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meraki-yao · 3 months

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Vent (TW: self harm. suicidal thoughts)

Can I ever catch a fucking break.

Both parents barged into my room, yelling that I'm lazy, I'm not concerned about failing classes again, that I'm spending all my time on useless stuff about Hollywood, that I'm a fucking burden. Dad literally said "What wrongs have we done to the world to have a daughter who doesn't care about her studies, what karma is this". Mom threatened to throw my headphone, my very expensive noise cancelling headphones out of the window. I live thirty stories above the ground, and I bought them with my own money because my own head is too loud and they argue all the fucking time.

I don't fucking understand how after nearly 20 years of me being alive, they could possibly think I would ever want to fail. That this was ever a conscious choice on my part. In the past I have worked myself to the brink of suicide because of a single exam. I don't fucking understand how can they know so little about me.

They confiscated my antidepresssants (I'm taking them in secret now), repeatedly tell me I'm taking the easy way and I'm doing drugs, tell me I just have pressure and then search online and think I have depression and that I'm exaggerating things and I don't have depression, that I'm just not working hard enough. I couldn't fucking get out of bed last October because I felt so fucking empty. They berate me for doing things I actually like, that actually suit me, like being an MC, like joining theatre workshops, like drawing or playing the piano. Everything should be fucking studying a subject that I fucking hate. fuck this shit. When I cut myself because everything was so damn painful and loud, apparently I'm not allowed to do that because I owe them my body since they gave birth to me. They don't care that I feel like there's no point in fucking living, I'm just exaggerating and it's my fault IT'S ALL MY FUCKING FAULT I AM THE WORST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO THEM THANKS THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU HAVE ME I DIDN'T ASK TO BE ALIVE

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I'm on here so often because most of these days this feels like my only sanctuary. Somewhere I can be myself and hide a little. Somewhere where people other than my sister and counsellor will really listen and understand. Somewhere I'm appreciated for who I am, for what I can do and like to do.

I'm so fucking tired of this.

I don't want to be George. I want to be Henry.

I have to get myself out of this situation. I can't fucking live like this anymore. It's so fucking exhausting.

#personal #seriously when will this end #it's been like this ever since I started school #I been to the dangerous place more time that I would ever like to be #I don't know where my fucking breaking point #or how much longer I can hold on #fuck this shit fuck it

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lazylittledragon · 4 months

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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

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sweaty-confetti · 10 months

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idk y’all should treat fat men better. and i don’t mean mildly chubby guys i mean honest-to-god love-handles-and-double-chins fat guys. stop calling them shit like discord mods or gross weebs or nasty creeps or neckbeards or that they’re stinky or sweaty or beer bellied or whatever else. fatphobia isn’t cute, even repackaged in a neat little box of “ew men”

#and this isn’t some like “IF A CUTE GUY HARASSES A GIRL SHED LOVE IT BUT WHEN A FAT GUY DOES IT SHED HATE IT”#I guarantee she’d hate it nontheless #just saying that the way some of y’all treat fat guys is seriously disgusting #and a lot of em end up falling down the incel and rightwing pipelines because of it #fatphobia #antimasculism #fatphobes #male fatphobia #transandrophobia #anti transmasculinity

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redcake333 · 10 months

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crying myself to sleep is not enough anymore I need to cry myself to death

#seriously when will this end #depressing shit

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lordoftherazzles · 1 year

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THE LORD OF THE DINGS: RETURN OF THE PORN BOTS (2023) ↳ dir. @staff (like, please, someone make this stop)

#seriously this is getting ridiculous #lotr #lord of the rings #lotr shitpost #lord of the memes #gimli #razzyedits #tolkienedit #razzy makes a shitpost #when will this nightmare end???#i had to block a handful just in the time it took me to make this #the bots are back in town

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duckprintspress · 4 months

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Urgent: Help Us Not Get Screwed

Anyone who follows us has seen us screaming from the hill-tops about our current crowdfunding campaign for Aether Beyond the Binary (17 aetherpunk stories! Outside the gender binary main characters!). We've only got 50 hours left...and we just got screwed.

Our Anthology Kickstarter is being scammed.

About two hours ago, with us still roughly $1,500 from our goal, we got a junk pledge for almost $2,000. This pushed us into being marked as "funded" but there is zero chance it's a real pledge, it's from a shell account marked as being in Turkey. This kind of money doesn't just fall like a miracle into the laps of small business like ours.

The timing on this attack is devastating. The final 48 hours of a campaign are absolutely critical, especially for one as close to meeting our goal as we are. We were very likely to hit our target, but doing so was going to require appeals to y'all that started with "hey, we're so close, please help spread the word." Further, the campaign has hundreds of followers who will get a notification at the 48 hour mark, and many who might have backed to help get us to the finish line will now think "oh, they're there, they don't need me," and not back. Meanwhile, one of two things will happen with the spam pledge: either it will get removed by Kickstarter, which could take hours or a day+, totally nuking us during this crucial window, or it won't get removed until the payment bounces post-campaign, at which point we won't actually have enough money to do fulfillment.

Either way, we are fucked.

Please, please don't let these dipshits ruin the love and passion that 30+ people have poured into this project for over a year.

Our campaign IS NOT FUNDED, and it won't be without help. I'm begging, help spread the word about how we're getting screwed, and help spread the word about Aether Beyond the Binary (visit the link for so much info!) so that we can get enough real pledges to fund this project we've poured our hearts and souls into.

SUPPORT THE QUEER ANTHOLOGY KICKSTARTER FOR AETHER BEYOND THE BINARY (with your pledges or with signal boosts!)

#unforth rambles #like seriously guys i feel sick #this is a disaster #and the absolute earliest KS can do anything about it is in another 2 hours when their offices open #but it will probably take longer #someone else i know running a campaign right now it took 24 plus hours to get rid of an $8k spam pledge on their campaign #we WILL NOT FUND if it takes that long #in my submission to KS support I've begged them to give us another day #but even that's only a stop-gap because we've been advertising as ending tomorrow #there's no fixing this #i'm so upset i'm nauseous

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god-tier-bastard · 2 months

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sometimes you play a game of dnd where a bunch of Normal People get isekai'd into the dnd world. and you play a medical doctor. and you name him robert wenabocker bc even though he isnt a medical doctor you simply cannot stop thinking about burrow's end.

#dnd #d20 #d20 burrow's end #burrow's end #SERIOUSLY I NEED A BETTER NAME FOR THIS GUY I CANT JUST RIP OFF AABRIA #i mean i can but i put my character sheets on my wall when the campaign ends #i rly don't want robert wenabocker staring down at me from my char sheet wall for the rest of my life

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tubbytarchia · 6 months

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Sorry, last one, swear!! I'll try and finish this by the 10th and then I will leave you all alone. I'm experiencing some long missed joy in creating this, please forgive my impatient excitement

#Just need this to be done already but its not so I just need to share one last bit of it to keep myself motivated. Please understand #Mercy... Thank you for all the support though but I'll express more of that at the end of this #scarian #desert duo #trafficshipping #trafficblr #those pink forest backgrounds are like the only ones I remotely like in this entire animation #but I'll try to redo and improve some of the others before I dare show them to the public eye. My backgrounds suck ass #seriously though wahhh I am so miserable but alas... the joy of creation #sorry for speaking like this is my magnum opus and everyone needs to look at it. I just dont know when I'll ever create smth like this agai #to me this means a lot #too many tags #tubby art

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 12 days

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Danse Macabre

[Commission]

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #marcille donato #winged lion #better drawn mdzs #<- art tag I really need to change.#Turns out the secret to drawing better was having someone offer you money to draw.#I jest. I just had a blast with this prompt and I seriously appreciate the commissioner for letting me have the chance to push myself.#And for giving me permission to post! Hi! If you're seeing this: thank you again!#Let me be clear: no I don't quite know where this came from. It just happened. My chakras unblocked for a few hours.#You too can unblock my chakras with money and commission me to draw cool art B*)#We are so far off from when this is relevant so this one is really just for the manga readers. *****Spoiler notes ahead:#So...As someone who read dungeon meshi monthly for many years....I admit to not seeing Marcille becoming the dungeon lord coming #Hilarious too; re-reading and watching the show made me realize that this outcome is pretty strongly foreshadowed.#Ryoko Kui distracts you by putting the focus on Laios being the 'one to break the curse' but nope!#This was the culmination of her goals and desires.#And - for those who did not have to suffer as us monthly readers did:#YES. WE NEARLY ALL THOUGHT THAT MARCILLE HAD TO DIE.#The last 20 or so chapters were a constant spiral of: 'Oh this story isn't going to have a happy ending is it?'#She just keeps losing herself! The winged lion plays her like a puppet and she is his perfect doll! So full of conviction!

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trendingdrama · 2 months

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QUEEN OF TEARS 눈물의 여왕 (2024)

BONUS :

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messrsbyler · 2 years

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ao3 authors who have no social media are are so mystical. they really be writing and posting some of the most perfectly crafted pieces of media and then disappearing without a trace

#ma'am or sir or folk please give me an username where to find you because i need to become your loyal follower #it's like going from tavern to tavern asking for the tales of the great CoffeeAndWriter from the mythical land of AO3 #but seriously every time i find an amazing fanfiction i'm holding my breath crossing my fingers and scrolling to the ending notes hoping to #find a tumblr username and when there's nothing i go to the profile and then when there's nothing there i know #i found another mythical creature in the fandom to add to the book #at this point i'm collecting them like pokemons specially in st fandom #byler #byler tumblr #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 #fandom #writing #fandom things #fandom culture #byler ao3 #stranger things ao3

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muffinlance · 11 months

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EMERGENCY FANFIC PROTOCOLS: ACTIVATED

Hey while AO3 is down

Here is a GDrive link to all my downloaded fics (it's OVER 9,000 2,000)

Mostly Avatar, also The Magnus Archives, Danny Phantom, Teen Wolf, and a few others

Mostly unsorted, some not even intentionally downloaded because the auto-downloader I use is Like That, so consider this a glorified "give me a random fic" button

MAKE SURE TO KUDOS THE AUTHORS WHEN AO3 IS BACK UP

>>> Linkie link <<<

Edit: Note that when AO3 comes back up that link will go dead again... until it's needed, once more

EMERGENCY FANFIC PROTOCOLS: DEACTIVATED

...Until next they are needed

If you were going through these for fic recs, check out my AO3 Bookmarks for the more curated list.

To make your own fanfic backups, I recommend AO3 Downloader or FanFicFare. (I'm not tech support for either; please don't message me for help.)

Happy reading!