#deny my existence

[silkshriek]

(the shape you make when your bones are closest to the surface, porpentine charity heartscape)

#deny my existence #mode: screaming in my head #mode: ​spiraling #porpentine

[postpendulum]

Damian's new classmate was what most people would deem as strange, Damian however could not see him as anything other than suspicious. Daniel Knight had joined in the midst of the school year, claiming to have moved here with his father Fredric Knight (first area of suspicion, a parent willingly moving both them and their child to Gotham) for a new start following his fathers divorce. The boy was reclusive when not spoken to directly, however he would not stop talking when a topic of his interest would come up. After searching further into his past (as he does with all his classmates) Damian found a relatively normal past, the only outstanding things being a noticeable drop in grades at the beginnings of freshman year relating to an undisclosed accident resulting in lichtenberg scarring starting from Daniels palm, and presumably up his arm being hidden by his sleeve. Apparently this accident left Daniel with irregular tremors and, every once in a blue moon, seizures. Damian had thought about taking this suspicious blockage of information to Tim or the Bat Computer to be bypassed, however the idea of sharing Daniel this cases existence with the rest of his family for some unexplained reason bothered him greatly, so Damian has come to the decision to figure out Knight’s true intentions on his own.

Meanwhile Danny’s just trying to live his new, semi-normal life in peace. After a reveal gone wrong results in some good old vivisection, Jazz Sam and Tucker recruit the help of Clockwork to find Danny a new home, where he can heal from both the physical and mental wounds. Clockwork ends up dumping Danny into the DC universe alongside Fright Knight, who was insistent on going with him, feeling responsible in helping to protect his young prince now since he feels he failed the first time. So with a bit of spacetime razzle dazzle, Tucker messing with stuff he probably shouldn't have messed with and a very tearful goodbye with promises to check in every day, Danny goes off to start his new life as Daniel Knight. It was going ok so far, he took half the year to himself, focusing on healing. Also so Frighty could adjust to the whole pretending to be human thing. Danny doesn't have any friends yet, and to be honest hasn't made the effort to make any (Jazz would be disappointed if she knew that), but there's this one boy in Danny's class who might be even weirder than him. Danny can feel Damian's eyes on him, knows how he follows him around without a sound (Danny really shouldn't be able to tell, he only knows because he isn't fully human(and in a weird way, Danny thinks that's kinda cool)), and whenever they do make eye contact Danny can see and feel the boy fluster and shy away.

Maybe he just needs a friend too.

#dp x dc #dc x dp #dp x dc crossover #dp x dc prompt #danny came up with the name fredric for fright knight #definitely not because that was the first name that came to the author's head #and they were to lazy to come up with anything else #dead serious #damian wayne x danny fenton #dead serious ship #there isnt enough of them #in my humble opinion #they're the whole reason this prompt exist #danny sensing damian literally spying on him: oh he just needs a friend like i do :) #damian realising this: im afrid theres been an error in my judgement #damians down bad nut denys it #like bitch wdym you dont wanna share 🤨 #kinda gay #i say as if im not the one who wrote this #first dp x dc prompt after ive been lurking in the fandom for like #at least half a year now #hope you like 🙏🏼

[bat-kidsarebi-kids]

I love you transfems I love you tall transfems I love you short transfems I love you fat transfems I love you thin transfems I love you hairy transfems I love you transfems who shave I love you butch transfems I love you femme transfems I love you it/its transfems I love you transfems who don’t use she/her I love you transfems who exclusively use she/her I love you transfems who pass I love you transfems who don’t pass I love you transfems who don’t want to pass I love you transfems who are on HRT I love you transfems who aren’t on HRT I love you transfems who don’t want to transition I love you transfems who are still closeted I love you if you have a penis I love you if you have a vagina i love you if you are intersex you are not a sex object you do not exist for other people to use you up you are worthy of love regardless of your relationship to sex & you deserve to be backed by your community 100% of the time. transfems you are always safe on my blogs. i see you transfems I love you transfems you are more than enough exactly as you are transfems

#also i wish we’d talk more about transfem/aspec solidarity #marginalized by our own communities? #constantly denied our existence? #shoved into tiny boxes according to what others think we should be #constantly assessed for our relationship to sex and nothing else #transfems i can’t speak for all aces but i have your back #your fight is my fight sister ❤️ #trans #transgender #gender #trans positivity #trans safe #transfem safe #transfem #transfemme #t4t #t4t solidarity #terfs dni #mine #bkabk says words

[kitocrystal]

I'm tired.

#kitos art #fanart #dc #jason todd #red hood #tim drake #robin #people forget that jason and tim never had any positive connections until much later AFTER tim became robin #at the start tim didn't give that much of a frick for jason's robin #while jason would ofc only know of tim's existence after his resurrection #people thinking jason is tim's favorite makes my chest ache with pain #because they removed a special connection that tim had with dick #some fanon stuff are good #but this one #i dont agree with #and continue to deny it exists #this fanon sucks #tags were edited mere minutes after this was posted #bc i wrote it on half a braincell #jason was never tim's favorite #fight me on that bc i will die on this hill

[hazel2468]

I love how that person who was like "oh ew a Zionist" also has reblogged posts about not being antisemitic and buying into antisemitic conspiracies while ALSO like.

Reblogging posts about how Israel is a uniquely evil "colonial scar" and how Israel is "murdering children" and like. Literally straight up antisemtic shit.

Leveling criticism at Israel that positions it as a unique evil among all other countries and doing literal blood libel (IE, Israel murders Palestiaian babies in a way no other nation kills children) is FUCKING ANTISEMITIC. Israel is JUST A COUNTRY. It is JUST another nation, doing the shitty stuff that other nations do. And if you find yourself railing against Israel EXTRA hard right now, or ever, in ways that you do NOT rail against other shitty countries that do shitty things (and, I can't believe I have to say this, if you find yourself saying that the kidnap, rape, torture, and murder of any civilian ever is justified because "uwu this radical extremist group is freedom fighters"!) then you're a fucking antisemitic, racist bigot.

Like. It blows me away how so many people don't seem to see that Israel, the Jewish state (whether you agree with how it is run or not, whether you agree with how it came to be or not) gets SO MUCH MORE SHIT than other comparable shitty countries... Come on.

Because the alternative is that you DO see it. That you DO agree with all of those things that are STEEPED in age-old antisemitic conspiracy. And you agree.

#antisemitism #i/p #like #idk how to get it through to people #ESPECIALLY my fellow fucking AMERICANS #that Israel is... Just another shitty country #y'all are nowhere NEAR this loud about other shit going on #and there IS other shit going on #constantly #but i don't see you going after other nations saying they shouldn't exist #i don't see you saying China and everyone in it should be destroyed #fuck #I watched all of you say that we can't blame individual Russian citizens for what Putin and his fucking cronies do #but the SECOND Israel pulls some bullshit #you demand every jew in the world bow down and slurp on your cocks #people gor MURDERED in broad daylight on FUCKING VIDEO that the killers POSTED THEMSELVES #and you denied it happened #and then said well if it did happen they deserve it like #you could not be more obvious in your hatred for my people

[starry-bi-sky]

okay so i was thinking of a joke earlier about how in DPDC Amity Park's slogan "a great place to live" is not only city propaganda but also the city lording it over the rest of America for being normal. But then I remembered that, despite how many DCU Cities with heroes in it there are, the amount of cities in America without heroes still far outnumber the amount of cities in America WITH heroes.

So I did a little digging so the joke would still land. Something most heroes have in common is that they operate in major cities. What makes a major city? I found that the general consensus is that the population is roughly over or around a million. THEN I looked up the populations of cities in the DCU that I thought of off the top of my head. So Gotham, Metropolis, Starling City, Central City, Jump City. All of them ranked up to millions in population (most of them were in the tens of millions).

Amity Park's wikipedia describes it as being similar to specifically Philadelphia, Chicago, and San Francisco.

Philadelphia's Population: 1.576 million as of 2021 Chicago's Population: 2.697 million as of 2021 San Francisco: 815,201 as of 2021

Whiiich means that Amity Park if we take that from canon, is probably a major city. There are approximately 19,000 cities in America with probably less than a hundred that are major cities. Adding the DCU major cities wouldn't skew the data too much.

Which MEANS that I can make the joke that Amity Park's "great place to live" is not only just typical city propaganda, but also its Amity Park lording it over the other major cities for being one of the only major cities that doesn't have problems bad enough to warrant a superhero or a vigilante. Cue stage left the Fentons and Phantom :)

Amity Parkers were probably SO proud that they didn't need a superhero. They didn't have to worry about things like 'world ending threats' and 'super-powered individuals' and 'staggering property damage'. And then enter Fentons.

It also could be used as an excuse for why nobody took notice to Amity Park getting ghosts if folks like me aren't huge fans of the notion of a media blackout via Tucker, Technus, or the US Government. Or if you want to keep Amity Park as its urban city self. Amity Park's news on ghosts gets drowned out in a week because there's news on more popular, well-known cities going on every other day. The shit going on in Amity Park is every other major city's regular Tuesday and it gets filtered as such.

#dp x dc #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #dpdc #plus amity suddenly going 'we have ghosts' could be seen as a case of city-wide FOMO finally hitting so nobody believes them #and thats if the belief of ghosts not being real is as strong as it is in dp canon #the media blackout could also be /city-induced/ too #where amity parkers are so proud of being 'normal' and 'not having superheros' that many of them try and deny the existence of Phantom #and the mayor and news sources themselves just. stubbornly refuse to let news of ghosts get out to the other cities #do you know how much shit they'll get?? they'll be a laughingstock! #gothamites would never leave them alone. neither would central city or the metropolitans or starling city or-- #the other big cities will make fun of them :( #my new favorite hc that stemmed from this is that every major city in the dcu is rivaling with each other #there's a lot you can experiment with this idea imo lmao #this whole post sums up my writing and thinking process pr well tbh #this stemmed because im making a childhood friends au short story doc and wanted to avoid the typical tropes about how AP went undetected #from the rest of the US. bc. im not a fan of the media blackout idea via tucker/technus/gov and i wanted to keep AP an urban city #so i had to come up with something else #hence me looking into DCU cities and how many there are and realizing that there is a decent amount of other cities other than the main #popular ones and being DELIGHTED because then i could use that as an excuse for why amity went overlooked. bc there are many cities with #heroes in it. so its not surprising if another city gets a hero TOO. plus the news also focusing on more popular heroes and cities so again #the news of amity getting a hero gets drowned out by whatever new thing the JL or someone from the JL did that week

[infinite-infinite-stars]

What if... Who Killed Markiplier... but it's Ace Attorney Investigations...

"Ace District Attorney Investigations", if you will.

(Everything you see here was drawn by me, with some backgrounds/that one evidence photo being either screenshots from the show, or edits of official photographs of Mythea Castle, where WKM was filmed)

#who killed markiplier #wkm #ace attorney investigations #wkm fanart #wkm district attorney #captainsona #captain yona masters #''a burgundy-wearing prosecutor teaming up with a kooky detective? now why does that sound familiar- OH YEAH!'' #anyway you guys ever notice that the da from what we're shown is a pretty piss-poor investigator? #they just kinda wander around aimlessly and allow people to shoo them away before offering up any information #like their alibis or lack thereof #it doesn't exactly help that wkm is a choose your own adventure without any choices #and I know mark's team was limited on budget and time or whatever and they meant for it to be more involved than what we got! #it's not their fault! #but still you can't deny that what we got isn't very satisfying as far as murder mysteries go #and I don't feel all that compelled to pretend otherwise! #so in the version of wkm that exists in MY head #da!yona is going to take the prospect of solving her dear friend's murder SERIOUSLY goddammit! #(the conclusion she's gearing up towards in the last two pictures #is that the party was a cover for mark's plan to kill the colonel; but it obviously backfired and mark wound up getting killed instead) #(that's her theory. as we all know it's not /quite/ accurate to what really happened but it's pretty close!) #(obviously she's unaware of any supernatural element to the whole thing at this point) #(or heck maybe in this version of events there actually isn't a supernatural element at all and she's right. I haven't decided)

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[leafpool-loves-ashfur]

guys we do realize Splashtail ISN'T an atheist right? we know the definition of atheist?

#i wasnt sure why it was bothering me at first to see ppl complaining about Splash being a stereotyped 'evil atheist' #until i realized. he is not even an atheist #atheist means you do not believe in a higher power. it does not exist. #mothwing and cloudtail were atheists (but they are NOT anymore. both of them are shown to believe now #even if Mothwing still doesnt commune with them she DOES believe they exist) #splashtail believes StarClan exists he jsut doesnt RESPECT them. he refuses to accept them as his gods #but he BELIEVES in a higher power. therefore hes not atheist #not agnostic either i would argue. #see this is the thing about worlds where religion is REAL. its hard to have atheist/agnostic characters when the worlds religion is REAL #im warrior cats the existence of StarClan is undeniable AND its not just StarClan! but the Tribe of EH and ghost cats and whatever else! #cats are even BIOLOGICALLY BORN with this power of religion built into them (see: the Sisters the Three any med cat really) #Splashtail is not DENYING that StarClan exists. so i dont think calling him atheist is a fitting label #just my two cents as an atheist #warrior cats #warriors #splashtail #asc #asc spoilers #a starless clan #asc wind #wc wind

[hannibard]

Thanks for coming to my ted talk

#i see pics of s1 jaskier and i cry for our fallen bard #s2 jaskier was also good #s3 jaskier was NOT my cup of tea #it's weird that no one involved with the show ever acknowledged the geraskier shippers right? #other shows at least mention SOMETHING about ships like that #the witcher tried to pretend it didn't exist even though its supporters were a big part of the fandom #they completely ignored us #there were so many controversies about a billion witcher things were the producers responed and yet there are over 20 geraskier fics on ao3 #and they never even acknowledged it #not even ti deny it #that was their downfall i believe #lauren hissrich #the witcher netflix #twn #geraskier #geralt of rivia #jaskier #meme #text #shitpost #joey batey #henry cavill #crispy

[shkika]

you know how if you bring a spear to moon in saint's campaign, she says you are too frail to use it?

i wonder how your saint might react to being told that

He mostly uses spears to carry around multiple things at once like food and lanterns!

He's not going to deny the truth. His body is very weak , but it serves it's purpose.

#old fool is taking his sweet time with her #anyway #saint isnt rlly one to deny things he doesnt have some sort of big ego or pride. hes not strong or above anyone or anything #hes a just a means to an end that doesnt really.. exist? #hes here with a purpose #rainworld #rain world #my art #looks to the moon #rw saint #ask #anonymous

[boasamishipper]

i can tolerate a lot of things from writers and showrunners but outright condescension and disdain for their fans is not one of them

#ted lasso #ted lasso critical #tedbecca #i didn’t like it from rian johnson and i sure as shit don’t like it from the ted lasso showrunners #i didn’t think tedbecca was going to be canon (and honestly didn’t care one way or the other) #(as in my enjoyment of the show was not hinging on tedbecca being canon. i was there for sam dani and nate first and foremost.) #but that 3.12 opening felt very meanspirited for a show that’s all about being curious and not judgmental #like if they felt so strongly about platonic tedbecca and KNEW they would never get together #what was the deal with playing coy when they were asked about that for the last two years #everyone involved could have just shut it down a la tina fey right away and we wouldn’t have this problem #i just don’t like ppl (fans and creators alike) laughing at the tedbeccas for picking up the pieces that the showrunners were putting down! #hunt and sudeikis and everyone in that room basically dangled a carrot for the last two years #and now they’re denying the carrot even existed #which does not sit right with me #also (hot take) but if the finale opened by mocking tedtrent fans and not tedbeccas y’all would (rightfully) be up in arms #the writers are adults and did not need to waste parts of the literal series finale punching down at a section of fans #whose worst crime was being annoying

[mikoran]

no man but if byler isnt endgame its just gonna be so disappointing especially if mileven stays the main couple. like okay guess mike was genuinely just an asshole. guess he barely had an arc. guess el never truly developed and just regressed instead. guess another gay character gets an unhappy ending. fucking hell

#itll change my perspective on the whole show and the duffers ability to write relationships #like it wont ruin everything about it for me but its gonna be hard to recover from #especially mike so much doesnt work with him if byler isnt endgame #hes just genuinely kind of a dick #and not to mention just how much shit would not make any sense at all #theres some shit thats really hard to deny or write off as not being byler proof #i just hope they go through with this man #byler #anti mileven #its so important that they do something like this for so many reasons #to preserve the writing and to show people that hey gay people can like. be a major thing in franchises not actively targetted at them #not everything that includes a major gay couple or queer people in general has to be something thats dedicated solely to queerness #we can exist in sci fi shows and have major roles #we can exist in dramas and have major roles #we can exist in any franchise with major roles #we dont have to be exclusive to things designed solely for us #and we can be characters without our queerness being the only aspect of our character #we really need to take that step and one of the most popular shows in the world doing that would literally change the course of film histor #please duffers dont fuck this up

[finleycannotdraw]

13. Crowley & Muriel ~ you’ve got a friend in me (x)

Everyone ignore that this is a day late🤠

Anyone else completely obsessed with Crowley and Muriel’s dynamic this season??? He’s so patient with them and they’re so silly on their mission to heaven! Why are they fist bumping here? Who knows. Maybe they did a miracle together to fuck with the Metatron. Maybe they’ll team up in s3! Honestly they’d be more of a buddy comedy than Aziraphale and Crowley ever were, because there wouldn’t be any romantic angst. yeah I’m making myself more invested in this concept with each word I type.

#good omens #good omens 2 #crowley #muriel #muriel good omens #anthony j crowley #crowley and muriel #good omens inktober #inktober #good omtober #finley cannot draw #good omens fanart #I’m just imagining them lounging around the bookshop together #muriel: why are you so sad all the time mr crowley #crowley (crying into the couch): I’m not sad #muriel: but I can tell you’re sad #crowley: well muriel sometimes I’ve spent my whole existence denying something that i always knew was true and now I dont know how to stop #muriel: oh. what was it #crowley: #crowley: I’m sad

[fluffypotatey]

Hcs about shadowpeach reconnecting?

i like to think of it being very slow. to me, shadowpeach is the slowest of all slow burns both when they’re developing a relationship and trying to reconnect.

while i am a sucker for shadowpeach fluff and them being all clingy and cuddley, i still don’t think the two would even get that close for some time (and i mean some time).

lemme see if i can do a little rundown (i fucking lied) of my idea of a shadowpeach reconnection post-s4:

after the scroll and after their battle with the Brotherhood, both are in an agreement of a truce. as in, both acknowledged that neither of them wish to really fight or stay upset with the other because both understand that they never really could

so there’s a truce, a renewed exchange of peaches, that informs the other that while nothing will ever be like before….maybe that’s for the best, maybe they deserve something different and new between them

it doesn’t immediately take away from all their hurt feelings and pettiness. Wukong’s teasing will never hit the same and Macky’s guard is still at full defense

MK will still find them arguing up to the sky about something as trivial as which path leads to which waterfall and “shut up and just follow me, you idiot, this mountain has been my home for over a millennia”

but there are baby steps in the right direction (Pigsy would call it the “babiest of steps” but nobody asked him)

it takes them a year to come to terms that their petty arguing is just petty to be petty (tho they hold out a little longer because neither want to admit that to each other because it could meaning losing the game. what game? neither are exactly sure of what)

but it’s after both take the time to really refrain from that itch to bitch that both actually have a chance to talk with some substance (there may have been an external force that led to this conversation; a curse trapping them in a void space, being separated from the group so it’s just them two, the works)

but then that arguing loses its teeth and resembles something like banter. Wukong and Macky never truly did banter much in the past. not like this. it’s a little freeing. to be able to push and pull against each other without any reserve or need to

and this was their relationship for quite some time after. no physical hugs or touches like Wukong was privy to before or that Macky used to indulge in. you had the occasional glance here and there but not enough for the other to notice (everyone else, of course, noticed)

ironically, it’s Macky who initiates their first hug in ages.

Wukong, over the years, has slowly been building up to it with shoulder bumps, a light punch in the shoulder, and sometimes a bump to the hip.

when asked, Wukong would explain that he’s a physically affectionate guy but knows Mac has his limits and does his best to respect that as much as he can

on his own tho, Wukong personally feels like those touches are the most he will ever be granted to give. that is, until after a fierce battle, skirmish, whatever new daring thing that almost costs the Monkie Kid team, Macky actually pulls Wukong in for a hug

it’s nothing big or grand. well, nothing big for anymore normal since it’s a very short side hug, but it was something big for the both of them.

suffice to say, that was enough permission for Wukong to initiate more physical affection towards Macky

neither of them are really ready to put anything that they’re doing to name. makes it more definite and breakable

hell, they don’t even acknowledge that they’re past the point of tolerable acquaintances until a couple years later

but yeah, a shadowpeach reconnection, in my eyes, will takes years (centuries even) to truly rekindle their relationship. like i said, it’s a slow burn and one both want to tread carefully even if it’s agonizing to watch from the outside (see MK and friends)

#also #i don’t think the two would even talk about jttw until some years when both have a firmer footing on where both stand #bc it’s a touchy topic for both #they could reminisce about anything from their past but always stay quiet with jttw until much MUCH later #in my mind #but yeah that’s my idea #it’s also why when i write Wukong’s death both are still not close to where they were #there’s something. something both quietly acknowledge to be there and existing between the two but can’t breach bc of #how new and fragile their renewed relationship is with each other #and even post reconnecting they would be the absolute worst with how clingy they are #both would deny it if asked but omfg they would be so terrible and can’t even stand to stay away for long #ugh i hate them (liar) #lmk #shadowpeach #asks #lmk headcanon #long post #ish #probably

[ghostlyarchaeologist]

I seek knowledge, I must know, what show is your white whale?

Fame L.A. It ran for 22 episodes back in 1997/98, was never released for home viewing and now is practically lost media bar a few clips online. I have spent many an hour searching the depths of the internet for it, nada. There are traces of where it once was hosted, but all those links are now completely defunct.

My only hope now is that someone recorded it on vhs back when it was broadcast and will eventually rip it and put it in the VHS vault on the internet archive or something (or, I work out how to get a hold of stuff from the Broadcast Archive in the National Library of Sweden in Stockholm because they have the full run of it, but it's not publicly available, you have to have a research reason as to why you want to view it, and then you can only view it on their equipment in the library to boot!)

#can you tell how deep into the depths of the internet my searches have gone? 😆 #it surprises me how unknown and unavailable this spinoff is considering the popularity of the original film and series #you can easily obtain the 1980 movie the 1982 series AND the 2009 reboot movie #but the 1997 series? NOPE! it has been squirrelled away swept under the rug and it's very existence all but denied! #(and yes i only want it because its christian kane's first acting role. i don't care how awful it is!) #(my kane filmography collection has a hole in it!) #(i would also like to find rescue 77 in better quality than an awful camcorder recording of a tv screen but at least i have that!) #anyway excuse the ramble!