#emtional vent

[goodlucksnez]

personal/emotional vent/observation thing please understand how vulnerable i am right now and respect that

what is my life

i am sitting in a hospital recovering from one of the worse experiences of my life,so traumatic, still sick with infection and pain, AND the fucking Netflix adaptation/live action of avatar --THAT made me realize im broken and i need people...like what the fuck is this timeline....I'm crying like actively sobbing/wailing at the show because fuck i relate to zuko too much. --god i need therapy -but even that, i dont know that would help, im going to do it but fuck depression is SPIRLING

"the truth is we would do anything for the ones we love...we travel incredible distance,risk our life and even fight mosntors ....it is scary to admit you need people....so people might see that as a weakness/liability, after all what greater pain is there for loving someone you lose or worse finding out someone you love has left you behind.

#emtional vent #im sorry for anyone who read this is and like what i baby #i am a baby #im 25 and i am scatred #scared #i dont know what to do #im emtional and sad and scared and bunch of other stuff #in other news i have been taken out of icu just in regular recovery hosital wing BUT i did get phenomena.... #i fuckin told them i had a bad immune systyem and they still didnt belive me when i spiked a fever #but then 2 days ago when i woke unable to breathe they were like of yeah phenomena #love it love my fuckin life #thank god for insurance becuase fuck i would be paything this off for the rest of my life if i did nt have my insurance #im going to keep crying over this show #god i would kill for a hug or something comforting #also spoiler but the fucking “leaves from the vine” chords that they keep putting in the show background music #my heart cannnot take it bro

[doodlesdreaming]

At the start of the new year, I wanted to practice more in comic and monochromatic style, while also getting back to a point of liking to ink my doodles again.

......and the first thing that cane to mind is some 'what if' angst. ^^;;;

King (Conrard) Headcanon-@yore-donatsu

#dead cells #indie games #comics #art practice #monochomatic #headcanons #angst #yore donatsu #the king #king conrard #theo #ocart #ocs #fanart #my art #digital art #BIG what if here #losing a run in dead cells but with emtional tramua #i may have been venting when i doodled this to be honest #cant really remember #also FORGIVE ME MY BOI! T-T

[crispy-pupper]

emotions

#crispy pupper art #finnegan fox illustrations #oc #furry #artist #furry art #emtions #vent #vent art

[infizero]

having a bit of a breakdown again lolllll. watching tommyinnit (unrelated to the breakdown)

#^ very minor breakdown LOL. you could even call it a documented minor emtional breakdown <- LOS CAMPESINOS REFERENCE #im one of those ppl who will cry their eyes out over something rlly small and then within a minute be jamming out and laughing their ass off #idk why i've felt so off today i felt GREAT in the morning surprisingly and school was good #and then all of the sudden soon as i get home ive just been superrrr fucking depressed #it sucks cause like. it started off so good idk what happened NOTHING HAPPENED #serena.txt #vent #< again I HATE USING THIS TAG but whatevs

[mtllica]

i think it's interesting to see what other artists use as a drive to create, but i always feel like an odd one out in those sorts of discussions, because from my pov it seems that other artists create art with a lot of emtions or deep meaning behind it and i am sitting in my corner being like 'yeah i just thought this would look cool'. To clarify: i know deep emotions aren't always a drive for art, and artists who do use those (example: making vent art) also have pieces they create that don't use those (example: a silly doodle by the same artist). I just feel like an outlier because i *never* use deeper emotions or meanings in my visual art. Its always meant either to be funny, cute, or to look cool.

Perhaps thats why i am only a hobbyist artist and will probably stay that way forever. Art is never an emotional release for me and never has been. If I am feeling any negative emotions I simply don't draw, because they get in the way, and my art is not a way for me to process them or fix the problem. Idk, am I the weird one??? I have no clue, but it certainly makes me feel out of place in certain art spaces.

This goes for when I am looking at other art too. I feel that my response to art is very surface level. I'm taking a what I thought was going to be a history of art class right now, and I have to do an analysis on a piece of art. Whenever I have to talk about stuff like that, like the way a piece of art makes me feel, I feel like I really am just having to make stuff up because I... don't feel anything. And if i *do* feel anything, it's usually "it looks cool" and thats it. Maybe I just don't get it...

[thoughtslikeocean]

March 3, 2024 5:07 PM

Back to vent. I know all of this won't be a big deal in the long run. But as we know all emtions need to be felt, vented and worked through as they say...

WHHYYYY did my mom go and call my dad and ask him for money to help with the repairs of the house. It really made me mad for multiple reasons.. 1. If and when I need it, I know how to ask myself. 2. This wasn't exactly the best timing to be asking my dad for money. 3. I already knew how he was going to feel about giving me lump sums of money without be having a secure income. 4. This is a project that my mom and I decided on. So to make decisions and expect someone else to financially pitched in when they had nothing to do with it is kind of insane.

I'm not mad at my dad for anything he said, im mad that the conversation even had to be had. It was unnecessary. Soooooo nowwww, I have to play damage control once again.

Starting with, I'll allow dad to help me pay for the engineer report but in that same conversation , I'm gonna let him know that any money I am in dire need of, I will let him know. If you get any requests from my mother, just say "okay, I'll talk to Kailey about it". My focus at this time isn't this house, it's getting licensed nationally so I can start working in my field. Once that happens, I can transition back to thinking about the home.

I don't think i'm going to tell my mom anything because I just don't think she'll have the depth to understand. She'll still low-key on a revenge plot over the years she's raised me and "all the money she put in". She still feels slighted. Hasn't let go. And in situations like these, this is where it tends to show it's head. It's not my job to help her through that. Just like it's really not my job to manage the expectations between the both of them. I'm however doing it in this case to make sure the relationships I have with them remain intact. I'm saving myself. Right now, that means letting dad know that what she call and says or asks for (as it relates to me), need to have conversation with me about it. It'll give me peace of my mind on his end.

As for her, I'm going to get the engineering report. And once it comes back with all the million things that need to be fixed. I will be letting her know that I can't do anything with the actual house until RE is up and running/I have better income than currently. If she decides that she wants to move forward, then she can continue to make all the decisions for the house.

So what's my next steps now that I've gotten that off my chest? One foot in front of the other. Crossing bridges when I get there.

Well for one. I'm gonna finish smoking this blunt.

-I'm going to put on some worship music and pray

-I'm going to lock up next door

-Then I'm going to go inside and clean my room and bathroom, and unload that box (Maybe throw in a load of laundry)

-Make some tea and plan your meals for this week (This might include you going to the grocery store tonight, just push through if so)

-Prepare for gym in the morning.

You got this Kailey. This is just a minor setback and you're in need of redirection. You know what's important. Set your eyes back on that.

Now lets get to it!

[moomoomooing]

minor vent

so ive been way too emtionally distressed over losing my piercings

which i lost both of them within the span of a week

and im on my way to losing my cartilage as well bc its infected now too and its swollen over half the earring in there

i think the most frustrating thing is that my lobes shouldve been healed

i was 7 months in man

and the reason they kept getting infected was probably bc i was allergic to the jewlery my mom insisted i wear during every piercing infection

so uh i have a lot of regrets, physical pain, and now emotional pain!

my lobes already have scarring in them (at least my right one as really bad scarring cause the piercing migrated down) so i prolly wont be able to repierce them if at all for a solid 4 years

cause rhats how long it took with smaller scarring from the last piercings i tried to get

im just tired and wish shitty stuff would stop being flung my way. i am NOT gods strongest soilder

#the worst part is when the doctor twisted my heart shaped earring in my cartilage that had skin swollen over half of it #and he twisted it hard and cut my skin #and i had a huge glob of blood that crusted over it before i could drag myself to clean it #cause i was in fact crying for most lf today lmao

[pedestrianversee]

you killed me

#actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actuallyptsd #actuallyborderline #actuallybullied #actuallymentallyill #actuallyneurodivergent #emtional abuse #abusive relationship #abuse #trauma #trauma art #traumacore #trauma edits #vent photography #vent post #depression #ptsd #bpd #cptsd #mine #my photography

[b00bconnoisseur]

#ventttt ----- #my vents #i just want to cry. i feel so much better when i do cant i cant get myself to #i just #idk #ive just been upset and so so much with myself today #why do i have to be like this #(oop theres the tears) #i miss my fren so much i really need to talk to him abt stuff #i just wish i could control my emtions n stop thinking #srry for the vent

[wolfpai999]

Forgot I did this a bit ago Never finished it But this feelings still hits once n awhile

#wolfpai #my art #im so tired #doodle #sketch #slight vent #slight gore #me #sketches #doodles #meh #vinnie #avatar #val #emtions #feelings #cartoon #cartoony #digital drawing #candy gore

[the-one-who-left-behind]

Where can I sell my feelings because I don’t want them anymore. Sometimes I wished I couldn’t feel a damn thing

#selling my feelings #feelings #lost #anxiety #crying #emtions #cancel feelings #overthinking #404 feelings not found #feeling not good enough #needed to vent #emotional mess

[minorcrisis1]

I hate the way my mom lets my brother talk to me.

He’s always putting me down. Saying mean and rude things to me. Hurting my feelings.

I know he does it to annoy me and get a raise out of me, but just because he’s my brother I have to let him say these hurtful things to me? I know all siblings do this, but that doesn’t make it right or any less hurtful.

He constantly picks on me, not just when our mom isn’t watching, but in front of her too. It doesn’t matter if our mom’s in the room or not and she never tells him to stop, but whenever I say something back she scolds me. Even if I respond sarcastically I get the mom voice.

Why? Just because I’m the older sibling I have to put up with this? I have to act more mature? When I was his age I couldn’t act this way.

After all this time getting put down by my brother I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut and take his abuse, but it still hurts and make me so angry. The worst part is I can’t stand up for my self without getting into trouble. I can’t treat him the same way he treats me and if I tell my mom how I feel I’m going to get yelled at because she’s the parent and I’m the child and she can handle my brother and it’s not my place. Or I need to suck it up because he doesn’t mean any harm, it’s just what little siblings do, I’m older and should just ignore it. How can I ignore being emotionally abused everyday? It upsets me so he shouldn’t do it, that’s all that matters.

If it were anyone else but my brother it would be consider bulllying or harassment and be a real problem. Someone would do something about it and want me to speak up. It’d be okay to speak up for myself. People would want me to speak up for my self.

I really needed to get this out, even if no reads this, or can’t relate, or doesn’t care, I needed to vent to someone somewhere.

#siblings #family #brothers #little siblings #bullying #emtional abuse #idk im just tired #little brothers #vent #any advice?

[grilledkatniss]

I am humbled

I used to get annoyed at how a writer would just stop writing a fic and jump to other stuff, being another medium type of projects such as maybe get into video editing or college/work/family would get in the way, or they would just move on to another story.. and now I get it. All of it. Cause I’ve done all of it. 

But you know when you’re not officially done with a fic, like you intend on keeping it up and you still have material for the story, but like for some reason you can’t sleep one night and get to thinking, and that thinking becomes daydreaming (I’m way too familiar with that hobby, it went clinical once al o al) and then a story plot pops up, and now these characters are talking and shit that sass, so snarky, this is priceless, I gotta write it down!

Yeah, we all know it. That’s how fics start. So now I became one of those authors that juggles multiple fics at once and doesn’t truly focus on a single one, and all the stories are on hold because there’s just too much to add, and yes, the excuse of time is now out the table given the corona pandemic and the quarantine, and I’ve already cleaned most of the house and

I could write, that’s what I’m saying. But every time I turn my computer on, I’d rather play the Sims4 or -I just got Metal Gear V the phantom whatever and it’s been intense...- catch up on some TV shows......... I also kinda promised I would fix them doodles I posted back in December. Then college shit, working on my CV, I hate video editing but that’s part of a job I gotta do cause I promised I would help. for .fucking.free cause how am I gonna charge for a favor to a friend. Stupid, I could use the incentive, I fucking hate editing man

Anyways, don’t wait on your feet for any of it. Not the fics, not the video, not the CV, not the college shit, not even the goddamn Metal Gear Sims 4. I’m gonna either sleep this pandemic through or binge some shows till I pass out. I’m also drowning in coronavirus memes this is nuts

Thanks for coming to my Ted Rant :)

#awkwardifying life #rantology #i just have to vent #im so tired #maybe i need to work out but that will anly give me physical energy ye know what im sayin #like it'll make me wanna punch someone and run away #i need emtional energy (? #mental energy #and willpower #is that how u write it #anyway im waiting for stumptown to load #ya remember my shitty wifi? well it's still shitty as fuck

[hauntedandlovesick]

I should go to the social worker when we get back from school. I just haven't had the energy.

#we don't have a school couselor that handles emtional stuff #just like three school social workers that let you cry in their room or something #i just want myself to wake up and be fine and just get over it #like prove i don't need help or therapy just like my parents said #i hate talking to people irl about my emotions #it's so much easier via text or letter #vent

[wobblyjellyfish]

hi yes november? i’m unhappy with your product ‘this week’ and i’d like a refund

#jelly says stuff #i am so upset and tired and emtionally drained #its not been a good week folks #by and large it has sucked pretty hard #a lot has been going on lately #and it just kind of resurfaced #hopefully the weekend is better #sorry for venting again everyone #i feel like ive been doing that a lot recently im sorry

[lonelystarbuckslover13]

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#tw: mental abuse #tw: emtional abuse #sooooo I’ve been seeing this new therapist and she was just asking some general questions about my life #and at some point she asked me about past relationships and I told her I was in a really shitty relationship in high school #and she asked me to elaborate so I told her all about this relationship #and after I finished talking she was like “that sounds like quite an emotionally abusive relationship’ #and it was just so weird to here her say that coz all these years I’ve always avoided calling it abusive #coz I thought calling it abuse would be an exaggeration or that I was just overreacting #but to hear a professional confirm to me that it was abuse is just so strange coz it’s like I’m realising how much I gaslit myself #like I was always worried that I was blowing things out of proportion #but now it’s like I have this confirmation that I wasn’t making it up in my head and it really was that bad #idk man #you play so many mins games with yourself when you’re a victim #just feel like I have this weird perspective in it all now #anyways just wanted to vent about that #delete later