#or maybe the health stuff makes people uncomfortable?

[psiirockin]

do you have any advice for opening commissions? i feel like you have them very professionally set up, and i have pretty bad social anxiety, so it might be helpful to hear tips for communicating with customers and such, or setting up a fair tos!

hi so, maybe i do have some advice!!! <33 thank you so so much for the kindness & seeing me as professional lol i’ve been doing comms for 2-3 years and i must say.. still getting the hang of a lot of things. you go through a lot of trial + error trying to figure out what works best for you, so remember theres no truly right way to go about comms! they should all fit the needs, pace, and benefit of you and your work ethic!

what i did personally is start off at some lower prices just to test the waters and get the ball rolling. i priced rendered characters at i think, $24 per character? possibly lower, i cant quite remember. and then i gradually went up as i started to progress in my art style more + had more people coming in.

with customers, i have a lot of anxiety as well! im autistic, so i never like making a customer feel like i dont truly care abt the commission by accidentally sounding too flat or anything. i tend to RLLY overthink it lol so we make sure we are extra talkative + kind about their comm! giving them compliments on the character, showing genuine excitement so they know theyre in good hands! (we love engaging esp when the customer seems VERY excited or enthusiastic abt the commission!)

a lot of irl turmoil tends to happen in our life which can make a comm delayed sometimes. could be severe mental health problems, just being busy w/ shit in general. its important to just keep your customers up to date, especially if its going to take a realllyyy long time or the customer likes frequent updates.

i used to be able to get shit done in like a night. but, with an actual line up/queue of comm work we progressively started taking longer and longer esp as we transitioned from a teenager starting out and into a busy adult with persistent mental health issues. (plus our art becomes more complex as time goes on, so that has to be taken into account) tbhs, depending on your availability and how much effort goes into your work, and as the demand grows, you need to charge accordingly and just be honest with your clientele.

as for TOS do what makes you comfortable! make your limits known and put your foot down when a request or any topic makes you uncomfortable. dont let your customers get inappropriate with you or try to make you feel bad if they dont wanna pay for what they ask for, etc. i also recommend requesting payment after sketch/half and half when starting out just so you can get some experience under your belt + assure future clients that youre professional n wont scam them! (if you plan on switching to payment upfront in the future)

just remember that u are not a machine, you are a human being making art for someone else. putting love n effort into your craft, time and effort. take your time getting the hang of comm stuff, things dont have to be perfect in your setup at first.

#asks #asks open #commissions

[missmaywemeetagain]

Miss Madi! This is so fun, I’m excited to get to know you a little more. I might be greedy and also send a fic request 👀 xoxo

But: 💃 and also 💗 - where did the inspiration for Broken Glass come from? Mostly how you decided on Delores’s story and her background and how you chose to intertwine it with Elvis’s. (His story in this is breaking my heart a little more than a little 🥹).

Hiiiii my darlin’ dearest!! 💗 These are awesome questions!

💃🏼 Okay, random fact time! I have performed in all my singing, dancing, and acting glory for hundreds of people and have a Bachelor’s degree in Theater! I also was a dancer from the time I was two until about 24. Honestly feels like lifetime ago though, tbh lol. The funny thing is I get immense stage fright singing in front of people UNLESS I am doing so as a character, in which case I’m waaaayyyy less nervous. Like I was the lead in shows and would do just fine but ask me to sing karaoke and I literally shake all the way through. 😂😩 Also lol to being the shy introvert that comes alive when playing make believe. I suppose in some ways writing is a similar outlet…I’ve always loved stories and studying character, so they kind of go together (hence my double major in English!).

💗 So, Broken Glass…Dolores is very personal to me and she is based directly on a family member of mine who was a nurse around that time in NYC. And I’m not gonna lie, I have some distant family ties to the mafia 😬, so she was closer to that (though not nearly to the extent I’ve brought it to in BG—there was no evil Gianni or arranged marriage or anything like that for her. Her father wasn’t really in the mob). She also was not a fan of E then though (that Ricky Nelson line is real lol).

One day after talking with her I just thought, hey, wouldn’t it be cool if she’d met Elvis during that time period? How would that come about and why? And I am endlessly fascinated (and saddened) by E’s health history and she and I have talked about that together, and I wondered what it might have been like or how things might have changed for him if they’d understood/diagnosed him earlier in his life. I also think it humanizes him, which might be jarring for some and endearing for others.

And I love my tropes! So in comes the slow burn, the fake relationship with a semi-enemies to lovers bent, some hurt/comfort (and don’t worry—I have more fun in store!). I also love the idea of two people from different backgrounds being able to relate to each other through similar experiences and traumas. And if PS has taught us anything, i love my angst! 😂 Thus, Broken Glass was born!

Thanks for stopping by my dove! I hope that was enlightening in some way!🥰🥰🥰

Madi’s Get to Know Me Gala 💗

#Madi’s get to know me gala 💗 #broken glass #i appreciate the curiosity for BG cuz it’s not getting the love I’d hoped for #i know it’s more romance and less smut so maybe that’s why? #or maybe the health stuff makes people uncomfortable? #i also wanted to try something different from PS cuz it’s easy to get pigeon holed into one thing #but the story gives me all the feels #and obviously it’s personal to me in a different way #anyway thanks for the love darlin! #elvis presley #elvis #if you’re looking for trouble #you came to the right place #elvis presley x reader #elvis x reader #austin butler elvis #elvis x oc

[lovelyyandereaddictionpoint]

hi dear just wondering if you're taking request? If not then feel free to ignore me but I was wondering what or how would the yandere twisted wonderland boys react to a willing reader who actually finds there yandere tendencies hot and endearing and actually does not mind being locked up or the reader is just generally obsessed as they are with them hahaha sorry if it's to hard but if you find it uncomfortable then feel free to ignore me dear

Yandere-Obsessed | Yandere Twisted Wonderland x Reader

Malleus Draconia

“I will never let you leave my sights again!”

“Why would I ever?” 

After nearly obliterating those he feels as though are a threat to your health

He snaps 

With glowing green eyes, he refuses to let you go despite any protests you may have

But you have none 

Immediately jumping into the near-dragon amalgamation’s arms as you lovingly rub your cheek against him

“I’m so happy, you feel the same!” 

“Wait…does…this mean you purposefully orchestrated the incident?”

“Hehehe maybe?”

“...You love me as well?”

“Ohh Malleus I adore you!”

He’s near melting 

You guys are the couple that sits in public places with hardly any space between you as your constantly looking into each other's eyes

Its a fight should anyone intervene

On both ends

Sebek’s reeling but he gains a whole lot of respect when you easily threaten his life

Malleus and you are in your own world

Most people don’t get killed only because you two are so focused on one another no one really penetrates your bubble

“My child of man it felt as if my heart was torn in two! I can breathe now that your in my arms again!”

“Oh Mal-Mal!”

Jack Howl

“W-wait (Y/n) i-its not what you think!”

“Really? It looks like that guy was suffocated to death and your burying him.”

“(Y/n)-”

“You can’t bury him yet until we remove any and all traces of you! See!? Your nail marks are a dead-giveaway!”

“Uh–”

“Here we should just burn this part that way no one will know!”

“T-thanks?”

“Of course, baby.”

He’s always felt guilty for the stuff he was doing in your name

But to see you his beloved, his mate assure him

Brings him an air of confidence

Now he knows that you acknowledge him and will even defend him

Like a true mate!

He’s so pleased he doesn’t have to fight you to accept him

Rather he’s fighting you from doing the same

It just makes him so embarrassed you care for him

“Love you don’t need to do away with the other contestants!”

“But look at your blush! You won’t mind it all that much you can step down from your high horse for me? Right?”

“...Fine b-but you promise to spend the rest of the night kissing me, right!?”

Idia Shroud

“Y-you knew I was watching? T-the whole time?!” 

“Yup! I’m surprised you hardly noticed the ones I had on you!”

“W-what!?”

Any semblance of the love-obsessed mad scientist is diminished by your overwhelming display of love

He’s too busy reeling from that obsessed look you give him

He’s so easy to dominate from then on

Avidly obeying all your promises to terminate anyone who talks to him 

All with a love-obsessed blush on his face

But even with your reciprocated love, he’ll eventually want for more

Whether he convinces himself you're faking it or that you are trying to outshine his love

He’s turning the tables on you 

Coming up with something that will really blow your socks off

Something to show you he is the ultimate yandere in this relationship

“Darling, how clever you summoned the robots of S.T.Y.X to eliminate all your rivals. But believe me, I will do the same.”

“Hehe you misunderstand, muffin! They’re aren’t only here to eliminate my rivals but there also going to escort you to my love dungeon!”

“Love dungeon?”

“Yeah, how’s that for yandere!? I love you more than anyone even you can’t compete with me!”

Jamil Viper

“So if my suspicions are right you’ve been using snake whisper so that they’ll all stay away from me, right?”

“...”

“Don’t look so tense I wanted to thank you! And I wanted to ask if you noticed my own attempts to be noticed by you?”

“W-what?!”

He’s usually on top of it when it comes to knowing about you and hiding his feelings at the same time

But he completely skimmed over your various attempts to reciprocate his violent-obsessive tendencies

He’s reluctant to believe you 

But when he does he’s falling even more in love

He plans to occupy all your time

And doesn’t mind when you start sleeping at Scarabia just to be closer to him 

He loves it so much

He acts so much goofier because he’s falling in love all over again

“You better not be lying to me about this…”

“Trance me if you really want to know!”

“Maybe I will.”

#Yandere reader #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere jamil viper #yandere jamil x reader #yandere jamil #yandere jack howl #yandere jack howl x reader #yandere idia shroud #yandere idia #yandere idia shroud x reader #yandere idia x reader #yandere malleus #yandere malleus x reader #yandere malleus draconia #yandere x reader #yandere x you #lovelyyandereaddictionpoint #yanderexrea #yandere #yandere harem #yanderes #yandere twst malleus #yandere twst x reader #yandere twst

[skelliko]

★-Tokyo revengers

-how'd they comfort you when you're crying,

๑-featuring: kazutora, chifuyu, Baji

°- Kazutora hanemiya

• he wouldn't know what to do at first, he'd stand/sit there staring at you with a neutral expression for a good minute, on the outside it'd seem like he was silently judging you- which he was for a brief moment thinking your weak before it actually clicked into him that your upset and that he's being a major dick rn

• him trying to comfort other people made him uncomfortable more than he first thought it would, boy hardly ever got that sort of comfy treatment so having to comfort you when he doesn't even know what comfort feels like. it's like putting a cold blooded reptile in the cold and expecting it to survive

• but after a short while he seemed to get the hang of it after he'd ask you stuff like "what happened/ what's wrong?" to then "who made you cry?" if you didn't give a direct response

• would give slight touch like pat's or rubs on the head or arm and would hesitate in hugging you, though if you hug him first he'd give in and hold you tight and close to him like your the last pillow in the entire world and that's when he starts to act more protective of you

• if the reason is because of another person kazutora would hold in on the hug for a minute longer before getting up without a word to look for his ass. he won't even say anything about it but it was clear as to what he was gonna do, you could try and make his stop but he wouldn't care, he'd do his own thing in what he feels to be the right solution

• despite knowing what kazutora was gonna do you'd find out the results on your own by seeing 'that person' in school or in public and their face is all bruised, and if anything else probably in a cast too.

• kazutora definitely took his anger out on the person when he first heard that they were the cause for your tears

• the next day/days he wouldn't bring it up, and if you tried to he would quickly shut it down and say not to bring it up or avoid it by bringing up a previous conversation but doesn't add anything new to the subject and just repeats things he's already said

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• if the reason is cause of a bad mood, mental health or anything of the sort that is out of his range then he'd just stay with you keeping you close by and play with your hair while softly ranting about his day trying to calm you down to stop you crying

• he'd move positions so that the side of your back would be slightly resting against his chest and kept you physically close, the side of his head resting against yours and at the corner of your eye you could occasionally see him staring at you, its hard to tell what he was thinking but he had good intentions

• he'd whisper sweet things about you in hopes of possibly helping you but he'd be a little hesitant in the first place of that idea since he's not the sappy type.

• he'd mention a few off things about himself and his own bad moods in hopes of giving you that sense of understatement. maybe just being able to relate to each other will give that comfort.

• despite his earlier hesitation in hugging you he would never give up a perfect opportunity to kiss you, whether its on the cheek, forehead or directly on the lips, in his mind something like that is smaller than a full on body to body hug,

• he'd hesitate in leaving you alone but after he does he doesn't bring the situation up at all and pretends like it never happened, though it is secretly stored at the back of my mind for a next time

°- chifuyu matsuno

• he'd freeze for a split second before immediately walking close up to you with a concerned expression on his face

• he's quietly repeat "it's okay, it's okay" while resting his hand on the side of your upper arms, though that was mainly to assure himself that your okay (since the boy was panicking a lot on the inside) before he'd ask if you're okay and if you're hurt or anything whilst bringing you into a hug and rub the back of your head to try and soothe you and your emotions

• his mind would be racing with all sorts of possibilities and reasons, his own overthinking made him worried and anxious and even angry at the thought that another person had made you upset enough to cause tears

• he'd talk in a soft voice at first but then he'd get a little lower if you haven't given an answer yet to his previous questions "I need to know what happened" almost protective but also a little impatient so that his own emotions don't swallow him

• if someone was the cause of your tears he wouldn't know what to do, not in a way that he was clueless but he didn't know if he should go after the person or stay with you, he wanted to do both at the same time

• but soon enough he knew your emotions were important to deal with than hunt down some guy

• he'd try to cheer you up by saying dumb little jokes or stories to you that he made up in hope of you getting to smile or laugh even if it'd be for a short moment, however it's his smile that usually works but he doesn't know that and always assumes his humour did the trick

• he'd compliment you in any way he could but not shower you in compliments, just something small like "your hair's really pretty by the way"

• once you've calmed down and grown slightly apart from the hug, before leaving he'd double make sure you're okay and give a quick and gentle kiss on the cheek before parting away

• the second he's away from you he's ringing his friends up to find any other information about he person but did the beating up himself, he wouldn't go gentle on the person at all, chifuyu would make sure to leave him sorry

• after the beating he wouldn't say anything about it but he would hint it by 'accidentally' showing his slightly bruised knuckles to you making you ask what happened even after knowing he gets into many fights and from there on he'd subtly mentioned that he went after the guy that hurt you

• he wants to be appreciated and show off in a positive way 'like look I gave him what he deserved' and sure enough, he very much is appreciated, though he was ever so slightly nervous to think that you wouldn't have approved of it which was why he was kind of subtle about it

--

• if the reason for your tears is cause of a bad mood, mental health or anything out of his grasp he'd stay with you for as long as you needed him to with no complaints or second thoughts

• he'd do the same thing as he did with the jokes and stories in hopes of seeing you smile and even raise your cheeks up to slightly force you to smile and it usually would work since it would cause small laughing fits

• he would say he needed to leave and would do a whole parting act but would come back after 5 minutes with your favourite snacks in his hands as a small suprise for you and would end up staying until he actually needed to leave which was a good few hours later

°- baji keisuke

• he'd think carefully on how to go by the situation, though the first thought he had was that someone made you cry, the boy will always find any sort of excuse to punch someone

• he'd calmly walk up to you with open arms and wrap them around you keeping you close to his chest and speak lowly and quiet but due to him being so close to your ear it was loud and clear, "who do I have to beat up?"

• would gently rock you side by side when hugging you

• if the reason for why you're crying is because of someone else then his hug will tighten a little but not enough to hurt you, anger will rise up immediately and it'd be quite obvious since he doesn't exactly try to hide it, he'd do a little, angry yet 'i understand' hum listening to you talk about the shitty person

• though he doesn't leave straight away to beat the person up as he'd wish he could, he'd make sure to stay with you for a good few more minutes or even a few hours, as long as you needed him to stay he would

• before leaving he'd give a small and quick kiss on the temple

• we all know Baji can knock someone unconscious with just one punch, however he'd make sure that wouldn't happen as he'd want to make the person suffer a little (a lot) for causing you any sort of harm, making them unconscious wouldn't be enough and it'd give them an easy way out since their just a sleep and the only downside they'd have is waking up to a purple face and a skull cracking headache, they need to be awake through it all not a sleep like a baby.

• after Baji beat the person up he took an hour to himself to calm down from it and wash up his bloody hands before coming back to you with a sly grin, "he's all delt with sweetheart" as if he's proud of it (he is)

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• thought if the reason is cause of a bad mood, mental health or anything of the sort that is out of his range he'd make sure it'd be in his range in a positive way by helping you

• he'd calm you down first with his words and actions, keeping you close and whisper sweet words that could also make you both flustered and laugh

• once you're calmed down a little from the tears he'd take you out on his motorbike for a calming ride to let your mind wander away from the negativity and instead focus on Baji and the surroundings

• bit less than half way through the motorbike ride he'd speed up but not in a way that could put you in danger but enough to feel the wind hit you through your clothes and be faster than most cars around you. he does motorbike rides when he himself is upset so he knows exactly how to calm you down by doing the same.

• he loves the feeling of your arms around his torso to keep you in place on the bike, part of the reason why he took you out.

☆ ----

#fanfiction #tokyo revengers #kazutora x reader #kazutora hanemiya #baji keisuke #baji x reader #chifuyu x reader #matsuno chifuyu #comfort #fanfic #kazutora

[destinygoldenstar]

What Separates Digital Circus’s Horror From Others

Disturbing.

Unnerving.

TERRIFYING.

BUT WHY?!

On the surface to the… five people that never watched The Amazing Digital Circus Pilot, this show looks like a Five Nights At Freddy’s knock off.

It’s a cute mascot show that is actually secretly a horror monster infested world.

Even people who haven’t seen FNAF at least seen a few clips of it and what it’s famous for. I know I have.

My sister is super into this, and she hogs the TV, so… RIP me.

That’s what most non-horror stans usually view horror as.

The jumpscares.

The unnerving imagery.

The designs made to freak out the viewers and make them uncomfortable.

It’s usually quite obvious when something is a horror, cause these aspects are often front and center. You can usually tell it’s a trailer of a horror movie by just looking at it.

At least, from my, a non-horror lover’s understanding. For some reason these sorts of things, especially indie animated ones, are the faces of a lot of content farms.

If the product itself isn’t r@%ing your audience, it’s those.

(TAKE MY WARNING AND TAKE IT SERIOUSLY: IF YOU VALUE YOUR MENTAL HEALTH AND YOUR SANITY, DO NOT LOOK UP THIS MOVIE)

BUT BACK ON SUBJECT.

Digital Circus… doesn’t really have this stuff.

There’s no jumpscares.

(I mean there is in a trailer, but it’s used as a joke.)

The character designs are very cute looking without any alternate versions that are scary.

And the imagery of the show remains cute and fun all throughout. The darkest it gets is in a realistic looking office.

But there are no jumpscares in that scene.

It’s just… a normal office.

If this was a horror, then perfect opportunity, right?

So… what’s going on here?

This, my friends, is why Digital Circus is not your typical indie animated horror flick.

And why people even call it ‘scary’ at all.

Here’s the trick this show uses.

It’s not the imagery.

It’s not the designs.

It’s not even intentionally trying to scare you.

Caine is not intentionally trying to scare the audience. He’s just acting like an A.I.

Yeah he has SOME unnerving moments.

But compared to THIS:

I’d say Caine is pretty tame.

Maybe it’s an indicator that he’s secretly a monster like the Other Mother in Coraline.

That horror flick is about the host lying to the protagonist and revealing their horror-like appearance later on.

But not only was it confirmed that Caine is NOT evil. But look at his design right away and his presentation.

There is no sign so far that he lies about anything. At least not what he doesn’t know.

Yes he lied about the exit. But the exit ITSELF was the thing that sent you to the VOID. So really he kinda tried to protect them.

If he didn’t, he’d let jester girl eject herself like Among Us.

So why is it unnerving?

Because it’s the POV we the audience are in for most of the episode: Pomni.

Pomni is an Audience Surrogate.

Audience Surrogates are characters designed specifically to be a placeholder for the audience.

People usually assume this trope as the character made to be the bland and generic one. But that’s actually not true.

An audience surrogate can be as simple as a First Person POV. As all it means is that the character is designed to have the same reactions the audience would in the situation they would find themselves in.

Course, not speaking for everybody, but majority that would consume the content.

Thus, with Pomni as the audience surrogate, we the audience are thrusted into her shoes the whole time. We feel the fear she does. We are experiencing the circus the same time she does.

Notice the editing in some scenes. Specifically the scenes Pomni is NOT in.

When Pomni is in a scene, there’s usually some change in lighting or camera movement that’s unnerving.

But when she isn’t in a scene, these editing moves aren’t there at all.

Which makes it pretty easy to suggest that these unnerving edits are just what’s going on in Pomni’s head.

So with that, when she’s scared. We’re scared. We’re in her POV.

But she’s scared all the time. That’s just her average personality, right?

Then why make these specific edits?

Let’s think about this:

This character is trapped in a world that isn’t her own. Everything is unusual, and she wants out. But instantly realizes there’s no escape.

And then gets told this is her new home and her new body.

A home she doesn’t recognize. And a body she doesn’t even know the name of.

She lost all sense of identity in an instant. Losing everything about herself in an instant. To the point where she can’t even remember what she was before.

And to make matters worse, because this is unusual, everything SEEMS terrifying. Even to those trying to help her adjust.

The only way out of such a confusing and terrifying world is to escape. Which is what she tries to find the entire time.

So THEREFORE:

The horror is this show is NOT the jumpscares or the creepy images.

The horror is THE VIEWER’S MIND.

This show constantly destroys your mind and breaks you through Pomni.

The idea of losing everything about yourself and being trapped in something unfamiliar forever. That IS terrifying.

If you were in this situation, you’d probably freak out even if you were the bravest being ever.

So it’s not about how scary the scene is on the outside.

It’s about what you’re THINKING that’s scary.

Ragatha’s distress monologue is not scary on the outside. But if you actually take into consideration what she says.

THATS terrifying.

That toys with your mind. And it also toys with Pomni’s.

The monster figure in the episode, the abstraction, is nowhere near as scary as something from FNAF

At least in my opinion.

Especially seeing what the monster does.

It can’t kill you. You’re just glitched.

Or maybe it CAN kill. But we never see that.

Even if Pomni ended up like Ragatha, Caine would’ve eventually came back, found them, and fixed them. And they would’ve been fine.

But then, rather out of nowhere, she STOPS.

And we get this shot.

I talked about this shot before. Said it quickly became one of my favorite shots in media.

This is why.

This shot makes me queasy every time.

The idea of looking in a mirror and not even being able to process or recognize yourself. Unable to even process your own reflection, that’s how unrecognizable you’ve become.

That’s horrifying.

And there’s no dialogue here either.

The episode effectively uses SHOW DONT TELL.

They SHOW you how scary the situation is. They SHOW you a single image that tells you everything.

It would’ve been so easy to just have Pomni say “I’m scared. I don’t recognize myself. Who is this person looking back at me?”

But no

They DON’T insult their audience.

They don’t TELL you.

They let you sink it in yourself.

Pomni doesn’t even have ANY lines after she goes through the exit door. And yet the shots after that with her have been plastered everywhere. Why? Cause she doesn’t need to tell you her mental state. You’re SHOWN it.

Can someone PLEASE tell the live action Avatar The Last Airbender that?!

Speaking of the office scene. This is the only moment in the show that looks… real. Not that cartoony.

Which I guess being in a setting that’s off putting from the rest makes it creepy, right?

Well not really.

Sure she’s running through rooms that seem to be repeating, which that of itself is sanity breaking. It reminds me a lot of another existential horror: The Stanley Parable.

But while that game is excellent and the monologue that plays in that ending is one of my favorites, it IS just telling you the sanity of the player.

Not that there’s anything wrong with this in that games style. There’s no other way that could’ve been done in that game.

Here, again, there’s no dialogue. It’s just Pomni running through these desperate for the exit.

The scary part about this is that we KNOW the absolute DESPERATION she has.

Even if we couldn’t see her face, that’s still across because we’ve seen it the entire episode.

And then there’s her break.

She snaps at the sight of a desk, and gets fangs, that of a FNAF character. But only for a second. She doesn’t even go out at the camera with them. She goes on her merry way.

But Pomni, being the POV character, really doesn’t have much to be scared at about her.

So why is this terrifying? Why not go all the way if this is supposed to be a jumpscare?

Well cause it’s not.

A way to scare your audience is to make them feel dread. Lingering longing dread. Sometimes irrational dread.

People with anxiety especially get scared at things even when they’re completely safe. They feel an unease in their stomachs. They feel unable to move. Unable to speak. Unable to put it into words at all.

It could be because we saw something unnerving that stays in our subconscious. It could be because we’re nervous about something coming up. It could be because we’re in an uncomfortable situation.

Either way, anything even remotely resembling that triggering thing can break someone to feel this anxiety. Sometimes even something as simple as the dark. Even if we know we’re completely safe.

(Speaking as a person with anxiety myself)

She only snaps and cackles when she sees a random desk with a computer. Which also has the headset she put on there. The thing that got her in this.

But you might not have even seen the headset on your first viewing. I didn’t.

But your subconscious sees it. The environment not being like the others aids in unnerving you and making it hard to process what you’re looking at.

Why is this terrifying? Why does it break you? Why does it mentally break Pomni? We don’t know. It just does.

We’ve been stuck going through doors in repeating rooms for hours.

Fear makes you not able to overthink it.

So all of that is build up to the near perfect shot of Pomni at the brink of snapping at the dinner table. With the others voices blurred in her mind. As all she can do is fake a smile.

Terrifying End.

It’s not scary because it’s scary. It’s scary because it toys with the character, and the viewer’s mind

Now, is Digital Circus the first media to do this technique?

No. Not at all.

One of the most acclaimed animated movies, Spirited Away, also uses these exact same tactics for example.

That’s obviously a master class at this tactic. And it scared me as a child as a result. For all these exact same reasons.

It’s not a horror. Not traditionally. It’s not trying to scare you. But it does anyway cause in your mind it’s a scary concept.

And also, well, Spirited Away is a completed story as of the time this post comes out.

And Digital Circus only has one episode. But we did get confirmation this would be a series. And I personally have high hopes that this brilliant tactic is kept. From the trailer, it does seem like they’re not forgetting the stuff I bring up here. So I hope this works out for the creators despite the drama and the internet BS surrounding this show.

But even if not, we at least get one case in this show where we all want to curl up in a ball and cry

Us too Pomni. Us too.

Thank you for reading my… analysis a ton of people made before me, and probably better. Happy day for you all.

#digital circus #the amazing digital circus #amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #tadc caine #horror #existential crisis #existential dread #existential horror #anxiety tw #anxiety attack

[stuckinapril]

don’t know if you’ve already shared (or if you wouldn’t like to) but i’d love to hear about your resolutions and goals for this year!

Hi so sorry for how late this is!! I have quite a few!

Ins —

Being more decisive. Trusting myself w calling the shots. Just making a decision and sticking w it.

Financial literacy

More reading. Just more.

Attacking things I’m uncomfortable with instead of shying away from them.

More silence. I don’t need to have my earphones in all the time

More time w family!!! I need to put in as much effort to connect w them as I do w my friends

Green tea every night

More pictures. I have a serious problem of just not being incentivized to take any

More scientific literature for fun!!

Piggybacking off that point—making it instinctive to apply things I study to real life situations. This is a niche one but it just helps me process stuff faster and I just think it’s a super dope learning technique

Pushing myself harder. It’s just not my preference to be mediocre.

Nourishing myself w my own affirmations. Cutting out my need for other people’s validation

Educational documentaries

Making more of an effort to connect w my Arab heritage

Being my natural self. It’s okay if I’m not bubbly all the time. Sometimes I just want to chill

Whole foods

Less phone time (I say this every year but like I want 2024 to be the year I’m truly disconnected/using my phone in a healthy way)

Body oils!

More tennis dates w friends!

10k steps a day

Sticking religiously to my hour by hour schedule

Keeping promises to myself as ardently as I keep promises to others

Being more bold w fashion!!

Hitting the gym 5 days a week

Reading more literature in Arabic and French

Learning how to cook. I cannot live off Siggi’s for the rest of my life lol

Exploring more music genres

Learning the piano!!

No longer feeling guilty for withholding information. Privacy is not a bad thing.

Getting more and more independent!!

Becoming the friend I want to be. Other people need to show up as well, but I can’t hold people up to standards I myself can’t reach.

Outs —

Centralizing luxury brands. Thinking that price equates to quality. The fact of the matter is quality equates to quality. Price is irrelevant.

Relying on snap judgment responses to situations. I need to learn to wait at least 15 minutes. I can be impulsive asf

Jumpiness. Nervous energy. I just want to be more calm and controlled in how I carry myself. I want to exude self-assuredness

Checking my phone first thing in the morning!!

Drinking less than 3 liters of water a day

Being available all the fucking time. If someone has an issue w me for being busy, maybe they’re not someone I want in my life in the first place.

Being too forgiving. Not immediately allowing someone back into my life doesn’t make me a bitch. Immediately running to fix things w someone doesn’t make me selfless. Being the bigger person in situations where I was nowhere near in the wrong doesn’t make me mature. It’s just symptomatic of a lack of boundaries.

Consuming dumb shit in the name of “keeping up w pop culture.” I don’t care about celebrity controversy #7282727. I don’t care about celebrity selfie #827226. It doesn’t elevate my life in any way. I legit just don’t care. And this goes for real life gossip w friends too

Taking too long to text back!! A day is fine, but sometimes I take longer and I think that’s a shitty trait to have. I can absolutely afford to respond to people faster.

Too much chocolate!! I’m a sweet tooth but I must preserve my skin/overall health

Motivation over discipline. I need to be attuned to discipline always.

Control freak antics. I can’t control people. It’s not my responsibility. They’ll act how they act. All I can do is control my reaction to it

Rumination/unhealthy venting. When I’m done w something, I’m done w something.

Overcompensating for other people’s shortcomings. It’s not my responsibility to coddle others. It’s okay if something is too much for me.

Having no boundaries w others. People aren’t entitled to private information. It doesn’t make me deceptive to withhold things—it just makes me selective. People need to earn private details about me.

Curating things I like. I simply like what I like. It’s not that deep.

#ask #2024

[qqueenofhades]

Maybe this is a controversial opinion, but its one that I've been reminded of in the few weeks since things have escalated so severely in Israel and Palestine-- I feel like the pressure for random, average individuals online to be vocally political is not only entitled and uncomfortable, but also just an example of misplaced priority.

Like, I have people on twitter right now that are flat out saying if you don't talk extensively about I/P you're truly, irredeemably evil. I've had mutuals say that silence means you're complacent in genocide, that you have blood on your hands (exact words). But it just doesn't make sense? Most of the people who I've seen being flat out harassed for being silent are teenagers who don't have money to donate, working class folks who don't have time to spare, and normal people who just don't have enough of a following online to even spread any word effectively. Of course, the ones doing the harassing are also poor/busy/not-popular, but they don't see the irony. (I've also seen them say that talking about war constantly is taking a toll on their mental health, saying they've cried, had nightmares, panic attacks, etc...but they also say that taking a mental health break from social media is "selfish" and genocidal, so.)

The whole interaction leaves me with so many questions. If stepping away from social media because politics are stressing you out (which they are known to do), are you obligated to use social media? Do you have to use twitter to be a good person? What does that say about people who can't afford a phone, or live in a country where it isn't quite possible? (Are homeless folks inherently genocidal, or is that an "obvious" exception that was never clarified because no one uses nuance anymore?) If you have to talk about world events, lest you side with the oppressor, at what point is something so catastrophic you *must* talk about it? Is there a number of lives lost that is low enough you can get away with being quiet, and a certain amount too high that you're obligated to talk about it? Is it your duty to have the news on 24/7 to make sure you don't miss anything and catch all the global disasters as they happen? How much do you have to talk about something for it to be considered "enough"? Is there a quota??

It just feels like a lot of people are acting as if people who aren't chronically online aren't 1. doing any activism, because the only important activism is social media networking (sarcasm), or 2. are inherently bad people for *not* spending 6 hours a day on their phones. Like, I had someone I thought was a friend say I was a bad person because I was trying to cut down my social media usage, because the timing was "too convenient"... as if that's a normal thing to say to someone, ever. Sorry if I went on a little bit of a rant, it wasn't my intention. I dunno, maybe it's just me; I've seen a lot of people saying this sort of stuff so maybe they are the majority. It just feels really weird to let people that are addicted to social media take charge of who online is "good" or "bad" based off their internet usage. As if we were all catholics or something. If I were to say that current takes on morality were very catholic-seeming, would you know what I mean?

As recently noted, I am myself on an embargo from answering asks related to this topic. I will make one exception because this is important. Please note that any wank in replies or reblogs will be instantly blocked (and I won't hesitate to disable reblogs if necessary). I will not be answering follow-up asks or getting drawn into Discourse. I do not want to do it and it will not be happening.

I have said it before, but it bears saying again: thinking that the only way to Do Activism is to be constantly on social media and immersing yourself in terrible things nonstop and then posting the Most Correct Opinions (and then viciously attacking anyone who is even slightly Not As Correct as you) is absolutely bullshit. If you're engaging with this content so much that it's giving you a mental breakdown or otherwise plunging you into a spiral of anxiety that you take out on other people who are just as far removed from actually doing anything about it as you: why? Do you really think that you and you alone, one random person on the Internet, are the only way anyone else is going to find out about these things? Or do you think you have to perform the Most Correct Opinions nonstop, viciously harass anyone who isn't responding in exactly the same way, and this is the sum total of what your response should be? Especially in a situation as bloody and complicated as this, dealing with reams of religious, social, cultural, and political history where the average commentator on this conflict knows only what's been fed to them by propaganda on TikTok? How the fuck is that useful or constructive for anyone, aside from perpetuating the idea that you have to be angry all the time on social media about things you essentially know nothing about? I can't see that it does.

What's happening to the Gazans right now is no qualification or equivocation, a genocide. It should rightfully be opposed and called what it is. But unfortunately, I have spent too much time around Western Online Leftists to believe they actually care a whit about stopping genocide as a fundamental principle, and only want to be seen to loudly care about what their Ideology has told them to care about. If it means hand-waving aside genocide and atrocities when committed by their preferred polities, so be it. Why haven't these same people been wall-to-wall up in arms about what Russia has been doing in Ukraine, or for God's sake Syria for the past ten years, if they're really concerned about the rights of innocent Muslim civilians attacked by a far-right imperialist power? Why not the Uighurs in China? Why not [insert the blank] of all the terrible things happening in the world as a result of far-right fascist genocidal imperialism? Why only this conflict? Why now? Why does it involve so much excusing of terrorism as long as it's committed for the Right Ideology? Why are some of the most loudly pro-Palestinian accounts on here also the most rabidly pro-Russian? How does that make sense? To put it bluntly, those genocides are being committed by nation-states that Online Leftists like for being "anti-Western," and therefore their activities are actually fine and should even need to be defended.

My point is not to say that what's happening to the Palestinians is not bad. It is. It is awful and inexcusable. However, I seriously doubt the motives and morality of those who are being the loudest about screaming on social media and attacking everyone else for not instantly repeating their views. I seriously doubt that the Online Left actually opposes genocide and accelerationism as fundamental principles, because they proudly demonstrate every day that they don't. Until those vast factors can be dismantled and shown for what they are, and this can be placed into its larger context, I don't buy it and I don't believe this wall-to-wall social media outrage factory is actually aimed at helping the Gazans or anyone else suffering the most as a result of this. It is just to show that they can be counted on to Perform Outrage and harass anyone else who doesn't do the same, and that does nothing for anyone whatsoever.

#anonymous #ask #politics for ts #israel hamas war #once again any wank will be blocked #reblogs will be turned off if needed #i will not be elaborating further #the end

[restinsodaroni]

Hey! Hi! Hello!

We need to have another chat again! About ✨BOUNDARIES✨

So, I have been having an issue with people thinking they can be rude to me or even playfully rude to me in my asks. I honestly thought turning off anon asks would stop people from doing that but apparently not!

I don't know what gives them the idea that they can joke in a rude way towards me when I have no idea who they are lol. It is starting to delve into the parasocial territory where they think we are on friend terms of joking in a mean spirited way, when I only interacted with them maybe once or never. ( I've dealt with someone who became parasocial with me when I started out on Tumblr, and it genuinely freaked me out, so please knock it off!)

I let it go before, but it's getting annoying lol.

And another thing, I'm starting to not want to answer asks of people wanting me to draw them/their Oc/ self-insert interacting with my Sun and Moon because it's just mostly them wanting me to draw their characters being rude or even hurting Sun and Moon.

And that's just gonna lead to a lot of people getting upset in my inbox lol. ( Also being rude to me while also wanting me to draw your Oc is definitely not gonna make me want to draw something for you!)

Not to mention some of you are wanting me to draw waaaaay too intimate stuff with your Ocs/self-inserts and Sun/Moon where I'm getting uncomfortable. So uh just simmer down some alright?

There is probably more but I'm too tired to think about it lol. I was debating whether I should write this or not, but honestly I shouldn't feel bad about stating my boundaries. No one should feel bad about having boundaries! And it's okay to say no when you are made uncomfortable!

I think my problem is worrying about hurting other folks' feelings. But honestly, I need to start putting my comfort and mental health first. I'm sure this is an issue many people deal with 😅

That's about it. I hope I don't have to keep making posts like this in the future. Some folks just need to dial it back some lol. Also I need to be more firmer with my boundaries haha.

Anyway see ya Later 💫

#restinsodaroni talking #soda can vent

[wispscribbles]

hi i just discovered your beautiful art so i obviously needed to scroll down your whole blog to catch up on everything you posted haha

i just wanted to say that i got way too emotional after reading that post of yours regarding mw3 and your mental health… on one hand i’m so sorry that you felt that way, but on the other i feel it with my whole heart

ghoap content especially for me helped me these past few months with my mental health in ways i would never have expected, it was my solace and inspiration, i started working out too and got back into drawing, got a lot better at it as well!

but unfortunately i get way too fixated on fictional stuff and there comes a time that my brain switches up and connects the things i liked and comforted me with things that make me extremely uncomfortable and stressed out, especially if i fall down a fandom rabbit hole that i would never have searched up, beacuse i know myself, i know my limits and triggers but i feel like i’m not a part of the fandom if i don’t like and interact with every single headcanon, art and ship

these past days i was really down because of that, and the things i read (why did i do that???) and now when i think of ghoap i think of that stuff and im scared that i alienated myself from the one thing that made me happy

but discovering your art and with that your post reminded me that im not alone in these feelings, even if it’s not the same exactly, and i wanted to thank you, for sharing your thoughts that time i guess haha <33

((sorry for rambling))

Long reply under 'keep reading' !! CW: talk of triggers and MCD

Always feel free to ramble my way!!! How nice you could find some comfort in my art and ghoap stuff. Especially in my mw3 post. I've been considering deleting it a few times, but hearing it maybe helped to read in some way makes me happy I left it up.

I get where you're coming from - I very much use these fictional characters as a safe space, but ppl view them very differently. There's room for it all, "don't like, don't interact" is very much a policy I agree with. It's important to mute words and be aware of your own triggers as you browse stuff in this fandom, because there's such a wide variety of stuff out there. You do NOT have to interact and agree with every thought people have on this ship, that's impossible and super stressful. There's plenty of stuff and headcanons I don't vibe with. There are no 'requirements' that you have to meet in order to enjoy fiction.

It's part of why I enjoy ghoap - that their dynamic resonates and has sparked so much creativity and outlets for so many - but it also means there's gonna be a lot of stuff u don't necessarily agree with or feel comfortable with. For example, a lot of folks use the MCD in mw3 as a way to explore grief, which I think is really cool, but on a bad day that could potentially get my brain in a bad headspace, so I only check out that art and those fics when I feel okay. There's also a bunch of stuff I'd never want to interact with, and that’s fine !!

I'm personally quite vanilla and a sucker for exploring the softer, more domestic aspects of these characters. It's what brings me joy. I know there are parts of this fandom who don’t vibe with what I make at all, and would call it untrue to the characters. Some creators enjoy exploring the more violent or toxic sides to the source material. That's just how it is, we all need different things from fiction. As long as we're capable of chilling in our respective sandboxes, then all's good.

But if you're like me, and enjoy the softer things, then definitely be aware and careful while exploring this ship and fandom. I've seen takes on these characters that are so far removed from how I view them, that they're basically the complete opposite, and it can leave a very bad taste, especially if you're the type to hinge your safe space on fiction.

Just... be mindful of yourself and your potential triggers, be respectful and don't interact with things that make you uncomfortable to the point of feeling unsafe. Shape your own online experience to your best ability.

Hope you're doing okay and still find joy in ghoap <3

#ask #anon ask #long post #mcd #mcd mention #major character death #mw3 spoilers #ish #few extra thoughts in tags: #sry it took a while to respond. i wanted to give a proper answer #hope this makes sense or helps somehow #and if interacting with this fandom continues to have a negative impact on your mental health then take a break #i understand using fiction as an outlet or safe space (i do it) but if the bad starts outweighing the good then try to distance yourself #don't dive into those rabbit holes that u know will make u feel bad #i understand the urge but its so important to protect yourself online #I’m far from an expert on this stuff so this is just my two cents #stay safe!!

[alliepretends]

Briefly returning to this blog because I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't find a place to say this where it might be heard.

I feel uncomfortable and disappointed by the way the D20 fandom, and even the players, have responded to the Riz and Skolanda conversation.

It feels like everyone immediately went on the defensive. Endless "she just doesn't get that his friends love him," "look at all this stuff his friends have done for him," "the relationships between the Bad Kids are perfect and they could never take advantage of him." Plus, Ally, Emily, and even to a certain extent Zac immediately shifting how their characters interact with Riz in response to Skolanda's criticism (that their characters wouldn't know about). I generally feel like Brennan tends to get a free pass while players (especially non-male players) get criticized for things that are partly or mostly his fault. But this is the one time that's not the case. It seems to me like he was trying to set up an interesting story. What does it mean for someone like Riz ("very social but weirdly doesn't have any friends," aromantic and desperate to hang on to his first friendships for life, a workaholic) to not really be able to set boundaries with his friends? How does that lead to situations where even loving and well-intentioned friends are taking advantage of him (getting him to write their essays for him, making him adapt to a nickname that was originally used to bully him, sacrificing sleep and mental health in the name of maintaining his relationship to them/helping with what he understands to be their goals)? It's not a pretty story. It's a story where everyone (including Riz) has to admit to some wrongdoing. And everyone has to change their behavior. But it has the potential to be a great story! In a way that "everyone is great, Riz's mom just doesn't get it" doesn't. It would be one thing if Brennan was having this come out of nowhere. But he's not. There has always been an expectation among the Bad Kids that Riz and Adaine will do the bulk of the labor. That Riz will put up with it when his friends make fun of him or seem to use him as a means to an end ("are you just the little thing that finds the clues").

It's a good story. Or at least, a good idea for a story. I get that it could end up in a place may feel too much like pvp for some players. And if they decide to dodge it for that reason then that's fair. But if the reaction to it is just "How dare someone accuse my (teenage) favorite character of not being emotionally aware enough to realize when they are taking advantage of a vulnerable friend?" I don't know how we can expect these stories to be particularly emotionally nuanced or complex. Or really having anything valuable to say at all. It's not a bad thing if the Bad Kids have unhealthy relationships. It's not a bad thing if the Bad Kids are imperfect perfect people. It's probably better storytelling if those relationships are being prompted to actually grow and change for the better. And I'm sad that the situation seems to be that we'd rather shield these characters from any criticism than be excited about maybe seeing them grow

#dimension 20 #riz gukgak #negativity #disclosure of bias i am an aroace person overly invested in Riz as a character

[sneezeshame]

people mouthbreathing when sick is so so underrated. like nobody wants to breathe through their mouth, its so uncomfortable especially when someone is sick and their tonsils and throat are all sore and red, but theyre just so stuffed up, their nose is dripping so bad, blowing repeatedly at first gives their poor head a bit of an open airway first for a half hour, then for a few minutes, then only for a few seconds until the snot solidifies and their sinuses are too swollen to function.

maybe they can pull a little air through their nostrils but it’s just not enough, or it makes a squeaking or gurgling or whistling sound when they try, or they just can’t rely on their nose anymore with how inconsistent it is-- one minute plugged solid, the next minute running mercilessly on only the right side, the next minute sensitive to and prone to sneezing fits in changes of temperature, particulate in the air, humidity, perfumes. they have to pause to come up for air when they eat or drink, and then they sleep their jaw drops open a bit more and they snore louder than they ever do when theyre healthy. when they cough or sneeze, their lips stay parted, meaning they shoot their cold/flu/seasonal plague into the air through two orafaces instead of one, especially if theyre very sick and have given up on trying to contain it all.

it’s a sign their nose has officially lost all its function, be it for smelling or breathing, and they have to put in extra work to compensate for its current state as a useless weight on their face. if they go in public it’s clear that they’re not only sick, but also contributing to a perpetual cloud of germs around their head-- a walking biohazard. their lips get chapped and develop an inflamed, sickly line of skin between their mouth and the rest of their face. their words come out unable to travel through their sinuses at all, stuffy and an octave lower, and they have to pause to breathe during sentences, too, and lets not forget the constant thick sniffling to keep their nose from dribbling out.

a scarf pulled around it all in cold weather; hunched over a bowl of boiling water at a dining room table with a towel over their head; laid propped up in bed with the humidifier chugging on high a foot away, trying to ease steam up their nostrils and, more desperately, through their lips and down their aching throat. when they develop a cough, it rattles up their windpipe and out their already open mouth into the air. theyre so, so sick, so so snotty and congested, and they have to deal with it all on top of their temperamental sick nose flying into snotty sneezes and stuffy, aching head and teeth. they stuff tissues up their nostrils-- its not like they were using them, anyway-- and the ends move with their breath as they sleep the best they can on whatever severe cold and flu medication theyre on. little snorts and sniffles report their status.

they wake up feeling just as terrible in the early mornings after a night of spotty sleep. they dont want to stay home sick, but their throat is so sore they can barely talk, and their nose is insatiable as ever. them going outside like this again is a public health concern. heaven forbid their partner try to kiss them for a moment, just a moment until they need to come up for air again-- they’ll definitely catch their cold or the flu or whatever this is, or at least be subjected to their hot, sick breath laden with congestion, or if theyre unlucky, a full on nose-and-mouth sneeze directly in their face.

regardless, perhaps if they remind them how dry and unyielding the air outside is on their throat, they might consider the misery of it all and the perks of staying sick in bed to give their nose and throat a break. at least, theyll consider it.

#snz #contagion

[miss-atena]

request by @consumeroflemoans

I was gonna write a full one-shot for this but then... My Tumblr gave up on me and I lost everything. I'll try my best to recreate the beauty that was there, I swear!

Azul Ashengrotto x MC - Beach Trip

"Pleeeeeease Azul? Pretty please with a Cherry on top?" Yuu looked up at Azul, a puppy eyes and a little pout of the lips. How did he end up in this dilemma? On one side, He had the perfect excuse to see the prefect in something that was not a droopy uniform too big for them, but on the other hand... Just the idea of this made him curl up on himself, the thought of having the prefect of all people possibly reacting like kids used to at him made him more uneasy than ever. "What would I gain as compensation for this, hm? You know, my touring services are not for free, dear prefect" "Is my company not enough?" "Do you prefer a sincere or a nice answer?" "Got it, Got it. I just thought it would be good for your health to take a break from work for the holiday a bit..." Pulling on the health strings... They are good. Azul sighed feeling defeated. "There is no talking you out of this idea, truly. You can count on my presence, then." "Great, it's a date then!" Azul choked on his drink "Meet me in the campus gates at 5!" Great. Just great. What did he agree to?! Why did he even agree, he had all the right to say no actually! That prefect, always making his mind foggy and a deep feeling in his chest whenever they are around... He might as well just try getting stuff in place for when he leaves, he needed to talk to Jade anyway.

And here were them. At the beach. Yuu had this full-body swimsuit, clearly, one that Vil gave to them, considering the big pomefiore emblem in the middle. Azul felt rather uncomfortable in such small clothes, but Yuu's voice made him feel an odd feeling of serenity. Maybe this wasn't so bad if... "Look, the waves are calm today. Wanna take a swim with me?" Oh no. "I would rather stay in the sand for the moment." Azuls stroked his business smile "We don't want our stuff to fly away or even be caught by some little thief, right?" "Oh come on Azul! There is literally no one else in here! And there is no wind coming, I'm sure if we put stuff in the corners of the bathing towel nothing will fly off" "That is not very sanitary at all" "We are not at the Lounge, no need for sanitary measures when we are toes deep in sand" Both paused, looking intensely at each other as if trying to prove their point in sheer stubbornness "If you are afraid of not swimming well with legs, I can help you, y'know? I'm a pretty good swimmer." "Are you implying I have not prepared for swimming in my human form if it was needed?" "Not at all, just that if you need some help I'm here." Another pause, this one, instead of filled with stubbornness, was filled with an uncomfortable air. "Fine. You can stay in the sand, then." Yuu looked downwards, and Azul assumed they tried making him pity them. Oh how dirty, pulling on his benevolence. But he didn't falter and sat down while watching Yuu play in the water.

It stayed like this until he looked away and... there was no one in the water now. Of course, he assumed Yuu was pranking him, they did walk a lot with the twins for his liking. But also... What if it wasn't? What if something caught on their feet, and they are slowly drowning right this instance? The chances are low, of course, but not zero. Also, the beachside seemed to be rather filled with rocks, they could've gotten themself stuck in there and didn't call for help since they were submerged. Azul's brain told him the obvious, this was a trick to get him in the water, but another side of his... not a benevolent side but a caring one, insisted that checking wouldn't hurt him. He didn't particularly need to transform either... Azul ran and swam to where he last saw Yuu. "Prefect? Are you alright?" Azul sharply looked around the water. It was quite deep for the prefect, considering their height difference and the level of the water on him. "Prefect? Hello?" More silence, except he felt something touch his calf. Oh, of course... Knowing them as much as he knew Floyd, he counted mentally on his head: 3... 2... 1... And... "RAHH!!" A wild Yuu jumped from the water and hugged their arms behind Azul's neck "Hahahaha! you looked so worried, it was hilarious!" "Oh, a wild attack from a predator on a poor mermen, who was simply trying to help with his incredible and sincere sense of benevolence... How cruel this world really is..." Azul faked a tear, mostly to hide the intense blush he felt on his cheeks from the closeness he and Yuu had at the moment. "But I do need to pinpoint that Floyd has done things similar to this all since we were mere young teens, so it was not that impressive." "Then why did you come?" "I! I uhm... This is not the matter of the talk right now, is it Prefect?" "It could be..." "I... I uh... I-I..." Come on Azul... this is the perfect time to confess. You could just say it, what is the worst that could happen? but.. "Oh! You wanted to show me your ability with sand castles during our walk here, why don't you show them now?" Azul tried his best to put on his not-so-sweet and innocent smile and push Yuu to the seashore. It is not the time yet... He needs just a bit more time... Maybe then he can say all he really wants to

Hope you enjoy this! It was really fun and I did change from how I did the last one, but I enjoyed this version better tbh! Azul being a coward my beloved

#twisted wonderland #twst #disney twst #thanks for the request! #twst fanfic #azul ashengrotto x reader #twst azul x reader #azul ashengrotto #twst azul #twst azul x yuu #azul ashengrotto x yuu #Yuu!reader #mc reader #tena writing #consumeroflemoans

[73chn1c0l0rr3v3l]

I think it's interesting that people tend to approach the idea of family as a value neutral thing, versus romance.

Saying "I see these characters in a romantic relationship" can be considered controversial because some people are uncomfortable with certain types of relationships in fiction, & that's fair enough - we all have different levels of comfort with things.

What I find interesting is that people don't seem to have that same sort of thought about... familial-ing characters. I see it a lot in Doctor Who fandom - a lot of stuff about the Doctor being like someone's dad, stuff like that.

And people don't consider that it might make people uncomfortable the same way romantic relationships are.

I don't know. Maybe I'm an outlier. The idea of getting to go to space to... get a new dad is just uncomfortable to me. I've got a dad. He's dead, he's still my dad. I don't want another one. I don't want to bring all the baggage that comes with family dumped on other relationships - I want them to be their own thing.

The differences in what's considered to be okay to uncomfortable with & what's considered a thing that everyone OBVIOUSLY likes.

This is not a judgment of people who do like all the familial tropes! May you enjoy them in good health! Just possibly remember thst everyone likes different things.

#i've been chewing on this for months at this point

[thatsexcpisces]

Astrology observations Pt. 7

I noticed that men with prominent cancer and Gemini placements or cancer/Gemini sun, Gemini-cancer cusp men are usually always gamers and are really into anime/marvel and always play different video games are interested in that type of nerdy stuff

Many talented or successful athletes have their moon in aries (ex. Lebron James, Tom Brady)

Moon in 6th house people stress over the slightest problems in their health or even minor injuries. People in my family have this placement and if they so much as break their pinky toe and have to wear a boot they complain about it for centuries

Cancer + aries placements in the big 6 = mentally unstable

Why are so many Aquarius men always attracted to pisces women💀 I swear they could be completely different people but there’s just something that draws the 2 of them to each other and it’s usually the aqua male chasing after the pisces. Maybe it’s their caring and sensitive nature they find interesting

Saturn in cancer individuals always have karma on their side when they least expect it. They may feel challenged and unlucky in life but they will always get the upper hand at the most unexpected moment

Men with their sun squaring/opposite their ascendant or men with mars in pisces/cancer tend to act overly cocky and are the type to shit on women when they feel rejected due to their big ego mostly bc of the fact that the masculine planets are influenced by more feminine energy and placements so they’re insecure and uncomfortable since they have defects in their masculinity ( for example, Andrew Tate has his mars in Pisces)

also men with prominent Pisces or libra placements in the big 6 also tend to have a sensitive ego and can’t handle rejection (esp moon)

for example:

*libra stellium or moon male asks you out*

*you reject them in the nicest way possible*

them: “okay fuck you ur ugly asf bitch”

Like? 😭😭

People with many 8th house placements in their chart are usually just interested in hookups and only save their commitment when they truly think they’ve found the right person

Sagittarius, Scorpios, and Capricorn’s always attract each other. I always see sag people being close friends with either other sag or Scorpio or Capricorn people

Pisces are more secretive and private than Scorpios imo it’s they live a secret life sometimes

Chiron/Saturn in 2nd house people may have grown up jealous of or resenting families or people who seemed to have it all or the “perfect life” in terms of money/wealth and they may have grown up in poverty/poor conditions which caused them to feel embarrassed of their background and financial situation

Why are cancer placements esp risings so passive aggressive? Like you can’t expect me to understand your inner thoughts if you don’t EXPRESS YOURSELF💀

Virgo moons always have some sort of IBS or stomach issues atleast one point in their life

Gemini/Sag suns and risings can’t sit still. like they always have to get up to move around after a few minutes or if they’re forced to stay put they fidget, bounce their leg, etc

Leo Venus secretly love when their partner is a little clingy cause they want that attention every now and then (unless influenced by more detached placements in the chart)

Scorpio Venus flirting style = staring at you every few seconds but not approaching

Ik so many Pisces moons who have alcohol addictions or did drugs/smoke a lot. Makes sense tho since the 12th house is also about addictions

Everyone says libra moons are the ones who are more likely to be fruity but imo it’s taurus and cancer moons 👀

Leo moons are the most loyal friends you will ever have. Speaking as Leo moon myself lol but tbh we really are the hype man of our friend group

Having Lilith in your 8th house could mean that you’ve also wanted to express your sexual desires and energy but felt restricted in some way. You’ve always been interested in discussing taboos others might’ve been uncomfortable with but maybe the environment you were in didn’t allow you to experiment with them.

Mutable mercuries tend to laugh in the wrong situations or at awkward/serious times. These people never take anything seriously and they love to make a joke out of everything. They could also have a dirty mind and and space out when anyone is talking to them (Virgo mercuries less than the others tho)

Sagittarius mercuries are so BLUNT it hurts. They won’t even think before saying what they want to say and confront you even if your feelings are gonna get hurt. These people have an attachment to telling the truth

Eating disorders are common in Taurus mars people

If you have Lilith or Medusa harshly aspecting your ascendant, it could mean that people (especially women) hated you for no reason. You enhance a lot of sexual appeal and raw beauty and that would make others jealous and envious of you. People probably also tried to include you in drama you had nothing to do with and gossip/make rumors bc so many people are obsessed with you and your life.

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[loveemagicpeace]

☔️Astrology notes🐚

🌸I like how Capricorns rising care about others and never do reckless things. They will always provide security. They will never make you feel uncomfortable or harassed you in any way.

🫦The specialty of complex signs (taurus,scorpio,capricorn,pisces,sagittarius) is that they don’t show their side to everyone and share their dreams, goals, things they love, secrets with everyone, but only with those who are close to them.

♑️Capricorn will always do everything according to the rules. What I noticed is that someone who has Capricorn in their personal placements and will be sick, will always follow the doctor's instructions and take everything seriously. While someone who has, Sagittarius will take everything less seriously and will be much more optimistic (maybe even won't go to the doctor). Or he will spontaneously take some medicine just to feel better.

🪐Someone with saturn in 1st house will be very critical of himself and therefore will rarely ever talk about the things that happen to him or personal stuff/issues.For example: addiction of something or something that would not be changeable by society. Because you will feel that people will judge you.

☔️People who have a lot of taurus or dominant can often be jealous if people have more money than them or a better car. Taurus don't show it like that, but many times they look at the material side of people. They will be secretly jealous of the wealth of others.

🦋I think that scorpions are not evil, even if it sometimes looks that way. A person who has a scorpion makes many sacrifices for other people and helps them and wants to be there for them. When a Scorpio takes revenge, just wants you to feel the same pain he does. Here it is more about the emotional side than the physical. Because Scorpio revenges are always related to feelings.

🧩This does not mean for all gemini. But Gemini could be evil. Sometimes you can see pure evil in them because it looks like they have some darkness in them. Many geminis take revenge for no reason or do evil things for no reason. Geminis have many times more personality than is generally known, which means that their thoughts can constantly change. And in one moment they will do something without thinking. So when they become evil they know no bounds.

🐚 People who don't cancer placements or 5th house placements many times they don't want to have children or their focus is not focused in that direction.

🧸Pisces can spend their whole lives thinking about people who are no longer in their lives. Because they give a lot of focus to the past. Their subconscious constantly reminds them of past events and things. Therefore, they can also do some things unconsciously.

🩸Venus in Virgo pays a lot of attention to health and makes sure that others are healthy. You will always help others and give them advice on how to heal faster or stay healthy. The downside of this sign is that they can often be paranoid when things happen over which they have no control and especially when something is related to illness.

🔥 Mars represents your persistence and how persistent you are with things, people. For ex.: Mars in scoprio when you set your mind to something, you do it, and many times it has to do with your emotional nature. Mars in sagittarius when you decide to go somewhere, you will go and when you decide to believe in something, no one can stop you.

🌞I noticed that people who have the sun in the 8th house like to deal with extremely dark things, crimes, investigations, murders. They enjoy such things.

🧚🏼‍♀️Saturn in 3rd house takes people's words and what they say seriously. And they will always remember if you say something inappropriate or rude to them. Their words can also have a strong impact on people. They always say something that is powerful and deeply meaningful. They will often show the harsh reality.

🌙 People with the moon in the first house are very direct people and always show how they feel. They cannot hide their emotions but always show them outwardly. Many times they also have anger problems. If anyone gets angry and seems a little out of control, it's them.

-Rebekah🦋🧚🏼‍♀️☁️

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[painted-bees]

Good question(s) and I'm nervous to answer cuz it’s a lot it but lemme try my best to finally hash this out into words.

Mental health stuff regarding personality disorders under the cut.

So, Raf's diagnosis is paranoid personality disorder, which is characterized by severe mistrust towards others driven by paranoid thinking. In Raf's case, he genuinely mistrusts the notion that anyone actually loves him or cares about him as a human being, and that people go only through the motions of pretending they do in order to exploit him; fear of being abused is implicit.

He spends a looot a lot of time and emotional energy trying to determine what specific people want from him--initially so that he could interact with them in the 'safest' way possible. Sometimes that meant telling them flat-out that he will not do/provide the thing he suspects is the other person's goal (with the intention of making them leave him alone), or (if it's someone who's company he likes) he'd deliberately attempt to give the impression that there's a chance they'll get what they want out of him--for as long as he is able to until the 'inevitable' falling out. His inherent mistrust and desire to avoid getting himself hurt meant that while he had a lot of nice acquaintances, he had basically no actual friends.

Raf generally, to anyone acquainted with him, just comes off as a very aloof, quiet, and private person with a busy personal life that everyone else is simply on the outside of. He goes out of his way to preform kindness to anyone he interacts with, regardless of the situation, because relentless amiability was always conditioned into him as a core trait of his curated persona growing up, and--yanno--it's worked very well for him. But also because--he doesn't fall onto the default belief that all people are bad and unworthy of kindness. "No one actually loves me" hadn't become synonymous with "everyone is a bad person". It just meant that "everyone will eventually be bad to me if given enough time".

This was his unchallenged reality from late teenagehood until some several months(maybe even a year or so?) after he had graduated from university and moved in with his uncle. His uncle recognized that Raf was very skittish, anxious, distrustful and prone to 'jumping to the worst possible conclusion' about certain things--which would often lend to some very tense interactions. His uncle, however, chalked this up to Raf having grown up under the thumb of an extremely manipulative, emotionally neglectful, exploitative mother. The situations where Uncle Bill would have to calmly and patiently prove to Raf that he wasn't gaslighting him over his wildly inaccurate assumptions/interpretations had become a more and more common as their relationship otherwise grew more and more warmly familial.

Things came to heads after the realization dawned on Raf that his uncle intended on using him as the ticket to win his mother's endearment. If Bill could successfully deliver Raf back into his mother's grip, that would easily be currency enough to convince her to reinstate Bill as a core member of Ephrem Records--thereby ending his uncomfortable estrangement with the family. And Raf would be back to living his life as his mother's preforming puppet; no autonomy, no control over his own life, no rest, an absolute nightmare.

Raf had grown too comfortable and complacent--his uncle had given him literally everything, from a place to stay, to a job that treated him well, to all the space, peace, and quiet he wanted, and with absolutely no obligation. Raf didn't have to work, he didn't have to pay rent, he didn't have to do anything he didn't want to do--uncle Bill had been willing to accommodate it all. Uncle Bill had once 'admitted' to Raf that 'guilt' was a factor motivating his charitable kindness. It hadn't quite sat right with Raf at the time--and now he knew why.

And, when it was made plainly obvious to Bill that Raf wasn't sticking around just to be hand delivered back to Monaco, Uncle Bill continued the charade, offering to provide Raf the car and cash he'd need to move as far away as he wanted to be. And--it wasn't until the morning after his first full day of driving across boarder into the states, on his intended route to Mexico, that Raf got into the car, sat there...and remembered that his grandmother, the largest financial owner of Ephrem Records, had been trying to entice his Uncle back to Monaco, back into the family--non stop--for years. Bill could go back literally any fucking time he wanted to, with or without Raf. And, Bill hated his mother--or so he was consistent in suggesting as much. Why would he want to endear himself to her in a manner that played to the traits he disliked about her?

Raf called up his uncle, tried to make head and tails of things over a long conversation over the phone, and--upon...not quite having enough shamelessness to straight up ask if going back to his place in Vancouver was ok, his uncle offered Raf the option to return--on the sole condition that he'll accept psychiatric help. With hesitation, Raf agreed to it.

Raf would consider bolting again a handful more times over the next few years, and each time, the 'situation' would pass with no horrible consequence for stubbornly electing to 'wait and see'/, or 'resigning himself', instead of repeating his mistake from the first time. It left Raf feeling more and more convinced that he cannot trust his own perception. Between this and therapy, Raf became pretty adept at not saying/doing anything that would be acting upon his suspicions/fears until he's had time to dissect the situation and get a second opinion from a designated person of trust--specifically, his uncle.

Basically, for better or worse, Raf has decided not to trust his own reality when it comes to his own (specifically negative) understanding/'interpretations' of his relationships and interactions with others, and has instead elected to replace it with whatever his uncle's is (a position of trust that Magritte eventually inherits). Raf figures his life is basically in his uncle's hands anyways--considering he's convinced himself not to leave Vancouver (he -did- move out into his own apartment, however) and has repeatedly resigned himself to being "cashed in” for whatever personal gain his uncle might be gunning towards with him.

AND SO, to finally answer your question ahaha: when Raf outwardly vouches against someone's character with as much straightforwardly committed plainness as "If you hire that guy, I will quit", that guy has committed a transgression that is awful beyond any reasonable doubt.

This is also why, as Raf and Magritte became more and more friendly over the course of their weekly jam sessions, Raf suddenly going chilly and quiet on her was a recurring problem she began encountering with more frequency.

At the core of his instincts Raf will always, beyond conscious thought, believe that people can only see him as an exploitable resource and will, without fail, harm him accordingly. But--there's now a layer of increasingly thick vellum that's been laid overtop of that core--a contradicting truth that's been asserted to him, that he is being asked to put more stock into and to internalize. He slips up, there are many many times where he doesn’t catch himself on time, or is feeling too strongly to employ meaningful countermeasures. When a situation aligns in a manner that allows his paranoid thoughts to really sinks its teeth into him, he can still have catastrophically ugly, fear-driven moments...but he's been working really, really hard to manage it. He wants that lightly obfuscating vellum to become so thick that it's opaque. He wants to believe that what Uncle Bill and, eventually Magritte, say is real is real. He can't trust them, but he will anyways. He has to believe that love is an action--a deliberate choice, and if love’s an action then so, too, is trust. Because regardless if they can really love him, he has decided that he really loves them.

And the reality can reward or punish him for it as it sees fit to do so. An endless frightened loneliness is worse than dying.

#long post #sorry if this makes no sense I tried my very best haha #Hi-Note #rafael