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haru-natsuka · 2 months

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Second Male Leads Are all Yanderes but I Won't Rest Until I Win My Love Back (Female Reader x OCs)

CHAPTER 1

Story will start from below synopsis

Every second male lead who appeared in this world had a hidden yandere side that can emerge at any moment and turn them into a twisted and obsessive villain.

As someone with a severe case of the "second male lead syndrome", you are determined to pursue your love for the second male lead, leaving the original male lead to become the second.

While you were busy chasing after the second male lead, the original male lead kept on bothering you and trying to get you to choose him instead.

"Don't you dare to come any closer!" You snap at the original male lead, your tone sharp and firm.

"Oh, and who's going to stop me? You?" The yandere stares at you, a menacing look in their eyes, as their body slowly moves closer.

"Too close! Step back!"

"Your words mean nothing to me. You can't control me. I will come as close as I please, you can't stop me."

As if a yandere was not enough, when you chose to ignore the original male lead, another second male lead suddenly entered your life, further complicating the situation.

The yandere and the upcoming second male lead both seem determined to have you for themselves, and they were both very possessive and pushy in their approaches to you.

You just wanted to be happy with your true love. Yandere or not, you would stick with your crush!

CHAPTER 1: THE CONFESSION

How would you determine for a man to be the first or second male lead? From behind a bush, you secretly watched a famous young knight professed his love to the most esteemed lady at the academy.

Confessions of love are a natural thing, it was everyone's right to develop such a feeling. However, how could you confess when you were hanging out with your best friend who had a crush on the same girl? We should talk about the timing there!

There was a clear idiot word displayed on the knight's forehead in your eyes. His look also looks a bit stupid with a dump grin as he passionately confessing his love, forgetting his bestfriend altogether. Self-centeredness and idiocy were not a nice combination.

The girl appeared shyly glancing at him while softly playing with her eyelashes, deeply engrossed in the moment. Their surroundings were filled with a colorful display of flowers, bathed in the gentle rays of sunlight. What a truly perfect match.

'Hey, Liesel and Cyrus! My man over there, yeah, the one who is being ignored and neglected by you guys is having a moment of deep sadness and heartbreak right now. If you could please be the best friends that you're supposed to be and show some compassion and support, that would be greatly appreciated.'

You sighed with disappointment as both of them cannot hear your thoughts. It appeared that you were the one who must take action to save your man. Your crush hung his head low, using his glistening silver hair to shield his face from the painful scene unfolding before him. Hiding behind this wall of silvery locks, you could witness him hiding his tears.

That was the difference between the male lead and the second male lead. One was a courageous figure, while the other merely existed in service of the female protagonist, loving and watching her from the sideline. As if she deserved such a title.

Despite the apparent contrast between the male lead and the second male lead, you found your true interest in the latter. You preferred him who was not as bold or confident, but who was always considerate of others' feelings. Even though all his paintings related to that famous girl, you still would like to declare that,

'My man finally is officially available!'

You made your way to your man, his head still bowed, tears still streaming down his face. You reached out a reassuring hand and quickly pulled him away from the scene. He appeared confused, and you flashed a triumphant glance in his direction, a bright smile upon your face.

"It's alright Adrian. My love is only for you"

>> CHAPTER 2

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ii-yinyang · 8 months

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yinyang rant I've had in the discord for a while and now have the courage to post

so yinyang is a funny character right? a little silly even. a goofy little guy. but what if i told you that all that sillyness is hiding so much insecurities you wouldn't even KNOW.

ok so first why would he be insecure? well this is kinda obvious but in episode 4 his team kinda. you know. tried voting him off the game. this hurts him, obviously. we can see this in ep 6 when nickel mentions it, yinyang looks shocked and everyone goes silent. in episodes 11 and 14, even more is added into the burning pile, though as of the time of writing this i can't really factor in ep 14 besides speculating about the next episode.

ok so how is this insecurity expressed, well first we have what i mentioned in ep 6, he freezes up, not wanting to think about it. in episode 10 when he's describing his alliance idea to paintbrush, he turns away from them. Not wanting them to see he's crying, now why wouldn't yinyang want paintbrush to see him crying?

in ep 4, yinyang looks at paintbrush whilst mephone is counting the votes, which implies that yinyang looks up to paintbrush in some sort of way, and when paintbrush looks back that implies they voted for him too. but that's besides the point.

in ep 12, yinyang intentionally hurts the floor in order to win, now before this point yinyang and the floor had a pretty neutral relationship, so it's not like they hated eachother or something. so he obviously did this to win, but why would he do this in order to win? wouldn't it be too far? why didn't yin interfere?

it was in order to prove them wrong. to prove silver wrong, to prove candle wrong, (who betrayed him last episode at the time). to show them that they both were capable of getting immunity by earning it. to prove their worth. which didn't work. like at all.

this is also proven by this line in ep 13, where the implication is that without the viewers interference, yin believes they are nothing. which after the failure of the last episode is about as reasonable as a self depreciating statement can get, which isn't very much.

this is also why he even bothers listening to a single thing silver has too say in ep 14. silver was telling yang everything he wanted to hear, that the reason everyone seems to betray him, being his chaoticness, is actually a good trait and only HE (and conveniently silver) have seemed to realize it. that what candle taught him was just useless fluff to make him weaker (silver literally called yang soft). telling him that he was smart, clever even, that candle was just too stupid to realize what chaos could do. that for once, his worst trait can get him what he truly wants, an immunity not earned via viewer vote. acknowledging his insecurities and twisting him to his advantage.

so what's next for yinyang? obviously ep 14 was a huge blow to yinyangs self esteem, like all of yangs character development got thrown in the rubbish, like if ep 4 was yinyang getting kicked in the nuts, ep 14 was him getting blown to smithereens. this has basically blown yinyangs insecurities wide open, but it's not like they were all that secret before. he's a fan favorite so obviously animation epic isn't gonna send him hurdling to indefinite island without at least some of that being addressed (at least i hope). so how in gods name is yinyang gonna recover his mental state completely in 5 episode or less? well, the quick answer is he isn't. the long answer is this.

we already had an arc where someone tried to "fix" yinyang, and that ended up with candle seeing the friendship as completely transactional and cutting it off as soon as yinyang didn't need her. (which i could talk about forever but i digress) so how would yinyangs hypothetical "oh my god he has so many insecurities we need to fix this oh god oh fuck" arc go? well imo, i feel like it would involve the people silver has been trying to get yinyang to push away the most, his friends. any one of them could do this, balloon is kinda going through his own thing rn so probably either cabby or the floor (i may or may not be biased towards one of these outcomes but nonetheless) helping him regain his self worth in increments, the main point of the arc being that you really cant fix everything in one conversation, and that things like undoing an entire seasons worth of people kicking you in the metaphorical nuts repeatedly take time and effort. we can already see the buds of this arc by cabby and balloon taking extra care to listen to yinyang after what he went through. which is nice. he deserves something nice that isn't immediately ripped away from him 5 episodes later.

so yeah rant over um yinyang deserves to win iii i rest my case

#ii yinyang #yinyang ii #ii yin-yang #inanimate insanity #ii #im actually proud of this so this is going in not only yinyangs main tags but the shows main tags

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yuikomorii · 8 months

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Hey Admin, I read your Reiji opinion and I was wondering if you’d like telling us about Subaru too? He’s my best boy and it’s been a while since I’ve read something about him. I’m not forcing you tho, you can answer it just if you want. Have a great day, bye!^^

// Subaru is definitely in my top 5 Diaboys! He’s precisely on the 4th place and he would have been on the 3rd one if only he didn’t “fight” with Laito for that spot, who keeps winning me over every time I hear his voice. :”)

I appreciate how he may appear frightening and rude, yet he has a really kind heart and he's simply so pure when he talks about his interests! The only thing that bothers me about him is that he almost never acts when someone is in danger unless he is personally involved in the situation, but I can't entirely blame him because he is most likely terrified, so he minds his own business. That may not be particularly heroic of him, but it doesn't make him a bad person anyway.

Aside from that, it’s not his fault here but I’m convinced the writers have something against him because his routes are all less entertaining compared to the rest. Don’t get me wrong, I loved him in HDB, he hit different there and I understand that he can’t suddenly start being confident with the power of love, however it’s such a turn off how all his main game routes revolve around him feeling unloved, insecure and thinking that everyone hates him when it was proved IN EVERY ROUTE that everyone actually CARES about him and IS there for him. It’s like everything starts all over again for what?

I feel bad for Subaru but I also feel bad for Yui for having to reassure him each and every time that he matters, he’s beautiful, he’s not like his father, everyone loves him and so on. He’s really likeable to me but they sometimes do him way too dirty. ;w;

And don’t even get me started on why Christa was even included in his DF route. She seemed more normal in MB, whereas in DF she was straight up crazy and it didn’t even give her a proper redemption arc like they did with Cordelia.

Moreover, whoever wrote LE had beef with Subaru and you can’t tell me otherwise. Not only did the writer make him try to romance Yui in Kou’s route, which resulted in him being slapped by her —I mean, I understand Yui’s reaction because she loved Kou there, but it's still a trashy situation— but on top of getting rejected, he also, as far as I recall, accidently ended off his own mother?? 😭😭

Last but not least, I’m pretty sure every time Seiji appeared in LE in his brothers’ routes, Yui was like “Idc father, I’m siding with my man” on the spot but when it came to Subaru’s route, she actually debated which one to choose between him and her dad——? It’s obvious that Subaru is extremely dependent on her and he got such a low self-esteem, so why would you pull that on him out of all characters? It’s even worse when you remember his brute ending… (ಢ_ಢ)

I tried to make this quite detailed, keeping in mind that you stated missing reading something about him. As for my final thoughts, I doubt they'll make a new game, but if they do, I truly hope they will develop his character and his relationships with Yui, Kou, and his brothers better. Nonetheless, his tsuntsun side is adorable, and he's generally chill (well… when not enraged, lol). Bonus points for liking animals; I recall him telling the MMV cat, "Don't leave my side," which may sound dramatic, but l found that sweet~! xD

#admin

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justatalkingface · 1 year

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I miss Izuku.

Not 'Deku', not the overpowered, rapidly simplifying character that only knows how to punch things HARDER!!!!!!!, but Izuku, the kid that helped me get into this story in the first place. He was a bit of a loser at the beginning, sure, but the kid had heart. I sympathized with him. I cheered at his successes, and and mourned at his failures. Izuku moved me.

Now, though? Deku, The Main Character, is more character tropes than an actual character. I don't care about Deku; I know he'll win, I know he'll get the power ups, and I know he'll get his victories, that his struggles are going to be pointless and ephemerial because he'll get pretty much everything he wants with no real consequences and no effort put in beyond just.... applying Plus Ultra to the problem at hand, and repeating until he gets his desired results. When he hits the previously invincible villains and rocks him back from sheer overwhelming force, I can't even be bothered to look at the pretty art. He's shallow. He's empty. I don't give a shit about him.

This isn't a new phenomenon; it's something I've noticed happening for awhile now, though it certainly started escalating in intensity around the war arc. Still, with hindsight, I can see the signs of how things would change in the future even earlier than that. The problem is, this isn't really a simple problem; there's a bunch of things happening to have got us from Izuku to Deku.

Part of it is the story can't seem to figure out it's message anymore. Early on, there was a big emphasis on The Desire To Save. It's what got Izuku All Might's attention in the first place, it's what got him into UA, it helped him make his first friend, and even made an impression on Shigaraki as a defining enemy sort of moment.

Then we started talking about consequences: Izuku was reckless, and didn't value his life, and this is something that appears on and off throughout the story. The Saving People Thing that made Izuku special was suddenly, if realistically, bad. Now, let's be honest here: it was bad, how it was happening. Izuku has a lot of similar elements to All Might, and All Might destroyed himself as a human being, gave up his life, his relationships, his health, everything so he could just Save More People. All Might, quite honestly, is a tragedy of a man. There's a logical sort of transition here, to help Izuku grow as a person, and thus as a character, to build up his self esteem and self worth, to learn to moderate his impulsive saving people thing and in the process surpassing All Might not just in power but as a person, that would work perfectly. And maybe that's what was supposed to happen.

We... we didn't really get that. What we have instead is just alternating, 'Saving is Good', and 'God Dammit Restrain Your Lemming Ass Self For Once' without any medium ground between them. Sometimes an arc will focus on one of these things alone, sometimes the narrative will say one thing (Izuku saves Kouta from Muscular, which is good!), while a character says something else (Aizawa lectures him because he pulped his body into mush yet again, which is bad).

There doesn't seem to be a 'right' answer that manga is going towards, is the thing, and since this is one of the biggest foundations of the story, the fact that it is so unfocused is a problem. What we ended up getting are stop gates, band aid solutions to delay the fixing the actual situation; Izuku is too weak to stop Villain 'X' without destroying his body? Give him 'Y' powerup so he doesn't have to. The stakes that used to matter, his arms, his body, compared against victory, or saving someone, are just... aren't there anymore. They gave him some gear, and then at some point there was just some power up or another and it was no longer a problem. And power ups are all well and good, but here's the thing: powers aren't a story. Power-ups aren't a character.

When a character is put into a crunch that challenges their morals, that is the time to develop them. You either, A, renforce who they are by proving them against adversity, in the crucible of hard choices and uncertainty. Or B, you change them, have them realize they were wrong, naive, blinded by their own pre-existing opinions or notions. The character should either be refined by their struggle, purified into a truer version of themselves or they should evolve from their struggle, change into a better version of themselves. Either way, these changes help them grow as a person, and help them deal with the problems ahead of them.

Izuku does neither. He just gets stronger instead.

This is a thematic problem that has cropped up recently, even: Dark Deku, for example. He goes 'rogue' (except not really) to protect his classmates from the fact that the most powerful beings on the planet want him dead (sort of. Or they want his Quirk. Or AFO is just... trolling him or something? Fuck, I miss the original AFO), which is a reasonable concern when we're told that society is breaking down and the villains are running rampant.

But then his friends come to murder him in a mob save him (god I have opinions about that, but that's for later), and tell him he's wrong, and brings him back. Except... promptly after, AFO and SFO show up and SFO is flat out unstoppable (and AFO is... there, I guess. Scheming or something). They bring out their best tricks. They bring out new tricks. They bring out Quirk Awakenings. They even bring out DBZ-esc laser cannon combo attacks that are probably going to be epic for people to see in the anime, but I couldn't take seriously because narratively, they weren't allowed to hurt him (except Bakugou... sort of? More power ups on the way, for sure, but the wound he got in was because of some weird flashback trauma from AFO or something instead of him being actually strong enough to hurt damage SFO).

Because Dark Deku was right, even though the narrative of that arc just finished telling us that he was wrong: he is the only one who can survive SFO/AFO, and if he had stayed at U.A. and SFO had just rolled up, said 'What's good, bitches?', and attacked? Everyone else would have been reduced to bloody smears, and the only reason they weren't when they ambushed him is SFO is too busy throwing fits to really concentrate on any of them, and there's almost no one else in the general area for him to murder, since you know they ambushed him (no matter how dumb it was he fell for it).

Or poor, poor, introduced then promptly thrown away Lady Nagant, who ended up with what was left of Hawks original plot. She was a hero, but as a hero she had to kill, and do terrible things to keep the order of society going. Moreover, she tries to kill someone, the classic dilemma for a hero: catch the villain, or save the victim (who is fucking Overhaul, so you know, fuck him, but whatever). As a hero, a hero lover, and as a person who (seemed to be) trying to find himself as a hero... you'd think that'd be important to Izuku. That this would challenge his ideology, his understanding of what a hero is; it's the perfect time to finally put some work into the 'corrupt hero' thing that keeps getting put to the side. But he doesn't. He doesn't make hard choices, he doesn't have his ideals challenged, he just goes faster, and resolves the situation with overwhelming power instead. He gets his cake and eats it too, in other words. And then Nagant was actually good all along anyways, and didn't want to kill anyone, so Izuku was already right because heros are all good always! Plus, instead of actually dealing with the fact that she murdered people in the name of heroics and the moral and practical implications of what to do with her, she got not-killed and he moved on.

Then there's the fact that, as a character, Izuku has been... how do I put this, whittled away. Part of it is, as a character, he's lost traits from the Izuku we've started with, yet he hasn't replaced them with anything. Early Izuku was weak, smart, calculating, cowardly, self sacrificing, a hero lover, a amatuer Quirk analyst, a nerd, a mumbler, and so on and so forth. He had a lot of parts to his character, and admittedly some of them weren't great. He cut some of the worst ones away early on, like 'coward' and 'weak', and replaced them with 'brave' and 'strong'. After that though... did Izuku get anything added to his character? Not that I know of. Here's another question: when's the last time Izuku analyzed a Quirk? Remember how he used to do that? How was that bad?

Yeah, it wasn't. Honestly, it could easily have been useful, and a good way to focus on some other characters for a change. But he just... doesn't anymore, and there really isn't a reason why it happened. How about this: remember when Izuku was creative? I do, and I miss creative Izuku, the Izuku who couldn't solve everything by Casting Fist, and so he had to think around problems, fluidly adapting to his situation with his intelligence and decisive action. Moreover, the story almost seemed to reward him for his creativity; back in the Sports Festival, for example, Izuku couldn't just rely on his Quirk to solve his problems. Instead of overpowering them, he struggled and fought and worked around them. He used the bombs that blocked his way to his own advantage, and so gained first place in a come from behind victory. Yet, when he fought Shoto later, all he really had was the Quirk, and he got hurt as a result.

Why are these traits all gone?

Imagine Izuku as... a log. He was a log full of potential, and over the course of the manga, Hori has whittled away at that log towards something: the generic shounen protagonist, the Deku I so loathe, who only exists seemingly to save people and punch things. Izuku, or rather Deku, doesn't have need to focus on other things other than Saving People or Fighting the Villain; he's strong, so that's his job now, his role. Creativity? Problem solving? That's something someone else will handle, and probably offscreen, at that. Deku doesn't need those anymore, so Hori just... cut them away unceremoniously. Why?

Well, part of it, I imagine, is just... simplifying it. You know how Izuku got a bunch of powers, but most of them are just used to punch harder? It's easier to make Izuku just PUNCH DRAMATICALLY, I've heard, then having to manage lasers or fire or whatever else they could have been with all those options. In a similar vein, him creatively undermining villainous plans or powers is probably harder to draw than Izuku Casting Fist at them. Beyond that is time, I guess; the general opinion seems to be that Hori is insanely overworked and fucking tired of all of this, and so he's speed running the late things. But put a pin on that, I have a little more on the 'whittling' idea.

In the beginning, whenever we focused on Izuku, we were in his head, seeing the flow of his thoughts. Over time, though, that stopped happening as much. Whenever Izuku is put into a situation that would make him think things that don't agree with what the narrative is pushing for, the focus moves to someone else. We see him move, and talk, but we miss the insight into him. What does he think when his entire class, his friends, come to kill save him (alright, fuck it, we're doing this now)? We sure don't know, because we got to see that through their eyes! Because that depth isn't useful anymore, showing a dissenting opinion to the idea we're being given is bad, thus we're ignoring it, which means the points that do remain, like Saving People, hit that much harder, pushing the point that much farther.

...Alright, yeah, fine, let's talk about that.

The Class A Mob. It was horrible, characterization wise (we miss our friend! Let's beat the shit out of him and drag him home! You know, as friends and heroes normally do!) and just in general. It was nothing more than ham handed nonsense that was clearly supposed to make us want to weep with emotion as Class A tearfully attacked their poor, misguided hobo classmate who foolishly ran away, so they could drag him back with them against his will.

Yeah... I don't buy that, obviously. Why was that there?

Bakugou. It was to put Bakugou back into Izuku's story.

Here's the thing: as a person, I loathe Bakugou. Immensely. But that's not what we're talking about here. As a character, I still dislike him... but if I'm forced to have him in the story, I'd like to see him done better, thanks.

Let me ask you this: what is Bakugou's role in the story? Izuku's rival, of course, but... is there anything else? He has some of the largest amounts of screen time of any character in the manga, and Bakugou's entire role in the story is 'to be Izuku's rival', with an arc of 'stop being an asshole' (which isn't actually going well, but not the point). He has no motivation other than surpassing All Might and/or Izuku, depending on the time frame. His goals, short and long term, are simply gaining power and winning over whatever problem is in front of him, even if the obstacle to surpass is himself. There's no... dramatic backstory to explain this, no trauma he's suffering from, no personal enemy that haunts him, no depth with that focus to expand on his character. He just wants to win.

And that's why is character is rotting. Bakugou, as he exists now? Is nothing more than an attachment to Izuku. He isn't allowed to do his own thing. Everywhere he goes, everything he does all ends up being about Izuku, and often feels like it's been grafted on, just a last minute addition to someone else's story. This cripples him, limits his growth as a character into being nothing more than Izuku's party member.

But at the same time, it's also bad for Izuku. Because as a rival, he and Bakugou are supposed to match, and yet Bakugou doesn't grow as a character like he should for someone as big a part of a story he seems to be. So while Bakugou doesn't get his own story, Izuku gets shit like 'Fighting to save'. Wow Author All Might, fighting to win the fight you're in is a great idea! Revolutionary, even! If only Izuku had somehow learned that from all the fights he tried to win before that point! You know, against Bakugou, the generic villains, Shigaraki, That First Nomu, Muscular, Bakugou.... Or, maybe, just maybe, he never needed to learn that because it's obvious and instinctive!

Character wise, these two are drowning, and every time one of them comes up for air, the other one grabs them, or hits them as they struggles, and they sink back down. It's a negative spiral that limits the both of them.

Let's bring back that final factor: time. Time, time, time. Time is essential for characters to grow and strive as characters, to show who they are and how they've changed, and unless you're a very good writer writing in a very certain way, you can't actually put everything about a character into a fight scene. Even then, it is inherently limiting and can wear away at audience engagement in characters. Hori isn't that writer, or rather, he's not trying to be that writer, he's just trying to speed run the ending to be done with it, as far as I can tell. The last arc especially feels more like bullet points getting checked off a list rather than a proper plot. I feel like I don't really need to go into how this can mess things up, so let me summarize all the problems with a multi-purpose question: what the fuck does Izuku think about anything anymore?! His friends attacking, his time alone, being back with his friends, Bakugou's apology, the... kid inside Shigaraki (Sweet dear fuck, the massacre of the villains characters and potential is not the focus of this but just), the Remnants, anything!?!? We don't know, because Izuku doesn't talk or think about it, because he doesn't have the time to think or talk about it.

And top of that with the fact that this is all happening in what, the span of a year? Izuku has gone from a weakling who explodes himself to one of the strongest people on the planet in just a year's time? It's an insane timeline, and it's hard to take it seriously because it happened so fucking fast.

So yeah. There's all of these things happening, all these things that have chipped and carved and whittled away at the character I once loved, until there's barely anything left of him.

I saved this point for last, that final difference between 'Izuku' and 'Deku': We all know that Izuku calling himself Deku was him trying to reclaim the name from the insult Bakugou threw at him ever since he was a child. Ochaco thought of 'Dekiru' when she heard his name, which my memory and five seconds of a Google search tell me means, 'You can do it!', or something to that effect, an idea that works well with the kind of hero Izuku wanted to be. 'Deku', what Bakugou still continues to call him, what Izuku is calling himself, is a wood doll, or a puppet.

So when I say, 'Izuku' here, I mean the person, the character filled with his own personality and drive and interests beyond just being a hero, who is so much more than that. When I say 'Deku', I mean the puppet that's being used lately to push the plot that the author wants along, whose only motivations, thoughts, and actions exist in service to that plot and nothing more

I don't care about the puppet. I miss the person.

#izuku deserves better #the whittling of Izuku #mha critical #bnha critical #bakugou critical #but more for how his character is being used than in an anti sense #though I'll admit I don't like him anyways if I'm being honest here #there's a certain fury that comes from a fan who used to like something but doesn't like it anymore #that fan is me #that fury is mine

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elliewiltarwyn · 3 months

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I have to ask top 5 npc 👀

well if you guys insist 👀 this will get extremely long, i'm sure, so i'll throw it under the cut to save your dashes lol

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5. Emet-Selch

yes part of me is a basic bitch and is in agreement with everyone that damn, that villain of the award-winning expansion of the critically acclaimed MMORPG do be written ridiculously well. part of me is such a basic bitch that i am among the many who made an ancient OC named Persephone. (She isn't Ellie's ancient, and therefore not Azem, for whatever that's worth. :V)

but I mean. damn, he's written well. and I really feel his influence in nearly every corner of the ingame universe. Ellie stands firmly against him, but also can't say for certain she'd make any different choices if she had been in his position, having lost everyone she ever loved. honestly one of the best implementations of the "everyone is the hero of their own story" concept I've ever seen.

plus he's just such a rude, uptight little bitch, and it's amazing to watch.

4. Alisaie

Both of the twins are really good, and I am definitely among those who, despite their less-than-stellar introductions, eventually ended up going all "I'm having children. it's you. sign these adoption papers." but Alisaie in particular has the fierce drive and endless capacity for love that connects with Ellie so well. they're both fiery and vivacious and searching for some sort of purpose in a world that doesn't care and eventually find that meaning in the people they love. Straightforward, hates beating around the bush, so eager to cut to the point that she pops the LB immediately every dang time on like the GCD right before I try going for it--

yeah she's just really good and she feels like a sister after everything we've been through.

3. Lyse

So, I grew up in the shadow of an older brother; he was immensely popular, very self-confident, and knew what he wanted to do with his life ever since he was a kid. Everyone loved him, everyone admired his clear sense of purpose... and more than a few people looked at me in his wake and literally asked "why aren't you that cool? you should try and be more like him." not even exaggerating.

thankfully, I've done a lot of self-growth and am on very good terms with him these days. A lot of that sense of self-growth came from finding the courage to strike out on a path he hadn't laid down before me, find ways to define myself that aren't just carbon copies of his own traits. It was better for everyone for me to figure out what I wanted and how to achieve that by becoming the best version of myself -- not anyone else.

is it any godsdamn wonder Lyse resonates so much with me? plus she's a beautiful kinda-dumb punch girl, and I live for that archetype. In my canon, Ellie drops reaper after Endwalker and trains up to be a monk under Lyse, because albeit for different reasons, Ellie also empathizes a ton with Lyse's struggles and development. to the extent of fairly severely crushing on her for a long time imma be real.

2. Esteem

you ever just *clenches fist* become so traumatized that in order to cope you manifest your own inner darkness that wants you to love yourself so much that she tries to subsume you into herself so you don't have to suffer anymore, only to come to terms with the weight of all the traumas you are carrying and learning to love yourself through it all anyway, in a way that helps you master the darkness and bring it to bear against those who deserve it? is-- is this not a common experience? oh. well I mean. it was very cool to have that happen.

Ryne

i made a meme a long time ago for this exact purpose:

i love my beautiful gay daughter

thanks for the prompt and the excuse to gush, @oneiroy and @alliezweihander!!

#ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #wol questions #ask games #shadowbringers spoilers #long post #just in case #there's so much i want to say and i feel like i'm not expressing it how i want but OH WELL #here are my blorbos from my shows. im love them your honor.

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Anon wrote: Hi! I need to ask about my enfp mother's behaviour. Is there cultural reason why she believes so strongly in highly superstitious, almost witchcraft like things despite growing up in a religious and conservative household? I understand a lot of superstitions can exist in Asian culture, but there's something especially strange about your mother accusing your romantic love interest of using love potions, curses, or spells on you to win you over all because he isn't attractive in her eyes.

For more context: my dad passed away a few years ago, and ever since then I feel like my mom's been a different person. I originally thought she was clinging onto religious beliefs to cope with the grief, but I now feel like it's gone beyond just using religion for comfort. It has absolutely dictated her life, all because she believes there's something malicious after me and my sibling, and she feels obligated to protect us from what this is. Whenever we ask her what she's protecting us from, she doesn't really give a straight answer.

What's more, recently I've noticed she's been describing a lot of strange beliefs that resemble, for a lack of a better description, witchcraft. I honestly have no idea where this came from, but it seems like this is something she grew up learning about. I can't really find a lot of information about Vietnamese witchcraft, so I honestly have no idea if this is pure delusion, or actually a part of the culture. I'm really trying to understand where she's coming from, but it's so hard when she doesn't want to open up about anything.

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I'm not a member of Vietnamese culture and don't know anything about Vietnamese folklore, so I'm not sure why you believe I can answer anything about that. The only thing I can say is that certain psychological characteristics/issues make some people more prone to adopting fantastical or conspiratorial beliefs. For example:

- Struggling With Trauma: Losing a loved one, especially the central relationship of one's life, is a very traumatic experience. Such grief is very difficult to process and endure, psychologically. When someone isn't able to accept and understand a traumatic event, they can't help but seek out answers, and this makes them susceptible to any beliefs that might bring some measure of emotional relief. Perhaps you have underestimated the depth of your mom's trauma and grief. If that's the case, empathy is called for.

- Struggling With Self-Esteem: People at low levels of ego development are more likely to suffer from low self-esteem due to often making more errors in judgment. There are healthy and unhealthy methods to boost self-esteem. One unhealthy method is to find ways to feel superior and/or to feel more unique than others (both points are likely to apply for ENFP). Thus, some people are drawn to odd beliefs because it makes them feel smarter or it gets them special attention, which provides temporary relief from deep-seated fears about being inferior or ordinary.

- Security Through Simplicity: The world is a very big and complicated place with lots of stuff going on. It's easy to feel scared, powerless, helpless, or cynical in the face of human suffering. It can be very difficult for a caring or sensitive person to make sense of all the bad things in the world. If a person lacks the intellectual skills to understand complex issues (e.g. due to lack of educational opportunity), they are more likely to reach for easy answers or answers that provide a sense of certainty. Fantastical or conspiratorial theories provide easy answers because they do not require any justification or evidence. The explanations can seem logical on the surface, so it's easy to get sucked in by them when one is already emotionally primed to believe.

- Cognitive Biases: By default, the human mind is riddled with cognitive biases that distort perception and judgment. For example, many people don't realize that they mistake correlation for causation. A person with good logic knows that, just because two things occurred together, doesn't mean that one caused the other. It could be the case that both were caused by some hidden third factor. You have to take extra mental steps to properly prove that causation actually happened. When people aren't aware of their cognitive biases and don't work to counteract them, it is very easy for them to fall victim to bad logic, and they won't be able to detect the logical errors in their own belief system.

- Dependence on Intuition: The fact of the matter is, as one person, you can't know everything. There are many situations where you have no choice but to fill in gaps in your knowledge with "gut feelings" or random ideas that seemingly come out of nowhere. The more heavily someone relies on gut feelings without being aware of it, the more likely they are to make errors in judgement, because they are not giving enough consideration to concrete facts and evidence. For example, when you have experienced one senseless and unfair tragedy after another, it becomes more and more difficult to avoid thinking that you're being singled out for punishment, which easily leads to believing in curses. Of course, people with a dominant or overactive N function are very likely to trust intuition a little too much.

In some cases, these issues can be remedied by providing more and better learning resources to people. For example, you can help people overcome their cognitive biases by teaching them the critical thinking skills they need to analyze issues systematically and break down complex problems into more manageable steps. It's also important to nurture intellectual humility and intellectual curiosity in order to be open-minded enough to entertain being wrong.

However, deep and unresolved emotional or psychological developmental issues are much more difficult to resolve, which is why such individuals usually need counseling or therapy. It sounds like your mom could have a combination of cognitive and emotional factors contributing to her adoption of such troubling beliefs. If she's refusing help or won't open up, there's not much you can do but keep trying to provide an emotionally supportive environment in the event that she finally decides it's time to talk. You can lead her to water, but you can't force her to drink.

Your tone is somewhat judgmental, probably because you are feeling exasperated, so I have to warn you that, if she picks up on it or has already, she won't believe you are a safe person to open up to. From what I know about East Asian cultures (through studying cross-cultural psychology and Eastern philosophy), people are extremely reluctant to discuss psychological issues because of social stigma and the fear of becoming a social pariah. And this might also contribute to you treating her as an inconvenience rather than a human in pain. If you are battling against such deep cultural currents, then it's imperative that you can guarantee a safe, supportive, nonjudgmental, and empathetic space for her to explore what's really going on, deep down.

#critical thinking #helping #fantasy #conspiracy theories #beliefs #humility #ask

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Okay, but hear me out. You're trying to compliment Reiner seriously, but he ends up saying, "Flattery will get you nowhere." in a scolding tone, thinking you're just saying things and being insincere in order to get on his good side. So you furrow your brows and begin to literally lecture him about what a great guy he is despite what he believes. And him not being able to take all those compliments, because no one has ever really been so observant or attentive to him in that way; so he does whatever he can, uses whatever means to shut you up because he can't take it. Feels like his chest would explode, thinking what he did to deserve this; deserve you.

I'm taking this as a personal fuckin attack Nonnie 😤 How dare you get me tearing up this damn early over by babiest of baby boys! 🥺

My determination and devotion to a cause has never been higher than my desire for the opportunity to help Reiner see how truly amazing and wonderful he is.

As much as I love Porco, I hate his comment about how all of the way Reiner acted on Paradis was him copying and manifesting Marcel. Like, he was inspired by Marcel yes, and maybe it started out with even Reiner just acting, but even outside of the implications of him developing DID it was Reiner reacting to people he came to care for. I think the being an extroverted leader is the big thing he took from Marcel. But all the things that made him a good leader, trusted companion and reliable friend were traits that Reiner already had.

Ugh, I just want to wrap him up in a bubble and tell the world to fuckoff and leave my mans alone! Hasn't he given enough! Let him have some vestiges of self esteem and self love damn it! 😭

But for real though, being Reiner's partner would involve patience and lots of energy and care to reassure him often of your --not just love, but even just liking him as a person.

And depending on the point in his life where you two become partners -canonverse or modern au- I think Reiner can objectively see and acknowledge that he's attractive by general societal standards, but his whole self-loathing and lack of self-esteem comes from him thinking he's a shitty person on the inside. Hella imposter syndrome (same baby boy). Probably thinks that he's some how manipulated you into thinking he's a decent person or something. Because how could he be when his dad wants nothing to do with him/reiner thinks himself being born is why his dad left his mom but really his dad is a deadbeat asshole 😒/ and also he thinks that his mom is never really proud of him cause she's never said as much, and has been a single mom dealing with her own heartache and self issues. Not an excuse but it is what it is. And he's constantly trying to "win/earn" her affection--of which he desires words and actions that prove that. But barely gets the later. And yes he has his friends. Mainly Bertholdt and Pieck--I'd say poooossibly Marcel but maybe moreso acquaintances? Like Marcel is valedictorian and captain of all the sports teams they both play on, and Reiner is always falling short behind him? Maybe even a few places behind? I dunno.

But anywho, obviously he's somehow manipulated you into thinking he's worth your time. And he's definitely a self sabotager in that regard. :/ Now I'm really curious about exploring how you'd actually finally get to be dating my interpretation of Reiner. I think it'd definitely have to be a good friends first situation. And you asking him out. So if you want this sad lovable Teddy Graham you're gonna have to make the moves first.

I think maybe he might end up in some random hookup situations outside this relationship. So maybe it's a repeat booty call catching feelings type deal? Like if he's at a party and someone comes onto him and they're flirting and they wanna hook up, he's not gonna turn it down. Especially with how much this man craves physical connection. Like the sex is great for sure, but he really is just wanting someone to hold on to and they hold him back. If that's while he's pounding them into the mattress or wall, then woop!

Wow this got rambly. I have so many feelings about this man 😩😩😩

#reiner braun #aot meta #nat talks aot #aot #reiner x reader #reiner headcanons #answered asks #nonnie

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marian0 · 2 years

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Don't even get me started on that boring as hell take that "Adult Jess is too good for Rory" even coming from Logan fans of all people. Like I've seen published reviewers say this shit with no issue and even go to say something like "you know who Adult Rory deserves? Teen Jess" or even defending their preference for Logan by saying that at this point, both Logan and Rory are trash so they should be trash together. Like why even say this insanely dumb thing? First off, Teen Jess doesn't exist in present tense, what are you even trying to say with this? And also, imagine the only justification that you even have for your preferred ship being "well they deserve each other!" like not even "I still love their chemistry and their history". That just tells me all I need to know about how deeply they feel for Logan and Rory as a ship if their only reasoning and excuse for them being a preferred pairing is "they're both trash".

I've long given up on the 'Adult Jess is too good for Rory and that's why they don't deserve to be together' cause I know their understanding of both Rory and Jess as characters and their relationship is DEEPLY flawed.

I think people really really underestimate the kind of impact Rory had on Jess when they were kids. The trust she had in him was so sincere that it stayed with him even after he had finally found a footing in his life.

Like if you think Jess who's whole life is filled with less than stellar decisions is gonna JUDGE Rory for not handling grief properly (she was really really close to Richard) and stumbling a bit professionally, then I'm sorry you do not have critical understanding of his character. And I stand by it.

Also can we please discuss that even though Teen Jess is not apparently good enough for Rory people still root for them but when it's Rory (a woman) who's not good enough for Adult Jess (a man) people are not granting them the same favor?

And don't get me started on Logan because I will never understand why WHY why would people want Rory to end up with him after he's repeatedly shown with his actions that when it's comes to their relationship its him and her, rather than them. And any conflict/dispute they face becomes a debate for him that he has to win. And please spare me with his character development bullshit cause everyone knows it was just a fluke. Him doing something just to PROVE something to Rory is not the romantic move Rogans think it is.

Fortunately/Unfortunately Rory is not seen as a complete character in gg fandom and instead seen merely as a self inert who is reduced to her love interest. People don't realize that saying liking Logan as a boyfriend and liking Logan as Rory's partner are two different things.

Maybe it doesn't matter to YOU that as a potential love interest family doesn't matter much to him, he makes promise he can't keep, that he'd fuck up but then make huge declarations of love to apologize to you and so on. Maybe you'd be okay with that but for Rory, we are SHOWN that it bothered her and we are SHOWN that she was just adjusting adjusting and adjusting hoping to prove that she was good enough for him. And that's not healthy.

Whether the fandom would like to accept it for not Logan really messed with her self esteem, making her question everything that made her 'Rory Gilmore' cause just that was not good enough to withhold his attention on her. And that's sad.

I could honestly go on and on about this but bottom line is I've stopped paying attention to opinions like they're both trash who belong together, Logan was her only mature relationship, Adult Jess is too good for Rory, Rory is a homewreker (without ever ever blaming Dean or Logan). These opinions are loud but half baked and are a huge disservice to Rory's character

#literati #jess mariano #rory gilmore #gilmore girls #rory x jess #anti logan huntzberger #anti rogan

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I am in love with your fiction. I reread it on repeat while waiting for the new chapter each time. I'm impressed how Pete progressed in accepting his desire for Vegas and asking at the very moment Vegas decided he wouldn't make any moves towards him. It was like an electro shock. And also he admitted to Porshe and Tankun that he has feelings for Vegas! My heart ! I can't wait for the rest of its development! Also, even if it apparently was due to insomnia, are you leaving any clues that Vegas is suffering from depression? I don't know, reading the last chapter, I felt Vegas more and more trapped in his father's grip despite him always wanting to put Pete first. His father no longer seems to even hide the fact that he enjoys discreetly making him suffer in public and I felt Vegas was completely helpless in this situation. He seems completely at the mercy of his father's toxic and vicious cycle of loving him and seeking his attention while never validating any attack on Pete. It's like his dad could do anything to him and all he cares about is that he doesn't hurt Pete. In this chapter, it is clear and obvious that he does not care about his health, I really have the impression that Vegas is behind the curtains in a pattern of self-destruction due to his lack of self-esteem -even. Am I wrong? I have a feeling Vegas is going to have a mental breakdown soon and Pete is going to have to bring him back to his senses.

The psychology of your Pete and Vegas are so fascinating I could talk about it for hours

Ahhh thank you so much!!! Yeah I think it really hit Pete this chap and last just how serious Vegas was about this and they weren’t going to move forward unless it was by his choice. Plus talking with Porsche really helped give him that last push that lightning strike of ‘Vegas wins either way’ so it was always up to Pete to make the next move something that he wants and something he can live with without agonising, regretting or blaming himself later.

Yes we are definitely seeing hints that the situation is completely out of Vegas’ control with his father and though it may seem at times like everything works out for him, he’s largely trapped and always subject to his fathers whims. I’d say there were defs traces of his poor mental state in the last chapter and we can clearly see that he’s dissociating from his body and his injuries. What he did for Pete by wiping out most of the Italian mafia has left him feeling very vulnerable and out of control which is usually where he gets his sense of security from so I’d say yeah he is in kind of a bad way at the moment- which is what Pete picked up on!!!! That boy is slowly learning Vegas language and it’s super important that the first thing he did was try to take care of him- to not use that information to his advantage. Something I would say has happened a lot to Vegas in the past until he learned not to give himself away. Vegas does care about his health in the sense that he wants to remain strong and able and that he relies solely on himself, his strength, and his ruthlessness and his cunning to keep himself alive anything else beyond that I think he learned to disassociate as self preservation with his erratic and impossibly to predict father- a way to protect himself. Which is what’s also making this extremely difficult for him to handle- he can’t control how his father treats him but he has small tastes of power when he’s clever enough to work around him. But right now Vegas can’t rely on himself in the same way being so injured and so sleep deprived- he needs someone else to protect him. But he’s never had anyone else before. And neither has Pete! (I mean his grandma to some extent of course but not in the same way) I do think some of each other’s appeal to the other is that they can be callous and vicious and violent but they in turn see they’re strong enough to protect someone too. Strong enough to be somebody they could finally lean on. That’s a big deal for the both of them who’ve never really had that kind of luxury. And Pete spent a lot of time (unthinkingly of course) proving that he can be that person for Vegas.

Oh you are absolutely right we are going to see a huge emotional outburst from Vegas next chap with the coup! He’s torn between trying to obey his fathers wishes even if he can see the lack of foresight in the plans, and he wants to prove himself worthy whilst also making sure he doesn’t endanger Pete or totally ruin the life that he’s been living in the main family house. Vegas knows there’s the potential of him doing something Pete won’t ever forgive during the coup and that’s just too much pressure for someone like him to handle. Especially not still incapacitated like he is and running on low sleep. He’s kind of in a melting pot of emotional turmoil at the moment and you can bet that’s going to boil over once his father meets his untimely end.

Omg honestly me too!! That’s what got me into this fic the psychology of the both of them is truly so fascinating to me!! Very excited to see how it all comes together when I start writing the next chap!! 💜💜

#fic asks #I’ll fill the graveyards until I have you

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I don't think I've ever seen you post about any of the other projects Loki's been in. How do you feel about his movies? Which one(s) are your favorite?

First off, I'm sorry for letting this sit in my inbox collecting dust for three weeks, considering the fact that it's actually a great question and it caused me to really reflect on my thoughts about Loki in the MCU. Unfortunately, none of those thoughts got to a point where they were worthy of publication on the esteemed tumblr dot com, as I doubted they would pass the savage peer review of much more dedicated fans. They still won't.

Honestly, I'm scared, anon. People probably won't agree. But since you asked so nicely:

Thor - solid tragic backstory established with a certain flair. Loki is by far the most interesting thing about the whole movie. Not that I actually dislike it as a whole, I just don't think it's anything special in the context of the MCU. It's a fish out of water comedy interrupted regularly by a heartbreaking tale of loss of identity, self-hatred, and daddy issues. Which is a... choice? I guess? Kenneth Branagh's love of Shakespearean tragedy really shines through, is all I'm saying. Tom really established his brilliance right out of the gate, so that brings it to a solid 8/10 on my Loki-scale.

The Avengers - now... look. This movie has a lot of flaws. But I love it. I was in my mid-20s okay, I was exposed to it at a weird time in my life and I was obsessed. I watched it three times in cinemas, including once in New York City, while I was there on a study trip with uni. I probably watched it half a dozen times after that. And Loki was so much fun in this! Just the perfect villain for that movie. He was the Moment. I'm not even gonna get into the tragedy of the mind stone's influence fucking with him, Thor not realizing, lack of acknowledgement of the fact that he literally tried to commit suicide two movies ago, or the many implications of past torture by Thanos, I just like watching him be flamboyantly evil and smack people with his cane. The other stuff gives the story depth that I'm not actually sure it actually deserves. Still, 10/10

Thor: The Dark World - we can all agree that this movie is, uh, kinda meh. At least in my opinion. However, I think it's very important in terms of Loki's character development and the development of his relationship with Thor. For that reason alone, I admit to having watched it more than once. Also, he's such a little dramatic bitch in this, it's what we all deserve. 7/10.

Thor: Ragnarok - this is where some people will start throwing rocks at me. I really, really like this movie. I love Taika Waititi, I love his whimsical humour, I love how goddamn silly and lighthearted this thing is compared to The Dark World (and Avengers: Age of Ultron). Fuck grimdark angst, we have bright colours and fun. It just means the few emotional whammies hit all the harder too. I've heard people confidently call this movie a character assassination, in regards to Loki, and I really can't express in words how little I care. He is now Jeff Goldblum's trophy twink. No explanation needed. Let the guy be chaotic for once, he's earned it! 100/10.

Avengers: Infinity War - nope. Dont' wanna talk about it. -10000/10

Loki - well. I'll refer you to this edit of mine:

This show is a general mess on so many fronts, but I still feel such fondness for it. And judging from the number of viewers it got, the world will watch just about anything if it has Loki in it, which, you know, valid. And would I be running a whole damn blog about it if I actively disliked it? No, I would not. 9/10.

There we go. Based on my personal rating, Thor: Ragnarok wins. The trophy twink can't lose.

#asks

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Off the Rails Again: What Happens When You Lose Motivation Over and Over (and What To Do)

This spring hasn't been the most stable time of year for me. Aside from dealing with my insufferable allergies going into hyperdrive from all the pollen and freshly cut grass outside, I've been working through one depressive streak per month on average. I'll be getting into the groove, all nice and motivated, and then *CRASH.* Suddenly I'm too worn out to move, much less draw comics or update my blog. We all go through burn out or art block (I've even written about art block on this blog before) so I won't give you boring diatribe about staying motivated or how to get back up. Instead, I wanted to talk about the truth of frequent burn out and how you're supposed to carry on when that inevitable crash comes and takes you off road over and over.

For those of us living with ADHD of any severity, you might be pretty familiar with the terms and feelings I've described here already. I'm also sure you know how it feels when you just can't reach that state where you're so absorbed into whatever you're doing, you feel more productive than you've ever been in your life (I'm feeling that right now working on this entry); it's so gratifying when you set out to work and you're really getting into it… it's also really discouraging where you just can't bring yourself to do the same with any other project that may be really important to your job or living situation or worst of all; yourself. There's a lot I've been meaning to do since the start of this year, on the top of my list was "start winning people over with my amazing portfolio and website." Even if I've made a lot progress in the past year or so, I know it isn't enough because there are so many people out there who've already done just as much and then some. It's very frustrating knowing there's so much untapped potential and that you can ride on the tracks only to fall off. It's disheartening. It's draining. It sucks. And it's not the end of the world. I've learned, many times over, that if you can appreciate the progress you have made, it's a lot easier to make the same or more progress next time when you recover. There's not going to be any "work/life balance!" or "hustle and grind!" or "self-help; be your own guru!" guide out there that's going to work for everyone because many of us (I live in the US for the record) lack the support or room for caring for just ourselves significantly enough where those solutions actually work. Believe me, if exercise and affirmations fixed everything, I'd be making that "work from home and retire early offline" money by now. But I've made it far enough down the line to acknowledge it at least.

For all the progress I haven't made, I've learned to track it, along with tangible and realistic goals and expectations for myself in whatever form that helps to solidify it. I choose note taking apps and organized folders of canvases and pictures to sort my machinations. I do recommend writing things down or organizing it in a way that works for you (scrap booking? Song writing?) Consider what you want to accomplish and how you're going to do it; have a game plan for when you're working on personal projects, strengthening your portfolio, networking with peers and business partners, or at work and when you're going to be devoting time and energy to each thing. I know it isn't the case for everyone, but journaling my thoughts or sketching out thumbnails to organize into planned projects on a written schedule helps me stay on the track while I'm working and keeps the track in place should I find myself dipping off to the side. Intention for your work and providing yourself that security for that inevitable fall in the future will help your self-esteem and then with your productivity after. And now, if I can prove that I have practiced some of the stuff I wrote about… Since March, I've managed some thumbnails for several projects where I'm developing artwork for a theoretical RPG about a girl and her parent/guardian (who is a talking magic rabbit) who go on adventures to save the environment, defeat evil monsters and capitalists, and rescue pretty boys from the clutches of darkness.

The idea is to develop the concept with evolving designs and artwork as an exercise in building an idea from the ground up. I've also got a children's book style set of illustrations narrating a silly story about my dog, based on his webcomic series.

I'm lucky enough to be able to fill a portfolio with things that can not only prove my talent but that I actually really care about and find engaging to produce. I'm really looking forward to seeing where these projects take me and I'm living off that anticipation for what it'll look like when it's all finished… As artists, there's a lot at stake when we're producing out of passion while doing it for money simultaneously; namely the will to keep doing it. That will is going to wear out eventually no matter what because you can't exist and just not get tired. But if you there's anything to take from this article, it's that you should be okay with falling off, even if you have to reset your cart. Apologies for the faulty analogy throughline.

#journal #my art #self help #self improvement #digital art #clip studio paint #art tips #brblog #concept development #concept art #art projects

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i just reread the dbd loveshack tag, and with the ot3 posts and more recent zl/zyx ones, i can’t wait for the four of them to meet all at once, it’ll be wild flailing on all sides for different reasons the rest can’t interpret or vocalize. like, lwj horny gripping for wwx and his unrequited friendship with zyx, and possible jealousy with zl and zyx’s “friendship”. wwx being his disaster self for his two totally-not-crushes crushes and this random interloper. zl annoyed with how touchy wwx is with zyx, plus lwj’s emotional repression. then there’s zyx who has to deal with ALL THREE of them, but completely misses the romantic/jealous/whatever the hell, undertones of the whole thing is just super entertaining for me. bonus points for shuangfeng commentary

my favorite type of mess: one thing happening with ten million different povs/interpretations

it's a bit tricky bc it depends on when they meet again. i think i hinted that there will be zl in the north or somehow the north visits the south, but both situations are post-ssc. you can imagine how charged those interactions will be in a vacuum - adding on the spice of political tensions and blah blah will uh. yeah.

lwj: on wwx: yes on horny gripping, that hasn't changed. contention due to possible demonic cultivation pending. on zyx: his friendship w zyx will get deeper, and more entangled due to zyx's developing intimacy w wwx (<- not in an exclusively romantic sense). aka more Emotions and ascribed deep meanings to every little thing. on zl: and you know how lwj fucking drinks that jc haterade, esp with how he treats wwx? he will be sipping a different flavor of haterade when he sees zl again, esp given that the two didn't make the best first impressions on each other.

wwx: on lwj: lwj is someone he admires, and it's complicated depending on the events within the ssc. this crush is one he still doesn't realize. on zyx: crush is realized. oh fucking no, but he can't help himself. + the events that i have planned during the ssc and between these two, it's also a minefield for wwx. on zl: wow, this upstanding, talented, serious guy that he met before is here! of course he's zyx's martial sibling ('wow my exceptional crush would have exceptional peers'). esp with the issue of the wen afterwards, knowing that zl essentially helped wq and wn's family without self-benefit is admirable. oh. huh. he's... he's a prickly guy, but wwx deals with prickly people all the time :)

zl: on lwj: how did he get worse on wwx: lol it's that funny, rude little guy - *sees wwx full clowning to get zyx's attention* >:| and then noticing whatever wwx's deal is with lwj post-war, how did he also get worse??? on zyx: kinda redacted because there's a thing that will happen in the next few chapters. but at this point he takes more of zyx's actions in good faith, even if the squirrely nature of them tire him out. and the fact that zyx's still interacting with these northern idiots makes him 'they are hopeless. it shouldn't be our problem. let's go home now'

zyx: 'i don't fucking want to be here, and you guys are making it worse. just behave you motherfuckers'

'oh what, they've all met? lol that's between them and the tudi-shen where they have a fistfight' <- still thinks they aren't part of all of this (bc who goes around thinking people have a crush on them?)

(people with better self-esteem and romantic awareness ig)

'no. how... my neural network was... it was wrong...' despair upon realizing that the shuangfeng betting pool was right, and it fucks them up that they don't even know where to begin calibrating their zl behavioral model

bonus:

depending on other relationships that could potentially win out late-ssc

all i'm gonna say is imagine zyx thinking they could park zl next to lxc during a discussion conference. 'lxc, for as much as he mortifies me, is a stand-up guy. we've worked things out during the war. zl should like him'

and the tension that ends up between lxc and zl is thicc af

and then zyx erroneously assumes 'oh wow is this a crush? do they like each other??? that's a lotta manly tension imma leave'

#inquiry #Anonymous #on dbd #dbd love shack #^the bonus scene was from old old old obsolete writings of draft dbd #back when there was a definitive lxc endgame #AGAIN DO NOT TAKE ANY OF THESE AS A CONFIRMATION OF ANYTHING #i get fussy about it bc how i'm writing isn't like...#like i want a funny plot and i'll make the characters do it #i'm trying to make things make sense from each character's eyes #which is a perspective that naturally comes about when you start with an si #or maybe writing a realistic si lol idk #ugh i have a lot to say and i can't say it right now because things aren't written yet #i don't wanna promise things or spoil other things #sigh i guess the funniest thought is i know what kind of person i am #and zyx will not know/accept a romantic intent unless it is said plainly #billboard in the skyline #a declaration such that they can't misunderstand or be oblivious to it #but simultaneously they hate overt and overly public gestures and indiscretions of the romantic kind #so to have love they must fucking die of public embarrassment no matter what #today verm bf tried to say something cute #bc we jokingly call making coffee 'making potions' now #he called it a 'love potion' and hugged me #you know what my reflex was?#it was to bite him as hard as possible and thrash out of his hold #like a rabid beast #100% not built for gooiness #so to keep with an honest representation all romantic entanglement and its possibilities won't be the same type of drama as typical romance #but it will still be fucking stupid and hopefully entertaining

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pacifymebby · 4 months

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So does your frontal lobe develop once you’re 25?

Sincerely a 22 nearly 23 year old who has no fucking clue what’s going on with life x

Aye supposedly it does, I can't say it's a particularly big change like but I suppose it's more than like by the time you're 25 it's fully developed so like it's not an over night change it happens slowly.

That's the whole of your twenties I think, like you're finally an adult but you're still really young and these days people aren't growing up as fast as they used to, stuff like uni and a shite economy keeps you feeling like a child for longer because it clips your wings and forces you to rely on your parents/the state more, like you're not granted the independence and like self esteem boost (that makes you feel like youve got your shit together) that comes with financial security I guess.

You'll get there though, I think we still put loads of pressure on ourselves to grow up fast and achieve that "ideal" life like the dream job/house/family so quickly but there's more to life than securing capitalist Wins lol, and your 20s are the perfect time for being messy and not knowing what you're doing but just trying to live anyway regardless of your not knowing what's going on.

I think your hormones have a major shake up and settle every 7 years, and 25 is supposed to be one of those. I do feel like I've been through and am coming out of a period of change quite nicely atm though

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calyroco · 1 year

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I have watched up to episode 15, and Kraehe's nature as a pitiful villainess has been interesting to see develop. The actions she takes can get pretty twisted but when you get down to the nitty gritty of why she's even doing any of it and why she's willing to do what she does it gets depressing

For a short while, she doesn't even know she's Kraehe. She just gets overwhelmed with negative feelings and then an alter ego body snatches her for however long to go harass her classmate, who unbeknowst to her civilian self is working against her.

She clearly desperately wants to be loved but the person she wants to love her can't love her in the state he starts off in, and if she lets him be restored to his original state he might end up with someone else. Pair that with the fact that returning Mytho to his original state might mean he'll end up fighting her dad again, leaving her not only potentially unloved but alone if Mytho wins since her dad is the only family member we see her show a strong connection to, and this means she's really in a bind.

Ahiru can at least take comfort in the fact that if Mytho ends up with someone else after he gets his whole heart, she still did a good deed by letting him have the capacity to feel all his emotions back. Kraehe can't even have that.

Her existence in Drosselmeyer's narrative is built around her being a thorn in someone else's side. Her relationship with her dad isn't all that great since while she does revere him, he seems to view her as a tool. He threatens to do something terrible to her if she offs Tutu(who he needs to break free) and he's so vague about it it can easily read as a death threat at worst and a threat to torture his own daughter at best. He could've just told her to knock that shit off. It doesn't seem like Kraehe wants him to be imprisoned forever so I'm sure she'd listen. That threat seemed oddly severe for a dad giving a first warning to his daughter. Granted you could argue he's being so severe with the first warning because his freedom is on the line, but still.

On top of all that her dad goes and calls her body ugly. The only family she has that we see her talk to and he threatens her and calls her ugly. She's already not confident with herself(hence why she doubts her ability to win the prince over on her own without any trickery) and her dad takes a swing at her self-esteem for no reason

#princess tutu

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character-fan19 · 1 year

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MLB Season 4 Character Analysis: "Penalteam"

Introduction

Hello everyone, I'm back with a new character analysis and this time it's episode 24. If this is your first time your seeing one of these posts, then here I look at the perspectives of the different characters in order to help others see what's going through their head to make them act the way they do.

So "Penalteam", the episode right before the two-part finale, we've come so far. This episode seemed to shove in a lot of heroes all at once due to which the characters didn't get enough time of their own to shine. I can kinda see why some people don't really like this episode but it still has characterization for 4 characters nonetheless and plus also Ladybug however small that characterization is, it's still significant enough to be mentioned in this post so let's get started.

Character POVs

Ladybug

"No need for a whole team, it's just Cat Noir and me against your clones. We're gonna be so awesome that you won't even see the ball. We're gonna win and de-akumatize you in no time."

We'll start with Ladybug, and from this episode we can see that she is trying to make Cat Noir feel like he's wanted by telling Penalteam that she doesn't need a whole team to beat her and that she and Cat Noir and her can defeat her themselves.

This shows that Ladybug has learned from last episode when Cat Noir communicated with her about his problems by telling her how useless he felt so Ladybug could come to the conclusion: oh no, Cat Noir is feeling useless, I should help him feel like he's wanted. Cat Noir may have solved his side of the miscommunication in that episode but Ladybug still needs to solve her side of the miscommunication but at least now the Cat Noir has done it, their relationship has been partly repaired. Ladybug will get there as well, she just needs face her Cat Blanc trauma by telling Cat Noir about it but it's not going to be easy.

2. Sabrina

"I'm sorry but I can't do that to Chloe."

Every one of the heroes introduced this episode had a mental obstacle they had to overcome and for Sabrina that was to reduce her platonic simping towards Chloe enough so that she can do the things she likes without the thought of what Chloe would think bothering her.

This was already kind of kickstarted in the New York Special when she developed a crush on the guy Delmar who encouraged her to come with him and let go Chloe a little bit but it didn't get enough focus due to lack of time in the special itself but now we get to do it again in this episode although it is once again being overshadowed by other things just like in the New York Special but at least this time we get to see a solid conclusion towards the end when Sabrina told Chloe that she wanted to play soccer instead of going with her. So that's progress for her.

3. Nathaniel

"It's just, I'm flattered Ladybug but I don't feel comfortable being on a team."

Now moving onto Nathaniel and his percieved discomfort of being part of a team and working with other people. We see this at the start of the episode where he tries to avoid playing soccer and made Marc make an excuse for him so that he doesn't have to come.

He tries to do it again with Ladybug when she offers him a Miraculous so that she doesn't have to work as part of a team until Ladybug made him realize how well he actually does by giving him the example of how he and Marc work together to write the Ladybug comics they do which encouraged Nathaniel to try and ended up enjoying it which changed his mind about wanting to play soccer by the end of the episode.

4. Marc

"Ladybug, I'm not really that good at soccer, I-"

Next, there's Marc with his lack of self-confidence which we've seen ever since his debut episode with him not believing that his writing was good even though he was amazing which is sort of similar to Marinette's problem of low self-esteem where she doesn't believe she is amazing and wanting to do everything she can to be perfect even though she already amazing.

Getting the Rooster Miraculous allowed Marc to have more faith in his abilities similar to how getting the Ladybug Miraculous helped Marinette have more faith in hers and in this case it helped him believe in his soccer skills which we've seen him with since the beginning of the episode. With some encouragement from Ladybug he was able to gain confidence and this most likely led to him completing his character arc.

5. Ivan

"What if I hurt someone with my superpowers?"

Finally we have Ivan's arc of learning to embrace his strength. Ivan has always been the gentle giant and due to this he was afraid of using his size and strength to hurt people due to which he has always held back.

In the soccer game when he was given the ball he became hesitant which gave the other team the advantage but when he was given a Miraculous by Ladybug the same fear returned but with Ladybug's encouragement he was able to face his fear and embrace his strength by using it for the greater good.

Conclusion

Sorry if these character POVs are very brief but the rushing of the episode didn't give it enough depth to make it that long. So now we just have the two-part finale left. Let me know if I should do "Risk" and "Strikeback" as one post called "Shadow Moth's Final Attack" or if I should do them separately like all these other episodes With that being said I'll see y'all next time.

#ml character analysis #mlb characterization #ml season 4 #ml penalteam #marinette sugar #marinette dupain cheng #ml ladybug #sabrina raincomprix #nathaniel kurtzberg #marc anciel #ivan bruel

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