#and i love you a fuck ton

[nightthinker-08]

I couldn't sleep so I drew some Pomnies shes surprisingly fun to draw lol Oh and some doomed yuri too I guess xD buttonblossom is cute n all but calling them doomed yuri or digital yuri is a lot funnier to me

#my art #the amazing digital circus #tadc #pomni #ragatha #tadc pomni #tadc ragatha #ragatha x pomni #pomni x ragatha #buttonblossom #jesterdoll #digital yuri #jesterdoll is cute too I wonder why this isnt the main ship name really- #Also headcanon that ragatha is goin to be oblivious af to pom's feelings even tho shes so hopelessly gay lol #Girl has massive low self esteem vibes and would prolly never think anyone would like her that way #like all the soft fics and art of them are cute I love it but lets be real these two would miscommunicate a fuck ton xD #like come on- #Constantly an inch away from a metal break down Pomni #and “how do you manage to stay positive- delusion” Ragatha #its a match made in miscommunication hell baby ;0c

[bamsara]

being an adult means we can buy or make as much self-indulgent shit (as we can afford) and unironically have trinkets of our fave things cause our teen years was bullied for liking things and hiding/denying we were ever neurodivergent to the point of suicide. sucks for anyone that thinks its weird cringe but I'm going to try and allow myself to love myself in little ways now

#wish i could tell younger me that i wasnt fucked up i was just autistic #even if youre not nd i still think having things you enjoy around you is important especially for your space #so i make a notable effort to get fandom stuff for my younger siblings now #like my lil sister thinks getting demon slayer stuff is cringe cause anime and what not (havent read it sorry) #but her face still lights up when i get her a pin for her #or a blind bag with a character keychain #and very slowly the self hatred and whatever it feels like that youre not allowed to like anything and that anything you like is bad #starts to diminish #my qpp is obsessed with birds and chickens and has so many trinkets around the house for it #or my friend who loves how pretty stained glass looks that his walls are covered in thrifted stain glass pieces #i know an elderly couple who are obsessed with star trek and they have a room in the house purely for shelves stacked with collectables #my friend's dad is so obsessed with spiderman that he has 3 walls full of figurines and posters and collectables that prob amoutn to tons #like i dont get it but i get it #maybe its because im sick rn but im in my head tonight about human loving things and stories and cocepts to the point of comfort #sara shush #ramble

[keferon]

"Mind if I make a little music?" Drift asked, holding out a hand for Ratchet to pass him the synthboard.

"Not at all," Ratchet said, offering it up by the strap.

Drift spun it above his head, hands dancing over the board and making a truly awful sounding ruckus out of the speakers. His optics were locked on something behind Ratchet. He took the clue and ducked his head to Drift's chest so that Drift could swing. The speakers screeched and a body fell back."

~

Unfortunately I can’t kiss the author of this fic, so I decided to do the next closest thing and drew this instead haha

#transformers #maccadam #mtmte #lost light #ratchet #drift #dratchet #tf drift #tf ratchet #if you wanna know #they tried to beat someone’s ass with this synthboard #I was walking around dratchet fics #then boom #this ​100k words Leviathan came up #50k words later I remembered that I can actually draw Drift now #and I can ACTUALLY illustrate my love to all those tons of fics I’ve read #anyway #you see this? #They’re on a date and some guys trying to murder them lol #You need to read all prequels before you read this fic itself btw #it has..like…two prequels if I remember right #something around another 100k words #…that’s a lot of words I just realised…how the fuck have I managed to read all this in one day?…… #haha #*180k words Leviathan #fic fanart

[gentlenotes-moved]

hey, you guys. life gets so much more fun when you let yourself enjoy the small pleasures of life, love your friends loudly and wholeheartedly, and let yourself be loved.

#reminders #gentle reminders #healing #positivity #mental health #self care #self love #self healing #wholesome #encourgement #quotes #inspiration #inspirational quotes #mine #no bc honestly #i'm squishing really hard on an old friend of mine so i'm feeling particularly giddy lately lmao #but like!!!!! god when i was in late elementary/middle school i used to almost never show my friends much affection #or tell them how much i love and care about them. i think i was just scared they would think i was overbearing. #but now..... lately ive been trying to show the people in my life that i love them a fuck ton #so life tip!!!!! tell your friends you love them. because i promise they love you back :)

[tradingjack]

There's no turning back.

... Is there anyone who'll be able to survive what lies ahead?

#millions knives #trimax #trigun spoilers #knives sure as fuck didn't lmao #ending my sick drawing saga with this one <3 i feel better now thx #yeah i'll give knives the piano piece. fuck you #i do love drawing knives beautiful. i loved doing the detailing on this one tbh it was a ton of fun #now i am less confident in the background but. what can you do :3 what i get for trying not to use red ig #it's so interesting that quote is from elendira too. she really just wanted to watch the world burn. get it girl <3 #manga #illustration #artists on tumblr #drawing #my art #comic #fanart #trigun #i've been drawing too much knives for someone who likes other characters way better lmao. listen. im still processing the uhh #my own sibling trauma ok #drawing diablo vash is therapeutic in a similar way tbh lmfao

[humanmorph]

"[high pitched and tinny] Let’s dive in. Let’s dive in. It’s time to dive in. Get ready to [audio distorts and slows] dive. Diiive. Diiiiie…" (The Road to PALISADE 20: City Planning Department)

so that's what i've been working on for the past 2 weeks! i wanted to draw something for this intro ever since i first listened to it (as a companion piece to my other gur drawing, though it of course ended up being way bigger in scale), but it only really gripped me about halfway through PALISADE ep 18. the next morning after that i listened to this narration on repeat for about 45 minutes and then made a big sketch on 4 sheets of paper at my desk at work.

anyways, i haven't listened to the new episode yet but i think i'm probably ready for whatever they're gonna throw at us with the next sortie. i'm gonna believe, against it all, in millennium break. for gur

(i recommend listening along while scrolling! + transcript btw. if anything is hard to read)

#road to palisade #road to palisade spoilers #palisade #fatt #friends at the table #gur sevraq #<- yuore everything btw. #long post #and good god. it sure as fuck is #rosa art #the full file for this? that i had to split up? its 30000 pixel tall. thats 218cm #im so proud of this & it was a ton of fun. ooohhh my free floating panels i love them #i posted about my progress (theres some earlier sketches n lineart too) on cohost to be like well. #maybe i wont talk so fucking much on the actual post but noooo i cant shut up #love that for me.shoutout if you read all this #if you find a typo please. dont even mention it #a fun thing about this is that i almost know the intro by heart now. theres like 3 lines i get stuck on but mostly. its all there #ill link the cohost if i reblog this again. personally i think its interesting stuff but i love to hear myself talk abt shit i make soooo #anyways i have art class tomorrow & should sleep soon : ) but im happy im finally able to show this off. it rules sooo much

[carpetbug]

my first ml fanart from april 2020 :)

#miraculous #miraculous ladybug #ml #carpetbug art #marinette #adrien agreste #adrien #marinette dupain cheng #miraculous fanart #adrinette #god this thing kind of hurts to look at but at the same time i love it?? #it was also my first attempt at like fr drawing people! yes they’re chibi but it counts to me #i literally taught myself to draw people with miraculous fanart. good times #i have a fuck ton of old ml art if you guys want to see any more/ if anyone might be interested in me redrawing old pieces #and yeah this is totally cause i haven’t drawn in a hot minute and have no new art to post lmao

[average-dilf-enjoyer]

Can we please stop the alpha male-ification of Harvey because he’s not some strong and buff manly man, he’s a dorky uncooked chicken who can’t swim please understand this

#harvey sdv #stardew valley #harvey stardew valley #stardew harvey #like yeah he’s hot as fuck #but not in a your daughter calls me daddy too way #he’s hot in a charming dorky do you like my model airplane way #you either love him how he is or marry someone else i will not stand for this #no but genuinely i see this happen with a ton of other characters too #every cute nerdy character gets made into an average Sexy Man™ #it’s so disappointing because I love silly nerdy dudes

[dianartemiss]

i think what Jason wants (from Bruce at least) is to be loved transcendentally. he wants to be loved with earth shattering intensity, the kind that'll raze the world to the ground when lost and inspire greatness when present. Jason wants to mean something and to matter more than anything except for (maybe) another (worthy) human. Jason wants to be shown love in the way that he experiences love. but that kind of exclusive focus is impossible when your dad is Batman.

#Jason is the pathos of the batfam #Dick is also more pathos than logos but like he also didn't die so #and yes i'm mangling i'm doing it on purpose #Jay would die in a heartbeat for his family #and probably do any number of awful things #and what he wants is reciprocity #I see his as very much the kind to not ask anything of anyone that he isn't willing to do himself #but also expects others to live up to his morals #or standards or however #so he's not exactly fair but not entirely unfair either #idk there's a ton of posts right now on Jason's ideas about love and I also have a ton of thoughts myself #the dude is fucking intense #and speakign from experience #it's fuckign hard when that kind of intensity is one sided #even when you know it's unfair to expect it of the other party #jason todd #batfam

[pepperpixel]

+ Butch 4 Butch +

(Except neither one of them is rlly that butch but holy fUCKING SHIT THAT SONG IS LITERALLY THEM… the version of them I made up in my mind palace… it’s them.)

Anywayyyy. Yeah! Have a tagr art dump..! aka, those vibes when you, out of a series of moments of temporary insanity, end up finding, taking in, nursing back to health and eventually falling into a tangled messy yearning situationship w the asshole tsundere alien who tried to destroy your entire planet… rlly extremely relatable vibes!!

#invader zim #gaz membrane #tak #invader tak #tagr #iz tak #iz gaz #doodles #caption for the 3rd pic: #ton ten photos taken seconds before a goth girls plushie security system shoots you in the head. #anyway… yeah… I love these two #I think a lot my ideas for them are informed by this one fanfic I read as a young teen/child… but I don’t actually remember anything #concrete?? just general story beats? and I’m pretty sure my ideas deviate from it a good bit. but #I think that fic def formed the basis for my tagr love and appreciation #I think they could be complicated and messy and painful and fun as fuck #I have ideas for them lol. and some more art. so hopefully I’ll be able to post that soon too #but for now… enjoy sketch dump of messy goth saphics #*top ten moments. not ton. spellings hard ghgh #I think tak is very hesitant about initiating physical contact and intimacy and being cuddly. cuz of pride and also repression #but I saw a post talking about irkens being naturally very touchy feely affectionate and I def agree… #so. tak is wary of stuff like that at first. but once u break thru that initial barrier of her denying herself she’s actually sUPER TOUCHY #gaz has unleashed a pda beast she just doesn’t kno it yet

[shibuiking]

#40k #orikan the diviner #trazyn the infinite #orizyn #adeptus mechanicus #my self insert magos id been wanting to do for a while ahah #so i can keep an eye on mu-15 in universe B) #also fun to translate my usual very fleshy undead sona to smth mechanical #orikan and trazyn r funny for sooooo many reasons but the one i can stop thinking abt is how it Feels like a usual tsundere thing bt #trazyn is both suave and The Rizzler or whatever whilst also being like 'damn who dropped a mountain on orikan' (he did) #damnnn who let that genestealer loose... #why are you both so fucking complicated #then again it might just be his amazing commitment to the bit #sry i keep posting a ton of tags w the 40k stuff i just have shit to say. im loving it so much #the idea of trazyn enjoying ribbing orikan soooo much that Yes hes a little in love but also doesnt want to change how they act @ each other #coz its so fun and stupid and hes actually having fun (an emotion thought totally lost) #holding my head in my hands

[sparring-spirals]

Compromise. Im not going to actually WRITE meta but i AM going to lay out a list of things I'm thinking about broadly and thematically and would probably write meta about if i were properly caught up and informed, but is instead influenced much more by early campaign F.C.G:

**edit: no this is kind of meta again. sorry.

- F.C.G grappling with the questions of: being made. purpose. whether it matters if you find your own purpose if you were made with one in mind and you "choose" something else. Can you actually? Does it matter? Is your choice a choice at all?

- Wanting so badly to heal people and help people and the unique fear of waking up and seeing damage done by your own hands. To the same people you wanted so badly to help. You extend healing and you offer comfort or kind words but all the while, in your core is a tightness. In your core is a danger. How much good do you need to do to get the blood off your chassis? Can you, at all?

- Metal body. Metal hands. A little wheel. You were a turtle once and it felt so wondrous to breathe. You try out tongues or little wooden legs or whatnot but it always comes back to an inorganic metal body and empty insides no matter if youre filling them with liquids or secret goods to smuggle or pastries (faux warmth). Maybe everything like wooden legs dangling off a metal body. All for show.

- A coin in hand. Looking for a higher power. Thinking about choice. Deferring choices.

- You love your friends, so much. You love people being kind to each other. You love your boyfriend and their wonderful way of thinking. You love being alive. Even when you doubted you were at all. You love, truly and deeply.

- Ashton raging at F.C.G for being a martyr. For aching for a good enough reason to get himself hurt or killed or blown up. Ashton looking at F.C.G knowing they're all messed up inside and trying so hard to stop them from letting it destroy them.

- Ashton always worried about how they're always trying to find a big enough cause, a good enough reason.

And so with those things, I remembered about F.C.G:

- F.C.G looking at their friends all down. Ashton laid out unmoving.

- F.C.G with something awful in their core. Ready to spill out. The same something awful they were always worried about. They were always aware of.

- F.C.G always looking for that reason. For that bigger and better cause.

- F.C.G always feeling like they didn't understand purpose, like it was so. unattainable- finally, briefly, startlingly- sure. Finally free of doubt. Their friends down and something awful and destructive in their core and one last thing they can do to maybe make things worth it, and the ability to choose it. They were made for something. They chose what to do with it.

- F.C.G finding that reason. F.C.G making that call. F.C.G thinking it was worth it.

- I think because of him, they succeeded. They won. That is certain.

- I think. "Worth it". Is always a subjective thing.

- I think. A self sacrifice is never just one person giving everything up. A self sacrifice, unfortunately- is one person making a choice.

And everyone else caught, in the blast radius.

#critical role #cr spoilers #cr liveblogging #c3e91 #fcg #AH SHIT. THIS IS META AGAIN. FUCK #sorry. i. god. look. you all knew what you signed up for when you followed me right. im sorry #look im certain i missed 40 episodes of character dev i just need to word vomit where my brain is at given my context #character meta #spar speaks #fcg meta #i. GUESS. if other people want to take any portion of it and chew through it in a more informed way please be my gues #id love to. know things #ive got a lot of emotions to parse and im also about to make a ton of slightly terrible jokes if im not writing meta leggo

[skylarbee]

hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it seems like a lot of people still don't know this. ashley reese, who met alex at that pool party and interviewed him like a year ago is treated by the fandom like she's some kind of angel and is very much loved (even though she did nothing special?) when she's... well, I'll let you decide.

she thinks miles is such a bad person that he shouldn't be allowed to have a dog (x)

she very much enjoys him getting a really bad review (x)

she's glad about him not joining am for 505 (x)

she calls out am fans who still like alex and alexa, even though she's the exact same ("when she gets comments like this all the time" girl, you're the one writing similar shit. she has other posts discussing alexa and alex, but they're old, like the ones from the last screenshot) (x, x, x, x, x)

#the first one made me my jaw drop #it just had to be said I'm sick and tired of people supporting her #i heard these rumours of her openly hating on miles about a month ago but i didn't pay them much attention #but it does seem to be very much true #it's also said that she likes tons of comments of people hating on him #+ she loves deloulou... obviously. #(they're both arrogant and self-important ; of course she does) #poor alex was smiling so sweetly too in the photos with her - if only he knew #why did she become so 'famous' in the fandom anyways #i fuck with NO ONE who talks badly about my man. idc who you (think) you are #ashley reese #louise verneuil #alex turner #arctic monkeys #miles kane

[hells1nfern0]

Everyone whos saying they pulled a 5 hour long bait and switch on people just for the hl2vrai trailer. It wasn't just a bit for that it was so much more than that. Everyone is switching on a dime calling it such a good joke or staying stuck mad and pissy about it. Genuinely it was a fun stream. It was something the RTVS team clearly had a lot of fun making, they put 3 years of work and planning into it. There is more to them than HLVRAI. They never directly said it would be HL2VRAI.

But honestly though. I can't blame them for teasing it as such. If YOU put 3 years of effort into something would you allow it to just get ignored by everyone because it isn't what everyone cares about you for. Or would you want to make sure all the people started liking you for it initially would see how you grew.

BrBaVRAI was the same thing that HLVRAI was supposed to be. A fun stream with friends.

It isn't just for you man. It's supposed to be something fun and if you genuinely threw a shitfit about it or if you gave up on it called it unfunny, mid, or even bad. Only to turn around once you got what you Wanted.

You do not deserve what the RTVS crew will make.

You do not deserve HL2VRAI

EDIT: Honestly I don't care about most of the shit people are upset about. Yeah its fine for them to troll you they're known for that. Don't treat their work like it was always shit up until the point they gave you the shit you were waiting for. Just because you wanted a Twix doesnt mean a Snickers doesn't taste just as sweet. They aren't morally bad people for a prank that upset you.

#hlvrai #hlvrai2 #hl2vrai #brbavrai #I'm just frustrated is all. I was genuinely hoping that it would be a switch around bait because it would be funny #I even thought it would be funny if people got upset about it #But what I saw was just rude and petty. Even if someone wasn't being all pissy pissy about it there was still so much passive agression #and a ton of fucking guilting #The rtvs crew is not morally in the wrong for a joke you are just sensitive and do not care about them as people #You only see them as a vending machine. #people are already scraping for shit from the trailer ignoring the entirety of the work they did before that #like genuinely if you ignore all of brbavrai just for your little trailer thats genuinely shitty and not fair to the crew for all the work #they did #anyways ill probably stop posting today abt it just it makes me so mad just watching people shit on it when i can tell they loved what they #made #rtvs

[spacegoathours]

thanks guys. 💜✨

#irken oc #oc: callie #mina arts #the zim brainworms have all but left my brain for the moment #but this past year has given me my love of drawing back #and a whole ton of fun and talented friends #so thank you zim!!! thank you art!!!! thank you friends!!!!! I love you so much!!!! #this ain’t goodbye I just wanted to point out WHAT the FUCK how do I have that many followers here LOL

[karamazovanon]

i think the recurring theme of dostoevsky's that will always destroy me the most is when despite how much a character wishes and yearns for it, they continuously refuse pure and unconditional love when it's offered because they don't think they're worthy of it (and then hate themselves even more for turning it down). it will ruin me EVERY TIME

#and yes ofc theres a ton of theological implications there but i think its way more powerful as it stands between characters #its most obvious in raskolnikov denying the love of Literally Everyone In His Life and nastasya & prince myshkin #(<- im only like halfway thru the idiot still SORRY I HAVE NO TIME TO READDD) #you can also see it in lise smerdyakov and ivan to a certain extent #hell even ilyushas dad rejecting the money #like this recurring cycle of self loathing and self isolation that are ENTIRELY SELF IMPOSED DESPITE THEIR LONGING FOR IT. ohhhhhhhhh my god #it gets me SO BAD EVERY TIME #maybe its just the larger theme of self destruction in general bc that also always makes me lose my shit #throwing myself into the abyss head first and heels last and am even glad that ive fallen in such a degrading posture and consider it #flattering to myself etc etc #boy i die. #anontalks #the self hatred in ruslit goes fucking HARD!!!