#good things are hard to come by

[pipedreams13]

I discovered Richard Siken’s poetry a while back and I don’t believe I’ve ever read something so raw and beautiful. Every one of it is a fucking masterpiece like jesus fuck i. am. in love.

Scheherazade was the first work of Siken’s that I read and I just knew that I couldn’t leave it there. His words coiled around my heart and stayed there, rusting in my blood.

I’ve had a distaste for poetry for a good bit of time (you can thank school for that) but i do remember the first time i fell in love with a poem was when i read ‘The Raven’ along with most of Poe’s work.

The next significant one to come after Edgar Allan was My Papa’s Waltz by Theodore Roethke, months after my unexpected interest in poetry. I'm not quite sure why i remember it so distinctly.

I’ve read more since then, some of it downright terrible and some, like these, stay.

“So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay.”

-Robert Frost

A single word,

you turn my heart into a beating grenade,

The metallic circle of death clinging to your fingers,

winking as my flesh catches flame.

#my laptop unexpectedly shut down in the middle of this and everything got deleted so i had to rewite it #so that fucking sucked #that aside #i have a tendency to obsess and hyperfixate over things sometimes if you havent noticed that already #but honestly though #richard siken #has just used my heart as a pin cushion and frankly im not even mad #i feel blessed that i found out about him in the first place #good things are hard to come by #either way yeah i didnt think i'd feel this great to just write about shit i like without the worry that someone might get annoyed #if one of you does just pls polietly ignore me #let me have this one #is it weird i suddenly wanna squeal when i have never actually done that? #well it cant be weirder than turning my tags into my inner monolouge at 3 in the morning #i'll take leave here #i should probably sleep #probably #crush #poetry #poems #writing #robert frost #theodore roethke #books #literature #my rambles

[todaysbird]

despite their duck-like bills and webbed feet, the duck-billed platypus (often known simply as the platypus) is not a bird, but a very unique mammal. this species, endemic to eastern australia, has a number of unique adaptations. they are one of only five species of mammal who lay eggs rather than give live birth. they forage for around 10-12 hours daily, primarily for small aquatic invertebrates like crayfish; they use electroreception to locate their prey. the species is also biofluorescent, turning bluish-green under UV light. male platypuses are also venomous; they have a spur on the back of their hind flippers that produces a venom that can be harmful to humans. females have a small spur, but are not venomous. these creatures are largely antisocial and as such produce few vocalizations, as they rarely communicate among their own species.

#have been getting requests for these dudes for years #platypus #duck billed platypus #australia #animal #not birds #other animals #this isn’t even every weird thing about these guys #also shoutout to San Diego zoo for coming in clutch with actually having good pics #it’s very hard to find platypus pics

[inkskinned]

she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let

and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment

and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.

and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment

and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?

to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.

and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.

you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.

#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now #writeblr #you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like #u don't HATE their partner explicitly #but ur like. what the fuck y'all #like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic #and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like #frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....'' #and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her. #all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it #or ... that it really IS good #and it's just odd to you #tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship #like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend #it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time #around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like #.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond. #so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think #but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something #but knowing you CANNOT #idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person #edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up #PS EDIT: btw i should have said: #the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every #type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''

[villowrose]

a little bit of an unfinished short comic about a conversation between flowey and frisk, talking about them both struggling to heal and move on from their past in a post-pacifist route.

#i was going to make a comic but i remembered im not very good with dialogue #undertale #utdr #flowey #ut #flowey undertale #floweypot au #art #my art #artists on tumblr #fanart #utdr fanart #it was going to be frisk and flowey talking about their regrets post pacifist route #just how when you've been acting and doing something bad for so long. like how hard it is to move on from #with both frisk and flowey struggling with accepting that the resets are over #i'd imagine the disorienting feeling of coming out of time loops would be hard on anyone #especially if the things you did in those time loops were not so good

[quotidianish]

Mom-mercs! Ma, mama, maw, and mum.

#crawling my way out of art block. Rahhhhh #old women 🥶🥶😳 #nobody knows if ma is a good mom or not in canon since it’s never confirmed #But I like to think she did her best and believes that she gave them a happy childhood #however she’s yet to come to terms with how said childhood wasn’t perfect despite how hard she tried because of the absence of their father #(among other things out of her control) #maw’s in a grey area of good parent v bad parent #mama and mum have been canonically confirmed to be good parents. Massive w #tf2 #art #how do I even TAG these characters #whatever #tf2 scout #tf2 heavy #tf2 sniper #tf2 demoman #quotidianish #tf2 fanart #team fortress 2 #HOLY SHIT 1K NOTES?? WHAT #mom mercs #tf2 au

[originalartblog]

(domestic skk?? here???)

Sometimes it's hard to be vulnerable but they're working on it.

#i decided i'm nice again #@carrotkicks you destroyed me with chuuya plushie angst i'm riposting with the chuuya plushie comfort that possessed me #also coming out as someone who draws dazai's hair like they're dog ears it's like atsushi's single hair stripe and tail-belt #look up french spaniels look at their ears and tell me that's not dazai #(chuuya can be a cocker spaniel. or a cavalier spaniel. to match.) #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #bsd chuuya #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd dazai #bsd dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #nawy's comics #i put chuuya in that outfit when thinking how akutagawa has civilian clothes so chuuya must hang out in something else too #but since i gave him the same thing for my AU it can be whatever now #aaaaaugh i've been looking at this for too long i can't say if it's good or not WHATEVER #getting out of your comfort zone is hard. i don't do domestic stuff. i do jokes and concepts and canon stuff.

[terristre]

I know request says closed but I just wanted to tell you that we’ll finally be getting the Glorious Masquerade event this month. Any thought pookie? You excited?

I AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS til i can bully this man 💥🥊

#‼️‼️‼️‼️NEVER BE AFRAID TO COME INTO MY ASKBOX TO TALK ABOUT RANDOM BULLSHIT!!!!! IM LOVE YOU FOREVER 🥺 #this doesnt count as a request bc no one would ask for nightmare sexy pinup malleus #anyhow. idk if youve noticed but i go pretty hard with religious themes with some of my ocs (hi covered mirrors in october day 1 👋) #& a good amount of my art outside The Sillies is crazy illustration stuff that goes HARD on symbolism & themes #so like. needless to say im VERY excited to finally get my hands on this asshole LOL #actually my original direction for this was going to be a rollo & idia thing exploring the false equivalence of hades & the christian devil #(that also ended in a homophobe rollo punchline 👍) #ask tag #twst #yayayayy thank u for asking it always makes me so happy ^^ <3

[seagull-scribbles]

But tonight, I’ll need you to stay

#tmnt 2012 #raphael hamato #casey jones 2012 #rasey #I usually have some sort of scenario or story to go with the things I draw but urhhhhh I got nothing #they have different sleep schedules after all but Raphs always been a napper in his free time #urgh idk #does anyone want to come up with something for me? #the smudged face paint I stole from less-depresso-more-espresso #I loved the idea it’s so good for story telling and I wanted to give it a try #and one day I’ll draw these guys in a different style not a messy one\ #but they do suit the grungy look #the last ones of these where still neater and better rendered but idc it’s fun and easy and works #i have been consumed by these two since feb but the first thing i posted was really hard for me to do so to just spam you all now is healin #the caption is from a skng rena sent me who hasnt seen 2012 but based on me talking about Casey thought it would fit #hello rasey fandom i am here on the rasey tag making my small mark

[canisalbus]

hi i ride motorcycle year round and wanted to chime in. for vasco's small around-town trips he'd probably be fine with his ears free, but for longer trips at higher speeds or when its cold out he'd want them protected. probably by tucking them under his chin into the collar of a jacket and then putting a scarf or bandana on. also goggles would be helpful if a full helmet wasn't wanted. since they're in europe and around italy specifically he could have a nice ducati (fast rockety sport bikes) or a cafe racer (much more like a motorized bicycle but they can still have a lot of power) a cafe racer would offer a lot of seat space for machete to be thoroughly uncomfortable in lol

i love your ocs they're great thanks for all the cool art :)

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#oh that's really good practical advice actually! I've never riden a motorcycle so I wouldn't even know where to begin #the ears tucked under the jacket collar is a smart way to go about it #having hard time choosing a bike for him there's too many options #it looks like lots of ducatis have a very sleek and sporty vibe to them #loving the bright colors and the shapely design #cafe racers on the other hand come across as iconic looking to me and could potentially have a sort of vintage aura which I personally like #and the flat topline (I'm sorry I don't possess the right vocabulary for these things) that some of them have is visually pleasing #they'd be a nightmare to draw though since the frame is a lot less covered and there's a ton of complex mechanical detail in the midsection #bike viscera if you will #I don't know but it's fun to think about #thank you for chiming in! this was genuinely helpful #answered #anonymous #modern au

[queerprayers]

i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.

and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.

#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it #none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are #communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state? #idk it doesn't sit right with me. #again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions. #but i need to come out as an open communion fan #roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me. #everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table #i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m #i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now) #but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded #just once. #i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again

[spielzeugkaiser]

hi, first off i really love your art. the h/c and warmth really hit me where i live and your illustration style is fantastic. lately i've been obsessed with the post where an unwell milek thinks geralt will leave him behind. was that an ingrained insecurity, assuming his super-witcher dad wouldn't have time for a sickly human kid?

[MASTERPOST] - Ahh, thank you for the ask! Yes, this scene.. I actually saw this a bit differently! It's not about Milek fearing Geralt will leave him behind, he actually wants him to. They need to find his Pa!! I think he often feels like a burden; Jaskier knows this, but Geralt isn't aware of this yet. Milek just wants to pull his weight, especially with Jaskier. A little sneak peak to their struggles regarding this:

Meanwhile Jaskier continues to struggle with his omega status.

#jaskier #the witcher #geraskier lovechild #julian alfred pankratz #omegaverse #there are various things happening here! a. Milek never really had to fear that Jaskier would leave him he knows he never ever would #b. Jaskier said again and again that he'll always care for him and loves him and that he doesn't have to pull any weight at all #c. Jaskier actually became the parent that just wants his kid to be educated and study and learn #(maybe because he knows Milek won't be able to do hard labour but also because he knows what Milek really wants to do) #(filed under: things I haven't drawn yet but they had their big fallout because of oxenfurt and university - things to come in the future) #d. Milek has watched Jaskier working his ass off in various jobs that he didn't like #(and he thinks that prostitution is the worst but only because they didn't properly talk about it before) #e. Jaskier is struggling with how he is percieved - which I think was never that much on his mind when he was travelling with Geralt #being a carefree bard and giving everyone the middlefinger who had some wrong ideas about what he could do and what not #but this is definitely an AU in which he doesn't have a good relationship with his father and he can still hear him say he'll become #'an unbonded omega with a bastard child working on the streets' and I think sometimes it gets to him #(because Jaskier is king of hating his parents ever being right about him) #that Jaskier kind of wants to spare Milek and quietly hopes we won't become an omega - even if he feels bad about it - shall become plot #(one dayyyy) #anyway that was a very long rant about Mileks complex relationship with him feeling like a burden

[hanadoesstuffwrong]

Some doodles because the concept art for this mediocre corporate mess has been haunting me

#we could have had it all #starboy #asha x star #wish 2023 #wish rewrite #wish concept art #pls don't bother trying to defend the movie to me cos i really really really don't care #these two have been rotating in my brain like a rotisserie chicken and thats why im here #disney used to be known for exactly three things: insane musical numbers + traumatising parent death scenes and LOVE STORIES #h0w do u manage to leave each of those out of ur big celebration homage flick????.. #i have my own full rewrite with replacement song concepts that will never see the light of day but thats what these come from #the gist is its gender-swapped Stardust where the moral is 'dont strive so hard for an ideal that u miss the good things u already have' #the fanart and animatics and analyses are the best things to come out of this movie by far!

[fuckyeahchinesefashion]

By 彭壁生辉

#china #douyin #fun #video #life story #story #op is also a teacher #he says that he always allows late students to come directly into the classroom #op lived in a time when teachers were generally very hard on their students #it's good to know that things aren't the same anymore

[weisbrot]

all i do is draw grantaire looking down face obscured by shadow 👌🏻😬

#should i be preparing for dokomi? yes. but its overwhelming and i dont have time left so. #les mis #grantaire #my blergh #lm my blergh #work in progress #like theres good news coming in soon too. but first i have to survive a lot of hard things ghhh #wish the convention was a month later

[radiocity]

The L Word | S2E01

#the l word #shane mccutcheon #kate moennig #in a horrible mood but i still had the episode open from last night and laughed so hard at this awful outfit i almost briefly forgot #i actually love it in concept i just dont know what they were thinking with the random sidepieces for her hair which i think throw the whol #thing into this weird sort of disarray #but i love the short blazer sleeves ovr the shirt a lot also how weirdly unironed the shirt kind of appears #also the low jeans with the belt..? not crazy about the decor on the blazer tho #but i love the glasses forevr #but again i feel like her hair is so weirdly fried in this or maybe cked with hairspray #anyway im fine sorta #actually really funny to post this also after the last one bc she looked so good in that and so BAD here #soryr this outfit deserved its own complete commentary in tags but lookbook coming eventually #also im pretty sure her hair is like tied back in some sor tof way which also looks horrific #who did this literally whos idea was this #also sorry it was roiginally 4 but looking at them together i think it only needs 2

[daily-hanamura]

#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #tatsumi kanji #kanji tatsumi #YOSUKE KANJI FRIENDSHIP IS THE BESTTTTT (and also very canon i can pull out receipts any day man) #kanji may not be as attuned to yosuke as yu tends to be (who else can communicate with just glances at each other) BUT #he gets it!!! #kanji also has a hard time being articulate! he says things he doesnt mean and he comes off rude and abrasive but he doesnt. mean. them. #he calls his mum an old hag but GOD does he fucking love his mother. #kanji and yosuke are both at their core very sensitive individuals but they both maintain this facade of “masculinity” to hide it #and it makes this particular moment all the more precious bcause they're talking without pretention but freely with their hearts #and its this wonderful beautiful moment that they get to share #and you know what makes it better? its that it's just one of MANY #he's good with his queue