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rinrites · 2 years

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a love letter to the razor blade taped under my desk

someone once told me your soulmate

is the first person you think of each morning

and your last thought each night

my whole life that was

only ever you -

skin craving your touch

hands fumbling desperately

young lovers in the moonlight glow.

you hold me back and

all ive ever asked for is you.

and now, im four thousand miles away

and i yearn for your touch

like a silk sheet on your wedding night.

#writing #poetry #writerblr #writers on tumblr #aesthetic #poem #love #vent #poetscommunity #cw vent #angst #trauma #self harm #tw self sabotage #tw self harm #tw self destructive behavior #self harm addiction #addiction

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triskelion-soda · 2 years

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active self harm drawing

HIGH and low AND HIGH and low AND HIGH

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noisypizzadream-ventaccount · 3 months

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Day 11 of being self harm free.

Got a papercut at work and didn't even notice until my supervisor pointed it out.

Hand sanitizer and a standard bandage does the trick.

#addiction awareness #self harm recovery #self harm addiction #cutting recovery

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extantelectant · 8 months

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What a lot of people don't know is that I think about self harm and it's like I can physically feel my pupils dilate.

#self harm #tw: self harm #cutting #specifically #self harm addiction #addiction

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kindnessoverperfection · 10 months

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Please, if you can, take a moment to read and share this because I feel like I'm screaming underwater.

NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder) stigma is rampant right now, and seems to be getting progressively worse. Everyone is using it as a buzzword in the worst ways possible, spreading misinformation and hatred against a real disorder.

I could go on a long time about how this happened, why it's factually incorrect (and what the disorder actually IS), why it's harmful, and the changes I'd like to see. But to keep this concise, I'll simply link to a few posts under the cut for further reading.

The point of this post is a plea. Please help stop the spread of stigma. Even in mental health communities, even around others with personality disorders, in neurodivergent "safe" spaces, other communities I thought people would be supportive in (e.g. trans support groups, progressive spaces in general), it keeps coming up. So I'm willing to bet that a lot of people on this site need to see this.

Because it's so hard to exist in this world.

My disorder already makes me feel as if I'm worthless and unlovable, like there's something inherently wrong and damaged about me. And it's so much harder to fight that and heal when my daily life consists of:

Laughing and spending time with my friends, doing my utmost best to connect and stay present and focused on them, trying to let my guards down and be real and believe I'm lovable- when suddenly they throw out the word "narcissist" to describe horrible people or someone they hate, or the conversation turns to how evil "people with narcissistic personality disorder" are. (Seriously, you don't know which of your friends might have NPD and feels like shit when you say those things & now knows that you'd hate them if you knew.)

Trying to look up "mental health positivity for people with npd", "mental health positivity cluster bs", only to find a) none of that, and b) more of the same old vile shit that makes me feel terrible about myself.

Having a hard time (which is constant at this point) and trying to look up resources for myself, only to again, find the same stigma. And no resources.

Not having any clue how to help myself, because even the mental health field is spitting so much vitriol at people with DISORDERS (who they're supposed to be helping!) that there's no solid research or therapy programs for people like me.

Losing close friends when they find out, despite us having had a good relationship before, and them KNOWING me and knowing that I'm not like the trending image of pwNPD. Because now they only see me through the lens of stigma and misinformation.

Hearing the same stigma come up literally wherever I go. Clubs. Meetings. Any online space. At the bus stop. At the mall. At a restaurant. At work. Buzzword of the year that everyone loooves loudly throwing around with their friends or over the phone. Feels awesome for me, makes my day so much better/s

I could go on for a long time, but I'm scared no one will read/rb this if it gets too much longer.

So please. Stop using the word "narcissist" as a synonym for "abusive".

Stop bringing up people you hate who you believe to have NPD because of a stigmatizing article full of misinformation whenever someone with actual NPD opens their mouth. (Imagine if people did that with any other disorder! "Hey, I'm autistic." "Oh... my old roommate screamed at me whenever I made noise around him, and didn't understand my needs, which seems like sensory overload and difficulty with social cues. He was definitely autistic. But as long as you're self-aware and always restraining your innate desire to be an abusive asshole, you're okay I guess, maybe." ...See how offensive and ignorant that is?)

Stop preventing healthcare for people with a disorder just because it's trendy to use us as a scapegoat.

If you got this far, thank you for reading, and please share this if you can. Further reading is under the cut.

NPD Criteria, re-written by someone who actually has NPD

Stigma in the DSM

Common perception of the DSM criteria vs how someone may actually experience them (Keep in mind that this is the way I personally experience these symptoms, and that presentation can vary a lot between individuals)

"Idk, the stigma is right though, because I've known a lot of people with NPD who are jerks, so I'm going to continue to support the blockage of treatment for this condition."

(All of these were written by me, because I didn't want to link to other folks' posts without permission, but if you want to add your own links in reblogs or replies please feel free <3)

#actuallynpd #signal boost #actuallyautistic #mental health awareness #narcissistic personality disorder #people also need to realize that mental health professionals aren't immune from bias #(it really shouldn't come as a shock that the mental health field has a longstanding pattern of misunderstanding and mistreating ppl who ar #mentally ill or otherwise ND)#the first therapist i brought up NPD to like. literally pulled out the DSM bc she could barely remember the criteria. then said that there'#no way I have it because I have low self-esteem lmaoooooo #anyway throwback to being at work and chatting with a co-worker. and the conversation turning to mental health. and him saying that #he tries to stay informed and be aware and supportive of mental health conditions & that he doesn't want to be ignorant or spread harmful #misinformation. and then i mentioned that i do a lot of research into mental health stuff and i listed a bunch of things. which included #several personality disorders. one of which was NPD.#and after listening to my whole ass list he zeroed in on the NPD and immediately started talking about how narcissists are abusive and #he knew someone who had NPD and how the person who had it had an addiction and died from the addiction in a horrible way and he #was glad he did #fun times #or when i decided to be vulnerable and talk abt my self-criticism/self-hatred bc i knew my friends also struggled w that and i wanted to #support them by sharing my own coping methods. and they both(separately!) started picking and prodding at my npd through the lens of stigma #bc i'd recently opened up to them abt having it. they recognized self-hatred as a symptom and still jumped on me for it. despite me #trying to share hurt vulnerable parts of myself to help them and connect with them.#again..... fun times

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neuroticboyfriend · 1 year

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If you struggle with substance abuse but not addiction, you still deserve support. If you struggle with suicidality/self harm urges but don't act on it, you still deserve support. If you struggle with psychosis and paranoia but have insight, you still deserve support. If you struggle with anything but are "coping with it," you still deserve support.

You dont need to be in imminent crisis to get help - safety planning, harm reduction, resources, and accommodations. You're still struggling. You're still suffering, You're still at risk/in danger. You deserve better - you need better. Your health and wellbeing matters.

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tavania-77 · 1 month

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M@stvrbate, sleep or $h. This is my every night choice I have to make

#self h@rm #hitting styro #tw sh related #cvtting addict #988blr #cvtt!ng #i wanna cvt #tw s3lf harm #baby cvts #988twt #tw self h4rm

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f41l1ng-0c34n-cr34tvr3 · 1 month

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bl0od dripping down my arm has got to be one of my top ten feelings

#tw s3lf harm #tw self h4rm #s3lf mutilation #tw sh implied #actually mentally ill #s3lfharmm #baby cvts #cvt #cvtaddict #cvtblr #cvtt!ng #cvtting addict #deep cvts #cvutting #sh cvt #i want to cvt #i wanna cvt

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thetinydino03 · 4 months

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when my dog keeps sniffing the cvts im hiding under my clothes

#self h@rm #cvtaddict #tw sh related #tw s3lf harm #cvtting addict #i wanna cvt #s3lfharmm #s3lf mutilation #s3lf harn #self mutalition

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tearsfallout · 12 days

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rinrites · 2 years

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to my therapist

hi Lisa! this is rin, again. im sorry i missed our last session - things have been crazy recently and i don’t even know what day it is at this point. scratch that. sorry i missed our last session - ive had a lot of work recently and i lost track of time. scratch that. i tried to kill myself and im writing this from the side of the accident that never happened.

things have been good! things have been really great! things have never been worse. every day i wake up and it’s the worst ive ever been. my friend looks at me and ive never been better. this is fine. this is stable. i am making it work.

i think im an addict.

i say that in the way that, like, a fireman looks at a blazing inferno and says “i think there might be a fire”. i am saying that with complete certainty. i am an addict. i don’t know what step two of that statement is. i think it’s narcan. im not certain.

i am a tightrope walker who had a few too many drinks before the show. i am teetering on the ladder. this is not safe for me - and this is less safe for you, gripping my hand, leaning on me instead of the steel platform below you. why? ill never know. drunk, alcohol addict me knows that. logically.

sorry, i had a point - oh yeah! sorry i missed our session - ill totally be there next week unless sleep/stress/work/substances involved! does 12 still work? i don’t know your schedule and ill never care enough to ask!

i love you. no i don’t. i enjoy the blank canvas you are. there is no other option for us.

many thanks,

rin (sophomore)

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selfsabotagingcvnt · 5 months

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2024 is the year I heal

2024 is the year I have my biggest relapse yet

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cirnocube · 6 months

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I wish sh was normal so I could do it and nobody would question or care if they saw it

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chiyeko-kurea · 1 month

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-kurea:)

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em4nn3 · 3 months

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me if someone rolled up my sleeves <3

#tw sh joke #tw self destructive thoughts #tw sh related #slef harm #cvtaddict #i want to cvt #baby cvts #made of styro #beansblr #cvtting addict #I hit syr0 yesterday!!!!!

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gh0stcvts · 1 month

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You ever forget why you sh, like your just so used to doing it, so you just do

#r4zorberri #tw self h@rm #988blr #self h4te #shblrr #sh pics #slef harm #styr0twt #sh cvt #self h@te #self h@rm #cvtaddict #cvtt!ng #i want to cvt #cvtting addict #baby cvts #styroblr #hitting styro

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