i respect ur decision but i need to let u know, if u do stop writing i’ll have to cry myself to sleep every night. just saying. fr tho for real was the first cake fic i ever read and i’ve been completely obsessed ever since. ur so talented i love u and ur writing more than anything<3 i wish u well mwah
oh wow this is so so nice and i love u for saying it! but also i feel like i should clarify i'm not actively deciding to stop writing! it's just one of those things where inspiration and brain cooperation is more limited for me lately than in the past for lots of reasons, so every time i finish a fic, it feels like it could potentially be my last. which means every time i post, i think, "how would i feel about this being my last fic?" but as long as the ideas and words continue to come i will continue to pour them into delicious cake. <3
i put on both my yaoi and my incest goggles before i consume any piece of media and this is why my textual analysis will always be more enlightened and factually correct than
see the danger, always danger
endless talking, life rebuilding
don't walk away
digital painting, 10 hours - drawing video below
song: atmosphere by joy division
my other spn art
kim manners et al were all about the light through the slats in this episode. i painted another scene from this ep that also had this type of lighting - when john is telling sam and dean he has to leave without them. different location, same kind of light. i feel it though, it's good stuff. i'm also a sucker for it. hence drawing it twice!
slaughterhouse posting part 2 that isn't going to be polished at all and has been sitting in my drafts for days, but this scene is so interesting to me because i genuinely have no idea what megatron wants from ravage in this interaction- and i don't know if megatron knows, either.
megatron starts out by saying that the decepticons' loyalty isn't to him- its to the cause. ignoring how this is immediately striking me as completely, blatently wrong due to the times we see megatron rallying the decepticons around himself when other leaders fail to do the same (nevermind the fact that he started the cause in the first place), he then gets angry with ravage when ravage confirms that- yeah, actually. you're not the cause anymore. we have moved on with someone new. megatron gets so angry he stands up, he looms over ravage, he raises is voice and balls his fist- and why else would he do this if he wasn't upset that they're moving on without him?
which would, of course, make megatron a hypocrite. he left the decepticons and refused to take any effort to rejoin them- he clearly doesn't actually want to return to the fold. but when the decepticons unite themselves and move on from him, it's different. i can abandon you, but you cannot abandon me.
i've always took this reaction as being an immediate, no thinking, gut reaction to finding out the decepticons are moving on without him. he's angry, potentially feeling betrayed by them, when he... doesn't have much of a right to feel that way. and it's not like megatron wasn't given an option to join the decepticons again if that's what he actually wanted.
he was given a choice. he turned it down. he could of turned it down for any number of reasons, but no matter the reason, the point remains that he turned it down.
going back to panel after megatron snaps, ravage clearly takes megatron's outburst as him being upset that they've moved on without him. despite the aggressive way this interaction started with ravage attacking megatron, ravage spends most of this conversation attempting to reassure megatron. megatron gets angry that galvatron took over and they're moving on without him? okay- so then he wants to come back, right? he's upset he's been replaced?
well, galvatron isn't permanent. say the word and you'll be back in charge. megatron says that the decepticons aren't loyal to him, ravage reaffirms that they were loyal to him but now they've chosen a new leader since he left, megatron gets angry that they're moving on without him, and then ravage reinforces their original loyalty to him by saying if he wants to come back, they'll follow him.
and then megatron turns it around; yes he was just angry that the decepticons were no longer loyal to him, but now that same loyalty is toxic, actually. and it is! it absolutely is toxic. but i think ravage backed him into a corner here, even unintentionally. he can't sit down and actually address why the decepticons moving on makes him angry without admitting some part of him wants to return to the cons. or at the very least he still feels possessive of them and doesn't want them to function outside of his influence. when given the option to rejoin, he responds by insulting the decepticon's (and ravage's!) sense of devotion/loyalty and then quickly changes the topic to seawing and the trial. he doesn't say a solid yes or no answer because he doesn't actually have one to give.
ravage nails it down anyways. megatron has no idea what he wants from ravage in this interaction because he doesn't know where he stands anymore, let alone what he wants for himself. before ravage was revealed to be on the lost light, megatron was captain. he even seems content to BE captain- but ravage makes it complicated. ravage is a direct reminder of who he used to be and the people he used to surround himself with. worse, people he's abandoned and hurt in order to get to where he is as captain now. megatron left the decepticons behind with no command structure, no guidance, no plan- and ravage's mere presence is a bitter reminder that even if he's run off to the autobots, he can't escape that.
he's settled into a state of stagmentation with the autobots. one he's content with, maybe- at the very least one he can live with where the guilt isn't as heavy. it is the easiest way out megatron saw for himself.
Halloween time again, woooo! Decided to stray from the usual Halloween Town aesthetics that dominate the KH fandom at this point of the year and just do a good old fashioned dress up/cosplay
Went with one Trio I love to dress up as another Triad I adore.
I find the idea of Tarn existing in TFP absolutely hilarious because he would have a raging hate boner or be deeply, wildly in lust with Soundwave (and Megatron).
The gladiator that once tied with Megatron became his right-hand mech and a steady, unshakable pillar of Decepticon might.
Tarn wouldn't be Tarn without that Decepticon badge as his face mask, nor without his weird obsessions and extremism. He would probably dig hard into differences to shore up "openings."
Tarn's soft, eloquent prose to Soundwave’s Vow of Silence. Tank versus drone. A killer voice and a near mute telepath. Imposing power to lanky speed.
Of course, they would be foils to each other. Tarn's desperation for a scrap of attention for all of his devotion, whereas Soundwave is Megatron's very shadow of a sparkeater.