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sudoscience · 4 months
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Finished The Indigo Disk last night, so time for some more PokéThoughts:
For costing more than half the price of the base game, I feel like the story could have been longer. I'm certainly not done playing the DLC yet (still haven't caught the Loyal Three, for example), but I finished the story in ~2 days. The base game probably took me about a week? To be fair, I did start the DLC with a full team of Lvl 100 Pokémon, so that probably saved me a lot of time.
Similarly, for being called "The Hidden Treasure of Area Zero", you really don't spend that much time in Area Zero. Again, this is likely due to having a late game, high level build. Part of the reason it took longer in the base game is because you don't have Koraidon, so you can't just jump and fly to get where you need. Also, I just immediately used the warp point to get to Research Station 4 instead of walking through all of Area Zero again. I hope I didn't accidentally skip any fun interactions, but with how much Game Freak tries to railroad you into doing the plot how they want you to (see my previous post about the DLC), I feel like if there were any cutscenes there, then you just wouldn't be able to use the warp points for... reasons.
That being said, what time you do spend in Area Zero is just as awesome as the first time you go there in the base game. The new music is great, too.
Speaking of new music: Celestial (Remix by Toby Fox)?! Leave it to Toby to make an Ed Sheeran song actually good, I guess.
Performance wise, it's comparable to the base game, maybe slightly better? Only clipped into a mountain once. Haven't noticed any other glitches so far, but it does occasionally seem to run a bit sluggishly. (And it continues to suffer from a lack of voice acting.)
Koraidon can fly now!!! Wish there was an option to invert the y-axis, but it can fly!!! Also, you can BE your Pokémon now!!!
Spoilers?
I like how they tell you Blueberry Academy is in Unova, but it's not, like, attached to it at all. It's just an island. They could have said any region, and it would have had negligible impact, imo. (But I am saying this as someone who hasn't actually played Gen V, so maybe there were things I missed.)
Well, okay, I think it did have one effect. I haven't played B/W, but I know Unova is supposed to be based on America, so when one of the NPCs mentions "BBQs", I was like, "Oh, that's cool. They have barbecues here instead of picnics." Nope! Stands for Blueberry Quests.
Terapagos being tiny when Kieran first pulls him out was the funniest shit
It broke the fucking Master Ball?! It can do that?!
Still not sure I really understand how the Stellar Tera Type works. I know it's not every type at once. I'm not sure how that would work either. Wouldn't they just cancel each other out?
I don't feel like the game did the best job of communicating how much time had passed. Carmine (and later, Kieran) always being like, "You really kept me waiting". I literally did not??? But also, Kieran saying, "I looked up to [Player] for so long", meanwhile I'm pretty sure that, at most, one in-game week has passed since I first met him. I guess if I had played the first part when it first came out, it would've felt like a longer time. (It was probably supposed to be at least a few months in-game.)
Also makes it a little hard to buy into his motivation being his desire to beat me in battle. Wait, maybe that makes it more believable, actually. "You're still bitter about that?" "Yeah? It was just last week..."
But, again, I would be perfectly happy to let him have Ogerpon. He has a personal connection to it! If I keep it, it's probably just going to stay in one of my boxes. (It is pretty cute, though.)
Despite the lack of hugs, I found the ending acceptable. I do still wish you could have hugged Kieran, though. Or at the very least, when he says, "Can we be friends again?", you should have been able to say something like, "What do you mean 'again'? We're still friends!"
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scarefox · 1 year
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Oh I think / hope my work played my immune system down far enough so I might get sick 👀 not that I wanna be sick but being away from this clown station for a few days would be nice~
Customs officers and post employees are currently so far up their high horses and passive aggressive war with each other, that the customs team refuses to continue working with the post office team. And guess who has to even out the time / work overlode now? We temporary employees. 
Like yesterday we were supposed to push some packages through the X-Ray with a customs officer. They said only 1h and about 6 containers full of packages. We managed to get 5 containers in 1h while working fast (about 220 packages x 20kg / 44 lbs )... that’s like 1h non-stop weight lifting....And then the boss of the customs team had the audacity to tell us we will get another load of TWELVE containers we were supposed to do the next 1h ?!?!?!?! Because the customs guy working with us on  the X-Ray is literally the only person in that whole building who is allowed to do X-Ray and he was sick that day, still working .................... , and they predicted he will be calling in sick the next day so we were supposed to push through the whole work load within the next 1h. Needless to say we didn’t finish on time (we went home on time and left the work for them to finish). Not only because of the time + workload issue but mainly because some management issues came up as well.
But yea... they changed my tasks and now I have to do way harder (heavier) work the whole day long. 3 Days in a row now, I am tired af and feel sick.
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third-eye-sky · 6 months
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LA AirBnb Fiasco
Let us start from the top. It's Friday and I arrive in downtown LA via surfliner before my other 4 friends arrive. We are all in town for a Euphonic Presents event where Emancipator, Mr. Carmack, Ardalan, Polish Ambassador, Yheti, etc. will be playing. I had myself a fun little journey to the Airbnb and took a Lime scooter from the train station, unemployed and very few cares in the world.
The Airbnb we booked was already questionable at best before entering- the amount of documents provided for check in, tedious instructions including registering all guests and needing to check them in with building security, required to provide photo ID prior to checking in, required to check in with security and show ID, a lot of reiteration on "this is not a hotel, people live in this building", threats of incurring fees if noise complaints are given, confusing verbiage for parking, etc, already had me on edge about the Airbnb. Originally the group max was 4 but one of my best friends Mia realized she would be able to attend and the Airbnb refuses any guest over 4 and she missed the registration period so we already had an added stress on figuring out how to get her up to the room without any hassle from security.
That first evening was great, we managed to get all of us into and out of the room several times before we needed to get ready for dinner - still had to go up to the room in groups of 2 and 3 so as to not draw suspicion because security was indeed checking in names and the room we were in. Thankfully none of us even needed to show ID's to security but we realized that when they change out for shifts, we may run into troubles because we'd have to reiterate that we are all checked in. The host uses this app called August that connects the deadbolt to a piece of technology that unlocks the deadbolt. We had no issues locking and unlocking the door up until 10 pm the first night.
We have an absolute blast at the event, getting attention from so many men that could tell we weren't from LA (bc I guess LA women do no give dudes the time of day). Our friend Ardalan actually played the event and to avoid issues with security at the Airbnb my friend Mia and I decide to get a head start back to the space. As we are walking out of the event we bump into Ardalan and he invited us to a little after hang in downtown LA and we figured why not, we assumed the other girls were going to stay awhile longer.
We pull up to the spot and it's literally 0.2 miles from our Airbnb, perfect. The second we get into the space and take a shot Mia and I get calls and texts from every one of the other girls asking where we are and that they're locked out of the Airbnb... they're livid at us. Of course, our bad, we definitely should have communicated what we were up to, especially since I am the only person with the app and the key to get us in the room. We walk back to the Airbnb to the girls pissed and sitting in the hall outside of the room - my friend Rileigh is stressed and has to piss. I use the August app, hold it up to the door, I hear the lock working, the app turns green and indicates that it is unlocked, I reach for the handle, the knob turns, and I am met with a firmly locked door. I try again, the app says it's locked, the app says it's unlocked, I try the door again.... it is still locked. *queue panic* We realize the app and the lock is not working. We go downstairs to talk to security who informs us he can't help unless there is instruction from the host. Mind you, it is nearly 5 am. I message the host but we all assume we're locked out until he wakes up which could be several more hours.
At this time, all 5 of us are nearly at each others throats in the lobby because two of them were still insanely mad and blaming Mia and I for this misfortune. In that moment, I got my period. There's no bathroom in the lobby and I start pacing around trying to decide if I just free bleed on the floor or find a place to put a tampon in. I end up going outside on the sidewalk to put in a tampon... this is where we are at (lol).
Since we aren't getting a response from the host, Mia and I present that we go over to this spot right around the corner we were invited to so we can hang out and be safe while we wait for the host to wake up. The three that were mad and Mia and I are dragging their feet and are still pissed at us. We decide to walk over to the other spot. The guys there were so accommodating and the space was beautiful, they were giving us drinks and free k bumps. Finally the girls warm up to the cards that were dealt and have a great time with these guys. Lowkey... Mia and my frowned upon sidequest was the savior of the night.
From the stress and the cramps I knowingly put myself into a k hole and let everyone else deal with the host as he finally wakes up around 6:30. He's telling us the app says the door is unlocked on his end. I come to from my k-hole and walk back to the Airbnb with Monica who has been nothing but a saint this whole time, she went full project manager mode on everyone trying her damndest to get us in our room. We walk up to the room, the app does the same thing... connects to the device and sounds like it's working but the door is still locked shut. We go down and ask security to please help us. He comes upstairs and who the fuck even knows what he does but uses a card, a coin, and strength, and with all his jimmying he heard a noise and said with hope in his eye - try it now. I try the app and for fuck sake we get in the room... finally.... at 7:45 am.
The host tells us he's "sorry for the inconvenience" then lets us know if we want ANY refund we pack up and leave now.... at 8 am after being on the streets all fucking night. We end up passing out and wake up to a locksmith banging on our door at noon. Dude fucks with the lock, screws some things, whatever, and he got it to work again. The lock was operational via the app as far as I could tell. We are so exhausted we don't muster energy to go to the buildings pool until almost 4 pm. We lock the door, walk 5 steps and realize we forgot the pool key, we go back to the room..... the app and lock IS NOT WORKING AGAIN.
Longest story short the host finally sends someone over to give us a physical key for the space but at this point, our stay is, while eventful... has somewhat ruined all our Saturday plans due to lack of sleep. I go back and forth with the host and Airbnb for weeks after our stay attempting to get a refund to which Airbnb says in their policy the host did everything he could and therefore there is no evidence to support a refund. The host questioned my intelligence, blamed intoxication, made up stories, and in general tried to make the whole situation seem to be a dumb bitch user error and not a serious mechanical issue with his lock.
Toward the end there it felt like a sex and class war... this dude (host) in a position of power that clearly has money (two units in this building he rents out) being defensive and blaming ME for the issues we had. He assumed I'd write a nasty review and said because of that his team (yes, this fuck has an entire team that still was unable to get us into the unit Friday night) would not provide a refund.
Airbnb also told me at the beginning of the week a refund would not be possible so I went ahead and wrote my review for the host. Straightforward and factual. I woke up to a message from Airbnb yesterday that said they would bring the case to someone higher up that may be able to help.... after telling me MULTIPLE times the case was closed. I literally am never using Airbnb again... between this and learning about their policies supporting apartheid and illegal displacement of Palestinians, I am more than done with their services.
Idk if anyone made it this far but if you did... kudos. Part of me wants to record myself telling the whole story as I'm sure it would be more entertaining.
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a-spell-a-rebel-yell · 8 months
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August
oh my god i am sooo sorry for the super late reply yet again 😭 i swear this time the reason is very much valid: i got swamped with school work! oh well, i'll just do an August and a third of September recap hehe
also very much expected to get this amount of workload because: 1) it's a postgrad school, and 2) it's U of I 😂 i'm feeling that significant shift from undergrad environment of a private university, to a completely independent mode of a public university, though not that surprised with a culture shock phase because i'm used to hold myself accountable to a mainly prioritizing critical thinking learning system. so now when we get new task for every class, it’s not a big deal (the only major change is these tasks rendered me chronically offline aka i’m spending less time on twitter, who would’ve thought 😂) because it’s a discipline i’m interested in, reading numerous journals and finding new textbooks to read no matter how complicated feels like getting gifts, ha!
two weeks in and so far i'm enjoying everything, special mention to my ten wonderful classmates that are nothing but a joy to be around with. so it's fun engaging with them and straight away feeling like we're longtime best friends who haven't seen each other in a while.
here to proudly announce i've been made the class': interim manager, secretary, treasurer, archivist, publicist, photographer, timekeeper, and scheduling coordinator 😂😂😂 it's a lot, but i'm having fun taking care of stuffs and it's not like there are much to work on, since all eleven of us are always helping each other. since there's not many of us, naturally a close knit group was formed from the very first day, and i'm happy to have them as companions for the next three years.
what i notice these days is that my personality is slowly reverting back to my old cheery, bubbly, and super talkative self? it's funny to observe really, and if you know me from my elementary school days, you'll know which version of me i'm talking about hahaha i’m more carefree, taking more chances, overall extracting happiness out of everything.
rolling back a bit, my Brisbane cousin got married on early August! me and the fam went to Bandung and stayed at Bank lndonesia's guesthouse at Tubagus Ismail. was feeling so much nostalgia because that house complex is a place of so much childhood memories.
the venue for the wedding is an outdoor restaurant at Dago area, and the decor was ethereal! i love it so much, and Dago is famously known for its forestry and cool air, and alhamdulillah at that time the sun wasn't too hot, the trees provide a nice shade, and no rain despite heavy rain previous and next days after! my cousin and i have similar taste in esthetics, food, and music, so it was like being in my dream wedding party 😂 doing bridesmaid duty was easy, the EO made sure all we do is look good for the footage! also because i had to walk my cousin down the aisle, i had to wear heels (not my usual Dr Martens boots) and boy oh boy it was only a 3 cm heels but i suffered a lot on hour five 🥲 and again with the personality change i mentioned earlier: i literally participated in the fun games thing, and one of the games required me to run for my life with those heels (other competitors cheated by taking off theirs 😤) and i didn’t even win because the emcee changed the rules mid game!!! still quite bitter about it tbh 🫠 but then again i had so much fun with my cousins, Bandung trips are always to remember.
mid August marked the day me and the newbie ortho res met some of our seniors. next day we got our new shiny yellow jackets and took photos in front of the famous dean/Balairung building (goodness i still can’t pick them apart) then on late August we went through medical checkup, basic life support class, and skill station trainings. this time i got 'reprimanded' by the doctor who supervised the checkup, she said i'm way too skinny my body mass index is on the lower end of underweight... and i have anemia too 🧍‍♀️ i'm scheduled to see an internist later though!
first semester started on August 28th but we didn't have our first class until Aug 30th. every single class awed me in a way we do really have the best in the field as our teachers, and i learned a lot. my brain's gonna absorb as much as it can while being here. still can't believe that i'm a part of this huge thing, against all odds i still got in. this makes me want to do my very very very best and prove that i deserve the spot. such an amazing feeling to be able to study more and finding out knowledge is truly inexhaustible. then i realized yet again that my line of profession is never-ending learning process, i'm humbly glad to be on this exact place and time, a dentist and orthodontics resident. no words are able to describe how grateful i am.
in another good news, in 138 days i'll be seeing Coldplay in Singapore! doing mental countdown and using it as a motivation to study 😂 i can't wait to get barrier and scream out all the lyrics, thinking maybe i should get a strategy to be noticed by the social media crews (currently devising a head piece or costume lol) and maaaybe i'll end up on coldplay's instagram heheheh
a bit of sad news: this September it'll be my dad's last month ever working as a Bank lndonesia employee, which means i'm moving out of the Blok M/Panglima Polim house and back to Cibubur. though technically for my first year of school i'll be moving temporarily to my Brisbane cousin's home somewhere in Tanah Kusir, so yep, still a South Jakartan (born and raised! haha)
oh well. that's all the exhilarating run of the eighth month, it's 8/12 already!? time flies so fast, i'm about to turn 26 in three months 😂 see you on September post!
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thegravityblog · 10 months
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Monday: 03-07-2023: Work, Work and Love.
My dad and sister has flown to Kolkata to purchase interior items for the new bungalow we are building. Dropped dad to the railway station as he went to New Delhi and from there both of them caught a flight.  While coming back from the station I dropped by kritz apartment. She opened the door, half sleepy wearing shorts and a tank top hugging me at the door only, again almost sleeping in my arms. I melted like ice, literally. She is so damn cute. I dragged her to the bedroom, and we didn’t speak at all. I comfortably cuddled with her while she again went on to sleep like a baby. “Papa ko chordh aaye,” she says again sleepily. Hmmm I answer, she hugs me tight. I lightly kissed on her forehead and eyelids. After 20 mins I whispered in her ears, “I gotta go” she hugs me even tighter. In her cute sleepy satire, no. I somehow manage to leave, I really didn’t wanted to. She hastily pushed me to the door hugging me all the way, and kissing on my cheeks and forehead. We leave each other’s hands, I ask her lastly to lock the door carefully. Although she lives in a good area but still, always concerned.  Drove back home, got fresh and checked my mails. There’s full on fire here, funding winter is still going on. Investors are very skeptical in investing in any project except AI. There are a couple of investors who are in loop but we need to work on traction and getting more sales we can lock in the deal.  We are also hiring a full-stack developer for Dexa so drafted the hiring posts. Yes I do them all, HR for now I think is a waste of a position based on the scale of our company. I’m very selective about hiring and only want the best talent to work for us. I have made my fair share of hiring mistakes in the beginning and that’s how the game works. Startups are thrown around very easily but you literally have to work your ass off, make mistakes, learn, move fast and build your dreams no matter what. Even Elon Musk, 2nd richest man in the world was in trouble in 2008 as we all know. Where he is today? That’s how this game is played.  I am also learning Next.js which is a react framework, on which Dexa is mainly built on the front-end side. Also polishing Solidity skills because being a founder I have to be thorough enough to solve any issue faced in the project by the designated team mate on the respective role. Post lunch it was all around working on a sales funnel and pricing model for Dexa. Then had a team call as we are enabling event managers to have a personalized dashboard to manage ticketing and attendees so we discussed on feature sets and how we will build it. Next was working on installing the SDK for enabling our users to transact using their credit cards and debit cards. Lots and lots of work on the plate.  We have to now also refine the whole product and work on v1.1 and also a new logo. Video call with her for a while. Matter of fact what I am liking the most is that she is very supportive of me. And that’s one of the bare minimums a person can offer you in a relationship. We are dating, but I am kinda liking it. This is the attraction phase. We both are mature enough to process what’s happening and has planned to see for a long time. Maybe get married in 3 years or so if her parents are supportive.  After that I spoke to didi and my dad, before they boarded the flight. Then I checked all my portfolio’s and clients portfolios while having tea. And now I am learning a few insights on pricing the product and refining the MVP. Played some nice romantic songs and JM.  Taking a quick 10 min break to freshen up. Will have dinner and speak to kritz, dad and didi. Then work till like 12-1 am or so, or even maybe more as there’s a lot of things that need my attention and dedication at the moment. 
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Anthony’s Stupid Daily Blog (194): Sun 25th Sep 2022
My mam and sister were off to the cemetery today to put some new flowers of Nana and Grandad's grave. They were also planning on burying a small container of Grandad's ashes because Luna keeps going over to it and my sister is afraid she might knock it over. At the last second Mam asked me if I wanted to keep the ashes. This took me back a bit as I didn't know that this container even existed until a few seconds prior. I thought about it and decided that it would be a shame if this small remnant of Grandad was buried alongside the rest of his ashes as it would be nice if we were able to keep some semblance of him at the house. I also have a necklace that my Nana left me and a card that was given out at her funeral. I decided it would be better if we got a memory box and placed all of this stuff inside. Mam also has a few of Grandad's army memorabilia that she wants to give me so I can store this in the box as well. Tonight before bed I watched the zombie movie Nightmare City also known as City of the Living Dead. Anyone who has ever watched this piece of shit movie knows that at a certain point I'm going to get furious when discussing the plot and you know why because you got just as furious when you saw it. For those who haven't see the film, watch it and when that moment happens you'll furiously think "Motherfucker, he was right: I am furious" I'll give the film credit that based solely on the opening scene at the airport I was definitely intrigued. The scene does a great job of slowly building suspense and I was restless with anticipation to find out what was inside the plane. The whole scene has an aura of Stephen King to it which is great if you can pull it off. If only they could have taken the amount of care they put into this opening scene and applied it to...literally the rest of the whole movie because it's all downhill from here. Before I get into my lengthy list of the film's shortcomings I will clarify a few things that I did actually like about it. Early in the movie Anna is comforting a young patient with a broken leg who just wants to play sports again and re-assures him that he will. I was expecting the ending of this movie to be this kid being the only survivor playing basketball alone on an empty court but nope, a few scenes later he just gets eaten alive just like the others. This was actually really good as it managed to second guess me and a good horror movie should always subvert an audiences expectations rather than meet them. I got a kick out of the scene in the hospital where there are several people trapped in an escalator begging to be let out. One of the zombies hears them and lets them out manually and they are then devoured by the hoard. On the surface it seems like a pointless, time wasting scene since it doesn't feature any of the main characters but in addition to injecting some dark ironic comedy into an otherwise uninteresting movie it also demonstrates the resourcefulness of the zombies. This is one of the few instances in a zombie flick where I've seen the zombies communicate with one another and even work together such as when one of the zombies alerts others to Dean and Anna hiding in the gas station. There's another funny moment (though I'm certain this one was unintentional) where Anna suggests entering a church thinking that the creatures chasing them are vampires and that they can't enter a house of God. They enter the church and see a priest who turns his head and reveals himself to be one of the zombies. Personally I think this film could have worked if they'd have gone the Return of the Living Dead route and made it a dark comedy zombie movie. And that's basically it. Unfortunately the rest of the movie is a complete mess. Quentin Tarantino is a big fan of this movie and I can only assume that he sticks it on whenever he wants to watch an unintentional comedy because this was a chore to get through for me. The pacing of the film seems so damn rushed and the pacing seems almost random at times. This is the earliest film I've seen to feature fast zombies so it at least has that going for it but given how rushed the film feels I don't even know if they were supposed to be fast. Maybe the director realized in the editing suite what a piece of shit movie he'd made and so decided to speed up the zombies to make sure the movie went by as quickly as possible. The chaotic scene in the TV studio is set to silly upbeat music and I get that it's supposed to be a contrast in style to make you feel uneasy but the effects used for the kills are so incredibly cheap and the acting seems so un-natural that this is all you can focus on. It reminds me of the scene in The IT Crowd where someone "breaks the internet" and panic ensues. This scene has the same pacing as the much better Retun of the Living Dead movie but with nowhere near the level of effort dedicated to the makeup or the kills. After about an hour of people running around screaming and getting attacked the movie just becomes flashing images and noise to me.
There's no attempt to make the good characters likeable so we feel bad when they get killed or to make the bad characters unlikeable so we're happy when they get killed. Whenever a zombie beats to death and devours one of the characters in this movie I don't feel anything because they're written like lifeless robots. This is perfectly exemplified in the scene right after Major Warren phones his wife to tell her to lock all the doors and windows and not let anyone inside. Immediately after he tells her this she locks the front door but then goes out into the back garden then goes back inside. She goes back inside and one of her sculptures has a bloody knife in it but the next time we see this character is 30 minutes later, still alive fixing her sculpture. So...there's clearly a zombie in the house somewhere so why has she just gone back to work as if nothing happened? In fact we see later on that there are multiple zombies in the house and only after they kill one of her friends in the coal cellar does she think to get the gun that she's had in the house the whole time. Why wouldn't the zombie just jump on her and when she was out in the open? Why would he go the Michael Myers route?
In addition to constantly being distracted by the ridiculous looks of the zombies who look like  someone layered strips of bacon on their heads and then painted them purple, there's no attempt to make any of the kills look realistic. Just before the young couple flee the house one of the zombies strangles a soldier with a piece of rope which is barely grazing his neck and is clearly applying no pressure and yet the actor acts as if Samoa Joe has got him in a fucking choke hold. I swear 90% of the action in this movie is one of the zombies swinging an object at an actor that which goes nowhere near them and then immediately cutting to a shot of the actor with a poorly applied prosthetic wound on their body. One thing about these zombies that made me scratch my head was that on multiple occasions these creatures who are bloodthirsty wipe blood off their lips with their sleeves instead of liking their lips. And several more occasions where zombies chasing one victim momentarily pause in order to stab another victim then resume chasing the original one instead of just drinking the blood of the one they've already successfully killed. So as well as making the living characters out to be completely lacking in common sense the zombies are written to lack their basic carnal urges. Side note: Director Umberto Lenzi insisted that this should not be considered a zombie movie because the antagonists are living people infected with radiation poisoning. I personally think calling it a "movie" at all is a bit of a stretch as it's more like somebody filmed a Halloween-themed game of laser tag. Also if the creatures in the movie are actually infected living people then why the fuck is it called "City of the Walking DEAD"? The most insulting part of the move bar none is the ending. A fucking DREAM? Are you serious? Not only was the "It was all a dream" trope hackneyed even back then but it's application here treats the audience with even more contempt because not only did the audience spend the last 90 minutes watching a load of shit but this ending means it was all for nothing because none of that shit even happened! The director said that this silly ending came about because he couldn't thin of a way to end the movie. So when Lenzi took this script to the studio and they saw it was going to end with a dream sequence why didn't they say "You need a better ending than that"? And if Lenzi told the studio he couldn't think of a way to end the film why didn't the studio shoot back with "Well fuck off then". Don't go to someone asking for money to make a film if you have an unfinished film. That's like if I was a chef and I advertised a full course meal at my restaurant then after serving customers a delicious starter and main, instead of following up with a delicious dessert I send them out a full pineapple and say "Sorry, I don't know any desserts". What makes this stupid ending especially stupid is that Dean isn't freaked out by the fact that reality goes all Groundhog Day on his ass and just goes about his day the way he did in the dream, surely the moment that his assistant says the exact same thing to him in the dream would be the Phil Conners moment where he starts to think "What the Hell?".
This is easily the worst zombie film I've ever seen. The only things it has going for it is an intriguing outbreak story and some possibly unintentional humour but the characters are instantly forgettable, the effects are awful, the film itself feels like its on fast-forward and the ending...fuck you a million times in the ass for that ending!
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silasbug · 2 years
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dream log Nr. 019
12/09/2022
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from continually missing the bus to visiting my best friend in a really dingy dorm to what felt like a.. really dark and fucked up pro-veganism-documentary hosted in an endless basement plane of a huge hotel.
it was actually kind of cool because it had a really, really strong silent-hill/backrooms horror vibe but it was weird that i mentioned veganism myself, in a dream, because i´m not forward with it usually.
i know i have a lot of public transport dreams, but i´m confused as to why veganism has been a theme in my dreams the last few days. i`ve literally never had dreams that thematized it before in my 7+ years of actually being vegan. curious that it would happen now even though nothing in my attitude/behavior/nutrition has changed.
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#1. i was visiting someone, but i don´t remember who or why. i was set to take the train home within the next half hour and wanted to get ready to leave, but i only ended up packing a few minutes before the bus i needed to be on to get me to the train station would drive through.
i desperately try to pack all of my things as quickly as possible, but not everything fits because i don´t have the time to make it all fit (i had apparently packed so specifically that there was no room for error, everything fit perfectly, but only in a certain order). i leave some stuff at their place and run out of the door, but i miss the bus by a minute.
i go back to my friend´s house, thinking i´ll just take the next bus. no big deal. i´ll be home later than desirable but it would be fine. despite keeping an eye on the clock, i again only start packing a few minutes before the bus´ arrival, feeling very panicked. if i were to miss this bus, then the next and last train i would be able to take would leave at 18:30. this would mean that i´d arrive home very late into the night & if i missed any of my connections along the way, that i`d be stranded until morning.
my friend lends me a suitcase-like bag that i am able to throw most of my stuff into unsorted. whatever doesn`t fit i quickly gather in my arms (like a pair of shoes) and i make a run for the bus station.
i miss the bus by just a few seconds, it drives away just as i`m running up to the stop. desperate, i look online to try and see if there would be another line i could take to the train station, but only this one particular one worked (Line 31).
eventually, i just start walking, hoping that if maybe i make it to another bus stop, i`d have a better chance of either catching up to this one, or a different one that might take me. at one of these stops, the line 31 suddenly appears, having apparently experienced a severe 50 minute delay which worked perfectly in my favor. after asking the driver and making absolutely sure that this bus would take me to the train station, i get on.
(strangely enough i often have these types of "missing the bus by a hair" dreams. literally always busses and trains. sometimes they are recurring dreams.)
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#2. i´m visiting my best friend (Anne) at "her place", however she was living in a huge, almost endless-feeling dorm building.
it was very run-down, very tight, trash and belongings strewn everywhere. in the dream it felt almost.. disgustingly homely. i can´t describe the feeling but there was something about it that made me want to be there, made me want to live in a place like it, and something else that made my stomach twist and my skin crawl.
most of the rooms were designed for 4 people (one bed and desk for each person), the hallways were lined with lockers and lockable closets for the inhabitants (since they didn`t fit in the rooms). most of the rooms were connected by doors, so you could easily walk from one room to the next, nothing to obstruct you, nobody minded, nobody cared.
Anne and i just start walking from room to room, trying to go somewhere, exploring. i remark how ive always wanted to try out shared living and that this place seemed.. nice... (it definitely wasn´t, best way i can describe the feel is the home from Parasite, bigger, more endless, more confusing, like a labyrinth, like a hole you`d land in and could never get out of again).
some of the rooms had attic-like ladders that you could pull down from the ceiling to go up to the next floor, i distinctly remember it feeling creepy. the ladders were flimsy, i was afraid they would collapse as we climbed.
we start taking the ladders up several floors until we eventually reach a ladder that leads to a small, unstable platform. we hoist ourselves up onto it, but the instability is making us both feel deeply unsure about continuing.
eventually, my Boss (Susanne) climbs up. she pulls out a part on the platform that i was specifically worried about (it was just.. a wooden block, flimsily nailed into a hole in the platform). she replaces it with a new block and nails it in place as Anne and i huddle in the far corner of the platform, as close to the wall as we could get.
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#3. i am no longer in the same building as #2., but the feeling is distinctly the same. its not as dirty or trashy, but it´s like "the same building, another time".
this building provides single rooms for you to rent and live in. i am moving my things from my appartment into a different appartment in the same building. the corridor is the exact same as the one i currently live in (a window from facing our door), but the door opens up only into "my bedroom". i am still "living with SO", depite it only being my room & only my things. they are helping me move my things to the new appartment as well (they are technically moving with me.. but it`s still just my stuff, there is nothing of theirs).
the building is again, endlessly large. the single-room nature of the apartments makes it feel like a hotel & i do think part of the building was just a hotel. a portion would be for long-term renters, the other just short stays.
we take my stuff to a different floor through the elevators (our building has one, but this building had four, two pairs that faced each other). we decide to leave the hamster enclosure in a hallway, close to the basement. i dont remember why i decided we should leave it there, but i probably thought it wouldnt fit into the new appartment. it still had substrate in it, but no hamster (my lil bean Beelze died back in 2020, shortly after SO and i moved in together). i guess i hoped someone could make better use of it as it hasnt been in use since.
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i dont remember how or why, but i eventually decide to travel into the basement. on my own, or with SO, or with my mother. i remember all three but i´m not sure which actually happened. this building that we lived in was apparently self-sustaining, producing enough food for it´s inhabitants through farms and groweries in the basement.
i take the elevator. the doors open into this... endlessly large plane. you could only see the wall that the elevators were embedded in, but the edges of it would fade out, you couldn`t see far enough to see any other walls beyond the darkness. so the walls faded into black. it felt like stepping into the void. it was horrifying.
there were no proper lights- there was light from the elevator door behind me, but as i looked on ahead at what looked like stalls, the only illumination you could see were from shoddily-installed and hanging light-bulbs every couple meters.
there were many people. people that were feeding or examining the animals, visitors from the hotel that wanted to see how the building produced it´s food.
the stalls were made up of hastily hung up tarps, strings and wires keeping things together, keeping them separated just barely. dirty layers of hay on the floor (which was otherwise just.. black). the stalls were cramped with severely deformed animals- cows, pigs, horses. species that were barely recognizable from the ones we know and see in the real world. abominations, you could say. think of silent hill, now imagine a farm.. in silent hill. in an endless black void.
the stench is foul, the suffering immeasurable. i could barely breathe and i could barely hear over the deafening cocophony of pained grunting and screaming. there were none of the sounds these animals usually make, it was something entirely new, something so uniquely horrifying.
i walked around, but it stretched on endlessly into a black void that would spawn in as you walked. there was no end, there was only more depth. i only went in a medium to small circle (to eventually end up at the elevators again).
i couldnt understand how any of this was happening, how any of this was remotely fine. how could this have established itself? weren´t there regulations for these kinds of things? not just because of the animal suffering and mutating, but also the dirt, the pure grime and biological hazard of this plane.
once i was close to the elevators again, i passed by a stall of pigs. they were absolutely horrific- beasts 4 times their size, bloated, deformed (it literally looked like 4 bodies glued together, bulging here and there from growths), an odd tuft of hair growing along the back spine, their tails badly infected and literally looking like.. penis fish. (yeah.. i even thought that in the dream. yikes.)
next to the stall i see a young, round girl with her family. she is eyeing the pigs almost.. hungrily. her mouth watering, eyes wide. she mentions something about how she cant wait for it to be slaughtered so she could eat it. i ask her how she thinks that this is fine- how she could say such a thing while this creature is clearly suffering, right in front of her eyes. how could she have an appetite? she doesnt care.
i walk further towards the elevators to what seems to be a collection of hay-bales used for mushroom cultivation. i am almost crouching behind it. i find someone i know there (SO, i think?) and talk to them. eventually a man exits the elevator close to us. him and i start shouting at each other- i don´t remember why we started.
i only remember our shouting-match culminating in him angrily asking why i even bother to be vegan, that nothing´s going to change and that "nobody gives a shit". i reply something along the lines of: "i´m not just vegan for the animals, i´m vegan for the environment, for the sake of others- i´m vegan for me and for YOU." (this is as clearly as i remember it and this is not a great own or something. from what we´d shouted previously it was clear he didn´t care for the animals so i said something else. i was really close to crying in the dream, i was so angry and horrified. i felt small and alone- i wasn´t there to convince anyone of anything, i hadn´t even planned on the shouting match because i know that´s not productive. but this entire plane was so, so horrific.)
SO ushers me back to the elevators and we leave.
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we go back up to the new room where my stuff had already been brought in and arranged whilst i was busy having a really bad time in the basement.
as i look around, i realize that i still have enough space for the hamster enclosure. that i wanted to keep it even if for a different pet (i`ve been wanting a pet snail, ha).
deciding that i would keep the enclosure and get a new pet for it, we go back down a few floors and find the enclosure still sitting in the hallway where we`d left it. we take it back into my new room and place it on the floor next to the door, where there was still space.
as i contemplate getting a new hamster, i feel worried that i´ll fail to take proper care of him. i resolve to do better.
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prismatic-bell · 3 years
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So the other day I said a thing about how I felt like a line could be drawn between antis, and the rise of 24-hour news networks. I’ve given that thought some time to bubble to see what, exactly, my brain meant by that statement, and here’s what I’ve got:
When I was a kid (back in Ye Olde 1990s), we had three major news stations in my town: Channel 12, Channel 24, and Channel 35. These corresponded to NBC, ABC, and CBS, but I don’t remember which one was which so don’t ask me. Anyway--you had a half hour of news at 8 or 9 am (depending on which station you watched), an hourlong program at noon in which half the program was stuff like “here are today’s beach closures and some recipes and also if you’re looking for stuff to do with the kids this weekend here are local promotions,” and half an hour at either 5, 5:30, or 6 (again, depending on which channel you watched). One of the three stations also did a half-hour capper at 10pm. So unless you were watching all three stations, and picking the news every single time, the max amount of news you were going to get was like an hour and a half. If you wanted more news than that, you read the newspaper. When my mom was a kid (back in Ye Olde 1960s), this would have seemed like an inordinate amount of news--for her, it was half an hour at 6pm and ten minutes at 10pm and then the station (there was only one station that did the news) played the National Anthem and went off the air until 6am, at which time you might get like . . . the weather and a traffic report.
For anything else, you read the newspaper.
Now with only half an hour to present a whole lot of news, what are you going to do? You are going to stick to the facts. You don’t have a choice. You have a very short time to fit a whole lot of information. “Notre Dame cathedral caught on fire today. French firefighters are working to get the flames under control, and authorities in charge of the cathedral are doing their best to remove relics, paintings, and other holy objects while it’s still possible. French President Mr. Somebody addressed the nation and stated every attempt to save the building, and to rebuild the damage, will be made. In local news . . . “ And that’s it! If you want more information, you’ve got to wait for the newspaper in the morning, and you’re going to have to get a copy of the New York Times or USA Today, because the local paper will only have a blurb, and that blurb will mostly cover what you just heard!
But then the news changed.
By the time I was a teenager, the non-cable news looked like this: All three channels had a morning show that started at 5 or 6 am (depending on your station) and ran until 8 or 9 (depending on your station). The station that ended at 8am then had a half-hour morning news show. The mid-day news at 11 or 12 was still an hour. Channel 35 did a half-hour news segment at 5 and another at 5:30, back to back. The other two stations simply did an hourlong segment. And then one station did half an hour at 10:30, and the other two did hourlong segments at 10pm.
What do you do with that much time? Well, you expand. Yes, you can fit more news, but you can also fit more about the news. “Notre Dame cathedral in Paris went up in flames today. The fire began in the famous historic bell tower, and spread to the roof. At this time, portions of the roof appear to have caved in, and there are concerns about the integrity of the medieval stonework in the cathedral walls. French firefighters have been working since 8am Paris time to get the flames under control, and authorities in charge of the cathedral are doing their best to remove relics, paintings, and other holy objects while it’s still possible. Some firefighters are also helping with this project, as portions of the building have become too unsafe to enter. French President Mr. Somebody addressed the nation late this evening and stated every attempt to save the building, and to rebuild the damage, will be made. Of the cathedral itself, Somebody said, ‘Our Lady has weathered worse troubles than this. Paris as a city, and France as a nation, will overcome.’ In local news . . . ”
Still facts, but a few more facts. At this point the internet as a public thing is just past its infancy, and in theory you could go look up some stuff on, like, AOL, maybe, about what was happening.
(Nina, you were talking about antis . . . ?)
(Yes, I was. Bear with me.)
But at this point you also saw the rise of Fox News and CNN.
Now up to this point, I could trust the news. That is important to know. “Nina, American news is full of propaganda--” Listen, you’re not wrong, but the point is, if Scott Brennan told me Notre Dame cathedral was on fire and priests were trying to remove the holy relics, I could safely assume Notre Dame cathedral was on fire and priests were trying to remove the holy relics. If Channel 24 told me “the blizzard of the century” had occurred the night before, I could look out the window of my snowed-in house and go “yeah, that seems legit.”
I grew up, in other words, in a world in which facts were facts. We didn’t waffle or wring our hands over whether or not Notre Dame was on fire. And this allowed me to take a similar approach to fiction: it is a fact that murder is wrong, and knowing this, I can read a book in which someone commits murder for very good reasons, but still know they did something wrong.
But now you have 24 hours of news to fill.
No matter how you pad it, no matter how many voice clips you play or retrospectives you do, you cannot find enough news in the world to fill 24 hours, seven days a week, 365 days a year. You just can’t.
So they started adding “opinion pieces.”
Notre Dame is on fire--is it worth saving? Notre Dame is on fire--but is it as big a catastrophe as it’s made out to be? Notre Dame is on fire--but France has been steadily calling themselves a secular nation, so is this the punishment of G-d? Notre Dame is on fire--
--wait, what was that?
Yep. You saw it, I saw it, we all saw it. But as the “opinion pieces” slowly took over the regular news and stopped being called “opinion pieces” and started being called “programs,” it became less and less clear what was and wasn’t fact.
Now obviously Notre Dame is on fire. But now we have to ask ourselves: is it worth it to save it or not? Is the financial cost outweighed by the history? Will those answers change depending on how bad the damage becomes? And you, lonely elderly person in your chair whose predominant socialization these days is at church, how does this make you feel about French people? These are questions that once would have been asked of the church caretakers and the French government. Now every single person is being asked to think about them, without being provided all of the context that is available to the church caretakers and the French government. And along the way, you get these nice, nasty little bits of prejudice and slanted thinking and bias sneaked in.
I told you I’d come back to antis. And here we are.
The vast majority of antis are very young. They grew up in a world where those “programs” were the norm. They were not provided with a cultural basis of “these are the facts.” They were provided a basis of “here is what I think about the facts.” They were provided a basis of, as Mr. Banks said in Mary Poppins, “kindly do not cloud the matter with facts.”
There are no facts! Who fucking cares! An anti who’s 15 years old today was eleven years old when we were introduced to “alternative facts”! Is it wrong for a 27-year-old man to pursue a relationship with a 13-year-old girl? Depends on which news channel, and which presenter, you ask!
They literally grew up in a world in which critical thinking was discouraged. Once upon a time, you would have seen on TV that Notre Dame was on fire, and at dinner--or whatever your family did for together time--you might say things like “going to be expensive to fix that, I wonder what they’ll do,” but you wouldn’t have been hit with six presenters telling you exactly why Notre Dame should/shouldn’t be rebuilt. And don’t forget--even if you, personally, do not watch the news (or read it on the internet, which is just as bad, because everybody’s after those elusive advertising clicks, everybody needs the “scoop” two seconds before it happens), you know people who do. You hear their opinions and their hot takes and their retellings all around you. And those  opinions and hot takes and retellings will be colored by which “program” that person saw first.
Watch the first thirty seconds of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dn2RjahTi3M
Walter Cronkite, a legendary news anchor, giving his opinion on Vietnam. You will notice that he states, very clearly: “it seems very clear to this reporter.” This is Cronkite’s opinion, nothing more, and he makes it clear that he is speaking only for himself.
Now skip to approximately 1:05, and watch him report the Kennedy assassination. You can see he’s emotional, but also keeping it under wraps as best he can because he has An Important Job To Do, and that job is twofold: to deliver the news accurately and concisely, and to keep the American public calm (you can see this when he hurriedly says Johnson is probably taking the oath to become President; a missing VP would be a crisis at this moment). This is a man who’s just found out the most beloved president in modern times is dead. And not just dead--murdered. It’s not like Kennedy had a heart attack, his damn head was blown off. This news is still coming in so quickly that you can see him glancing off the screen to get fresh reports. He’s one of the first to receive this absolute blow--and he’s still holding it together, barely wavering. (When I was a kid, this role would go to Dan Rather. He was no Cronkite, but he tried.)
Where is that kind of rock for today’s teens? Imagine--heaven forbid, in the state our country’s in right now--that tomorrow we get the news Biden was shot.
How would we get that message?
Would it be delivered by an even-keeled, just-the-facts reporter like Cronkite? Or would we get it from a bunch of half-hysterical articles and crisismongering “programs”? And would it be delivered to us straight, like Cronkite did, or would it be buried in three days’ worth of opinions on his “legacy” and policies and What This Means For America?
Now: how are you supposed to build any kind of strong convictions and moral compass on a world like that? Where anything can be true if enough people have an “opinion” on it? Where the facts get immediately buried in a wave of bullshit?
Antis are reacting to a world of “opinions” and “programs” being thrown at them 24/7 by trying to create a world they can control, where there are in fact things that are true, in a world that has actively refused them the opportunity to learn how to parse and process facts. And so what they’ve come up with is this grossly distorted version of facts, because gross distortions of facts are all they know. It’s all they’ve ever seen. They’re perpetuating a system they don’t even realize they’re part of, because they never experienced life before it existed.
They’re not lying when they say they were heavily influenced by fiction because the bounds between fact and fiction have been actively erased. On purpose. And it’s difficult to grok that, if you grew up in a world where you didn’t have to go seek out photographic evidence to be absolutely certain that Notre Dame was, indeed, on fire.
So what we need to be doing, first and foremost, is rebuilding that wall of facts, that line of truth. Otherwise, what we’re going to see is more of this, but getting worse daily.
We set them up for this, and now we’re paying the price for it.
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i am typing this at 3am but all my thoughts and energy needed this out and and this is my first time doing this but i had to give it to you mi amor
many thoughts head full of pro hero/upcoming cop!bakugo who is patrolling one day and accidentally sneaks up on a few fans and one of em damn near puts him on his ass and he asks her “where the hell did you learn that” and the girl buzzes about a new self defence teacher who didnt look like much but taught a bunch of women how to kick ass
and he doesnt think much of it until all these perps keep coming in to the station/agency and they are literally beaten to a pulp by the women they try to hurt and they say the same thing about the self defence teacher who even if they only attended a single lesson taught them how to give it back 10x as hard ,and now he is curious to shit about this woman so the next time a perp comes in he asks for this self defence teachers name under the guise of merely staking her out
until he sees you,workout gear and all and its like a truck hits him,this person in front of him is the reason so many assholes are coming into his territory looking like shit and god damn does it get him hard,even harder when your assistant who is 10x bigger than you comes at you and you take him down in a 1,2 wham and its like he is in love,he keeps coming back after that just taking in the sight of it all and then just his (and your) luck your assistant cant come in today and your class is nearly starting and you cant find anyone big enough to fill his shoes until you lay eyes on pro hero dynamight/pretty officer!katsuki in the back of your class like he has been the past few weeks (you noticed of course you did) and you plead for him all pretty eyed to please demonstrate with you,if not for you then for the women you would be helping and he would be lying if he said he hadnt thought about being all sweaty and pinning you to the mats for weeks since he saw you do it the first time,except its you doing the pinning and again he would be lying if that didnt stir something in him and so he does it and the feel of your body against his is unlike anything he has ever felt before as you literally kick ass into next week and he doesnt think hes had anyone give it to him that good in years
and obviously this escapade ends in the two of you hot,heavy and covered in god knows what as he gives you the working out you gave him not even an hour earlier after your last class got out,im talking heavy hands groping and slamming into these mats so hard you think you see stars but obviously he cant fully be in control you are a strong woman after all,using some of your techniques you turn it around and now hes back to being pressed against it,cheek flat as he lets you take what you want because he is just katsuki and you are unlike anything he has ever seen and god he thinks he could let you fuck him and vice versa for the rest of your lives.
god that was a lot for a late night phone rant i hope u liked <3
Holy shiiiit. I cannot believe you’re dumping this into my asks for free, anon. This was beautiful. You should really consider writing this because I would read the FUCK out of it.
Imagine after the class he helped with is over and he’s helping you clean up the room even though you told him he doesn’t have to, that he’s helped you out enough today but he doesn’t mind. Somehow he just doesn’t want to leave you yet, finding himself enjoying your company more and more.
The build up of tension snapping as he pushes you down against the mats, pressing his hips against your leggings so you can feel how hard he is for you, how much he wants you. Unable to resist finally breaking the distance and pulling you into a sultry kiss, full of all the pent up emotions from the day and the previous times you met.
It would be so messy, so raw. Just a tangle of hands and legs as you tug at each other’s clothes, pawing at the exposed flesh as you rut into each other.
When he finally slips himself inside you he keeps his forehead pressed against yours, his vermilion eyes keeping contact as he stares into your soul. Making everything that bit more intense.
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roscgcld · 3 years
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NANAMI KENTO + GOJO SATORU || the one that got away
request: i'm literally in love with your fics- i was wondering if you could write a Nanami x reader x Gojo where Nanami and the reader were dating before he left Jujutsu Tech, but they break up when he leaves. When he comes back he realizes he's still in love with the reader but she's engaged to Gojo and there's just a bunch of angst and tension. Sorry ik that's a lot :') But ty!!
note: lowkey thought you wanted a nanami x reader x gojo and i was like ‘oh babes am so ready-’ until i rer-read your request lmao! but honestly this was a lot of fun to write. tbh, if i was reader I would choose nanami cause rn am a whole ass SIMP for the man that is nanmi kento cx but i hope i managed to capture what you wanted in this request babes!
pronouns: she/her
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“Maybe we should take a break.”
Those six words were engrained into the mind of Nanami Kento for the rest of his life. Those six words were the words that tossed his world upside down - and every time those words came into mind, the imagine of your crying face comes with it. 
You were so distraught, yet you put up a brave front as you gave him a shaky smile - something that he loves so much about you. That even though his explanation as to why you two should break up was childish, selfish even; you still go the extra mile to make sure that he knows you understand. That you understand why he wants to take a break so that he can focus on himself and his career.
“I understand, Nami...just know I love you, okay?”
Your simple words, coupled with your tearful eyes and watery smile made him want to take back the words as soon as possible. That he wants to just turn back time and just admit to himself that he was going to regret his decision. But at the same time, he doesn’t want to. If he did go back in time and stopped, he might end up breaking your heart again; if not with more bitterness and anger. 
When he was young, he hated that he was a jujutsu sorcerer - hated how he has this responsibility over him that he never asked for. He just wanted to be free from the jujutsu world and never look back. You were different - you were so proud that you were a jujutsu sorcerer, always a beacon of light in the dark reality that is being a sorcerer. Somehow you made it bearable for him, and at one point he thought he can do it for the rest of his life. Until after the death of Haibara Yu, a classmate that the both of you call a dear friend.
It was at that moment that he snapped, and he knew he didn’t want to do this anymore.
Yet he couldn’t force himself to drag you away from something you love so dearly, something you see as your duty to protect. He knew that either way he was going to be selfish, and either way tears were going to be shed; so he chose the one that would hurt the least. However, now years down the line, he still thinks that maybe things could have worked out. There was no denying that he still loves you - even though he keeps in touch with his senior, Gojo Satoru, from time to time, he doesn’t ask about you.
From what he knows, you stayed back in Jujutsu Tech and became a teacher, but that is all he knows about you. He was too scared, too embarrassed to face you once more - because he knows better then to dream. Dream that the promise you promised to keep as teens was going to hold up now that the both of you were in your late twenties.
But there is no harm in dreaming, right?
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Nanami checked his watch as he got off the train, making his way towards the bus station located right outside of the building. It was his first time back at the college after being away from it for a few years, since he had called Gojo the other day on asking about if there is an opening for him to return as a sorcerer.
Even though Gojo can be a huge pain in the ass to deal with, Nanami knew that if there was anyone who can confirm a space for him at work, it will be Gojo Satoru.
Walking out of the crowded station, he looked up just in time to see the white haired shaman waiting for him at the entrance; who grinned and waved when he saw his junior. “Nanami! I knew you were not going to be late.” Gojo called out to the man dressed in a fresh grey suit and blue shirt underneath; his spotted tie knotted around his neck. The bespectacled man just sighs tiredly and made his way towards his overly excited senior, scowling when the taller male draped an arm around his shoulders.
He opened his mouth to say something when he noticed the ring that was resting on Gojo’s left ring finger, causing him to raise a curious eyebrow as he allowed the older male to lead him along. “You got married?” He asks the taller male, who glances at his hand before he grins and shakes his head, flexing his hand a little to show off the simple band around his ring finger. “Nah, we just got engaged. We are planning for the wedding though.” He stated simple, to which Nanami glances over at his senior in surprise. “What? Thought that I was too good to be married off?”
“No, I am surprised that you somehow managed to find someone willing to chain themselves down with you.”
“How mean!” Gojo gasps before he shakes his head in amusement, playfully squeezing his junior who just scowls lightly. “For your information, we’ve been dating for the last 4 years. And we have both talked about marriage before, so I wasn’t blindly shooting into the dark when I proposed.” Gojo commented as the two of them made their way towards the taxi stand, where Ijichi greeted his two seniors with a soft bow; all three men getting into the car. “Still surprised they said yes.”
Gojo just pouts and whines at his junior, who just listened to him with his deadpan expression the entire way to the college. He was surprised that Gojo managed to come on time to pick him up, since he had expected for him to be late, and for him to have either taken the bus or hailed a taxi on his own. But he didn’t really mind; he’s used to handling Gojo’s childish personality, and he gets a free ride at the same time. So he doesn’t mind the brief ride with Gojo.
Soon they arrived at the wooded area where the college is located on, getting out of the car once Ijichi stops the car. Quietly Nanami got out of the car and squints his eyes a little at the sunlight that shone down on him, his eyes slowly focusing on the grand temple-like compound that is Tokyo Metropolitan Curse Technical College. “Feels weird to be back?”
“A bit.” Nanami admitted to Gojo when he walked from the other side of the car to Nanami’s side, the man just chuckling before he gestures for him made his way through the gates and into the campus, immediately being hit with all the nostalgia of being a student once more. It felt like a light weight was being lifted off his shoulders as he soaks everything in, like the guilt of him leaving his duties as a sorcerer behind has been lifted.
The two men made their way deeper into the college just as someone called out to Gojo from behind, causing both men to pause as they turned to look back. Immediately Nanami felt his heart skip a beat when his eyes finally settled onto you, a warm smile gracing your features as you made your way towards the both of them. Nanami was so stuffed that he didn’t catch the way Gojo grins and opens his arms for you, watching the two of you embrace one another as a sinking feeling when he saw the delighted grin on your face.
The same grin that you used to give him after not seeing you for awhile. 
Somehow Nanami managed to keep up an indifferent façade as you embraced your fiancée, pressing a soft kiss against his cheek in greeting whilst Gojo just nuzzles closer to you; in an attempt to milk all of the attention he can from you. “How needy.” You giggled at him before you turned to the man beside your fiancé with the intension of greeting him; only to freeze up when you realise who it was. “K-Kento?”
“Nice to see you again, Y/N.” Nanami greeted in his usual indifferent tone, trying to hide his heartbroken eyes beneath the shadow of his sunglasses as he tilted his head ever so slightly. “I guess some congratulations are to be said.” He stated simply before he gestures to your left ring finger, where a simple yet beautiful engagement ring rested on your finger. For some reason your heart sank as you awkwardly hid your hand behind your back, causing Gojo to raise an eyebrow as he glances between the both of you.
Was there something going on between the two of you?
“O-Oh, thanks.” You mumble out awkwardly, knowing immediately that Nanami was no longer in his usual indifferent mood. You can feel the slight hurt in his voice, one that causes your heart to break a little; bringing you back to the day you two broke up. How you promised to keep loving him until he was ready to return - yet here you are now, engaged to another man. It wasn’t like you fell out of love with him, you still love Nanami with all your heart, but that love had started to shift the years you two spend apart. And somehow, you started to fall for the white haired shaman known as Gojo Satoru.
But that doesn’t mean you didn’t feel any guilt for how evil you might seem to your ex for stringing him along like that. “I wasn’t expected to see you here.”
“I decided to come back.” Nanami stated simply with a shrug, glancing over at your quiet fiancé who blinks at him owlishly back at him. “Plus, Gojo here told me about a student of his by the name Itadori Yuji that I am supposed to take under my wing.” He continued, giving Gojo the chance to jump in as he smiles down at you, squeezing your shoulders gently. “That’s right! Kento-kun here said he wanted to come back! So his first job is to supervise Yuji-kun.”
“Oh.” You replied in a small tone, unsure of how to answer at all. But luckily Nanami stepped in before the awkward silence can drag on for long, pulling the sleeve of his jacket off his watch to check the time. “I don’t want to get in the way of your free time now, Y/N-san. I am going to go and rest up in my room before dinner is served.” He stated simply before bowing at the both of you, not meeting your eyes. “Excuse me.” 
With that he turned to walk away, forcing himself to not look back at you as he made his way down the familiar hallways towards the dorms; the keys to the room he is to stay at for the time being clutched in his hand after he slipped it into his pocket. What was I thinking? He thought to himself as he continued his way down the empty hallway to the dormitories. Did I really think an amazing woman like that will wait for me? 
He sighed to himself as he shakes his head a little, slipping his polished dress shoes off his feet before putting them on one of the free cubbies built into the wall; grabbing a pair of the guest slippers before he puts them on. “At least she managed to get engaged to Gojo. He’s definitely worthy of her love.” He mutters to himself, reminding himself to be happy that you found happiness. He doesn’t blame you for finding love once more - when he left this life behind, he also left you.
No call, no text, no attempt to reach out. Was he expected you to just fall into his arms once more? Pretend that nothing happened, and to go back to where you two once were? That thought alone caused him to let out a soft snort as he made his way towards the locked room, unlocking it with his keys. “Don’t be foolish, Kento. Be happy that she’s happy.” He mutters to himself as he entered his new room, closing the door behind him with a tired sigh.
“Guess you really were the one that got away.”
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Part 5 of Wonderful! Au. *boyband voice* banter’s back alright!
Also on AO3
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Jon: Hello everyone, and welcome back to our regular format. If my husband being horribly soppy-
Martin:-hey!-
Jon: -turned you off the how, this should be a refreshing return to formula, though I can’t guarantee there won’t be further horrible soppiness-
Martin, performatively under his breath: -most people thought it was charming-
Jon: -as that tends to happen when one is recording with the love of their life. If last week’s episode is the only one that you like, too bad, I’m back in full form, and should be at least through the rest of the season.
Martin: This show doesn’t have seasons? Due to the whole lack of a narrative thing?
Jon: I was referring to spring.
Martin: Oh, right.
[A beat passes.]
Martin, flatly: Oh. Great goof hon.
Jon, smug: Thank you.
Jon, sincere: Also, before we get properly started, I did want to actually thank everyone who sent well wishes.
M artin: Yes! We got positively inundated with lovely messages, it definitely brightened both of our days. I would even say it was wonderful.
[Jon groans.]
Jon: I am..not proud of the energy we’ve created for this episode so far, and we haven’t even hit the small wonders. Speaking of, do you have a small wonder this week?
Martin: Mine’s bad action movies.
Jon: Really? I had no idea you even liked them, let alone consider them wonderful.
Martin: Okay, so, saying I like them is a bit of a misnomer? It’s more that I like what they can do more than the movies themselves?
Jon: Elaborate?
Martin: It probably comes as a surprise to no one that I’ve tried my hand at a fair amount of mindfulness and mediation techniques. I’ve found poetry and journaling have been helpful for actually processing life events and whatnot, but when it comes to giving your brain a hard wipe and reset, nothing is half as quick and effective as a shitty shoot-em-up. Somethings about 2 hours of cartoonish, pg-13 violence held together with the absolute loosest of plots brings me to a state of mental blankness that would make a monk jealous.
Jon: How have I never witnessed you doing this? When are you sneaking off to go see Micheal Tarantino or who ever films?
M artin: That’s definitely not the right name.
Jon: Martin, dear, I don’t care. And you’re dodging the question.
Martin, fond: I’m not dodging anything. Since apparently we’re getting into it, you haven’t caught me cavorting with a movie involving more explosions than character development lately because I haven’t been. Haven’t needed it, in recent years. Turns out when you’re not crushingly lonely and working a literal nightmare of job, there’s less of a drive to try and escape your own thoughts. Shocker, I know. Still, to anyone out there that feels like their brain is on fire, go try watching a fast and furious. Any of ‘em, it doesn’t matter. Or even better, Chronicles of Riddick. I can’t remember a single goddamn detail of that movie, which makes it perfect for what I’m talking about.
Jon: I have the strong feeling that th is is a “mileage may vary” scenario.
Martin: Well, yeah, that’s this whole podcast. Plus, I imagine that movies like this would cause more stress to someone who cares about, say, world-building or rules consistency.
Jon: I wonder who you could possibly be referring to.
Martin: It’s a purely hypothetical person, love, don’t worry about it. Any small wonders?
Jon: Yes! Particularly relevant to the last week, my small wonder is stripping the sheets from your bed when it’s been too long between washes.
Martin: How very specific. M ost people would just say ‘clean sheets’.
Jon: Well, for one, I’m fairly certain that we’ve already covered clean sheets-
Martin: Shit, have we? Thank god other people keep track of this, otherwise this show would be unbearably repetitive.
Jon: Christ, yes. I typically check the website a good three times while prepping, and every about one out of those three times I find I’m trying to do an topic we did 30 episodes again. Anyway, um, it’s just nice, I think. When you’ve been too busy or sick or away for awhile, tossing the sheets in the wash makes a room instantly seem nicer. Of all the chores out there, this one, at least for me, has the highest reward to effort ratio.
Martin: Hard agree. Especially when the y have that slight funk of having been around to long, getting rid of that is such a relief. Speaking of, we need to change our sheets soon.
Jon: We can do it after the episode. Who goes first this week?
Martin: Considering last week was only me talking, I’m gonna say it’s you.
Jon: Alright, then. My first thing this week is Martin K. Blackwood.
Martin: Absolutely not!
Jon: Oh, you can do a whole episode on me, but I can’t do one little segment on my husband, whom I love very dearly?
Martin: Not while I’m sat here, no!
Jon: So you’re saying you don’t want me to tell the internet that your resolve to be kind even in the face of indescribable cruelty is one of the mot breathtaking things I’ve ever witnessed, or how I find it incredibly endearing when you get so emotional that your voice comes out as a squeak, or even that, on a more base level, you’re very physically attractive, and I could lose entire days thinking about your arms alone?
Martin, audibly blushing, voice the aforementioned squeak: Oh my god, Jon!
Jon, laughing: Then it’s probably for the best that my actual first thing is best friends.
Martin, peaking the audio levels: Oh you absolute bastard! Do you enjoy this? Do you get some sort of perverse sense of entertainment from riling me up?
Jon: Oh, don’t you start. As if you’re not as bad as I am. Maybe even worse.
Martin: That’s not…
Jon: Yes?
Martin: Okay. Maybe it’s slightly true. Really, what is romance for if not flustering your partner with compliments?
Jon, teasing: I certainly can’t think of anything.
Martin: Hush, you.
Jon: No, I don’t think I will.
Martin: Fine. I suppose you can tell our delightful audience about the power of friendship or whatever.
Jon: I would’ve assumed more enthusiasm, considering this segment is still, indirectly, about you.
Martin: In what way?
Jon: In the way that, to the shock of all, you’re my best friend.
Martin, pleased: Oh, is that what I am?
Jon, exasperated: Yes, dearest husband, I wouldn’t have married you otherwise. Though, upon reflection, I knew you were my best friend before I knew I held romantic feelings for you.
Martin: When was that?
Jon, letting out a breath that vibrates his lips: God it was...2016? I think it might’ve literally been the day after you told me about your CV.
Martin: That early? Huh. I wonder if that’s what people were picking up when they said they we were close.
Jon: What people?
Martin: I don’t know specifically, that’s just what Daisy told me.
Jon: Daisy? When the hell-?
Martin: It...was when she was interrogating me? And, because sometimes I have to be a parody of myself, pretty much my only take away from that interrogation was “people think me and Jon are close”.
Jon: Well then. It’s not like they were wrong.
Martin, smug: No, no they weren’t.
Martin, sincere: And you’re my best friend, too.
Jon: I was certainly hoping that you’re in this relationship for more than my good looks and incredible fortune, both in the monetary and luck sense.
Martin: You say that as if you aren’t good looking, which we all know is patently untrue.
Jon: You’re biased. You’d say I was good looking if I were nothing more than some primordial ooze with thoughts about its station.
Martin: I’m being completely objective. If you were primordial ooze with thoughts above its station, you’d be the cutest ooze of them all. That’s just scientific fact.
Jon: I’m starting to think we might be insufferable.
Martin: Starting to? Might be?
Jon:…
[Jon clears his throat]
Jon: What I find wonderful about the concept of best friends is, to me, they’re the closest thing real life has to soulmates. I don’t personally believe that there’s some..grand mystic force that drives people to be tied together in the manner that narrative typical soulmates are, and if there was I don’t think it would necessarily be the kind of emotional, heartfelt bond one would hope for, but I do believe that there’s individuals that get to know one another, and because of that knowledge, they chose to stick with one another. It doesn’t have to be a romantic, which is why I say best friend rather than specifically ‘spouse’, but I would argue that the basis of a strong romance like you and I have, is very much rooted in that connection. A true best friendship is an equal partnership, and there’s a sense of..matched sensibilities and understanding that can be utterly incandescent when it happens.
I also think that having one or more best friends makes living life on a day to day basis both better and just flat easier. The dark times aren’t as dark, and the bright times shine even more. I know from my own personal experience there are events that I..that I don’t know how I would’ve made it through without you. Hell, last week my..recovery period would’ve taken much longer if you hadn’t been there.
It’s an amazing thing to have someone to share things with, both triumphs and burdens. Um, also, according to Dictionary.com, the term best friends in English has been around since the 1200s. Something about that delights me, like, yes, we’ve had this casual way of referring to a Favorite Person for roughly 800 years. That makes it a hold-out from early Middle English. I dunno, it’s one of those things that make me feel overall very charmed by humanity.
Martin, audibly smiling: No, yeah, hard agree.
Jon: What’s that look for?
Martin: Nothing. Just. I love you a whole lot, you know that?
Jon, voice soft: I may have heard you say that once or twice. Per hour.
Martin: Only that often? I really need to be more diligent about that.
[There’s a bet of silence, presumably where they’re making doe eyes at each other.]
Jon: What’s your first thing?
Martin: Oh, um, right. Rats!
Jon: The expression or the animal?
Martin: Jon, have you ever once heard me say “rats” as an expression? Obviously I’m referring to the animal.
Jon: Ah. Should’ve known, considering that what, a third?, of all your segments have been on animals.
Martin: Yeah? And? You got a problem with critters? With creatures? With lil guys?
Jon, laughing: No, no, it’s very sweet. I’m just surprised you never became a vet.
Martin: Oh believe me, I wanted to. But then I learned that it was not, in fact, a job composed entirely of getting paid to play with other people’s pets.
Jon: You had that job, though, didn’t you? I thought I remembered you mentioning a month long stint at a doggie day care.
Martin, sighing dreamily: Best job I ever had. Too bad that place was shut down after it was revealed to be a money laundering front.
Jon: Good lord.
Jon: Martin did you...did you know it was a money laundering front at the time?
Martin:
Martin: Would it make you feel better if I said no?
Jon: Martin!
Martin: I figured it out like a week in, but, like, who cares? The pay was decent and the floor was super easy to clean, which is very much a plus for even a front of a doggie day care.
Jon: That’s...rather a lot. How about instead of getting into that any further, you tell me about rodents.
Martin: I would love to. But first, we have a shoutout!
Jon: Ooo, a shoutout. Does it specify who should read?
Martin: Let me check. It...does...not…..
...
Jon: Martin?
[A beat.]
Martin: Right! Sorry, um. This week’s shoutout is from Tim, to Danny. It says, “Danny! My favorite person who shares genetic material with me! I wanted to say thank you for your podcast obsession from 4 months ago, and specifically for telling me about these marrieds. They’ve gotten me through many a dull hour at the publishing house. Also, with this shoutout, I’ve officially gotten ahead on the Superior [Last Name Redacted] Brother scoreboard, so suck it. Love you lots, and looking forward to your visit next month, Tim.”
Jon: Oh.
Jon: Um. That’s very..sweet? I think? Mostly?
Martin: Yeah, I’d say so. Uh. We have to take a quick break because, uh, someone is..at our front door! Be back with you all in, from your side of things, just a moment.
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A Hard Choice To Make - Part 1
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"Go talk to him. It's the only way to wash your emotions away." April, the reporter of Channel 6, advise you.
"No!" Your eyes went wide "No, I won't!"
"Then do you want to live with it stuck into you for the rest of your life?"
You lower your head, not knowing what kind of response you should give besides this not-desired possibility. April is right.
Since you met the brothers—three years ago—you have created a strong family bond with all of them, specially with the fearless leader in blue who your heart shines for. You knew that something within you is brougth to life every time Leonardo is around, and it is kind of torture because you literally fell in love with this terrapin.
But there's a doubt haunting you: Is Leo with the same feelings about you? The objection behind it is almost invalid in your point of view. He is the leader of his group, known as being the only one who tries to keep his brothers in line, making decisions for each time they are out for patrol, dealing with the most heavy and difficult choices and moments throughout their adventures. And you... You are just a human as you always say.
You sigh, turning your eyes back at April "Ya know, I have no idea if he feels the same about me. I'm afraid of how he'd react from my declaration."
April leaves her desk, and sits next to you on the sofa in the living room of her apartment. "Y/N..." she said softly, landing her slender hand on your shoulder "Soon or late he will know; but if I were you, I would go talk to him. He won't figure it out alone". You nodded, staring at the floor again with your mind lost in an ocean of thoughts and emotions. "Try, Y/N. Do not let it consume you; or it will get worse" the reporter rubs your shoulder and embrace you in a comfort hug.
"Would you like me to talk to him?" She offered herself.
"No! No... I must be prepare myself first."
April let's out a soft giggle "Okay. Take your time, sweetheart. Call me if you need help." She smiled.
You let the comfort of her embrace take you completely as a help to try to kick out your anxiety, but your nervousness insists to stay. How would you say to the most respectable man that you're in love with? How would he reacts? Will he treat you in a bad or good way? You knew he wouldn't treat you like an idiot or something but even that you are not secure.
A few weeks has passed since April's advice.
You and Casey Jones were called by Chief Vicent to attend a meeting at NYPD police station for a debate about Shredder after his sudden disappearance in the day that Technodrome has appeared in the sky. And for your surprise you're not the only one who were invited.
Your mutant turtles best friends are there.
And speaking of them...
"Hey Casey and Y/N!" Mikey was the first one who came up to welcome you both as you enter in the police station. "Finally you're here! Chief Vicent is waiting for you" the young brother pointed at up stairs of the building.
You and Casey went quickly to the second floor.
Arriving there, Mikey pointed at one of the several rooms throughout the large corridor. From outside you could see three shells facing the only door of the small space, and your eyes shone. In the middle of the three massive terrapins, a blue and well-written kanji with a pair of katanas.
"Y/N? Are you coming or...?" Casey called, noticing your behaving.
You froze, desperate about what you would do with that handsome man a few steps away from you—actually standing on the other side of the table.
Gulping, you walked behind Casey as you both enter the room.
"Good evening, Casey Jones." the blond-haired woman nodded from the other side of the rectangular table, facing you both "And Y/N" she nodded again, sharing a polite smile. Other three pairs of eyes landed on you while you stand beside Casey "Hey, guys" Donnie waved with that cute grin he has. "Hey..." Raphael said with a neutral voice; and finally Leonardo who, as Chief Vicent, shares a nod and a smile.
Oh God, that smile makes your bones shiver.
"So what are the news, Chief?" Casey asked, leaning above the table to watch papers and pictures scattered above it.
"We got a prove that Shredder must be still alive" she continued "We have captured Karai who was with him in the day that Kraang has arrived on Earth for the first time, and has confessed that Shredder was teleported into Technodrome. It was the last time she has seen him" she finished, glancing quickly at Shredder's picture on her right side and then looked up at everybody there present.
"Wait, wait..." The hot head turtle interferes "Last time? But how? Karai and Shredder used to work together all the time! Perhaps she is laying-"
"We don't know, Raph." The leader cuts his brother, then Mikey continued "Or maybe Shredder is working for Kraang.", Donnie moved his body a bit to stand face-to-face with his brothers and continued "We do not know if all those suggestions are valid, but I fear what Mikey said. Shredder must be working for Kraang."
Chief Vicent nodded positively, leaning above the table "I wouldn't discard this possibility."
The idea of Shredder working for Kraang freaks you out. Shredder is known for being dangerous, and Kraang is known for being deadly; and the two of them together is a nightmare.
After a few minutes of silence, Casey questioned "So, what are we gonna do now?"
"Wait. For now." Chief Vicent responded, not breaking her eye contact with the Shredder's picture beside her, and the room was filled with Raph's indignation voice "Wait?! How much time of wait?!"
"Raph, more respect!" Leo punch his brother's arm, murmuring and shaking his head in disapprove by his brother's behaving.
You tried to not giggle by their brotherhood behaving.
"We don't know..." Chief Vicent replied "but all we can do now is use what we have available to find Shredder; and Kraang. I'm highly doubt that Shredder isn't on Earth. Maybe he was brought back by Kraang. As you said before, Donatello" she pointed "the atmosphere in Technodrome is toxic for those who have a normal cardiovascular system. Hardly Shredder would survive in that thing out there".
"There's an interesting point" Leo continued "But It's been months since his disappearance and till now no one has seen him. For sure, if someone have, they would warn us."
"Or they would help him" Raph participated one more time "We don't know if someone is his follower."
"You mean a new Shredder?" Mikey asked, surprised.
"I would freak out if it is true." You said.
"Me too." Chief Vicent agreed, sighing.
The worst nightmare of the boys is that another (or other) person ended up like Shredder. For sure someone out there have inspired themselves on that horrible assassin and perhaps will keep on doing his dirty work as a next generation of the Foot Clan. It must be happening in any city, state or country right now.
After two hours of debate, Chief Vicent has decided give a break, and then back to the reunion.
You are checking out your Pinterest in another small room of the building to spend some time. But your is mind busy thinking more about Leo than paying attention to the pics on your social media. You just scroll down, the pics passing through your phone screen quickly; then your mind focused in flashbacks of your conversation with April a few weeks ago.
You want to confess your love for Leonardo. You want to face him and say how much you love him.
But why are you feeling something negative inside you?
You sighed, without knowing what to do. Your eyes lift from the screen and scanned the small room around you. There's a desk with a deactivated computer in the left and a cupboard on the right. Cupboard? Why is it here in a office? Maybe this room is used like a kitchen. And speaking of it... where's the coffee machine and other stuff used by workers?
You shrugged, ignoring it and paying attention to your phone again.
"Y/N?" A familiar deep voice called from the door frame. You jumped and quickly looked up at the person.
Actually, at the turtle.
"Oh, hey Leo" you smiled, pretending you didn't got scared by his sudden apparence. But he was giggling a bit "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you" he came in, picking up a chair and sitting beside you.
Butterflies started to fly wildly in your belly.
"Come on, Y/N! Say something!" you thought. "So... How's things going?". "Really, Y/N?! Is it all you can say?!" You coursed at yourself.
Leo glanced at you and says confused "Um... Things are great. Thanks." he smiled.
Now is the time. You have to tell! You want to tell! But you're fucking afraid.
Your thoughts says to do not do it but your heart says yes. You took a deep breathe, rubbing your hands on your thighs nervously and finally looked up at him.
"Leo..." You called softly.
"Hm?" He looked back at you in the eyes. It seems that your heart will get out of your chest, and you could feel your cheeks burning.
"I...".
He just tilted his head, waiting for your answer.
"I... am gonna take some coffee. W-Would you like some?" That's it. You wanna punch yourself in the face.
He lift an eyebrow—at least you could see.
"Um... Yes, please". He answered, still suspicious about why are you acting that way. You got up from the chair where you were and walked out of the room, but before you could leave, Leo grabs your arm and makes eye contact with you, worried "Are you okay?"
"Why? Yeah! Why wouldn't I am?" You tried to act as normal as possible, but you couldn't hide it from him. This man can notice if something is right or not. And you fear that. You don't wanna mess your moment. You just want to relax with him, and not put more worry into him. Leo and his brothers are already dealing with Shredder's disappearance which is shaking them inside out frenetically. And the last thing you want is bother him with your love.
"I'll be right back." You gently released from his massive hand and left the room, leaving him alone.
"Damn, Y/N! What's wrong with you?" the whisper leaves your mouth and suddenly you bumped with another woman, hitting your shoulder with hers.
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry! Are you okay?"
"Oh, no. It's okay" the red-haired waved, grinning "I must apologize, I was distracted".
"Don't worry, I was distracted too." You giggled, then kept on your way to find a coffee machine which you have no idea where it is.
For sure your thoughts are torturing and preventing you by something you wish to do. You've been hiding your love for Leo for almost three years.
After ask a cob where to find a coffee machine you finally have found it in somewhere on the third floor of the police station.
"Okay, Y/N. You can do this" you whispered while you fill almost to the top two cups with the dark liquid. "You can do this. You can do this..." You continued to repeat, trying to fill you with courage.
"I'm ready. I can do this!"
Picking up the two cups with dark coffee youheaded back to the small room where the handsome man is waiting for you.
Stopping beside the door frame—you can't see what is happening inside the small room—you took a deep breath and get yourself ready for the long-awaited moment of your life.
Smiling, you walked in.
And froze.
Leo was there, as you expected, but he was kissing the woman who you accidentally bumped early on your way to get the coffee.
Your heart broke like someone has ripped it out from you.
It seems that the world has fallen under you; your body falling into an precipice.
You prepared yourself for three years for nothing. All the worries, expectations, and hopes you used to have, all that moments you've spent practicing what you would say to your best friend, all the great moments you and him spent. Three years of your life were wasted.
Leo and the red-haired woman broke the kiss and directed their eyes on you, surprised. You have to admit that you saw a light blush covering on his cheeks.
"Oh, Y/N." He said, smiling "Allow me to introduce you my girlfriend".
You felt a knot forming in your throat.
"Y/N, this is Melissa. Melissa, this is my best friend, Y/N." He used his hand to mention you and his girlfriend while introduce you both.
"Nice to meet you, Y/N." Melissa waved.
"Nice to meet you, Melissa..." You shares a small smile, hiding your frustrating, and waved back.
You take a step forward to place the cup on the small desk next to you. Some drops of the dark liquid slipped out from the object "You should drink before it gets cold, Leonardo." You simply said, trying so hard to not cry. The leader got surprised when you said his full name. It's rare to you do it. Since you both got intimate—as best friends—you started to say his nickname as you do with the others. He doesn't understand very well the reason of your sudden change.
"Um... Yes, I will". He pronounced every single word slowly, tilting his head a bit as he looks at you. Melissa noticed your uncomfortable expression and asked worried "Are you okay, sweetheart?"
"No!" you screamed mentally. "Yes! I am. I gotta go. Sorry." You whispered the last word, turning and heading out of the room, leaving the woman and your best friend together. Your eyes starts to get warm and a wet feeling of tears disturbs you completely; you refuse to cry in front of important and serious people from this place. So you forced your legs to walk fast towards the exit.
You were so distracted that you almost bumped Chief Vicent. You gasped.
"Hey, Y/N. We're going to back to our reunion right now. Have you seen Leo? I can't find him anywhere." the blond-haired woman asked.
"He-*deep breath* He's in that room." You pointed at the door in the end of the corridor. C. Vicent lift an eyebrow, studying your facial expression.
"Are you okay, Y/N?"
"No, I'm not!" You gulped as see Chief Vicent's eyes going wide by your anger, then you immediately completed, "I'm not feeling good..."
But before Chief Vicent had a chance to talk to you, you lower your head and ran away, the knot in your throat and the pain in your heart growing up wildly.
You couldn't stay in that building anymore, not with Leo there. Not with the news of his sudden dating with someone. All you want now is go home, lay down on your bed, bury your face into a pillow, and cry like there's no tomorrow—well, actually there's no tomorrow for you.
How much time Leonardo is dating? And why April didn't tell you about it? Or any of his brothers? Do someone know about his dating? Or does he didn't tell to anyone yet?
You don't wanna know.
Actually you couldn't blame him because he has no idea that you are in love with him.
And now you have to deal with a new reality.
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a video of supergirl grabbing lena luthor's ass starts circulating and it's very embarrassing for sc but extremely funny to their friends
(I am SO sorry. Where do these hide? Why do I never see them? How long has this been here?!
Anyways, have some cute nonsense!)
The day starts like any other, honestly.
Like, sure, Kara’s never thrilled when she wakes up 20 minutes late and has to use superspeed to get through her morning routine and into the office on time, but it happens regularly enough that she’s just sort of used to it by now. Like, the sky is blue, the grass is green, she manages time poorly. Whatever.
But she does get to work on time, with just enough to spare that she can make a brief detour to Nia’s desk for the coffee her protege has already bought for her, thank her profusely (with perhaps minor promising of firstborn children), and slip into the morning meeting just as Snapper, James, and Lena start handing out assignments for the day.
“Well, well, good of you to join us, Ponytail. Let me guess, a family emergency kept you out all night again?”
‘I mean, that Abraxian wasn’t my family, technically, but someone’s family, so…’ “Something like that. Sorry.”
Lena catches her eye and quirks a brow in question, but Kara just shrugs easily and sips her coffee, pulling a silly face at her friend when Snapper’s attention moves away from her. When her eyes uncross, she can tell Lena is fighting not to laugh, eyes sparking with mirth as she bites her lip. Kara takes another sip of coffee, feeling a bit smug that she can get Lena to smile without even having to say anything to her. That’s real talent, right there.
Especially since Lena has to stand up at the front with James, who has been by turns cold, dejected, and surly toward her since their breakup (a big, real, final one) a few weeks prior. Lena had said that the whole thing was a mistake, that she should’ve never gone for it in the first place because she’d been right the first time- they’d had some chemistry, after all, but it certainly wasn’t compatible long-term. 
Which… Kara can certainly relate. Like, a lot.
Especially about the whole… James being kind of wounded about it part. That part had really sucked- when he’d done it with Kara, who he’d gone on like, a date with, it’d resulted in him deciding to become a vigilante. Rao only knows what he’ll do when it’s someone he dated on and off for over a year...
“Ponytail!”
Kara jumps, realizing too late that her wandering attention hasn’t gone unnoticed. “Yes, sir?”
Snapper rolls his eyes. “Great, now that you’ve stopped orbiting Saturn, you wanna go get that article started?”
Kara’s eyes widen slightly in a panic as she realizes that she has no idea what he’s talking about. “Uh…” Behind his back, Lena catches her eye and nods subtly. Thank Rao. “Yes. I super do.”
Lena snorts, James sighs deeply, and the meeting is adjourned.
**
“So what exactly am I supposed to be doing today?” Kara asks Lena as they stroll out of the conference room together.
“Well unfortunately for you, you have to interview a big-time CEO. You have a meeting scheduled with her in three hours.”
“You?” Kara asks hopefully.
“You’re very sweet,” Lena chuckles. “No, Elena Watts. She’s a real estate developer, and she runs a nonprofit organization for homeless youth. It’s one of the articles we’re doing for next month’s spread. Contrary to popular belief, Cat and I weren’t the only women with high-profile jobs in this city. ”
“Oh, that’s pretty cool! Have you met her?”
“Not personally, no, but I have donated to her charity- it’s a very good cause, especially the outreach they do with queer youth.”
Kara elbows Lena gently. “You’re such a softie.”
“Mmm, maybe. But if you tell anyone, you’re fired.”
Kara clutches a hand to her chest, feigning horror. “Why Miss Luthor, what a blatant abuse of power!”
Lena shrugs. “I’m a Luthor, darling, I have to keep up appearances somehow.”
“Ouch,” Kara laughs. “See you at lunch?”
“Only if lunch includes a milkshake- I have a teleconference with both boards today. Unless you feel like joining me?”
“Wow, well as fun as that sounds, I’m gonna go do literally anything else.” Her comms crackle to life, alerting her of a hostage situation downtown, and Kara sighs. So much for a work day. “Alright, well, I’m, um, gonna go… see what I can find on Elena Watts. Maybe over another cup of coffee at Noonan’s.” She widens her eyes a bit, trying her best to convey that she’s going to be on Super-duty for a little while.
Thankfully, Lena picks up on it and grins. “You just want sticky buns.”
“Lena, I always want sticky buns. They’re like, my second favorite thing to eat.”
“Oh? What’s the first?” Lena asks, voice just a bit lower than usual. 
Kara opens her mouth and closes it, flushing slightly as she averts her gaze and adjusts the laptop bag on her shoulder. Stuff like that has been happening more and more, and she’s not 100% sure what to do about it. Because on the one hand, it makes her stomach do flips and tie up in knots and makes her brain do this… staticky thing where nothing filters in or out, just a pleasant buzz of how funny and smart Lena is and how much Kara likes hanging out with her and being flirted with (because that’s definitely what’s been happening, even if neither of them is really ready to address it) and just generally looking at Lena.... who is currently biting her lip and grinning up at Kara, and that buzz makes her kinda dumb, which is just really unhelpful. But on the other hand, it’s also kinda awesome and Kara really enjoys it, and-
“Kara?”
She spaced out again. Crap.
“Um. What time are you free for lunch?”
Lena sighs, seeming slightly disappointed that Kara isn’t flirting back at the moment (and thank Rao Lena can’t read minds), but she smiles back easily enough as they step off of the elevator. “I should be done by two.”
Feeling emboldened, Kara turns so she’s walking backwards in front of Lena and grins. “It’s a date,” she says with a grin, ducking forward to press a quick “friendly” kiss high on Lena’s cheek. She whirls and jogs out the double doors, leaving Lena smiling exasperatedly after her.
**
It is genuinely baffling to Kara that people still commit crimes in National City. It’s not even an ego thing, really, since Kara tries to keep herself humble (even when she manages to wrap up a hostage situation within twenty seconds of arriving on-scene without injuring any of the criminals or damaging the building too badly). Like, yeah, she gets that there’s a certain element of crazies who just sorta gravitate to places with a local hero, the big-bads who have their own suits and geek-toys and abilities. Them, Kara gets. Kinda sorta. But the regular ones, who are armed with like, pistols? Or knives? Just regular man made stuff without even the benefit of magic or kryptonite or something?
Why? 
She’s sure that if she asked, Lena would have some sort of statistical thing about large cities and poverty and all sorts of other factors that would end up making Kara feel like a jerk for being uncharitable to the criminal element of her city, but at the moment she’s mostly too annoyed by the fact that she has to spend her weekdays chasing them around instead of chasing stories.
Once all the hostages are freed and the cops secure the scene, Kara departs, flying into the alley behind Noonan’s and changing into her regular clothes before she heads inside to do a bit of research before her meeting with Elena Watts in a few hours (just because she’d used it as a cover doesn’t mean it was a bad idea…). She finds her favorite little two-person booth tucked into a quiet corner, plugs in her laptop, and gets to work, asking the waitress to please keep both the coffee and the sticky buns coming.
She gets a surprising amount done by the time she needs to leave for the interview, having a good foundation for what she wants to write and who Elena Watts is.
Ms. Watts turns out to be a pretty nice lady around Eliza’s age, if a bit busy and distracted by the steady flow of people in and out of her office. She answers all Kara’s questions with aplomb, happy to elaborate on most every point and eager to draw attention to the rising issue of homelessness among children and teens in the US.
“When I was young, my dad lost his job at the auto plant. It was supposed to be a temporary layoff, but the factory never reopened. We ended up losing the house, and we lived so far from our extended family that staying with them wasn’t much of an option. We lived in our SUV for six months, sleeping at shelters every now and again, if we could find one that allowed families to stay together. We showered at the local YMCA. Five people and a dog, living and sleeping in an old station wagon- even now, it sounds ridiculous. Eventually, we got back on our feet, but I never forgot that. It was just six months, but it was- and remains- the scariest, most uncertain time in my entire life, and it shaped me in a lot of ways I didn’t expect. And there are kids and families who do that for years. I just want to help them the way I wish that someone had been able to help us.”
At the end of the interview, Kara thanks her profusely for her time and for sharing her story before hurrying off to CatCo to type up a draft for Snapper (“What’s wrong with you, Ponytail, why is everything you bring me sappy and sentimental?”), which she finishes an outline of just in time to send it off before running to Big Belly and L-Corp for lunch with Lena.
She greets the newest in a series of secretaries (Anna? Amy? Ava? Lena’s really missing Jess, these days, but from what she’s told Kara, Jess is kicking butt in her new role as VP of Operations and will probably take over for the COO when he retires in a few years), and the girl waves her in distractedly.
And that’s when Kara’s day goes from normal to not, because inside the office are two masked men holding a stone-faced Lena at gunpoint on her balcony and demanding… something, probably. Kara’s a bit distracted by the loaded gun aimed at Lena’s head.
“Hey!” she yells, attracting both their attention. They whirl on her and Lena’s eyes widen in alarm, and Kara suddenly realizes three things- 1) she’s in her Kara Danvers clothes, not the supersuit, 2) she can’t speed into the suit now that they’re both looking at her, and 3) she has no plan.
Crap.
“Who the hell are you?!” one of them demands.
Kara… doesn’t have a good or snappy answer for that, and instead does the only thing she can think of- she throws the large milkshakes she’s carrying at them as hard as she can.
Which, in retrospect, is too hard, apparently because while yes, it is both funny and gratifying to see two grown men get absolutely leveled by a tasty dairy treat to the face, the one closest to Lena manages to elbow her in such a way that she falls backwards over the rail with an instinctual scream that makes Kara’s heart fly into her throat. She whips off her glasses, and by the time she’s out the window and speeding toward Lena’s flailing form, the suit is materialized. She gets under Lena, catching her carefully and dropping a bit further before slowing down (because she’s been made aware that when she doesn’t, the people she’s saving may as well be hitting the pavement), finally coasting to a stop about 20 feet from the ground.
Lena’s face is screwed up in a forced sort of focus, her hands clutching tightly at Kara’s shoulders and cape as she holds her breath.
“Are you okay?” Kara asks quietly.
Lena swallows thickly and nods, eyes still firmly closed. “I’m alright. Thank you- I’ll admit, I wasn’t quite sure how to get out of that one.”
“What was that? What did they want?”
Lena cracks an eye open. “Oh. you know, just my quarterly assassination attempt. I think my mother was starting to miss me, so she wanted to reach out.”
Kara snorts. “That really shouldn’t be funny.”
“Maybe not, but here we are.” Lena shifts a bit in Kara’s arms, cheeks a bit flushed from the adrenaline rush, and clears her throat. “Not to be rude, Supergirl, but do you think that perhaps we could continue this conversation… on the ground?”
“Oh. Oh! Yeah, sorry. I forgot we were, uh, flying.”
Lena chuckles as they ascend slowly back up to her office. “You forgot you were flying?”
Kara shrugs with an easy smile. “I guess you have that effect on me.”
Lena huffs a laugh against Kara’s neck, eyes squeezed shut again. They alight on the balcony, finding the two men still unconscious, covered in Kara and Lena’s lunch. Lena sighs as Kara sets her down, pinching the bridge of her nose. “What a mess.”
“Yeah, sorry, I sorta… panicked.”  
“I was so looking forward to a milkshake too…” Lena laments playfully.
“Well, then I have good news and bad news,” Kara says. She reaches out and gently wipes a bit of her own chocolate shake from Lena’s cheek with the pad of her thumb, tucking it into her mouth on instinct to get a taste of it. “The good news is, you do, in fact, have some shake on you!”
“Whats the bad news?” 
“Also that you have some shake on you.” Kara laughs, gathering the two men in her arms and hefting them a bit so they’re easier to carry. “I’ll get you another one. Be right back.”
She drops the men at the police station with a brief explanation before flying back into the office. Lena hands over her discarded glasses with a wry grin.
“I figured you’d need these before the police arrive.” She’s putting on a brave front, but she’s clearly still more than a bit rattled, if her too-bright eyes and thundering heartbeat are anything to go by. Kara steps closer and opens her arms in invitation, and Lena doesn’t hesitate to step into them. “Thank you,” Lena says fervently, tucking her face into Kara’s shoulder and wrapping her arms tight around Kara’s waist. 
“Always,” Kara promises, daring to press a reassuring kiss to Lena’s temple (and getting a bit of Lena’s strawberry shake for her troubles) before wrapping her up even tighter in her arms. “Are you actually okay?”
“I mean, my fear of heights has been reaffirmed,” Lena jokes, “but aside from that, I’m not hurt.”
“Good. I don’t like, love people pointing guns at you. Just so you know.”
“I’m not a fan either, for the record,” Lena drawls, burrowing even closer. “Even though I know you’ll save me, it still puts a damper on my day.”
Kara huffs a laugh. “Same.”
They stay like that for a few minutes, until Lena’s calmed down enough to stop shaking and calls her assistant (Audra, apparently) in, telling her what’d happened and that the police would be arriving shortly to take her and Kara’s statements, and please advise the security team to let them up discreetly. After the cops arrive, it’s a blur of questions, and Kara has to concentrate on telling the story of how she’d panicked and thrown the milkshakes at the men, and one of them had knocked Lena over the balcony (all true), and Kara had yelled for Supergirl, who had knocked the men out on her way to Lena (also technically mostly true. Technically. Mostly.). The police are sure to tell Kara that next time, she shouldn’t throw things at people with guns, and also to tell them both how lucky they are that Supergirl had shown up when she did.
“She’s always there when I need her,” Lena agrees, throwing a sly wink over the officer’s shoulder at Kara.
Kara just shakes her head and smiles. Even almost dying isn’t enough to make Lena not flirt with her. The woman is truly a marvel.
Kara’s comms crackle again, accompanied by Alex’s custom ringtone on her cell, and after assuring the police that she has no issue with giving another statement if they need her to later, hurries over to the DEO (making a quick stop in the back alley to change into her suit).
**
When Kara arrives, she’s told that J’onn and Alex are waiting for her in the Directors’ offices. She makes her way there, waving to the agents and scientists she knows. But it’s very weird, because every time one of them sees her, they start giggling before quickly hurrying off in the opposite direction. Like, literally everyone is whispering and pointing and giggling, and it’s giving Kara such visceral flashbacks to high school that it’s all she can do to not check her cape for a taped on sign that says ‘Kick me’ or ‘Freak’.
(Kids are mean.)
By the time Kara gets to her destination, she’s fully paranoid, sure that someone’s playing a prank on her, somehow, and that everyone but her is in on the joke. She opens the door with more force than intended and catches it just before the handle puts a hole in the wall, throwing Alex and J’onn a sheepish smile. She closes the door extra gently and leans against it heavily. J’onn and Alex just stare at her, looking thoroughly unimpressed.
“Busy day, Supergirl?” Alex asks, and after half a lifetime of spending time with her, Kara recognizes that she, too, is trying not to laugh. 
Kara’s had enough. “Okay, do I have something on my face? Or on the suit? Is someone messing with me?”
J’onn’s brow furrows. “No.”
“Then what’s the deal? Why is the entire DEO like… laughing at me? Did someone accidentally vent the lab fumes out into the main hub again?”
“No.”
“Did someone see me crash into that billboard last week?”
J’onn’s frown deepens. “What?”
“No,” Alex answers.
“Then why is everyone laughing at me?!”
“I mean, if I had to guess, I’d say it’s because of that,” Alex muses, nodding toward the big TV on the wall beside Kara.
She steps back to watch the news coverage of her dealing with the hostage situation this morning and frowns. “What, those guys? That was routine, what’s so funny about tha-”
“No, no, not that. That,” Alex clarifies, cranking up the volume.
“...reports are saying that the CEO of L-Corp, Lena Luthor, experienced an attempt on her life early this afternoon. Sources claim that she fell from a considerable height-”
“Hey, she was pushed,” Kara corrects.
“Shh!”
“...caught by Supergirl, who may have gotten a little… familiar with her.”
And there’s a video (clearly recorded on a cell phone but not the worst quality Kara’s ever seen) of Kara catching Lena and slowing to a stop above the sidewalk, of them talking quietly, of Kara’s hand definitely on Lena’s-
“Oh. Oh no.”
“Oh yes,” Alex drawls, clicking the TV off with relish, a large, evil-big-sister grin spreading across her face. “Congratulations, Supergirl- the world just watched you grope Lena Luthor’s ass.”
“But I’m not- I wasn’t groping, I was catching! My hands weren’t… If it was groping, I’d be all up on her, and I wasn’t!”
“Camera begs to differ. It’s already trending on Twitter in National CIty.”
Kara puts her head in her hands and groans. “Why?! I was trying to save her!”
“You were definitely trying to save part of her,” Alex agrees. “Granted, it’s a very nice part...”
Kara’s head pops up, and she shoots Alex a look that’s between a pout and a glare. “You’re not helping.”
Alex feigns confusion. “Am I supposed to be helping?”
“Alright, enough,” J’onn cuts in before Kara can retort. “We just wanted you to be aware. I don’t think that this is going to be taken for anything more than it is- a humorous moment in the middle of a successful rescue. You shouldn’t worry about the press.”
And truth be told, Kara isn't worried about the press- she’s worried about the fact that she’s going to have to face Lena after this. Lena, who she knows for a fact has google alerts set for herself, Kara Danvers, and Supergirl, a gesture which is normally actually sweet and kind but is right now definitely gonna bite her in the-
“Okay! So, is that all?”
Alex blinks, looks over at J’onn, and shrugs. “I mean, yeah. Try not to make a habit of groping your crush when you’re in the suit.”
“I wasn’t groping her-”
Alex grins. “So you admit you have a crush? Interesting…”
“Alex!”
**
J’onn’s prediction is mostly right- no one seems to be taking the shots of her grabbi- saving Lena as anything other than a funny blip of a moment in their coverage of it.
He was wrong about the sheer scale. The clip had gone totally viral in a matter of hours, and seemingly every major network in the country has run the clip at least once as a bit of filler-fluff, and almost every major network anchor (including the ones at CatCo, the traitors) has made at least a passing joke about Supergirl being ‘Super-Handsy'.
Which means that Kara is very late getting back to Lena’s office with replacement food. But like, she’s been busy, okay? It’s not like she’s avoiding Lena, or something, because she’s embarrassed- which she isn’t, because she didn’t do anything bad or wrong and-
Anyways, it’s well past sunset by the time Kara gets to Lena’s office door again. She hesitates outside it for just a moment before shouldering the door open and knocking tentatively.
Lena’s attention jerks from whatever she’d been absorbed in to Kara, and a relieved smile blooms across her face. “Hey there.”
Kara finds herself equally relieved to not experience a repeat performance of earlier scary situations. “Hi,” Kara says, unable to resist smiling back. She raises the bags and cup carrier. “I bring grease and milkshakes. Again.”
“Oh thank god, I’m starving,” Lena says, rolling her chair away from her desk and rising into a deep and probably much-needed stretch. Kara very determinedly does not stare at the slight sliver of soft tummy that appears between her blouse and skirt at the motion. “I’ve been staring at this screen for several hours. And Sam called to yell at me- she says hello, by the way- she and Ruby are in town next weekend.”
“Good!” Kara crosses the room to the couch as Lena does, easily spreading out the veritable buffet of fast food she’d brought over the coffee table. “I mean, not good that she yelled at you, or that you’re still at work, Miss Luthor,” she says pointedly, receiving only an unapologetic shrug in response. “But good that, um-”
“I get it,” Lena chuckles, resting a hand lightly on Kara’s knee and boy, if that doesn’t make Kara’s brain go fuzzy and dumb again… “Thank you, for checking in.”
“Of course I was gonna check on you, Lena,” Kara huffs. “Plus, I know you probably didn’t get lunch, so…”
Lena hums around a mouthful of burger, chewing until she can politely speak again. “Well it’s delicious. Did you make it yourself?” she teases with a sly grin.
“Oh, yeah, totally. Slaved away over a hot stove for this- I just wrapped it in Big Belly wrappers so you wouldn’t feel bad about it.”
“Very clever.” Lena pops the lid off of her milkshake and drags a fry through it (an advanced culinary delicacy Kara had horrified her with initially but had eventually become a bit of a guilty pleasure). “Although I have to say, traditionally you’d have to buy me dinner before you grabbed my ass.”
Kara chokes on a pickle. “Oh no,” she groans, dropping the burger onto the wrapper on the table and dropping her very red face into her hands as Lena laughs beside her. She peers out from between her fingers. “I am so sorry, I was just worried about you hitting the pavement and like, catching you in the least jarring way and I wasn’t paying attention to where my hands were and I didn’t even notice until I got back to the DEO and-”
“Well I have so say, I feel a bit offended that you didn’t even realize you were copping a feel...” When the only response is another groan and a deep flush spreading from Kara’s neck to the tips of her ears, Lena relents. “Kara, Kara, it’s fine!” she laughs, pulling Kara’s hands away from her face and giving them a grounding squeeze. “Nia’s been sending me memes about it all day, which has improved my mood significantly. On the grand scale of fallout from assassination attempts, this one was at least funny.”
“I know that’s supposed to be comforting, but all it makes me wanna do is wrap you in bubble wrap forever,” Kara informs her.
“Pass on that. But seriously, don’t worry about it- I know it wasn’t on purpose- unfortunately for me, you’re too noble to do something like that,” Lena laments playfully.
And whether it’s the knowledge that Lena is not, in fact, upset, the overall weirdness that has been this day, or this delicious burger fueling it, Kara feels a bit emboldened. “Hey Lena…”
“Yes?”
“What if I wanted to grab your butt? Just, y’know, as a hypothetical. For future reference.”
Lena quirks a brow at her, fighting a smile as she contemplates this. “Hmm. Strictly hypothetically?”
Kara scoots a bit closer on the couch. “Sure.”
 “Well, you’ve already bought me dinner…”
“And lunch, technically. Even if I gave it to the bad guys.”
“True. Plus you saved my life, so that gets you some points, probably.”
Kara pauses in her sly scooching. “Oh, hey, wait, no, that’s not-” 
“Kidding, Kara. I know you’d never use that to your advantage. I, however, have determined that strong moral fibre and nobility do, in fact, earn you more points, which is my choice on the matter and you get absolutely no say in it.”
“Oh. Um, alright, I think.”
Lena stares off into the middle distance, tapping her forefinger thoughtfully against her chin. Finally she shrugs. “Yes, I think you’re fulfilled the prerequisites for a bit of grab-ass today.”
Kara snorts, Lena laughs, and soon enough Kara takes her up on the offer.
**
“Hey Kara, remember that time you grabbed Lena’s ass and it made international news?” Nia asks around a mouthful of mushu pork.
“You mean last week? Yes, I remember,” Kara drawls. Beside her/halfway sitting on her lap, Lena snorts.
“That was the best.”
Alex glares. “Um, excuse you, no. No it was not. I had to sift through so much thirsting over my sister on like, every social media platform. It was the worst day of my life.”
Brainy’s brow furrows. “Surely that cannot be correct, Alex. Statistically speaking-”
Alex holds up a hand, cutting him off. “Trauma can’t be measured, Brainy.”
Kelly chuckles and presses a consoling kiss to Alex’s cheek, and it makes the tough agent melt into a doe-eyed puddle of mush that Kara snorts. And she says they’re gross... Kara sneaks a glance at Lena from the corner of her eye, and she catches Lena looking at her. She leans close and jostles her gently as she drops her head onto Lena’ shoulder. “We’re never gonna live that down, are we?”
“Probably not.”
“We have the worst friends.” When this elicits nothing but a chuckle, Kara tips her head back to see Lena still looking at her, a soft smile playing at her mouth and shining in her eyes. And like, this whole thing they’re doing is new, with the kissing and the actual dates and the... everything else. But the thing where Kara catches Lena looking at her and she doesn’t look away? That freakin’ knocks her out, every single time. “Hey,” she manages.
Lena grins down at her. “Hi.”
So yeah. Maybe the initial circumstances weren’t ideal, and she doesn’t love the mockery that’s been heaped upon her by all of her friends and loved ones (including Winn, who’d sent a missive from the future that literally just said ‘LOL’). But the fact is, Kara muses as she surges up just enough to kiss the corner of Lena’s mouth, that she doesn’t regret a thing.
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It had been a week since you had seen Zemo. You hadn't seen your friend at all either. You had tried to contact her a couple of times, but after receiving no responses, you gave up. It still didn't sit right with you that she and Stark were a thing.
You were currently at work. You were on the afternoon shift today. You could handle the afternoon crowd easier than the morning crowd. It wasn't your usual shift, so your usual co-workers weren't here to banter with.
You were wiping down the counter when a customer approached. You wipe your hands on the towel over your shoulder and turn to take their order, only to stop.
"Zemo?"
He stands there smiling. He was wearing slacks with a button up shirt. He looked very smart, yet so laid back.
"Hello Y/N."
"What are you doing here?"
"Not happy to see me?" He grins.
"I am, it's just... I didn't expect to see you before the race."
He chuckles as he orders something to drink.
"I couldn't wait much longer. I wanted to see your world." He glances around the cafe. It was a nice place. Classy and clearly a good place for groups to hang out.
"Well this is it. I make drinks for people." You make him his drink and hand it over. He pays for it there.
"I like it. It suits you, but I think you'd fit into my world just fine."
You laugh, "not that I'd be of any use in your world. I can barely change a tyre."
That makes him chuckle.
"I'm sure there would be something for you."
You shake your head with a smile.
"Oh, it's your lucky day by the way. My boss happens to be a fan of yours, so I have next weekend off for the races."
"Ah, lucky me indeed." He looks very smug right now. You shake your head, grinning.
"Just this once. I can't take every weekend off."
"Well that's no good. I need you for all my races," he says, stating it like a fact.
"You don't need me. You just want me there for some reason."
Zemo leans on the bar and looks at you softly. He has a small soft smile on his face. You were right in every way.
"Yes, I do want you there."
"I don't see why."
"I like you," he says with ease, confidence oozing from him as he grins at you.
You laugh softly.
"You're so..."
"Handsome? Charming? Dashing?"
"So funny."
You both laugh softly.
"I should get back to work before my manager catches me chatting up the customers," you say, glancing over your shoulder.
"Oh? Do you flirt with others then?"
"Only the good looking ones," you stick your tongue out at him. He winks and takes a seat at a table near by. Though there is literally plenty for him to do, he chooses to watch you work instead.
This was you in your element. Life passing more slowly, more safely.
There was serenity in this life style. Something he couldn't provide through his. He couldn't guarantee anything, as much as he would like to pretend.
There was always that risk.
Risks such greater than anything you could ever face here. He looked down at his half empty cup of coffee. Maybe he shouldn't ever ask you.
You bid goodbye to your customer, and looked over at Zemo. You smiled at him. He smiled back. He finished his coffee and got up from his table.
"That was lovely, though I do have a particular fondness for tea."
You chuckle.
"We serve tea too."
He smiles.
"When do you finish?" He asks.
You look up at the clock on the wall.
"Two more hours. Why don't you go look around the town or something."
"I think I will. I'll pick you up later, no arguing," he winks at you and makes his exit. You smile as you clear his table.
Zemo walks through the town you live in. It's nice, pretty. Again, it suits you perfectly.
Looking around, he almost feels homesick. There was nothing left of the place he once called home. He shakes those thoughts from his mind.
Something catches his attention up ahead. A limo. It stands out vastly against the rest of the cars on the street. Far too sleek, shiny, and expensive for anyone around here.
It irks him that he has a bad feeling about it.
From up the road, he watches as the man he dreaded steps out. Tony Stark put on his shades before holding his hand out for someone. A pretty young lady climbs out of the limo.
Something about her strikes Zemo as familiar. He can't pinpoint from where though.
Zemo watches as Stark closes the limo door and takes the young lady into boutique behind them.
What was Tony Stark doing here?
Zemo had made the trip for you. He had his excuse to be here instead of down at the track. Tony, however, didn't.
Zemo headed over to where he was stood across the street, though he couldn't quite see through the store window display.
He had to make himself scarce before Stark came out again. He didn't want Tony seeing him. As he walked away, he didn't let go of the thought that he had seen that girl before.
Zemo was back at the cafe at the end of your shift like he said he would be. The car he was driving was another one from his collection. He opened the door for you and climbed in once you were safely in his car.
As he drove to your address, which he flirted with you for, his mood changed to something a little more serious. Concerned, you had to ask him what happened in those 2 hours he was alone.
"Are you alright?"
He glances at you.
"Yes, why?"
"You're clutching the steering wheel rather tightly and your jaw is locked again. What's on your mind?"
"I saw Stark here in town."
You swallow awkwardly.
"Did he see you?"
"No. I saw him. He was with someone." He glances at you as you shift in your seat. Now it was turn to be concerned. "What is it?"
"That's my friend. Remember when she called me at the airstrip? She told me she was going to meet me at the train station and tell me something big. Well, when we got out, Tony Stark was there with a limousine. Apparently the news was she is daring him. They had met that night after the first race, he had asked her out and she agreed."
You couldn't look at him.
Zemo, keeping an eye on the road, reached over and placed his hand on your knee. Your eyes flickered to his hand. His touch was warm and comforting.
"She won't talk to me now. When we got to my place, I had asked her about it. She got defensive and shut me off."
His thumb rubs circles on your leg.
"You don't think this is some kind of stunt do you?" You ask, looking up at him.
"I don't know, but I wouldn't put it past him. It's not the first time he's done something big for publicity."
You want to ask, but something else comes to mind.
"They haven't made it public yet."
"I assume he'll make his move at the next race. Cameras everywhere there." He glances at you.
That makes sense.
"Are you bothered about it?" You ask, looking at him from the corner of your eye.
"No. What Stark does for publicity is his problem. The question, does it bother you?"
"Yes," you state honestly, "because I can't tell if it's real, or if she's being carried away by the fantasy of dating her favourite pro racer. I looked into racing as much as I possibly could before that second race. I tried to get some background on the racers, you included, but Stark seems to thrive on being in the spotlight. He wins over and over again, he trots around the globe to meet people and race his cars. He is always making headlines somewhere."
Zemo gave a nod. He was aware. It was because he kept seeing Stark pop up everywhere that he became a pro racer himself.
"You're worried about your friend. That is understandable."
"I'm worried for her if it's not real."
He glances at you. It's as he is sitting there, hand on your knee, glancing at you as he listens to you, that the thought returns to him. Helmut Zemo is not a man who plays around with people's feelings. If this was you two, there would be no other way than for him to be honest and true to you.
As a man who had lost everything in the past, he would never do that to you.
He takes his hand back as reaches your destination. Your apartment building was a nice little thing. You were up on the 3rd floor.
"Do you want to come in?"
He smiles.
"Yes, I do."
You chuckle. You both get out and you lead him up to your apartment. You smile nicely at your neighbours as you pass them, hoping they don't question the handsome man trailing behind you. No one seemed to recognise him, so that worked in your favour.
You let him into your apartment first.
"It's not much, but it's home."
The apartment wasn't huge, but spacious enough for one person. It was decorated nicely, every little thing a reflection of you. There was a bit of clutter here and there, but it was clear you looked after your space.
"I like it."
"Can't imagine the kind of place you live in. Bet it's a lot nicer than this." You head into the kitchen to make him some tea.
"Perhaps a little bigger, it's no castle."
You chuckle softly and set out two cups.
Zemo glances around at the photos on display. You don't have a lot, but he's curious to see what they are.
"Can I ask you something?" He asks, not looking away from a photo of you and your friend.
"Of course."
"When you were researching the racers, what did you find on me?"
You let the kettle boil as you look at his back.
"Not much, I'll be honest. I didn't want to ask about it, but there was something, if you'll let me."
He halts his movements and wonders what you found. It couldn't be, could it?
"What is it?"
"You're from Sokovia, right?"
He relaxes. Zemo turns slowly and smiles, but there isn't much emotion behind it.
"Yes. I was."
You nibble at your lip softly.
"I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to apologise for," he says, walking over to you.
"Still, I remember hearing about it on the news. It was everywhere for a while. I can't imagine losing my home country."
Zemo reaches over and takes your hand in his. You wouldn't vocalise the fact you realised he was being a lot more physical today. You enjoyed the feel of his touch.
"Thank you for your kindness, but you don't need to worry. I am happy where I am now."
You smile at one another. The kettles clicks off, you reluctantly let go of his hands, missing their warmth. You turn around to see to the tea.
"There really wasn't much else about you online. You're a mystery to me, Zemo."
He smiles.
"Makes me all the more interesting, yes?"
You laugh softly.
"I suppose it does."
You hand him one of the cups and you both go sit down. You face one another on the sofa, enjoying the tea you had made. You watched the way he closed his eyes and took a sip.
"This is very good."
"What can I say? I'm a professional," you joke.
"I believe you."
"So, the race." You smile, sitting up and leaning forward a little. Zemo laughed. It was sweet how excited you were about it, considering you hadn't had an interest before... well, before him.
"I can I take you to the race myself?" He asks, reading your face for a response.
"Take me? Isnt6that going to be a hassle? Going there, coming back, and then going back again?"
"I'll do it for you," he grins mischievously.
"You're doing it again."
"Doing what?" He asks.
"Flirting with me."
"Of course I am. You haven't told me to stop," he tells you.
You smile shyly at him. That was true.
"You should focus on your car, I'll be there. I promise."
He shakes his head subtly.
"Too late, I've made up my mind. I'll be here to pick you up the day before. You can stay with me over the weekend. Sound like a plan?"
You look at him, trying to see if this was just him teasing you, but you don't see anything like that. If anything, those beautiful brown eyes of his are almost pleading for you to agree.
"Alright."
His smile is so full of joy, your heart feels like it could burst. He looked so handsome smiling like that.
"Then I best be on my way. I have some thing to plan before the weekend." Zemo put his empty cup down and got up. You did the same and showed him to the door.
You see him out, but before he leaves your apartment completely, he leaves you with a kiss on the cheek. He doesn't say anything as he walks away.
You're left a smiling blushing mess.
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When in Brazil - Beach
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pairing: Oikawa x f!reader genre: SMUT wc: 7.8k (i am deceast bye) warnings: fingering, semi-public sex, unprotected sex, edging
Let me bore you to death zzz
I promise the last chapter will be exciting (in my head it is at least) :(
Prior to this series, I have zero knowledge about Brazil. So if there's anything sus somewhere there as I describe Rio, pls be kind to me.
No beta for this one once again uwu
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In the hustle and bustle of a busy city as Rio de Janeiro, one finds themselves having their time stolen away from them as they get swept up in all the craziness the place has to offer.
That’s you, except the craziness is in the form of a never ending cycle of wake up, work, then go home.
You’re just glad a certain orange-haired boy joins you from time to time to ease your thirst for something exciting.
Yet sometimes, you crave the silence, the quiet, to be alone and actually enjoy it. Living in one of the most tourist-infested places in the world, you rarely find yourself in such a situation.
That’s why you dragged your feet outside even if your clock tells you it’s 2:48 in the morning.
You woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep. Rather than waste your time away in bed, you grab a can of beer from your fridge and decide to make the most out of it.
The thing about Rio — it’s almost never silent. Even at this time, you can hear the soft beat of music from the local bars and clubs alongside the sound of the sea right across the streets where they’re located. The shores of Copacabana, being the most famous beach in the city, are never empty as well.
But what good is being a local if you don’t know places you can hide from the crowd?
A tad bit more than kilometer away from Copacabana is Posto 1 in Praio de Leme, a beach not as crowded as the others.
With the absence of people flocking here and there, you easily make your way to the beach, almost prancing on your steps for the slight tang of freedom and muted noise you haven’t had in forever.
Despite the stroll being an all-familiar route you take, it feels blissfully different. And when you arrive at Posto 1, you suddenly feel grateful for living in Rio. You take your slippers off and feel the sand beneath the soles of your feet. The smell of salt water permeates the air while you welcome the dainty breeze brought by the sea.
You savor each step, taking your time to reach a certain spot you consider yours as the darkness of the dims the bright liveliness of the city.
Luck must be in your side as you find the place still as you remember it the last time you went there. Trees surround the area abundantly compared to the more famous beaches in the city.
Lifeguard stations that separate the area covered by each beach look like mini lighthouses made of white stone. Posto 1, being the first station, is situated beside rocky shore that signals the other end of the beach.
In between Posto 1 and the clump of rocks, that’s your secret spot. The station blocks the view of the rest of the shoreline, the trees behind you conceal you from the buildings across the street, and the rocks perfectly completes the set up as it eludes you to think that you’re hidden from the tropical urban jungle that is Rio.
You pick a spot near a tree so you can lean on something when you sit down. You unknot the canga on your hip and sprawl it on the sand. You seat yourself comfortably and cross your stretched legs. You open your can of beer and savor the first taste as you stare in the vast darkness
You don’t know how long you’ll stay there, but you don’t care. You have the day off tomorrow and you don’t mind if you’re there long enough that the sun will rise on you.
Damn. You should’ve brought at least two cans of beer for this.
However, your paradise of being alone was quickly interrupted when you hear coarse footsteps approaching somewhere behind you. Shortly after, a figure emerges from the trees, much to your displeasure.
He notices your presence too as he looks your way as soon as he comes to your view.
“Hi!” The stranger greets you all too friendly, which adds to your irritation. You haven’t even enjoyed your time alone and you’re already disrupted. What’s worse is that it’s not even a local. It’s a freaking tourist, probably Japanese based on his features.
“Sorry, but the beach is closed at this time,” you announce in an amicable manner despite being annoyed, something working on a diner has instilled in you for years.
“Oh? But you’re here,” he responds with an easy-going smile that pisses you off even more. You should’ve spoken in Portugese. Maybe then, he would’ve left you alone. “Yeah. It’s not open for tourists at night,” you lie with a fake smile, still hoping that he’ll leave.
However, he does the opposite. He crosses the few steps away from you and crouches to get to your eye level. You stare at his face for a few seconds and realize that he’s actually attractive — brown hair, brown eyes, and a dazzling smile.
Still, you came here to be alone. You don’t want the company of another, no matter how good looking they are.
“Can’t you make an exception for one tourist?” He flashes you a grin that you’re pretty sure would sway a lot of women when directed at them. Maybe you too on a different night. But not this one.
“I’d be honest, mr tourist. I prefer to be alone. If you go past that station, you’ll find a lot of space for yourself.”
He purses his lips. “But it seems more fun here, ms local.”
How is this place fun? There’s literally nothing here. That’s why you claimed this place for your own because people rarely go here when the night deepens.
He’s most likely looking for someone to bother and entertain himself, as expected of tourists.
You sigh when you realize he’ll probably keep pestering you until you give in. You take one sip of your beer and turn to him.
“You better hold one hell of a conversation, tourist. Or else I’ll be the one leaving,” you announce with a deadpan voice.
He chuckles lightly before sitting on the sand. He extends one leg on the side while he bends up the other so he can rest his elbow on his knee. “I’m sure I can manage,” he declares with unshakeable confidence that makes you scoff a bit.
The guy is full of himself. If he wasn’t very pleasing to look at, you would’ve left already.
You return your gaze to the dark waters to distract yourself from his presence. “I’d offer you a beer, but I only brought one.” You say out of courtesy as you lean back to the tree and try to relax despite the stranger beside you.
“I won’t mind sharing yours,” he responds casually.
You take one more sip and face his direction to hand him the drink in your hand. He grabs it with a smile and a wink that would’ve made you cringe if he didn’t look so damn good when he did it.
He puts the drink on his mouth and nips it casually. “So what’s a pretty local doing at the shore at this hour?”
You raise an eyebrow at the subtle flattery he included in his question. “Like I said, I wanted some time alone. Unfortunately for me though, a very rude tourist arrived a few minutes after I just settled down,” you eye him meaningfully which earns you a pout from him.
You almost want to laugh. What is up with this guy? He’s a bit weird, but in a charming kind of way. “What about you, tourist? What’re you doing out this late at night?”
“Jetlag. Our hotel’s just across the street and the people I’m with are already tired. I’m so bored,” he whines as he drinks again from your can before he hands it to you.
“So you decided to take a stroll in a completely foreign city?”
He feigns a surprised look. “Are you a fortune teller?”
“A witch, actually. Better leave now before I curse you,” you warn him with a straight face.
Not even fazed a bit, he meets your dead eyes with affable ones. “I don’t mind being cursed by you, ms. witch.”
You shrug off your shoulders, unaffected by the flattery. You’re used to it with the amount of foreigners hitting on you during tourist season. “You better decide what you’ll call me then,” you respond coldly.
“You really want to keep being strangers, huh?”
Something surfaces in his orbs that unnerves you, a glint that tells you there’s more to this man behind the pompous persona he’s purposely showing you.
“Uh-huh. Ms. local sounds fine to me.” Not that he seems dangerous or anything, but you don’t want to get to know him. You’d like to remain as strangers. This is just a small chat for you both to pass time. There’s no need for names when you already have a way to address each other.
“Alright then, ms local. Lets play a game.”
You raise an eyebrow. “What game?”
“A guessing game. The person who first gets three correct guesses about the other wins.”
“What does the winner get?” You ask with intrigue.
“Anything they want.”
You tap the can of beer dangling from your fingertips while you study him. What can he possibly ask of you if he wins? He looks friendly, but you can’t be too certain. He might ask for something like your number. You have no intentions of giving it to him and getting involved with a tourist. The most you can get from the is a one night stand and a “thank you for the experience” message, as if fucking a local completes their whole Rio trip.
He suddenly laughs. “Don’t worry. I won’t ask for anything weird. I just want the tree you’re leaning at.”
You frown at him. “Seriously? There’s another tree over there.” You point a tree a few steps away from him.
“I want that one specifically,” he says firmly as he ignores where you’re looking at and eyes the trunk you’re leaning on.
“Okay then, tourist. If I win, will you leave?”
“Deal” he quickly agrees. “Go ahead, ms local. Ladies first.”
Without even thinking, you make your first guess. “You’re probably a model or an actor in Japan.”
He breaks into a wide smile at your hunch, which doesn’t tell you anything whether you were right or wrong. “You really think so?”
Did you get it wrong? He seems like someone who has a nightly skin care routine to make sure he doesn’t have any breakouts. His skin looks nicer than yours too. So it makes sense for him to be either of the two.
You don’t tell him that though. He looks like he’s well aware that he’s a pretty boy.
“I mean you do look nice. You’re tall and stuff,” you justify briefly.
He gives out a pleasant laugh that sounds way too rehearsed, like he’s been practicing it in case someone compliments him.
“I’m flattered, but no. Sorry!”
He doesn’t look sorry at all. “Actually, I’m a starter for a pro Volleyball team in Argentina,” he says with his face becoming a little bit more serious as it oozes with pride. You find it interesting — how he glorifies being an athlete. He does have the build for it, but he’s kinda too pretty to be a professional athlete.
Your thoughts suddenly go back to Shoyo now that he mentioned the sport.
“Oh oh oh wait,” your enthusiasm shoots up when a hilarious assumption hits you. “I’ll go again then you’ll get two turns after this,” you clear your throat before voicing out your thoughts.
“Let me guess. You traveled all the way from Japan to Argentina to pursue Volleyball,” you declare with all smiles despite how ridiculous it might have seemed to him. You could waste one guess to entertain yourself.
He stares at you wide-eyed with disbelief. “How did you know that?”
You gape at him in surprise. You were just goofing around with Shoyo’s story. You don’t expect that he’d have a similar story.
“For real?”
He nods. “Yeah. That was frighteningly accurate.”
Wow. What were the chances that you were actually right? What was just a ridiculous hunch was actually on point. Now, you’re far more entertained. You’ll ask for his name before you part ways and tell Shoyo about him. You don’t have a clue what the Volleyball scene is like in Japan so maybe somehow, they know each other.
He recovers after a quick while and regains his composure. “Okay, my turn. I’m guessing…,” he looks up as he scurries what guess he’ll make before his gaze lands back to you, “you’re into nice guys.”
You let out a scoff at his too safe of a guess. He must be frolicking when he appears to be thinking earlier because that’s kind of a no-brainer.
“Who isn’t?” You ask back sarcastically instead of confirming that he’s right.
“A lot of women actually,” he swiftly responds. “So that’s one for me. And I’m also guessing you don’t go out much.” This time he doesn’t pretend to be thinking and straight up tells you, as if he’s figured it out already earlier.
You squint at him. “How did you know?”
“You wouldn’t be out here at this time of the night if you did,” he cocks an eyebrow as he answers.
Shit. That’s two correct guesses off the bat. The stakes are not that high for you. You’ll just lose a back rest, but it unnerves you that he’s this astute. You just assumed that he’s nothing but good looks.
You put a little more effort to the game he initiated and thought of a hunch that’s very likely to be correct.
“Umm. I think you like beer,” you surmise. If he didn’t mind sharing one with a stranger, he must like it enough.
He purses his lips to the side and shakes his head. “Nope. I think it’s vile. Also, our fitness coach will chew me out if he finds out I’m drinking tonight.”
You furrow your brows together at what he just admitted. “Then why’d you ask for mine?”
“I wanted to look cool,” he confesses without shame which makes you palm your face.
“My turn.” You remove your hands away from your face and hope that he gets it wrong this time. You’re kinda enjoying the game and want to continue for a tiny bit more.
“It’s been a while since you got laid.”
It’s a staring contest between you after he utters it. He holds the same seemingly good-natured expression in his face despite the sexual nature of his statement. You, on the other hand, can’t suppress the frisky smirk that’s creeping up on the corner of your lips.
You roll your eyes and look away with the smirk still planted on your face.
He finally bares that certain wickedness you saw a glimpse of earlier, and he does it at the right time. He’s probably waiting for the moment you start getting drawn to him, and when you do, he lures you a step deeper into his trap.
You feel stupid for thinking this game is his way of small talk. It definitely isn’t. Yet, you find yourself taking the bait he set.
“Actually, I had a good fuck the other night,” you answer indifferently.
The look that surfaces on his face mirrors yours a while ago, except he doesn’t try to hide the sensual gleam in his eyes when flashes you a grin.
“Boyfriend?”
You suddenly miss the bitter taste of the beer so you drink again prior to answering, “Friend.”
The curve of his lips twitch up, evidently amused with your reply. “I didn’t think you were the type, ms local.”
“Why? You thought I was boring?” You question with haughty disdain from what he was implying.
He stretches his bent knee as he plants both palms on the sand and leans back a bit. “No. Just really uptight.”
Only because his company was unwelcomed, but you’re positive he’s aware of that so you don’t comment on his remark. You move on with and proceed to make your guess.
“Right. Okay, my turn.”
You’re absolutely sure of this one, so you go for it without hesitation.
“I think you’re trying to get me in bed.”
Oikawa doesn’t know if he’s going to give you a free pass on that one. You’re not entirely wrong, but you’re not totally right either.
He does want to fuck you. You’re hot and you’re as interesting as he thought you’d be. But he’s not trying to get you in bed, not yet at least. He hasn’t taken any action yet.
He was still treading carefully until you were no longer treating him like a bothersome stranger, which seems to be the case when you unfiltered your words and then willingly gave him intimate information about your sex life.
“Yeah,” he says with no hint of shame. He decides to grant you a second correct answer since that’s the last one you’re going to get. His next guess will be the start of his attempt to actually get you to have sex with him, like you speculated.
“You like beer.” He already had three probable guesses in his head before the game even started. He just panned the game longer so you’ll ease into him. He reserved this particular guess to seal the deal.
“That’s no fair, tourist. That’s too obvious,” you complain yet you still wear an entertained grin.
“Not my fault” He chuckles at his already calculated victory.
“Ugh. Fine. The damn tree is yours.” You start to get up but he grabs your arm, causing you to frown inquisitively at him.
“I didn’t say you have to leave. Move a bit to your front,” he commands which you do even though you still look confused.
He stands up and takes the place you’re sitting at earlier. Your neck is craned towards him as you gawk at him while he comfortably seats himself behind you, stretching his legs just a bit so you’re positioned intimately between them.
“What are you doing?!” you ask with a panicked voice.
He ignores your question. He takes it just a bit further and grabs your waist to pull you closer to him so your back is pressed to his chest.
You gape at him with a scandalized expression, your body rigid with his touch.
He only smiles innocently at you. You might be frozen solid, but if you really don’t want him to, you could easily tell him to fuck off. But there you are, eyes wide open as you try to grasp what he just did.
“I just claimed my prize. I can see why you chose this tree. So comfortable.” He tries to sound nice and friendly, but knows it’s useless as he can’t help the sarcasm that tainted his words now.
You let out a deep breath and shake your head as you rest your back resignedly on his chest. You snuggle even closer until you fill the spaces between you two perfectly, your head nestled comfortably on the nook of his neck.
Still, you don’t seem pleased. The look in your face is a mix of frustration and defeat, but it only strokes his ego even more because despite that displeasure on that lovely face of yours, you’re still leaning cozily against him.
You straight down gulp the remaining liquor you have and put the empty can down on the sand.
“You played me well, tourist,” you mutter, the bitter taste of the beer matching your resentment towards him.
“Not sure what you’re talking about, ms local,” he continues playing innocent.
“Oh please. You planned this from the start. That’s why you asked for the fucking tree.”
He lets out the laugh he’s been holding in since you made him admit that he was trying to bed you. “You finally caught up, mi querida?”
You hoist yourself up to face him. “You speak Portugese?” you ask him curiously.
“Español. I did say I’m from Argentina, mi bella dama.”
You’re stunned with the way the supposed foreign words roll off so naturally from his tongue. It didn’t sound pretentious nor forced, proof that he’s fluent with it. You definitely underestimated him. There is so much more to his charisma than just his pretty face.
“So, ms local,” his gaze drops to your lips with uninhibited hunger that he doesn’t make the slightest effort to hide. “Can I start claiming my actual prize now?”
You open your mouth but no words come out. You don't know how to respond because you’re at war with yourself with the direction of your supposed small talk is heading to. Yet, you can’t deny that you want to reciprocate his overt desire for you.
He takes his thumb and skims it lightly over your lower lip as he keeps his eyes on it. “Say yes,” he orders you with the softest voice you’ve ever heard from him.
The wind suddenly feels colder as your body heats up from the ache that’s beginning to set in your core.
He completely has you in a trance, mindlessly obeying his dainty command.
“Yes.”
He smiles darkly at the consent you gave him. He moves his thumb down to your before he slowly dips down and presses his lips against yours. It was gentle, too gentle for your growing arousal as he’s deliberately teasing you to want more of him.
He peppers your cheek with the same soft kisses that are making you more and more impatient.
“Kiss me already,” you mutter when his lips reach your ear, causing the sound of his amused chuckle to be heard crisp and loud.
“But I am,” he whispers before licking the sensitive shell of your ear.
You snap your thighs together from the sharp pleasure the action sent to your pussy, your eyes almost half closed from how fast your desire is engulfing you.
He must have sensed it for he turns his gaze to your clenched thighs. “Well, well, well, ms local. I didn’t think you’re this sensitive. I’m barely doing anything,” he teases while his other hand skims your bare waist.
You want to wipe the smug expression off his face but you’re too horny to fight back. You just want him to kiss you properly already.
A triumphant glint surfaces in his orbs as he dips down and gives you what you’re silently asking for. He parts your mouth with his thumb on your chin and claims your lips, flicking his tongue on your lower lip before sucking it.
You grab his shoulder for support as you push yourself up a bit to feel him closer.
“Mmmm, beer tastes way better from your mouth,” he mumbles then quickly returns to your lips, slipping in his tongue as he deepens the kiss.
His hand on your chin travels to the side of your head, fiddling the other ear his mouth hasn’t touched earlier. You whine into the kiss, fully revealing to him how sensitive your ears are.
His other hand skims the bare skin of your waist he easily accessed because of your cropped top. Then, he moves it up to squeeze a clothed boob, earning him a moan you deliciously deliver to his mouth.
He pulls away to get a glimpse of you and he can’t help but be pleased with himself for a job well done. He’s totally got you, hook, line, and sinker with your eyes pooling with lewd desires, completely different from the cranky stranger you were minutes ago.
But he’s not done yet. He’s not yet satisfied. He can do more than this. He can break you just a teeny tiny bit tonight.
He gets back to your lips, your tongue seeking his while he fervently moves his mouth against yours. His hand lets go of your face so he can pay attention to your other boob he’s been neglecting, kneading both supple mounds with his huge hands at the same time.
You lean your head on his shoulder as he trails his lips down your exquisite neck, softly nipping the delicate flesh as he entertains himself by watching you squirm within his hold.
He lugs your bra down so he could feel your bare breasts, and as his idea of fun, he softly bites the nook of your neck while he harshly grips both tits.
A very indecent moan from your throat erupts in the tranquil air of the beach. You must have realized it too because you bite your lip while your other hand tightens its grip on his thigh.
“Let’s see how well you can keep it down,” he breathes on your neck as he puts his fingers to work, rolling both your nipples with his thumbs while licking the spot he just bit.
You plan to protest, but you’re scared that when you open your mouth, an obscene moan will come out instead. So you do your best to stay as silent as you can, your muted whimpering reaching only his ears.
His mouth goes back up again to your ear, his hot breath gradually melting your resolve to keep quiet. “Should I lick your ear again so you’ll moan for me, hmm?”
You ferociously shake your head, certain that you will lose it if he does. “I’ll do it if you don’t use your words,” he threatens you by grazing his lips on your earlobes.
“N-no,” you weakly answer.
He laughs lowly and withdraws his lips away from your ear. You feel a little bit of relief as he shows mercy. Only to feel stupid when he suddenly pinches your nipples, the surge of pain and delight causing you to lose to your own body as another moan rips out of your windpipe.
“Aahh! ”
You bury your face on his biceps to muffle the next ones as he continues tweaking the hardened buds while he sucks the curve of your shoulders.
You can feel the strain in your hips from how hard you're clamping your thighs, desperate to alleviate the ache in your already sopping cunt by grinding your inner thighs together.
Being the scum the tourist is, he hooks his foot on your ankle and does the same to the other, successfully prying your legs apart, worsening your need to be touched down from the lack of any sort of friction.
He removes one hand away from a boob and drags it down to your stomach, the cloth of your loose shirt catching on his knuckles before it comes to a stop in the waistband of your shorts.
“Can I?” He asks while he traces circles on the skin just above the garter of your cloth.
Despite the overwhelming lust, you look around. Even though you used to have this place on your own at this wee hours of night, the possibility of someone going there is not completely zero.
You let him get as far as this because you can just swat his hands away the moment someone emerges from the other side of the lifeguard station.
Instead of putting his hand in, he dips his hand further down on your crotch, cupping your sex over the fabric of your shorts. Even with just that, your pussy is already throbbing.
You look at him with hesitation.
“What if someone comes?” You ask apprehensively, your lust-induced mind hoping he comes up with a sensical answer that you can accept.
“I won’t remove your shorts, ms. local. I’ll just,” he teasingly tugs the waistband, twisting it around his index finger, “put my hand in, yeah?”
He gives a drawn out lick on the spot behind your ear as he tugs a nipple, making you shiver with the unspoken oath that he can satisfy your needs.
You nod agreeably, impatient for the touch you’ve been craving for.
With your permission, he slowly slides his hand in, the leisure drag of his fingers almost making you mad with anticipation. Your torment only increases when he steadily traces his middle and ring finger on the length of your slit.
“You’re practically dripping,” he remarks as he continues the tortuous caress of his fingers. “Holy shit. You’re twitching already.” He laughs sardonically behind you.
“Jerk.” It’s supposed to sound angry, but it comes out as a needy whine.
You throw your head back on his chest, the night sky and the leaves of the tree you’re under starting to become hazy with how feverish your whole body feels.
“You’re really mean, you know that?” He mopes flatulently before he suddenly pinches your clit, the abrupt pang of pleasure causing you to arch your back as you cry out.
“Oh my. I’m starting to think you actually want to be heard.”
You’re no longer able to respond when he starts rubbing the bundle of nerves, covering your mouth with the back of your hand to suppress the erotic sounds coming off of your mouth.
“Mmmmmpp,” you whimper when he gives your boob a firm squeeze again.
You close your eyes shut as you feel your orgasm rapidly approaching.
“Gonna cum already, hmm?” His question drenched with mockery.
Yet, you don’t give in to his taunt as you’re completely distracted with his fingers sending you to a frenzy. You nod your head frantically, shamelessly admitting that he can easily make you cum.
Then he stops. He slides his fingers down and spreads your folds open as your cunt throbs from the climax he’s defied you of.
“What I’d give to see this view,” he purrs on your ear, “this pussy twitching at nothing.”
You hate the way he’s treating you, but you hate yourself more for letting him do so. As if teasing wasn’t enough already, he starts massaging his fingers around your folds, keeping you spread open while deliberately avoiding any spot that will feel too good.
It’s utter hell for you.
You’re about to ask that he puts it in, but thankfully, he does so before you almost disregard your dignity and actually plead for him to do it. He inserts one steady digit, pushing it deeply until the whole length of his finger is in.
“You’re too wet,” he comments as he thrusts another finger in.
You bite your own hand as the stretch of his two fingers brings back the pleasure he thwarted earlier. But this time, he makes sure to not let it escalate as he keeps the speed of his fingers to a bare minimum. He drags them out incredibly slow and lunges them back in in the same excruciating tempo.
Your eyes flutter shut as you relish the sensation, his digits hitting their deepest reach at the same time the waves crash into the rocks of Leme beach.
Oikawa watches with utter fascination, seeing and feeling the rise and fall of your chest as he prolongs the pleasure his fingers can give you.
But he already misses how you sound when you lose control.
Without any warning, he increases his pace from tedious thrusts to ruthless ones.
Your clutch on his biceps almost hurts, but he really couldn’t give a shit when your moans start to seep out of your hand despite how hard you try to contain them. He can bet you’re not even aware that you’re already rolling your hips against his hand.
But it’s still not enough for him.
Luckily, he knows how to make things even better .
He flicks his tongue on a certain spot on your neck while rolling your nipple between his skilled fingers.
“Too much!” You bat your eyes open and face him, successfully unlatching his mouth from your neck. “Its too muuu aahhhh haaa. ” Your eyes instantly become cloudy as he makes sure that the base of his wrist rubs your clit while he continues ravaging your pussy with his fingers.
His cock is getting stuffed in his shorts with your back grinding against it as he witnesses you lose yourself with your mouth falling open as you whimper with wanton need for your release.
“To- hnnngg, tooouurist.”
Damn. For a moment, he thought you were going to moan his name. He would tell you right now but he kinda likes the idea that you’re a literal stranger allowing him to do vulgar things to you as he pleases.
Your feet leave the seams of the cloth you sat on as the pleasure stretches out to the tips of your toes, the coarse grains of sand getting stuck between as you curl them with your orgasm tingling too close.
The simultaneous stimulation of your most erogenous places is coercing you to let go.
“I’m gonna cum mmmppp.”
Then he withdraws his fingers completely, causing you to regard him wide-eyed with a confused look as he denies you of your high that was a thrust away from your reach. All the while, he just smiles pleasantly at you like he didn’t do anything wrong.
He takes his middle finger in his mouth while you watch him with both impatience and intrigue.
He gives it one thorough suck before sticks his tongue out and licks it, effectively making you wonder how it’d feel if he does what he just did directly on your pussy.
Then he turns to you with a naughty grin. “Why are you staring at me like that, ms local?”
Your eyes lingers on his fingers and tells him instead, “Put them back.” You can’t ask him to do what was just on your mind. The place isn’t right for it. But that’s just fine. His fingers prove to be good enough.
“You want me to put my fingers back in your pussy?” he reiterates your request haughtily.
You look down on the sand before you nod.
He hums on your nape while he inserts his hands back in your shorts, his fingers ghosting just above your slit. You buck your hip up to feel them but he retreats them when you do so.
Your mind is staggering from how much you want him to fill you up again with his digits. You look at him with your eyes begging him.
“Please,” you whimper.
He goes for your lips, kissing them passionately as he traces your slick opening. He plunges his tongue in the same time his fingers enter your cunt, easily pushing you at the very edge you were at earlier.  
Then stops again.
“Why?” You sound almost sulking, your foiled orgasm looming over you.
“Like you said earlier, ms local. I am trying to get you in bed.”
He presses his lips in your temples and drags them down back to your ear. “I don’t see any bed here. Do you?”
The sultry drawl of his voice makes you shiver, the ungratified ache in your groin making you succumb to him.
“My place is near,” you answer timidly.
“You’ll really take a stranger home?” He sneers at you, making you doubt your own decision. Yet, convinces you otherwise when he slowly rubs your clit again.
You shut your eyes and nod frantically with parted lips.
He takes his hands out of your shorts and cheerfully says. “Let’s go then.”
You fix your clothes before standing up to which he quickly follows. You take your canga and wrap it back again on your hips then picks up your empty can of beer. You plan to lead the way, but not even three steps away from where you were, he grabs your wrist and tugs you back to where you were.
He shoves you to the tree he was previously leaning on. Your hand flies to the trunk of it while he wraps one arm around your waist and pulls your ass against his erection, an entertained chuckle coming out of his lips.
“I lied, ms local.” He slides his other hand under your made up skirt, trailing his palm from the side of your knee up to your thigh.
“I didn’t want you in bed. I want you right here right now.”
He briskly tugs down your shorts while you worriedly grip his forearm, alarm evident in your orbs as he reveals his actual intention.
“We’re gonna get seen!” You warn with a cautious whisper while you look around to check for the possible presence of another.
He ignores you and hitches up the cloth hanging from your hips as he takes out his cock and traces it against your moist slit.
You drop the empty can as you drive your nails deeper in the tree with your eyes getting misty from the reminder of the little death he’s relentlessly and purposely deprived you of.
He leans over your back and reaches for your cheek with his lips, tenderly placing a kiss before speaking. “Then they’ll see a tourist with a local whore.”
Flames of fury spark in your eyes as you hiss at him. “You fucking asshole!”
He ignores your futile anger and grips his cock to align it on your entrance. He sees you try to keep up the resentful facade but you’re twitching wildly again for him to even take it seriously. He easily makes you crave for him again by grinding his shaft on the length of your cunt.
“I’m kidding, ms local. You’re too pretty and too interesting to be one,” he says with his lips latched on your shoulder.
“Do you even have a condom with you?” you ask exasperatedly.
“Nope. Should we stop and get one?” He asks back as he once again rubs his member on your opening.
“I.. uhh,” you mumble undecided even though you unknowingly just grinded against him.
He places featherlight kisses along your nape. “I promise to pull out. How about that?” His voice is delicate, persuading you to abandon your hesitation.
“Fine! Just make sure you do it right,” you firmly forewarn him, which he doesn’t even bother answering.
He begins to sink himself inside you, feeling your fluttering walls swallow his cock inch by inch.
“Shit, it’s so hot and tight inside you,” he groans.
Your knees buckle a bit as you cover your mouth with your palm this time. “You okay there?” he asks not out of concern but because he wants to entertain himself with how you sound when you’re trying so hard to keep the obscene sounds at bay.
You shake your head but your face is one deluged of sinful desires.
“But you look like you're enjoying this,” he pants as he’s starting to feel good too with how well you’re squeezing his cock. He closes his eyes and rests his cheek on the back of your shoulder as he rams his length completely inside you.
“Fuccck,” he moans on your shirt while you deliver a muffled one on your palm, which he didn’t like.
He snakes his arm from your waist up to your chest once again, forcefully lugging down your bra that he hears it rip a little.
“I want to hear you feel good,” he says as he toys with your boob he wasn’t able to pay much attention to earlier.
In between struggling puffs, you manage to say, “I don’t wanna be heard uughhh.” You let out a suppressed whine as he pulls his cock back all of a sudden and languidly slides it back in.
“You’re lucky enough I’m allowing this,” you continue on.
“Make me luckier then,” he hums on your shoulder as he aggressively tugs the nipple poking at his palm.
“Gaaah!” You snap your head back, prompting him to softly bite the flesh of your throat you exposed to him.
“Yeaaah. You sound so hot, ms local. Just like that mmmm.” He originally planned to take his time with you, but shit, your pussy feels too good clamping on his cock like you’re already about to cum.
It’s taking all of him not to pummel his cock stupidly fast into you and sought his own pleasure.
“Faster, tourist. Fuck!” Your voice cracks at the last word you uttered from keeping it from being too loud.
Instead of quickening his pace, he stops moving at all. He needs a moment to regain control of himself despite how splendid your insides feel. He wants to tease you some more until you lose that fiery pride of yours. He finds it sexy, but it would be sexier if you drop it and desperately beg for him to fuck your brains out.
He lifts himself off your back and retrieves both his hands to skim them over the curve of your ass.
He kinda wonders what face you’ll make if slams one hand against the meaty flesh. Oh well. No need to wonder if he can just see it for himself right now.
The solid sting of his palm hitting against your skin pierces the quiet air of the shore, quickly followed by a sharp gasp from you that is just as audible.
Fuck, he put a little too much force on that one. He can see the pinkish mark he’s left on one cheek. He checks on you and expects a pained expression but what he finds is eyes lidded with intense carnal longing while panting heavily.
He looks around briefly, checking to see for any unwanted onlookers before landing another slap on your other ass cheek.  
Your hand grips his that just struck you as you turn your neck to look at him with utmost desperation he’s been wanting to see from you.
“Make me cum already,” you mumble with a wavering voice as you start moving on your own, wobbly withdrawing your hips and pushing them back against his cock.
The sensation in his shaft as you use it to give yourself pleasure is nowhere near enough for him, but he continues to stare at your cute attempt to make yourself cum.
“Please!”
Ahh, fuck. Yes. That should do it. You look just the right amount of pathetic he can get himself off to with satisfaction.
He plants both hands on your hips, holding them in place so he can give you what you vehemently begged for. He buries himself inside you in one swift thrust and repeats it again, and again, and again until he sets a steady rhythm.
You wretchedly grasp the tree again to support yourself as he does his way with you.
Harsh slaps of skin to skin contact can be heard, but he figures it won’t be heard from a distance.
“Ah, ahh, aaaahhhhhh!!”  You practically yelled out that last moan, causing him to lean over again and put a hand over your mouth.
“As much as I want you to- shiiit -hear you scream for me, I’d rather not be caught here,” he tells you in a raspy voice. He doesn’t know the laws in this country. He might get arrested for this if found. Their coach would probably take him off the starting roster as punishment if he gets in trouble because of this.
But fuck, you really feel unbelievably good. Even the vibrations of your stifled wails on his hand is an added stimulation for him.
Even he himself is having a hard time to keep his voice hushed as he feels his orgasm about to explode. He removes his hand away from your lips and replaces it with his mouth so he drowns out his groans as he swallows yours.
With his knee, he nudges your leg apart from the other as he dips his hand from your hip down to your clit, rubbing the swollen bud ferociously to finally push you to your peak he previously kept on declining you to reach.
You start trembling beneath him so he wraps his other arm around your waist again to support you.
He pulls away a bit to look at you become undone and holy shit, you do not disappoint. You look so fucking pretty with your moist lips gaping as you puff while your eyes have completely surrendered to the sinful goodness he’s giving you.
“So good, so good, so fucking good uuhhhh,” you mewl shamelessly.
“Yeah? Gonna cum on a stranger’s cock?” He goads you even though he’s about to cum himself just to see if you still give a crap about that.
To his delight, you just nod thoughtlessly.
“Cumming, ahhh, A-“
He covers your mouth again with his before you’re able to let out a scream that will probably expose you two.
He feels too good that all your senses are filled with nothing but the intense carnal bliss as he batters the insides of your pussy by ramming his cock wildly into you without restraint, probably chasing his own high as well.
Your vision becomes a static blur as the coil in your stomach snaps viciously, making your whole body convulse with how intense you came. If he wasn’t holding you up, you’d probably be a thrashing mess on the sand.
You hope that he keeps his word and pulls out because honestly, you just don’t have it in you anymore to stop him as he prolongs your orgasm by seeking his own.
“Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck,” he spews while his forehead rests on your spine as his thrusts become wilder and more erratic.
He takes out his cock a second before you feel hot spurts of liquid on your lower back accompanied by his hoarse grunts.
He unties the canga around your waist and uses it to wipe off the mess he made on your skin while you’re still holding on for your dear life on the tree.
“My legs,” you whine as they give out with exhaustion.
Thankfully, he catches you in time and releases the soiled clothing he used to wipe off his load. He pulls up your lower garments before he settles you back to how you two were seated a while ago, except it’s less compromising this time.
You’re all curled up within his grasp, still catching your breath from what just happened as he puts a hand on your forehead to make you rest against his heaving chest.
The sound of the waves, the blow of sea breeze, and the sand beneath your thighs are lulling you slowly back to the present, making you aware that you just had sex with a stranger, with a freaking tourist
“So,” he speaks first but you keep your eyes closed and pretend this is just one sexy dream then you’ll wake up in the morning and realize that you actually didn’t go out at this time.
“Ms. local, helllooooo?”
He’s obviously recovered based on the familiar, frivolous tone he had when he came out of the trees a while ago.
You sigh since you aren’t able to convince yourself enough that this is just a dream. The sex felt too good and too hot for it to be unreal.
“Do I finally get a name?”
You open your eyes and find him looking eagerly at you.
“No,” you respond immediately which visibly turns his excitement upside down.
You also discard your previous plan to get his name. There’s no way you’re telling Shoyo about this guy.
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Alright. 
So.
I really wasn’t trying to get too deep into the mess. Why? For a couple of reasons.
1) Because when I joined this ADCU fandom--I was very aware that I was going to see racist shit. A lil’ internalized sexism. All of that. I’d mentally prepared myself for it before I came through, or tried my very best. As I stated in a post a week or two ago, I was very vocal about these things in my younger adult years, but now, I am tired and just no longer interested in letting racism, misogynoir, microaggressions, and other things on the internet get my blood pressure up (because I’ve gotta deal with it in real life). I simply block, filter, and move on. This is my path. Not saying that it’s right, that’s just the stage that I’m in right now. 
2) What I’ve heard of this controversial fic is offensive to me. More so, the erasure of certain elements about the Civil War is what I found offensive. Did it piss me off or enrage me? No, because again, I’m tired lol. Offended, yes? Angry--me? No.
Now, I’m not writing this as a “woman of color”. This is a BLACK woman about to tell you what HAS pissed me off over these last few days. And I’m saying it straight from my account--not on anon or some account that just blossomed a couple of days ago. 
I’m writing this as a Black woman who lives in a neighborhood that used to be a plantation (big house and slave cabins still up and intact up the street from my home) - because there is barely a place in my city you can walk where your feet don’t touch land that used to be a plantation, or a slave trading station, or an auction block, or a public whipping post, etc. I live in a city that is ENTRENCHED in “memories of the Civil War” -- “good” and bad memories. 
I’m writing this as a Black woman who once worked next door to a Confederacy Museum--MUSEEEEUM--and watched old white men sit outside of the building with their flags. Or, who once had an old white man come to into my job, walked up to me with a shady, condescending glint in his eye, to ask me questions about “the museum next door” that he hoped to visit one day.
I love historical AUs and write them myself. Me, personally, I’m not gonna tell anybody they can’t write romantic/smutty Civil War AUs (I’m just gonna fucking block them). Because people are gonna do what they want and as we’ve seen demonstrated, there are some people who are gonna do the shit HARDER if it’s called out. But I DON’T have the privilege of reading something in that setting and being able to imagine myself as a landowner. This is a fact. 
People can say “oh, well there were Black landowners back then!” But could they own that land without a  “guardian”? Could they walk around town without “papers” to “prove” that they were free? Do we think that free and/or landowning Black people were just walking around untouched in the 1860s and AFTER? We LITERALLY just commemorated the 100th Anniversary of the Tulsa massacre. Come the fuck on, now. 
I can BARELY write my 1920s AU shit without thinking about how race impacts the my OCs. I just CAN’T make that separation. And it must be nice that some of you WOC and white readers can do that. I’m happy for you. Whatever. 
Now, from what I’ve gathered, I believe that this is the point that was originally being brought to SH--that not only could some of her audience not see themselves in this story, but some of them actually might be hurt by it. And instead of being thoughtful of that, excuses were made. The “colorblind” card was thrown out and it was stressed that “sides” in a Civil War setting were written “vaguely”. The dismissal and denial is what has frustrated me. 
But ah, here’s the thing.
This is a pattern. 
I think some of you might be under the impression that this might be the author’s “first misstep” (that is, if you think that is the case at all). I’m going to tell you a quick story. And this story is not secret--these incidents and the posts (pro-cop posts) that correspond to them were shared publicly. 
I’ve long had SH blocked for awhile. Why? 
You remember when another writer whose name started with an “S” went  through this whole thing about all cops not being bad? I was actually quite friendly with that writer and expressed among people (including SH) that I wanted to reach out to S because I knew she was young and probably just hadn’t lived enough life and been around others to understand why their stance was problematic (and wrong). But then, I found out that she’d done the whole deleting POC’s comments thing...
She’d reached out to me wanting to talk, but at that point, after learning about commentary deletion, I didn’t want to be bothered. I decided that I would not reach out to her. I unfollowed her and moved on, because as I later told SH, Aiyana Stanley Jones was born around the same year that S was--but unlike Aiyana (who was murdered by WHO?), S will be fine. And I don’t regret my decision. I would have been a fool to try to be the Black person who “reaches out” to try to educate somebody. And I would have regretted doing so.
So, anyway. SH tried to encourage me to talk to S anyway, because S felt so bad and hurt. I politely declined, gave my reasons why, and me and SH left it at that and remained cordial. This is something I do regret because I should have known better. Because guess what? About a month later (IF THAT), SH made a post regurgitating S’s same pro-cop sentiments. 
But I made no fuss. I simply unfollowed and blocked. She’d shown me who she was and I finally decided to believe her. No need to argue. I had no desire to “call her out” because she already knew how I felt--and she’d only shown me that (as history has shown my ass time and time again), I don’t matter to her and I don’t count in the world she’d rather exist in--(edit: or at the very least, the fanfic worlds she’d like to create). Calling her out would have been fucking pointless.
So, I can’t let this week end with y’all thinking that this is just some “slip up” or misstep--or some “sudden attack” made out of jealousy or whatever other shit people are spewing. These recent events are merely a day that has long been coming. 
Now. 
I’m about to put “Civil War” in my filtered tags and content, and go on about my day. Bye.
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