Mipha and Link so hard, he decided to boot out the competition. Not that he hated her, of course not. Kohga shrugged.

"How is that a problem? I'm throwing HUNKS at her! No clue how that makes ME the bad guy! It’s because they’re Yiga, isn’t it?”

“It’s because she’s already in love with her knight. I’m already planning on giving him my blessings, should they finally decide to wed.”

Kohga should’ve expected it honestly, this old fashioned kinda ranting. Sure they were both kinda up there in age, but they were NOT alike. Kohga shook his head, standing up from his seat.

“Look, I don’t have kids, so I dunno what it does to ya, but you’re taking things WAY outta proportion here. You’re already ready for your daughter, seventeen, to get married.”

King didn’t seem to get it, as if this was a totally normal thing.

“Well yes. Royals marry around this age, why dawdle?”

Kohga put his hand on Rhoam’s shoulder, who didn’t seem to love it, but didn’t exactly push Kohga off.

“Look, let the girl have a little FUN before she gets hitched! She’s got the rest of her life for that stuff, if anything I’m just giving her choices.”

“I’m...not following.”

“For the love of- look. If she wants me to back off, I’ll tell my guys to heel. But I don’t really think she’d complain about me. She only really clams up about you. So it’s why I’m thinking SHE’S not complaining. YOU are.”

He knew by the look in his face that he was right. Kohga chuckled, hands on his hips.

“You don’t gotta lie like that! Makin’ me think I was a bad guy here! If YOU have problems, say you do. Doesn’t mean I’ll listen, but at least you wouldn't be a liar.”

His brows furrowed, but Kohga found it hard to take him seriously at this point.

“I am saying this for the sake of my daughter. If she is to remain pure-”

“Oh great, purity culture bullshit. Look, Kingy, don’t blame her for the fact that you haven’t gotten any lately.”

He put his hand over his chest, as if he had something just terribly hurtful.

“I beg your pardon?!”

“You heard me! You know If I didn’t know any better, you’re just mad because everyone’s gettin’ some lovin’ but you.”

Kohga leaned against the King’s chair. This was some juicy shit, you bet your bananas he was gonna milk it for all it was worth.

“When WAS the last time you got off? Few months?”

King Rhoam looked at him as if he had gone insane, before pinching the bridge of his nose.

“Almost nineteen years, roughly.”

“Holy-you haven’t nutted since your kid was born? Fucks sake, I’d be grumpy as hell too, no wonder.”

He wasn’t even expecting him to answer, honestly. King Rhoam scoffed, as if regretting giving him a response.

“We’re derailing the topic at hand-”

“Now now, I’m not done yet.”

Kohga moved in front of him, one hand at the chair, and pinning Rhoam between the seat, and Kohga’s face.

“Look, I get it. You wanna take care of what you have, you’re constantly stressed, I can only imagine how bad you have it. And knowing I was the cause of some of that stress? Selfish of me really. Let me make it up to you there, Kingy.”

Rhoam looked perplexed at his choice of words, like he figured he would be. Kohga always did have the hots for the clueless ones.

“I’m saying, let me end your streak.”

Still nothing. Holy hell, he forgot he loved idiots. He sighed, pointing down to the king’s crotch.

“Let me polish the royal scepter. Take a gander at the royal jewels. I’m essentially saying let me get you off.”

THAT seemed to get a rise out of the king, given the way he damn near jumped out of his chair.

“That is NOT why I summoned you here! In the SLIGHTEST! The AUDACITY!”

Kohga let go off the chair, putting his hands on his hips.

“One, you have the audacity to NOT immediately say yes, I’m a goddamn treat. Two, why the hell not? You ever fuck anyone that WASN’T the Queen?”

No response. So that was a no. Oh this was going to be some fucking fun. Kohga put his hands on his knees, leaning in so his mask was so close to touching his face.

“Tell you what, because I like newbies. You let me do my thing. And if you don’t like it, you just say the word. In exchange, I’ll tell my guys to heel. Eh? Cool offer?”

King Rhoam didn’t immediately say no, like he expected him to. He seemed stunned at first, but hey, you miss every shot you don’t take. He was going to get a no any-

“Alright. Fine. So long as this does NOT leave this study.”

Holy SHIT. This guy did NOT just say yes. Kohga fumbled a bit, clearly not knowing how to react. He wasn’t bluffing in the slightest, he just had no clue that the king would ACTUALLY take him up on that. He chuckled, poking Rhoam on his nose.

“Well look at you! Growin’ outta that royal shell, color me surprised! Alright, stays between us. Now, you just sit right there, and let ol’ Kohga do his thing.”

He made the king tilt his head up a bit, so he couldn’t see him. Not letting him see what he was doing would make him freak out a lot less, and he could be in denial about the fact that a dude was gonna suck him off. Kohga pushed aside his mask, just enough to reveal his lips, before he got down on his knees. He parted the King’s legs, taking but a moment to massage them. Lot’s of clothes made the guy look almost fat, but Kohga knew better. Those were some toned muscles under that, just how Kohga imagined. He kept massaging for a moment longer, getting him used to being touched, before he un did his belt, and pulling him free of his cloth confines. And holy. Shit. King Rhoam was a dilf dream down here. He wasn’t absolutely massive, but he certainly wasn’t a pipsqueak. He was long, thick, with plenty of white pubic hair. Kohga softly stroked the length of it, and watched as Rhoam seemed to freeze upon the contact.

“Right right, been a while. I’ll go slow, I’ll go slow. Easy does it.”

He had a rather lovely curve downward, and Kohga could only picture how well it’d go down his throat. He kept his motions nice and slow, till he noticed the King’s grip on the armrests loosen. Then he started to up the ante, just a little bit. With his other hand, he cupped his balls, lightly rubbing them in his palm. Then he heard him groan. It was faint, but Kohga caught it. That was the sound of a man who hadn’t been touched in a long, long time. Even by himself, apparently. He was already getting stiff in his hand.

“You’ve...done this before.”

“Not with a royal at least. But yeah, Kohga’s seen a few bananas in his day.”

Rhoam clearly had some kind of retort, before he seemed to jump upon feeling Kohga kiss the head. Kohga tried not to snicker, finding his sensitivity just hilarious. His age seemed to not affect his need for attention. Especially given that a few kisses around the base was enough to get him nice and hard in his hand. He made his touch a bit firmer on his balls, and his stroking a bit quicker on his length. And Rhoam was LOVING it. His head was tossed back, his breathing got all nice and fast, and he could see, past that beard, him biting his bottom lip.

“There we go, all nice and comfy. Any chance you want me to stop here?”

Rhoam was so out of it, he couldn’t do anything but shake his head. Kohga chuckled. He was gonna love this. Feeling him start to throb in his hand, he decided to really wow ol’ Kingy here. He pulled his hand away, using it to palm at himself, before he put the head right in his mouth. Rhoam’s breath hitched, and Kohga loved that. Love how he was making a royal so weak. He pushed himself to make more, stopping shy of halfway down his length. It was enough to make Rhoam squirm in his seat, and even put his hand right on top of Kohga’s head. How cute. Kohga groaned as he pushed his head back and forth, really getting a feel for that thick cock. Then he pulled away, nice and slowly, drool still connecting them.

"Why did you-"

"You were about to cum. I could tell. I want this to be REALLY good for you, so you're going to wait."

"I DEMAND you-"

He was halted when Kohga took a hold of his balls. Nothing too hard, just enough to get him to shut up.

"No no no. You don't get that attitude with me. You rule Hyrule, I rule your cock. I decide when you cum. And because you wanna act up, you get a punishment. Look at me."

Rhoam looked, despite not wanting to, at all. Kohga kept massaging him, tediously and slowly.

"You wanna cum? You wanna shoot your load down my pretty throat? You gotta ask for it like a grown up. No tantrums. Go on. Ask."

Rhoam clearly didn't want to, but Kohga’s lips (and throat) was a blessing, not a right. So he sighed, and made himself obey.

"I...would like to orgasm-"

"Try again. Cum. Make me WANT it."

Rhoam swallowed, before trying again.

"I would...like to cum. In your mouth."

"There we go, much better. Knew you could be a polite boy."

He took a minute to suckle at his balls, really coating them in drool, before taking Rhoam fully in his mouth. That's right, every bit of that royal cock found it's way into his mouth, and Kohga gagged. It was intentional, and it made Rhoam moan desperately. So close. Kohga wasted no more time, and acted like the perfect dick sucker he knew he was.

Kohga was relentless. He groaned loudly as he bobbed his head back and forth, practically fucking his own mouth from the force. Rhoam was really getting into it now, cursing and panting under his breath, especially when Kohga pulled away to aggressively suck at his tip. Kohga was absolutely, and positively cock hungry, and he wasn’t afraid at all to show it. Kohga slurped, and gagged, slurped and gagged, grumbling as if he was an animal, greedy for the chance of tasting cum. Then he got it.

King Rhoam came, and Kohga gulped it down, only pulling away to smear it against his throbbing length. It was a big load, just how he thought it'd be. Ribbons and ribbons of cum littered their clothes, the floor, and the insides of his stomach. He pulled away once he knew no more would be cumming, feeling no more reason to. King Rhoam was a SIGHT to behold. A shaking, panting, cum covered mess. Kohga chuckled, taking a quick second to clean up. A good cock sucker could clean himself up in a flash, as if nothing ever happened. He stood back up, pulling King Rhoam’s face by his beard, and he kissed him. Not because he liked him, nor did he think he was cute. It was because there was something humiliating about making the King himself, taste his own load. He pulled away, wiping his lips, and putting his mask right back down. He could see that little bit of cum on his lips, and it was so goddamn funny to him.

“Glad we had this little chit chat, Kingy wingy. You ever need to get a load of your chest, you know who to send for. Though, I don’t do anything for free. Can I take the chair?”

Rhoam just sat there, looking bewildered, before he gently nodded. Kohga clapped his hands a bit, grabbing the chair, and giving Rhoam a little bit of a wave. He managed to meet up with Sooga and the Blade master, who didn’t even get to say hello before he made them carry the chair he was holding. Sooga looked at it curiously, turning to Kohga.

“Are we stealing this?”

“Nope! Said I could have it! It’s a real nice chair.”

“Why would he give it to you?”

“We had a nice long chat. Wasn’t something I saw...comin’”

Kohga grinned behind his mask. He was an absolute STUD, no doubts about that.

#asks #kohga #king rhoam #lemon #Just hang a sign on kohga #'will suck dick for nice furniture'

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darlingdtarot · 3 years

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8/8/2021 - New Moon In Leo Rituals & Horoscopes For All Signs

The New Moon is here again to remind us to let go of ideas that no longer serve us. It's about wiping the slate clean and setting intention on the rest of the month. Are you excited to start a new chapter? Each sign is going to experience new heights of happiness, emotional security, and financial bliss. It might not always be easy, but it will always be worth it. This is a great time to show off your confident side and get into a deeper level of Self-Expression. You are called to feel more confident in your own skin and as the amazing individual you are. There is truly only one you on this entire planet – embrace that! Those that are going through quarantines again, or just find themselves in the house more often, wear those fancy outfits in your closet that has been catching dust! Get it out, dust off your nicest shoes, and get dolled up. You don't need an excuse to feel good about yourself, Darling. Now is a great time to take pictures for social media as well, as the sign's physical attractiveness will be heightened during this Leo New Moon. Follow your passions and hobbies too, as it's important to express your creativity.

Working on manifestations will be amazing during this time as well, so make sure to be utilizing the Law Of Attraction! This could be through Manifestation Journals, Meditations, or Vision Boards. Making a Vision Board by cutting out images and pasting them onto a piece of paper or a literal poster-board will help you manifest easier as it will focus your mind each day on visualizing your goals and desires. You got this!

Rituals that you can do during the Leo New Moon:

Along with the upcoming changing of leaves (depending on where you live), us too are going through a change during this New Moon to leave behind what no longer serves us. Yellow and Red are really important colors during this New Moon, as it symbolizes Confidence, Self-Fulfillment, Expression, Self-Comfort, and Joy. You can wear these colors throughout the month leading up to the Full Moon for added luck.

A Spiritual Bath might be something that would be wonderful to be implemented. You can add flowers, herbs, essential oil, bathing salts, and/or crystals to make the perfect spiritual cleanse. Sunflower scented candles are going to be very important as well – so if you're needing a new smell for the month, this will be a great time to utilize Sunflower Candles for manifestation! There are other scents as well that are just as important over this time.

Scents / Flowers You Can Utilize:

Lemon

Sunflower

Lemongrass

Dandelion

Crystals To Charge During The New Moon in Leo:

Yellow Aventurine

Citrine

Honey Calcite

Golden Hematoid

Amber

Carnelian

Tigers Eye

Leave these on a towel in a windowsill on the night of the New Moon to charge in the energy. The next day, place the crystals near your bath as you take it – or near your bed / in your purse for added optimism and comfort throughout the month. Remember that not all crystals can be put in the water, so make sure to look it up before you dip them in! If your crystal is water-hardy, you can place it directly into the bath as you soak.

For those that have gardens, consider planting wild flowers, sunflowers, gladiolus, etc. (Depending on where you are!)

Horoscopes for Each Sign and Element over the New Moon in Taurus:

Please make sure to check your Sun, Moon, Rising, and Venus Signs as you might resonate more with their energies. :)

EARTH: Ace Of Wands – Earth Signs are going to feel renewed and as if the fires of their passions are finally alight again. You're going to be receiving a lot of messages and ideas during this time, so trust what you come up with as creativity is going to be through the roof. If you have craft supplies that you haven't touched in a while, Earth Signs, get ready to start crafting. The energy this Leo New Moon is bringing in for you will help you to soar and reach greater heights within your hobbies, workplace, and imagination. Others will feel compelled to pick up an instrument that has been laying around catching dust for a while. Express yourself! Some Earth Sign's might start feeling compelled to play the field and date around a little to see what's out there – go for it! Remember to wear protection though if you aren't planning on getting pregnant during this time of reignited passions!

Virgo: The Star – Virgos are going to be feeling more hopeful over this New Moon in Leo. You might have felt a bit downtrodden or as if everything were spoiled, but now it's finally coming back together. It's a relief in so many ways, because after being told for so long that you'd be okay, you're finally starting to see things 'Getting Better'. It was something that took a while, but peace of mind is here to stay for the rest of the year, Virgo. Rest assured on THAT. Clarity will also be coming to those that have asked for a sign recently in regards to a situation you're stuck on. It's as if the Universe is finally handing you the new pair of glasses that you had ordered and had been waiting on. You'll be able to see things crystal clear, and in a way that you might not have before. Can we say Perspective Shift? Virgos, remember to take care of yourself too! Spiritual baths are SO important during this time period! Drinking coconut water and bathing with coconut scented washes will be vital right now as it will cleanse you.

Taurus: 10 Of Wands – You're overworking and overloading yourself with chores and things to do, Taurus. Over this New Moon in Leo you're trying to take on too much. I keep hearing Spirit saying, “You're Biting Off More Than You Can Chew”. As proud as Spirit is that you're wanting to conquer the world and take on as much as you can – They want you to remember that the name of the game right now is to pace yourself and take your time on the tasks in front of you. Rome wasn't built overnight, so stop making yourself go on endlessly like a workhorse. Yes, you're in the homestretch, but that is even more of a reason to take your time with tying up those loose ends. Work Smarter – Not Harder. For other Taurus that are taking on their friend's and family's responsibilities – you're being asked to focus on yourself as opposed to trying to fit in one more task to appease someone else. Instead of taking on those side missions right now, why not follow your main story-line for a bit? There's no harm in saying no every now and again; especially with all that you already do for those around you. For one Taurus in particular, you cook and clean for those around you constantly without praise or recognition. It's almost expected of you to drop your entire life just to do that. Again – it's okay to say no, or just to decide to order take-out for the night.

Capricorn: Queen Of Wands - Capricorn's are being asked during this New Moon period to use your passions wisely. Now is the time to really put your mind to what you want to accomplish as it's going to fall into your lap quicker than you expect. The World really IS your Oyster, Capricorn, Remember that! Some are embarking on brand new business ideas. I'm seeing for some starting a new Bakery, a local Shop in your town, or an online store with products unique to you and your calling. There is something very niche about what you do, Capricorn, and you're excited to corner the market with your ideas. You might be looking into business licenses, copyright, and trademarking. You're deciding what the best way to tackle your dreams would be – and if anyone can do it, Capricorn – it's you! Your business oriented mind will focus brilliantly at the task at hand, so make sure to trust your instincts here. It really is a case of You Knowing What's Best. Trust that you have what it takes to achieve your goals. You're brilliant, you Sea Goat, you.

AIR: 8 Of Pentacles – Wow, Air Signs! You're focusing on getting to work right now, as you know that whatever you're putting your mind to is going to be abundant and successful. You're feeling energized to get to work, which is a welcomed change compared to the last few weeks where you have been feeling tired and drained. So long to energies of exhaustion or frustration – you're headed towards smooth sailing now! And rightfully so, if you ask me! You're ready to put in the work! I keep hearing Spirit saying, “The Squeaky Wheel Gets The Oil”, so you might decide to focus on things that you feel have been put off for way too long. They can no longer be ignored, they have to be taken care of now. For some this might have been projects that you procrastinated on, a cabinet you never fixed, or a leak in a pipe ; now is the time to attend to these things! Putting yourself on your grind is going to be incredibly influential during this time, so make sure not to hold yourself back!

Gemini: Death – Wow, Gemini! Things are changing for you on a molecular level. You might have felt it coming for a long time now, but you're starting to become more open to the idea of endings and change. You're deciding what you want to stay in your life and what you know needs to go. For some that are leaving a situation, perspective, or relationship behind, you're feeling excited to be starting on a new chapter in your life. It's as if you've grown tired of reading that same story over and over again and you're ready to take on another book entirely. You're the main character and now you're really starting to recognize it. Take those risks and go on those adventures, Gemini. I'm hearing, “Life Is Too Short To Not Do What You Love”. Make sure that you're taking that into consideration today as you go forward, Gemini! Only go towards the things that you know feel right to your story-line!

Libra: 2 Of Wands – Libra's are going to be faced with a choice over this New Moon. Do they embark on something different than they've always known? Or do they decide to stay the course and continue down the path that might have not worked out so well in the past? Regardless of what you choose, this is a time of starting over fresh. The New Moon will bring brand new energies your way that will feel brilliant, vibrant, and uplifting. You'll be inspired to go down the route less traveled, but give yourself the space to do so. Be brave, Libra! Some of the best things are worth the risk! For other's, you're deciding to go down a new career or academic path that you know will bring you to your ultimate happiness. Don't put yourself on the back burner and go towards it! Regardless of what others have to say, you know best. (AKA don't listen to your Great Aunt Linda saying, “But you were supposed to be a Lawyer!” If you weren't happy in that field, that's all that's needed to be said.)

Aquarius: Strength – Aquarius, you're really channeling your inner strength right now to go the distance. You might have been applying yourself more recently to your career or the environment around you, which has been making you feel as if you either need everything on a time constraint or you need to take every little thing seriously. Spirit is telling you it's okay to lighten up and let your hair down. For some I'm also hearing, “Comfortable And Functional Can Still Be Fashionable”. Other Aquarians are feeling more comfortable expressing their emotions too as you're letting yourself be more vulnerable during this time. You're feeling affectionate and sentimental, craving more attention and love during this time. You might find yourself craving connection with others – and wanting to meet new people. Those in relationships are going to take their time more to understand their partner's and their own individual feelings, which will lead to more common ground. Now is the time for emotional healing and understanding!

WATER: The Magician – Water Signs you are being asked to trust your natural abilities as they are a gift. You have all the resources that you need in front of you to accomplish your aspirations. For some I am sensing that there was competition in a workplace environment. Spirit is showing me someone starting a candle business, only for another person to then follow suit. It's out of jealousy and spite, and not something you need to concern yourself with. Copycat energy is really strong here. Water Signs are manifesting right now on such a high level, that they can be expected to have a harvest in soon. For some you might be bringing in a romantic partner, new financial growth, or new opportunities. You'll be excited to see things that you wished for coming true. I keep hearing someone saying, “This Is Exactly What I Asked For, But Better!” Things are working out in your favor, Water Signs. Keep putting in intention and give it some time – it will pay off.

Cancer: The Emperor – Cancer's are really harnessing their Divine Masculine energies and feeling determined to take the bull by the horns over the Leo New Moon. Leo ignites your need for self-expression and freedom within your passions at this time. You're not letting anyone hold you back or put you down any longer – you know what you deserve and need. You're really starting to feel in your element, and you're wondering why you didn't realize you could accomplish this sooner. (“There's Nothing Holding Me Back” by Shawn Mendes energy here strong!) With the number 8 being so strong and prevalent within the month and the day, it really emphasizes the fact that there is a lot of forward movement going on. You're tired of playing it small and not going home with a good prize. “Go Big Or Go Home” is what I keep hearing for you, Cancer.

Pisces: The Empress – Pisces, you're going to be embracing your Divine Feminine energies in the most beautiful of ways. You'll be nurturing both yourself and those around you. You're giving yourself room to grow and consider other avenues of creation. Pisces, you might start to notice that your peers and new acquaintances want to open up to you and tell you their entire life stories. Let them – you never know where you might gain a little bit of insight on your own life while helping another. Trust your intuition during this time too, because your spiritual abilities will be heightened during this New Moon. Pisces might notice seeing more shadows, shapes, or spiritual messages. Don't fear; you're protected, loved, and divinely guided. You might feel guided towards getting more plants for your home – go for it! Bring nature in!

Scorpio: Ace Of Pentacles – A prosperous new beginning is yours, Scorpio! This is going to be the stable, firm, and financially free foundation that you always dreamed of. This is something that you have been manifesting for a long time. You might have had blockages in regards to money, but your luck is changing now. For some Scorpio's you'll be receiving a job offer from a friend. This friend could have a short, brown bob haircut, and they're going to be very excited over the idea of working with you. Take this offer seriously as it will provide so much excitement and comfort into your life! Other's will notice that there are going to be an influx of interviews and job offers over all. I am also hearing that while you work at your new job, you will be provided with more chances to travel as well, Scorpio. Go for it! You deserve it for how much work you've put in.

FIRE: The Wheel Of Fortune – A lucky period of time is coming into your life, Fire Signs. Are you ready to embrace this exciting turn of events? It's going to be a wild ride, so buckle in! You're going to notice that your luck is changing for the better. This is going to make you feel inspired to take large leaps of faith into a brand new lifestyle. No more small potatoes, Fire Signs. You're ready for the wheels of fate to finally turn in your favor after a long period of feeling shut out in the cold by the Universe. After a perspective shift, you're understanding how lucky and talented you are – and gaining a new perspective of gratitude for life. I keep hearing as well that Fire Signs are going to have the Mitas Touch, where everything they touch will turn to gold. Now is a brilliant time to focus on academic and financial goals. Why not make a Vision Board of everything that you want to bring in over the next year, Fire Signs?

Leo: Judgment – You're closing up Karmic Cycles and breaking Ancestral Curses, Leo. It isn't always easy to have to do this, but it is something that has to happen in order for you to get to the next level. It's okay to feel frustrated, angry, or overwhelmed during this time. Feel your emotions and express them to those around you as they are your Soul Family, and they genuinely want to help you in any way that they can. Leos are also going to be realizing who is actually in their corner. I am hearing that for a few Leos, you're going to understand that someone you thought was there for you no matter what, never really had your back to begin with. Process the pain, grieve the loss of a friend, and continue forward knowing you are doing your best every day. Some Leo's are understanding and identifying longstanding self-sabotaging energies and are deciding to nip it in the bud. Good for you, Leo!

Sagittarius: The Devil – Sagittarius might be dealing with some mental worries and anxieties. The Universe is wanting you to lighten your mental load and decompress some. It's okay to have some alone time just focusing on your relaxation. You don't need to always be on the go or doing something, Sagittarius. Even in different Mythologies and religions the God's took rest – set aside this idea that you don't deserve some rest and relaxation. Other's might be struggling with addictions, but you're going to find it easier over the next few months to distance yourself from self-sabotaging tendencies or toxic patterns. Good for you, Sagittarius! I'm proud of you for recognizing what in your life isn't fulfilling you anymore – and for wanting better going forward. Some in toxic relationships are being asked to take some time to travel or be away from this person to get a clear head on what it means to be healthier by yourself. (You will feel a LOT lighter without this individual around)

Aries: The Tower – There is a major shake-up in your life emerging, Aries! Don't feel scared or intimidated by this, as it's actually a great thing! This is to realign you with where you actually have to be. Spirit is showing me an image of a dog on a leash, getting wrapped around a tree while running while it's owner is frantically trying to unwrap them and saying “No, This Way, Honey!” The Universe is untangling you from a messy situation, and it's going to be for the better. Whether this be through an unexpected job or opportunity loss, a move, or something that you see as unfortunate; it might just be a new opportunity to start over fresh. Now's your chance to turn a new leaf and go towards a firmer foundation for yourself. Some Aries might realize the connections (both platonic and romantic) aren't the healthiest for you. A friend might decide to betray your trust or kindness. You're being asked to let this rug be pulled out from under your feet, so a newer one can be set in it's place. After all, when one door closes – another one opens.

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