#me writing angst: dont worry this is gonna hurt me more then it will hurt you asdfdfgs

[hatchetsfield]

@hatchetswung ➽ ❝ are you hurt? did they hurt you? ❞ - Lex @ Hannah

𐃈 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚𝐡’𝐬  𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭  𝐡𝐚𝐬  𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧  𝐡𝐨𝐰  𝐭𝐨  𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐩  𝐢𝐧  𝐚  𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐥  𝐜𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞,  𝐚𝐧𝐝  𝐬𝐡𝐞’𝐬  𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧  𝐢𝐟  𝐢𝐭  𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥  𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫  𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫  𝐡𝐨𝐰  𝐭𝐨  𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧.  that  her  body  will  be  stuck  in  this  constant  of  flight  or  fight,  𝙣𝙤  𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧  𝙝𝙪𝙢𝙖𝙣  𝙗𝙪𝙩  𝙖  𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙙  𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙮  𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙡  𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜  𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮  𝙙𝙧𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙣  𝙩𝙤  𝙩𝙝𝙚  𝙗𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙠  𝙤𝙛  𝙚𝙭𝙝𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣  𝙖𝙣𝙙  𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙮.  hannah’s  eyes,  wide  and  tearful,  tear  away  from  the  possible  threats  that  surrounded  them.  she  knew  that  it  was  at  least  safe  enough  to  take  her  gaze  off  of  them.  for  it  meant  looking  into  lexie’s  own,  and  lexie  would  never  let  anything  harm  her.  

that  was  perhaps  the  only  constant  hannah  had,  the  only  thing  she  knew  was  unequivocally  true.  𝗶𝘁’𝘀  𝘂𝗻𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗶𝘃𝗼𝗰𝗮𝗹𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀  𝘄𝗮𝘀  𝘁𝗵𝗲  𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮𝗵  𝘄𝗮𝘀  𝗰𝗲𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻  𝘄𝗮𝘀  𝘂𝗻𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗶𝘃𝗼𝗰𝗮𝗹.  there  were  other  statements  and  beliefs  that  paraded  themselves  under  the  guise  of  unequivocalness  .  .  .  .  like  how  all  mothers  loved  their  children  unconditionally,  and  how lightning  never  strikes  the  same  place  twice,  and  how the  hat  ethan  gave  her  is  magic  that  will  protect  her  .  .  .

but  fact  always  managed  to  find  those  who  paraded  themselves  as  being  identical  𝚊𝚗𝚍  𝚛𝚒𝚙  𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛  𝚞𝚗𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚟𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕  𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚎-𝚝𝚊𝚐  from  off  their  puffed  out  chests.  

mama’s  were  supposed  to  love  their  children  unconditionally,  but  their  mama  didn’t  even  love  them  on  condition.  lightning  was  never  supposed  to  be  able  to  strike  the  same  place  twice,  but  hannah  just learned  in  school  how  the  empire  state  building  is  struck  more  than  one  hundred  times  per  year.  ethan  said  that  if  she  wore  the  magic  hat  nothing  would  hurt  her,  𝗯𝘂𝘁  𝗶𝘁  𝘄𝗮𝘀  𝗽𝗹𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗲𝗱  𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺  𝗵𝗲𝗿  𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱  𝗮𝘀  𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗹𝘆  𝗮𝘀  𝗮  𝗽𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗹  𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗼𝗳𝗳  𝗮  𝘄𝗶𝗹𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗳𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗿,  and  had  been  done  so  by  one  who  intends  the  greatest  of  harm.  

but  truth  has  yet  to  be  able  to  pry  the  unequivocal  name-tag  from  off  the  belief  that  lexie  would  never  let  anything  harm  her.  

as  far  back  as  hannah  can  remember,  lexie  always  protected  her.  𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞  𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞  𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭  𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬  𝐨𝐟  𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧,  𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚𝐡’𝐬  𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞  𝐭𝐨  𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧.  she  was  taught  that  by  lex,  who protected  her  not  just  in  the  physical  sense,  like  how  she’d  push  hannah’s  playground  bullies  into  the  wood  chips  whenever  she  saw  them  trying  to  mess  with  her.  (  it  was  always  lex  who  took  her  to  the  park,  never  their  mother  )  but  in  every  other  sense  of  the  word  —  like  how  she  always  knew  the  perfect  number  to  turn  the  tv  volume  on  to  drone  out  their  mothers  cruel  words,  or  how she'd always  insist  that  hannah  finish  lex’s  plate  because  lex  ‘got  full  easily’.

(  that  wasn’t  unequivocal,  of  this  hannah  knew  —  truth  stripped  that  one  of  its  name  tags  in  the  way  she  could  hear  lexie’s  stomach  growl  in  protest  )  

truth’s  hands  had  reached  for  that  name-tag  today,  but  just  as  they  managed  to  get  their  fingers  around  it,  they  were  just  as  quickly  yanked  away  by  lex  barging  through  the  door  with  seemingly  nothing  but  a  wiggly  doll  and  her  anger.  𝗶𝘁𝘀  𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘀  𝗹𝗲𝘁  𝗴𝗼  𝗼𝗳  𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁  𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲  𝘁𝗮𝗴  𝗮𝘀  𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗰𝗸𝗹𝘆  𝗮𝘀  𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘀𝗲  𝗼𝗳  𝘁𝗵𝗲  𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗵𝗺𝗮𝗻  𝗱𝗶𝗱  𝗵𝗲𝗿,  and  hannah  had  wasted  no  time  in  rushing  into  lex’s  awaiting  arms,  where  she  still  remained  as  lex  asked  if  she  was  hurt.  

𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚊𝚑  𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚜  𝚑𝚎𝚛  𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍  𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝  𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚜  𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝  𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚝  𝚑𝚎𝚛  𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍  𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜  𝚠𝚊𝚢  𝚊𝚗𝚍  𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝  𝚝𝚘  𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚌𝚔  𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢  𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚕𝚎  𝚏𝚘𝚛  𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚎  𝚒𝚗𝚓𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜.  ❝  not  hurt  .  .  .  scared.  ❞  she  admits  before  startling  as  she  hears  mr.  houston’s  voice.  at  the  command  of  her  fear,  hannah  presses  as  closely  into  lex  as  she  possibly  can,  burrowing  her  face  in  the  material  of  her  jacket  and  gripping  onto  her  𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵  𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱𝘀  𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁  𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗸𝗲  𝗮𝘀  𝗵𝗮𝗿𝘀𝗵𝗹𝘆  𝗮𝘀  𝗵𝗲𝗿  𝘃𝗼𝗶𝗰𝗲  𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀;  ❝  bad  .  .  .  not  mr. houston,  not  ms. becky,  not  ethan  .  .  .  ❞  

her  knuckles  turn  white  from  the  force  of  the  grip  she  holds  on  her  sister,  and  for  a  moment  hannah  wonders  if  her  hands  will  get  stuck  this  way  forever  —  the  way  lexie  always  teased  her  sour  faces  would.  𝙗𝙪𝙩  𝙩𝙝𝙚  𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩  𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣’𝙩  𝙙𝙚𝙩𝙚𝙧  𝙝𝙚𝙧  𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙨  𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢  𝙛𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧  𝙩𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜  𝙝𝙚𝙧  𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙥  𝙖𝙨  𝙨𝙝𝙚  𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨  𝙖  𝙣𝙚𝙬  𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙖  𝙞𝙣  𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙘𝙚  𝙤𝙛  𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩  𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝  𝙨𝙝𝙚  𝙝𝙖𝙙  𝙛𝙤𝙧  𝙝𝙚𝙧〝  𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙘  〞𝙝𝙖𝙩; 

❝  𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐞’𝐬  𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞,  𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐜𝐚𝐧  𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭  𝐦𝐞  .  .  .  ❞

#me writing angst: dont worry this is gonna hurt me more then it will hurt you asdfdfgs #sorry not sorry #im evil like that #>:) #🎶 𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐬𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐭🪓 𝓗.𝓕. ・❥✐ ᵃⁿˢʷᵉʳᵉᵈ.

[imperfection-in-one-human]

The odd one.

Tav x Everyone

Warnings: depressions ; self harming behaviour ; bad english ; bad written lol ; im not good at writing endings ngl ; self doubts ; thoughts about suicide and even mentions ; descriptions of wounds ; teeny tiny bit of fluff ; drama ; angst ; idk poly relationship?

Note: hello everyone who thinks this is gonna be good lol. Its just a little drabble i really wanted to write but thats like my first fic/drabble ever so please be kind :') still i hope you enjoy that small thingy. Also i used they/them as tavs pronouns and theres no specific description to their look. Also there might be typos etc. English is not my native language!

If someone has to describe tav than they would probably take the word "odd". Odd because they were so clumsy that it was nothing new when they tripped over their own feet or stumble right into a trap, indicators where most started to think that they're absolutely not capable of fighting or at least not being good at it. Most would think that they're just gonna stumble into sword, or spells, and call it a day. But, much to everyones suprises, it wasnt like that. Tav was rather good at slaying things, beheading goblins or punch someone so hard that they're loosing foot - they were even good at taking hits until their nose run bloody and their lips were chapped, even bruised. The description of "odd' was perfect for them and still, it seems that there were even more things about them that made them so weird. Not only had they a habit of not treating their wounds probably, no, they also tried to downplay them and saying that they are not as bad as you think it is. Even when shadowheart tried to heal a claffing wound on their arm they just tried to get away from her healing spell - something about "dont waste it in me shadowheart, keep it until someone really needs it. Wyll got wounded too". It was weird but no one really questioned it, they shoved it onto the fact that tav was indeed a very selfless person. Always trying to do something good or even trying to give most of their being to people so that they didnt have to suffer - may it be a healing potion, a weapon or even the safe space behind a wall. Tav would always give up things like that, taking hits for every companion they got ans smile at them afterwards with reassuring words because "it doesnt hurt that much! Dont you worry!"

It was only time later when they found out the truth and its all because of that artist. Someone who they thought they're never gonna see ever again but here he was with a ghost in front of him and said ghost was just so mad at him that everyone was ready again to fight but instead they got to hear the whole story and when the ghost said why she was dead tavs eyes got dull for a second.

A second where it felt as if the ocean crashed right onto them, waves of unspoken sadness and a hidden longing no one wanted a admit, tidal waves who threaten to consume every last single bit of them, swallowing them whole and keeping them right into their embrace. It was as if someone spoke the right words for a curse to be lifted, a lingering curse everyone knew that it existed but no one wanted to admit. It was only then where everyone kind of knew why tav did things the way they did, why they never quite let their wounds heal or reopening them again in a battle. Why they never quite cared enough about themself to even try to heal anything about them. Why they never really took onto the pretty words everyone said to them in and out of camp, why they shied away from any ounce of love even though every single one loved them with such a burning passion that it would burn them and they would happily accept it. They would love to crumble under that heat and still they never really got it, of course they exchanged small little affecrionate gestures like hugs, cuddles or kisses on the cheek but it never seemed to go further than that. They knew that their tav was in shatters and pieces, still they tried to but them back together.. it just seemed that they never quite made it. As if it they were million miles away even though tav was right infront of them. Still that didnt stopped any of them to express their love for their leader, there was still hope that one day they would get into that broken little heart. Maybe they just needed time? Maybe love wouldnt heal them completely?

Maybe everything came into a full picture right here and then even though it was just a small second. After that incident everyone went back to camp where the inevitable came - all of them wanted to know what was going on but no one really dared to ask. It was such a delicate topic, they were scared that their beloved leader would built up even more walls, what they didnt know was the fact how much tavs heart ached - how much they yearned for the love they could have and even the relationship what was right infront of them. The only thing holding them back was fear. Fear that every single of them would see them as they see themself. That they would leave them with their heart in their hands and crush it like fallen leaves from a tree. They were so love and touched starved sometimes it felt like they were going crazy! They wanted all of this to be real and still there was a small voice in their heads telling them that they deserved none of this, that they are not important enough that someone would even care when they were gone. Just died in a battle or got swept away from the absolute. That all of them just love them because they were travelling together and as soon as the journey ends they going seperate ways. Astarion would live the life he wanted, karlach would get her own small home again, laezel fullfilling her wish of ascending, wyll roaming the coast, gale going back to tara and his tower, shadowheart living with her parents and halsin going back into the shadowlands so he can be with his old and beloved friend. That sounded real. That sounded like it would happen and not their little dream of living with them until death itselfs collects them. Still.. they dreamed about that little fantasy everyday, selfishly wanting that and nothing more. Just living in peace with every person they love.. then why does their heart hurt so much as soon as they're showing love for them? Is it too good to be true? Were they scared? Probably everything of the above.

So they really needed to talk to them all of them. And they're gonna do that, letting all of them into that broken heart of theirs and allowing themself to be happy?

... maybe if they let a little bit of sunshine into their pierced heart they may allow themself to dream a little longer with the. To accept the love they wanted to give. Maybe it wasnt such a bad wish after all?

#bg3 #bg3 tav #bg3 astarion #bg3 gale #bg3 lae'zel #bg3 halsin #bg3 shadowheart #bg3 karlach #bg3 wyll #bg3 reader #bg3 x reader #bg3 x tav #astarion x reader #gale x reader #lae'zel x reader #shadowheart x reader #karlach x reader #halsin x reader #wyll x reader #astarion x tav #gale x tav #shadowheart x tav #karlach x tav #lae'zel x tav #halsin x tav #wyll x tav #baldurs gate 3

[iciatheguardess]

Hiiii it’s meeee elsie

conflicted Elsie

Look, you know as well as I do that I love TAOCC to freaking death

but like

I may have to partially step away from it after the current arcs are over.

these goofy goobers took over my life for the last three-ish months, and while I’ve had an amazing time, it’s…caused me to neglect other parts of my life, and restrict myself more than I should when it comes to how I am on this site. I’ve stated my intention to try and branch out multiple times but I never go through with it because I just…I have things to write here! I can’t! And yeah it’s fun but sometimes I get hurt even if people don’t mean to, like, I’ve gotten legitimately ill from this once or twice.

But I feel like even trying to step away a bit is somehow abandoning all of you or betraying your trusts. I want to stay friends with you guys, but my actual life and Irlsie has to come first most of the time, because I am not JUST Elsie, if that makes any sense. Elsewhere is and was always meant to be a sona for some interaction, maybe some friendos, but nothing this…involved, because I can’t put all of my social effort onto the internet because no matter what I do, the internet is not a completely genuine place, and I’ve accepted that. There are some parts of my personality I just don’t use. You don’t really ever see calm Elsie or mental illness Elsie or sappy Elsie, maybe once or twice, and that’s intentional. This is Writing Elsie’s blog, lol, but there’s other Elsie that needs to be allowed to exist outside of the internet, and I can’t neglect her or my actual life for the sake of this.

I honestly don’t know what to do here. I love these characters on a very personal level, and have poured my heart into them, and I don’t want to straight up leave them. Even only partially separating myself seems kinda pointless because I know what happens when someone gets really behind on the lore and has to be caught up on even just a day’s events to explain why Character A looks like this now or Character B is referencing this event, etc. etc.

But there’s a point where it’s not healthy anymore. Where things reach a place where I have to admit that this can’t be my entire life anymore. And I’m not entirely sure what on earth I should do about it…

If I do somewhat step back, it’ll probably be right after the vacation arc ends. i’m gonna pour my fluff loving heart and soul into that thing, don’t you worry. But you shouldn’t expect another dungeon or something like that from me unless I have a VERY good reason and a well formulated plan. Yes, I’ll probably still engage in shippery and fluff, as well as analysis, but mostly within the bounds of characters and dynamics we’ve already established, and not much farther than that. My one exception to the “after the vacation arc” rule would probably be Yelena’s arc, because of how long things in that section tend to take, for various reasons. Yelena’s arc is barely started, and stuff takes possibly days to move even a few hours in-universe. Sooooo….yeah, I wanna finish that, I’ve put too much work into it already to just stop it.

…dang this was only supposed to be a paragraph…

…pls halp, I have no idea what to do lol.

Ok. I've read over this a couple times.

First off, I'm talking to you as L here, and not Star. I am very, very proud of you for acknowledging this and understanding that this is getting unhealthy. I think it's very smart that you dont want to neglect your yourself irl and the fact you're saying this, and saying exactly what you'll be doing, I'm really proud of it.

To give you a clear answer, if it's going to help you irl then I think stepping back is smart. Especially from the trauma and angst, because that stuff hurts a LOT and it can be really, really detrimental and negatively affect irl things. What I DONT think is that it's betraying anyone. You need to be able to put yourself and your needs first in order to be your best self, and everyone understands that you can't be on tumblr 24/7 because, well, that's really really really really unhealthy and not good. I'm really glad you're telling me about this though so I, and everyone else who sees this, knows.

TAOCC is really great but there's a LOT of heavy things on here and with everything going on, it can be super weighing and really affect people irl. I can speak from experience because honestly, I'm in a similar situation. I won't speak much about that though. It's definitely addictive and can get really really unhealthy if you let it, and honestly it's not hard to let it.

I want you to do whatever you feel is best for you, no matter what that entails. Fei and Tails and Xeya and Kumo and so many others and I love you so much and do NOT want you neglecting yourself and your life irl for this- it's meant to be entertainment, not a lifestyle.

I think it's smart to finish Yelena's Arc before partially stepping back. And I think it's even smarter to not want to do another dungeon, because that whole thing was a massive angst-fest and I think it negatively affected people more than they care to admit. Shippery and fluff and minor things is a good boundary.

I'll wrap this up now, but again, I'm in full support of this decision because I want you to be at your best. You're right, you're not just Elsie. And it's not fair for you to only be Elsie when you're so much more than that. If stepping away from tumblr will help you take care of the other parts of your life that we aren't involved in or aware of, then please do so because no part of you and your life should be sacrificed for the sake of entertainment.

Again, I'm really, really proud of you for admitting this.

Please know we'll always support you and you're super important to all of us, so don't ever feel bad for putting your needs first. Irl things should always come first.

But no matter what always remember:

WE LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH AND YOURE SUPER IMPORTANT AND WE WANT THE BEST FOR YOUUU ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Everything I said is applicable for everyone else reading this too. Taocc is fantastic and we love it but it shouldn't completely take over your life. It's okay to take a break or step back fully if it means the best for your health and irl life. Please remember to take care of yourselves- and everything that Elsie talked about here is FANTASTIC self care. It may be hard, but it's also the best decision she can make for herself and may be the best decision for others too.

Alright- I think I covered everything. Don't ever feel like you're betraying us Elsie- it's not betrayal, it's self care. We'll still be here for you, always. Never forget that ❤️❤️❤️

#iceanswers #modstar

[whatstruthgottodowithit]

Anything Like Me

Fandom: American Actor, RPF

Pairing: Austin Butler x Pregnant Female Reader

Characters: Austin Butler, Female Reader, Original Female Character, Lori Butler, David Butler

Word Count: 1756 // Rating: Teen & Up

Summary:  It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my pay back if he's anything like me

Tags/ Warnings: My Writing, Halloween Challenge, Writing Challenge, Songfics, Pregnant Reader, Dad Austin, Idk Austins Dad Please dont come for me, Parental Loss, Grief, Death of a Parent, Pregnancy, Love, Angst, Fluff, Established Relationship, Childhood, Worry, Divorce, Self Doubt, Insecurities, Child of Divorce, Anything Like Me // Brad Paisley

Notes:  This is part of my writing Challenge for Halloween 2022. All fics are based off of songs I love. The aim is to write one fic a day for 15 days straight. I’m doing a similar thing for Christmas but they will all be headcanons [requests welcome for that] Enjoy x  

Updated 8/23

15 DAYS OF SONGFICS FOR HALLOWEEN (OCT 15TH - OCT 31ST)

‘So,’ the doctor said as she placed cold gel on my stomach, ‘halfway there now. Are you excited?’ ‘Definitely,’ Austin answered from beside me. He was sitting on a stool, his hand interlaced with mine as I lay on the examination table ready for my twenty-week ultrasound. I looked at him, watching as his eyes lit up as he looked at the doctor, already a proud father. ‘And what about mom?’ she said as she started fiddling around with the ultrasound machine.  ‘Yeah,’ I said, ‘though my backs already hurting so I’m not looking forward to being any bigger.’ ‘I’ve told her she needs to take it easy,’ Austin said, rolling his eyes. ‘I am!’ I protested. ‘Yeah, which is why I found you painting the baby’s room at 3 am,’ he chuckled. ‘I couldn’t sleep,’ I defended,  looking at the doctor as I explained, ‘heartburn.’ ‘A mother’s curse,’ the doctor chuckled, ‘I can prescribe you some antacids that should help. But he’s right, you should be taking it easy.’ ‘Okay, okay,’ I said, ‘I didn’t know it was gang up on the pregnant lady day.’ ‘Well how about we stop all that and have a look at the baby,’ the doctor said. She swivelled the screen around so we could see.

The sonograph came on the screen and I took in every inch of it. The baby looked different from our last scan. Our last one had been very early in my pregnancy and due to Austin’s work schedule, we hadn’t managed to get back here. The baby had been a tiny thing with a big head, little arms and a hint of a tail. Now it looked like a baby, albeit tiny. A lump formed in my throat as I watched it moving on the screen and when I looked at Austin there were tears in his eyes.

‘And here's the baby's heartbeat,’ she said, clicking a button so a fluttering thump echoed around the room.  ‘Woah,’ Austin said softly as he held my hand underneath his chin.  ‘So,’ the doctor said, knocking the sound off. Austin pulled back but kept hold of my hand, ‘baby seems happy and healthy. Mom's blood work and measurements seem on target. Would you like to know the sex?’ ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘No,’ Austin said simultaneously. We looked at each other in shock.  ‘You don’t want to find out?’ I said quietly, we hadn’t spoken about it beforehand. We’d shared our ideas on names but hadn’t landed on anything so I just figured that we’d find out at this scan and then decide from there. ‘No,’ he said, ‘I wanted it to be a surprise.’ ‘Babe this whole pregnancy was a surprise,’ I giggled. ‘I know, I guess I just like the wonder of not knowing,’ he said. My eyes searched his pensive face. There was something more to it I could tell but I didn’t exactly want to get into whatever it was in front of my OBGYN. ‘If you want I can write it down and you can take it away. That way you can look at it anytime you want,’ she said. ‘No,’ Austin replied quietly, ‘it’s okay. Hit us with it.’

The doctor turned back to the screen and hit a few buttons so the image remained still. Then with a dainty finger, she pointed at a little bump. I squinted trying to determine what it was but she said, ‘you see that thing right there?’ ‘Yeah,’ we nodded. ‘That means you’re having a boy,’ she said. The lump in my throat returned. A boy. A little Austin. I could picture him now in my mind. A cheeky little thing with blonde hair and crystal blue eyes. 

I was already in love but as I looked at Austin he didn’t seem to be in the same headspace. He caught my gaze and smiled weakly. I squoze his hand and he kissed my fingers but said nothing. My mind whirred at whatever was the matter with him but I decided it would have to wait.

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Austin was quiet on the way home from the hospital and I had decided to let him have some space. To let him think. But that was hours ago. Since then I had done two loads of laundry, ordered a ton of baby stuff and just finished putting dinner in the oven. As I placed the oven mitts on the side I wandered around downstairs and discovered Austin was nowhere to be found. 

So I trudged upstairs and found him sitting on our bed with a box of keepsakes in front of him, the contents of which were spread out around him. I lingered by the door frame watching him for a moment before he noticed me. He looked up at me with a small smile.

‘Hey,’ I said as I padded into the room. I put my hand on his cheek and he kissed it scooching over so I could sit next to him on the bed. ‘Hi,’ he mumbled.  ‘You okay?’ I asked. ‘Fine,’ he said. I looked at him and quirked an eyebrow.  ‘Are you sure?’ I said, ‘cos you’ve been awfully quiet.’ Austin sighed and leaned back against the headboard pulling me with him. I fell against him and tucked myself into his grasp as he moved my hair off my face. ‘I guess I’ve just been a little bothered,’ he said quietly. ‘About the baby?’ I asked, feeling him nod against me, ‘what is it?’ ‘I don’t know,’ he murmured, ‘I guess I never really thought about having a boy.’ I pulled back from him, my eyes searching his face as my brows knitted together, ‘what?‘ ‘I know, I know,’ he said, ‘it’s stupid.’ ‘No, it’s just you gotta have realised it was fifty/fifty shot,’ I giggled leaning back into him. He smirked and nodded as I traced my fingers over the back of his hand which was gripping my waist.  ‘I did,’ he said quietly, ‘I guess it just worries me.’ ‘What does?’ ‘Having a boy.’ ‘A baby’s a baby,’ I said. ‘I know I know,’ he sighed, moving so he could look at me, ‘I guess I just thought that with a girl at least you’d know what to do. I guess with a boy I feel like I should know what to do. How to lead, you know.’ ‘That’s silly,’ I said, ‘boy or girl we’re not going to be prepared.’ ‘I guess,’ he said, ‘it’s just…’ ‘Just?’  ‘I guess I’m worried he’s gonna be exactly like me,’ he said.

I pulled up a little and peered up at his face, my mouth agape. The idea of him being a mini Austin had been a wonderful one to me. 

‘Aus, you’re the best man I know,’ I baulked. He rolled his eyes, ‘yeah but I was a handful.’  ‘I’m sure you were,’ I giggled.  ‘I don’t think there was a summer where I didn't have something in a cast,’ he said. He fumbled around on the bed, producing a photo of him proudly showing off his casted arm. ‘Kids break their arms Aus,’ I said. ‘It’s not just that. When my parents split up I was a nightmare. I got into fights, I pretended to be ill to get out of school,’ he said. ‘That’s all normal kid stuff,’ I said but he shook his head. ‘I guess. It just worries me…because I was so close to my mom…but not my dad. I guess I don’t know what to do because I’ve never had that sort of relationship you know?’ he said. I nodded as he continued, ‘when they split up I was so angry. I refused to play football like my dad wanted me to even though I knew it wasn’t his fault. But I was so mad at him. And I put on my mom a lot but she seemed to know what to do. My dad had no idea where to start. And that made me angrier. I was his son and he just ignored me hoping the problem would sort itself out. Then I just acted out more. Staying out too late, dropping out of school against his wishes for acting. I put my mom through the wringer because he didn’t get me.’ ‘Just because your dad was like that doesn’t mean you will be. It doesn’t mean that you won’t know what to do. What you didn’t have you can give our baby. And you’re not expected to do it on your own. I’m here. We’re doing this together,’ I said, placing his hand on my belly as I looked at him. His face fell and he dropped his gaze from mine causing a pit to form in my stomach.

‘What if it’s not?’ he whispered, ‘what if we split up? What if I lose you?’ ‘Aus-‘ ‘Don’t say it won’t happen. I never thought I’d lose my mom but I did,’ he whispered. I sighed as I felt tears in my eyes. I tucked myself into him so I could hide my face from his gaze, allowing him to cuddle me tightly, his lips on my forehead. He kissed it gently.  ‘I can’t promise that. No one can,’ I said quietly after a moment, ‘but your mom didn’t want to leave you. They didn’t want to get divorced. No one does. But we don’t have control over everything. But we can choose to react differently. Better. We can support our kid just like your mom supported you. Be the parents we needed when we were younger. Okay?’ ‘Okay,’ he mumbled, kissing me again. ‘Even if he puts us through hell. If we have countless sleepless nights. We’re going to keep going. Because one day he’ll be grown up, sitting on his bed looking through memories and pictures worrying about if he’s gonna be a good dad,’ I said. ‘I bet you’re right,’ he said. ‘I always am,’ I chuckled. ‘I’ll remember that,’ he smirked into my hair. ‘You should. And I for one am ecstatic to have another little you running about,’ I chuckled. ‘Yeah?’ he said. ‘Oh definitely,’ I said, ‘blonde hair, blue-eyed and a cheeky smile.’ ‘That's what you think about me as a kid?’ he chuckled. ‘Am I wrong?’ ‘No,’ he said, ‘but I’m sure you were just as cheeky.’ ‘Oh honey,’ I whispered, ‘if you were worried about having a boy let me tell you. A girl like me is no walk in the park.’

‘Don't I know it,’ he chuckled.

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austinfan67 they’re so cute 🥰

austinbutler @yourinstagamname boys club no girls allowed sorry

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elvispresarchive I love this!

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[herofics]

Hii, idk if you take emergency requests, so I apologize in advance if you dont, but i was wondereing if you could please write a hurt/angst/confort oneshot in which Present mic or midnight (or both) walks into their niece room (Aizawa's daughter) and find her attempting suicide. And they they have to tell Aizawa about it?

Thanksss, love ya ✨️

A/N: There’s been a lot of Aizawa lately, but I don’t mind. I consider requests like this to be a priority, so I wrote it as soon as I could. I’m sorry if this is kinda OOC, I haven’t watched the anime in ages, but I tried to do it as well as I could. I still have two more Aizawa requests that are just WIPs at this point, but those are probably gonna take a while, because I wanna write other stuff too. I picked Midnight for this, since I don’t really ever write about her. If you want more of these kinds of things, check out the masterlist in the pinned post

You were sitting on your bed, a pile of pills in your hand, when there was a knock on your bedroom door. You scrambled to hide the pills under your pillow, but a few of them fell on the floor next to the bed.

“Hey sweetie, how are you doing?”

“I’m fine, Auntie Kayama. What are you doing here?” you said as nonchalantly as you could.

“Your dad sent me to check in on you, since he’s gonna be late again tonight” Kayama said.

“No offense but why does he suddenly think I need a babysitter?”

“He’s worried about you… we all are” Kayama said, as she sat down on the chair that was by your school desk.

“You really don’t need to be, I’m fine” you said, looking down at your feet, now noticing the fallen pills.

Kayama followed your gaze down to the floor, now also taking note of the few tablets that were laying on the floor.

“What’s this?” she asked, leaning down and picking up one of the pills.

“Oh, I must have dropped it while taking my meds earlier” you shrugged, evading direct eye contact with her.

“Honey, I know a lie when I hear one” Kayama looked at you compassionately.

You sighed in defeat and lifted the pillow to reveal the pile of pills. You weren’t even sure why you did that, maybe you just wanted her to talk you out of it.

Kayama had heard about what was going on with you from Aizawa. You’d been hurting yourself and acting in a self-destructive manner otherwise too, so your father had been worried about you. They’d agreed that you might have an easier time talking to Kayama, since you’d been so distant with your father lately. She never would have thought her timing would be this on point though.

“Oh sweetie” Kayama said, and moved to sit next to you on the edge of the bed. “Come here” she continued as she opened her arms to hug you.

You leaned against her and let her wrap her arms around you.

“Do you want to talk about it?” she asked as she rubbed your upper arm.

“Honestly, I don’t really know. I just don’t want to bother anyone, I’m enough of a burden already”

“You’re not a burden honey, and you’re not bothering your dad, or me, by talking to us. You can call me anytime if you need someone to talk to, I’d much rather you call me at three in the morning than you hurt yourself” she smiled sympathetically.

Kayama talked with you for a while, and you cleaned the pills off the bed before turning in for the night. She sat in the kitchen with a cup of tea until Aizawa came back. She’d barely drunk any of it, she just sat there, thinking, with the warm cup in her hands. She’d known you since you were just a baby, and you were like family to her. How did it end up like this? She knew Aizawa was a wonderful father, even if a very busy one. Kayama snapped out of her thoughts when she heard the front door open and close.

“Hi” she greeted Aizawa quietly as he walked into the kitchen.

“So, how did it go?” Aizawa whispered as he sat down on one of the kitchen chairs, opposite of Kayama.

“We talked, they definitely need some help, and I don’t know if we’re enough. They were considering trying to kill themself and I’m pretty sure they would have attempted it if I didn’t happen to come by, but I think it’s safe for now. At least I really hope so”

“I knew they were having a really hard time lately, but I was hoping it hadn’t gone this far” Aizawa sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.

It’s not like he was angry with you, he was just extremely worried about you. No parent wants their child to be in pain. It was his job you keep you safe, but how could he when the danger was your own brain? He would just have to be patient, walk alongside you wherever you were going to go, and help you pick up the pieces when you were ready. There was nothing he wanted more than for you to be happy and healthy.

“What am I going to do Kayama? How do I talk to them about this?” Aizawa asked.

“I think it’s best to just be honest. Tell them you’re worried and that you love them. They were worried about being a burden, especially to you”

“I wish they didn’t think that, they’re not a burden, they’re my kid” Aizawa sighed.

This was his first time raising a kid, at least one of his own. He had seen all kinds of teenagers pass through his class, so knew it wasn’t going to be a walk in the park. There was not a single parent on the planet that knew everything their kid was up to, but he just wished he had intervened earlier, maybe he could have stopped things from snowballing to this extent.

“It’s going to be okay, Aizawa. I know things are not going to change overnight, but with a dad like you, I’m sure they’re going to make it through this” Kayama said.

“Thank you, Kayama” Aizawa smiled tiredly.

“I need to head home now, just keep an eye on them and talk to them, but most importantly, listen” she emphasized the last word.

“Good night, get home safe” Aizawa said, hugging his friend goodbye.

“Take care” she waved as she walked out into the night.

Kayama was like family to Aizawa and to you as well, and he was just glad you’d been able to open up to her. He just hoped it would give you the motivation to start talking to him as well. It’s not that you didn’t talk, maybe he just didn’t know how to ask the right questions, but he certainly wanted to learn. For you, he was willing to do anything, for you, his only child he would go to hell and back, especially so you wouldn’t have to.

#bnha #mha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #aizawa shouta #nemuri kayama #eraserhead #midnight #bnha scenarios #mha scenarios #mha angst #bnha angst #comfort #mha x reader #bnha x reader #bnha fanfiction #mha fanfiction #suicidal tw

[scuderiahoney]

I FINISHED READING PART 5!! Here are my thoughts:

1) long live the lestappen agenda

2) OSCAR AND BUNNY WAVING GOOD BYE FROM THE PLANE?? so cute. Also why are 6 people takinh carry ons😭😭 they could just check them in make their life easier 😭

3) oscar went to grocery shopping only because bunny was going. If she wasn't he would also have an headache like lando he's like bunny's littl shadow 😭😭😭

4)I want to sneak out and kiss on the beach fuck off. I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE HOW THE BOYS REACT TO THEIR RELATIONSHIP. I just know they have a betting pool

5) it hurts so much when your senior friends graduate and you dont know if you're going to see them again or even be in touch with them no i dont wanna leave my juniors when i graduate stoppp

6) bunny and oscar help eachother heal im crying🥹🥹

7) LEE I WAS SHIT SCARED THAT WHY ARE YOU GONNA RUIN SPRING BREAK FOR THEM AND NOW YOU GIVE ME THIS FLUFFY ASS CHAPTER AND IM EVEN MORE SCARED FOR THE NEXT ONE (my heart's already broken baby go on twist the knife 😔✊)

-😴

hiiii bb!!

1) lestappen my beloved

2) lolll this is a little of my personal life sneaking in! they took carry ons bc i have never checked a bag so i didn’t really think ab it!! in universe we’ll say they took carry ons bc they are on college student budgets

3) i agree i agree

4) sneaking off to kiss on a beach is the DREAM

5) i knowwwwww 😢

6) I knowwwwww 🥲

7) YOU WERE TALKING TO ME ABOUT POTENTIAL ANGST & I WAS SITTING HERE WRITING AB THEIR FIRST KISS YOU HAD NOTHING TO BE WORRIED AB

as for the next part… we will see….

#box box #anon #😴 anon

[sapphickorro]

hi!!! i liked your writing and i was wondering if you could write a Carol x reader where carol is late for a christmas party and tries to make it up to reader? fluff and maybe smut pls! ty!

Pairing(s) - Carol Danvers x Reader

summary: Carol comes home for a Christmas Eve party a little too late.

warnings: angst with comfort :) , use of petname “princess”

word count: 947

A/N: I was gonna write a smut butttt…..I think you guys should get a smut from me on Christmas as a gift <3. dont mind the shitty quality pics!!

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The party nears an end as Nick, Monica, and the two Maria’s sit on the floor by the fireplace playing Uno. You’re in the kitchen away from the commotion, watching out the window lost in your thoughts. 

You feel a tug on the sleeve of your oversized sweater, you look down and see Monica looking up at you. “Are you waiting for Auntie Carol?” She softly asks.

“Yeah, kiddo.” You lightly smile down at her. You place your mug down onto the island and pick her up in your arms. She giggles holding onto you tightly. “Let’s get you back in the game.” 

The two of you sit back on the carpet floor, watching the heated game between the adults go on. Enjoying each other’s company.

“She might not come home tonight.” Nick states blatantly as he drops a reverse card causing one of the Maria’s to groan. 

“Yeah, I know.” You solemnly respond. “I just thought she would’ve cleared some time in her schedule to visit us again.” 

“Don’t be sad Y/N/N.” The kid cuddled in your arms says to you. 

“Don’t worry, I’ll be alright. I just need some time outside.” You drop Monica down onto the floor as you stand up stepping out onto the front porch. You take a seat on one of the steps, pulling your sleeves over your fingers. The cool late night air washes over your face causing you to huddle into yourself. 

You wonder if Carol’s on one of the stars that litter the sky during this time of night. Imaging that she probably just got lost on one of the planets instead of forgetting her promise that she’d be back for Christmas. Tears build up in your eyes, you knew what getting into a long distance relationship would cost. You willingly put your heart out for a person that you’d only see once in a while, your love for her tearing down any regrets of getting together. 

Yet, why did it hurt so much every time you woke up on your bed alone again. Gripping onto her pillow imaging it was her instead of the white cloth that smelled of her shampoo.

You get placed out of your trance as you see a star flying down towards you. Your star. Your star that consisted of blonde hair and red and blue attire. It was Carol. 

You stand up on the ledge of the steps watching her land softly down onto the ground. She slowly walks towards you, a box of chocolates in one hand and a bouquet of flowers in her other. 

“Hey princess, sorry to keep you waiting.” She looks into your eyes, guilt written all over them knowing that she had missed another important event to you. 

“Carol, do you know what time it is?” You look away from her. She slowly sets down the flowers and chocolates by the fence railing as she holds your hands, instantly warming them up. “I know love, I know. I said I’d be here and I’m here now.” She speaks softly to you, not wanting to anger you more.

“Yeah, at least you decided to show up this time. Carol, I let you miss Thanksgiving but I seriously thought that I’d have to wake up on Christmas morning alone.” You pull your hands away from hers. 

“In my defense. I was about to leave the planet I was on, EARLY. I had finished hours ago until the queen of the planet decided to keep me as a personal guard and I told them how I have to make it back onto Earth to go to this really lovely party and see the love of my life again and then chaos ensued and I had to fight them all off. And then, there was this whole political warfare thing-” She catches herself rambling and sighs.

“Look, I’m really sorry. I promised you I’d be here and I couldn’t even get here on time. I really tried and I know you’re upset and disappointed at me. But, can we just enjoy tonight? Christmas is in less than 12 hours and I’d love to do nothing but snuggle in bed with you as we get our matching pjs on while watching those cheesy christmas movies you always watch.” She places a hand on your cheek turning you to look at her and you give in. You could never say no to Carol no matter how upset you were at her. 

For the first time since she landed, you noticed her dirtied suit and bloodied face. Her hair’s a mess and you can’t help but smile at how although she just got out of a big fight she still came with flowers and chocolates, just for you.

You pull her in for a kiss. “Fine, but you might be sleeping on the couch for a while till you learn your lesson.” 

“Aw man, perhaps I could pay you back in another way?” She says grinning, leaning in to kiss you again.

“Auntie Carol!!!” The two of you break away as Monica runs out with her arms open. 

“Monica!” Carol kneels down to embrace Monica’s hug. Picking her up and swinging her around. The three of you giggle as a shadow fills behind you. The other adults stand by the doorway smiling.

“Good to see you made the party.” Rambeau says. “Nick, Rambeau, Hill. Glad to see you guys.” Carol says walking towards them, Monica still in her arms. You pick up the chocolates and flowers, walking back into the house with a smile on your face.

Perhaps tonight wasn’t so bad. The only thing you could’ve wished for came to you. 

#﹔﹒ korro writes﹒ ෆ #carol danvers x reader drabble #korro writes 🎞

[hyunjinspark]

hiii !! i wanted to leave my comments on chap 17 a few days ago but im so stressed w my life i didnt have time to sit down and digest this chapter properly lolz but either way im here now! And my feelings changed .

i think i've mentioned in my last ask that i couldnt get mad at hyunjin. well now i can 😭😭 i think the way you narrated yns feelings really hit home for me - realizing she was currently living her dream life and not being able to feel anything besides pain really got to me. even though hyunjin doesnt realize the amount of hurt he caused, he still managed to ruin (at least for a while) something that is such a huge deal in her life. i do kinda feel sorry for hyunjin too, he seem so clueless about the damage he causes, but its really hard reading how empty yn feels when there are so many good things happening in her life

im so incredibly proud of yn for standing up for herself!!! she really matured a lot, and i think she's starting to respect herself and stand her ground more. i wonder whats gonna happen when she reaches her breaking point w hyunjin tbh.. i hope she does, though. he needs to realize how neglectful hes been w her

also, i really dont know my opinion on jeonghan yet. im not his biggest fan, but i don't really dislike him either. i do think hes maybe a bit to eager to make out w yn at any opportunity he has, but i cant blame him for that LMAO i just dont trust him yet. i hope he doesnt do anything weird.. he's definitely on my watch 👁️

and i think this might be a really hot take, but i dont know how i feel about kairi and bang chan... things could go SO wrong and when it comes to u writing angst.. im really worried ab where this is gonna lead us 😭 honestly idek how i want things to go for them.. ofc i would love if they got back together, but that doesn't really seem possible. u keep getting me hooked on this story jade omg 😭 i srsly have NO idea how this is gonna go and im honestly kinda worried ab finding out..

and also i hope nothing happens between yn and hyunjin in the next chapter🥲 unless they have a srs conversation and hyunjin apologizes.. honestly idek what he could do to make it up to yn at this point. but still, im always rooting for them. and i trust hyunjin's feelings towards yn. and i trust ur ability to turn really tragic storylines into really pretty love stories

but yea ! hoping and praying my good sister yn will not fold in chap 18 🫡 i love her i just want her to be happy and appreciated :((

alsoo right where you left me is my favorite taylor song ever 🥲🥲 the title alone made me flinch before i even started reading the chapter lmao

anywayyysss !! hope u have a lovely lovely day, pretty! im always rooting for u!

🩸

its been a while ! im surprised your feelings changed but that makes sense, yn’s really struggling and hyunjin probably has no clue how much :/ its frustrating, and her breaking point is imminent tbh !!

i think a lot of people share your opinion on jeonghan 👀 it could go either way,,,,and same for kairi and chan 💔

anyway, i love reading your thoughts !! thanks for sending them in. ☺️

#star lost with you #🩸 anon

[barbararomance]

the accident, quackity!

synopsis! "and you know.. damn well, for you i would ruin myself.. a million little times." PAIN, MENTIONS OF KYS, HATE, STAN SLANDER, CC BEING BASHED FOR HAVING AN S/O, BE SAFE READING THIS IT LOWKEY DONT MAKE SENSE BUT ENJOY ILYSM

read me! likes, feedbacks, and especially reblogs are highly appreciated; come talk to me if you wanna repost my writings on other sites please. this is truly fictional, nobody should be harassed just because they love someone - if any of your fav cc ever fall inlove do support them <33 - this is just for the angst lovers and i, barbararomance loves u sm // leave a request here!

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you scrolled through your twitter feed using a private account and admired all the praise your boyfriend, quackity. gets from all his fans, you knew well he deserved each and every words of appreciation and admiration. he was currently lounging close by, possibly preparing for a stream. "hey babe, could you come help me real quick!" he called out and you quickly headed to his direction, you see he was struggling with setting up a few things making you chuckle "you should know this already, you kidding me?" you tease him. quackity pretended to be offended and you both burst into a fit of laughter together. "there you go, don't make a mess and have fun!" you say before sharing a good luck kiss with him. headed back to your phone, you felt uneasy. it was also hearable that your boyfriend was.. panicking? you were gonna head to where he was to check if he was alright but a notification popped up on your phone capturing your attention. it was a bunch of private messages... @/alexsversion: you're dating quackity?? @/mcytenjoyer420: bruh you're too ugly for quackity LEAVE KARLS HUSBAND ALONE @/quackityhqrealgf: hey didn't know i had an impostor @/gaggingondik: leave alex alone he's literally out of your league @/dweamygwoggy: literally kys

this was impossible, the two of you were absolutely careful. you closed your phone, wishing no longer to see the compilation of hurtful words his "fans" were spamming your main account. you headed to him and he was indeed talking to chat, you noticed he was nervously talking about.. you. he was publicly announcing his relationship.. with you.. no. he was so uncomfortable with it, he wasn't ready to show you to the world because he just wanted it to be the you two.. he just wanted you. you pulled up his stream silently while listening to him live, you read the chat and many of them were not too happy.. jealous.. angry.. barely anyone was supportive. @/getkrissedbozo: pls alex we know you don't get bitches @/quackitystan69: NOOOOOOOOO PLS SAY ITS A PRANK @/toofbruhsh: she kinda ugly for you @/karlnapitytruther: YOU CHEATING ON KARL AND SAPNAP WTF "yes i do have a girlfriend.. and i love her very much.." you looked at him heartbroken, it was a very beautiful moment of honesty. you watch him quickly end the stream and fall down on his knees in fear. you rushed to him and held him, you carefully brushed his hair and looked at him with worry.. "you didn't have to do that.. what happened?" you ask in a calm voice.. "i'm sorry y/n.. i accidentally started the stream when i asked for your help.. i panicked.. i told them about you.. i'm sorry.. i really wanted it to be more special.. i'm really sorry it had to be this way.. i'm sorr-" you kissed him to stop his worries. "don't be sorry alex, it's gonna be okay. we'll be okay.." you cooed as your foreheads touched in a loving second. "y/n.. espero que sepas que me arruinaría por ti. un millón de pequeñas veces."

#quackity imagine #quackity x reader #quackity x you #quackity x y/n #quackity angst #barbararomance wrote this!

[yuukei-yikes]

That post str Harutaka angst hurts my heart a little but I do want it

HEH. CONFLICT IS SO FUN OKAY. haruka and takane get along too well i need a little something to have fun with.... also thank u for sending this im totally using it as an excuse to talk about it. i went crazy in this ask sorry

ok. i KNOW forward by winterhats exists...... and thank god it does 🙏in case u havent read it erm read it. thats like harutaka content 101... not to spoil stuff but something about haruka not telling takane abt his condition Does take place in that fic. but the thing with that fic is haruka has no memories.... (post str no memory haruka is a concept i was never a fan of bc it doesnt rly make sense to me?? Still love forward though🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏) SO IM THINKING OF a canon situation with haruka remembering fine yknow...

logically i think takane would be sad rather than angry once finding out. also she'd hear it from shintaro who is the only one who knew, aside from kenjirou but he's x_x post str💔 so shintaro it is. also it's such a shintaro thing to do isnt it?? accidentally mention it to takane or assume she knew and realise he messed up like, way too late. like he already said it like 5 times before he realised takane is asking him to repeat it so many times precisely because SHE DIDN'T KNOW

like i said i think its kinda a fragile thing because God its so sad. how could u even get mad at someone for choosing not to say they're dying. so yeah logically takane Would be mostly sad about both the sad reality haruka was living AND how she wasn't told, because to her it means haruka didnt trust her or maybe felt he couldnt count on her.

im abt to overanalyse: personally from a writing point of view i think the reason haruka doesnt tell takane is because headphone actor was already written and the narrative where takane doesnt know was already there. haruka's 1 year to live thing was written a lot after, with over the dimension. but besides that: from a character standpoint, of course haruka wouldn't tell takane. she is the last person he wants to worry and the one he wants the most happy memories with. and something important about haruka and takane's relationship is the fact neither knows much about each others conditions. in both their povs upon introducing each other to the audience, they both explain their illnesses briefly. they both say "i havent asked much". to me its always been about haruka and takane deeply relating to each other about people feeling sorry for them. so they dont owe each other the explanations theyre so used to giving to others! so to me, haruka doesnt tell takane because 1.he doesnt want her to worry more than she already does 2.he wants to have happy memories of her 3. related to that, doesnt want her to look at him differently. she is the one person who gets it. if he were to come clean abt it, he'd lose it. besides, haruka tells shintaro by the time he's like. LOSING HIS MIND and really deeply depressed abt the situation. kenjirou also knows... but haruka's father could've told him since its mentioned they used to be colleagues. personally i think haruka told him himself, since he also mentions kenjirou is the only adult he's ok sharing stuff with, so in a way its implied if ur delusional like me.

erm. anyways. i got a little sidetrack IM GONNA GET TO IT OKAY its just, haruka's dying words for takane man. don't cry anymore, you're gonna meet so many new people, etc. he basically tells her he is just 1 person in the long long life he assumes she will have. theyre best friends, he knew takane would mourn him terribly and thats why he thinks all that stuff he cant actually tell her.. augh haruka's goodbye to takane always gets me so so badly. bc he KNEW... like, ene lives in so much regret for not telling haruka how she felt but haruka died knowing she loved him. even if he didnt know it was romantic, he still knew she loved him :( i was going somewhere with this. (pacing around my room) oh yeah. his dying words. haruka doesn't convey all this to takane while he has the chance because of the stuff i said before but the most important was number 3. he doesnt want takane to look at him differently. plus everything he says while he is dying... god id post the whole screenshot. but he says "dont get mad at anyone but me" "please dont cry anymore" "im so sorry youve given me so much and i couldnt give back" he... doesn't Want to see takane upset. he knows she will be upset anyway but its like. at least he wont be around to see it, in a way. we could see this as kind of selfish but like The guy's dying come ON. i think he has the right to do that. lol.

WELLLL COMING BACK TO THE ORIGINAL APPROACH LMAO.. takane finding out post str....... i went on that tangent to defend haruka precisely cuz i dont think takane would be genuinely mad. its a tricky situation and its not like she can be like WELL BUT U KNEW AND U DIDNT WARN ME!?!?!?!? Like THAT IS a pretty lame position to take. HOWEVER. CONFLICT (PUTS HANDS DOWN) i think takane just needs to be mad

WHILE TAKANE WOULD BE MORE UPSET THAN MAD she IS also super impulsive. like insanely impulsive <- finds out she loves haruka and immediately runs for it even if it terrified her. so in the spur of the moment she blows up on haruka about it LOL like as SOON as she finds out. like i imagine she probably hears it from shintaro and like immediately leaves mid conversation to go find haruka and yell at him. that kind of thing.

and haruka's all like 😨😨😨 and he's stuttering cuz HE HAS AN ANSWER ABT WHY HE DIDNT TELL HER IT JUST SOUNDS RLY BAD LIKE "ERM I DIDNT WANT TO SEE U UPSET❤️" like in over the dimension haruka does get pretty nervous when takane starts pressing even if its as a joke. so especially with something so sensitive he has no idea what to do. i think he'd try to be all composed though bc its Post Str and idk str haruka is so. ethereal he is so calm isn't he. i think he would get nervous initially and then get himself together but ends up coming off as dismissive. so hes like i didnt tell you.....because i didnt want to❤️ and takane probably just needed to be mad for a little bit and was gonna get over it and be sad but hearing that just makes her so damn upset for realsies and haruka notices how she changed from😡 to 😐 and hes immediately like oh takane.... no... i didnt mean it like that...i just mean...OH DONT MAKE THAT FACE I DIDNT MEAN IT... and takane's like NOO DONT TOUCH ME WHATEVER IM LEAVINGGG unnecessary conflict in a romcom vibes

conflict probably lasts like. a day or something. a week tops. its harder for haruka than for takane. takane finds it a little refreshing i think its also cool to link it to all the other headcanons abt haruka being super desperate to be in company because erm Daze confinement gang🙏💥 while takane's a little like. i havent had a minute to myself in 11 days. so this distance actually helps her a little while haruka is like Hour 5 without my girlfriend I've cried so much i cant see anymore

they both feel like shit and do spend the time trying to see the situation from each other's perspectives though so takane realises she's being self centered and stupid and admits she just wanted to be angry and took it out on the first thing she could grasp at. but it was unfair. takane will apologize first and probably tells him she doesn't need or want him to "protect" her feelings and wants him to count on her from now onward. haruka's like *nod nod nod nod nod nod* and thanks her for apologizing. hed try to also apologize but takane doesnt accept it bc he wasnt wrong it was her who was unfair. hehe. i think he'd be crying so hard too bc to him its all these feelings coming back abt how he felt when he died and all the things he thought of telling her then. maybe he would tell her abt it, like i was thinking about all the people you'd meet and how u should be happy and not cry for me. and how in disbelief he still is that theyre together. sorry im. auauggagaggsgsggqgggg

all this just for me 2 enjoy the mental image of the little time in between where theyre awkward around each other and takane wants a little distance for a bit. i think itd be funny to see haruka being totally pathetic abt takane not paying attention to him. anyways. yeah. something like that i guess

#kagenalysis #headcanons #harutaka #ask tag

[jade-04]

Dove (Part 8)

Eddie Munson x fem!Henderson!reader and Steve Harrington x fem!Henderson!reader

first part | part 7 | part 9

Summary: Dustin Henderson’s older sister finds herself in a predicament having to choose between Steve “the Hair” Harrington and Eddie “the Freak” Munson

a/n: no thoughts, just the sound of me typing. Also the gif I chose has almost nothing to do with this chapter, all I could think about when writing Robins part was this scene/ the white board from season 3.

Warnings: mention of a parents death, angst, swearing, Steve being an absolute dumbass

taglist: @happiejoon @simonsbluee @nervouslaught3r @7minutes-tomidnight  @sl-tfor-joseph-quinn @witheringawayagain

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“Come on, (y/n). I’m gonna take you home, I dont think this is the environment you should be in right now.” Eddie wrapped his arm around you shoulders and starting walking towards the stairs with you. You nodded without saying a word, you wanted to be home right now with Dustin, he would know what to do and what to say.  He always has ever since he was a kid. You could never understand how someone so young could be so wise beyond his years, but right now he was the only person you could fully talk to. You could talk to Eddie, but your voice was weak, you didnt know what to say to him after what happened. You could barely even look at Steve, let alone speak to him. 

Eddie was ushering you out of the house to his car as Robin got there on her bike. She looked between you and Eddie and then raised an eyebrow. “What happened here?” 

“Well…” Eddie took a very deep breath trying his best not to yell. “Harrington broke (y/n). I recommend you ask him the rest of the story. She’s not really speaking right now.” He looked down at you, there was so much worry in his eyes, he was hoping he would never have to see you like this after hearing about it from your brother. 

“Shit.” Robin shook her head before going inside. 

It wasnt long before you were sitting in the passenger seat of Eddie’s car, his jacket wrapped around your shoulders, it was the only thing that could really comfort you right now. You just wanted your brother. You hadnt even realized you left your car at Steves until you were halfway home. 

“Eds, my car.” Your voice was super quiet, but just loud enough so that he could hear you.

“We can come back and get it tomorrrow.” He said, sounding a little more angry than he meant to be making you flinch a bit. “Sorry, I just think you need to be around Dustin right now, he’s uh told me about this kind of stuff happening before and I know he can help you.” Eddie loosened his grip on the steering wheel a bit.

You were home within 10 minutes thank you Eddie’s speeding. When you got inside, you rushed to Dustin’s bedroom door and gave a little knock before going in. Eddie was trailing behind you a bit knowing that you would need it to be just you and Dustin for a bit. Dustin was shocked to see you home so early knowing it was movie night, but when he studied your face he realized your eyes were puffy from the amount of crying you had done earlier. He saw Eddie behind you and gave him a nod signaling to him that things were gonna be okay, but it needed to be just the siblings right now. After Eddie walked away and closed the door, Dustin finally spoke.

“(Y/n), what happened?” Dustin came to hug you. “Do someone hurt you?”

You shook your head. “Not physically, maybe a little emotionally.” You sighed. “Okay, maybe a lot emotionally.”

Dustin sat down on his bed and you sat across from him on the floor with you back against the wall. “Let’s unpack this, okay?” His voice was always calm in these situations because he knew you felt vulnerable and the smallest amount of negativity in a voice could break you even further. “What happened?”

You closed your eyes before explaining the situation to Dustin. “I was at Steve’s, we were making pizza, having fun like we always do and then we were having a flour war and he cornered me and kissed me.” You sighed. “He didn’t necessarily force it on me, it just was sudden. It scared me….it confused me.” 

“Okay, thats okay.” He  took a second to think about what he was going to say next. “Why did it confuse you?” 

You didn’t want to admit it confused you because you kissed him back, but when it came to moments like this, secrets weren’t an option. “It confused me because…because I kissed him back. I don’t know why I kissed him back, Ive never felt that way towards him.” You felt so shitty for admitting it out loud.

“Oh shit.” Dustin blinked a few times before continuing. “Yea that would confuse you. Do you like Steve, like in the way you like Eddie?” 

“No, I don’t think so. Im all lost right now.” You hugged your knees into your body. “I don’t like Steve the way I like Eddie. I think I was just all caught up in that movie-like moment that I don’t even know what took over me, but then after when I was absolutely balling my eyes out in the bathroom, he admitted he had liked me since June. How does somebody react to that? How was I supposed to react to that?” You squeezed your eyes shut feeling the tears well up.

Dustin moved to sit next to you. “It’s okay. I know this is gonna be hard, but one of them is gonna have to be let down and I think I know who you want to let down.” He placed a hand on your shoulder. “I see the way you look at Eddie and the way he looks at you. Yes, its fucking gross to see my idol kissing my sister, but I haven’t seen you this happy since before dad died. The choice is yours though.” 

He was right, in the 3 years since dad died, you hadn’t felt as free as you did with Eddie. Yea Steve and Robin were your best friends, really your only friends, but you’d only ever opened up to Robin. “I think I know who I’m gonna choose. Thank you so much, Dusty.” You turned to wrap your brother into a hug.

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Meanwhile, back at Steve’s, Robin was absolutely going off on him. She knew about you shutting down and what happens and why they happen. She was fuming when she saw Eddie bringing a broken you out of the house when she got there and knew Steve had to do with it. Yes, she encouraged him to tell you his feelings, but what could he have possibly done to cause this.

“Hey, Stevie.” She said in the sweetest tone possible before turning on him. “What the fuck did you do to (y/n)?! I get here and see Munson taking her out of the house and she’s not even speaking. How the hell did you manage to do that, huh?” Robin was extremely defensive over you in this moment, you were in a very vulnerable state. “I mean yea, I encouraged you to tell her your feelings, but what the hell could have possibly done to cause this. Also, what with the mess in the kitchen and the flour all over you? Did you-“ 

Steve cut her off before she could ask anymore questions. “Geez, Robin. Let me get a fucking word in. I told her I liked her, yes, but I fucked up. I was stupid.” He leaned against the wall.

“That’s not new.” Robin mumbled under her breath before letting him continue.

“We we’re making pizza and it turned into a flour war, hence the mess.” He motioned to himself and the kitchen. “Then I kinda cornered her, she surrendered, then I…kissed…her…” Steve winced as he said those last few words.

“You kissed her?” Robin scoffed. “Didnt think to ask her if you could, just went in for it?” Her arms were crossed, shoulders squared. She looked like a mother disciplining her child.

“I know it was wrong, but she kissed me back. I thought that was my sign, until she ran into the bathroom and started crying. So, I followed her. I told her how I felt and she didn’t say anything, just got up and jumped into the pool. I called Eddie, I figured he could fix it.” Steve was doing his best to look anywhere but Robin, but he could still feel the heat of her glare on him.

“Steve, Im gonna tell you something that is gonna be super fucking personal to (y/n) okay?” Steve nodded and Robin took that as a sign to continue. “Ever since her dad died, she doesn’t handle her emotions well. He was her rock and then he was gone, yea she has Dustin, but he’s not the same. So when she’s overwhelmed,  especially when she gets confused and can’t figure out her emotions or reasons behind her actions, she shuts down. You kissing her, then spewing out your emotions, confused her, man. You weren’t supposed to do that like that.” Robin did her best not to sound bitchy and more educative, but she was pissed and Steve needed to know.

“I had no idea…” Steves voice was barely above whisper.

“Yea, no one does, not even her mom. Obviously, me and Dustin know and probably Eddie now too, but she hides it. She avoids stuff that’ll trigger her. Why do you think we never watch Jaws? It was her dads favorite movie, she can’t even look at the cover without crying or how she hardly ever lets us listen to Journey in the car, it was her dads favorite band.  Why do you think she has no plans post-high school? It’s because she cant stand the confusion and stress of picking somewhere to go and what the hell she has to do for the rest of her life. She doesnt like having to choose, so she always goes with what she knows is certain. Like when she auditioned for the band, it was because she knows music, but having to choose between you and Eddie, she could never possibly do that. He’s her boyfriend and your her best friend, hell we’re her only friends Steve, she cant handle losing people.” Robin took a deep breath and looked at Steve waiting for a response, but when he didnt give one she continued. “Why do you think that a week ago she was scared to tell us she was gonna miss movie night and was bargaining with us? Hmm? It’s because she’s scared that if she fucks up, even a little bit, she’s gonna lose us. She lost the most important person in her life and we filled that spot the best we could.” 

“I didnt realize we were that important to her. She never talks about these things, she’s just quiet when we ask her how she feels if she looks anything other than happy.” Steve ran a hand through his hair. “I shouldn’t have done that, I feel so shitty. I never should have told her, especially after seeing her with Eddie.” He raised his hands to cover his face.

“Now figure out a way to apologize to her, dingus.” 

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a/n: Literally my brain has been sprinting so the next part is 100 percent coming out today because its already like half written. Though, after how I wrote Robin in this chapter, it feels like Robin is the best choice for y/n right now if im being honest…

#eddie munson fanfic #stranger things #stranger things s4 #henderson!reader #eddie munson #steve harrington #eddie munson x reader #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x henderson!reader #eddie x reader #eddie stranger things #steve and robin #steve stranger things

[amazingmsme]

OKAY SO FIRST YOU HIT ME WITH THOSE AMAZING AND GUTWRENCHING GHOST POLI HEADCANONS THAT GETS MY ANGST WRITER BRAIN RUBBING ITS HANDS TOGETHER LIKE A LITTLE TERRIBLE FLY AND GOING HEHEHEHE. AND THEN YOU HIT ME WITH THE ABSOLUTE HILARITY THAT IS THE IDEA OF THE EPIC BOYS PLAYING TAG ON THE SHIP. YOU ARE GIVING ME SO MANY IDEAS FOR BOTH ANGST AND SHENANIGANS AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START (THIS IS A GOOD THING) /lh - fluffvoid

THANK YOU, SOMETIMES I TRY TO STAY IN TOUCH WITH MY ANGSTY ROOTS but fr writing those were so fun but hurt in such a good way, whenever I do get around to that fic, it’s gonna feel so cathartic writing it & honestly I can’t wait!

But I’m looking at everything through epic tinted glasses & that video just screamed Odysseus chasing around his crew on a slow day at sea to keep them on their toes & entertained

Seriously, despite all the angst & sadness in the show, there’s so much potential for them to goof off & have fun!

Speaking of which, I’m almost 4k into this fic & it’s killing me, I can’t wait to post it but I gotta, can’t serve a half baked cake! Don’t worry it’s more than halfway but I can confidently say this is the most flustering fic I’ve written in… I don’t know how long, but I normally don’t fluster myself this bad while writing. Y’all are in for a real treat!

#asks #anon ask #fluffvoid #would honestly love to hear what y’all think my most flustering fics are #epic headcanons #ghost!polites #polites #odysseus #epic musical

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

Ranking My 2023 Fics + hints of a planned 2024 fic (that im hoping to actually get done lmao)

I did this last year so I’m gonna do it again 🏃🏾‍♀️

Side note, before I begin, I would love love love to say a huge thanks to all of my readers, everyone who’s been interacting, enjoying and sparing a glance at anything I’ve written over the year. It tends to get really busy sometimes but I push through for you guys so thanks a ton :)))

ALSO I got a beta reader this year and they are one of the swaggiest people on the planet and I def would not be here without ‘em so an extra special thanks to @justicecaballer (who also has a few fics out) 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾

OKAY LETS GET STARTED

1. dear, hello, salutations, love, sincerely, from, goodbye (8.99999/10). Im lowkey obsessed with this fic????

Like obviously it’s based off of my favourite movie of all time (DONT GET ME STARTED ON TO ALL THE BOYS-) and it also gives me the chance to explore Caitlyn and Vi’s relationships with their parents. Handling Vi’s grief AND being able to research lacrosse (I’ve been watching gameplay for the upcoming chapter lmao), something I’d never do if it wasn’t for this fic, has just been so fun. I still worry about my characterization of Cait and Vi, but I feel like I’m doing a pretty solid job right now. Also this is officially my longest fic to date and I’m glad I’m getting more and more comfortable with descriptions and getting better at pacing. The slow burn is kind of hitting I can’t lie, they’re so in love it hurts!!!! I’ve also been loving writing Caitlyn’s friendships! I’m SO GLAD I decided to write in Kai’Sa I’m obsessed with her. Jayce appearances have been few and far between, but they’ve been quite nice. I’m super excited to have this fic be finished and to get all of my ideas out!! More of Vi’s family dynamic is coming soon 🤭🤭🤭. ALSO, more scenes from the movie and even the book will be included I’m so excited lemme stop yapping!!!!

2. play stupid games, win gay prizes (8.8/10). SO FUN I CANT

This was my first beta read fic and also just one of my favourite fics of mine in general. It is genuinely so fun. I wish I added more festival/pride month vibes, but Caitlyn and Vi annoying each other did it enough I think LOL. That vibe of them just being the biggest nuisances to each other unfortunately didn’t last super long in the show so exploring it in this fic was exciting! The make out scene most definitely hit………. Like come on they’re soooo obsessed with each other it’s embarrassing. The bingo scene was most definitely iconic!!! The twister scene was too! It was just an entire bundle of fun no one gets it. Maybe I’ll post my notes for this fic. Part two…… is in the works…. Expect it by spring maybe?????

3. fix my galentine (7.5/10). Cutie patooties 🤭

I’m sorry but the whole “lemme just break something in my house so hot lady comes over to fix it” just kind of hits to me???? Like Caitlyn was so disastrously down bad it was the cutest thing ever. The reveal of what Mel (the greatest wing woman of all time) asked Vi was just so fun as well. There was no angst or anything in this one, it was just cute valentine vibes and flowers and love and all of those gross stuff so it was great to get out and enjoy. LET THE GIRLS BE HAPPY! I also thought a lot about Caitlyn’s job in this, weirdly. She was Hextech’s lawyer and something about that is just so fun to me lol. Was also thinking about a scene where some pipe bursts in the company building and Vi’s called to fix it and everyone is drooling over Vi but Vi’s just waiting for her job to be done to see Cait in her office and in a suit 🤭. First person was definitely a choice but I don’t think it hurt the fic all too much. ANYWAY, super cute and super fun.

4. who tf is this girl (6.5/10). Anniversaire 🤞🏾

Honestly nothing too interesting. A short little one shot to pair with the first ever fic I wrote and posted on ao3. It was just a fun little thing. I don’t know if Caitlyn would really be a jealous person…. Protective, most definitely, but jealous just doesn’t fit her too much in my opinion. It was nice little thing tho that I still enjoyed writing and finishing. I think I could see a lot of my improvement from the og fic to my this one. I just love their established relationship shenanigans idk let them be a normal couple fr.

5. hunting prize (6/10). Ooooo suffering.

SORRY THIS IS LAST LMAO. This fic was lowkey just exhausting to get through lol. It most definitely is not the worst thing in the world, but I’m starting to realize how draining it is to just write constant suffering. It’s still technically incomplete lmao. The last chapter is supposed to be about a year or more later. Caitlyn wipes out the enforcers and brings in the Wardens and then asks Vi to be the Undercity lead for them as they dance at a ball for the official announcement. I appreciate everyone who stuck with this fic because it took soooo long to actually finish. Whump is just really not my thing lol. I have yet to truly do the canon verse any justice in one of my fics but next year I’m locking in, I swear.

This year has been so great for my fics and everything, so a massive thanks again for all of you friends :))))

MORE TO COME!!! Count on it :)

Idk when I’m finally gonna get this one done but expect it probably mid year!!!????

#arcane #caitvi #slay writes #HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS #I’ve been yapping a whole ton about my fics on here I’m so sorry #I’m manifesting me finally getting into digital art next year so I can start drawing the babes 🫶🏾 #ok I’m done now sorry gang LMAO

[lethalchiralium]

just finished the latest chap of ‘happiness’ and i gotta say, that last sentence sounds ominous. i dont know what your plans are but if i know you from how you write your fics, the pattern is angst immediately after the fluff. im already dreading the pain you will inflict on us readers. if yes, then maybe (just maybe), can we make it like reader and the kids are in a place where they would be in danger and simon learns it and of course just panics. like, he’s trying to contact reader and queue hyperventilation with all the dark thoughts BUT it would be a false alarm bc we cant hurt our babies.

but if this is not what you have in mind, then it’s co. instead, if you have the time (and willingness), can we get a one shot that is nsfw between simon and reader? but if this is not doable, then no worries. anyway, thank you and i look forward to seeing your next work. 🥰

I JUST GOT PSYCHOANALYZED THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

no, that is not really the plan i have in mind. (i’m still going to be posting little fluff things, I’m lining them up in the timeline right now before we start the descent :]) it’s a lot more involved with the rest of the wonderful operators like König, Roach, Alejandro, Rudy… you catch my drift. i want to flesh out more of the happy shit before we start getting into me being evil and crazy, and i’m not really good at writing things in a cohesive order… (Take my 1940s AU. I wrote Simon coming home and the letter before I wrote anything else.) We’re getting more family stuff I promise 😭🫶 (not that i don’t like what you suggested… i’ve been planning this for like a month and FINALLY figured out what’s actually gonna happen)

and yes! the nsfw piece will be done before I start posting the angst part of the story. and again, it will be on AO3 only because rat site likes to shove its stick all the way up my ass for anything NSFW on here. i breathe and they decide i must die 🤷‍♀️

love you!!!

#keri answers #i know i have a pattern but i am a sucker for pain 🫶 #simon ghost riley #simon riley #call of duty #simon riley x wife!reader

[justmywriting1313]

Writing Prompts list 1 (Miscellaneous but mainly hurt/comfort)

Okay so I made this and another one that will be up soon for you guys so that while you're waiting for the taken for granted fic part 2 and other stuff you can request this with any hq character you want!!! 

Format of asking with example:

HQ character name: Ushijima

Timeskip: Yes or no

Prompt number: 1, 56 and 64

One line in which you explain angst or fluff 

RULES:

No more than three prompts per request. 

DIALOGUE PROMPTS 

MISCELLANEOUS (Meaning I dont know how to categorise them and Its 2 am and I lost my patience tho knowing me its probabs all fluffy protective angst)

(Some are obviously romantic and fluffy so i’ll mark them with a 💜 but the rest are here and there kind of thing)

“I’m worried about you”

“I meant it when I said I would protect you”

“I’m not stepping aside until you back up”

“It’s too cold for you to come out here without a jacket on”

“I’ll go see what the noise was”

“Stay on the phone with me”

“Promise me you’ll be safe”

“I don’t feel comfortable with you going there on your own”

“They did what to you?”

“I won’t let you go through something like that again” 

“I’m not perfect, but I’m trying my hardest to do everything to keep you safe”

“Do you even see how pale you are?”

“No you’re not fine. you need help!”

“I’m going to fix you right up okay?”

“I can’t stand seeing you in so much pain”

“I need to clean you up first”

“There’s so much blood”

“As cute as you are when sick and needy get better now please” 💜

“Nothing’s gonna happen to me with you taking care of me right?”

“Don’t ever leave my sight again”

“Where are you going? Its not safe right now” 

“You’re scared of that aren’t you? I told you so”

“Don’t touch them... don’t you dare touch them”

“It’s cute that you tried to protect me and all that but you’re like a foot shorter than me you know?” 💜

“I will always step in between you and something like that”

“No don’t do that it’s not safe” 

“I’ll drive you but please please don’t go like this”

“Wait let me walk you home”

“I’m not gonna let you put up with that”

“Stay behind me”

“I love you of course I’m going to defend you like that”

“Are you planning to stay glued to my side this whole evening?” 💜

“I’m coming to get you... dont you dare move”

“You don’t actually expect me to just let you go do you?”

“I’m not leaving this place without you” 

“It’s your fault for expecting me to take this seriously” 💜

“You’re sleeping with me tonight”💜

“You’re cute when you’re angry”💜

“I never said I don’t think about you” 💜 

“Say the words and I’m yours” 💜

“Would it kill you to relax?”

“Thats the problem! you don’t think you deserve something so you ruin it” 

“I don’t want your apology”

“You’ve never hurt me ever...(before)”

“I let you down”

“Fuck what everybody else thinks” 

“This is quite possibly the last thing I had wanted to be doing tonight” 

“Do not touch that... I’m warning you”

“Get your ass over here before I drag you here myself”

“I think it’s adorable how easily you blush” 💜

“I just want to take care of you” 💜

“Don’t tell me not to worry because I’m going to do that anyway” 💜

“If you’re so cold why didn’t you say something?”

“Wait this was a bad idea, now my face is like a tomato” 💜

“They are too good for me... don’t ya think?” 💜

“God you’re so precious” 💜

“Whenever I kiss your cheek you light up like the red light on the police car” 💜

“If I kiss you once I will do it a hundred more times... i’m warning you” 💜

“I’ve learned that you telling me to ‘shut up’ is really just you saying ‘stop making me blush’“ 💜

“I don’t care that you’re sick...In fact you need more cuddles now than ever” 💜

“Tell me I’m cute or I’ll tickle you” 💜

“I love you you insolent cockroach so shut up and let me love you!” 💜

“The best way you could possibly cheer me up is to give me some space” 

“I’m sad and I’m going to keep being sad until you hug me” 💜

“I’m sorry... I must have been a really awful person to you for you to think I would do that to you”

“Tell me about your day sweetheart, let me make it better” 💜

“It’s not up for discussion, you’re my date” 💜

“Baby please shut the fuck up... said with love and care” 💜

“Nothing is wrong with you”

“Tell me what’s wrong? please please please tell me whats wrong” 

“If you don’t want to keep standing may I suggest sitting in my lap? Much recommended. Great comfort quality” 💜

“You’re being cute and sweet. It’s making me want to kiss you” 💜

“I can’t help it, you’re fun to mess with” 💜

“Please don’t shut me out” 

“I can’t believe you haven’t noticed, I’m screaming for someone to notice, to help me, and yet no one does” 

“Is it that hard to ask for help?”

“We’re on the same team why the hell are you hiding things from me?”

“OMG is that why you’ve been wearing that sweater so goddam much”

“You’re okay?? Really you're okay? cause this doesn’t fucking look like it”

“Try to eat something please” 

“I’ll protect you... they’ll never touch you again” 

“Your ability to distract me is unmatched” 💜

“You promised me... you promised me you wouldn’t be reckless” 

“I feel like I’m going to love you for a very long time” 💜

“As long as we dont separate in the crowd I’ll be fine” 

“You told me you were okay... you promised me you were okay”

“How does anyone expect me to deal with this?”

“Hush now, It’s alright. you’re not alone” 💜

“I love you even when you’re sleepless, annoying and frustrated or rather frustrating” 💜

“You’re my baby, and i’ll be damned if anyone tries to say otherwise” 💜

“My future has you in it. Everything else is just a bonus” 💜

“If you think I’m not sleeping on your chest/boobs all night you’re wrong” 💜

“Are you ashamed of me?”

“I might’ve just lost the only good thing to have happened to me”

“Just one more chance please I’ll do anything”

“Well you're not allowed to leave me ever okay please promise promise never”

“I’m sorry I won’t do it again”

“Can you keep holding my hand please” 

“Let me hug you” 💜

“You always duck away when you smile... please let me see you” 💜

“Like I expected you're much comfier than my pillow” 💜

“You came back?”

“I promised you this didn’t I”

“I love you a lot more than you will ever believe” 💜

“Quit smiling at me, I cant stop messing up my sentences when you look at me like that” 💜  

“Wait dont pull away not yet” 💜

“I’ll feel better if you let me walk you home” 💜

“If I do this you have to promise to kiss me” 💜 

“It’s my turn to use, my turn to hurt someone else instead of being hurt...” 

“Im like 99% sure this is illegal” 

“This is my favourite day ever” 💜

“I’m not moving. Your lap is comfy” 💜 

“You’re my new pillow” 💜 

“Please dont make me answer that”  

“Did you just hiss at me” 

“Its 6 in the morning. You are not having vodka”

“What was I supposed to do? the kids they ambushed me” 💜 

“You dont know what you do to me do you?” 💜 

“I just want you to be safe. Thats all Ive ever wanted for you” 

“I love you.. I do but I need you to go away because you’re really bloody distracting and I really have to pass this test tomorrow okay?” 💜

“You weren’t there... why weren’t you there?” 

“I’m going to die and I’m going to die with an absolute idiot” 

“Lie to me please I’m begging you lie to me. Make me feel whole again” 

“What am in your life? Because as of lately I feel as though I have been nothing to you” 

“Fight me you stuffy bitch? Come o whatch’ya gonna do? you're just a stuff toy nothing more nothing less” 💜

“you're about as intimidating as a Chihuahua” 💜

“Come back to bed” 💜 

“No I’m supposed to be making you feel good” 💜

“Hey god I dont know if you're up there or listening but please please make this work out... this one has to be it, the one that stick okay?” 💜 (This would be brilliant with atsumu)

“My friends keep telling me to fix this...tell me how to fix it” 💜 (This as well) 

“I don’t remember a fight or any reason for a break up so why?”

“Give me one reason... any reason at all to fall out of love with you please”

“Quit trying to fix me when you need to fix yourself”

“Why didn’t you tell me? I thought you trusted me?

“What you did was stupid, reckless and dumb and exactly why I can’t leave you alone” 

“I dont want to do this without you” 

“Im sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed me” 

“Did you do this to yourself?” 

“You know you try to hide it even though I can see right through you right?” 

“Theres something you’re not telling me” 

“Whats wrong with you? what the hell happened back there and I told you to stay by my side” 

“No I dont want to say goodbye not when I just got you back”💜

“You think its funny but its not. That hurts a lot” 

“I’ll always love you but trust is a different question entirely” 

“I dont want to live without you but that doesn’t mean I cant... dont make me prove it”

“I’d give up so much for just one more chance” 

“I need to go fix what I had with them”

“I want an answer and I’m not leaving without one” 

“I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending they're you” 

“ And what happens if I do this” 

“You make me want things I can’t have” 

“When you love someone you just dont stop... its not a switch you can flick on and off... ever even when everyone around you roll their eyes and call you crazy... especially then” 💜

“I cant be your secret... not anymore”   

“Don’t you dare tell me to give up on you and us like you, me and what we had didn’t mean anything cause I’ll do anything.. go to the ends of the earth and burn world and people down but giving up on this is the one thing I can’t do”

“I’m allowed to be obsessed with you Im your spouse” 💜

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[bonesandthebees]

kinda missed the train bc time zones but i just want to say that people angry at tommy for finding and using wilburs name (and comparing it to deadnaming? what? this is obviously so different) just cant appreciate the beauty of your writing

you write messy human characters in situations with questionable moral rights and wrongs, even if this was their first bones fic did they just forget the part where wil tried to kill tommy?

you write from one pov and work so amazingly with the unreliable narator prospects its so cool to read and so interesting to brainrot about

you write a lot of metaphors which is just something im obsessed with, especially the way youre so consistent with them, just like in stars with the sea and pillar, you continously describe wilburs most inner emotions as a bird in a cage and how the bird perks up at hearing the name wilbur while wilburs monologue is against it shows what was beaten into him and how he "wilbur" actually feels about it

also i know that a lot of people expected (and some wanted) a name reveal in the form of wilbur trusting tommy enough to tell him himself (i also expected this ngl) but looking at it, it feels so much out of character for glass!wil at least for a long while, hes nowhere near the amount of trust or even of knowing how much his training for the pythia was to be bale to tell anyone his name and in the situation hes in, kidnapped and in a group of people with completely different religion, i dont think theres space for him to get to that mental space in a completely healthy and right way

tommy finding out on his own and starting to use it on the other hand is just so much like glass!tommy, bc you can see how hes doing it bc he believes it wil help wilbur bc he knows how wrong it is that he was forced to foresay his own name, but also not telling the other deathlings bc he knows that the best way would be for wilbur to tell them himself

honestly im so glad it went like this bc it feels so justificating and deserving from characterisation and storytelling point, not throwing away all the built up trauma and messy relationships and all the mistakes that were made just for some quick and cheap comfort

instead of quick cheap hurt/comfort or angst you get a precisely and amazingly crafted deep and thought out story with deep and full chartacters that feel so human and its THE BEST THING EVER I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH BEE

and im sorry some people cant appreciate it and cant shut up about not being able to do so

lmao you get it i write messy human characters and also wilbur literally tried to kill tommy. this wasn't a breech of trust or anything they didn't have any trust beforehand.

kldsjfkld aaa you're so sweet though!! I'm so glad you like the one pov thing. It's genuinely my favorite way to write long stories now because it makes things so much more interesting to me. unreliable narrator is impossible to avoid when you only have a single pov going on and that's the fun part!!

so so happy you like the metaphors too. I definitely worry sometimes I'm overusing them, but I also like the consistency and the way it gives me a space to explain wilbur's emotions in a way that avoids just saying "he felt sad" or something. it makes it more interesting to describe and can be used in a lot of different ways so it's very fun for me

you see you get it!! there was no way he was gonna reach that place in a healthy way, at least not anytime soon. I know that everyone was expecting the soft reveal moment of wilbur telling tommy his name himself, but that's exactly why I didn't go with it. because subverting that expectation makes things a lot more interesting in terms of how it'll develop from there. it just makes the most sense with the characterization and everything to me so tysm <33

this made me smile a whole lot to read :D

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