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inkskinned · 10 months

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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

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welcometogrouchland · 3 months

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ANOTHER SKETCH DUMP! Featuring more of me playing with lineless art. Batman reborn era trio (dick, damian and steph) I miss you...when will you return from war. Also featuring Steph designs bc I've seen ppl dissatisfied w/ her current look, some good mom Talia, and Jason Todd poetry club. Duke is confused not that Jason would start a poetry club but that he'd have such mid poetry opinions. (ID in Alt)

#dc comics #batfamily #damian wayne #stephanie brown #dick grayson #talia al ghul #duke thomas #cassandra cain #mine #woo new art tag. please god let me keep this up all year #uhh anyway yeah! still a big backlog of sketches but i got burnt out which means i had time to collect some #i feel like my art looks. extremely different w/o lines compared to with? idk i worry that's it weird/off-putting #but hey at the end of the day I'm hardly worrying about my brand integrity on tumblr dot com #duke and cass being at poetry club is based on them canonically being into poetry and for a good while duke and jason got along well #Steph is there for both jason and cass' emotional support (unfortunately there's a design flaw. she can't do both simultaneously)#(which is fine bc cass is fleeing the scene at the idea of having to casually hang out with jason)#(they're the exact amount of similar and more importantly different that it's like putting two firecrackers together. bad)#i really like the steph mask designs... it'd be fun to do something with them but idk what y'know?#I'm just like. if we're assuming that her mask has to be different from both babs and cass then this is what I've got as alternatives #i mostly wanted to practice character interaction with the talia and damian one... and also i love them #looking at james gunns batman movie proposal. you keep your hands OFF HER MR GUNN #please if shes evil in a movie they're never gonna let her be good in the comics again 😭#dc when you inevitably cave and do your next big reboot let the ppl finally have the son of the demon origin (w/ tweaks of course)#idk it's canon in my heart. heartcanon if you will <3 #anyway yeah uhhhhhh enjoy?

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somewhereincairparavel · 1 month

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a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.

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the-punforgiven · 2 months

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Hey, I'm really sorry to have to ask y'all, but my family and I are being evicted from our home and we can't really afford to live anywhere else.

We've been saving up for a while and we've found a place we can almost afford, but we're still short about $4,400. So like, if you have anything you can do to help I'd greatly appreciate it, but like, I get that times are tough all around so I totally understand if you don't

Here's a link to my paypal, but like, please only donate if you've got the cash to spare, I don't want anyone to go hungry on my account

#I'm sorry to have to do this y'all ;-;#Idk what else to even do though #like this shabby little trailer we're looking at is like the second cheapest place in the entire town #we're getting kicked out of the first #the rent was dirt cheap due to the asbestos and ghosts and even then we could barely afford it lol #I wish I could offer emergency commissions or something but I've been so paralyzed by the stress of this whole situation #it's hard to do shit like draw and I'm afraid if I do the emergency commissions thing the stress'll just crush me #as if it hasn't been already lol #and I feel bad because there's like #so much more important shit in the world going on rn #and more important voices that need to be heard than mine #but also like #we need a place to live #y'know?#sorry for this again ;-;#pun's text posts #help

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neria-rt · 1 year

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most normal warm up page known to man (PLEASE tell me you’ve seen the original image of the bottom left one

#almost afraid to post this bc it’s just letting everyone know what the inside of my brain looks like #but also i haven’t been able to draw anything else and i feel bad for not posting so #diversity win iris is non-binary #dgs #tgaa #dgs2 spoilers #tgaa2 spoilers #sorry for these #herlock sholmes #iris wilson #yujin mikotoba #homumiko #mine #silly

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betasuppe · 5 months

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It didn't take much for me to be absolutely stupid in love with you♡~

#flint & rinn #giant scary bad guy?? falling in love with the silly tiny good guy?#def a fave of mine #ill TAKE IT #but rinn def needs to bend over a LOT to smooch flint #so he usually just picks flint up instead & saves them both the trouble lol #& i actually dont hate how this turned out #cutiepatootieeees #they have a whole battle to the death ahead with fighting against an all powerful magical evil emporer #well let them hav this dance uwu♡#nok draws #nok digital #hopefully gonna feel a bit more like myself tomorrow #i hopeeeeee #but seriously #this evil guy saw the smallest & most innocent looking being onboard come up to HIM the scariest person in creation to ask on date???#besutiful shit right there honestlyyyy #tall scary dude with lots of hair & issues #i live you so much sobsobsobbbb #twizzler & front♡

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youjibyers · 11 months

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Honestly this sounds ridiculous but sometimes I think the constant bowl cut jokes that the ga and reddit make about Will are basically them just coping and seething at the idea of Will being an actually important character. It’s like every time they only choose to focus on how silly they think his haircut is, they progressively devalue his character and take him less and less seriously. And it kinda seems like they’re just trying to convince themselves that Will could not possibly be important to the narrative, could not possibly be explored in a deep and significant way-not because they correctly understand the story but because they really do not want a gay male character to be focused on in “their” show. The amount of attention Will and his sexuality get already is probably too much for some of them.

Because stranger things is so mainstream, I wouldn’t be surprised if a lot of people just subconsciously view it as a “normal people show” even though it started as a show about/for outcasts. Thus, the more focus that’s given to a gay male character, the more it becomes a “gay show,” and if their “normal show” starts becoming a “gay show,” it will make a part of the audience feel duped and “forced” into confronting a subject that makes them uncomfortable: homosexuality (and its associated struggles). And a lot of these people would be especially angry at this development because they can’t even comprehend that competent, male creators might willingly tell a story about a gay boy, so they end up assuming that the creators must have been pressured to force the story into taking a turn for the gay, or that they’ve been brainwashed by the woke agenda-after all, they couldn’t just be progressive people who sat down and simply decided naturally that they wanted to explore homosexuality as a major theme in a sci-fi horror show from the start. That’s not even allowed, right? Gay stuff should be contained and quarantined in gay-specific genres like a disease, right?

Anyway, I just think it’s maybe not a coincidence that I see way less “reducing Will to his haircut” behavior from people who are invested in the complexity and humanity of his character compared to the people who clearly want him to stay small and hidden, out of sight and out of mind.

#can you tell I went on the subreddit again #don’t get me wrong though the bowl cut jokes are funny sometimes and not inherently bad obviously #also I feel like I’m going crazy when people talk about how awful the bowl cut is every season #because for the most part I genuinely think it’s fine and fits well enough with the time period #plus it’s the iconic Will Byers look so why change it now #especially if it’s meant to be a nod to other classic bowl cut boy characters #it seems like a lot of the ga view his haircut through the modern lens of it not being in style or common anymore #sometimes it’s not so hot but mostly it’s cute enough to me #will byers #byler #<- target audience #mine

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emilylprentiss · 6 months

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I don't know how else to say it...but I care for you more than anyone I know. But when God demands something of me, I have to obey. I wish I understood...

EVIL 3.08 – "The Demon of Parenthood"

#evil #evil series #kristen bouchard #eviledit #tvedit #evil gifs #here's a show about demons and possessions haha sike guess what the leads are in love and can not be together bc of god :))))))#ANYWAY these a short and choppy i feel like but theyre all literally right under the gif size limit 😭#this show is also too yellow and took the strength of george to color (and it still looks bad but its fine im fine)#*mine

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wistfulwatcher · 1 year

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nat + the torn fishnets

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spaciebabie · 4 months

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#thanks for the dm dana sjfdhsjdfs #genuinely like all the fatigue of the past few months hit all at once this morning and when im overly stressed my mental health #gets bad. like really really bad #it was nice 2 laugh abt something ridiculous ajkhjkdfsdh #fnaf #spacie scribbles #at first this was gonna be springtrap talking 2 me but it makes more sense if its you lmaoksjdfkslfdj #i dont remember what your sona looks like forgive me 😭#and i didnt wanna dig something up for this shitpost so #i shuld learn 2 draw gore so that when i feel really bad like this i can draw characters getting hurt #genuinely think that would make me feel better #well. ig ik what imma be spending the rest of tonight doing #imagine being such a pathetic old decrepit creature that a couple plastic balls are all it takes ta destroy you #i could beat his ass. its canonically possible for me ta beat his ass #i wouldnt even hafta try that hard #buddy. you're DONE #also his hips.....#damn #thighs are a weakness of mine like dude.#look at his shit bro. this is fucking ludicrous #the way his stance is #auuugh #sickening

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welcometogrouchland · 1 month

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your talia in your newest comic is very pretty 💜 shiny hair save me….

AHH THANK YOU SM I didn't shade her hair originally when I was coloring cause I was trying to streamline things but it looked so incomplete without it...I can't help it if she has L'Oreal model energy. Anyway you're always really nice on my Steph posts so here's some misc Stephs I had lying around as thanks for this ask (feat one of those alt cowl designs i posted back when!)

#dc comics #dc #stephanie brown #batgirl #batgirls #asks #i have many wips that I don't feel are worthy of posting but yknow? these ones aint half bad #I've already done a lot of my essential steph reading so now I'm just looking for other stuff shes been in #she's briefly in the GA trade I'm reading rn! big win! I didn't even know that when i bought it but fate is fate #I'm gonna read batgirls at some point but i have to be in a headspace for it w/ the requisite amount of context #also i know it's one of those series you need to stick with to get the maximum amount of enjoyment with it #since every review I've read has said ''i know it starts off rough but PLEASE just get past the midpoint it gets better''#so i gotta be in that headspace too #(demons in my head saying 'or you could just reread cass' batgirl run' and I'm like STOP I NEED TO FINISH GA AND BB LEAVE ME BE!!!)#anyway thank you for this it was really nice <3 #mine

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haechan · 1 year

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haechan in the start of love song track video ♡

⏤ for @moitt

#nctinc #nct #nct 127 #haechan #gifs #mine #i feel like i dont know how to gif anymore #these look so bad i am so Sorry #requests #imma have to go look for some coloring tutorials or smth

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cassiecainwaynes · 17 days

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:/

sigh I wanted to see a Hunter or Wrecker initial reaction to finding out Omega was taken again. They seem way too chill 😭 I know they are all soldiers but I expected an emotional reaction from Hunter especially. Weird choice that we didn’t even see it at all :/

#the bad batch spoilers #tbb spoilers #the bad batch #star wars #hunter and omega #the writing is def interesting #hunter #mine #like he didnt have to cry or even look that sad just we shouldve seen it? and if not that we should see how this affects him later #like if its shock and repression great! but i feel like that is not what they are going for... they just skipped it!

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danganronpa96 · 26 days

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Ok so i think i sent a ask abt Luigi's what if death portrait and i was like "there's a joke begging to be made here but i'm keeping in case L dies next chapter"

Well guess what happend?

L took the L!

Eyyyyyy😉👉👉

(I know i already made that joke in the ao3 comment but i needed to point out abt my ask)

Yeah I will admit (shocking news everyone) I didn't know if I could answer the ask with my hindsight on the matter (lol)

Still I am surprised at how many people are making this joke. Not that I wasn't expecting it (I'm probably sure I have said it to myself once before) but if I had a pound (£££££ <- this pound this pound not weight and not that dirty meaning) for every time this joke has been made thus far, I am well on my way to buying a yacht. Why? idk all rich people have yachts for some reason

so anyway I'm putting this on L's eulogy