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kristina-del-rey · 1 day

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𝒲𝒽𝓎 𝒹𝑜 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓉𝑜 𝓇𝓊𝒾𝓃 𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔?

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endlessmidnights · 7 months

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I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

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stqrvingmery · 26 days

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i want to be skinnier

i want to have control

i want to be seen

i want to be perfect

₊ ⊹₊ ⊹☣︎♰☣︎⊹₊ ⊹₊

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fornpt1 · 2 months

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ultraviolencecore

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jolly-jello · 5 months

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#lystrosaurus #dinosaurs #paleontology #dinosaur #prehistoric animals #prehistoric #permian #triassic #sad thoughts #sadgirl #😔#worst day of my life #i wish i was dead #like a lystrosaurus #extinction is a b*

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fairycosmos · 7 months

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omg HOW MUCH SHIT DO I HAVE TO TAKE BEFORE THINGS GET GOOD IN A WAY THAT FUCKING MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i wish i was dead

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justaminnow · 12 days

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I'm so tired and tired and tired and tired and tired.

Of the pain

Of the subluxations

Of the unsolicited questions

Of the medications

Of being disabled

#hypermobile eds #hypermobile ehlers danlos #hypermobility #disabled #disability #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #hmsd #i wish i was dead

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gr-aves · 10 months

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i hope i get hit by a car.

#johnlock #ritchie holmes #sherlock holmes 2009 #KILLS SELF #smashes head into wall until unconcious #GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD #johnlock guys hjonlock #thehy kiss #kis #i wish i was dead #THEY KSIS #im normal im normal #sherlock

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kadunud · 5 months

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#calvin and hobbes #winter night #4 pm #daylight savings #i wish i was dead

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iamyoursonly · 3 months

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My soulmate (01/02/2024)

it’s for @metalpipereal generally but i think nanami deserves another story too (too many for gojo grrr) so here it is yayayayayay

I could never resist to ask “Are you my soulmate?” to every single person I meet.

Everyone has a soulmate right? I’m not quite sure about that, despite all the stories I have read about that topic, I have never ever met mine. What if I don’t have a soulmate? One that’s supposed to love me and cherish me and I’d do the same for them. And what do they mean ‘you’ll know when you see them’, I have lived for 20 long years and I still don’t feel that ‘it’s them’ feeling.

My significant other, where are you?

The scent of fresh baked bread is my favourite, it makes me think about how romantic it must be when you share your morning coffee with your partner. Just the thought of it makes my day. I munch on the piece of toast as I go make my morning coffee with the machine. I close my eyes as I fill my lungs with the scent of coffee, then opening them feeling energised like the caffeine had already taken effect.

As I walked out of the kitchen, ready to start my day. I turned on the television to catch up on the latest news, only to see that there had been a huge car accident right in front of my college.

“Really?” I cursed under my breath, “On the day that I’m finally not tired?”

I had to resist the urge to throw a tantrum like a 5 year old would, throwing hands at the cushions on the couch and screaming out loud. Wanting to go to my mother to complain about how much this was annoying me, and just cry in her arms as she whispers soothing words into my ear. Oh, how I wish my soulmate would do that to me, and just hold me in their arms as I cry my heart out.

Now what do I do with my brain fired up and my whole day stuck in the house. Work on my essay that’s due two months later? No way. Go downstairs to buy some more groceries? I don’t want to anymore. I lie down on the couch, staring blankly at the ceiling as I can’t fall asleep anymore. I sit up suddenly, as if remembering an important thing that I haven’t done, then looked at the time. 9AM, I forgot to buy bread! How could I possibly forget that. I quickly fo get changed to quickly go down to the bakery to buy my daily doze of freshly baked bread.

As I rush out of my apartment, grabbing my wallet and my phone only, forgetting everything else but the sole goal of buying the bread I want. I waited impatiently for the elevator, I stood nervously, afraid that another person would buy the bread that I wanted. When the elevator finally arrived my floor, I got in to see a man. One that is tall and blond and looked a little older. I had to admit that my heart fluttered a bit when I saw him, because oh my god, was he divine. But I had no time for men right now, I just need my bread.

The button to the ground floor had already been pressed, by him I assume. And he looked at me at the corner of his eye, his brown eyes alluring I have to say. As the elevator reaches down to the ground floor, I started running full speed to the bakery to get my bread. I’m so getting that piece of bread. Before I knew it, the man in the elevator with me started running too, and he was catching up to me. ‘Oh no’, I thought. So I ran faster and faster until I finally reached the bakery. I was so out of breath as I grabbed the last bag of bread. But there was just another hand grabbing the bag.

“Uh, excuse me, but I was going to buy this first?” I say, turning around to see the blond man towering over me.

“You are? My bad.” He let go of the bag and walked over to another corner of the shop. Well, he’s not out of breath and he’s a gentleman. Wow. Now that he had let me have the bag, I felt a bit bad about telling him off, as he was so kind to me and didn’t even argue at all. So I held the bag and walked over to him.

“Hey, do you want to share?” I asked him, and he turned from the pineapple buns to look at me, “I mean we live in the same building so we can just split it in half? I’ll pay.”

“And you’d think I’d let you pay, huh? Yeah we can split, but a pretty lady like you should let the gentleman pay for you.” He grabs the bag of bread and quickly pays for it, I was so shocked and confused, but I guess it was just a kind gesture so I didn’t think too much about it.

“Now let’s go.” He hands me half a pack, I guess he had the cashier split it into two bags.

“Thank you.” I say, trying to sound more polite and elegant. “So, see you around?”

A moment of silence passed, and the two of us stand in front of the bakery, both not talking. Then he breaks the silence.

“You mean you aren’t planning to eat it together?”

“I mean…” I look them and fiddle with my fingers, “If it’s alright with you.”

“Of course it is, what do you mean?” He say, a bit louder honestly. He immediately bowed down though, apologising for raising his voice. “I’m sorry for yelling at you.”

“What?” I stand there confused, “No you did not? Stop please. Let’s just go eat the bread, yeah?”

“Okay.” He stood up and held my hand, “Let’s go over there then.”

We walked over to the bench, his hand felt warm against mine. I couldn’t help but blush at the contact as I deliberately followed him. Now that I’m just walking behind him, I can feel his strong presence around me. The butterflies in my stomach churning, and I have never felt something like that. It felt as if we held hands any longer my heart might burst. Oh, is that how people crush on people? It’s not love, right? Right?

He sat down on the bench and asked me to do the same, “Please sit down.” He’s such a gentleman.

I sat down next to him, the space between us not more than the length of my palms. Don’t get me wrong, I love how close we are and how we looked just like a ‘couple in love’.

“Should we eat?” I ask him, breaking the awkward silence. He just nods in reply as he hands me his bottle of hand sanitiser. I thank him and sanitise my hands, “Thanks.” Then I open my bag of bread and start munching on a piece. I look over at him and he was doing the same thing.

“Hey,” He starts, “Do you know me?”

“You’re my upstairs neighbour yeah?”

“Actually we are in the same econ class in college.”

“Really? How come I never noticed?” I take another bite out of my bread.

“Probably because I sit at the back?”

“You do?” I gasp, “Wait so you know how useless the professor is too?”

“Yeah.” He chuckled. Oh, he finally smiled. His smile looks so precious, like the first ray of light shining out of the horizon in the morning. I felt as if an eclipse was occurring as we lock eyes with each other. The feeling so romantic and fresh just like the morning breeze, and that I didn’t want it to end. This moment, this instant was so cinematic I wanted to put it into a movie. So when he leaned in to brush away the bread crumbs near my lips, my heart almost jumped out of my chest. But it’s not that I mind giving my heart to him, he seems like a man to guard it with his life. A gentleman. One that I longed for. Is this the ‘it’s him’ feeling?

“You had some crumbs on your face. I’m sorry if I was too close…” He trailed off, losing his smile and he started frowning again. Him frowning makes him age a lot faster, he looked at least ten years older when he does that.

“Oh no, it’s alright. Thank you for helping me wipe it off though.” I chuckle, and he smiled again. Now that’s the young man look.

He looked at his watch and checked the time, it was ten already. “It’s time for me to get to my part time job. See you around, gorgeous.”

I stared at him blankly, still in shock how fast time had passed while we were together I didn’t even notice the pet name he gave me. As he walked away from where we were sitting, I yelled to him, “Wait, what’s your name?”

He stopped in his tracks, and turned around to look at me. The wind blowing his half gelled up hair into the perfect places, it seemed like a scene in a movie where the protagonists kiss under the cherry blossoms in spring. His gaze was soft too, like he was looking at me as if I was a fragile vase that would break at any harsh contact. Then he came closer to me again, leaning towards my ear, whispering, “It’s Kento, Nanami Kento. See you later, love.”

He simply sprinted away after this interaction. I just stood there like an awkward little child before the redness coloured my cheeks, leaving me in a blushing mess, and all that I could think about was him and his smile.

“Kento,” I whispered. “It’s such a nice name…”

He’s the guy, he’s my soulmate. I have found him.

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#jujutsu kaisen #drabble #jjk #nanami fluff #nanami kento x reader #nanami x you #jujutsu kaisen nanami #nanami x y/n #nanamin #jjk nanami #jujutsu nanami #nanami kento #gojo satoru #i wish i was dead

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deprixpainsblog · 1 month

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ICH WILL NICHT MHR! Bitte gib mir nh Überdosis Tabletten, schieß‘ mir in den Kopf! Schubs mich von einem Hochhaus oder von einer Brücke! Und bitte lass mich einfach st!rb!en

#depressing life #thoughts #depressiv #sterben #i wish i was dead #im already dead #dead #thoughts of death #tot faszinieren #gedankenüberdentod #gedanken #gedanke des tages #mentally fucked #ptbs #einsam #actually mentally ill #depressing quotes #this is depressing

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endlessmidnights · 7 months

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The only reason I’m alive is because I’m too indecisive to choose my method

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lovebeing-a-girl · 2 months

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I wanna be wild I wanna go out late at night and just roam around with my friends and get McDonald’s and scream until my throat hurts

I wanna live my teenage years but I am losing them to my strict parents

#girlblogger #girlblogging #this is what makes us girls #just girly things #girlhood #love being a girl #hell is a teenage girl #aesthetic #soft girl #this is a girlblog #i wish i was dead #teenage years #teenage girly #strict parents #i am just a girl

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slvtforhimm · 27 days

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this is how it feels when I remember I'd never be a 14 year old girl, who has a deep crush on a boy from school, who is out of her league and they will never be together, again

#girlblogging #coquette #lana del rey #girlblogger #female hysteria #lizzy grant #2014 tumblr #nostalgia #bpd mood #bpd meme #i want to be 14 again #i wish i was dead #pls help #this is depressing #depressing shit #borderline thoughts

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wrylu · 2 months

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idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

#1. impulsive silly thoughts #2. STOP FORGETTING TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!1 please :3 (note for myself me myself and i)#3. i get sad 🥱#4. tired #(tumblr deleted half of my tags. isnt that nice though you wont have to listen to my essay of vents nobody wanted to hear that)#vent art #wrylu #lu's canvas #negative thoughts below :) have some flowers 💐#sometimes i feel like i should get up more and spend time with my family i miss how it used to be #but you know what i suck and im practically glued to my chair and im lazy like if i was one of the 7 deadly sins i would be sloth #im surprised im not dead yet #this is purely for myself to speak my poor mind #no i actually hate this #i wanna die #i wish i was dead #not really #but still #i wish time just stopped so i can re evaluate my life #and whoa damn dysphoria makes an appearance ever #i wish i had a schlong (funny)#this is awful #sometimes i feel manipulative like i switch my emotions and personalities so hard #am i manipulating you guys??#i feel like im being sad for attention #ugh i hate that the internet is my comfort #thats bad isnt it #i feel like an attention seeker #why am i even writing this 🥱🥱#i cant wait to fall asleep forever

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ihatewhoiam6 · 12 days

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I hate my life. I'm just a fuck up to everyone.

Life would be easier if I was gone

#tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #vent #bpd vent #i hate it here #i wish i was dead #sorry for being depressing

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