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moonstruckme · 6 months

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I have an idea! Imagine reader and james are bestfriend, reader ask james to help her find a lingerie (bcs she want to impress a boy she like) so there he is sitting infront of the changing room and having to watch the reader change into multiple lingerie w a hard on.

Maybe then he realize that he doesn’t want anyone to see his bestf like this?

I love a possessive jamie!

Thanks for requesting!

cw: sexual implications, nothing explicit though

bestfriend!James x fem!reader ♡ 472 words

“It was fucking awful,” James laments, nursing a cup of tea and shoving biscuit after biscuit into his mouth. He’s at Remus and Sirius’ flat, after inventing some plans with his friends as an excuse to get away from you. “I had to think of my gran wearing that stuff just to be able to stand up when she was ready to leave.”

“I still don’t understand why you agreed to go in the first place,” Remus says while Sirius tries to get his giggling under control. “Why would you help the woman you’re in love with pick out lingerie for another guy?”

“I’m not in love with her!” James throws up his hands, sick of having this same argument every time you come up. “I mean, I do love her—she’s my best friend. But I mean, you could put me in front of any attractive girl when she’s wearing something like that, and I’m bound to have some thoughts. It didn’t matter that it was her, specifically. It was…it was boobs. It’s boobs’ fault.”

Sirius cackles, and James lobs a biscuit at him.

“I’d like to see you try to keep yourself under control in that situation, Pads. It’s biology, I couldn’t help it!”

“Oh, I know the feeling.” Sirius grins, reclining back against Remus’ chest. “Seems like exactly how I felt when I found out Moony here had made out with half of Gryffindor.”

Remus rolls his eyes, as sick of this joke as James is of the ones about you. Still, he wraps a hand around Sirius’ thigh in solidarity.

“It’s different,” James grumbles. “That was…well, that was you two.”

“He makes a good point,” Remus says, and Sirius tilts his head back to beam up at his boyfriend proudly. “We both know what it feels like to think you love someone as a friend when it’s really something more.”

James glowers. “She was in a black. Lacy. Set. I am not made of stone!”

Remus only hums, sipping at his tea. “If it was your gran, you wouldn’t think the same.”

James shudders. “Why would you remind me of that?”

“So what’s next?” Sirius asks, raising a brow. “Do you want us to go sabotage her date with this bloke? Or better yet, lock her in her house so she can’t meet up with him at all?”

“I’m glad you’re on board,” James says, recovering from his disgust and beginning to look rather satisfied as he munches on another biscuit. “I’m thinking we hex him to be horrifically ugly. She won’t think of showing him her little outfit if he shows up and he’s got a face made entirely of warts.”

Remus and Sirius exchange a look. With a sigh, Remus begins stroking his hand up and down his boyfriend’s thigh consolingly.

“He’ll get it eventually,” he says.

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sashaforthewin · 1 year

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"I made you guys bracelets!" Steve announced, in lieu of a greeting as he walked into Family Video.

"I take it the princess party went well?" Eddie asked.

"It was a girl's night slumber party, thank you. Max would kick your ass if she heard you call it a princess party."

"Girl's night?" Eddie questioned, eyebrows raised in challenge.

"Shut up, I am an exception and it was my house so I get to join in."

"Wait, I'm a girl! Why wasn't I invited to girl's night?" Robin demanded, suddenly realizing she had been snubbed.

"Take it up with Max and El, I'm only an honorary member and have no sway. But anyways, back on the subject at hand, I made you guys gifts!"

Steve produced some brightly colored plastic beads bracelets. They had mismatched and disorganized colored beads and in the center, some white beads with black letters on them. He handed one each to Robin and Eddie and then kept two for himself.

They both examined their bracelets, which both read 'RIEND'.

"Um, what does this mean?" Eddie asked, trying not to sound unappreciative.

Steve showed off his own bracelets, putting one next to Eddie’s. This one read 'BOYF' and the other read 'BESTF', which he held out for Robin to see.

Eddie stared.

"Boyfriend. Why would you split it there? Boyfriend is literally already two words stuck together!"

"I wasn't gonna walk around with a bracelet that says boy or best, that would look dumb."

"You're so right, Steve, that would've looked dumb," Robin laughed. "I love your stupid brain so much."

Steve beamed, glad they were as amused by it as he had been when he thought of it. Eddie was laughing his ass off and trying to stop, but every time he looked down at Steve's bracelet that said BOYF, he would lose it again. His eyes were watering and he was doubled over in pain from how hard he was laughing at BOYF.

Eventually he pulled himself together and took one final deep calming breath, wiping the tears from his eyes.

"Our bracelets match, too!" Robin pointed out, holding her wrist next to Eddie’s, comparing their RIEND bracelets.

"We do have shared custody of the most beautiful doofus to roam the planet, it makes sense. And I could think of worse people to match."

"You're not so bad yourself."

"I was talking about myself," Eddie quipped.

"Wow, okay."

Eddie made grabby hands at Steve until he came close enough to be snatched into a hug.

"Thank you, Stevie, you're the best boyf a guy could ever have."

#drabble #ficlet #steddie #stranger things fic #steve/eddie #if you know about my crazy straws kindly shut up and let me reuse my own jokes

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nkogneatho · 11 months

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Pasiii hiii!!

I went to have a bath at a river at a dam with my fam...while we went inside the water i didn't realise my boobies were on slight display thro my wet tshirt...good thing my aunt told me to wrap a towel around before anyone noticed

The way i was soo oblivious about it...i wonder how gojo would react to such oblivious wife of his hshssjsjjas

A/n: It happens to me everytime but idc because usually I am alone in the river or sometimes it's just my bestf and me.

There's three possible Satoru reaction in this case. Tell me which one's your fav tho.

1. Flustered: He would be minding his own business and by that, I mean blowing bubbles in the water—but suddenly his eyes fall on your breasts and he realizes he can see your nipples through the wet top. His cheeks get flushed so fast, blue pupil widening and panicking not knowing how to react. Or form words to inform you but doesn't want you to misunderstand.

2. Laughing: You know it. He's an asshole and gets amused easily. So when he finds you playing around with the water while your nipples are on easily display, and you couldn't care about covering, he laughs. Even when he is chuckling he makes sure to swim next to you and he settles in front of you, preventing a show for everyone.

3. Protective: While Satoru is not the one who gets angry easily, he will sure get a little mad when you'd be so unintentionally and freely putting it on display. So the first thing he'd do is swim over to you, hugging you or what he make it looks like a hug while his fingers tug down the hem of your tshirt, lossening it so it prevents your skin to show out translucent through it. Toru will make sure to cover you with his tall torso, and he makes sure you've enjoyed. Before getting out of the water, Gojo lends you his own shirt to cover you. You get flustered when he tells you. "You should've told me sooner, Toru."

"I didn't want to make you uncomfortable and ruin your fun. Plus, you looked so happy playing in the river."

#gojo x reader #gojo fluff #gojo satoru x reader #soulmoots.°•♡#afortoru♡

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shewellt · 3 months

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Saturday: 20 Jan, 2024: We met again!

5th Jan, 2022

We were in our first year when we first met at the college central library. I didn't saw you until my best friend said she needs a pen and i asked you can I have your pen?" And at that time you didn't say a word and you were staring at me for complete 2 mins. Though I didn't like your staring but in evening my bestf said you fall for me at first sight. Though i've never experienced love in my life but this statement made me think that someone can also love me. And i'm someone's choice, first priority. As an introvert, I always have missed opportunity but this time I thought to give a try. I was settling for a bare minimum I thought but no it wasn't. He was ready to put efforts in me, on us, on our relationship.

6th Jan, 2022: We slid into each other dm!

I never knew boys were so shy in approaching girls but so am I. But I felt I should atleast take a chance to talk to him, know him. If it didn't mean to, it will never settle. Then I sent a hi and after 2-3 mins he replied. We talked for hours. He was a coder and I was a naive. I didn't know the language of coding but I did know the language of love. It was going really well. We talked on instagram then we exchanged our contacts then we used to chat in app for hours but not too long. I felt I was relying on him, I was getting interested in him but I don't why I took a step back. Cause i was never in a relationship, I never know what it feels to be in love, never knew what I meant for him.

I took a step back, we had a fight and it goes in vain in just 2 seconds. I never knew the importance of him in life. Though we're in talking stage but I really connected well with him.

Everything just destroyed in seconds due to 1 misunderstanding.

Next part in my next blog!

#love #i hate it here #original post #unknown #blog #ariana grande #life #pokemon #random

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rhysandsdarlingbitches · 6 months

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So my bestfs bf did something wrong and while she was being in a mood he said "tu overthink kare isse pehle mijhe overexplain krne de" like &@/÷>×*#^#>@>#*#<#* how am i supposed to fight it against these words?!!??!?!?!

#thats so romantic #why are the toxic ones always w the right words #desi tag #desi tumblr #desi #desiblr #indian memes

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tillidecidethenewname · 1 year

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All ik is you're here with me ~

I wonder, what is this feeling? Is this love? And If it is, that means i have never been in love before; maybe i gave the wrong title to those situations. Whatever i am feeling today is a rare feeling, a feeling which can't be explained but only be felt.

Oh well, you must be wondering how i ended up here, right? Let's have a story time..

2022 was ending, taking away all my hopes from being loved to studies, with it; but one and the only thing that kept me going was the newly became guy bestfriend with whom i chatted a little too much. From all my grieves to his grieves to our happiness to the dark secrets and then the little things, it was all like the end-choclate-filled, good part of the not-so-good-flavoured ice-cream cone lol, truly.

Gradually, 2023 comes, breaking all those new year hopes since the first day. Or in other words, it felt like i bought the same ice cream cone again haha. Well January felt long at first then it got busy and then it got worst.. we started fighting almost daily, it sucked until we realised what we were not be able to see even when it was infront of our eyes, the love. It was almost the end of the month when i started realising all those things i am being shipped with someone for, are true, i have feelings, i m in love. My friends encouraged me to confess so i jokingly said it to see his reaction, i thought he would take it in a funny way but i saw thoughtful replies the next morning.

One thing that was clear to me was, he definitely had feelings, but when he asked for time i definitely knew i wanted him 'cause yesss! That's what I was looking for! Someone who's not so mad at girls that they couldn't even resist to say yes in a minute yk what i m saying?

Since the first day, my bestfs be like "you should date him, he definitely likes you ik", "you guys will look cute together", "a boy and a girl can never be just friends", "he's really cute why don't you think about it?", "Those things you guys were talking about sounded sus", "no one gives a paper ring to someone with no feelings ydk", "he's the best choice in the class", even my sister be like "why're you so happy talking to him?", "Why'd you guys talk all day? Sus", "you always talk about him", "at your age it's just potential bf and gf" ~ well i was very serious for him to be my bestfriend.. we even planned how I'll dance at his wedding, how we'll find gf for him- exactly her type, how we'll go for double dates and trips, how we can start fighting less, about all the career goals, basically so many goals which are still the same, but completely different.

It all changed when our chats became a little more intense and at one point we just knew we're so in love with each other even before saying it. 5-6 days and i m comfortable, more than ever. The princess treatment he treats me with, either in the way he talks to me/about me, or the small things he does for me, cannot even be described in some amount of words i swear. The way he looks at me with that much affection that he would kiss me anytime if he gets a chance lmao is so cute. That look in his eyes when he stares from the other corner of the room and takes away his eyes the second i look back gives me metal butterflies fr. From the way he walks to the way he talks to the way he laughs, every single thing is just so attractive to me that i could stare for years if I get a chance to. It is when, for some seconds i try to hold the eye contact and he gives that smile which makes me smile asf that instant, i forget they're other people which might be noticing. The fact that he's not aware about how blissful everything becomes when he smiles because he has that charm, that shine on his face, makes him even more cute. The way he admires my beauty, tells me i m hot two crore times a day, wants my new pictures every day, plans about our future, is serious asf about forever, makes me playlist, dedicate me songs, gives me nicknames and adds "my" before them, makes him the perfect boyfie ever. The most attractive thing about him is his body language and discipline but at the same time he is such a Romeo, who's Juliet cannot hold eye contacts, is physical-touch-phobic, moody, has fucked up sleep schedule, caffeine addicted, even hurts him, is shy and introvert asf, but loves him asf. I love the way he's so interested when i talk about my father and his values, my opinions, choices, values, what i support and what not and when he understands me so so well. He's a such a gem to me who makes me feel like i m the only girl in this world, the way my self esteem is boosting by each passing day, is because of him. In such little amount of time he has done so many things for me that is impractical to summarise here, every single day since then contains so many memorable moments that i want to live again already. It's a big thing when my life has completely changed for the good and i want to live again each day, each moment so slowly, steadily. Now, all my favourite songs i have been listening to from years, started talking about him. He wants to fulfill my whole wishlist, his efforts makes me feel like i am doing nothing for him, and actually i m so busy admiring him that i forget to make any efforts. Never thought we will be people's ideal couple but at the end, i believed in faith.

~ P

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canideadmeow · 3 months

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love how all that one needs to do is say something toxic and they'll be right out of my life, likee this gurl that I was in love w, who was my bestf five years ago....her memories had such a tight grip on me but she said one of the most toxic shit to ever exist and see now I don't have to worry about her memories haunting me 'cause yk whenever I'll be reminded of the good times, her stupid words will flash right in front of my eyes and that's it ^^

#kinda happy tbh #it's like when you start getting closer to ppl #they show you more of who they are like yk their thoughts and opinions about stuff #and it's a blessing AND a curse #'cause you're like omg I'm so happy to have found you #you're an amazing person #but sometimes it's also like omg it's so sad that we got so close #'cause look at the way you believe majorities should rule over minorities #or any similar toxic thought #random rant

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passwordjournal2 · 3 months

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Gotta do a dream post for the real ones

Okay so, the dream is longer but from the point I can remember-

I’m in a store and it’s like some new age shop and the entire time I feel convicted that I shouldn’t be there, but there’s these vases- almost identical, but something different between them, and mostly in energy- not so much in looks, because they looked like a pair, not identical but they go together

I buy them, I bring them home and I set one on my mantle in my bedroom, and the other close by on a table, and I go to sleep-

I wake up to whispers, and again I feel the Holy Spirit convict me- I wake up and I get out of the bed and shake off the feeling as nothing more than a weird dream (I wake up in my dreams, a lot)

I walk past the vases and I hear the whispers again - that kind of sound of wind blowing that sounds like words almost

I leave the room and I come back and that’s when I catch these 2 inanimate objects talking amongst themselves, whispering back words- almost like a chant or a spell

Instantly, like any dream I find myself in these days I am rebuking the spirits in these vases- I have my hands with my palms up to the ceiling, and I’m saying something along the lines of “I rebuke whatever evil spirit dwells within these jars- I bind them and send them to heaven to be dealt with by God and his angels,” and I’m praying and rebuking as I pace back and forth

Almost like a storm settling, the room changes even though nothing looks different, but it feels cleansed and calm, I look out my door and my bestfs son is in the floor and he’s walking, and he has an old pair of metal shears, the kind you’d find next to a magnifying glass- and it’s caught up in his foot somehow- I am still worried about the entities in my room, so I feel torn between both and then I look- and Mason, hold these big shears up to his tooth and he cuts out his tooth, and a half of a molar rolls across my floor

as I reach for the scissors and he cuts his tooth in half, the shears kick back like a gun would being shot, and I reach with my right hand and my ring finger top digit gets clear cut off, I’m frantic but I’m more frantic about masons tooth and he’s more frantic about my finger- and I’m trying to call his mom on the phone, I’m in my living room, all of the windows are open and it’s spring, the air coming in is warm but only warm in the way spring is compared to winter, there’s a strong breeze coming in and it’s blowing my curtains into the air

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pariyyyyy · 3 months

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Okay so you're already 15?? I can't believe that Honestly we've known each other from so long it's almost like I've seen you grow up Its honestly so crazy how you play such a big part in my life I don't think I'll ever be able to put in words how much I love you so I'm writing you this. So first of all happiness birthday vishuu I hope you're year treats you well and how you deserve to be treated which is princess treatment only when I say I love you so much I mean it thank you for being the only person with whom I can share my political options thankyouuuu for being the person who reads my poetry thankyou for making me feel valid and I hope I can be your BESTF for a long long run I love you and I'm so proud of you for you and all the dreams that you have and I know are gonna come true. You're Literally the prettiest person inside out I feel blessed to know that you exist thank you for being my bestf, home, I'm so proud of always and forever and and you're 15? I can't believe it honestly I have the biggest soft spot for you in my heart I see parts of me in you while I was that age I know our age gap is not much but alot happens in year I just want to wish you all the happiness and strength for the coming years I hope every time you feel like giving up you know you can run to me always you deserve to be happy and loved and everything it's okay if you're ever hurting and it's okay even when you're not I hope you know I'm always there Ive faith in you for everything you ever wish to have you're literally the most amazing person and I just care for you. Alot I see you like my lil sister and I want to protect you and keep you safe and make sure you always feel loved sooo I've too much to say but I don't think I'll be able to word it out but Im trying too ALSO SORRY FOR WISHING YOU LATE I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE I DO IT REALLY REALLY WELL at the end I just wanted to tell you that give a little bit of love to yourself too. You're full of love and care and you're always there for people and that's a good trait but never exaust yourself inbetween people that you forget about yourself totally okay? I love you and always will and just know if anything ever happens I'm there and always will be for you.

I know this is not enough and you deserve million more words cause you deserve it I just want to say love yourself before you love anyone else and I know that is hard I genuinely do but at least try too please I do not want my lil baby sis ever feeling she's not enough cause she is more than enough always and always will be don't go trying to prove yourself to people you don't need to okay I'm there for you always always and always and I love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u love u

THE MOST OKAY!

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immyselfonlyme · 1 year

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Trauma :,)

Mention of abuse

Soo,I remember being with my bestfriend when a random boy walked out w/ his gf out of nowhere,and then the girl said "Oh look,my friends are over there" or something like that.And the boy just said "Okay,5 minutes,that's all." and he pulled her hand to his chest and said something (didn't hear what tho.).

A little problem ; I didn't know her,nor my bestfriend,so it was quite weird for both of us..

Then the girl came and was super weird ! but like,really really reaaaally weird.She was hiding her arms and legs (it was in the middle of summer,even at night it was like 25°C -- celsius,idk for other °.) and barely talked normally (she said random words in the middle of a sentence),but then the man came back,and literally HITTED her infront of us.Me and my bestf were so shocked that we almost didn't react.But the girl just stood up,and was going away.But then my bestf (the best <3.) called the police and then the man got arrested for rape,violence and already had done 10 years in jail :)

Me and my bestf are so creeped out now.

Please if you're going through this,or knows anyone going through it,tell it ! It's important <3

Stay healthy,hydrated and eat well !And stay positive ! love y'all <3

#What a trauma #i hope she's doing well #Talk about it !#sad #trauma #abuse

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mostardently · 3 years

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#gaikwad my beloved you were AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE END SIX WTF #IPL #edit: I forgot to mention very own words describe this situation #ek changli wali tivra sanak geli last la skdhsksjsj #shreya's diary #words of my bestf**#gaikwad my beloved

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nkogneatho · 6 months

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pasi!!! hiii sage and edelweiss for the ask game 😽

💭ask game <3 @renhoeku

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

i would say poetry, and fiction. i do love music but poetries and fictions are raw emotions binded in words oh so beautifully. music surely adds more, but there's just something magical about reading a line that moves your heart.

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

it was just a random evening i decided to join tumblr to read a specific haikyuu smau i saw on google, and i didn't really out any thought to it. incognito was the first thing that came to my mind since i was telling my bestf that i search everything on incognito because when i die, i wanna die being mysterious.

#thank you omg this was so comforting #soulmoots.°•♡#fawn♡#jupiter♡

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tatakaebomb · 2 years

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Spoilt rotten

ꕥ Pairing : Boyf’s bestf suna x reader

ꕥ Synopsis : Stop getting so impatient when your boyfriends bestfriend is around! Greedy girls never have the best of luck.

ꕥ Word count : 2.4K

ꕥ A/N : dw, there’s also still some atsumu action here too

ꕥ TW : fingering, cheating, vouyerism, panty stealing, unconsented photography, non con (?), dub con, dacryphilia, enemies smut, ass spanking, ass play, finger sucking, dom! Suna, dom! sub!, sub! reader, hate sex, pet names, perversion, intrusion, mentions of oral, orgasm denial, cream pie, squirting, size kink, creaming, sex, SMUT LOL, suna is an ass hole, probs more just hate sex suna, 18+

"Why is he here tsumu."

"Calm down, we gotta do our chemistry work together."

"Your girlfriends a bitch."

"Suna what the fuck-"

And thats where chaos started, shouting, arguing, finger pointing, its without a doubt that the man standing infront of you was one of your least favourable people on the planet, however it doesn't help that he was your boyfriends bestfriend.

"Tsumu tell him to leave!" You whine, foot planted on the ground as your eyes angrily peer at the smug face wiped over Suna Rintaro's face. He was nothing but a nightmare, always ruining the minimal time you and Atsumu have together, and it doesn't help that hes never sorry for it. Sometimes you think Atsumu enjoys hanging out with Suna more than he does his girlfriend - and the way he seems to act never disproves it.

"Well y/n...its raining out, I told him he could stay the night..." Atsumu meekly speaks, voice small in fear of your reaction.

Its times like this where you consider breaking up with your boyfriend, he can be so dense sometimes its painful. Can he not see you dont like him? Whys he letting him interrupt your quality time together?

"Suna. Can I speak to you...alone..." Following your command, atsumu leaves the room, almost glad Suna is the one getting into shit and not him.

It was a dull silence, your furious stare peering straight at the dark haired man slouched infront of you. Hands slumped in his pockets and blank, bored expression planted on him. "Why cant you just leave him alone?"

"What do you mean leave him alone? I dont swing like th-"

"Not in that way! Your always coming here, taking 'tsumu away, whether it be volleyball or work. Im so done with you!" Voice heightened and finger wagged in his face, you were angry to say the least. But he didn't seem to care, as always he was too bothered in his phone to actually give a shit about your words. It was hopeless, you almost came to the conclusion of actually breaking up with atsumu.

'I give up-' you sigh, arms flailing as you move to sit on the couch. Hands cupping your face in frustration and agony. It was only when suna could see you were visibly upset he seemed to care...or so you thought. 'This is pointless.'

'Do you mind not sitting on my jacket? I don't want your tears on it.'

'Wh- as if I'd ever shed a tear on you rintaro.'

The glint in his eyes went unmissed by you, but truth be told suna loved seeing you like this. Fiesty, talking back. He loved your sharp mouth witty tongue, but was always so confused on why you settled for atsumu, he was nothing but goofy - and annoying -.

He never revealed the truth, the real reason why he loved staying around you so much, as if he would - to be caught preying on his bestfriends girlfriend? To be caught stealing her dirty panties from his laundry basket and rubbing his cock with it, imagining it's her on her knees for him and NOT for atsumu. He deserves you, he craves you, needs you even...but hell if he would let you know this. Without a fight anyways...

'Get up.' He ordered, hand grabbing onto your wrist as he dragged you off the couch, your legs instinctively wobbling upwards and hands fallen flat on his chest.

'Fuck! Ouch- atleast handle me with care.'

'What, are you a box or something' he chuckles, your eyes rolling at his pathetic attempt at a joke 'I wonder how atsumu got lucky with a girl like you y/n, you sure do put people in their place...'

'What? The fuck are you on about?'

'Don't blush too hard, just saying...' lips move to mutter closer against your ear, his thumb rubbing circles into your weak wrist as your chests were so close, so close to touching. 'You still got a nasty ass tongue on you'

'You fucking dick-'

'Speak like that a fucking gain ill have to put you in your place-'

'Or what...'

'Such a fucking slut I swear I'll-'

The tension in the room was instantly cut by atsumu calling out your names, your hands ripped apart from his touch as you both walked forth into the bedroom, only to see him laid on the bed flicking through the television.

'Movie?'

Muffled noises of a random horror film was played in the background, you, however, were too focused on how you managed to get planted between suna and atsumu, the glare of sunas phone too distracting to watch a film, but you didn't wanna upset atsumu, after all he already seems stressed enough from your prior argument, you wouldn't wanna upset him more would you?

The clock next to you showed 1am. The room was dark, lights turned off and the streets outside were silent, it felt like the film had been playing forever, the stupid animation of some creepy dolls killing humans, what a waste of time.

'Tsumu...' you whisper, lips moving to tap at his neck, fingers clawing lower between his thighs, your teeth clasping the skin of his neck, denting dark purple circles into him. 'Need you so bad...'

If suna isn't gonna leave, your not gonna give up your sex life for him.

'Not now y/n...' he mutters, pulling you into his lap and mumbling against your lips, erection digging right into your slit.

A disappointed whine escaped your mouth as you turned around to face the TV, atsumu's arms hugging you closer to his body. The flick of your eye showed you suna wasn't half interested, his phone tossed to a side as he watched the film, hands cupped behind his head and eyes almost asleep.

It wasn't until you felt atsumu's fingers crawl between your legs that you tensed up again, his head leaning forth on your shoulder to kiss your cheek, lips curling towards your ears as he spoke as quietly as he could 'gotta be quiet then...'

His digits wasted no time massaging your clit through your panties, slow agonising circles that had your breathing drop and legs close together, your fingers clawing onto his arm as you tried your best to focus on the film, Suna next to you still not noticing.

You almost rode him from how good he felt, tip nudging at your g spot as he finally pushed his fingers inside you, rubbing you how you like. His grip on your waist tightening, pulling you closer to him.

'Yes...yes like that...' a silent whine left your lips as you kept trying to reach your climax, the pace of his fingers increasing, thumb rubbing circles right into your soft spot, your body almost numb from him, it's been so long you swear you felt like you could fuck him for hours.

'This films shit. Imma sleep.' Suna interrupted, Atsumus action halting to a stop. You felt like crying, you were so so close, Suna probably knew that too.

'Ah..okay. Well maybe we should sleep then' He speaks, placing you on the bed next to Suna and getting up to turn the television off. You angrily throw the covers over your head and drift off to sleep, upset and disappointed.

The clock showed 3am. You wouldn’t stop tossing and turning, no matter what you couldn’t fall asleep. Atsumu’s back faced towards you as Suna was laying upright, soft snores escaping your boyfriends mouth.

‘Quit moving-‘ suna whispered, eyes flickering open to look at you as you slumped your head against your pillow, peering at his messy form. Hair draped over his sleepy, cat like eyes and long hands gently nudging your exposed thigh.

‘Fuck off.’

‘Cant sleep?’

‘What do you think.’

‘Just fucking sleep-‘ was his last words before pulling the duvet over his head and attempting to fall back asleep.

The clock was ticking but you were wide awake, silently you dragged yourself out of bed, waddling downstairs into the kitchen for some water.

Goosebumps trembled up your legs at the feeling of being so exposed, shorts showing the lower curve of your ass and your white tank top hardly protecting anything, glasses nudged up on your nose so you could see what you were doing.

Filling up a glass of water, you drank it all, the droplets of water dripping down your top and collecting at your boobs, but you couldn’t care, you felt like an insomniac.

‘Since you woke me up, the least you could do is get me a glass’

The voice behind you startled you, Suna stood at the doorway, sweatpants hung at his hips as he stretches his back, legs nearing towards you as he leans over you to snatch a glass from the cupboard.

‘Didn’t you sleep?’

‘No, you wouldn’t stop fucking moving’

‘Well there’s just not enough room in the bed for the three of us’

‘True, you should’ve went home’ he nonchalantly speaks, taking a sip from his glass of water and setting it on the desk. Standing infront of your smaller figure, the reflection of the moonlight really bringing out your eyes.

‘I’ve had it up to here with you suna! Just fuck off god the only reason I fucking speak to you is cause your always around fucking MY BOYF-‘

‘You speak too much.’ He says, pushing his fingers deep down your throat, so far you were gagging, finger nails gripping at his wrist to let you go. He wouldn’t though, instead he pushed you closer to the worktop, spinning you round and slamming you face first with the cold marble.

‘G-get off of me’

‘Fuck no- you think you deserve it? Interrupting my sleep? Shouting at me? Swearing at me?’

‘Of course you deserve it you pr- AH’ Your retaliation earnt you a harsh slap to your ass, back arched even closer down, tits spewing out of your top, cold nipples erect from the glass.

The skin of your ass was flushed red, his fingers moving to grip at your skin, tweezing it, long fingers dragged lower and lower towards your entrance, examining how you try your hardest to close your thighs, but the grip between your legs prevents that.

‘Your such a brat, don’t think I didn’t notice miya fingering you earlier, you that desperate?’ He tugs your hair, your back arched and eyes tilted to meet his.

‘A-ah I don’t know what your talking about.’

‘Don’t fucking lie. Did you even cum?’

‘…’

‘Such a brat hm? Fine. Gonna be like that, I’ll make sure your crying to cum at the end of the night’ dragging your lips into his, he spits down your throat, drool lathering at the edges of your mouth as his tongue swirls down your throat. Large cock prodding from behind you, his free hand moving to palm at himself, gathering the slick from your cunt as his pre-cum earning a whine from you.

‘Ah- suna…’

‘Want me to fuck this pretty pussy hm? Fuck it better than your precious boyfriend ever could? You want that?’ He mocks

‘Y-yes yes ah- please…’

It didn’t take much protesting until he pushes inside of you, your lip bitten down harshly in an attempt to not scream, he was so big. Long vein struck all through his cock, nudging at your tight walls. Small thrusts of his hips had you almost going feral, the lewd noises filling up the hollow walls of the kitchen.

Your ass shook against his thighs, slamming and haltering by his hips, sharp slaps sent to your core as he kept playing with you. His cock felt so good, prodding you so well, he was almost made for you.

‘Feels so good baby…’

‘Gotta keep it down princess, don’t want miya hearing do ya? Or do ya…?’

‘NO- no no ill- fuck yeah- keep quiet…’

‘Good girl…’ he kept going, your tits violently shaking under you, thighs trembling and slick pooling at your stomach, the knot was tightening and you were so close to cumming. Red marks on your ass defining his hand print, your sore lips being dragged into another sloppy kiss as you came closer and closer to your end.

‘Gn’ cum’

‘Yeah?’

‘Yeah yeah…fuck…’

It was then he pulled out, a sharp gasp sent from your mouth as you eagerly try your best to thrust back onto his cock, his large hand moving to push on your ass, preventing you from moving.

‘Ya gotta earn it doll? Whose the better fucker, me? Or your boyfriend ?’

‘Y-you’ you meekly whisper, body to weak to respond

‘What’s that?’

‘You, you baby please- need you so bad please..’

‘And what do you need me to do princess?’

‘Make me cum, wanna cum so much on your cock please, wanna milk you so bad please daddy please…’ you were so close to crying, tears brimming the water line of your eyes. You felt so deprived, you needed him to fuck you again.

‘Fine baby… go for it.’

He slammed deep inside you, your eyes falling to the back of your head as you cried a moan, hips jolting at an inhumane pace inside your tight pussy, you were milking him out, clenching around him so well he almost forgot what he was doing, your cum spurting over his cock, your body weakly moaning as you wailed a loud cry. He finished soon after, warm spurts of white leaked inside of you.

‘F-fuck..’ he lowly groaned, pulling himself out of you and admiring what a mess he’s made inside of your pretty pussy.

Turning your head around you were faced with the flash of his camera, capturing your exposed, fucked out face. And zooming into the mess he’s made in your pussy, his fingers plunging inside to make sure you don’t drop any.

‘What are you doing?!’

‘Sending this to atsumu, ya don’t think he deserves a girlfriend who would cheat on him, do ya princess?’

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hyuneluvbot · 3 years

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i don’t wanna be your friend, i wanna kiss your lips

pairing- lee minho x reader

genre- fluff, best friends to lovers

warnings- reader skips meals because they’re super caught up with work, so if that might be triggering, please don’t proceed further. also a single curse word :D

word count- 1.6k

synopsis- minho doesn’t want to be friends with you anymore, and today was just the push he needed, when he sees you giving attention to another male, he finally realises he can’t keep hiding his feelings.

author’s note- that synopsis was absolute crap. very cliché, bestf likes you, gets jealous and confesses.

this is inspired by the song “i wanna be your girlfriend” by girl in red, specifically the lyrics ‘i don’t wanna be your friend, i wanna kiss your lips; i wanna kiss you until i lose my breath.’ think i stumbled across an edit of minho on this song, which inspired this idea jdjdjdj ok bye.

“why do you always end up skipping meals?” minho rolls his eyes for what seems like the hundredth time since you’d met him today.

“i was finishing this up, look it’s almost complete,” you quickly turn your laptop in his direction, showing him your progress.

he scans whatever document you’d shoved into his face, but deems it uninteresting seconds later, opting to stare at you as you try to talk to him with your mouth full.

“don’t talk while you’re eating,”

“ooh min your concern’s showing,”

“it’s because you look ugly,” he manages to pull a disgusted face.

‘of course you don’t look ugly’ he corrects himself in his head.

you never do, you never have; not in his eyes.

he watches you as you eat the meal you’d pestered him to prepare for you, explaining how you lost track of time and forgot to eat.

it was true, well part of it was.

you weren’t going to tell him you wanted to see him with the excuse of food.

when you’re done with your meal, you thank him and quickly pack up your stuff, getting ready to go back to the library where you were previously working in, when he stops you and tells you he wants to join you.

“huh? but you’ll get bored there,” you say softly.

“i’ve nothing better to do, plus i should keep a check on you so you don’t skip more meals,” he says, narrowing his eyes, almost as if he was convincing himself and not you.

lies. he promised changbin and hyunjin he’d join in on the weekly movie marathon and karaoke night.

but oh well, they won’t mind.

so before you try to protest more, he grabs your arm, tells you you’re wasting time and walks you to the direction of the library.

“min, can we get ramen after i’m done with work?”

“tch, little piggy. you just ate and you’re already thinking about your next meal,”

but despite his words, he still smiles, appreciating the effort on your part to prove to him you were true to your word and weren’t planning on skipping any more meals.

it’s silent for a while as you walk to your destination together, only making a stop at a nearby café to get some coffee and pastries as snacks while you work.

he waits as you place both of your orders, wanting to treat him as a thank you for the meal.

you start to make your way to him when you hear a voice call out to you.

“y/n, hey!” a boy approaches you.

minho quickly analyses the male.

almost as tall as him, fluffy curly hair, thick glasses, dressed in a black hoodie and matching joggers.

the boy takes off his mask and smiles at you, his dimples on full display.

he quickly pulls you into a hug that you happily return.

minho’s stomach churns in discomfort, as a pang of jealousy and insecurity hits him.

he doesn’t care to pay attention to the conversation you both have, zoning out and only catching onto parts of it.

why do you look so happy with that boy?

why are you smiling at this boy like that?

you only smile like that to him.

you only hug him like that.

“i didn’t expect to see you here, when did you come back?”

“just a few days ago, i’m leaving after my sister’s wedding, what’re you doing here?”

“oh i’m just heading to the library with a friend, come say hi,”

his head immediately shoots up as he sees you approach him with the male.

“min this is my friend minho,” “and min, this is minjun,” you giggle at the same name you refer to both of them with.

minjun offers his hand to minho, smiling, and it makes minho feel almost guilty for thinking of him as a threat.

he tries to push away his feelings and returns a tight- lipped smile, clutching his hand with his own, maybe a little tighter than he’d intended to.

minho sees you smile at him for trying to get along with minjun, and the sight of it eases his nerves a little.

‘the things i do for you,’ he sighs and tries to initiate a conversation with the new male.

after what felt like hours of watching you smile and happily giggle with minjun; minjun receives a text and suddenly becomes alert.

“shoot, gotta go, i’ll catch up with you later though,” he quickly pulls you in for another hug.

“maybe we can hang out soon,”

“i’d love that,” minjun smiles and squeezes your hand, passing a small smile to minho before making his way out of the café.

minho watches him leave as you go back to pick up your coffees, shooting daggers to the boy’s retreating figure with his glare.

while you’re in the library working, you can’t help take note of minho’s behaviour.

he’s been awfully silent this whole time, only replying to you with nods and blunt responses, sometimes not responding at all.

he’s usually a quiet person, but this is unlike him.

he sits beside you, idly tapping one of your pencils he got a hold of on the table, and he seems in a daze, staring far away and not paying attention to his surroundings.

“y/n, who am i?” he suddenly asks you, making you tear your eyes away from your screen for a split second.

“minho. lee know. lee minho. min. uhh, cat boy,” you go on to list all the names you’d called him by over the years, only to get interrupted.

“no who am i to you?” he asks, his lips forming the smallest pout against his will.

“well, you’re my friend-”

“no.”

you furrow your brows in confusion, now fully turning to his figure seated beside you.

“what do you mean no?” you ask him innocently.

“i don’t wanna be your friend,” he responds.

it came out harsher than he expected, because he sees a hurt expression flash across your face and it makes him feel extremely sorry in an instant.

“oh,” you look away.

he contemplates on whether or not he should say it.

he doesn’t want to lose you and your friendship.

but at the same time, he sure as hell doesn’t wanna lose you to another boy, especially not when he hasn’t even had a chance to love you properly, to show you how much you mean to him.

‘say it’ the voice in his head chants to him, over and over.

and so he does.

“i don’t wanna be your friend because i want to kiss you,”

this makes you do a double take, your eyes widening almost comically, trying to comprehend if you heard that right.

“you what?”

“i want to kiss you; on your lips. also your cheeks, your nose. i want to kiss you everywhere,”

“friends don’t do that do they?” his previously harsh gaze softens as he looks at you before continuing.

“friends don’t fall in love with each other, do they?”

“why don’t you see? why don’t you ever see me y/n?,” he finally lets out, almost whining.

“min, i- i never knew,” you stutter, overlapping your sentences.

“y-you do now,” he concludes, his voice going down to a whisper and though he tries his best to appear confident, he still overlaps his words and stutters because of how nervous he is.

it’s so silent afterwards, both of you feel like you can hear just how fast your hearts are beating.

he doesn’t even look at you when you push your chair back, he assumes this is it.

‘i should’ve kept quiet’

though he’s quickly pulled out of his thoughts when you take ahold of his face and lean down to capture his mouth with yours.

he freezes for a few seconds before slowly relaxing into your touch, a small smile making its way to his lips.

then he pulls you down to his lap and sneaks his arms around your torso, holding you as close to him as your bodies would allow.

chests touching as you share sweet kisses; you sit there wrapped up in the other’s embrace.

you reluctantly pull away from him when you feel like you’re losing your breath, and disappointed, he tries to chase after your mouth with his own.

after you’re breathing somewhat normally, you slowly start to piece things together to why he was being so moody and why he admitted to his feelings now.

“were you upset because of minjun?” you ask him, trying to hold back your smile.

his face instantly turns into one of annoyance before he starts to rant about the incident from the café.

“you called me a friend, i’m not just a friend, and you know it! i’m a friend and he’s just minjun? wrong.” he pauses and refuses to look at you.

“you called him min! i’m min,” he huffs

“but i thought you hated that name,”

“it’s my favourite name out of all the ones you’ve called me,” he says in a low voice but you catch on nonetheless.

“you even hugged him like that,”

“like what?”

“l-like you only hug me!” he’s clearly upset and it’s evident from the way he’s speaking to you.

“i’m always the happiest around you though,”

“you’re my favourite min,” you state, fondling with his fingers.

you finally crack a giggle at his expression.

round, wide eyes, rosy cheeks, lips pulled into a pout.

“w-what am i to you now?” he almost whispers, looking at you with the softest expression you’ve seen.

wanting to play with him a bit more, you quickly kiss him again, for longer this time, not hesitant with your actions anymore, knowing he felt just the same as you did, and pull away to rest your foreheads together.

“you’re my friend of course, best friend,” you smile cheekily.

he scoffs at that, should’ve seen that coming.

“fuck you,”

“i love you too min,” you kiss his nose.

#stray kids #stray kids imagines #stray kids x reader #lee minho #lee minho x reader #changbin #felix #stray kids minho #stray kids lee minho #hyunjin #han jisung #jeongin #kim seungmim #seungmin #kpop imagines #bang chan #lee know #lee know imagines #stray kids drabbles

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jeonselca · 3 years

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cigarettes and sex

❦ — pairing : cho sangwoo x bestf!f!reader

❦ — warning(s) : smut , manipulation , just him fucking you out of stress

❦ — words : 1,5k || navigation sg masterlist

author notes : from my list of wips (4) . COPY PASTED THIS FROM WATTPAD AND IM TOO LAZY TO MAKE IT BOLD AND ITALIC 😭

the lights of seoul beaming in through your hotel balcony , the mist of cigarettes blocking through your vision as you light up your 3rd cigarettes for the night .

you clutched tightly on the coat you're wearing- a black coat with a 'cho sangwoo' embroidered on the left side on the fabric, as the frigid air came into your room hitting your slightly exposing skin, which make you slightly shivers at the feeling .

you were too busy shivering to notice the clicking sound of the hotel doors opened, a men with a complete suit attire walk in with his tie loosened came into view, a suitcase was clutched tightly on his hand .

without a word, the men took off his coat and hung it on the near by couch, his suitcase was put onto the desk beside the bed roughly, a loud clicked sound making you snapped into reality making you turn around to see your best friend- sangwoo standing infront of the opened suitcase with his back facing you .

you put your cigarettes aside before you stood up and hold the coat closer to you, the frigid breeze very so often making you shivers as you walked towards the men .

''hey... are.. you.. alright ?'' you quietly asked, as you took a glimpse of what is inside the suitcase, only to see a few rolled money in it that was once filled with money .

a big sighed leaving his lip before he slumped down onto the silky bedsheet, a creaking sound was made as he lay his back on it, his palm covering his face with a groaned decorating his lips .

you examined his expression before the realisation finally hits you, your heart shattering at the possibility of why is he acting like that .

''sangwoo... wheres.. the money ?'' you asked sternly before turn around to face him, and he just responded it with a slow shook which make your face scrunched in disbelief .

''i.. i don't know''

''you said you're going to come back with a lot more money ? where is it ? you said our suffering is going to end soon- you promise me , how much do you invested in ? sangwoo what did you d-''

and before you could finish your sentence, you felt a strong grip holding on your waist, pulling you into the chest which make you instantly shut up .

''im- im sorry- please don't leave me'' he whispered into your ears, fears taking over his words as he hold you tightly into his chest, as if he was scared of you going anywhere .

ofcourse he was scared. he don't want to going through this alone. he need you. to suffer with him.

and you're too wrapped around his finger to shook your head to his pleading

because at the end of the day, you need him too.

and again, before you could say anything, you felt him tilting your head to the side, his shaky breath ghosted on your lips, silently pleading you to not leave him alone after all both of you had got through together.

yes . you ran away with him .

you're too far to stop now .

and its too late to leave him .

you should've done it the moment he asked you to joined his investment agenda a few months ago

you tried to shake it off by trying to pull away his hands away from your waist, but only for him to tightening his grip harder than before making you winced at the pressure

''sangwoo- we need to talk about this'' you murmured which he just shook it off by placing a kiss on your lips, instantly shutting you off .

he deepens the kiss which make you shuddered, but you eventually kiss him back in hope that he'll be more loosen under your touch and ready to talk about the current situation

but it just make him more tense

the soft kiss you shared was slowly turning into a rough make out , infecting the confines of his pants which make you shuddered between the kisses as you felt his hard-on is slightly pressed on your thigh

you know this isn't the right time

but fuck it

you just needed him as much as he needed to be inside you

you felt yourself getting turned by him, as he roughly pushed you onto the silky bed and disconnected his lips to took a breath, before continuing to devouring your lips and instantly holding your wrist into his, pinning it on each side of your head as his hips was grounded onto yours

his buldge was pressed hard on your clothed cunt, earning you to gasped between the kisses forcing to pull away from the heated make out, his forehead rested onto yours as you shared the same air that was suddenly hot, eyes locked into each other .

and then he saw it

his coat that you were wearing

and he swore to himself he could've cum right there and then seeing his now crumpled coat due to his rough action , his lips was slightly crooked seeing you were absolutely wreck underneath his body even without touching you inappropriately

you are infact, is wrapped around his finger

and who are you to deny ?

and that is when you felt himself grind onto yours clothed cunt, your body shaken at the sudden pressure as you look down to see him humping himself onto your clothed cunt,

but this is not enough

you want more

you need more

so you forcefully pull him off with all your strength, aggressively unbuckled his trousers as he watched you eagerly removing his confines of pants from his painfully hard cock

the pain and anxious he felt earlier is magically disappeared, soon to be replaced with nothing but pure lust

all thanks to you

and when you're done, you pull yourself back before removing your coat as if it was restricted from you to move any further, but only for sangwoo to pull your hands off, his gripped stoping from you to do whatever you were about to,

''don't, let them on. i want to fuck you in it''

he spoke as he aggressively parting away your thigh, the slick of your arousal was glistening under the dim light of the hotel's room, his eyes looking it in awe as his finger was softly tracing on your inner thigh, and your body trembled under his light touched

and he's not even touching you yet

he pulled your panties to the side, and with that - he push himself in without any second thought, your body shuddered as his tip was slightly hitting the base of your cervix, a loud moan leaving your lips

you never felt this full

and you wish to be like this forever

even if its impossible

sangwoo hips stuttered at the way your cunt is hugged his cock, the way it was perfectly accustomise to his size- as if it was meant to be

his eyes was flustered at the feeling, him trying to regain his strength as he slowly move himself inside you, trying his best to not cum so fast

he watched as your hands gripping the white bed sheet beneath you, holding onto it as your eyes were rolled back of the feeling of being full, his hand was securely around your thigh to make sure you stayed parted like that

''you look so pretty... like this...''

and with that, he forcefully pull himself out of you, before slamming into you hard to the point the creaking sound of the bed was loud enough to be heard in the room,

a string of groans were leaving his lips, as he take the intuitive to shut himself off by leaning into your wreaked body and leaving kisses on your lips, his hips was practically burried onto yours as he continuesly grinding his cock into yours, your moans was completely muffled by his already sore lips.

he was kissing you as if he want to make you forget

forgetting about the things he has brought you into

and you were sure well he has succeed with it

you felt yourself getting near as the familiar coil started to feeling inside your lower body, his tip repeatedly pressing hard against that one spot pretty sure isn't helping you last for ever,

and when it finally snapped, you felt yourself cumming all over the bedsheet, wetting the bedsheet underneath you as a loud moan was force out of you, you pulled yourself from the kiss as Sangwoo remained himself there, his lips travelling down to your neck as he eventually sucking onto your soft spot he had known from before, his thrust getting sloppy as he felt himself getting near too.

you breathed heavily as you watch sangwoo pulling off you, slipping his cock out before jerking it off and he had eventually cumming all over your lower body, painting his cum onto your fucked messy cunt as he watched yourself being so fucked out- laying on the bed only with his coat, thigh spread widely with load of cum was painted on your lower parts

sangwoo lay down beside you- pulling you closer onto him as you were both's breath is still shaking from the recent orgasm,

it was quiet for a second

and this is the kind of moment you want to live in

for a second, you forgot about the things you were worrying about .

because at this point, nothing is important that being with him closely.

because you can feel it-

this is going to be the last you could be in his arms

tags : @midaribaby @set-theory-is-killing-me @sangwoosbixch @romewritingshop @prpbablyme @heartsarecompatible @edgysewerrat @abalaba-stan @weasleytwinscumslut @plantpottt @koonejitop @thefleetofdreams @thoughtfulfestivalpastabear-blog

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rumundersun · 2 years

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Accompanied Nani today, to Nanu's best friend's house. It was his wife's first death anniversary. I saw people who were too happy to be bothered and then the ones who couldn't stop crying, one of them was their daughter from the US.

Nanu's best friend was always so gentle, he still is. He spent around 40+ years with his wife, he was never weak. Never too brittle to be around or so I know. He visited Nani every week even after when Nanu died.

I've spent 15 years grieving for my grandparents, they died a few months before I was born. I've grieved way before I got to know what it was. I was seeing someone, they lost their best friend.

Nanu's best friend told me nanu loved candles a lot, so now I know where my obsession comes from. He was always so understanding and kind, to everyone. So were my grandparents. I haven't lived for long but I do wish to, I do wish to live upto the kindnesses of the people I've lost.

I saw Ravi uncle(the bestf) cry today, he said he loved his wife too much to even think about losing her. I get it, I did too. ( God I fucking wish I was lying to myself but when you love too much, you lose.)

They broke up with me, yesterday, in person. I haven't slept well for a week. That was one of the very first acts of affection that I actually loved. They don't know how to be affectionate but they tried. I almost finished writing a poem after Frank O'hara for them. I had named it, " having a watermelon with you." I know it was genuine because I was anxious for the first time ever. Because I was fearful of sabotaging it like I did with others. For some reason, i have so much love to give and for some reason I'm never afraid to say 'i love you' but this time I was.

I've obsessed over graveyards enough to know that nothing comes back from there. I still live gesture by gesture because I know no one is going to stay, or ask me the right questions or check in with me knowing how terrible I've been when I constantly assure them that I'm fine.

I also know what it is like to love someone who has no self loathing. I had to teach that to myself. Practice coming undone to lovers, strangers and friends. I had to give so, so much for it to even reach me half way. No, I'm not complaining because nanu taught me to give, always do the little that you can. He hated the word 'love' but he also never found the right word to replace it with. I do, I'll call it 'devotion'.

Devotion because I wouldn't cook for anyone; or get flowers; be patient; run four floors down to open doors to; or send poems to; impulsively go to events with; pester them with banter; affirm the most horrifying thoughts; pay for; ask rightfully for love; or live for anyone but them. (Them is for multiple people, like literally my unknown instagram follower to a hook-up I haven't talked to or the ex I hate to the most recent friend I can't stop thinking about).

Love is devotion and we deserve a soft epilogue; we have suffered enough.

/// just a little after note or smth

When they came over for the first time, I made roti for them😭👎🏼and we watched my fucking favourite episode of Modern Love and I've never looked at someone sleeping w that much love(istg); idk the couple of times we spent time together, we watched two movies and I tried to hold their hands but was literally choking-losing my shit in awe for no fucking reason; I did take a lot of pictures of them; shared way too many poems and I know they don't believe this but holy fuck they are so beautiful and I'm not saying this because I was romantically in love w them but because they literally are, LIKE SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL, AND EVEN THO IT DIDN'T LAST LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO KNOW THEM but everyone says they are vvvv kind and considerate and I believe it, I believe them. God I so wish I had been friends with them months before, to even know them in a different time. CRYING AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK. Anyway so yeah, no matter, erum lover era has always lasted and it always will no matter what happens I'm never going to love any less🥺🧿Jai mary oliver ki bhayi, time to study for exams, bhot kar li ashiqui ab sirf dosti padhayi aur seggs pe focus karenge

#eruminlovewstrangers

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