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Everyone’s moving on with life and growing and I’m just here.

Don’t get me wrong I’m happy as hell for them, I just wish there was room for me in their growth.

I’m here only when it’s good for them and I’m lost and alone when it’s not.

I get it, just sucks.

#spilled thoughts #in my head #alone #growing up #in my feelings #lost in my mind #late night thoughts #writers #poem #sad #upset #loner #lonely #lost #lost in thought #depressing #alone in the dark #darkness #i feel so alone #dependable #my life

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No one messages me back unless they need something and I feel so utterly alone

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #sad #alone #upset #not good at this #not good enough #im a loner #loner life #loner #lonercore #lonely #dead inside #depressing shit

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Depression is winning and I don’t know what to do anymore

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #lost #emotional #moody #low self everything #low self confidence #sad #depressed #depression #sadness #sad thoughts #moods #tired #done #had enough #tired of acting #rock bottom #sick of life #fuck my life #lonely #alone #burden

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I miss feeling happy in my own skin. Like knowing who I am and confidently being able to be me. I wish to be like that but how do I find out who I truly am? I am struggling with finding myself; I’ve hidden the real me so far below in hopes of never having to be her again. But I miss her and the life she could’ve had. I’m ready to go through everything that’s through that door to find her.

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #poem #writers #hmmm #i miss those days #i miss me #who am i #self concious #no self esteem #low self confidence #self help #low self everything #lost #stuck #feeling stuck #sad #depressed #depressing #big sad #sad boi vibes #sadcore #lost and alone #confused #moody #emotional

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Sometimes I think if I were to just disappear no one would care anymore. No one would miss me. Or cry for me. Or look for me. I’d just turn into a person everyone knew but never knew what happened too. And they wouldn’t remember me fully only parts about me that they believed. I’m not anyones person and no one checks up on me so I think if I stopped hitting up all these people first I’d be completely alone.

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #depression #depressed #sad #sadgirl #the things i think about #thoughts #broken #spilled words #why am i like this #i'm my own worst enemy #spilled poetry #why do i do this to myself #im sad #lost #sad quotes #alone #too sad #sad thoughts #no one can convince me otherwise #no one cares #lonely #loner #low self everything #low self image #i want to disappear

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I feel irrelevant

and I don’t know how long I can make it anymore

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #depression #depressed #sad #sadgirl #the things i think about #thoughts #broken #spilled words #why am i like this #i'm my own worst enemy #spilled poetry #why do i do this to myself #im sad #lost #sad quotes #irrelevant #fuck my life #fuck my brain #I’m tired #ugh #lonely #flashbacks #too far gone #alone in the dark

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I could feel myself slowly slipping away and it resulted in my relapse. I’m super disappointed in myself but I just keep telling myself I can only go up from here. Rock bottom sucks, and makes you feel completely and entirely alone; but sometimes after your episode is over you realize sometimes you need to break to get better. One day I will look back on these moments and instead of SH hopefully I’ll have a healthy coping mechanism.

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #depression #depressed #sad #sadgirl #the things i think about #thoughts #broken #spilled words #why am i like this #i'm my own worst enemy #spilled poetry #why do i do this to myself #im sad #lost #low self worth #low self image #self harm #sh #sh relapse #relapsed #relapse #slipping #slipping away #losing myself #addicted to pain

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No one gives a fuck till you’re 6 feet deep

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #mood #depression memes #mental health #moody #sad day #sad #depressed #suicidal #sad life #life #mental breakdown #mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally unstable #tired #i’m tired #im so tired #depression

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#spilled thoughts #in my head #late night thoughts #sad #self accepectance #in my feelings #lost in my mind #poem #depressed #sad memes #trauma #mental health #sadness #sad day #so saddd #sad mood #mood #moody #I accepted it but it still makes me sad

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#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #bojack #depressing post #depressed #depression #depression memes #depressing #sad #humor of the depressed mind #low self worth #self deprecating humor #pain #laugh at my pain #bojack horseman

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You don’t even realize I exist

#spilled thoughts #in my head #lost in my mind #in my feelings #late night thoughts #lost #emotional #my life #feelings #sad life #sad #alone #tired #i’m tired #mentally tired

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TW: Relapse/ Self Harm

I relapsed today… been almost 2 years. I’ve fought so hard and I am so fucking disappointed and sick of myself

#self harm #tired #sad #depressed #I hate myself #relapse #fuck #fml #why am I like this #suicidal #depression #lost #broken #spilled thoughts #emotional #lost in my mind #in my feelings #feelings #sad life #I got addicted to a losing game

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Everyday the thought of “no one actually loves you just kill yourself already” n then I see my nephew and how pure his love is for me and it melts my heart and makes it harder to quit this terrible life

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Realizing you’re nobodies favorite person really sucks. You think what’s the point of living if you don’t have a forever person

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Just wondering to myself when I go through old pictures “when did i get so ugly”