“Wille has gone through so fucking much from his shitty, neglectful, psychologically abusive parents, the death of Erik, the betrayal of August, his and Simon’s relationship issues, his mother becoming sick, finding out Erik was a homophobe, and so fucking much more, and he’s just a kid whose only support are his one friend and his boyfriend who are facing their own problems and nobody can blame him for not knowing how to deal with his emotions and having breakdowns” and “Wille is extremely flawed (as are everyone in this show) and never having been taught how how to deal with his emotions and problems in a healthy way and having little to no support system doesn’t change or excuse the fact that he constantly projects onto Simon, has internalised the mindset that Simon’s problems are far lesser than him, often behaves inconsiderate towards him and doesn’t listen or listen to Simon when he tries to talk to him and these are things he will need to work on, especially if he wants to keep a relationship with Simon” are not mutually exclusive statements
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thinking about buck traveling the world just the most alone he’s ever been, working odd jobs, seeing beautiful men but never quite feeling like he’s able to touch them. never quite getting what he’s feeling is yearning for something. that feeling of physically the most free you’ve ever been but still feeling something missing. traveling aimlessly, not understanding why you still feel that pit in your heart even in your happiest moments. and then tommy kisses him, and it’s like his world opens up, but not just his future, things just all start fitting together in the past too. such a difficult feeling to describe to someone who’s never felt it before, but it’s like someone actually fucking opens your eyes all the way. like OH. it’s the oh moment.
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y'all can all cancel me (again) for this, but if there's even a SHRED of 'who should I pick?' from Penelope in season 3, I am tuning out SO fast because like. . .sorry not sorry, there IS no choice. Debling is some crusty OC suitor she barely even knows and Colin is a man who she has been so supposedly in love with to the point where she'd ruin her entire family's reputation to have a potential love story with him. Penelope and Colin have background, years of knowing each other, intimacy that few people in the Ton can boast of having (letters, conversations about purpose, fights and arguments and makeups) and her and Debling have. . .a dance or two at a ball because he's a rebound for Penelope's broken heart. he means nothing. he has no nuance, he has no weight to the story, he is such an afterthought to me. either I wanna see Penelope going 'you know what? I don't even LIKE this dude. he's. . .fine, but I don't care about him even a shred as much as I care about Colin' or the INSTANT Colin's like 'you know what? we should get married' if it's not an immediate 'say less, you're already my husband, try returning me without the receipt, Debling whomst?' then I don't want it!
like. . .it's just so frustrating to see all the 'I hope Debling sweeps her off her feet and she rejects Colin's proposal and she makes him work for it and and and-' nonsense from the fandom and it's always tagged and no matter how many times I block it, it just keeps popping up. I go into the Polin tag for POLIN. I don't give a SHIT about a male love interest other than Colin. Not one. Not a shred. Not an iota.
and also. . .Debling has the 'benefit' of not having depth, or character traits, or HISTORY, so peeps can project onto him however they want, but I'm calling it now, there is NOTHING he could do or be that would make me like him more than Colin. Colin will always hit different, and I will always love him more. and if Pen's not on that same page? lol bye
you want me to believe Penelope and Colin are soulmates and it's romance for her to hem and haw about how difficult a decision it is for her to marry a stranger who knows barely anything about her. . .
when Marina was out here dropping banger lines like 'You were the only man with which I could see myself being happy' and 'I do not care about any of these men, where is Colin?'? like hello??? and she wasn't even fully in love with him!!!! but we'll demonize her until the cows come home in our fandom and make her the villain in Polin's love story for DARING to get in between Polin, yet Debling, a white man, is a darling dear perfect prince for getting in between Polin? existing in our fandom solely so Penelope can be like 'lol, Colin ain't shit, let me entertain any and everyone else'?
if that's the direction it goes then, ten toes down and on my mama, she doesn't deserve Colin and she can move because I'm on my way to court him my damn self
and that's that on that
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❛ wait, you think i’m cute? ❜ with MountRain? What do you say?
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“Wait, you think I’m cute?”
Rain looked up at Mountain with wide eyes.
Mountain flopped down on sofa next to Rain.
“I always think you’re cute, but you’re especially cute right now.”
Mountain had finished his chores early for once and decided to chill out in the ghouls den, take full advantage of having the tv all to himself, have first dibs on the good snacks, but his plans were derailed when he found Rain curled up on the sofa watching finding nemo, wrapped in a blanket. When Mountain got closer he noticed it was his blanket, sage green with little sheep on it, and it had been on his bed this morning when he left.
Rain pulls the blanket tighter around himself.
“I don’t-what exactly about me is cute right now?”
Mountain shrugs.
“I don’t know exactly. You just look cozy.” He opens his arms out. “Wanna cuddle?”
Rain let’s out a small thrill and practically jumps into Mountains open arms, letting himself be pulled into his lap. The blanket slips a little from his hold revealing his bare shoulder.
Mountain let’s put a small chuckle, kissing along Rains bare shoulder.
“Are you even wearing clothes under there?”
Rain signs, resting his head on Mountains shoulder.
“No.” He sighs again. “Clothes are not my friend today.”
“Oh, one of them day, hmm?” Mountain runs a hand though Rains hair.
Rain hums.
“Not even that really ugly shirt of Swiss’ that you love? That not even your friend today?”
Rain pouts up to him.
“It’s in the washing machine.”
“Ah, I see. And you thought my blanket was a good enough substitute?”
Rain hums again, rubbing the fabric of the blanket against his cheek.
“Soft and smells like you.” He continues rubbing the fabric against his cheek, purring now. “Safe.”
Mountain feels his heart melting at Rains little confession, hugging the ghoul in his lap a little tighter. He places a kiss on his head, right between his horns, making Rain thrill as looks up at the earth ghoul.
“Love you, Mounty.”
It was Mountains turn to thrill, pressing his forehead against Rains.
“Love you too, tadpole.”
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Fully finished 15 Nikolai AU Character sheet + Headcannons!!!
Nikolai is a Piano player and I will not accept him playing any other instrument other than that. His cannon design even looks like a Piano how much more piano-y can a character get?? He is those self-taught pianist. The type that only knows chords and those weird numbered sheets music you get in those church songs lol (Fyodor taught him to read sheet music later on ;3)
Also pianist of 10 years writing over here, The tenor clef page is based on personal experiences.
It took me so long to figure out his sexuality, It was between Gay, Pan, Achillean but I settled with Omnisexual
“Omnisexual refers to someone who is romantically, emotionally, or sexually attracted to persons of all genders and orientations”Basically, All is good. But of course he does have some (a lot) of Internalised Homophobia and Religious Trauma (Haven’t fully figured it out yet in my head but I’m working on it)
Figure skating ehhhhhhh (for personal reasons) Realistically it is near impossible to do a Hydroblade self taught and pretty much figure skating isn’t a hobby that you can just buy a pair of skates (1000usd per pair) (he stole those with his ability ofc) but you can’t just teach yourself through YouTube videos (based on…. Experience….) (you Will Hurt yourself) but I meannnn He has an magical portal opening ability, he got plot armour. (And I like figure skating)
Random Trivia
Cavetown coded, Star coded, Neurodivergent, Enfp, likes cardistry (like magicians you get it), has the biggest crush on Fyodor (if it wasn’t obviously enough lol), likes Pigeons (yk street rats) (I love pigeons, they deserve more love), (Personally I think cannon adult Nikolai is more white Dove coded tho), Loves theatre and the stage (based on irl Mykola), Irl Mykola was queer, Loves Tchaikovsky (me too) (Tchaikovsky was also queer btw (he was very gay)), likes Mykola Lysenko (carol of the bells original composer) (ayy father of Ukrainian classical music and him share the same name!!) (I love researching about Ukrainian culture while making this)(Ukraine is so beautiful, I wish we could’ve had the chance to visit it in its beautiful light and glory before yk…) (Making this was very emotional) (Don’t forget to support Support Ukraine guys) 🌻🇺🇦🫶
Btw here are some songs that I listened to while drawing him!!!
(Definitely listens to Tchaikovsky’s 1812 overture to fw Fyodor lol)
(Btw go watch my 15 Fyolai Astronomy mini Animatic on my page)
(This is Home will always have a special place in my heart)
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Twinyard hcs!
Andrew has multiple food allergies (like, the anaphylaxis inducing kind), and he's a picky eater, so going out to eat is always a challenge. At one point, he gains like two new allergies in the span of a year. Andrew also never brings his epipens with him when going to eat, but after a close call at the dining hall, Neil starts carrying them around for him just in case.
The upperclassmen tend to forget, so anytime they offer Andrew food that he can't have, he'll just silently stare at them until they remember, someone else reminds them, or they take back the offer.
Nicky, on the other hand, is always hyper aware of Andrew's allergies (the result of a few mishaps when he first took the twins in), so whenever Andrew is offered anything he can't have in his presence, Nicky will take the time to loudly and at length remind everyone of all of Andrew's allergies.
Aaron, on the other hand, has a bunch of intolerances. He used to ignore them when he lived with Tilda, but Nicky treats them like allergies and makes sure to keep those foods away from him.
Aaron definitely has a caffeine intolerance. He's found other ways to stay awake without it during med school, but sometimes he'll cave (and immediately regret it) and deal with the headache and other symptoms all day. It pretty much makes coffee and other caffinated beverages entirely not worth it to him.
Nicky also definitely informs every server they get at restaurants of Andrew and Aaron's food restrictions (as he should). He'll very seriously say, "he [*pointing at Andrew*] is deathly allergic to [insert allergies]," and "he [*pointing at Aaron*] can't eat [insert intolerances]." The poor servers struggle to remember which ones can't eat which foods, but they do their best.
All in all, going out to eat with the twins is always interesting.
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