#what i miss

[creatingnikki]

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. What do you miss? I miss the way you smile, that knowing smile. I miss the way you hug me, like you can never get enough. I miss the way you kiss my cheeks, my eyes, my nose, everything so many times before you come to my lips. I miss the way you ask me to hug you tighter, bone-crushing tight, every time we hug. I miss the way you crack your absolutely silly jokes. I miss how happy you get when I laugh at them. I miss the way you get so excited to make me ramen, eggs, and any other thing we have time for. I miss the way you pull me by my legs closer to you in bed. I miss the way you kiss me, like this is what we were put on this earth to do. I miss the way you say the most insane, politically incorrect shit and wait for my reaction. I miss the way you make worse suicidal jokes than me. I miss the way you imitate me when I am trying to act mad or cutesy. I miss the way you never capitalise my name when we text. I miss the way you say my name. I miss the way you remember our first memories just as much or perhaps even more vividly than me.

I MISS YOU, YOU FUCKER.

I miss saying your name. Again and again and again. Each time with a different tone and intention that you always catch on to. I miss being sad in front of you, being real in front of you. I miss feeling the way I felt with you. I miss hearing how you feel with me. I miss the way you gave me lessons on the correct way to hold a cigarette. I miss the way you pacified me, the way you apologised so randomly and earnestly that I could forget almost about anything.

Fuck you.

With over a month of distance now, I realize how much I loved you and how scary it was. You could say and do anything and yet and yet all I would do would be to look at you so tenderly and with so much love.

I miss you.

I miss liking someone, loving someone. I miss being real with someone, I miss not hating myself with someone, I miss not hating someone for them withholding love.

Don't ever walk into my life again.

I have romanticized you and all the time shared with you a bit too much. If you were to walk back in and shatter the glass, show me all the things I have such a blindspot for, I don't think I'd be able to breathe again.

Missing you now, no matter how painful, still has a sweet sadness to it. But if I were to wake up from this day dream delusion and see you and see me and see us as an objective third-party, all I would see is a silly boy and a sillier girl and because we are not teenagers, it would not be okay. The silliness? It would be tragic. It would be bone crushing, even though our hugs could never end up being.

So I will keep missing you. I will miss you forever if I have to. But I would rather miss you and have you be a past tense than become any form of present tense in my life ever again.

#stream of consciousness #writerscreed #writtenconsiderations #poeticstories #writers on tumblr #poets on tumblr #i miss you #i miss him #moving on #missing you #relationship #breakup #heartbreak #loving someone #spilled thoughts #growing up #love #what i miss #dark romanticism #dark academia #dark aesthetic #spilled ink #creatingnikki

[joriksmain]

Hi im still alive btw

#what I miss

[navnae]

I’ve probably missed a lot so is there any new headcanons y’all have created?

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #idk what else to tag #help lol #please #come on #manifesting #power #it’s been a while #what I miss #ummmm #well #here I am #ughhhh #man idk

[retrokid616]

k so saddly yes i had to go pay my debts

but did the rest of the bells decloded?

#cr spoilers #bells hells #campaign 3 #critical role #live blogging #me time #paying my own debts #what i miss #please help

[smuttyassholes]

this account is accomplishing something that no one else can !!

Apparently so is tumblr 💀 Why I come back and there a live feature now??

- asshole 4

#like #what i miss #i wasn't even got that long what is this

[cielle-amour]

makima’s touch~

#chainsaw man #makima #csm #csm makima #chainsawman #amour art #amour portfolio #will be selling as 11x17 print in artist alley! #test test i haven't been on tumblr in years #what i miss #hi i missed you guys

[shacklda]

BARKBARKBAKRBAKRRBARK

#I LOVE HER :'D #really waltzed up like Sup Guys #what i miss #;sir this is my emotional support cringefail gacha game protagonist. (ooc)

[akumanoken]

what's up fellow kids I'm back

#what I miss

[shummthechumm]

why does my tumblr layout look like twitter....

#sowwy ive been sick for 2 weeks #what i miss #shummy screaming into the void

[mr-onion-e-mous]

I'm Back.

... I also have a Deviantart account, with 2 ocs.

Also into jackbox party pack shit now.

#Im back #what i miss #ooc

[mocha-aya]

Been a minute since I’ve been here y’all I deleted the app but I’m back now

Here are some pictures of me as an apology 🙏🏽

#im backkkk #what I miss #i missed y’all #aya face

[ruthlesslistener]

:(

wh

#what i miss

[dragontag420]

alright i just got on

so what's happening so far

#what i miss

[ofalltheginjoints]

why do ppl keep tagging the bread post with joe quinn what did i miss

#the first time it happened i thought was hilarious and they were just saying things #but it’s happened again so it can’t be that so #what i miss

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[yourangle-yuordevil]

That time in ancient Greece when Aziraphale needed a speedy horse and accidentally invented the pegasus

VS.

Whatever Crowley had going on in medieval times

#Crowley just really misses the unicorns ok??? #Also Crowley didn't start from a horse to make a new unicorn #he looked at a horse and was like.... nah #then looked at a goat and was like YEAAAAH LET'S GOO LET'S MAKE YOU BIG AF AND YOU CAN ALSO SPIT FIRE WHAT A GREAT IDEA!! #While Aziraphale is fretting over the fact that he accidentally gave WINGS to a HORSE and every time that the angels asks about it he's lik #whaaat?? PegaSUS naaaah never heard about it. Must be a made up thing. humans...right?? silly little things ahahah *sweat nervously* #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #pegasus #unicorn #Do I wanna draw the precious good omens beans? yes. #is this an excuse to draw more horses? also yes. #medieval crowley #ancient greek aziraphale #CAVALLIIIIIII 🐎🐴🐎🐴🐎🐴🐎🐴 #good omens comic #historical husbands