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#and i realize how LITTLE my family is. like... wow... almost no one left...
katyspersonal · 2 years
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I just don't know how I will recover from the state I am in, I hardly remember being this low mentally. I do not even know which misery to focus on, as I am dealing with both grief (family member died) and personal crisis (was abandoned by a very close person, and turned out the fears that kept driving me crazy were correct). I don't want to be alone, but at the same time there is no reason to seek support because nobody can help me now. I am just scared. Ever since this stupid year started, life is taking everything and everyone that would make me happy one by one, more and more, not offering anything in replacement, and my attempts to grasp at least something, to get a hold of my situation are futile. I do not enjoy building castles on sand anymore, I want something that will stand, but waves are too strong, and they just won't stop coming. Why not just flush me away, already? What is the sadistic wait? I am afraid to live to the day when I will have nothing and no one left, but at the same time there is no choice but to just let all hopes and joy slip away, just let every source of light fade until I am just in the darkness.
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thechekhov · 2 months
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Chekhov Reads Dungeon Meshi: CH52
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Everyone else: surrounded by at least family or friends.
Senshi: just me and my trusty frying pan
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I feel like Kui-san created the perfect explanation for the artistic whim of 'I wanna draw high fantasy.... or maybe horror.... hmm.... and now I wanna draw cookbooks. And now I wanna draw steampunk!' and just made it work for her.
Queen shit, honestly.
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Wow, dwarves are way more uptight than I thought. No drinking in the trolley?!
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It's YOUR turn on the backstory, Laios.
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Laios going into the military and then immediately backing out with a 'thanks but no thanks' is very... Laios.
He's also suddenly emaciated. This feels like there's parts being left out.
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and ALSO why is Falin here???? Oh wait it's just another person.
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.......so Falin was at the academy until her brother showed up and then ALSO DESERTED????? She didn't even graduate or anything? She just noped out one day???????
Marcille heart attack in 3.... 2....... 1................
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"You literally came by and STOLE my girlfriend from school!"
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Senshi you..... you literally almost died of starvation in a dungeon due to lack of planning and then just did Whatever and got by. 😂
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Laios, did you leave your baby sister behind because the people were dicks? Is this just Laios telling it badly, or was he just a kid dealing with it badly?
And WHERE ARE THE PARENTS, WHY IS SHE EATING ALONE.
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For being a fantasy manga, this has incredibly modern social issues.
Or maybe the issues in question are just timeless.
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AAAAA MARCILLE WERE YOU LISTENING
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The horrified, stupid feeling of realization when you're a little bit of an asshole, but not on purpose - just out of ignorance. Oooooh godddds, this is so real. This is so REAL!
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It's so dumb how human this manga is. I love it.
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...th...this metaphor may be getting a bit out of hand...... is it really as simple as eggs on bacon...????
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okay............where are you going with this.......?
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MmmmmHMMMM. I see. Hmmm. Interesting. HmmMMM. I....okay.
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no, no, he's got a point.
But actually, was IS the plan here? He says that as though it's a workable plan but.
Is the idea to just.... eat Falin's non-human parts??? That's most of her. Up to her neck. You have, what, a neck and a head? Are you working under the assumption that there's more human parts buried in dragon meat? You're working under the assumption that she hasn't become the dragon as much as it became her.
Idk, man. It all feels very....... raw.
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But I'm sure it'll work out EXACTLY like this.
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Get your knife and fork, Kabru. You've been formally invited to dine on the body of Laios' sister who killed you once.
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on-my-vigilante-sht · 11 months
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Sorry to Meet You
Carlisle Cullen x Reader
Summary: The moral dilemma of the patriarch of the Cullen clan finally meeting his mate after 350 years. 
Warnings: Angst, death, blood, accident, surgery, not beta’d, turning, grief
Word Count: 5.8k (sorry, I got a little carried away and I’m getting used to writing one shots again)
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I rounded the corner within the halls of my father’s hospital, heading towards his oh so familiar office. I  had spent a good portion of my childhood playing in the office halls of the hospital so as to not get in the way of an emergency. Every take your child to work day, every early dismissal, random day off from school, and every weekend he had to work and couldn’t find someone to watch me, he brought me here up until I was about 12.
Now I was in college, studying biology as a pre-med student at Johns Hopkins University. But today I was returning to Forks for my summer vacation in between my freshman and sophomore year. He was supposed to pick me up from the airport tomorrow but I had wanted to surprise him at work so I left a day early.
Reaching the door to his office, I entered. Embarrassingly, I had been so eager I hadn’t even checked if he was busy. As the door swung open I was met with the golden hair and eyes of the most gorgeous man I had ever seen. Given his youth I assumed he was a student or a resident but one look at his badge told me he was an attending.
“Y/N? What are you doing here?” my father’s voice broke me from my trance.
“Hi!” I smiled at my father, ripping myself from the mystery man’s enchanting gaze. “I wanted to surprise you,” I explained, returning his hug. “I was so excited I didn’t even consider that you were busy. Sorry,” I apologized to both men.
“Don’t be,” the blond said in an almost melodic voice. “Trust me I understand the importance of family.”
“Yeah Dr. Cullen’s kids are here all the time,” my father laughed.
‘This guy has kids?’ I thought. ‘Plural? He looks no older than 25.’
Seemingly reading the confusion on my face he explained. “Adopted kids. My sister and I were foster kids so we always agreed we’d adopt as many as possible. So far we’ve adopted five teenagers, hoping to give them a new shot at life.”
“Wow,” was all I said, unsure of how to react. ‘Well this guy was definitely out,’ I noted to myself. ‘Not only is he your father’s colleague, he had five teenagers.’ “Well I should let you get back to it,” I said shyly, already backing out of my father’s office, embarrassed. “I’ll be at the house and we’ll get dinner after?” I suggested to my father.
“Sounds good. See you later sweetie,” he called after me.
~
Carlisle tried his hardest to focus on Dr. L/N’s words but he couldn’t, he was so focused on his colleague’s daughter. When she entered the office he had sucked in a breath he didn’t need. He had heard that some mate connections hit you like a brick but he hadn’t seen it with anyone except presumably between Rosalie and Emmett when she demanded he save him.
So as soon as he was done with his meeting he hopped into his Mercedes and headed towards Dr. L/N’s house. Once he reached it he found no cars in the driveway or any indication that there had been a car there recently, only wet footprints leading up to the porch and inside the door, presumably from Y/N getting out of a cab.
Continuing past the house he parked about half a mile away before running back to the house, a feat that only took him a couple seconds.
Taking a page from Edward’s book he began creeping along the side of the house, trying to spot Y/N through a window. But when he couldn’t find her he was forced to climb up some trees until he found her in what was presumably her bedroom, unpacking a suitcase full of clothes.
He watched, admiring the girl as she sorted through the clothes, tossing some in the laundry bin and others in piles to be sorted in the closet. He realized that he could watch her all day, admiring the quirks of her expression as she reacted to different situations. He hadn’t understood the other Cullens’ obsessions with each other until now.
He continued to watch for hours. His eyes sometimes drifting to the delicate curves of her body but always scolding himself for thinking of her like that given that she didn’t even really know him. But a small part of his mind whispered that she’d be his one day.
He only left when he heard her father’s car approaching, swearing to come back to learn more about her so he could strike up a conversation about her favorite things the next time they “accidentally” ran into each other.
~
The next time I visited the hospital wasn’t just to visit my father, it was because I had managed to slip in a puddle, earning myself a gash on the forehead.
I was sat in the waiting room going on two hours with a blood soaked rag pressed to my forehead. I truly didn’t mind waiting seeing as I knew there were far more injured people getting treated. But as I continued to wait I started to get more and more light headed. I began to make my way to the desk in hopes they could give me some answers when I got a head rush, stumbling into a very cold, hard chest.
“Y/N?” I heard the melodic voice again. This time dripping with concern. “What happened?”
“Oh nothing,” I dismissed, reluctantly pulling away from the grasp he had on my arms. “Just slipped in a puddle and my head kind of ate it,” I chuckled.
“How long have you been here?” he asked, more concern ebbing into his voice.
“I don’t know about two hours?” I shrugged, trying to not make a big deal of it. “Please don’t tell my dad, he’ll just get all concerned and angry and wonder why I wasn’t immediately treated.”
Inside, Carlisle was already feeling all those things I just described. “Well you shouldn’t have to sit there for two hours, bleeding out of your head. You should’ve been brought for a CT. C’mon, can’t have Dr. L/N’s daughter bleeding out in the waiting room.”
I smiled shyly as I felt his strong, cold hand be gently placed on my lower back as he guided me towards an exam room.
~
All throughout the exam Carlisle had to hold his breath. He has excellent control, it’s what many believe to be his special ability and it allows him to do what he loves but Y/N’s blood? The faintest smell alone made venom flood his mouth. And the blood soaked rag along with the fact that he had to bandage up her forehead didn’t help.
“Okay, that should do it,” he smiled, thankfully pulling back from his mate as he finished taping a bandage onto her head. “You’ll have to keep it bandaged for a couple days but your father should be able to help with that. And you most likely won’t scar.”
She breathed a sigh of relief. “Thanks Dr. Cullen. I owe you one.”
He shook his head, breathing a laugh as he looked down at the girl’s chart. “Please, I’m happy to do it. And you can call me Carlisle.”
“Carlisle,” she repeated, nearly melting the vampire right there, “that’s an interesting name, never heard it.”
“Well my parents were a bit old fashioned,” he explained. “So your father tells me you finished your first year at Johns Hopkins? That’s very impressive.”
He admired her blush as she looked down at the ground. “Thanks. I think I was the only one of my graduating class to go out of state.”
“Yeah, I’ve figured out Forks is a very small town. Not many people leave,” he chuckled. “Do you know what you want to study?”
“Um I’ve always kind of wanted to be a surgeon. I know it’s the most difficult specialty but I enjoy the precision of it,” she shrugged.
Carlisle felt a sense of disappointment at the news that his mate wanted to be a surgeon. Being a doctor was hard enough as a vampire but having to literally cut people open? Even he didn’t think he’d be able to focus surrounded by so much blood. He was already dreading having to tell her that she couldn’t be a surgeon after she turned, not at least for decades while she learned control. He was suddenly snapped from his fantasies realizing that this human barely knew him and practically everything he knew about her came from his lurking outside her windows.
Dragging himself out of his thoughts which had no doubt created a long, awkward pause he spoke again. “Yes, well if you made it to Johns Hopkins then I’m sure you can do it.”
“Thanks Doc- Carlisle,” Y/N corrected before standing up off the table and heading for the door.
As she exited, taking most of her intoxicating scent with her, Carlisle sucked in a breath he didn’t need. As much as he hated watching his mate leave he needed a break from her blood. No one had tempted him the way Y/N L/N had, even when he was a starving newborn. And he realized that he would have to figure out a way to get close to her and get her to love him before he even told her about the mate bond. A difficult feat considering her father’s place as his colleague.
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When Carlisle got home that evening he immediately went to his room, tipping off the family that something was different.
As he collapsed backwards onto his sofa he let his mind wander to his mate. He could picture her face so clearly, and more frighteningly he could still imagine the smell of her blood with eerie accuracy. He imagined all his future endeavors to keep her safe as a human. He’d watch over her, always be within reach to step in when she needed. He pictured their love story. It’d be slow and start with glances and fleeting touches until he invited her out to dinner once she became more comfortable with him. He’d kiss her goodnight on the porch and then make sure she got into the safety of her home before leaving. Their relationship would develop from there with more dates, with Y/N’s father’s approval of course. And when she uttered the words ‘I love you,’ he’d tell her about him and his species because he knew he had earned her love. And as much as he didn’t want to damn her to a life of hiding and being a monster, he couldn’t help but imagine her turning. He’d gently bite into the soft flesh of her throat, injecting his venom into her veins, cementing her as his forever. But the thought of hurting her and turning her into a monster made him hesitate.
As Carlisle continued to immerse himself in his fantasies, his sister entered. “Carlisle?” Esme called softly. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” he agreed, sitting up. He wasn’t sure whether or not to tell his family that he had met him mate, considering they were already dealing with the human mate to Edward, Bella, who they had just moved back to Forks for. Of course no secrets stayed secrets for long thanks to Edward and Alice’s gifts. Edward could be counted on for discretion but Alice’s overeager nature wouldn’t allow that. He was surprised that Alice hadn’t already planned a party but maybe she hadn’t seen his mate in her visions yet. He had also wanted to keep her his own little secret for a while but clearly that wouldn’t be happening so he relented. “I- uh met my true mate.”
Esme’s eyes widened as she gasped. Of course living in a house full of vampires everyone heard and immediately began rushing in.
“You met your mate!” Alice practically screamed, nearly knocking over Esme.
“What’s she like?” Emmett asked with a grin. “Or he?” he added hesitantly.
“It’s a she,” Carlisle confirmed. “It’s very new. She doesn’t even really know anything about me and everything I know about her comes from lurking outside her window,” he groaned in embarrassment.
“Well that worked with Bella,” Jasper laughed.
Edward shot his brother a glare before looking back at his adoptive father. “Just find an excuse to be around her, ask her on a date.”
“That’s the thing, she’s 19-”
“You’re physically 23,” Alice cut in.
“Her father is my coworker,” he elaborated. “Besides they think I’m 31 at the hospital. And she just finished her first year pre-med.”
“So you’ll see her around the hospital!” Alice insisted, still trying to convince her adoptive father that everything would be fine. “Suggest that she comes to the hospital more to observe or do an internship! Then you can get to know her and ask her on a date.”
“That’s not actually the worst plan,” Edward admitted.
Carlisle thought for a second. That could actually work, he’d just have to figure out how to bring it up to her and her father naturally.
“So what’s she like?” Rosalie asked suddenly.
If vampires could blush Carlisle would be bright red. “Well um she has H/L, (hair length) H/T, (type) H/C (color) hair. She actually looks a lot like her father, Dr. L/N. She goes to Johns Hopkins. Look can everyone just go back to what they were doing?”
“But we want to meet her,” Alice practically whined.
In his frustration with everything Carlisle blurted out, “You may not even get to meet her.”
That dampened the mood. “What?” Esme asked softly.
“Nothing is decided yet but she’s human. We’re already dealing with Bella, the Volturi are already keeping their eyes on us, and I don’t want to doom her to this life if I don’t have to.”
“But this is your mate,” Alice insisted. “You’ve been alone for 350 years!”
“He has a point,” Rosalie cut in. “We can’t afford to have another human know about us especially with the Volturi sniffing around us. And we shouldn’t be turning people unless they’re actively dying.”
“But she’s his true mate!” Alice maintained, practically stamping her foot on the ground. “He can’t just turn his back on her.”
“Look nothing is decided,” Carlisle tried to calm Alice down. “I have to be back at work in a few hours and I need to hunt so if you’d all please let me be.”
Everyone shuffled out of the room reluctantly except for Edward. “It will break your heart to let that girl go.”
Carlisle paused. He knew that, the idea of letting her go live her life and potentially fall in love with someone else broke his heart. “I know,” he admitted. “But the thought of having to hurt her and make her like this hurts just as much.”
“So love her for the duration of her mortal life.”
“Just to watch her age, live in pain, and die? I couldn’t handle that.”
“But you’re doing it for her,” Edward pointed out.
“But if I’m doing it for her shouldn’t I just let her go live a normal life?”
Edward shrugged. “I don’t know the right answer here just that no matter what you choose it’ll kill you in some way. That’s the unfortunate truth about loving a human.”
~
A few weeks went by and Y/N became a routine part of Carlisle’s day. He’d usually see her at the hospital, working as a secretary. (A job she acquired even without Carlisle’s suggestion.) Because of that he had gained a reputation for hanging around the nurses station, flirting with Y/N. Not only did he learn about her through actually talking to her, he would make frequent trips to her house to watch her through the windows, even occasionally going into her room, which he felt wrong about but being surrounded by her scent dismissed any doubt from his mind.
“Y/N,” he greeted like he did every morning, bringing her a coffee.
“You must be spending a fortune on coffee,” she commented, taking the cup. She had protested several times, insisting that she pay him back but he refused every time so she just began to accept it.
“It’s nothing,” he dismissed. “But if it was it’d be worth it,” he flirted, earning a blush from the girl. Carlisle had learned a lot about flirting in these few weeks. At first it was a bit clumsy but he picked it up fairly easily with a little coaching from Rosalie and Emmett.
“Yeah well you won’t have to spend like $4.50 everyday for much longer, one of my professors is starting a research project a month before the semester begins and he invited me as a fellow,” she explained, a glimmer of disappointment behind her bright, casual expression.
If Carlisle’s heart wasn’t already frozen it would’ve stopped beating. He tried his best to hide his shock and disappointment. “Oh, well congratulations. Getting invited to stuff like this is really good for med school applications.”
“Yeah, and I like being here but it was too good of an opportunity to pass up, y’know? Plus it’ll be nice to see the sun again,” she awkwardly laughed, sensing the doctor’s unease.
“Yeah, um well I have to go get some labs. Congratulations, I’ll see you around,” he rushed out with a forced smile. He didn’t stay long enough to hear her response, rushing out of the room as fast as possible without being suspicious.
He couldn’t think straight. He of course had thought about her just leaving but now that it was actually happening, as well as happening sooner than expected, he didn’t know how to deal with it.
~
Carlisle had no clue what to do when it came to his mate leaving. He couldn’t stop her, that wasn’t fair to Y/N, so instead he kept his distance. Which was easy considering that he could smell her from a mile away. Until one day at the hospital when the scent of her blood was particularly strong.
“19 year old female, car crash. Resuscitated once in the field, three times en route,” the panicked voice of the paramedic echoed through Carlisle’s sensitive ears. He rushed into the ER, spotting her through the window of the trauma room. He mostly recognized her through her scent but would know that H/T, H/C hair and S/T skin through purple and blue bruises from a million miles away. But the next words from her attending doctor only confirmed the worst. “Page Dr. L/N, it’s Y/N!”
It felt like Carlisle had been sucker punched in the gut. It took everything in him not to stagger back and let out a dry sob right there in the ER. When her heart monitor flatlined he wanted to slaughter every person in that room in his grief. It was ridiculous, 350 years of self control would be gone just because of a girl. But not just any girl, his girl.
When they finally got Y/N’s heartbeat back they wheeled her up to surgery, just as Dr. L/N entered the ER. “Where’s Y/N? Where’s my daughter?” he demanded, trying to launch himself at the ER desk.
“D/N, D/N,” Carlisle tried to calm the distraught father. He had to physically hold the man back with vampire strength. Fortunately the ER was too chaotic for anyone to notice. “They took her up to surgery, she’ll be fine.”
“Surgery? Oh god,” the man began to cry. “But that’s my baby, she’s all I have.” With those words Carlisle began to feel guilty. Just a few weeks ago a part of him had been so ready to basically just kidnap this poor man’s daughter and completely shatter his world without a thought. “Oh god, surgery here is a death sentence.”
Carlisle began to protest before really thinking about it. Forks Hospital was small, their surgical staff consisted of two surgeons and whatever nurses that had completed the surgical nurse program. No one came her for surgery, they all went to Port Angeles and their non-emergent traumas went there too. The only people who came here were on the brink of death and unfortunately the two surgeons here weren’t exactly outstanding in their field. They were good enough but nothing remarkable and they usually lost their patients due to the circumstances.
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Carlisle tried to carry on his day as if the love of his life wasn’t dying in a surgical suite right now. But the ordinarily smooth, confident doctor was distracted and constantly messing up. Until finally his shift was over and he went up to his mate’s room. He had orchestrated the nurses’ charts so she’d be placed in a secluded room should Carlisle need to intervene to prolong her life.
When he entered the room he was met with the most heartbreaking sight. Y/N was laid on the bed, an intubation tube sticking out of her throat. Her entire face was black and blue, some bones in her face looked like they had been broken. She hardly looked recognizable. On the only chair in the room sat her father looking like a worried mess. “Oh, hey Carlisle,” Dr. L/N said dejectedly.
“I’m so sorry, D/N.”
The man shrugged. “She’s tough. She managed to claw her way out of this place. She’ll survive this.”
“I hope so,” Carlisle agreed, staring longingly at his mate.
He didn’t want to arouse too much suspicion from Y/N’s father so he reluctantly went home to change and hunt.
After his quick hunt he re-entered his home finding Alice. “Carlisle, I’m so sorry,” she said softly. He wasn’t sure what to say to that but fortunately he didn’t have to come up with anything because she spoke again. “But you have to stay with her at the hospital if you want any shot at survival.” By now Edward had joined them.
“What?” Carlisle asked.
“She won’t survive this. You’re a doctor, you have to know that. So you’ll have to change her.”
Carlisle would be lying if he said he hadn’t thought of the scenario where Y/N was severely injured and he needed to change her. He looked up at his oldest son. “There’s nothing wrong about saving her life if she’s already dying.”
Not wanting to waste another second Carlisle sped off. He almost ran to the hospital but realized at the last second he should take the car. So he floored it, doing 150mph practically the whole way there. And finally parking in the back so he’d be able to bring her home unseen.
When he got to the hospital his ears were bombarded with thousands of sounds, something he was now used to, but because of his experience he was able to tune into his mate’s heart monitor while he got his plan ready.
Heading to the morgue he found a body that was a similar build and coloring to Y/N. Carlisle was by no means squeamish but it felt weird to break her bones and watch bruises form over her skin until her face was unrecognizable. He then scraped up as many ashes as possible to make it look like someone had cremated her so no one would go looking for her body. Setting the body aside he headed back upstairs finding Dr. L/N slumped over in a chair.
Carlisle hesitantly shook the older man awake. “Hey,” he said softly, willing the man to take his suggestion. “You should go home and rest. Get changed. I’ll watch over her.” The man hesitated, still staring at his fragile daughter. “She'll be fine, I’ll call you if anything happens.”
He reluctantly agreed before heading out, making Carlisle promise to call him even if her heart rate changed by two points.
Carlisle sat for a while, waiting for the hospital to calm down a bit before enacting his plan. First he went to the nurses station while no one was there, turning off the monitors that connected to his mate’s room. He then went back downstairs, using his hearing and sense of smell to bring the body up without being detected. Finally it was time to turn his mate. He stood over her bedside, observing her mortality for the final time. Through the black and blue of her face he admired her beauty, reminiscing the unique, flawed beauty of mortals.
This would be the most difficult transformation of his life. He was more nervous than when he had turned his sister who was his first turn. Y/N’s blood smelled so sweet he wasn’t sure he’d be able to pull away. He took a deep breath through his mouth before lowering his head to her throat, biting quickly. It took everything in him to pull away. He had never killed a human but he had tasted blood when he turned them and Y/N’s was like nothing he had ever tasted before. He knew he had to hold on long enough for the venom to inject into her bloodstream which made it even harder to pull away but he did it.
When he pulled back he could see blood seeping from her puncture wounds telling him he didn’t kill her. He quickly began disconnecting her from the machines before the venom could wreak havoc on her system. He then swapped her body for the one from the morgue, connecting the machines once again. Running down to the car he placed her unconscious figure in the backseat before going upstairs to reconnect the nurses station, alerting them that Y/N L/N was dying.
But by the time they reached her room with a crash cart Carlisle was already escaping with his prize in the back seat.
~
It took three agonizing days for Y/N’s transformation. Carlisle spent every moment he could at her side. He had to go to the hospital in order to not arouse suspicion where he unfortunately had to deal with her grieving father. He had called him on the way home to tell that he had gone to the bathroom and when he got back she was coding. But it didn’t seem to make anything easier for Dr. L/N as the man tried to tackle Carlisle when he walked into work. Fortunately for his secret a nurse stopped him. “You left her!” he screamed. “I lost my baby. I didn’t get to say goodbye because of you!”
At first Carlisle had been elated to finally have his mate (among other conflicting feelings) but now he was confronting the grief he had created. He realized that even if she was going to die anyway, if he hadn’t intervened her father would’ve gotten to say his final goodbye.
Meanwhile at home Y/N was laid on the soft couch in his room. She had spent the first two days sleeping fairly peacefully to the point that Carlisle was afraid he had killed her but her slowing heartbeat was assurance that she was okay. The third day was the hardest, he learned from Jasper that he could feel her pain. He was at work when the pain started and Alice had called him since she would be awake soon and Carlisle had wanted to be the one with her when she woke up.
Carlisle had been sitting by her side for a few hours, admiring her now clear skin, pure from all the bruises and broken bones she had received. In his own cold, stone hand, he now felt the same in her hand, all the warmth having been drained from it now as he played with her fingers adoringly.
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Even before I opened my eyes I could hear so clearly. I could hear the rustle of clothing, the sound of skin rubbing skin as I realized a cold hand was playing with my fingers. As I became more aware I realized that my throat felt so dry it felt like it was burning.
Peeling my eyes open I was met with what seemed like the brightest object in the universe. I was half convinced I was staring directly into the sun except I could heat the hum of electric lighting.
“Is it too bright?” a voice— Carlisle’s voice asked.
Turning my head I met his warm, golden expression. When I nodded in agreement he ran towards the switch faster than I had ever seen anything move. Weird, but maybe I was just really groggy, but strangely I didn’t feel groggy, I felt more alive than I ever had.
Carlisle’s face reappeared in my field of vision, I could now more clearly see the flawlessness of his skin and the flecks of gold in his irises. Unbeknownst to me he was was also now observing the smoothness of my skin and the deep red hue of my eyes. Something about him felt safe and warm, like I never wanted to leave his side again. “Carlisle?” was all I could think of to say.
His adoring smile widened when I said his name. “Hey, Y/N. How are you feeling?”
“Good…” I answered hesitantly. I felt better than I ever had but his question made me think I shouldn’t feel good.
“That’s good. The transformation can be rougher for some people,” he explained, pulling away slightly to allow me room to sit up.
As I pushed myself up I moved so fast the couch slid to the side. My eyes widened, realizing what happened. “What’s going on? What transformation?”
He took my hands in his, now kneeling on the ground in front of me. “This is going to be strange and you won’t believe me but bear with me, okay?” he asked, looking up at me. One look in his eyes and I was melting so I just nodded, allowing him to explain. “I’m… a vampire. And I made you one too.” Laughs began to wrack my body, this had to be a joke. But one look at the grave sincerity on his face told me he wasn’t joking. “It’s true. It’s why when you sat up the couch moved. Why you’re probably really overwhelmed with all the sound, smells, lights, and feelings. Vampires are the most dangerous predators. We have better senses, are faster, and stronger than anything else.” Seeing my lost expression he rushed out the next words. “I know it’s a lot and I’m sorry I did this to you.”
“Why did you do this to me?”
“How much do you remember?”
“The last thing I remember is driv-” I suddenly realized what must’ve happened. “I was in an accident wasn’t I?”
Carlisle nodded his head regretfully. “You weren’t going to make it. That’s why I turned you. I didn’t want to do it. I was going to let you live your life as a human whether that be with me or with someone else but I couldn’t just let you die.”
“So what? You just turn every dying patient in the hospital?” I asked, trying to wrap my head around his words.
He shook his head no. “You’re the first I’ve turned in nearly 70 years. I couldn’t let you die because… well you see-” Carlisle was struggling with the best word choice to keep from scaring his mate off. “We’re mates… I knew the instant I saw you. Humans can’t feel it as strongly and it’s rare to meet your true mate but that’s what we are.” I didn’t know how to react, I didn’t even know exactly what I was feeling. “You don’t have to stay, you certainly don’t have to accept our bond but I thought you should know about it. Before you got hurt I was planning to hopefully be worthy of your love the old-fashioned way but given the circumstances…”
Before I could say anything the door swung open, revealing three more vampires. One had blonde curls, another with a brunette, short pixie, and the third had caramel hair and had a strong resemblance to Carlisle. “Hi, I’m Alice!” the bubbly brunette introduced.
“Um, girls-” Carlisle attempted to dismiss them so as to not overwhelm his mate.
“She’s probably thirsty,” the blonde insisted. Everyone looked over at me expectantly. Remembering the burning in my throat I nodded. Alice approached, opening a cup allowing the most appetizing scent to permeate through the air. I took it eagerly, frowning when I looked into the cup to find a thick, red liquid. Blood.
“It takes a bit of getting used to,” the caramel-haired one empathized.
“Trust me, you’ll like it,” Alice encouraged.
I gingerly brought it to my lips. The more I could smell it the thirstier I got so I downed the drink. The second the blood touched my lips I couldn’t get enough as I began to down the drink. Once it was all gone Carlisle gently brought the cup from my hands. “C’mon, you should meet the others,” he said, gently taking my hand in his. He led me out of his room, the three women following us into what looked like a very modern living room where there were three men waiting for us. “Y/N, these are my adoptive kids,” Carlisle explained as the blonde and Alice went to stand with their… brothers? “That’s Alice and Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie,” he pointed out the couples, “Edward, and my sister, Esme.”
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The Cullen clan welcomed Y/N with open arms, including Bella when she eventually met the new vampire. It took a day or two of warming up but soon enough Carlisle and Y/N began to behave just like other mates. They were constantly together, and the rest of the Cullen clan were happy to finally see Carlisle so happy with his mate after 350 years.
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nc-vb · 11 months
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𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐊𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐓𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭
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this is a repost from my old blog! and also the first fic i wrote for tumblr lol.
pairing -> vinsmoke sanji x reader
notes -> feminine terms (mellorine, mademoiselle); kind of based off of a scene from that vr one piece game; y/n is a new straw hat member i guess + her noble family kinda sucks; kind of rushy bc i didn’t feel like writing a backstory lol; honourifics are used; maybe a little suggestive…? just in case
wc -> 1.2k
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“What a cute kitchen!”
Your eyes can barely contain their sparkle as you take in the final room of the tour. Smiling, you’d realize it’s already occupied by the light chopping sounds coming from the left of the entrance. You approach him from behind, tapping him on the shoulder. “There you are, Sanji-san,” you’d gently called, not wanting to startle him in the middle of his food prep.
“Ah, _______-chan!” Throwing a careful grin of his own over his shoulder to you, he sets down his knife at the edge of the cutting board to turn completely around to you. “I was wondering when you’d make your way in. You’re just in time – I’m making lunch!”
“I’m sorry it wasn’t sooner,” you apologize with a small laugh. “I think Nami was just a little… excited? Relieved? That she wasn’t “the only woman” on the Merry anymore, I mean. Her grand tour felt more like a tea date.”
“No apologies necessary; making you feel at home with us comes first. Do you?” he asks.
“I do,” you reply easily. “Our captain encouraging me to toss a chair at my window to escape was probably one of the first signs of that one for me.”
Sanji chuckles. “I’m glad. Well, what do you think?” He raises his arms from his sides, inviting you to take in his safe haven.
“It’s quite lovely, as I suppose kitchens normally are?” You glide your fingers across the island, enjoying how smooth the surface had felt on your skin. “This is my first time being inside one.”
“Your first time?” Sanji repeats, genuinely shocked.
Nodding, “I was never allowed inside ours,” you explain. “My parents were… very conservative and traditional in their ways. It may have stemmed from them being apologists of the World Government and the Celestial Dragons, but they always said that entering such places would be beneath our name.” You sigh deeply. “I always knew they were wrong.”
For a moment, Sanji is quiet, the slight tapping of your shoes and the bubbling of the boiling liquid in the pot overtop the stove the only sounds filling the room.
“I didn’t know you were also the chef until Nami mentioned it in her tour,” you add, your voice soft. “How wonderful.” You sniff the air, your lips quickly rising once more in appreciation of the scent filling the kitchen. “Wow… That smells incredible.”
Sanji’s lips part in awe at you, watching you move closer toward the stove. Not wanting to hang your head directly over the pot, you waft the vapour closer to you, inhaling deeply.
“What do you call this, Sanji-san?” You gesture into the pot. “I’m not sure I’ve ever had this before.”
“… it’s called Sugo all’amatriciana,” he says, making his way to join her side. “A sauce made of tomatoes.” From the drawer to the right of the stove, Sanji steals a spoon. “Panchetta. Pecorino romano.” Having given the sauce a stir with a ladle, he dips the spoon inside to scoop some up. “Onion and garlic.” A hand cradling beneath the spoon’s curve, “and a bit of basil.” He lowers it toward you, and your blink. “Try it.”
“Really? Could I?”
Sanji’s lower lip curls inwards, pinching the inside flesh between his teeth when you lean forward to blow lightly on the sauce. Lips parted, you barely release a breath, one just strong enough to begin cooling it, before taking it into your mouth and sucking back the contents in the spoon.
“Sanji-san… this is delicious!!” you gush after a moment spent savouring the flavour. “It’s the perfect amount of garlic, and the pecorino tastes so fresh–” You hum almost excitedly at the leftover flavour on your tongue. “You really are such an amazing chef.”
Sanji’s grip on the handle falters, the metal slipping from between his thumb and forefinger and clattering to the floor, his other hand coming up to clap over his own mouth. Immediately, you’re turning to the cook with worry.
“Sanji-san, what’s the matter?” you ask, reaching out to him. “Did I say something wrong? I’m sorry if I did, I-I��”
“I…” You frown, the skin of your forehead bunched together in concern. “I just didn’t expect you to be so cute.”
“C-Cute?!” you exclaim, your face instantly exploding with heat.
Sanji swears his entire body stalls at your expression; like a set of cogs that’s lost one of its gears, the chef goes still, but his heart continues to pound beneath his ribs. As you attempt to collect yourself, Sanji slowly extends his hands out toward you, and places them on your shoulders.
“San… ji-san?”
“______,” he practically whispers, head tipped down toward yours. You swallow, nerved by the intensity in his one visible eye. “You really are the cutest.”
“I-I… Sanji…”
This time, your warmth is contained to your cheeks. Sanji’s smile is sweet, crooked with the relief of not being pushed away by his new female crewmate or battered on the head by them. The gentleness in your eyes entrances him, and before he can control himself, the young cook leans forward toward the young deckhand, his eyes shut and lips searching for yours. A small breath escapes you before you’re able to reel it in—it would be your first kiss. Your first kiss with, practically, a stranger. And yet, you can’t bring yourself to pull away— it’s actually quite the opposite.
Hands having risen to balance your trembling body against him, they press into the lapels of his blazer, your fingers winding around them to give him a slight tug toward you. Eye swirling with adoration, Sanji is quick to fit his lips to yours, his own hands respectfully daring to come up to rest above your hips. With a small sigh, you press into him just a little more firmly, a little more curiously, steadily becoming more and more listless the longer your kiss goes on, and despite the loss of air in your lungs, you discover it to be difficult to pull away from Sanji, your hands releasing his suit and travelling to hold him to you by his nape.
The sharp hitch of your breath should have acted as a sign that you should pull away, that you should break to breathe, but you couldn’t bear to let him go. Feeling the tip of your tongue suddenly dart along his lower lip, tasting the faintest hint of tobacco that had lingered from his last cigarette, Sanji chuckles into your mouth. Cheeks flushed and chest heaving, he gently insists on bringing you back down to earth with a subtle tap against your side that has your eyes opening. Finally, you part from him, sucking in a breath so deep that it nearly has you choking on it.
“M-Mellorine, mellorine,” Sanji calls to you over your heavy panting, a hand rising from your hip to tilt your chin toward him, “you have to breathe at some point, no?”
“I-I… I… guess…”
Sanji blinks at you, his own face flaming once again. Did she sound… disappointed? His hands, warm and slightly calloused at the tops of his palms, slide around to hold your face in them.
“I adore your enthusiasm, mademoiselle, but if you pass out, I can’t kiss you how I want to.”
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wedontdeservethestars · 3 months
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Johnny x reader with a huge family
Fem or gn pls
Thank you for the prompt, anon!! This is a short n sweet little thing, with a slight side of angst since I realized Johnny's home life was probably shit halfway through writing it lol. Hope you enjoy!
Content: gn!reader, fluff, slight angst about Johnny's distance with his parents (and dad)
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“Wow. It’s so quiet,” Johnny joked. The two of you had found some solace on the porch outside, for once in the whole evening being mostly alone. You could still hear your little cousins playing in the front yard and some of your older relatives laughing as they smoked in the driveway, but here you felt like you had room to breathe.
“I know,” you laughed a little. “Sorry. I know it’s…a lot.” 
“Oh, please,” Johnny rolled his eyes. “This is nothing. At least no one here is constantly asking for a picture or for me to join in on some kinda celebrity-marketing-business-thingy.”
A shrill giggle came from the yard, and it was unmistakable. “Except for–”
“Yes,” he nodded rather seriously. “Except for Lizzy. I would trust her business plans with a blindfold on and my hands tied behind my back.”
You had gotten mixed reactions from everyone in your family when they saw who your partner was. Your parents and siblings had known for a little while, though you tried to keep it on the down-low that you were dating one of the richest and most famous men in Hollywood. But the reunion was something you went to every year and truly enjoyed. Your family was enormous and stressful, but you loved them and enjoyed being with them. It had been over a year since you’d gotten with Johnny, and you felt that now was the time to introduce everyone to him. Your grandparents and older relatives, for the most part, were lost on who Johnny was. Your parents were both impressed and protective of you. Your siblings were either jealous or flat-out didn’t believe you until they saw his Agera pull up in the driveway. 
Your cousins who were old enough to recognize Johnny were equally starstruck, but one in particular, the barely-teenaged Lizzy, had hardly left you two alone from the moment you arrived at your parents’ house. Between excited gasps and nervous giggles and lots of hair-twirling, she’d spent the evening desperately trying to rope Johnny into starring in her various movie ideas. Johnny played along stoically, even removing his sunglasses to listen and nod as she detailed plots about superhero dogs and haunted pillows and a hamster who was running for president. By the end of the night, you wouldn’t be surprised if she’d managed to snag his number so they could continue discussing his potential roles and payment later in the coming weeks.
“Can you blame her?” you asked with a chuckle. “Imagine if when you were little your cousin was dating, like, Harrison Ford, or something.”
“Hey, I’m not blaming anyone! That kid’s going places. She’s just trying to invest early.” Johnny turned and you his profile caught in the golden glow of a summer sunset. It struck you, not for the first time in the past few minutes, how pretty he was. You especially loved the sparkle in his eyes and the curve of his nose in this light. 
“She’s a smart one,” you agreed, half-paying attention.
Johnny took a long sip of his drink as he leaned on the railing of your porch, humming softly to himself. You took a moment to scan the surrounding area of your childhood home. It felt strange to be back here with him. It was like two worlds colliding, and while it wasn’t unpleasant to share your family and homelife with him, it felt odd. Almost like a dream state.
“So, are you liking all this? I know it’s not exactly what you’re used to…”
“Like it?” He seemed surprised. “Oh, man. I love it.”
“Really?” You couldn’t help a childishly excited tone from entering your voice. He smiled at this, his dimples creasing as he did so.
“Sure! It’s, uh…rustic.” His brow furrowed for a second. “Well, no. That’s not the right word. It’s…” 
Your face fell a little as he sighed. His own smile was fading.
“I didn’t really…have this growing up. Y’know? My dad, he was never big on his own family. So I never really saw my grandparents, or my aunts or uncles or anything. My mom didn’t have a big connection with hers either. I don’t think my dad helped that. So a lot of the time it was just us three. And…God. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to bring the mood down. I’m just tryin’ to say that this is all really, really nice.”
“Oh,” you said softly. “Well, y’know, everyone here…they’re all your family too, now. You know that, right?”
“I guess that’s true.” He brightened. “Yeah. Family.”
“You’re one of us now.” You grinned and leaned against him. “And even if you are some big-shot A-list movie star, they’ll love you as long as I do.”
“Sooo, like, another three months?” he teased, calculating on his fingers. You giggled.
“Count your days, Cage.” You watched as a group of kids chased each other around the yard and neared the porch, clamoring about rules and squealing with laughs. Among them, Lizzy played, stopping only for a moment to gaze at both of you (Johnny more-so). “Although, if the way things have been going tonight are indicative of anything, you might have a rebound date in your future…”
“Oh, she can find a better Prince Charming, I’m sure,” Johnny chuckled. He waved to her, and Lizzy looked like she might just implode. Her big eyes grew bigger and bigger and she remained still as a statue until her little sister bumped into her, and then, after only one more glance over her shoulder, she was right back in the game.
“Ooh, Prince Charming.” You pressed a kiss to his cheek. “I like that.”
“Well, it fits. I treat you like royalty for a reason.” He pulled your face into his hand and kissed you fully, trailing his thumb along your jaw. When you pulled away, you had a permanent smile painted on your lips.
“Pretty,” he murmured. He had a similar look on his face.
“Look in a mirror,” you shot back kindly. 
“A magic mirror?” he teased, and you rolled your eyes. 
“C’mon. I think dinner’s almost ready.” Tugging his hand, you started towards the door inside.
“Ooh, I can’t wait to try your mom’s food. That kitchen smelled so damn good earlier…”
“You’re gonna love it.” You gave him a backwards glance. “Seriously, if that doesn’t lure you into this family, then nothing will.”
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allthelovehes · 2 months
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Lost and Found*
Summary: Harry and Y/N have been best friends since they were little kids but they lost track of each other over time. When Harry is in town for his tour they finally reunite and their meeting is sweeter than ever.
Pairing: Famous!Harry x Reader
Word count: 3.5K
Warnings: Smut, fluff, cute.
Taglist: @justmystyles @bitchybabyharry @harrysslut7 @swiftmendeshoran @lucasandharold @harrysbabycherry @htaylor18 @rose-garden-dreamz @myalovesharry @mellamolayla Let me know if you want to be added to my taglist! 🤗
A/N: I had this idea on my list for a while so I figured why not write it?
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It's been a very long time since you last saw your best friend. It has been years, which is a shame, but there were reasons. The biggest reason was that he is one of the most famous pop stars in the world, and that causes his schedule to be incredibly full. There is also the fact that, because he is touring the world, you are not even living in the same country for the longest time.
Harry always tries to keep in touch, even with the crazy life he leads. But that can mean only brief texts and the occasional phone call. Sometimes not even those. The last time you heard from him was six months ago when he called to ask how your family was doing. He sounded so tired but excited. You talked for an hour, and it was almost like the last years hadn't happened.
With his latest album out and him being back on the road, you decided to buy yourself a ticket to his next Wembley show. This is an amazing opportunity for you to see your best friend and for him to hopefully spot you among the thousands of fans.
The excitement about this day has been building up inside of you ever since you decided to do this. You know you can't expect much attention from Harry after the concert, but you're looking forward to seeing him and getting to see him perform. You haven't seen him in person since his first headlining tour.
You are now on your way home from work and still have a few hours to go before you have to head out for the concert. You take a shower and then put on the T-shirt and jeans that you have planned to wear to the concert. When you get into the kitchen, you realize that you are too nervous and excited to eat, so you settle for a banana. You check the time and are happy to notice that you still have some time left to spare, so you go into the living room and switch on the television.
There are no good shows on, so you switch to the music channels and find one that is showing a rerun of a Harry Styles interview. You smile as you watch him talk. Even after all these years, it's still the same Harry. He's still your Harry. You feel a pang in your heart when he smiles his cheeky grin at the interviewer, and you realize just how much you miss him.
As if reading your mind, your phone vibrates on the coffee table. You reach for it and see Harry's caller ID on the screen. You pick up and bring the phone to your ear.
"Harry?"
"Hi, love!" He sounds excited. "Did I call at a good time? Are you busy?"
"No, I'm not. I was just watching TV." She decides to not tell him that she is going to see him in a couple of hours.
"Oh, what are you watching?"
"Um, an interview. It's not important. What are you doing? Shouldn't you be in rehearsals?"
"I have a free half hour, and I'm hiding in my dressing room, so nobody can find me. I really needed to talk to you, and I couldn't wait anymore."
"Why did you need to talk to me? Is something wrong?"
"No, it's nothing like that. You're going to my concert tonight, aren't you?"
Your eyes grow wide and your stomach somersaults. How did he know? Did you give something away?
"How...how did you know?" you finally manage to say.
"I'm not stupid, Y/N. I know how you talk when you're nervous and when you're not. When I told you about the Wembley shows, your voice didn't sound like usual. You sounded nervous, and it was pretty obvious that you were going." He laughs on the phone.
"Wow, I'm not very subtle, am I?" You feel stupid.
"You really aren't." His voice sounds warm and inviting, and you feel a shiver running down your spine.
"So, why did you want to call me, if it wasn't to tell me not to come?"
"Oh, I would never tell you not to come. I really want to see you tonight."
"But...aren't there a thousand people coming? You probably won't even see me."
"Don't worry, love. I will definitely see you. If I don't, you should find the stage door and knock. My security team knows about you. They'll let you in."
"Really? Harry, you're crazy. You have a concert to prepare for. You shouldn't let random fans into your dressing room."
"But you're not a random fan. You're Y/N."
"I'm glad that you still think of me like that, even though we haven't seen each other in a while."
"What do you mean?" Harry sounds confused. "Of course, I still think of you as my best friend. Nothing can change that."
You feel a lump forming in your throat. You don't want to cry, not now. Harry means the world to you, and he will never know. You are not the kind of girl who confesses her love to pop stars, not even when they are her best friends.
"Y/N, are you still there?"
"Yeah, I'm still here. I was just thinking about something."
"Well, stop thinking. We're going to see each other in a couple of hours." He is smiling; you can hear it in his voice.
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When you enter the venue, the excitement inside of you is unbearable. The atmosphere is incredible, and the crowd is so full of life and happiness. Everyone is happy to be here, and so are you.
You find your seat, which is very close to the stage, and sit down. As you wait for the concert to start, you keep looking at the stage, wondering what Harry is doing right now.
Suddenly, the lights go down, and the crowd goes wild. You join in and clap your hands, your heart racing with anticipation. The stage is still dark when Harry walks onto it, and the screams get even louder.
The opening song sounds through the speakers, and the crowd sings along with Harry. You sing along, too, and the feeling is indescribable. To hear his music live and to see the passion in his face, while he performs his songs, makes your heart melt. You can't take your eyes off him.
The next couple of songs are even more amazing, and the atmosphere is incredible. Harry seems to enjoy himself and interacts with the crowd a lot. After the fifth song, he walks to the front of the stage, looks around, and scans the crowd.
"It's great to see all your beautiful faces." He smiles his crooked smile. "There are a lot of you tonight."
You feel his eyes on you, but it's dark and the crowd is dense, so you're not sure if he really saw you. You decide not to get your hopes up, but your heart is beating faster.
"Now, this is the part of the show where I tell you a story." Harry says into the microphone, and the crowd starts screaming again. You hear a few people chant "I love you" and others calling his name.
"So, let's see. This story is about a friend of mine. A friend I haven't seen in a long time." Harry pauses and looks around again. "She is somewhere here tonight."
The crowd is silent for a moment, but then everyone is talking and pointing at each other. You feel a blush creeping into your cheeks and your pulse quickens. You can't believe that he is doing this, but you're happy about it.
"So, this friend. She is the reason why I'm here, on this stage. She has always supported me, always believed in me. Even when I didn't believe in myself." He pauses and takes a sip of water. "We went to school together. She helped me through everything. But when I became famous, I started to neglect her." The crowd interrupts him with a loud booing. "Yeah, I know. That was stupid of me. But she never gave up on me, and she is still my best friend. In fact, she's my favourite friend. I'm sorry, everyone." The crowd laughs and cheers.
You are amazed and speechless. He really did this for you. And the fact that he still considers you his best friend is the best thing that has happened in a while. You can't help it, but tears are falling down your cheeks, and your hands are shaking. Harry walks back to the middle of the stage, and the show continues.
After the concert is over, you stay in your seat. There is still a lot of time until the arena will be empty, and you're not sure what to do. Suddenly, your phone rings, and it's a number you don't recognize.
"Hello?"
"Hi, love." He sounds a little out of breath, and your stomach does a flip.
"Hey, Harry. That was an amazing show. Thank you so much."
"You're welcome. So, did you enjoy it?"
"I loved it."
"I'm so happy. Listen, are you still at the arena?"
"Yes, I am. Why?"
"Okay, so I will come to you. Wait for me, okay?"
"What do you mean, you're coming to me? Are you going to walk out into the arena, looking for me?"
"Exactly. So, wait for me."
"Harry, that's not possible. The arena is full of people. I'm not going to sit here and let you lose your way."
"Trust me, Y/N. I'll be fine. Just wait for me."
And then, he is gone.
You put your phone back into your bag and look around. The crowd has already thinned out a bit, and there are a few people around you. You get up and stand at the end of the row. People are walking past you and talking to each other.
Suddenly, someone grabs your wrist, and you turn around. Your eyes grow wide and your mouth falls open.
"H-Harry..."
"Hi, love. Sorry it took so long. I got a little lost."
You can't believe that he is standing in front of you, looking like a god in his black outfit. He has a beanie on his head, and his eyes are sparkling. Without thinking, you wrap your arms around his neck and bury your face in his shoulder. He hugs you back, and you can't help but inhale his scent.
"I missed you," you say.
"I missed you, too. Now, how about we get out of here?"
"Good idea. Where are we going?"
"Somewhere private."
"Sounds good to me."
He lets go of you and takes your hand. Together, you leave the arena and head for the stage door. Outside, there is a huge crowd waiting, but his security team has already cleared the way, and the fans are standing behind the barriers. He smiles at them and waves. They are screaming, and the paparazzi are taking pictures.
He guides you through the crowd and towards the car park. A black car is waiting, and he opens the door for you. You get in, and he slides in after you. The driver starts the engine, and the car pulls away from the curb.
"Where are we going?" you ask.
"My hotel. We're staying in London for two more nights. I have a suite with a view of the city."
"That's nice. I hope the view is nice, too."
"You're going to like it." He looks at you, and your heart skips a beat.
You reach the hotel, and the driver stops the car. Harry gets out first and holds the door open for you. You step out and look up at the huge building. The entrance is illuminated, and there are a lot of people coming and going.
He takes your hand and leads you into the lobby. Nobody pays attention to you, and it's a relief. You don't want people staring at you. He guides you towards the elevators and presses the button. A moment later, the doors slide open, and you step into the elevator. He presses the button for the top floor and then looks at you.
"I'm sorry it has been such a long time."
"It's okay, Harry. I know that you have a busy life. And I'm really proud of you."
"Thank you. It means a lot to me." He steps closer to you, and your breath hitches. He lifts his hand and brushes a strand of hair from your face. His touch sends shivers down your spine, and you feel yourself blushing.
The elevator doors open, and he leads you to his suite. He opens the door and lets you inside. You are amazed by the beautiful room. There is a huge bed, a seating area with a fireplace, and a balcony with a spectacular view.
"Wow, this is amazing."
"I knew you'd like it." He grins and takes your hand again. "Come on, let's sit down."
He guides you to the seating area on the balcony and sits down. You sit down next to him and take a deep breath.
"How long have we known each other?"
"Since we were ten."
"It's been twenty years, and we're still friends."
"Best friends," you correct him.
"Yes, best friends."
"Even when I neglected you."
"Hey, don't do that. You didn't neglect me. You were just busy."
"Busy doesn't even cover it."
"Stop it. We're still friends. That's what matters."
"I know, but I was stupid. And I'm sorry."
"It's okay, Harry. Let's stop apologizing. I wanna enjoy being here with you." You say with a twinkle in your eyes. You lean back and look at the skyline. The city is lit up and looks beautiful. You can hear the traffic below, but it's a distant noise. The moment is magical, and you are enjoying every second of it. He puts his arm around you, and you lean against his shoulder. You sigh happily and close your eyes.
"Hey, are you tired?" he asks.
"No, just relaxed."
"Okay. Well, I have a question for you."
"Ask away."
"Why didn't you ever tell me?"
"Tell you what?"
"That you love me."
Your eyes fly open, and your heart stops. He is looking at you, and his expression is serious. You swallow hard and try to think of an answer. But your brain doesn't cooperate, and you can't speak.
"W-what are you talking about?" You stutter.
"I'm talking about the fact that you are in love with me."
"No, I'm not. Why would you think that?"
"Because it's obvious. I saw it tonight at the concert. When I talked about you."
"Oh."
"You looked shocked and then so happy. It's the same look I have when I'm thinking about you." You can't believe what he is saying. Does he really mean it? Or is he just playing with your emotions?
"Why didn't you ever tell me? Because of my job?"
"No, it's not that. I just...I didn't want to ruin our friendship. You're the most important person in my life, and I didn't want to lose you."
"Oh, love. You will never lose me."
"Promise?"
"Promise." He leans closer to you and places a soft kiss on your cheek. Your heart is racing, and the butterflies in your stomach are going crazy. He pulls away, and you can see the sparkle in his eyes. His gaze drops to your lips, and he smiles.
"Y/N, can I kiss you?"
"Yes," you whisper.
He cups your face with his hands and leans in. Your eyes flutter closed, and his lips touch yours. The kiss is slow and gentle. His lips are soft and taste like mint. You feel a tingle in your stomach, and you can't help but sigh. His tongue darts out and caresses your lips. You open your mouth, and he slips his tongue inside. Your tongues tangle together, and the kiss becomes more passionate. When you finally pull apart, you are breathing heavily. He smiles and strokes your cheek.
"That was amazing," you say.
"Yes, it was. And it's about time." He laughs.
"It's been a long time coming." You grin.
"Yes, it has."
He pulls you into his arms and kisses your temple. You lean against his chest and breathe in his scent. It feels so right to be here with him. After all these years, you finally feel like you belong.
"What are you thinking about?" he asks.
"About the fact that I don't wanna go home."
"Who said you have to?"
"What do you mean?"
"Stay with me tonight."
"Really?"
"Yes. Stay the night. I don't want you to leave."
"Okay."
"Great. Let's go inside."
He stands up and takes your hand. You follow him into the suite and sit down on the bed. He sits down next to you and strokes your cheek. You look into his eyes and see the same desire that you feel. You lean in and kiss him. His lips are warm and soft, and his tongue feels amazing. Your body is tingling, and you can't get enough. You wrap your arms around his neck and deepen the kiss. He pulls you closer and kisses you passionately. Your bodies are pressed together, and you can feel his arousal. You moan and rub your body against his. He breaks the kiss and looks at you. His eyes are dark with lust, and his pupils are dilated.
"Mhm, Y/N. You're driving me crazy." He pulls you into his lap and kisses you again. His hands roam your body, and you arch your back. He slips his hand under your shirt and cups your breast. You gasp and close your eyes. He squeezes your breast and rolls your nipple between his fingers.
"Oh God," you moan.
"Do you like that?"
"Yes. It feels so good."
He keeps massaging your breast while kissing your neck. You grind your hips against him, and he groans. You can feel his erection, and it turns you on even more. He moves his hand to your other breast and starts massaging it.
He pushes you onto the bed and gets on top of you. His hands move under your shirt, and he pulls it off. You arch your back and expose your breasts. He licks his lips and leans down to kiss your nipples. He sucks on one and flicks his tongue over the other. You moan and dig your nails into his back.
He moves his hand down to your pants and starts undoing the button. He pulls them down, along with your panties, and tosses them aside. He looks at your naked body and smiles.
"You're so beautiful."
He leans down and kisses you. His tongue darts out, and he runs it over your lips. You part your lips and let him inside. He explores your mouth and moans.
"Mhm, I want you."
"Then take me," you say.
He pulls his shirt off and throws it aside. He undoes his pants and pushes them down. He kneels between your legs and looks at you. You can see his erection through his boxers. You bite your lip and reach out. You run your hand over his bulge and feel the heat. He groans and closes his eyes.
"Y/N."
"Yes?"
"I want you so bad."
"Then take me."
He quickly pulls his boxers down before he grabs your hips and pushes you further onto the bed. He lies down on top of you and kisses you. His erection rubs against your core, making you gasp.
"God, you're so wet." He moves his hand between your legs and strokes your clit. You moan and buck your hips. He positions his cock at your entrance and pushes in. You gasp and close your eyes. His cock fills you up completely, and you feel complete.
He starts moving slowly, and you cling to him. He kisses you deeply and groans. He moves faster, and you cry out. You wrap your legs around his waist and arch your back.
"Yes, Harry. Right there. Please."
He pounds into you harder, and you feel yourself approaching the edge. Never had sex felt this right.
"I'm gonna come."
"Come for me, love."
You scream his name and climax. Your body trembles, and you shudder. He moans and buries his face in your neck. You feel his release, and he collapses on top of you.
"God, Y/N. That was amazing."
"It was."
He rolls off of you and pulls you into his arms. You snuggle against his chest, and he kisses your forehead.
"So, this is where we've been heading since day one, huh?" You chuckle.
"Well, yeah. I just didn't expect it to take twenty years."
"Yeah, me neither."
"And I also thought we'd be more cautious about it." Harry laughs realising he completely forgot to use a condom.
"I don't know, I just didn't care."
"Yeah, me neither."
You kiss his cheek and rest your head on his chest.
"Harry?"
"Hm?"
"Will we be able to make this work? I mean, with our lives and everything?"
"We'll figure it out. I'm not letting you go."
"Good."
You close your eyes and listen to his heartbeat. He is holding you tight, and you can't imagine being anywhere else. You kiss his chest and slowly drift off to sleep in his arms.
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dolliebabydoll15 · 4 months
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Floyd x Boom fanfic!
this is my first oneshot, i hope you enjoy! 🫶
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It was the end of a brodacious reunion concert at Vacay Island, for the crowd had gone their separate ways, as well as Viva and Poppy to spend much-needed quality time with their father. That left only BroZone, who had gone backstage to collect their things before leaving.
"We did it brothers! I knew we could do it!" said an enthusiastic John Dory.
"Finally, some praise." joked Bruce.
"Hey, can't you see I'm trying here?" snickered JD.
The brothers laughed, and suddenly, they saw Branch's buddies, Hype, Ablaze, Trickee, and Boom, who had performed with them. They were also there to clear backstage of their belongings. JD, Bruce, Clay, and Floyd were still just as amazed as they were when their little bro first introduced them.
"Branch...you wouldn't mind it if we offically met them, would you?" asked Clay.
Branch chuckled. "Sure, I have to go pick up the clue board anyway. Gonna take me a rough 15 minutes or something..."
The brothers smiled, and scampered off to get to know the boy band phenomenon known as Kismet.
Floyd suddenly noticed Boom, the rainbow-haired glitter troll whom he had seen before the concert.
"Hi," greeted Floyd.
"H-hi," Boom replied.
"You did great out there." said Floyd.
"Thanks, took me about 3 weeks to learn the choreo," said Boom. "I kept stepping on Hype's feet," he uttered embarrassingly.
Floyd giggled. "So, how did you meet Branch anyway?" he asked.
"Oh, we're childhood buds, we performed with him a lot after...you and your brothers left him." Boom responded melancholicly. Floyd saddened, remembering that woeful night.
"So...what's your story?" inquired Boom.
"Mine?" Floyd asked, surprised.
Boom nodded. Normally, Floyd was the one asking when it came to talking about emotional stories.
"Well, when I left BroZone to follow my heart and pursue a solo career, it got cut short when I was captured by a phony pair of popstars, Velvet and Veneer, for my talent. Every time they sucked up a piece of my talent, I lost a little bit of my life. This went on for 2 months, but I later noticed that Veneer, one of the phonies, wasn't as bad as I thought he was. He was really trying to make his sister happy, despite Velvet not caring about him at all. I told him that he shouldn't be around people who treat him like garbage, and no one should try to change him, but he didn't get the message until my brothers banded together with my little bro's girlfriend and her sister to form a family harmony to set me free. Unfortunately, since I gave the last of my talent to pitch in, I almost died."
Boom looked as if he were on the verge of tears.
"Don't worry, my brothers revived me with family love. Then, Veneer confessed to the crimes he and Velvet had done. He had a change of heart, but had to go the big house to serve his time. I hope he finds people who treat him with kindness. Afterwards, I forgave my older brothers and rebanded. So yeah, that's my story."
"Wow...I'm sorry all of that happened to you."
"It's okay, I only have the present to focus on now," Floyd responded with a smile, and looked at his brothers, cheerfully socializing with the other members of Kismet.
"Hey guys! We should go now," called Branch. Poppy's definitely gonna go looking for me if we don't leave now," he muttered under his breath.
"Bye, it was nice meeting you!" Floyd said as he got up to leave.
Boom suddenly realized he forgot the most important thing to say when you meet someone. "Wait! I...never got your name."
"Floyd."
"OH MY GOSH, THAT'S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL NAME I'VE EVER HEARD!" Boom exclaimed in enchantment. Just then, he realized he replied in a way that was a tad extreme.
Floyd blushed in a shade of rosy pink. "Thank you," he replied with a grin. "What's yours?"
"Boom."
"Nice name," replied Floyd.
They shared a smile and locked eyes. They were so into the moment that they couldn't hear Kismet's mischievous laughs or see BroZone's knowing smiles.
"Floyd! Let's go!" shouted Branch.
"Bye,"
"Bye."
As the two groups dispersed, John Dory put his arm around Floyd.
"Well brother, I think this is the start..."
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"...of a beautiful friendship!" Trickee chimed. Boom nodded agreeably.
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note: sooo, i've had this idea in my head since last night. if you want to give me ideas on how i could do better, tell me in the replies. should I write more in the future?
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mako-neexu · 27 days
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smth smth rambles that are entirely my opinion and i could be wrong (so dont attack me) you know this chapter made guda, fuijmaru ritsuka with already Many Issues worse is because of "mash" or rather kyrie's death but ultimately comes back to mash...that dantes did for them.
we even see a while back how guda was already shaken by not knowing whether mash is safe during lb6 after that fog like their priority is mash. mash.
they were already frantic as soon as they remembered mash almost questioning everyone about her whereabouts and immediately got reckless just trying to reach her at norwich. and when only when they were together did the "narrator" emphasize on the sheer relief guda felt like-- wow the obvious signs in OC chapter 2 makes you realize furthermore that guda's sanity hangs on a thin thread named 'mash' asdfgh
yes guda loves mash!! yes they care about her!!! but look and read at how guda tells absolutely nothing to mash- and that applied the same to kyrie!
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kyrie wanted to know and ask her senpai about the situation like we see her really wanting it but ultimately backtracking in the end because she trusts guda and she's even supportive. and guda was grateful/relieved that she stays innocent about the weird things going on in their tokyo.
they do compromise at one point that if kyrie really demands on explanations, guda would tell her but...
guda doesnt tell her anything, (kyrie believes in her senpai so even when faced with death, kyrie didnt break under pressure) keeps her in the dark so no one comes after her. for her to be ultimately safe. so she remains...innocent, normal who stands alongside "mama" and "little sister" as they arent involved in the first place about whats been happening. and guda wants to keep it that way for their family. not a real family, but a family nonetheless that cared about guda. an epitome of normal- which mash kyrielight has attained.
and now you see guda, who, upon waking up asks mash kyrielight if she was okay. if she was alright. guda doesnt stop their questions until mash answered. and so mash answered.
"I'm okay, Senpai. My vital signs are normal... so I'm completely okay."
all the while guda had just dismissed being in pain literally one minute ago and just hugged her tight. they "save mash the trouble" to tell her about the pains they went through in the singularity so as not to burden mash. so they stuff their pain inside the corner of their heart again, completely satisfied with mash's safety and disregarding their own health. (you also see in section 23 that theyre cherishing the normal and small moments with mash.)
mash is normal. mash looks pure to guda, her heart filled with "color" in comparison to guda whose heart has become "transparent". an inverse character development which will ultimately destroy them both.
for mash, who sees her Senpai as strong and unwavering, the image of kindness and strength when they held her hand during part 1 crushed by a coffin which she continues to believe them to be that way until now.
for guda, who sees mash as someone who's become normal. one last remnant that reminds them of a past life lost, mash with that purity and normalcy becoming an ideal to protect (as if she was glass) because they no longer have their own. (and mash is also literally the only one left close to guda, who remembers all the events of part 1. which... adds more to how losing mash would break guda even further.)
(also we see guda say 'tadaima' coming home to an empty house, the loss of kyrie and their family still in mind, and a little later, the Avenger mindset comes back and settles in as they're plagued by bloodlust. then when guda comes back to mash, their home, mash is their home. do you realize that? do you realize what im saying? mash says: "welcome home, senpai." and that was enough for guda. that eased everything in guda's tumultuous heart.)
i remembered guda avoiding on telling "mom" that they and kyrie were near the "gas leak site" / britoalter's battleground so like.....of course their lying to medical staff about getting back to the battlefield would carry over here.
deliberately making sure the "normal" components of their fake high school life remain untainted is what we see guda do. they shouldered everything, terrifying as it is, just to protect them but ended up inevitably losing them in the process.
there's also that contrast in seeing a dead body between kyrie and guda. kyrie still stood strong against dantes and remained rational and calm while telling "ojisama" that this wasnt good for guda. meanwhile guda, while still able to think about calling the ambulance after seeing the da vincis absolutely lost their mind when it came to kyrie which their mind thought of mash- and i think guda thought of both as 'one' person so they went absolutely insane right then and there
during the conversation with amatsuka, thats the part where guda became finally stable. because its implied guda's mental state really broke at kyrie's death which their mind automatically thought it to be "=mash is dead". but ukelele-senpai saved the day by reminding guda where they are, if mash and kyrie were the same person, and helping guda calm down and think of seeing that blue sky with mash during the part 1 epilogue.
and augh guda you shit!!! you need therapy!! dont put mash in a pedestal!! dont treat her as if she's fragile!! dont treat her like porcelain meant to be protected while you take on everything for the sake of keeping mash safe because she is the only remnant of your past left, because she is the only "normal" person you have left!!! guda you need to understand that if ever mash gets hurt someday or dies and its out of your control, you need to understand that it wont be your fault!! you need to understand that because someday you will part ways with her as well and you need to be able to be ready to lose again. if you lose mash once and for all, what will you do!?!?!? this is not healthy guda!! gudaaa you hear me!!?? gudaaaaaaa
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watchmegetobsessed · 2 years
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FAMILY FIRST
A/N: our fav little family has had so many lovely fluffy fics, though i would take it to a bit more serious direction! also, i didn't want the week to pass without a new fic especially since i reached 11k followers which is just absolutely crazy!! so thank you so much for each and every one of you!!
PAIRING: husband!dad!Harry X Reader
SUMMARY: Harry is a great dad, but sometimes he messes it up and you have to remind him that family comes first.
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Harry knows your silence is worse than when you scream and shout at him. Whenever you give him radio silence he knows he fucked up, royally.
This week has been way more hectic than usually. Harry’s been traveling a lot lately, leaving you alone with the kids for days at a time and though you knew there would be times when he can’t be around as much as he usually does, with Leo here it’s even harder than before.
You have help, lots of it actually, Anne, Gemma and your parents are always happy to take over some babysitting duties and you have a trustin nanny as well, but you and Harry have always been the type of parents who like to do everything themselves. Your life is crazy enough already since you’re married to a celebrity, but especially because of that, you want your private everydays to be as normal as possible. 
You’ve always been supportive when it came to Harry’s career, but you also made it very clear that you expect him to put his family first. And for most of the time he kept his promises he made to you about being a father first and then an artist.
However sometimes things pile up around him and he forgets his priorities.
He came home just yesterday from LA, his tan is a clear sign he’s been away from his home country. He has a few days at home until he needs to leave again, so it was obvious this time would be reserved for his family and daddy duties. Unfortunately some last minute work came up and he needed to meet up with Jeff and his team in the middle of his time off.
You rescheduled your plans and Anne offered to take care of the cooking which was supposed to be Harry’s task while you’re running errands. In the afternoon he promised to pick Ellie up from her dance class while you get the twins from school, and he was supposed to pick up your dresses from the dry cleaner as well since it was on his way to Ellie’s dance school. This plan left him almost the whole day to take care of whatever work just came up.
But it’s not at all how it happened.
You just got done at the supermarket, Leo strapped to your chest as you carried two bags full of groceries when you got a call from Ellie’s dance teacher.
“Y/N, hi! Sorry to bother, but are you coming to pick Ellie up today?” the teacher asks in the most polite way, but you can tell she’s worried too.
“Oh, my husband is supposed to pick her up, he’s not there yet?” you ask, checking the time and seeing her class has ended fifteen minutes ago.
“No, he hasn’t showed up yet.”
“Wow, okay, let me give him a call and I’ll get back to you, okay?” you sigh. 
“Sure!”
You put Leo into his seat and then dial Harry’s number while leaving the parking lot. The line just rings and rings through the speakers since you have your phone connected to them, and then he never answers. You try again, but no luck this time either. You can already feel your headache throbbing since now you have to take care of everything on your own. You give Ellie’s teacher a callback, asking if she can stay there until you pick the twins up and make your way to the dance school. She says it’s fine, Ellie can join in on the class that’s just about to start and wait for you until you arrive. You thank her cooperation and drive just a tad bit faster than the usual to do everything Harry was supposed to do as well.
Harry knows he fucked up the moment he realizes how late it is when he finally leaves his meeting, two missed calls from you fifteen minutes after he was supposed to pick Ellie up. Only two, no more. Some people fear it when they have millions of missed calls, but Harry knows you don’t do that. You reach out once, then give it another go and then you take matters in your own hands.
It’s six thirty, Ellie’s dance class was over at five and the dry cleaner closes at six. He did not complete any of the tasks he was supposed to and he can’t even make up for any of them now.
He speeds down the roads like a maniac as he heads home, cursing under his breath continuously, knowing how badly he fucked up. Your car is already parked in the garage when he arrives and walking into the house he finds the kids finishing up their dinner while you’re feeding Leo from a bottle.
You don’t even look at him when he walks in, but the kids greet him with excitement as always, since they didn’t catch much of the mess-up he caused. The twins were picked up in time and Ellie had a blast joining in on another dance class until you arrived. You made it to the dry cleaners just in time as well, but because of the little extra trip you had to make you only got home about thirty minutes ago, quickly heated up the dinner Anne left for you out on the stove and dinner was exactly on time, luckily. But that doesn’t change the fact that you had to do it all by yourself. 
“Daddy!” Maddy cheers and hopping off of her chair she runs up to hug him.
“Hi Princess, sorry I’m so late,” he breathes out, Picking the girl up into his arms and giving her a tight hug.
“Hi dad!” Ellie and Max greets him as well as they leave the table since they finished their dinner already.
“Hey, Y/N, I’m so sorry–” he starts, but you cut him off, still not looking at him.
“Guys, how about you go up to your rooms and pack your bags for tomorrow, hm?”
“Okay!” they sing in unison and you wait until their footsteps die down so that they are out of hearing range before finally looking at Harry.
He wants you to lash out on him, to tell him how badly he fucked up, to scream and shout, but you just give him a disappointed look and nothing else as you put Leo’s now empty bottle down and holding him on your chest you start burping him.
“Y/N, I am so sorry. I didn’t mean to disappear, I just couldn’t leave that fucking meeting and when I looked at the time it was so late, I’m so sorry!”
Rocking around the kitchen, gently smacking Leo’s back you still remain silent and Harry is starting to panic. He hates your silence, as much as he deserves it, he could scream when you don’t talk to him. 
“Please, baby, just say something!” he begs and you look at him again with that disappointed look that completely shatters his heart.
“You were not a dad today, Harry. You were Harry Styles, the singer, the star, but you were supposed to be my husband, my partner, the father to your kids. You made promises and you didn’t just not keep them, you left everything to me and didn’t even take the time to at least let me know.”
“I know, I’m so sorry, baby! I fucked up, so bad! I’m so so sorry!” Stepping closer he notices you don’t back away from him, but when he cups your face in his palm you don’t lean into his touch like you usually do and it’s like a slap across his face.
“I don’t need your apology. I need you to be there when we need you. We decided to start a family together and I told you in the beginning that I don’t want to feel like I’m a single mother. You promised to always put your family first and I accepted that sometimes you won’t be here. We have a support system, I’m not entirely alone, but when you don’t do the things you promise to, I can’t just make everyone stop what they are doing and help me. We are the parents of our kids, Harry. Before Anne, Gemma or my parents, or any nanny, we come first, we need to take care of them, but I can’t do it without you.”
Harry just stands there, completely destroyed, listening to your words, knowing you’re right. He knows he messed this one up badly and he needs to hear this from you.
“Four kids, Harry. We have four kids. Do you not realize how big of a responsibility is just one kid? And we have four, one of them is just a baby. A baby you begged me to have. And you know I love all of our children more than anything, but I did not sign up for this on my own. I need my partner, I need my husband, I can’t do this without you.”
Your eyes are now getting teared up, your lips trembling. You had to be on top of your game earlier with the kids, but now you’re realizing just how this situation made you feel. Before having Ellie it was one of your biggest fears that one day you’d be left alone with all the parent duties because of Harry’s career. Now, you know it won’t happen, but in times like this you can’t help but feel like he is shifting into the wrong direction. 
“Fuck, I’m so sorry, Y/N. This was… I just got lost for a moment, but I know I’m a father and husband first, I want to be that first! Everything else… it doesn’t matter if I don’t have you and the kids. I would give it all up for our family, I love you guys more than anything and I promise it will never happen again!”
Now he is crying too, he pulls you into his arms, Leo still in your hold and this time you lean against him willingly, the tough act is already gone.
“I don’t want you to give it up. I would never ask you that, I just want you to be present when you’re with us, so I can rely on you.”
“I will. And I’m so sorry I disappointed you today. And thank you for being the most amazing woman I know. You always take care of our family, even when I’m being a wanker.”
You laugh through your tears as you adjust the babbling baby in your arms, who has no idea about the conversation that just went down in his presence. 
“You really was a wanker today. I wanted to punch you so badly when Ellie’s dance teacher called me,” you tell him, but the anger is now gone, you just want to load it all out on him.
“You know what? Do it. Hit me, I deserve it.”
“Shut up,” you roll your eyes laughing. Harry smirks at you, taking your face into his hands as he pulls you in for a sweet makeup kiss. 
“Ah, okay, so you want to channel your anger in the bedroom, I get it,” he smirks against your lips. “I’m fine with that, we can be rough tonight.”
“Harry Styles, you are such a pig, I can’t believe I married you.”
“I can’t believe it either,” he smiles, taking Leo from your arms. “You’re way too out of my league, why did you settle with me?” he jokes around.
“Because you have a big dick,” you answer with a straight face and Harry did not expect an answer like this, he starts coughing while laughing, adjusting the baby in his arms. 
“Alright, I’ll take that, thank you,” he chuckles and leaning closer he steals a kiss, right when Maddie starts crying somewhere upstairs, she probably got into an argument with Max again. “I got it, daddy is on duty tonight. Just go and relax, baby.”
“I’ll clean up in the kitchen,” you sigh, but he shakes his head no.
“Nope, I’m doing that too. Go and watch some Netflix or take a nice bath. You’re off tonight.”
“Alright,” you smile and steal another quick kiss before Harry disappears upstairs to settle the argument between the twins. 
The bath sounded nice, so that’s what you do while Harry covers the evening routine like a pro, putting everyone to bed while you have some time to pamper yourself and wash your hair without someone bursting into the bathroom and invading your privacy that’s been nonexistent for about seven years now. 
When the kids are down Harry takes a quick shower and joins you in bed, craving to be close to you after such a stressful day. He spoons you from behind, strong arms holding you tight in his hold as he kisses your shoulder.
“I love you and I’m sorry about today.”
“I love you too and you’re forgiven,” you chuckle softly.
“I want to make it up to you. I hope you don’t have plans for Saturday.”
“I don’t, but you do, you’re flying out on friday, aren’t you?” you ask as you turn around to face him.
“Canceled my trip, I’ll do the interview online. I’ve been away too much lately, I want to be here. So, date night on Saturday? Already asked my mum, she can babysit for us.”
“Date night it is then,” you smile before leaning in to kiss him. This is exactly the man you fell in love with, the one you decided to have a family with and the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Your Harry, your love, your partner forever.
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callsign-joyride · 11 months
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Ok but, Hangman as guy in your neighborhood, you are both back from college, he has a “she grew up hot” moment, and starts “coincidentally” mowing his lawn and washing the car at the same time she walks her dog. Summer fling, maybe 17 on the SOS prompt, really whatever you think works
Honey, Honey | Jake "Hangman" Seresin
Summary: You lose your virginity to Jake after he walks in on you.
Content warnings: SMUT (18+), female masturbation, fingering, protected p in v
Prompt: "Oh no, don't stop on my account. I'm really enjoying the view."
Author's note: I kind of got lost in the sauce while writing and didn't follow the request exactly but I hope that's okay. It still has the same girl next door trope!
This was written for my Summer of Smut writing event. Feel free to send in requests!
You had been looking forward to moving back home after college graduation for months. Going to school in California had been your dream, but you missed the way that Texas felt like home. A few of your friends stayed local after high school, so it was one of the rare moments where you were able to hang out as a group. Your San Diego apartment had been mostly vacated, but you and your roommate had decided to rent it out as an Air BnB for the summer because it was in the heart of the city. 
“I think that Seresin boy might be back for a few weeks,” your mom said over dinner. 
You dropped your fork on your plate and sighed. Of course she brought him up. He was about a decade older than you, and your mom was never really able to let go of the fact that you had a crush on him when you were little. When he left to join the Navy, you stayed close with his family, occasionally coming over for cookouts or playing with the littles. 
“Good for him,” you grumbled out.
The Seresins were having a cookout for Memorial Day Weekend. Your parents were out of town attending a wedding of some friends. You grabbed a hard seltzer from the fridge in the garage before walking over to the neighbors. Mrs. Seresin greeted you and grabbed a lawn chair so that you could sit by the campfire.
“Wow, you really grew up,” Jake said as he plopped into a chair next to you.
“Well, I haven’t really seen you in what, ten, fifteen years? A lot of growing up happened in that time.”
“So, you in college or…?”
“Just graduated from UC San Diego, actually. I wanted to spend the summer at home before shit gets real, so here I am.”
He raised his eyebrows at the mention of San Diego.
“I’m stationed at North Island right now. It’s kind of surprising that we haven’t run into each other.”
“I don’t think it is, though. San Diego is big and I live like ten minutes from campus. So unless you’re bar hopping with a bunch of 20-year-olds, I doubt we would’ve run into each other.”
Jake chuckled in agreement and scooted closer to you. Maybe it was a combination of the summer heat and your drink, or maybe it was just Jake, but you felt a warmth in your stomach. It was almost like he wanted to kiss you, but more guests started arriving and he had to forfeit his seat to help his dad with the grill. You talked to other people in the neighborhood while eating and playing games. You didn’t realize how much you had to drink until almost everyone had left at around midnight. 
“Alright, I think I’m gonna head home. Woah,” you said as you stood up and grabbed your empty can.
“Do you need someone to walk you home, honey?” Mrs. Seresin asked.
“I think I’ll be fine. It’s just right next door.”
“Okay. Well, we’re here if you need anything. There’s always someone home so feel free to come by whenever.”
“Thank you.”
Jake opened the gate for you as you left and you mumbled a thank you before heading over to your house. Maybe it was because you were desperately single, but Jake looked just as good as you remembered. Better, actually. You kicked your shoes off by the front door and reached into your bag for your earbuds. One of the network channels was doing a marathon of all of the Marvel movies, so you put that on and lay on the couch.
Jake’s mom talked him into checking in on you when they were done cleaning up the yard. He was only reluctant to go because he was sweaty and tired from being outside for most of the day. What he didn’t expect though, was to walk into your house and hear you moaning. You couldn’t see him because the back of the couch was towards the back door, and you couldn’t hear him because you had your earbuds in.
“Oh my God!” You gasped. Your hand was still in your shorts but you were too busy freaking out about the fact that Jake `had just walked in on you to worry about that.
“Oh no, don’t stop on my account. I’m really enjoying the view,” he said. He stood in front of you and nudged your legs open before taking your hand out of your shorts. His calloused hand replaced your smooth one and you pulled him closer to you before moaning.
“You’re so beautiful,” he said before leaning in for a kiss. It was a clash between tongues and teeth as he got you off and slowed his pace.
“I-I’ve never-,”
“What?”
You sighed as you looked at the cocky smirk on his face.
“Jake, I’m a virgin.”
“Wait, really? How? Look at you. You’re hot.”
“I’ve done other stuff but I’ve never… y’know.”
“Do you want to?”
You felt the blood rush to your cheeks before you looked at your feet. 
“With you? Yeah. Why? Is that bad?”
“Bad? Hey, don’t be shy. We can do this but only if you want to.”
“I want to.”
“Alright. Where’s your room?” 
You stared at him in confusion.
“You’re not losing your virginity on a couch. At least let me be proper about it.”
You nervously led him up the stairs and to your room. You moved to California pretty much right after graduating highschool, so not much had changed. It still looked like a teenager’s room because you were usually home from college for a week or two at a time. You weren’t particularly embarrassed about it until now, with the lilac colored walls and stuffed animals everywhere.
“Um, I’m not here all the time. Here, let me…”
Jake watched as you cleared the bed of your stuffed animals and throw pillows. He was trying not to laugh. You turned to him and smiled once you lit the cinnamon roll scented candle on your dresser. He sat you on the bed and started to kiss you before laying you down and taking your shorts off. You couldn’t help but grind yourself against him, and both of you groaned at the feeling. A wet spot was starting to form on the crotch of his grey basketball shorts and you could see the outline of his cock.
“I gotta get you ready,” he whispered into your ear as he tugged your panties off and started to finger you. You writhed in his arms as he got you closer to your release, and he slowly pulled his fingers out of you before grabbing his wallet and taking out a condom.
You looked at him with wide eyes once he took his shorts and boxers off. His cock hit his chest and he was huge. You were kind of able to guess, since he was well built and athletic, but you were still intimidated by the size.
“I’ll go slow. Tell me if you want me to stop, okay?”
“Okay.”
You let out a gasp as he started to enter you. He could tell that you were tense with pain, so he leaned down and kissed you while moving one of your legs to rest on his hip. You let out a cry when he was fully inside of you.
“I’m sorry. Are you hurt? Do you want me to stop?”
“I… No, I don’t want you to stop but it hurts a little.”
“That’s normal. Here, let me move you so that you’re on top. You’ll have more control.”
“Okay.”
Jake guided himself into you and put his knees up so that he could help you ride him. With his hands on your hips, you were quickly bouncing on his cock. He knew that he wasn’t going to last much longer with the way you were moaning his name, and you could see it in his eyes. So it wasn’t much of a surprise when he pulled your hips down and stilled inside of you. He rolled the two of you over while he was still inside and started to rub your clit while going through the motions of the rest of his orgasm. He grunted in your ear when you came around him and slowly pulled out of you after a few moments.
“Where’s your bathroom? I’m gonna get a towel and clean you up,” he said. You sat up and looked at him as he walked to your bedroom door.
“Right across the hall. Did I bleed?”
“A little, but it’s nothing to worry about. I’ll be right back.”
Jake was gone for a lot longer than you thought he would be. You were somewhat surprised when he finally walked back into your room with two glasses of water and a damp washcloth in his hands. The washcloth was warm, too. He threw the washcloth in your hamper when he was done and climbed in the bed next to you.
“You’re staying the night?” You asked.
“I can leave if you want me to.”
“No, it’s fine. I kind of like this,” you said as you scooted into his arms.
“So, do you plan on staying in San Diego when you get back?”
“Yeah. I have a job lined up and everything. Why?”
“I wanna take you on a date sometime. I know a few good spots.”
“Sure. Wait, how long are you in town for?”
“Another week and a half.”
“We could just go out while we’re both here. Get the first date out of the way, y’know.”
“Your mom would freak if I picked you up, though.”
“Okay, get your head out of the 1950’s. We’re both adults who can drive. It’ll be fine. Plus I’m pretty sure my mom has wanted me to get with you since I transferred to UC San Diego. She’d probably be popping champagne if she found out about all of this, honestly.”
“Well, it’s good to hear that I’ve already got mom’s approval.”
You laughed and grabbed your phone before turning your lamp off. You fell asleep listening to some ocean sounds. When you woke up, Jake was smiling and scrolling through social media. He put his phone down and hugged you before going to make breakfast. He gave you his phone number before leaving. You were a giggly mess as you laid back on the couch and texted your closest friends about the events that had happened the night before.
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Have my back (Rúben Dias)
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** Little angst imagine based on an anon request. I hope you, and everyone else, like it ❤️ **
After a long day at your internship, you were still stuck at your desk working. You were so focused on that, that you didn’t hear your boyfriend approaching and jumped on your seat when he touched your shoulders to massage them.
“Sorry”, he laughed. “You are so tense. Is this chair even comfortable? We might need to buy a new one”.
The mention of buying things always made you feel weird. Since you got your degree, both you and Rúben decided that the best thing for you was to do an internship you had been offered. It was a great opportunity and meant you’d probably be able to get a better job in the future. But for the present, it meant that your salary was almost nothing.
It was definitely not enough to live in a city like Manchester. You wanted to continue your part-time job, but Rúben refused. 
That’s when you moved in with him and allowed him to be pretty much the one who financed your life. It wasn’t exactly the strong independent woman lifestyle you had dreamt of, that was for sure. But you were working towards that. 
Rúben never made you feel bad about it. Quite the opposite. He always reasoned with you to make you understand how your career was more important than your ego. Still, whenever someone made comments about it, it stung. And some of his friends loved to joke about it. You were still trying to find what was so funny about it.
“So what are we doing for the holidays then?”, he said, grabbing another chair to sit next to you.
“Don’t know. What do you want to do? Go to Portugal?”
“I would like that, yes. There is still so much you haven’t seen and I want to show you all. Plus, my family likes you more than they like me so they'll want to see you”.
You laughed at that. “Can’t blame them for having good taste, babe”.
His answer was a little pinch on your bum.
“Ok, so Portugal with my family and then maybe a week with my friends?”, your smile dropped at that comment. “What?”
“Nothing. I just…maybe it’s best if you go with your friends by yourself. I can stay with your family or come back here”.
“No, I want you with me. Don’t be silly”.
But instead of answering, you just looked at the papers on the desk.
“Come on. You don’t like my friends now?”
“It’s not that. I just feel out of place there. Being the only woman and I don’t know, they’ll probably be the ones annoyed by my presence”.
“They won’t”, he said firmly. “And if they are, too bad for them, I want you there and I’m the one paying for their holidays”.
He probably didn’t realize that this comment was going to hurt you. He was paying for your holiday too. 
“Let’s agree to a maybe. I’ll go to Portugal with you and if I don’t feel like going to that week away with you guys, I won’t. And if I’ve changed my mind, I will go”.
“I’ll change your mind”, he said with a big smile and gave you a quick kiss before leaving you to work some more before dinner.
**
As with most things, Rúben actually managed to convince you to do what he wanted, and in this case it was to come on the holiday with him and his friends. You weren’t thrilled about it but you were more excited than you expected.
You all met at the airport, where a private jet was waiting for all of you. Being scared of flying, the size of the plane didn’t actually help you. But thankfully Rúben knew about it and was by your side the whole time.
“We haven’t even left and you two are already attached to the hip. Are we ever going to just get you alone or are you two a 2 for 1 offer?", said one of Rúben’s friends, rolling his eyes.
“Shush, she gets nervous on flights and the jet makes it worse”.
“Wow, the jet isn’t good enough for the princess”.
You were used to those digs. As you were used to Rúben not saying anything to his friends when they said those things to you. 
The nerves were getting worse so you just ignored it and concentrated on cuddling with your boyfriend. You could hear his heartbeat and decided to focus on that, rather than the plane taking off.
**
A couple of days later, you were all nursing hangovers and laying in the sunbeds trying to relax.
One of the boys walked in front of your sunbed without paying attention and tripped on your sandals.
“Shit! Sorry”, he said, grabbing the sandals to put them back where they were. You lifted your sunglasses to look at him. “Well, these aren’t cheap flip-flops, huh?”
You put your sunglasses back and lay back with a sigh. 
“Rúben bought them for you?”, he asked, and you could hear the sarcasm.
“No, I’ve actually had them for years. Bought before meeting him”.
He didn’t like that response and left you to keep sunbathing. You felt so annoyed that you decided to leave and go back to your bedroom. Maybe you could read for a little while.
“What are you doing here?”, asked Rúben half an hour later. He had gone for a run and left you outside, so he was surprised to find you gone when he came back.
“Sun was too strong”, you lied.
“Are the boys behaving?"
“Sure. Like they always do”.
You knew he could tell by your tone that you meant the complete opposite, but he just went to the shower instead of talking about it more.
That same day you had planned for a quieter night after two days of too much partying. 
“How can you look so good?”, whispered Rúben while he was hugging you from behind. Looking at your reflection in the mirror while you finished getting your jewellery on.
“Maybe we could stay here alone?”, you said, turning to face him.
He just laughed. “We’ll be back soon”.
Your smile dropped when you knew he wasn’t looking.
The dinner was going well and you were all talking about how it was almost time to go back to work.
"Can't wait", you said, rolling your eyes.
"You could always work a little less hard. I'm sure the world won't end if you do", Rúben said, winking at you.
"My world would", you joked back.
"Oh my God, just drop the act!", said the same friend that always has something to say about everything you say or do.
"What do you mean?", you asked, getting more annoyed. Rúben was holding your hand trying to calm you but you were too tired.
"That you bore us all with your big job act. Once you get bored of pretending to be a lawyer you'll just stay home spending your boyfriend's money. Everyone knows that".
You could notice him tensing, but he still didn't say anything.
"What do you even know? You see me two days every 6 months and just spend the whole time being a dick to me!".
"Hey", said Rúben, in a tone that made you realize he was annoyed by your reaction.
"What?", you asked, not turning to look at him. "Am I supposed to always sit back and let him call me names? I have definitely gotten bored of that!"
"I'm just saying you are overreacting and making a scene".
"A scene? You're more worried about that than about your girlfriend being called a gold-digger for the 50th time today. And you won't say a thing about it".
"I just want everyone to get on well".
To that, his friend laughed.
"Having fun?", you said, shooting daggers with your eyes. "Maybe you need a reminder that if I'm taking advantage of Rúben then so are you. Have you actually paid for something the whole time we've been here?"
"Enough!!", you heard Rúben say, barely raising his voice but his tone was more than enough.
"Unbelievable. This is why I didn't want to come but you fucking insisted. Happy? Happy with this?"
When you got up to leave, Rúben followed you.
"Where are you going?"
"To the villa. I can't stand any of you right now".
"You're not going anywhere alone. Something could happen to you".
"I'll get a taxi", you said, moving your arm so he can't grab it.
"Stop being a child! If you're leaving let me at least call the taxi for you and make sure you are safe. No, I actually have to go back with you. Great!"
You couldn't believe his attitude.
"You are right. Go ask the bartender to call a taxi. They know the good companies".
He gave you a hopeful look before leaving. He thought you would behave, but the moment he moved, you went out and left him and his asshole friends alone.
Not being interested in the sports the boys played during the mornings, you had actually explored this side of the island well. And you knew a couple of routes to go back to the villa. All of them well light and full of businesses of all types, so you'll be safe walking home alone. Besides, it wasn't even dark out. 
You actually took your time, to think and to relax. It was one thing for Rúben to never defend you but to actually turn you into the bad guy? Fuck him!
What hurt the most about those comments was that they made you think everyone thought that, but only this dickhead dared say it. Did Rúben's parents think the same? The thought made your heart ache.
Half an hour later, you made it to the villa and were surprised by seeing the lights on.
"Finally! Where were you? Why did you leave your phone here? Do you know how worried I was?"
A part of you wanted to hug him and just fix everything. But the moment you thought about doing that, his words at the restaurant came back to your mind.
"I'm going to take a shower", you said, startling him.
"Are you mad? You disappear giving me a heart attack and now you pretend like nothing happened?"
"Yes, I'm doing the same thing you do when your friends treat me like shit. Pretend it didn't happen. Am I doing it right?"
That hit a nerve. You could tell how much self control he was exercising at the moment.
"You're right, you shouldn't have come".
And after saying that, he left you alone in the room. The rage in your body made you literally shake, so you started to take deep breaths. And headed for the shower.
**
After the shower, you saw you had a text from Rúben's mum and decided to call her.
She was patiently listening to you and her kindness made you start crying.
"Come back here with us. We'll be happy to have you and my idiot son can miss you a couple of days and see what he's done".
"You sure? I don't want to impose".
"I'll book your flight now and send you the details. And I'll bake your favourite cake so it's ready when you get here".
"You're too good to me", you said to her, thankful to finally see that someone supported you.
"Yeah, well, I wouldn't be good to a gold-digger who takes advantage of my son", she said, making you laugh.
Once you hang up, you went to bed to try to sleep. Rúben wasn't back and that was fine by you. 
During your restless night, you heard him come back and get in bed with you. It was obvious he could tell you weren't actually sleeping, but he didn't say a word.
When you got up in the morning, you finished packing your things. Your flight was in 3 hours, so it was almost time to leave.
"What are you doing?", said Rúben when he saw you sorting your bags.
"Leaving".
"You are not serious. Are you going to leave instead of talk?"
"Talking right now is probably the worst idea. You'll just hurt me more", but his face showed that it was him who had been hurt by those words.
"And where are you going then?"
"To your parents. To people that actually want me there".
"I'll go with you", he said, approaching you slowly.
"Sorry, your mum said you're not invited".
And with that you left for the airport. You removed all the notifications you got from the messages Rúben was sending, and that you weren't planning on reading right now, and a couple of hours later you were back in Portugal.
**
Those four days did wonders for you. It really was you surrounded by people that liked you. Any idea of them thinking badly of you was gone for good. 
And tomorrow it was time to go back to Manchester, which you knew meant that Rúben will be back today. Obviously, you missed him and wanted to see him. But you were also still hurt and his crappy apologies via text hadn't done much to help.
You were busy playing with one of his little cousins when you heard his voice. Both him and his mum were whispering, but you could tell she was telling him off and that made you smile. It was nice to finally have someone who defended you. Even from her own son's stupidity.
"Hi", both you and his cousin turned when you heard Rúben's voice but the reactions were different.
She jumped from her seat to go hug him, while you didn't really know how to approach this.
"Why don't you go to the kitchen? There are some muffins you can eat".
Once she was gone, he sat next to you.
"Are you not even going to say hi to me?"
"Hi".
"I missed you", he said quietly, grabbing your hand.
"Yeah well, whose fault was that?"
He sighed. "Can I apologize again and then we move on? I'm tired of this. I want my girlfriend back".
"I'm not going anywhere, but I get to be hurt. And I can hurt for as long as I want to".
"What do you want me to do? Name it and I'll do it".
"I want you to have my back. It's not as if I'm asking for the moon".
You left to go to your room and he followed you. 
"I have your back, always".
"Except when your friends insult me", you told him, not believing how he just couldn't get it.
"They are joking. They tell the same things to each other all the time. There's no need to be so sensitive about it".
"Sensitive? So once again I am the problem", you sat on the bed and then got up again, not knowing what to do to control your annoyance. "They might tell each other the same jokes, but guess what? They are friends. They know each other. They know their own boundaries. They don't know mine".
"I get that but still…", he tried to say.
"But nothing, Rúben. They don't even say the worst things in front of you. What does that tell you about them?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean the time when one asked me about my ex and when I told him about him and his job his response was that of course I dumped him to be with you because he was poor. Just to give you one example".
"He said that?", he said, starting to realise the extent of the situation.
"Said it in front of your mum even. You can ask her if you don't believe me. And do you know what she did?"
He shook his head.
"She defended me".
After saying that, you left to go back to the kitchen. There was another huge farewell dinner for you and you wanted to help with it.
**
At the dinner, Rúben sat next to you but everyone could tell something wasn't right. I mean, you leaving him to come back was already a big hint. But barely acknowledging him during the evening cemented their worries.
"He is finally realising how much he messed up", said Ruben's mum to you when you were getting the desserts to take to the table.
"Took him a while".
She laughed. "Men".
"I'm sure you'll fix this when you get home", she added, giving you a quick hug.
That was your hope too.
**
The next day was more of the same. But you were actually stuck at the airport with your boyfriend.
When you were on the plane, you grabbed the armrests during take off to help with your nerves. And Rúben took your hands from them, knowing how badly you were feeling.
"What…?"
"Hug me. And it's not a suggestion. Leave your ego to the side for a bit and just hug me, I can tell how scared you already are".
And you were so thankful he was there right now. The flight back to Portugal was torture. 
So you moved to cuddle with him, holding onto his hoodie. And he also put his arms around you, holding you as tight as he could before it would actually hurt. That was what you needed, to not move much and to feel protected by him. 
Twenty minutes into the flight, he started to kiss your head. 
"You don't know how much I missed you".
"I think I can guess. Judging by my own experience", you said softly, making him chuckle.
"I'll never let anyone walk over you again, ok? I was stupid thinking I should not interfere. I get it now. And I swear it won't happen again. Especially with the person who was the nastiest to you. I can't call someone like that a friend".
A tear rolled down your cheek.
"Thank you", you said, hugging him even more tightly. Happy to see he had finally realised what having your back really meant.
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Persiens Week: Day Seven: My Hero | read on ao3
Once upon a time, in a faraway kingdom there lived the royal family. The King and Queen, along with their seven children. Most of the children were responsible and regal. As for the youngest of the family…
“Where were you this time, Percival?” Zeldris asked.
“I heard there was a festival in town today so I wanted to go check it out! …But Schwartz caught me before I could do anything fun.”
“Fun as in…?” Gelda asked, tilting her head.
Zeldris and Gelda loved their son dearly but they knew better than anyone just how often he got himself into trouble. And for good reason because that seemed to be the case this time as well.
“There was a troublesome man… he realized that Sir Percival was from the royal family and tried kidnapping him. Io is questioning him as we speak.”
“How awful…” Gelda instinctively put her arms around Percival protectively. “Thank goodness you’re okay.”
“I’m okay, it was just a misunderstanding.” Percival insisted.
Zeldris let out a sigh. “Wherever you go you keep finding trouble. I’m sorry Percival but I think it’s best if you stay at the castle until we get this issue sorted out.”
“But Dad…”
“Unless of course you have some protection with you.” Zeldris clarified.
“Protection?”
“Percival, this is Nasiens,” Zeldris said, placing a hand on Nasiens’ shoulder. “He’s a holy knight of our court and starting today he’ll be your bodyguard.”
“Assuming all goes well today, of course.” Zeldris added, making Nasiens stiffen up.
“Nasiens, today you’ll accompany Percival to the festival and wherever else he wishes to go. Make sure he’s safe and protect him as you see fit.” Zeldris instructed.
Zeldris softened as his eyes fell on Percival. “And of course make sure my son has fun today.”
Nasiens walked with Percival out of throne room and took him beyond the castle gates.
“Wow, I can’t believe I have my own body guard. I’m starting to feel like someone important,” Percival said, in awe of the whole situation.
“Where would you like to go first, Sir Percival?” Nasiens asked.
“I wanna to go to that festival in town—”
Nasiens put a hand up. “I’m strictly against it,”
“The King gave me orders to go where you wish, yes. But it would be foolish of me to take you back to where you almost got kidnapped.”
“But you’ll be with me, won’t you?” Percival asked, clinging onto Nasiens arm. Nasiens looked down at Percival in shock, taken aback by his actions. “As long as I have you, I’ll be safe I’m sure of it! You’ll be there to protect me, right?”
“So can we go… please?”
Nasiens wanted to say no. He had a bad feeling about going to the festival and he didn’t want to put Percival in any danger. But when Percival was holding onto him, looking at him with such pleading eyes it was impossible to deny him.
“Very well.” Nasiens let out a sigh as Percival cheered.
“But only under one condition. You are to hold my hand and not let go until we return the castle.” Nasiens said, extending his hand out to Percival.
Percival smiled and took his hand. “Okay, let’s go Nasiens!”
Percival ran toward the crowd of people in excitement, dragging Nasiens along with him.
“Wow, a real festival! Look at all these people, Nasiens!” Percival exclaimed, raising his hand in the air.
Percival looked this way and that, unsure of what they should do first. There were so many options, it was a little overwhelming.
“What should we do first?” Percival asked.
“How about some food?” Nasiens pointed at a nearby food stall with fresh-baked pies.
Percival nodded, skipping over to the tent with Nasiens. “One pie, please!”
Nasiens reached into his pocket for his wallet but came up empty-handed. He looked to Percival who had Nasiens’ wallet in his hand, giving the money to the vendor. He stared blankly at him, watching him exchange his money for the pie.
“When did you take my wallet?” Nasiens asked as they went to find an empty table to eat.
“Since before we left the castle,” Percival answered, sitting down. He looked at Nasiens in confusion. “Are you mad I took it?”
“No, just surprised. More at myself than you, really.” Nasiens said, cutting a piece of pie for Percival.
He couldn’t tell if Percival was sneakier than he thought or if the stress of suddenly being ordered to be Percival’s body guard had caught him off guard.
Regardless, this was an important mission for Nasiens and he needed to get his head back on straight. He wasn’t going to let anything distract him from his duties.
“So good!” Percival said with his mouth full of pie. “Try it, Nasiens! You’re going to love it!”
Nasiens took a bite as ordered. “You’re right, it’s delicious.”
Ever since he was a kid Nasiens had dreamt of coming to this festival multiple times but he never got the chance to enjoy it. But he never would’ve imagined he would get the opportunity to visit it with the prince.
“So, Nasiens you must be pretty strong if my parents put you in charge of protecting me. Let me see your muscles!” Percival said, feeling out his arms for muscles.
“Strengths not really my strong suit…” Nasiens chuckled awkwardly, face flushed in embarrassment. “My swordsmanship is were I really shine!”
“Wow, I hope someone attacks us so I can see it in action!” Percival said, eyeing Nasiens’ sword.
“Please don’t hope for that.”
“Can I see you sword, Nasiens?”
If Percival had asked him that at the beginning of the night he probably would’ve said no. But Nasiens had learned by this point that he couldn’t say no to him and even if he did, Percival could’ve taken it without him even noticing.
So he just gave him to him.
Percival unsheathed the weapon, looking at his reflection in the sword. “So shiny! And sharp too!”
“Don’t cut yourself, okay?”
A man stepped forward, placing a hand over Percival’s shoulder. “Prince Percival, looks like we meet again.”
“Pellegarde!”
Nasiens recognized that name well. It was the name of the man that Schwartz and Io had brought in for questioning, the very same that had tried to kidnap Percival.
“Percival, give me back my sword.” Nasiens ordered.
Pellegarde smirked, kicking the sword out of Percival’s hands. “Real men fight without swords, wouldn’t you agree Percival?”
“Bright it on, Pellegarde!”
As Percival charged toward Pellegarde Nasiens ran to get his sword. Percival wrapped his arms around his opponent, grunting as he attempted to flip him over.
“Not gonna be that easy.” Pellegarde chuckled.
He grabbed Percival by the wrist. “Looks like you lose again, kid.”
“Not so fast.” Nasiens said, pointing his sword at Pellegarde. “I don’t know what you want with Percival but I’m not gonna let you hurt him.”
“Hurt him?” Pellegarde asked, raising an eyebrow. He laughed as he was hit with a sudden realization. “I’m not gonna hurt him, we were just training!”
“Training?”
Percival nodded. “That’s right, Pellegarde’s been teaching me how to fight!”
“Fight? But why?” Nasiens asked, putting his sword away.
“I wanna be a holy knight, just like you! But I’m not strong enough to do it yet so I asked Pellegarde for some help.” Percival explained, to which the older man nodded.
Nasiens turned his attention back to Pellegarde. “Well fine, but you should really be more careful or you’re gonna get yourself arrested again.”
“Yeah, my bad.” Pellegarde chuckled, scratching the back of his neck.
As Nasiens walked Percival back to the castle he couldn’t get rid of the awful taste in his mouth. Not only had he almost attacked an innocent man but even if he had he was sure he would’ve lost.
He had to wonder if he was really cut out to be Percival’s body guard.
“Man, today was so much fun!” Percival sang, swinging his arms back and forth. He looked at Nasiens who was frowning. “You’ve been acting strange. What’s wrong?”
“I think you should tell your parents to assign you a new body guard.”
“But why?”
Nasiens clenched his fists tightly. “Because I’m not strong enough to protect you. Under my care… I don’t even wanna think about what would happen.”
“That’s okay, I’m not that strong either.” Percival said, grabbing Nasiens’ hand. He unclenched his fist and intertwined their fingers together. “But I want to get stronger and I know you do. And if we work together you wouldn’t need to protect me because we could protect each other.”
Percival smiled, squeezing his hand. “And I don’t think you have anything feel bad about. Because it was thanks to you that I was able to enjoy the festival at all. You’re my hero, Nasiens.”
Nasiens blushed, looking away. “I think that’s a bit of a stretch… but thank you. I’d love to stay by your side if you’d let me.”
“It’s a promise.”
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I was actually going to sleep then I saw you respond to my ask, I'm actually very interested and intrigued so I wanted to respond immediately!
— Jesus fucking Christ they actually measured the entirety of the ship? That level of hm, how does one describe this, pettiness or determination? Perhaps a sense of both, I mean I'd get petty too if I lost something valuable and ended up getting an unfair compensation. I wonder what the reaction of the Germans were when they realized they actually measured it.
— oh god that's actually so fucking hilarious 😭😭 getting worked up over nothing, I mean, at least they had a design? 😭
— That's quite something, Grey Ghost? Why is QMS nickname Grey Ghost? Does it have relations due to it being not found?
— I... I have no idea what to say 😭 that's actually so ironic
— Holy shit a ship sinking in just 14 minutes is plain terrifying?? Why did it sink that fast anyways?
— Wow... That's actually really sad and quite brave of him too, I don't think I've heard of the Wilhelm Gustloff disaster and 9000 deaths in one night is crazy. Hopefully that guy is doing alright, it's possible he might get survivors guilt, I might research about the disaster and see what I can find!
— woah, the first design is quite pretty! The second one reminds me of a factory for some reason
Ahh this is what little brain juice I can squeeze out from my brain, though I actually enjoyed this and it made my night more interesting! :D I'll head off to sleep now, goodnight!
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— lol apparently? there were more petty things in that affair, such as painting a ship supposed to be given to White Star Line in Germany's colors, turnign the british officers' quarters to a cleaning supply room etc lmao
— it was a design alright ... just not a good one. The wings of the golden eagle fell of during a storm so they're at the bottom of the atlantic right now. The eagle looks even more stupid without the wings😭 (picture at the bottom)
—The ship was painted fully grey because it was used as a troop ship which made it hard to find it. The ship was extremely fast, so it was fast to catch her. These two characteristics earned her the name The Grey Ghost. (picture at the bottom)
— the ships weren't even alike???? one had an funnel and whatnot?? i'm not even sure how they thought that it would work ... and it clearly didn't.
— It was a foggy night and two ships were supposed to go past each other, but in the fog they couldn't see each others lights, so a norweigan ship called Storstad rammed the side of Empress of Ireland and cut up a gigantic hole. The ship itself was almost half the size of titanic. A lot of people died that night because they didn't have the time to get out.
— I'm not even sure it was legal to sink the WG? I know that it had been a hospital ship during WW2 (it's seen as a war crime to sink a hospital ship), but it seems like it had returned to a normal ship during the time WG was sunk. The reason (i think) why it was sunk was because a lot of nazi party members were on board with their families, supposedly relocating to another country, and was sunken by soviet submarines. WIlhelm Gustloff could only carry 1465 passangers, but had around 10 000 during its sinking. Although there were many bad people on board there were children as well. The actor was a small child, so i hope that he doesn't remember much of it, because I cannot imagine the horror he must live with otherwise.
— Unfortunately, the times were changing and the edwardian design was no longer popular :( I would have loved another Olympmic class liner :(
here's a before an after of the eagle lmao
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From left to right: SS Normandie, RMS Queen Mary, RMS Aquitania
I could talk about ocean liners forever. If I got paid by the hour to talk about them I would be so fucking rich I'm telling you
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Tales From Under The Wisteria Tree
Chapter Four - Cielo The Unicorn
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Missa took a while to wake up. He didn’t feel like getting up and leaving Phil. He just took a bit of time to let Phil sleep in his arms.
Eventually even the birds were singing. “Cuervo, we should probably pack up and get going.”
“What?” A muffled voice said as Philza tried to get even closer to Missa. Despite them being so close that it would be called cuddling in any other scenario.
“It’s time to wake up.”
“Nooo…” Missa laughed. Chayanne always hated mornings. 
“I can try and find some food for you.”
“There are strawberries wrapped in a handkerchief in my bag.”
Well there goes the bribe of food. “Will you get up please?”
“Only for you…” Phil said. He was sleep deprived. He clearly didn’t intend for Missa to hear that. And even if he did, it didn’t mean anything. Right?
Missa pulled himself upright. He’d get the strawberries Phil mentioned. 
When Missa saw the strawberries he couldn’t help but let out a gasp. Woah. These were practically perfect. They didn’t look like they’d been in a backpack for two minutes let alone two days. 
He took a bite of one. They were perfect. They might as well have been created by the stars themselves.
“Like them?” Phil asked, his eyes were puffy from sleep, emphasizing his almost catlike pupils.
“They’re amazing.”
“Glad you like them.” Phil smiled. “They’re from my garden back at my house.”
“You grew these?”
“I’ve been growing plants since I was little, its second nature to me.”
Wow. The only thing Missa remembered learning as a kid was singing. But that wasn’t really productive like gardening was it? (At least that’s what spreen said. Music wouldn’t help their family, but learning how to fight would help the whole kingdom. At least that’s what he said before he died when the new king took power…)
“Ready?” Missa stared up at Phil. Oh. He got lost in thought again. 
“Yeah, yeah; I should be good.”
And so they left their makeshift campsite. Making their way west, a trail left by adventurers before them. 
“Have you met any creatures from the tales of the fae before now?” 
“Oh uh…” Did he tell Philza about Chayanne; About the true story of his adoption? He couldn’t risk his son getting hurt. He couldn’t tell anyone. Why did he even think of telling Phil? Nobody could know about Chayanne’s history. Not even Philza.
“No. I haven’t.” 
Phil couldn’t help backing away at the horrible smell of the lie. Why would Missa lie? What fae has he met before?
“Are you sure?”
“Positive.” Missa’s answer was short. Short and sour. Had he had bad interactions with the fae before? Did a fae curse him? Crap.
“I think—“
“Look a unicorn!” Missa whisper-shouted. Philza rolled his eyes at the terr—
Holy shit.
It was a unicorn
Missa slowly made his way into the woods, he pulled out some oats from his bag. He packed food to try and keep animals away but both times he had used it it had been to convince them to come closer. 
The unicorn locked eyes with him. He sat down and offered up the oats to the majestic creature. 
The unicorn rested its head on Missa’s lap and it started eating the oats Missa offered it.
Philza was starstruck.
Missa managed to calm down a wild unicorn. Even the fae with the purest soul couldn’t tame a wild unicorn. Let alone a white unicorn. 
His husband was just sitting there giggling as he pet the unicorn. No. He was not Phil’s husband. He was a travel partner. That’s it. They might be bonded by fae laws but if Missa didn’t know that then Phil would ignore the bond. He would let Missa decide. 
But even the stars couldn’t fault him for the possessive part of him that desperately wanted to call Missa his. If he couldn’t call Missa his husband he’d settle for ‘His Missa’. At least for now.
He realized Missa was petting the unicorn's mane. He was petting the unicorn’s mane. Philza had no right to get angry. It was a touching moment. A beautiful creature trusting his human.
Stars above, he needed to stop being so possessive over Missa. He was a human. He could make decisions for himself.
But he was still angry. Not at Missa, he could never be angry at Missa. He was angry at the unicorn.
Why? It didn’t do anything to hurt Phil. Or more importantly Missa.
Oh. He was jealous. He was jealous that the unicorn got its mane brushed with Missa’s hands. He was jealous that Missa was braiding the unicorn’s mane. He wanted that. He wanted Missa to brush his hair and put little braids into it.
Missa was astonished that the unicorn’s mane was so soft. He whispered to the creature as he braided the soft strands of hair. “Hola Cielo.”
A soft neigh in response.
“Is that your name huh? Cielo?” Missa stopped petting the unicorn but it rubbed its head back into Missa’s hand.
“Ok Cielo, you’re very pretty.” Another neigh, almost like the horse was saying ‘I know’
“I’m heading to the caverns of the night with my friend over there. He’s really nice. Do you want to meet him?”
The unicorn shook its head no.
“¿Que? Can you understand me?”
A nod.
“Well then why don’t you want to meet Philza?”
A flash of orange mixed with deep greens and vibrant pinks filled Missa’s mind.
“What the hell was that!” 
“What was what?” Phil asked, he had started making his way over to Missa and Cielo.
“There was just a huge amount of color out of nowhere!”
“Oh.”
“Oh what?”
“You named it.”
“I what?”
“Did you give it a name?”
“Yeah, Cielo.”
“Shit. You tamed her.”
“Her?”
“Yeah, if you look closely at their manes, males have golden strands mixed into their hair and females have silver.” 
Missa squinted at Cielo’s mane. “Oh.”
“Anyway, you gave her a name, you calmed her down with your kind soul and she accepted you as a friend.”
“With my soul?”
“I really need to start explaining how creatures of the fae work don’t I?” Phil sighed before continuing. “Unicorns can sense the souls of those around them. The lighter in color they are, the harder they are to please. The fact you managed to appease a pure white unicorn means you have a truly kind soul.”
“Oh, but that doesn’t explain the color thing, right?”
“Unicorns communicate with emotions. Because you tamed her she feels a bond to you. She can show you emotions through that bond.”
“Woah, Cielo, were you trying to communicate with me?”
A nod from the unicorn as she stood up. She backed away from Philza, he must have been getting too close for her comfort.
“What did you ask her when she showed you the emotions?”
“I asked why she didn’t want to meet you.”
“Oh…”
“Yeah, then my head was filled with orange, green, and pink.”
“She doesn’t like me.”
“What does that mean?”
“She was reflecting my emotions onto you.”
“What? She can do that?”
“Apparently? I’ve never seen a human bond to a unicorn before, how should I know?”
“So what were you feeling?” Philza looked away, Missa saw a tinge of pink on the tips of his ears. “Are you embarrassed?”
“Yes.” Oh. That surprised Missa. He was expecting Phil to just play it off like nothing bothered him. 
“That’s ok, you don’t have to tell me what you were feeling if you don’t want to.” Missa looked back to where Cielo was meant to be standing. “Cielo?”
“Oh, they do that sometimes. Especially the wild ones.”
“They disappear?”
“She probably traveled to fairyland. She’ll be back.”
“So she’s just going to appear whenever?”
“She’ll come back if she senses you need her. Or when she feels like it. Wild unicorns are a bit like outdoor cats. They do what they want but they’re loyal to you.”
“Oh.”
“C'mon let’s get back on the trail Wisteria. There should be a village about an hour from here. We’ll get there in time for sundown.”
Missa obliged, the nickname rendered him speechless once again but he followed Philza along the path.
“This is the closest civilization to the caverns of the night.” Phil said when they stepped into the village.
“How far away are we?”
“Four hours on foot.”
“So we should stop here for the night.”
“Sounds great to me. There should be an inn around here somewhere…”
Missa spotted a sign in the distance “look ‘the travelers inn’!”
“Great eyesight Wisteria.”
The pair walked to the inn. “Hello!” The innkeeper exclaimed. She was awfully excited for a lady who looked to be about seventy. 
“Hi, rooms for two please.” Phil said, pulling out a bag of coins from his backpack. 
The lady’s smile fell. “We only have one room available. Recently there was a small incident with a customer and well… we only have one room for rent at the moment.”
“Oh.” Missa said.
“That’s ok Miss, we’ll be fine with that.” Phil said.
“Really? Thank you so much! Most travelers have been going to the new fancy inn at the center of town. I just can’t keep up anymore.”
“How much?”
“Oh, 30 gold coins.” Missa’s jaw nearly dropped. That was so cheap for a room. Especially considering the woman was renting out rooms in the closest village to the only known place where dragons liked to nest. 
“Are you sure Miss?” Phil asked, his smile was dropping too.
“Positive. You’ll be on the second floor. Room 201.”
“Thank you again.” Missa said, waving as the two of them walked up the stairs to the room.
When Phil opened the door Missa couldn’t understand why a room of this size couldn’t fit two. There was a window, a closet, a full bathroom… oh. There was one bed. Granted it was a bigger bed than the two bedrolls they slept on the night before.
“I’m going to shower.” Phil said. “There’s a book about creatures of the fae in my bag. You should read it.”
“I didn’t know people had written books on creatures of the fae, other than the tales of the fae.”
“They haven’t, it’s my personal journal. Notes with every creature I’ve seen.”
He stepped into the bathroom and shut the door behind him. 
Maybe Phil had a point, what if that unicorn today was just magic from the fae, trying to lure him into the depths of the forest. He didn’t expect to know so little about the fae he had been reading stories about since he was a kid. But those were just tales. This was stuff Philza had actually seen. 
So he grabbed the small leather bound book from his bag and sat down on the bed. Opening it to the first page. 
The Fae
Humanoid class
-Fae (general)
-Pixies
-Changelings
-Nymphs
-Sirens 
-Huldra 
Beast class
-Unicorns
-Kelpies
-Dragons
Shit this was long. Missa flipped through the pages. He should probably look at the dragon pages. 
Dragons
Most dragons have a humanoid form however they are classified as a beast due to the way they act while in their natural form. 
Dragons are known to be greedy and territorial. They are rarely seen except for when they are guarding their young in the caverns of night. 
Missa felt sick to his stomach. He was going to intrude on a dragon and its children? How cruel would that be? 
His thoughts were interrupted by the door to the bathroom opening. Philza had changed into loose fitting clothing. He came and laid down on the bed. He adjusted so his head was in Missa’s lap, cat-like eyes staring up at him.
“Need something?” Missa asked. He was ignoring how close the two of them were. Again. Stars above he needed space to process everything that happened since he met Philza. 
“Can you brush my hair?”
“¿Que?” Missa didn’t understand how Phil was so open whenever Missa asked him a question.
“Like you did with the unicorn.”
The pieces clicked. “Oh my stars you were jealous. That’s what the green was, it was jealousy.”
Phil was silent.
“That’s ok.” Missa started to brush out Philza’s hair with his hand. “Tomorrow we will go to the caverns of night to get dragon scales right?”
“Mhm.”
“And how do we do that?”
“There’s two ways. You can kill a dragon, which is hard, the scales make them unkillable unless you somehow manage to attack their underbelly. Or you can convince them to give you them but they will only do that in their humanoid form.”
“Oh.”
“We’ll figure it out though. I’ll help you complete your quest. I promise you.”
“Thanks Philza.”
He gave Missa a soft smile. “Thank you.”
Philza had moved to actually sleep but Missa was still reading the book. 
Unicorns trust those with pure souls
Missa was sure that Cielo bonding to him was a mistake. There was no way he had a pure soul. He flipped through the pages. 
“Missa…” he woke Phil up, he just wanted to rest peacefully and Missa ruined it.
“Sorry.”
“No, what's wrong?”
“Cielo bonding to me was a mistake.”
“What do you mean?”
“There’s no way my soul is ‘pure’. I’m not special. I abandoned my son, I’ve done terrible things.”
Philza’s heart was breaking seeing Missa cry. “Come here.” He pulled Missa into a hug.  “You are not terrible. You didn’t abandon your son. You are doing this to save him. That’s the most caring thing you could do.”
“It doesn’t feel that way.”
“You are the most caring person I have met.”
“You don’t mean that.”
“I mean it with my whole heart.”
“…Thank you.”
“You don’t need to thank me for telling you the truth.”
“Still… thank you.” Missa pulled out of the hug and wiped at his eyes. “I’m sorry.”
“Nothing to be sorry about.”
Missa gave him a soft smile. “Well, goodnight.” 
“Night.” Missa turned away from Phil and blew out the small flame from the lantern. 
Phil moved the journal away from Missa, setting it on the floor. 
“Goodnight Missa.” He whispered.
And with that final goodnight said to his love; Phil slowly fell asleep as well.
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yermes · 1 year
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Well guys its almost mothers day and after being around internet practitioners I know that some of you have some SERIOUS family issues. And or cannot see your moms this coming mothers day (Im away from mine atm) But thats okay. Ill be your mom today and give you some motherly advice with the deck that my mother gave me (:
So welcome to my Norwegian household there’s tea and chocolate swirl banana bread! (Usually I would make lefse for a baking venture but my parents wouldn’t let my grubby lil whore hands take the lefse press) so we have banana bread.
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Queen of Swords 🕯️
In this deck this card represents a more water aspect of air. The sharp thought of insight, and sitting upon her throne above the storm. While she does represent the chaos of the storm she also represents the cleansing aspect which chaos can bring. While seen as cruel, chaotic, and destructive i argue that these are needed qualities for change and growth. You may be in the eye of the storm now but the wisdom you will gain from this will be useful for the next time you are in a more chaotic shittier storm. (Sorry queen I feel ya a bitch can’t catch a goddamn break.)
Ace of Pents 🍀
Representative of earth and material manifestation. The people huddle close to the card in safety. However, the physical also needs the none physical to manifest. Don’t get to hung up on the material when the nonmaterial is lack luster. However, whenever possible relish in the safety and fulfillment which the physical and the matron can offer.
Seven of Swords 🤡
Wow. If fuck around and find out was in the dictionary your face would be right next to that shit. Basically, you tried however, you didn’t do enough. The seven of swords is a young soldier took the enemies swords but he left a few and his enemies rise to pursue him. Whether you get away or get yeeted is up to you. Roll for speed and charisma and hope you land a 20 😩
Whether you get to spend mothers day with your mom, are away from your mom, have a bad relationship and or not with mom I hope I could give you a little bit of that good motherly vibes today
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Take a forehead kiss^
Now for a long drawn out lecturey story about my life with an eventual point to really give you that empress matron energy you’re missing.
As a Chaos Magician who has been a terror on the internet for a little less then a decade I look back and see myself being heavily influenced by the people I was around.
(If you’re thinking you’re a chaos magician and all you post is tarot readings?I just refuse to give advice to the same internet that tried to curse the fucking moon okay? Okay.)
And you know what I am still influenced to this day. Not in the same ways obviously. When I first started my lil girlfriend at the time brought me into this kik group chat full of practitioners from different mental well beings (IYKYK) to different walks of life and some of these people are still my best friends to this day. Eventually we moved to discord but there was an issue. One of the bigger personalities of the group straight up didn’t like me. And thats fine. But it always got malicious super fast and eventually they got booted from the group along with a few others. But I notice looking back how I bended and shaped my “Germ” personality online to walk on eggshells around them. Now thankfully I was just shaping my online persona to please them while being myself offline but it taught me a lesson about morality and “isness”. Basically. Nothing is. No I won’t elaborate bc whats the fun in that. But Morality can be extremely empty. After being around all these talented practitioners and becoming one myself I saw that at times “bad” intentioned magic can have positive out comes and “good” intentioned magic can have some extremely awful outcomes. When you do magic and practice need to at times you need to realize that it will always manifest in a very realistic way and realistic isn’t always #livelovelaughlight
So anyways. This asshole tried to curse me and since my “Germsona” was so cataclysmically different than how I am IRL. It couldn’t hurt me. They tried to curse Germ not me and since Germ was so different and so molded to this individual I could walk away without a scratch. Be safe out there kiddos and remember I will always be here to give you awful and cringe advice ❤️
Love Germ
The nana bread 😩
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Reading the first Baela pov, and wow, she gives off such a transmasc vibe! I'm not telling you to make her trans, just saying that I relate a lot, especially to how I was before I found out I'm a guy. Like, her hesitating when Rhaenys said "You are a woman so these are women's clothes", quickly saying she's her father's daughter too when called her mother's daughter (reminds me of 'if i can't be a {correct gender}, at least I can say I'm like {correct gender parent}', redirecting the conversation to her sister when told she looks like her mother, choosing to be her true self instead of what everyone expects her to be even though it's technically 'better' (queen vs lady)... Just, reading that was like my teenage self looking into the mirror. Thank you for writing such good characters!
(i've been meaning to answer this for a HOT minute so sorry bout that, but the dialogue between laena and daemon in chapter 27 reminded me of it so better late than never?)
stuff like this always makes me so happy to hear! you also have excellent taste, bc my bf (trans masc) is also quite fond of stormbreak!baela.
it's been a pretty deliberate choice to write baela as disconnected from or rejecting traditional westerosi notions of femininity and womanhood. stormbreak will mostly leave any further interpretation up to the reader as to her personal sense of gender identity. of course you can identify as a woman while experiencing all of these things, or you can identify as a man, or something entirely different.
the remaining part of this ask probably counts as stormbreak spoilers, but it won't be for anything that's a major plot point within the timespan contained in the original fic- just stuff i might write in drabbles eventually. but it's stuff related to gender and baela in particular. :)
in my mind, baela never really settles down with a man. oh, she might marry one, but i don't know that she'll end up super duper in love the way most of the other women in this fic do. she'll have a ton of very fulfilling relationships, some of them involving sex, and she'll travel the world and live her life completely unhindered by her status within society as a woman. seafarer and traveler baela ftw, y'all!
she will also never have children. i wasn't super happy with her character ending up basically pregnant and left behind at home while her husband traveled the world and also cheated on her. i don't see baela, even book baela, as someone who'd have those goals. i can see how losing almost her entire family might make her lonely, and how realizing she's one of only like 4 surviving targaryens might create pressure to reproduce regardless of her own desires. but in stormbreak, where her family survives and there are gonna be so many little targ babies running around you can't tell whose is whose? yeah she is never ever going through pregnancy are you kidding me lmao.
i've also received a few requests for some spicy drabbles involving baela (once she is MUCH older i do not write porn for any characters who are under 21 aka younger than me okay). these will probably also involve a certain degree ambiguity as to baela's internal sense of gender identity. baela will never desire or ask for penetration, and will instead prefer to penetrate others or participate in other types of sexual acts. anatomical terms will be used for body parts, but when baela is wearing a strap on it'll be referred to using the same terms i refer to male characters' sex organs with (i.e. a character wouldn't be described as sucking baela's strap, they'd be described as sucking baela's cock).
anyways the ambiguity is there for a reason and readers are free to interpret it in whichever ways make them happiest. my viewpoint on these things is kind of like mark hamill's with the character of luke skywalker: whatever you want baela to be, wherever you feel the text is leading you, that's how baela identifies. :)
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