#i don't exist

[azzehkarla]

New year no me i don't exist anymore

#depersonalization #new year #happy near year #trauma #joke #wierdcore #i don't exist #alternative girl #dissasociation #actually bpd #living with bpd #quiet bpd

[existennialmemes]

Sorry I don't have any lore. I'm just a plothole the devs shoehorned in for fan service.

#shitpost #shitposting #i don't exist #I'm just a plothole

[nevaehdavis5675]

Vent

( Tw in the tags)

I am worthless and ugly everytime when I see people in Relationships I get so jealous I feel used and broken so many people that I dated either were toxic or manipulated me or never loved me or used me for sex I feel so alone I know that I'm going to die alone ik this I'm tired of being single I want to Kms I want to cut myself until I stop bleeding I hate being in this world I want to end me I don't really feel like existing I feel broken and used up I wish I had someone that would actually love me I give up people say like oh I'm sure you'll find the right person like no I won't why would anyone want a worthless bitch who isn't good enough for anyone I want to be skinny asf I want to give up and fucking die this is all my mothers fault I didn't ask to be put in this world she doesn't care about me she only cares about herself I wish that I never existed throw me a rope so I can hang myself I'm useless to anyone anyway

#tw sui vent #tw s3lf harm #vent post #tw childhood trauma #tw depressing stuff #i hate my life #i hate my body #i wish i was pretty #i wanna lose weight #I hate you mom #I don't really feel like existing #i don't exist #Worthless #Broken child #sad thoughts #lonlyness #single :(

[kissagii]

what even is gender

#dreaming ⋆｡°✩ #please don't perceive me #i don't exist

[notdelusionalatall]

i accept it. i am a boltzmann's brain. i am not real

#i am not real #boltzmann's brain #i don't exist #and i am really sad about that

[musicalchaos07]

One of the kids I supervise asked me what I write on Ao3 and I told them to mind their business

#they don't need to know me outside of work #i don't exist #personal

[halinski]

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#the warning signs: *are there staring me in the face* #me: hahaha nah how adorable thats not real #bc thats just how to best deal with my kind of mental illness is it not #ignore it #but at what point is it like bad bad enough #not that it matter bc where would i turn to #so #yeah we smile at the demons and boop their noses and remain their best friends #we as in me #demons as in my ill brain and my bad coping mechanisms #probably #idek exactly #just whatever is there #i don't exist #most of the time #ignore me #delete later

[alaynestone]

are the notes fixed yet

#i literally only like and then reblog (which apparently is what the glitch is about) no one's hearing from me #i don't exist

[words-spoken-quickly]

I feel invisible. like see-through. not socially, but personally. I feel like I don't exist

#personal #vent #dissociation #depersonalization #i don't exist

[raindrops666]

This shall be my introduction. I am called Rain, I go by she/they pronouns and am an author and book lover. I'd say my aesthetic is between darkest academia and romantic Gothic. Note I'm a minor!

I post little one shots and allow my *friends* to request them.

I also mainly reblog stuff

Do not interact list

-homophobes, transphobes, ped0s, racist people, Zionists, zoophiles and don't interact if you support this shit

FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸🇵🇸

#i don't exist #darkest academia #dark academia #gothic #goth aesthetic #dark academia aesthetic #books #the song of achilles #the picture of dorian gray #fyodor dostoevsky #franz kafka #gaston leroux #edgar allan poe #bram stoker #mary shelley

[mimipunk]

The good thing about me being a ghost is that nobody gets to listen to my depressing views 👻

#my thoughts #thoughts #text #views #depressing #nihilist #dark #depression #anxiety #avoidant personality disorder #negativity #negative #tumblog #ghost #I'm a ghost #i don't exist #introvert #hate society #hate humanity #loner

[royalapocalypse]

can't believe people perceive me as a human being who is real and is a part of this fucked up society. It's all a lie i am actually a werewolf

#baby i am not even here i am a hallucination #i don't exist #do not perceive me #society makes me want to commit arson #i am tired #desi academia #desi tumblr #light academia #werewolf #where is my mate #dark academia

[redrobinridinghood]

I don’t exist

#neuralblender art #neuralblender #ai #i don't exist #exist #unreality #disturbing #creepy #uncanny #ai art #ai generated #made with neuralblender

[sarcastic-potato10]

"I spent my life folded between the pages of books. In the absensce of human relationships I formed bonds with paper characters. I lived love and loss through stories threaded in history; I experienced adolescense by association. My world is one interwoven web of words, stringing together, stringing limb to limb, bone to sinew, thoughts and images all together. I am a being of comprised of letters, a character created by sentences, a figment of imagination formed through fiction". -Tahereh Mafi

#Tahereh mafi #shatter me #painfully understood #this is how i feel everyday #i don't exist #i am fiction

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[notdelusionalatall]

am i the body or am i the brain? am i anything at all? it is driving me crazy

#help #i am going crazy #i mean #i have gone mad a long time ago #but #i don't feel real #i don't exist #derealization #philosophy #pondering #philosophical thoughts #philosophical questions #i am unable to calm down #i need to touch grass