#gaia rajan

[apoemaday]

After Escape

by Gaia Rajan

Finally I was free to love anything I wanted. Instead I spent weeks charting each year of my history—I was beautiful, I was good, all my friends were beautiful and good, I lived in a narrow house where every night the ceiling closed on me like a lid. I hid knives in my textbooks, dreamt each night of a white table in a muddy field, a gun on the table, a woman holding the gun. I practiced answering her, rehearsed my own name, still bruised, so believe me, it wasn’t a surprise to hear them years later with floodlights, shouting my name. They said it wrong, they always did, and on every missing poster they’d painted my old face, so what was I to do, in the city they made evidence? I ran, and cab drivers wouldn’t look at me. I ran, and felt for a fingerhold, left nail marks on the interrogation table’s wood belly. I entered through the keyhole to a houseparty full of strangers. Racketed through the house’s narrow corridors, a pile of knees. And every time I woke up from the white table I woke without pain, remembering nothing, my own name on my lips. For months, I watched them grieve me— now it’s finally summer, my friend names her goldfish after me, the locusts come down on the hills, turning everything bone-white, there’s an ad in the newspaper for my body and then it’s over. I am free to love anything I want. And still I hate the black car down the road. Still I check every bathroom for cameras.

#poetry #gaia rajan #after escape

[noctuary-of-one]

"I wonder if the dead know we are writing about them. I wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die. To exploit distance. To steal their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it--"

Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams by Gaia Rajan

#gaia rajan #quotes #noctuary #why ill never be a poet #but also #this is all my poems are

[nearer-than-the-eye]

— Gaia Rajan in THRUSH

#poetry dreams #poetry #poetry quotes #quotes #gaia rajan

[dollsgaze]

"i wonder if the dead know we are writing about them. i wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. i worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die. to exploit distance. to steal their flight. to wring murder into myth, to retell it."

– Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams, by Gaia Rajan

#poetry #lit #literature #texts

[quotationsworld]

I wonder if the dead know

we are writing about them. I wonder if the missing girl

wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait

for beautiful things to die. To exploit distance. To steal

their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it–

— Gaia Rajan, Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams

#poetry #poems #words #writing #original #poet #meaning #sense #consequences #relevancy #death #knowledge #awareness #reflection #thoughts #missing girl #symbol #beautiful things #dark aesthetic #distance #stealing #flight #murder #myth #stories #gaia rajan #dying

[thewizardofloneliness]

my wounds leak, unseam. i am a body revised: all throat and no scream. girl, did you lose your vertebra first? your toes? tell me: how many years was it until the water felt like home? - gaia rajan

#oc;isobel dwyer #sometimes i make things #am i crazy or is this super blurry? #it looks fine on mobile :'(

[julyhighcry]

@theorangepdf / gaia rajan / alejandra pizarnik / clemintine von radics / devin kelly / kaveh akbar

#poetry about poetry #web weaving #parallels #gaia rajan #alejandra pizarnik #clemintine con radics #devin kelly #kaveh akbar #mine

[bostonpoetryslam]

Gods could never quite love like mortals: unlike them, we grasp our own ending.

Gaia Rajan, “Notes on Transmutation,” published in Muzzle

#gaia rajan #poetry #muzzle #love #gods

[oldwinesoul]

"I wonder if the dead know we are writing about them. I wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die. To exploit distance. To steal their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it-"

—Gaia Rajan, Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams, published in Pocketfire

#poets on tumblr #dark academia #aesthetic #spilled poetry #words #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #19th century #vintage #love poem #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark academia books #renaissance art #renaissance #poetry #Gaia Rajan

[kavikshiraj]

I wonder if the dead know we are writing about them. I wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die. To exploit distance. To steal their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it--

from Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams, by Gaia Rajan, published in Pocketfire

#qd #gaia rajan #pocketfire #poetry #quotes #lit

[give-her-my-regards]

The Only Living Girl in America, Cassandra de Alba / Ribs, Lorde / Under the Silver Lake, dir. David Robert Michell / Home-Free, Maggie Smith / Lady Bird, dir. Greta Gerwig / Self Pity, DH Lawrence / Riding Alone For Thousands of Miles, Sally Wen Mao / American Animals, dir. Bart Layton / Things We Lost in the Fire, Bastille / A Self-Help Book Says to Confront Your Possible Selves, Gaia Rajan

#a podcast I listen to said that the american animal is individuality and I can't stop thinking about it #it's all about our desire to be distinct #to be special #and about what we can do to make ourselves individuals #I definitely haven't been thinking about american animals for the past week #identity #american animals #lady bird #under the silver lake #poetry #lorde #webweave #web weaving #snap.creates

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

hey, what are your thoughts on writing poetry? what's your process to write a poem? can you give me some tips? especially on the line breaks?

I’m a poet so I’d say I love writing poetry! My process is relatively new since it’s restructuring since I joined my poetry workshop this term (my prof is the most encouraging man ever??? Changed my life???). I don’t really have tips because I don’t really know how I write poetry - I just sit down and it occurs. I started out writing more speculative poems or poems that were deeply fictional but now I find I prefer to write poems where I am the speaker and my life is steeped into them. For example I just wrote a poem about reconnecting with my Indigenous great great grandma through the language of our ancestors and it’s kind of my fave thing I’ve written - stuff like this, where I feel wholly there in emotions is how I write poems. I’ve been told I’m great at line breaks but I don’t really know what I do?? I just break where double meanings can happen and mostly modelled this off of poets like K-Ming Chang haha. Read lots of poetry! I love K-Ming, Franny Choi, Kayla Czaga, Mallory Tater, Gaia Rajan, etc… I also love reading poems in litmags (check out Frontier, Palette, CV2, The Puritan, Minola, Grain, and Arc). Re: line breaks - if you’re not sure what to do with them, you can also just not use them lol! Life hacks haha. But read poems - they’ll give you a better understanding of the craft tho I find poetry much different than fiction in that there is no “correct” way to do things to create “good” poems (in fiction there can sometimes be rules that you should generally follow) so just write anyway! I really enjoyed getting into poetry with bleeding titles when I first started because it created momentum, so maybe you can start there? Also I started with prose poetry which was helpful as a prose writer!

#asks

[modern-wilde]

“I wonder if the dead know we are writing about them.I wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die.To exploit distance. To steal their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it-” 

- from Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams, by Gaia Rajan, published in Pocketfire

#writing #my writing #writers #writeblr #aesthetic #academia #poems #poetry #poets #poets on tumblr #spilled ink

[humming-a-memory]

“I wonder if the dead know we are writing about them. I wonder if the missing girl wanted to be a symbol. I worry that to be a poet is to sit and wait for beautiful things to die. To exploit distance. To steal their flight. To wring murder into myth, to retell it -” 

― from Inside Every Poem You Can Hear Muffled Screams, by Gaia Rajan, published in Pocketfire 

#dark academia quotes #dark academia #dark academia aesthetic #literature #life quotes #deep quotes #beauitful #beautiful quote #quotes #death quotes #deep #books #english literature #quoteoftheday

[dylanobrienisbatman]

For the Top 5 meme: 26-29?

Oh thanks!!

26: Top 5 crack ships (full disclosure i dont do tradiational “crack ships” of like, people from different shows, but i do ‘rare pairs’ that are pretty rare so im gonna use those lol)

Lexa x Costia (t100) (they WERE together, but since costia is dead, and basically it gets no love in fandom, im calling it.)

Marcos x Glow (The Gifted) (three scenes together, but her power was literally made for him... they were superpower soulmates okay... and they almost kissed so like... the shipping was clearly intended)

Michael x Liz (Roswell, NM) (look... science bros... both hot... sue me)

Gaia x Bellamy (t100) (i made this up and i stand by it)

Eva x Fede (Skam Italia) (Its literally canon and everyone wants her with Gio and i just love them okay idk man)

Top 5 brotps

1 - Scott & Stiles (teen wolf)

2 - Harry & Ron (Harry Potter)

3 - Sam & Zahid (Atypical) (these little dudes are my fucking jam okay. Actually all of Atypical is a jam. Watch it pls.)

4 - Quentin & Julia (The Magicians)

5 - Steve & Dustin (Stranger Things)

Top 5 trios

1 - Polymarine (Siren)

2 - Penny x Julia x Kady (The Magicians) (look, i love kady/penny... i love wickodi... i love wickoff... and each of them love each other like individually as pairs... Come ON.)

3 - Steve x Nancy x Jonathan (Stranger Things) (less so in s3 but in s1 and s2 i really dug it)

4 - Dani x Hernando x Lito (Sense8) (I love them. they were perfect. heart eyes forever.)

5 - Kala x Wolfgang x Rajan (Sense8) (It was surprising, and ik it got mixed responses for good reasons, but i really like it, because they didn’t have the time to really allow the emotional plot of kala x wolfgang v kala x rajan and so they decided that because of that they weren’t gonna rush anything or gloss over it, and because they both loved Kala, and Wolfie is part of kala, it worked to make them be together. I didn’t ‘ship’ it necessarily but i really enjoyed it.)

I also hardcore loved the idea of Bravenlarke for a while (t100)... but my interest in that has... obviously... faded. Could fux with Bechoven though for sure.

Top 5 family relationships

The Roci Crew (The Expanse)

Spacekru (The 100)

Team Splinter (12 Monkeys)

The Pod Squad (but plus Liz, Maria, Michael, Rosa, Alex, and Kyle?) (does that even count? idk im using it) (Roswell, New Mexico)

Whatever the fuck the OTH gang would call themselves, because that was peak found family and my teen heart yearns for it.