#usermish

[americanrequiems]

THE OUTSIDERS; S.E. HINTON

sixteen years on the streets and you can learn a lot. but all the wrong things, not the things you want to learn. sixteen years on the streets and you see a lot. but all the wrong sights, not the things you want to see.

#the outsiders #litedit #booksociety #fictionnet #booknet #pagesblr #usercossette #userjamie #usersari #userbie #tusersimone #usermish #usersmia #uservalentina #useraish #my edit

[jeremyknoxs]

he didn't want to leave andrew with nothing, but what could he possibly say?

#* #edit #lit #all for the game #aftg #aftgedit #neil josten #andrew minyard #andreil #litedit #bookedit #userbadrieh #tuserkaren #usermish #userlys #userabigail #useraish

[amzarashi]

there's this thing where you can't say certain words or phrases or breathe a certain way or touch something for too long or nudge the book that's been collecting dust on your bedside for two years because anything and everything could turn the world against you

i can't sleep at night because my breathing doesn’t feel right and the prayer i said five times in row doesn’t feel right so i have to get up open the door turn the lights on retrace my steps until my feet start aching from how bad i need it all to make sense to fall into place to not hurt the people i care about because guilt makes your heart sink like stone and i still haven't learned how to swim

fox reads me poetry until fox is all i think about until the world isn't so scary and the static in my brain is quiet i tell fox good night i say i love you but it's rarely there so i say it again over and over because repetition speaks things into existence until it piles up on top of each other until i can gather it all in my hand and squish it together like putty and use it to close up everywhere the hurt is leaking through

exposure therapy sucks. it's not that i can't touch door knobs or cross the threshold or have to wash my hands so many times or that i have to click the lock and turn the bathroom lights on and the bedroom lights off and the doorway lights on and the people around me have to say good night with an inflection that tells me i won't die tomorrow because i don't know what my brain wants more often than not

words have so much weight and i haven't told anyone i love them and meant it because i’m scared if i do i will doom them to my fate of picking at nails and skin so i use loopholes like my life depends on them. i say it with breaks in between. the pauses are periods so it's a string of words not a curse set into motion it'd be nice to breathe without having to think about what i can or cannot say

instead i send poetry, i say read the orange by wendy cope listen to 400 lux by lorde it's not a love language because language was made to share love babel was a death sentence there are many words i want to say but can't say but roland barthes says, i've got nothing to say to you but it's to you i want to say this nothing

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #usersari #usermish #gryewaren #userheidi #spilled thoughts #*my writing #obsessive compulsive disorder #actuallyocd #i forgot most of my tags but whatever #this was first posted mid breakdown on my personal instagram and i thought why don't i share it here;// #ocd sucks my guys this will either end me or i end it #my ocd/bpd/cptsd fighting with each other to see who gets to pull the plug on my life #at this point i don't have any fight left in me but i'm trying so hard to hold on #i read a story where the protag had ocd and they couldn't say i/love/you and i then proceeded to cry for five hours #no one ever talks about that you know and i hate that i can say anything to the people i love because i think i bring doom and suffering #posting mid hiatus like a champ uwu

[jeanmoreaux]

Hi! in just have a doubt about my blog. I'm kinda new to some stuff on tumblr and thought you might be able to help. So basically I've had my url for ages. made edits in my blog and used the url to track stuff. If I change it now what will be the consequences. Like do I have to retag all my stuff and change my blog links?

hi there!! well, as i am gathering from this, you will have to to change some things. generally, links you did not add manually will update to the new url (e.g., og posts of yours), but every link that you added manually (e.g., in your blog description, on posts, on subpages of your blog etc.) that links to your blog will have to be replaced/updated. for example, i have links in my description like the one that links to my edits (wherepoetsdie.tumblr.com/tagged/*all). now let’s say i were to change my url back to minyardx i’d have to replace the url manually to (minyardx.tumblr.com/tagged/*all). same goes for links in posts. BUT you won’t have to go over your past posts and retag them with, for instance, #*all (because the posts will change to your new url automatically). so it’s really mostly just adjusting links you manually insert somewhere on your blog/posts.

if you track your url you can just tell people you’re now tracking your new one or whatever and untrack your current one. however, i’d recommend to create a new tag that’s unrelated to your url. many people use tags like #usermish (that’s mine) that you won’t have to change with your url. you can be creative with it if you like! (also, ofc you can always track your current url in addition to whatever fixed tag you choose).

if you have any questions or are confused by anything i just said, feel free to send another ask or dm me!

edit: better advice in the notes!!!

#answer #anon #faq #not really but maybe someone will profit in the future lmao

[alinastarvko]

insp

#kanejedit #kanejdaily #shadowandboneedit #shadowandbonecentral #userjamie #user@nna #userfaith #usermish #kanej #kaz x inej #shadow and bone #six of crows #soc #linacreations*

[callumnovae]

ronan and noah's friendship is boys will be boys in its purest form

#i'm rereading and very much not okay #trc #ronan lynch #noah czerny #trb #tdt #the raven cycle #the raven boys #gangsey #the dream thieves #cdth #roah #userchar #bllb #trk #usermish #these boys i swear :') #oh also #athenastudying

[eclpsedsun]

how's one to know? i'd meet you where the spirit meets the bones in a faith-forgotten land in from the snow your touch brought forth an incandescent glow tarnished, but so grand

and the old widow goes to the stone every day but I don't, I just sit here and wait grieving for the living

oh, goddamn my pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand taking mine, but it's been promised to another oh, I can't stop you putting roots in my dreamland my house of stone, your ivy grows and now I'm covered in you

– ivy, taylor swift

#userjamie #usermish #atlaedit #tlaedit #avataredit #tlagifs #airbendersource #atlaladies #userbending #useriiroh #usernaiomy #tusersammy #usernana #userahzulas #tuserjamilah #userkataang #userzukoo #tuserdan #atlaonline #*

[cruvcio]

ごちそうさま // instagram

#pltuo #lvnnsi #userdiana #usersjas #danielsgillies #levizs #usermish #mostlyfate #this japanese café i went to has the cosiest aeathetic #* #*ph #dicennio

[martellen]

It’s remarkable people don’t crack, given the futility of their own existence. An endless cycle of life and death. Where is the origin of all this suffering?

#dark #dark netflix #netflix dark #darkedit #netflixedit #fyeahdark #kiwimidnight #fishkreizler #userszabi #userjessie #bensolcs #usermish #wonderworman #gifmakersource #*mine #*gifs #*f #*tv

[noorasaertre]

my skin has turned to porcelain, to ivory, to steel. happy hollidays to @branstark!

#gotsecretsanta #gotedit #sansastarkedit #thronescentral #gotsources #𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 #bensolcs #rosetylecr #bcnnsolo #usermish #userbrianna #userisadora #elenasfamily #sammsfamily #graphics* #graphics:got #asoiaf #ch: sansa stark #request*

[steverogerscapt]

Steve Rogers’ entrance in Avengers: Infinity War (2018)

#steve rogers #captain america #the avengers #avengers infinity war #steverogersedit #marveledit #infinity war #chris evans #my gifs #gifs #usermish

[jeremyknoxs]

Isn’t that reason enough to keep living? To rediscover simple delights one moment at a time, I mean. I used to count them on my fingers, reassuring myself there was still good in the world and reminding myself to keep looking for those blessings. Butterflies, fresh-baked bread, the crunch of leaves on an autumn morning, so on and so forth. They don’t have to be profound. I started with one: the scent of fresh-cut grass. […] What you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself. It’s so easy to get lost in ourselves and this world. Sometimes you need to find your way back one tiny miracle at a time. —THE SUNSHINE COURT, NORA SAKAVIC

#* #edit #lit #all for the game #aftg #aftgedit #the sunshine court #tsc #tsc spoilers #jean moreau #renee walker #jeanee #litedit #bookedit #userbadrieh #tuserkaren #usermish #userlys #userabs #usersmeg #kayascodelorio

[amzarashi]

my body houses two: the daughter you wanted and the son i am.

you don’t want one to die but the other you shove into a cellar and starve and bury six feet under. one will get a proper funeral, the other will rot while screaming his throat raw, praying for the love of a mother that was never really his. i dig the knife into my wrist and draw a cross as i think of the bible verse you quoted at me yesterday as i cried and begged for you to see me. you say you love me, but the conditions in fine print spell out that you would rather i die a liar than live my truth. my breathing is shallow as you lower me into the grave.

here lies a young boy. a man. 

but not a son. not a brother. 

he is nothing. 

as am i.

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #usersari #useraisha #usermish #userheidi #tw transphobia #*my writing #idk what this is it has no cohesion or flow #but i;m tired #okay this is a vent piece more than anything #i'm going to try and live #i really will #fuck #i got so close to offing myself & i'm still very much there but i want to live so badly #it'd be nice to top surgery and t and be happy #it'd be nice

[andrewneil]

@thefoxholesource game: favorite characters

“yes or no?” “it’s always yes with you.”

#q #tfc #aftg #tfcedit #aftgedit #andreil #andrew #andrew minyard #neil #neil josten #the foxhole court #all for the game #thefoxholesource #usermish #aftgays #usersnic #userletta #useraaliya #userliza #palmettto #user:ria #tumblr user andrewneil lives up to url sdlkfsj #do i look like i know what i'm doing? maybe #do i know what i'm doing? no

[alinastarvko]

so baby, can we dance?  oh, through an avalanche?

make me choose: @lordecameback asked ⇢ sam and grizz (the society) or simon and wilhelm (young royals)

#youngroyalsedit #young royals #userthing #usertelevision #userrishi #tuservi #tuserjackie #usermish #linacreations*

[callumnovae]

idk who needs to hear this, but to all lgbtq+ people who aren't out for whatever reason:

you are valid. the legitimacy of your identity has nothing to do with how many people you've told - you are here, you are you and you are enough. even if you're not entirely sure what your identity is or don't want to put a label on it, you're still a part of this community. when (if) you decide to come out is completely up to you, not being out ≠ not being proud of who you are. this month is your celebration, too 🏳️‍🌈

#and you matter!! #happy pride ladies gents and nb legends 🌈✨ #pride #lgbtq #lgbtq+ #lgbtq positivity #lgbt #coming out #userchar #usermish #tuserlayla #studyvan #serendistudy #asteristudy #saltwaterstudies #philologystudies #postitforward #idiot academia #medustudies