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sergle · 6 months

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People are failing to realize that clothing, and cameras for that matter, can be fairly deceptive. I don't wanna say deceptive because it carries a certain connotation, but I hope you'll know what I mean. I look fairly "thin/avg" with a shirt on, but without it it's rolls and folds lol

Furthermore, it's wild to assume someone who's pretty passionate about accurate plus-size rep would be stick thin. Maybe their metric of "average" is skewed or something, but it's still weird to just show up in a strangers Asks and assume things about them and their bodies.

sorry for answering an ask about this like 4 days later but I'M STILL THINKING ABOUT THIS... this person is talking about these asks btw.

FIRST OF ALL, thank you so much for the ask, it really is good to know that other ppl are aware of the Covering Of Fat With Clothing. Like. hi. my body is obscured. people are just noticing my torso for the first time bc there isn't 5lbs of breast tissue hanging off of it. SECOND OF ALL. This is still making me insane. I am still thinking about it so I'm gonna completely just do a brick of text to talk about it. Like, there's the first part of this, right? The fact that, all of these people who were sending asks like these, are the same people who came to my account because they liked the body positivity stuff or they related to the proportions of the girls I draw, right? And yet somehow managed to miss that ALL OF MY ART IS ME. So you're relating to MY body, AGREEING that this is plus sized art, then turning towards moi and saying, okay but you're skinny though. HUH? HMM??? I literally made a 12-part series of self portraits that have been like, my most seen, most stolen, reposted, enjoyed, stolen again, pieces. And I've been so crystal clear that these are literally me. Once again, I'm pointing at the aforementioned MATERIAL.

Pictured above: a thin, skinny woman who just happens to have large breasts, ig! And outside of those, which are *literal* self portraits, I've spoken lots of times before about how I make girls of a certain size and shape because I'm modeling them off myself. Or as close as I can get, depending on how good/bad I feel and if I took a photo to ref or not. It really couldn't be clearer that this is obviously me being self-serving, I do it when I feel like I need to see it. So the thing being implied here, or flat out accused in a handful of messages, is that I'm drawing fat girls forrr clout? AWESOME. I didn't want to dignify every message but that did seem to be the rough consensus. BUT I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT ONE TOO. WHEN would it become a bad thing for a skinny person to draw body positive art? In a positive light? Even if it was for clout? Am I going insane? That would be Good. It honestly might be even more meaningful than what I'm doing now. If I was actually 115 pounds soaking wet, if I looked like that one girl from ANTM with the like 14 inch waist, and I was out here making the exact same art, would that make the art LESS meaningful to other fat girls? That someone who doesn't have this body type or relate to it at all found it beautiful enough to draw it so many times, treating the subject with respect? Fat people being the subject of art again? The cycling of a trend that's been gone too long? That is, I thought, what we've literally been begging to see. I have been thinking about this. And finally, the last part of it that's been vexing and haunting me:

Is it supposed to be my responsibility that someone gets dysmorphic LOOKING AT ME. HUHHHH. On the art account where I draw a lot of Me. HUH. I was meant to anticipate this? Looking at pictures of me. And that makes you feel dysmorphic. and that is my fault. I'm just double checking. On the account where I draw bodies that I relate to, that you followed because you relate to. And then seeing me. Makes you dysmorphic. Whew. Got it.

I'm putting a bow on my insane winding ramble about this. Or at least trying to, now. It is wild to have my body commented on so much. This year, bc of the breast reduction, comments on my body have increased a hundredfold. Positive, negative, passive aggressive, predatory, all of the ways it can go. There was a really obvious way to rebuff these particular comments, which would be to post a picture of myself where my body ISN'T mostly obscured. But hey, those aren't free. The art will have to do for now. I wouldn't be that surprised if half the messages were jokes meant to see if I'd post pics "proving" that I look how I look. I also thought briefly about like, what if my body did change that drastically? Would some ppl's immediate reaction be betrayal, disgust, anger? I've been sick in my life before and lost weight at alarming speeds. But I've still been fat all my life. I've gotten sick and gained weight at alarming speeds. Does my presence as a "body positive artist" mean that my body gets to be put on trial anytime it changes? Does the switch flip from "your fat art means so much to me" to "you're not in the club anymore, since you got rid of your breasts, you look different"

Anyway I thought it would be funny to draw a thin girl "drawing" a scrap sketch I already have on hand. And imagining someone's response being fully negative, bc a thin person drawing fat ppl would be somehow dishonest lmao. Look how evil this bitch is. Her body doesn't match her art.

#IGNORE ME it does not matter. but I wanted to talk #sergle.txt #I wanted to talk SO BAD.#sergle answers #long post

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aleksanderscult · 6 months

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Part 3 of Aleksander Morozova being a jealous bitch

And now we will dive into his "Siege and Storm" salty moments. I will analyse them, make comments and flesh them out. Prepare yourself for some real dramatic shit (he's just built like that).

(Here's part 1, here's part 2, here's part 4, here's part 5 and the bonus content btw🖤)

Grab your snacks and let's go!

So what's the translation here?

"I won't kill him now. But I will at some point 'cause his time is long overdue."

Part 237721 where he uses Mal as leverage against Alina.

BEFORE YOU START SAYING: "HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT'S THE DARKLING??"

Leigh herself has confirmed it:

From this small paragraph we can draw so many things out.

He took some time out of his planning and leading to take care of her. Make her eat and get better (after letting his nichevo'ya bite her). That shows me at least, that he keeps going back to her out of his own loneliness. She is the only one like him. He seeks her presence and gets tender with her by stroking her cheek. Even if he can't be sure that she can feel him or see him, he still does it.

Secondly, the moment she says Mal's name he quickly withdraws his hand like he got electrocuted. He got instantly angry and jealous that the first person she thought and called out was him.😒

Damn man calm down😭

There are four words that he uses here that are crucial. And I will highlight them.

"I want to watch your tracker die slowly with my knife in his heart."

He wants to see every detail of his death.

He wants him to die slowly and in agony.

He wants to do it himself with his own knife.

He wants to plunge it into his heart. Not just in any random spot and that's it. No. Into his heart.

This is personal vendetta at this point😭

Also, he ALWAYS picks the most gruesome ways to kill Mal (feed him to the volcra, gut him, slowly and painfully plunge a knife in his heart).

He holds a lethal grudge against him for taking Alina away from him. For keeping her hidden from him. For the love they share and makes him insanely jealous. And that last one makes him even think to throw Alina overboard too. But he can't and he won't.

Can he be any more petty?🥲

He is so possessive here. Primarily, he did it to get on Mal's nerves and actually displays such competitiveness. Like "Look what I do😏", "I touch and caress her".

But! There's no way he also didn't do it for his own pleasure.

(He's so thirsty bye-)

He sees Mal's reaction and knows that what he fears most is Alina sleeping with him. So he plays along and threatens him with that iconic line down here:

Not that he doesn't want it to happen deep down of course but ANYWAY

The fact he wants to ensure that Mal will hear it when he makes Alina scream is again so petty. He wants to make sure that he will throw it in his face when it happens.

Also the confidence😭

The sure confidence that he can make her scream while the two...*hem hem* you know.

I could post more pictures but I chose not to 'cause next we have the tether and chapel scenes. And I want these to be in one post but I hope you enjoyed this! 💛

(Also tell me if you like this meta)

#he's so petty #love him #grishaverse #grishaverse trilogy #shadow and bone #siege and storm #the darkling #pro darkling #aleksander morozova #pro aleksander morozova #the darkling being jealous meta #meta #alina starkov #darklina #pro darklina #alarkling

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mothwithapencil · 4 months

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your street fighter art has brought me much joy...thank you ^_^ i wasnt too familiar w vega b4hand but. he's got me in his claws now... i'm seeing the vision....i would like to hear more of what u've concocted for his siblinghood w cammy if you would like 2 share! what the dynamic could be like when cammy was still a doll under shadaloo, vs when she started fighting bison, etcetc. the silly the serious how things change over the years >:0 apologies if this is a tall order

(Also. mike tyson cartoon balrog knocked me back. What are the odds that he, too, has a van with "BI GUY" on the license plate)

I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE A VEGAHEAD NOW.... He got me in his claws as soon as I saw him... The vega army grows stronger...

His siblinghood with Cammy (and also Decapre) is so very special to me. You can check out this post first for some stuff I said about them that I'll extrapolate on here. RAMBLE TIME.

Vega and Cammy are very similar and share several traits and I think a lot of it has to do with him having to train and take care of her and the other Dolls. It makes me so very insane that Vega is generally portrayed as this cold and uncaring murder guy who only loves himself, and yet...

Please look at these dialogues from Alpha 3. HE CARES ABOUT HER SO MUCH. IT HURTS. There's so much here. He wants her to be safe. He cares about the girl he took care of so much that he calls M. BISON A COWARD. Bison could kill Vega by looking at him and yet he stands up to him for the sake of someone else's safety. I rambled about their relationship and his feelings towards her more in a text to my gf I'm too lazy to rewrite:

Btw yes I am making a drawing about the braids. They hold so much symbolism TO ME. The braids he did for her... One of the few remaining things connecting them.... It means a lot to him, and you can see how much it means to him in A Shadow Falls:

While she's passed out he just stops to pick up one of her braids and his eyes immediately soften. And then he leaves without really doing anything because he sees that Cammy wants to protect Decapre, who she knows is her sister. He doesn't try to kill Cammy or anyone she loves. Every time he fights her he just sees her as a worthy foe (in the Alpha 3 dialogue up there he later changes his mind about Cammy not being a good opponent as he rescues her from the Shadaloo base). And later in A Shadow Falls when Cammy and Decapre are fighting the other Dolls, he goes against Shadaloo's ideals and frees the Dolls from the Psycho Power controlling them. At the end of the story he throws away his mask. Vega is not heartless... He has kindness and compassion... He has sweetie powers.... He just doesn't want you to know that because he hasn't been allowed to have emotions for so long... He's just stuck working for people he hates. Every time Bison isn't a direct threat to him he just goes back to Bullfighting. He doesn't care about those guys at all and the only thing truly keeping him is probably the fact Bison or another Shadaloo member would show up at his home and kill him if he quit. I think he wishes he could have the same freedom Cammy has... He's proud of her for breaking the cycle of being used as a tool by Bison and wishes he could be afforded the same luxury...

They all even pose the same way... There's a couple pieces of art where theyre posing this way and they share some similar moves too.... The parallels... They compel me....

I don't know if Cammy will ever piece together that Vega is her weird questionably evil possibly clone-related big brother. Decapre is much more similar to him visually and maybe that will tip her off. But for now all of her past growing up in House of Bison is known only to Vega and the fleeting memories kill him every day. He may feel particularly closer to Cammy but he stills shows care and compassion for Decapre too. He loves his sisters so very much and thus....

SOMETIMES A FAMILY IS WHATEVER THIS IS ↓↓↓ ‼️‼️

ITS SO HARD BEING A SINGLE MOM WHEN YOURE AN ASSASSIN FOR SHADALOO AND ALSO A GROWN MAN💯💯

(Also, for the last portion of that ask: I do think Balrog has a "BI GUY" vanity plate. Beef IS Gross, Unethical, and Yucky. That IS what he reads when he sees it. He DOES look at the bi men checking him out and say "we like to put the same thing in our mouth!" Its true. I saw it happen. Lmfao)

#asks #sorry this is so long they make me sick (affectionate)#street fighter #vega street fighter #cammy white #decapre #decapre street fighter

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fluffypotatey · 2 months

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OK SO. the animations family.

first off i have to explain the QSMP a bit. the QSMP (nobody's really sure what the q stands for afaik) is a multilingual minecraft smp that first started in march 2023. the original server roster was 16 players, half of whom were hispanic and half who were english speakers. (this was bc quackity, the guy who came up with the server and did all the planning and stuff, is bilingual and wanted to unite his two communities). one of these original 16 was jaiden animations (this is important). on the first day of the server, these 16 members were stranded in a place called Quesadilla Island, which is controlled by a mysterious and sinister Federation (run by a weird little guy named Cucurucho)

okay, you know the trope of science projects where you get split up into pairs and have to take care of an egg together? they literally did that. All of the players were split into pairs of one spanish-speaker and one english-speaker, and tasked with taking care of an egg (actually a special NPC played by a server admin). the eggs started out with two lives each, and once those lives were out, the egg's gone for good, and your in-game child is dead. (this is a secret surprise tool that will help us later!)

one of these parenting pairs was jaiden animations and roier, and their egg's name was bobby. bobby was a rambunctious little fella- artistic, brave, very aggressive- and an absolute mama's boy. jaiden, roier, and bobby (aka the animations family) all got along very well, and tbh i need to go rewatch jaiden's vods of them bc they were so sweet together. jaiden changed her minecraft skin to match bobby's so they were both wearing overalls together.

(^ mentally i am here)

jaiden's character (or cubito, a word from the spanish speaking community that essentially means "minecraft roleplay character" that p much the whole community uses now bc its so damn cute) was aroace (just like jaiden in real life!), so she and q!roier were in a qpr co-parenting situation. and it was really sweet and i miss them. can you tell i miss them.

(drawing done by jaiden of roier, bobby, and herself) (the qsmp has an art mod btw)

now, astute readers may have noticed that i use "was" for both jaiden and bobby. on may 17th, 2023, bobby lost his second life to a vindicator and was ruled permanently dead. roier was there at the time, I believe, but was unable to save bobby in time. when jaiden found out, she SCREAMED and it was like. you know in hamilton how when phillip dies eliza screams? it sounded like that. (she also chased after the sunset while saying "wait for me" over and over again, it was really heartbreaking and im still a little bit insane about this).

the next day, the whole server went on a journey to the dungeon bobby died in, to plead with cucurucho for his revival. cucurucho refused to bring bobby back permanently, but allowed jaiden and roier ten minutes to talk with him and say their goodbyes. bobby asked them to remember him every time they saw a sunset.

(^ the last time the whole animations family was together. this was 9.5 months ago).

neither q!jaiden nor q!roier ever really fully recovered from bobby's death (although id say jaiden was hit way harder due to not having a support system outside of roier and cucurucho, who took advantage of her grief to manipulate her). there are some other things that happened here, such as q!roier getting married to a cellbit, a brazilian player working as a double agent of sorts within the federation, and purgatory (all the players were teleported to an island, separated into three groups, and forced to fight one another. in the end the island got blown up by a nuke).

on sunday, cc!jaiden talked about her qsmp character, ultimately stating that she was taking a long break from the server, that she had given the admins permission to do whatever they want with her character's absence, and essentially announced that unless the admins stated otherwise, q!jaiden had died in the nuke explosion in purgatory, firmly destroying the animations family.

(to me, the saddest part is that, recently, new eggs were assigned to groups of childless players, and both jaiden and roier got the chance to raise new eggs, with jaiden being assigned to empanada and roier currently being pepito's sole active parent. and all q!jaiden wanted was to be a mom. she died never knowing she had a second chance to rebuild her family. i am no okay.)

in conclusion:

THE LOVE WAS THERE AND THERE WAS NOTHING THEY CAN DO. I AM CRYING IN REAL LIFE I MISS HER SO BAD. SHE'S WITH BOBBY NOW.

#they were a happy family :’(#funny side note i did mimic the Leo pointing meme when you said Jaiden Animations bc i def know about her #the yt animated community was my life in middle school and high school lmao #ironically i didn’t actually watch a lot of jaiden’s stuff but she was like THE animation queen and everyone knew her #tbh i dont remember who was my first #the youtuber who introduced me to that side #i know it’s NOT 0ddonesout even tho i watched a lot of his stories #i guess we’ll never know #smp 101 with gumy #asks

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pinkelotjeart · 2 months

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you brought this upon yourself buddy

Q!SLIME

AHGIEUWGFIWEUBFIWPUEF

im only gonna talk about q!slimes lore here so if you want to know more about the qsmp world as a whole just tell me and it would be my pleasure to explain it to you all you need to know is that: people were on a train, the train leads them to quesadilla island, shit happens there is an evil organization and they are stuck here

oh also they have kids

basically, all the people on the island got got paired up (one english speaker with one spanish speaker) and got an egg

this is the egg phil got if you were wondering, his name is chayyane

and this is charlies egg, juanaflippa

charlie got paired up with mariana (mariana is fucking amazing btw i could also talk about him for hours)

now about flippa: shes canonically a trans girl,shes allergic to bees, grass, detergent, and fish and probably more stuff that i forgot, has a gun and shes a very sweet kid she deserves the world now slime and mariana weren't the most healthy couple. Charlie calls Slime “bitch wife” and mariana has been caught flirting with other men but they do both very much care for each other and they also VERY much care for flippa

i should also mention that the egg have two lives. If both lives are lost the egg dies forever

now everything is fine and dandy till flippa has her first death her first death was because of neglect

you see, if an eggs parents don't do tasks with their egg (ex of tasks are: reading a book to them, drawing with them, cooking something for the egg, etc) and, because mariana and slime didn't log that much on the server at first, flippa lost a life both slime and mariana were fucking desrtoyed and logged in regulary after that to make sure flippa didn't lose any more lives

also slime made a deal to the devil, yes the actual devil that is canon to the qsmp, in order to get a gun for flippa. the deal was that he had to kill chayanne (phils egg) and flippa would get the gun and slime did it!!

later when phil when to kill charlie, flippa shot him dead :]

happy times pass until

untill flippa loses her secod life So when the eggs go to bed they have very cute custom made bed skins?textures? idk but they are very cute here's an example of flippa in bed

very cute

so while mariana was watching over flippa while she slept, he did something that is still remembered by the qsmp fans and gives us and the cc war flashbacks everytime its mentioned he misclicked while having and axe in hand he clicked on flippas bead and broke it and both flippa and the bed disappeared people started freking out everyone thought flippa was dead and one of the most insane qsmp events happened the trial

slime accused mariana of intentionally killing flippa and took mariana to court (slime also maybe talked about killing all the eggs but thats not important rn) the trial is probably my favorite qsmp stream and even if you don't plan on getting into the qsmp i suggest you watch slims pov of it its genuinely so great

to make a long story short, the trialhappens and flippa gets reserected hurrayyyy

all is well everyone is happy things are great until flippa dies a third time mariana and flippa were exploring a dungeon and they got swarmed by mobs and while trying to kill the mobs around them, he accidentally killed flippa

so flippa dies. she isnt coming back and slime may have gone a bit crazy he was/is consumed by grief he went into exile and lives thousands of blocks away from everyone. he tried to kill everyones elses egg but failed and even tho he stopped wanted to kill them and now lives them as a uncle, he still gets sad when he sees the parents and their kids together hes kinda stuck in limbo, he tries to get better and make progress and heal, but his grief still holds him back a lot

also maybe he turned into a green egg named gegg and maybe there is a monster that is impersonating flippa but my fingers are screaming in pain rn lmao so thats all ill say for now

if you do want to learn about gegg and codeflippa and maybe bolas please just tell me and i will happily come back to info dump some more :]

You know I absolutely lost it at the part where they gave the egg a gun - wnjdjwndjw I love the insanity of that all gosh. This is kinda as much as I was expecting cus I did know some stuff about the eggs- but I am enjoying the combination of angst and absurdity.

I think Bolas is the thing I’ve seen the most about- or atleast I’ve seen allot of cool fanart without context I’m curious 👀

#Qsmp #I am genuinely enjoying reading the insanity #THANK YOU FOR THE ASK #or wel technically answer #slimecicle

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yellowhollyhock · 4 months

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I noticed something with Raph and don’s relationship in 03 vs 12. In 03 they seem to get along so well but in 12 they seem to hate each other but that can just be that 12 Donnie tends to yell more and lose his temper while 03 Don is like a fury of a storm which takes time to build up. No hate btw I just feel 03 Don and Raph have a better relationship? What do you think?

Okay you’ve unlocked a long answer but I’ll give a short one first and put the essay under the cut, heheh

Short answer: Yes I agree. 2012 Raph and Don have soft moments, but Donnie makes fun of Raph’s emotions weirdly a lot and for no reason? And insults his intelligence (I know it’s not always on purpose but sometimes it is). And Raph doesn’t mind scaring Donnie to get his way. They both do get better throughout the show. But if 2012 Raph and Donnie met 2003 Raph and Donnie I do think they’d be surprised how close they are.

Long answer:

Hard agree. That’s part of why it took me so long to warm up to 2012. Even still I don’t watch it I just like the fan content. I will say, 2012 pacing is different which I think makes them feel meaner? Like it’s a different style of storytelling that’s more likely to… not trivialize exactly? A lot of things are played for laughs that wouldn’t be in 2003. Like Raph is very mean to Donnie about his crush on April but that’s less the show writers showing us who Raph is and more them inventing Donnie angst imo. And when they need Raph to get really angry for plots it’s usually Donnie who says the cruelest things because Leo’s the main character and Mikey’s the sweetheart.

In 1987 Raphael and Donatello make fun of each other constantly. I think 2012 might be drawing on that. I mean, to me, the 1987 dynamic still felt warmer? Maybe because both characters were mean to everyone, as opposed to mostly each other. But for example, one of my fave episodes, Raphael vs The Volcano. Donatello invents some kind of health-o-meter that Raphael is immediately skeptical of, and when he’s scanned it says he’s about to die. So Raphael is making fun of something that’s clearly important to Donatello right out of the gate, BUT, he spends the rest of the episode taking it very seriously, going around doing good deeds and taking insane risks because he thinks he’s gonna die anyway (and wow okay. Okay. Sure just stomp on my heart and do it in a silly font so that I’ll feel stupid complaining about it. 1987 turtles are fluffy bunnies who will you). Anyway when the other turtles find Raphael inside of an active volcano trying to prevent its upcoming eruption, Donatello is the one coming down from the helicopter to greet him. In fact Donatello is always sticking close to Raphael and even mimicking his tonal patterns. It’s a very sweet warm-feeling moment between two brothers who we constantly see together, who have been apart for a whole episode and their last conversation was a disagreement about Donatello’s latest invention. Here’s what the moment sounds like:

“Hey IIIIDiooot~~”

Which is definitely exactly something Raphael would say to Donatello, probably also while saving his life. I just. They’re both such jerks but they’re still so soft with each other in a way I can’t even explain. And it feels like 2003 prioritized preserving the softness while 2012 focused on preserving the humor. Idk 2012 also just tends to be… angstier? About the family dynamics? Which it is cool to watch their growth, that is a strength. I didn’t want to sit through three seasons of unnecessary comments and veiled threats first though, personally

Anyway my preferred imaginary interpretation of 2012 is that Raph and Donnie are besties, they just express their affection through sarcasm and screaming. Which isn’t necessarily what we’re shown? But I don’t think canon contradicts it either.

This is making me want to explore the idea of 03 Raph meeting and adopting the 12 boys. Imagine 12 Donnie seeing how close their counterparts are and being jealous (I say Donnie being the jealous one because I think he would be the most immature about it which with 03 Raph’s help would lead to some ~healthy conversations~).

#tmnt #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2012 bashing #idk if there’s a tag anyone would like me to use for this please lmk #2003 donnie #2003 raph #tmnt 1987 #1987 raphael #1987 donatello

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hannya-writes · 2 years

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Offspring

Title: Offspring

Serie: Melting Waltz

Fandom: Star Wars

Pairing: Obi Wan Kenobi x Reader

Other characters:Anakin Skywalker

Category: romance,mystery (?), Angst?

Warnings: implied smut, nakedness, I wrote this on my phone 😅

Author's note: This can be read as a stand alone story, but it is part of a serie called "Melting Waltz". Btw, it took me way too long to write this chapter because my work fries my brain and I forget how to write in English.

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At first he felt it. The lost connection was back in his mind but he didn't noticed it. He thought it was the war what got him annoyed, tired and with a profound and insane desire to go to sleep, to go back to his dreams with Y/n.

— No Anakin, that is enough — he snapped at his college who blinked surprised by the amount of anger that flowed on his former master.

—you should told me you were this close with Corki — he offered worried, thinking maybe this mission was too close to Obi Wan's heart. He knew about Obi Wan history with the duchess and Mandalore, but it was getting out of hand. — if you are not feeling well, maybe you should sit this one out —

— I'm sorry, I- is not that... I guess I need some sleep — he admitted, holding back the need to yell the words "He's my child, I don't want to sit this one out!" as an answer, even when that wasn't true. Anakin patted his shoulder and he decided to do as he was told and take a nap.

Obi Wan could not understand his feeling. They felt overwhelming and he didn't recognized the second hand worry or sadness. He thought there was something wrong with him, maybe it was time for him to leave the order since he couldn't get a hold of his feelings.

— Obi wan — the soft voice of Y/n reminded him that his worry had seep through his dream world and he didn't like that. He wanted to be free of his mundane worry when being with his secret lover.

Y/n was using his chest as a pillow as she hugged him and she nuzzled against him listening to his heart. That relaxed him, feeling her by side made him forget everything.

— yes, darling? — he answered her, wondering why she was acting with such sadness and uneasiness. He let his fingers dance over the soft skin on her back comforting her.

—Children — she said rolling over him, her naked and warm body over his own nakedness made him feel she was the embodiment of comfort. His hand caressed her hair, bringing back the rebellious strands of hair. She looked beautiful, so beautiful he got confused by the only word she had said. — children, do you like them? — she seemed embarrassed and a bit reluctant. He found it cute.

— I have little experience with children, I'm not sure what you want to hear my love— he confessed and Y/n laughed, her hand had started to peacefully draw patterns over his chest.

— what I mean... What I'm try to...— he laughed at her nervousness and incapability to say whatever she wanted to tell him or ask him. — Ben! Don't laugh! — she scolded him annoyed but he couldn't stop laughing which made her flop her head in his abs in a little tantrum.

— oh, I'm terribly sorry little one — he combed her hair while she looked away from him, maybe that way she would be able to ask the question that was burning in her chest.

— have you ever think about having offspring — there was a second of silence before she ended the question — with me? — Obi Wan looked down at her, she was still looking away, too embarrassed by her own question.

Offspring. Children, little living proofs that he had slept with his best friend. The product of his love for her. Children with her y/h/c hair and his eyes. No, her eyes, his hair. Maybe they'll have a laugh like the one Y/n had or they'll have that little tic she had, the one where she cracked her knuckles. They'll be fragile but grow strong, kind and thoughtful.

— I get that the reason we as Jedi are allowed to have intercourse is with that goal in mind, for you men it's easy you basically have to go around throwing your semen into women but for us Jedi women, we have to chose — she mumbled and Obi Wan was hit by her words

— my, my, am I hearing right? Did you implied I'm the chosen one for you?— he asked mockingly making her turn towards his face, completely blushed, embarrassed by the idea.

— What? No, of course not! — she tried to stand up as she heard Obi Wan laugh, however before she got far away the strong hands of Obi Wan caught her and threw her back to bed, trapping her below him and against the mattress.

— If you gave birth to my offspring... — he was back to being sweet — we will have to leave the order because, I'll be completely compromised with my family instead of the order — she looked at him and laughed.

— I'll give birth to your children, then — she said laughing. Like every time, he felt happy at the sight but for a second he could have sworn he had seen Y/n crying not laughing.

He hovered above her and kissed her. Y/n kissed him back and he knew everything was fine, perfectly fine. So, why was he so worried about her? And why did he keep thinking he had to find his children?

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nonuggetshere · 1 year

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Please, your grace, tell us more about the vessel children

GLADLY

Sorry if this makes little sense, I am very sleepy and my brain refuses to work normally

All of these bastards were made with FaaF AU in mind, but they exist in other AUs too

Their ages are listed compared to Flower's age, 21-26 years old, because that's the point where they met most of them to when the conflict with Norel concludes. Except for Baby, who was found when Flower was 26.

This is probably the first time I draw most of these designs, so they might change in the future

Alabaster and Silk were practically inseparable from the moment they left the Abyss (I'm considering making them twins too). The first few years of their lives weren't pretty, they were homeless and survived by stealing alone, it wasn't much but they got by. In their early teens, they got wrapped up in some pretty unsavoury circles before two older ladies showed them some kindness and took them in. The two ladies were fashion designers (a spider and a silkworm moth) and took the kids in as their apprentices, and eventually officially adopted them. A few years later, Alabaster and Silk would find Lime just wandering the streets by themself and took them back to their mums who happily took their younger sibling in as well.

Silk is very very talkative and energetic, a social bee who loves to travel and meet new people. She had some issues with trusting people when their mums just took them in, but eventually, they blossomed into a cheerful kid.

Alabaster is the more tame and level-headed side to Silk's coin, they prefer peace and quiet and sometimes just prefer to be alone. He's completely non-verbal, but despite this also doesn't like to sign, just prefers to stay quiet most of the time.

Lime is a shy, reserved kid who spent most of their early life alone and now finds it hard to connect with others. They mostly stay glued to their siblings' or mums' side and rarely open up to anyone but these four. As they grow, though, they begin to slowly come out of their shell, but it's a long process.

Alanis and Dancer are travelling companions along with Dancer's love interest/boyfriend, Anthony (he's an ant and he's trans, he saw the pun opportunity and took it). Neither of them has naturally dark hair btw, they just dye it.

Alanis used to be a singer in a travelling band, but after a chance encounter with Norel she lost both her friends/siblings and her voice. Thanks to that experience she's a bit more got headed than before and snappy with Dancer, though it all comes from the place of concern. She can come off as a bit rude and bitter at times, but she means well. Though she's no longer able to sing, she still pursues being a musician by playing different instruments.

Dancer is a street performer who takes a lot of pride in his skills and art (his siblings teasingly call him a clown which he despises). He tries to be the comedy relief but it's actually all to mask his years of trauma. He used to travel with two more of their siblings before they got captured by Norel, he was the only one who managed to get out and save Alanis, which is how they met/reunited. Also, literally the biggest pussy there is when it comes to fighting, he's got them oppossum skills (play dead and hope for the best).

Nomi is very different from most of their siblings. Ey were adopted pretty early on by a royal couple from another kingdom and lived a pretty well-off life. They've got kind of shitty self-esteem so they overcompensate by appearing obnoxious confident and self-absorbed. They're kind of naive but try to mean well. You know the type of rich person who asks insane questions like "why don't you just buy a house?" when you complain about rent and then are shocked to learnt hat 99% of people can't do that? Yeah, they're that type of guy.

Razor is a leader of a bandit group. She's an asshole with a gigantic martyr complex who insists that they don't need help even when they're in desperate need of it. Despite his rough exterior though, he loves his siblings more than anything in the world and would sacrifice everything for them. They used to take care of three of their siblings (bluethepearldiver's ocs) until an incident where they ended up murdering their little brother's abusive spouse finally made them realise maybe they can't handle it all by themself and decide it's better if they take their siblings to Hallownest. Also, her hair isn't naturally black, she just dyed it with her own void (with a name like that, did you expect anything less edgy from them?)

Razor also doesn't get along with Nomi and Dancer. They absolutely hate Nomi's naivety to how the world truly works, the two of them just come from such different walks of life that Razor just can't deal with Nomi's perspective on life. Dancer they just comply find annoying.

Wish was Norel's assistant, helping him lure and trap its siblings, all out of its own selfish desire to be spared from the same fate its siblings endured. Aside from that, it's kind of a cold, calculated asshole, placing its own needs above anybody else's. Still, it is not without a heart, and if it feels it can get away with lying to Norel and sabotaging him to help its siblings, it will do it. It does feel remorse sometimes, and in the end, it stabs Norel in the back and helps its siblings, but after everything it did, it doesn't feel like it deserves anything from them so it simply leaves and never contacts any of them again.

Baby was a premature vessel, born after most of their siblings already left the Abyss. It isn't until many years later when Flower is 26, are they finally heard by them. They drag their father out of bed and make him open the Abyss again, and Baby's found and brought to the surface, although weak and wounded. For some time they would only want to be handled by Flower, but eventually warmed up to their parents and slowly started to regain their strength and heal. Now, they are being raised by PK and WL, and considering their small age gap they're best of friends with Flower's twins, Spectre and Sting. Baby was also named by Flower (they suck at naming things).

#asks #spooky arts #faaf au #my ocs #DO YOU HAVE. ANY IDEA HOW HARD IT WAS TO MAKE THEM ALL LOOK BOTH RELATED AND UNIQUE?#IDK WHY MIXING PK'S AND WL'S FACE SHAPES IS SO FUCKING HARD TO ME #Also not to play favourites with my own children. But Dancer is my favourite. Alabaster and Silk are close second #Also I guess Dancer is transmasc and Alanis is transfem #Dancer and Anthony will also have a kid in the future but I am yet to design them #Also I think it's obvious (at least with Al) but Alabaster is meant to greatly resemble PK while Silk is a spitting image of WL #oc: nomi #oc: dancer #oc: alanis #oc: alabaster #oc: silk #oc: lime #oc: razor #oc: baby #oc: whisper

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bosquedemel · 1 year

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like i’ve watched almost all the long behind the scenes features of LOTR that are available on youtube and it’s insane how much work was put into those movies. first i think they started making the props, costumes and prosthetics etc. well before filming started. they made hobbiton like 2 years before filming because they needed that time for the grass and trees to grow!!

it went like this: they managed to get alan lee and another artist whose name i don’t recall right now - like the 2 biggest tolkien artists whose designs they had started using for the aforementioned props, sets etc. - to come and work in the movies (and it was the first time those two men had met btw), they took them to this random place in the country and they let them draw hobbiton using the location as a basis. then they agreed with their designs, they brought construction equipment, they buit the holes, the streams, the bridges, and then, because the land was bare, they planted everything and let it all grow for a fucking year so that it looked like a lived in place. and this was like a year or two before the actors even got there. hello????

they also built rohan on top of that hill like the golden hall was real, the houses were real and the gates were real. the council of rivendell scene was filmed in a public garden (iirc) and they built the arches and stuff but the leaves that are falling during that scene, while real, were hand painted gold so as to appear like it was the fall (and to fit in with the rivendell aesthetic). and - just another thing that i thought was interesting - before alan lee and the other artist got there, as i said, they had started work based on their lotr art, but then the artist realized that, while his depiction of that great hall in moria had round pillars, the dwarves actually would probably have squared, sturdy pillars, like use squares and rectangles instead of circles, and so he himself changed his previous design because the latter was better. and it was cause it totally fits with the mining culture. ok i just wanted to say that. anyway. crazy amount of work

#lotr

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wandapinkay · 2 months

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HIIIII it's friendly anon back again!! ヾ(ゝω・)ノ

the pleasure is all mine, i assure you! :D i was a bit apprehensive to drop in your inbox at first - since i'm not well-versed in self-shipping culture and ask culture on this site is tragically dead - but i got a cool new parasocial friendship out of it and i discovered a new and exciting way to consume media and enjoy characters, so i'm glad that i did!! \^o^/ it took me a long time to realize it, but i truly think self-shipping was the last piece of the puzzle that i was missing in my previous hyperfixations. so what if that man is fictional, what do you mean he can't be mine??

in other news, i've already gotten four of my friends to watch steins;gate and i also recently convinced my sister and her husband to give it a try! i have rewatched the entire show three times alone this month, i am fully insane 🙏

WAITTTT THOSE CATBOY EDITS ARE SO CUTE ACTUALLY 🥺🥺i'm so impressed with how authentic they look, how did you capture the steins;gate style so well?? the second one on particular looks so real, suddenly i'm convinced daru was a catboy the whole time and i just never noticed lol

MAD respect for that 200-unit daru pic collection btw, i've been deep-diving in the darkest corners of the internet for fanart of okabe and i have found some amazing comics featuring daru that made me think of you ( ¯ ³¯)♡! on that note, i've also seen some very sweet drawings of daru with baby suzuha which, out of curiosity, made me wonder what your thoughts on them are together as father and daughter! i adore them honestly, but i'm curious to know if you feel differently about them since you self-ship with daru! i've seen a couple selfshippers in another fandom i frequent who have drawn fankids with their f/o's before and that got me wondering since suzuha is a unique case :)

ASDFJAKSFKSF YES THAT WAS THE NAME OF THE VN idk why i called it that, i think someone else called it that in a reddit post-

nevertheless, my point stands. i cannot even begin to express my disappointment that we didn't get to see daru OR okabe in a maid outfit. heck, we didn't even get to see daru in his penguin suit (though the fact that he was really popular in it made me cackle)! i mean it when i say that if the devs hadn't been cowards and gave us frilly daru and okabe, i would not have looked even twice at the girls. the men yearn for the frills!!! \o/

wahhhh you really are so nice, i appreciate you a bunch :) :) and wow, i thought for sure you'd been part of the community for longer than a year, you seem so comfortable here! was it easy for you to get settled in the community? you've been so nice, but i'm a bit scared to dip my toes in the self-shipping tag if you have any advice👉👈 (thank you again for being so kind and accommodating!! ^^;)

I DID, I SAID THE LINE!! WHERE IS MY PRIZE

your message has been delivered and summarily ignored except for the kiss which he accepted with dignity :3

to sign off, i am blowing both you and daru a pair of friendly kisses! i wish you both a very good night AND OH MAN I ALMOST FORGOT IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY IN TWO DAYS??? in that case, i wish you both a good night AND a wonderful valentine's day if you have any plans!!

thank you again for reading!! i will most assuredly be back if i am still welcome! (ᴗ͈ ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ.ﾟ

OMG HI ONCE AGAIN!! SO SORRY IF I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER YOUR ASK, I WAS BUSYY 😭 Still so happy for the fact you're enjoying your new hobbie, I think everyone should try selfshipping at least once in their lives.. and woAHH amazing steins;gate propaganda you've done there! Wish I could do that to most of my friends but some have already seen it ages ago and some aren't just interested so I just kinda gave up HFH ALSO HOOOLY and I thought finishing the series in like,, 2 months was mental but you got me there I'm honest /lh I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW HOW I DID IT?? I just kinda went with it by using a small brush with no pressure and blurring out everything a little bit so it matched the og pic's quality I suppose?? I'm happy you think they seem legit, I did my job well then ; u ; <3 OMG THAT'S SO SWEET OF YOU THOUGHH 🥺🥺 now you got me curious on which ones you're referring to waa.. ALSO UMM.. ABOUT SUZUHA- I had a few concepts for how my relationship with Daru would work in-universe.. so I made a couple of them: one is the "good" ending I guess, while another is just "angst™"

.. yeah, can you tell I felt awful while coming up with the second one? GDGSFGFSD IT'S FINE THOUGH, I'M OK NOW But this is besides the point; I actually really love Suzuha's character and I prefer her over the other girls.. and my favorite dynamic is hers with Daru and Yuki (ironically).. seeing Daru being a dad melts my heart because sometimes I wish I had a father figure as sweet as he is aaa I prefer to see myself with Daru than project myself onto Yuki though, because I'd treat him differently than he does sometimes if I gotta be honest Still, hope you like the silly ideas- WAIT,, UH?? DARU HAS A PENGUIN SUIT?? I NEED TO SEE IT SO BADD 😭😭 Also fr, why can't they just satisfy the boy's fans for once,, I feel like they're leaving us out on purpose at this point- /j

Btw, for the selfship community part, I didn't really do much! I just started to post my artwork in the tag and started following and interacting with some peeps, although rarely because I'm still akward about it, but the people in it are so nice!! In my opinion, it's worth a shot!

Also thank you so much!! I hope you had a great Valentine's day with Okabe as well, sending you kisses as well! I posted a fanart that is kinda vday themed but nothing selfshippy unfortunately, but me and Daru would have probably chilled at home, exchanging eachother chocolates and stuff like that! Idk, I'm not a very "outside" person but if we had in plan to go somewhere like the May Queen to get something together, I wouldn't have minded either!

Of course you're welcome to come back, it's always a pleasure! Since I don't get asks often, it brightens up my day to see something in my inbox once in a while, so thank you still for feeling comfy enough to come back! Have a great day/night! 💕💕

#wanda's replies #wandapinkay's ask #steins;gate #daru #itaru hashida #suzuha #suzuha amane #yuki #yuki amane #selfship #selfshipping #selfshipping community #okabe #okabe rintaro #super hacking my heart 💻💖

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intrepidradish · 1 year

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Media: NBC Hannibal

Year/my age: 2020/30

What drew me to the media:

I had long been a fan of Hannibal Lector. Silence of the Lambs was one of the first suspense thriller movies I watched, and it's so good. I think it's a perfect movie for me. It never gets stale. Hannibal is good too. Red Dragon is pretty good (but I think I liked Manhunter better). I haven't seen Hannibal Rising... oops. I wonder where that is playing. Guess I know what I'm doing later.

So it made sense that I was intrigued by the show. I didn't just launch from Farscape into Hannibal btw. I actually took a detour through some animated shows. The one I remember the most was the new She-Ra. That show rocked, but I always felt a little weird about the concept of writing porn for a show aimed at children. I had the inclination too, and then backpedaled. People that can do that are way more dedicated to the craft then me. Hats off to you.

Also REMINDER the shutdown happened in March of 2020. I was trapped inside. I watched Hannibal. Probably not amazing for my brain, but....eeeeehhhhh.... we were in an impossibly difficult situation and trauma be where trauma does. (that sentence purposely makes no sense)

What made me a fan:

I'd like to say I was already a fan as stated above. I love Hannibal Lector. I was already truffle snuffling for monstrous men. Mads Mikkelson is a weird babe, etc etc. I also really dug the religious imagery and over-the-top murders (but if we're critiquing, the dialogue was very heavy handed, perhaps too much)

I'm not a serial killer fan. I'm not particularly interested in true crime. Procedural television bores me. But season one was so refreshing for Hannibal! I think there should be more really fucked up detectives (looks at Disco Elysium, yeah! YEAH!) and that's coming from someone whose favorite detective is actually Poirot, the most uptight fussy ponce imaginable.

What drew me in is also what draws a lot of people into Hannibal. The romantic tension and the fooooooooooood. I love food. I love making love with a good meal. I love the flouncy, fantastical elements of expensive dining mixed with DEATH DECAY DESTRUCTION EAT EAT EAT DESTROY DEVOUR. Would you like some more wine with that? It's a three hundred year old vintage that cost $2K from a province that was burned in ww2 and never recovered.

Like...It's great.

It's also a very pretty show. It's also a very different show.

Like I watched Killing Eve too, and that show is fun, but it's like....not nearly as deranged as this one. Like Hannibal is a crazy show. I can't imagine what kinds of hoops people jumped through to get this thing made.

Have I written fanfiction for it? Why or why not?

I have written ONE fanfiction for it. Doneness is a very weird story. I had two people edit it. One being iterations, who said it wasn't gross enough and the ending was disappointing (she's very honest) and the other being Pierrot_dreams, who I know in real life and is a fantastic writer/editor but also writes insanely violent porn. We were talking recently and reminiscing on Doneness. She was like "that story was fucking weird."

It is.

But I wanted to write a fanfiction with the same tone as the show, which is difficult, because the show is, as mentioned, fucking wonky. The dialogue is intense. The symbolism is heavy handed. Food is really important. The romantic tension is like a cut vein, you're bleeding out, and in love.

I wanted it to be a procedural murder mystery like from the first season but with all the drama of the second season. I wanted it to be gnarly. I wanted the villain to be understandable. I wanted a lot. I think I deliver on that, but the fandom for Hannibal is also a little weird.

I'm not disappointed with the reception of this very weird story. I only wrote one story, so I never built up a fanbase for my own writing there. Every time I reread it, I enjoy it a lot. It's well written, and well edited, and also crazy (and the sex is hot).

Opinion on the fandom:

I think people want to make this show much softer than it is. I think people see these two violent insane characters and want them tamed. They want them in their coffee shop au, where there is no killing only fine dining. That's fine. I never ever want to be a gatekeeper to what people want from a media. I'm just not going to read it.

I liked the show because it was violent and vengeful and it was never going to be fixed. The situation was untenable. I hope those two bastards did die. I hope they aren't on their honey moon in Italy or whatever. I hope they got smashed against the rocks and took hours to die looking at each other with blood and salt water in their mouths, unable to move. I hope Bedelia got eaten by another food fetishist.

It's grotesque obsession and sometimes that's love. That's the story. I wouldn't want to change that. That's what stories are for, for me to live as someone else for awhile because WOW that's absolutely never going to happen to me. Hahah. Thank GOD.

Would I read it again?

Sure! Terror loves Hannibal. I really want to get in the mood to read all her stories because I bet they are amazing. Some of the best fanfiction I read for Hannibal were these quickies written by ScarletteStarlett. I'd read those again because wow they are great.

#my personal take

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streaming-yn · 3 years

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HIIII it's 3 am and i'm trying to sleep but brain went brr with ideas n shit and oh well- thing is ; i was wondering if i could make my first request? (smth simple if u want to, no need to be very long or anything + pls don't rush nd take ur time AND don't feel pressured to actually do my request :] ! ) maybe smth ab faceless art streamer! y/n [they/them]?? (if u could add that the reader is like an indie game dev or works for smth like that u'd be sosososososo cool omg) with maybe quackity, tommy, dream, ranboo, niki and/or jack?? idk brain did the storming and its all messy hsdnshhfjsjz (btw! i know it's a lot of CCs so feel free to remove some or do the ones ur only comfy with !!! take care nd stay safe !!! luv ya <3 (/p))

AS SOMEONE WHO LIKES TO GAME DESIGN, CHARACTER, AND PLOT DESIGN YOU BET I CAN MAKE THE READER AND INDIE GAME DEV (and aaaa ty for adding jack!!! I think he's really neat and not enough people acknowledge him :))!!)

Multiple x indie game dev!artist!y/n

pairings: quackity, tommy, dream, ranboo, niki, jack manifold (separate) x indie game dev!artist!y/n

pronouns: they/them