#bipolar diaries

[justsomerandomgay]

i fucking hate having bipolar i wish i could just feel emotions normally

#bipolaire #manic episodes #depression episode #mental health #bipolar disorder #bipolar diaries #bipolor #bipolar depression #bipolar awareness #bipolar mania #ahhhhhhh

[plottwistedstory]

„Du hast um dich herum eine Mauer aus Eis errichtet, du bist so kalt.“

-Eine Freundin zu mir

#plottwistedstory #eigenes #zitate #depression #borderline #mood swings #bpd mood #sadness #bipolar diaries

[its3-15am]

When he yells at me it's like I forget how to breathe. Suddenly I'm 11 years old again and I'm in my father's house. He's screaming and I'm wailing in tears for him to just stop. Some say the trauma aches in your bones but I believe it always grows from your lungs. A man raises his voice and suddenly you're 10ft under the water and your lungs are giving in. I never knew what it was like not to live with the damage No matter how much I tried to convince myself that I did. -This trauma aches through my bones for the rest of my life; suddenly a man raises his voice and I'm laying on my kitchen floor again. My father's voice echoing through my head. shutup. shutup. shutup

#pain #depressing poem #sorry for being depressing #writers and readers #writer #writers #women writers #writerscreed #poets on tumblr #female poets #traumatic childhood #trauma #emotional abuse #mental illness #neglect #fatherscurse #fathers #families #bipolar disorder #bipolar diaries

[fighting-to-be-free]

Descubri que pasaba si reprimía mis emociones

Las reprimi tanto que en un mal momento salieron en un mal lugar.

No es responsabilidad de nadie solo mia, pero que dolor es equivocarme cuando ya parecía mejorar.

Todo esto se dio por una ruptura de amistad y creo pronto la vendre a contar

Por que nada me ha dolido mas que esto

#amor #soledad #sola #ansiosa #trastorno bipolar #bipolar diaries #bipolar disorder #blog en español #amistad #mejores amigos

[ohkarlita]

Sometimes the camera accidentally goes off in the right moments ♥️

Dear little Karlita,

I’m sorry that I’ve developed into someone I put down consistently. I remind myself of all the gaps I have daily; including those I have absolutely no control over. I’m sorry for the faces I make at your future body in the mirror and the spirals I venture with such dedication, to damage your mentally and physically. I’m sorry that I gaslight you into feeling like it’s your fault and putting yourself first is a selfish act. I’m sorry to act as a supporting character in your own story.

I want to tell you I truly love you and am reprogramming myself to show you. I want to hug you and tell you it wasn’t okay for the longest time and even though misfortune happens I am going to fight for you starting now. I’m going to make you smile and laugh and surround you with beautiful genuine people who care. I’m sorry for the mishandling of your emotions and self esteem. I love you ♥️ and I want you to see me with tears in your eyes of self love instead of hate.

It wasn’t ok before it might not 💯 percent be ok but what I can guarantee is that it will be in the future.

#letter to self #inner child #healing #bipolar diaries #journal enteries #self esteem #selflove #selfie #colored hair #face piercings #piercings #makeup #flowers #alt girl

[cinnamongirl4life]

Guys, i just turned 21 !!!!!!!!!!!

Legitimately did not think I'd make it this far

My 17yo self is quaking in her boots

AND im gonna have cake ,and get my nails done!

#mental illness #bipolar diaries #bipolar disorder #mentally fucked #bu1imia #ed relapse #tw ana diary

[outofbody4ever]

bipolarcore

#bipolar disorder #ragecore #bipolar diaries #relatable #collage #moodboard #current mood

[extemporaneousrabbithole]

i have so many ideas for things i want to accomplish and concepts i think will work to aid me in doing these things. i’ll be so confident and ready and then suddenly one thing in my brain will trip me up and now i’m having an existential crisis and wondering why and how i’m still alive. humaning is weird.

#mental illness #bipolar diaries #life is hard #i really am trying #my wife is probably annoyed with me #i’m definitely not crying #my wife is honestly super sweet #i miss being a child #young adulting is hard #young husband #black tumblr #still standing #rabbit hole #i have to do better #humaning should be a word #i’m going to keep making tags #i’m so exhausted #i have to work tomorrow #i’m going to be okay

[thegirllwhosoldtheworld]

vivere col disturbo bipolare (bd) vuol dire anche questo: vivere con gli sbalzi di autostima legati agli sbalzi d’umore.

e visto che questa settimana è stata una settimana da +100 anche la mia autostima è arrivata alle stelle. oggi mi sono svegliata pensando “okay, avrò na sfilza di difetti ma almeno so figa”.

me la godo, perché so già che dopo i periodi +100 seguono sempre dei cali a -100. perché la mia vita è così da 10 anni ormai ed è come vivere sulle montagne russe. (ma io soffro di vertigini.)

#bipolare #bipolar disorder #bipolar diaries #disturbo bipolare #bd #autostima #self love #confident #ipomania #ipomaniacale #pink hair #pensieri #sfoghi #self care

[xavyagi]

i keep reading about how great latuda is and how it has helped a lot of people with their bipolar treatment and it’s making feel awful cause i haven’t been able to fill my prescription either do to my doctor’s miscommunication or financial issues. i just want to get better :/

#bipolar diaries #latuda #medication #xav talks

[foultacosandwich]

Getting heavy ? I’m only 20 years old so maybe not but I don’t like that last one in 101

#tw depressing stuff #disordered eating in tags #ed not ed sheeran #mentally fucked #self h@te #bipolar diaries #weird aesthetic #creepycore

[justsomerandomgay]

feeling a manic episode turning into a depressive episode <<<<<<

i hate this.

#bipolar diaries #bipolar awareness #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression episode #manic episodes #tw depressive #depresso espresso #ahhhhhhh #fuck my life #kmn pls

[plottwistedstory]

„Wollte meine Ruhe, bis ich Angst im allein sein fand.“

-plottwistedstory

#plottwistedstory #eigenes #poesie #poetry #zitate #healing #alone #borderline personality disorder #bipolar diaries

[its3-15am]

The wounds on my heart are deeper than any of my scars. My bleeding heart aches and aches, and years have gone by. My bandages have fallen off and left my heart exposed to the elements. It follows me with its feelings and heartache and leaves me no escape. My leaking, bleeding heart sits as a broken faucet in my body, and I find no way to escape it.

-room of 1000 cuts, people with my state rarely live past 27.

#quotes #literature #words #poem #poemsociety #writers and poets #writerscafe #art #writersnetwork #pinterest #sad thoughts #heartbreak #heartbroken #heartstopper #broken #damaged #bipolar is bored and renames itself #bipolar diaries #borderline problems #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #bipolaire #bipolar disorder

[livethrushit]

i know i posted these collages before, but i love them and am revisiting old pieces. made these in the depths of my bipolar crash, laced with addiction and ptsd. probably my favorite works.

#collages #mixed medium #mixed media #graphic novel #comic panels #bipolar brain #bipolar diaries #my artwork

[yayaaddjunk]

last year, another maniac episode, i touched a lil fly. it stayed. it didn’t fly away. animals are best healers. 8/15/2023

#bipolar diaries #bipolar diary #illustration #illustration art #bipolar