thinking about how dracula, at its core, is a queer novel that bleeds with loneliness. we donât know how bram stoker would identity if he had access to modern terminology and contemporary views on sexuality as an identity rather than a sexual preference (and i donât think we should know), but queer is super useful term here
and dracula, a novel about a monster who passes his infection on through blood, published two years after oscar wildeâs terribly public, terribly dangerous trial for sodomy, in a time where it was fresh knowledge that STDâs could be passed through blood⊠i mean, it feels disingenuous to the source material to ignore the terror steeped in the novel like that.
this is a book that revolves around the presence of and the physical lack of sex, that features a single man of his kind so monstrous he cannot say holy words or stand the touch of consecrated things, or even see himself in the mirror⊠it echoes such a terrible, tortured loneliness echoed in a lot of queer work and gothic in general (and the two very often overlap). the idea of being the only one of your kind, or at least, feeling like the only one, in a world that actively hunts you
i go by Synth online. i probably count as a âtumblr oldâ (been here since 2011, and iâm even older than the source material my f/o comes from). iâm one of these đłïžâđ. i do a lot of arts n crafts, and have commissions open. iâm bad at writing about me.
this is my main selfship sideblog- my main blog and the one i'll follow you from is @leadendeath, mostly furry-oriented but personal too, and if you want more general spunch.b0p-related goodness, iâm over at @1percentevil. if you already know me from those places, you are absolutely fine to follow/interact/whatever. iâm only joking when i call myself cringe or embarrassing :))) iâm unnecessarily self-conscious about every action iâve ever done ever and i gotta get over it somehow.
This isnât a faq, more like a âthings you might be wondering aboutâ:
âWhat does your url mean?â -the species plankton are called copepods. yay for having a pre-existing interest in marine bio. the 5000 doesnât mean anything, i just thought it looks cool. and vaguely technological.
âPlankton is already marriedâŠâ -anyone who loves Plankton, i also love by extension. That includes Karen! luckily i like computers and robots too very much :)
âSo are you okay with sharing him?â -See above. Yes! He needs all the love.
âAnniversary?â -23/7/23. i already knew him from years back, but really reconnected with him when i heard a certain song⊠it was love at first listen. iâve had few and far between f/os in the past, and every time it was the same âfall for them hard and fastâ situation.
âF/O list?â -just the one guy is all i need. :)
Now hereâs where iâll infodump about my s/iâŠâŠ eventually lol. When I get round to getting a few sketches Iâve done out of âWIP purgatoryâ, Iâll post about it under the #đŠ tag. Iâm a shark, his best(/onlyâŠ) customer, then shoulder to cry on, then we progress to more⊠lil dweeb latches on to the first guy who truly doesnât consider him a loser. i could be talking about either of them thereâŠ
âi now have a toyhouse page for it! backstory and more hereâ
part iii of dbf!joel! parts i here and ii here. ask, dear readers, and you shall receive. i do just wanna also add a massive thank you to you guys for all the love on this series. every single like, reblog, reply, etc. means the world to me. i hope you enjoy this next chapter đ reader got joel quaking !!! đ„”
pairing: dbf!joel x fem!reader
summary: joel knows he shouldn't be looking at you the way he is, but you look so pretty on your knees; how can he say no?
warnings: 18+ minors dni!!! oral (m receiving), praise kink, jealous/protective joel, age gap (reader is 23, joel is 48), consumption of alcohol, cursing
word count: 4.6k
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You know what he means. Heâs in a lot more trouble than you are if you both get caught; heâs your dadâs buddy. He isnât supposed to be fooling around with his best friendâs daughter.
You think over what youâve gotta be doing to him â all the glances when no oneâs looking, the touching, practically fucking begging for him to make you cum earlier. Itâs no wonder heâs trying so hard to stop himself every time, no surprise heâs doing all he can not to give in to you. And right then, you realize â
Thatâs exactly what you want him to do.
You spend a few more minutes up in your room before you follow Joel out the door and downstairs. Youâre a little flustered, okay? Your dadâs best friend just had you literally wrapped around his fingers, and now you both gotta head off to a friendly neighborhood barbecue youâre supposed to be hosting. All smiles. All, Anyone need a refill? All, No, I havenât just totally been fooling around with Joel Miller.
The house is empty and voices feed in from the backyard. You push aside the shades and step out onto the bright patio, where a few of your neighbors are sitting. Joel stands between Hank and Ritaâs chairs, and you amble over to his side.
You sense his body tensing as soon as you reach him, your shoulder brushing off of his deliberately.
âHello, my girl,â Rita calls, taking one of your wrists in her frail hands. âI sure am glad to see you back on home turf.â
You smile a little awkwardly, placing a hand on top of hers. âItâs nice to see you, too. Howâve you been?â
âStill livinâ, honey, still livinâ.â
She lets go of you when Hank takes her up in conversation, and your attention turns back to Joel.
âBusy, huh? Lotta people came.â
âMhm,â he grunts, taking a step away from you and folding his arms. You eyes skim across the new distance between you both, noting it.
âJoel, your Sarah,â Rita swivels to face him, âsheâs home soon, right?â
Joel nods. âThe seventeenth.â
Hank gives a nod. âItâll be a fine summer havinâ both you girls back home.â
Joel shifts awkwardly, his eyes darting around the patio. He spots Bill across the pool, by your dadâs work shed, and excuses himself. You track him as he makes off, and feel your face reddening.
Your dadâs head and shoulders materialize through the sliding door to the kitchen and he calls on you, beckoning you in. You hesitantly wander over, a cloud of shame forming over your head that you hope he canât see.
âBillâs beer,â he adds a Coors to a tray filled with glasses and bottles, âMarciaâs iced tea, a Coke for SamâŠJoelâ Shoot, we ainât got Joel anythinâ. Reckon heâll touch Coors?â
You flinch at the mention of his name, and instantly try to recover it. âI wouldnât know, why would I know that?â
Your dadâs hands lift like youâve aimed a shotgun at him. âAlright, cranky, jeez. Go back to bed, get out the right side this time. Here.â
He lifts the tray and slowly passes it over the island to you, the glass trembling.
ââ Coke, yeah, I got it. Go take a Xanax, dad, your hairâs fallinâ out.â
âAnd ask Joel what heâs after!â he calls as you slip out of the sliding door.
Marcia sits beside her daughter, Lisa, on the pool loungers. You bend your knees and lower the tray for her to reach her drink.
âThank you, honey.â She grins gratefully as she lifts it off the shaking tray and you return her smile, then continue on.
Bill is stood at the other end of the garden with Joel, arms crossed, both listening to some story Arthur Kennedyâs telling about a mechanic he works with. Arthur Kennedy always kinda scared you, was always loud and drunk. Your dad and Joel used to deliberately come up with excuses to keep you and Sarah away from him at parties.
This time is no different. You approach the group of men from Joelâs right side, dipping behind his back to stand between him and Bill, safely separated from the raving storyteller.
âHe says heâd just oiled it, I said, Benny, that engineâs drier ân a nunâs nasty!â
He erupts into a roar of laughter despite the silence of his companions, and you nudge the tray against Billâs arm.
âOh, darlinâ,â he says, turning to you and giving you an affectionate smile as he lifts the beer. âThanks, sweetheart.â
You smile back. Bill can be gruff, a bit of a loner, but heâs always had a soft spot for you.
âHow you doinâ?â he asks, taking a swig.
You nod. âGood. Back workinâ at Salâs, soâŠliving the dream.â
You can feel Arthurâs stare on you like the hot sun. You shift awkwardly from foot to foot, tray tucked under your elbow against your hip.
âIâll bet,â Bill says. âHe got you workinâ hard?â
âNot really. Itâs a pretty quiet store. Uh, Dad wanted me to ask,â you turn to Joel, whose eyes are glued to the ground, âwhat youâre drinkinâ?â
He shakes his head, palm hooked around the back of his neck. âIâll get my own. Thanks.â
âAw, câmon Joelie,â Arthur taunts. You try to avoid looking him in the eye out of fear heâll take you up on it, but he does it anyways. âWhy donât you just let this pretty little waitress of ours bring you a drink? Since sheâs beinâ so sweet ân offerinâ.â
Your eyes flit to Joel. His jaw is tense, his eyes dark as he stares down Arthur.
âYou know what,â he says through his teeth, âIâll take a Bud. Câmon, youâll know where they are, right?â
âWhâ We didnât get anyââ
âBe in the fridge, Iâll bet.â He takes your arm and pulls you away from the duo, who resume conversation as you leave.
Youâre hauled back into the kitchen so fast that you almost drop Samâs soda.
âJoel, be careful!â
He lets go of your arm and watches Arthur from the kitchen window. âScumbag,â he mutters.
âDo you suffer from short-term memory loss?â you ask, throwing the tray onto the counter. âDidnât we have a whole argument in the store about me not gettinâ Bud?â
âJust had to get you away from him, talkinâ like that. Guy pisses me off,â Joel huffs.
âWho pisses you off?â your dad calls, appearing from the bathroom.
Joel shoots him a look. âArthur Kennedy. Whatâs he doinâ here?â
âI couldnât not invite him; I know heâs a dirtball. You stay away from him.â He points a finger at you.
âVery good,â Joel replies. âGreat plan. Make it her problem to keep the pervert off her tail.â
âPervert?â You scoff.
âYou donât hear him at Frankâs!â Joel rounds on you now, and you raise your eyebrows. âThat waitress line wasnât even half of it.â
Your dad chuckles, patting Joelâs shoulder as he passes. âIâll keep an eye on it.â He wanders out to the patio.
Joelâs still full of rage. You watch him, not sure whether to move closer or let him calm down on his own.
âI think youâre probably overreacting a little. It was a creepy line, and I wonât be goinâ near him anyways, but itâs fine. I can dodge Arthur Kennedy.â
âShouldnât need to. Shouldnât be put in that position.â
He doesnât take his eyes off of the kitchen counter, palms pressed flat to the surface, shoulders hunched, breathing deep. He looks like a wild bear, like he could rip Arthur Kennedy limb from limb if only heâd just stroll through the sliding door.
You decide to give him some time to cool off.
âI gotta get this Coke to Sam. You good?â
âIâll be fine,â he snaps, and you take that as your cue to dip.
When you reappear into the sunlight, a pair of hands clamp down on your shoulders, making you jump.
âHey, stranger!â
âSam!â you cry, clutching your chest. âYou almost gave me a damn heart attack. Here, idiot.â
You hand him the soda, and he tilts it in your direction, a thank-you in the form of a toast.
âIâve been meaning to drop by Frankâs since I got home, come pay you a visit.â
âIâll get you a drink on the house when you do.â Sam smiles, blonde fringe gleaming in the sun.
âSo, howâs it going?â you ask.
âItâsâŠgoing.â He laughs. âWas just talking to Hank about college courses. Figured I might apply. This bartending life is not for me.â
âDo it. Come be a graduate with me. I got a degree, forty grand of debt, and absolutely no prospects!â
Sam laughs. âNah, you got a brain, youâre gonna work somethinâ out.â
You both take seats by the pool to catch up. Samâs a nice guy; he was in your circle of friends at school, and, like Anna, always stayed in Austin while you and the rest up and left.
Your dad always thought he had a thing for you, being that he was male and you two were close, and your dadâs an old-fashioned man who doesnât believe any good can come from two people of opposite genders being friends. But Samâs a sweet guy, and his being here pushes Joelâs sudden change in behavior a little further back in your mind.
âIâm working later on, so Iâm only staying for an hour or so. My mom says hi, by the way.â
âHi right back. Is she doing okay?â
âFine! Sheâs fine. As fine as she can be, I think. Yâknow, my dad leaving wasnât too great. She took it pretty hard. But weâre settled into the new place, sheâs doing good. Do youâŠDid you scratch yourself, or somethinâ?â
He points underneath your hair to the side of your neck and your fingers run across the skin, wincing a little over a particular spot under your jaw. A memory flashes before your eyes as the sensitive skin tingles and your eyes instantly lock on the culprit: emerging from the kitchen door, beer in hand, dark eyes scanning the garden for you.
When you lock eyes, he makes a passive expression and wanders off in the opposite direction.
âUhâ No, thatâs weird. Well, I had a nap earlier. I might have scratched myself in my sleep, yâknow?â
Sam narrows his eyes. Heâs twenty-three, dumbass, heâs not an idiot.
You smile sweetly at him and scrape together some reason to excuse yourself, dashing off to the bathroom to examine Joelâs handiwork.
Itâs only a little red, probably more noticeable in the sunlight, but still, you grab some concealer and dab it over the mark. Feeling exhausted from running around and pretty pissed off with Joel, you march back outside and throw yourself into a chair beside Hank.
âYour dad knows how to cook a burger,â he tells you, holding a napkin to his mouth. âDelicious.â
âIâll grab one in a bit. Not really hungry.â
You spend a little time chatting with Hank and Rita, answering their questions about college, telling anecdotes about work, asking about Annaâs makeup business.
âThat girl,â Hank shakes his head, âthere ainât no tellinâ her. Iâm just her olâ uptight dad.â
All the while you periodically glance up, across the pool to Joel, and each time, heâs staring right back.
When you get up to grab some food, his eyes follow you. When Sam pulls you in for a hug to say goodbye, heâs watching. When Arthur stumbles over to sit across from Hank, Joelâs figure appears like an apparition at the side of him. Across the table, an appropriate distance away, but keeping an eye on you.
It fills you with equal parts thrill and frustration.
You find yourself laughing extra hard at Billâs comments, leaning your head on Marciaâs shoulder, leaping to your feet anytime Hank wants a refill, or Rita asks you to light her cigarette. All to get to Joel. All so he has to watch you be unbothered by him for the entire night.
The garden is darker, porch light attracting moths and flies, but a small group of your neighbors sits congregated under blankets on the patio still. Youâre talking about New York with Lisa when you notice Joel lean in to your dad across the table.
âIâm gonna head, early start tomorrow,â he says, getting up from his seat.
âYou remember your gas tank, Joel,â your dad tells him, nodding over to the grilling station.
âHey.â You feel a nudge on your shoulder and look up to find his brown eyes looking down into yours. âGive me a hand, would ya? Loadinâ this into the truck.â
âYou got it out just fine on your own.â
He calls you by name, and you know from his stern expression heâs serious.
You stand, shaking the blanket from your shoulders, and follow him over to the barbecue. He detaches the tank and picks it up. You wrap your fingers around the handle beside Joelâs, but when the two of you waddle out the back gate, you can feel he has most of the weight.
You reach his truck, shrouded in darkness from the dusk. He hands you the keys from his back pocket and you drop the tailgate, then Joel hoists the tank up by himself and wipes his hands on his jeans.
âWhatâd you even need me for?â
âBeen weird today. Wanted to check you were alright.â
âAre you fucking serious?â You groan. âAre you talking to me or not?â
âOf course Iâm talkinâ to ya.â
âThen stop being an asshole, okay? Iâm bored of asshole Joel. I want my Joel back.â
He looks at you almost solemnly.
âLook, if you donât wanna talk about what happened upstairs, we donât have to, butââ
ââs not that I donât wanna talk about it.â
âThen what is it?â
The floodlight over the garage switches on and your back gate clicks open. Your dad ushers Rita out, coat draped over her shoulders.
âJust walkinâ Rita home,â your dad calls.
âSee ya, hon!â
You wave. âBye, Rita.â
When you turn back, Joelâs making his way toward the truck door.
âOh, go fuck yourself,â you mutter under your breath, and silently storm back into the house.
You hear his truck pull away as you throw yourself down onto your bed. Fucking livid.
Alright, you agreed nothing happened. But then Joel went and started acting like something totally happened. If anyone had caught on to the way he was acting, theyâd for sure know something was up.
The anger rolls around in your stomach; his avoiding you, the way he kicked off when Arthur made that comment, the way his eyes followed you around the garden afterward.
And worst of all, you fucking liked it. You liked him protecting you, didnât you? You liked the way he couldnât help himself, had to make sure you were out of reach of any danger. You liked peering over Samâs shoulder to find his gaze frozen on you.
You sit up, hands either side of your hips on your mattress. You look down and notice what theyâre resting on.
Joelâs flannel shirt.
Youâre halfway out the door, shirt in your fist, before you even have time to breathe. You run into your dad in the driveway.
âWoah, woah, where we off to?â
âJoel forgot his shirt.â
âIâm sure he can do without it for a few days, kiddo.â
âIâll just take it back to âim,â you call, hopping in your car before he has time to protest.
Youâre at Joelâs in five minutes.
Knocking and waiting for him to answer might ruin the argumentative vibe youâre trying to set, so you fling his front door open and walk straight into his hallway.
The house sits in complete darkness, save for a small light flooding in from the room at the end of the hall. You wander up to it and find Joel sat at his kitchen table, staring down at some contract papers on the wood. Aside from the dull light over his head, the kitchen is dark, orange tinge on the walls from the streetlights outside.
He doesnât flinch when your shoe scuffs his tile floor. Instead, he just flips the papers back over and sighs.
âSubtlety not in your nature, is it, kid?â
âYou left this.â You throw the shirt onto the table.
His eyes scan over it. âThought I told you to keep it.â
âOh,â you sit down opposite him, âmy mistake. I thought you meant keep it until youâd had your way with me. Thought once youâd dumped me I was to hand the flannel back.â
âDumped you?â He raises his eyebrows, sitting back in his chair. âHm.â
âHm?â
âI wasnât tryinâ to dump you. I didnât mean for you to feelâŠdumped.â
âThe most you talked to me all afternoon was to give me a grilling about Arthur Kennedy. All you did was stare at me, then ask me to help you carry a gas tank at the very end of the night.â
He scratches his beard, considering what youâre saying.
âI mean, I thought we agreed to act like it didnât happen,â you continue, âI thought we were fine.â
âFine? You think what we did was fine?â
You struggle to find words to reply. Sure, it was better than fine. And at the same time, it was a terrible idea.
âWeâŠWe wereâŠWe were just messing around.â
Joel almost laughs. âMessinâ around.â
âYeah,â you protest. âI liked it, you looked like you liked it. Whatâs wrong with it?â
âIâll tell you whatâs wrong with it. If we do this, if weâre âmessinâ aroundââŠwhat makes me any different toâŠto Arthur Kennedy? Hm? Just another creep on the street, hanginâ around and flirtinâ with girls far too young for âim?â
âThe difference is I actually want you to do it, Joel.â
His expression drops. He stands up, shoving the chair back, and wanders off toward the kitchen counter.
You twist around to watch him. âI want this. And Iâm twenty-three fucking years old, I can decide for myself. Arthur is, like, sixty years old, anyway. And he ainât even a good sixty â heâs all grey, wrinkly skin, greasy hair like he doesnât know how to work his own showerââ
âAlright, kid, weâre digressinâ here.â Joel waves his hand.
You snap back to reality and shake your head to clear it of Arthur Kennedyâs leathery skin. âSorry, sorry.â
âItâs just not a good idea.â
âWhatâs not?â You stand.
âThis. Us. You ân me.â
âAnd did you decide this before or after you fucked around with me in my bedroom?â
Joel sighs, shaking his head and turning away. He places one hand on his hip, the other to the bridge of his nose.
âI meanâŠâ You throw your arms up, finally at breaking point. âWhat are you doing to me?â
Your tone forces him to turn back. When your expression matches it, he approaches you, gently cupping your face in both hands.
âIâm tryinâ to rein this in a little, baby. Iâm tryna be the responsible one here. You know how hard it is not to give in to this? To you?â
You know what he means. Heâs in a lot more trouble than you are if you both get caught; heâs your dadâs buddy. He isnât supposed to be fooling around with his best friendâs daughter.
You think over what youâve gotta be doing to him â all the glances when no oneâs looking, the touching, practically fucking begging for him to make you cum earlier. Itâs no wonder heâs trying so hard to stop himself every time, no surprise heâs doing all he can not to give in to you. And right then, you realize â
Thatâs exactly what you want him to do.
Your head falls limp in his grasp. âThen, stop trying.â
Joelâs eyes trace over your face; down the bridge of your nose, across your lips, over to where your jaw meets his rough hands. Heâs tossing the thought of it over in his head like a penny. Only thereâs no right answer.
Heads, you call it off, and lose any chance of ever knowing what this is between you guys. Tails, you fall down the rabbit hole; secret, clandestine, forbidden rabbit hole, and risk losingâŠwell, everything.
Is it worth that risk? Just to feel him on you again? To feel his lips across yours, hungry, demanding, his hips grinding into you, his hands all over you, the way he looks at you as you cum for himâŠ
Suddenly, like the realization hits him at the exact same time as it does you, Joelâs eyes darken.
Yeah. Itâs fucking worth it.
His grip becomes rough, shifting from your jaw to around your throat. He pulls you toward him, lips connecting, and your hands press against his chest.
His grasp drops, squeezing your hips, before one hand leaves to settle between your legs. He just canât get enough, can he?
âUh-uh,â you mumble against his mouth, âyou had your taste earlier. Itâs my turn.â
You push him back against the counter. Heâs staring at you with nothing but lust behind his eyes. Without a word, you sink down, knees hitting the cold tile.
âBabyâŠâ Joel hums when your hands find his belt buckle. You smirk at his voice; youâre too good to be true to him. Like he canât believe whatâs about to happen.
You undo his belt and pull it through the loops, letting it fall to the floor with a clink. Then your fingers undo his jeans, almost tearing them apart by the zipper with your eagerness to see him.
As you pull the denim over his hips, you feel his hand softly rest on the crown of your head. A quick glance up tells you heâs watching every single thing youâre doing, lapping it up like itâs the last thing heâll ever see.
You can see the bulge through his boxers; itâs big. Bigger than you imagined, even with your hand stuffed down your panties.
You place a gentle kiss to his thigh and pull the waistband of his underwear down, and his cock springs free. You gasp a little at the size of it, feeling your mouth watering at the sight of precum on his tip.
Your hands wrap around it, clutching his girth. You pump him a few times in your hands and he tips his head back, mouth agape. His free hand grips the counter, steadying himself.
His tip oozes more precum and you wrap your lips around it, sucking gently. Joel groans, audibly. The most audible youâve heard him yet. It drives you insane.
You push your lips down his shaft, his cock filling up your mouth to your throat before you even reach the bottom. You push down as far as your throat will allow before releasing him with a pop, saliva mixed with Joel all over your lips.
âGood girl,â heâs mumbling, eyes still screwed shut, hand still knotting in your hair.
You drag your tongue along the underside of his dick, closing your eyes. All you can think is Joel, all you can taste, smell, and breathe is him. Completely dumb for this man, cock stretching your mouth so good.
When you take him in down to your throat again, he begins moving his hips; fucking your mouth. You steady yourself, hands on his upper thighs, and let him, trying not to lower your hand to your cunt to relieve the ache quickly growing there.
The sounds heâs making are enough to make you cum by themselves. Heâs panting, moaning, breathing your name, groaning whenever your cheeks hollow and you suck until heâs so close he pulls you off.
âWanna take my time, baby. Youâre doing so good.â
You pull him back into your mouth. He tastes like sweat and salt and Joel. He tastes perfect.
When he bumps the back of your throat and you gag a little, you notice Joelâs head snap down to check on you. His grip on your hair loosens, and you softly gaze back at him, eyes blown with lust, to let him know youâre okay.
You drag your lips off of his head, a string of saliva still linking your mouth to his reddened tip. Youâre panting now, half-turned on, half-tired from accommodating the size of him between your jaw.
Your palms wrap around his length again, pumping and twisting slowly while your tongue flicks over his head. He grits his teeth, both hands now against the countertop, knuckles whitening the longer you go on.
When you let go of him and dip your head down to take his whole cock in your throat, he lets out a deep groan.
âKeep goinâ, baby, keep doinâ that,â heâs groaning, your head bobbing up and down. âDonât fuckinâ stop.â
His hand falls to the back of your head and he applies a little pressure, fucking into you again.
When you begin to feel him jerk, you lean back, hands helping him to his high as you hold his head to your bottom lip.
Joelâs hand never leaves your head as his cock twitches, filling your throat and coating your tongue in warm, salty cum. Heâs calling your name, breath heaving and hips shuddering.
His length slides out of your mouth. When his orgasm subsides, he watches you lick your lips and swallow his load, before tucking his softening dick under his boxers and pulling his jeans back up.
You watch in a distant haze of ecstasy as Joel does his pants up himself and takes your chin in his hand.
Breathing heavy, you look up at him, eyes hooded. Waiting for permission to stand.
âCâmere,â he whispers, and your tired legs hoist you back up to height.
He envelops you in his arms, placing a kiss to your forehead and letting you lean into his chest.
You let your eyes fall closed as you breathe each other in.
âSo good to me,â Joel mumbles against your forehead, and you lazily smile.
You could let him carry you up to his bed and fall asleep right then and there, you think. That is, until you hear your phone vibrating on the table.
âFuck,â you groan, and Joel releases you from his grasp.
âJust makinâ sure you ainât dead,â your dad chirps down the line.
âIâm still at Joelâs,â you reply, âjust leavinâ.â
âDonât you be keepinâ him, you hear?â
You pretend not to, and get him off the phone as quickly as possible. When you turn back around, Joelâs stood with a smirk on his face.
âGo on. Donât want to make him suspicious.â
You skip over and place a kiss to his lips, and he runs a hand through your hair.
âLike I said, weâre not doing anything wrong.â
âJust messing around,â he says.
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As you approach the front door, you pause for a second and compose yourself. Glance in the window to check your reflection, take a deep breath. The last thing you need right now is your dad noticing somethingâs different.
Heâs sitting in the recliner watching baseball highlights when you stumble in. He doesnât turn to look at you as you dive straight for the refrigerator to grab a bottle of water.
âHey there. Joel get his precious shirt back?â
âHuh? Oh, yeah, sure. Just couldnât be bothered with it lying around my room.â
He hums absentmindedly. You stand by the kitchen island chugging the water, avoiding conversation with him and looking for an excuse to dismiss yourself to bed.
âHey,â he says after a bit, âdid you find the burgers tooâŠsalty?â
You choke on your drink. âTheâ Tooâ What?â
âThe burgers. Not sure if I over-seasoned âem. Were they salty?â
âNo. They were fine. They were fine.â
Dizzy with adrenaline, you feign sleepiness and bid him goodnight. When you reach your room and collapse onto your bed, your phone buzzes.
Your eyes scan over the text; your heart skips and you feel a flutter just south of your belly button.
Joel: You free Sunday?
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tag list: @yvonneeeee @brittmb115 @subconsciouscollapse (let me know if u wanna be added!)
Tags Minors DNI: stalking, mentions of a knife, smut, smidge of somnophilia, fingering, strap on use (R Receiving), surprisingly fluff. This type of relationship is super toxic, okay!!
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A/N: Thank y'all so so much for reading this series. Truly has been so nice seeing everyones comments and reblogs (the tags kill me every time)! This was my first series and hopefully there will be more, I really enjoy writing and am happy to share with you kind people. Let me know if you have any questions, would love to know what you think!! Thanks đđ
New Years Eve 2018
Your senses were heightened as you became aware of a set of eyes on you. Her gaze fixated on you from across the room, behind the crowd of people that swarmed around you. You watch with a familiar spark in your chest, a sense of safety that your shadow was watching over you.
"They're about to start the countdown, I'm going to find Maria!" Natasha yells closely to your ear, breaking the eye contact you held with Wanda.
You give her a small smile and nod, "Alright, find me after!" Before kissing her cheek and giving her a short hug. You watch your best friend push through the crowd until you can no longer see her red head, and your eyes travel back to your shadow. Panic settles in when you realize she's nowhere to be found.
Around you people begin pairing off, touch hungry ones scanning the crowd for a last chance at a kiss before the New Year. A touch on your shoulder makes you smile and turn around, but instead of seeing your Wanda, you see a drunk man attempting to balance himself in front of you.
"Hi sweetie," he slurs, resting his hand on your shoulder. The '2019' glasses he wore took up most of his face, a drink in his other hand sloshed onto your shoes.
"I'm sorry, I'm looking for someone..." You groan and try to push his hand off of your shoulder. To your suprise, he keeps it there.
"I'm somebody, you found me!" His words slur together as he presses closer.
"Seriously? Get off!" You raise your voice and put your hands on his broad chest, pushing him back. It's only a second later that you feel a body pressed against you from behind, the intoxicating scent wrapping around you.
"Hey man, I'd back off." Wandas husky voice sounds from behind you, but she moves to step in front of you as the man steps forward again.
He laughs and holds up his drink towards her, "We're just having fun, you wanna join in?" He slurs again, and Wanda makes a face of disgust.
"Just go away before we do something we'll both regret," she threatens. It's then you notice her hand is behind her back, settled on what you know is a blade hidden underneath her jacket.
Instinctively you reach out, resting your hand on top of hers. You watch as her shoulders drop and her grip on the handle softens. A blush creeps up your neck as you once again realize the affect you had on her.
Who, really, was the mouse?
"Fine, fine, you two are no fun," the man mumbles with a shrug, leaving the two of you in the crowd.
Before Wanda can turn around, you wrap your arms around her stomach, hugging her from behind. You feel soft vibrations from her back as she chuckles, turning in your arms.
"Okay, little mouse?" She asks softly, her demeanor changed in an instant as her green eyes meet yours. You nod and slide your hands up to her shoulders.
"I was hoping you would show up," you bite back a smirk as she leans in. The crowd begins counting down, signaling the seconds to midnight.
10... 9... 8...
"I'm always there, you know that," Wanda rasps in your ear, placing a soft kiss just below.
7... 6... 5...
The thought doesn't bother you, of her always being there watching. Waiting. Instead of dread, you felt comfort. You knew she would always be there. One hand cups her face as she continues to leave soft kisses across your jaw.
You would take any bad, as long as you had this good. As long as you had Wanda.
4... 3... 2... 1...
As cheers errupt around you, shouting, "Happy New Year!" You waste no time pressing your lips to hers, your fingers tangling into her soft brown hair. Wanda holds you tightly against her as she slips her tongue into your parted mouth. You savor the flavor of mint on her tongue, biting down softly on her bottom lip. She groans into the kiss, and you can't help but smile.
"You're going to be the death of me, little mouse..." she sighs onto your lips, and you nod.
"You love it..." You giggle, causing her to laugh. She pulls back with an unfamiliar look in her eyes, lips parted like she wants to say something. You wait, but only watch as they pull into a crooked grin before kissing you again.
***
January 2019
Wanda peers through the darkness into the windows of your house, her figure disconcernable against the shadows.
You walk around, a prickling sensation on the back of your neck, knowing someone is watching your every move. Despite the comforting warmth in the room, a shiver runs down your spine, knowing your shadow was just outside.
But instead of fear, instead of unease, you simply walk to the front of the house and stare out the window.
Wanda remains concealed, her presence a silent observer in the stillness of the night. She looks with curious eyes before realizing what you were doing, and a smirk forms on her face.
Your hands move to the locks, opening them up with a 'click'. As you stare off into the shadows, a sense of vulnerability washes over you, the feeling of leaving the windows unlocked. You have to lock and unlock it three more times before you're comfortable.
"Little mouse.." A whisper in the dark, a body next to yours as you stir in your sleep.
You could've sworn it was a dream as her hand traveled down your body, cupping your clothed pussy. She ran small circles over your clit, the clothing between become wetter. You felt your skin burn under the covers, aching for her as she teases you. Then her hand slides inside of your pants, rubbing against your now sensitive clit.
You awake with a start and attempt to sit up, but her other hand immediately covers your mouth and presses you back onto the pillow. Your hands fly up to her wrist that held a hand over your mouth, your breathing ragged as you attempted to figure out what was going on.
"It's okay, pretty girl. Just let me take care of you.." Wanda whispers, slipping her fingers inside of you. Her body presses further against you as she moves her wrist, her fingers pumping in and out of you at a quicker pace. Your moans muffle from her hand on your mouth.
"Such a good little mouse.." She praises, trapping your moans into the palm of her hand. "You were just begging for me to sneak in, needed me to come fuck you huh?" Her tone is condescending, but you only groan in response as her lips attach to your neck.
"That's it, just like that," Wanda chuckles darkly as you squeeze her fingers tightly, her thumb moving circles on your clit. "Now I want you to be a good girl and cum on my fingers, okay?"
As she sucks the skin on your collarbone, you follow as she commands, coming on her fingers and biting down harshly on her hand. Wanda moans at the feeling and the way you fall apart for her. You knew by the sound of her belt unbuckling that it would only be the first of the night.
***
February 2019
"So you and Wanda, huh?" Natasha laughs, shaking her head. "Was the therapy that good?"
Your face turns a dark shade of red as you think back on your sessions, the dark road it led you down. You shrug and take a sip of coffee, "I suppose it was..."
There was no way you could tell Natasha everything. You wouldn't. The Cat and Mouse game you and Wanda played was special, just for the two of you. But there was no way you could hide your feelings for her anymore, or the marks she left on your body, from your best friend.
"You're happy?"
"For the first time in a long time," you answer honestly. Through the whirlwind of emotions Wanda caused you, you knew you were.
"Taking your medication again?" Natasha raises an eyebrow as you tap the side of your cup 4 times absemindetly.
"It'll never go away..." You refer to your compulsion, "But I'm learning to cope with it."
"Good! Now, when are we going to go on a double date?" She smiles widely at you.
A date... you couldn't imagine Wanda taking you on a date. Maybe you could sit at a nice restaurant and she would watch from across the street. Maybe four rows away from you as you sit in a movie theater. Would it always be this way? Always about the chase?
"Hopefully soon," is all you say, a small smile planted on your lips.
***
May 2019
The microwave beeps from across the kitchen, and you set your glass of wine down before walking over and pulling out a bag of freshly popped popcorn.
Wanda watches hidden in the shadows as you grab a second glass, filling it up and topping off your own. She raises an eyebrow at the sight. Jealousy seeps in through all the cracks of her chest. She knew for a fact that Natasha was with her girlfriend tonight, and you never had anyone else over, especially this late at night.
Two glasses of wine sit on the counter along with a bowl of popcorn as you grab your phone. Her heart races as she sees the smile spread across your lips as you stare at the small screen.
A vibrate from her pocket distracts her from you.
Wanda takes her phone out to check the text, shaking her head with a sigh. She laughs at the message with the ridiculous nickname. It was only fair, she supposed.
You - Want to watch a movie, kitty?
She looks up from the screen to see you standing by the window, waving at her. Wanda tucks her phone back in her jeans and walks towards your house, where she finds the front door unlocked.
"Do you ever get tired of watching?" You ask curiously. Wanda now sat next to you on the couch, her arm wrapped around your shoulders as you leaned into her warmth. New and uncharted territory, the most normal interaction the two of you had privately. It felt so natural. You longed for this.
"No," she answers sternly, reaching into the bowl you held and tossing some popcorn into her mouth.
In the months Wanda had revealed herself as your shadow the two of you became closer, but she still felt out of reach. You noticed during sex that she would never let you touch her, and you craved to reach out and caress her. You didn't know why, and any time you tried to ask her, she would shut it down and become distant. Wanda still watched, too, every night. Any time she wasn't in the room with you, you could feel her eyes on you. By now, you didn't mind it, but you were starting to want... more.
"What if you... didn't have to go far to watch me?" You ask casually, keeping your eyes on the movie that played in front of you.
"What do you mean?" Wanda asks, and by the tone of voice, you could tell she knew what you meant. She wanted to hear you say it.
You lean forward to set down the bowl on the coffee table and move to situate yourself to sit on her lap. Your legs straddled her thighs, and your hands rested on her shoulders. You let the nail on your finger scratch up and down the side of her neck softly.
"Baby.." You whisper to her, feeling her strong hands grip your waist. For some reason, Wanda loved when you called her that, and you saved it for times like this.
You grab her jaw in your hand, tilting it to the side so you had full access to her neck. Your lips descend upon the soft skin, tongue licking a stripe to her pulse point. Wanda shifts beneath you, fingers fidgeting against your hips as you begin to bite down and suck.
"Is that what you want then, little mouse? Did you fully think about what that means?" Her voice is laced with lust as you trail down and leave another mark. "It means you'll never be alone, you won't sleep alone. It means I can use you whenever I please..." Wandas hands travel underneath your shirt, exploring your back.
"I know.." You mumble against her skin, your hips rolling slightly down against her to find she was definitely packing.
"It means you'll belong to me. You'll be mine, completely," Wanda growls as you leave another mark, her senses failing her as you continue to grind against her.
But you stop suddenly and remove your lips from her neck, your hands on either side of her face.
"I always was, baby. I am... completely," you whisper and look into her eyes, finding that same look she gave you on New Years Eve.
Wanda kisses you passionately, slipping her tongue into your mouth the second she can. Her hands travel your body before she's pulling your shirt over your head, you do the same for her.
"I need you so fucking bad," you groan against her lips, the ache between your legs growing as you throb around nothing. Wanda nods and hums in response, lifting you up and laying your back on the couch.
She slides her hand into your panties, feeling just how badly you needed her. "All mine, huh?" Wanda chuckles as her fingers pump inside of you.
"Completely," you moan out as she begins kissing your chest. You reach around her to undo her bra, sliding it away so you can feel her breasts pressed against you.
Wanda marks your skin as hers, fingering you until you're falling apart underneath her. You watch with wide eyes as she takes her fingers out of you and puts them into her own mouth, sucking your juices off of them.
"Mmm, you taste so good, pretty girl.." Wanda gushes and then chuckles as a whimper leaves your mouth. She then leans down and kisses you in a quick and sloppy kiss, letting you taste yourself on her tongue. She parts to unzip her jeans, sliding them off of her before lining her strap up between your legs.
Wanda slides in, filling you up completely with her faux cock. The position, the closeness, this was all so new. Usually you were bound or on your stomach. This was different. It was so much more intimate. She moves her hips slowly against yours, a low moan escaping her throat.
"So good, detka.. always so fucking good," she groans and lets out a few Sokovian curses as she thrusts harder into you. Her arms rest on either side of you, holding her weight above you. You take the opportunity to wrap your arms around her.
She tenses and begins to pull back, but your legs wrap around her hips tightly to pull her closer into you. You both moan at the feeling of closeness, her being deeper than ever in you, and Wanda finds herself lost in you. She lets your hands roam the skin on her back as she fucks you.
"Baby - feels so good!" You cry out in her ear, the weight of her body pressed down onto you as she grunts against your neck. Your nails scratch down her back, causing a guttural moan to escape her lips. You throb around the plastic cock at the sound of it, wanting her as close as possible.
"I know, I know... so good... Christ," she praises you and moans in agreement, pace picking up. You can feel the muscles in her back flex as she pounds into you. The way she's moaning into your skin, you can tell she's close.
She fills you completely with every thrust, hitting that one spot that makes you see stars over and over again. Your fingers feel every inch of skin she'll let you touch, from the few moles that spread along the top below her shoulders to her back dimples on the bottom. You let your nails mark into her skin again, and Wanda feels on cloud 9. Pure bliss.
"Fuck, pretty girl I'm gonna cum," Wanda moans in your ear and picks her head up to look in your eyes, finding only pleasure written on your face. You nod at her words and hold onto her back, your legs still gripping tightly around her hips to bring her desperately closer to you.
"Me too, baby, I-I'm so close!" You gasp, feeling her lips on yours.
"Fuck, fuck! Always.. so good, fuck, I love you so much.. oh God," Wanda moans into your mouth as she thrusts into you, fucking you hard into the couch. You don't have time to register what she says before the tight coil that had built up inside you releases. A wave of pleasure crashing over you.
The two of you come at the same time, the sounds of your moans and Wanda chanting your name as she slaps her hips into yours. Wanda slows to a stop once she's sure she's taken everything she can from you.
Your chest moves rapidly as you look up at her, her jaw tense as she lets out one last groan. The muscles in her back tense up as your fingers trace small circles on her skin, and she begins to move away.
"Stay... don't move, please?" You whisper, pleading with her. Wanda sighs and gives in, too tired to move. Your heart races as you replay her words over and over again in your mind.
You bring your other hand up, stroking her brown strands of hair that splayed across the two of you and closed your eyes. Wandas arms wrap tightly underneath you as she rests her head in the crook of your neck.
She had never let you hold her like this before, touch her like this. You knew what she said was true. Her words were not just words spoken lightly. Maybe she hadn't meant to say it then, but you knew she loved you. You knew she would never let you go, even if you didn't love her back.
But you did. With all of your mind, body, and soul. Everything that you were, are, and will be.
More than you loved the special bottle of red that sat on the counter, more than the feeling of a paintbrush in your hand, more than I Love Lucy, more than counting to four.
Wandas breathing slows against your neck, her body fully relaxed as you caress her. You had never seen or felt her so at ease before.
"I love you..." You whisper as you hear soft snores fall from her lips.
It doesn't take long for you to fall asleep after, the sounds of her quiet snores and slow breathing along with the comforting weight of her body on top of yours, lull you to sleep.
Dreaming, hoping, there was a way Wanda would give in to you.
To let the game fade away.
But when you awake in the morning, you're alone on the couch. A blanket covers your naked body, hopes and dreams fading away into reality.
Wanda was gone, and the worst part was you knew she would be back, out of reach again.
You give yourself a moment on the couch, only a moment to cry, before wiping your tears and shaking the sounds of her soft snores out of your mind. The way her body melted into yours as your hearts beat insync, the way she kissed you lovingly, the words "I love you" slipping from her lips in a desperate, intimate moment. It was all a game, after all.
The wine glasses and popcorn bowl were missing from the coffee table. Curious, you wrap the blanket around your body and walk to the kitchen. The dishes were clean and sitting on the drying rack. It was then you saw on the counter a glass of water and a bottle of your medication along with a paper and pen. You slowly pick up the paper, an old receipt you had lying around, and read the note:
I'll be back later with some boxes. Don't forget to take your medicine.
The curved letters tug at your heartstrings, the next lines causing another spark to ignite in your chest.
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
If the game was still afoot, Wanda was winning, because you were utterly and irrevocably hers.
***
October 2019
In the sunlit room, you stood in front of a canvas, wooden brush in hand. Each stroke, movements precise and deliberate, guided by a vision taking form in your mind. You inhale the scent of oil paint as you take some more on your brush before leaning in, adding intricate detail to breathe life into your creation. Time seems to stop as you lose yourself to the creative side of your brain.
You don't hear the creak of the door opening, or feel Wandas gaze on you as she stands in the doorway, admiring you.
The large button down you wore loosely was covered in paint, a work of art in itself from all the leftover paint of paintings you had done. You hummed along to the music, playing softly behind you, tongue between your teeth and brows scrunched together as you concentrated on the small details.
Wanda can't help the crooked smile on her face as she takes in the sight of you in your element. Her heart pounding out of her chest as you brush a piece of fallen hair out of your face. She walks closer, setting her hands on your waist.
You gasp at her touch, the feeling of her nose tickles your ear as she kisses your neck.
"Baby.. you scared me," you giggle and rest a hand on top of hers, leaning back against her.
There it was again, that feeling Wanda would never get used to. The feeling that wanted to drop her to her knees right there and whisper devotions between your legs, something she did more often since you had moved in with her.
"I got tired of watching," Wanda jokes, a rumble in her chest as she laughs. You turn yourself in her arms, resting your hands on her chest.
"I don't mind you watching... but I prefer you touching," you whisper the last part sinfully, the word darkening Wandas emerald eyes. She picks you up easily, you squeal with excitement, and wrap your legs around her waist.
And there on the floor, in the room Wanda had transformed into your art studio, she whispered those devotions against your skin and between your legs.
You lay on the cloth tarp that covered the floor underneath your canvas, drawing patterns on the skin of Wandas stomach. You turn in her arm to look at her.
A jaw sculpted by God, green eyes blessed by the angels, and a smile gifted from the Devil.
The sun shines on her face, highlighting smudges of green paint on her cheek. You giggle and let your fingers travel to the colored paint stripes spread across her body, a handprint on her shoulder.
"You're my favorite work of art," you murmur to her, feeling her thumb brush the paint on your hips. She smiles, your favorite crooked smile.
"Little mouse?" Wanda asks, her voice low and calm as she stares into your eyes.
"Yes, baby?"
"Marry me.."
And it's not a question, it's a statement. A declaration. You didn't need a moment to think, because you already knew you were hers, forever.
"Yes," you say anyways, nodding your head. Wandas' smile widens, and she lifts you on top of her, kissing you the best she could without letting her smile go.
***
Christmas Day 2021
The snow crunches under Wandas' boots as she watches you walk from the kitchen to the living room, a towel on your shoulder. Your hands fumbled with something unseen, hidden from her view. Your brows furrowed in concentration, and you shook your head, mumbling something to yourself.
And then you looked up and saw her. The widest smile overcame your face. You radiated pure joy.
Wandas' heart sped up at the sight of you as she carried wood and walked towards the front door.
"Reminiscing, kitty?" You purr as you greet her at the door with a kiss and a hug, she hums against your lips.
"You don't miss it, little mouse?" Wanda chuckles and kisses your jaw, the wood dropping to the floor.
"Not when I have all this..." You sigh happily as she kisses down your neck, her hands moving under your shirt.
A cry from the other room interrupts the moment.
"Mm, those boys always know when to start, don't they?" She mumbles, "I knew when I heard twins, they would be trouble."
Wanda hears a radiant laugh escape your lips, and she gives you a crooked smile in return. You cup her face in your hands, the ring on your fourth finger on the left hand is cool against her cheek.
"I loved you then, and I love you even more now, Wanda.." you whisper, breath fanning against her face.
"I love you even more, little mouse.." she says softly, giving you one last kiss before walking into the living room, your hand in hers.
đ đ Hello and welcome to our third annual Flufftober đ đ
Weâre so excited to be back and to once again have you here!
As always, letâs fill the month of October with as much fluff as possibleÂ đ„° and for that to happen, we not only have 31 prompts for you, no; we also have something special this year...
Prompt Extras
Last year's Prompt Substitutes were very well-loved and a lot of you used them to replace some prompts from the original list. You're more than welcome to do this again if there's a prompt that doesn't work for you for whatever reason - no explanation needed.
Once again, we offer you last year's top five fan favorites (as voted in the end survey). In addition to that, we also offer five scenario prompts.
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Prompts (and explanations)
1. âIâve got youâ
2. Family, Friends, Loved Ones
3. âWait you love me?â - âI always haveâ
4. Cinderella Moment (the "ugly duckling" gets their moment to shine)
5. x + 1 (can be a classic "5+1 things" [or any number you want] creation or literally a plus one for an event or really anything else you can think of)
6. Corn Maze
7. Porch Swing
8. Rainy Day
9. (...) at first sight (think "love at first sight", "enemies at first sight"...)
10. Love of my Life (even this does not have to be romantic đ)
22. Picking (think "picking flowers", "picking up someone", "picking out a dress", "picking a song for the wedding"...)
23. Trinket
24. [melting emoji] (does anyone even know what this emoji stands for? No? We neither but we would love for you to get creative with it đ but also, think "melting in the heat", "melting from embarrassment"... also, I would've loved to add it here but tumblr doesn't have this emoji yet)
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God what a time to be missing my banners ;; But okay, Bad Ritual technical update and rewrites are now live on itch !! These changes include:
new themes (dark and light, themed towards the characters)
new achievements screen
extended accessibility options
Tahira route rewrite
Siruud route rewrites (not as extensive)
texting interfaces instead of in-line texting
totally retooled character creation options
redone character profile page
I recommend starting a new game just to see all the changes, and also because the new chapter isn't finished yet đđ That's on its way, but for now there's new content inside the old content and some new menus to explore. The new chapter is coming up next !!
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Reblogs are appreciated, as always. Anyway, have a happy december and new years đ
Edit: SOME CONTEXT ABOUT THE SLIDE WITH (?)! It's referring to me - and I'm not a man as I'm a she/they that is still figuring out their gender lmao. Just some context.
SUMMARY | Chris threw a party, but you do not remember anything when you woke up the following day. Not only are you not in the guest bed you were supposed to occupy, but you wake up in Chris' arms after a steamy night. He helps you piece everything together, and your dynamic shifts in a way you're delighted with.
WARNING(S) | This is your official trigger warning. Do not proceed if any of these topics upset you. RPF, friends to FWB, use of pet name (Babygirl), swearing, brief mentions of vomit, slight dub-con/non-con if you squint, smut (handjob, fingering, unprotected sex - wrap it before you tap it!).
A/N | This is requested by the amazing @cevansbaby-dove, for which I can not thank you enough! This man is absolutely amazing, and I can never get enough of your sweet requests for him đ€
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You wake up in an unfamiliar bed, wrapped in a pair of strong arms, your head lying on a warm, firm chest with a smell that is very familiar to you. When you slowly open your eyes and lift your head, you look at Chris' face.
''How the fuck did I end up here?!'' you whisper to yourself as you try and scramble out of his grip, but he only seems to hold on tighter as he sighs softly.
You close your eyes again as you try to piece together what happened last night, but somewhere after your 5th or 6th drink, you're not sure, and your memory is very fragmented.
All you know is that you got way too drunk and somehow ended up in bed with him, and you secretly hoped nothing had gone down between the two of you, but one lift of the comforter showed you all you needed to know.
You're both very naked; he is also very hard right now.
''Hmm, you like what you see, Babygirl?'' Chris says with a deep voice, and a smile tugged at the corners of his mouth as you look up at him with a worried look.
''Did I-, I mean we- us- Did we...?'' you stumble as you sit upright, clinging to the comforter to your chest as you try to piece everything together, which isn't easy with the raging hangover you're currently faced with.
Your head feels like it's throbbing uncontrollably, and you squeeze your eyes shut as a wave of nausea washes over you, trying your hardest not to throw up all over his bed.
''Oookay, Babygirl, let's get you into the shower and some aspirin in you,'' Chris says as the wave of nausea dies down, and when you open your eyes, the world is spinning, and your head throbbing worsens.
In a reflex, he grabs a trash can on the side of his bed, and you clutch it tightly as it feels like your inside is coming out through your mouth, vomiting out what seems like an endless stream of everything you had to eat and drink last night.
Chris rubs his hand softly up and down your back, soothing you through your emotions, and the tears fall down your cheeks as you let out an undeniable sob as a sharp pain shoots through your head.
''C'mere,'' he says as he slowly pulls you into his arms, not to disturb you any further now that you feel like this.
You keep sobbing, and it worsens the pain, which only pushes you to keep crying more, and you end up in a vicious cycle of pain and tears.
''Shh, calm down, Babygirl, you're okay. You're doing well for me,'' he whispers into your hair between soft kisses, and eventually, your sobs die down to quiet sniffles, all while Chris still holds you close.
''Shall we take a shower?'' he asks, and you look at him with wide eyes, unsure if you should do it. It's not that you don't want to do it, but wouldn't it change everything between you two? But then again, last night already changed everything in your dynamic.
''A-are you sure...? I mean-''
''I'm sure, Babygirl. But only if you want it, too. I can't get enough of you now that I've had a taste,'' he purrs into your ear, and your stomach feels leaping.
He slowly lays you down to prepare the shower and returns with some aspirin and a water bottle, urging you to drink something to get you hydrated.
After the medicine has settled in for a bit, you're slowly getting up with Chris' help, and he guides you to the bathroom and into the warm stream of the shower.
You groan as the warm water envelops your body, making Chris' dick twitch at the sound. After last night, he can't get enough of hearing your sweet sounds, and he plans on pulling so many more from you.
He steps in behind you as he closes the curtain of his shower, and you can feel him crowding your space right until you can feel his hands roaming over your arms and sides.
''Chris, what are you doing?'' you ask, a little unsure, though you would lie to yourself if you didn't enjoy him touching you.
''Shh, just let it happen Babygirl. I'm not going to hurt you, and if you feel uncomfortable, you can always use your safeword,'' he whispers, and you nod before giving yourself over to Chris and his touches.
''B-But we should talk afterward,'' you say as you turn around and look up at him.
''We will, but first, I will make you feel better, Babygirl. Orgasms are supposed to help with headaches, after all,'' he says as he nuzzles into your neck, and you lull your head to the side to give him the access he's looking for.
''Please, kiss me,'' you whine a little, and Chris is more than happy to oblige as he steps closer to your body, his now fully hard member poking against your abdomen.
His lips find yours in a sweet kiss that takes your breath away, but your hand slides between your bodies and wraps around him, making him grunt before you slowly move your hand up and down.
''Fuck, Babygirl,'' he groans against your lips, and you can't help but let your mouth curl into a smile as you hear how good he feels.
You envelop his mouth with yours while you keep rubbing up and down with your hand, teasing his tip, swallowing his sounds as your tongues dance together.
Before Chris can even tell you it's happening, you feel his dick twitch in your hand, and without warning, he cums over your hand and both your stomachs with a loud moan.
''Fucking hell, that felt so good, Babygirl, but now it's my turn to make you feel good,'' he says, and you let go of his dick, his hand inching to your dripping pussy.
You gasp as he plunges two fingers into your entrance without warning after feeling how wet you are because of him, and a high whine follows quickly after as it takes you over completely.
He keeps going in a steady motion with his fingers while his thumb plays with your clit until he suddenly stops before your orgasm.
''Trust me, Babygirl, it'll be worth it,'' he says as he picks you up and pushes you against the wall, letting you glide down slightly until your entrance catches onto his tip, and he slides in with a smooth thrust.
The water from the shower washes over you both as he slowly thrusts up into you, taking his sweet time and building you right back up to your orgasm. You trust him with your life, so this won't be any different.
He keeps whispering sweet nothings against you while thrusting, which makes the butterflies in your stomach constantly go wild with every word.
''I-I lo-o-o-ve y-you,'' you say as he picks up the pace, and with that, you shatter around him, your orgasm being mindbending as it makes you cross-eyed for a good minute.
When you're finally coming down, you slump your head forward, and with a dopey grin, you pant against his chest when you realize he came inside you, too, but you didn't even notice.
''I love you too, Babygirl, and there aren't enough words to tell you just how much,'' he says with a kiss against your temple. You two finish your shower, letting Chris wash your hair and your body before enabling you to do the same with him, making you giggle uncontrollably as he gets shampoo on his eye. He curses in a thick Boston accent at the invasion.
''When you're done, he grabs towels for both of you and dries you off, leaving kisses over every inch of skin he can reach, and it feels like second nature to both of you.
''Let's get you into some clothes; we wouldn't want you walking around the house naked when we still have guests, huh?'' he says, and your eyes grow wide as saucers as you look at him, and the realization sinks in.
They heard you fall apart on Chris' cock in the shower and probably during the night, though you don't remember anything about that.
''Chris, we still need to talk about what happened because as much as I love you, I'm not ready for a relationship now,'' you confess, and he nods.
''We can just keep on sleeping together and have a friends-with-benefits relationship,'' he offers as if it's the most normal thing in the world.
''But... what if one of us would get into a relationship with someone else?'' you ask, the thought making your throat close a little, a lump forming.
''I don't want anyone else than you, Babygirl. I want you in whichever way you'll have me, and I'll wait for you as long as I have to,'' he says before capturing your lips in one more kiss that sends you soaring.
''Okay,'' you breathe out when he pulls away, and with a big smile, you get dressed in a pair of boxer briefs. Chris hands you together with one of his shirts, which is way too big and perfect for you.
''C'mon, let's make some breakfast. You deserve it, and we need to get something in your stomach so you won't vomit like that again,'' Chris jokes, and you slap him against his chest.
''Not funny!'' you say, but you laugh anyway, and when you go down the stairs, you're greeted by some of the guests who slept over after the party, including his brother, Scott.
''Well, there we have the two lovebirds,'' he jokes, but Chris shoots him a glare with a slight shake of his head and immediately shuts his mouth.
''Just get seated, Babygirl, and I'll whip you up some breakfast, okay?'' he asks, and you happily do while scrolling through your social media, not paying attention to Chris and Scott's conversation.
''She's not ready for a relationship, but she agreed to be friends with benefits, so I'm happy with it,'' Chris says with a big smile, and Scott claps him on his shoulder approvingly, making you look at the two of them.
''I'll leave you two to your breakfast,'' he says before gracefully sliding out of the kitchen, and not long after, Chris puts a plate down in front of you with pancakes and some fruit, together with a small kiss on the crown of your head.
''I love you, Babygirl,'' he says as he gets seated, and you happily dig into your pancakes while you tell him about some things you saw on social media, but mostly dog videos, since that's precisely what the two of you bonded over, to begin with.
Summary: youâre propositioned to baby sit by your father, but itâs for Eddie âthe freakâ Munsons niece. You had history, but now you canât even stand being near him. Will you both be able to put aside your distain? Or will a little gaming bet, bring you closer than ever before?
â ïžseries warnings: eventual smut 18+ mdni, angst, friends to enemies to lovers, mutual pining, mean!eddie, slight fuck!boy eddie, cocky eddie, gaming bets in exchange for sexual acts, fingering (f receiving), oral sex (m and f receiving), unprotected p in v sex, dirty talk, slight degradation, choking, hair pulling, spit play, spanking, dom!eddie.
A/N: this was going to be a one shot, but then I go more and more ideas so Iâm turning into a little series đ (remember to tip your writers, with a reblog and comment)
You couldnât believe this was happening, you wanted to be emancipated. How could your dad do this to you? Why you?
Okay, thatâs probably really dramatic. But, it was warranted.
It was a beautiful Thursday morning, birds were chirping, coffee was brewing and your mom was making her famous French toast. You havenât felt this happy in a while, little did you know that metaphorical rug of happiness was about to be ripped from under you.
âY/n, can you come in here?â Your dad yelled from his office down the hall
The only time your father ever called you into his office to talk, was always about something serious or a proposition he wanted to tell you about. Not ask, never ask. You didnât have a choice in his âbusiness proposalsâ at least thatâs what they felt like to you.
Shuffling over your feet as your heart rate picked up. You made it into the big office, oak wood shelves filled with books your dad never had time to read. He was leaning back in his black leather chair behind his big oak wood desk, with a look of contentment on his face, it made a shiver run down your body.
âYes, dad?â You say as you look down at the desk in front of you.
âI have a job I need you to do.â He says with a small chuckle
âOkay, what is it?â You cock your head like a puppy full of curiosity
âWell, I need you to baby sit for one of my employees. Itâll be from tonight to Sunday night.â He says
âThis weekend? But dad itâs a three day weekend, I had plans with friends.â You say as if you canât even believe heâs telling you this. I mean maybe it would make a difference if he was asking and not telling, but either way you were upset.
âSorry, kiddo. I already told him you would. Canât go back on my word, all a man has is his word.â
You roll your eyes, and cross your arms over your chest.
âFine, whoâs kid?â
âWayne Munsons, heâs going out of town on a business trip for me. He has a daughter sheâs about three and his usual sitter isnât able to do it, something about her being an older lady, so I offered up your help since you use to babysit the neighborhood kids. Heâs leaving at 9 tonight so youâll need to be over there by 8:30â
âWayne Munson? As in Eddie Munson? Dad no, absolutely not! Why canât he do it?â You say as your eyes begin to water
âYou know that boy, does he look like he can take care of a three year old for three days?â Your dad was beginning to get aggravated with your tone and questioning
âI cannot believe this. I hate him, how am I suppose to go over there and act civil when youâre asking me to go hang out with satan in the flesh?â
Your dad laughs at your outburst
âIâm not asking you to hang out with him, Iâm asking you to babysit his niece.â
âFor three days?!â You shout âIâm sorry, but cmon dad, I canât do that.â
âYou can, and you will. End of discussion.â
âI- whatever.â You turn on your heels and stomp out of there
âHey, hun. French toast is ready,â your mom says with a big smile.
âIâm not hungry, sorry mom.â You say as you trudge up the stairs to go sulk in your bedroom
After you packed your duffel bag full of clothes and toiletries, showered and put on some comfy black cotton shorts and a white long sleeve shirt. You got into your Prius and head for the last place on earth you ever wanted to be, Forest hills trailer park.
You donât even remember why you and Eddie hate each other so much. Well you do, but now that youâre both adults, it all seems so redundant.
You and Eddie have known each other since he moved in with his uncle in first grade. You were actually friends at some point, then you hit middle school and your body started changing, you started getting a different kind of attention from Eddie and other boys. You both got closer that summer before freshman year. Close as in, you shared your first kiss with him, amongst some other things. But, once high school started, everything changed. Eddie became distant. You knew he was bullied, even worst than middle school, but you didnât understand why he was so angry at you. Okay, well it couldâve had something to do with a small rumor that went around about you, and a certain basketball player. It wasnât 100 percent incorrect, you did go on a date with Josh Young and you did make out in the back of his brothers Camaro, but you definitely did not give him a handy or a blow job, you knew him and his jock meathead friends started it because you didnât want to go any further with him that night. Eddie avoided you at all costs after that, which was total bullshit because when you and him werenât sucking face and feeling each other up, he was going on and on about perfect little Angela Thomas, a blonde cheerleader. Go figure. He had no right to be angry, so you both never talked after that. Except the occasional condescending comments that would leave his mouth when youâd both be at your lockers, his unfortunately being way too close to yours or that time you both had biology together, sophomore year and were paired up for a project. You ended up doing the whole thing yourself and allowed him to get half the credit, but other than that. Radio silence, on both ends.
You pull up to the only trailer with beer cans littered around the yard, parking next to Eddies rust bucket of a van. You couldnât believe he was still driving that thing. It was a million years old and on its last leg, but something about seeing it made you nervous. Whereâd that come from?
On the other side was Wayneâs pick up truck, the bed of it holding his black suitcase.
You keep your eyes on your brown platform ugg boots, as you make your way up the steps to the front door.
You knock a few times, wishing you could be anywhere literally anywhere but here.
âY/n, hello sweetheart.â Wayne Munson says with a whisper, as he feels around his blue jeans for his keys.
âLaylas asleep in her room, she ate, she bathed, so sheâs out for the night.â He chuckles
âThereâs food in the fridge, money for pizza on the counter, and if you need anything just ask Eddie, heâs also in his room playin his damn games. If you want, you can sleep in my bed or you can take the couch, whatever youâre comfortable with.â â âBefore I go, I just really want to tell you how much I appreciate this, darlin.â He says as he throws you an appreciative smile.
âYeah of course, Mr. Munson. Have a safe trip.â You smile back, as you close the door behind him.
Now what the hell do you, do?
After sitting uncomfortably on the couch for an hour, while scrolling on your phone and occasionally looking up at the Netflix movie you decided to put on as background noise, you hear a door open. Your heart starts beating out of your chest at the realization that youâre about to see Eddie.
The kitchen light turns on, making your eyes slightly squint. As you looked over at him, he was drinking Pepsi straight from the liter.
Ugh he was so disgusting
He wiped his mouth on the back of his hand, and then closed the cap, putting it back in the fridge as he let out a burp.
God, you really couldnât stand him
Even if he was wearing nothing but grey sweats, so low it showed off his v line and trail of hair right above hisâ
âOh, youâre here.â He says as he rolls his eyes
He knew you were here, he just loved pissing you off.
âYup, donât wanna be here just as much as you donât want me here, Munson.â
âYou sure about that?â He snickers
âPositive.â You say as you continue scrolling on your phone, pretending to read something, that youâre not actually reading. You just donât want it to feel anymore awkward than it already does.
âMm, okay princess. You have a nice night.â He turns around, shutting off the light and heading back into his room.
Princess? Ew, You hate him so much, but whyâd he have to look so good? Fuck him!
You eventually got comfortable on the couch with the pillow and throw blanket, Wayne kindly left out for you. Falling asleep a little after you started some cheesy romantic comedy.
You wake up to the sound of loud metal music, and sun peaking in through the curtains. Once you roll over, youâre greeted by a little face staring down at you. Scaring the living shit out of you.
âHi. My name is Layla, whatâs yours?â The toddler asks, words coming out in the cutest little voice.
âHi Layla, my names y/n. Iâm gonna be babysitting you while your daddy is away.â You say as you sit up and rub your face
âCan you make me breakfast?â She says as she walks a little closer to you, you now notice sheâs got a stuffed puppy in her arm.
âOf course I can, what would you like?â You put your ugg booties on and stand up, making your way to the kitchen as Layla follows closely behind
âWaffles, please!â She says excitedly
âOkay, waffles cominâ right up.â
âThank you, y/n.â Layla says with the sweetest little smile
âNo problem. So whoâs your friend?â You ask, looking at the stuffy in her arm
âThis is Mr. Floppy,â She says as she holds up the brown floppy eared puppy
âWell hello, nice to meet you Mr. Floppy.â You bend down and shake one of his floppy ears, like you would a hand.
Layla giggles like it was the funniest thing sheâd ever seen.
As youâre plating laylas waffles and topping them with butter and syrup, the loud music that was booming from down the hall, stops. Eddieâs door flys open and heâs swinging his keys on his index finger, dressed in his usual; band tee, black jeans, leather jacket and battle vest.
âTeddy!â Layla shouts as she skips to hug his legs
âSup, rugrat?â He says as he ruffles the top of her braided pigtails
âAre you leaving?â She inquires with a sad look on her face.
âI am, Iâll be back later. Just gotta take care of some stuff.â He says while looking over at you as you cut up Laylas waffles.
Eddie walks out the front door after telling Layla bye, leaving the screen door to slam.
After playing with your new favorite toddler, almost all afternoon. Feeding her lunch and playing some more. Sheâs finally, down for a nap.
You begin cleaning up her toys off the living room floor, and turning the god awful voice of this blippi character on YouTube off.
You decide to get your AirPods out of your bag and pair them to your phone, so you can listen to some music while you clean up a little bit more.
You began washing the dishes, cleaning down counters and cleaning off the dining table, as well as sweeping the kitchen floor.
As youâre plugging in the big clunky vacuum, you hear Eddieâs other clunker come to a halt in the front yard, doors slamming and some talking, before the door is being unlocked and opened.
Eddie bounds in after some girl, youâd never seen her before. She was blonde and pretty. It made your stomach plummet and your hands shake.
Why are you jealous?
You didnât miss the big smile on his face as he looked over at you, and began walking her to his bedroom.
Just breathe. JUST BREATHE. You hate him, why do you want to cry? Do you hate him? Fuck!
This was gonna be torture. You wanted to get the fuck out of there as soon as possible. But you knew you couldnât. So you decide to put your headphones back in, and continue cleaning. It helped get your mind off of what Eddie and blondie, could be doing behind that door, but only for a little bit before your mind began to wonder.
So you gather some clothes and head for the bathroom, slipping inside and locking the door. You put the shower on, and begin undressing. Thanking god, Eddie had his music on pretty loud, but also not, because Layla could wake up any minute, so you had to make this fast.
After you get out, you slip on a black long sleeve onesie, you didnât even realize you packed. The shorts on it are really short, and is constantly riding up, showcasing some of your butt. The front has about a dozen buttons going down to the middle of your stomach so you can control how much cleavage you want to show off. Opting for a good amount, enough to capture attention. It seemed like the most logical thing to go with, in this situation, whatever âsituationâ this was.
You find a brush in one of the drawers, brush out your hair and then make your way out of the bathroom and down the hall to check on Layla, sheâs still sleeping soundly, so you walk back to the couch. Trying to drown out whatever noises you hear coming from Eddieâs room, you canât make out if theyâre laughs or moans and youâd rather keep it that way.
Some time goes by, while youâre scrolling on tik tok. Eddieâs door opens, as miss blondie walks out and leaves out the front door. A deep breath you didnât even realize you were holding is released, after the door shuts. Your eyes are glued to your phone during her walk of shame, not wanting to see any marks or anything thatâll make this any worst for you.
You hear Eddieâs footsteps getting closer, so you decide to take a peek. Eddieâs in nothing but his black jeans, while his checkered boxers peak out the top and a cigarette behind his ear.
Why is he coming over here?
âWhat are you, doing?â He says as he takes a seat on the other end of the couch
âJust scrolling on my phone.â You say as you look over at him, his face looked flushed and sweaty, it makes your stomach hurt even more. God, you canât believe you are feeling this way for Eddie, you like him. You wish you could fucking leave, you hate this, you hate these old feelings youâve stuffed down for so long, popping back up like a fucking Jack in the box.
âYou uh, you want me to order a pizza or something? I worked up an appetite.â He smirks
âYeah, cool.â You say almost low enough to be a whisper
âOkay, um. Do you want to watch a movie or something?â He says as he looks down at your cleavage, nipples hard and on display.
âNo, Iâm okay.â You say as you get up and make your way to the kitchen to grab a drink.
You didnât see it, but Eddieâs eyes were roaming your body, as he licked his lips. Yeah, he just had sex with some random girl, but that was only to get his mind off of you, and your annoying, fucking attitude. Eddie would never admit it, but he loved your stupid sassy personality. You didnât take his shit. Fuck, he wanted you so bad. He starts to wonder if he just blew any chance with you, by having another girl over. Dammit, He definitely did, thereâs no way youâd touch him now.
Part two
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