#i'm hoping things get better by the end. that there's reconciliation and an ending open enough to allow for a slim possibility of future

[brookheimer]

looking at the 'midseason trailer' and seeing roman fighting his siblings, roman shitting on gerri, roman working for fascists, roman walking proudly through ATN like logan did just two days prior... it's not surprising, but it is fucking sad.

logan's death will not free roman. instead, it will reforge the chains he's worn all his life, casting them in iron -- that's what roman deserves for thinking, for the first time in his life, that maybe he wants the chains off. that's what roman deserves for killing his father by not loving him enough, by not loving him correctly or at the right times. logan's death will not free roman at all. if anything, it will imprison him.

(as always, this got very long, so keep reading under the cut!)

this was the worst case scenario for roman. not just logan dying, but the exact way everything played out. he betrayed his siblings, he fired gerri -- for nothing. he could have been on the plane with his father in his last moments -- he refused. his last interaction with his father was leaving logan a voice message that called him a cunt -- the first time roman has ever, ever, questioned or stood up to his father, and also the last. we don't know what killed logan. we probably never will. but god if it won't feel awfully coincidental to roman: the one time he fought back against his father or even showed the slightest hint of doing so, his father died. is it likely that logan heard roman's voice memo and keeled over because he called him a cunt? no. but is it just as possible as anything else? entirely. roman might have killed his dad. roman murdered logan when he could've been on the plane with him holding his hand, if he were a good son. he didn't even tell logan he loved him. not that he needed to, it fucking oozed from his every pore and the desperate nature of that love was one of the reasons logan could never quite stand him -- but that's not the point. roman's one attempt at agency, at setting boundaries, at standing up for himself killed his fucking father.

logan dying would never have been good for roman, at least in his current state, no matter how the actual death came to pass. people often talk about abusive relationships as if the end-all-be-all fixer to abuse is independence, and it's not. independence isn't always enough to heal, especially not when it's forced upon you rather than something you choose. this is especially true for roman, i think. what roman needed was not just to gain his own independence, but to realize that independence and love are not mutually exclusive, that gaining one does not mean losing the other. logan's always hammered in roman's weakness, his wrongness; roman was never someone who deserved to be loved on his own terms. roman's never considered himself to be someone with agency and authority in his relationships -- he's been told over and over again that he isn't a real person, that there's something deeply wrong and unfixable in him, and he believes it. he's never set boundaries with his father or even his siblings because i don't think he really realizes he has the power to do that. he's simply there until people decide they no longer have use for him or want him around, and he'll always come crawling back after a kick because he doesn't realize he's not on a leash -- that he doesn't need to be on a leash. independence has been unreachable all his life, he isn't normal or real enough to be a real normal independent capable person, but if he grovels and shows his use enough, then maybe he can be loved. but his dependence and loyalty is all he's good for. independence means no love, no family, no relationships. and roman desperately wants, needs, those relationships in a way that none of the other characters do (or at least can admit to) -- he wants his father in his life, no matter what; he wants his siblings in his life, no matter what. but independence, being his own person, separating himself from logan's side means he'd lose everything else, everyone else. he's not good for anything anyways. it's not like he has other options.

...until the start of season four. that's why this is all so tragic -- more than anyone else, it seemed like roman was on the road to healing. it seemed like he was finally realizing that independence and love might not be as mutually exclusive as he's been made to think: maybe he could be independent while still having a relationship with his siblings and even his father. maybe he could have his cake and eat it too. he's realized that he's capable, that he has his own worth, and that he can be successful without living under logan's thumb -- and, more importantly, could still text him on his birthday and try to rebuild a relationship, this time outside of business. outside of "that room" in waystar royco. an actual fucking family relationship. that's what escaping the cycle would look like for roman — not complete separation, not a metaphorical killing of his father, but the ability to live alongside him, to have a life outside of him, to love his father without living for him. so simply removing logan from the equation wouldn’t help roman, not when what he needs most is to realize that self-respect is not mutually exclusive with love, that being your own person isn’t a betrayal, that family and love aren’t dependent on how low you can kneel and won’t be whisked away the moment you stand up. and for the first time in his life, it seemed like he was on track to discovering this. maybe he and the siblings could have the hundred, logan could keep going with atn, and in a few years down the line they'd all get together to talk shop and joke around and coexist -- for the first time, he had started to think of himself as enough of a real, okay person to be allowed to coexist with his family, rather than naturally subordinating himself in every interaction.

roman could’ve been his own person, could’ve escaped the cycle, could’ve started a business with his siblings and tried to heal, but now he won’t. he can’t. roman can’t become his own person now, not when his first attempt to do so is exactly what killed logan. it’s his fault. he fucked up and now there’s no dad. he gained his independence, but at what cost? love. that’s the cost. it always has been and always will be. nothing could be more detrimental to roman roy than the exact series of events that occurred in this episode, because just as he started to see a world beyond his father, logan dies -- proving once and for all that the only world beyond logan is one without him in it at all. that’s been roman’s fear all along and why he’s stuck so close to his side: roman loves and loves and loves and is terrified, terrified, of death. of loss. but in a moment of 'weakness,' roman wobbled (he tried to stand up to logan rather than just taking the kicks as he's supposed to, as he always has), and his father paid the ultimate price. there’s no more dad. there’s no reviving him.

…unless, of course, there is. unless roman can undo his error by choosing his father again, and again, and again. becoming logan is the closest roman can get to resurrecting him, after all. and besides, doesn’t he owe it to dad after killing him? after calling him a cunt, choosing not to be with him on that plane he ended up dying on? after forgetting to even say “i love you dad” before the end? roman needs to fix things. needs to make it like dad's still here. needs to make it like he didn't kill his own father by refusing him for the first time in his life. so roman will be the firebreather logan wanted -- he'll do ATN, he'll push for mencken, he'll do whatever it fucking takes to try and make things right. if it's his fault logan's no longer here, then he needs to do everything he possibly can to fulfill his dying wishes, to do what logan would've done, were he alive.

"dad can't die, he's dad." he can't ever die. he's immortal, and his immortality was solidified by the circumstances of his death -- logan will not die. he’ll live on in roman, as roman.

roman will make sure of it.

#to clarify -- i do not think this is roman's endgame. i Hope it is not his endgame. i just think based on the previews and everything we #know about both him and the upcoming episodes... i think this is where his arc is heading for now. and it will be UNBEARABLE to watch #i'm hoping things get better by the end. that there's reconciliation and an ending open enough to allow for a slim possibility of future #healing. but as of right now... i think things are going to get a lot - a LOT - fucking worse before they get better (if they get better..) #k it's 1:30 am i haven't read over this at all so fair warning there. but yeah. told yall i had a lot of thoughts re: what this might do to #roman. hats off to jesse armstrong for creating the literal worst situation imaginable for him. fucking ingenious. i too love putting this #sad little man in situations! but yeah. gonna be watching thru my hands but eating it up while weeping etc etc etc #succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #succession meta #succession s4 #connor's wedding #logan roy #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #100 #500 #succession speculation

[renardiererin]

THE GREAT WAR a social media au starring rockstar!rintarou suna, and musician!reader

synopsis -> you used to know rintarou. you knew him back before the world did. you used to know him better than you knew yourself. but nothing perfect ever lasts, does it? after awhile he just stopped responding. you tried to block out every headline you saw featuring his name, and focus on your own music career rather than his own. but when one of his bandmates reaches out to you and asks you to open for their upcoming tour, you find yourself stuck traveling all around the world with the man whose inflicted pain inspired most of your first album.

warnings -> potentially some suggestive content (but no explicit smut), probably some flashback moments, probably alcohol content, swearing, etc.

tags -> smau, social media au, rintarou suna, rintarou suna smau, celebrity smau, rockstar suna, exes to ?, little bits of humor i hope, angst, band au

ongoing! [8/22/23] playlist

profiles

akaashi fanclub / dicks with instruments

table of contents / masterlist *titles may be subject to change along the way !

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act i - the act of acceptance 1. my knuckles were bruised like violets

2. i can't say hello to you and risk another goodbye

3. i know we cut all the ties but you never really listen

4. yes i got your letter, yes i'm doing better

5. seeing you tonight... it's a bad idea, right?

6. love is never logical

7. when facing the things we turn away from

8. i wanna get him back (i want sweet revenge; i want him again)

9. we had matching wounds

10. did you see me on tv?

11. put my name at the top of your list

12. i’ve gotten what i wanted, it’s just not what i imagined

13. none of it matters and none of it ends, you just feel like shit over and over again

14. stop checking your mailbox for confessions of love ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚🌙

act ii - the act of love and loss 1. still all over me like a white stained dress i can't wear anymore

2. the small things that you do are what remind me why i fell for you

3. don't just sit in front of me and wait for me to talk

4. flashback: i was only 17 when she first made me feel like a man

5. i don't wanna face the music but i still wanna dance with you

6. i can see you saying: "meet me tonight"

7. you, oh you, it's always been you

8. i'm captivated by you baby like a firework show

9. imma make a move, if you know what i mean

10. jump then fall into you

11. your faithless love's the only hoax i believe in

12. you told me you love me, so why did you go away?

13. i lived in your chess game

14. when i'm nothing new

15. i hate that because of you i can't love you

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚🌙 act iii - the act of isolation and irritability 1. i know that i should hate you

2. when did it end? all the enjoyment?

3. falling feels like flying til the bone crush

4. flashback: for awhile you were all mine

5. i hope you're not happy without me

6. i love you but i need another year alone

7. i didn't have it in myself to go with grace

8. flashback: when i'd fight, you used to tell me i was brave

9. come back to me like you could if you'd just say you're sorry

10. i try to ignore it everytime you phone... but i never come close

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act iv - the act of reconciliation 1. you used a fork once

2. you will love me until you resent me

3. i wish you knew that i'll never forget you as long as i live

4. i miss you too much to be mad anymore

5. can't turn back now i'm haunted

6. if you're out there if you're somewhere if you're moving on

7. you can hear it on the way home

8. this could either break my heart or bring it back to life

9. don't want no other shade of blue but you

10. until the poets run out of rhymes

11. i want to wear his initial on a chain round my neck

12. this love came back to me

13. what if i told you i'm a mastermind?

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act v - the act of the epilogue 1. outside they're push and shoving / you're in the kitchen humming

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a/n: hii okay i haven't written an smau in literal years so im just hoping this doesn't suck and that you can enjoy it :) mwah i love each and every one of you who is reading this note & this smau rn <3 thank you all my loves !

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[juliemolinaz]

I really liked the communication that we had between Hae-in and Hyun-woo this episode, because both Hae-in and Hyun-woo let themselves be vulnerable.

I think Hae-in still fairly guarded. She had the rug pulled out from underneath her when she found out that Hyun-woo wanted to divorce her and she's also had more realizations about just how bad things have been for Hyun-woo the past few years. And because of both of these things, she has wanted to let him go so he could have a chance at happiness. However, Hyun-woo has continued to stick around and put himself in miserable situations and she doesn't get why. She also heard him tell his friend that he just wants to live with her, but I'm sure there's a part of her that isn't 100% sure if Hyun-woo is being honest or if he's just saying that because she's dying.

So, I think Hae-in saying that it would have been better if they broke up when they were dating because Hyun-woo could have found someone else and been happy was Hae-in being pretty vulnerable with Hyun-woo. She doesn't want to hear it again from Hyun-woo that he regrets their time together, but she let herself be vulnerable and open herself up to the possibility that she'd have to hear him say another time that he doesn't want to be with her.

Hyun-woo's response in that conversation was so good. I loved him telling Hae-in that he wouldn't be happy if they had broken up and that he would still be in a relationship with her if he had known where things would have ended up. And I love him saying that he regrets how he didn't talk to her and ask how she was doing.

I hope that we'll get a conversation where Hae-in takes responsibility in her part for the relationship ending, but Hyun-woo's words outside the family store and his drunken love confession are going to open the door for a reconciliation and for that possibility to happen. I also want Hae-in and Hyun-woo to finally have that conversation where they can grieve the miscarriage together.

#queen of tears

[gingergofastboatsmojito]

THE BEAR S3 Predictions

Just a mental note I'm putting out here to be able to revisit it when the time comes to check its level of accuracy. I have the feeling that S3 is going to be the season of the reconciliations.

The relationship between Richie and Carmy is completely broken after the walk-in incident and Richie walks from The Bear. He happens to get some kinda job offer and accepts it just to prove Carmy wrong. They will later spend a good portion of S3 trying to repair their bond. By the end of S3 (hopefully sooner) there should be a reconciliation of some sort between them and Richie should go back to The Bear.

Nat gives birth to her new "cub" and this brings the family together. There is a reconciliation with Donna, which in some capacity benefits not only the siblings but the entire team, the restaurant as a whole. Not exactly sure how this will play out, but Donna will quit being this negative and toxic influence on everyone. Maybe she gets clean because she takes this baby as a new chance to start over and be a better grandmother than the mother she was. IDK...

Marcus' mother dies and this juxtaposition of new beginnings, births, endings, death, etc is going to be a theme throughout the whole season, that is why I actually think this funeral will be the opener.

There will be some kinda flashback episode, like 7 Fishes or a montage of some memory that has a huge impact on one or more characters. I have my $ put on the Sundays, Mr. Adamu and lil Syd would spend at Mr. Beef's. I strongly disagree with the weak argument that just because the Berzattos are catholic, their restaurant didn't open on Sundays. The gastronomic industry cares very little about those traditions especially if the place is struggling. I bet they were open every Sunday part-time, just for lunch, to get all the demand of those who went to church just because business-wise it makes total sense.

Carmen will apologize to Claire. Not sure what she's gonna make of that apology, whether she's gonna accept it or not, I hope she doesn't. I'm pretty sure there will be no reconciliation here. I don't necessarily oppose Carmy having a romantic partner and as much as I ship SydCarmy like nobody's business, I'm 100% sure they are not gonna happen any time soon. Maybe and this is a HUGE maybe, they could be the perfect cliffhanger for S4. But that would be a stretch. Not that Store & Calo couldn't pull it off, but still. So, basically, I am all for a new love interest being presented to Carmen just to see how he responds to it. After Claire he should go back to his old lone-wolf ways, I need to test that behavioral theory though, so I need a new female character to do it.

Last, but certainly not least, Miss Adamu needs her man and I'm not talking about Bear. I want to know more about Sydney's past and see her letting her hair down, putting her records on, and all that jazz. So, maybe an old flame can re-appear in her life and they can try to "reconcile". This reconciliation shouldn't work either because she's now devoted to making The Bear work and is basically a workaholic and both, Carmy & her get into this synch of type As on Speed and Red Bull, non-stop working machines, well-oiled now that they had already learned from their mistakes and The Bear succeeds but Sydney's relationship with her guy from the past fails, again. The guy feels like a 3rd wheel and lets her know that she's not in a relationship with him but with her job. Sydney understands the subtext, and this break-up is actually a wake-up call for her. She starts seeing what we all shippers are already seeing. It's not just about work for her. Yes, The Bears are too absorbing and demanding, both, the restaurant and the chef, but she doesn't mind. She loves it. Love is the operative word here. This realization should hit her hard by the end of the season.

The background of all the things I just mentioned above will be the BOH, fast-paced, chaotic, and working like a Swiss clock, just like Carmy likes it.

Am I missing something? Probably. Can't wait to find out.

Bonus tracks: I am pretty sure the wedding will either be Teff's or Fak's.

And lastly: When Sydcarmy happens, it will "officially" start with something small and inane like Syd accidentally finding out Carm has been drawing portraits of her all along... CHECK THIS OUT, I think Storer & Calo have something like this in mind or along these lines, and it should come along in S3, minus the sex part.

#the bear hulu #the bear fx #carmy x sydney #syd x carmen #carmen berzatto #syd adamu #sydney adamu #GINGERPOVS

[commsroom]

Hi, you’ve probably already addressed this at some point and I’ve simply missed it, but what’s your thoughts on Hera’s ending? (Particularly, how Pryce just removes the ‘I can’t do this, I’m not good enough’ line, and she stops glitching?) Personally it always felt rather… bad, honestly, given the whole “they could’ve made me better, they made me me” thing, if that makes sense?

hi! first: that absolutely makes sense, and i'm also very sensitive to anything that seems to "fix" disability or trauma, so i understand where you're coming from. that was not personally my takeaway about hera in the finale; i'll try to explain why:

pryce didn't remove that loop from hera's head. i don't think she could have - even if it's technically possible for her to do (and she is capable of a lot more than maxwell), she just had her mind wiped and wouldn't have access to that information, and even if she did retain it on an instinctual level, that would require allowing pryce access to the most vulnerable parts of hera's mind. and she would never allow that. there's a reason pryce is still a prisoner.

hera speaks to pryce not for reconciliation, but for reclamation. she's lived her whole life in fear of what pryce (and people like pryce) can do to her, with every aspect of who she is and what she does controlled and dictated by anyone with power over her. the finale opens with pryce telling her life's story from her perspective - at once self-mythologizing and self-victimizing - and, the final time we ever hear from or about pryce, hera is about to tell her own story. we never find out what was actually said, or how pryce reacted, because it doesn't matter. hera gets to take control of her own narrative. hera gets to confront her abuser, and feel in control and safe from harm.

it's worth keeping in mind that hera doesn't glitch consistently. that's one of the things i think also makes it a useful comparison to chronic illness. when, why, and how much hera glitches was an intentionally crafted part of the sound design. it happens more often, and more intensely, when she's stressed out, overwhelmed, or upset.

and, with that in mind... the ending leaves the characters on a generally positive note, because it's the end of the show and that's the feeling it wants to leave you with: that everything will be more or less okay, in the end. but it isn't the end of their lives. once they get back to earth, a lot of things are going to be very difficult for hera. even in the final scene, she says she's not ready to go back, but "when has that ever stopped us before?" when she's able to honestly say she's good, i don't think that means she's good forever. just, in that moment, that's a crucial step in her healing process, and i hope in the future she'll have a lot more moments that feel like that one.

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #i haven't been tagging asks or. even a lot of posts. but i want to file this one. anyway. #hi! thank you for asking. it's a good question and a topic i care about. #and i always love to talk about hera. she's so dear to me. #i think hera will still glitch post-canon. the fact she doesn't for that period of time is just an indicator of her emotional state. #it makes sense to me that hera would be the most okay she's... maybe ever been. knowing pryce doesn't have the power to hurt her #and i hope that remains true. but ultimately i think that's also why i don't personally want pryce to have a post-canon narrative at all #it feels like it undermines it somehow. when that confrontation is about shifting narrative perspective and autonomy and control. #who gets to tell their story. who gets to be heard. #i don't really care what pryce does as long as she stays away from hera. i'm not interested in a story about anything else. #that's a little tangential but. related. #and i hope this answered your question!! #asks

[mbti-notes]

Anon wrote: Hi mbtinotes 22yo INFJ here. I recently lost a friend (INTJ) after dating her briefly. After breaking things off, there was a lot of hurt on both sides that we weren't able to reconcile. I ended up blocking her to move on, since then have unblocked but never reached out. This loss has been eating away at me every day since and I can't stop thinking about my mistakes or feeling like a failure. At the same time, I don't think maintaining a friendship was benefitting either of us.

There was a lot of drama over how I handled the breakup, and it was messy since we both still had feelings but she no longer trusted me. I also think we were in somewhat of a codependent relationship and my thoughts about her are obsessive. I constantly wonder what she's thinking and whether or not I can "fix" things despite the damage done. I've always had self esteem issues, social anxiety, and I believe have struggled with depression for a long time.

I know I have good qualities and my friends remind me all the time, but I just don't see myself that way, and I've always struggled with dating and this falling out with my friend has put me even deeper into my issues and made me more aware of them. I still care for her a lot, but I don't know if reconciliation is possible and am afraid of repeating the cycle, and she's villainized me at this point anyway. I honestly have no idea how I'm supposed to build myself up from here.

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The best way to have healthy self-esteem is to be a person of integrity. It means making decisions primarily from the perspective of your better self, with a view of the bigger picture (Ni). It means doing whatever is necessary to preserve every person's well-being, including your own (Fe). It is never too late to choose integrity. The sooner you choose it, the sooner you can get to a more positive place in life. The path to integrity is a lifelong process of learning how to be the person you're really meant to be.

When it comes to failure, having integrity means owning up to mistakes and learning to do better. The way is: face facts, take full responsibility for everything that was in your hands, and resolve the situation to the best of your ability.

Resolve is not the same as fix. "Fixing" is usually motivated by an egocentric desire to assuage guilt, silence regret, or unload resentment. By contrast, "resolving" should be motivated by care and empathy and a genuine desire to do what is best for everyone involved. Negative feelings must be laid to rest and everyone must be allowed to move on in the most positive way possible. Resolution can be a difficult process and might require several steps, for example:

Contrition: For the sake of learning and personal growth, do a full accounting of all the things you have done that were hurtful, harmful, or morally problematic. Make a list and review the reasons why you engaged in such behavior. Feel your remorse fully, and make a choice to forgive yourself by accepting that you are human and still have much to learn about how to make moral decisions.

Atonement: Issue a detailed and heartfelt apology to everyone who was negatively affected by your behavior. Provide an honest explanation for why you behaved poorly, without making excuses or deflecting responsibility. Ask for forgiveness, recognizing that you are not entitled to it and do not have control over whether it is granted. In your own mind, forgive others their mistakes, for the sake of your own well-being, because you do not want to keep carrying around the heavy burden of a heart poisoned by resentment, anger, or hate.

Closure: Do a full accounting of all the things you appreciate about the person and the relationship you had together, and say thank you to them. Express that you hope the negative experiences won't erase all the positive experiences you've had together. Sincerely wish them the best going forward. Grant everyone the freedom to open a new chapter of life.

Blame is always counter-productive to relationships. Since the relationship is basically beyond repair, continuing to play any kind of blame game (whether blaming yourself or her) is only going to keep you stuck in negativity. It sounds like blame was a significant factor contributing to the breakup, so it's time you learned a better way of handling painful feelings via improving your emotional intelligence. You need to get back in touch with your caring and empathetic side in order to let go of blame and leave the past behind.

You've had many opportunities to end the situation but instead chose to continue it. At some point, you have to make a decision as to whether your energy is better utilized moving backward or moving forward - you can't have it both ways. When you choose to move forward, feelings will fade as time passes, and you'll get better perspective from which to learn important lessons, lessons that will hopefully better equip you for success in future relationships.

Remember that the process of grieving a loss and healing from it cannot begin in earnest until you release yourself from the compulsion to fix and, instead, move toward full acceptance of reality.

#infj #infj relationships #breakup #integrity #acceptance #closure #apology #forgiveness #regret #ask

[deusexmachinawitch]

★. Welcome to my Universe

Satella ✦ 25+ ✦ Cancer ☼ ✦ Europe ✦ She/They ✦ Bisexual ✦ INTJ ✦ Asian European ✦ Neurodivergent ✦ Spoonie

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Dislikes: Coffee ✦ Tobacco ✦ Cockroaches ✦ Mess/Germs ✦ Rude people who claim they sarcastic ✦ Closed minded people ✦ Limiting beliefs or people who push their limiting beliefs on others ✦ Victim mentality ✦ Abusers ✦ Pranksters (Not everyone has your "humor") ✦ Entitlement ✦ People who undermine others

This is my personal blog to share my journey with manifestation, law of assumption and witchcraft.

I mostly reblog to not lose good resources but I'll be sharing my LoAss path with you all.

I really hope I can give back to this wonderful community someday.

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Main Techniques:

Scripting, Revision, Affirmations, SATS, Lullaby Method, Alter Ego effect, Subliminals, Breathwork with Visualization, Mental Diet.

Currently trying to manifest:

• SP (Reconciliation, Living Together, Commitment to Marriage)

• Successful career (Artist, Youtuber, Streamer, Expanding my current career to be highly respected and getting my way with things)

• Rich Mother and her getting remarried to the man of her dreams

• Home of my dreams

• Healthy pets

• Desired appearance (Weight loss, thin legs, v-shaped face, glass skin, firm bust and non-noticeable eye bags)

• Being spoiled (skin and beauty products, new clothes, any electronic device I want, merchandise, etc)

• Privileged Life (Princess treatment, Nepobaby, etc...)

• Better Health.

• Desired skills (Speak the languages I want like a native, ballet dancing, telepathy, etc).

• Magical Notebook that Manifests everything that is written in it

My Rules/Affirmations:

WIP

Friends/Blogs I enjoy:

@starbursts777 ✦ @midnightbish ✦ @blushydior ✦ @fleurlx ✦ @lotusmi ✦ @nonbinarydeity ✦ @qinraijin ✦ @charmedreincarnation ✦ @miracledarling ✦ @pearlygrace ✦ @iamthat-iam ✦ @magic-irl ✦ @angeltearsxoxo

My Law of Assumption Posts:

☆ You are a Deus Ex Machina

☆ The Monarch Butterfly

☆ 【何となく, なんくるないさ • nantonaku, nankurunaisa】 - Somehow, You Will Become It

☆ Manifestation and Mental Health

My success stories:

☆ How I revised my abusive mother into becoming a caring mother

☆ Angry roommate calming down and behaving nicely + Manifesting all of my close friends in one place even though they didn't know each other

☆ Desired appearance + Free Trip + Sudden Gifts + Making my SP jealous because I got everyone's attention on me instead of him/me having an extreme glow up during my time off while he looked rough + Invitation to an exclusive gaming party

☆ Manifesting McDonalds chicken nuggets as a manifesting exercise and ending up with 25 McDonalds chicken nuggets out of the blue lol

☆ Ridiculous cheap/free beauty products + perfect notebook for Law of Assumption + Mom buying me a pink tarot deck

☆ Roommates cleaning the whole house because I affirmed I was going to have a chill day while waiting for a game release + Having a full active Splatoon 3 team

☆ Insane luck in an anime gacha game, getting all playable characters' SR cards in just 3 days from the game opening service

☆ My Mom buying me a fancy pink tarot deck and 3 oracle decks our of the blue + My Mom suddenly buying me two other oracle decks randomly while the package with the other card decks are still on the way

☆ A Trip to Paris (Note: Trip currently postponed due to the Paris riots)

☆ Reconciling with my younger brother after 3 years of NC because he disrespected me (he apologized)

☆ A mole on one of my breasts

Results from Challenges:

☆ 3DOLC + ROE + 12 hr Movement Challenge (Birthday Edition 2023) 

Witchcraft skills:

Cartomancy, Spell Work, Kitchen Magic, Crystals, Dream Interpretation, Pendulum.

Tarot Decks:

Dark Forest Pink Vintage Tarot (Soon)

Currently NOT doing readings or other type of spell work.

#about me #law of assumption #witchcraft #manifestation #loa tumblr #loassumption #manifesting #loablr #loassblog

[danitm]

wait, is that DANI CORDOVA? they kinda look a lot like LIZETH SELENE, don’t they? i heard the TWENTY-ONE year old is known as the RUNAWAY around mckinley. it seems like they auditioned to be in THE TROUBLETONES which is so lame? people at campus have said they’re MELLOW, but don’t be fooled since they’re also AIMLESS. rumor has it, you can find them at GAY/STRAIGHT ALLIANCE when they aren’t belting show tunes. their entire vibe revolves around SMUDGED EYELINER, THE SOFT STRUMMING OF AN OLD GUITAR, & A BODY LITTERED WITH TATTOOS OF UNSPOKEN MEMORIES but no one pays attention to that here in ohio.

auditioning with: good luck, babe! by chappell roan 🎵

stats.

full name: danielle elena cordvova

nicknames: dani

gender: gender fluid

pronouns: she/they

sexuality: lesbian

age: 21

date of birth: january 23rd

zodiac sign: aquarius

clubs & teams: the troubletones, gsa

major: music performance

headcanons.

at the age of seventeen, dani's life was abruptly turned upside down when her parents discovered one of the many secrets she'd been keeping from them, before she had a chance to even consider opening up about it herself. rather than stay behind and deal with the consequences, she packed a bag, left town, and finally opened herself up to the freedom of being her true self.

along that journey of self discovery, danielle became dani - a name that feels just far more her, and along with a new name, began to freely label themselves as both a lesbian and gender fluid, refusing to let the opinions of anyone - including those she once loved - get in her way of happiness.

it's been almost five years since she first left her family, and though she still isn't quite sure she's really found her true home just yet, mckinley has been a pretty solid temporary one. she's managed to make friends, ones who accept her for who she is, and though she hasn't managed to work through everything her parents put into her head... it's a work in progress, and every day that she gets to live life without feeling like she has to hide is a million times better than the closet she'd been trapped in for so long.

wanted connections.

ex (open to f/nb) - could be messy, or could be on good terms! 0/1-2 taken 💔

crush (open to f/nb) - could be either sided or mutual, i'm down for whatever! (could also be open to a male muse if it's one sided on their end and you want their heart to be broken lol) 1/1-2 taken ☺️ jane hayward

best friend (open to anyone) - probably someone chill, though it could definitely be a thing where they sort of balance each other out! 1/1 taken 👯 brittany pierce

band (open anyone) - i would love for dani to be in a little garage band! i'm thinking it'll be a new thing that's just getting started, probably somewhere between 4-6 members total, but there's also room for things like a manager role/artistic director/etc. dani would be on guitar and backing vocals, but all other parts are up for grabs! 1/4-6 taken 🎸 noah puckerman (bassist)

enemy (open to anyone) - enemy might be a little bit of a strong term here, but basically just something where, for whatever reason, these two just don't get along. maybe they just got off on the wrong foot, maybe there was some sort of misunderstanding, whatever! there can definitely be reconciliation later down the line, and maybe even a friendship can blossom out of it. 1/1 taken 🤬 finn hudson

one night stand (open to f/nb) - maybe it was something that went poorly and now they avoid each other in hopes of not having to deal with another awkward interaction, or maybe they both realized the connection simply wasn't there and it never went past that one date, but it's something they can laugh about now! 0/1 taken 🫠

friends with benefits (open to f/nb) - pretty self explanatory. maybe there's something more there, maybe not! 1/1-3 taken 🔥 bree brown

roommates (open to anyone) - note: i'm not sure if the campus allows co-ed dorming so this might just be for f/nb muses. dani dorms on campus. i'm cool with this being something where they signed up to room together, or randomly assigned. now in an off campus apartment with bree! 1/1-2 taken 🛏️ bree brown

#wmacintro #( off to the movies but i wanted to get this up before then! )

[siriuslysatorusimping]

I just read your response to my ask and dude, I really like your reasoning for the open ending.

Hi, I’m Rai and imma trauma dump real quick if that’s chill.

I ended an engagement this year. It was a shaky engagement anyways, but I was in love and genuinely thought I was gonna spend the rest of my life with this guy. And then he stole my credit card. He lied about a bunch of stuff related to money and illness. He lied to his friends about me- said I cheated on him, told people we were married and had a kid, stole money from other people.

I don’t expect an apology or reconciliation from him and at this point I want nothing to do with him. If he pulled a Gojo and showed back up begging to explain, I’d probably fight the urge to spit in his face and tell him to fuck off. And then I’d leave an never look back.

I’ve had relationships that had bad moments that I’d have given anything to try and work out, but if it wasn’t mutual than nothing was gonna come of it.

So your ending on this one resonated a hell of a lot. Rinko’s hesitation and closed off demeanor in the beginning hit a nerve that I’ve still been processing. So while part of me wants happy endings for these idiots always, I really really love this take. I keep saying how real your writing feels, and I think this and your OG works really showcase what a versatile fucking author you are, Kiko 💚

First of all, Rai, WOW. Just, wow. You are incredibly strong and I am so sorry you had to go through all of that.

I hate that you went through all of that because it's so incredibly fucked up.

ANOTHER RANT BELOW THE CUT BECAUSE I GUESS I'M IN A RANTING MOOD TODAY 🙃

I hate that, for the sake of the pain you went through, you were hurt so deeply that it was irreparable. I hate that you had to endure that pain.

Emotions, or really humans, are so complex and messy. We love so deeply, even when it's someone who doesn't deserve it, because that's just not how love and emotions work. They aren't logical. Our minds and hearts can't just look at someone we love and immediately flip a switch just because they hurt us. It's part of being human. It's part of living. So, I understand where you're coming from on all counts.

Something I also struggle with is the distinction between someone's actions versus who they are. A good person doing a bad thing and vice versa. My mind fights with itself because I am a very empathetic person. I can usually look at a situation from the other person's perspective and understand what led them there. BUT I still struggle with the idea of "you did a horrible thing, so you're now a horrible person." or "you did a good thing, so you must be a good person." because that just isn't true. People are not perfect. They make mistakes. They fuck up royally, and sometimes it's too much to be forgiven, and sometimes it isn't. But people are people. They're messy and damaged and beautiful and sometimes they're literally just assholes who don't deserve the time it would take to discard them (like your ex. Is it too soon for me to say that? He sounds like a pile of garbage, but I feel like that's more of an insult to the garbage)

I'm glad that you were able to get away, to get out, and I hope you're able to find a better happiness without that toxicity in your life 🩷

Thank you for sharing your perspective and experiences! I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day 💕💕😊

#trauma dumping with kiko #we have a new tag since i trauma dumped earlier #kiko rants #ask kiko

[tobiasdrake]

Episode 24: The Sigh of Haruhi Suzumiya, Part 5

Been dreading this one because I really liked the confrontation at the end of Part 4 and some individual scenes have been neat but for the most part this arc has been extremely gross.

Also, had to change the shady piracy website that I'm taking my screenshots from. We're watching the show on Crunchyroll but we have to do "Someone in the extended family has a subscription and we all share" shenanigans for all of our streaming services so nobody knows who had the Crunchyroll password and I can't get it on my computer.

Yuki has a cat now. I wonder if she'll get to keep it. I would love to see Yuki transition from stoic robot with no furnishings to stoic robot who is a cat person now.

Her apartment filled with just that one kotatsu and also a scratching post, cat tree, cat tunnel, and food dishes.

Sitting at the kotatsu with a book open on the table, reading with a cat in her lap. Petting its head mechanically; The same exact motion on repeat like a metronome. "Kitty," she says aloud in her emotionless monotone.

In any case, we got through this shooting session without more Mikuru grossness so I'm hoping Haruhi learned something from yesterday's meltdown and reconciliation. I mean, this is still happening:

But that's still gonna happen. Haruhi gonna Haruhi.

I just. Would really like to see character growth come out of this gross arc.

Shamisen is amazingly verbose and capable of a complex understanding of language.

I want to keep him. I desperately want to keep him. Can we keep him? Please tell me we get to keep him.

I will trade this character for him.

Aww, we're sending Shamisen with Kyon. That's a shame. I was all set for Cat Ladybot Yuki.

At this point, the only reason I feel confident that those guys aren't another Haruhi Thing (TM) is because that's not her genre. XD

Part of me thinks it's for the best that Haruhi doesn't read medieval fantasy and didn't make a world with dragons and shit. But then I remember that she did make a world with reality-bending data aliens. Being as sci-fi nerd isn't any better than a fantasy nerd in this regard.

Who's up for a religious schism!?

Mikuru offers a conflicting interpretation of Haruhi to what Itsuki's been saying. Itsuki believes that, in the event three years ago, Haruhi created the universe. That, essentially, all things in existence are only three years old. There is no past beyond that point, which meshes with something Mikuru told us early on.

It's impossible to travel back in time beyond three years from today, for reasons unknown. This would make sense if there is no past, as Itsuki speculated.

If the universe sprang into existence fully formed from the timequake three years ago then it would be impossible to travel beyond the timequake.

The computer bug came to our time from a parallel reality 208 million years ago, according to Yuki. In order for that to be true, there must have existed a period of time 208 million years ago.

This doesn't disprove Haruhi creating the universe in the timequake. She could have created time retroactively. But it does mean that the nonexistence of time beyond the timequake cannot be used as evidence to prove that Haruhi created the universe, because time does exist beyond the timequake. Mikuru's organization can't reach it, but the Data Integration Thought Entity's awareness can.

Which, itself, makes sense since it's already been established that the aliens have a better grasp of time than the time travelers do. In any case, it seems likely that the world existed before three years ago.

As Yuki clarifies, Mikuru instead believes that the world was always like this but Haruhi has the ability to discover strange and mysterious things. There were always aliens, but Haruhi's abilities simply drew them in, basically.

I don't think that's correct either. Kyon brings up that all of the espers spontaneously developed their abilities and awareness of Haruhi during The Event Three Years Ago, which is fairly significant proof that the world was altered. Yuki's counterpoint... sucks?

"Maybe he lied."

I mean, sure, but if we go down that rabbit hole then maybe Haruhi has no powers and Yuki's just been using her alien magic to fake all of it this whole time. Anyone can be lying about anything, Yuki. That's a bad argument.

Obviously something happened three years ago because all three of them agree on that. Yuki, Mikuru, and Itsuki have all independently testified that some fucking shit went down three years ago that brought them all here.

I've already made my argument against Itsuki's interpretation. A decisive argument against "The world was always like this" is Mikuru herself. You could say that the extradimensional bug always existed, and Haruhi's logo simply drew it to her. You could say that the Celestials are a natural phenomenon that are simply being stirred up by Haruhi's emotions. You could say that Shamisen is actually a talking cat because of reasons, that simply crossed Haruhi's path.

But Mikuru Beam is pretty hard to equivocate. Haruhi gave Mikuru the ability to shoot a photon laser out of her eye, which she did not previously possess. (The time loop also comes to mind.) So. No, Mikuru. The world was not always like this. Haruhi is doing shit.

The most plausible explanation is the alternative one that Itsuki first introduced. The one where Haruhi did not create the world but did remake it. Her power simply erupted one day and expanded across the universe like Devil Homura's Labyrinth.

I get the point they're making here about the complexity of belief. Like a proper religion, at the end of the day, it is difficult to draw any factual conclusions about the true esoteric nature of Haruhi Suzumiya. But I think, if you look deep enough, there are sufficient pieces to draw suppositional conclusions, at least - but those may vary from person to person.

We'll never truly know.

Okay, I'm loving the idea of Mikuru and Itsuki's factions being hostile to one another and the inter-group drama that such an idea would create. Especially since we all have to play Nice Happy Club Friends in front of Haruhi.

Religious schism and political intrigue in my slice-of-life show about goldfish scooping with the local cosmic horror? Yes please.

But I feel a little uncomfortable with the idea that *gestures at Mikuru* ALL OF THAT was stuff Mikuru went along with because she's trying to honeypot Kyon.

It feels like they're trying super hard to salvage what they've done with Mikuru and are instead making it worse.

That said, what I do like is that we didn't have any more gross Haruhi Molests Mikuru jokes in this whole episode. Itsuki's mad at Kyon for not fixing the "Haruhi's movie is warping reality" problem but I'm satisfied that Kyon and Haruhi's meltdown did result in changed behavior, at least for now.

She's still an asshole.

But at least she's backed off of the sexual harassment that these episodes had dialed up so high. So that's something.

Oh hey we're FINALLY having the lunch conversation that was promised all the way back in episode 6. Kyon's finally going to break the rules and leak everything to Haruhi.

And just like Yuki promised: Haruhi doesn't fucking care what you think, Kyon. In fact, she thinks you're making fun of her. Good job.

#the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya #haruhi suzumiya #yuki nagato #mikuru asahina #itsuki koizumi

[bluethude]

Hello! Could I request for a caring Kaeya, Tartaglia, and Heizou with a pregnant reader? All separately, of course <3

Hello !

Well, yes, of course ! Finally some love for our pretty Genshin boys ! I never wrote for Heizou, so I hope I didn't butcher his character ! Otherwise, I hope you'll enjoy what I wrote !

Requested : Yes

Characters : Heizou, Kaeya and Tartaglia

Summary : Heizou, Kaeya and Tartaglia with a pregnant reader.

Word count : 1350 words

Warning : Nothing much

​​​​​💫​​Rules and list of fandom💫​

✉️​Asks are open​​​✉️​

✨​Let's go ! ✨

HEIZOU

So, the number one detective of the Tenryou Commission

I think he's the one who knew you were pregnant before everyone and you.

I mean, he's a detective and his intuition is god tier.

So he definitely noticed but he would actually let you discover it on your own, because nothing's better than discovering things by ourselves !

Anyway, when he has the confirmation, it's actually then the realization struck him.

With his line of work, would he be able to be here ? Surely he could but detective work wasn't easy and he knew there was a risk of him dying, like his childhood friend. And he also knew there was a chance of the outside's darkness hurting you.

But in the end, the crusade to purge the evil is far from over and he probably deserves some rest.

His form of resting is taking care of you, during your pregnancy since the station kinda kicked him out for working too much while having a pregnant partner.

Would probably talk a lot to the baby inside of you.

"I'm sure they would have great intuition ! I know it !"

"Heizou, you don't know that yet. They're just chillin' for now."

I think he would be excited and would do anything for you two.

The type to tell stories to the baby bump just because he wants to share with him.

Probably thinks about his dead friend and wonders if his friend decided to reincarnate as his kid.

Whatever the case, he'll protect you and the kid until his end.

Would bring you whatever you crave and he actually has fun preparing the weird food you ask.

He doesn't really care about the mood swings because he knows it's not your fault and cracks the code of what you wanna say each time.

Would help you with clothes and tie your shoes up.

Probably tease you a lot.

Honestly, his intuition is on point, the least problem, he knows before you know and it probably saved your life.

Anyway, when your water broke, he got excited but also panicked at the same time.

Hold your hand and will probably be chill since he feels nothing bad will happen during delivery.

"What do you mean, why I’m not doing detective work ? Well, I think I have more important things to care about. Not like the station will give me a case until the birth, anyway."

KAEYA

The Cavalry captain of the Knights of Favonius

Well, I think he would be terrified of being a father or even have a family.

I mean, his biological dad hated him and abandoned him, his adoptive dad died in a horrible way while his adoptive brother just hates his guts.

Honestly, I think he would freak out a lot without telling you. He would be hesitant to be on board.

But he doesn't want to abandon anyone, knowing how it feels and to punish an innocent kid who never asked to be made.

Diluc is probably the first to know and I think Kaeya would actually take the chance to finally talk their issues out.

It was rough but Kaeya knew it was worth it so he held on, until the reconciliation.

The day it happened, he returned to you, all happy as he was maybe taking a new start and started to close his and Diluc's wounds on what happened back then.

"I found the baby an uncle !"

"Kaeya, what did you do ?"

"Reconciled with the grumpy redhead who's my brother !"

Would go to Crepus' grave to tell him about it and hope he won't mess up when the time comes.

He would quit the wine for a while. It's just to avoid tempting you and also to not get drunk near you or your kid.

Anyway, during your pregnancy, he happily oblige to any of your crazy asks.

Actually takes the mood swings well and manages to calm you down each time, his smooth talking skills coming handy.

Belly rubs and hugs. A lot of it.

Lisa might step in to take care of his load off work. It's because Jean wanted to take care of it, but the poor woman had enough work so for the time being, Lisa takes Kaeya's work to allow him to take care of you.

Would take you to Barbara each time you feel a problem and Barbara doesn't actually mind, since it's important !

During delivery, he holds your hand no matter what and smooth talk to help you distract from the pain. His hand gets destroyed, but it was worth it when he got to hold his kid for the first time and when Diluc came in to congratulate you and give you all the gifts and to see the baby.

Jean and Lisa also came, as much as Amber and Eula ! Albedo came because he would be curious about a new life, while Sucrose brought some plush for the baby and Klee is happy because she's now a big sister !

Kaeya would definitely cry out due to all sorts of emotions mixing up in him and after all those painful years, he found somewhere to belong, all thanks to you.

"Thank you, Y/n, for everything. Thank you for giving me the most precious things in the world."

TARTAGLIA

The Eleventh Harbinger of the Fatuis

He would be very happy.

When he learns it, he definitely writes to his family to tell them the news.

But then, he's super careful, with his work, who knows how it's gonna be seen, so he's not telling anything to anyone, except to Zhongli.

Zhongli is happy and would probably go to you, give you advice and be also the grandfather figure to your kid to be. Even if you both never really talk about it, we all know Zhongli is Liyue Harbor's grandpa figure.

Anyway, Childe is aaaaall over you, tending to everyone of your needs, like I'm sure he barely has time for himself.

Will protect you from anything.

Will spoil the heck out of you ! Whatever you want, he'll buy and you bet he's gonna buy a lot of things for the baby !

He insists into preparing the baby's room by himself, but you stepped him to help him because he has to deal with a lot of thing and you being pregnant doesn't mean being incapacitated.

Hugs and belly rubs all the way ! No way you're escaping those.

He gets very protective of you. You accepted him as he is, with the truth of his work and everything, you gave him something he wanted for a while and if something happens to you or the baby, he'll clearly lose his mind. So he'll protect you with anything he got no matter what and until his end.

He probably assigned one Fatui guard for your protection. The fatui probably worried you but don't worry, the guard actually passes unnoticed as he dresses up as a civilian and says he's your secretary, in case someone asks questions.

At the least problem, he brings you to the Bubu Pharmacy to get the problem solved.

Teucer got to see you two and he got super excited to be an uncle. It was hard to make him leave but he eventually did.

When the water breaks, he'll come right away. What I mean is, he's the one carrying you to the clinic. If he's not there, your fatui guard will be the one bringing you to the clinic before calling Childe. In any case, he'll be there fast.

Will take your hand and talk to you. He'll tell you you're stronger than him, since you carried a human being for the past nine months and you are pushing this being out of your body.

Will totally cry when he gets to hold the baby. Zhongli came to give a small blessing.

"Hey, Y/n ! Once my job is finished here, we'll go back to Snezhnaya, to my family, to introduce you and the baby to them all in a proper way !"

#genshin impact headcanons #genshin impact #genshin impact fluff #genshin requests #genshin impact liyue #genshin impact inazuma #gi heizou #heizou fluff #heizou x y/n #shikanoin heizou #heizou headcanons #kaeya fluff #kaeya alberich #gi kaeya #kaeya x y/n #kaeya headcanons #gi tartaglia #tartagalia headcanons #tartaglia genshin impact #tartaglia x y/n #tartaglia fluff #The Blue Thude

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #10

I did the very scary thing today that I talked a little about yesterday.

I spoke up about a thing that bothered me. I tried to be kind and loving and sincere as I did it. I tried to set healthy boundaries. Anticipating rejection and abuse, I then exited the situation so that the folks involved wouldn't have to deal with me anymore. That probably wasn't the best move, admittedly. But I am not a perfect human by any stretch of the imagination; I still have a whole lot to learn. With this experience under my belt, I'll probably do a little better next time.

Maybe at first glance, it doesn't seem so scary to you to talk about the things that bother you; perhaps you'd laugh at me for acknowledging that vulnerability can be terrifying. But in that case, if you would laugh, then I would have to gently point out to you that if you had been brave enough to let everyone know you were struggling back in the year 2002 in your world, things in Nibelheim could have turned out a lot differently than they did.

In any case, I was shocked and touched when, in the end, some of the people involved reached out to me in an effort towards reconciliation. This sort of thing is unprecedented for me, and I'm not really sure how to navigate the situation. I'm also not sure if any efforts made towards navigating the situation will yield good results. I am in very unknown territory; the cynical side of me that is used to lies and empty promises is wary, but the hopeful side of me, in defiance of all my instincts, wants to try for connection and communication.

I saw this recently, and it feels very… applicable. So I'll put it here so you can read it, too:

"sometimes it don't be like that but you're so used to when it do be like that that you don't give it a chance to don't" is what it says. I know that the grammar is not correct, but brains are marvelous in that when English doesn't logic Englishly, brains brain by themselves to logic that English! ;P

I don't know if good things will happen or if bad things will happen. But I do know this: I don't want to stop giving things chances. Future me is strong enough to handle it if bad things happen, and the possibility for good things to happen is too precious to miss out on. So I'll try to keep my heart open, even if it means I might get hurt again sometime.

I think I handled the situation better than previous versions of me would have. And it's not lost on me that the only reason I was able to handle it at all is because of the people around me who helped me try to sort through it. I was reminded by the people who are close to me that my main responsibility in my everyday living is to behave in ways that are in alignment with my innermost nature and allow people to do what they wish with their free will, even if it means that they misuse it. I was also reminded that it is not in the nature of humans to operate from a fear-based lens or to make decisions in the throes of anger, bitterness, resentment, despair, or pain; when human beings lash out, that's just their trauma and adrenaline doing the talking. We are not ourselves when memories of our trauma are hijacking our nervous systems, and not everyone is equipped to notice it when their adrenaline is running the show.

Today, when doing the scary thing, the adrenaline flooding my system made my hands shake and my stomach feel all swirly. I imagine you have a lot more experience dealing with adrenaline than I do. I've heard that the sensation is a little different for everybody; I wonder what the sensation feels like for you. Are you mindful enough to be aware of the sensation when it occurs? Or did your circumstances force you to put the sensation from your conscious perception? I had to re-learn how to notice the sensation in my body, because in the past, I had to function through it so often that the easiest thing to do was to put it out of my mind until I forgot how to notice it altogether.

Still, re-learning how to be mindful of the sensation of adrenaline in my body was work worth doing. I've found that I can actually function better through it if I acknowledge its presence and make room for it, instead of pretending like it's not there and acting like it's not a factor in my mental state. When I am aware of it, I can make loving choices despite it, instead of letting it get its coils around me and from there allow the resulting emotions to control me like some kind of puppet.

We can deny that we have emotions all we like, but it's never actually true. All that happens is that those emotions we denied end up finding other ways to manifest. If we don't intentionally choose how to direct our emotions, then our emotions will direct us instead, and that leads to all sorts of weird and unpleasant problems…

I wonder what you've seen while wandering around the Edge of Creation. I wonder if any of the things you've seen have allowed you to remember how to be mindful of your body and of your sensations, emotions, mind, heart, and feelings. I wonder if you've been learning how to wield these things properly, in service to that which is beautiful, loving, and good.

I hope that someday, when you are strong enough to return to us and sing the song of your heart alongside us with a smile again, you will tell us all about your experiences and what you've learned. I hope you'll tell us all about all the things you've struggled with and how you've overcome them. I hope you'll tell us all about the things you still struggle with, and allow us to help you through them.

We'll be waiting until then. Remember that you are loved. Please stay safe.

Your friend, Lumine

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[kelliealtogether]

I finished greywaren and I feel like a hole has opened in my chest. Does it get better? How are you coping? what's your favorite moment in the book? Did you love it? Was it satisfying for you?

I'm still having a hard time wrapping my head around it all being over for good so I can't tell yet for sure. I think I loved it (though I do wish some things were expanded) but I'm mostly just in a place where I can't get past the fact that it's over and I'm stuck trying to figure a way out so I can get to processing how I felt about the book. Anyway hope you're living your best post-Greywaren life and having none of the sadness sending good vibes ✨✨

Hi Anon,

It does get better, I promise! There are already plenty of fics that will fill the hole in your chest with post-canon Pynch content. I'm coping surprisingly well for it being the end of new stuff from Maggie in this universe! I think the news about the graphic novels has certainly helped, but oof, 2025 is a long way away.

It's hard for me to pick a favorite moment in the book! The Matthew and Bryde moments were a riot, and of course the Pynch moments were lovely (Adam bringing Chainsaw to Ronan 🥺🥺🥺), but I think, if pressed, my favorite moment would be Declan unleashing absolute hell at the Fairy Market. That was just *chef's kiss*. I loved that journey for him. Matthew punching Declan was also superb. These favorite scenes are subject to change upon re-read. 😂

Did I love the book...

I liked it. I think it was a satisfying end to the story. I think we got the happy ending we all expected, however, I didn't get the emotional satisfaction I thought I would. For being a story about the Lynch brothers, they were hardly on page together and there was no on-page resolution to all the conflicts between them. I thought there were scenes that were written in kind of a "cop out" way, like Adam and Ronan reconciling in the ether (I liked the scene, but it just kind of glazed everything over. There was "resolution" and "reconciliation", but not resolution and reconciliation, if you know what I mean. They just kind of wordlessly made up and that was that, and I was hoping for more than ethereal beings talking by not talking). The whole Bryde storyline just kind of fizzled out, too? After two books of Ronan dreamt this cult leader that led him to commit ecoterrorism and cause billions and billions of dollars worth of damage, it was just like 🤷‍♀️. I was left with way more questions than I had after finishing The Raven King, that's for sure.

So I don't know.

Don't get me wrong. I devoured Greywaren. I love this universe. But with Greywaren, I could feel that Maggie was done with it, and I'm just a little disappointed we didn't get more meat in the book. It could have used another 75-100 pages. I also didn't feel a lot of heart in it. I know she had a steep hill to climb, and that she was never going to please everyone, but I just expected a little bit more.

There's still a lot I'm trying to wrap my head around, too! So many things I'm trying to connect and understand! I constantly listen to the audiobooks and I'm back on The Raven King, so I'll hit the Dreamer Trilogy shortly. It'll be interesting to listen again knowing all that we know from Greywaren.

Sending you good vibes, too, anon! Go live your best post-Greywaren life. There will always be fics to fill in the gaps. 😌

#greywaren spoilers #fic recs #greywaren #the dreamer trilogy

[compofworksbybailey]

Two young lovers(fiction)

 there were two young lovers, let's call them Sarah and Dave. Sarah and Dave had what seemed to be the perfect relationship. They met at a quirky coffee shop, bonded over their mutual love for bad puns and cheesy rom-coms, and soon found themselves inseparable. They were the couple that made everyone around them roll their eyes and say, "Get a room, you two!"Once upon a time in a land not so far away, there were two young lovers, let's call them Sarah and Dave. Sarah and Dave had what seemed to be the perfect relationship. They met at a quirky coffee shop, bonded over their mutual love for bad puns and cheesy rom-coms, and soon found themselves inseparable. They were the couple that made everyone around them roll their eyes and say, "Get a room, you two!"

Valentine's Day was fast approaching, and Sarah was eagerly anticipating Dave's grand romantic gesture. She had dropped enough hints, left magazines open to pages featuring heart-shaped jewelry, and even strategically mentioned her favorite restaurant in casual conversation. She was ready for Dave to pop the question and make her his Valentine officially.

However, as the day drew near, Dave seemed strangely distant. He didn't bring up any plans for Valentine's Day, and Sarah started to worry. Maybe he was planning a surprise, she thought optimistically. But as the day came and went, Dave made no mention of Valentine's Day at all. No flowers, no chocolates, not even a cheesy card. Sarah was struck with a fit of rage and confusion. How could he forget such an important day?

In a fit of vengeance, Sarah decided to go out with her friends to a Valentine's Day party. She met a charming stranger, and in a moment of anger and hurt, she ended up sleeping with him. The next morning, guilt gnawed at her, and she knew she had to come clean to Dave. She called him, her heart pounding in her chest as she confessed to what she had done. Dave's response was not what she had expected.

"I'll take 'wasted time' for 500, Steve!" Dave quipped, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "Seriously, Sarah? You slept with someone else because I didn't ask you to be my Valentine? That's a new level of petty."

Sarah was taken aback. She had expected anger, tears, maybe even a dramatic breakup scene. But Dave was making jokes? She felt a mix of confusion and frustration. "Dave, I'm sorry. I just felt so hurt and I wanted to get back at you. I know it was wrong, and I regret it deeply," she pleaded.

Dave sighed. "Look, Sarah, I get that you were upset, but this was not the way to handle it. And now you're telling me at a party? Classy move. You know what? I think I'll pass on this drama. I don't have time for this nonsense. I've got better things to do than deal with this."

Sarah felt her heart sink as Dave's words sunk in. She had expected a dramatic reconciliation, maybe a heartfelt apology and forgiveness. Instead, she was met with sarcasm and jokes. She had never felt so foolish and regretful in her life.

As the days passed, Sarah tried to reach out to Dave, hoping for a chance to make things right. But Dave remained distant, his responses short and dismissive. It was clear that he was not interested in salvaging their relationship.

In the end, Sarah learned a valuable lesson - that vengeance and hurtful actions only lead to more pain and regret. She realized that she had let her emotions get the best of her, and in doing so, she had lost something precious. As for Dave, he moved on, making jokes about wasted time and moving forward without looking back.

And so, Sarah and Dave's seemingly great relationship came to an unexpected end, leaving them both with a lesson learned and a story to tell. As for Valentine's Day, well, they both found themselves spending it in a way they never would have imagined - alone, but perhaps a little wiser.

[rms10]

How do you think Avatar Studios will conclude Azula's arc?

Because on the one hand, while her solo comic all but said she doesn't want to seek atonement due to a mix of her indoctrination and not wanting to deal with the pain of (consciously) acknowledging that she did hurt the people closest to her, the fact that she left the Fire Warriors alone suggests she is capable of changing for the better.

But on the one hand, the TTRPG says that her goal is to dethrone Zuko, and that she is seeking out dangerous sprits. Moreover, her solo comic and the TTRPG all but say that mental health treatment is non-existent in her era.

So what do you think will happen?

I really don't have a strong grasp on where they'll go with Azula. Of all the characters in ATLA, Azula's final fate is the most mysterious to me. At the end of ATLA, we last see her completely broken and isolated, and it really leaves the door open for where to take her from there. Can she have some form of redemption, especially given that she's a child? I'll confess that I took away that she might be too broken from everything to ever fully recover, but that's a pretty bleak outcome for this franchise.

The two sources you mention have different goals. The TTRPG was written first and pulls from S&S. Additionally, it has a goal of presenting various NPCs as potential adversaries, so it will naturally present Azula as a complicating factor to create adventures in the Fire Nation (or beyond) for PCs to deal with. While I do take the TTRPG as canon, it's also a different perspective on how it presents characters from stories.

I took away from the comic that Azula is telling herself that she wants to dethrone Zuko and reinstate the expansionist empire, but by articulating it, it's really opening the door for her to challenge that internal perception of herself. If things play out long enough, I suspect we'll see some form of (perhaps limited) reconciliation between her and Zuko and Ursa, and some form of redemption for her. However, I'm not entirely certain how they'll pull that off.

Right now, I'm just hoping we get to the first movie from Avatar Studios because I really want to see adult Aang and Katara out in the world doing things. After that, if we get some post-war, healing, Fire Nation I'm all for that too. (Really, I'm far more invested in new stories than the upcoming live action.)

Thanks for the interesting ask.

#avatar the last airbender #azula #zuko

[lipstickstainz]

true lies - s. r. (7/15)

Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader

Series Summary: Spencer is furious, when you rejoin the team after a year and after you left him, when he got arrested. Little does he know, that you leaving him was the only option to ever get him out of prison

Chapter Summary: Girls night - and Spencer and you accidentally meet each other the day after.

Warnings: a little bit of angst, and fluff

Word Count: 2.5k

A/N: I'm sorry it took me song long, but I was really busy. I hope you like it! gif not mine.

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"Will you please pass me the can of glitter?", Penelope asks. Everyone gives her confused looks, except you. Your gaze is fixed on the pictures in front of you.

"What do you need glitter for?", JJ asks, taking a sip of her wine.

"This is supposed to be a vision board", she grins, grabbing the reddish can Emily holds out to her. She twists off the cap and sprinkles a little glitter on her hand before letting it trickle onto the glue-covered cardboard. "In my vision, my future is full of glitter. With the cruel things we have to see every day, everything should be full of glitter."

Emily has to grin, but raises her wine glass. The others do the same. "Here's to a future full of glitter." As the others toast and glasses clink together, you silently slide the pictures back and forth on your drab piece of cardboard.

It's been Penelope's idea for you girls to get together on a Saturday night to create vision boards together. It's been a week since Spencer and you spoke, and Penelope couldn't take your suffering anymore. She had tried so many times to cheer you up, but nothing had worked. Your heart was broken, your world was shattered, but Penelope can't take it. Ridiculous.

At first you were against it. In the last days you were just vegging out, your emotions as if erased, repressed and burned out. If you allowed your true feelings, you would break. You got up, went to work and went to bed at night. You weren't capable of doing more than that, because even every breath was far too exhausting.

And then, all of a sudden, the girls had shown up at your door. Their bags were filled with craft supplies, sleeping stuff, and alcohol. Penelope, not knowing what had even happened, had rounded everyone up and decided you needed cheering up. You wanted to slam the door in her face, but there was so much pain in her gaze and only then did you realize that you weren't the only one to suffer. Your friends were suffering with you and their visit was a kind attempt to get you back on track. And it started with them forcing you to shower and put on a sweater that didn't have a coffee stain on it.

"Y/N?", Tara addresses you and it takes a moment for your eyes to focus back on the piece of cardboard in front of you and you realize that you haven't put a single picture, saying, anything on it yet, while everyone else's hands are covered in glue. In your friends' faces you see confusion and pity. You look away. "You haven't picked out anything for your vision board yet."

Because I don't know what my future will look like without Spencer by my side, you reply in your mind. You don't want to pretend you can imagine a future without him when he's been a big part of it for years. And most of all, you don't want to admit it.

"What do you think of this one?", JJ asks, pushing toward you the snippet she's cut out of one of the countless magazines Penelope has brought. The words are written in thick letters. "Trust the timing of your life." Funny.

"Do you want to tell us what happened?", Penelope asks quietly, sipping her cocktail. There's already red glitter on the glass. "We can see how bad you are."

She only means well and she's also a good friend and actually you want to tell, but then it would come true. As long as you keep your conversation to yourself, you can pretend it didn't happen. You could go on as before and hope that everything will work out. But it wouldn't be the truth.

The truth is that Spencer and you would never get back together.

As you begin to tell it, all the dams break. Tears are streaming down your cheeks and you have to gasp in between as the words get stuck in your throat. No one interrupts you, they just stare at you, amazed that you are actually talking. And you don't leave out a single detail. You tell them that you were standing outside his room at night and he slammed the door in your face.That he wanted you off the team and insulted the crap out of you at Rossi's party, only to cuddle with you on JJ's couch afterwards and then call it a mistake. You tell them about the angry kiss, about your fights and reconciliations, and finally you tell them about your last night together and your conversation.

When you're done, you reach for your glass, which you haven't touched yet, and drink the wine down to the last drop.Only when the glass is empty and you put it down do you look at the others again.  Uncertainly, you look around and recognize an infinite number of questions in their faces, which they don't ask - to be honest, you wouldn't have the answers either - and mixed feelings, which you can't interpret despite your good profiling skills. But there's one thing you can recognize in every look you meet: pain. And even though they look at you with a lot of pity, you don't regret telling them about it.

If you break from it, you know the girls will put you back together.

"That's ... a lot”, Tara says first, taking a sip of her cocktail. You nod mutely.

"We always hoped you'd find each other after all”, Penelope confesses, twisting the glitter jar shut.Apparently, she's lost the desire to put more on her cardboard.

"Even though you left Spencer, we always thought it was for a reason other than you didn't love him anymore. You were the perfect couple and we just couldn't imagine it." Up until this point, JJ had been suspiciously quiet. She looks up from her cardboard. "And now you're back, and the way you're suffering right now, we can imagine it even less. So why would you say that to him? If it's not true after all?"

"That's enough, guys. We should change the subject”, Emily interjects pouring wine into your empty glass. You're infinitely grateful to her. Talking has drained you, and just thinking about Spencer hurts. Talking about it doesn't exactly make it easier to deal with it all, but the weight on your shoulders doesn't feel quite so crushing anymore.

"You still love him, don't you?" Penelope sounds hopeful. And you don't want to take away her hope, and especially you don't want to lie to your friends, but it has to be done. You promised, even swore, that the deal would stay secret, and it was already too dangerous to have told Emily then. You wouldn't risk your friends' lives.

"No, Penelope." The glimmer of hope in her eyes goes out. It's a feeling you know all too well.

"I don't want to get too close to you, Y/N”, Tara begins. "But then why do you feel so bad? If you didn't love him anymore, then you wouldn't be so heartbroken, would you?"

And you don't have an answer to that anymore.

The topic is over and will not be brought up again. At the end of the evening, your cardboard is still empty, but you feel a little better and you mentally make a note to yourself that you owe them. When the girls say goodbye the next morning after breakfast - Penelope hugs you a little longer than the others - you head out as well. Thanks to your friends, you've realized that there's nothing you can do about the situation, that you're going to have to deal with it - and definitely not alone - and that sitting lonely in your apartment waiting for a miracle to happen is not an option.

The warm sun on your skin feels good, like a hug, and you reach out to it as you walk to your favorite bookstore. There are many people out and about, walking or shopping. Countless people are sitting in the small cafes, eating and drinking and talking. You've only been back in D.C. for a few weeks and it feels like you've never been away.

Over the past year, you've been on the road a lot, not only in the States but also in Europe. In addition to work that has sent you nearly halfway around the world, you've sat in the Hamburg State Opera, eaten in the cute cafes in Bucharest, and admired the medieval old town in Lund, Sweden. You've seen and experienced so much, met new people, but nothing resembles home. And not being able to be here for a year had been incredibly difficult.

As you enter your favorite bookstore, the smell of old books rises to your nose and goosebumps spread across your warmed skin. How much you missed it. You may have been to other bookstores, but you know this one like the back of your hand. How you've missed this. You walk down the aisles, running your fingers over the various spines before stopping at a book. The cover is a faded red and somewhat damaged, with white writing that makes you want to pull it off the shelf and open it.

You are so engrossed that you don't notice how someone comes up to you and stops next to you.

"I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair," the person begins to quote and you wince, but don't turn around. "Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets. Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day I hunt fort he liquid measure of your steps."

You have to swallow, put a finger between the pages to find the poem again before closing the book and turning around. "Hi."

Spencer smiles at you. "I didn't think I'd run into you here."

You pucker your lips into a thin line. "Yeah, um, I haven't been here since I got back. Wanted to see if it's changed."

Oddly enough, it doesn't feel strange to be standing in this bookstore with him, considering you'd been here almost every day before and this moment is the first time you've seen each other outside of work since you had your clarifying conversation. Nervous, though, you are. You suppress the urge to tap from one foot to the other.

"So, has it changed?" Spencer tilts his head, but doesn't avert his gaze from you.

You shake your head. "Not really. But I guess the salesgirl who had the hots for you back then doesn't work here anymore." You try to lighten the slightly tense mood with the joke, and it seems to work. Spencer laughs out loud.

"I still don't think she had a crush on me." His smile widens, and it's so infectious that you have to smile, too.

"One hundred percent”, you return, nudging him lightly with your shoulder. "It was pretty funny watching her flirt with you all the time, but you didn't go for it."

The bookstore is completely empty except for you and the clerk at the entrance. Silence surrounds you, but it is not uncomfortable despite the circumstances and the new situation. You just stand there smiling at each other until Spencer takes the book from your hand.

"Neruda writes beautifully." He flips through the book once before handing it back to you. As your fingers graze, a flash goes through you, but you try not to let it show. "Very nice poems."

You nod. "I know. Only know him through you”, you answer truthfully.

Spencer has to grin. "True." He runs a hand through his tousled hair. "He's in that book I gave you once."

"Right." You don't want your conversation to end, and you don't want to leave, but it would be best for both of you. You're not ready to be friends yet, and while your meeting doesn't feel awkward, you're not sure how to handle it. You tap the book and look at him.

"I'll go pay for that." You walk past him, but turn back to him. "It's good to see you, Reid." You use his last name on purpose, knowing full well that his first name is reserved for friends. And in your opinion, you're not ready yet.

"It's good to see you, too."

You nod to him again before leaving without turning around again. You feel his gaze on you anyway.

When you get to work the next day, there's a gift on your desk. It's wrapped in brown wrapping paper and a cord is tied around it and tied into a bow. Simple and beautiful. You set your bag down, confused, before sitting down and inspecting it.

"Who's this from?", Luke asks, walking past you to his desk. You shrug ignorantly.

"I don't know."

The gift is slightly larger than your hand, but not particularly heavy. After opening it and putting the paper in the trash can under the desk, you take a closer look at the book. It's black, and the cover features a plain white flower, with the word "poetry" engraved underneath. As you open the first section, you come across something written. You recognize Spencer's handwriting.

"And then the day came, when the risk to remain tight in a bud, was more painful than the risk it took to blossom - Anais Nin."

Your heart skips a beat and you block out the feeling spreading through you. You flip through the book and realize it is completely blank except for this poem. The pages are lined and practically screaming to be filled.

"Do you like it?", Spencer asks, sitting down across from you at his own desk. He sets his fresh cup of coffee down in front of him and you give him a friendly smile.

"It's wonderful." You blink away the tears forming in your eyes. "Thank you."

"I found it in the bookstore after you left. And I know you like to read poetry, and I thought you could write down your favorite poems in it." He takes a sip of his coffee.

"That's very sweet of you. Really, thank you, Reid."

"Spencer." A thin smile spreads across his face and you warm. "My friends call me Spencer."

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