how are you Jamaican, but ony speak English? Lol you don't be speaking the language 🤣
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Lol...um you do realize Jamaican people speak English right?.....😦right?
But hell I guess I gotta teach you English because apparently yo ass don't know how to spell, because what is 'ony'? You mean "ONLY"
Lmao whew chile
But on that note imma go to bed, got class in the morning. But I hope GOD blesses you sweetheart❤ , hope you pray for the ability to learn how to spell.
To the person reading this today, Do not be afraid, I have come to deliver you from bondage and pain. I come to resurrect you with my mighty hands. Trust in me, have faith in me. I shall not let you down.
You don't know what to do. You have managed to get yourself in a mess. Unable to come out. Get deep in prayer. He is with you. He will deliver you from what you are going through. A God sized problem Needs a God sized solution. He will come through and deliver you. Deep prayer will dig you out of Deep problems. The Lord is with you he will make that way you need. He has not forsaken you !
I have a very unique experience. I was norse pagan for 6 years. But now, I am a Christian. I thought people would be interested in my story so here it is.
The first thing you need to know is that I feel not in control. I’m schizoaffective bipolar. Normal people without this condition their emotions are caused by triggers, Outside factors. Something sad happens and so you get sad. With bipolar disorder your mood can be triggered by outside factors but it is also completely random. I can be doing everything right and then chemicals will shift in my brain and I will want to die out of nowhere. So I feel out of control.
Witchcraft (which lead me to paganism) gives you the promise of control. It’s all about that you can manipulate energy to your benefit. You have control with witchcraft (not really but we’ll get to that later.) divination was my favorite because I thought I could learn about my mood changes ahead of time. Giving me control I don’t normally have. So, I started practicing witchcraft and you can’t practice witchcraft without hearing about paganism.
Paganism sounded great to me. Mainly because of how it viewed women. There are goddesses of great power and they are all different. There’s hearth goddesses as well as warrior goddesses. The women are multifaceted.
So like I said I practiced for 6 years. But in those 6 I felt lonely and empty spiritually. I hated giving offerings because I always felt like I didn’t give enough and the biggest thing, I wasn’t happy. No matter how much I prayed or did spells things didn’t really get better. Then I was introduced to a bunch of pagans and witches. At first I was excited to meet people like me. But the more I talked to them the more I realized that we were all miserable. All of us had extreme issues. I thought to myself if we have magick and the gods why is everyone so miserable and having terrible things happen to them. My best friend in the group had the saddest life I’ve ever thought was possible. Yet she was a professional witch and psychic. She supposedly had control.
It was a moment of clarity for me. While I thought we had all this control it was all a delusion. We had no control. We were just all desperately trying to fix our shitty situations and failing. At the pagan fairs I went to there was one woman who was a Christian preacher. I was always surprised she was there because I’m sure she got a lot of malice pointed at her. But she was so incredibly kind and loving. I learned about her family and she had a loving husband and sons. She was so kind to me.
After I met her I started researching Christianity. Now I have a crazy aunt who is insane with religion. So that was what I thought of when I thought of a Christian. But after studying and reading the Bible I realized that it is rather wonderful! Not the hateful thing I was used to experiencing. I then found the episcopal church. They are inclusive, kind, and my bishop is a woman! I started to go to church on Sunday then Bible study then the churches garden. Suddenly I was surrounded by some of the most caring individuals I have ever met!
As for my mood issues. They still exist but now I have the God of all comfort to comfort me. And I have a loving community to strengthen me. I still deeply struggle and I still don’t have control. But I feel worlds better. Amen!
If you would have asked me 7 years ago, where I think I'd be, it wouldn't be here. From an 18 y/o perspective, I would've consider myself a loser. I picked such a fleeting career path, I'm not married, I have no car & I don't have the big house with the wrap around porch. Most 25 going on 26 girls have enough money to buy tickets to see Beyonce's Renaissance Concert & make one of those big girl purchases. Meanwhile, I'm betting on next weeks check to insure that I get that dress on sale for my birthday (shoutout to Afterpay)! Oh, did I mention that my bank account is overdrafted by a couple hundred? lol yeah. This is the life.
But strangely, I feel a sense of joy & peace. You would think I'd need all of those things to be happy (don't get me wrong, I would most certainly be happy lol), But I don't. I am happy at this very moment in time, ( Tuesday 9/5/2023 roughly 5:56 PM) and I don't have anything OR anyone to credit but God Himself.
God is developing something in me that most aren't privileged to be present for at this age. Patience, Confidence, Love, Breathing (lol), and most importantly, perseverance. I am so grateful for his Love, & Guidance through it all. I am grateful for his comfort in this moment because I'm unsure if I'll feel the same way tomorrow when I get off work.
God, I thank you. Just a praise to you. You deserve and so much more. I count it all joy! Keep pouring.
I know these temporary circumstances feel like you'll be here forever. But it won't. God has more for me. & God has more for you! Please seek Him and all will be well. I promise..
Note to self: You are loved. You are so beautiful, inside/out. You are right where you need to be. & I am so proud of you. Please, give yourself grace BabyBug.
God's ways are perfect and he has a beautiful plan for you. We need to trust him and follow his wisdom and guidance. We can sometimes mess things up when we do things our way which we think is right. But God's word says that His way is perfect. God is good and he is the perfectionist we can rely on. Sometimes there is a delay sometimes he acts fast but it's good to do his will. His will is always to serve him. Many times it is our attitude that needs the adjustment. But our God is wonderful and he will set your paths straight and perfect everything that concerns us ! Hallelujah !!
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