#i wanna recover

[notdelusionalatall]

TW weight:

I am so damn tired of this bullshit. I don't wanna relapse. I wanna be HEALTHY!

Enough is enough. I'm going to eat well today! 🍔🍕🍖🍗🍚🍜🍝🍰🍪🍤🍩🍣🍠🍟🍞🍅🍆🍇🍈🍉🍊🍌🥒🥑🥐🍲🍓🍒🍑🍍🥓🥔🥕🥖🥗🥘🥙🥚🦑🦐🥞🥝🥜

Anorexia is a bitch.

#tw relapse #tw ed #eating disorder recovery #ed memes #i wanna recover #i wanna be healthy #i relapsed #i relapsed again #anorexia #anorexia relapse #tw personal #tw #tw personal vent #tw vent #i am tired of myself #i am tired of my eating disorder #anorexia is a bitch #fuck anorexia #fuck ed #bdd #body image issues #struggling with anorexia #body dysmorphia

[girlyteengirl16]

healing is taking too long what if i just kill myself

#trauma #i wanna kms #mentally tired #i want to die so bad #mentally unstable #recovering is hard #healing #i can’t move on #mental abuse #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #i want to be okay

[tired-mismatched-socks]

TW for content regarding eating disorders. i meant to make a nice introduction post and it resulted in something more akin to a stream of consciousness. it's fine i think.

...

this is a blog for my relationship to food. it started out and i guess still is in some ways an ED blog. i know. i want to get better. not always, obviously. you know the drill. wanting to get worse, so much worse, out of pain, anger, despair, but waning to truly heal out of love, sadness and despair. rinse and repeat. looking at thin strangers on the street triggers- you find your own th1nspo- then cooking with your friends makes your heart swell. until you get that pit in your stomach and seek refuge in your lonely, sickly cave.

it's tiring. it's not pretty. it's so incoherent it tears me limb from limb, leaving me shattered, a pool of fragments. the funny thing is i seek refuge in it to comfort myself- i have no sense of identity, and it hurts, so ill be perfect and stick to this thing. when it shifted from binge-purge to primarly restricting, it felt like such an accomplishment! i finally won't be a failure! ill see -progress- ! the 'progress' fuels itself in the worst way; time exasperating the contrast that killing the very 'self' i long for.

...

right now, im looking at the sea. it is nightttime. i want to recover.

just this morning, laying on the beach staring at that same sea, i felt very differently.

as a wave i shift and change. it hurts.

it is inevitable.

#my tag #i wanna be weightless #i wanna recover #it is a push and pull #tw ed

[tksubby]

i know i like never post anything i do for school but have this little bit of one of my finals :)

#i'm on break now so hopefully more art soon? perhaps? idk #i wanna draw eugene more #but i've been like spending my first week back just resting and recovering from finals #winter break is a month but it's not long enoughhhhh #my art #hamster #he chewing #animation is so hard and time consuming

[nibbelraz]

Hello MDZS fandom

#mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jiang cheng #jin ling #wei ying #lan zhan #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #mo dao zu shi #I FINISHED MDZS SO I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THEM AAAA #definitely wanna draw more of them ESPECIALLY SIZHUI #ahhh reading all of MDZS in a week was definitely an experience im still recovering but i love them #it was amazing #my art #nibbelraz

[kayleerowena]

🏚️ haunted house commissions are back! 🏚️

is your house (or apartment, or rv, or a house you really like from down the street, or a house from a story) haunted? do you wish it was? for a small fee, i'll put ghosts in it for you!

i'm trying out a google form for commissions this time around rather than a first-come-first-serve model. this form will be open for a limited time. probably till around the end of may. i'll have a handful of commission slots to begin with, and i'll pull from the form response pool once more slots start opening up.

want a haunted house? fill out the form here! (reblogs are super appreciated to spread the word! 🫀)

#commissions #art commissions #haunted house #haunted houses #spatial horror #horror #horror art #horror illustration #excited to do some more of these!!!! #i'm recovering from a (very mild dont worry) case of covid rn so please don't expect super quick responses #but i didn't want to wait any longer to open the form up bc i wanna see what kinda houses y'all have in store for me this time! #i'm also super open to doing fictional houses from media i'm familiar with - in particular i would LOVE to do an illustration of > #> the cabin from yellowjackets / the martin house from mabelpod / the church from disco elysium #so if anyone wants any of those especially go fill out the form and let me know!! #i wanna do more weird and experimental houses this go-round. time to get funky with the hauntings!!!

[pistachi0art]

close call? 👔

#tw body horror #tw blood #tw infection #tw parasite #hlvrai infection au #hlvrai gordos feetman #hlvrai dr coomer #hlvrai bubby #I just think dr c’s synthetic skin is neat :) #also recovering rn from someone drawing the au words cannot describe how happy i am #so this is going here for now bc I wanna let that settle before posting

[teapot-of-tyrahn]

more little lloyd drawings !! reblogs + comments in tags appreciated :)

#my art #digital art #art #fanart #ninjago s1 #ninjago #ninjago fanart #lloyd garmadon #young lloyd #ninjago season 1 #COLURIZED VERSION THIS TIME !!!!!!!!!!! everytime i draw him he slowly goes up in drawing quality. #agh. AGHGHGHGH ;; IM STILL REELING OVER ALL THE NICE COMMENTS I GOT ON MY LAST PIECE OF FANART ........ I'LL NEVER RECOVER /AFF. #anyway. feel free to send ninjago hcs into my inbox!! #IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NINJAGO I PROMISE. #also im thinking of dabbling into some writing for the ninjago fandom too !!!! #lmk what u guys wanna see !

[nil-elk]

A little bit of Harrowhark's all I need. [wip]

#alright alright y'all get the wip tooooo and not just tweeter #harrowhark nonagesimus #the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #harrow the ninth #nona the ninth #WIP #my art #got a bunch of harrows in my brain that i wanna draw but recovering from sickies 👍🏽💀 #smol skol wife as a friend put it

[krilltastrophe]

not enough people draw night in the woods fanart where they're aged up and happy. or getting better. or just in the future at all

#fix this #you can fix this if you want #i wanna see selmers with a poetry book #i wanna see gregg and angus settled in their new house #I wanna see bea happy and in college #i wanna see mae recovered and working like in the library or something #i want to see maes parents out of debt settled and retiring happily #nitw #night in the woods #mae borowski

[mirrorroad]

i did watch the episode and i did have very normal and measured feelings about it i think

#the caption's code for i had to pause mid episode to recover a couple times #toh #the owl house #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #thanks to them #luz noceda #hunter clawthorne #hunter noceda #<tags that makes me wanna pause mid episode again even tho im not watching it #my art #toh season 3 #the owl house season 3 #unofficial soundtrack to this one is #the foundations of decay since i had that on repeat drawin this #get! up! coward!

[theloveinc]

There's a lot of validity in the idea that older Bakugo is a traumatized pro-hero with major PTSD... but you know what's kinda fucked up to think about? The fact that Bakugo is also a 22-year-old pro-hero with major PTSD even before that, too.

It's almost easy to imagine that things are actually better when he's older (the therapy finally a routine, the trauma long set and on the path to being healed)... and that it's his whole 20s that are spent as a pool of disaster trying to recover from the war(s).

He looks back and barely even remembers being twenty, much less twenty-five or twenty-seven. Barely remembers how little he slept, not at the hands of trying to balance hero work and getting a degree at the same time, but just out of the pure insomnia that came from trying to move on and every nightmare attached.

Hardly ever showering, never shaving (not that he ever grew much of a beard, but the facial hair was definitely there. There's pictures of him on the news with an awkward, grown out haircut and patches on facial hair that make him look positively... immature), barely even eating more than a few protein bars or an energy jelly drink-a day. It's a blur, and his friends are hardly there to pick him up out of it because they're all going through it, too. Somewhat.

It's definitely weird if you meet him during this period. He's not all there, at least, not all of the time. He doesn't really register your interactions, the friendship you extend to him (a younger, or ever older, version of him would've shown you that deep seeded ferocity in response, tried to bite the hand that fed him, even if it were love... but 20s Bakugo... doesn't seem to notice). Even though only one of his eyes is clouded over, the good one never seems to brighten up.

There's definitely moments when the old him shines through: when he's with Deku, when he's in the midst of battle, when he finds out that Todoroki still does a shitty job at chopping scallions. But it's a long time before he's even close to the same, able to step out from underneath the fog of simply surviving and into the sunshine of recovering.

But I think sticking through it with him is worth it.

(It's a weird moment, a happy moment, the first time you realize that Bakugo has changed. That the pouring rain outside hasn't bothered him since he showed up at your apartment. He forgot his umbrella, he's been quite careless ever since the war—wet and shaggy hair frizzed up, cheeks red from cold—but he doesn't seem to mind, with his bare feet up on your coffee table, his eyes gazing out the window. You hand his tea, and instead of gulping it down in one go, letting it burn in his throat, he winces at the heat.

"Tastes like shit," he says, and you laugh because it always does. Just this time, he noticed.)

#bakugou x reader #bakugo #this is what crocheting a baby hat does to u #no im jk i was just thinking abt bakugo being like 22 and awkward as h*ck bc he still hasnt recovered from the war #i wanna talk abt what he's like more but this is what came out instead LOL #like i think he's really stubborn abt ... coping with after effects of dying #and then before he knows it he has major depression LMFAOO #and he can like go to work get his degree do all he needs to do as a 20-something year guy #but he's not like. *there*. you know #and you meet him and he's a binch but he's not hard to get along with #and u just sorta take him in and drag him places like idk #your school's halloween night.. or even just a night out with ur friend (he doesn't even know how to order a drink) #and he doesnt even process it all until one day he's like 'dang it feels like ive been asleep for years' #and he kinda was #but he knows youre the one who helped him and now he wants to fix himself for you bc he remembers u being there for him #but he's so funny im imagining him with like. frat boy facial hair and a really outgrown ugly mullet type haircut #and lowkey with like. greasy skin (ik he's perfect but he's in a bad state and it shows) and he eats instant noodles ever day #and only watches japanese top gear #and goes on patrols where he beats the crap outta ppl and then doesnt remember it #DREAM BOY #and then he's big hero later #anyway #caitie post #gen

[ssahotchnerr]

wait since it’s friday here’s some cozy tg pics <33

#i have yet to recover from that mirror selfie btw #i wanna lay on him so bad 😣 #just a cozy friday night in with him 😣😣😣😣😣 #hazel has no idea how good she has it </3

[gael-garcia]

Do you know how many sessions it'll take me to be as good as you?

Cassandro (2023)

#cassandro #roberta colindrez #cassandro 2023 #filmedit #gifs #THAT SMILE #shesnake #filmtag #filmgifs #i wanna rewatch again while i recover from tooth surgery

[thatgecko0606]

Some Stardew fans when they marry the recovering alcoholic just to find out, he’s actually recovering alcoholic 

#stardew valley #i love stardew valley #stardew shane #sdv shane #he’s my husband #i like older men #literally tho #y’all don’t even know #why would you marry a recovering alcoholic if you didn’t wanna deal with the fact he was a recovering alcoholic? #He’s mentally ill! #what is wrong with people

[tin-can-iron-man]

I'm just gonna say it again real quick:

Yes!! Iron Man is a tragedy! It has and always has been since the very first appearance in 1963 which describes itself, Tony's life, and legacy, as such.

Tony causes most of his issues himself, he is his biggest villain, a majority of his rogues gallery are caricatures of the worst versions of himself brought to life (when they're not just being racist cuz...60s...). The worst thing about being Tony Stark is that he can't stop being Tony Stark (he tried!!) That is the point.

The majority of pain Tony goes through, is pain he inflicts on himself, whether intentionally or inadvertently. That is the point.

He is not A villain (at least. Not usually. There are...some rough moments and arcs that are. Not great. As there is with any character as old as he is). But he is his own main antagonist.

#I—just—*slams fists on floor*—I WANNA PUT HIM IN A PIETRI DISH AND VIOLENTLY SHAKE HIM #tony stark #iron man #616 tony stark #marvel #marvel comics #*screams cries throws up* IT'S NOT HIS FAULT HIS CHARACTER WAS ASSASSINATED IN 2005 IN A WAY THAT HASN'T BEEN RECOVERED FROM YET #***starts openly weeping*** if the next main IM series is bad it'll have been 20 years of this shit make it STOOOOOP #being his own antagonist! his actions and mental state and poor judgement calls reaonates with people!! #I'm wildly under qualified to talk about this stuff but #I feel like that's *why* people with mental health issues. self esteem issues. addiction issues. flock to him. #he is not a BAD person. he is a person. who makes mistakes. and devastates himself. and even leaves himself half dead sometimes. #who doubts himself. is simultaneously oversensitive and alarmingly oblivious. he is a mess. that is a fundamental requirement of being him #that. resonates with people. it's *relatable*. Tony Stark is a lightning rod of interest for people...like him. hurting. sad. desperate. #and he brings *enjoyment*. he brings jokes. comfort. #he brings hope #because if a guy like *that* can be *iron man*...maybe we'll all be ok too #it's solidarity but also it's a kick in the right direction. it's saying ''it's ok that this is how you feel. I'm right there with you.'' #''but you can't stay here forever. we always need to try'' #Iron Man is and always has been about the future. after all.