#the pam initiative

[softlyapocalytpic]

WIP Day

Tagged by @persephotea

This is from chapter three of The P.A.M Initiative! I'm hoping to take it off hiatus finally and publish more. <3

“Are you a patriot, Ms. Ishikawa?” Colonel Armstrong’s voice was level, measured, but the thinly veiled threat was clear. 

Mae swallowed up her fear, “Y-yes, sir.” She didn’t dare move and she was considering not breathing. Certainly felt like she wasn’t breathing. 

“Is the future of this country important to you, Ms. Ishikawa?” The Colonel moved his hand to his desk chair but kept his back turned.

“Yes, sir.”

He finally turned to face her, brown eyes narrowed, “So, why are you late, Ms. Ishikawa? What was so important that you arrived hours late after your assigned arrival time because I’m very curious as to what is so important to you that you would jeopardize this project.” 

This was a trap. He already knew why she was gone, but he was going to make her feel the shame of prioritizing her family for one day and make her fear ever doing it again. In a strange messed-up way, it reminded her of her father. He would make her and Lin admit to what they did wrong like this to prove a point, to prove that he was right and that they should feel guilty. And just like with her father, she was reminding herself that she was indeed a grown woman, but it didn’t make her feel any better. It didn’t make her feel any less like a child. 

The shame burned her skin as she forced herself to steady her words, “I was dropping my daughter off at school, sir.”

“Don’t you have your husband do that for you?” Gone was the level threatening tone replaced with an insulting condescension. 

“I-”

“No need for excuses, Ms.Ishikawa. See that this doesn’t happen again, or there will be consequences. Dismissed.” Colonel Armstrong sat down at his desk, her existence undoubtedly becoming a fly in his periphery. Mae wanted to scream and cry. To shove Davidson’s time punch card in this asshole’s face, or give him some taste of his own medicine, but she didn’t. The words came slowly. Pushing them out of her mouth made her feel nauseous, and she willed the tears to not show. “Understood, sir.”

She walked out the room feeling every tug and pinch of her clothes on her skin; the wire of her bra cut into her, the seam of her tights on her toes, the back of her heels rubbed against her ankles, and the belt of her dress too tight around her stomach. The fluorescents did a two-for-one combo of being just the right kind of awful brightness mixed with that horrible low buzz. 

She didn’t remember walking into the bathroom, or opening the stall door.

#fallout 4 #wip #the pam initiative #mae ishikawa

[krysmcscience]

This showed up on my dash well after I was supposed to have already gone to sleep, and I legit thought that somebody had posted it as a joke about how they'd wind up in fucking SPACE if they had to drive the Stardew bus on their own

Top Tier Comedy Moment, shame it was all a product of sleep deprivation

#stardew valley #nasa #nasa? in my orbit? i fucking hope so #here have some bad jokes #i still have not gone to sleep #i am so good at existing #pam why are you trusting the farmer who had to take a bus to get to stardew valley to drive the bus YOU need for your job #is this what caused the bus to break down initially??? #food for thought

[gayofthefae]

Okay, so...to recap the information we explicitly have:

Will is gay and has feelings for Mike. There have been signs of this in the show since the beginning. He would not tell Mike this while he was still in a relationship with El. Will’s scripted coy reactions were in reaction to Mike’s scripted “sly smile”. The blocking of the couples on the hill and El alone in relation to Will and Mike “could be foreshadowing, could not” - Noah Schnapp.

Not to mention how giggly the entire cast and creators are about it, especially that recent Noah interview where he stopped the translators from skipping the Byler question and then could not stop grinning and perhaps bouncing his feet a little if I remember? while saying that they’d have to...watch season 5 and see when they asked if he thought Byler could really happen. Also “not to mention” all the metas and analysis of subtext.

But we know for a fact that Will is gay and has feelings for Mike and has since the beginning - confirming fan spotted subtext, that Noah started stumbling over his words before saying that the blocking “could be” foreshadowing. Not just have meaning, foreshadowing. 

#noah schnapp #byler #stranger things #can they really get on him for spoilers at this point though like #who's it gonna be the person who makes the love interest more comfortable or his gf who he treats like a friend and doesn't initiate anythin #g with in the confirmed love triangle #honestly if it wasn't for heteronormativity NOT ending with byler would be the twist #it'd be like having pam just end up with roy because he worked on their r/s which like yeah is nice but what where did that come from #byler is canon

[lessycusee]

i gotta stop adding characters with 'p' names that have the same name or older/younger versions because i'm running out of brackets to use for tupper

#( the smallest planet with the biggest heart // ooc ) #(i have two peter parker variants + peter pan & now both older & younger pam from totally killer) #(i've had to use 'p' 'pp' & 'ph' now) #(but even initials would've have saved the peters-) #(i was lit just gonna use p for older pam & then i was like oh wait-)

[alargehunkofdebris]

Why There’ll Never Be Another Good Omens 2 Experience

The strangest thing happened after a few days post my watching of S2. I got a wave of real, bittersweet sadness.

Not due to the obvious – I was dealing with that too, but with more excitement than anything – but because I realized something, as a writer and consumer of media. I realized that it’s unlikely I’ll ever get a media experience close to what I experienced at the end of Good Omens 2. Because really, its setup was absolutely unparalleled – in general, and for myself personally.

I am currently writing my third romance, and what I’ve learned primarily about the genre, the way for it to really work, is that there needs to be something keeping the couple apart initially. The more things keeping the couple apart, the stronger the romance hits. The more the couple clashes with each other, the better it is. Societal norms, class issues, initial dislike, literal danger—all these aspects are what make a romance a story. It’s that conflict that creates the compelling narrative. No romance was ever popular because things worked out well from the beginning – it’s that “look at what we were, and look at us now” aspect that gives readers/watchers that satisfaction. It’s the “I can’t believe this happened” effect. The “I would never have foreseen this” effect. The “they’ll never be together” effect. It’s why forbidden romances are so incredibly popular.

Another aspect that makes a romance story really work well is the amount of time it takes for the romance to develop. A couple that gets together after a few days? Eh, it’s tricky. You better make it really dramatic somehow. A great example is Titanic – class differences, betrothal, and a huge amount of danger threatens this couple, so them being in love after only a few days works. But what really sells this one is because we can see how this romance has survived beyond those few days. We see it 80 years in the future, still there, in the memory of Rose. That is why it hits so hard. Romances that span over long periods of time (especially ones that are bittersweet/tragic) hit so much more than ones spanning a short period.

But wait! There’s more!

You can up this effect by not only having the romance take time in story…but having it take time in real life, for the viewer/reader.

This is why romances in TV shows that take years to finally work out are so compelling. It’s that “Pam and Jim” effect, that will-they-won’t-they deal. We are waiting right along with them, and we’re feeling that same relief when all those things keeping them apart finally fall away. This is harder to pull off, because there’s never that guarantee that the story will make it that far. TV shows get cancelled, creators lose interest or die, etc. So it’s not just “Will They, Won’t They,” it’s “Will They, Won’t They, Can They Even Try?”

This is also compounded by that fear that it won’t happen in-story after all, and while in romances you’re pretty positive that things work out (they kinda have to, for it to be labeled a “romance”) in other media, there’s always that possibility. Look at Community – there’s a forbidden/conflict-ridden romance that didn’t end up working out, even though it was “Will They, Won’t They”d for six entire seasons. You also then have shows and ships where fans are almost sure it won’t happen, but still hold out hope. (See: Supernatural, Sherlock, etc.)

Now. Now look at Good Omens. Look at that absolutely unparalleled, unbelievable set up. It’s unbelievable because it takes almost every single thing that makes a romance compelling, and not only uses all of them, but dials them up to 11.

Why are they at odds? Why are they forbidden from being together?

Because they are literally the most opposing forces you can imagine in Western Canon. They are the Angel Guarding The Gate and The Serpent of Eden. The literal only way you could’ve made this a bigger deal would’ve been to make it God and Satan, and even that would’ve not hit as hard, because it’d be like two CEOs getting together – there’s no fear of a higher power adding that delicious conflict. And to add to all this, in real life, the couple is portrayed as two men, which adds that second meta level of conflict.

And what fear/danger is keeping this couple apart?

Not just familial disappointment—but disappointment from God and Heaven and Hell. Not just moral guilt, but the guilt of potentially dooming the entire Earth. And finally, on top of that, the very real danger of being killed. Not only that, but making it as though you never even existed.

And in real life, they face all those roadblocks that queer couples in media have been battling for years and years, but I'll talk about that more in a second.

Okay, then Time. How long have they been kept apart?

For…all of it.

All of the time that ever existed.

They, quite literally, could not have been kept apart longer.

And this leads into those final two points, the ones that actually really sell it. Because I can sit down right now and write a story about an angel and a demon falling for each other at the beginning of time against all odds…but what I can’t do is to have already written it thirty-three years ago.

That’s how long this story has existed. Thirty. Three. Years.

I’m not even counting how this is using characters that have existed as opposing forces for thousands of years. I’m not even saying that, even though that’s also a part of it. But besides that, this story, this exact story started thirty-three years ago, and is still being continued by the author to this day.

Do you know how uncommon that is?

Yes, we have canon that has lasted for many, many years. Hundreds. We get new versions of beloved older stories ever year. But it’s so very rare that they are by the same creator. We get new Sherlock Holmes content, but it is not written by Arthur Conan Doyle. This, on the other hand, is actual canon content, written by the author of the original. That is unbelievably rare.

That means we’ve got a fandom where some people have grown up with these characters. People who read it at twenty are fifty-three. People who read it at fifty are eighty-three. Kids who saw their parents reading the book now have children of their own. It is a cult classic that has been in the hearts of so many people for generations. Me, personally, I fell in love with it ten years ago, at age twenty, at the very beginning of my own writing journey. This story means so much to people, because it’s stood that test of time.

And yet, this story was never explicitly romantic. So many saw it that way, but it was never something confirmed. Because this was a book from the 90s, at a time where this kind of romance just wasn’t in popular media if it wasn’t played as a joke. It was, back then, the same kind of “forbidden” as a romance between angel and demon. So people imagined, but they never expected anything more. And they’ve continued not expecting more, because even in the 2019 first season, there was never any true confirmation of anything, and people accepted it. You have a 33-year-old story here – it’s possible that this major change/confirmation could happen, but all things considered, it was unlikely. You would never blame the creator for not making major developments to a story they wrote with their late friend a lifetime ago. And no one in production was saying a word to confirm or deny, but we’ve seen all this before. It was a Will-They-Won’t-They…Probably-Not situation.

And then you have the end of S2.

And that's where that bittersweet sadness comes in for me, personally. Not at a huge level, not to the point where I'd have it any other way, but it's there regardless. Because I realized that this was a unique situation that could never be replicated, for me, and likely for many, especially readers of the book pre-show. In all likelihood, I would never again experience a romantic payoff like this one. Because it was the most forbidden of forbidden romances, the couple of which have been kept apart by the worst of all dangers and highest level of guilt for the longest amount of time literally possible, written over a real-life span of time where this kind of romance went from “completely taboo even in real life” to “finally acceptable in popular media,” written by the same creator, and not confirmed as canon until the story reached the age of Jesus Christ himself.

And the real kicker is, even after everything these two literally star-crossed lovers have gone through…they’re still being kept apart. They’ve still not taken down those final, seemingly insurmountable barriers between them. It wasn’t a “here you go 😊” move to make long-time fans happy – it’s being used as a perfect, painful plot point. After 33 years, we’re still having to wait longer.

Chef's kiss. Couldn’t have been a better set up if it was mathematically calculated. And yet, the best part is that it happened organically.

It just works.

#good omens #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 spoilers #good omens 2 #gos2 spoilers #good omens s2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #good omens season 2 spoilers #gos2 #good omens meta #good omens 2 meta #neil gaiman

[pearl-tarotist]

ꕥღ What fanfic trope do your fs and you resemble?ღꕥ

As the first PAC of my collection "cliche moments with your fs", this tarot reading tries to tag the dynamic of your relationship with your fs in a fanfic trope.

P1-P2-P3:

PILE 1: "Sometimes I lay in bed at night just saying your name"

Insecure love interest x Successful lover

The dynamic between your fs and you feels protective and encouraging. But it seems that one of you, even if you are successful and productive, does not feel good enough to be in a relationship with the love interest. I see cute and beautiful interactions at the beginning of your relationship, where the insecure part blushes and hugs themselves in a protective way, while the other part is just happy to be able to interact with them, their eyes shining and body leaning towards the other in interest. The more secure person is truly successful with the magician's energy. This connection really makes sense if it is interpreted in an "office scenario" where the more extroverted part is doing a good job in a more visible department while the other is busy with the internal operations of the company. The extroverted part is always smiling for the other, but it seems that their romantic signals and flirting goes unnoticed by the insecure one, nevertheless, they just keep trying and scheming to interact with the "insecure" person in a way that seems unplanned, even when they are really planning it so the interactions seem natural and do not scare the other. Once the outgoing person understands that their romantic interest likes them but is keeping their distance to avoid damaging their reputation, they will increase their efforts to win them over. They will compliment and affectionate touch them for a time. Building up their love interest's self-esteem appears to be the initial step towards a stable relationship, so they will strive to accomplish this.

(5 of Gems - Ten of Shells - The Magician - Ace of Roses - Five of Shells)

Channeled messages:

Katniss Everden and Peeta Mellark: "You could live a hundred lifetimes and not deserve him, you know"

Edward x Bella in Twilight.

Bridget Jones!!

"Bridget: I read that you should never go out with someone if you can think of three reasons why you shouldn't. Mark: And can you think of three? Bridget: Yes. Mark: Which are? Bridget: First off, I embarrass you. I can't ski, I can't ride, I can't speak Latin, my legs only come up to here, and yes, I will always be just a little bit fat."

PILE 2: "pieces of me exist in every person i've ever loved"

"Work team trope"

The start of this relationship has a purpose. Maybe it's because of your job. It seems you both spend time together to achieve an objective. It may be due to work, a college project, a competition or debate... Both of you would be interested in achieving a common goal. It appears that for this aim, the both of you ought to work together and express your ideas, visions, and intentions for the project. This love is honest and gradual. It will occur without any of you noticing. For instance, one day you may go to work and notice that they appear more attractive than usual or that their smile is lovely. You will get used to each other's presence without even realizing it. And when that person is no longer around, you will notice their absence greatly! You will miss each other so much that it will drive you both crazy. You'll wonder why you feel this way. It's a strange but warm feeling in your chest. When you collaborate with them, you'll start to stutter, blush, and get nervous in their presence mid-collaboration! I can also imagine some of you working in a laboratory or hospital - somewhere bright and very clean. This project will be a triumph that warrants some revelry! You will realize that you are a great team and are likely to continue working together on other topics.

(King of Shells - Ace of Wings - 3 of Shells - 7 of Shells)

Channelled messages:

(500) Days of summer

The office (Pam and Jim)

The fault in our starts: “As he read, I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once.”

PILE 3: "you are such a soft and messy thing"

"Love at first sight x long-distance relationship"

In a trip, in a foreign land, you meet someone so beautiful in your eyes that you are convencied that they are your soulmate. You start to develop these unlogical feelings of posesiveness every time you see them with another person and you try to keep the same behaviour even if your feelings are not. You wait for a sign as the days go by, while you need to return to your country. You are unsure whether you should express your feelings towards someone you have recently met. You have and want the "perfect life" and this just feels like an obstacle to achieve it. Regardless, on the day before departing, you express your emotions to the other individual and initiate a relationship with them, even if it requires sacrificing some aspects of your life. The other person shares your feelings, but they did not want to stop your development in other aspects of your life such as work or college, that's why they did not declare. You both form a relationship, sometime, long-distance or in-person, and take the time to get to know each other and the cultures you each belong to.

Channelled messages:

Romeo and Juliet

Mamma Mia

#pearl #tarot #pick a pile #pac #tarot reading #love tarot #pick a card #astrology #feedback #free tarot #future spouse tarot #future spouse #future spouse reading

[pininiu]

Our Life B&A doodles while I mess with brushes

I had the funny idea of making the story where Pam and Lani ended up adopting triplets cuz they felt bad to separate the three

(I think they’re well-off enough to feed 3 extra mouths or at least in this universe)

Liz reminds me of my sister a lot so I think she’d call her siblings “little minions”

The names are very random I initially just named them after my playthrough for each route and they’re all fleshed out, I just like the drama Maceo has with Baxter the most

Will doodle the other MCs with Cove and Derek one day

Also extra Baxter doodles

#our life beginnings & always #olba mc #olba #showing Baxter to my best friend was a mistake #psychic damage was inflicted upon me when I saw their first thoughts about the man

[ciaonicole85]

ESCAPING INTO A SHIP

So what exactly made me latch onto the Sydcarmy ship like a leech on a water buffalo?

It was unexpected (for me)! Yes, the very first meeting between Syd and Carm did make an impact. I thought "Oooh, what's this?!" However, Carmy was/is such a mess that I quickly dismissed it. And Sydney just seemed to want his professional approval and a partner in making something great after the soul-crushing failure of Sheridan. So, the first season I personally didn't feel a mutual sexual/romantic tension, more like an automatic respect and shared goals/passions. Sydney nor Carm were obviously trying to flirt. Most slow burns on TV are 100% obvious like a Jeanine and Gregory (Abbott Elementary), Nick and Jess (New Girl), Jake and Amy (Brooklyn 99), Jim and Pam (The Office)...Until Braciole Ep. 8 that is.

S. 1 Episode 8- I won't get into everything but Carmy was desolate. Yes, he became a psycho chef and two people quit in Ep.7. However, he mourned Sydney more than Marcus. She was in his flashback/nightmare (?), then the way he told Tina that she looked like Syd (the poor pup), him texting her before opening the note from Mikey, and finally the most gorgeous locked gaze scene since Pride and Prejudice (2005). The soft lighting, the music, the colors, the mind-reading...magical. I still didn't get it initially. Silly, blind me.

Mentorship where??? Season 2 Carm and Syd's "mentorship" dynamic is pretty much over. They are true partners and spending more time together. They're dressing alike even when not in uniform, finishing each other's sentences or talking in unison. Sydney is opening up more of herself and Carm is asking to know more. They use the ASL sign for sorry with each other and no one else until ep 10. Then there's that locker scene in ep. 1 or 2, when they almost hang out just cause. However, Carmy misses the moment and there's the return of the kicked pup face. Before being on the ship I was delighted with all of their scenes and was looking forward to the food tour. They just ROCK together on screen.

Classic Love Triangle- Who's Claire? She's "Claire Bear", the prototypical "cool girl", who is willing to chase an socially awkward, wrong-number-giving man, despite being a pretty ER resident with no shortage of options. Did a CW writer get hired? Anyways, why was her presence used almost exclusively to put strain on Carmy and Sydney's relationship instead of The Bear generally? We could have had scenes with Nat, Richie, and Marcus arguing with Carmy about him being distracted due to Claire. They saved 99% of that for Sydney. They CHOSE to insert her in between or just after scenes with him and Claire. Showing Sydney's tattoos and her getting dressed with the stained chef's coat juxtaposed with them was WILD.

I LOVE that both believe their interpersonal problems are solely about The Bear/business partnership. In most "slowburns" the characters are far more conscious and actively work to keep things platonic. Jeremy might be a smidge aware that Sydney means more to him after the panic attack, but I bet he's shoved it down. All he knows afterward is that being with Claire feels wrong hence ignoring her call and recommitting to SYDNEY. He could of said "You all/This/The Bear deserve my full focus etc..." He was also nagged into greeting Claire at Friends and Family, seemed anxious when Fak brought her up right before The Table scene, and also while explaining that "she's great" to Sydney. He was at peace when focused on Sydney in the moment below.

The actors: Jeremy and Ayo's real life friendship is warms my soul and their chemistry onscreen is amazing. DON'T WASTE IT!!!

Jeremy smolders on screen. I want to see Carmy continue to stare, yearn, fall, then eventually confess and for Sydney to reciprocate his feelings. Anyhoo, does anyone else melt when Carm means business?! They do this twice in season one and it's not good for me. Whew, I need to clean my whole house or run a few miles.

Finally, there's so many other parallels between these two. They are fearful avoidants, have a missing or dead parent, jacked up stomachs, use sarcasm, but are generally very earnest, they struggle with anxiety, are compassionate, are perfectionists, peace-makers, give people multiple chances, are workaholics...so much more. A lot of that is also ME, lol.

Sydcarmy is my Roman Empire. I love them as much as you can fictional characters and they deserve the most tender, angsty, triumphant, romantic best-friends to more love story.

#get the straight jacket #I gotta clean my house now #the bear #sydcarmy #sydney x carmy #carmy x sydney #sydney adamu #carmy the bear #carmen berzatto #carmy berzatto #syd adamu #friends to lovers #slow burn #love story #word vomit #thoughts #roman empire

[dreamingofspring]

something something sandra lynn's initial insistence on monogamy, even with a polyam partner

something something buddy dawn's art being very clearly modeled after a mormon missionary

something something younger bobby and pam dawn taking advantage of a starry eyed impulsive adventurer, literally a high school dropout, barely an adult, and convincing her to try not polyamory but stereotypical mormon polygamy

something something pam finding out she's pregnant with buddy's dad (or mom, presumably dad bc family name) with one of buddy's uncles or aunts*, and her and bobby twisting the situation to smear sandra lynn's name and blacklist her

*edited bc I realized timeline wise that would not make sense for them to have a kid whose kid would then be sandra lynn's kid's age but I feel like there should be SOME internal impetus between the dawns to break things off

#this is barely coherent but i had to get my thoughts out #it ALWAYS read as botched/manipulative/faux polyamory to me instead of just. cheating #maybe it was the 'she fell in love with a member of that union who did not treat her very kindly' that made me think that idk #idk!!! i have thoughts!!! #d20 spoilers #fhjy spoilers #fhjy #d20 #fantasy high #sandra lynn faeth #bobby dawn #pamela dawn

[rollinouttahere-writes]

So uh, I was playing Stardew Valley to destress, and then this happened. Hope everyone likes it at least!

One Piece Stardew Valley AU

Luffy

General:

Washed up on the beach in a barrel and mayor Lewis hasn’t been able to get rid of him since. One of the harder residents to track down because his schedule is entirely random, but he does have some places he goes to more frequently. These places include the Stardrop Saloon, the mines, the beach, and Linus’s tent. He is banned from the museum for dropping an artifact and breaking it. He gets along with most of the residents for being a generally likable and helpful guy. His favorites (besides other straw hats) are Linus, Krobus, Alex, and Abigail. Doesn’t get along with Lewis or Morris because he tends to make fools of them with his antics (and breaks stuff at JojaMart). Inexplicably, he can see and interact with Junimos. He also claims he can talk to them but it’s unclear if he actually can or if he’s just making it up as he goes.

Player Interaction:

Rocks up to your farm the day you show up because he didn’t know you were moving in and likes to hang out and forage there. After initially startling each other, he offers to help you clean up the place if he can have some of the food you grow. Agreeing immediately gets you a couple of hearts and now you’re friends, rejecting it makes him shrug and leave. If you mention needing certain materials, he will occasionally send some in the mail if he finds any, and will also send random things he finds. He very much encourages you to let loose and have fun instead of working all day.

Dating/Marriage:

He isn’t a marriage candidate, but you can ask him to move in like with Krobus. You won’t see much of him because he likes to wander, but he’ll help out around the farm before he peaces out for the day. His room is a mess with a hammock in it. 

Zoro

General:

He was the last person to get a ride to Pelican Town before the bus broke, and now he’s stuck there. Everytime he tried to leave, he would just wind up back in Pelican Town, so he eventually gave up and accepted his fate. At least the mines give him ample opportunity for sword practice. Since he spends so much time down there, Marlon lets him live at the Adventurer’s Guild. He can be consistently found at the mines, Adventurer’s Guild, and the Stardrop Saloon, but he’ll also randomly show up in various parts of the map because he got lost. He isn’t very sociable, so the only people he talks to all that much are Marlon, Gil, Shane, and Kent once he shows up. 

Player Interaction:

Your first meeting happens the first time you try to enter the mine. He’ll walk out of it and tell you that if you’re looking to do some monster hunting that you should come back tomorrow because he wiped out most of the mine. He becomes something of a rival for you in the mines, and there is a leaderboard of sorts comparing your kills to his. Having some competition really invigorates him, so your rivalry turns to friendship easily.  He sends you monster parts in the mail since he has more than he knows what to do with. Once the bus is fixed, he’ll ask if you could take him to Skull Cavern. He tried to go by himself, but well, he somehow got lost despite Pam pointing it out to him.

Dating/Marriage:

The man has no idea what he’s doing and doesn’t understand why you gave him a bouquet, but he tries to go with it. If he does say something romantic, he becomes visibly embarrassed and you won’t be able to talk to him for the rest of the day. If you try to, you’ll just get a text box saying “...” with a blushing portrait next to it. After marriage, he’ll help out primarily by fixing whatever is broken and gifting you more monster parts. He leaves for the mines a lot. His room is full of workout equipment.

Nami

General:

An extremely elusive woman who makes sea charts. The hardest resident to track down because she’ll be gone for days at a time. Willy lets her crash at his shop on the days when she’s in town. She can be found in the Museum/Library, Pierre’s General Store, Carpenter’s Shop, and Cindersap Forest. Once Ginger Island is unlocked, you can find her there on the days she isn’t in Pelican Town. She isn’t around enough to be close with many of the locals, but has managed to make friends with Maru, Penny, Willy, and Leo. She dislikes Pierre because he won’t let her haggle with him.

Player Interaction:

She doesn’t make an appearance until day 5. She shows up at your farm to introduce herself and mentions that she’d love to buy food off you when she’s in town (you will make less money but this will raise your friendship faster). Every so often, she will give you a rare fish she found at sea, but this is uncommon. When you finally make it to Ginger Island, she’ll already be there and make a lighthearted jab about how ‘it took you long enough’. She’ll help you find golden walnuts if you bring her something she’s requested. 

Dating/Marriage:

She’s flattered when you give her the bouquet, but also very surprised. You know that she’s gone a lot and won’t change that, right? You do? Oh, okay… Wanna get dinner at the saloon tonight? Your treat, of course. Despite what she says, she will stay in Pelican Town for more days now, but still does regularly leave for days at a time. She offers to bring you with her to Ginger Island when she goes, but you still have to pay. It’s half the price that Willy offers, but it’s one way so you’ll need a totem to get back. After marriage her room is filled with charts and related supplies. She helps out around the farm occasionally, but not often.

Usopp

General:

An apprentice at Clint’s shop (also lives there) who specializes in upgrading weapons. He started working with him as a teenager, and is ready to move on to other things, but lacks the nerve to make that final leap. When he isn’t working he can be found at the Adventurer’s Guild, Cindersap Forest, and lurking around outside the mines. He’s friends with the wizard, Marlon, Sam, and Leah.

Player Interaction: 

When you walk into the blacksmith store for the first time, he’ll be in there and start talking big about how he’s the owner and makes the best weapons the world has ever seen. Then Clint walks in and he promptly leaves from the embarrassment of being caught in a lie. After that he’ll give you a proper run down of how he can improve your weapons for you if you provide the right materials. He can either strengthen it by increasing the attack, or enchant it with magical effects. Simply talking to him boosts friendship like crazy since a lot of people ignore him for being a known liar/exaggerator. Sometimes he’ll send materials in the mail along with a letter saying how it could really improve that sword of yours if you bring it in to him *wink wink nudge nudge*.

Dating/Marriage:

When you give him the bouquet, he takes it, stutters out random syllables, and then runs away. He’ll be on your porch the next morning to properly thank you and accept it now that he’s had a chance to gather his thoughts. He brags to everyone about the fact that he’s dating you. After marriage his room is filled with miscellaneous weapons and materials with some blacksmithing equipment outside. You’ll notice that nothing ever seems to break around the farm because he always fixes it before you can see it.

Sanji

General:

He’s a cook at the Stardrop Saloon, and also works as a personal chef for anyone that requests the service. His main customers are Evelyn and George, as well as Pam and Penny. He doesn’t charge Pam and Penny because they’re broke and he’s a pushover (he’s also trying his best to teach Penny how to cook). He can commonly be found at his clients’ homes, Cindersap Forest, the beach, and the spa. He’s friendly with all of the women there, but is noticeably closer with Emily, Haley, and Penny. Elliott and Sebastian are also friends of his.

Player Interaction:

The second you set foot in the saloon, he will be trying to impress you with one of his signature dishes while pitching his in-home cooking service. Gus scolds him for advertising his business at work, while Emily jokes that he’s flirting with the customers again. He hurries back to the kitchen after this. Like Usopp, your friendship will rise just from talking to him, but will also rise if you give him ingredients. He frequently mails you food he’s made and personal recipes. You can buy his services. It’ll show a cutscene of him cooking in your kitchen, plus you’ll get the recipe of whatever he made. Food made by him gives you buffs.

Dating/Marriage:

The man will straight up cry when you give him the bouquet and promises that you won’t regret choosing him. He acts like you’re already married with how doting and lovey-dovey he is, and he drops hints constantly about proposing. You’ll be getting food from him in the mail every single day while dating, and food directly from him every morning when you are married. Helps around the farm frequently. His room is full of bookshelves containing various cookbooks and romance novels, and also an herb garden.

Chopper

General:

Harvey’s apprentice, and has an interest in herbal remedies. He’s very young and new to it but is an extremely promising student. When he isn’t at the clinic, he can be found in the museum/library, Cindersap Forest, or poking around the Community Center. He can also see and talk to junimos. He’s good friends with Harvey, Maru, and Leah. He wants to be friends with the wizard but is intimidated by him. 

Player Interaction:

Entering Cindersap Forest for the first time will reveal him foraging for medicinal herbs. He eagerly introduces himself and lets you know that you can buy herbal medicine from him at the clinic. They’re on the cheap side and can heal or prevent status effects. Buying his medicine boosts friendship, but losing all health and ending up in the clinic five times will cause you to lose a heart with him. He worries a lot, don’t do that to him. Expect to get a variety of herbs, fruits, and vegetables in the mail from him with notes about you staying on top of your health (these notes become passive aggressive if you recently lost a heart with him).

Dating/Marriage:

Not a marriage candidate for obvious reasons, and also isn’t available to move in with you.

Robin

General:

An esteemed archeologist working and living at the museum. She moved to Pelican Town because of the area allegedly being an archeological hot spot. She doesn’t stay in one place for very long (except when she’s reading at the library), so trying to find her can be difficult. She doesn’t move into the town until after the bus has been fixed and the quarry is unlocked. The day after both are completed, she shows up and makes her rounds introducing herself to the locals. She can be found at the mines, the quarry, the desert, and Ginger Island, but will also be seen wandering around the map looking for artifacts in unlikely places. While she is very new to the town, she still makes friends with Gunther, Sandy, Professor Snail, and Penny. She also gets along well with the children.

Player Interaction:

She’ll be on your porch when you leave your house the day she moves to town and introduces herself. After that, she asks for a tour of your farm and then if it would be okay for her to dig there occasionally. Agreeing gives you a couple of hearts to start with. If she finds anything on your property, you’ll get a cut of the profit. Every time you donate to the museum, she sends you a thank you note in the mail the next day. While you won’t be able to collect the things she finds first, she’ll give you rare crafting recipes once in a while in exchange. Good luck predicting what she’ll send you in the mail, it’s very random. You could get some food, a hat, some rocks, or even a bomb. She sends whatever makes her think of you, you’re just not sure you can follow her train of thought.

Dating/Marriage:

Receiving a bouquet leaves her speechless but happy once the shock wears off. She’ll say something about wanting to stay in Pelican Town a little longer anyway, and that she’s looking forward to seeing where this is going. Once you’re married, you get bonus items with your rewards for donations. Her room is filled with her most prized finds, books, and archeological supplies.

Franky

General:

A mechanic that’s aiming to fix up the train station and set the town up with its own personal train. He doesn’t show up until spring of year 3. He builds on an extension to the train station that he lives in. While he works extremely hard on the station and train, he does still find time to visit the town regularly. He can commonly be found at the Stardrop Saloon, the Carpenter’s shop, and the desert.  He gets along well with most people, but he’s closest with Robin, Demetrius, and Mr. Qi. While Lewis appreciates that what he’s doing will help stimulate the town’s economy, he wishes he would put some pants on and be a little less… eccentric.

Player Interaction:

When you walk past the way up to where the train tracks are, you’ll hear a lot of noise. Going up there will reveal Franky hard at work repairing the station. Not long into meeting him, he’ll share his plight that while he wants nothing more than to fix this up, he’s really lacking the funds to do so properly. If you want the station and train finished, you’ll need to provide him with the building materials. This boosts friendship like crazy, and he’ll be singing your praise. Once everything is built, you can talk to Franky at the station to order materials in bulk to be delivered by the train. It’s all in large quantities, but it takes a few days to get there. He’ll mail you cola and random materials.

Dating/Marriage:

YOW! He wasn’t expecting the bouquet at all, but he accepts it nonetheless. The next day he will present you with a bouquet of his own creation that he made from scrap metal and some gemstones he had lying around. Will NOT stop hyping you up to everyone in town. After marriage he will give you a family discount on materials from the train. His room is more or less a tool shed and a place to put things he doesn’t use often anymore. 

#one piece #one piece x reader #one piece x y/n #one piece x you #monkey d luffy #nami #cat burglar nami #one piece nami #roronoa zoro #usopp #sanji #black leg sanji #tony tony chopper #nico robin #cyborg franky #franky the cyborg #luffy #stardew valley au

[softlyapocalytpic]

Wip Wednesday

Tagged by @persephotea

Mae stared up at the ceiling examining the imperfections in the construction and paint. She’d done this dozens of times before, but tonight she realized there was a swirl in the paint where’d they used an off-white instead of the original white, and while she knew that not everyone saw the same shades of colors and she’d failed to notice it for a while... it was still driving her insane. Would it be too much to repaint the ceiling? They could make a project out of it, and maybe then Ren could have whatever color they wanted-

“Honey? Why are you on the floor?”

Wasn’t it obvious? She was trying to sink into it. Her whole body was slack on the hardwood panels, her spine stretched out and free of the burden of carrying the weight of itself. Here, she was at peace. Here, she wasn’t forcing the patriarchy down her daughter’s (no, son? … Spawn’s?) throat and crushing them under the weight of systemic gender based oppression. How could Mae be so stupid? She’d spent years in radical queer groups, had genderqueer partners, and even experimented herself- and how quickly had all of that been undone? Had she been genuine at all? Now she was married to a man (who she loved and adored), in a government job (which she hated and despised), in fucking suburbia with his fucking dog, essentially playing out the American Dream.

“Honey?”

Mae tore herself away from the ceiling and looked to Takeshi. She stared at him and instantly was filled with love for him and his pretty eyes and his handsome smile. He was doing it now, the one he always got when he thought she was doing something endearing, but Mae couldn’t fathom what was endearing about sinking into the ground as she unraveled. She was horrible parent and a horrible person and he was too pretty for her

He signed to her slow and purposefully, “You’re doing the face.”

The face? What face was she making?

When he didn’t seem to get the response he wanted he waved in front of his own face and said, “The cute blank one.”

Oh. She wasn’t making one at all. Ah. (She didn’t get why he thought it was cute, but he’d starting saying it a while ago out of nowhere. She didn’t get what was cute about forgetting to do facial expressions. It wasn’t like she was special for doing that.)

Still, she needed to communicate somehow so she rubbed her chest with her fist to sign sorry.

He shook his head, was he annoyed with her? “You don’t have to apologize, cho bi,” He settled down next to her, leaning his back against the bed. He ran a hand through her hair and smile down at her, “Shopping went that bad?”

She avoided his gaze, the shame bubbling up so strong she wanted to puke, but she nodded through the tears.

He sighed and nodded, saying nothing and focusing instead on working a knot out of her hair. She nearly ran in a panic, but his soothing voice broke through first. He spoke softly, “Want me to squish you?”

Mae giggled quietly and unconsciously wiggled as a little bubble of joy she hadn’t been expecting popped.

Takeshi’s smile widened, “What’s so funny little cho bi?”

The words her sluggish and small in her mouth, but she forced herself to speak anyway, “You.”

“Ah, I guess you don’t need me then.”

“I-I do!”

Takeshi chuckled, deliciously warm and rumbly, and straddled her on the floor so he could lay flat across her. He knew by now how much weight to lean on her as to not crush her while he did it, and more loved bloomed her chest. She didn’t know how it was possible, but everyday he found another way for her to fall in love with him more and more. She’d once thought that there was no way she could love him more than she did in that moment, but it wasn’t true. She fell deeper and deeper with every moment he breathed.

There was, of course, a shameful part of her brain that would twist any wholesome moment into something… less so. It was that part that grew warm and tingly down there and said that obviously the most logical thing to do right now was buck her hips. She didn’t, but his sweatpants were loose and he was very much pressed up against her.

Then, she remembered the shopping trip and spiraled back down the rabbit hole and had to cling to Takeshi and cry about it. God, what would her parents think of her of they saw her like this? She was so pathetic and childish and-

“I’m right here, Mae. You’re okay.” Takeshi pressed a kiss to the top of her head and she focused on the warm fanning of his breath and the sound of his voice.

#the pam initiative #wip #wip wednesday #mae ishikawa #sosu mae ishikawa #sole survivor #takeshi ishikawa

[bitterkarella]

Curiosity Shop (1971-1973) was Michael Eisner's attempt at creating an "educational" TV show to compete with PBS's then ascendant Sesame Street: Pam, Ralph, and Gerard pay a visit to the curiosity shop, where they experience puppets, animation, and shop owner Mr. Jones communicating with them via pre-recorded tape messages that always accurately predicts what the kids will say. The series was erased after broadcast and long considered lost media until two episodes were posted to Toontracker.net last year.

I'm absolutely obsessed with this clip because:

Pam calling one of her fellow children "unbelievably stupid"

Pam's outrageous scene-chewing delivery of this incredibly bitchy line (Actress Pamelyn Ferdin brings this same flamboyant theater kid energy to EVERY single line in her performance, btw)

The tape recorder telling Pam to, whoa, tone it down there, bitchy mcgee

The tape recorder acting like "Marcia from Mel Lazarus' Miss Peach" is a well-known cultural touchstone that we should all be instantly familiar with

"WHOOOOOOO'S MARCIA?"

The full range of emotions in Ralph's bizarre response where he initially seems to think that the tape recorder went TOO FAR in comparing Pam to Marcia but then almost instantly rethinks it and agrees (relatively) enthusiastically that, yes, Pam IS just like Marcia

#curiosity shop

[buglovingbagel]

How Stardew Valley villagers would react to you coming out as nonbinary!!

(Or trans, but I wrote it with nonbinary in mind, IM PROJECTING /lh)

All my favorite villagers, not just the bachelors, but I start with them. :3

Some of these were really hard to write for, especially with characters I don't know all that well 😭

THESE ARE ALL HEADCANNONS, PEOPLE. I'm aware not everything is super in character. I'm also aware I use he/him for Krobus despite headcannoning that he's genderless, pronouns ≠ gender

★

Maru: You had blurted the knowledge to her once while you were both talking at a bench in town. While initially stunned, she hugged you and beamed since you trusted her with such information, overjoyed. Eventually, she offered to get Harvey to use your preferred pronouns and change how you're referred medical records.

Haley: Smile and nod strategy. She doesn't know what half the words you said meant, but after some explaining, she offered to take you clothes shopping in ZuZu city next time she went to get something you'd be more comfortable in. She even rifled through her own clothing collection and gave you anything you'd be comfortable in, snapping a photo to save the memory. If there's one thing this woman could do, it was fashion, and you've never felt more comfortable looking in the mirror after your shopping trip.

Emily: She admits that she already knew, vaguely. Something about spirits guiding her to the conclusion, but she appreciated that you told her yourself just as much either way. She offered to tailor your clothes to be more comfortable and was patient and kind when you declined. Whenever you were worried about your transition or got into your own head about it, she meditates with you, assuring you everything would be okay, and lord is she convincing.

Abigail: Her response is pretty much just "cool!" She rants about a game character who has the same identity, tacks on a thank you at the end of the conversation, and continues like normal. This changes nothing for her at all, she never found your gender significant, just knew that you were a close friend and nothing like your gender "changing" would change that, ever.

Leah: She had made a sculpture representing her experience with femininity and, after asking for your opinion on it, you came out to her, hoping it wouldn't change her view of her feedback. She seemed overjoyed about whatever you said of her sculpture, good or bad, absorbed into your response and hardly even addressing that you came out until after the in depth feedback. She was red in embarrassment, apologized, and thanked you for trusting her.

Penny: She holds your hand the moment she senses you're nervous and listens carefully. She eventually admits that she doesn't fully understand, but respects you either way, smiling reassuringly and using whatever pronouns or name you choose. She doesn't use them in front of Pam unless you explicitly say you've come out to Pam.

Sam: My poor boy. He couldn't smile and nod as well as Haley, visibly confused the whole time. He needed multiple explanations on some words and had multiple questions to ask, some of which may have come off ignorant if it wasn't sorta hilarious to hear. It took a long time of you both fiddling with things around his room while Sam asked and you answered any info he needed to understand. Afterwards, he seemed thankful and stoked the farmer had taught him something new, excited to understand you further.

Sebastian: He froze immediately. He had been in his room with you when you admitted it to him, unsure when else would be a good time, and the room was filled with awkward silence. Eventually, he just said "cool" and mentally kicked himself in the leg for being so damn quiet. You were visibly nervous, so he clarified before you left for the night that he fully accepted you and his silence was from his own awkwardness and worry, it had nothing to do with the farmer. He gave you a rare, drawn out hug before you were out the door.

Shane: You're both drunk (Shane more than you) at the saloon when you let it slip. Shane initially seemed surprised you'd tell him something that personal at all, and despite not admitting it, he's touched by getting to know you more. He doesn't drink any more that night, heading home early in a half-successful attempt to remember the conversation. It's one of the few things that makes him come to the realization you trust him, you're not just some surface level acquaintance.

Elliot: You tell him while you're both at the docks and he doesn't seem all that surprised. He gives you some inspiring, poetic advice out of fucking nowhere about how, no matter the identity, your body is a piece of art and is painted by you and you only. He kisses the back of your hand after you two are done talking and later, in his cabin, he changes your dead name and old pronouns to whatever you had chosen as your new title in any poems he included you in.

Alex: ... homophobia in his eyes /j

Alex doesn't understand. He tries to, but he has a hard time wrapping his head around what causes someone to feel a different gender than the one assigned at birth. He respects you anyways and respects your pronouns, occasionally asking a question you've heard about a hundred times in ZuZu city, some of which making you laugh (he lights up in embarrassment every time you do.) Eventually, he decides he doesn't need to understand everything to still love and respect you. After enough time, he has no more questions left to ask, and he feels closer to the farmer.

Harvey: He's surprised at first, but is happy you told him. He changes how you're referred to in your medical records from now on and finds no problem using your new name and pronouns. Every now and then, during check ups, he asks you whether or not you'd be interested in anything that could help you medically transition, and has the same reaction whether you accept or decline. He just doesn't want you to be too nervous to ask him, and he knows a trustworthy doctor out in ZuZu city. He offers you a contact to an online therapist when you complain about gender dysphoria as well as his own undying support.

That's all the bachelors :3

Masterlist of other villagers included: Clint, Dwarf, Jas and Vincent, Krobus, Linus, Pam, Willy, Wizard.

Clint: You tell him while you're both at the saloon. He pretty much just says "oh, okay", and moves on. He respects your pronouns, and also googles "not-offensive trans joke" about a hundred times on Google to tell silly dad jokes later. (The search history is 100% funnier than the jokes.)

Dwarf: Silly guy. While purchasing bombs from him, you let him know you're changing how you wanna be referred to. The dwarf shrugs and gives you your bombs and you both complain about humans unwillingness to understand those that aren't exactly like them. Turns out gender in the monster world is far less complicated and they just do whatever the fuck they want; another rift between monsters and humans that ends up drawing you and the dwarf closer.

Jas and Vincent: Jas is very kind and Vincent is a little shit. Penny had said it may be a good idea to tell both kids at once to refer to the farmer differently with Penny supervising, so that's exactly what they did. Jas smiled and said "okay!" before returning to whatever she was doing before, referring to the farmer how you wanted her to (she occasionally slips up, but she's trying and that's what counts.) Vincent is confused how that even works. He asks you how you figured it out, what happened to make you change, how you can be born as one thing and be another, etc. Some of his questions are hard to answer, simply sounding silly. Eventually, Vincent shrugs and goes "that makes sense," even though he forgets any knowledge he gained within the week.

Krobus: Krobus doesn't really care. He's already genderless, he understands anything you have to say about it and accepts it gracefully. He's unphased, does business as usual, and when you two are closer, asks if humans react poorly when you tell them. You explain the diversity of human interactions and Krobus absorbs the information, gives his condolences, and gripes that humans are too quick to jump to hatred sometimes.

Linus: Somehow, the man knows what everything you said meant despite not having wifi and hardly ever talking to anyone. He's chill as fuck and you share a meal or foraged berries and fish cooked over a fire while you tell him, and he encourages you to share experiences, tell stories by the fire about how it's affected your life. You go home feeling lighter. (I LOVE LINUS!!!!)

Pam: Once again, you're telling someone about it in the saloon. You had just gifted her a beer while you told her that you'd be going by a different title. She seemed mildly annoyed, if anything. Of course, she didn't disagree, but she sighed into her drink, admitting she's gonna forget it every now and then. You assure her it's alright as long as she tries and that you'll remind her, and her annoyance leaves her. She stops referring to you as her "guy/gal" and refers to you as "buddy", continuing to clink your drinks together every time you buy her one and chug as if it were a competition.

Willy: This poor man. You tell him while you're both fishing on the dock and he nods slowly, mulling over the information in his mind. Carefully, he asks, "like a clown fish?" It catches you off guard and draws a laugh out of you before you clarify that no, no your gender is not like a clown fish. You have to help him understand most of what you said and his brows furrowed while taking in the info. You two stopped talking whenever one had to reel in a fish so that you both could focus. He gives you the nickname "snook", and after looking it up, a snook is a fish with no clear gender and known for being tough. (I love him so much 😢😢)

Wizard: Wizard, much like Emily, tells you he knows. Apparently, there's even a spell for things like this, and he immediately offers to perform it for you. He had automatically assumed you'd say yes, explaining that it changes your body to be whatever gender who align with. If you say yes, he provides it for you expecting nothing in return, claiming that magic should help people and if you end up more comfortable, then he's fulfilling his duty as a friend. If you decline, he's surprised, immediately asking "why not?" You explain that you're already comfortable in your body, you don't feel the need to physically transition to align with your mind because you already love your body and mind. Slowly, he nods, and apologized for coming off too strong. He empties his cauldron, though he's a bit upset he's dug himself a hole having to waste materials, and sends you something small in the mail the next day as a better apology.

LESSGOOOOO. I love Pam, wizard, Willy, and Linus, I do NOT care. Anyone I couldn't really think of anything for I didn't write, but I tried my best to include all the bachelors. You can probably tell in some of them that I struggled. I have favorites. 🤭

#imagines #imagine #sdv #stardew valley #sdv harvey #sdv imagines #sdv shane #stardew #sdv maru #sdv elliott #sdv sebastion #sdv bachelors #sdv bachelorettes #sdv headcannons #pride #nonbinary #trans #farmer is nonbinary YAAAY #farmer is trans YAAAY #god naming all the bachelors/ettes is annoying #sdv abigail #sdv alex #sdv leah #sdv penny #sdv pam #sdv linus #sdv willy #sdv wizard #sdv krobus #I GIVE UP

[showdownatthespacebuffet]

INITIAL ROUNDS MASTERPOST

Initial rounds for the ULTIMATE HOTDAGA CHARACTER bracket will begin soon

Each poll will run for one week -- two polls will go live a day

All the character pairings are listed below the cut

Farch VS Moofus

Papa Crab VS Weldon Burgereaux

Joblet VS Garce

Gina and Murray VS Raccoon Brandon

Steven Rootbeer VS Melba Dill

The Starship Minestrone VS Lisa Bratwurst

Maizey VS Gebra

Smeech VS Ernie Goondis (CHICKEN)

The Dark Master/Chili Pope IX VS Doctor Goondis (EGG)

Gene VS Future Brandon

Mike Soup/The Soup Baron VS Dan

Pam VS Rebecca

Lil' Mr. B VS Merga

Pauline Who Is A Pretzel VS Pauline Who Isn't A Pretzel

Conductor Craig VS Sausage Priest

Alice VS Christopher

#hotdaga #the hotdaga #hot daga #watcher #buzzfeed unsolved

[scoobydoodean]

Okay so. I've said a lot of this already in one place or another, but making a dedicated post about the slippery slope of drinking demon blood for referencing.

Sam tells himself in early season 4 that drinking demon blood is good because by using his powers, he can save the victim of possession, whereas Ruby's knife kills them (4.04). He repeats this framing in the beginning of 5.02, saying that he wishes he could still save victims of possession. Wanting to save victims of possession is a very compelling argument in my opinion. The problem is that as the season goes on, we see drinking demon blood has side effects, which eventually consume Sam's good intentions.

First, because drinking demon blood reduces your inhibitions to a point where you eventually don't care about the "good" reasons you were drinking it to begin with anymore. We get the best possible example of this in 4.20, where Sam, going through withdrawal, becomes so desperate for a hit of demon blood that he tackles a demon, cuts her neck open, and drinks her blood while Dean and Cas (who didn't even know Sam was drinking blood) watch. Right after getting his fill, guess what Sam does? Plunge the demon knife into the demon's chest, killing the host, instead of using his powers to expel the demon from her body. We know the demon blood works quickly and that Sam consumed enough to be capable of exorcising, because a few seconds later, he does exorcize the demon from Amelia Novak's body. Watching his face, you can tell at that point that it's about the high of it—the display of power.

As War tells Sam in 5.02:

I can see inside your head. And man, it is one-track city in there. Blood, blood, blood. Lust for power. Same as always. You want to be strong again. But not just strong. Stronger than everybody. Good intentions—quick slide to hell, buddy boy.

As Sam himself says in 5.02:

From the minute I saw that blood, only thought in my head...and I tell myself it's for the right reasons, my intentions are good, and it, it feels true, you know? But I think, underneath...I just miss the feeling. 

As Pam tells Sam in 4.15:

I can feel what's inside of you. If you think you have good intentions, think again.

As Chuck suggests in 4.18:

I don't know. Maybe the demon blood makes you feel stronger? More in control?

In 4.22, Sam also casts aside those initial good intentions quite overtly, and it makes him question everything because he realizes he's betrayed one of his initial "good" intentions.

RUBY I don't get it. All the demons you cut with the knife -- what do you think happens to the host? How is this any different? SAM Is that supposed to make me feel better? RUBY I know that you're having a tough time here, Sam, but we're in the final lap here. Now is not the time to grow a persqueeter. SAM Would you drop the friggin' attitude? I'm about to bleed and drink an innocent woman. While she watches.

In this post, I also lay out the timeline of Sam's demon blood drinking with the way he talks about Dean's trauma and connect his consumption of demon blood to his lack of sympathy.

Second, drinking demon blood gives you a growing appetite, whether you want it to or not. 4.21:

RUBY Your appetite's gotten much bigger. SAM What's that supposed to mean? RUBY Sam, relax. It's okay. It's good. Just means you're getting stronger, that's all.

You need more and more blood just to maintain. Eventually, more than one person can provide without dying:

RUBY Meantime, if you're gonna be strong enough to kill Lilith, you're gonna need more than I can give you now.

Which translates to 4.22, when Sam is heavily implied to drain a meatsuit of all her blood so he's strong enough to face Lilith. Say that Sam hadn't gotten the "supernatural methadone" treatment in 5.01 when God landed them on the plane. What does his appetite look like after drinking that much blood? How much do you think he'd need just to maintain—just to keep from dying slowly and painfully from withdrawal? The trajectory of that growing appetite means you eventually need so much blood just to feel okay that you have to drink from dozens of demons (who are very likely not going to be consenting demons with ethically sourced meatsuits at that point) to maintain without killing people, and in your desperation, you very likely will kill people, just like Sam kills a demon meatsuit in 4.20 without actually caring about the host anymore.

It isn't that being able to exorcise demons while saving the host isn't a nice perk. It's that demon blood is a highly addictive substance for which you develop a growing appetite with consistent use, and it alters your inhibitions so that whatever your initial intentions may have been, you eventually won't care about them anymore and all that will matter is how the demon blood makes you feel.

#i wanted so badly to believe i could be saved #sams moral compass #season 4 #4.20 #4.21 #4.22 #4.15 #4.18 #5.02 #season 5 #sams motivations

[neonjawbone]

My webcomic PARADISE resumes this friday after a 4 year long hiatus. Wanna know what it's about? Here's a primer! It's got a 260+ page backlog (350 pages on patreon) so its a good time to check it out!! Here’s what’s written in the images for those who need it:

WHY YOU SHOULD READ MY WEBCOMIC PARADISE by NJ “Neonjawbone” Barna

Paradise is a shonen inspired, super-powered/action/rom-com/crime drama webcomic. It follows Pam, a delinquent daughter of a city councilman in a world of superpowers. Through CONSEQUENCES she ends up having to work for the city fighting super-powered crime, and is partnered with her childhood frenemy Evon. Following a rocky start, the pair become friends...and perhaps something more??

In the city’s shadowy underground, the Nebula Cartel holds an iron grip over crime in the city, but there’s dissent among it’s members in how to proceed with it’s long-term plans. The city itself isn’t clean either, lurking just beneath the surface are the machinations of the government officials, and not everyone wants to use their authority for good.

It’s got action!! It’s got jokes!!

It’s got intrigue!! It’s got heart!!

It’s got an ensemble cast!!

And it updates Tuesdays on Patreon and on Fridays at globalcomix.com/c/paradise! The patreon archive is about a year ahead of the GC archive, as a little incentive to join my Patreon, wink.

Thanks for reading!

And as a final note, from my initial “Paradise is back” post: 

I want to thank everyone who stuck around. For anyone who shared this comic, who read it, who’s been here since the hiatus started in 2018. And I especially wanna thank my patrons, for sticking with Paradise while updates were drip-fed for YEARS, often going months at a time inbetween single pages. I really needed this time, to grow as a person, an artist, a storyteller, and to evaluate what this comic means to me and what it should be going forward. I appreciate your support so much more than you could ever know.

To my new readers, welcome! The comic you’re about to read is something I’ve been drawing since 2015, and it’s quality (in the early chapters especially) reflect that. I hope you enjoy it.

PARADISE IS BACK, BABY.

READ PARADISE

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