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returntosickness · 7 months

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So disheartening when you lose a bit of weight and guys who ignored you before are suddenly interested. It’s definitely not a coincidence bc it has been SO MANY of my guy ‘friends’ it’s so fucking transparent. Makes me not want to date when I’m thinner bc I know they wouldn’t give me a second look if I gain weight, even though I am still petite at my heaviest. It’s like they suddenly see me as an option when I’m sick and it’s so so so hurtful :((

I mean, it just confirms what I already think is true but OUCH

#anamia #not actually pro anything #proana #promia #unexpected thinspo #thinspo

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b0nywh0res · 2 years

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i love how skinny my legs are getting. idk if anyone else notices but i do, and thats what matters. one day they will see it too. progress is progress no matter how little.

#tw ed #ed relapse #tw ed vent #ed vent #ed fast #i wish i was thinner #proana #pro 4na #not actually pro anything #just pro for myself #pro 4na diary #i want to be a skeleton #i want to be small #4n0r3x14 #not pr0 4na #4na tw #low cal restriction #weight loss #tw 3d

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thestarvingnarrator · 1 year

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My Thinspo 🗝

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sail0rr0bin · 1 year

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I’m back <3

I’m back, sorry I left without saying anything <3 But I was focusing on school and sadly I gained weight :( back to my CW (174.4 Ibs).. If anyone wants to start a friend group so we can all work together to loss weight that’d be really cool <3 snapchat or even discord

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sickbutskinni · 1 year

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tw: ana and drvgs

i’ve been clean from drugs a year today, but not much feels different. i should be proud, happy, excited. but instead i’m looking for any NA meeting I can attend in the next week to make sure i don’t fuck it up.

i’m in a healthy happy relationship (the same one from before, it’ll be a year on march 7th) but for some reason i feel like i need this illness back, the drugs, the starving.

i was offered benzo’s for my wisdom tooth removal in april and i tried to be smart, i tried to turn it down. but because of my anxiety they want me to take some to calm me down before, i’m worried that actually physically taking the pills is going to cause a relapse. i’m gonna fuck up everything that i’ve worked so hard for.

i’ve already adjusted my eating habits because of an endoscopy i had. they told me not to eat or drink after 12am and since then it’s been so much easier to just not eat. i feel like i’m in control again. i’ve gained weight, healthy weight. i’m 152lbs right now. that’s good for my height. but i feel disgusting. i feel like i never should have let myself get that high up. i want to see bones again, i want to be sick. it’s a sick feeling. i don’t know how to cope with this and i don’t want to cause issues/burden in my relationship.

i’ve been drinking again (which i don’t consider a relapse because i was doing xans and coke so i mean, better of the three) but i feel like i’m slipping, i don’t know how to bring it up without feeling like an issue,

he makes me feel validated and tries to help but i always feel like a burden when talking about my issues because i know he has his own shit to deal with and it isn’t fair to put this on him.

i’m not looking for advice, i just need a private place to vent.

i hope you’re all doing well, and heading on a path to recovery. i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.

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alt0-is-b0nes · 1 year

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Discord Server Name

send me your funniest group chat names with a theme. I’m in the middle of creating an eating disorder discord server so it makes it easier for people with certain types of ED to connect and help(rather that be recovery or not, there will be both types of chats. and people will only have access per role)

#pr0ana #pr04ana #pr0ana diet #not actually pro anything #tw edd #discord group #bulimba #tw ana related #mia ed #ana and mia #bulimima #support ed group #ed discussion #ed discord server

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needstostopbinging · 2 years

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People talk about having on-again/off-again eating disorders, so I know that's no new thing, but I need to know I'm not alone on this:

Dose anyone else feel like two different people during those two states? Not in a DID/OSDD way (though I doo feel disassociation between them? idk), but in a way I can only really describe as existence feels different.

When I'm not caring as much, I still stress about my body a bit, but it's like a thick, sand blasted glass wall comes down between me and my disordered thoughts. The world becomes like a hot, blurry bliss and nothing exists except the present.

When it's "on-again," it's like that wall lifts to show me all the horrible things my brain is capable of thinking, but the world reloads into 4k. Everything feels crisper and I can connect with my interests more.

I don't understand what this means or how it works, but I'd love to know if more people experience it.

It's been a while so idk if these tags are still relevant but whatever

#tw ed vent #e 🌧#not actually pro anything #pr0 @na #e🦋#i want to be small

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slimlover100 · 2 years

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The group I shared before isn’t working, so I mad a new one.

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cityofthefullmoon · 1 month

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Ughh I followed a bunch of plural tags and now I have to block all these anti-endos

#Get out of hereeeee #If any endos or other pro endo system blogs wanna interact with this I'm looking for folx to follow #plural #system stuff #actually plural #system #system things #I'm not entirely sure which tags are for what sorry haha #pro endo #endo friendly #endos please interact #pro endos please interact #Trying to fight the AvPD urge to not tag anything ever um I might be going overboard

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sctumsempra · 2 months

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this is so incredibly self indulgent but. hear me out

#severus snape #snape #pro snape #snape fanart #procreate #sketch #barista!snape #my new obsession. it just makes so much sense #i don’t think he’d be a manager. my guy is over responsibility #would roll up to his fifth closing shift of the week and pray there was someone on register so he didn’t have to talk for a few hours #‘what do you recommend?’ bluescreens with the most customer service inappropriate look on his face #ignores the work group chat like the plague but if you text him he will cover your shift every time without fail #actually owns ten of the same black turtleneck and two pairs of black jeans and will not wear anything else #may or may not be based on real events

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returntosickness · 3 months

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Sleeping in till noon = no breakfast or lunch 💗

#not actually pro anything #anamia #eating disoder things #ed not sheeren #tw ed behavior

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b0nywh0res · 2 years

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theres something so sickeningly satisfying abt seeing my cw be someone elses gw

#4na tw #ana tiips #ed diet #ed vent #i wish i was thinner #pro 4na #not actually pro anything #just pro for myself #eating diary #i want to be small

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sail0rr0bin · 2 years

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HELP!! SOS!!

My mom is making pizza and im so scared to eat, like pizza is one of the foods I fear now as it is so easy to go over 2k cals with it just by eating like 3 pieces! so idk what to do! I think i’ll work out a lot today just burn the pizza off that I eat.... wish me luck...

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sickbutskinni · 1 year

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i’m having issues with my heart now, and kidneys. love how recovery is treating me.

i start eating healthy and ENOUGH and now all of the sudden i’m having chronic health issues and no doctor can figure out what’s wrong with me. WHAT THE FUCK?

i feel like i should just go back to the anorexia LMAO, at least i was unhealthily healthy. i wasn’t in pain all the time and the discomfort actually had a purpose/reason.

i am so fucking tired, i can’t do this shit anymore.

i have celiac disease and endometriosis and now possibly kidney stones and POTS. just end me now. i don’t need more chronic illnesses.

i’ve been to the hospital 3 times this year already and it’s fucking APRIL.

#anorecik #disordered eating tw #tw ana #an0rex1a #not actually pro anything #endometriosis #chronically ill

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sihtriggyr · 7 days

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The more I think about it the more insane I find the Driftmark confrontation. Rhaenyra was at eye level and tending to Luke with her back turned toward Alicent (her back!! She was not facing Alicent! She had no idea Alicent was coming at them with a dagger until the last moment when Alicent had already crossed the room!!) when Alicent went after Luke with the catspaw dagger AND during that entire confrontation NOT ONCE does Alicent loosen her grip on the blade but instead continues to push against Rhaneyra with it in her hand. At one point the blades point is quite literally inches from Rhaneyra’s face and then she proceeds to slice Rhaenyra’s wrist open!! and zero punishment. Just nothing. Insane.

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needstostopbinging · 2 years

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That tingling feeling when you start getting hungry >>>

#ed relapse #not actually pro anything

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