#hallucation

[james-sunshine-potter]

Truth be told, Sirius probably spent the majority of the time with James’ dead body convinced that if he tried hard enough, that he could wake him up.

#all i can imagine is sirius begging james to wake up until he couldn't speak #shaking him by the shoulder... all he would manage was making his glasses fall off #it would haunt him for the rest of his life #he was so isolated in azkaban that he started hallucating james dead body #and hed continue to beg him to wake up #james potter #sirius black #prongsfoot #platonic prongsfoot #peter pettigrew #sirius black angst #james potter agnst #halloween 1981 #marauders era #maurders era #the marauders #harry potter marauders #jsp- marauder era #jsp- platonic prongsfoot #jsp- halloween 1981

[crash-bump-bring-the-whump]

Whumpril 2023 - Day 7

Another one I've been kicking around for a bit!

TWs: fainting, (accidental) disordered eating, also hallucination mention

Numbness | Unsteady | “You look pale.”

"I just...wanted to talk to you." Mariano said, setting his phone down as he typed at the ancient computer. The video of Bastian on their couch, sketching away on his tablet, was clear and quiet. Calming. "Kept hearing footsteps."

Bastian snorted. "No one else is coming to rob that place." He paused, brow creasing as he tapped the screen a few times with his stylus before continuing to draw. "Not after you got the place in the news. People still think you're the owner."

Mariano laughed, shaking his head. "I know, I know. But you'd hear the front door bell too." The phone that Bastian had bought him was certainly good enough for the microphone to pick it up. He started printing off the reports for the night before standing and picking up his phone.

His head started spinning as he took his first steps toward the front. Mariano staggered, bracing a hand against the bookshelf that held their safe. Silver eyes flickered to the screen before narrowing.

"You good?" Bastian asked, slowly setting his stylus down. "You look wobbly."

"I'm alright, treasure." Mariano soothed as he continued walking, passing through the store room to the front. "I just need to finish locking up and shutting everything down, then I'll come home."

Mariano set his phone down by the register. He turned and knelt to turn off the ice machine, flicking the switch off. When he stood back up, he was barely able to turn back around before the world faded into a grey roar.

When the fuzz in his vision faded, Mariano realized that his head ached. He was on the floor, elbows and knees barely keeping his forehead a few inches from the tile. Distantly, he could hear Bastian.

"-iano, Mariano answer me." Bastian demanded. His voice was tense, bordering on a growl. "Dammit, you idiot, you'd better start talking to me or--"

Mariano groaned. He felt beyond nauseous. Only taking his glasses off and pressing his eyes into the darkness of his arm helped. The rest of him followed in a slow, controlled fall. The cool tile against his side felt nice. He swallowed hard. One deep breath in. Then out.

He'd fainted.

"Mariano, I heard that. Can you make another noise if you can understand me?"

"Mmmyeah." Mariano said, muffled. As he breathed, the nausea started to fade. "Yeah I...I'm okay." It felt like he was trying to talk while being multiple shots into some tequila.

Why had he fainted? He started running through the reasons, while Bastian said something else. He'd gotten enough sleep, he hadn't had trouble breathing, he ate lunch at noon, it was only midnight so he wasn't up too late--

All at once, embarrassment flared hot in his face. He hadn't eaten in twelve hours. His doctor had said something about this before. About recovery periods, and how continuous stress makes a body more fragile.

"Mariano? Hello?" Bastian's voice filled the front of the coffee shop along with the jingle of his keys. He heard the rustle of Bastian shoving his arms into his jacket, the soft growl as he struggled to get his shoes on quicker. "Hey, listen to me. If you can hear me just stay where you are. I'm coming to get you."

Mariano just hummed again, hoping that this one was loud enough for Bastian to hear. He heard the clatter of Bastian getting into his van and starting the engine, the purr soothing Mariano's thrumming, upside-down nerves. He just needed a few minutes, then he could sit up and crawl to the office to get the unopened soda he'd left there the day before.

Just a few more minutes, he thought, to lay on the steady, blessedly cold floor.

#whumpril2023 #Whumprilday7 #Unsteady #Mage of violence #Dragon of diamond #Mariano is forgetful sometimes! #He remembers the stuff that's REALLY important but you know how it is #Sometimes things happen #Hallucation ment #Disordered eating #Accidentally tho

[clownboymcchucklefuck]

GUESS WHO JUST PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER

#I think I'm hallucating- #I just took my Adderall so I'm not going to sleep anytime soon :D

[knifefightscene]

I genuinely don’t know how i am supposed to enjoy living best i can do is tolerate it

#except for when i hallucate and become a different person who doesn’t even think about dying

[waltenfiled]

Pyschosis is the worst thing to ever happen to a mandela catalogue enjoyer

#GIRL. PAIRED WITH HALLUCATIONS I HATE LOVING THIS ANALOG HORROR SERIES #like #girl i cannot take this #hatthew posting #i NEED a filterable tag brb #uhhhhh #tmc raymond #it's my tmc bulletvest now

[slimemoldcollective]

NORMAL AGAIN kinda

#goopin #no longer hallucationing

[zhzqka8wqtltbg]

Lesbians fucking in public restaurant Elle se fait baiser par son voisin Brutally Huge Dildo For Gay Fucking Ass College Teen Fucks BBC In Her Car Hot Slim Cracker Sofie Marie Pussy Packed By BBC Rome Major! Korean teen flashes her nice tits Milf sloppy head black cock Creampie pour une petite salope Testing Paloqueth Rabbit Vibrator Teen porno movie scenes

#stabler #Sussexman #Enesco #methyldopa #helcoid #hallucal #showgirls #preadviser #raindrops #footporn #crampish #countersconce #short-docked #portraitists #Aurantium #skulls #apparelled #viscero- #packed #intimating

[oleander-grows]

i have perfectly deduced the max amount of benadryl i can take to fall asleep without having a terrible high and seeing fucked up shit. my sleep scheduled has never been better

one of these days i’ll hopefully get on actual sleep meds, but in the meantime! nothing but wins!

#tw drugs #zambos rambos #(btw the answer for me is 6) #(i started with a normal dose and worked up from there) #(have not had hallucations yet)

[ladyylavenderrr]

Garak and Psychosis

Very self indulgent little post about instances of Garak displaying behaviors that read to me (or at least can be read) as a symptom of psychosis. I will almost certainly miss some, but I want to compile this together for myself. I completely see Garak as having some kind of psychotic disorder. Most of these examples will come from A Stitch In Time, but we have some from the show as well. Also keep in mind that many of these could be interpreted in a myriad of ways, not just as a psychotic symptom. I’m not claiming any of this is definitive proof or anything of the sort, and Garak’s past as a spy (a profession that by nature demands a lot of paranoia) certainly complicates all of this. That’s not to say this an either-or situation. He can be both psychotic and a former spy and in fact the effect both would have on the other would be quite interesting, as laid out in this post

Again, all of what I say can be interpreted in many different ways, but I just want to have it all written down in one place. Psychosis can manifest in very different ways for different people. Some people might be debilitated by their symptoms, struggling to function without assistance. Others might function just fine most of the time and only experience relatively mild symptoms, though the associated distress isn’t any less important.

Season 6, episode 5 “Favors The Bold”. Garak insists Julian examine him for a some kind of mind reading device put in his head by Starfleet Intelligence. Despite Julian telling him there’s nothing out of the ordinary in his head, Garak doesn’t believe him and insists he keep looking. Came off as a delusion to me, especially since he remains convinced despite evidence proving his delusion false.

Season 4, episode 21 “For the Cause”. Upon meeting Ziyal, Garak becomes convinced that she wants to hurt and kill him. I wouldn’t say her being Dukat’s daughter is enough evidence for the average person to be this worried. In fact, Quark even calls him out on his paranoia and we get this exchange.

GARAK: I was going to cancel. I've had visions of Ziyal presenting my head to her father as a birthday gift. 
QUARK: That's a little paranoid, wouldn't you say? 
GARAK: Paranoid is what they call people who imagine threats against their life. I have threats against my life.

To be fair, Kira warning him to stay away from Ziyal gets him to calm down a bit, or maybe not because he still seems quite apprehensive when he actually meets Ziyal, still afraid she might want to hurt him.

Now to A Stitch In Time.

Part 1, Chapter 7. As Garak helps Parmak dig people out of the rubble of a bombed Cardassia (highly stressful and traumatic situation), he seems to hallucinate a figure. You could read this as metaphorical, but he reacts to and tries to interact with the figure in the real world, which doesn’t come off as a metaphorical way of describing his despair to me.

“I have never lived with despair, Doctor, the way I live with it now. It's almost like a phantom companion that shadows me and casts doubt on whatever I do.

"Why save him?" it asks, as we remove a young boy from the rubble of a school. "You're only keeping him alive for a future of privation and chaos. Wouldn't it be more satisfying to join the burial unit?"

I want to scream at this phantom, to shut it up. Once I turned around suddenly and raised my hand to strike it. When I realized it wasn't there, it was too late. Everyone in the unit was looking at me; I'm sure I must have looked like a madman.”

After this, Parmak gives Garak some pills. He only calls them “relaxants” so it might be a sedative of some kind, but I’m not sure. Either way, Garak hallucinates again after swallowing the pills, panicking as he sees those Cardassian orphans from the episode “Cardassians”. I doubt the pills are hallucinogens, both because Parmak specifically gave them to Garak after witnessing him hallucinating and is seemingly trying to stop that, and because they speak about the hallucinations like an unintended side effect ("I'm afraid they don't react well with me," I explained. “I understand," he said.)

Certain drugs making psychotic symptoms worse isn’t uncommon.

Part 1, Chapter 6. As Garak and the rest of his group in Bamarren are forced to stand still in the heat for what might be hours as part of a training exercise, he begins to hallucinate multiple figures, including his parents (it’s interesting that one of the figures seems to be Palandine, even though neither we nor Garak have been introduced to her yet). If this were the only instance of Garak hallucinating in the book, I wouldn’t assume he has a psychotic disorder since this example has obvious an explanation outside of a mental health issue. People are known to experience hallucinations when suffering from heat stroke. However I’m putting this example here simply because it’s part of a larger pattern of Garak hallucinating multiple times throughout the book. It’s also interesting to note that this scene happens right before the scene of an adult Garak hallucinating that figure with Parmak.

Part 2, Chapter 18. Garak seems to hallucinate as he looks at the frieze. He sees the frieze move and the people painted on it move as well. He thinks some of the figures are he and Palandine but isn’t sure.

“The frieze now began to move in the upward direction. I was too amazed to ask if this was truly happening. People would disappear at the top while more would enter from below.

Certain faces were recognizable, but I didn't know why. Something was also rising within me, an energy moving up my spine to my head, and I began to feel dizzy. Two of the figures could have been Palandine and me, but I couldn't be sure. I was almost nauseous with the energy surging within me. The figures completed the cycle and disappeared at the top. The frieze stopped moving.”

This one can be interpreted in a more metaphorical way than some of the others, but like I said, it could also be another symptom of this potential psychosis.

I’m sure I’ve missed some examples, but you get my point.

#star trek #ds9 #deep space nine #elim garak #garashir #psychosis #schizophrenia #a stitch in time #asit #andrew robinson #meta #media analysis #schizospec #deep space 9

[ao3sbatfamily]

Hi! I'm looking for two fics, would you be able to help? I'm pretty sure both were posted on ao3. Thank you so much in advance!

I think Tim is talking to a ghost!Robin!Jason or a hallucation of Robin!Jason? But at one point, Tim looks at the back of some photographs and sees an autograph from Robin!Jason that calls him Tim/Timmy. And Tim remarks that it's the first time anyone has ever given him a nickname, so it's implied that he goes by Tim because Robin!Jason was the first to call him Tim.

This one was a multichapter fic. The Drakes have an arrangement with Bruce to let Tim stay over at Wayne Manor whenever they travel, so Tim has been staying over at Wayne Manor for years, since he was young. He knows their secret too, but keeps up his polite rich kid act so that no one suspects anything, although Bruce finds him out one day. Dick and Jason are exposed to him early, but since they only know his rich kid act, they can't stand him. Until they're out one night as Nightwing and Robin, and Jason says out loud that he hates Tim with Dick adding that the Drakes don't love him. Tim overhears them and falls off the roof, although he gets caught by Dick, but at this point, he wants nothing to do with them and runs back to Wayne Manor. Dick and Jason realize that they've grown fond of him and that he's been their little brother all along. Some other notable scenes were the Drakes leaving Tim at a gala early so Tim goes to Dick to get help, and Tim getting sick during a school presentation so he runs to the bathroom, and Jason is sent to go after him.

Thank you for the details. It made things so much easier.

'Hey there ghosts it’s me, ya Robin' by SummerBummin

Author: @summerbummin

''Think I've Flipped' by cookieTHEdragon

#ao3 #fanfic #fic rec #batfam #batfamily #dcu #batman #jason todd #tim drake #dick grayson #bruce wayne #jason todd robin #batbros #batboys #bat bois #batbrothers #bat boys #bat brothers #bat fam #bat family #batdad #batkids #nightwing #found fic #fic found

[strobichie]

just sae, forever.

♡⸝⸝ summary: poor you decided to replay ddlc, but instead you were stuck in an unideal situation. this is part two of just sae!

little note: i didn't expect my last post to get 30+ likes XD, i was never good at writing per se, regardless i'm delighted to see people enjoy my small short fic even if it wasn't that eye-catching. also, oftentimes i write for gn and fem readers and honestly.. i don't know which to use for this one. i guess it's up to you then reader ^_^ (small hints of inconsistent type of reader, reader's style and etc depends on her or their mood.)

your perspective:

huh, it's been a few days after that unfortunate event.

was i just pranked? geez, hopefully it was. the shit that 'sae' pulled back there felt real as hell. even his dialogues sounded real.

i heard a knock on my apartment door and froze in place..

i haven't gone out in days, i think i already became a neet.

my legs dangled from my bed as i stood up, rushing to the front door, i opened it, expecting to get ai hoshino's fate.. but instead... ---

"it feels nice to see you in real life." that.. was sae's voice. or more realistically AND honestly, takahiro sakurai's voice.

i perked my head up, oh... he was, tall. obviously. what am i saying?

he pulled me into a sudden hug, he wore the same clothes when he appeared in the manga and anime.

i was speechless, this... couldn't be real. i was just being pranked, was i?

"why are you so quiet? why don't you speak up, love?" he looked at me lovingly, gosh, my single ass felt blood running to my cheeks.

"no way, you're real? here?! in flesh and blood??" i said, absolutely flabbergasted. he looked exactly like sae, but i was still in denial.

"why would you think that my words were just empty nonsense? i was being true to my words... and you." he shyly admitted. why was he so out of character?

"and, i may not seem like the cold person i was in the anime and manga, but i.. since i'm with you, after all those times in the literature club, i actually found happiness with you." he continued to speak.

"...yeah, let's, like, settle this inside." i brought him in my apartment, it wasn't too small, rather it was quite big. my job paid me really well and i was able to afford quite a luxurious and spacious apartment. those years in school really did pay off, haha.

sae sat on my comfortable white couch as he looked around, surprised. i dug into my pantry desperately searching for.. something.

i was really warming up to sae now, i mean, judging from my tiktok reposts i reposted videos and edits of him way more often than rin, sorry... rinrin...

my eyes caught sight of my life long worth of candy stash, it could last for like, decades. or more...

i happily hummed as i took a big basket full of candy, walking to the living room and placing it on the glass coffee table.

"what are you staring for sae? come on, i didn't bring this big basket of candy here for nothing." i shot him a smug smile, urging him to take one candy bar.

"it's nothing, i just never expected you to be this welcoming and kind.. i'm... grateful. thank you." he took a candy bar and peeled the wrapper open, taking a bite into the soft chocolate caramel.

he was secretly enjoying the candy bar, so i took one for myself and swallowed the candy bar whole after peeling the tight ass wrapper.

"riiight, since you're a famous footballer back in the bluelockverse, i guess you need to get used to getting pampered and taken care of by me since you have no job now, whatsoever. but to be frank, i don't care. it's nice to have someone around me after god knows how long!" i said out of the blue, eyes star-struck. i didn't know why, i felt happier when people were around me. but when i was with sae.. i felt.. like i was on cloud nine.

"...sae, i don't know why. but i like you, a lot." two lonely bitches staring at each other, that was us.

"i like you too, {name}... i like you, a lot more than you'd ever like me." gosh, this stings. what was i thinking? am i hallucinating or just crazy? i eyed sae sadly, a evident frown plastered on my face.

"i'll love you till the end of time, {name}." he smiled, shit, i felt butterflies in my stomach. is this true love? ironic since he was a fictional character that broke the barrier between fiction and reality.

maybe.. life with sae.. wouldn't be so bad.

we can do many things together, like drawing and painting. playing video games, and going out together. like a real couple would do.

i found myself slightly blushing a soft pink colour, i actually felt happy, with sae.

"...i love you, sae." i smiled at him lovingly, and he shot me a loving smile back.

i finally felt true happiness!

author's note: might do a silly lil fic of reader and sae living life together as a happy couple, gosh, i'm a sucker for lovey dovey pairs wkdjskwksfr

#blue lock #blue lock x reader #x fem reader #x gn reader #x reader #gn reader #fem reader #sae itoshi #sae itoshi x reader #sae x reader #bllk x you #true happiness #true love #ddlc #doki doki literature club #monika #sayori #natsuki #yuri #ddlc x blue lock

[sea-of-stars-flag-workshop]

Hallucic

a gender you only feel when you're hallucinating!

#tw hallucinations #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbt pride #mogai coining #lgbtq community #mogai community #mogai gender #mogai flag #mogai friendly #mogai identity #mogai pride #mogai safe #pro mogai #mogai

[heartsfromjeanee]

Just a Snap(chat) Away

Jake Lockley x Reader

Summary: Jake discovers what Snapchat is and asks for your help to use it. With every pic he sends, you never know what to expect.

Warnings: implied smut!

If you were being totally honest, you weren’t sure if explaining to Jake what Snapchat is was the best or worst idea you’ve ever had.

Here’s the thing, you never had an intention on him finding out about what Snapchat was, it just so happened that one day while the both of you were on the couch snuggled up together, you had opened the application to check a snap a friend had sent you (streaks to be exact). So you took a quick photo of part of your own face and sent it back.

Immediately Jake was curious, questioning what in the hell you were doing.

“I don’t understand, what’s the point?”

“Just to send fun pictures back and forth between friends, it’s not really much more than that.”

“…I want it.”

And with that, you help set up his own account, and added yourself onto it for him.

It took him a little while to completly understand how it worked,

“So what, I just push this circle thingy and it takes the photo?”

“Mhm, and then you can send it to me,”

Jake pressed the middle of the button and in an instant it took a (awkwardly angled) photo of Jake, staring down at the phone with his brows furrowed.

“See now press the little send button-“

“No no I need to take another this one is bad.”

“Jake this is just for an example, it’s fine.”

For a moment, you tussled with Jake for the phone, but Jake ended up getting his thumb on the ‘X’ button at the upper left hand corner of the screen, and deleted the photo from existence. He looked over at you, stared you straight in the eyes, and gave you a shit eating grin.

You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms, leaning back into the couch while you let him go on to take another ‘betting looking’ photo of himself for you.

“Okay, this one is fine.” He said, showing you the new photo he had taken of himself, waiting for the next step.

“Alright, now hit the little button down here,” You reached your hand over and clicked on the send button, then the screen with the list of friends came up, you being the only one on it.

“So now click me, and then press the send button again.”

Jake did exactly as you said, and within a moment a chime came from your phone, alerting that you had received a message.

Picking up your phone, you unlocked it, went to the snap Jake sent you and opened it.

“See?” You showed him your phone and finally he understood how the app worked.

————————————————————————-

It started off simple enough, when apart, you and Jake would send photos back and forth with each-other, sometimes it being decently taken selfies, or the scenery of the location each of you were currently at.

Jake enjoyed the app very much, more than you would have thought, and soon enough you were receiving many more photos than you were sending. You thought it was pretty cute, that was until you ended up getting one selfie from him, with a thumbs up, which would have been fine if the background didn’t happen to include the dead bodies of three people he had just taken out.

When you confronted him about the snap, he did his best to justify the picture.

“Mi amor, I thought you would be proud!”

“Proud? Maybe impressed, but the point is that I would much rather not see dead bodies in the snaps you send me, okay?”

Thankfully, Jake complied to your request, and made more of an effort to not send snaps until after his missions were completed.

To be specific, there was one night after a mission where he couldn’t make it back home right away, but was yearning for your touch like a mad man.

It was about 3 am when your phone lit up and rang out a ding!

You had been half asleep when you heard it, groaning as you rolled over towards the nightstand to grab the phone and see who it was.

It didn’t surprise you that it was from Jake, so you unlocked your phone and opened the snap to see what he sent you.

For a moment you really thought you were hallucinating because there was a fucking dick, your boyfriends dick, on your screen. The text that accompanied the photo was, “Look what you do to me, mi amor.”

You blinked a couple of times, just to make sure you were seeing this correctly. In all fairness, Jake was the most horniest out of the three of your boys, so this probably shouldn’t have surprised you as much as it did, it just caught you off guard.

You but your lip as a neaky idea came into your head. You sat yourself up and leant over to turn on the lamp that was next to you. Getting up, you made your way over to the boys closet that they shared and at the shelf that was built at the top, sat one of Jakes multitude of caps.

You grinned, first taking of Steven sweatshirt that you had been sleeping it, disregarding it onto the floor, before reaching up to grab Jakes cap.

You put it on top of your head and walked back over to your bed, grabbing your phone once again. You opened up Snapchat, angling your phone so that it was above you, making sure the screen could capture the cap, as well as your breasts. You looked into the camera with an innocent face and then took the picture. You smirked as you wrote, “Wish you were home papí :(“

You then hit send and it was only a matter of seconds before Jake opened it. You stared at your screen, waiting for some sort of response, when suddenly you got an incoming FaceTime call from him.

Lets just say you did not go to sleep for another two hours that night. 😉

#jake lockley x reader #jake lockley one shot #jake lockley drabble #Jake lockley #moonknight #moonknight x reader #marvel fanfic #moonknight drabble #moonknight one shot #moonknight fan fic #Jake lockley fluff

[anotherblblog]

Dead Friend Forever episode 12 blurb/series retrospective

wellllllllllllllllllllll that was the goriest, slasheriest, kill 'em-ness I've seen in Thai or any bl series

the episode was kinda short and the pacing made it seem rushed but not I'm sure if I really felt rushed or if it was just a breakneck pace

I do like that a lot of the theories and wishes weren't achieved/realized and the series still feels good. Like I know I wanted White and TanNew to live and at times Jin and Phee too but all of them ending up in this ceaseless purgatory slaughterhouse is kinda fitting. Non couldn't escape his fate due to the actions of others and the rest of the group couldn't escape the fallout aka TanNew's life implosion and his pursuit of vengeance for his brother and family

Cuz like yeah White, it truly seems, was just at the wrong place and wrong time. The theories and sentiment of White being part of some Perth and TanNew third killer ace in hole was nice and could have worked but it didn't happen and I don't feel the show really lacked for it

Like we saw one of the masked killers with crutches and the killer always had a maybe magic, maybe mundane vibe the show liked to play with. So perhaps Non really did survive somehow or maybe he just really had a rather unmarkable end after his harrowing captivity and enslavement

anywho standouts for the episode and series -

TanNew going full slasher - lovely, wonderful, great job Mio. You sold and I bought. And as an elder sibling, bitch I don't necessarily condone your behavior but I motherfucking understand you and also why you were Phee were destined to have a falling out. Phee did geniunely love and care for Non but the information that Phee had because Non specifically and intentionally lied to Phee meant that Phee could ultimately move on with Jin but TanNew was frozen in that grief and by Phee interrupting TanNew's attempt, Phee sealed his own fated too

Jin's hallucation montage - kinda campy in a good way and also like really modern. Like this type of voyuerism enabled by modern technology is really scary. Like gays have been fucking and sucking in bathrooms since before bathrooms were existed and will continue to (and last night at this bar I was at - there were several gays keeping me from peeing because they were fucking in the bathroom stall). So I compare how the leaked sex tape was used in this series with Only Friends and I do feel DFF really did that subplot and theme so much better

The first third of ep 12 aka the slaughter house - like it's a series so total suspension of disbelief to let the series tell me that Top can get shot in the stomach (or near enough) after a series of beatings and days of high stress and still have the gas in the tank for a final fight. But the tension and motivations were really high and going from the joker class clown who kinda started a lot of the Non ends up a slave plot by Top breaking Por's camera and Fluke mister always trying to keep my hands clean but always being near and having the truth but not sharing taking themselves out together was obvious symbolism to me and still really good. Then going from that to Tee being made to inadvertently kill his lover and the person who inspired him to better himself while White's last images are his boyfriend who he like 3 minutes ago learned was a really massive piece of shit and a victim and victimizer and (I don't know about Thai laws and accidental death or manslaughter and all that) but learning your bf is connected and inarguably one of the biggest participants in this Non situation surely must have not felt good, then he stabs you while you think it's because you're not pretty. Madness and chaos and really cool scene.

Phee, Phee, Phee, our series lead - overall I think Ta did a fantastic job. Like so many times, he would enter a scene and I would think "this dude has stage presence" - highlight of him was the revealation he was Non's boyfriend as he saves Non from his attempt. That episode and the one prior with this abscene were fine and good but when he came back onscreen, it was like, yeah, you've got IT. Now the finale arc with him is frustrating because of the discourse and the piety of people and shipping. Yes Non was groomed. Por is the closest person in series to call out the massive inappropriateness of Keng and Non. But it is critical to point out, that Phee did not know about that and saw Non being hugged and comforted by Keng, so he made the deduction that Non was hot for teacher. And then the disappearance and police stuff happened and Phee was motivated to find the truth. He was fueled by his own guilt at his last words to Non but even as he was trying to find Non, as he told his dad, he wasn't sure how he felt about forgiving Non because Non told Phee to his face there was nothing wrong and then Phee watches Non and Keng fucking. So yeah, it makes sense he could could join in on TanNew's plan but he didn't have the same stakes that TanNew did.

The mean girl messy clique worked because you saw that it was largely a friend of convenience for them and you had two different type of alpha girls (Por and Tee) and then a lacky Top and two people who seemed to be voting for the leopard eating face party because they didn't want their own faces ate

The heat was decently high and the NC scenes were really good, that ass slap is iconic

Lows

we didn't get enough with Jin. He was arguably the 2nd or 3rd most "important" character to this maybe and we just didn't get enough of him or his character for him to be fully realized for me

Overall BoC's second series was really good. I think they avoided the sophomore slump.

Maybe the dead friend forever is the friends we made along the way

#dead friend forever #dead friend forever the series #dff the series #dead friend forever episode 12

[scaryscarecrows]

“--laughing?”

“--ne’s toxin neutralized it, but I want to be sure. I’m not risking a second Joker running around Gotham.”

“Sure we don’t need to check the brain? Like rabies?”

“We’ll see.” There’s the sound of someone tapping on glass. “I know you’re awake in there.”

That’s Jason’s voice, and Bruce feels cold. Crane’s toxin wasn’t enough. It was enough to hold this at bay, then, nothing more.

“You’re sure he’s awake, boss?” A new voice. Tired, smoker’s rasp. Not-Jason barks a laugh.

“Oh, yes.” More tapping. “The least you could do is look at me.”

The cowl is still on. He’s on the floor, but the cowl is still on. Where is he?

He can hear water outside, smell that odd clean scent of overly-filtered air, and taste the staleness of having been drugged. None of these things are useful to know.

“Did you two fail vocabulary tests as kids?” a new voice demands. “Stay down, I said. Those injuries are pretty nasty, I said. What about either of those things did you not understand?”

“I–”

“Have roughly the intelligence of a microwave, I know, now sit. Down.”

There’s two sets of heavy, shuffling steps followed by squeak-squeak and flop-thud. Bruce risks cracking his eyes open, just a tad, to try and see the goings-on.

Jason–Not-Jason?--is in a wheelchair. He knee’s in a brace and he’s wearing soft, loose clothing that doesn’t hide the shape of bandages around his torso. His companion, a blond man Bruce has seen a few times throughout Halloween, is in a desk chair, arm in a sling. Both of them are looking away from a third man that Bruce doesn’t recognize, a tall, dark-haired one looming over them.

“You fuck up that knee or rip any of those stitches and I’ll gut you,” he’s snarling. “And you! You’ve gotten maybe half the sleep you should and if I catch you trying to ‘start PT early’, I’ll cut the damn thing off, because clearly you’ve lost that privilege. Clear?”

“Aww, c’mon–”

“I’m fine, I’ve had worse–”

“Clear?”

They fall silent and finally mutter, “Clear.”

“Thank you,” the doctor says serenely. “Tests are still going, is why I came looking for you. Computer says another six hours, easy.”

“Mm.” Not-Jason drops his head back to look at the ceiling. “No early signs of anything?”

“Not yet. So go back to bed, someone will tell you if things get interesting.”

Not-Jason clearly pretends he didn’t hear that in favor of looking back at Bruce.

“How long were you hiding it?”

Bruce is silent. It’s the only way to come out of the hallucinations eventually, is to not play into them. But this isn’t the usual. In the past, when it’s been Jason, he’s been either hurt and begging for help, or furious. This one is…clinical.

No, no, he’s angry: when Bruce doesn’t answer, he shoves himself out of the wheelchair, dodges what Bruce guesses is the doctor, and stalks over to lean against the glass.

“I know you’re awake, asshole. Answer me: how long were you hiding it?”

Joker’s not here yet. All this is oddly linear, actually. Very immersive. It would be fascinating if it weren’t so dangerous. He takes a quick peek at his hands. Still Batman’s gauntlets, not Joker’s gloves. Good.

He looks back up at Not-Jason and just…looks. Not-Jason looks tired, so very tired, and what would have been injuries from Deathstroke are prominent, but apart from that, he looks…better than he did in Joker’s tape. His breathing’s steadier and he doesn’t have his eyes glazed over from pain and drugs and fear.

He’s still angry, though: when Bruce doesn’t answer, he slams his hand against the glass with a resounding wham!

“Want me to call Trent?” the blond asks. Not-Jason turns away with a sneer and doesn’t shake the doctor off when the man steps over to grab his arm.

“No. I don’t want anyone going in there until those tests come back.”

“That include you?”

Not-Jason sinks back into the wheelchair.

“Yes.”

“Good. Let’s go, assholes, visiting hours are over–stay down, you’re getting a ride.”

“I want a ride,” the blond gripes.

“Too bad. Get moving.”

Bruce watches them leave and hopes the hallucination will be over now.

#jason todd #antoine drouot #mark jones #bruce wayne #arkhamverse #scaryverse #ficlet #eh who am i kidding it'll all come together eventually

[dsaf-confessions]

last night I was so out of it i think I hallucated one of the phone guys but i could only see their outline from the corner of my bedroom. they were doing cocomelon shit to me tbh

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#dsaf confessions #dsaf #dayshift at freddy's #this happened to me w void Henry once